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celluloidbroomcloset · 2 months

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Hey there,

You’ve got a lot of insight into Ed and his whole journey from S1 to S2. Apologies if you’ve covered all this already (and I’m not the most articulate of people so also apologies for any confusion), but I’m interested in your thoughts…

I get the impression that a basic debate here is that either Ed is a psychopathic sadist (who basically ‘reigns in his sadistic tendencies’ until he loses Stede) or he’s someone struggling with his own self loathing and the toxic environment he’s had to live in (or maybe I’ve missed the mark entirely).

If it’s the latter, do you think he becomes at all vindictive in S2? Or is he more going through the motions of what he thinks is expected of ‘the pirate Blackbeard,’ because he’s somehow trying to cut off his emotions or is just tired of even trying to be anything else (ie himself) anymore? Or maybe it’s something else?

Also, to me personally it seems like Ed is stuck in… how to describe it… a depressive stasis at the beginning of S1, like at least resigned to death but doesn’t actively seek it until the end of S1/beginning of S2. I can’t decide though if in S2 Ed wants to take the crew with him (because that at least means not dying alone, like the mother and the cat in Crimes of the Heart), or if he doesn’t mind one way or the other what happens as long as he’s dead, or if the goal is to actively make the crew despise him because he thinks hatred and death are what he deserves?

Again, sorry if I’m beating a dead horse here…

Thanks!

So a lot of people have written a good bit about this. This is just what I think (and my thoughts may change—I'm planning on rewatching "Red Flags" today).

When we meet Ed, I think he is depressive and perhaps passively suicidal—he's talking about how the one thing he hasn't tried yet is death, but he doesn't seem to be really looking to die, and meeting Stede makes him re-evaluate the life he's been living and what he wants from it.

Stede and the space of the Revenge make Ed feel safe to express the parts of him that he’d concealed within Blackbeard in order to survive (the whole bringing out of his mother’s silk and Stede giving him the space to wear it openly on his heart). He tries to find this again with the crew after Stede leaves him, and it is Izzy who tells him that he is not safe unless he is Blackbeard (by directly threatening him and telling him that he would be better off dead than being the person he is).

I think a lot of what he’s doing at the end of Season 1 and into Season 2 is malicious compliance - “You wanted the caricature of Blackbeard, well HERE HE IS!” By the time we pick up with the Revenge in Season 2, he's moving from passive to active suicidality - he has been unable to correctly perform (Izzy invoking Stede and the fact that Ed's feelings are what have made the atmosphere on the ship toxic - quite literally his inability to conceal those feelings have poisoned everything around them, according to Izzy. Ed's feelings themselves are poisonous). Ed cannot reconcile his past with what he wants to be with who he is, and he has lost the safe space to be Ed.

I don’t think he wants to take the crew with him - his first move is to try to get Izzy to kill him; when that fails, he tries to get the crew to do it. If anyone actually just pulled a gun and shot him, he'd not try to stop them. He’s goading them until they’re forced into a space where they either have to die themselves or take the initiative and kill him (hence his “finally” right before his death).

Ed has been working to become all the monstrous/demoniacal stories about himself, the ones that have been told by the English and by his trio of monstrous fathers. He hates them but he also wants their approval, and he’s transforming himself into the monstrosity that others say he is. His love for Stede and the things that he was allowed to access via his relationship with Stede are the soft, genuine parts of himself that he has been told are not him but that he's also now incapable of concealing. He’s not worthy of that softness, he’s not worthy of love, and so he tries to kill it.

He’s going to die on Stede’s ship, with Stede’s cravat around his throat, murdered by Stede’s crew, as a final confirmation that all the things he wanted to be, and all the love he felt, he wasn’t really worthy of, that Stede was right to leave him because look at what he’s done, and that the people who loved him should never have loved him. He’s dying like all his monstrous fathers have died, murdered by people who once cared for him and whom he should have taken care of, but failed to because he's a monster.

#reply #ofmd #tw: abuse #tw: suicide #our flag means death #edward teach #ofmd meta

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gravity-barbie · 2 years

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Flirting with the umbrella academy women HCs

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A/N: If anyone wants to request anything else for just the girls, I would love that

Allison Hargreeves

-Allison finds your behaviour obnoxious but equally amusing, often rolling her eyes at you while trying to bite back a smirk

-She isn’t one to easily be swayed by praise and admiration (not anymore anyway), but there’s a certain open-heartedness to your words beyond the surface level flattery that she can actually appreciate

-In general she’s more attracted to people that carry themselves with a higher level of respectability than you, yet against her better judgment she finds something about you charming

-She gives you a lot of “seriously?”’s and “nice try”’s, but her delivery is friendly enough to keep you coming back for more

-Overtime as she gets more comfortable with you, she becomes increasingly willing to test the waters with flirtier comebacks to your pick up lines, granted they’re still subtler than anything you’ve come up with

-Though once she’s reached that point, and she figures she really does like you, she doesn’t waste any more time before asking you out

Lila Pitts

-The first time you hit on Lila, she is immediately impressed by your confidence, and readily flirts back, pretty much reflexively, she doesn’t think much of it

-However as it starts to become a reoccurring thing whenever she sees you, she starts to enjoy your presence more and more, and actively seeks you out when she’s feeling bored or lonely

-Your flirting sessions can get pretty intense and explicit, usually leaving anyone else in the room with you very uncomfortable

-While Lila would like to take things further with you, she also thinks that what you have now is kind of perfect, it’s all thrill and no feelings, you make her feel good but you can’t hurt her

-She runs a bit hot and cold on you whenever she’s trying to figure out how she really feels, you could get whiplash from from the way she seems like she’s about to ask you out one day, and then she’s acting like your bitter, jilted ex the next

-You need to be the one to let yourself be vulnerable and put your cards on the table first, Lila is scared enough of doing so without the fear that you’re not as serious about this as she is

Fei Hargreeves

-The way Fei responds is at least partially dependant on how good you actually are at flirting, if you’re unoriginal or seem fake she won’t pay you much mind, same goes for if it’s not just her you give this kind of attention to

-Even if she is into it, she acts like she’s above your nonsense, always talking around your flirts, but she lets a couple smirks slip out and makes sure to never say anything that could imply a rejection

-She has a knack for keeping her composure, which makes the scarce moments where you do get her to go a little red or stumble over her words all the more rewarding

-Sometimes you’d swear she’s baiting you into making one of your comments, focusing on you while making subtle innuendos, or taking opportunities to make physical contact with you

-It’s rare and only in private, but occasionally Fei does flirt back, and when she does, her skill and intensity completely outshines yours, you’ve been at this for weeks and almost nothing, but she leaves you a blushing mess on her first go

-As much as Fei enjoys this playful, thrilling portion of your relationship, she’s an efficient person and doesn’t let it go on for too long before making her move

Sloane Hargreeves

-Sloane is a little flustered by your forwardness but also flattered and charmed, frankly you don’t need to try very hard to win her over

-She turns into a lovesick schoolgirl around you, getting very giddy and talkative, hanging on to your every word, and just melting under every compliment you give her

-She hasn’t had many opportunities to practice flirting, but she tries her best to match yours, and she’s pretty much a natural, even if she usually comes across as more cute than seductive

-She’s quick to open up to you and seek a deeper, more intimate connection, because flirting is fun and all but she doesn’t want to get attached to you if this isn’t going to go anywhere

-Romantic that she is, Sloane will feel hurt if she gets the impression that you’ve just been messing around and distance herself, so it’s better to make a real move sooner rather than later

-She never really gets used to your remarks, no matter how far your relationship progresses, you can still make her blush like the first time you met

Jayme Hargreeves

-Jayme is unimpressed the first time you flirt with her and makes that no secret, but she also plays along by essentially saying “you’re gonna have to try harder than that” more out of curiosity than anything

-Of course you rise to the challenge, always greeting her with better material and sultrier body language, to which she always responds with a new, slightly less harsh insult than the one before

-When you’re more thoughtful about it, giving her a genuine compliment, or doing/getting something for her that shows you know her better than she thought, she can’t help feeling a little disarmed and endeared to you

-All Jayme’s negging is in a sense flirting, but beyond that she doesn’t really meet you half way, because she’s having fun, but she’d rather not let on to anyone that she’s going soft on you

-Though the second you flirt with someone else, she’s quick to turn around and act like you two have some kind of claim on each other

-So if for nothing else but to keep you out of someone else’s arms, Jayme decides to bite the bullet and ask you out, playing it off by saying she just couldn’t bare to see what lame attempt to woo her you come up with next

#the umbrella academy #tua #allison hargreeves x reader #lila pitts x reader #fei hargreeves x reader #sloane hargreeves x reader #jayme hargreeves x reader #tua x reader #tua x you #the umbrella academy preferences #the umbrella academy imagine

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enigmatic-robin · 2 years

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Friendship with rogues

Day 2 of Scarecrow Week

Jonathan Crane & Harley Quinn & Edward Nygma

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“It’s all black and gray, there’s no color!” Harley huffed, leaning on Jonathan dramatically.

“It’s a Halloween puzzle, it’s supposed to be dark,” Jonathan pointed out, affixing two orange pieces in the shape of a pumpkin. “That’s why we have Edward doing the part that’s all the same shade of black”

“Well how is he managing to do it so fast?”

Edward looked up from his section, which was a hill in shadow. All the same shade of black, but still further along than the other two.

“It’s because I’m the Prince of Puzzles, could you really expect less from me?”

“It’s because he’s autistic, he exhibits pattern seeking behavior. And he’s been doing these all his life for tactile stimulation” Jonathan explained, picking up a piece and handing it to Edward.

He snatched it, mumbling something about ‘fucking psychologists’ as he placed it.

Harley chewed her pumpkin-shaped cookie contently, passing an orange piece to Jonathan.

“To be fair, I could’ve piled on top of that but I didn’t, it’s not so much ‘psychologists’ as just Jonathan”

“Wh- how would you add onto that?!”

“Puzzles are an activity that can be done alone. you were a lonely child, you had plenty of practice.”

Edward turned pink, scowling.

“… I asked for that, didn’t I?”

“Quite literally” Jon confirmed.

He just grumbled, continuing his section.

Harley grabbed another cookie, shoving it in her mouth and passing one to each of her friends.

“Sorry Eddie,”

“Not your fault, I did ask for it.”

“If it makes you feel better,” Jonathan interjected. “You’re very well adjusted for your childhood.”

Edward chuckled, shaking his head. Harley snorted, and Jonathan himself couldn’t manage to suppress a smile.

“Thank you for your absolutely egregious lie, Jonathan, but I’ve embraced my lack of adjustment. If I was well adjusted, I wouldn’t be here with you guys”

“… I think he’s finally lost it completely, Harley” Jonathan muttered conspiratorially, making her burst into a fit of giggles.

“I think that boats long sailed for all of us, Professor”

He shrugged, connecting his section to Edward’s now that it was constructed enough to do so.

“Can you turn the TV up? It’s about to get good.”

Harley turned up the volume, but Edward just looked at him.

“… you’re faced away from the TV.”

“I know this movie, Edward.”

“You mean to tell me that you have memorized Tim Burton’s A Nightmare Before Christmas to the point you don’t even need to look at it to know how far into it we are with the volume all the way down at five?” Edward pressed.

“Hey, as far as I’m concerned it’s Henry Selik’s, the ‘Tim Burton’ at the beginning was just added so more people would come see it, he didn’t do shit for that movie. You know when they did the test screening for him he threw a tantrum? He kicked a hole in the wall, a grown ass man! This ain’t his movie.”

“… Damn Jonny, tell ‘em how you really feel” Harley piped up, passing him another cookie, which he ate graciously.

Edward shook his head, muttering under his breath again, though he was smiling this time.

“What was that, Eddie?”

“I said you’re lucky I found that rant endearing and I don’t hit you with my cane”

“No, I heard him!” Harley interjected. “He said that was actually pretty impressive”

Jonathan smirked, watching Edward try to find a way to deny it without calling Harley a liar.

“I- no I just- don’t we have a puzzle to finish?”

“Yeah, I’m pretty sure if we don’t finish it you’re gonna have an aneurism trying to hold back from finishing it yourself” Jonathan muttered, sounding more fond than snarky. He added another completed area to what he’d already attached with a click.

“Thanks for giving me the colored parts. I dunno how you guys are matching those colors, they’re so alike.” Harley finished putting Jack Skellington’s face together, adding it next to her completed moon.

“You know, you can put your glasses on. We’re not gonna judge you. It’d probably make this puzzle easier”

She groaned, overdramatically draping herself on the table.

“But I look so stiff and boring with them!” She whined, her performance losing some drama as he reached for another cookie.

“We’re both currently wearing glasses, Harley.” Edward pointed out.

“I don’t have a pair with me.”

Jonathan sighed, standing up and heading to his desk. He rifled through for a moment before pulling out a case and tossing it over.

“Professor, I doubt we have the same prescription.”

“We don’t, they’re yours. You’re getting predictable.”

“Your face is predictable! I just don’t wanna look like a nerd.” She huffed, sticking her tongue out at him.

“You don’t want to look like Harleen”

She looked at Edward incredulously, who just mouthed the word 'psychologists’ and leaned back in his chair.

“… Close that can of worms right now young man.” She demanded, and he raised his hands defensively.

“Closed, it’s closed. You’re gonna give yourself a never ending headache if you keep skipping out on contacts, though.”

Harley put the glasses on, tossing the case at Crane’s head. He let it hit with a soft noise and land on his lap.

“… if you were anyone else…”

“Mmmhm, but I’m not” she hummed, finishing her side of the puzzle. Jonathan reached for his pieces, batting Edward’s hands away from them.

“True, you’re not. And for that you should be very grateful”

Harley grinned, taking one last cookie before jumping onto the couch.

“I’m always gonna be grateful to have you guys”

Her words were earnest in a way Jonathan himself could never express. In the end, however, he knew the feeling. He also gravitated towards the couch, immediately having arms wrap around one of his as Harley decided where on his bony body had enough meat to be a pillow. Not to be outdone Edward took Jonathan’s other side, draping himself over his thighs.

It wasn’t the most comfortable way to watch the rest of the movie, no, but when did they ever do things the easy way? Never. But this?

If there was a right way, this was it.

#jonathan crane #edward nygma #harley quinn #harleen quinzel #scarecrowweek2022 #Scarecrow Week 2022 #ScarecrowWeek 2022

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ziracona · 2 years

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What are your OG Dead by Daylight headcanons for David King? Inquiring minds want to know. :)

Oh geeze I’m bad at answering these because headcanons is so broad I don’t know where to start.

I mean, I guess the contrasting ones are I kept the OG story (I hate the rehash bc it makes him way too similar to Jake Park in backstory but also bc the OG of ‘his rich ass parents are like ‘Ok 😊 have fun living in squalor and working shit jobs bc you feel like it’s your truth love you!’ Totally sincerely is funny af.

My David is a bisexual. I heard they made him gay or bi canon finally which is great! (Can’t can’t remember which bc it was after I quit playing but either way, good to hear! And I feel seen by that.) He’s usually got a preference for men, which makes Laurie being his final crush kind of unusual for him but I mean, it’s Laurie, haha, although I don’t go into that much in ILM. He definitely had interest in Quentin, Adam, Laurie, and Kate and Jeff (more briefly) at times during ILM.

David likes rollercoasters a lot. It’s weird bc he’s not the kind of person who’d suggest a theme park for an outing, like ever, but if he went he would be hitting the nastiest scariest fastest coaster 24/7 and everyone else without that stamina cries. Weird kind of thrill junky where he doesn’t actively seek out all the thrills he’d love but if he sees them he’s like ‘Oh fr👀?’

His teeth are not great. He’s missing at least a few, though he gets replacements. But they’re also just. Not pretty. Not in great condition evenness and stained.

Would have the Shang in Mulan reaction to getting his ass kicked by someone he’s interested in. (Damn ;)

Loves rain and when it’s overcast and storming. Likes to sail.

Almost superstitious about crossing bridges. Well, he’d say that if asked why he looked antsy. Really it’s more like ‘I never properly processed immense psychological trauma, so every time I cross a bridge I become hyper focused on potential threats and it gives me anxiety for about 30 seconds although I don’t know what anxiety is so I don’t know that’s the feeling.’

Likes romance films. He finds them moving or kind of sweet, even when someone else would probably find them goofy. (Parents were big into them growing up)

Has had quite a few sexual partners and is from this experience, coincidentally, quite good in the sack. With all types. Good specifically in an intuitive way too where he can pick up comfort and experience levels real quick and does a great job of adapting to them.

Pretty impressive drinker, but nowhere near as good at holding his liquor as he wishes and very mad about that.

Only Rowan ever caught me as far as I know, but I don’t write his dialect as an English accent. I gave him a Scottish vernacular instead. He deserved it. He’s friend shaped, and that was the appropriate accent. Besides, no full voice lines means no one could prove he did not grow up best friends with Scottish kids and pick up their accent. You can’t prove I’m wrong so the accent stays.

#ask #in living memory (fic)#in living memory #rayshell22livejournalcom #sorry I’m not always great at HC because it’s so broad it’s hard to know where to start 😅#dead by daylight #I’ve been told it can also read as a Northern English accent & that’s not what I intended but it is acceptable as well

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russilton · 2 years

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Yes Mark, I’ll have to read your essay on them when I’m not at work because I need the right time to elaborate on the whole concept, but what I skimmed through, I agree. If I can hone in, body language is always the giveaway to someone’s persona, and there is a lot that Lewis and George give away, both when they are together and alone. Many insecurities and so many thing that shines through their own words sometimes. Which makes me think they could be closer when one of both stops racing. 1/2

2/2 because, while being so different in leading their lifestyles at the moment, they seem to have many similarities in common in their characters and in their being quiet and private when not jet setting around the world. Also they are both bith quirky and so on, they share a bit of common emotional ground, so once they won’t be let’s say, coworkers and teammates they could be able to share a different kind of relationship, maybe even a real friendship even with the age gap between them.

I don’t really have much to comment here, but the mention of “even with the age gap” intrigues me honestly.

13 years may seem like a lot, in F1 terms it’s practically a whole career apart for most drivers, but I also think it’s overblown by a lot of younger people who only hang out with other folks their age. My best friends online are close to a decade older than I am, one of them I met when I was 18 and she was 31, 13 years, and I’m still closer to her than a lot of people my age. I was at her wedding lol.

George is an old soul, we all know that, I think he and Lewis mesh so well as teammates because of it. They both have the hunger, the champions drive, but out of the car they’re not super different, other than Lewis being more active outside racing.

Something I feel we don’t mention enough though is how much George likes that, because George sure does, they guy comes back over and over to being so impressed with Lewis activism and other activities out of the car. I don’t think they’ll have to wait to stop racing to get close, they’re bonding right in their element, I just hope Lewis gives George the courage he’s seeking to try and find his own activist spaces.

Also, for anyone insistent it’s a weird ship age gap: Toto is 50 and Susie is 39, an 11 year gap. It happens a lot more than you’d think.

#asks #anonymous #mark’s driver meta

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fox-buried-in-maple-leaves · 2 years

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the symbol? ship asks? also with frozen shadow :3

How often do they fight? Do they usually playfight or only serious fights? How do they make up to their s/o? They don’t fight very often. Which is surprising, but it’s because Decord is the kind of person to literally use his powers to disappear in order to calm down before resuming the conversation in a better headspace. I think they really only had one massive fight and it's because Galin killed him. Just straight up murdered him. That being said, Galin is a big person and doesn’t hesitate to apologise when they know they’ve done the wrong thing. Big on mutual apologies and discussing what to do to make it up to the other.

How do they express their love and affection? Verbally? Writing it down? Actions? Do they ever say/Have they ever said “I love you?” Galin is very verbal and physical about their love for Decord, while Decord is much quieter about his love for them. While Galin seeks him out, hugging him and mumbling about how much they love him. Decord is much more likely to bring home things Galin likes or treating them to dinner or other activities they mention in passing. Though he’s not above the quiet “I love you”s too.

When was the moment that really clicked for them? Like “I’m in love with them” or “This is the person for me”? Literal soulmates aside, there was something about Galin’s willingness to accept Decord’s skeleton key without knowing its origin that sorta endeared him to them. And of course, Decord dying in Galin’s arms the first time was absolutely terrifying for them and made them realise how much they loved him. Then he came back! And they got to tell him!

How sappy and cheesy are they? Do they go for cliched things or do they try to come up with original ideas to impress? Galin is so sappy and cheesy, fella the kind of person to get on one knee to ask for a kiss whenever they need attention a lil too bad. Whether or not its purposefully cliche, Galin is just a cliche touchy lover. I love them for it. So does Decord. Decord thinks they’re so silly. Decord is sappy, but he isn’t cheesy. And most of his ideas are original, not even to impress, he’s just like that.

What do they do when their s/o gets hurt? Do they fuss over them? Nurse them back to health? Decord is going to murder whatever hurt Galin so jot that one down. Nothing will survive his wrath when his partner gets hurt. THEN Decord will fuss over them while they’re in the infirmary, he’s a bit overbearing. Galin later becomes an interstice like Decord, but beforehand they’re just !! a person!! He’s worried. Nursemaid Decord REAL. On the other hand Galin just burnt the soup they made for Decord when he got sick, so they’re kind of useless at being a nursemaid. But they’ll give him kisses and act as a heat or cool pad depending on what he needs :D!

Would they like to get married? Are they the type who likes a big dramatic ceremony or just go to the nearest town hall to get officiated? Do they plan their wedding or ask others for help? I think they would like to get married. If only to spite their respective families. Their ceremony isn’t dramatic, but it is relatively big. Galin is a royal and Decord comes from an aristocratic family albeit he isn’t an aristocrat himself. Coralie Harcourt plans their wedding alongside Inessa and Lucille 100%

Do they play fairly, go soft on their s/o, or do they use affection to distract their s/o to win? (e.g., kisses, flirting, etc.) GALIN IS A CHEATER. Decord likes to play fair but isn’t above cheating when Galin does. Galin will kiss Decord or tickle him or even resort to uhhh less chaste methods just to distract him and win. They are a menace to society.

How would they handle long-distance relationships? Do they wait for their s/o to contact them, or do they spam their messages with every little thing that reminds them of their s/o? Sometimes their relationship ends up long distance when they need to work in separate places. Galin sends a lot of letters, so many letters. Decord sends a letter for them to get once a week detailing what he’s been doing. They send him enough to get a letter every day. Neither wait to contact the other though. However, Decord will send his letter at the end of the week in order to respond to every letter Galin sent him during the week. How spoiled do they act around their s/o? Alternatively, how much do they spoil their s/o? Galin is SOOOOOOOOO spoiled. But Decord loves spoiling them. Clothes, food, plays, trips. Anything and everything. Of course in turn Galin will try to spoil Decord. It’s just Decord, outside of first edition books and fancy artworks, doesn’t lean towards materialistic things. But he loves to spoil his partner. Do they like the height difference (or lack thereof) between them and their s/o? Do they take advantage of it? They both love the height difference, but Galin sometimes gets frustrated with how much taller Decord is. They can’t just go on their tip toes to kiss him, they have to get him to lean down. And sometimes hugging him at certain angles is a bit awkward. And he doesn't fit in their clothes. BUT Galin is really good at climbing Decord so its fine. Decord absolutely takes advantage of the height difference. Mf loves throwing them onto his shoulder and walking away. Do they get second-hand embarrassment? Or do they join their s/o in whatever crazy ideas they’ve come up with? Alternatively, do they drag their s/o into their wild schemes? Decord suffers secondhand embarrassment frequently, I don’t think Galin knows WHAT that is. Galin absolutely ropes him into their crazy schemes, while Decord goes along with it because he’s painfully down bad for them. Though sometimes Decord will drag Galin into museum heists so there’s that.

#⋆｡°✩ Frozen Shadow #⋆｡°✩ Galin #⋆｡°✩ Decord #From The Fate ; Ash #☾*✲⋆. Essence of Myrrh

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braggdrejer71 · 2 months

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Before You Sleep With Him, Here's How to Tell If He'll Be Good in Bed

You've recently started dating someone new who you really like. You even had a few flirtatious make-out sessions. As a result, it's natural to be curious about the next step. Maybe you're hoping he'll be good in bed because everything has been going so well so far. Will he meet your expectations? Before You Sleep With Him, Here's How to Tell If He'll Be Good in Bed

What Makes A Guy Good In Bed?

While everyone has different sexual kinks and preferences. What makes you happy may not make the next person happy. However, there are a few major points on which almost everyone can agree. To be good in bed, a guy doesn't have to give you earth-shattering orgasms. He does need to listen, ask for permission, be respectful, and put forth effort. Aside from that, it's the little things that count.

Signs He’s Probably Great At Sex

He’s extremely attentive to your needs. If he is a very attentive person, this will most likely be reflected in other aspects of your relationship. By attentive, I mean that he pays attention to you when you speak. He looks after you by pulling your chair out of a restaurant. When you're both out walking, he notices when you're cold and offers you his jacket. It's the little things, but trust me when I say they're about to add up to something big. He tries to make you feel comfortable during conversation When it comes to listening, he doesn't just sit there. He also responds in a way that gives you the impression that he genuinely cares about you and your needs. Does he understand when you tell him sad stories about your past? Is he amused by your (not-so-funny) jokes? Does he actively seek to make you feel good at all times? Can you imagine how hard he'll try to make you feel good in the bedroom if he tries so hard to make you feel this good during conversation? He makes the conversation about you. Even when he's talking or telling a story about his past, he tries to bring the attention back to you. Alternatively, he keeps you interested by asking you questions about what he's just said. Why? Maybe he's just completely smitten with you. When you're obsessed with someone, you'll go to any length to please them. This is a true story. He’s a good communicator. He'll be great in bed if he's good at communicating both when you're together and when you're apart. After all, good sex is more than just the moves. It's about being able to express what you like (and don't like quite as much). Openness and honesty are essential! He makes intense eye contact with you. When you think back on the men you've dated, the ones who seem to be trying to burn a hole in your soul are the best lovers. If a man couldn't look you in the eyes or kept looking away during a conversation, he was unsure and awkward in bed. As a result, if your guy looks at you in a way that gives you butterflies, this is a good sign. He’s very tactile. This does not imply that he is constantly picking on you and making you feel like he's hornier than a pubescent boy. That is, he understands when and where to show you affection. If he doesn't give too much away but also doesn't hold back, it's a sure sign he'll be a class-A lover. He has a quiet confidence. Similarly, if he isn't one of these guys who makes crude sexual innuendos in (what seems like) every conversation, this is a good sign. These types of guys, in our experience, talk a lot because they're trying to compensate for what they have to offer. On the other hand, if the guy you're dating exudes a quiet confidence that is mysterious but intriguing, you should be ecstatic about what's to come. He doesn’t push you into sex. He lets the tension build naturally and waits for the right moment to strike. Why? Because he's that certain of his abilities. He knows the next step will be fantastic, and he'll deliver when you get around to it. He’s an amazing kisser. Finally, if he's a 10 out of 10 in the make-out department, that's one of the most telling signs that he'll be good in bed. After all, if he can kiss you like that, imagine what he can do to you in the bedroom. Kissing is also a good indicator of his level of experience. And the more he does it, the better he gets at kissing — and doing the dirty. Read the full article

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tehuti88-art · 1 year

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1/6/23: r/SketchDaily theme, "Trees/Free Draw Friday." (I did Free Draw Friday.)

This week's character from my anthro WWII storyline is (SS-Helfer) Rosina Kestler, sans cap (top drawing) and with cap (bottom drawing). She's a secretary for Major Ludolf Jäger and coworker of Captain Otto Himmel. He's widowed and is the only guy secretary working among a lot of women so he gets quite a bit of unwanted attention; Kestler is the only one who treats him decently and they often eat lunch together. She has her reasons for not pursuing him. There'll be more about her later in my art Tumblr and Toyhou.se.

Regarding her design, she's not albino, she's leucistic.

TUMBLR EDIT: Kestler isn't a major character and I don't know much about her yet. Truthfully, I've been drawing some lesser characters to try to catch my blog up since I spend so long writing these character entries when I should really save all this for Toyhou.se, but I just get so into things. ;_; But anyway...Rosina Kestler.

Major Ludolf Jäger of the Allgemeine-SS is progressive thinking in some ways that are odd for a Nazi: He despises the mass-murder his organization often participates in, he believes in the use of science and knowledge to help society progress, and he thinks women are useful for more than just keeping house and having children (though he's the father of a pretty impressive brood himself). A result of this is he employs almost exclusively women in his sizable office. Sure, they're secretaries, but Jäger is simply a bureaucrat himself ("glorified secretary" is one of the derogatory nicknames others in the SS have given him), so of course his employees would deal mostly with papers. Considering the SS's heavy reliance on records, it's not as ignoble a job as one might think, and Jäger's Helferinnen ("helpers," female auxiliaries) are not only skilled but quick workers, largely due to their numbers. Jäger insists it's merely that young women just have a "better mind" for such business, so of course it's a bit odd when he introduces a male SS officer, Captain Otto Himmel, to the group. Himmel, who served in the Great War and so is older than the women, has just resigned from the military and joined the SS, seeking a post that doesn't involve combat--thus the Allgemeine-SS--and is pretty low key, behind-the-scenes deskwork. Jäger's office processes such applications (among multiple other duties); he usually hands them off after a cursory glance, but Himmel's application catches his eye. Himmel has experience (following being wounded at the end of the Great War, he was given a desk job), and looks like he'll be a perfect fit. Sure, he's an older guy and not a younger woman. But decent help is decent help, and Jäger invites Himmel in for an interview.

There's an ulterior motive here too, however. Someone like Himmel is qualified enough to end up in a much better position, but Jäger offers something Himmel can't refuse: Protection for his mentally disabled so, Kolten. Himmel has worked hard to keep his son's status shielded from the Nazis, but the SS can find things out. Himmel takes the drastic step of joining the SS in the hopes that membership will actually help keep Kolten safe; it works, though not in the way he'd expected. Jäger figures out the truth behind Himmel's son and offers to protect him from persecution, if Himmel will work for his office. Himmel is so desperate to keep Kolten safe that this strikes him more as mercy than as extortion, and he agrees. He's not interested in any better position, anyway. He just wants to sit at a desk and type, file papers, visit his son, and go home. His wife Dagmar died giving birth to Kolten, and he's never been interested in getting remarried; his son is his life. Whatever it takes to protect him, he'll do. So now, he ends up the newest--yet oldest--member of Jäger's work force, and suddenly finds himself surrounded by young, beautiful, single women...almost all of whom are actively seeking a good, eligible SS husband.

Um...oops.

Himmel had a pretty bad first experience with women when he headed off to the Western Front as a teenager, so he's mostly avoided the opposite sex since then, as he feels painfully anxious around them. Dagmar was the exception; she gradually wore down his defenses, and he loved her dearly. Although it's been years, he's never really gotten over her death, and still writes her letters to help himself cope. (He also...has "visions" of her, of a sort, though the same thing happened after his mother's suicide; he knows this is just his mind dealing with the loss, though for him it's also "real" in a way, almost like a religious experience. It's hard to explain except to say he's not delusional.) The SS would really rather he remarry, but they kind of give him a pass due to him being a widower. So of course, he doesn't want anything to do with his female coworkers, but they make things rather difficult. What starts out as flirtation and innuendo eventually turns into highly inappropriate situations including attempts at outright groping; Himmel does his best to slip past the Helferinnen whenever he can, though they're very persistent and occasionally corner him. ("Is that a candy roll in your pocket or are you happy to see me?" SS-Helfer Katja Haring coos after pinning him in a corner; he pulls out...a roll of candy, which he's planning to give his son. Katja is disappointed.) He can't really complain about any of this because that would just be weird; men are supposed to enjoy such things, and he figures Jäger's reaction will be to ask him well WTF is wrong with that. (When the wife of the camp commandant flirts with him later on, for example, Jäger rebukes him for going after a married woman rather than a single one--Himmel never went after anyone at all.) Every day when he shows up to work it's almost like running a gantlet of hungry piranha so, long story short, the work atmosphere is pretty stressful. He spends most of his time huddled at his typewriter and pointedly ignoring the smiles and batted eyelashes of his coworkers, though whenever he gets up to go past anyone it's everyone for themselves.

There's at least one exception to all the harassment, and that's SS-Helfer Rosina Kestler. Her coworkers' crass behavior disgusts her, not really because it's in direct conflict with how SS-Helferinnen are supposed to act, but because Himmel seems like a decent person, a hard worker, and to her it's pretty obvious the women's attention distresses him. She rebukes the other Helferinnen whenever Himmel is out of earshot, knowing he'd be embarrassed to be defended, but their reaction is to accuse her of just wanting him for herself. This couldn't be further from the truth, though she can't really convince them of this--he's eligible, he's good looking, he's moderately high ranking, he has military experience and seems like the SS ideal, who wouldn't want to marry him? Since she also can't convince the others to let him be, she tries to be friendly to him herself, always greeting him politely (and sans groping) and making efforts at innocent smalltalk, though aside from stiff hellos and goodbyes he shows no interest in reciprocating. This discourages her somewhat, but she can't think of much else to do without making him feel even more uncomfortable.

One aspect of Jäger's forward-thinking nature is the installation of a sort of "green area" within the Allgemeine-SS office complex; this takes the form of a room rather like a cross between a solarium and a greenhouse, with glass walls and ceiling and many plants. There are benches to sit on and take in the natural beauty. Most of the employees aren't very interested in this area, so it's gone rather forgotten and is mostly unused by now. Kestler likes to visit it when she has the time for this very reason; socializing with her fellow Helferinnen isn't really her thing due to their cutthroat nature, and she doesn't get the chance for any such relaxation at home. The green area is a nice place to clear one's mind, specifically because nobody else ever goes there. Thus Kestler is surprised one day when she finds Himmel there, and he's just as startled to see her.

Himmel discovered the green area a while previously, and got the same idea Kestler did; he's started taking his lunches there, to avoid the predatory Helferinnen who otherwise hover around him in the cafeteria. Kestler noticed when he stopped showing up at lunch, and wondered about it, but didn't feel familiar enough with him to outright ask. Well, now the mystery is solved. As soon as Himmel sees her he stands up with his lunch and excuses himself, apologizing for trespassing in her space (he correctly assumes her reasons for being there); Kestler hurries to try to put him at ease, insisting there's room for both of them there and she really doesn't mind his company, if he doesn't mind hers. Himmel still seems uncertain, yet sits back down, so Kestler sits on the bench opposite to give him some space; that small act relaxes him considerably, and the two of them begin to tentatively talk.

She starts by introducing herself, but he already knows her name; she'd figured he'd never paid attention to it but he knows the names of everyone in the office. He may not be sociable, but he's observant. He explains he started taking his lunches here for the peace and quiet; when Kestler agrees it's much preferable to dealing with all the hungry Helferinnen he blushes, so she finally broaches the subject, that she can tell how uncomfortable their attention makes him, and she apologizes on their behalf. As she'd thought, he's embarrassed by this, so she speaks delicately, hoping not to drive him off. He seems more amenable to discussing other topics, though, so the two of them get to chatting about their lives, and to Kestler's surprise he's sociable enough after all, once he feels comfortable. He's still obviously an introvert, yes, but he's not cold and aloof the way he comes across in the office; he's actually quite warm and animated when discussing things he cares about deeply. Kestler nearly hits a roadblock when the subject of his wife comes up, but not because he doesn't want to talk about her--rather, it's merely that the pain of his loss nearly overwhelms him, even all these years later, and he loses his voice. "Sorry," he finally says, rubbing at his eye. Kestler is moved; she's never seen such love before, and finds it touching.

The two of them make plans to continue taking their lunches together in the green area, away from the Helferinnen. They pass every noon eating and chatting amiably and becoming quite good friends. It's rather an odd friendship given their age and rank differences, but they don't mind. Talking about Dagmar's death is always a bit much for Himmel, but he loves relating stories of their happy times together, and Kestler loves listening to them. When Himmel mentions his son one day, though, she's surprised--"You have a son?" He's never talked about Kolten, so she had no idea. Given how freely, and adoringly, he talks about his wife, it puzzles her that he's never discussed his son. She asks to hear about him, but Himmel clams up again, just as reluctant and closed off as he'd been when she first came across him. Obviously there's something very sensitive about the subject. He didn't mention Kolten as if he were dead, so that's not it; Kestler tries hard to put him at ease, promising that whatever it is, she won't discuss it with anyone else, it's safe with her. Himmel's reluctance is stronger than usual and she senses this is more about genuine fear than shame; finally, however, he starts to share. "My son...it was a difficult birth. I don't know if that had anything to do with it, or if it was a bad gene...but...he was born with something not right."

He goes on to explain that Kolten is what the doctors describe as "Blöd," slow, stupid. The terms obviously bother him--"He's not stupid, but his head doesn't work the way others' do." The boy was a sweet infant, but signs of trouble emerged as he reached toddlerhood--he didn't learn to walk and talk at the expected time, and expressed interest only in playing with building blocks, bursting into noisy tears if they were taken away--when the doctors diagnosed him with a learning disability. Himmel wished to continue caring for him on his own, but was quite poor, living in a tiny cheap apartment above a deli, and he was frequently busy with his military job, and could barely afford to pay a nanny to look after Kolten during the day. The doctors predicted that Kolten's disability would just make him even more unruly and unmanageable over time, and surely Himmel lacked the resources to properly care for him; he was pressured into relinquishing his young son to a psychiatric facility. Not long after, the doctors started refusing to let him even visit Kolten, insisting it would "confuse" the child. Himmel confides that this was an extremely difficult period for him, and he contemplated suicide more than once, as life wasn't worth living without his wife or son. It was only the knowledge that his salary helped pay for Kolten's upkeep that kept him going.

When the Nazi Party came to power, Himmel had no interest in joining them, despite still being in the military, which was soon reorganized into the Wehrmacht. A rumor told to him by his superior officer made him take pause, however--supposedly, authorities were beginning to utilize a "euthanasia" program targeting physical and mental defectives, and that included people in psychiatric institutions. A gray bus bearing the sign of "Kaiser's Coffee Shop" was rumored to be making the rounds, picking up the disabled and gassing them to death. (NOTE to say that here I've conflated two different things--the "gray buses" that transported mental patients to extermination locations, and the gas vans. For the purposes of the story, although I did actually mix the two up, I'm combining them here. A bit of authorial honesty for my oopsie.) The story was bizarre, but Himmel started seeing the gray buses, and there was talk that other groups were starting to be targeted; his landlord and family, for example, who owned the kosher deli over which he lived, informed him they were leaving the country for now, just to be safe, though they handed ownership over to a non-relative who continued to charge him the same amount for rent. Although children of Kolten's age weren't being targeted yet, Himmel agonized over what he should do. While out walking one day he'd been accosted by a man who, seeing he was in the army, assumed (correctly) that he'd fought in the Great War and (incorrectly) that he too blamed Germany's enemies for stabbing them in the back, and handed him a flier for a new organization he could join. Himmel had given the pamphlet a brief glance before throwing it away in disgust. Now, however, he remembered it and dug it back out. This organization affiliated with the Nazi Party was the budding Schutzstaffel, and Himmel decided he should join.

Here Kestler interrupts to ask something she's been wondering about for quite a while: Why DID he join the SS? "You're not like the other SS men," she says, "you're...sweet." This description seems to alarm Himmel--he obviously never intended to give the impression that he's "sweet." He answers the question, though: As twisted up as it is, he did it in the hopes of protecting Kolten. That sounds beyond bizarre until he admits that he assumed the Nazi Party wouldn't go after the families of its members. There is a small grain of truth to this, though not nearly as much as Himmel had hoped. Still, SS membership does end up having its benefits. For example, much better wages and economic incentives--the SS takes care of its members, and moved Himmel to a nice large apartment near HQ. (When first shown the suite, he asked who he'd be living with, the place is that big.) Another example, Jäger offered Kolten protection for his own reasons, so Himmel's desperate plan did work, in that respect. Additionally, Jäger's string-pulling resulted in Himmel's immediate promotion to Hauptsturmführer, the SS equivalent of the army's Hauptmann (captain), Himmel's rank when he resigned from the Heer. And it turns out people take the SS seriously. One of his first acts as a new SS officer was to go in uniform to the facility housing Kolten and demand to see his son in person. The head doctor told the nurse to put off "Hauptmann Himmel" like they always had, until she clarified that now he was dressed like an SS man. That changed the doctor's tune immediately, and while he still insisted Himmel shouldn't inform Kolten of their relationship, at least he could see him. It was his first chance to visit his own son in years, and the doctor assumed he wouldn't be able to recognize him, leading him to the common room where the children and adolescents were all gathered, doing their own things. Yet Himmel had taken a good look around before focusing on a boy sitting off by himself, building an elaborate structure with toy blocks, and he knew immediately this was Kolten. After his visit he threatened the hospital staff that they better continue to allow him to visit or else he'd take action. Likewise, he warned them not to engage in any acts themselves involving extermination of their patients. (He didn't actually have authority to do this, but counted on them being too afraid to look into it.) The doctor informed him his facility had had no such plans; kind of ironically, when Himmel had arrived in uniform, they'd thought he was there to issue such an order to start killing their patients. Kolten just happened to have the luck of being in a facility that DOESN'T want to participate in the euthanasia program.

So now--here Himmel is, a member of the SS with a mentally disabled son in a psychiatric facility; he serves entirely at Jäger's whim (and Jäger, despite being perfectly pleasant and reasonable 90% of the time, is well known for his batsh*t-crazy murderous fits the other 10% of the time), but, if that's what it takes to keep his son safe... Again, Kestler finds herself touched by Himmel's love for his family, and after he speaks of his wife again she murmurs, "If I found someone who loves me even half as much as you love your wife, I'd be happy."

Himmel: "I'm sure there's someone out there who'd love you that much."

Kestler: "I'm not so sure such a person exists."

Himmel: "Don't sell yourself short. You're a kind, lovely woman, there must a man out there looking for someone like you."

Kestler: (uneasily) "Well...the thing is...it's not a man I'm looking for."

Himmel: (long stare) (blinks) "Oh."

Kestler at last gives her own reason is for joining the SS-Helferinnenkorps. Like him, she doesn't seem like she belongs; it was actually the wish of her parents to join the auxiliaries and hopefully find a decent SS husband. This revelation explains why she's the only Helferin in the office to not even try to flirt with him. She begs Himmel not to tell anyone else what she just told him: "It's like with your son, they'll never let me live if they find out." Himmel reassures her he has no interest in getting her in trouble, and it isn't even a quid pro quo: Even if she didn't know his own secret, he would still keep hers. He's worried the SS will find out by other means, however--she doesn't have Jäger's protection the way he does. He suggests that the two of them not conceal their visits to the green area--he doesn't care about his own reputation, as far as he's concerned he's set, but if it seems they're interested in each other, it might keep the SS off her back. Kestler hates the thought of using their friendship like that, but he says he doesn't mind, if it helps keep her safe. She promises to think it over.

When their meetings do become known it doesn't really do much for Himmel himself--the other Helferinnen are still gropy and bothersome--but it does help keep suspicion off Kestler, since they jealously assume she's vying for Himmel's affections the same as they are. Jäger meanwhile is always too busy doing his own thing to bother with the affairs of his secretaries. This is why Kestler, and not him (he?), is the first to notice one day when Himmel doesn't show up for work. This is HIGHLY unusual, as Himmel isn't only punctual, he's usually early--gives him a better chance to avoid running the gantlet of handsy Helferinnen. Kestler has taken to being there early to greet him; she waits a while, but he doesn't show. She asks a few of the others if they've seen him, they say no. She asks a few workers elsewhere in the building, maybe he entered by another door? No one's seen him. Finally she approaches Jäger when he arrives and tentatively broaches the subject. Jäger is puzzled--he too finds this odd--and he calls the guards outside the building; they report that Himmel never signed in. This seems to bother him a little but he tells Kestler they'll give it a day, maybe Himmel finally took some personal time, even though Jäger would've preferred he called in first. Kestler doesn't believe for one minute that Himmel would just neglect his duties like this, so she spends the entire day and night agonizing. When she arrives at work the next day and Himmel STILL doesn't show, she hastens to report this to Jäger, and at last he starts calling around. Has anyone seen Himmel in the past day?

The Helferinnen--no. The other SS workers in the building--no. The reception desk--no. The guards at the gate, whom nobody gets past without presenting papers--no. He calls the receptionist at Himmel's SS-run apartment building, where he moved to following joining the SS. The Helferin currently manning the desk says Himmel hasn't come down yet, calls his room, gets no answer; she goes up to check and finds his suite unoccupied--it looks like he hasn't slept there. She calls the Helferin who had the previous night's shift--Himmel hasn't checked in the past two nights. "Maybe he's found a lady friend...?" Jäger muses, though it's obvious he's growing increasingly worried. He asks Himmel's routine and is told he visits Kolten every afternoon/evening that he's able--even more than his work, this is something he sticks to religiously. Jäger calls the front desk at the psychiatric facility where Kolten, now in his late teens/early twenties, lives. The head doctor tells Jäger he was just about to start calling around: Himmel never showed up for his visit yesterday, which worries them. Now Jäger is REALLY concerned--there's NO way Himmel would miss such a visit without telling someone. It's time to take action.

Further questioning clarifies that the last anyone saw of Himmel was the night before last, when he visited Kolten in the evening; after leaving the hospital, he never returned home. It's like he dropped off the face of the earth. Jäger instructs his SS officers to perform a systematic search and to question everyone who knows Himmel. They do so, but return a while later, emptyhanded. By now Kestler is near hysteria, and Jäger has reached his yelly-Nazi-almost-batsh*t stage--he's not used to hitting dead ends, so he orders the officers to "Go out and look again! Spread a net twice as big! Question twice as many people! And if you still find nothing, look AGAIN! Don't make me tell you a third time!"

Well, everyone knows what happens if you piss off Jäger, so they obey. Yet still find nothing. And Jäger believes them when they fearfully report back, because he doesn't shoot them. Kestler begs to know if he has any information to share and he admits he has nothing to offer; he's obviously frustrated and confused. Assuming Kestler has feelings for Himmel, he promises that they won't stop looking, but "I'm running out of ideas, Kameradin, there are only so many places to look. Unless Kamerad Himmel shows up on his own, I don't know what else to do." Kestler returns to her apartment that night and cries herself to sleep; no, she doesn't have feelings for Himmel, but she considers him a dear friend--her only friend, really--and she has a feeling of dread that something truly awful has happened to him. With how much he's helped her, she hates that she's so powerless to help him. As Jäger says, though--unless Himmel himself reappears, there isn't much else anyone can do.

Well...Himmel finally does reappear...over two weeks later. He shows up late at night at his apartment building, dressed in an oversized coat buttoned up to the collar, and addresses the Helferin at the desk, asking for a key to his room as he's lost his. His appearance startles her--he's gaunt and glassy eyed and talks in a whisper so quiet she can barely understand him, and he keeps wincing and putting a hand to his neck. She offers to call Jäger, but he declines, saying he'll do so himself. She gives him a key (breaking SS rules, since he doesn't show her his papers, which he claims he also lost), and he heads up to his room.

Jäger, currently at his home in the foothills, is awakened by Himmel's call--at least, the person on the other end claims to be Himmel. He requests that Jäger come to his apartment, and Jäger does, despite it being the middle of the night. He arrives and knocks, but no one answers at first; he'd gotten a key from the front desk, so he lets himself in, starts to look around. Then abruptly comes across Himmel, huddling in a hall and pointing a pistol at him. Upon seeing it's just Jäger, he lowers the weapon and relaxes; but Jäger is full of questions and starts interrogating him: "Kamerad Himmel! Where on earth have you been? We looked all over for you, for weeks! What's happened? Why are you dressed like that? Why are you talking like that...?"

Himmel waves and tries to settle him down; he gingerly unbuttons and removes his coat. Jäger's eyes grow seeing the massive ugly stains visible even on the front of his black-and-brown uniform; there are bandages around his neck. He loosens them enough to show Jäger--a long jagged slash across his throat, nearly from ear to ear, sutured shut with wide stitches. In a faint whisper--his vocal cords are obviously damaged--he attempts to explain to the stunned Jäger what happened. He'd left the psychiatric facility after visiting Kolten and took his regular route to his apartment building, leading him through empty park area (he likes to walk through parks); there he was accosted by two men who grabbed him, cut his throat, and dumped him in a ditch. It was too steep and he was too stunned and in pain to climb out; all he could do was press his hands over his neck to try to keep the wound shut and stop the bleeding before losing consciousness. He came to when somebody rolled him over and tried to steal his uniform, startling the other man, who'd obviously assumed he was dead; upon seeing he was still alive, he and the other man with him--different from the two attackers of before--pulled him out of the ditch and transported him elsewhere, covering his eyes as they did so so he couldn't see where he was going. He was taken to a small room with a bed, and another man who was obviously a doctor stitched up his throat while Himmel passed out again. Jäger asks who these people were, yet Himmel says he doesn't know--"Good Samaritans" is all he can offer. (He deliberately withholds the information that one of the men who talked to him explained they were with the Diamond Network, a resistance group.) They kept him until his wound had healed enough for him to get around on his own, then released him near his apartment building, though they kept his ID papers and what personal effects he had on him. From there he'd gone home, spoken to the Helferin at the reception desk, and returned to his room to call Jäger.

Jäger is even more confused by now--who were these attackers, why would they want him dead? Himmel may be SS but most people leave the SS alone, and all he does is work a typewriter. Who could he have possibly offended? Himmel claims he knows who sent the men but insists that Jäger tell no one and take no action if he tells him; Jäger protests but Himmel is adamant, so he finally, reluctantly agrees. Himmel details how the doctor in charge of a medical project Jäger's department is funding came to him to ask that Himmel enter his son Kolten in the project: Projekt Weltuntergang's purpose is to create a super soldier with enhanced strength, endurance, and intelligence, and as a mental defective with the right blood type, Kolten seems like the perfect test subject. Himmel of course refused; it's his theory that the doctor, angry to be denied this chance, hired the thugs to kill him so the doctor could assume custody of Kolten as his sole surviving relative: This is Dr. Dietmar Kammler, Dagmar's brother and thus Kolten's uncle. Jäger put Himmel in charge of overseeing his project; the two have hated each other since Dagmar married Himmel. Kolten is the straw that broke the camel's back.

Jäger is bewildered that Himmel's own brother-in-law would want him dead, but again pleads to be allowed to seek punishment--again Himmel refuses. He worries this will make things worse for Kolten. And speaking of Kolten, it's been weeks since he's seen him, and he doubts Dr. Kammler would have given up his idea to make use of him--is he all right? Jäger pales and admits he hasn't checked on the project since before Himmel went missing (he did question Dr. Kammler, but Kammler denied knowing anything, and Jäger had no reason to doubt him). Normally it's Himmel's job to provide oversight; Jäger just holds the purse strings, and Himmel reports to him. He only goes to visit the project when invited by Kammler--and Kammler hasn't invited him since before Himmel's disappearance. Despite it being the middle of the night, Jäger telephones the psychiatric facility and learns that a doctor visited with a release form, on SS letterhead and with Himmel's signature (obviously forged), and secured Kolten's transfer to project headquarters; this is in the same building as Jäger's offices, so, "I'm so sorry, Kamerad, I swear I had no idea," Jäger insists, obviously stricken by his own negligence. (NOTE to say, I think Jäger is being honest here, but I'm not 100% sure! He did promise Himmel he'd protect Kolten, but did that protection extend to keeping him out of experiments that might feasibly HELP him...? And Jäger is just conniving and manipulative enough--even Himmel admits this in the final story--that he could do something like this, even to a friend. He's the one who at the end instructs his pregnant wife to kill all their beloved children and then herself should he be killed, after all, so that shows you just how ruthless he can be...) From the looks of it, Kolten has already been entered into the experiment.

Himmel refuses Jäger's pleas to pursue punishment, though he wants to speak to Kammler himself. He'll handle things his own way. Jäger is reluctant but agrees; he drives Himmel to project headquarters, where Kammler also has his personal quarters as he isn't in the SS so doesn't qualify for an apartment. Himmel enters Kammler's study and sits down in the dark to wait for him to wake. He can't do anything to keep Kolten out of the project anymore, but he can make it clear that he knows Kammler's role in things, and use that knowledge as leverage against him to ensure that if Kolten is hurt, Kammler will be in for a world of hurt, himself.

Anyway...the next morning, the news hits Jäger's office that Himmel has returned, battered but alive. Jäger tells his Helferinnen to be on their best behavior (which for them means not so gropy) when he comes back to work. Himmel takes a couple of days of rest before arriving back at the office, before work hours as usual; as usual, Kestler is there, waiting. She throws her arms around him and hugs him tight despite his gasp of pain, so relieved to see him alive and (moderately) well; she's concerned about his hollow eyes and his faint whisper (his uniform collar pretty well covers up the bandages), but he says he can't explain just yet. He does fill her in later on, after he's healed a bit more, though he never does regain the ability to speak above a hoarse murmur (and often not even that). Kestler's worry increases at the thought that Himmel will continue working with Kammler, overseeing Kolten's involvement in the project, but like Jäger she agrees to keep quiet. Kolten is a moderately successful test subject, and Himmel will do anything to keep him alive. He visits his son at project headquarters instead of the psychiatric facility, now; one good thing about it is now he doesn't have to worry about depending on the doctors whose political alignment is fickle. He despises how his son is treated as a guinea pig, but Dr. Kammler DOES make sure he's treated much better than test subjects generally are, and his physical safety is ensured. When the Trench Rats, American soldiers, attack a group of Nazis transporting Kolten between facilities and manage to capture him, Himmel is devastated (Kestler spends some time consoling him), yet slowly realizes this may be to Kolten's benefit: The Trench Rats are primarily known for liberating and aiding prisoners and resistance members, so chances are high they'll take good care of Kolten, if he doesn't end up killing them in an angry fit first.

Several times, the SS comes into contact with a semi-retired Wehrmacht general named Schavitz, who lives in an old castle near a river with his skeleton staff, largely inherited from the previous owners (who mysteriously "disappeared"). Schavitz is obviously and hopelessly corrupt, but also very rich (again, by dubious means) and highly influential, so the Wehrmacht and the SS grant him lots of leeway even when rumors spread of him being engaged in unsavory activities which may include murdering teenage girls. He has a taste for much younger women; most of the schoolgirls he targets go along with him willingly, impressed by his big black limousine (driven by his loyal but much put-upon chauffeur, Sgt. Udo Eisen) and his fancy castle, though a few aren't quite so interested in the particular activities he's into. After the SS rejects his application for membership on grounds that Schavitz argues are spurious and defamatory, he grows increasingly resentful and enraged, and tends to take that out on others, including the girls he brings home with him. His other victims include the women who work for him, in particular the castle's maids; they don't really have other options, so they put up with his attentions, albeit with much reluctance.

Among Schavitz's favorites is a kitchen maid named Dorothea. Young, blue eyed, blond braided, pretty, of course the general pays her a lot of attention when schoolgirls aren't available. She despises this, but wearily deals with it. Schavitz enlists a sniper, Lt. Ratdog, to target the Trench Rats, so Ratdog visits the castle several times along with Godfrey Klemper, a young private assigned to look after him. (This may sound odd, but Ratdog is new to the army, being given an honorary rank, while Klemper is a child soldier who's been serving for years and has actually been demoted.) Klemper, like many of his fellows in the Wehrmacht, is addicted to methamphetamine and regularly goes long periods without eating, then ends up bingeing. When he and Ratdog visit, he's promptly bored by Schavitz's business and wanders off; finding the kitchens, he decides he wants to eat. He startles Dorothea, who expects a horny soldier hitting on her, but nope, he's just hungry. She fetches food to make a sandwich; Klemper is so starved he can't make up his mind what he wants, so he tells her to just use everything. The two of them get to arguing, then bantering, then joking over the abundant food. At one point Dorothea teases Klemper, who's busy stuffing his face, "I think you're more into the food than you're into me!" Klemper says around his mouthful of food, "You're not my type." "Oh?" Dorothea retorts with feigned indignation, "What about me isn't your type--?" To which Klemper replies with his typical bluntness, "You're a woman."

Yep. This is actually the reason Klemper was demoted--he had a brief relationship with a man, and the SS caught wind of it. (It didn't help that the man in question was a partisan...and Jewish. But anyway.) He was barely allowed to live, much less continue serving in the army--thanks mostly to the intervention of Himmel, as it turns out, though Klemper is so far unaware of this, and hates the SS for their role in his demotion, so he ridicules Himmel every chance he gets. (Klemper seeing Himmel at his typewriter: "Do you always do women's work?" Himmel: "Are you always so charming?--or do you have to practice?") Dorothea is like o_o but can't really argue. "Ja, well..." she says, a bit nonplussed, "...you're not my type, either."

Klemper: (scoffing) "Ja, and what about me isn't your type!"

Dorothea: "You're a man!"

Klemper: "You say that just 'cause I said it first."

Dorothea: "Do not!"

Klemper: "Do so!"

Dorothea: "Eat your food, your mouth doesn't know what it's doing."

Klemper: "Women don't like women like that!"

Dorothea: "Oh? Why not?"

Klemper: "You can't have babies that way."

Dorothea: "What! What if I don't want babies, you think of that, Besserwisser [Know-It-All/Smartypants]?"

Klemper: "Every woman wants babies! That's what women do!"

Dorothea: "Well what about you, you can't father babies that way, you think of that?"

Klemper: "Easy, it's not the man's job to want babies, that's a woman thing!"

(Have I mentioned Klemper's kind of a troglodyte when it comes to women...? Don't hold it against him, he just doesn't know very many of them personally, I think his mother was the only one he was ever close to. Also, shout-out to former musical artist Unheilig for introducing me to the awesome word "Besserwisser" in his song "Spiegelbild," highly recommended. Oh what the hell, ENJOY.)

Dorothea finishes making the sandwich and it's just this absurdly huge thing, she warns him it'll give him trouble. Ratdog, wondering where Klemper went off to, is looking for him and he just happens by the kitchen in time to hear a woman's voice say, "Herr Klemper, it's too big, there's no way you'll ever fit it all in!" and then start giggling wildly. O_o He steps into the kitchen to see Klemper trying to fit this huge sandwich into his mouth while the maid laughs at him. Dorothea immediately stops laughing and hops to attention when she sees Ratdog, but Klemper simply says around his mouthful, "Don't worry about him, he's not a real Oberleutnant."

So anyway. The point of all this meandering introduction is Dorothea herself. She may look like a fragile, ignorant maid, but she grew up in the country, a hard worker--she's tougher, cleverer, and more resilient than she appears. And she has additional reason to despise Schavitz's unwanted attention, but like I said, as a poor kitchen maid, has few options. So basically she spends her alone time dreaming of the day the old a**hole kicks it, or ends up murdered, she doesn't care which. And any distraction from the daily tedium, no matter how small, is welcome. Himmel and Jäger have reason to visit Schavitz at least once and Kestler is with them. She and Dorothea happen to glance at each other briefly. Kestler, like Schavitz, immediately notices just how beautiful Dorothea is, with her big blue eyes and long blond braids, and inadvertently her eyes go wide. Dorothea's response is to smile. Which makes Kestler's heart do a flip; she blushes terribly and looks away. This complete stranger is obviously just being welcoming toward a guest...right? Right? There's no way she's flirting. As the little group leaves the castle later on, though, Kestler looks back and to her surprise the maid is looking out the window at them; when she sees Kestler staring, she perks up, smiles again, and waggles her fingers, a friendly wave. Kestler can't help herself--she blushes again yet smiles, just a little, and gives a small wave of her own. Dorothea blows a kiss at her and she has to hurriedly turn away, albeit with a much redder face and a much quicker step. She doesn't think her insides have ever been so full of butterflies before, she almost feels like throwing up. Aww.

Once back alone in her little apartment, lying on her bed and staring up at the ceiling, she can't stop thinking about the maid with her flirty pretty smile. She figures that'll be the last of their interactions, though it's nice to think about her, about what life could've been. Dorothea, meanwhile, can't stop thinking about the prim, shy woman in the smart uniform, how cute she is when she blushes. Dorothea's not quite as fatalistic as Kestler is. Meeting the other woman, knowing she exists, gives her a spark of motivation. She may not be able to do anything about her situation now, but whenever she can get out of this hellhole, she plans to go looking for the woman in the uniform, whoever she is.

Toward the end of the war, Schavitz does indeed meet his unfortunate end--at the hands of a Trench Rat, Gold, and Ratdog himself. When word reaches Schavitz's castle about what happened, the staff are stunned. Upon learning Schavitz won't be returning, Sgt. Eisen promptly confesses to his role in covering up Schavitz's crimes--which he rattles off in detail, a very long and gruesome list, as well as where to find all the proof--then shoots himself in the head. Left masterless and in disarray as Allied forces finally enter the country, the rest of the staff decide to go off their own ways--some go looking for family, others just run. Dorothea has no family, but she knows who she wants to find. She manages to make off with Eisen's big shiny limo and heads toward the city.

Earlier, the Trench Rats had attacked Projekt Weltuntergang headquarters and the SS building; most, such as Jäger, bailed out early, though the Rats do capture Kammler and Himmel. Kestler gets away (she decided there's no point returning to her SS-adoring parents) but has no idea what she's going to do without Himmel's aid--he's been there for her all along, the sole friendly face in the organization, so she's adrift without him. At her apartment, she packs a little case and rushes out, hurrying along the sidewalk, trying to ignore the chaos of everyone else trying to leave. She's full of dread for what the uncertain future holds. A raspy, blaring horn makes her gasp and jump, whirling around; she blinks at the huge black car slowing to a stop near her. Inside at the wheel, an unexpected face--the kitchen maid from the castle. She offers that smile that makes Kestler's heart flip and pats the seat beside her.

Dorothea: "Need a ride, Fräulein...?"

Kestler: "You...you came looking for me? How did you find me?"

Dorothea: "Your little [SS] pin, I figure you work for them, so I look for you at the big building with the SS flags. Everyone leaving. I doubt you'd stay behind, so I go driving. Not as many people on this street as the others, I figure a smart Fräulein like you'd take this way. Hop in...?"

(Kestler blushes, hurries around to get in the passenger seat; the two smile at each other, Dorothea pulls away from the curb and speeds off)

Kestler: (shyly) "Kestler...Rosina Kestler."

Dorothea: "Dorothea. Your name's as pretty as your cheeks when they go all red." (Kestler blushes) "Just like that."

Kestler: "Where are we going?"

Dorothea: "Anywhere we want. Nobody holding us down anymore."

Kestler: (anxious) "I don't know anyone or anything, I have no idea what to do."

Dorothea: "You know me now, ja? We're smart, we'll figure it out." (clasps Kestler's hand; Kestler clasps her hand back and they smile at each other)

Dorothea does make a quick stop once they get out of the city, to remove Kestler's SS pin and cap, unbutton her jacket, muss her up a little, "So you don't look so professional." Shortly after, she manages to locate a man whom Sgt. Eisen--who, despite his loyalty to Schavitz, deeply despised him as well--had once told her about; he can forge ID papers for them. Dorothea introduces Kestler as her sister (they do look somewhat similar), and he gives them papers with their first names and a new surname. Kestler is still uncertain and afraid, but Dorothea is a rock, sure that they can find their way if they stick together. Once, while Kestler and Himmel sat together talking in the green area, Kestler with her hand on Himmel's, one of the other Helferinnen had peered in at them; Kestler promptly pulled her hand back, only for Himmel to reach out and grasp it. "Perhaps it's best for both of us if they think we're involved," he'd said; the gesture had touched her. Now, Dorothea grasps her hand again, and Kestler grasps hers back. They take their new identities and set off together.

[Rosina Kestler 2023 [‎Friday, ‎January ‎6, ‎2023, ‏‎3:00:08 AM]]

[Rosina Kestler 2023 2 [‎Friday, ‎January ‎6, ‎2023, ‏‎3:00:19 AM]]

#artists on tumblr #ibisPaint x #SketchDaily #original characters

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w-ht-w · 2 years

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shiny object syndrome

... is the tendency to follow an idea without first weighing its potential, and as a result, getting distracted from your current pursuit.

Part of living in a globalised, interconnected society means you probably face more choices on a daily basis than your ancestors faced in a lifetime.

But then there’s the paradox of choice. The more choices we have, the more confused we’re likely feel. (3)

shiny object syndrome vs Lack of commitment

sometimes shiny object syndrome is a matter of commitment, or lack thereof.

Every pursuit involves a ‘Dip’ – once the easy wins have been had, the time always comes for real, challenging work to begin.

shiny object syndrome has a habit of showing up right when you need to step up your game. It’s ultimately your decision whether you want to play that game. (3)

learning from shiny object syndrome

your attraction to shiny objects could be telling you something remarkably simple – that you’re unhappy! ... It becomes a sign that your deeper intelligence is awake. And it’s working hard to test out hypotheses, simulate solutions and scope out promising detours.

To those around me, it looked as though I didn’t have much self-control or discipline.

But after gaining clarity on the primary issue – that I wasn’t happy in medicine – I now look over the list with a knowing smile.

Because each shiny object contained a kernel of truth. Truth about who I am, what I value and what I’m really here to do ...

If you’re struggling with shiny object syndrome in your professional life, :

1. Go back to the beginning. Why did you start down your current path? Has something fundamental changed within you? Have you learned something?Is there a way through, or are you fundamentally unhappy?

2. Recognise the positive. People with Shiny Object Syndrome are, by their very nature, open-minded and creative. They’re loaded with ideas and enthusiasm. This can be a huge strength when leveraged, because they recognise possibility and opportunity where others may shy away.

3. Unpack the themes ... behind each endeavour. Even your hobbies might be telling you something important. Become a scientist. Treat each week as a small experiment. Which activities are fulfilling?

(3)

sunk cost fallacy

What got me here today is part of my narrative. It shouldn’t be a part of my decision.

I’m dramatizing how expensive it would be to give up on a sunk cost.

How long would my [loved ones] be disappointed, a day? Am I going to continue working in misery for years because of it? No, of course not.

If [you] ever lose joy in [something you’ve done for a long time], [you] should stop.

The reason sunk costs are so challenging is because we like being aligned with who we thought we were. [But] we are always growing and changing. You’re not who you were yesterday. Re-evaluate who you are regularly. Establish new sunk costs for yourself to keep you going.

[You don’t have to] align with who you used to be. Think for yourself, don’t let other people’s impressions of you guide your choices. (1)

It’s okay to want and work toward something for a long time, and then not want it anymore if it no longer fulfills you.

People are more likely to try to avoid losses than seek out gains. The unfortunate truth of the sunk cost fallacy is that it becomes a reinforcing cycle. The more time you commit to something the more loss you will feel walking away and making a new decision. (2)

1. https://byrslf.co/seth-godin-on-how-to-deal-with-sunk-costs-e06409d74b00

2. https://oitecareersblog.od.nih.gov/2021/11/22/sunk-cost-fallacy-how-it-affects-career-decision-making/

3. https://purposeuncaged.com/shiny-object-syndrome/

#career

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fel-temptation · 2 years

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1, 12, 36, A, D, H

Uncommon Questions for OCs and their creators:

1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

Her personal record is 10 years. (Hah, a little DH humor for you there.)

12. How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?

There’s never a shortage of people who wouldn’t mind scratching her back. Or at least that’s how she sees it. To be fair I’m pretty sure that estimation is correct.

Mentally is kind of another story. Mental itches, to me, sound a bit like demonic whisperings. Those she /tries/ very hard to ignore. But I guess it’s a motto at this point: “Sometimes the demons win. We just need to be sure they’re battles we can afford to lose.”

Kinda a smart cookie this one.

36. Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap?

She’s certainly impressed with romance when it happens, though it rarely is the case. However her outwardly appreciating it is fickle at best. She abstains from long term romantic connections, so gestures are usually seen as a road to that. She’s very quick to stomp it out when she sees it, even if she usually does long for that attention that’s never received.

A) Why are you excited about this character?

Uhhhh, donno I’m honestly always excited about Korr (just ask my friends I will gush for days). I just think she’s neat, and complicated, and tragic. A lot of the time I’m just excited to get to show other people how much depth she has, while encouraging folks to dive deeper. She’s too cool to sit on the shelf with all my other characters.

I’m actually really digging her current iteration where she’s a lot more comfortable in her own skin and not half a hair away from a breakdown. I’d reckon 5 more years should mellow her out even further.

D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?

Oh this is a good one for her. Well, I started writing for her post DH transformation so I’ve never had to edit. Actually she’s been the same character model too since her inception (usually how it is with the faves, oddly enough).

However! I do have a lot of thoughts about her pre-Illidari form. I mean obviously she didn’t have fangs, horns, claws, or tatttoos, but I was a really big fan of the physical transformation. Her character makes a big deal about not wanting to be monsterous, but she is very very very quiet to the fact that bonding with a Sayaad did effect her looks in minor ways. A big emphasis on minor as it’s written as she gained more conventionally attractive traits rather then you know like scales. I could give you a ton of tiny examples but idk I always find it funner to leave a bit to the imagination there.

All I’m saying is she has plenty of reasons for saying she’s not the same person she was prior.

H) What trait do you admire most?

Probably her tenacity. I mean I dont want to get all sad here but I can’t even begin to imagine some of the struggles she faces that aren’t entirely obvious. Like for her to wake up every day is kind of amazing. She lost everything for nothing, can never get it back, screwed up her entire psyche, and she’s still at it. Bad bitches don’t take a break I guess.

Thanks for the marathon @incubabe !

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cozycottagetarot · 3 years

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Pick A Pile: How Can You Take Better Care of Yourself?

I did this reading a bit different from my others. It’s mainly based on impressions as I’m only using the images and any text on the cards at face value along with whatever else comes to me. So feedback would be appreciated. Another thing is the piles all have intertwining messages so if you feel drawn to two piles, then by all means I encourage you to check them both out.

Paid Readings (I’ll be updating them again)

Disclaimer: All readings and tarot/blog games are for fun and entertainment purposes only. It is in no way meant to act as or replace professional advice of any kind. You know yourself and what’s going on in your life best so I asks that you trust yourself above all else. Finally please take only what resonates from the reading which may be some of it, all of it, or none at all.

PILE 1

Tarot Cards: 7 of Cups, 8 of Wands, The Sun

Pile 1, the way you can take better care of yourself is by making a decision. With the 7 of Cups I see that you have all these opportunities being presented in front of you but you have no idea which one to go with. I get the impression from the cards that from postponing making a decision or choice, you’re starting to feel the brightness in other areas of your life dim. With the 8 of Wands and The Sun following however, I feel like once you make a decision, results and positive things will happen quickly, bringing you happiness. The Sun has a faint face depicted in it, so I feel like you don’t have to worry too much about unintended consequences. I see this as a sign you are being protected from unintended or unpleasant consequences as a result of your decision. Also, connecting with your inner child may be a way to help you make this decision.

The next cards that came out are: Protection (Call back your power. Cut the cords. Soul retrieval.) Soul Family (Call in your tribe. You don’t have to do it alone.) Anna, Grandmother of Jesus (Seeding the light, laying foundations. Divine plan.) The Ever-Unfolding Rose (Cracked open. It’s happening for you, not to you.)

With these cards I think some of you could be going through a 'dark night of the soul' (read: a very difficult time in your life). You may be feeling like somewhere along the line you’ve lost yourself or your direction as to where you’re heading next in life or what it is you truly desire (any Lucifer fans here because I hear Tom Ellis’s voice in my head haha). You may be asking yourself questions such as 'Why is this the way life is happening? Why me? Who am I even?' But even though it might seem unfair or lacking sense right now, keep in mind that whatever is going on is helping you in some format. Situations within reason of course, using your discernment here is best. It’s truly all about how you tell your story. Another thing is you don’t have to make these decisions on your own. Turn to your family and your friends for help/advice. If necessary, maybe you can seek professional help. If either or those things isn't really an option, you could always try taking some time to nurture yourself and journey inside to help you remember or figure out what’s important to you. When you make that effort to find/listen to yourself outside of the noise of everything else, I think that’s when you’ll find the information necessary to help make your decision.

Remaining Cards: The Hourglass Dolphin (46) — your achievement is only a matter of time. The Three Rhine Maidens (15) — love is a virtue that endure eternally.

The Hourglass Dolphin is all about finding balance between two aspects of your life, typically work and play. Dividing your time and remembering to put EXTRA care into taking care of your basic needs is another thing that’s going to help you find success. I feel like you are in a transitory phase and it really is only a matter of time before whatever darkness that may be clouding your life right now disappears.

The Three Rhine Mermaids talks about a phase in your life coming full circle, and once that happens your hearts desires are going to start materialising in your physical/the 3D.

The North Witch (23) — This card just kind of confirms or reiterates that with patience this dark phase is going to fade.

The Toad Witch (7) —This card talks about gaining wisdom from adversity. Also a secret admirer as well. There were messages of love laced through out the cards but they weren’t clear until now. Similarly, I think this will reflect in your life that after you’ve found stability once things have cleared up, you will find love as well.. or better yet, love will find you. Do keep in mind it might not be super quick… maybe Spring or Summer (depending on when you're reading this).

Self Care Activities Ideas (Homemade deck): Look good; feel good (put effort into looking the way you want), Believe In Yourself, Have a fruit (incorporate more fruits into your diet).

PILE 2

Hello Pile 2. The way for you to take better care of yourself right now is through doing what makes you happy.

Tarot Cards: Ace of Swords, The Sun, The Devil

I actually pulled the Ace of Swords last. Also before I started focusing on your pile while shuffling, the Four of Swords reversed came out.

Thinking of these two cards together, I think you need to pull back and ask yourself if what you’re doing is really the best thing for you. I feel like you guys could be in a really good place right now— at least at face value. The cards have darker backgrounds, except The Sun. I feel like whatever you are doing isn’t really sparking joy inside. Maybe it’s familial or peer pressure related? The life path you’re on right now seems ideal and fulfilling to everyone else, but somehow I feel like deep down inside it doesn’t feel that way. You may feel chained or held back as shown by The Devil. Looking at The Sun and The Devil, they came out together side by side. I feel like this is more family related meaning parents, parental figures or mentors. They may be trying to look out for you by telling you to study a certain topic or take a certain job because it’s safe, when what you truly want to do may be a little bit more risky. So even though you’re playing it safe right now and have things to celebrate, you may not be able to shake the that unsatisfied feeling inside.

The next cards that came out are: Warrior Woman (Have you answered your deepest calling?) Play (Have fun. Celebrate. Don’t be so serious.) Break The Chain (Ancestral patterns. Healing. Rewriting the future.) Transformation (Things are changing at a cellular level. Deep healing.)

All the figures in these cards look like they’re in their power. It makes me think you may be ignoring or avoiding stepping into the energy of your higher self. I kind of had the though fear of backlash pop into my head, and while it is a valid fear, I don’t feel like it’s something you have to worry about a lot. I feel like you need to schedule more time for yourself in general as well. You can’t ‘fight’ for other people all the time, you also have to ‘fight’ for you.

I’m just noticing something about the placement of the cards. Warrior Woman has a sword and is placed right next the the Ace of Swords. Break The Chain is right next to The Devil, and the sun is shining in Transformation and Play, in the same position as the one in The Sun… As I was saying, I feel like you need to just take a moment to connect with yourself. Ask yourself what is it you truly want and begin rewriting your future*.

*This is the part where I let it be known I need people to practice life coaching with so if you’re interested you can message me. 18 years and up only though.

Remaining Cards: The Siren (14) — In the treasure of a day, light is thrown on what could be tomorrow. The Stripped Dolphin (30) Good news, flowing through the ether waves will answer your prayers.

The Siren Is mostly about observation and not forcing connections. The Stripped Dolphin is about good things happening for you, especially by surprise. It’s also about new beginnings in any area of your life. However there’s also a message about not getting caught up in many opportunities, so if you were drawn to pile 1 as well, I see this as a sign to check out the pile as well.

The Silver Moon Witch (2) has a message of being able to see progress by the next full or new moon. However this card advises you to choose carefully when it’s the right time to go with the flow versus ‘swimming’ against the tide. Relating to above, journey inside yourself to figure out if you are taking the right course if action by choosing to stick with the path you’re on versus yelling plot twist and doing something different.

The Full Moon Witch (18) has two sides to it. On one hand you can expect ‘heartfelt’ plans coming to fruition, but on the other hand emotions may be running high and words that aren’t meant may be said. This another one of the moon phases cards, so you may find during the full moon you may have disagreements with your loved ones but once it starts to wane, disagreements may also reach a resolution. I think this relates to the The Silver Moon Witch card as well, so maybe before or during a full moon may not be the best time to bring up anything that may cause a disagreement?

Self Care Activities Ideas (Homemade deck): Journal, Get Creative, Listen To Music (there may be messages in songs for you)

PILE 3

Pile 3, you guys have been giving me hell from the moment I sat down to pull cards for your reading. From focusing and interpreting to editing. Everything was a mess and I’m assuming you a significant part of your life maybe as well? Or your headspace at least.

Aside from my struggles with your reading, based on the cards, I see you need to focus on yourself.

Tarot Cards: The Chariot, The High Priestess, Queen of Wands reversed.

Starting with your Tarot in no particular order, you have The Chariot, The High Priestess and Queen of Wands reversed. The Queen of Wands is my ideal (you) card. When it’s reversed, I see it as a sign [you] are not embodying the energy of your highest self and/or something in your life is out of balance. Both The Chariot and The High Priestess have black and white polarities, so I see it more as you needing to put yourself back into balance. Something may feel hidden from you, though you’re not really sure what and you want to push forward but it’s just not really happening? On the bottom of the deck is the 9 of Swords which notes to fear, depression, anxiety, etc and is needing to release those emotions. Obviously it can be more complex than it sounds, but I’m hoping you get the idea. Brain-dump came to me. Maybe you need to do a brain-dump and survey/assess your ‘kingdom’ so you can flip that Queen of Wands energy around and allow your chariot to race onward. The next cards that came out are:

The Crumbling (What are you clinging on to?) —> Do you need to release anything? Material items, a goal, a belief, way of life, or maybe just the act of trying to have it all together?

Boundaries (Where do you need to establish better boundaries?) —> Do you need better boundaries with yourself? Habits? People? Enviroment? School/Career?

Share Your Voice (Come out of the cave. Persecution. Expression.) It’s time to step into the limelight, because the world is your stage. Maybe you’ve been hanging back and suppressing who you truly are, but now it’s time to step forward into a new role… a you role. You don’t have to go from stand in actor to lead role over night, but do brainstorm and take baby steps daily to get there.

Keepers Of The Earth (You are not alone. Ancient ancestors stand beside you.) Take the meaning as you will, but I see it as a message to look for support in unexpected places. Maybe it’s an online community of people who can relate to you. Maybe it’s a book, article or video. Who knows, it could even be a friend or family member you didn’t think could relate or help you out. Remaining Cards: The Kraken (38) — Your success and happiness lie within you. The Great Sea Monster (37) — To accomplish you dream plan and believe.

The main theme of The Kraken is release. Good fortune/luck will come to you by delving into your subconscious mind to free the conscious. Returning to nature and the things that bring you inner joy. Good fortune coming in small waves which eventually grow into big ones.

The Great Sea Monster is about taking action and again, freeing your conscious mind by looking into your unconscious mind. Also there is more than one way to solve a dilemma, you just have to search the right way. The Immortal Witch (4) — new beginnings are happening for you, and your desires are on their way to you although it might not appear so currently. (Kind of like planting a seed. It’s growing though we can’t see it until it burst through the soil). The Fairy Ring Witch (9) — mental and physical communication. Connecting with or making friends with similar skills or talents. Self Care Activities Ideas (Homemade deck): Tend to yourself, Slow and steady, Get creative, Read a book (maybe a self help book relevant to what you're going through).

#pick a card #pick a pile #pick a card reading #pick a picture #tarot reading #pick a pile reading #pac #pac reading #ariesmoontarot

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morkleemelon · 3 years

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nct ideal types 2021 :: dream

127 version | this has been on my mind for a bit and I wanted to write it down- these will consist of confirmed facts and then my own thoughts. the latter part is, as it sounds, strictly from my opinion and observation and may well not be accurate. this is just for fun! proceed~

mark lee:

confirmed: likes someone with long black hair who is nice (on air nct show)

my thoughts:

he moved to korea to train when he was like 13 and has been busy as a bee ever since. I don’t know his life but I feel like he hasn’t really had the chance to date much if at all yet. this brings me to think he would prefer someone who can lead in the relationship

he grew up christian and seems to still hold those ideals. although if he really liked someone it wouldn’t be an issue, this makes me think he would be drawn to someone with similar ideals

he laughs a lot and gets along well with people who are funny (haechan, yuta, jungwoo). I think that he would like someone with a good sense of humor

he doesn’t spend money lavishly and prefers to use what he has (i.e. the jansport backpack, not having youtube premium, keeping all the gifts he receives in his bag). all of this points to him preferring someone modest and not wasteful

mark got jisung a bracelet that costs over $1000 for his birthday (what a good bro I’m cry). he likes songs like ‘I got you’ by Bazzi (mark superm quarantine playlist) which is about spoiling a girl. this all makes me think that although he is frugal for himself, he likes spoiling others and would like to spoil his significant other

From Japan official book vol 1, mark said he wasn’t sure what his ideal first date would be, but he answered that it would be to go to a restaurant and have a good meal because he likes eating. So someone who’s down for simple dates and perhaps also good at cooking (because our boy can’t even make an egg)

From the same magazine, he said he doesn’t care about fashion and would like his partner to “wear what she likes”. Doesn’t seem like he goes for style much!

huang renjun:

confirmed: n/a

my thoughts:

I strongly feel like he would want to feel like the ‘man in the relationship’. he would want to feel protective over his partner and that’s why I think he would adore someone smaller than him

he’s full of chaotic rage energy (in the cutest way that would never actually hurt anybody). to balance out these vibes, renjun would match well with someone calm and sweet

looks-wise besides being a petite person, I can envision someone very cute, probably with shorter, un-dyed hair

renjun is into sci-fi movies and shows and confirmed he believes in aliens (weekly idol). I think he’d be drawn to someone with a big imagination who likes sci-fi as well

lee jeno:

confirmed: n/a

my thoughts:

jeno is really really shy (when he met yeeun from clc to mc together, they said they couldn’t even talk at first because it was so awkward). I think jeno would like someone more outgoing but not overwhelming

I feel like his ideal type is literally like renjun- a little fiesty and literally, little. jeno has mentioned that he loves renjun’s voice too, so perhaps he would be interested in someone with a nice voice

he works out a lot and likes physical activities like biking and going to the gym. I think he’d like someone who values fitness and health too

he loves animals and has 3 cats of his own despite being allergic. because of this, I think he’d like a person who loves animals too

lee haechan:

confirmed: someone with a nice voice/ singing voice. someone with shorter hair

my thoughts:

he’s so extroverted and craves attention from whoever he’s around, and that wouldn’t be an exception for the person he likes. he’d want someone who looks up to him and gives him attention

he’s still really young and even enjoys movies like the kissing booth (I’m sorry I had to bring it up because I think it’s important). ignoring the actual bad parts of that movie, I think he’s interested in that young love, dancing together at the arcade, kissing in the rain, come over to his house in secret, type relationship

haechan seems to be especially close friends with foreign swaggers line (mark, johnny, jaehyun) so I’m thinking that perhaps he likes the western vibe

during oshiete Japan, he and Yuta were the only ones who chose to give three roses to a hypothetical ‘lover’ (they had to choose between 4 types of roses to give). the psychologist said that this means haechan is “flirty and attention-seeking” which makes a lot of sense. this adds to my point that he would like someone who gives him a lot of attention and good reactions

during a recent fansign (1/23?) OP asked “what are things girls do that makes you flattered?” to which he answered “when I did something wrong and get scolded, that scary look makes me flattered”. although it’s a bit awkwardly translated, this insinuates that he likes it when he gets scolded by a girl. *jaemin voice* sexayyy. thus, I’m adding that haechan likes a someone strong headed and not afraid to scold him

na jaemin:

confirmed: n/a

my thoughts:

he has a sort of 180 personality where he’s either really energetic or prefers to be in the background. jeno says that jaemin hardly talks at the dorms after schedules because his social battery is dead. this is classic introvert behavior so I think he would vibe well with someone patient and calm

he’s the sweetest boy and he volunteers often for unicef and was even cast to sm while he was volunteering. he’d appreciate someone who shares similar values and likes helping others

I think he often doesn’t think or worry about himself. he goes out of his way to please others and help others and often disregards what he actually wants because of it (i.e. taking his shirt off at the dream show even though he was uncomfortable I’m so sad poor baby). he needs someone who is thoughtful and who reminds him when it’s time to stop and think of himself

looks-wise, I’m gonna be completely honest when I say I think he doesn’t go for looks. personality and morals are key

his favorite member of snsd is tiffany. he never confirmed if she was his ideal type, but perhaps he’s attracted to her bubbly, girly personality

zhong chenle:

confirmed: he’s only into girls (vlive)

my thoughts:

this may be a stretch, but in a live he was doing, chenle was talking about which member of wayv princesses was the prettiest. he said something along the lines of ‘ew they all looked weird’ but later admitted that kun was probably the only one who ‘looked okay’. kun was snow white which brings me to my first prediction which is that lele likes the classic chinese beauty (black hair, pale skin, elegant, gentle)

chenle loves winning and he loves to be praised. although his mbti shows that he’s an introvert, he would crave the full attention of his s/o. someone who looks only at him

during the from home live, he was asked to act out a scenario where he accidentally ate his girlfriend’s food. haechan (who was acting as the girlfriend) went “buy me 10 more” and chenle just went “okay :)”. ngl, kinda fell in love with him then but this makes me think he’d want someone to spoil

park jisung:

confirmed: likes it when people call him 오빠 (oppa) - take this how you will

my thoughts:

debuting at 14, I’m quite sure he hasn’t had the opportunity to have a relationship yet. this being said, he also seems quite innocent and shy which is why I think he would prefer someone who knows what they’re doing and isn’t afraid to speak their opinion

just from vibes, I think he would wanna be with someone like a best friend to him. someone who’s down to just hang out and talk, play video games and watch movies etc.

he’s quite tall (the tallest in dream) so I think he’d actually be ok with a tall person maybe even around the same height as him

maybe not a definite need, but I feel like he’d be impressed by someone who can dance well since dancing is such a big part of his life

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mc-lukanette · 3 years

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42 More Lukanette Thoughts

Marinette making a lucky charm bracelet for Luka, but being afraid to give it to him since Adrien also has one and she doesn’t want Luka thinking that he’s just a replacement for Adrien. Luka finds the gift eventually and naturally does not think that at all.

Luka being a morning person (or at least more of one than Marinette) so he helps Marinette’s sleep schedule by calling her to wake her up in the morning. This also leads to late-night calls between them where they both check if the other is sleeping at the right time (which can lead to either good or bad things; good because they’re checking on each other, bad because they clearly don’t have self-control and might just keep each other up).

Luka ends up hurting one of his hands and proceeds to avoid Marinette, knowing that his lack of ability to play music might affect him emotionally. He doesn’t want her to see him vulnerable. Marinette inevitably figures it out and frets over him while also thinking up ways to help him out.

Marinette being miserable every time she hears the ballroom music that she used to associate with her (former) love for Adrien. She was with Luka once and he got to witness her shouting angrily at the speakers playing the music that she has a boyfriend who is NOT Adrien and she doesn’t appreciate this reminder of Adrien’s existence.

Marinette struggling to confess to Luka, but then having no problem rambling off praises for him to other people.

Marinette tries on Luka’s highlights once and surprises Luka with it. He’s so caught off-guard that he reaches up and touches/feels her hair himself, earning a blush out of Marinette. Now she has to try his looks more so he’ll initiate physical contact more.

Luka getting his own version of “Copycat” (not him being jealous, but just an akuma who’s out to make him look bad). The name? Lukalike.

AU where Marinette isn’t technically into Adrien, but has been brought up/grew up to plan and schedule for the future to an obsessive degree (in line with all her scheduling in canon). She actually wasn’t romantically in love with Adrien but saw him as a viable option and he was “already in her plans” by the time Luka showed up. Marinette cut Luka off in a panic after realizing she was in love with him, but realizes her mistake later on and absolutely drops an emotional bomb on him when she reveals that she returned his feelings this whole time and had to get over her obsession for planning/organization first..

Luka still being the calm, collected individual he is, but he’s actually really excitable and “loud” over text. Marinette learns that after they exchange numbers and it’s adorable.

Vagabond (Homeless) Luka who travels all around, playing music for people. Marinette loves his music and will happily walk around to find him playing, even if she’s crunched for time. He provides lots of inspiration for her though it sure is weird how long he’s been around??? what could he possibly be sticking around for? (bonus if he sticks around so long that it leads into winter and obviously she’s not letting him stay outside)

Luka and Marinette meeting as Viperion and Ladybug, falling for each other, and they want to date but they also don’t want people to know so cue superhero dating.

AU where Juleka either wasn’t born or she and Luka simply didn’t grow up together, so Luka didn’t have to grow into the “big brother” type. He’s also bad with physical contact, as his mother isn’t a very physically-affectionate person, so he seeks out a way to be better with being touched. In comes Marinette and she happily offers to get him used to physical contact. Bonus if she starts feeling jealous at the idea of him eventually being able to touch other people and Double Bonus if she just ends up being the exception more than anything else and they’re both okay with that.

Pre-dating, Luka and Marinette knowing full well what they do to each other and going out of their way to make the other blush.

“Felix” divergence where it turns out that Marinette was still pursuing Adrien because she was convinced that Luka wasn’t actually crushing on her (thought it was her overthinking/hoping for too much because she “is used to being disappointed” by now, plus the fact that he confessed and then walked away without saying a word), but she realizes that he is when he makes the comment about “being there for her.” She explains it to him in relief and Luka’s heart is sent on a ride because he was convinced that she didn’t feel that way about him. Bonus if now Marinette is panicking about the video and will later be glad that it didn’t go through.

Sass “challenging” Marinette and teasingly saying that he’ll take Luka if she doesn’t want him. Cue Marinette being very jealous of Sass hanging around Luka all the time and she eventually gets fed up to the point of confessing to Luka outright, then being all smug to Sass who had planned this from the beginning so he’s not complaining.

Rose gets a cold, so Luka temporarily takes over as Kitty Section’s singer for practice. Marinette isn’t ready.

Childhood Friends AU where Marinette grows up believing that Luka and Juleka must have the same romantic orientation because they’re twins and she doesn’t know how orientations works. Thus, clearly Luka is gay which means that he doesn’t return her feelings obviously (she’s very wrong).

Marinette wanting a song to replace the ballroom music she remembers when she was still crushing on Adrien, so she non-subtly tries to find a song that Luka would like that they could slow dance to (either pre or post dating).

Post-battle, Viperion asking Ladybug if it’s okay for him to hang onto the snake miraculous for a little longer, then going on to explain that Marinette, a friend of his, seemed really sad that day and he figured it’d help to be visited by a hero. (Ladybug is screaming internally because she knows that she’s not supposed to let them keep them any longer than the battle but his request is so pure and sweet and he’s doing it for her--)

Viperion setting up for Second Chance. During the battle, he and Ladybug end up bonding and/or kissing, but Viperion ends up needing to go back, thus erasing it from the timeline. However, while Ladybug doesn’t seem to remember the specifics or what happened, she seems to have vague feelings that he used Second Chance and even touches her lips at one point with a thoughtful look.

Marinette learning how to do her own make-up to try and look closer to the age that Luka looks. She very much doesn’t need it to impress him/make him think that she’s pretty..

Marinette getting into bouts of being extremely lame and romantic, like texting Luka things like, “I was just thinking about you,” and then regretting it when he responds with something equally lame with no hesitation.

Fu being okay with Luka knowing Ladybug’s identity, as Luka is someone who keeps to himself, is able to keep a secret, and actively supports Marinette.

One day, Marinette accidentally catches Luka working on a love song that’s clearly written for her. He’s embarrassed for once, partly because he’d never intended for her to hear it, but she assures him that it’s okay and she’d like to hear the full thing. She shows up occasionally to listen to his progress, Luka suspecting nothing, then cut to when the full song is done and she ends up singing it alongside him without warning, essentially confessing back to him.

Event where Marinette is put in charge of selling custom-made “Ladybug Fan” and “Chat Noir Fan” T-shirts. And then in comes Luka with a white shirt and a shoddily-but-lovingly-written “Marinette Fan” on it (bonus if he tried to draw her pink flowers).

Marinette drawing something for Adrien in her sketchbook and keeps abandoning it to spend time with/visit Luka (a metaphor for her slowly getting over Adrien and falling for Luka instead). She’ll end up making something for Luka instead in the end.

At some point in adulthood, Marinette admitting to Luka that she’s been crushing on him for a long time, but was afraid of saying anything. Luka assures her that there’s still a place in his heart, but Marinette needs time to accept that (out of guilt and being convinced for so long that he’d never forgive her) and/or Luka needs time to really confirm to himself that she means it (not that he doesn’t believe her but he’s thought for so long that she didn’t like him that way). Cue awkward dorks slowly working their way into a relationship with hand touches, cheek kisses, and finally the full acceptance that they’re willing to forget about what they thought before and just love each other.

Luka and Marinette being married with kids. Whenever Marinette has to let Luka sleep, he’ll wake up later but with their kids telling him that she told them to tell him that she loves him (she also might’ve skipped breakfast because she doesn’t like having it without him and Luka will definitely be going to meet with her for lunch, complete with kisses for giving him so many feels in the morning).

someone: Marinette, don’t hide your face in your hands. [Marinette proceeds to use Luka’s hands to hide her face instead]

Marinette and Luka, having never met, being in a pet store and buying a pet mouse and snake respectively. Unexpectedly, the two pets escape from them at some point before they leave the store, and after frantically searching, they find the mouse and snake next to each other and actually seeming to get along as if they’re friends. The store owner confirms that the two animals frequently escape to see each other and they have no idea why, but Luka and Marinette acknowledge it and decide to exchange addresses so their pets can still see each other. Meeting up “just for the sake of their pets” quickly becomes an excuse.

Luka is definitely the type who wouldn’t wash off Marinette’s lipstick kisses for the longest time. Marinette ends up having to clean them off herself (which really just encourages him not to do it himself more).

Likewise, Marinette forgot her gloves once while it was cold and Luka warmed her hands for her, so she continued “forgetting them” after that.

Luka and Marinette end up getting a pet and Marinette struggling between finding Luka playing with their pet adorable and being extremely jealous because now the pet is stealing her Luka time.

Post-dating, Marinette having self-esteem issues over being as short as she is (maybe having gotten rude comments from models before). She keeps trying to kiss Luka from above and insisting on being the big spoon.

Kitty Section getting a singing game and Luka getting to hear Marinette singing for the first time. Now he has to hear it so much more. Bonus if their voices blend well together when they sing together.

Marinette wanting to give Luka promise ring but being convinced that he’d hate it because he “already has so many accessories” (as if Luka wouldn’t enthusiastically wear anything she gives him).

Luka being an exhausted rock star who flees from paparazzi and his fans. Marinette ends up seeing him and letting him hide in her house, being a huge fan of him but not getting to star-struck levels since she grew up with a famous model friend and knowing celebrities. She allows Luka to hide at her place whenever he wants and eventually worries about him seeing her as “just like his fans” when she realizes that she’s crushing on him.

Marinette breaking up with Adrien in adulthood, which starts a lot of rumors from people about how Marinette will just turn down any guy she sees because who in the right mind would break up with the sunshine model??? Then, cue Luka (who may or may not have met Marinette yet) coming in and seeing all the distance people make from Marinette (and not getting it), so he happily approaches her and strikes up a conversation because he doesn’t care about rumors or anything like that.

Marinette getting a two-seater bike for Luka and trying to be subtle about it like

Alya doing a scheme by inventing some sort of game where someone gets chosen and has to shout out the person they love because, “Girl, you blurt things out all the time! You’ll totally say Adrien’s name,” and then Marinette blurts out Luka’s name because she loves him and not Adrien, shocking everyone.

If Marinette and Luka (i.e: the “thinkers” of the hero group) were akumatized together, Paris - no, the world - would be officially screwed.

Fashion Designer Marinette and Rock Star Luka. Marinette has been trying to confess to Luka for a while, but things usually go wrong or the timing is always off. She finally says “screw it” to subtlety, and waits for them to have an interview together (as Luka wears Marinette’s clothes constantly and they’re best friends), then unzips her jacket to “get comfortable” while they’re sitting next to each other, revealing an, “I Love Luka Couffaine (yes, romantically),” shirt. The interviewer and audience notice immediately (especially due to the large screen in the background that shows an enlarged view of the interviewer, Luka, and Marinette) and then it’s just a matter of waiting for Luka to notice (probably after he stops gushing about Marinette’s amazing clothing choices).

#type: thoughts #Flower Arrangement Shipping #type: prompt set #((Was going to wait to post this but clearly you guys need it.))#Pro LukaMari #Lukanette

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theoriginalcarnivorousmuffin · 3 years

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When I saw 'Romanians' mentioned in your last post I had a wtf moment cause I have only watched the movies and I don't think I've ever noticed their existence. Regardless, I just had to read the wiki page and it is hillarious to me cause coincidence or not they seem to be named after the psychopathic ruler 'Vlad the impaler' and his cousin 'Stefan the great'(he might have murdered more people than his cousin known as the impaler, but you know he is great). Also, what do you think of them? Sorry for the rant...

You have no idea what you’ve unleashed.

I love the Romanians because they are, hands down, the trashiest, weirdest, lamest, loser vampires in Twilight canon.

Just, these two are so hilariously beautiful.

First off, while Meyer undoubtedly named them with Vlad Tepish and Stefan the Great in mind, the Romanians are actually much older. We don’t have exact dates, but we know the Romanians (then presumably the Dacians), held great power over their territory for a thousand years before the Volturi had truly established themselves. After the Volturi took on and won against Amun’s coven in Egypt (and took the grateful Demetri off Amun’s hands making Amun still bitter thousands of years later) they waged war against the Romanians and won. (Vlad and Stefan are still very bitter but give us the silver lining of “oh yeah, well, we’re only partly petrified. SO TAKE THAT STUPID VOLTURI!”)

Vlad, Stefan, and Vlad’s wife were the only survivors. The Romanians, being one of the most evil and trashy covens in Twilight, decided to take on Volterra by amassing an army of 100 vampires. Hilariously, they had poor timing, this is a decade after Aro acquired Jane and Alec. The entire army is defeated in a second, Vlad’s wife is murdered, and by 810 AD, it’s just Vlad and Stefan.

They’ve remained losers the Volturi don’t take seriously ever since. Every decade, Demetri pays them a visit to remind them that yes, the Volturi does remember them and can find them any time they want to. Even more hilariously, Vlad and Stefan take this very seriously, and are constantly on the run from the Volturi, never aware that the Volturi actually don’t care. At all.

Point being, given these guys, first it’s entirely likely their original names are not Vlad and Stefan. We see many of the vampires of the ancient world periodically change their name. We have Chelsea and Demetri, who are canonically acknowledged as having done this. Given when and where they were born, we can assume Marcus and Caius were not originally Marcus and Caius. Similarly, we can assume Aro’s name was originally far longer as well.

None the less, it would be just like these two to name themselves after these Romanian human warlords, one of whom serves and the inspiration for the modern vampire myth in Europe. And then, insist, of course, that the human rulers were actually named after Vlad and Stefan, because the humans still worship them, you know.

They’re going to be back on top any day now, you’ll see.

That’s another thing worth getting into. The Romanians are evil. I’m not exaggerating this, of all the vampires in Twilight, they are the most appalling (and this is including James, Maria and the southern war lords, Joham... well not Joham, he’s a special brand of evil). These guys had a thousand year reign of terror in Dacia. Humans were butchered seemingly by entire villages, they made humans their slaves and demanded worship and sacrifice. When the humans periodically tried to overthrow them, they slaughtered them all, presumably placed their heads on spikes, and used them to taunt those few surviving humans.

When they lost power, they made an army a hundred vampires strong, which given what we see of the newborns in Seattle (who were only around twenty and still far too large to control), probably wiped out several large settlements in eastern Europe. Didn’t matter, just as long as they got rid of the Volturi.

And they miss those glory days dearly.

They actively reminisce about in Breaking Dawn to an oblivious Bella, who is just so happy these very important and impressive Europeans are here to help her beautiful daughter and so impressed they they’ve been fighting the corrupt Volturi for thousands of years (which is another bit of hilarity we’ll get into). You know, when/if the Volturi fall, the Romanians will be the first in line to rape the women and enslave us all. Good times, good times.

But back to them being trash people.

Vlad and Stefan are utterly destitute, their entire coven is destroyed, and yet they still insist they’re a Big Fucking Deal. Not only that, but just their every action is beyond weird. They talk in unison like Fred and George Weasley, they’re these ridiculously tiny men dressed as stereotypical vampires, and they show up out of nowhere on your doorstep saying, “So, hear you’re starting an insurrection against Volterra, Carlisle, we want in” (While Carlisle, I’m sure, just dies a thousand times inside).

They then talk to Bella all about how they fight the corruption of the Volturi. What is the corruption, you ask? Well, the Volturi drove them out of their kingdom and liberated the human slaves. Then they imposed this stupid law where you couldn’t eat humans in broad daylight. Then when the Romanians tried to invade Italy they killed them all.

The Romanians will expose the Volturi’s crimes here and now. They stand for justice, peace, and Renezel--Renpunz--Renesmee. (The Romanians decidedly do not come for Renesmee, they hear about Carlisle’s army through the vampire European rumor mill, which just shows how out of hand it all got because now Carlisle’s amassing an army to protect the immortal child his son made. They show 0 interest in Renesmee.)

They give me serious McPoyle vibes.

More, beautifully, everything they touch becomes tainted.

Laurent, another beautiful loser character, starts life as a French courtier in Versailles. When he’s turned into a vampire, he assumes the vampire world works like Versailles. It works nothing like Versailles.

He seeks out those vampires with the greatest power.

Well, vampires in general are cannibalistic homeless nomads who care nothing for power.

This brings him, beautifully, to the Romanians. They insist to Laurent they’re super cool and powerful, Laurent believes them, but either Laurent eventually clues in or realizes something’s not right here. So, he goes to seek out the real power, the Volturi.

Unfortunately, Laurent is a loser, the Volturi is not court, and Aro has no need for some lackey trying to get in his good graces. Plus, Laurent hung out willingly with Vlad and Stefan. And anyone who does that...

So, Aro goes, “Ew, no, leave.”

Laurent is convinced, even when canon rolls around and he’s sunk so low as to hang out with James and Victoria (also loser vampires), that Aro will call him back any day now.

Aro never does. Laurent is eaten by untrained sixteen-year-old shape shifters.

But yes, point being, I imagine that in this modern era the Romanians would have a Go Fund Me for purchasing the blow torches they’ll use to destroy the Volturi once and for all. They also have a YouTube channel which is unintentionally dungeon porn, in which they cover their heads in bags so as not to be recognized, and talk about the good old days in thick Romanian accents. It’s a very popular YouTube channel, nobody understands why they wear so much body glitter.

Oh, right, Bella.

Bella is so beautiful with these guys. So, in Breaking Dawn, Bella actually takes the Romanians seriously. They’re all I describe above and more, they’re not hiding it, they’re full McPoyle (including the taking over the world built). Jake even tells Bella he finds them weird as hell. Bella thinks they’re great.

No, really, she thinks they’re great.

They tell her how they enslaved all the people in their territory, demanded tithes, and would eagerly do so again as soon as they get the chance and she stares at them with wide eyes and thinks about how cool all these vampires who came for precious Renesmee are. (Which, funnily, they actually all came either for Carlisle, because he has a billion friends everywhere, or else as a power grab like the Romanians, or both in Amun’s case. It’s the weirdest, most beautiful, mixture of people.)

Bella has her moments, but loving the Romanians has got to be a top ten for her. My explanation is that she’s so high on vampirism and Renesmee that this is all just great for her. LIFE IS WONDERFUL!

EDIT: I could no longer abide my spelling mistakes, I also edited a bit for cleanliness.

#ask #anon #twilight

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