#kinda posting old art at this point B')
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the phone call
pairing - Megumi x fem!reader
genre - smut
summary - you call Megumi one night in hopes of changing your relationship from being best friends to lovers and it ends very unexpectedly.
cw!: nsfw (sexual themes), mutual masturbation, pet names (sweetheart, baby), bffs to lovers, reader has female genitalia, swearing, timeskip to all characters 18+, one (1) mention of voyeurism + hair pulling + tummy bulge
note - back (sorta?) from my hiatus but I won't post content as frequently. sorry to all you beautiful people who submitted asks 😭😭 I'll make sure to do those fics asap b/c y'all are honestly lovely and overall really respectful and I appreciate it! thank you sm for being patient w/ little old me <33
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and as always, thank you for reading :))
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Quiet sighs escaped Megumi's lips in tandem with the soft breeze outside, whistling against the glass windowpanes. Moonlight drifted across his fair cheek like a silvery veil, making his pale skin glow slightly, and his long eyelashes, a trait that wasn't his favorite but one that almost every girl constantly pointed out with jealousy, fluttered when they met the edge of the light. And then, in the peaceful summer night-
Bzzt. Bzzt.
The raven-haired man sat up in his bed with sudden urgency, hand moving quickly to his phone on the nightstand and picking up.
"Hey, 'Mimi," your sleepy, half-awake voice came from the speaker. "Sorry to bother you but it's kinda important."
Upon hearing your voice, he relaxes - he lays back down and stares at the blank, white ceiling. "Yeah?"
"Uhm, I just wanted to talk to you about something..."
God, your sleep-laced voice was so gentle, sweet, alluring, even. He couldn't help but sneak a hand towards his abdomen to lay it on his stomach.
"Hey, 'Mimi, you there?" You ask all of a sudden.
"Oh, uh, yeah, I'm listening, don't worry."
You must be at your desk working, then, he thought, since you're up this late. Wait, no -- he heard the shuffling of bedsheets or something similar a moment ago. That was you, right? Were you also in bed? Did you also have the ghost of a smile dancing on your lips? Was your hand also laid down on your abdomen? Was it slowly creeping further and further down, until-
He shakes his head, rousing himself from his thoughts.
God, Megumi, what the hell are you thinking? They're your best friend, nobody thinks about their best friend getting off!
...Well, something about that scene was... arousing, almost, to him. The mere thought of you, laying on silk bedsheets and rubbing your clit to his voice, sent a shiver up his spine and he snaked his hand under his boxers. Well, guess he was doing this.
"So, um..." you continued, sighing, "I was thinking. I know that it's probably too late into the night to even be discussing this, but..."
"Yeah?"
He lets out a small grunt afterwards as his fingers come into contact with the sensitive skin of the tip of his semi-erect length.
"...are you okay, 'Mimi? Are you working out or something?"
"Ah, no, I'm just..."
Just, you know, casually touching myself to the sound of your voice. Nothing wrong with that at all. There's definitely nothing wrong with jacking off to your best friend's voice.
"Just, um. Moving my, uh..." His eyes glance around the room and lock onto the bedside table. "My table."
There's a small lilt to your voice as you laugh softly and clear your throat before speaking, and Megumi swears that he just got lightheaded from the rush of blood to his nether region.
"Okay... I was just thinking about, well... this. Our friendship."
He tries not to sound too strained and breathy when he replies, starting to slowly move his fist up and down his leaking cock. "What about it?"
"Well, I think that, um.. you're a really nice person. And I really like you. And recently, I was thinking about what it would be like if we, um..."
You pause, biting your lip. Should you really finish your sentence? What if he takes it the wrong way?
"You can say it. I won't judge, y/n."
"Thank you..." you laugh briefly and breathlessly, fidgeting with the skin on your torso. His words were innocent, but it was the tone in which he was speaking that made your thighs twitch slightly and your mouth dry up. Christ, Megumi always made you feel things that you knew you shouldn't be feeling towards a friend who probably only liked you as one. "I, well... I was thinking that it would be nice if we hung out at some point. Maybe, like... go out on a date, or something... I understand if you don't like me in that way, or if you're too sleepy to decide yet, but I just wanted to put that out there..."
His eyes widen a bit as he hears the word "date", and he subconsciously tightens his grip around himself, Adam's apple bobbing up and down as he swallows. So you were interested in him, too.
"I'd... I'd love to."
He forces down a quiet groan as he hears the pitch of your voice rise slightly in excitement. Unbeknownst to him, your hand slides down your lower abdomen, gliding across your upper thigh.
"R-really? You're not kidding or anything, right? I mean, like... please don't worry about making me feel good about myself or anything, just..."
You hear him laugh softly on the other end, which makes that spot between your legs throb even more intensely.
"Of course," Megumi replies, trying to sound as put-together as he can. "I won't lie to you about stuff like that."
Smiling, you sigh in relief and your hand comes into contact with your inner thigh. After a brief pause, he speaks up again, his voice a little deeper.
"So.. anything fun happen recently in your life? Any new books you've read, or interesting gossip you've heard?"
Your head tilts to the side as a scenario pops into your head at his words. Him, laying next to you, whispering into your ear as his fingers caress your--
"Nope..." you laugh, a little shakily due to the intrusive thought. "But there was this one thi--"
He makes a quiet noise of pleasure and you choke, your fingers finally touching your slick cunny and rubbing it gently.
"...M-Mimi, did you... are you...?"
"Christ, I'm sorry, I-- fuck. I'm sorry, y/n, I didn't-- God, I..." he sighs, regret clear in his tone as he apologizes. "You probably think I'm some creep or something now. Feel free to cancel the date, I don't deserve it anyway after all this."
You swallow and you feel your face redden in embarrassment before answering, whispering.
"Actually, I... I, um, I'm not mad. I-I'm doing the same."
"What?"
His reply is instantaneous, his voice a mix of nervousness, shock, surprise, with the undeniable tinge of arousal. You were going to be the death of him someday.
"I-I'm doing the same. I know it's weird, I..." you trail off, sighing. "I'm sorry too."
"Can we..."
Megumi's trembling all over now, his cock unfathomably hard and standing up at attention in his fist, which begins to pump up and down a little more rapidly. You can hear it very faintly from your phone and you practically gush at the sound.
"...can we, um... keep doing this? And talking? I just... I think that since you're interested in me and I in you, we can satisfy our urges, I guess..."
"Please," you shiver, voice getting softer and more desperate as he talks.
"Fu-uck..." he groans out, biting his lip and looking down at himself. He decides to finally remove his boxers and strokes himself under the blanket, leaning into his phone's microphone as he pants softly.
You, in your own bed, whimper at the expletive -- you knew his voice was attractive, but this? Him swearing, and in that rough yet pleading tone, too, made you unimaginably wet.
"Can you... can you describe it? Please?" you choke out, toes curling as your fingers press against your clit slightly.
You hear him groan at your words again before he replies.
"I-It's standing up real tall 'n warm, sweetheart... it's fucking throbbing, all for you... God, I just wanna bend you over and... shit... just shove my cock into your tight pussy..."
You moan quietly as you imagine the absolute filth of the scenario, how deep his thick cock'll reach inside you... he'll probably be thrusting into you so hard that people on the street will hear the rhythmic slaps of skin on skin from the window of your bedroom all the way up on the fifth floor. And, oh, God, what if he grabs your hair and pulls on it, twisting your back and pulling his face closer to yours to meet you in an intense kiss, teeth clacking and tongues intertwining in this passionate dance for control?
"You're gonna feel so good around me, baby... maybe clench as I play with your clit and press my hand to your stomach to feel that little dent of my cock... you're gonna feel so fucking warm and wet around me..." Megumi groans loudly as his hand does a particularly satisfying stroke around his length, smearing slightly sticky precum in his fist. "Christ, I can already imagine it... I'm so fucking close..."
"Me too," you cry out, rubbing tight circles around the sensitive skin and thighs quivering from the electrifying pleasure. "I'll feel so good, 'Mimi, so full..."
His fist travels up to his tip, continuing the up-and-down motion as he moans shakily. "y/n-- I-I'm gonna-- fuck, think I'm gonna come--"
You whimper in reply, toes curling and forearm flexing. At long last, that wave of heat crashes down on you both, him groaning shamelessly as thick cum spurts from the red tip and onto his fist, and you gasping for air, moaning as you reach your respective peaks. Your body trembles as you're thrown around mercilessly by your orgasm and he can tell very clearly by your voice -- it's high-pitched, desperate, and borderline wanton.
As you both calm down from your highs, the movements of your hands and arms gradually slowing down, you giggle breathlessly.
"This was... ah, certainly something..."
You hear his voice, deep and comforting as he chuckles, through your phone speaker.
"Indeed it was."
"...But we're still going on that date, right?"
Megumi laughs. "Obviously."
#jjk#jjk x reader#jjk smut#megumi fushiguro#jjk megumi#megumi x reader#megumi smut#megumi x y/n#megumi x you#megumi fushigiro#fushiguro x reader#jjk fushiguro#smut#holy shit I literally did not watch s2 because I'm so busy but god damn I'm still simping#this was a pretty short one but idrc sorry ;-;
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post-mecha sally au loredump ! long post warning :P
me being nerd about my au !! finally posting this lmao
SO it obviously takes place in pre-genesis wave continuity. obv the comics were kinda falling apart towards the end of the mecha sally arc (lawsuit hell etc etc) so i'm not the biggggest on how they were wrapping up that arc. this is more or less a big ol rewrite.
i think i would want the mecha sally arc to end with a big ol' super sonic battle... sal is an important character and i think the mecha arc deserves to go out with a big bang! (<- says the biased sally fan) so, i imagine eggman is pushing mecha sally to her absolute breaking point. he's got her supercharged on rings, but in a state that she just physically cannot keep up. this would give us some really cool visuals to work with; her robotic body just literally fraying and falling apart as she and sonic are fighting B). as much as he wants to, sonic can't afford to pull his punches. so the audience gets a really satisfying, no holding back fight. in his regular state, sal's really giving him a run for his money. it's looking like she's got him, despite being on the brink of just falling apart herself... but at the last second, he goes super! (someone airdrops him the chaos emeralds or something. work with me here) he's able to use his powers to subdue mecha sally/save the day etc.
after being returned to her organic form, sal takes everything really hard (yay drama!). she knows, logically, that she wasn't in control of her actions; she doesn't blame herself, per say, for her actions which she was roboticized. but being forced to watch herself hurt her friends against her will was still really traumatic nonetheless. additionally, she has to get used to living with her physical changes after being "upgraded" too (pardon the old ass art). it took her a bit of time to get used to the feeling of channelling ring energy, and also a bit of time to get the hang of summoning her ring blades at all.
she really struggles to look her friends in the eye afterwards. after things have returned to the status quo, she runs off for a bit herself and ends up staying with fiona, who, in this au, has broken off from scourge and the destrutix and minds her own business as an anti-hero/chaotic neutral character. the two have a rocky past, but have a really particular/peculiar bond. sal knows that she can turn to fiona without ever worrying about being judged for her actions.
after taking some time to recuperate and manage her emotional state, sal returns to mobotropolis to finally make amends with/reconnect with her old friends. she resolves to master her ring blades and to improve her fighting skills. her fighting style is super intense, very all-or-nothing. she gives it her all until she literally can't fight anymore. this kind of lends itself to her ring energy/power blades. she needs a constant supply of pure (ring) energy to keep them summoned, which she must have preemptively on hand, so any fights she gets into need to be resolved quickly.
sonic's the one who takes charge of her training. he's definitely one of the most powerful freedom fighters, but he's also the one she trusts the most. he's more than happy to help her (and just to have her back, frankly), but sometimes sparring with her can be a lot. especially when it reminds him so much of fighting her in her mechanized state.
sally resolves to herself that she'll never be captured and used as a pawn ever again. never again.
#long post#papier.txt#post-mecha sally#ok thanks for listening i am going to run away and be shy again#post mecha sally au
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Hey so there was this theory with the pic of Emilie and Gabriel looking at lil Adrien and I just wanted to ask you if you could explain it a bit more clearly cuz this theory sounds absolutely insanely fantastic and id like to understand it properly,thanks sm
Hi! Sorry for the very late response. I’m still not caught up on the show, so I’m probably missing many details, and for that reason I’d like to open this post up to other people to discuss because I think the things I noticed in prior seasons have become more relevant with the s5 finale.
the Amelie vs Emilie “theory”
For the new people, about a year ago I made two posts in response to the s4 episodes Wishmaker and Gabriel Agreste pointing out things that caught my eye regarding the twins.
All in all I don’t have much of a solid conclusion for the “theory” which is why it’s so confusing. It’s mostly a compilation of details I thought were strange and potentially foreshadowing a future plot twist. I’ll list some below.
In Wishmaker, Adrien’s baby memory depicts his mother with blue eyes and his father with green eyes. Astruc claims this was an error, which might be true.
Many depictions of Emilie have her in black and white. For example, the movie she starred in was B&W, and Felix and Kagami’s award winning indie film was all B&W, plus their eye colors didn’t change anyway under the masks
When Gabriel made the wish, Emilie didn’t open her eyes, she stayed dead
In the first post I pointed out that Emilie and Amelie are wearing different colored blazers, although I believe Astruc has since also said that’s insignificant. Once again dk if that’s true or not. In Andre’s dream box, he has headshots of supposedly young Tomoe and either Emilie or Amelie, but she’s wearing Amelie’s blazer.
Of course, since I’ve made those posts, we’ve seen actual scenes of Gabriel and his wife where she clearly has green eyes
I want to put emphasis on this because I’ve never seen anyone except me mention it: in the episode Gabriel Agreste, Gabriel’s tablet falls and breaks due to Marino’s antics. Amelie and Felix are the only guests to arrive AFTER this and NOT get their finger prints scanned.
Most recently, the writers commented on the finale. They said that Emilie has not come back to life, but intentionally avoided specifying who was at the pool party in the big sunhat. This would lead us to just say it’s Amelie then, but the vagueness makes me wonder.
The writers also suggested they left the contents of Gabriel’s wish vague on purpose to pull some twist. They said you’d think it just healed Nathalie’s illness, but that’s not all, and there’s a trick to it.
Minor note, but the whole reason people were confused about the swimsuit woman’s identity is because the leaked texture reference page for her character model was labeled Emilie. Either they changed the story, had a spelling mixup, or [insert conspiracy]
Adding on, after the first post I made, someone sent me old concept art of Adrien’s mom simply labeled “Adrien’s mother”. Either they didn’t come up with her name yet back then, or [insert conspiracy]
So at the end of the day, I have some level of confidence that they’re planning something with these GDV twins, but every explanation I can come up with for it sounds kinda crazy. Perhaps the most straightforward thing I can suggest is that the two swapped places early on in the overall plot? Idk. I’d love to hear other people’s ideas no matter how crazy. Maybe Gabriel wished for Emilie’s ghost to possess Amelie, awaken in the dead of night, and carry on his legacy of throwing plastic trash directly into the river. Who even is Emilie? Who’s Amelie? I’m excited to see where it all goes.
#miraculous ladybug#ml#ml s5 spoilers#ml s5 finale#ml theory#ml thoughts#emilie agreste#amelie graham de vanily#emilie graham de vanily#miraculous theory#side note that writer commentary made me excited for the Ivan lore. if Ivan had zero fans that means I am dead#what if there’s a woman named Umelie who’s just as confused as I am and one named Oomelie who runs the shadow government
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To do list time? To do list time.
Queue stream VODs for patreon!!
Queue art and WIP updates for patreon!! I didn't post anything in December, and I know I was stressed and grieving and all but that's bad form >_<
Send thank-you note for another surprise SKULMUST gift!! ;;~;; <3
Order backup drives with surprise SKULMUST gift money <3
A new air filter cartridge as well!!!
Find old to do lists and see if there's anything fun I can check off :3
Research how to make more custom redeemables for twitch points :3c I want custom images and stuff to pop up on screen...
FIND A GOOD GIF MAKING PROGRAM AAAAAAA twitches built-in gif maker has issues with transparency and makes my scrungly gifs even more scrungled with black pixels EVERYWHERE >_<
Remake those scrungly emotes less scrungly
Make more emotes in general!!!
CONTACT ISP ABOUT BETTER INTERNET FFS I'm gonna chat at them first, to build my confidence about calling. :V
Get better at pitching the concept of subscribing to my twitch... I have one sub so far hahaha <3 (ty Kamal, my new pigeon loving friend!)
Make that intro playlist, so I don't have to cold open all the time while I wait for people to filter into chat! :3
Assemble the calendar and make more merch!!!!
I had a fun sticker sheet idea last night: video game cats I love :3c Featuring the Katta and Liontaurs from QFG, Nall and Ruby from Lunar, Bob from Animal Crossing, M'aiq the Liar from TES aaaaand, hmmmm... oh! Alphador from Chrono Trigger, of course. >w<
Also I have some new on-hand stickers designs I need to photograph and list on my shop!!
I really ought to get a thermal label printer for shipping one of these days.... but sales have been too slow to justify it so far.....
Design a new logo, the Rocket Unicorn is kinda visually busy and stylistically outdated. And just reminds me of grad school when I look at it. :B
Add more hotkey expressions to my mad scientist pngtuber!! I've have them drawn for months!! I just need to export the pngs!!
Probably about time to give the pc an internal dusting! I want to install that second hard drive too!!! I'm running out of space!!!!
Everything needs dusting tbh.
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a fucking problem i've had recently is
a) i've been in college for the past few years and it's an art school so all my creative energy has been put entirely in school projects (and i am life a few months away from starting my last year where. i'll be working on my graduate film. which, wtf.) leaving me with little to no time or energy for personal stuff or stuff i draw for fun or that isn't for a specific poroject
b) all i want to draw recently is p*rn (and i really do not want to censor that but the tumblr algorithm has locked my blog down for content enough times at this point) or at least horny or something that at least has bare titties and the occasional bare pussy so either i have to just give up on it i guess or post a little preview piece of it here and link somewhere else and.... like twitter is in a dire state at this point, don't exactly have a following there, it has been well, well documented how the algorithm is actively like against you even if you're like some kind of da vinci level maestro. but it's basically my only option now for most the stuff i do want to post to even get stuff our there. and i did recently get a bluesky acc but you know it's a not very active website and also invite-only. so, not a lot of options.
and you know, my posting here has always been kinda sporadic and i have tried to make stuff more frequently and have a bigger output but out of all the time i spent drawing which frankly is a lot, very little of it ends up as like. a properly fully rendered piece that i can show and i would occasionally post stuff here from my sketchbook that i find at least a little bearable to look at but that also actually takes effort and is difficult to make it like. visually presentable.
a while back tumblr has informed me that this blog has turned 10 years old, which, whoof, huge crisis over the passage of time and also how many grand ambitions i had with this blog when i made it and how little of it i achieved in those 10 years and genera feelings about my own skills and growth and where i stand in life because of my very sporadic posting and my slow pace of work which has gone from like. once very two months to 2-3 times a year and now even when i feel inspired i don't know how much of what i make is even going to be here. recently i've been reevaluating if i even have what it takes or if i even should be an artist with the pace at which i work and how little of anything i complete not to mention how i feel about my own art skills in general, but you know given i've been stubborn about wanting to do this since childhood and i literally just cannot concieve with my brain of doing anything else in life. and on top of that i'm too much of a stubborn spiteful bitch not to keep pushing because i can't let the evil malicious gnome trying to take me down win, so this is something i'm figuring out over time.
anyway i did somehow manage to get 320ish followers in that time, give or take those that are either bots or inactive, and most of you probably followed me for stuff i'm either not super into right now or don't post anymore so you're probably not getting your follow's worth if you look at it practically, you might not even know or remember who i am or what you ever followed me for because of how long its been and how sporadic i am. but i guess i just want to say i know i don't have a lot to offer on this blog compared to a lot of other artists in terms of quality or quantity, which hopefully that will change one day in the future because i am trying to figure out how to do this all better, so thank you all who did follow and are still following and are sticking around despite all of [waves hands] all the things i described
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a comeback, perhaps?
Yes, really. I’m not joking and I have three points:
1. I’m one inconsistent bitch with a brainrot;
2. I need my delusions and escapism cuz man do four blood-sucking dudes sound more in-reality than whatever the fuck is going on in the actual real world around me rn;
3. I forgot what was the third point.
It’s all the more absurd given just in the summer of this year I was certain I wouldn’t come back to it any time soon. What can I say...life do be like that. A fun little story of its own, but I’ll leave it out of this post. For now, let me share with you what I’ve been planning, what’s staying and what’s changing and how I’ll be approaching this AU/blog this time around.
So, to start off...
The 🅱️ has to go:
While still set in Vampire the Masquerade (World of Darkness) universe, the renewed version of this crossover AU won’t have anything to do with Bloodlines video game. Don’t get me wrong, I love Bloodlines still very much, it’s the game with most of my replays and what got me into VtM in the first place. But also, it is restricting, trying to align everything with its small setting/scope and, let’s be honest, doesn’t make much of a sense. Eddsworld’s British, the hell are they all doing in America? XP
The tag is now eddsworld vtm au, without the letter b.
What else gets thrown out?
Plot: Pretty much all of it. I came up with the biggest plot points and am currently rewriting the entire script. At its core it’s still “four dudes tolerate each other’s shenanigans to survive and later learn they kinda don’t feel like chopping each other’s heads off (friendship goals)” but the rest...out the window it goes.
Setting: As I said earlier, it’s weird. So with the help of Fall of London V5 book and some other sources of info on London in VtM, I moved the cast back to where they belong.
Characters and character writing: This one might surprise you, but I really, REALLY don’t like the way I did them back then. I can’t revisit old comics/the demo without cringing so hard my face breaks XD Fishmalk Edd gives me most pain if I’m being honest...
While I’m keeping the basest, the basiesest core (Edd being chaotic bastard Malkavian, Tom being mean and cynical Nosf, Matt being old-fashioned but also a rebel at heart Torrie, and Tord being far less infected with rabies compared to other modern Brujah) I’m changing lots of their characterization, backstories and relationships with each other as well. So don’t expect something you expected from their older versions.
The same goes for every other character, and I’m getting rid of some that don’t serve much purpose anymore.
What’s in store?
New script is in the process. And while it is slowly processing, I will be updating most pages on this blog: specifically “About” and “Characters”, with new relevant information and art. I have archived everything these pages contained, and I’ll put the link to the Google Drive folder up in the “About” page for anyone who wishes to look at the old stuff. I won’t be deleting any of the older posts on the blog though.
Update schedule?
Can’t promise one. Life’s hectic now as hectic can possibly get. I will update once there is an update, but please try to be considerate and don’t ask me “when”. I will most likely go on hiatuses from time to time but I will try to warn in advance if it’s going to take long. Overall, this passion project is just that, a passion project. Not my job. Not something that gives me anything but mental satisfaction. Not even a tip jar. I’m working alone, with occasional help from friends who are kind enough to proof read and brainstorm with me (Nina, Jazz, Engi, Hawa, long live you beautiful human beings). So all I’m asking is some compassion and understanding from all of you u_u If you can do it for me I’m sure it’ll take me longer to lose interest this time XD
Ask box stays closed for now, I’ll reopen it once I’ll update all the pages.
That’s it for the moment! Stay tuned, if you’d like!
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I know this could get complicated based on industry/product/etc. but do you have any overarching advice on starting a business from ground zero with very few assets or money in general and no real following yet? I've read some of your business advice posts and like the idea of creating things at a reasonable price - both so people can buy them for a reasonable price and also to keep starting costs low - but I know a lot of people launch a business when they already have a following. How do you start when you're starting fresh/starting over from scratch?
You start within yourself and building within yourself the foundation of being strong, and flexible, as hell.
It is a wonderful, romantic idea of "I have this vision of x-y-z company and I'll see that through the end." There are a lot of fuzzy-to-factual-history biopics about people who do this.
You build a strength in yourself to keep going when everything is failing for years.
You retain notes, you resist the urge to say "this didn't work, I shall delete everything to date," you keep old mood boards and supplier contacts. I repeat: for years.
Your work is a high-yield savings account, the success compounds slowly over time. You are trading scarcity of money for abundance of time.
You learn to experiment A LOT. Not with money (per your note, there isn't money to experiment with) but with subjects.
Evil Supply Co. had monsters (typically Halloween), ghosts (mythology + Halloween + history), witches (Halloween + magic + mythology + history), and mermaids (mythology + monster lore). It dabbled in science fiction/outer space, it dabbled in 80s/90s/retro enjoyment of aesthetics. I found overlaps, I BUILT overlaps, in subject-matter.
Now is a good time to mention that Evil Supply Co. was, like, my tenth business idea.
So Netherworld Post is 10-B?
Before that I was working in web design + graphic design and experimented with furniture and about a dozen software ideas and I've produced plays and dabbled in day trading on the stock market and ten billion other things.
Musical instrument making, web hosting, stock photography, character design... etc.
The connecting device between these two tenets is the ability and willingness to pivot -- here again a learned, practiced, strengthened skill.
"I want to do ABC."
Okay I don't have the resources for ABC and/or the tech for ABC isn't cheap enough/available enough. I'll learn to do DEF.
Okay the tech isn't ready for DEF, but BCD is, so I can tinker with that for six months -- it's not the entire vision I started with, or wound up on, but I can handle some of the middle.
Okay, that's.... not working yet, but EF is, so I'll work on that for six months. Then AB. Oh, now ADEF is ready? Cool, I'll work on that.
Don't compete with your friends with bad will in your heart. Don't be friends with people who compete with you with bad will in theirs.
For many years, one of my best friends and partner-in-shenanigans and I would have semi-daily meetings at a bar down the street from an office space we shared. At least 5 times a day one of us would pop into the other's office and say "I have this idea--"
We were, on paper, competitors. If you were looking for graphic design services, there was as solid a chance you would bump into either of us.
(His business pivoted and now he is several hundred miles away focusing on family and his kid and I wish him the absolute best, there is no other shoe to drop in this story. And -- that's kinda the point entirely -- he was Weird Business Art Guy, now he is a dad doing a 9-5 in a small town, to all accounts very happy)
Do not try to force a community to build up if you don't have that kind of support system in your life right now -- at the moment, none of my friends are in business shenanigans -- either.
It's part of being flexible.
At some point, I'll again run into one or several weirdos making weird things and we'll say "let's chat about making weird things a lot" and we will.
Right now I am thoroughly enjoying quiet "this is me time" and doing whatever the hell I want with extremely limited plans with other people. Instead of bouncing ideas off of people and shaping them that way, I'm layering them slowly as I ramble through long strings of days mostly spent alone.
I'm flexible to the current time + I keep going.
I remember when I had my design firm, it was hugely en vogue to be a power romantic + business couple and run a two-person design + illustration studio. Maybe it still is, I don't know, I've been out of design gossip for ages.
Anyway. The "big thing" was to have one person be an illustrator, the other a graphic designer, and via work and a picture perfect marriage, you were getting constant awards and clients etc.
Beautiful idea, drove me wild for years with envy, never manifested for me personally, every time I recognized I desired it greatly + it wasn't going to happen for me, I moved on with my life and goals and interests and business.
Pivot.
Learn. To. Pivot.
When things go wrong, when things go right in an unexpected way, when you realize "I am lusting for X and it won't happen," when you realize "I am ignoring Y opportunity because of ego, because of ignorance, because it is objectively great but isn't what I thought I wanted, because it is objectively great but I am a snob in this area, etc."
I really, really, really wanted to be a fancy New York art director in advertising at {very specific, very short list of agencies} when I was starting out.
I wanted big awards, I wanted to climb the ranks, become a global creative director of {short list of above} being published in {list of design news sites and gossip rags} etc.
Prior to that, I wanted to be an animator. I was lining up an internship at Disney! Then they shut down the studio I was applying at (laugh). Prior to that I was going to be a psychologist! I repeat, above, I've started a billion things!
I did not expect to be a private academic in monsters and myths (re-)building a stationery start up and yet here I am.
Maybe this will last 50 years and maybe it'll last a week.
All business is secondary to the quality of life I lead. I would as strong as possible recommend this for you as well.
Maybe you have Genius Art Idea that is intensely cool and wonderful making Affordable Art Thing and in six months to six years you start pulling it together and you're like "this is great this is fantastic this is wonderful" --
-- and just before you make it big you find a job in accounting that is surprisingly enjoyable and/or is surprisingly tolerable but the paycheck allows you to say "rather than focus all my time and effort into making widgets, I can do it as a hobby, or not do it, and do ten million other things--"
Great! Pivot to that!
I think I got off track.
I want to circle back into "business and work isn't everything, it's not even the most important thing -- a good life is the important thing."
I want to circle back into "you see someone doing something and think 'I want to do that,'" which is great, go for trying, but don't worry if it doesn't work out to plan, or even if the plans themselves fade away into a different reality all together.
Learn things, plan things, keep going when the learning is boring and the plans fall apart, change what you want to learn and what you're planning and what you're building when something else comes along, keep notes of it all handy.
If you are by nature an organized person, keep notes organized.
If you are not, keep them in a shoe box or digital folder to rummage through later.
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Author Interview
Tagged by @eemamminy-art
Putting a read more because this baby is looong....
1. how many works do you have on AO3?
Currently 72! It would be more if I posted all of my Tumblr snippets separately lol
2. what's your total AO3 word count?
467,534 words.
A decent bit, I think. Though I started writing again in 2015, so maybe it's not much? It's not everything I've written on Tumblr, either.
3. what fandoms do you write for?
I used to write for FF11 & Inu Yasha, plus Inu Yasha & Yuyu Hakusho crossover fic. I never deleted my fanfic dot net account, but it is all super old now. Nobody go looking for it! I may one day rewrite some of those old fic, but confronting my teenage writing skills is a bit much for me right now lmao.
My Ao3 is all FFXIV at this point, but that is subject to change! I have a c0mmission from Divinity: Original Sin 2 I'm currently working on! (Ifan. He's such an interesting, handsome guy. I'm having fun writing him~ ❤️)
I am interested in writing for other fandoms! For instance, Nu Carnival that is currently one of my favorite games, and possibly BG3? But I only know of it, haven't played it, I'll have to do research to write for it.
I just need to work through my current queue first!
4. what are your top five fics by kudos?
I'm gonna go by actual chaptered fic, not just my collections of Tumblr snippets.
• Drowning in Blue:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/4679429/chapters/10680896
Kudo count: 460 ❤️
Haurchefant/Warrior of Light (reader insert).
Summary: The Warrior of Light is granted a wish from Hydaelyn after being gravely wounded in the fight with the Ascians.
I have a lot of love for this one, however I would like to go back & edit it to make it more friendly to nonbinary & they/them readers. I do enjoy the writing style I have in this one. I do remember writing chapter after chapter of this one, day after day. A lot of passion there.
• In plain sight:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/4333374/chapters/9826917
Kudo count: 385 ❤️
Yet another Haurchefant/Warrior of Light (reader insert).
Summary: The Warrior of Light has fled from Ul'dah to take refuge in Camp Dragonhead after being accused of treason. Though dark times have forced them there, it is in Camp Dragonhead that potentially disastrous shenanigans ensue. Much Fluff with attempts at humor. Haurchefant x WoL. Tataru and Alphinaud friendships.
This one! The fic where I created Ger! Another one I would like to edit to make more friendly to non-binary & they/them readers. I'd also like to update Ger's characterization, because she's an entirely different character now! But I really enjoyed writing this fic. It was a lot of fun. I really enjoyed exploring Haurchefant's character & building up the relationship between him and WoL. I had a sequel planned & everything. I'd still like to write that sequel eventually. I have a draft on my computer for it lol.
•Switching Roles:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/9899933
Kudo count: 266 ❤️
Summary: Estinien lies in wait for Aymeric. This is also porn. Can be stand alone, but more like a sequel to Sweet like birch syrup.
Estinien and Aymeric were my first foray into writing smut, not just fading to black or ending at the buildup & making people ask in my comments "that's it? where's the rest of it?"
Oh, how far we have come since then! I used to say I was strictly a fluff/romance writer with occasional angst. Now look at me. 95% pure, explicit smut!
•Peculiarity:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/36427720/chapters/90829135
Kudo count: 244 ❤️
Hermes/Warrior of Light (reader insert?) from Hermes POV.
I won't post the summary because it's kinda sorta Endwalker Spoilers! Sorry!
I will say that this fic is my current baby. I love Hermes sooo much. I relate to him a lot. It makes me very sad that so many people in fandom seem to hate him. My poor, misguided little meow meow.
Yet another character I ship with Ram, in theory, but as of yet not in written practice. Just vibes, just brainwyrms doing loops in the old noggin.
•The Cats Meow:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/4508475/chapters/10253364
Kudo count: 243 ❤️
Haurchefant/Miqo'te WoL (reader insert)
Summary: Haurchefant notices the cat-like qualities in the Miqo'te!WoL. Attempts at humor and fluff.
Ok, this one is just silly fluff. Much romance. Very cute. Meow. This was around the time I was still playing my miqo'te, before I left her standing by Haurchefant's desk before level 57.
6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
Eyes Ever Heavensward
https://archiveofourown.org/works/29054034
Kudo count: 33 ❤️
Haurchefant/Warrior of Light (reader insert)
Summary:
The one where Haurchefant is a member of the Heavensward, and WoL is storming The Vault. Angst. Feels. Unhappy Ending.
Ok, I probably have a few angsty ones but this one made me cry while I was writing it. I think it's just angstier because of what WoL is forced, with no other choice, to do in the fic.
:( ͡° ᴥ ͡°)
7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
I have so many that end on positive/happy endings. I can't really say what is the happiest. Maybe fix-it fics?
8. do you get hate on fics?
Not so much on fic. I have gotten some mean/malicious anons on Tumblr, but not since my fanfiction dot net days have I gotten "flames" or somebody sending me a link to my fic being posted on "gaff" (god awful fanfiction). That was really mean lmao.
I just end up deleting hateful comments, anons, etc. Who wants to waste time on that?
Attacking or harassing real people over fiction is utterly ridiculous and I will never condone that.
9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?
Hello, so much smut!
I can write super explicit stuff that is really raunchy, or more flowery/romantic types. Fun, silly, sweet. Darker themes. I'm pretty flexible when it comes to writing smut.
10. do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one you've written?
I have. Probably RP? The other crossovers I've done are nowhere near as crazy as things can get in RP.
11. have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I'm aware of??
It's harder to pinpoint with writing, I think. People can have similar ideas, plots, or just enjoy similar tropes.
Unless someone is copying your work word for word, lifting scenes, or using it for A/I... (A/I images & text are theft. We want A/I to help people, not to replace human creativity with regurgitated trash that has no human soul.)
12. have you ever had a fic translated?
I think I had someone ask at one point but it was some time ago. I don't even remember what fic it was.
13. have you ever co-written a fic before?
Does RP count?
Brainstorming, bouncing ideas off one another. Or even just doing prompts & requests... I think that counts as creating together, if not actually "co-writing".
14. what's your all-time favourite ship?
I have so many!!!
For FFXIV in particular, it's probably still tied between Haurchefant/WoL and Zenos/WoL at the top. Ships with Ysayle or Foulques!! Ships with NPCs that are job class or side characters.
I am really fond of Emet/WoL, too. Tbh, any Scion ship or Ascian ship.
I love them all...
15. what's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
Don't call me out like this 😔
I want to finish so many...
Ones that I feel I have to edit to add to them, maybe? I just don't have the free time to do so right now.
16. what are your writing strengths?
Hmm. Research and dedication to accurate characterization??
Dialogue, I think, because I enjoy it very much, but that could also be marked in weaknesses because I struggle with certain characters. (Smart characters. Characters like Urianger who have a particular way of speaking, etc, etc.)
Setting the scene. Word counts go crazy with that.
Descriptive writing and character introspection. I can dive deep into that.
17. what are your writing weaknesses?
Definitely perfectionism. I'm never satisfied. I want every fic I write to be a home cooked meal. Michelin star.
Also run on sentences and my love affair with commas, em dashes, and semicolons.
Keeping the tenses consistent.
World building.
Overworking. (Set word count? What's that? What if 3k fic became a 6k fic became a 9k fic. Oops.)
Having time/energy to write. That's a big one. 🥲
I'm a caretaker for my disabled sister, the designated chef of my household, and just constantly busy every day. I try to squeeze in writing where I can, but some days I'm just so tired and drained that I have basically nothing to spare for my creative pursuits. It's a definite struggle to work through that.
18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
I like to read it! It's especially fun if it's a fantasy language like vulcan or elvish.
Unfortunately, I only speak English, and even writing in my first language can be difficult. I don't know any other languages well enough to even attempt writing in them.
19. first fandom you wrote for?
Inu Yasha, DBZ, FF11. All when I was a teenager.
Then I didn't write again for years and years. Started up again with FFXIV.
20. favourite fic you've written?
I have so many I love, I can't pick one favorite... I'll just list a few of my favorites right now!
XIVSapphicWeek Snippets
https://archiveofourown.org/works/45529894/chapters/114564367
Ram x Ysayle & RamLynn
(Lynn belongs to my RP partner, @/lynnslight )
I had an AyaGer one planned but I didn't end up writing more before the week ended. I'm still gonna use the prompts & add to it, eventually ❤️
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•Peculiarity
(Yes, again. I'm posting it twice)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/36427720/chapters/90829135
Hermes x WoL
Summary is !Endwalker Spoilers!
This is my current baby, I have the next chapter stewing. The start of the smut always has to be good, you know? The flavor has to be just right~
•A (Primal is a) Wish Your Heart Makes
https://archiveofourown.org/works/29186616
Angst. Gerchefant? Primal Haurchefant. I have a WIP of the next chapter & it is angst and smut.
(You know what's funny? I've written/posted more Ger smut than Ram smut lmao! Sorry Ram. I love putting Ger in situations 😌❤️)
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Favorite series?
Amnesia Zenos, Villain Haurchefant, any Ascian fic (particularly fond of Attracting Ascians, I need to write more for that one.)
Amnesia Zenos
•Dancing In The Dark
Zenos x reader Insert WoL
https://archiveofourown.org/works/16868251/chapters/39610297
Summary: If Zenos had lost his memory, and WoL was the one to find him.
• Dancing In The Dark - With Two
Zenos x reader Insert WoL
Summary: One with Amnesia, the other without? Two Zenos? You can barely handle one.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/16868563/chapters/39611086
Villain!Haurchefant
•Villains and Heroes
Summary: “Shh, it’s alright,” the villain said. “You’re doing beautifully and I’m so proud of you. But that’s enough now. It was cruel of them to make you fight me - you could never have won. It’s not your fault.” Villain!Haurchefant
https://archiveofourown.org/works/16868086/chapters/39609883
•Attracting Ascians
Ascians x reader insert WoL
https://archiveofourown.org/works/29053515/chapters/71312748
Summary: The Warrior of Light attracts Ascians like moths to light. Or the one where WoL Kisses Ascians instead of Killing them. (ARR. Early? Maybe. IDK, who cares about Canon, this is Fanfiction.)
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Special mention to my WiP fics I haven't posted yet except for some snippets like that Ram x Zenos smut, the dark themed/dubcon Fandaniel fics that I'm excited about.
Also the Nu Carnival & Obey Me! fic I started that I want to eventually sit down and properly write...
(I know. Fic that isn't FFXIV? Gasp.)
And of course, the comms!!
I really try to write every comm I get like I'm cooking a homemade meal for someone.
I made it for you. Take a fucking bite bro, I love you man. (Gender neutral uses of 'bro' & 'man', ofc. It's like saying 'dude' to me lol)
https://youtu.be/tkUSCNr0aDE?si=uDbsApgeOLU_SvMx
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Anyway, thanks for tagging me ❤️
If any of my followers would like to do this, I'm tagging you! 💕
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What we're your trigun thoughts 👀
i'm still kind of in the zone of "vaguely dazed, ambushed sort of feelings and sad siblings emotions" thoughts about it, which are not terribly coherent or interesting to read by their nature of...being kind of formless and consisting of a lot of "ahhh." writing fic is easier sometimes
also laughing about the fact that I managed to adopt another traumatized villain with sibling issues who dies over the course of the narrative because it just fucking figures, at this point it's honestly kinda funny just for the sheer "you sure know how to pick em, lise" factor.
but anyway mostly I'm just in the zone where I'm kind of "all feelings about millions knives all the time" and that's proving a little distracting, I feel like I'm sort of in that place where I try to read about other things and I enjoy them but in the back of my heart there's still part of me that's like "ok but where knives tho"
also i must say that it is a motherfucking tragedy there's not more whump fic for that boy. do i have to do everything myself.
anyway, as I said, none of that is very interesting or coherent so I'm mostly sticking to (a) writing fic where wolfwood ends up with a semi-reincarnated two-year-old teenager nai post-canon, (b) reblogging pretty art, and (c) reading other peoples' interesting meta and crying about it. so that's where that is right now
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Holy fuck... Its Castlevania's anniversary!
Gods how did I not know??!
Well I guess while I'm here I might as well update you on a few things.
For one (obviously) I ain't dead! Atleast not yet. Lots of things have changed in my life since I last posted.
For one, I got a AA degree and am aiming for a bachelors in Art with a focus in 2d Animation. And yes, I want to work at Powerhouse Studios one day. Or IDW comics... either or is fine I think. So long as I get into the field.
As for why the Castlevania posts have gone dry. Its a combination of a few things.
A: At the time I didn't want to pirate the series. And Netflix was messing with my phone so I couldn't screenshot stuff directly from Netflix anymore so it kinda shot down the whole meme business.
B: By the time Netflix became too horrid for me to support Season 4 was like WAY too old for me to start posting stuff so at that point I just kinda didn't bother. I'd probably want to if there's support but this account has been dead for so long that I don't see it worth doing tbh.
C: I've been working on my art. As mentioned before I was busy with college and I'm trying to work on my portfolio. I have an Instagram if you're interested.
https://www.instagram.com/solslvr/ < -- Here's the link if you want to check me out.
Anyway enough about me. Happy Anniversary to Castlevania! And thank you guys for being around all those years ago. I might want to jump back onto the meme/theorizing train. Just let me get back into the groove of things.
#castlevania#blog update#been busy#sorry its been so long#happy anniversary castlevania#powerhouse animation#doitforthecringe#update#memes on the way maybe#theories definately#might want to change some things up#Just a thought
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(terraliens / species gen)
(also sorry for the long post, i have a lot of thoughts with this)
is it just me or are closed species specifically made to be inaccessible to newcomers? Terraliens is my first closed species, ive been in it for 2 weeks (when the species was only 2 weeks old) and while there have been a huge ton of adopt opportunities but theyre all:
a.) Raffles, which is a problem because in such a big server your chances are so close to 0 you might as well not play at all, preclaim raffles included
b.) Auctions, which easily spike to $200-$300+. if you dont wanna drop a band on the artist's new NFT youre out of luck, and if you ever say anything about it you get dogpiled because "artists deserve to get paid for their work." im not saying artists shouldnt get paid, but i dont think its justifiable to constantly have these insanely high price points when you advertise your closed species as newcomer friendly and say that if people dont want to spend any money, they dont have to, that MYOs are totally free (except theyre raffles and you have better luck of getting struck by lightning than actually getting one) its unfair and tbh kinda shitty to say "if you arent willing to pay artists for their work then you dont deserve art" when with a lot of people thats not the case, they want to participate but physically do not have the budget for a $500-$700 adopt
c.) OTAs, which are so unobtainable its not even funny. How can it be fair for newcomers when people are allowed to offer fursuit commissions under OTAs? not to mention that if someone is totally new to closed species they probably wont have any other cs characters to offer, which is what most people usually want. oh great, another closed species to join, try to actively participate in, and get ignored in all so you can have an inkling of a chance at getting a character you actually want
I think there should be some OTAs that have restrictions to what type of art is allowed, like maybe a fullbody w/ background only OTA or an icon only OTA so everyone can actually have a shot. though to be honest, i don't think OTAs will ever be fair in big servers. theres too far of skill gaps and people with actual businesses will always win (not throwing shade, just stating the truth)
ive seen people suggest a level system which i think could work a lot better, you could survey users on things like how new they are to cs, what they self evaluate their art skill to be, and how much money they wanna spend and then divide members up that way, give them roles based on their level, and have level-specific adopts and such so everyone could get a chance. though i can see this getting abused to give all the level 1s the shitty adopts nobody wants
my point is, lots of people in the terraliens server act like its this super FTO and newcomer-friendly place, but from what ive seen thats really not the case. granted, its the only closed species im in so it might be this cs heaven compared to others, but this is just my personal observations
genuinely want other people's input on this, its something that bothers me a lot
A lot of species are very inaccessible unfortunately. It’s why they become popular. Because if you have one, it becomes a status symbol.
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Casey (Ninjago) V2
(IK its closer to like version 15 at this point, but this is only the 2nd time ive posted ab his full info [ninjago ver] here so <3)
Fair warning for scars, mentions of mental illness and disorders, and the like <3
And oc x canon??? if ur fussy ab that??? idk
Casey first, bc he's my little man, my favourite scrunk.
Basic info includes:
Casey Abel Tinniel
17 years old (averagely, does change w/lore and how i draw him)
He/Him pronouns (feel free to use candy themed neos for him tho, kinda experimenting w/that)
Trans-Masc, FTM.
Half Oni, Half Human
Canonically he has ADHD and BPD. (Feel free to hc him as autistic aswell idm, no other hcs tho pls lmAO, feel free to ask if he does XYZ in my askbox, but do not hc.)
British/Japanese.
He is 6'3 (tall man, love him, towers over so many), loves candy (any, even that chalky valentines candy stuff), he's left handed, constantly carries chapstick, and kinda needs glasses but rarely wears them (bc hes an arse). He has a dog!!! Leonberger/Great Pyrenees X called Mochi!!!! She's big and fluffyyy!!
He is an EM (Elemental Master), but like his element b kinda stupid but i love messing around with it. (Hes a fandom oc he wasnt made for realism nor to be canon SMH) And a ninja ofc bc what cringe baby's first ninjago oc (he wasnt my first im lying) isnt a ninja!!! Pink ninja go!!!
His element. is. Technology. and I do have basic mechanics written down for it, which i will paste from my notes rn: (Please ignore mentions of "Roni" i will get into that in another post if yall like him enough)
Not me actually thinking and noting down stuff ab Casey's element.
his machines don't need power (batteries, a plug, etc) he can power them himself with his element, but that's draining so he would still add another source of power, and because he already rarely uses his element he can only power small devices.
he's able to cut off power or turn off security systems. (Like just by touching control panels & stuff)
if he knows how to build smth (mechanical) he can just build it instantly, not needing to touch the materials (idk how to explain it? like he can float electronics but he cant hold them mid-air THEY HAVE to be added to Smth mechanical/technological)
is able to hack certain things without touching them, but mostly just does that to annoy Zane when he's younger (Lloyds command/prank) and rarely does it at all later on, leading him to barely be able to do it at alllll when it's needed (most of the time it isn't because of Jay, Nya and Zane having tech knowledge and jay being master of lighting).
Mostly he can just barely use it at all other than to control small devices/andriods because he's never needed to use it. (Up until Roni, which I'll not down stuff for later, might make it so that he's forced to make a few different Oni soldiers and then have his father mass produce them? Idk) probably will change a lot of stuff but these r just notes based on the few ways I thought of him using his element
Elemental notes over (i cant be bothered to edit them)
i was gonna make him a new reference sheet for this post, but instead u can have these: (older art i might've posted but forgor)
(yk that second to last one/the one in the bottom left? yeah ill go into that in another post <3)
i draw him happy to contrast his lore <3333 and the scars tbh, hes so covered in them that drawing him happy and ignoring them is kinda comforting?? idk haha
The stories behind his scars r long af so like ill just put them down as "ninja accidents" and move on.
His horns and tail r optional, as he's an oni obv smh (shapeshifty boy)
I think thats all for him as a character?? He's just a happy silly boy (golden retriever to Lloyds golden cat fr i mean whaTT!!!???)
Yeah. Biotech. Aka Lloyd Garmadon, himself, X Casey Abel Tinniel. They r my scrunks, my blorbs, and maybe even, my little guys.
I dont have any updated art of them atm, but i promise u i will make some at some point ong!!!!
They like to eat candies and stuff together & watch disney movies fr!!!! Casey likes to cook so he makes homemade mochis and stuff a lot n like ong<33333 way to lloyds heart is through candy and i will NOT hear otherwise!!!!
Youngest ninja members gotta look out for each other (even if that means kissing sometimes SMH)
Thats all for now i think yoooo!!!
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posting some various artworks from the past 2-3(???) months (minus the last one, that’s like several months old now at this point)
explinations when you click on the pictures, but if you can’t see those, i’ll put them under the cut (sorry, i talk a lot)
fugo (and purple haze) character study, i was mostly focusing on the fact that fugo and purple haze’s designs are more complicated than i would like them to be, also the funny scar from phf cuz i like when people draw that
golden weed and purple smoke, prompted by conversations made in the jojo heritage posts discord server i joined last month
never really drew moody blues, so i wanted to try to see if i could figure them out??? wanted to incorporate the the more effeminate looks they have while making them androgynous enough (i personally dont headcanon abbacchio as a trans woman, so it’s all just kinda ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ for me)
during an aggio board with some people from the heritage server again, people were drawing p5 as pets so i did the funny kermit meme and pesci as uno pesci(? idk italian) plus the mista is there just cuz i thought it’d be funny to draw him like he would draw himself (hence the ‘mista age 18′ written next to it) also fugio, self explanitory
i was working off of multiple fan interpretations where abbacchio A) has freckles and/or B) has albanism, so my own headcanon is he has major freckles, the manga eyecolor is his actual eyecolor, and he puts on make up and eye contacts to hide some of the parts of albanism he’d be more sel concious about
Wormbbacchio,,,, happened because of a night playing a fuck ton of jackbox party pack in the heritage server, the original worm image is in the server but i didnt draw it and idk the person’s tumblr who did draw it off the top of my head, so uh, here’s my own, because that also exists
ok LAST ONE, this is something i drew months ago trying to do a panel redraw on top of figuring out how i wanna draw bucciarati’s gang in general, since then i have changed a bit of the designs i go with, but this is moreso just a general shapes outline for each of them now so i can be more consistent with my art
ok we’re done now, go home
#jjba#jjba p5#jjba part 5#leone abbacchio#moody blues jjba#pannacotta fugo#Art Tag or whatever#i honestly dont like abbacchio as much as some of the other characters but his feminine looks and masculine behavoirs captivate me or smth#please ignore the massive amount of spelling errors tumblr wont tell me shit
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Let me explain my gender: I'm ftm, but also nonbinary. The good ol' He/They
I'm a man, but not completely man, but I don't connect with womanhood. The struggles and such yeah ofc. I live them. I was still born with a body meant for a woman, but my soul isn't a woman's. It's an almost man.
Not in a incomplete way.
I feel like I understand my gender, the way I represent myself clothing wise is like someones grandfather who was maybe a clown. I feel comfortable that way. And y'know, I feel okay in fem clothing, but in a costume sorta way.
Like I'm going to a wedding and it's with family I'm, atleast, not out to yet. I'm wearing a dress, and I'm going for an old school Hollywood glamor look. I see it as fun dress up opportunity. But like if I was forced to wear a different dress then I've chosen I'd feel gross. Like my grandmother had shown me ideas that would make me reject myself, fake padding and stuff and it's a no. I don't want to look like a woman, I want to look like I'm dressed up. When I showed my aunt just the dress and some Jewelry ideas she said what I thought "Old Hollywood Glamor" and yes, that's what I want. If I have to wear a dress and put on a show, it's gonna me like dressing up as a kid.
I've always liked costumes. I would dress up as cowboys, faeries, princes, princesses, my different grandparents, etc... I like costumes. I've never connected gender with them in my head. I've only come out, family wise, to siblings, my mother, and three cousins, only one being on my dad's side. My cousins were like "yeah, I kinda gotta vibe but wondered if you would tell me", which translates to, "No shit, but I don't want you to think the closet is glass."
And why I think about costumes now and representing myself is because when I told my mom she was like "but you loved princess costumes" but that's only one type of costume I liked, that's not a argument.
Sometimes I wonder if I just feel masculine and I'm just nonbinary but like in the no gender way. Like the idea of what's considered masculine is what I connect with, not being a man. But I feel like a man, but again, not completely, but not in a broken or incomplete way. Like I'm 75% man and 25% personified being (of idfk) written by Neil Gaiman. I literally don't know but like I'm okay with it?
I want to dress like either a librarian in what my sibling told me is a 80-90s dark academia setting or like it's the 1500-1700s, but in a gothic clowny way. But that's expensive so I dress either like a waiter, a dad, a 13 year old boy in 2003, that could also be described as Adam Sandler, Junie B Jones, someone's grandfather, in a "liberal arts professor" ( as my mom and sibling say and my liberal arts major friend confirmed) way, my nerdself of 2014, and in a very clowny way. Sometimes all at once, and I call it "brain happy" clothing, my sibling calls it "a hot mess."
This is becoming a weirdly long post.
Basically: I'm not a woman, if you see me dressed in any way in my head it's all a costume, I don't see my body as any gender really. I know what my ♀️sex♂️ is, but to me it's just apart of things I need to only care about health wise. I think it'd be more convenient if I had XY stuffs instead, but like my body shape and face shape stays, I'm used to it y'know, and I wouldn't get painful ovarian cysts all the time. I wish I could still dress up as a cowboy, and a faery. My wings broke tho but I still have my old cowboy vest, it's so tiny to me now, at one point it was too big, I don't really get how. Like y'know, I know how realistically but my brain refuses to believe it. There was something else I described that way. Something you know the facts of, you've seen how it works, but your brains like, okay but no.
Anyway yeah basically my gender is Yes but No. Kinda clowny but not a clown I'm just queer and Autistic.
#gender for me#I type how i talk and its probably annoying af#im going to bed#gender#trans masc#life is a costume
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I posted 668 times in 2022
That's 668 more posts than 2021!
203 posts created (30%)
465 posts reblogged (70%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
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@friskibitz
@aether-friskets
I tagged 653 of my posts in 2022
Only 2% of my posts had no tags
#fanart - 209 posts
#op's art - 188 posts
#silent hill - 149 posts
#rambles - 134 posts
#undertale - 128 posts
#heather mason - 110 posts
#silent hill 3 - 109 posts
#safeutdr - 105 posts
#silent hill fanart - 99 posts
#frisk - 91 posts
Longest Tag: 137 characters
#and honestly? op's suggestion of him having been a member of the order is way more interesting to me than just 'otherworld manifestation'
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
not the most extravagant piece I've ever made for something like this but. Here's a little drawing I made for Undertale's anniversary!! Like I said I would!
It would've been nice to get a piece with more of the characters but alas
Also I feel like Chara could be better but I always have trouble drawing them quite right >:|
Anyway uhhhh yeah!!
23 notes - Posted September 15, 2022
#4
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31 notes - Posted August 2, 2022
#3
so I recall this line in outlast 2 when you end up in St. Sybil one of the first times. Blake says somethin like "Great. Back in the Fourth Grade." meaning those the stuff he's reliving must've happened in that grade.
And we know that 4th graders are typically either 9 or 10
(assuming Jess was in the same grade she was only 9 or 10 as well which. damn.)
But we ALSO know what year this takes place in, because there's multiple instances on papers and stuff with the year 1995 (in fact it's December 1995 iirc). I don't have any screenshots on-hand but I could totally go get some at some point lol
MeaninG Blake was 9 or 10 in 1995
We also know that Outlast 2 takes place not all that long after the first game does (due to the Murkoff Account, which, admittedly I haven't read in a while so feel free to correct me there). And we know Outlast happened in 2013.
This mean that our pal Blake is most likely 28 (or 27). Which also makes him the youngest, since Miles and Waylon are both supposedly in their "early to mid 30s" (I couldn't see the cited tweet so for all I know this could be inaccurate but it sounds reasonable enough for me to believe).
Also Waylon has two kids so I'm inclined to believe he's the oldest but like they're all like a few years apart in age anyway lol
Anyway this is probably really obvious stuff but I thought it was interesting for some reason
38 notes - Posted August 6, 2022
#2
random minor thing but I always thought that while Frisk's SAVEs are like normal manual save point saving you'd expect to see, when Flowey steals back control as Omega Flowey, the whole "File x loaded/saved" thing gives the vibes of someone using an emulator. Where you have multiple interchangeable save states that you can save or load to whenever you want, even if the game isn't normally capable of that.
In particular it makes me think back to repeatedly loading a save state in Majora's Mask because of the goddamn town shooting gallery mini game AUGh
Which I guess it kind of makes sense? Omega Flowey is artificially stealing control of the game, sort of like how an emulator gives you an artificial way of accessing a game (in the sense of like I could play a PS1 game on my pc, or a N64 game on my Wii U, for example). So not only does his save system make sense from an in-game stand point, it's kinda cool from a meta standpoint too.
At least, I think it is.
63 notes - Posted June 19, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
late night posting of an old-ish drawing
Psychonauts was big on my mind for a short while there and although it's not my current focus, the games are still really great!! And I still like this little drawing I did of Raz.
It was interesting trying to translate his design to my art style, because that game has a very particular look (in a good way).
also hope y'all don't mind my random mish-mash of posting and reblogging various stuff, I cannot be consistent to save my life
Hopefully I'll have some new art to share soon though!! Assuming this funk of mine dies down, anyway.
71 notes - Posted May 16, 2022
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Okay so I posted the art before (oh fucking well) but now I have ✨ideas✨. [ OG post found here. ]
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N (B/W, B2/W2) - Patton
Sweetheart man
Grew up around Pokémon before Ghesis took him in, so he literally can understand Pokémon. Just not how people think he can
Doesn't wanna be Plasma King
Black(Hilbert)/White(Hilda) needs to understand he's being used >:(
He actually doesn't "own" a Pokémon team, they just kinda help him willingly. The Pokéballs are a formality they endure
Just wants peace
Lowkey hates Ghesis with every fiber of his being
He knows his stuff
He acts dumb bc Ghesis doesn't think he know shit
100% punched Ghesis after B/W was over
Black(Hilbert)/White(Hilda) was the surprised Pikachu meme at that
Nate/Rosa are good friends with him later :3
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Guzma (S/M, US/UM) - Remus
Yeah, he's an "evil team" leader
But its not exactly called Team Skull
It's call Team Ceph
But otherwise he's literally just Guzma and the team is literally just Team Skull
"Losers" trying to prove their worth
He's actually a super good trainer too
But his little brother is supposedly better so he did this.
He's really chill with Sun/Elio/Moon/Selene tbh
Yeah, they're brats, but their his friends so fuck off >:(
Kikui isn't too bad either.
He custom made platform sneakers, he's fancy like that.
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Cynthia (D/P/P, BD/SP) - Logan
Research!
He's v powerful
He's also really into the history of Sinnoh
Despite his efforts, he's literally very recognizable (thank you, Fantia /sar)
He just wants to be in the library tbh
Dawn/Lucas giving him the chance to meet Palkia/Dialga/Giratina really made him happy (he'd never say it more than once tho)
He loves his Garchomp (she's his bby)
Also really into writing
Dawn/Lucas beat him, he spent literally all day in the next day reading and writing.
His grandmama is glad to have him help with her history and science and all that
He's actually really shy too, he just learned how to interact bc Champion.
Let him be-
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Zinnia (ORAS) - Janus
Lorekeeper of the Draconid people
They hate his ass
All because he's got burns and heterochromia :(
He's actually really nice
He was besties with the old Lorekeeper
He acts mean to Ruby/Sapphire and May/Brendon, but honestly he's so done with shit
He doesn't want to be a bad guy.
But he will be bc that the only way he can get shit done
This isn't a Comic Zinnia parallel either, this is game Zinnia he's like
He also learns p quick that Ruby/Sapphire is probably gonna be a good candidate to save the world
So at the top of the Sky pillar
Summons Rayquaza
And is like "Save the world I've done my part peace!"
He's currently just wandering the world
Probably has met Logan, Patton, Remus, Virgil and Roman at one point
Not that he stayed long with any of them
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Gold/Ethan (G/S/C, HG/SS) - Roman
Nothing much changed
What did you expect? This a Protag role!! They're empty slates for a reason
Remus is his older brother tho
He low-key looks up to Remus actually
Big of heart, dumb of ass. Might become a himbo one day
Became Johto Champ
Wants to be the "greatest trainer"
Doesn't know what that means, but he wants it!
He's really sweet
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Red (R/G/B/Y, FR/LG) - Virgil
He's a selective mute
Really loves his Pikachu
Will get violent (his Charizard actually held him back from Giovanni once)
So done with humanity
Became Kanto champ, then left bc "I'm not dealing with this, Green-"
Some people call him Purple bc he just never told them his name
He really doesn't care about that tho
"Purple the silent champ" sounds dope to him
Mount Silver actually doesn't fucking phase him with how cold it is
He kept his bedroom really fucking cold (59°F/15°C)
Also it gives him an excuse to eat warm calming food more often :D
Roman challenged him once and lost
And now he can't escape the trainer
Got dragged to Alola by Blue once
It wasn't bad
Too sunny and hot tho
Sun/Elio/Moon/Selene was nice to meet
Met Remus and talked about Roman and stuff
It was nice
"It's too hot, Blue." ❝That's because you're wearing black and very dark purple, dumbass.❞ ← Actually conversation between Virgil and Blue in Alola
Didn't changed to lighter colors though. He suffered for his theme
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And there you have it.
If I make Sleep, Emile, Thomas and Nico, it's gonna be way fucking later and I have no clue who I'd replace with them. Emile would probably be a Pokemon Professor (maybe Sycamore) and I feel like Nico would be a fun replacement for the artsy Alola trial cap, but idk.
Have fun with this and just credit/tag me should you do something with this shit.
:)
Also here, have the songs I got the idea from:
N's Theme (From "Pokémon Black/White")
Vs. Guzma (From "Pokémon Sun/Moon")
Vs. Cynthia (From "Pokémon Platinum")
Vs. Zinnia (From "Pokémon Omega Ruby/Alpha Sapphire")
Dragon's Den/Vs. Trainer Red (From "Pokémon Gold/Silver")
Pokémon Musical Bytes - Complete Package
#sanders sides#patton sanders#remus sanders#logan sanders#janus sanders#roman sanders#virgil sanders#art#sanders sides au#pokemon musical bytes au
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