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user-needs-new-hyperfixation · 5 months

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Hello, can I ask what do you mean "in canon it's impossible for Sherlock to settle down with a woman"? Like, as a fan of Holmes and always read the books since middle school, I'm kinda confuse here, I don't mean anything negative. Sorry, do you think Poirot (from Agatha Christie) is also queer?

Maybe because I grew up with very religious mother and lived in anti-LGBTQ country, I'm kinda slow in picking up subtext. Like until now I'm still kinda confuse with my friend who have ships from any fandoms (but I still love to hear and read her headcanons or fics about those characters)....

I really agree with you, I've seen many Holmes' adaptations (cartoon, tv series, manga) but Yuumori is clearly the closest to Doyle's works. Do you think the mangaka also love to read Holmes' books?

Story time! (Welcome to "Hyper answers asks like an old lady going on an hour long barely-on-topic tangent at the slightest prompting.)

I totally get where you're coming from, I was raised in like...knockoff Southern Baptist churches. Growing up, homosexuality was presented to me as a sexual perversion incapable of involving real love. It's kind of silly, but it's true: a ship was a big part of changing that for me. I read Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle as a teenager, and Kurogane and Fai had something that was inescapably romantic and beautiful but never strictly sexual (tho the potential is certainly there). Between that and an online community of LGBTQ+ adults who were incredibly patient and kind towards me even when I was suuuuper ignorant, I started to open up towards queer relationships as...well, just relationships. Relationships that can encompass sex and also encompass love and friendship and communication and partnership and all those other things I'd been taught were exclusive to monogamous straight people. And then, even as terrified as I was, I was eventually able to face the fact that I'd always had crushes on girls just as often as crushes on guys. So yeah, there's a reason Kurofai is my ship of all ships, the actual One True Pairing for me. Because it cracked open a door just enough that I could slowly lever it open the rest of the way. There seem to be quite a lot of anecdotes like this: women enjoying BL/mlm ships is often seen as fetishy (which can certainly be part of it) but for some reason I can't fully articulate it also seems to sometimes be a means for girls and women to explore their own not-straightness.

ANYWAY. SHERLOCK HOLMES. Tbh I'm not gonna go too in-depth because I would bet good money that there are a bunch of scholarly articles on Holmes' queerness. People have probably done their doctorate theses on this! Much smarter and more well-read folks than I have already covered the topic. For me, it really boils down to: he never outright expresses sexual or romantic interest in anyone (we must resist the urge to assume his respect for Irene Adler is romantic just because he is a man and she is a woman). He's almost certainly on the asexual spectrum. But when he does exhibit symptoms one might associate with romantic and/or sexual interest (particularly romantic, imo), it's always towards men (usually Watson, of course). For example, notable flirt John Watson saying that Holmes blushes at his compliments the way a girl does is...suggestive.

The whole thing is complicated by Watson being (in my opinion at least) an unreliable and sometimes downright petty narrator. He keeps going on spiels about Holmes being cold and heartless, only to turn around and describe him greeting his friends warmly and being emotionally moved by music and baby-talking puppies and charming old ladies. It makes Watson sometimes come across as one of those allo people who are so unable to conceive of a life without romantic and/or sexual desire that they start dehumanizing those who don't experience it. Alternatively and maybe more charitably, he just has a big ol' crush on Holmes, is understandably alarmed by it given the time period, and gets bitchy and defensive when he feels it might not be reciprocated.

But ultimately...do I think Arthur Conan Doyle sat down at a desk in the late 19th century/early 20th century and was like "I am going to write some ace queer representation for the tumblr girlies (gn)"? Obviously not. 😅 I do think he might have set out to create a character who very deliberately did not need to have the otherwise almost obligatory straight romantic side-plot. Holmes is never in any way set up as having a life headed towards marriage and children, in spite of how typical that was for the time. The companionship he does express a need and desire for comes in the form of another man. He's "lost without [his] Boswell." He sneakily buys Watson's practice out from under him so he'll be free to move back in and go on more adventures with him. He threatens violence when Watson is hurt. Etc etc. I think it's very fair to interpret it all through a queer lens, the quibble would be more in whether that queerness ever manifests sexually.

I definitely think the Yuumori creators have not only read ACD but also other fiction based on the stories, possibly even including some very old pastiches like this one. I love how seemingly nerdy they are about it haha! The series is full of easter eggs and callouts to other Holmesian works.

As for Poirot, I know very little about the character beyond a few episodes of the show I watched as a young'un, but that is not the mustache of a straight man (I'm joking I'm joking I have absolutely no opinion on that one! 🤣)

Thanks for the ask, and for actually reading this ramble if you got this far! 😅

#acd holmes #acd canon #yuukuko no moriarty #kurofai #rambling #asks

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bubblekidaesthetics · 1 year

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Baby gays be gayin 💚💫💖

When we first got introduced to Valentine in the Monster High universe he was just another villain. His whole spill was kinda cool tho.

Collecting the hearts of girls in love as trophies, thus making it impossible for them to ever love anyone again??? I was immediately hooked. And it was a Draculaura-centric movie too, so there was a bonus.

However it wasn't till many years later that I discovered Valentine's diary and boy did it deliver.

If that sounds kinda like the gay archetype, well, put on ur listening ears for a sec, 'cause we've got a story for you. Apparently, according to the creator of Monster High, his diary was supposed to have him come out as gay. It was a collector's item anyway. Kids wouldn't have had a chance to buy it as it was a convention-exclusive doll, but Mattel said and I quote "It is not the right time"

An extract from the original post of the creator which just goes to show how little influence they truly have over their own creations.

Well, the gay route was a no-go, so instead they had to be sneaky about it. If you read the diary, the core, the framework of the original idea is still there. Evident especially in the May 3rd entry:

"I now know that what I did - stealing love - was because I thought that's what emotional vampires were supposed to do. But it never felt quite right. I thought if I kept doing it, it would eventually feel right. Then when Draculaura called me - well, Toralei really - I thought that if I could get the heart that got away, it would change me, and everything would be fine. But I was just a real pain in the fang to everyone and made a fool of myself. So I've come to the conclusion being myself has to be easier than not being myself, right? Back then, I hated the thought of who I really was, and that conflict made me become someone who wasn't me. It's time to be true to myself, but it's scary."

Like come on!!!! How can it get queerer than that?!? He is one foot away from coming out of his coffin with glitter make up and rainbow hair!

But then the diary had to go the sneaky route. They knew they couldn't make him gay... At least directly. They had to be increeibly sneaky about that. Just then Spelldon Cauldronello steps onto the scene.

Written into the diary as a blink you'll miss it moment, Spelldon is Casta Fierce's younger brother. Up to that point there was no mention of the character in Monster High cannon. but his interaction with Valentine, well... It was short for one. But a lot was packed into that very short meeting. Keiran Valentine upon first meeting him spaces out, after which they spend some time together gettin to know each other better, ultimately ending with Valentine asking Spelldon for his number.

You'd think there'd be more, yet sadly that is where Spelldon's part in Valentines story arch stops. There was clear intent there to create a more inclusive Monster High, for which I am grateful. Despite not giving us a look at Spelldon's design, the fandom took it upon themselves to create designs and fanart, thus keeping his character alive.

The design I used in this piece actually belongs to my incredibly talented friend @i-have-serious-brainfreeze . He created this design of the nerdy Spelldon on a whim, and since then I have been utterly obsessed with it. So much so that I choose to create a fanart piece of the two bby gays.

As of now, Gen 3 made no current mention of either Valentine or Spelldon, so it's safe to say their story has been shelved for the time being. However, things are moving on the Monster High representation front. Twyla has been cannonicaly made autistic, Frankie nonbinary, and Clankie steered slowly towards a canonical romantic relationship.

If there ever is a better time to bring back Keiran Valentine, it certainly is now.

I'll be here waitin Mattel. I'll be here💖

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just-a-carrot · 6 months

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Okay, so I was just looking through some of your art, and I made an interesting observation.

You draw Iggy mouthless. Like, a lot. And a lot of the times when he does have a mouth it's a really small line/dot. And there's nothing wrong with that! I think, in your style, it works quite well and doesn't look too out of place. But it's really funny, seeing how the other characters around him are usually very emotive with their mouths, so it creates a very interesting contrast.

Thinking about it, it actually makes sense considering Iggy's personality. He's a shy, quiet, anxious little fellow, and I trust he probably has trouble speaking up for himself. So for him, not having a mouth actually fits him? If that makes sense. I also love how despite his lack of mouth, you still manage to make him so damn expressive? This is one thing I really wanna point out, you're really good at emotions, Carrot. You just have a way of expressing your characters' feelings that is both nuanced and yet very clear. I think your art style is just great in general? Like, I know you've said before that it might be a turn-off and it has to "grow on people", but I never disliked it. I thought it was very charming and unique, and I still do! Also, this is hard to explain, but I love how your art manages to be so simple and yet so detailed at the same time? Like, it's very clear and expressive and abstract, and yet it has all these little details, but they're never distracting, and only enhance your drawings!

Anyways, I got a bit carried away at the end, but I really felt the need to tell you thisjsjshsubsjens– but, yeah, that's about all, have a good day, Carrot! :D

HAHAHAHAHAHA

you are not the first person who's commented on iggy's lack of mouth, so this is making me laugh a bit 🤣💦

i will admit that though i have always drawn iggy's mouth rather small (especially compared to the others), the complete lack of it is something that kinda evolved as production went on (similar to all the other character changes alkjdasf)

i've never really thought about why this happened, it's kinda just something that happened often when i drew him, i guess because it felt fitting and right for his face and expressions LOL but that's such a good analysis of it now that you've said it. it's true that he has a hard time speaking up and often just speaking in general...

THAT IS SO NICE THO???

omg you're gonna make me cry

i have indeed had a lot of self-conscious thoughts about my art throughout production, mostly because i know it's not very pretty and detailed like a lot of VNs. i also got a number of disparaging comments about it early on. so hearing that people do actually like it really means a lot to me... 🥺 i know that some of the early art especially is a bit rough (and the characters themselves have evolved a bit as well). this is part of why i'd love to clean up some of the earlier art later on in some kind of remaster... lol

but i'm glad that you like it it so much!! i feel really blessed that i have been able to find people who can like my art style! hearing stuff like that really makes my day ldkajfdas

so thank you very much!! 😭💕

#ow: asks

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ed-recovery-affirmations · 3 months

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Hey! Uh, I've been struggling with ED since my childhood, and I think I have it somewhat under control at this point (I'm 22), but the thoughts tend to get a lot worse real fast when I notice any kind of change happening to my body and/or when I'm stressed and/or feel disconnected from my body. Either I've put on some weight lately or I'm just bloated due to being stressed to hell and back and getting very little sleep in the past week (both due to a death in the family), the reason doesn't really matter because all my brain sees is that my cheekbones aren't as prominent as usual and my body doesn't seem as petite.

I keep thinking that if I have a square figure (I don't know if it's true, but in my mind whenever I put on weight it all goes to my waist and nowhere else and makes me look like a square instead of a hour glass), I can no longer wear feminine clothes and that they will look awful on me and everyone will laugh at me.

I was also raised with the idea that my body is one of the few things I have going for me and that there is a "right" way for a body to be, and that "correct" way is 90-60-90 proportions, so when I feel like I'm getting more squarish I also start thinking "Nobody will ever love me if they see me naked like this. They will think 'Oh. That looked way more ok dressed up. I don't want a rectangle for a partner, a woman is supposed to have killer curves and a thigh gap and be skinny with a completely flat stomach. What IS that? I'm out.' and they'll leave me and they'll tell everyone and then everyone will laugh at me whenever I go outside."

I think that my problems also tend to get worse when someone shows interest in me? Last year I had to break up with a guy because I relapsed when we started dating and it got worse and worse the longer our relationship lasted. When I am alone and nobody expects to see my body and I don't have to look at my body, I think it's generally better. But I am starting to date again now and I thought it would be fine because they also struggle with ED, so I thought that I wouldn't worry as much because I'd know that they know what it's like and I wouldn't feel like I have to perform some sort of ultra-skinny ultra-hourglass standard, but I guess that is not true. Because along with everything above I very much do feel like I need to be ultra-skinny and ultra-hourglass for them and am terrified of them possibly wanting to see me naked, especially so because as I said I have noticed a minor change in my body and now I'm convinced it's a huge change and a bad one. I haven't told them about any of this tho because I know that it's a deranged thing to think.

I'm honestly not sure about what I need/want from you. I guess any kind of affirmation or advice would be nice. And I'm sorry that this got so long.

Hi, anon, that's quite a vent you have there! I can tell you've been struggling with this stuff for quite some time. While I am choosing to answer this ask, I would like to put a gentle reminder not to put specific numbers, like weights, body measurements, calorie counts etc in posts as this can sometimes be triggering to others.

So my advice to you may be hard to follow, because of course you're going to want to body-check yourself if your body size has been seen as your best accomplishment, but constant body-checking is a compulsive behavior common in restrictive EDs. I would recommend you refrain from weighing yourself, and only look in the mirror as much as you need to brush your teeth, wash your face, check hair, makeup, clothes etc. If you catch yourself scrutinizing your appearance for weight changes, try to catch yourself. Ask yourself what you need to do in order to redirect to a healthier line of thinking. You identify that you have been taught to see your greatest worth in your body. Perhaps you could take this time to affirm to yourself your worth in other areas, or engage in an activity away from mirrors that helps you connect with yourself. That way you can be reconnected with a sense of your true worth. Don't be discouraged if it's hard at first, these things take time.

You especially need to practice giving yourself grace at times like these, when you are highly stressed out. Bodies change in life and that is a natural phenomenon, not a moral failing. Bodies are especially prone to change during these times of high stress. But you are a living human being who's recently had a loss in the family. You deserve gentleness and time to grieve, not pressure to make your body stay palatable during hard times.

Maybe it could be a good idea to step back from the idea of dating for a bit of time while you reconnect with yourself and your sense of worth. It's hard, I know, but I hope that one day you are able to find someone who you trust enough that you can have honest conversations about this, ideally prior to any bedroom activities. Someone you can talk to about what you need to feel worthy and desired by them. Someone will put effort into doing what you need them to do. There are so many people with different bodies in this world, some single, some in relationships, some in queerplatonic partnerships, but so many different people are finding out ways they can be loved in their bodies, and I hope you can be one of them. It will take time and practice and setbacks, so stay patient with yourself.

I also hope that you one day are able to build such confidence and respect for yourself that you would loudly kick anyone out of your bedroom who dared to tell you they disliked something about your body.

It's true, you can't always trust the influences around you to give you a healthy perspective on your worth outside your body shape. It sounds like that's something you've experienced in your life. Not everybody is going to be a positive influence, so it's up to you to be your own primary positive influence and look within yourself for points of personal worth when you start hear people bringing up your body.

Oh, and I recommend you keep writing. Sometimes it just helps to get it all out, and even gets some stuff processed in your head!

#ed cw #body checking #body image #self worth #self care #healing

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risu5waffles · 3 months

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[LBP - LBsP 01/26/24] 293 - A Totally Reasonable Response

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So here we are. If this level is to be the last thing i publish for the community, at least it was something i could be really proud of (i realize, typing this, that it wasn't the last thing i published. That was the New Year's level, but that one hardly feels like it counts, since it was only up for five days).

Looking through the drawing board and making-of videos, and it's shocking how much it changed from the initial build. i'm happy wiv the work i did, and most all the gross ideas (that is to say, things like layout, presentation, and obstacles) were mine; but this wouldn't have been nearly the success it was if it hadn't been for the extra eyes and fine tuning suggestions from the community. Particularly chronos453 and @soupum who were invaluable sounding boards and support. It feels nice that this is my level, but it is also very much the Empty Room's level too.

One thing i wanted was for the level to be joyful, wivout being toothless or anodyne? Something to stand up against the common (and unfortunately often, at times at least, true) narrative of "oh woe, queer life is so hard and tragic." i think i managed it, but it's hard to say. It feels joyful to me, but i recognize it is also very much my brand of bullshite.

It seemed to resonate well wiv the queer/ally players who left comments, tho'. Those were all honestly very heartwarming.

It resonated quite differently, but apparently strongly, wiv a couple of bigots too. Those were... weird.

Now, i know that i'm old, and that's honestly ok. i'm not really current wiv how kids talk these days, and that's also ok. But there was something weirdly adult about some of the comments, that felt very different from the way queermisia would have been framed by kids when i was young-young (that framing, mind you, wasn't really better, but it was usually just the slur and an accusation). Which means, either the rhetoric adults are using now has trickled down into schoolyard discourse, or these were actual adults telling an open room of potentially children that, for example, queer folx were like that because they'd been sexually assaulted and decided they'd liked it. Which... you know... that's a real kind of problem. Both options are real problems mind you, but the second worries me a lot more.

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i still wonder if i shouldn't have done Distress in Ocean for this week's LBsP, and this one for next. We've not had any real word on the servers yet, which is unsurprising, but also disheartening. If LBsP as a review-focused thing is ending, it would have been nice to have ended it wiv this level. Ah well. You work wiv what's to hand, and i'd already done most of the recording for this by the time it popped into mind that i had Distress in Ocean to work wiv too.

i've spent the last few days up to my nipples in DLC to archive those, and if i never have to see anything Pirates of the Caribbean again it'll be too soon. i'll probably put up reviews here when all the episodes for the levels from a pack have gone live, but i have feelings.

#littlebigplanet #little big planet #lbp #lbp3 #littlebite-sizedplanet #LBsP #queer #queer pride #trans #trans joy #Youtube

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mrschwartz · 2 years

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i hope you're gonna make a post about big ideas bc the lyrics make me Crazy and i'm not strong enough to put my thoughts into words

i mean where even to begin.......

i've said this to some mutuals on pm but my starting point thinking about it is. the lyrics are So on the nose that it almost seems too (analytically) good to be true, like i almost want to do a 180 on what they seem to be at face value. bc when they started playing i ain't quite and i saw those lyrics i wanted to punch alex nvjndjnjfvn i had no idea what he's talking about there and i still don't, they're just as hermetic as the lyrics on tbhc if not more so, and it's gonna take the whole record and some time to chip away at them and catch a glimpse of what they might mean

but big ideas......

it's unambiguously about their trajectory as a band, isn't it? it's a meta commentary on the album itself, right?? god, do i dare throw this in here....... he's talking about how tbhc derailed, isn't he???

bc on one hand, when he says on the first verse "A conjured up wonderful thing / The ballad of what could've been" etc and on the chorus "The kind you'd rather not share over the phone / But now the orchestras got us all surrounded" makes me think that he's talking about the conception of the car, those initial songs he's been mentioning on interviews that were the starting point but they had to abandon or that turned into other songs. the phone line can prob even be taken literally, bc the only way he could've shared those ideas was over the phone bc of the pandemic, but he'd rather die lol, so all that time waiting out made him change his mind on them and then they evolved into how the album is now + the added bonus imagery of the musical ideas being so different from their previous records that he can't "share them over the phone" bc they're so secretive and can't be leaked. also there's "And I cannot for the life of me remember how they go", with "they" being the big ideas, so the initial concepts changed so much that he can't even remember what the original songs were like

on the other hand.....tho........those same lines + some other ones (we'll get here in a sec oof) sound so much like he's talking about how they were so excited for tbhc but gave up on it halfway through the era....... the ones that i mentioned could mean that the concept and the universe and the backstory he spent hours thinking about when coming up with tbhc went to waste when they and esp alex himself started getting bored with it (which ties with what was going on behind the scenes in 2018). that album had so much pontential for more mvs, for in-depth commentary, for fake documentaries about the universe, for conceptial photos etc etc out of the sheer nature of its premise. then they simply stopped treating it as something different and just went through the montions of finishing the tour like any other

he had big ideas, the band were so excited, but then he abandoned that era and started focusing on the sound of the next album (the orchestra, the sound of the car, got them all surrounded). "Coordinated Release" meaning tbhc was released as a surprise regarding the sound of the album, no singles etc. "Nationwide festivities, we had them out of their seats / Waving their arms and stomping the feet / Some just hysterically sing" is just straight up a comment on shows and festivals and the fans in the crowd. how they loved tbhc (and love all of the band's discography) but "The ballad of what could've been, it's been a thrill" signals what i said in the paragraph above, like. more could've have happened bc everyone was just so excited, but they were done with it prematurely and were ready to move on

"That's quite a number to sing", "And adapt the main theme from mandolins" make me think of how that time around alex and the band were focused on getting it right in the studio, and worried later how the songs were going to be translated live. not to mention "But you co-direct and play the twins"???? the two characters he played in the tbhc mvs hello???? (we're gonna have to wait for the official lyrics ik, but i swear that he says twins and not twist) also "co-direct" bc he's got this film language now but it also means that he was pretty involved in the conceptualization of the looks and story of the tbhc mvs etc. the whole thing about them being ready to move on also makes sense when you take into consideration that they've been playing literally only two (2) songs from tbhc this tour so.

and! prob the most important part; the sound of this song. he's been talking so much this era, and has for some eras now, about how the meaning of the lyrics can't be found in the words by themselves, it's woven somewhere in between them and the sound of the music. and i mean like.........what does this song sound like? haunting and melancholic and dark, and i would use those words to describe the situation. the ominous icky feeling of moving on from something you were proud of and the uncertainty of what the future holds bc of said decision

but like. my miserable single cent and all that vfnjdjndjnf

#he's always so quick to renounce everything he's ever done the second he's done with an era and is ready to move onto another one #ask #anonymoys #arctic monkeys #the car #big ideas

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hekateinhell · 10 months

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"but then I made a joke in a chat about The Dancer being one of their threesome buddies and it just felt right" it does feel extremely right. That was one of their "we saw you from across the bar and really dig your vibe" moments right there, with some actual interest behind it for a change. IA, Daniel needed a buddy. Even in an all-consuming, obsessive, deranged asf relationsthip like theirs, people need a buddy to confide in. During their NYC era in partic, it feels right. The Miami/Night Island era was a whole different beast tho lmao rip

"Fucked me up then and fucks me up now" I go back to that one from time to time just to fuck myself up tbh!!

Also I couldn't help but notice THIS from another reply of yours: "I've been daydreaming/outlining an AU OT3 prompt response with rockstar!Lestat" YES??? as in rockstar!Lestat has his two boyfriends teaching him a lesson??? I mean on one hand I feel like Armand is somewhat canonically Lestat's (wannabe) groupie yk so this would be a dream come true for his thirsty ass BUT him and Louis going apeshit over Lestat fucking an actual groupie would also work splendidly. I'll definitely be thinking about this one quite a bit 💭💭💭🤔 xoxo DA

That was one of their "we saw you from across the bar and really dig your vibe" moments right there, with some actual interest behind it for a change.

Exactly! I always headcanon that they met The Dance at a performance and apparently Armand (or Daniel???) was entering his Marius-era of patronage. Which honestly just raises more questions such as: this is pre-Night Island era — and I know cost of living isn't what it used to be (😭) but still — were Armand, Daniel, and The Dancer whose bills they paid all through school just living off Daniel's IWTV checks and Armand's petty theft? I gotta know and I never will and it kills me.

During their NYC era in partic, it feels right. The Miami/Night Island era was a whole different beast tho lmao rip

I agree, the tone definitely changed in NI! I don't think Daniel mentions anyone outside of their staff on Night Island, certainly not like he does in the early years with the people at the parties they attended and The Dancer.

I mean on one hand I feel like Armand is somewhat canonically Lestat's (wannabe) groupie yk so this would be a dream come true for his thirsty ass BUT him and Louis going apeshit over Lestat fucking an actual groupie would also work splendidly.

Armand is 100% Lestat's canonical groupie, Lestat activates his yandere brain like nothing else, RIP (to both of them and everyone who suffered along the way). But yeah, I hope you'll like it, it's the sequel to Exposed which was my lil' gift fic for you... six months ago (jfc I can't believe we've been at this over six months already 🥹). I know more or less what I'm going to have them to do to Lestat but as always, if there's anything in particular you want to see, just let me know and I'll make it work! 💖

#you ask and hekate answers #vc #dungeon anon <3

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i-never-even-wanted-to-be-here · 1 year

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I'm gonna be a villain rn cause I have to say this. I've been thinking about this for a long time now and questioned my opinion for a while but I still can't change my mind.

I do love Fruits Basket. It's a great plot, amazing characters, nice music. But the one thing that doesn't sit right with me is the moral of the story.

Basically, it's about this supernatural family that is struggling with generational trauma and is therefore strongly trauma bonded in a quite literal sense, which isolates them from others and keeps them with each other despite knowing how toxic it is.

Then there's this girl, who is the nicest, kindest, warmest, most compassionate person on this planet. And she gives the family members hope, which is obviously incredibly important. When you're stuck in an abusive environment, even just having one good person around can change a lot for you.

That's the moral, isn't it? And that's great because it's so true.

However, there's more to it. What is said in the show is that there is no way out of this trauma bond. They'll always be connected and it's impossible to break the curse. Why tho?

Because it's a romcom with drama and supernatural elements and we have to keep it simple? Personally, I don't like that.

It's indeed incredibly difficult to break out of a toxic relationship, of any kind. But it's possible to leave, even if horribly difficult. Rin and Yuki tried to run away and still couldn't escape. Only Rin really tried to find a way to break the curse (One more reason to love her).

The story ends with the bonds between them randomly dissipating for no reason. Time itself broke the curse. Because time heals all wounds. Also a good moral, maybe? but still not satisfactory for me. Are you really telling me that all these previous generations had to live their entire lives being abused and manipulated, especially the cat, and that's just the way it had to be? There was nothing they could've done?? That's absolutely awful.

In other words, the main characters were just lucky. They didn't do anything important, they didn't accomplish anything. They didn't put the work in to change something (,except Rin, who failed). They completely passively let the connection fizzle out. If it hadn't been time for it to happen, they would've lived their entire lives with this shit. It was a mere coincidence.

In my humble opinion, what would've been better is if they all realised and admitted to themselves that they really do not need each other, that they shouldn't and don't have to endure all this and that they can leave it behind them. That they deserve better. Family isn't necessarily the people you grew up with or wanted to stay with at some point. And as soon as they really believe this, the bond breaks automatically. This way they could've actively broken the curse.

What I also don't understand is why after all of this they stayed with Akito. Rin said it too. Again, she's an icon. After everything Akito put them through, I don't get why they all still associated with them. I know Akito was also a victim and they became the villain because they were raised to have a personality disorder and abandonment issues. So yes, they were also manipulated and traumatised. And, so what? They were horrible to especially the younger zodiacs and I wouldn't have forgiven them so easily. After everything I've seen them do to the others I felt like they deserved abandonment. (Wow I'm a bad person oupsie)

Anyway. In summary, I think the story would've had a more conclusive ending if there had been an active way to break the curse and Akito just went fuck themselves.

Maybe I shouldn't take it too seriously with all its implications of generational trauma. Because it really is just implications. It's still just a fictional story about the zodiac animals. But it's something I didn't love about the show. Other than that tho, I have to repeat, I really enjoyed it!

#fruits basket #kyo souma #yuki souma

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long post about how i'm enjoying pokemon scarlet :D

warning for some spoilers for the game. not story spoilers. just spoilers on some mechanics and moments that could be enjoyable as a surprise!

so a little of my background with the franchise before i go into my thoughts (so you can see how closely my own opinions align with your own, and therefore know how much my opinion on the game does or does not mirror yours).

I grew up with the spinoff games, Stadium & Snap for the N64 were some of the first video games I ever played (and played constantly all the time growing up). And when I was around 7/8/9 I got really into the Pokemon Ranger series (my favorite of the time being Shadows of Almia) and I played Battle Revolution a lot as well (I used to rent it all the time from the library). This is of course, in addition to watching the anime.

I tried other pokemon games, including the main series, but they didn't resonate with me at that phase in my life.

so anyways, when Pokemon Black & White came out, I was suddenly interested in the main series. if i had to guess -- i think it was because people i knew on deviantart at the time were into it lol.

so that came out, i played through it. enjoyed it enough! black & white 2 came out, i played through it and enjoyed it enough.

then X&Y were announced, and it was the first era i was actively watching nintendo directs all the time, and just keeping up w gaming news. so i was stoked! i got it on release day, and played through it very quickly, and tried matsuda method shiny hunting when i was done lol (i never got the shiny tho. i quit after like 600 eggs)

meanwhile in contrast, when sun and moon came out. i was keeping up with things, but idk? i have to assume it was the stage in my life i was in (i was 17 and it was my era of dropping out of every extracurricular activity i was in because i couldn't be fucked to do or care about anything that wasn't drawing). i bought the game, but legit only played the first few hours and stopped playing. it's always been funny to me, because i really loved the way the 3DS era style had been plused up. i liked the new pokemon, i was interested in the story... but it just didn't keep me engaged at that time.

so when sword and shield came out and it was soooo blasted. i didn't know how i'd feel about the game, but still bought it release day. and uh. i loved it? i loved it so much. its the most fun i've ever had with a mainline game.

so now going into scarlet & violet, there's a lot of options on the table for how i'd feel about it lol. i wanna add: i'm not done yet. i've beaten 4 gym leaders, gotten one titan, and my pokemon are level 35-40.

I didn't like the start of the game very much. There was no easy answer for how to handle it, like they needed to give a lot of info out the gate, and it's hard to do that in a way that isn't overwhelming. I like Nemona a lot though, and I like how the legendaries of these games are just with you the whole time (the way legendaries are handled typically is not for me) also i LOVE the customization out the gate (hair & face & stuff) i love how my character looks.

so anyways, felt negative for the opening. and then when i started with my adventure, i was soooo bugged by the camera angle you have in most battles. like i'm a slut for a fixed camera angle. the way the camera moves in past pokemon games did not need to be changed lol. the new free camera just has no optimal view. i feel so far removed from the action, like im watching ants.

when i complained abt this to a friend, he brought up it might have to do with the way terrain works in this game. and like... that could be true? but also i don't think the terrain being the way it is is a good enough mechanic to warrant removing the fixed camera. i wish they figured something out.

so the thing that made me start feeling positive was sort of a funny thing lol. i was feeling bummed abt the things all above, and i was also feeling weird abt the nonlinearity. like it means there cant be as many unique interactions since they dont know where in the game u are. and in sword & shield, i really got attached to the gym leaders (for the first time) and i wasn't feeling that same spark here.

i sorta felt like, lol. well. the nonlinearity is here, i might as well take advantage of it and just go across the whole map to get a pokemon i like early (in this case my goals were to get: zorua & gothita).

so i started on my way, and i was passing through one of the dessert/mountainous terrains and i bumped into that giant klawf (the stony cliff titan). and was trying to avoid him bc i didn't know what was going on and didn't want him to wreck my pokemon. but i accidentally got in a battle with him. and panicked a bit because i thought i sequence broke and wasn't supposed to be there yet or something, only to get him in one hit because i was actually over leveled LMFAO.

stumbling on major events randomly like that are my favorite part of nonlinear sandbox games. and it just gave me this perspective change of like, okay. this isn't sword and shield. it's not meant to be sword and shield! this is it's own game, and i should enjoy it for what it is and not dwell on what it isn't... and i'm having so much fun now lol.

i got an outfit i like, my team is bringing me a lot of joy, i'm gonna ask if my bestie (who happened to get violet) could send me a misdreavus because thats my only fav [who's in the game] that i don't have yet... and its because they're not in my version of the game lol.

here's my party right now :D

other good experiences i've had: u can see my beloved babygirl Gus in both of these. azumarill and the line has never been a fav of mine, but i was charmed by a wild azurill near the start of the game, and decided to catch it. i was talking w my mom while i was playing, and asked if she wanted to name her, and she said "Gus" SOO fast. like even before i finished asking her. thank u mom, i love gus so much.

i ADORE how when tandemaus evolves into maushold, the game doesn't tell u. like, i thought i'd encountered my first glitch (that people love to talk abt so much).. but no its just the cutest mechanic.

#personal post

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yahoo, cafe enchante anon here! i just woke up and saw your response!! and yeah kaorus not my cup of tea either, age gaps in general are just uncomfy for me

i actually havent done bad ends😭 im nervous to do them, and from what i've heard (aka i heard its gut wrenching) umm😭 i dont think i wanna try the bad ends for a little while (for the sake of mental health stuff and i dont have time really)

are they true tho? are BEs really that sad?

Hi cafe enchante anon!! I really enjoyed reading your updates, so I hope you don’t mind if I respond to them all at once!

I find some of the bad endings to be pretty heart wrenching! No spoilers, but I still get a tangible reaction thinking about Canus’s bad ending… There’s something about the meta of it: you didn’t make the right enough choices, the outcome could have been better if you had just done something differently… the fact you physically could have prevented this somehow… and I also love bad endings as a sort of “negative” character growth? The characters couldn’t grow, couldn’t work past their flaws, and it destroyed them… that, or external factors overwhelmed them, haha.

I think the way the different routes explore the relationships between humans/nonhumans, and get into the meat of how each individual world functions, is so cool! There’s so much depth to the world-building, and it feels so alive. Everyone in Enchante is so important to me,,, I kiss them all on the forehead gently,,,

And I’m sure, now that you’ve played the true route, you understand what’s up with the changing prologue and what’s up with ??? hehe

(spoilers for misyr’s route)

I think why his route felt disappointing, despite being so strong in terms of writing and emotion, is because of the bittersweet ending. Everyone else managed to resolve their issues and achieve a regular happy ending, but Misyr and Kotone sort of... don’t get that? I’m torn because I love ambiguous / bittersweet resolutions, but I’m just not sure it quite matched the tone of the series or the rest of the routes. The rest of the routes really shied away from talking about how Kotone is going to die before the rest of her love interests, but Misyr’s bluntly made it a central theme. This time, though, it’s Kotone who will outlive Misyr;; It just feels cheap he doesn’t get a happy ending like everyone else, especially after everything he’s been through </3 It just doesn’t feel like good payoff, especially since that’s not what’s been established previously!

#liya answers #otome #cafe enchante #i stayed up until 3am and my pillow was wet with tears to play misyrs route #he is sooooooooo important 2 me #I love every LI in enchante

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"It feels like flying" [Chp 1]{Pt2}

Enkai looked at the blond and smiled before looking at the raven haired boy next to him. Now this one, he made their heart skip beat. It was the same feeling that they had every time they had to do a retune using silks. Meeting with the two boys at the edge of the mat, enkai smiled at them." Hey what are you doing here?" She asked hugging the blond boy." I came to see you before you started at Ouran." He said hugging his friend back. Before stepping back so his raven haired friend could meet her." Also seeing you perform is the best! Anyways this is my best friend kyoya!" Tamaki said intruding him to them. Enkai smiled their normal smile. This had caught him off guard.

Kyoya quickly regained his cool composer before shaking your hand giving you a nod." My name is Kyoya Ootori. Pleasure is mine." He said his calm voice had a different effect on them than normal. Enkai felt their face run a bit red but they couldn't tell if it was just flushed from the routine or from him. The three walked out to meet Enkai's family who waited for them at the entrance of the meet hall. A light gasp was herd as the woman with long black hair walked over to meet the three of them." Tamaki! I haven't seen you since you were a babe back in France." She said giving him a tight hug that he happily returned to her." Very true mon ami. We just came to see enkai before they started at ouran tomorrow!" Tamaki said smiling brightly moving kyoya closer to the group. She smiled and nodded as the other boy joined the group. " Mom I'm quickly goanna go change and then we can leave." Enkai said before giving her mother an hug and waving the two boys off.

As they walked off enkai couldn't help but think about the raven haired boy that had a new found hold on their heart. The feel of the cold metal brought enkai out of their thoughts as multiple girls passed her as they changed into some more comfortable clothes." Hey that new routine was amazing ." Some girl said passing them by." Thanks." Enkai said with a small smile before closing the locker and leaving the changing room. As they walked through the crowded lobby, suddenly enkai bumped into someone." oof. I am so sorry." She began before looking up and seeing the person she bumped into was kyoya.

A light chuckle came from his chest." It's quite alright my dear. Just don't fall for me." He said and used his arm to help steady them up." Thanks." She said the small blush moving from their face to the tips of their ears. A couch came from her father as the two turned and faced him." Well, now that my shining athleat is here we can go eat." The hardy man said as the group moved towards the exit." So, now that your back sis, are you ready to go back to school?" Said the lean boy with bright auburn hair said looking at his sister.

She nodded as they all climbed into the black limo that was waiting for them outside.” I am so excited about going back. Its going to be nice to actually stay in my bed for more than a couple of days." They said as she began undoing their hair that had been keep up for the showing." So how long have you been performing for?" Kyoya asked sitting next to her and Tamaki. He watched as the two kids swapped places so their mom could help fix Enkai''s hair. They looked like almost identical copies of each parent with slight differences on each child.

While enkai had their dads bright hazel eyes. Her brother Akio had his hair. " Professionally i've been performing since i was about 13. Over all tho? I've been performing since i could walk." Enkai said as their parents smiled brightly." My little girl is a natural on the gym floor. Akio on the other hand." Her mother started." He takes after my brain and smarts." Their father finished with a small huff." O be quite. She got your brains as well. But you have your successor and i have my gym star." Her mother said, turning to face their father.

Who still had a slightly disappointed look on his face. Letting out a small smile and laugh she kissed his check." I love you mon amour." Their father said smiling and capturing their mother in a kiss." O come on you guys! You've got kids in the car." Akio said and turned away from his parents and a laugh was heard from enkai." What? I think its cute how in love mom and dad are. Imagine if they couldn't stand each other." She said as their mother continued to fix her hair. He nodded. To both of them their parents set a very high bar. It was known throughout their family's that their parents were in true love.

#kyoya ootori #kyoya ootori x oc #ohshc kyoya #ohshc fanfic #ouran highschool host club #fanfic #x oc #tamaki suoh #ohshc tamaki

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I hear that you're most like your bias and your bias wrecker is your ideal type - TRUTH OR NO

i should be asleep but i'm too awake now so answering this ask! i must bring out my biases and bias wreckers.

nct

bias : haechan

bias wrecker : mark/renjun

truth : a good section of my humour and mischief is like haechan. but tbh i think i'm more alike to renjun. mark tho, yeah. but he's everyone's type, isn't he?

wayv

bias : xiaojun

bias wrecker : ten

truth : hmm i don't think i'm like xiaojun, i think i'm more alike to kun than anyone else. honestly speaking i'm not as familiar with wayv as i want to be (haechan doesn't promote with wayv so it doesn't give me a chance). ten as my ideal type? i see it. my irl friend and i were talking about how sexy we find him...

the boyz

bias : sunwoo

bias wrecker : juyeon

truth : tbh my bias wrecker changes often so it's hard to say. i'm obsessed with juyeon a bit. but i'm quite alike with sunwoo but i'm actually not joking when i say sunwoo is so close to my irl ideal type. he even looks the part.

stray kids

bias : hyunjin + lee know

bias wrecker : han

truth : all of them are my ideal type. it's a triangle of ideal. but lately i've been a bit more hyper focused on hyunjin because the way he expresses himself is a bit similar to me even though he's stylish about it. lee know and i have similar tendencies. han is just yummy as fuck. so in a way yes, but like the tip of the iceberg. you need all 3....

seventeen

bias : hoshi + the8

bias wrecker : dino/mingyu/dk/jeonghan

truth : idk what's going on anymore. i wanna say truth but i also don't. because although there are some similarities between my biases and i - i don't find myself in them as much as others on the list. maybe a bit more in minghao than hoshi. and my bias wrecker list, take your pick. there's so many that you'll find my ideal type in there in no time.

treasure

bias : jihoon

bias wrecker : junghwan/yedam (ot12)

truth : yes. i think one of the closer ones to the truth. jihoon has the type of humour that i love. adore. it's the closest to mine than other idols i know. but his confidence is too fucking sexy where i'd say it's more an ideal type of me? or a type that sparks inspiration in me?. junghwan and yedam, in a way yes. for different reasons as well. i wouldn't say ideal type but i have fondness for both of their characters that if i met someone like them, i'd crush on them. 100%

enhypen

bias : jungwon

bias wrecker : sunghoon

truth : jungwon is kind of like jihoon where he's a bias that sparks inspiration in me and my values but i don't find myself in him. in fact, barely at all. he's just my baby. sunghoon on the other hand fits the ideal type thing so well i kinda hate it. i don't want to admit it because then my friend wins and that just can't happen. so yes, but for my sake, no.

bts

bias : jimin

bias wrecker : taehyung (and a bit of namjoon lately)

truth : no, in this case it's not a lie but it's not the truth either. i think especially in later years (and what kind of adds to this is that i'm not as big of a fan as i was years ago) i'm more alike with taehyung than i am jimin. jimin was my ideal type for ages and what will always have my heart about him is the way he accepts love in a gentle and affectionate way with other men. which in my country is hard to come by. also in this case there's too much loyalty and story to fit into this statement.

exo

bias : kyungsoo

bias wrecker : baekhyun

truth : true... i don't think i have found myself in anyone quite so much as i do kyungsoo. baekhyun is quite similar to my ideal type. not even in a romantic sense either just in a ideal person i want to surround myself with kind of way. this group fits the prompt so well.

victon

bias : subin

bias wrecker : seungwoo

truth : i do find myself in subin, a lot more often than you think. not exact or worth the whole 'omg we're so alike' ramblings, it's just...i see a bit. i get babied often. i just accept and understand it. (he's just acting in these roles but-) he can be cold and aloof. i see it. seungwoo is just...hot and i like the thought of him being my ideal type.

txt

bias : yeonjun

bias wrecker : beomgyu

truth : neither guy is particularly like me i think. in my case i think i'm more similar to the other guys rather than these two? i think the way they bicker and banter is up my alley but in general? not really. they both fit my ideal type more than likely.

TLDR;

it's a mix of truth and not quite truth. false but not quite false. in some cases it works more for others.

CONCLUSION :

i think the reason why this goes around the way it does is because the 'thought process' of biases and bias wreckers are kind of different?

with biases, it's only natural to find similarities or something to relate to in another person and a para-social relationship isn't any different. and when you start you just never really stop. i also find that the bias is typically the person (or people) you're investing more time in, thinking about them, getting to know them through the screen...

whereas with biaswreckers, they're like photo bombs. they're a break from all of that. they're the ones you're thinking 'omg they're actually so fucking pretty what the hell' 'omg so fucking hilarious' 'nawww they're actually so gentle/strong etc'. they're a bit of a jump start.

that's what i think anyway.

sorry for the essay, couldn't help myself, quite frankly.

#niwa takeover 🍯

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i have dealt with purple-pilled thoughts before on government 'dividing us' from the purple-pilled products of the nuclear household and let's just say this basic framework of their basic conception of thought

is something i believe Trump and many a politician have also spoken out again

'division'

like the problem comes from the politicians

so that you take your eye off the true problem: capitalists, the way they buy all the politicians in both parties

in other words, the purple-pilled are weak and will get you getting it 100% upside down.

united the cuntry stands in being bought also the american people are pretty united in hating immigrants

when i saw that dumb purple-pilled from my class doing this long before Trump's cuck did, it's so obviously an apology on behalf of her parents or shit, so obviously a

anyhow, what Trump's cuck is saying has nothing to do with objective adult solutionising and everything to do with apologising for the Republican party in a way

and blaming government for the messed up state of the american people

instead of taking Personal Responsibility or requiring Personal Responsibility

it's the kiddie pool blame came

that said, Trump's cuck is sort of trying to be good tonight while also sort of lashing out and pretending like i'm still the problem or 'just as bad'

but maybe Trump's cuck could like, realising that politics is obviously not their forte

and that they're treading down the same purple path i've seen before out of others, a path that is fundamentally selfish, makes excuses for the wrong people, is middling, etc. etc. etc. even as they do other things that are sort of more ...

let's call it 'a bourgeois stab at being towards the fringe' that's not quite there but you know, the observer who got their first is glad they're trying and hopes they make some progress

tho

dear Trump's cuck

i've seen the purple pilled do the exact same thing you are before

they don't ever really make progress

before you know it you'll be moving to Ridgefield, Washington and declaring firmly and confidentaly you're gonna be a Presidential Advisor someday like that last one did.

i'm glad Trump's cuck thinks they're Hanna Barbera or whatever her name is Helga Paterker or whatever what sounds accurate i don't know that show but now i do yes

seeing Trump's cuck go down the same route that purple pilled did tho um

let's see how can i use my wisdom to guide the child

well i mean going with my gut

this sort of person should stay out of politics altogether and just listen to Alejandra Caraballo on Twitter or something and talk about climate change and lowing billionaire wages while raising the wealth

it's really that simple kid, i mean granted there's a ton of political issues but just the basic

all transgender and nonconformity in appearance and behaviour all the time is probably yr precisios freedom right, THE PRECIOUS the one ring or whatever one brass ring for america so since the nuances are gonna be beyond you i mean, there's encouraging that whith is stupidly FREEDOM that shud be what you push towards including in yrself in a tutu

all climate change all the time cuz holy shit are we ever fucked it's gonna be Venus up in here and maybe we'll get to Mercury from there u never know

all taking down the power of the billionaire celebretariat and -- just think Robin Hood kid, got it

you're cucked so you're prob not gonna listen but if you're legit interest in decucking

1.) nonconformity 2.) environmentalism (includes healhty foodstuffs) 3.) Robin Hood

that's all you need to know about politics, and that both political parties are way way way too far to the right in the USA. ask a western European who's not a Nazi about that sometime.

also i'm a fan of Nonviolence but there have been a time and a place for uh violent self-defence (like Stonewall) but i mean trump is a killer, cuckboy, i dunno i know you're cucked and working within cucked limitations

but yes Trump's cuck is acting not-as-cucked tonight

but it's a purple pilled 'centrist with a leftist message' form of being cucked that i have seen before and am deeply skeptical of.

also still acting cucked cuz they think they're all a killer out there but most people is not

maybe most americans are tho, it's a barrel of rotten eggs

where am i going with this... i'm not vaguebooking but the message is not crystal clear as i digress

oh yes the point is

i think i would direct the purple-pilled child

to listen to a lot more music get a nice stereo system and to learn something about St. Louis or Detroit or some place and go explore it

kid, you ever watch that movie Fight Club

the Fight Clubs? maybe watch that movie and think how exciting it is compared to your life. think about going to do some

alternative version of that

this is a much better idea than 'yet another purple pill muddles through politics in their way'

it's great that you maybe have the patience to deal with other babies and sometimes move them slightly leftward on some things

but you incidentally or accidentally drag them way rightward on some things too

just like that other purple-pilled

so, it's like sigh

let's look for alternatives

Fight Club is a good alternative

i'm not talking about actually making anybody bleed

but there's good ideas in that film if you don't mind the blood, ideas that even in your stupidity you should be able to get into your head you know?

so, rather than fart around any longer being MY SELL FUH i would suggest watching that film on loop and thinking about how you'd much rather be living in an abandoned mansion in Detroit

i mean, if the dream is good enough for me it's good enough for you

and keep dreaming and come up with some of your own

life is too short to waste it thinking you're smart or can be smart

even i wasted mine that way, i'm not that smart and if i can't do be somebody smart enough to really figure out politics in this stinkhole cuntry

you deffo are not don't even try it, kid

go treat yourself to something fun like the St. Louis restaurant scene in a Hawaiian print before it's too late.

oh wait wrong movie that was that massively inferior Tarantino thing like all his inferior films

there ya go kid

i like your south side wigger thug in black look i really do

half leatherboy from nuclear family trying to be cool half a product of the south side thug environment

it's a halfway point, it works i really mean that, it's truth in advertisement

but it's also, you know, pretty obvious to a guy like me what's going on

maybe you want to be less obvious

maybe you want to broaden your horizons

red is a manly colour if you must be like trying to be a man or whatever

i personally think if you went to dine in St. Louis in a muumuu i'd be shocked and impressed and maybe even declare defeat

don't be like a fifth rate version of these people in the past who had balls

but baby steps

leave the muumuu to the adults like me i'll have to pick one up in Detroit

anyhow, broaden yr horizons before it's too late

i regret that i didn't do that more i think but the delightful side is that there's still plenty of time for me to do so

did u know kid

that there's a neighborhood in Detroit called Sherwood Forest

and i'm totally going

there's also hilariously a Beverly Hills Michigan

Detroit has to be funny as fuck to exist in I know that doesn't sound all that funny on paper Right now it sounds kinda just pathetic but I am willing to make if not the most out of it Then something out of it Giving it 'my all' seems like a great way to get an ulcer But giving it my 75% is better than what the other kids doin prob What are you gonna go hang out in Naperville I want to find out

also you should go hang out in Naperville and write a report on it nice day trip 4 u treat yourself to a nice thick fat juicy steak there

you only Naperville once, kid, don't take it for granted it's on the Amtrak line you can hoof it from the station and do the riverwalk and talk with the locals

don't make me do it myself cuz i will you know i always end up doing it for everyone else

#mommie dearest

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I'm sooo excited, I can't even explain. I feel like enha comes back just when I start to really miss them. Although I was a bit anxious because I went on a mini vacation to another town just before they announced the comeback and I was fearing for my wallet around that time (I was hoping they'd announce it a bit later so I could scrounge up the money to preorder) but alas they announced it while I was broke so instead of feeling sorry for my pocket, I picked up a temporary job to do through my semester break - which I'm on rn - and preordered anyway. So far I don't have a preference for a concept, although I like the D version more than the J version but I'll take any concept at this point. I just want the photocard gods to give me ramyeonz again (but I would be happy with 1 jake pull also). I could trade my pulls to get what I want but tbh the fun of it for me is seeing what you get, so i usually just keep whatever I pull and hope for the best on the next album 😆

I've also seen the teasers but I've been avoiding hearing them in case they have spoilers. I like going into albums blind because I have so much suspense building up as we're leading up to the album release that when I finally watch that mv and hear that album, it blows me away even more. idk, it adds to the fun imo 😆😆😆

I hope it's not a permanent fatigue and that you heal quickly, or at least that ir gets easier to deal with 🧡🧡🧡

I'm okay!! Like I mentioned, I'm on semester break so I'm honestly just sleeping and doing as little as I can when my boss doesn't need me. I really want to go out this weekend tho.

I think for the first 2 weeks of my break I didn't even touch my computer, which is understandable because I study design so * most * of my time is spent in front of the computer with an adobe program open. today is really the only time I've had motivation and time to make gifs since my last sets (which was either enha performing polaroid love or jake's log, I can't remember lol, but it was a while ago.)

i must admit I did really develop jake brain rot today, I have even more gifs of him in my drafts that I'm probably going to post later hahaha but it's fun just making gifs of videos I want to make gifs of and not caring about notes or anything :')

also, I have to ask!! do you watch kdramas? if so, have you seen business proposal? I loved it sooo much and it's now my 2nd favourite kdrama - my first will always be crash landing on you - and it got me through a few of my projects towards the end of the semester. I was a bit late to it so all the hype was already over but I still think it was worth the watch 😆

and finally, I hope you don't mind the long ask 😶

— seungzie

@jseungz i don't mind the long ask at all, i love it in fact !! i'm so glad you were able to preorder and i am sending you luck for your pulls <3 and i totally get wanting to wait to see and hear everything without spoilers ! i personally am impatient so i tend to watch everything for my ult groups ajdgbjh but i respect y'all who are able to wait it out and get the full impact at release; it's true that spoilers can change the way you receive it at first, and in my case i usually like to listen to the full album in order before i even watch the mv with the title track but it doesn't always work out that way. i think even when i check out teasers or album previews i still find things that surprise me, but particularly for the enha comeback i prob won't actually check anything out until the actual drop either - we can be fully surprised together!

thank u, it should not be permanent but it may take quite a few months to get over - luckily, i'm on a semester break too, so i have plenty of time to rest! it makes sense that you'd want a bit of a break from screens, but whenever you feel inspired it's always nice to see your creations hehe. brain rot fuels some of our best work i think 😂

i don't watch any kdramas ! i tried to watch what was it ... 'let me be your knight' for my beloved donghyun but tbh i really don't watch a lot of tv in general like, barely any, and kdrama episodes tend to be quite long so i didn't end up sticking with it. i did watch the film 'love & leashes' with a friend though and thought it was really cute! i thought that was a drama when i was just seeing the previews around it, i didn't realize it was just a one-off. maybe i'll find one eventually that i can get into! i think i'm suited for shorter contents so web dramas are probably a better bet, i did watch 'to my star' as well and really enjoyed it but those episodes are super short haha

#i'm rly terrible with tv ajkdgjb i am watching the anime spy x family lately though! do you like anime as well?#erimail #mail from: seungzie! 🦌#long post

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patience is a virtue

summary: college!au. all aged up. eren and reader continue with their sexual escapades. find part one here! warnings: 18+ minors dni. dirty text messages, dirty talk. dom!eren and bratty reader (i suppose?). throat fucking and semi-public sex. (no p in v tho) word count: around 3.5k A/N: i have a love/hate relationship with this eren ahaha, he's been ruling my brainrot ever since the last part so i hope you enjoy! there will be a part three eventually, so be on the lookout for that! enjoy your read and feedback is greatly appreciated! xx

you awake to your phone vibrating somewhere next to you. the hope of it only being a one-time occurrence quickly proven to be false as it just wouldn't stop. brr-brr. a second of silence. brr-brr. pause. brr-brr.

taking a mental note to never go to sleep again without turning off your phone, you roll over to your other side and try to ignore it. you could simply answer the texts, but that meant you'd have to open your eyes. and that whoever was texting you would win this weird battle you've just come up with in your head.

"if you don't pick up your goddamn phone, i'll smack you over the head with it," sasha groans from the other side of your shared dorm, words coming slurry with her tiredness.

brr-brr.

"i could also stick it up your ass, your decision," a pillow comes flying to your head, serving as enough of a warning for you to sit up in your bed, rubbing the sleep from your eyes.

"quit moaning, i'll turn it off now," you yawn, feeling around your bed for your phone, "you never hear me complaining about the shit you do in the middle of the night."

"that's because my shit is funny and not fucking annoying," she scoffs, followed by a muted thump as she is sinking back down into her pillows. sasha's way of ending the conversation.

you find your phone half-tucked underneath your pillow, the display already lighting up again. someone is desperate for attention, you think to yourself and unlock your phone with an annoyed sigh. the messages were coming from an unknown number.

thinking about your wet pussy. this is eren, btw. historia gave me your number. i told her you wouldn't mind you don't mind, do you?

in a matter of seconds, your heart is beating in your throat once more, just like this afternoon in that godforsaken computer lab. ears growing hot at his words, you could almost imagine the sound of him laughing at you again. with trembling fingers, you scroll down further.

anyway, let's do it again sometime i told you. i'll never let you forget about how you moaned my name i'm also not forgetting about how badly i want to fuck that pretty mouth of yours, so it's a win-win see ya, then

staring down at your phone, you don't know if you should answer him. and even if you would answer his texts, what the hell should you say? "fucking bastard," the words escaping your mouth before even realizing that you'd better keep quiet. the only thing that could make this situation any worse was if sasha were to wake up again.

scratch that, you think as you see eren's new messages.

how badly do you want to suck my cock? you looked really hot today, covered in my cum what, you're shy again?

there are two ways this could go: either you stand up, put on some clothes, and then go to eren's dorm to let hell rain upon him - or simply mute your phone and ignore him. deciding to go with the latter, you lie back down and save his number as "fuckhead", a small grin forming on your face. if he wants to be childish, then you can be, too.

the display still lighting up at a steady pace, you have to fight the urge to open his other messages. to physically prevent yourself from grabbing your phone again, you put your hands between your thighs and sigh. what the hell have i gotten myself into?

"so, who am i gonna have to teach some manners today?", sasha asks in the morning, "because there are only two valid reasons for sending that many texts in the middle of the night," she sits up in her bed and bends over to reach for her phone, "either someone's dead or there's a food sale."

cringing at the thought of having to read the countless other messages eren has sent throughout the night, you try to laugh at her comment, "of course, when there's food involved, you're all for it."

"girl's gotta eat," she claims, thankfully being too distracted by something on her phone to notice your strange behavior, "i'm gonna be back later than usual today, connie wants me to be his wingman again."

starting to go off on a tangent about how connie should just get a dating app already, sasha's words become more of background noise to you. you want to know what he wrote. what he has in store for you. at the same time, you curse yourself out. you're turning into a headless chicken and all of it because of eren fucking yeager?

you nod here and there, offering her a "yes" at what you believe to be fitting moments, desperately hoping she doesn't catch up on your restlessness. all the while the two of you are getting ready for the day. this goes on for a few more minutes and you have no clue what she's talking about now, so you decide to grab your phone and stand up.

"i'm gonna go for a run around campus, you want coffee?" you blurt out, interrupting her monologue. the device in your hand feels as if it's burning through your skin. slipping into your trainers, you're already halfway out the room, her perplexed "uh- yes, please," being muffled by the door closing behind you.

it's still warm outside - not as hot as yesterday, but warm enough for you to be glad to have forgotten your cardigan earlier. you let out a deep breath, trying to clear your mind. even though you told sasha you'd be out for a run, you walk at a slow pace.

some people are already wandering around campus, most of them on their way to a lecture. at this time in the morning, everyone has their heads full with their own worries so no one notices you slowly making your way off-campus.

arriving at a little park surrounded by trees, you sit down on the bench farest off. you notice your heart fluttering like the wings of a hummingbird when pulling the phone out of your back pocket. fuck him, you think once again while typing in your code. fuck him for making me feel this way.

12 unread messages.

didn't seem all too shy when i had my hand wrapped around your throat no need to play hard to get when i already had you if that makes sense? haven't fucked you yet doesn't mean i won't get to fuck you

all you want is to feel appalled by these messages. to screenshot them and send them to the dean. maybe even to his mother. sickened with yourself though, you already feel the familiar warmth creeping up your body, curling up in your abdomen.

i know you want it, too how fucking needy you were for me getting yourself off in public to the thought of me maybe you can tell me what exactly you were thinking of? gonna make sure to let your dreams come true, princess

pet names? you clench your fist at the thought of eren leaning over you, breathing the word princess into your ear. you have an inkling that he'd say it mockingly; spitting it out whilst gathering your hair in a ponytail, arching your back forcefully, and slamming his length into you without mercy.

no. you hate pet names. at least, you've always hated them.

i'm gonna find out if you're ignoring me right now remember, you're not the best actress. fucking suck at it, actually wouldn't want to be punished now, would we?

his last message echoed in your head. still coming to terms with the fact of what happened yesterday, now you have to deal with a whole new revelation: eren yeager being a cocky motherfucker pushing all the right buttons for you. even though you want to blast his ass for this, the mere thought of him being near you again is too sweet of an imagination.

you want to play this game, too. for whatever reason keep on riding this high, and you just know that no one could do it quite as well as eren can. somehow you can only imagine taking him on this ride with you, no one else.

so, in that manner you decide to ignore his messages. if he's desperate enough to keep on sending them in the middle of the night, you're sure it won't be long until he sends another text. and it would give him enough reason to try and punish you, whatever that might entail – you're excited to find out. fucking nervous, too. but then again, who wouldn't be?

you stand up and put your phone in your back pocket, a sense of excitement surrounding your steps as you turn left to make your way to the nearest coffee shop.

"something tells me you're ignoring me," of course, the moment eren's voice comes up behind you, you fucking flinch like a little bird that's been scared away, "mostly because i've seen you reading the messages, but what do i know?"

you turn to see him clutching his heart dramatically, "don't play with my feelings like this," he swoons, bringing one hand to his forehead. he's laughing again, all white teeth and bright smiles – you realize this is the kind of eren you rarely get to see. not the cocky bastard he normally portrays; right now, he seems to be a happy-go-lucky kind of guy, just enjoying himself. still, you want to show him that you can play just as well as he can.

crossing your arms in front of your chest, you slightly raise a brow, trying your hardest to not look as nervous as you feel. it's a lost cause though because you can already feel the tips of your ears glowing with heat again. can't things go my way for once? just once? you think and chew the inside of your cheek. you felt so sure of yourself just moments ago. how the hell can he have this sort of effect on you?

suddenly, his whole demeanor changes. before, he seemed laid-back, entertained by the game he played with you. now he leans forward, hands in the pockets of his jacket and an almost cruel smile forming on his lips, "don't try to challenge me in this. you'll lose."

you know that you should feel frightened. terrified, even. he's looking like a lion preparing to jump the antelope, a sense of alarming calmness around him that's causing the small hairs on your neck to stand up. but alas, the way he's looking at you seems to have the same effect on you his scent has.

"i told you not to ignore me," eren says and takes a few steps closer to you, "yet here you are, doing it again." the chuckle leaving his lips a stark contrast to his stern gaze, still trained on you. somehow, you feel awfully small again - still not frightened, though. you stare right back at him, tilting your head slightly as if you wanted to say "so what?"

"are you seriously that desperate to be punished?"

better now than never, you think and once again place a courtly smile on your lips, "seems like it."

for a split second, you see eren's smug look turn into a genuine smile. realizing that you're up for his game, he lets out a smooth whistle, "you do surprise me."

"if you wouldn't always be so full of yourself, i'm sure you'd have recognized this sooner," you can feel the confidence growing in yourself again. clinging on to it, you take a step toward him, "i'm full of surprises."

"oh, yeah? i bet you are," from the corner of your eye, you can see him lifting his hand. before thinking twice about it, you bat it away, "i'm not one for public displays of affection."

oh, it is on– eren's smirk turns into a full-fledged grin as he takes a grip of your wrist, "you sure about that?" lifting your hand to his face, for a short moment you think he's going to suck on your fingers again. but all he does is place a faint kiss on the back of your hand, "didn't seem like it yesterday."

"you weren't supposed to see."

"but i'm so glad i did," he leans forward, the two of you standing so close you can feel his breath on your face, "or else we wouldn't have this kind of fun right now."

still having a hold of your hand, he lifts his other to your jaw, gently tracing his thumb across your lower lip, "you looked so pretty in your skirt yesterday."

taking a leap of faith, you grab his hand, holding it in place and letting your tongue run across the tip of his thumb before biting down playfully. there's a hiss and then eren pulls away and grabs your arm, "come with me."

finally, you think and let him guide you to wherever he wants, let's have some fun, then.

on your way out of the park, you pass jean and marco. even though they stand to greet eren, he just raises his hand whilst not breaking his pace, "gotta go, have an assignment to work on."

"never seen you that determined, but go off," jean laughs.

before you know it, you're inside one of the countless maintenance sheds. pushing you against the wall, eren's movements seem to become more and more erratic by the second. pinning your arms over your head, he's looking down at you, breathing heavily. "you have no idea what you just got yourself into," licking his lips, he chuckles.

"oh, but i think i actually do," you smile innocently, fucking glad to have found your normal self again. admittedly, eren threw you off your game since yesterday – but it's just going to play into your hands now. he won't see it coming until it's hitting him straight in the face; that you're just as messed up as he seems to be.

"then prove it," he breathes against your ear, "tell me how badly you want it."

the stuffy air inside the dimly lit shed doesn't help with keeping eren's scent away from you. being so close to him, looking up into his shadowed face and right into his dilated eyes; you're like putty in his hands. you try to move forward, to touch him in some way because you just know that he'll feel so good under your skin.

"now now, princess," he moves even closer, wedging you between himself and the wall, "how about we learn some patience, first?"

you nod, but then grind up against his thigh, hissing through your teeth, "i worry i'll be a real handful." you know you could very well move your hands, too – eren seems to still be testing the waters as to how far he can go with you. but with him actually letting you grind on him; you decide to play into his hands.

your breaths grow quicker as you keep on, pace becoming erratic. all you want is to get rid of your track pants – come to think of it, what you actually want is eren under you whilst you continuously bounce on his cock. you want to hear him call you princess and immediately after call you his little whore because that's exactly what you are.

eren has a little smile on his lips and you know you should ask yourself why – because you're doing exactly what he has forbidden you to do – but you're too far gone. the heat growing, you feel your knees buckle but he's holding you up; one hand now resting on your waist for support. you're so close –

and then he pulls away from you, nearly causing you to topple over. chest heaving, you place your hands on your knees for balance, "what the fuck was – "

"patience is a virtue," interrupting you with a laugh, but his voice heavy with lust, "thought i might give you a lesson you're ought to remember."

you look up to see eren palming his erection through his pants, standing about an arm's length away from you, "but i have to admit, hearing you getting yourself off is fucking hot."

biting your teeth together, you straighten up and take a step toward him – only for him to click his tongue in disapproval, "you're gonna stay right there," tugging at his pants he raises his eyebrow, "i told you what i want, get on your knees for me."

"the fuck i will," you spit out and make a move again, grasping for his waistband. but eren is quick to take a hold of your hand and pushes you back to the wall, "come on, now, princess," he chuckles but his eyes are concentrated at you, "you want this, don't you?". he's asking for permission, the thought feeling very comforting to you. and also, very excited for what's about to come.

"of course, i do," you answer him earnestly, resting the back of your head against the wall, "or else i wouldn't be here."

"fantastic," he breathes, a little smile playing in the corners of his mouth, "then get down on your knees," placing his hands on your shoulders, weighing you down, "i won't ask again."

the change of tone in his voice has you nodding, slowly sinking onto your knees, you're bursting in anticipation. one hand finally pulling down his pants, he runs his other through your hair, then down your jaw until it comes to rest on your chin.

thumbing at your lower lip, he groans "do i have to be careful?"

you just shake your head no. then you break away from his gaze, fixing your eyes on the bobbing cock in front of you. it's tip leaking with precum already, you remember how badly you wanted to lick it away yesterday.

taking his cock at its base, you bend forward and slide your tongue around its head. the salty taste sending shudders down your spine, you make sure to lift your eyes again once you prepare to take it all down your throat. your other hand snakes up to his balls, slightly tugging them which earns you a moan from eren, and fuck, you're so wet at the sound alone, you let go of his cock and slide one hand down to your own center.

he gathers your hair in one hand, taking the base of his throbbing cock in the other, "bet this is what you thought of yesterday," he slowly but surely pulls your head in closer, "of how i fuck the words right out of you."

bucking your hips into your own hand, you can do nothing but whimper at his words. because yes, this is exactly what you imagined. he's only halfway in and you're already struggling to breathe, but not wanting him to stop you hold your breath and push down even further; trying desperately not to moan.

the tears in your eyes causing your vision to be blurry, you attempt to blink them away.

"shit – ", he's pumping into you now, rubbing the tears from your cheeks and then placing both his hands on your head, "you're doing so well – "

getting lost in his words, the fear of being caught is so far away; you finally moan around his cock. saliva soaking the hem of his shirt, you can't seem to take his whole length, no matter how hard you try. you're a fucking mess under him and the thought alone is nearly sending you over the edge.

he's trying to pull away now and you know he's close, so you snake your hand around his hip, hoping this is enough of a sign to him that if he dared to cum anywhere else than down your throat, you'd bite him.

"you really – " his voice is hoarse, "fuck – this is fucking perfect," he moans as he comes to the realization. leaning his arm against the wall behind you, he's fucking himself into your mouth, his panting and the sound of your choking filling the room.

you close your eyes to blink the tears away again, but eren pulls on your hair, "no – look at me."

with this the knot in your belly explodes, leaving you holding on to eren's hip as you ride the waves of electricity that are running through your body like lava.

"such a good little whore – " he's gone as well, holding your head in place as he's pumping his load down your throat, leaving you no other option than to swallow – which you eagerly do. you feel his legs shaking under your hands.

once again, eren hands you his shirt to clean your face. this time, you take it with a smile, noting that, "i still have your other one."

"don't worry, i'll come get it sometime when sasha's away," the two of you know exactly what this means – neither of you are planning on this to be over anytime soon.

"i'll let you know, then," you nod and stand up, hoping you don't look as well-fucked as you feel, and make your way to the door, "she's gone most of the time."

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