It’s 3:44am and I have had one of the best nights of my life. I actually went out to a club.. lol and if you knew me you would know that is like nonexistent in my life. But nonetheless I had a great time and all I did was sit and drink. Then I got home.. it’s like, it almost doesn’t matter what I do anymore. I was fine. I worked from 7am to 11am (short day) and I got my eyelashes and my eyebrows done. Getting to the tech’s studio lately has been hard because of all the construction, but today there was actually an opening in the street directly to where I needed to go. Rather than having to take a 10 min detour. Everything in my day was going so smoothly it almost didn’t feel real. 

It’s 3:55am and all I can think about is the time when my best friend asked me to go out to a strip club with her on her birthday a couple years back. I didn’t go. Why? My anxiety at the time would have never allowed me to go into an actual strip club. Now I’m sitting here, and I feel awful. I had the time of my life tonight and all I can think of is how I didn’t go out with my bestfriend on her birthday a couple years back. 

Maybe if I could’ve womened up and just gone out with her. Just had fun with her, even if I didn’t feel the same way she did... who cares... maybe she would still be here.

Berdly looking at Mariah Carey through his Snowgrave: Well, at least ONE of us gets to defrost.

Billy Phone Contacts pt.2

DO NOT REBLOG

Susan: Susan, Step-Bitch, Useless Mother, Boozehound

Susan’s contact photo: pre- and post-Starcourt

Argyle: Mi Amigo, Mi Amor, Pizza Stoner

Argyle’s contact photo:

Heather: Heather, Heath Bar, ImSoFuckingSorry

Heather’s contact photo:

Robin: Buckles, Needs A Fem, Steve’s Shadow

Robin’s contact photo:

head in hands omg im so sorry yt watchers that are followers here, i keep forgetting i can update you guys on my bullshit

*breathes in* imsofuckingsorry. first off, nearly everytime i went to edit the next episode of the lions song premeire was Not having it. glitching out in the span of at least 20 minutes into editing with no way to fix it, not even importing into a new project. Just completely kapüt. So That delayed the editing process...AND THEN I GOT SICK

(really i didn't eat more than one meal a day for a week, but shhhhhh, i scared myself out of that slump...by loosing my freaking senses for a full freaking 5 minutes-NOT FUN DON'T DO THAT EAT FOOD NIGHTOWLS!)

SOOOOOOO

Idk when the next video is gonna be out, as in maybe I'll half ass it tomorrow or I'll finally work on it this week and it will be out next week. I'm gonna be animal sitting for over a week coming tomorrow, so that's bound to be quieter for me to get back in gear, so probably the 2nd option.

I really am taking this seriously, but my life has been nothing but monkey wrenches for as long as I can remember so it's gonna be...hard to wade through them to the shore I wanna be at.

Thank you, everyone that watches what little I have, Thank You.

the first skateboard I ever painted - “Here First”. A board I painted in respect to the ever so patient indigenous communities that surround us in Australia and as a reminder to the white folk (cunts) of who was rightfully and wonderfully looking after this country before “they” came along.  PHOTOS TAKEN BY THE INCREDIBLE WARWICK GOW 

I’m WAHking up

to Ryu and Ken

I WAH my brow and I cry my tears

this is it the WAHpocalypse

I’m sorry

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THAT IM SORRY THAT I FEEL LIKE THIS IM SORRY YOU CANT STAND ME IM SORRY IM ATTATCHED TO YOU IM SORRY I DIDNT DO ENOUGH IM SORRY I COULDNT KEEP FIGHTING IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SO SELFISH IM SORRY I WORRY YOU IM SORRY YOU NEED TO DEAL WITH ME IM SORRY  IM SORRY THAT I AM STILL ALIVE

Please forgive me...

Please don’t forget about me

There are many things, that I would like to say to you but I dunno how..

And I say maybe, you gonna be the one that saves me.

And after all, you're my wonderwall.

Oasis, Wonderwall

listen while reading take my hand take my whole life too. — engaged couple!reddie — “No. No, no, no, n-no! Don’t go, please. Not now, I had so much plann-.” Richie couldn’t finish his sentence, choking on his breath. Richie took Eddie’s hand, rubbing the ring and caressing his palm. “I-I thought our wedding could’ve been in P-Paris! Bill, Stan, an-and Mike could be the best guys, u-um, Bev could be the girl walking me down the aisle, and Ben could be the flower guy!” Eddie let’s out a weak chuckle, Richie let’s out a fake and small smile in return. Richie buries his head in the ground, “Please!” He screams out, “live for me, I need to be with you, I can’t survive without you, please Eds, please..” snot bubbles coming out of Richie’s nose and his eyes becoming puffy and bloodshot from the extreme crying and the emotions shooting through his body. Eddie using his last ounce of strength brings his one hand and brings Richie’s face up to be center with his own, smoothly brushing his cheek. Eddie looks up at him with love and sorrow, “I told you, don’t call me that, Richie..” Richie brings his hand holding his hand against his cheek, sobbing buckets and waterfalls of tears, gradually trying his hardest to come to terms that his soulmate is going to die. Eddie let’s out his final breath and lays there peacefully yet sadly, eyes with tears streamed down his blood stained cheeks. Richie let’s out a screeching cry, wheezing in-and-out trying to regain his composure. He reaches down and kisses Eddie’s cheek, “I love you so much, Eddie Kaspbrack.”

i couldnt take the idea of Mello wearing this out of my head, ok;;;

4:15 in the morning and then we broke up -- and he became a stoner again while i became a loner again and thats just the way life is and it sucks man im not gonna sugarcoat it. its like getting a dagger shoved inside of your stomach and while you're trying relentlessly to pull it out it just plunges deeper and deeper until you eventually bleed out. - i guess we like to think in a relationship that we will some day end up happy; but we always seem to be wrong we werent against the odds we were the odds and oh my god knowing that makes me want to scream at the top of my lungs "I THOUGHT WE HAD IT ALL" what i dont think people understand about us young going through loosing someone we thought we were gonna spend the rest of our lives with is we try, we try to get over them you really think i want to remember how good it felt to feel the touch of their skin or their stupid fucking smile id always end up loving or even how good it felt to just lie down next to them and not have a care in the world because youre so goddamn focused on that moment i spend every goddamn second thinking about the future and you finally gave me something worth holding onto the present. and realize that is all gone. even if the person you were in love with is still alive, they arent the same person. they dont love you anymore. and having to wrap your head around that concept at 4:15 in morning is one of those god awful feelings

- me sitting outside under the stars wishing you were here with me

IMSOFUCKINGSORRY-

imsofuckingsorry

Pidge's Solution to Klance Pining

read it on AO3 at http://ift.tt/2ewIipp

by TasiWrites

Pidge is sick of Klances pining and decides to deal with it It-- Pidge style

 *Rated T for foul language*

Words: 248, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 5 of It's 3 AM again

Fandoms: Voltron: Legendary Defender

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Pidge (Voltron), Lance (Voltron), Keith (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron), Allura (Voltron), Hunk (Voltron)

Relationships: Keith/Lance (Voltron), Lance & The rest

Additional Tags: Crack Fic, make out, Imsofuckingsorry, Mutual Pining, end me, Idiots, Pidge is fed up, Pidge says their married, so now theyre married, bcuz pidges word is fucking law

read it on AO3 at http://ift.tt/2ewIipp

Pidge's Solution to Klance Pining

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2ewIipp

by TasiWrites

Pidge is sick of Klances pining and decides to deal with it It– Pidge style

*Rated T for foul language*

Words: 248, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 5 of It’s 3 AM again

Fandoms: Voltron: Legendary Defender

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Pidge (Voltron), Lance (Voltron), Keith (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron), Allura (Voltron), Hunk (Voltron)

Relationships: Keith/Lance (Voltron), Lance & The rest

Additional Tags: Crack Fic, make out, Imsofuckingsorry, Mutual Pining, end me, Idiots, Pidge is fed up, Pidge says their married, so now theyre married, bcuz pidges word is fucking law

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2ewIipp