Ada...

This girl has no instinct for self-preservation. I'm absolutely sure of it. And she never learns from her mistakes. Instead, with each new day, she just creates even bigger problems for herself than before.

And if Montresor does not have time to get rid of his 'girlfriend' before she drowns him in her problems and failures (and I hope she does this to him), then I guess that Ada's next possible boyfriend will probably be worse than even Montresor.

For example, someone like him:

it's me boy, the content creator creating content for free, reblog my posts boy

insane how i made this acc for my ig page and like for literature and bookstagramming things and instead i'm doing...this. wtv this is T_T

This might be a risky hot take but

Some of you "Gregory Defenders" are starting to annoy the absolute hell out of me

And this isn't about the "whether Gregory is innocent or guilty" side of the argument you're on, but about how obnoxious and unhinged some of y'all are about it regardless of the "side" you're on.

Not everyone in the fandom is going to like Gregory, nor will everyone see him as innocent. Some may even say he's a cold and manipulative backstabber, or that he's only popular because of "male protag privilege". And you know what, that's actually all okay and valid. And you know why?

Because Gregory is not real.

"He's only like 12!!!!" he's not real.

"He's just a child!!!" he's not real.

"He's not guilty he was brainwashed!!" he's not real.

"He's only trying to protect himself he doesn't deserve hate!!!" Let people dislike/hate him if they want, it won't affect Gregory at all because he's not real.

It's not like people are bullying a real child. He's a fictional character, in case y'all ever forgot that detail.

Actually no, I am SURE y'all forgot that detail, with how you treat people who dislike him as if it was an actual moral issue and paint them as evil for not sharing your image of your perfect cinnamon roll gremlin boy.

"How DARE you say Gregory's not innocent? How can you HATE him he's just a kid!!! It's not his fault STOP punishing him!!! How evil do you have to be to blame a literal child!!!? You're disgusting!!!" HE'S NOT FUCKING REAL.

Where in the fucking hell is it okay to label a person as evil or bully them for like, liking Cassie (another fictional character in case you also forgot) over Gregory??

Yes this also goes to y'all who approach people unprompted to tell them like a lawyer why Gregory is not to blame, especially with how condescending and obnoxious you are about it, pretty much reeking the vibe of "I'm telling you how wrong you are for blaming Gregory because you're clearly stupid for not believing otherwise, here's why I'm right and why my vision of this character is the correct one."

I'm sick of "Gregory defense lawyers" coming to my inbox after my ramblings about Cassie blaming Gregory for the elevator drop all condenscendingly like "Ummm actually you can't do that because Gregory is innocent it was all the Mimic in case you missed the details blah blah-" did I fucking ask???

(Unless people seem confused or are new to the fandom and they ask, then you may be entitled to tell them... but I still suggest being unbiased and focusing on canon aspects only rather than your personal opinion about it.)

Don't even get me started on y'all's flat out hostility towards people who don't like Gregory

"If you think Gregory did anything wrong ever I'LL FUCKING FIGHT YOU" is this really all that necessary to protect a kid that doesn't even exist??? Is it worth ending friendships or snuffing out potential new friendships with other real people over??? Worth bullying and witch-hunting other real people whose only apparent crime was loving the same franchise as you? How can you be proud of that?

(Unless you mean you will fight people in that memey or shitpost way then idc keep being a silly little guy actually)

"But I adore Gregory, and he's my favorite character!! It makes me really upset when people hate him/make art/write about him being guilty or blamed, or say Cassie is better! I don't agree with it!!" ... then why are you making yourself upset by checking out content about Gregory that you don't like? Like... dude.

People are going to create stuff about Gregory (or any other fictional character really,) that won't always align with you. And they're entitled to do it, no matter how wrong you think they are! Instead of policing what other people create about your blorbo, just look away and seek content about them that you actually like. If a particular creator's vision on Gregory is too much of a deal-breaker for you, just block and blacklist and move on. Or create the content you want yourself instead of badgering other people.

Also keep in mind that Gregory being antagonized in a fic/art/etc doesn't always translate to the authors hating him, chances are they're just writting it from other characters' perspectives who may have whatever beef with him in the given setting, so don't go jumping to conclusions either. And even if the antagonism does come from the author's personal bias, that still gives you no right to harrass them anyways.

I will continue liking Cassie over Gregory and I do think she's better and I will continue rambling about Cassie hating Gregory for believing he betrayed her even if it was the Mimic, because it is an interesting scenario, and I personally think the whole GGY thing was dumb and unnecessary (he could still have been an interesting character as just an unlucky homeless boy without any sinister plot-twist.) That's it; There's no fucking need to make it about morality, ffs. If you don't like that, ignore it, or unfollow me if it's that much of a deal-breaker for you.

All y'all are doing is giving reasonable Gregory fans a bad name, and actually making people dislike him further by oversaturating him and forcing him into a source of stress and disdain rather than enjoyment for them, where people start actually getting sick of seeing him around (and I feel that myself already.)

Let people dislike Gregory for whatever reason.

By the way...

You "Gregory Haters" are annoying me as well

As entitled as you are to your opinion about this annoying manipulative liar of a brat, there are people who share a different sentiment about him. Let them.

You don't have to reblog or comment on someone's post how much they adore Gregory to tell why you hate him, or go to the spaces of Gregory fans to spew why you hate so much this little guy they like. That's just fucking mean and rude. Make your own post, or go to the spaces that share your opinion.

Quit making people feel bad for liking a character you dislike. If you don't like Gregory, why are you even bothering to check out content about him, then? Check out content about characters you LIKE. I bet that'd make you much happier than spending your time regurgitating your hate over someone's creation about a character they like but you don't and unsurprisingly start an argument about it. Look for things you like, block and blacklist stuff and people about your hated character if you gotta but leave them alone

Let people like Gregory for whatever reason, too.

Let people see Gregory however way they see fit.

Because this bears repeating: He's not real. He's a fictional character. He's a tool. Let people use him however way they see fit to drive a story or scenario; that's his purpose, as a fictional character.

Out of context lines shitpost

Quo in normal text and Nogolsta in bold.

So! It's Quo again. And this time with Nogolsta (ao3: I_Is_A_Fangirl_Yee) with me! She was the one who introduced me to fanfiction on that fateful dreary night during camp, reading out loud to the whole dorm. The BarbiexRacquelle wattpad fic will never leave me. And that's not a good thing, me being here is all your fault.

You're welcome :)

Anyways, it's been years since that happened and we finally officially met during our childcare course. And! We found that we were both in the batfam fandom too! So yeah, we got plans for fics in the future, mainly me writing with Nogolsta creating half the plotline and beta-ing.

Don't worry fic readers i make sure she is punished for her crimes against the bat boys. I personally make sure of it

Guys I'm being whacked with a crochet hook.

Stabbed. You're being stabbed with a crochet hook.

But other than that! We're both agents of chaos and say the most random shit that doesnt make sense to others. Therefore, we bring to you: ✨out of context lines shitpost✨

Enjoy reading them as much as we found it funny to document them. There will be more.

That sounds like a threat.

It was.

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Out of context fandom shit: 

Nogolsta: Realistically, you can physically torture a 4-year-old

*Learning about how important child development is* Quo: I think I just got an angst idea

Quo: Nogolsta, Nogolsta. I need more torture ideas Nogolsta: *sighs* Share the doc with me and I’ll add my ideas onto it.

Quo, while talking about emotional development: Hey Miss, so can little kids get anxiety or like panic attacks and stuff? Nogolsta: *turns to Quo with the most disappointed look* Teacher: Yes, if they’ve been in a traumatic situation. Quo: *turns to Nogolsta with the most victorious look*

*Teacher talking about negative signs in child development* Quo: Holy shit Nogolsta: *sneakily snapping a photo* I gotchu dude Quo: Thank you

Quo: I took a test while I was sick and got a C :( Nogolsta: I once took a test while high on pain medication Quo: What Nogolsta: 11 different pills. Swallowed all at once. With coffee. Quo: Sometimes I wonder if you’re the real Tim. Nogolsta: And I got an A. Quo: You’re definitely the real Tim.

Teacher: So a child being in a negative environment like an abusive family can cause them anxiety. Now what’s the opposite of that? A loving supporting family— Yes? Quo, lowering hand: So if a child is in that abusive environment… Nogolsta: *turns to Quo for the second time with another disappointed look* Quo, ignoring her: …and you say if they had anxiety, would that mean that they would have… panic attacks? Like a toddler as well? Teacher: Well, it really depends on each person because no one can tell by just looking. They can have panic attacks, emotional outbursts, bed wetting, a number of things. Quo, whispering: Bed-wetting. Missed that. Nogolsta: *stabs Quo with a crochet hook under the desk*

Teacher, scrolling through the document: Oh look, here are some negative examples of bad childhoods. Nogolsta, turning to Quo: That's for you! Quo: I’m getting so many fic ideas rn

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Non-fandom:

*Makes a 126 cm long poster of child development areas* Nogolsta: I hope this isn’t offensive, but could you realistically put this on as a hijab Quo: Quo: WeLl WhY NoT tRY iT? Note: It worked.

Quo: I wanna kill myself Nogolsta: Oh, don’t do that. I care for you too much for— Quo: I wanna commit war crimes then Nogolsta: I support that

*While making a poster* Nogolsta, drawing a pair of hands reaching out to a toy: Quo: It looks like a cult sign. A hand reaching out to the sun Nogolsta: Don’t judge my fingers!

*talking about drawing a baby playing with feet and toes* Quo: Alright, but as long as you don’t draw— Nogolsta: I’m NoT DRawiNG tOeS!

*Talking about drawing what a 3-5 year old is able to do* Nogolsta: We could do dresses themselves here and then moving along to music in the other one Quo: …I kinda like the going to toilet by themselves bit Nogolsta: I’m not drawing a toilet Quo: I wanna draw a toilet Nogolsta: We’re not drawing a toilet Quo: I wanna draw a toilet… Nogolsta: We’re not drawing a toilet. Note: We did not end up drawing a toilet :(

Nogolsta: So my cousin got slapped with a pancake Quo: No one around me gives me context!

Teacher: So what’s the next section… ah, gifted and talented children! *Quo and Nogolsta both flinch* Nogolsta, whispering: The flashback I got from being a gifted kid Quo: Who’s a gifted kid now Nogolsta: Ha not me! Quo: Me neither! *Fist bump*

Honestly convinced that, barring maybe tumblr, bigwig social media has collapsed damn near all of my social circles.

All this shit about figuring out the algorithm, all this shit about analytics, SEO, about view time, about follower count... I just fucking hate it all now. Social media basically turned the internet from a wild west with pockets of peaceful and interesting communes to a monolithic walled city where the only thing that matters is numbers. And if you get big numbers, congrats you get to be famous!! But only if you can keep those numbers going.

And let me tell you from personal experience-- 9 times out of 10, when you post something to social media at "the right time of day" with the intent of getting some clout, your post just... Does not get clout, most of the time.

Any post that goes viral is a benefactor of circumstance. In my almost 20 years of being on the internet, the one and only thing I've ever posted that went viral was a shitpost on Twitter of me memeing on a restaurant because they had a tip limit on their app and they along with many other food and adjacent companies were being criticized for not paying their employees a living wage. This was in 2022. Last year. I learned nothing from having hundreds of thousands of likes and retweets, and have not had anything nearly as popular since. I promoted my art Twitter in the replies, but you wanna know what that did?

Absolutely FUCKING NOTHING. I didnt make any money as a result of piggybacking that viral tweet. I didn't have people clamoring for what i had to offer. And it was then when I realized that getting big numbers anywhere will ultimately amount to jack and shit. And Jack had long since left town.

That may sound like i was upset that i didnt become internet famous overnight. I honestly wasn't, but there's a point to be made here-- the chances of your platform becoming big and internet famous are about as good as your acting landing you a breakout role in a Hollywood film. You're competing with hundreds of hours worth of content per second on most platforms, and depending on the site, their algorithm, which may or may not be controlled by real life humans.

Nobody can know for certain what types of videos will be hits on YouTube anymore. not even YouTube staff know what will be hits anymore because their algorithm is a machine learning AI, and creating any content at all with the intent of beating the algorithm or making faceless computers happy will lead to burnout. And when that content doesn't make the big numbers, you're probably going to feel like it's your fault when it's really not. this goes for any social media site that uses similar methods to "curate" their user's site experience.

And I've seen far too many people i know fall into this trap, which may as well be gambling. Getting good numbers so you can get that nice dopamine hit. Then maybe you hit a jackpot. Then you're just outright delighted. So you do the same thing you did before. But it doesn't make big numbers this time. Was it something you did? Ah well. Post again. Nothing. You adjust how you post and when to post. Maybe what to post, even. But still... Your content isn't doing well. You may as well be playing slots at a casino, except instead of losing thousands of dollars you're losing time. Time that, honestly, would've been better spent doing something you legitimately like to do.

The way i see it, make content like the algorithm doesn't exist-- make videos infodumping about your special interest like view counts dont matter, draw art and post it with the same energy a 5 year old has when they show off their macaroni art to their parents. Make the music you want to hear played during a thunderstorm.

Make the content that you want because you like the idea of it existing. At the end of the day, that content is FOR YOU! It has value because you poured your passion and love into it, and no amount of Algorithms or influencer courses or viral content will ever change that. And if that does eventually lead to you being notable and successful, then congratulations! You have a large audience that's cheering you on and encouraging you to do what you love.

vent post i guess i dont know i just wanted to write stuff down instead of just go ing to bed and crying over it you can just scroll past it

im fine im sane im noramal im so unbleiveably cringe ,, the only person i have irl- fuck, or even online for that matter- to show the dumbass things i write is my silly little dumbass younger brother who doesn;t understand what im trying to get at and i guess its not his fault, i seriously doubt he's spent unhealthy amounts of time making various short scenerios in his head about charcters he came up with and eventually trying to give them a story and write little things about them in google docs because where else am i supposed to put this and its just ,, he doesnt know wht im trying to do and i dont know how to explain it to him because the "history" i gess behind it is so fucking complicated by now that these characters arent even the same characters as they were when i originally created them, other than some physical attributes and their names and he just knows them as the random cringe shit i made up in middle school but so many years have passed by now that these stupid fuckers whose only purpose to serve is to make me stop remembering that i exist and ive gotten too attatched to them because who else was i supposed to get attatched to when i was going through an identity crisis at the time- and, quite frankly, still fucking am- and it was so much easier to pretend i dont exist and just project my flaws and insecurities and underlying subconcsious thoughts into these charactes that no one knows about except me and oh god im just created a long ass vent post on tumblr that no one's going to read and no one understands the story behind fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck whatever ill go ahead and post this unfinished thing because no one's going to get it either way ill probably delete it later if it doesnt get buried under reblogs

dont think too much about this i just got sad because my brother was giving me a bunch of criticism on an outline of a story i was working on- which is fair, i need to take criticism- but he only knows the characters in it as their semi-formed cringe versions so i chickened out half way and now i feel bad because i was really proud of this thing for the whopping span of like one day before i decided to show it to another human person instead of letting it rot away inside of me like i usually do and now i feel bad about my writing skills

im trying so hard to just take his words with a grain of salt because this kid does not have nearly as much experience with writing as i do, but i feel like im copying too many of my inspirations (DnD, generic fantasy story about defeating evil creature, silly tropes, etc,,) which sucks because that was just like the first two pages of the outline and theres nine fucking pages and like the second half of it was what i put the most effort into and i felt like the ideas were really origianl but i could make myself let him naturally get to that part of the outline because i was starting to feel really bad and wieerd and oh god he is looking at ideas i havent ever expressed to another human person even though i am very familaiar with because i came up with them and they havebeen in my head for at least a year or two by now and have been haunting me ever since so instead of skipping ahead to the parts that were really good in my opinion but would have made no sense without context i just told him to piss off i gues s

i dont know. i feel dumb. i feel stupid. ive put so much effort into this stuff and the concept that ive been wasting my time feels like too heavy of a weight to handle. god none of this porbobably nmakes any sense ,,,,,,,,, i guess this is why i feel miserable when the fanart and shitpost memes i post get a comically larger audience and attention than the art relating to my silly goofy ocs, because these stupid fucking characters are all thats keeping me going . call me cringe, but is it still cringe if the concept that maybe i too can be around people that love me and instead of having to like me in spite of my faults love me for them keeps me from fucking killing myself is it still cringe?

if a tree falls in a forest and no one's around, does its fall even make a sound? (shit piss fuck sorry i dont remember the original quote and all i can remember is tha t one line from that one musical i dont remember what it was)

if an autistic moron that cant even talk to a cashier without having a panic attack makes a universe full of fictional characters of his own cfreation then an alternate universe, then several alternate universes, then a spin off from that original universe and etc etc but its all just on google fucking docs and no where else except deleted excerpts from a dead wattpad account, did he ever even create anything at all?

its pointless. its all so fucking pointless. its a waste of time. why do i do this at all. its so fucking pointless. it makes no fucking sense. you cant just make a story with characters in it, then make a fucking fantasy au of that universe with the same characters but with different designs and wildly different personalities and then make a whole fucking complicated lore-filled story about the fantasy au version while the original universe's story is still left mostly unfinished like forget about a first draft of the text i havent even finished the first ddraft of the outline yet buckarooooooo

okay fuck you guys thats all i want to tell you im going to go pretend to myself to try to go to sleep and then cry now

🥺🤡✨🎨🤲

Imagine my surprise when it said "Demonicintegirty is now following you"

I KNOW WHAT YOU DID AND I'M UNFOLLOW SHAMING

/playful

I just answered 🥺 so I will answer the others!

🤡 What’s a line, scene, or exchange you’ve written that made you laugh?

Literally anything I've ever written that has Witch in it has made me laugh at some point, but I think my favorite most recent one was:

“Sometimes I write love letters in the notes. It is a shame you cannot read them,” he hummed, and Cross laughed outright. He’d never written a single love letter in his entire life.

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

jkhskjaf I'm going to answer this one differently for everyone who sent it because I will check this later when the imposter syndrome comes back and use it to remind my brain to stop being my nemesis, so with that in mind: I'm very good at throwing one or two lines into things that sucker punch people. Like a little treat just for my inner angstlord.

🎨 How do you feel about fan art of your stories?

The highest praise you can pay me is to show me anything you've created that is inspired by my works. Be it fanart, fanfics, mood boards, a song you heard on the radio that reminded me of them, shitposts, whatever. I LOVE these things. I link every single one like clockwork to my fics. W&G's author's notes are a trainwreck that I won't apologize for.

🤲 Would you please share a snippet of a wip?

Technically W&G is done, it's just not posted, but I'm going to give you a White & Gray snippet because I want to pspsps you to read it. You like Salt Lord. I think you'd like it. >.>

It was a flood of fear, yes, but they could not quite determine what the source of it was for any of the three around them. They would have chased it away if they could. It was their fault, though – the result of their removing his mask. He held his left hand out to them and a mouth manifested in the swirling mass. It spread into a cheshire grin of too many interlocking, razor-edged teeth.  “Eternity.” 

There is actually fanart of this scene from @voidichor but alas, it is far away. :>

Introduction

Hi and welcome to my blog. My name is Lili, I'm kind of new here so I'm still learning how to use Tumblr. I created this account mostly to make moodboards I enjoy (I'm amateur so bear with me) but now I reblog stuff too from fandoms I love. But I'm mostly just lurking and watching fandoms silently.

Moodboard masterlist Favourite AMVs/Fan videos Moodboard taglist

Open for requests!

If you want to use the moodboards I posted, just tell me and credit me please.

Divider made by @firefly-graphics from this post

The links to the picrews: (1) (2)* - for the second one I used some filter settings with the Gallery app.

*the link to the second picrew doesn't work, it might got deleted.

About myself:

I'm a 23 year old woman

I have hazel eyes and dark blonde wavy hair with blonde highlights

I'm Hungarian so English is not my native language; if you see typos this is the reason for that 😅

Besides Hungarian I speak German and English

I'm an introvert

The worst at socialising

I'm not the best with words; I tend to be quiet

Afraid of screwing up things

I constantly say sorry for everything even if it's not my fault (I'm trying to stop it I swear)

Moody (Blues)

I like space aesthetic.

I like to look up to the stars (if the light pollution allows to) and to the moon.

Always reading something

I mostly wear simple clothes (T-shirt + jeans combo) with darker colours (blue, black) and white because of my workplace

Night owl - hence always tired

I suck at keeping something alive - I killed so many plants lol

Music interests:

I like various genres, but I'm leaning to modern rock, pop rock and videogame soundtracks - especially the OST of Persona 3-4 and Xenoblade Chronicles X.

My favourite band is Starset, I like Fall Out Boy, Panic! At the Disco, Bring me the Horizon, Bastille, Melanie Martinez and many other artists

I'm listening to a lot of mashups. Some of them are bangers, some of them are for memes/shitposts, or can be both

My youtube recap summarizes some of it

I listen to some ambience too.

Fandom interests: (no specific order)

JoJo's Bizarre Adventure

Harry Potter - I would be Hufflepuff

Fire Emblem: Three Houses

The Irish Lads (all five of them)

Agent Carter

I hope we get along! 💛

It's time for a little year-end review, folks.

Well, I don't know if you feel the same as I do, but this end of year I'm clearly tired.

it has been a year full of both negative and positive emotions.

the negatives now : I don't really want to come back to that but the failure that was the discord, the ups and downs (+health issues I had), my growing disinterest for this season, the friends we lost along the way, the disillusionments concerning the environment or the players…

Let's start with some positives: we reached new levels of followers, I got to see Jack twice this year, I made a card game with the help of the lovely @oscar-piastri, I made two wonderful new friends @saintsnlancs and @koloha12 (shout out to them to illuminate this end of a dark year)

I must admit I also induced a change and turnover regarding how I address the content on Tumblr and I want to get back to something else. I realize (perhaps too late) that I have worsened my consumption of social media and that it makes me unhappy.

It's my fault for immersing myself entirely in their world, wanting to follow everything, to know everything. I've developed a real FOMO about player content and don't like it at all. I find it unhealthy. It's not directly related to you because you don't give me any injunction to produce content even when I feel that for the excellent functioning of the blog I "owe" it to you somehow. Nevertheless, I am out there every day spending time gathering information and images for you, for me, using up precious time and wanting to gather as much content as possible from each day. It's tiring.

The gist is that I don't recognize myself anymore in the content I publish. At first it was all fun, I felt freer to make a few comments and I was slowly removing that mental barrier of being a serious blog since I basically only share photos with very few people here. That's still the case, still a small audience and a pretty healthy platform with good exchanges but I want to be proud of the research work I sometimes do and I'm not at the moment. I never share the address of this blog with anyone. I want that to change. I want to be able to make constructed articles, have debates with you and way less shitposting.

Because every day I am solicited with a lot of information to sort and compile, to have access sometimes to only one image I am confronted with images that sometimes I do not want to see or be influenced by. You have no idea how many half naked insta-girls or boys I see each day without really asking for it and all the content I sometimes browse through.

Do I like it? Not really. Before this brush-off, the whole scavenging thing, I felt like a little detective following their tracks like little breadcrumbs, but now do I really want to know where their brush has been and in which paint pot? It may make them more human but above all, it makes them very superficial and far from the idyllic image I had of them quite frankly it makes me sad. you're going to tell me I looked for it and I found it, after all what did you expected? Yeah, what did I expected, I wonder too.

I don't know yet who would be interested because I don't have any legitimacy in the world of rugby, I'm just a simple enthusiast. I don't play and my only talent is making sensible comments with @khazadkeit

I love to edit, create and most of all make the content more dynamic with new games-concepts-debates. That's how I feel now and what I wanted to share with you at the end of the year. I don't intend to make the blog more austere or less personal because I love to be able to tell what I feel without adopting a neutral tone. I'm a fan before anything else and this almost naive side of wonder that I own to put the players on a pedestal I couldn't get rid of it completely, it's part of who I am. I will always make excuses for some people even when I shouldn't and be biased.

I would also like to make a selection with the photos I post, not just publish everything as a whole in a sickly archival spirit. I want things to change for the better. I don't know what made you come and stay here, but even if it's a particular tone or my personality, I'd like it to evolve. I'm very grateful for the small audience I have and lots of you are real friends irl but please comment on how you would like to see things develop here.

I'm keen to hear criticism and possible improvements. What I miss the most is the creative side and the emulation that this blog could generate at one point. It's kind of gone and I miss it terribly.

Anyways I'm impatient to read some of your comments.

Question tag game :D

I was tagged by @ne8ula thank u thank u!!!

Name: Sarah

Star Sign: Taurus

Height: 5ft 8in (lol) (tall genes)

Time: Just past midnight

Birthday: 25th April *insert Miss Congeniality quote here*

Favourite bands/artists: Biffy Clyro and Baby Queen

Last Movie: The Incredibles with my cousin and IT REMAINS GOD TIER

Last Show: Paper Girls (plz everyone go watch thanks xo)

When did I create this blog: Dude idek, I’ve been on Tumblr since 2011 in some shape or form, maybe this blog has existed since 2013? But either way FAR TOO LONG

What I post: Multifandom sets from people far more talented than me, and text shitposts which for some reason go viral lmao

Last Thing I Googled: "Can fish get asthma” (this was my dad’s fault, do not ask)

Other blogs: Zero, I waste enough time here hehe

Do I get asks: Yes but I swear 70% of them are trolls and send the same ask to about 9 of us at the same time

Following: 238

Average hours of sleep: 8-10 hours, I cannot function on no sleep

Instruments: Piano, guitar, and I used to play the violin but I’m ngl I hated it and then I broke my left arm which made it physically painful to play lol

What I’m wearing: Canterbury sports shorts and the Bash Croft ‘Queer Was Always Here’ dinosaur t-shirt, which is comfy and iconic

Dream job: Author I am making it happen this year I swear, and also a Literature Professor which I am on track to making happen bc doing a PhD lol

Dream trip: New Zealand because I miss living there so much. If it’s somewhere I haven’t been, then I really want to go to Japan and South Korea

Nationality: British, and my heritage is entirely English, Scottish, Irish and Norwegian, so how the hell I have the ability to tan is a mystery tbfh

Favourite songs: At the moment it’s Dover Beach by Baby Queen, but I will always always have a soft spot for Biblical by Biffy Clyro, every time I see that live I cry my eyes out

Last book I’ve read: Golden Boys by Phil Stamper, and I’m currently halfway through The Transgender Issue: An Argument For Justice by Shon Faye

Top 3 fictional universes I’d like to live in: Grishaverse, but being a farmer in Kerch away from all the nonsense; the Percy Jackson universe; and the Shire, bc I too have a passion for food and drink and vibing so I’d fit in with hobbit life well I think xo

I’d like to tag (but no pressure ofc!!!): @frodo-baggins @haleths @vestero @daenerys-targaryen @victoriaspriing @lovehimidont @rorylgilmore @rosesau​

I posted 81 times in 2022

That's 81 more posts than 2021!

22 posts created (27%)

59 posts reblogged (73%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@odddelorean

@daryfromthefuture

@nemmet

@fiddlstyx

@alexalithuanian

I tagged 46 of my posts in 2022

Only 43% of my posts had no tags

#bttf - 25 posts

#back to the future - 19 posts

#marty mcfly - 5 posts

#doc brown - 4 posts

#bttf doctober - 4 posts

#blender - 4 posts

#bttf 2 - 3 posts

#bttf fanart - 2 posts

#shitpost - 2 posts

#bttf doctober 2022 - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#so doc just having made up martin and bribing seamus and maggie into telling marty about him is a really nice explanation for that as well

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I’ve been listening to the bttf musical cast recording these past few days, and I’ve been thinking about the “girls” that appear every time doc starts singing

Like when did this start? Have they always been there? 

Was 3-year-old Emmet just singing Mary had a little lamb to himself and suddenly a bunch of women appear out of nowhere and start dancing around this toddler?!

25 notes - Posted March 15, 2022

#4

36 notes - Posted June 3, 2022

the first time travel experiment at twin pines mall is what doc has spent three decades working towards, so it is no wonder that he does not want to leave anything, regarding what might be the most important moments of his life up to chance.

He has carefully planned everything that is going to happen between 1:15 am and 1:21 am weeks (if not even months or years) in advance.

How the DeLorean is revealed driving backwards out of his truck in a cloud of smoke, where exactly he and marty will stand, at what time the DeLorean reappears…

Doc manages to time the DeLorean hitting 88 mph well, that the DeLorean not only disappears seconds before it would have hit him and marty, but so well that after the car reappears, his and einsteins watches are still so in synchronization that when his watch switches from showing 1:21 am to 1:22 am, einsteins watch, switches the minutes it's showing, in the exact same frame.

There is no way to enter relative times like "1 minute into the future" as the destination for the time machine, meaning he set it to 1:21 am and managed to time the DeLorean hitting 88 mph down to an exact fraction of a second.

How many hours of training did it take for doc to gain the amount of skill needed for this? How often has he rehearsed exactly what is going to happen that night? Einstein seems to know pretty well what he has to do at any given moment, so doc must have done this at least a couple of times.

However, if doc has planned every detail, from martys radiation suit already hanging by the door of the truck, to the time the DeLorean is going to reappear being 1:21 am as a reference to the flux capacitor needing 1.21 gigawatts of electricity to operate (I don't believe that this time was only a coincidence), then why hasn't doc spend more effort into securing that he will actually have someone witness all of this?

How did he manage to forget his camera? Everything was planned so well. I am convinced that doc has written himself some kind of checklist, to make sure he didn't forget something important, so how did he manage to miss it?

The only person he wants to show the time machine to, is marty who is known to be late to everything. Marty was late for school four out of five times that week, he will be late to see his father puch biff, he will be late to show up at the town square after the dance because he had to change, there are probably so many moments that I can't think of right now where marty is late. Even the movie's own tagline deals with this:

"He was never in time for his classes… He wasn't in time for his dinner… Then one day… he wasn't in his time at all"

Even though often it isn't his fault, he is late to pretty much everything he can be late to, so why doesn't doc just tell him to be there at an earlier time?

Here is my little theory on this: Doc didn't forget the camera. He left it in his lab on purpose to have a reason to call marty.

In part I marty has a big problem with admitting mistakes to doc: After doc tells him to not use the amplifier, he promises to keep that in mind, even though it is already too late. When doc in 1955 asks him if he has interacted with anybody, he says that he might have bumped into his parents, which is severely downplaying the situation.

So of course when doc asks him if he has fallen asleep, he pretends that he has not. Doc is of course aware of martys insecurity and knows that if he had called marty just to make sure that he would be on time, marty would feel extremely embarrassed knowing that his friend assumes that it is more likely that marty will be late instead of being there, when he promised to be there.

Therefore doc had to come up with an excuse to call marty. He left the camera on the bed where it would be easy to find and searching for it would not cost much additional time. In the end, we can see that docs plan has worked and marty is only a minute late. Now everything can go just like how doc planned (until the lybians show up of course).

#3

one of my friends just referred to back to the future as “that movie about Marty McFlurry and the time truck”

102 notes - Posted April 6, 2022

#2

while looking through all the features, my bttf blue-ray had to offer, in the hopes of finding something interesting, I stumbled across a thing called "setups and payoffs" (or something like that), which is supposed to show a little bit of text, each time that something, that will be important later shows up, or that something calls back to an earlier part of the movie.

Even though it seemed useless to someone, who has watched this movie as often as I had, I decided to turn it on.

Most things were pretty boring like: "marty will end up playing guitar at a school dance later, just not the one he auditions for", but one bit,in particular, caught my attention:

It being almost only a dark shadow and dave covering it up most of the time that we get a shot of the tv, make it hard to see, but

See the full post

115 notes - Posted May 29, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

BTTF AU where marty arrives much earlier at docs mansion than he does in the movie and interrupts him, while he is hanging the clock in the bathroom. Due to this doc doesn't fall, doesn't hit his head and doesn't have a vision of the flux capacitor.

Soon marty and the DeLorean are starting to fade as they're not supposed to be in 1955, so marty has to spend the entire week in 1955, just bashing  docs head in with different objects.

173 notes - Posted March 7, 2022

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me being angry at random people on the internet on my tumblr again, but...

i once saw an american on twitter, a libertarian/conservative shitposter, who made fun of the fact that brics chose a brazilian (former president dilma) to be the president of their bank. he quoted some random fact about them using us dollars to pay for their debt trying to create a new currency for brics (which is unheard of in brazil btw, what’s actually going on is a planned new mercosur currency) and that it’s doomed to fail because a brazilian leads them.

i’m sure he meant that we have failed to attain hegemon status under capitalism like the us did or something. so we must be dumb. i considered actually replying to him that this wasn’t factually true (i didn’t because i know he’s a shitposter), that we have failed mostly due to the lack of a cohesive long term project our elite agrees for the country, rather than some inability in regards to individuals’ skills or that we’re collectively less capable than americans.

brazil is the only country in latin america without skyrocketing inflation (i mean there’s chile. but anyway is it a country?). that was achieved with plano real in the mid 90s. a dollar was worthy about 1.75 real until whereabouts 2013, when that aforementioned economic elite fabricated an economic and political crisis to achieve their own short term goals (such as en masse privatizations and corroding of worker rights pending for almost a century). the brazilian elite is shortsighted and will agree to see the country burn as long as they can keep their positions (which allowing the country to get richer probably wouldn’t do, since the us has before backed a coup in brazil to benefit themselves, when president goulart sanctioned a law to limit profits of foreign companies leaving brazil, like 2 years later i think, he was couped by the us).

and other than that banks in brazil are the only institutions that will always get richer no matter what, and brazilian private banks are amongst the richest in the world, so it’s definitely not our banking system that’s at fault here. i believe in brazilian science and ingenuity and that most of what binds us to poverty as a nation is the national project the elites have for the country, which is roughly the same since colonial times. a tiny portuguese elite ruling over everyone else, and damn the rest. there have been tries to make the country democratic, and for sure there are several things going on politically in the country. we have a solid democratic foundation in our institutions and in our constitution, yet the elites managed to break through for a while in 2016-2022. and they wrecked a lot of havoc in the process. the economy was in shambles before lula took over (he is sometimes aligned with the economic elites, but not always; dilma was not and was impeached, bolsonaro was but was impossible to control and was discarded; the elites cheered with lula’s election, because he plays the same game as them though in opposite sides so to speak), and all signs point to them being back again in 2026.

now, i understand shitposting because it’s good to be american and live in the imperial capitol (the contiguous us). but i think it takes a level of being shitty to blame other, “lesser” countries’ failings on a supposed inherent inferiority. it’s just one of those things that’s so unfair it makes me angry. but there’s a lot of that going on, i’m an angry person.

I posted 1,099 times in 2022

That's 1,099 more posts than 2021!

76 posts created (7%)

1,023 posts reblogged (93%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@masterofrecords

@vociferans

@derinthescarletpescatarian

@headspace-hotel

@aria-faye

I tagged 338 of my posts in 2022

#made with krita - 41 posts

#digital art - 34 posts

#twisted wonderland - 33 posts

#angstober - 28 posts

#angstober 2022 - 28 posts

#jamil viper - 25 posts

#weil in her natural habitat - 24 posts

#genshin impact - 21 posts

#jamil twst - 15 posts

#azul ashengrotto - 15 posts

Longest Tag: 95 characters

#actually looks like something i want to work on for art. ...xiao is proooobably going to suffer

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

So... we all joke about "who is going to tell Malleus it is NOT an otome game", right? I was listening to the "Make a Wish" song.... and thought: "What if Malleus overblots exactly because someone told him that?........ (Do not mind me, I am just shitposting)

43 notes - Posted November 27, 2022

#4

Very rough flat colours - not indicative of final product - just a start and marking everything. Striped fabric killed me.

45 notes - Posted November 14, 2022

#3

Masquerade

Ok, so… I think I am done with these two dancing! I had FUN with drawing this artwork, though it was also a HUGE challenge. I feel I got better at rendering in digital! The power of simping, I guess. And yeah, I promised to deliver Jamil (And Ashenviper) content and, while it took almost 3 weeks, I hope you all will enjoy these two.

To be fair, Twisted Wonderland somehow kicked my creativity a lot, and I feel much more motivated to do art. Especially Jamil art. Thank you, @masterofrecords, it's all your fault.

The masquerade event was just a perfect combination of beautiful Jamil and Azul, Venetian Masquerade aesthetic (love it, LOVE it) and the gothic architecture (that I am obsessed with since childhood and that I am trying to learn to 3d model). And it also kicked my memories of historical dancing, so now I went back to it!

Hope to make more art! If you love Jamil Viper and have any ideas for future artworks - feel free to drop an ask!

58 notes - Posted November 15, 2022

#2

Ok, I know my anatomy sucks and my forshortening sucks even more, but anyway, dropping some of Weil's Jamil agenda for this week.

If for some reason you wanna see some Jamil art from me (because we need more Jamil on this site) - you can slide an ask to my ask box. No guarantees, of course - my motivation sucks the same way as my anatomy, but I will try my best. Probably won't draw any kisses because this is too hard for my poor brain. (Also, I am based to Jamil/Azul ship)

And here you have poor Viper starting his overblot.

72 notes - Posted October 29, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Puppet Masters of Night Raven

Ok, so this is my super fast brainrot that I needed to get out of system to move on.

Got it when learnt what these two did in Masquerade event. We love controller casters in this house.

In other news:

Looks like Ruggie was the only one that did not get the baroque heels. Yes, the heels on all the other costumes are the one you wear for Baroque dancing.

Rollo, ffs, man, why the only guy you put in typical 18-century breeches and stockings (that accentuate calfs BEAUTIFULLY) is JAMIL. Don't get me wrong, dancing makes your calfs look suuuuuper nice, but Rollo, your brain works in... interesting ways.

(I admire Azul's self-control, he did not combust on spot when he saw that)

89 notes - Posted November 17, 2022

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emotional/rant stuff below the cut.

these past few months have been frustrating in such a unique way. it feels like everything's coming apart in all personal terms possible. on the surface level im irritated by 'normal' stuff like my job sucking or maybe not having enough money to do things, typical shit; but deep within i feel this swirling agony and frustration with the fact that i'm just not. understanding people anymore. i almost cant recognize groups of people at this point, i don't feel almost any kind of camaraderie because everyone who insists they're close to me just. they're interested in only a small sliver of the shit i'm into but they're nothing like me, the stuff they do or praise is shit i'd never get into or actively have a disdain for and it gets to me. it makes me feel like they don't actually know a god damn thing about me. and this isn't to say that i just hate all the people i know now, i still like them i just. it's so crushing to feel like i'm completely on the sidelines watching them all do something. i could be smack dab in the conversation and activity but i'll still feel like i'm not being seen or understood at all. i guess that's my fault for marketing myself as just a funny guy with a two-bit act and interests and it's all just finally catching up to me. I feel like nobody takes me or anything i create seriously; it's half the reason i want so badly to break away from the bullshit i got myself in now to do something personal. If i hyperfocus all my attention into something longform, something with context and stakes, and make actions and moves without having to spoonfeed or shitpost what's going on in my stories in scenarios, maybe they'll realize that it isn't all shits and giggles from me forever, maybe they'll *actually* pay attention, maybe they'll take the personalities and characters i make for more than just dime pieces. it gets under my skin anytime anybody says they love my characters; i don't have shit that actually explores who they are and i know damn sure i didn't sit down and have an hours-long conversation with you for you to actually understand them either. i understand they're being nice and trying to just drop a simple compliment, but my fucked brain just can't help but become skeptical and grimace at it every single time. it doesn't even have to be my characters, it could just as easily be another friend's. i know in my mind that whoever's saying that would never ask for a full sitdown to learn that character over in that case either so it just something that doesnt mean anything to me anymore. it doesn't help that i've probably developed the most puzzling hyperfixation to wash over the mentally bent crowd this season. i'm so passionate and interested in bullshit that is so hard for normal people to even consider being good in any way, it all just looks and sounds the same for them and every single time i get carried away and get so excited to share it i regret it with all of my fucking being. they don't even say anything rude but i can just taste the boredom and slight ire and i just feel all the more like i'm the only one who can find the good in the shit i enjoy. and in the same breath, there's people who actively are *into* the same thing but there's always something askew that stirs confusing feelings and i just have to duck away and subconsciously build up a wall like "you're interested in the thing i like but you're not like me at all, get the hell away from me." I don't WANT to be standoffish like that but my mind can't let me get close like that if things are off. honestly i might just be spoiled or maybe came up into all this social shit wrong in a way. i had a friend, the only person i'd call my best friend, way back for multiple years and they just. they treated me like i was so special all the time. whenever they made something for me it was *for me*, they didn't go and toss it out to the wolves; they made it specifically for me to make me happy; and of course i did the same for them! and they were almost always willing to talk about or engage with the stuff i became interested in, and i did likewise for them as well! but shit started changing, they started to step out into things the both of us always chided and made fun of or outright disliked (or at least i thought we both disliked); and i guess as a teen/kid i couldn't take it. Contact broke apart, conversations became quick, days went by with no words. they're back now, i can see them doing things; but they're not in my life; and infact i can see them doing the same thing they did with me with someone else who i've actively grown to dislike. this isn't even the thing that has me boiling over but it sits and stews in the back of my mind all the time. and this isn't even mentioning the deeply personal, private stuff that i can't get any kind of solace in either. I'm not right in all my feelings, thoughts, or perspectives here; i know that. It's just all how my fucking brain is taking everything and it's been fucking me up for a good while now. this rant isn't sorted out and i haven't sat on it to pick out every bit to make sense, it's all straight from the head right now. thanks for reading i suppose.

Throwback to when I was in 9th grade and read Lord of the Flies for English class and got REALLY into it, which was also around the time the “Ocean Man” meme was in full vogue, meaning that the only rational way in which I could possibly respond to Simon’s death was with this atrocity of a video