A Word-Filled Update
that no one's asking forrrr~
Sooooo, hiya~ ^^
Realized I kinda dropped out without much word, and wanted to give a lil update to anyone who may care, (and specifically to all the unfilled requests that have been sat in my inbox for months now T~T)
Dropping it under a cut because it gets quite long~ but I'll also TL;DR it with: been a bit burnt out, trying to get back into this, I apologize for all the unanswered asks, and I will be trying to get to the ones I can, but I'll be focusing more on trying to enjoy the process of making content~ Thank you to anyone who's stuck around <3
(Tw for brief mention of mental health/neurodivergencies~ nothing in depth or dark, but just incase anyone wants to avoid that <3)
Nothing serious has been going on, mostly just burn out and a bit of drama in main friend group, combined with free time just being a lot more limited recently~ (not a bad thing, most of it is because I'm getting to talk more with friends I've gotten closer to this past year~)
That said, I've been trying to get back into content, making it, reblogging it, etc, without letting it become all-consuming. I find, with the way my brain works, mostly to do to some wonderful neurodivergent tendencies, I tend to fall heavily into 'all of nothing' mentality.
This shows up in my day to day life, (ie: can't wash the dishes for weeks until I suddenly do them all in one day) and I've definitely noticed it with content creation. Need to write and finish a story in one go, record a wav as fast as possible, always afraid I'll lose that motivation.
But honestly? I love making content on here! And I'm not a huge blog, nor do I care if I am (at least trying not to, if I'm being painfully honest~) but I genuinely love making content. Whether it's just for me, a request that I am hoping one specific person will enjoy, or a story I write with a community in mind, I just love creating~
So, I'm trying to ease my way back into this! Bit by bit, let it be fun, and enjoyable, with less internal pressure to produce as much as I can, as fast as I can, and make it be perfect.
I won't lie and say 'numbers don't matter to me', if I'm honest, they do. But I'm learning more and more how to let it be about the content, and to just enjoy the process~ (and if people like it, that'll be a wonderful bonus!~)
Wooo this is getting so long, I apologize sincerely! Last thing, something I've mentioned a few times previously but never really let myself get into... requests~
I'm so honoured that people care about my content enough to have asked for things, and getting any ask, request, praise, ask lists, heck even just a 'hi!' is honestly the best part of this blog for me!
Buuuut, I definitely worked myself into burn-out before with a "every request needs to be filled and fast" mentality, that led to just... not filling any.
So! I'm going back through my inbox, and deleting some older ones that I don't have a clear vision/motivation for. I apologize to anyone who requested them, though by now it's possible they're long gone~ But I think this will help me not only start enjoying the creation process without feeling so overwhelmed, but also start actually getting more content made~
There are definitely a bunch that I still adore, and am thrilled to get to test out, but if there's one you remember sending, and you really want to see it completed, please feel free to send another ask saying what it is you want done, and I'll see if I can get that going <3
And if you've stuck it out to the end here- uh hi! ^^ I'm sorry this is so long, I'm such a words person, but I appreciate you so much, not just for any support you've offered, but just bothering to read this <3 I genuinely didn't expect most to make it this far, so thank you so deeply <3 and I hope to see you guys around as I start reblogging stuff more!~
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what do you think is the most sexy fascinating thing about computer parts ( or machine if you're willing )
i like gears turning and making cranking sounds as a starter :D
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OH MAN. OH STARS OKAY I’M ABOUT TO SAY SOME REAL EMBARRASSING SHIT AND I NEED Y’ALL TO BEAR ME WITH HERE OKAY AHAHSHTDHJVGJC
Gears turning and cranking sounds are ABSOLUTELY wonderful and I actually do enjoy those quite a bit myself!! (The daycare attendant has gears in their head apparently and so they have a constant idle clicking and shifting noise that I like to play on loop HAHA)
What I think is thee most downright flustering part of a computer is always the insides.
The wires and the small metal components and the circuit boards and all that fun stuff. Like these images, or this one, or this one. Those types of things are my FAVEEEE. I actually follow a wonderful wonderful blog for that kinda stuff too called “machine-guts” which I HIGHLY recommend if you’re anything like me LOL
There’s just something about seeing a computer with all the stuff you’re not supposed to see on full display. Wether it’s clear casing or missing casing or just being downright dissected, it is something I deeply adore and I truly honestly dream to someday be able to stick my hands in a bunch of wires or feel a computer’s circuit board and carefully build a pc in the gayest way possible.
AHEM. UH. STRAIGHTENS TIE. ALSO WORTH NOTING THAT JUST ANY EXCESSIVE WIRING/PIPING GETS ME TOO BUT YK AHSISHSODJDK
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