Hi, just wanted to say that you post sometimes about how important it is just to go to things sometimes and socialise. One of your posts inspired me to join the meetup website and since then I've been to 3 groups and had a really nice time and talked to some potential new friends! I moved to a new city a few years back and never really made friends and now I feel really pleased to be getting out there so thank you!

I don't know why this particular lesson took me so long to learn (or why I have to keep learning it, over and over again) but the simple act of forcing yourself out of your space to do things really does make an appreciable difference. Life gets richer and deeper the more you engage with it, and you will never, ever know if you stay inside the four walls of your apartment and wait for it to come to you.

I LOVE AND APPRECIATE MY FRIENDS WITH NPD 👊👊👊👊👊👊💥💥💥 OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALIEN ISOLATION - [5/?]

just finished reading manacled for the first time and.

holy fuck.

y'all weren't kidding. this shit absolutely slaps.

honestly sansa and myranda's dynamic is one of the most promising to me. because even before the two meet sansa is warned not to trust her, but as soon as they get to know each other sansa is already like 'oh she's such fun company she's my new jeyne' and suddenly they're inseparable, always gossiping and running around and flirting with guys together. just a rare display of girls having fun in asoiaf and also an rare chance for sansa to have a taste of what being a normal teenager should be like. myranda is always saying suggestive things that make us wonder if she's onto sansa or if she's just amusing herself by trying to corrupt the local good girl and perhaps get her tangled in a homoerotic friendship. hopefully it's both. myranda is clever enough to pose a threat to sansa's disguise but she's also the person in the vale whom sansa has connected with the most. i look forward to see how their relationship will play out in twow.

Tony Becker is one of the only times that I've seen that a character has actually been doomed by the plot when people say he is

said to my counsellor that i wasnt built for friendship because everyone always eventually just. stops speaking to me and she went “ok why do you think that is?” and then when i finished my dumb sad list she went “ok so maybe you aren’t good at friendship” and i. have never regretted spending £50 more in my life lol

wondering whether i should like. talk about my situation at all? (okay i ended up rambling in the tags so here they are)

i just want to say that im terrified. everyone i know, everyone i care about, could be dead right now. i have no way to know. its so scary. everything i know has been ripped away from me and im just. scared. i miss having a normal life and im sick of this. its been more than 3 weeks and i dont know when itll ever end. nowhere is safe and i dont know if my house is okay and i just want everything to be normal again

-`. OCS AS TYPES OF SUFFERING.

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-`. DESPAIR.

The tunnel never had a light. You wish for nothing because you know you'll receive nothing, and your hopes died out long ago. The only thing that keeps you going is the thrill of emptiness you feel when things don't turn out your way. It's bitter. It's proof. Proof that you don't feel this way for nothing.

-`. THE BLACKHOLE.

There's a hole where your heart used to be and nothing is filling that hollow void. You could drown in a world curated for you, and still nothing seems to fit. It eats you alive knowing you're unsure how to satiate the hunger of your soul. It's barely hunger, it's more like a blackhole.

-`. THE TAKER.

Your expectations are ones you can barely meet. You compare yourself to others, but with a hypocritical light. You'll never find what you're looking for if you're laying down half of what you receive. It stings to be given less than expectations you've set, but if they were more reasonable, do you think even then you'd be happy?

-`. YEARNING.

The pain in your chest bubbles knowing that what you want may never be yours. You're lost in a fantasy world, or consumed by what you wish you were or had as opposed to what you do. It's hard to appreciate what's around you when you're appreciating the hope of what could be instead.

-`. THE GIVER.

Your energy depletes as you hand it out to anyone passing by your basket. People walk by and take, but no one ever leaves. You're constantly running on low when people keep asking you to give. You'd give your soul away for free, and then what left do you have of yourself if you can't say no?

-`. LONELINESS.

Your heart feels full of the connection you feel you lack. No matter how many people are around you, strangers or not….someone is missing. You don't know who, what, or if you'll ever find them. You're unsure if there's a person out there who'll really satisfy your life, so really what's the point of continuing to look?

Tfw the wind blows your hat away AGAIN and you gotta go find it in the middle of a blizzard atop a mountain by yourself

TW: Mentions of abuse and toxic family relationships. Discussion on the familial trauma and military homophobia.

Slimav story idea based on my own trauma literally. Kinda vent-y. If that’s your jam, read below!

You get that feeling when you see your friend who grew up in a healthy family interact with their family in a very normal and affectionate way that you are never gonna be one of them and you will keep messing it up and if you ever have a family you’re just gonna recreate the whole cycle over and over and over again, even if all you ever crave is a healthy, loving relationship? Yeah, me too. I grew up in an abusive family where I often got beaten and locked outside and all the psychological stuff n whatnot that left me pretty broken, and I’m still recovering. When my friend’s dad patted her on the head that shit just triggered me for some reason. I cried a little because cause I’m just too broken to achieve that. Every single relationship I’ve had ended up looking like my parents’ (fortunately) ex marriage.

Maybe it’s because I skipped my mood stabilizer last night on the plane? Maybe my circadian rhythm is just so fucked by the jet lag it’s messing my brain? Dunno. I’m just gonna project that onto my next chapter.

So, just in case if you’re tolerating this far, I’m assuming neither Slider and Mav had a decent childhood. Slider is from a lower-middle immigrant family from Eastern German that lacked a stable father figure and a support for his sexuality (except for his brother, Danny Kerner, that is.) while Mav just struggled to earn a love outside of romantic relationships and his brotherly bond with Goose. Slider is just afraid of repeating the seemingly endless cycle of pain and hatred inside his own house while Mav can never be fulfilled without his romantic bond with Slider. Slider slowly withdraws as Mav clings to him further and further. They also have to endure the constant oppression they face in the military and Slider just doesn’t want that happening to his lover as a gay guy who’s seen things while Mav is…Mav, and he’s all about crashing and burning, a true ride or die. Both don’t know what to do in this situation until they do. Set in Ice’s wedding. Sli is just so happy for his bro who’s also grown up in a shitty family but thinks wow I can never be able to do that. Mav takes it poorly. They both think about their past, present, and future that may or may not be available for them but seemingly accessible for everyone else including Ice, even though they know he’s struggled as well (might include a slight bit mention of privileges because I literally study it)

TJ MIKELOGAN'S HALLOWEEN 2023 EVENT Day 25: A movie or show that isn't horror, but still scared you

Threads (1984, dir. Mick Jackson) ↦ color isolation

Closer • FKA twigs

Wish there was an elixir that wasn't alcohol that you could take that just makes you write/draw and not care about the quality of your work or about what your potential audience might think

Okay, things pointing to Sybil being The witch:

A witch

Kaneeka played the role

Forsyth

And most importantly, protagonist refused to voice her as an enemy option. Because she's helpful? Well, the whole point of being in a plain sight is not being considered an enemy, a helpful guide is a cushy role to fill, and that's exactly what The Witch did, for Charlie, for Doc.

Now it wouldn't take a brilliant mind to suspect her so it's probabyl something else but being unable to say a dialogue option and more so, being able to click it however many times I'd want is at the very least peculiar.