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jacky-rubou · 6 months

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Planning to write an essay on the limited Ford and Mabel bonding in the show and well, I thought of approaching you if you have any pointers. Especially dispelling any misconceptions by the fandom whether Ford overlooked Mabel or the bond she shared with her brother.

I think the main misconception I see is that Ford didn't care about Mabel at all in comparison to Dipper. Or, in some ridiculously extreme cases, that he hates her.

People forget that Mabel was the first twin he interacted with, and it was largely positive. Ford laughed and said he liked her when she stated that his six fingered handshake was one finger friendlier than normal.

The Last Mabelcorn being the episode where Ford interacted with Mabel the most gives a big insight into how he feels about her. First, he agreed with Mabel when she stated she was probably the most pure of heart in the room (i forget the exact phrasing but same difference). He trusted her with the unicorn mission, even knowing that the unicorns were difficult. And last of all, he directly tells her that she is a good person without even knowing the struggle she went through with her morality moments prior.

Dipper and Mabel vs The Future is contentious in this regard, fans often using it as proof that Ford doesn't care about Mabel just because he asked Dipper to stay in Gravity Falls. But honestly, Ford cared enough to observe Mabel's social skills with the pizza delivery guy, plus probably witnessing plenty of instances of Mabel handling herself without Dipper's help. He genuinely believed that Mabel could handle being without her brother outside of the summers.

Plus, it isn't like Mabel was forthright about her feelings about leaving Gravity Falls and growing up until she blew up at the end of the episode. Obviously there are things to be said about Ford taking Dipper on as an apprenticeship being a good or a bad idea depending on who you ask, but Ford didn't know how badly Mabel would take it. He thought he was doing Dipper a favor by giving him a head start on his studies and, as I previously mentioned, that Mabel would be fine at home. That the two could reach a compromise if needed.

Ford isn't perfect though, he does tend to project himself onto Dipper after finding out how similar he thinks he is to him. That might've affected how often he spends with either twin or how he saw their bond, but to say that he doesn't care about Mabel at all is simply misguided. He cares about them both so much. His traumatic experience with his own twin just tainted how he saw the twins' bond being something that could be potentially suffocating. He does sorta have a point though, Dipper and Mabel can't force each other to stay glued at the hip forever or it could potentially stifle their individual dreams if handled badly. But that's just my 'controversial' opinion right there i guess, so take it with a grain of salt if you wish.

And besides, if we were gonna get upset at Ford for favoring Dipper over Mabel, you might as well also get upset at Stan for favoring Mabel over Dipper in some honestly worse ways than Ford ever did to Mabel. Stan literally projected his father's abusive ways onto Dipper and justified being hard on him with 'toughening him up'. Not to mention how he made Dipper the butt of his jokes so often it drove Dipper to seek out time with Ford over him because Ford never made fun of him like that. Obviously Stan does care about Dipper too, but the double standards in this fandom when it comes to how the grunkles treat the twins is honestly flabbergasting. Neither grunkle is perfect in how they handle the twins, neither are 'better' in their methods, and I think that's the point.

it doesn't help that Ford doesn't get a lot of screentime compared to Stan, as i'm sure you're already aware.

anyway, if you have any more questions, feel free to let me know. hope this was a good insight into all this Ford and Mabel business.

#AskJacky #analysis #gravity falls #ford pines #stanford pines #grunkle ford #ford and mabel #mabel pines #dipper pines #stan pines #< didn't mention him much but it still counts #i hope this is reasonably accurate #i feel like it is #but sometimes i fail to realize something and it all flops lol

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astrolionking · 6 months

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John Dory/Hickory Headcanons

I love them sm and I had a few ideas

John Dory fell HARD for Hickory first, it was during a party and Branch introduced the bros to his friends but when they got to Hickory, JD was SMITTEN

Every time he’d see Hickory, JD would get nervous and fidgety and try to look cool around him

Finding out Hickory is also a nature dude who lived in the mountains, JD has fantasies about Hickory random “manly” stuff and looking SO GOOD doing it👀💦

JD thought he was discreet about his crush and watching Hickory doing some hard work but Hickory caught on quickly and starting flirting

At first JD didn’t realize he was flirting bc JD doesn’t actually expect someone as cool, handsome and strong as Hickory to like him in any way (low self esteem)

But when his brothers point out that Hickory “definitely likes him back”, JD is genuinely shocked

Hickory definitely wants to go on a date but he loves how nervous JD gets and wants him to muster up the courage to ask Hickory out

One day JD manages to finally ask him out on a small hiking date and Hickory immediately agrees

Their date is really fun. They have a nice walk together on a pretty trail, they get to know each other more and Hickory is much more bold with his flirting. Honestly, JD was surprised Hickory showed up at all (again, low self esteem)

After the date, Hickory asks if he could kiss him and JD is so stunned but he says yes. The kiss felt so magical to him

The day after, JD is all giddy and still feels like it was all a dream. But when Hickory goes up to him and is all lovey dovey with him, JD is SO happy it was all real

As they have more dates, they grow closer

Their flirting and teasing is more outward

JD gets flustered so easily, even when he’s trying to impress Hickory with something

Rhonda absolutely loves Hickory bc he makes JD happy and that makes HER happy. So as far as she’s concerned, she has two papas now lol

Despite them being a very happy couple, JD still doubts that he’s good enough for Hickory. He’s constantly thinking that Hickory is better off with someone else, how he will find someone better, how he’d realize that JD isn’t worth his time, etc.

When Hickory finds out how JD feels, he has a whole talk with him about it and Hickory says he’s very happy being with him and he doesn’t wanna be with anyone else (which gets JD very emotional)

For their first anniversary (maybe six months?), they have a cute picnic in the woods together. Hickory sings him a sweet country love song, JD writes him a song back and they spend the rest of the anniversary on a nice and quiet nature walk (and when the night ends… well, you can guess what happens😏)

They like making each other breakfast. Hickory specifically likes making JD coffee. JD isn’t a fan of cappuccinos but Hickory’s will always be his favorite

They go on hikes and road trips about once a month, just having alone time with one another.

Hickory definitely attends performances JD has as much as he can. He always cheers him on and it makes JD so giddy after the show

JD’s bros tease him about his boyfriend and JD gets embarrassed but can’t help but smile bc “omg Hickory is my boyfriend!! Holy shit it just hit me!!!!”

Hugs and kisses are JD’s favorite things. Physical affection of any kind has him weak. He’s also extremely touch starved so the first time Hickory pulled him into a loving hug, JD got emotional and never wanted to let go

Branch is a little awkward about one of his friends dating his brother but he’s supportive and very happy JD found someone

Floyd is the HAPPIEST abt it and helps JD get ready for dates, gives him small pep talks and gives him advice

Bruce teases JD by asking if he wants to marry Hickory and JD is hella flustered. But he does admit he’s thought about it a LOT bc who wouldn’t lol

Poppy is jumping for joy that one of her best friends is dating her boyfriend’s (or just best friend depending on your shipping preferences) brother

Introducing JD to Dickory was terrifying bc Dickory is 1000% overprotective. He’d definitely threaten JD that if he hurt his little/twin brother, Dickory will hurt him

The Bros were ofc more chill but they do tell Hickory that he means a LOT to JD so please do not hurt him (or else they’ll hurt Hickory lol)

#dreamworks trolls #trolls world tour #trolls band together #trolls 3 #trolls john dory #trolls hickory

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masked-artist-xp · 5 months

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Damn, it's been a while.

Fang adjusted themselves as they heard Ellis's several questions. They tighten their grip around her as Ellis's body relaxed a bit. They remain silent for a moment before speaking softly. Fang's partially muffled voice heard over the sound of the light rain from outside the window that was cracked open a bit.

"...There's a lot going on actually...and it kind of frustrated me seeing all those people so...close...to you..."

Fang's tail gently taps the bed in a smooth and slow rhythm. They gently move their thumb up and down on Ellis's upper arm. Fang's aura of lust that was a hazy pink cloud surrounding them....felt...different...rather than the lust and desire being what the aura was giving off...it felt more like feelings of love and affection...more innocent and pure....

"...I-....honestly don't know where those people came from, but...it's okay! It's not like they were hurting me!" Said Ellis in a kind and comforting tone, her voice sounded so sweet and precious to Fang.

"...I know they weren't hurting you...but...still..." Fang keeps their voice quiet, a slight purr being carried in their voice from their chest.

Fang's tail wraps around Ellis's leg slightly and their arms and legs tighten their grip around her small frame.

"Hey, I get it. You were just looking out for me, you're a good friend." She maintains a soft and kind tone.

Fang noticed Ellis attempting to free her leg by moving it and noticed the slight bit of anxiety as she was getting uncomfortable. Fang also felt a slight pain in their heart as Ellis reffred to them as a "good friend". They wanted to be more than friends with her. Show her that she meant so much more to them than she would see. Though, Ellis was so dense it made it difficult. Fang was trying to be obvious all this time...but it was so hard.

"...sorry..." Fang muttered as they remove their tail from around her leg and loosen their grip on Ellis.

"...Ellis...you know...I am trying to put out all these signs for you...and I would straight up tell you how I feel...but I don't know how you'd react..." They mumble, burying their face a little more.

Fang knew what they wanted, but they were scared to tell Ellis. They didn't want to loose her if she rejected them. If she didn't feel the same.

"W-what do you mean? I mean, it can't be that bad...you should just tell me...and...I can tell you that I—...." She stops herself mid-sentence as Ellis's face goes red. She attempts to hide her flushed cheeks.

"Never mind, ignore that last part." She mumbles before going silent. It's almost as if she knows what Fang was trying to say.

Fang pauses. They have a glimmer of hope. Maybe she did feel the same?...

"...Darling...if someone were to ask you out on a date...or more specifically asked if they could be your partner...what would you say?..." Fang tried to hold a calm and steady tone despite their high anxiety.

Ellis felt her heart rate quicken slightly. She began to fidget with Fang's tail as she spoke, seeming flustered.

"I– w-well, it really depends on the person...if they're like— y'know, my friend, and I've known them a while, I might say yes. I never really say how I feel to people though, I usually just let them come to me."

Fang moves their head to rest on Ellis's shoulder as they held her close. They trace a heart shape in the middle of Ellis's chest over and over with their finger. Fang's tail occasionally wrapped around her fingers, hand and wrist as Ellis fidgeted with their tail using one of her hands.

"...what if I were to ask to...you know...be...your boyfriend?...or partner?...." Their voice shook as they spoke softly. Seeming nervous. Hoping for a positive answer.

"A-are you...asking me out???" She says as her face turn a brighter shade of red then before.

"...I-I mean...uh...s-sure, I guess we could try it..." She states as she tries to play it cool. Trying to hide her obviously flustered expression.

Fang felt their heart rate increase. Their tail kept trying to tap quickly and their body trembled a bit. Fang's pale white face slowly being tinted with a light pink color. They are silent for a moment in order to process this answer.

"...you're sure?....you'd be alright with me being your partner?..." Their tone was now seeming more confident and excited.

"Sure, why not?–" Ellis attempts to contain a casual tone but is betrayed by the wavering of her voice that peeks through.

Ellis shook in slight excitement. She still was attempting to hide her flustered and bright red face from Fang's view. Fang's tail broke free from the slight grasp of Ellis's hand as it began to very quickly but lightly tap on the bed. They gave her a tight and quick squeeze as they nuzzle her neck and give Ellis a quick kiss on the cheek. Fang has a large smile plastered on their face now, feeling genuinely happy for the fist time in what felt like ages. This went well considering they hadn't asked someone out since the 10th grade. It had been a while, but it went well. Hopefully this wouldn't be something they would fuck up. They had faith in this.

#ultimate goblin brain spillz #fang #oc stuff #my sona #ellis #writing #dragons blood #fallis

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tragedyposting · 6 months

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rating ao3 tags

I was tagged by @supercantaloupe. thanks sach! this looks like a fun, fresh one :)

Tags generated here! Basically tldr; generate ten and rate them according to... with bonus points if you explain why. How much do these tags affect your decision to click on a fic? -10 -> very dissuaded 0 - don’t care either way +10 -> very enticed nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged

OK so confession, I (also) don't read much fic. Basically I exclusively write fic (for me the draw of fanfic is in the act of creation) unless a friend sends me something they've written and want me to read or it crosses my dash and intrigues me, so I'm going to just kind of comment on how much the tropes/topics interest me in general as a fanfic writer or as a reader.

Friends-to-Lovers: +7. I am honestly not all that interest in sex/romance in fiction, I think its an overrated aspect of the human condition as far as fiction is concerned (not to say it doesn't have its place I just feel like we put waaay more importance on it than need be and as a result it oversaturates the way we engage w storytelling) but if I'm going to read a romance narrative I need them to like each other. I love couples who are equally viable platonically and i love couples with long histories that bond them closer.

Illnesses: 0? Or maybe like +5 with a caveat? This is highly context dependent bc I'm a sucker for caretaking and sickfic and I would def love to see more rep for chronic illness stuff but I don't think I'd want to read about like, slow terminal illness or anything like that its just too real/personal for me.

Relationship Reveal:-4. Yeah idk, having been in a relationship scenario where I had to keep it a secret in some contexts (for [her] closeted reasons) I can say I'm not really a big fan of the secret relationship thing. Been there, done that, not a fan. But I guess if you had a really interesting premise I'd do it.

Broadway: +10 I guess! I have written a nice dose of Broadway fic myself. Unless the tag implies its like, a story set in a Broadway theater? I wouldn't want that.

Elevators: 0. Idc I'm not claustrophobic so I guess thats not a problem but this is so niche.

Public Humiliation: -10 I'd rather die. If that's your kink I'm not judging but it is soooo not mine. I don't do secondhand embarrassment well.

Light-Hearted: +8. I prefer angst as a general reader most of the time but light-heartedness appeals to me in fanfic as a balm for the stress of high-stakes stories.

Acceptance: ? Idk what kind we are referring to here.

Coercion: -8 its not like a full-on trigger or anything but I find it very uncomfortable/unpleasant, even in a non-sexual context.

Poison: 0. I'm not booting up ao3 to search for poison-themed fics but its fine I guess?

Tagging @signawyvern @sofiyaalexandrovnarostova @windsweptlassie @crown-and-stallion @bratyakaramazovy and @jjesperr if you wanna! also if i didnt tag you but you wanna do it feel free to say I tagged you bc i cannot think of people's URLs tonight.

#rebecca rambles #tag game #but tag here has a double meaning :3

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pagepainter · 23 days

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Being the bigger person

Sometimes being the bigger person is so hard. Sometimes I have to do it at the expense of my own emotions, at the expense of my own mental well-being. But then again, it all depends on context. For example, I am willing to prioritize safety and protection for the person that I want to protect; it's for the greater good, for the guaranteed safety for both. But in this context that I'm saying now, it's between two people without the externalities affecting the both of them.

I've been evaluating my own life recently, and I realized that a lot of my friends' relationships really go a long way, and the most recent vent I received from them really had me thinking, where do I draw the line between being the bigger person in the relationship and standing up for my own feelings?

I guess it's one thing to feel hurt, but still have the emotional maturity to know that I'm in the wrong, admit that I'm in the wrong, and follow up that apology with a corrective action, but it's another when after doing all that and finally being vulnerable and saying my own feelings especially when it's so hard to do so because I grew up suppressing my feelings because no one ever listens, and when I finally take that risk and open up, they end up making me feel like my feelings are downplayed and invalidated. All the more I would think 'There's no point in saying my feelings anyway. They won't listen.' Yet, somehow, I find myself taking the full blow of the blame. I end up saying the things to them that I wanted to hear.

There's this constant battle of 'I have to think from their own perspective, don't be so selfish.' and 'It's my feelings, why am I not allowed to get angry?' but in the end, it always goes back to 'it's okay, you did make a mistake, and you apologized for your actions, and how it made them upset. As long as you know that you will make that change, it's enough. Your feelings don't matter as much, they're hurting more than you are, so don't be so self-centered. Imagine how you would feel if they did that; you would feel upset too right, so be more understanding towards others, okay.'

So yeah, her conversation with me really had to trigger that dilemma that I've been having but it's really never a black of white situation, it all depends on context, and how the situation is handled. I have to record this down because I feel like sometimes, when I get too worked up, I have to remind myself that others are hurting too, and it's always putting their needs first. My actions, my intentions, can really change how things would have turned out. So honestly, to me, as long as I do realize my mistake, and I make corrective actions to do things right, I'm doing my part to be responsible, and that's the expectation I want to set for myself. The feelings part? Eh, I'll work it out myself.

#mythoughtsexactly

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asktheahogesandblondes · 1 month

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Usually, this isn't a question typically asked, but what is the time difference from your perspective in receiving & replying to these posts compared to us? As for us, it has already been a couple of days. Seemingly, from your perspective, it has been a few minutes, at least for the whole body switching. Could it perhaps fluctuate depending on a set amount of asks? Anyway, enough being a nerd, and here is another question (for all). What's your favorite movie, whether live-action or animated?

Shuichi:We don't really know, being honest when we started this blog we didn't expect people of other universes to ask us things, so we didn't really know that even time runs different from you guys...or for use to get body swapped.

Miu:If I had to guess, maybe how many we receive does affect it? I mean this shit is news for us.

Hajime:But the good thing is this is close to blowing off early and without much trouble for us...which is a plus because things would been hard to explain.

Natsumi:And thanks Makoto and Despair Bitch for handling things while we were uh...busy.

Shuichi:And if you're wondering why they aren't here, well they want to take the chance to experience doing...yourself, so sadly they won't be here in person to answer your question.

Miu:And yeah, don't worry Mr. Magical dragon guy, she is having a taste of the good shit right now. Anyways my favorite movie is...I guess the Equestria Girls franchise as a whole.

Shuichi:Mine is the Sonic OVA.

Hajime:Mine is Dragon Ball Super Broly.

Natsumi:I don't exactly have a favorite, I mean I do watch some Mafia movies for shit and giggles but not exactly favorites...

I hope a universe doesn't explode because my lackluster answer.

Miu:And to not leave your answer incomplete we gonna message Makoto and Despair Bitch to ask them...*Messages them*

...Oh.

Shuichi:What's wrong?

Miu:I gotta watch out because Junko is mad at me for interrupting them...

Natsumi:...Well, it was nice knowing ya.

Shuichi:...Well, Junko's favourite movie is home alone, while Makoto says he doesn't have an absolute favourite and the answer changes depending of his mood, though he did say he likes Robocop....and he also Hopes a universe doesn't explode for his lack of an actual answer.

Miu:I just hope to live another day before Despair bitch kills me.

Shuichi:I don't think she will follow up on that...or at least Makoto won't let her.

*M/A Counter:1*

((Author notes here because I feel leaving this in the tags isn't really appropriate, how much time passes between asks is really up the air and what I think at the time, since I do these without any planning at all, it only ended up being a few hours in universe cause the "Sairuma and Hinatsumi railing each other"...subplot I guess happened, though if someone had asked them a question I would have them answer.

Also if I took a bit too long in answering, it's honestly cause I blanked in terms of what movies would they like, granted Junko has a canon favourite (home alone) and Makoto does mention he likes Robocop but I'm not much of a movie guy, so that's why I took so long))

#Danganronpa #DR #Ask Ahoges & Blondes #Hajime Hinata #Natsumi Kuzuryuu #Hinatsumi #Shuichi Saihara #Miu Iruma #Sairuma #Sorry because you said all of them but because 'plot' reasons Makoto and Junko aren't here #But they did answer you #M/A:Body Swap

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sneezemonster15 · 1 year

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i can totally understand why young girls would ship SS in the early-mid 2000’s. it was so easy to self-insert. take me for example, i was a young child with an unrequited crush on a popular boy and a total loser. i projected hard. she started getting on my nerves really quick tho. by the time i figured out how to watch shippuden (it was only available online in my country) i could no longer stand her. i know many people grew out of that ship as they matured themselves and realized just how bad it was, but i seriously don’t understand how so many of the og fans are still around, reveling in scraps given to them only in the form of non-canon material. it’s so embarrassing. and knowing that so many grown ass women cling to that nasty ship as if their lives depend on it makes me squirm in discomfort.

Wait I am confused. This person was a boy or a girl?

I think I understand. I know for a fact that there are many SNS fans who once were SS shippers. But they grew up and took responsibility for how they consumed media, which happens when a certain amount of self awareness sinks in..with time and experience..internally processing data received from the external world, which as a result, sharpens your intuition. Which then directly affects how you view and then process further external data. Data gathered from real life and media.

I suspect that many SS/NH shippers who are insanely delusional about their ship are simply operating on emotions. Think about the kind of arguments they give others. They know what constitutes canon, what doesn't. They know SNS is legit, it's all fucking there. They know SS is bullshit, they know Kishi mocks Sakura and SS like no one's business (like honestly, who's asking him to do it? Really what obligation is he under? This otherwise humble, quietly intelligent, kinda goofy, a bit childlike and deeply introspective at the same time, and frankly kinda mousy man, says such blatantly snarky and downright insulting shit about his own characters as if he ain't the author who is freaking writing them that way in the first place. Lol, no really, Kishi is a bundle of contradictions himself.) Lol.

But coming back, I really do struggle sometimes to find the right tone to talk about SS stans or address them. I suspect internet and anonymity gives them a free rein to exercise fulfilment of desires indiscriminately. They can behave however they want, believe whatever makes them happy and no one gets to destroy that as long as they are fulfilled. Numbers help. Stans give and receive validation from their peers. Whatever external validation they need to keep believing in SS ship, despite everything that negates it in canon, they get from others in their ship and they give validation to them in return. A sense of community builds. There's strength in numbers. And so dogmas and headcanons acquire a semblance of truth for them, through this very effective echo chamber, it fortifies their wacky theories and headcanons and they sheath themselves deliberately from reason, or anything that threatens to question their beliefs/belief systems that serve the object of their self comfort, desire, fulfilment. Their beliefs are really emotional in nature, you can't fight emotions, and internet gives them a platform to experience those emotions. Age doesn't matter if one isn't self aware. Lots of old people are shitty. Of course, I don't support enabling it but I guess I understand it a bit. Because I also get emotional here. I feel much more free to experience my raw emotions without trying to camouflage it too much. I reasoned with myself soon after joining this fandom, my first fandom, that here, I was a fan first, so I shouldn't judge myself too harshly for my opinions and understanding. A lot of which is way more emphatic compared to how much I would let it show it IRL. Media, stories and art have that effect on people.

And I feel conflicted sometimes. But well, the same reason exculpates me as well. I can be emotional and talk about them freely because this is a fandom and we are all here because of the same story that affected all of us. The only difference is we are insecure about different things. Lol.

Which is why I make it a point to not interact with them, because I know I would lose my patience with them much sooner than I with other people I don't generally agree with.

I understand why women do it. Even if I cannot relate with Sakura. So I vent on this platform while not actively engaging them.

But at the end of day, I feel everyone should expect so much more from themselves because more than anything else, Sakura's and Hinata's characters by design are so limited. Like I know it's all tied up with their self esteem, or its lack thereof, but at least don't glorify something that makes you this limited and miserable. Don't tell me it's better than everything else and is the best thing in the world because it is not. It is so small, So cheap. Such a piddling thing, so reductive and limiting and humiliating. Why project on those two? You should expect so much better from yourself. Like why can't you dream bigger at least in your imagination? Where you can have everything or anything you want, and nothing gives you a better opportunity to do that than media, but you choose the most limiting of all things and characters? Isn't it suffocating and painful? Well, in any case, just don't glorify it, turning a blind eye to facts and then gaslight me for my stuff. That's not acceptable. Even if I know where you are coming from, don't justify it. It gives the wrong impression to others, especially other women, who have enough odds stacked against them already for you to jump in on the bandwagon too, and being women yourselves no less, it's humiliating for both of us.

They use their emotions as a free ticket to say and do things indiscriminately, without thought and honesty. Cultivating emotions (and sharing them) should enrich you and help you grow, not make you regress even more.

#well that went on.....#lol #no but i have thought about it and it bothers me #i dont want to be uncharitable but credit where credit is due i guess #naruto #anti ss #anti sakura #anti hinata #ask

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tangsakura · 2 years

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「甘えてんの?」 - What Does it Mean?

Enjoy, especially the hisomachi shippers.

Warnings: if you haven’t read chapter 357 of Hunter x Hunter, then it’s gonna be spoiler so don’t go any further if that's the case; bad grammar; unedited; typos.

「甘えてんの?」 - what does this mean?

In the JP-EN dictionaries, you'll probably mostly see the following definitions for 甘える:

To be someone spoiled or to act like one (e.g. demanding attention, asking for things, seeking affection)

To take advantage of or depend on (an emotion, goodwill, feelings, etc.)

Others also shared the other meanings in the following: Link 1, Link 2, Link 3 (you can google '甘える' and read HiNative forums too or other forums as well; you might need a google translator if you’re gonna go to a Japanese forum or read something in Japanese)

Here's what the dictionary I tend to use for Japanese classes say: Link 4

(Also, it may also have to do with this concept of 甘え, which exists in the Japanese culture to understand: Link 1, Link 2)

When I first read the official raws, I assumed Hisoka was saying something along the lines of "Whining like a little spoiled brat, are you?", "Demanding my attention, are you?" or "Being a spoiled brat, are you?". Because I wouldn't be surprised if Hisoka sees Machi's anger as an act of a spoiled person or some sort.

So I went to check if that's also what the translations would say. When I read the unofficial and official English versions, I was kinda surprised at their translations. Well, more like shocked for the unofficial one actually.

The unofficial English translation goes like this:

On the other hand, the official one goes like this:

I get that the official English translation went for the second definition of the verb 甘える, assuming that Hisoka was talking about his love for her or whatever that love is. The only problem is that we don't really know if he was really referring to love, goodwill, or whatnot. So it may makes sense, but not perfectly capture the whole thing.

But on the unofficial translation? I don't know what the translator(s) of the scans were on when doing this page or chapter. I guess they derived the meaning the word, 甘い. It can mean two things: 'Sweet' & 'Naive.' It uses the same kanji as 甘える, and probably assumed the verb itself meant 'being naive' or something like that. So, the translation ended up being like 'Being naive, are you?' and then the proofreader and the QC person probably were like 'uhh.... let's make it more natural in terms of the situation'. As a result, we have that line of 'Excuse me? Who do you think I am?' line.

I also searched for the Korean translation of this page to see how they translated it, and I'm lucky I found it on Twitter.

They translated it as 'Making a fuss, are you?', 'Being whiny, are you?' somewhere along those lines. Basically close to what I assumed when I read the original Japanese line. But obvs, it may not be exact.

So to answer the question, 「甘えてんの?」 does directly mean 'Acting like a spoiled brat, are you?', 'Whining like a brat, are you?', 'Seeking my attention?' or somewhere along those lines according to the first definition or others in those links. It makes a lot more sense in the context, considering Hisoka's vocabulary and personality.

But then again, Hisoka is into those double entendres sh*t a lot, so while he may be saying those lines, he might also be referring to some sort of feeling like he might be saying 'depending on my good will or favour or love for you?'. Or he could also have a third meaning on it. Who knows wtf this clown was on or was thinking about at the moment.

Anyways, this was a hard one because there's many ways to translate this, and since there's limited space on the speech bubble, translators have to pick the one that suits the most. Honestly, even I had to think about what Hisoka might be or what else he might expressing in that question whenever I had to re-read it.

Please share what you think is the meaning of that phrase now that you know what the verb means. This is probably the only time I want other people's insight so much on this.

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PS: @wurud, I tried my best to answer as you requested. I hope it helps you understand what Hisoka means in this panel.

#hxh #hxh manga #HunterXHunter #Hunter X Hunter #hunter x hunter meta #Hisoka #hisomachi #hisoka morow #machi #hxh machi #hxh meta #hxh analysis #chapter 357 #hisoka x machi

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caribbean-ace · 2 years

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Hello folks! I did watch the episode of Station 19 6x03 that thursday but the streaming gave me hell so i thought i could rewatch it (because i was watching it in the middle of a lecture, talk about dedication am i right?) and expand a little bit on what’s happening and what we could possibly have for 6x04. You know the drill, spoilers ahead:

I have to admit that Maya working out is so hot even tho she’s on her path of self destruction and Jack is right there joining her with other unhealthy methods + Andy giving him some tough love i think + “are you always this rude? -only when i’m this angry!” That made me laugh not gonna lie😂 + the overall theme is that both Jack and Maya are not willing to accept help, not yet and forcing them to do so it’s not gonna end well + unless the show is paralleling both Maya and Jack then ignoring her pain just because it doesn’t look like Jack’s is pretty stupid i’d say

Carina and Ben duo, gotta love them! + oh yikes this going to keep going + popping pills like candy, not sure that’s a good idea, but then again Maya is in her own headspace, not even her wife can make her change her mind right now + lmao Ben that’s not a nice morning + “neurotic, self righteous half korean gay man” gotta love Travis😂 + Travic teaming up! + i’d find Beckett’s humor amussing if he wasn’t an asshole + i mean he’s kinda right, how can you depend on someone who’s just gone + lmao Maya and the doggy door + now she can come to them? Really? Ugh i hate they’re still going down the “i’m the villain” path + oh Robert i truly hope your lying catches up to you + i can’t even understand how he’s just okay with himself + lmao they don’t look impressed at all😂

Maya being confused is my favorite genre + kitty cracks me + i was very focused on Maya’s facial expressions, i think they all instantly picked up on the fact something is wrong and she’s obviously dodging it + Ben and Maya are like ugh this is going to be long + lmao chaotic Travic is my entire soul + I just want to hold Carina forever + i don’t even understand how that happened + “your husband” well, Carina Deluca can be considered daddy so i get it + where’s mama Bishop btw? + oh so we’re learning about Dixon now + Vic is me, i would actually work to avoid boredom + at least Vic is trying to talk Carina through the motions + Gibson’s hair has seen better days for sure + lmao Kitty + Maya was close to punch the living hell out of him + this is escalating way too quickly + oh my baby Maya :( + they do need therapy + Maya and Ben regretting so hard that call

Andy “i told you so” + oh yikes + Carina and Vic bonding forever + oh Carina my love :( + this was way too cute + i need more of this friendship + oh Maya babe :( + welp there’s that + oh no Carina’s smile broke me in half :( + lmao Ben was like uh we shouldn’t talk about it and Maya went like: lol i do not care one bit + lmao Travis😂😂😂 + damn Eva + so this is the moment Andy gets the approval + god and Maya is just going down this dark path and Carina can’t do a single thing, her so called friends are not paying attention

So things are moving forward, Andy seems to be more than ready to fill captain’s role which was a long time coming i guess, that means Maya won’t be captain again (i’m still bitter about the trial). I’m honestly glad that Jack is getting the help he needs from 19 but what bothers me is that everyone is just ignoring Maya, again unless they are making some sort of parallel about mental health issues and how they affect people differently then i don’t see how ignoring someone who’s clearly struggling but coping in a different way is acceptable.

I’m also wondering what’s gonna happen with Dixon, any sort of scandal that would take him out of the race maybe? Travis winning? Lots of questions i have. Also i’m wondering how things are going to progress between Ross, Beckett and Sullivan, is Andy gonna expose them or what, hopefully i get my questions answered.

If you read all of this you’re incredible🫶🏼 thanks for reading my rambling about the wee woo show that has my soul, catch ya in the next one✌🏽

#ale watches station 19 #station 19 #station 19 season 6 spoilers #maya bishop #carina deluca #vic hughes #andy herrera #ben warren #travis montgomery #theo ruiz #jack gibson #eva vazquez #robert sullivan #shane beckett

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chooseyourownavenger · 1 year

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[START] [ABOUT AND WARNINGS] [FAQ]

IRONHAWK/ Accept the job.

You sigh and cuddle between them, your head still feeling slightly swimmy. “What would my job be?” you ask. “Wouldn’t it be weird? Me working for you?”

“You wouldn’t be working for me,” he says. “With - at best. In fact - depending on the job, maybe I’d be working for you.” He sat up and pulled out his tablet. “So right now, Hill was your main liaison, but I know she fucking hates that part of her job. So if you took over from that - not only would she be happy, but you could make all their lives as difficult as you wanted.”

You snort. “That sounds fun,” you say. “Okay - I’ll do it. But this is risky. We’re just moving in together, and now I’m working for you?”

“With me,” Tony corrects. “And only barely.”

“You know what I mean. It doesn’t change the fact that if we don’t work out, I’ll either have a really uncomfortable workplace or I’ll be out of a job again. I guess, what I’m saying is; we need to make sure there’s no abuse of power either way. No playing favorites or making excuses for me as well as things like no fucking while I’m supposed to be working. I’m doing that job, and that job isn’t being your little at-work plaything. And if things go bad here - it can’t affect me there.”

“Alright,” Tony says, getting up and grabbing a tablet. He paces the room as he taps around on the screen. “So… Clint and I aren’t really the boss. I mean - yeah sure, I fund the show and make the tech and make everyone look good, but Cap’s the boss. What if I make it so that aside from meetings, where it’s the whole team, you only really deal with Cap and Hill? I know you know Hill anyway, so I think you’ll slide into the role pretty easily.”

“You sure this just isn’t making a weird extra step between Hill and the Mayor’s office?” you ask.

“It shouldn’t,” Tony says. “Well - maybe sometimes but I think Hill would be glad about it. If she just shoots you over emails.” He looks up at you seriously. “I’ll ask her. But I’m sure she’ll go for it. She’s always complaining about how much extra work it is for her to have to deal with the mayor’s office. I honestly think the only reason why she didn’t hire someone herself was because she became such good friends with you.”

“Alright,” you say. “If the job wasn’t one Hill wanted and she’s okay with it, I’ll do it.”

Tony flops back down beside you and both he and Clint hug you close. “You won’t regret it,” Tony says.

The new job is surprisingly good. It’s familiar enough that you’re able to slide into it with almost no breaking-in period, but now rather than having to be the person complaining all the time about the Avengers causing too much trouble in the city, you were the one telling the mayor to suck it up. It was particularly fun because not only did you now get to decide if you were going to make life easier or harder for the people who fired you, but you also were working directly with your best friend.

There are things you were right to worry about. Sometimes Clint and Tony try and coax you into having office sex or elevator sex. You’ve resisted so far, but you are fairly sure they’ll wear you down eventually. There’s also the issue of people treating you differently because you’re with Tony and Clint. It’s hard to tell if the people beneath you are so eager to jump to attention because you’re in a relationship with two of the bosses or if they were just like that with everyone above them. Likewise, it’s hard to tell if the people above you are being so nice because they’re genuinely nice people, or because they know they need to socialize with you outside of work.

You try not to let it bother you. As long as you’re doing the job, you’re fine and you know Hill isn’t the type of person to care at all what Tony or Clint think about her. She’s also not the type of person to put up with you doing a shit job. You have always loved that about her even if it could make her difficult to work with. Now, however, you know you can trust that you are helpful in your role and not just there because your boyfriend forced it to happen.

There’s another big benefit to working with them that you didn’t expect. Working and living in the tower means that you are in a protective bubble. There’s no press waiting for you at the doors for when you arrive home, and no random gossip in the halls. The only people who you see regularly are people who know you and have accepted the relationship as it was.

It isn’t that you, Tony, and Clint never go out together. It’s just that you’re protected from prying eyes and easily able to disguise the nature of your relationship. You didn’t care if people speculated about you - not that people did outside of which one of the two men you’re dating. What you have with Tony and Clint is private and between the three of you, and in your little tower bubble no one can touch you.

You are free to take your time with the relationship. It’s exactly what you and the boys need and you feel free to explore it at your own pace. Maybe in the future, you’ll have a commitment ceremony. Maybe you’ll have kids. Or maybe you’ll just continue as you are, happy, in love, and safe with Tony and Clint. The whole world is open to you. It’s your choice.

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adorkabell · 2 years

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All the specialists you need to see when you are a high risk pregnancy, more specifically with diabetes:

*Obstetrician* (twice a week now)

*High Risk OB/Maternal Fetal Medicine* (weekly)

*Endocrinologist* (monthly with weekly consultations)

*Ophthalmologist* (they INSIST I do it during pregnancy 🤷🏻‍♀️)

*Dentist* (cavities, gum problems, other oral health issues are normal during pregnancy)

*Neurologist*

(it’s new but I learned I don’t have Restless Leg Syndrome, it’s neuropathy … I guess not pregnancy related, but definitely doesn’t help me sleep/rest, and I don’t want to take drugs while pregnant or breastfeeding, so, that’s the best option)

And just for funsies:

Psychiatrist (monthly medication check)

Therapist (weekly)

I’m feel like I’m forgetting some. It’s been wild. It’s exhausting, frustrating, and overwhelming. I don’t know how I would do it if I was still working. No wonder employers don’t hire (and sometimes fire) pregnant people.

When I first got pregnant, my health care team was worried about baby being too big or born with diabetes, too.

At 26 weeks, Maternal Fetal Medicine (MFM, high risk OB) measured her and she was too small, in the 6th percentile, meaning of 100 babies, she would be the 6th smallest. This is considered “growth restricted”. At which point they worry about my placenta failing.

Next, they do a Doppler every week, to find out how well the placenta is doing. They also measure flow in the umbilical cord. When baby’s heart beats, a tiny bit goes back up the umbilical cord (like backwash from a straw in a drink). My baby has too much of this, which is called reversal. This, too, is a red flag.

So MFM now sees me once a week to measure the placenta function and umbilical cord flow. I see my regular OB twice weekly for a 20 minute stress test, in which they are looking to see how baby’s movements affect her heart rate. She has failed every one of her stress tests, leading me to go back to MFM for follow ups, and one time to Labor and Delivery for observation when MFM couldn’t get me in.

I have repeatedly asked what I need to be doing different.

Other then keeping active and watching my blood sugar, there is literally nothing I can control here.

I may need to deliver early, leading to baby’s extended stay in the Newborn Intensive Care Unit (NICU).

I am assured baby is otherwise very healthy and has an excellent chance of survival if they have to deliver early (currently 31 weeks).

But … people are seriously out there saying that if I miscarry, it could (or should) be a potential felony (depending on the state)?

For that matter … we expect younger people to carry a child through all of this? And do school? Or work? Or both? I’m old (38) and married and finally becoming emotionally/mentally stable. I have worked hard to get to where I am at in my life. God bless all the teen and young moms/pregnant people.

I knew pregnancy was going to entail more appointments then I have ever had, and be stressful, but … the magnitude is really hitting me.

In the wake of everything happening with women’s rights, I am more pro-choice now then ever. Not because I want to murder babies, I absolutely hate the idea, but because this is a true test of personhood. It’s not JUST about abortion. It’s not just about an UNwanted pregnancy. It’s about miscarriages, and they happen. A LOT. Some people don’t even know they have miscarried. It’s about a WANTED pregnancy that goes sideways. If you haven’t experienced pregnancy, and honestly, other then lots of appointments, this has been an EASY pregnancy, I really don’t think you can comprehend this. I’m 38 and have 17ish nieces and nephews. Of my close friends who want children I am one of the last to have them. I thought I understood. I did not.

I don’t want to debate, you know where I stand, but if you are Pro-Life, please realize this isn’t just about people Willy nilly aborting pregnancy. There is a LOT of concerning language being written into these bills. Please focus on the language and writing of these bills and not just the morality of abortion. Please read the bills first. I don’t want to change your minds, I actually respect the idea of being Pro-Life. But the language is extremely worrisome. This is all I ask if you have read this far. Look at the language in the bills for yourself. Thank you.

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happybirfdayally · 1 year

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Turkanne Meme

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice?

Neither of them? Turkey is too chill and Anne only really yells in an argument if she’s being manipulative or something and I don’t think that’s her first angle in an argument with Turkey

Who threatens to leave but never actually does?

Fuck if I know

Who actually keeps their word and leaves?

Like I really just don’t picture any of their current arguments getting to that place?

Who trashes the house?

Anne would, sorry

How often do they argue/disagree?

Uhhh I’m not really sure? Now that they’re like together their vibe is really different?

Who is the first to apologise?

Now THAT is hard??? Like they stayed in a perpetual fight for YEARS over something they ended up squashing in one conversation i

Sex:

Who has the strangest desires?

Turkey?

Any kinks?

Definitely, they’re dirty lil freaks

Who’s dominant in bed?

Turkey

Is head ever in the equation?

For sure

If so, who is better at performing it?

Honestly I don’t knooow! I feel like Anne has a lot of practice (just avoiding fucking Chad a lot) but Turkey aint a slouch either?

Ever had sex in public?

NOW WHY WAS I GONNA SAY NO! They literally fucked in the Charming’s library

Who moans the most?

Anne

Who leaves the most marks?

Anne

Who screams the loudest?

Turkey screaming is funny to meee

Who is the more experienced of the two?

Could not begin to guess

Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’?

Boooth

Rough or soft?

Uh depends

How long do they usually last?

Um a decent amount?

Is protection used?

Absolutely, Anne does have a boyfriend after all

Does it ever get boring?

Impossible

Where is the strangest place they’d have sex?

Idk, is there even such a thing as strangest when it comes to Turkey?

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children?

Not at the moment, Anne has a boyfriend

If so, how many children do your muses want/have?

Twins would b funny

Who is the favorite parent?

Turkey

Who is the authoritative parent?

Anne

Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school?

Turkey

Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around?

Turkey, Anne’s relationship with food is way too weird

Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children?

Both of them

Who goes to parent teacher interviews?

Turkey, Anne wouldn’t make it inside if the school has metal detectors

Who changes the diapers?

Turkey or a Nanny

Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby?

Anne

Who spends the most time with the children?

Turkey?

Who packs their lunch boxes?

Anne would send them with money to buy it

Who gives their children ‘the talk’?

Anne, but either of them would get through it just fine

Who cleans up after the kids?

Maids

Who worries the most?

Anne, obviously

Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from?

Anne

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle?

Anne, it’s such a sharp contrast to how intense she is that it’s kewt

Who is the little spoon?

Anne

Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places?

Both of them

Who struggles to keep their hands to themself?

Turkey

How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable?

Not long cuz it’s only Uncomfortable because they’re horny

Who gives the most kisses?

Idk feels like a tie

What is their favourite non-sexual activity?

Weed

Where is their favourite place to cuddle?

Idk

Who is more likely to playfully grope the other?

Uhh

How often do they get time to themselves?

A decent amountish

Sleeping:

Who snores? If both do, who snores the loudest?

Neither??

Do they share a bed or sleep separately?

Uhh together if they have the time but usually separate

If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart?

Cozy

Who talks in their sleep?

Probably Anne

What do they wear to bed?

Anne wears silk nighties at home or with Chad and Turkey’s shirts when she’s with him. Idk what Turney would wear

Are either of your muses insomniacs?

Anne occasionally

Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside?

Yeah

Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side?

Idk

Who wakes up with bed hair?

Anne, her hair is soo long

Who wakes up first?

Anne, if she’s with Turkey that means she has to leave soon

Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other?

I feel like Turkey WOULD but Anne would take like A bite and then leave so he doesn’t

What is their favourite sleeping position?

Idk spooning?

Who hogs the sheets?

Anne

Do they set an alarm each night?

Anne has to

Can a television be found in their bedroom?

???

Who has nightmares?

Anne

Who has ridiculous dreams?

Obviously Turkey

Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed?

Turkey?

Who makes the bed?

Turkey???

What time is bed time?

Who knows

Any routines/rituals before bed?

No?

Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up?

Anne

Work:

They’re both in school and idc

Home:

They don’t live together and Anne is a princess anyway so it’s irrelevant

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem?

How many cars do they own?

Two?

Do they own their home or do they rent?

Anne lives somewhere with Ruby probably and Turkey has an apartment with a roomie

Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside?

idk

Do they live in the city or in the country?

Idk

Do they enjoy their surroundings?

Probably

What’s their song?

I’ll Come Running Back To You by the Soul Stirrers

What do they do when they’re away from each other?

Live their lives

Where did they first meet?

ASU

How did they first meet?

They shared a class and Anne started dating Turkey for homework help

Who spends the most money when out shopping?

Anne

Who’s more likely to flash their assets?

Anne

Who finds it amusing when the other trips over?

I think they both would

Any mental issues?

Heck yeah

Who’s terrified of bugs? Who kills the spiders around the house?

Neither but Anne would kill them

Their favourite place?

Idk

Who pays the bills?

They pay their own

Do they have any fears for their future?

A lot.

Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner?

Honestly fancy dinner would give Anne ptsd if she knew in advance because him standing her up for one is why they broke up

Who uses up all of the hot water?

Anne, because she’s an asshole

Who’s the tallest?

Turkey

Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other?

Anne, Turkey runs the risk of getting stabbed if he surprise jumped in on her.

Who wanders around in their underwear?

uhhh Turkey???

Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio?

Anne, unfortunately the Rapunzel genes jump out sometimes

What do they tease each other about?

Anything

Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times?

Anne

Do they have mutual friends?

No, in fact Anne hates Turkey’s best friend

Who crushed first?

Turkey? I guess? Which made him an easy mark

Any alcohol or substance related problems?

Lmao

Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am?

Uhh Anne, drunk isn’t really Turkey’s vibe

Who swears the most?

Who knows

#turkanne

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bookofmirth · 2 years

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I want Lucien to end up with Vaasa because she’s kind to him wheras Elain is not, not for any other reason. Elain almost gave into another man under the same roof as Lucien. All Lucien stans should want better for him foreshadowing mate or not. That’s the bond rejection I want for his own good. Why should he keep working for someone’s love who could care less?

I know that some people like vucien purely because they don't like elucien/Elain, and I respect that! We all have our own preferences.

I just don't agree with that sentiment (I mean obviously I don't, but I can explain why). Sorry I used this as an excuse to air out my feelings about Lucien and Elain 🥰

Yes, Elain almost kissed someone else, but she's got every right to do that, as a single woman and as a resident of the Night Court.

Should Elain have a conversation with Lucien first, just to clear the air about their mating bond? Yes, she should, because the mating bond is currently causing him distress (we assume, Rhys said that the bond doesn't affect the dudes until much longer but I digress). While that isn't Elain's intention, it is a result of her refusal to deal with the various complications in her life. Elain is potentially causing harm to Lucien because of the unresolved mating bond, whether she intends to do that or not.

But forcing Elain into that conversation is the exact reason that a lot of people dislike the mating bond in the first place. Forcing her into that conversation would do no one any good. That's why Mor told Feyre to give them both time. Imagine if Feyre had known about Rhys UtM? Or if Nesta found out about Cassian at that dinner in acomaf? It would have gone so poorly because each of them needed to come to their own understandings of what they wanted.

To me, it depends on where I stand. I can completely understand Lucien's perspective - he wants Elain, he is trying, he is being respectful, and meanwhile this mating bond has created a connection between them that could lead to some amazing things for the both of them but I'm sure he's also seen it go really poorly. He feels guilt about Jesminda, he is currently living with two humans and has some big news coming about his real father, Beron is about to get whacked so Eris can become High Lord. It's a lot.

I can also understand Elain's perspective - she's been shoved around like a rag doll and part of that is a result of her not asserting herself, but either way she has this magical tie to a guy that she doesn't understand completely (and no one does until they actually have the bond, Rhys couldn't even explain why he and Feyre have one), she is sitting around watching all these people being happy around her and wondering when it's her turn, and... honestly until we get Elain's POV, that's probably all we can say about her. We don't really know how she feels about anything else.

I want more for Lucien than "she's nice to him". I want tension and passion and longing and arguments as they come to terms with what they want, including each other. I want negotiation and people pushing each other to do better, to be better. I want him to find an actual home with someone.

And I want more for Elain than "well so I guess we have a mating bond". I want all of that tension and passion for her, too, I want her to find someone who will tell her to stop being so passive and someone who will ask her what she wants. Not a leading question, like "so what do you think of the Night Court", but an actual open-ended question, like "where do you want to live, Elain? What do you want to do with your life?"

I think that Lucien is absolutely the person to do that for her, but their relationship is too fragile at this point for him to feel comfortable doing that. He's probably been taking his cues from how Feyre, Nesta, and everyone else treat Elain, but eventually he will see that that's not working.

tbf Lucien isn't working that hard. I am fully convinced that one of the first interactions we will see between them, the two of them on their own, will be an argument because he's tired of waiting, and she's trying to figure out how to be assertive. That's my hc.

#elucien #ask #anon #elain #lucien

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christ0pher-evans · 3 years

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Healed Heart

Final Part of the Shattered Heart Mini-Series

Pairings: Chris Evans x Reader Warnings: 18+ Minor Smut / Angst / Cheating / Arguing / Mentions of Divorce / Swearing Word Count: 2.9k A/N: So here is the final part of my mini-series. I honestly cannot thank you so much for the support on this, it means a lot to me and I love you guys for it!!! Please let me know what you think. I hope you’re happy with the ending because it took me a really long time to decide how I could finish off this story with justice. Thank you again, truly😘 Please reblog and like🖤

Part One: Shattered Heart Part Two: Troubled Heart Part Three: Bewildered Heart

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Three tortuous days had passed since you had last seen or spoke to Chris, three days since you kicked him out your home. You’d had nightmares about being in a loveless and hateful marriage, steamy dreams about your recent rendezvous and nights where you just felt so alone that you had cried yourself to sleep. It was safe to say that the past three days had been exhausting.

Although fucking Chris in the kitchen during a harrowing argument probably wasn’t the smartest thing you’ve done, it led to some realisations about how you wanted to proceed with your marriage. You definitely didn’t regret anything you said, or did with Chris that day and that was what you found important amongst the disaster. Not regretting your decisions meant that you knew you wanted to move forward in your marriage, and not look backwards; something you would consider a big first step in repairing your marriage. You knew you couldn’t forget what happened and would have to address it before moving forward but you knew you had the desire to push through the hard times.

You’d called Chris that morning and told him that you wanted him to come home, not that he could or should but that you wanted him at home with you. Emotionally, it felt like the right decision, because at the end of the day he was your husband and you missed him. Practically, it is his home as well and it was the only place you could both be to sort out your marriage with privacy. You didn’t want to be surrounded by the media or by prying eyes. Hell, you didn’t even want the opinion of family or friends, this was between you and Chris only.

As you tidied up the house a bit and thought about the moment Chris would walk through the door, it was clear to you that no matter how angry or hurt you were, Chris was your endgame. You had played all the variables over and over in your head loads of times, societal rights and wrongs about cheating when you realised, fuck society. You would never leave your husband over this, and that was okay. This was your story and who cared what anyone else thought, because you didn’t want to give up. You owe it to yourself, to your marriage, to try and fix everything before throwing it away.

For the first few days, Chris slept in the spare room and you danced around each other, trying to find your new normal whilst you navigated the mess that was your marriage.

Once the first week passed, Chris continued to sleep in the spare room and you finally plucked up the courage to address the problem that had been plaguing your marriage for weeks, months if you consider back to when the problem initially started.

The day you decided to bring it up, you had finished work early and Chris was already at home when you arrived back around 3pm.

Walking through the house, you finally found Chris in the home office.

“I thought you were filming today?” Chris looked up at the sound of your voice.

“Oh hi sweetheart. I didn’t hear you come in? Um, yeah I was but, uh.. she turned up to re-film some scenes so I came home.”

You winced at the thought of her and Chris together but was quickly calmed by the effort Chris had made to avoid her.

Clearing your throat, you found the courage to reply.

“Oh, er, did you not have to keep filming?” Leaning against the door frame, you settled in for a longer conversation.

“It wasn’t anything that I can’t just do another day when she isn’t there. I’ve got some scripts to read over anyway so it’s fine.”

You sighed. This seemed like an appropriate time to bring up the unspoken topic so you could start moving forward but your anxiety felt crippling in that very moment, you didn’t know if you could face it.

“Sweetheart..” Chris whispered, “Y/N, sit down, please..”

You moved to sit down on the small sofa by the window, tucking your feet up and under yourself. Chris moved to join you, sitting fairly close but not touching you as you hadn’t crossed that boundary since he came home.

“Look baby, I’ve been home a week now and we’ve just walked around this house like we are two strangers. I need you to talk to me, tell me what you’re thinking because you’re the one that told me you wanted me to come home?”

You looked up from your lap and straight into Chris’s eyes, “You do feel like a stranger to me.”

You heard his voice hitch in his throat, clearly caught off guard by your blunt answer.

“I’m still me, sweetheart. I’m the same person you met seven years ago and I’m the same person you married four years ago. Please don’t think I’ve changed.”

A lone tear falls straight from your eye, as you whimper, “I miss him.”

It takes Chris no longer than a second to pull you into his lap, all boundaries obliterated, as he hugs you like his life depends on it. As you cry all you can hear is Chris repeatedly whispering, ‘I’m here. I’m still me. I love you.’

You shudder at the softened and sweet contact, something you hadn’t felt for weeks but you embraced it, leaning further into Chris’s chest for comfort.

Once you had basked in the feeling for a bit longer, shutting the world and your problems out, you knew you had to move away. It would have been unfair to give Chris mixed signals as your marriage was still clearly on the rocks.

Sitting back up on the sofa, you composed yourself.

“I know you are still you Chris, but you’ve changed to me now. This you..”, you sigh before continuing, “..you’re tainted and untrustworthy, you’re the man that cheated on me, you’re not my husband. I need to get to know you again, and I need to learn to love our marriage again, and learn to trust you again. It’s going to take time.”

“B-but you want to try?”

“Of course I want to try. Endgame right? That hasn’t changed for me but other things have to change, we cannot continue like this otherwise if something else were to happen, I don’t think we would survive it.”

“I am infinitely yours sweetheart. Forever.” You watch Chris smile sweetly.

Feeling slightly more confident and feeling like Chris has really been listening to you, you knew it was time to talk about her.

“Okay, well whilst we are here, I think we should talk about her. It’s the biggest hurdle for me, and I can’t move past it. I just can’t deal with you seeing her right now, not whilst I’m learning to trust you again. I’ll never trust her so I need to 100% be able to trust you again.”

Grabbing hold of your hand, Chris nods in understanding.

“That is completely fine sweetheart. For now, how about I just work my schedule around when she isn’t there and wait until you are comfortable before I finish filming my scenes with her? I don’t care if it postpones the film, or they replace me, you are more important to me than any film and I’ll do whatever it takes to prove it to you!”

You nod feebly, shocked and relieved with the instant commitment Chris was happy to make to save your marriage and earn your trust back.

An awkward silence falls over the room at the monumental conversation you just had. Needing a moment to yourself, you decide to make a quick exit.

‘Um, I think I’ll go and grab a shower before dinner.” Quickly leaving, you rush to your ensuite.

The shower provided a solace to digest what just happened, a few tears falling as you feel overwhelmed. But you left the bathroom with a renewed sense of hope.

It was another week of tough conversations and private marriage counselling before you felt you had reached another milestone in fixing your marriage.

You were in the ensuite of your bedroom when Chris came in to say goodnight. He was merely wearing a pair of pyjamas bottoms that amusingly you were wearing the matching top of.

He chuckled as he leant against the wall, “I was looking for that top.”

You giggled lightly and blushed, using all your self control to not drool over seeing Chris topless. Unfortunately, you had never been good at hiding any of your emotions from Chris and you saw him smirk slightly at your flustered state.

“Okay, well, I just came to say goodnight, so uh- night I guess..”

You mumbled a goodnight back as Chris turned to walk out the room. A rush of affection from the interaction washed over you causing you to shout back towards Chris to catch his attention.

“Um, stay..”

You saw the startled look on his face as the words left your lips.

“Stay with me tonight..”, you repeated as if you were confirming your own words.

“Yeah, course I’ll stay, if that’s what you want?”, he shuffled back towards you.

“It is what I want.”

You smiled at him sweetly before you brushed past him and moved towards the bed, leaving him a bit stunned in the bathroom.

Weeks passed with no problems. You and Chris had gone back to sleeping in the same bed and you often woke up snuggled together. At first, you’d wake and quickly move away from him however, slowly, you became comfortable with it and you were finally starting to feel at peace in his arms.

You had woken up early this specific Monday morning as it was Chris’s first day back filming with her. You felt sick to the stomach at the thought of him seeing her again and had slept terribly. You knew this day would come and thought you would be, at least slightly prepared, but as the day dawned, you were scared. Nerves caged around your heart as your mind could only replay the moment Chris told you that he had kissed another woman.

Chris had to go back to work, you understood that. He had already put it off for a while and sacrificed enough of his job to try and reconcile your marriage. You almost felt obliged to let him go back to work, who were you to hold your husband back from his job?

You were sitting in the kitchen, slowly nursing a very strong coffee when Chris came down, ready for his day. You glanced up at him briefly, barely acknowledging his words to you.

“Y/N? Sweetheart, are you okay? You’re up really early?”

Glancing at the clock reading 7:30am, you shrugged and mumbled, “Woke up at 5:30am.”

You stared in the abyss, thoughts whirring through your mind. Thinking about being frightened to death about the thought that your marriage wasn’t even halfway back to where it should be. Knowing that Chris would see her today, spend all his time with her whilst you were waiting back at home for him. It felt like some sick and twisted de ja vu.

It had been almost two months since you’d last been with Chris in any form of intimacy, almost four months since you were truly a happily married couple and now he was going to see her again, were you really debating that history would repeat itself?

“Baby, will you talk to me? I can see something is on your mind”, Chris gently rests his hand over yours, bringing you out your nightmarish daydream.

Looking up at Chris, taking in all his handsome features, you thought, how could anyone ever resist him. The thought panicked you even more.

Learning from previous mistakes, you knew it was best to communicate to him how you were feeling.

“I’m scared you’re going to see her again today and history could just repeat itself. Nothing is fixed yet Chris, and it feels like we are already going backwards.”

Just when you thought that being honest and communicating with Chris was the best option, it backfired in your face. Chris scoffed, a look of disgust on his face.

“Huh, you’re not kidding?” Watching him run his hand through his hair, he turns away and slams his coffee mug down on the side. You jump at the aggressive action.

“You really think I’d do that again? You really think that little of me? Have you not seen all the work I’ve put into this fucking marriage the past couple of months?”, he shrugs and turns back to you, “What else do you want from me Y/N?”

You wince at his spiteful words.

“I know you’ve put a lot into this marriage Chris, so have I! We’ve been doing really well, but can you really blame me for having doubts on your first day back with her? I thought you’d understand!”

“No, I don’t blame you, but I thought you’d trust me more that this by now.”

You chew on your lip nervously as you both stare at one another, terrified of the silence.

“I’ve got to go to work Y/N, see you later.” You hear Chris huff before he walks straight out the house, leaving you sitting dumbfounded and anxious at your kitchen table.

Trying to do any work from home was useless as you just felt panicked and couldn’t stop thinking about how Chris’s day was going. You hadn’t heard from him since this morning at it was now 6pm.

After developing a painful stress headache, you decide to lay down in bed. Believing you can block the world out and briefly pretend that nothing is wrong in your marriage, you shut your eyes momentarily.

FLASHBACK.

Waking up so softly, you barely blink your eyes open as you feel tender kisses dancing their way up your back, following the line of your spine. You flutter your eyes open carefully, aware of the vibrant sunlight gracing your face as you try to focus your eyes, gradually making out the floor length curtains gently blowing through the breeze from your open balcony doors. You can hear the soft crashes of the waves and can see the soft, baby blue sky from your place on the bed as you stretch out all your limbs from an energetic night. You let yourself surrender to the feeling of Chris’s lips grazing against your bare body.

As he gradually makes his way up to your neck and cheek, you hum in utter happiness and contentment as he places one final kiss on your cheek as he leans over your body. You can feel every line and shape of his naked form as it presses up against you. You think about how you’ve never felt so happy and loved in this moment, knowing that this is exactly how you’ll get to feel for the rest of your life.

“Good morning Mrs. Evans”, Chris roughly whispers, his voice hoarse from minimal sleep. He nibbles on your ear teasingly before grinding his core over your ass. You whimper at the feeling his movements evoke from you.

“Mhm, I like how that sounds”, you mumble before smiling happily. The use of that name giving you butterflies. The one that now belongs to you, the name that now proves you belong to each other forever.

END OF FLASHBACK.

You wake with a start as you hear the front door slam slightly. You sit up too quickly, as you feel light-headed and your vision blurs slightly. You breath deeply, gaining your bearings before looking at the bedside clock. 7:30pm; you had slept right through dinner.

Not that it mattered because you would have been eating alone anyway, you thought.

Your body adjusts to being awake, your stomach fluttering slightly at the memories and feelings that the dream provoked. Momentarily caught in a fever dream.

Back in reality, you brain registers that there was a slam at the door. Quickly, you get up and rush downstairs to see what is happening.

As you halt at the bottom of the stairs and look out into the open plan room, you see Chris standing by the breakfast bar. The very same breakfast bar that holds so many recent heartbreaking conversations. But this time, it doesn’t bring you sadness.

There Chris stands, holding takeout food in one hand and in the other, your favourite donuts. Behind him, on the wall, hangs the framed photo from your wedding day. Your matching smiles beaming on both your faces, almost as if they are lighting up the room.

You look back at him, standing here in your house. Bringing home dinner to you. Coming home to you.

Your breath catches in your throat, “It’s you Chris, it’s always going to be you.”

You watch him place down the food on the side, before he begins striding towards you. Stuck in your spot, you can’t do anything but smile at your husband as he reaches you.

“Forever yours”, you whisper before Chris’s lips crash onto yours for the first time in months. Your lips work together as your hands grip as his waist and his grasp your neck and face so you can’t move away. So you can only feel Chris, so you can truly remember the raw intimacy and passion between you.

As your lips melt together, it feels as monumental as the moment he kissed you as you became his wife. It feels as if your story is beginning again; with a fresh start and a new-found hope for your marriage.

♡

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