What's wrong with lexapro? I ask as a fellow lexapro user.

I like that you're asking me what's wrong w lexapro like it's Problematic and not like it just has a very negative impact on me

Uh, this might be my own personal desire for Audrey to be slightly less awful than canon (in part so she can’t be fully blamed for Chloe’s actions the way ML writers tried to), but was Audrey actually feeling bad for Zoe when she cried? I know it might be more of a general discomfort with vulnerability and sadness, but to me it felt like maybe Audrey does care that she made her kid so distressed, even as an akuma.

You are not hallucinating. She felt kinda bad that Zoe was crying. This is an SL exclusive.

Riz pulling so much weight for everyone and securing votes vs Kristen being the closest to failing out of school thus inadvertently screwing him. plus her inadvertently bringing Kalina back, who as it stands serves as an antagonistic and deeply painful force in Riz's life. there's just something really ripe and tragic about their friendship rn (even moreso if you wanna throw in the meta that the narrative was steered towards Riz running against Kipperlilly) and it's neither of their faults. I feel like I'm watching a disaster in slow motion.

I'm still thinking about how ashamed I was (and am) with being open about my pain because I am so young. It's so hard to feel worthy of having your pain taken seriously when the people around you insist that young bodies are always in pristine, untouched condition and that you must earn your pain through aging. Never is it considered that young people aren't lying or being a hypochondriac for expressing their pain.

Young people can be in life-altering pain. Young people can have debilitating pain. It doesn't matter what age it happens because pain doesn't discriminate. Complaining about pain and doing things to prevent needless pain aren't something you have to "earn" through aging.

If you want young people to be in less or lesser pain, then encourage them to do whatever they can to minimize it. Don't downplay what they're experiencing. Not everything is a lie, not every experience that is different than yours is exaggeration or deceit.

good god do not go on fucking twt rn, people are looking through past tommy and wilbur clips and speculating that tommy was abused as well (whether he was or not is not important right now, don't speculate about his personal life when he's not even online to correct anyone, for the love of god can we focus on shelby), or pushing phil, tommy, jack, charlie, quackity, etc. to say something asap as if they're not probably processing the fact that one of their very good friends has been an abusive piece of shit this entire time.

ALSO (this is not defending him this is just something i've seen that is pissing me off) i've seen people saying he was a creep for making a lot of friends who are much younger than him, like teenagers. but a) phil has made friends with these same people and no one is getting pissed at him, b) being friends with people who are younger than you (YES including in their teens while you are an adult) is not a morally terrible thing, you can be friends with people who are younger than you and not be a creep, c) CALLING HIM A "CLOSET PEDOPHILE" FOR BEFRIENDING YOUNGER MEN IS JUST TAKING EYES OFF OF SHELBY AND TRYING TO PUT IT ON THE YOUNGER MALE CCS YOU ENJOY. for the love of god stop focusing on the male streamers who haven't even had a chance to say something yet and focus on SUPPORTING SHELBY. THE VICTIM.

i think i've been sad lately because a lot of things have changed with the way i see people and the fandom space and realizing how common place this sort of cruelness and denial of room for growth is.

not an ask but I love how everyone’s first art piece of cotl’s caption has some variation of “guys so theres this game”

No because it was completely unexpected. Here I was, casually enjoying Lego Monkie Kid, when my roommate was like "Hey you know this game right? Wanna try it?" And I thought it looked like an actually interesting version of Animal Crossing, so I tried it... Then all interest of LMK completely fell through the floor and was replaced with silly lil Lamb guy and his giant fallen god husband.

if you mock children's theatre i hate you 🫶

Ok, I'm burnt out, pretty grumpy, and having a really hard time, so I'll be turning asks off for awhile. Posting will be more sporadic. I know I don't have to announce things like this, I figure I'll let people know so they don't think I'm ignoring them or anything. I'm just having a shit time, y'all.

Take care, everyone.

I wish I could be agender the way Murderbot is agender. Right down to the lack of biological sexual characteristics. So agender that the term agender comes with too much associated gender to accurately apply. You know what I mean?

It's very funny to be a blog that dislikes Anakin but loves Palpatine.

Now I obviously recognize Palpatine is an evil toad who commits genocide after genocide and is, generally, just an absolutely awful person. If he were REAL, I'd hate him.

But he's not, and so his unapologetically evil behavior is just SO IMMENSELY ENJOYABLE. I love that he's not some tragic uwu baby, I love how much enjoyment he gets out of ruining people's lives in the most melodramatic way possible, I love that he cackles as he toys with people like he's just playing with his food.

And maybe that's WHY I feel like I can enjoy Palpatine in a way I just... don't enjoy Anakin, or Kylo, or Maul, or even Dooku. Hardly anybody ever tries to uwu Palpatine. MOST people recognize that Palpatine is intended to be a bad person and that he does bad things and because he's not generally considered super attractive, he doesn't have a ton of fangirls rushing to make excuses for his actions so they can feel better about stanning him. Palpatine can just be enjoyed for the evil asshole that he is, I don't have to deal with tons of fans being WEIRD about him all of the time and it's GREAT. Palpatine is an incredible villain, one of the few who is honestly made worse by adding more nuance to him.

chicken noodle soup liveblogging in t minus 20 minutes

coping with the lack of empathy is so hard sometimes i just want to be normal but i feel like a monster for not being able to readily express sadness at the drop of a hat

side effect of having my hydroxychloroquine work really well is that i'm forgetting what it felt like to be Really Horrifically Sick. both because of the emotional distance and because of my general memory issues. the memory issues are a LOT worse concerning Times When I Was Horrifically Sick.

so i'm actually pretty grateful to my past self for the amount of time i spent oversharing here. if i scroll back like seven months in my autoimmune tag i can find posts of me essentially going "eh, i'm sleeping for 22 hours a day but i don't really care anymore bc i've accepted i'm gonna die" and "life sux. can't breathe or think or feel my chest but that's constant so i don't wanna go to the ER about it AGAIN" and "docs took 14 vials of blood 4 x-rays several lung images several lung tests and an EKG before i even left the hospital today. even tho they havent gotten my test results back yet" and i'm like god Damn.

I REALLY LIVED LIKE THIS????????

everyone, DON'T go cold turkey off of your antidepressants. the withdrawal side effects are horrible and my doctor did NOT warn me beforehand- if I had known that when suddenly going off my antidepressant, I would be watching 2021-2022 era Dan and Phil videos, I would never even have started this medication. But it's too late for me now. My life is RUINED.