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twinkle-art · 4 months

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ephemeral is the flesh

#final fantasy xiv #emet-selch #g'raha tia #crystal exarch #hythlodaeus #<- making one brief symbolic appearance as he always does #emetexarch #i. i guess. i don't know. maybe?#ffxiv #shadowbringers #comic #fanart #gore/#body horror/#WHO WANTS TO TALK ABOUT THEMES OF THE BODYYYYYYYYY

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inkskinned · 2 months

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before you know about women, you hear that you do not need to love the man, just that you need to love him through his manhood. which is to say you have seen the future painted in lamb's blood over your eyes - how your mother shoots you a look about your father's inability to cook right. how your aunt holds her wineglass and says i'm gonna kill em. men, right! how your best friend bickers with her boyfriend, how she says i can't help it. i come back to him.

you learn: men are gonna cheat. men aren't going to listen when you're talking, because you're nagging. men think emotions are stupid. they think your life is vapid and your hobbies are embarrassing. men will slam things, but that's because men are allowed to be angry. if you get loud, you're hysterical. if a man gets loud - well, men are animals, men are dogs, men can't control their hands or their eyes or their bodies. they're going to make a snide comment about you in the locker room, about your body, about how you're so fucking annoying. you're going to give him kids, and he will give you the money for the kids, and you're going to be running the house 24/7 - but he gets to relax after a long day, because his job is stressful. the man is on stage, and is a comedian, and says "women!"

and you are supposed to love that. you are supposed to love men through how horrible they are to you - because that's what women do. that's what good women do. wife material. your father even told you once - it'll make sense when you're older. it was like staring down a very lonely tunnel.

it feels like something's caught in your throat, but it's all you know, so. it's okay that you see sex as a necessary tool, a sort of okay-enough ritual to keep him happy, even though he doesn't seem to care about happiness as-applied-to you. it is relationship upkeep. it is kissing him and smiling even though he didn't brush his teeth. it is getting on your knees and looking up and holding back a sigh because he barely holds you as you panic through the night. it's not like the sex is bad and you do like feeling wanted. and besides! he's a man! like... they're another species. you'll never be able to actually communicate, right. he isn't listening.

you just don't get it. you don't feel that sense of i'm gonna climb him like a tree. mostly it just feels fucking exhausting. you play the part perfectly. you smile and nod and are "effortlessly" charming. and it's fine! it's alright! you even love him, if you're looking. you could have good life, and a good family, and perfectly happy.

in the late night you google: am i broken. you google i'm not attracted to my husband. you google i get turned on by books but not by him. you google how to get better in bed.

the first time he yells at you, it almost feels like blankness. like - of course this is happening. this is always how it was going to end up. men get angry, and they yell, and you sit there in silence.

you mention it to your friend - just the once - while you're drunk. she shrugs and says it's like that with me too, i just try to forget and move on. men are always gonna hear what they want to. pick your battles and say sorry even though he's in the wrong. you play solitaire online for a month. you go to your therapist appointment and preach about how you're both so in love.

after all, you have a future to want. nobody lied about it - how many instagram posts say marriage is hard. say real love takes work. say we fight like cats and dogs but the best part is that we always make up. how many of your friends say happy anniversary to the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. if you really loved him - loved yourself too - you'd accept that men are just different from you.

the first time she kisses you, it's on a dare at a party. something large and terrifying whips through your body. you wake up sweating from dreams where her mouth is encrusted with pearls and you pick them off one by one with your teeth. fuck. you sit at the computer and your almost-finished game of sim city. you think about your potential perfect life and your potential future family. you google am i gay quiz with your little hands shaking.

you delete each letter slowly. you don't need to love him. you just need to keep going.

#warm up #writeblr #this is also about being ace btw #my identity has slowly shifted over time and maybe if everyone is REAL cool i'll talk bout it #bc it's complicated and nuanced. but this is like #trying to warn u that if you find it “relationship upkeep” to have sex with ur partner #and don't actually enjoy it or seek it for urself. u might just not be attracted to them.#which is fine ! ace ppl can be perfectly happy in any relationship they feel good in!#but also i wasn't as straight as i had expected!#> the first time i saw dick i was like. huh. oh okay that's fine i guess #> the first time i saw pussy i was like. WAIT ACTUALLY HANG ON I GET IT #i just assumed sex wasn't all it was cracked up to be ya know #but also like. btw? this IS NOT saying ''u might be gay not ace''#bc tbh i'm grey ace/demisexual #it's saying u might not be into ur partner. explore urself & ur feelings. turn inward.#TAKE THIS IN THE MANNER IT WAS MEANT> GENTLE AND KIND #AND NOT IN A WEIRD INTERNET WAY PLEASE #bc the truth is that there ARE ppl who are gay who assume that they just ''don't like'' sex #and ace ppl who might need a different partner w/different needs #and i would have REALLY needed to hear ''check in w/urself about if u actually like sex''#WAY EARILIER in my life. but nobody said anything bc they assume if ur having sex. u like it.#not just the actual act of sex. not once ur turned on. do you ACTUALLY like it. or is it a burden?#even if ur gay. check w/urself. maybe ur more ace than u realized. in which case. ADDITIONAL FLAG BB #i love collecting my flags. i'm at like 354 at this point #but also btw this is about how toxic relationships are SO normalized that u can be in one #and have everyone around u being like ''THATS JUST MEN LOL''

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literaryspinster · 4 months

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I hear a lot of talk about how Hollywood isn't comfortable with showing romantic relationships, interracial or otherwise, without a white person involved. But I'm not sure that fans are actually comfortable with that either? And I don't think they're comfortable without a significant white (white male specifically) presence in their favorite genre shows.

#i'm not trying to start drama but i'm hearing some takes on gen v twitter that are making me not know how to feel rn...#like we have a show that doesn't go out of its way to center white men too much and yet i sense they wish they would do it more #and like #why?#because the combo of cate emma and sam can literally do the job of whatever new white character they think would add something to the cast #if you need a nice white character to be a man for whatever reason then maybe watch the boys? you'd probably like it. i do.#dm me if you're curious i guess but again i don't want drama and i don't want to automatically think the worst of people

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automatonknight · 1 year

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id: two digital drawings of a humanoid character and an old, beige desktop computer on a solid, black background. the humanoid creature has a sort of spiky ball of light for a head and its body is covered in wings-they’re on its ankles and arms, as well as two pairs on its back. floating around its head there are smaller, yellow and orange stars. the crature itself is white with light pink and blue accents.

on the first drawing, to the left, the winged creature is holding the computer in its lap, leaning its head close to its monitor, which is displaying a drawing of the sun. its wallpaper shows grassy fields and a blue sky. the computer tower is floating neraby and the computer’s mouse is swung over the creature’s shoulder. one of the wires forms a heart and the computer is shown singing four notes. the characters are slightly turned away from the viewer.

on the other drawing, the creature is upside down, laying on its back with its legs propped up on the monitor. one of its arms is under its head, holding the computer mouse and the other is touching the monitor. this time, the computer’s wallpaper is an abstract drawing showing dark blue waves. there are two windows open-one is playing a song and the other is displaying a photo of a daisy in a grassy field. the computer tower is once again nearby. here, the characters are facing the viewer. end id

#ERM. um #art #angel #computer #drew this with a platonic relationship in mind but i guess you're free to read this as romantic as well #these characters don't have names i made them up just for this one drawing (or maybe i'll draw more of them who knows) but eeurm. yeah ^__^#well i had lots of fun with this which is REFRESHING!!!#i can stop drawing for this year nothing will top this. actually #its a bit hard to make out but the computer is supposed to be playing they might be giants (1986) on the drawing to the left :3

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stewyhosseini-bf · 11 months

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they are literally brothers that's his little brother man!!!!!! you don't get it!!!!!!

#long post #ok is this proof that connor likes kendall the most? no i guess #obviously this is being selective but i'm telling you watch all of those scenes and you will know what i mean #obviously he loves shiv and rome as well but the fact that kendall not only got the least votes but SO MUCH LESS than the other two #like no.. you guys don't get it he loves him :( that's his little bro!#also these are not all of them i could only fit 30 images. more in the reblog #obviously he loves shiv and rome but also shiv is like very very mean to him 99% of the time lmao. and roman's nicer than shiv #maybe but still not very nice. he still loves their ungrateful asses! but you can def see him being warmest towards kendall #in the way they just interact with each other idk. always hugging always patting him ... that's his little bro!#mostly i'm just mad over ppl so unanimously deciding it's not kendall . none of you get it >:(#connor roy #kendall roy #roy siblings

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kaiserouo · 1 day

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Well someone has to give it its driver updates, Gabriel

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i-wear-the-cheese · 7 months

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Me approaching a random lesbian couple: so uh, which one of you is the dark religious fanatic and which is the brawny two-handed weapon fighter?

#you know #coz Baldurs Gate 3 has got me thinking about the Locked Tomb #coz like I don't know how many of you listened to the audiobook for Gideon the Ninth #but the voice acting for Karlach and Gideon is uncannily similar #and Harrowhark and Shadowheart #I mean just say those names out loud and then describe their lives and religions #AM I WRONG?#btw I haven't even finished act 1 yet so yeah if I AM wrong maybe don't use spoilers to prove it please thanks #I appreciate your patronage of my dumbassery #the locked tomb #tlt #gideon the ninth #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #griddlehark #shadowlach #that last ship name is a guess I don't know their lives

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mydetheturk · 10 months

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man. other people have put it better than i will but... the whole situation with vash and knives and the angel arm really is assault.

vash is afraid of knives. full stop. vash is afraid.

knives triggering the angel arm is a violation of vash's bodily autonomy and then using vash to try to destroy juneora rock only compounds vash's trauma. vash already can't remember july, which implies what happened there was worse.

and with the way nightow draws the scene? vash is in pain. he hurts. he's crying, openly sobbing, doesn't want to be doing this -

knives is smiling.

#trigun #trigunbookclub #vash the stampede #millions knives #myde reads trigun #i don't even know how to fucking tag this ok #fifth moon incident #i guess #god #and the whole lead up with knives being 'concerned' about vash!#NOT TO MENTION both the townsfolk & the gung ho guns' reactions!#most of which were fear!#i'm gonna go reread the extras now #maybe i'll feel better

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sysig · 4 months

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Puts the “plates” in “Fellplates” (Patreon)

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #Gaster #Papyrus #Hurt Gaster! Do it! Maybe classic will get a shiver down the infiniteness of the multiverse!#I wonder if he'd actually do it to himself or if he'd get it put on him by someone else for the full dramatic twist haha #Who even would? Asgore from sheer force? Alphys?? Idk lol #It's just the irony for me for now ♪#Although to completely cover them there'd have to be four rather than two :0 Hmm #Alphys' gift of fingerless gloves was a lot less invasive hm ♪ But that's part of the fun #I don't mean to keep doing crossovers - quite anyway lol - but hmm could that be 2-P from Fellplates with so much empathy in his eyes?#I guess it's the question of if Monsters Are or if they are Made ♪ Personally I'm partial to the latter but I do still fall into the former #Well either way - the important part is a Papyrus that doesn't like what he sees! He knows how much those hurt first (or 2nd? pfft) hand #And then just some errant thoughts about the Lost Soul head style and Gaster's void scars - give 'em to this version why not #Does any Gaster remain unscathed? Would he even be Gaster in that case? :)#A smile behind the white glow and tired eyes ringed by dark scars ♪ Fellplates is fun because he always looks good when he's suffering #The void smoke is still quite fun to draw hehe

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hermitcrimes · 1 month

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Grian's crimes (?) of episode 8

Breach of civil servant conduct (Deliberately making the permit process difficult and hard to access to reduce his workload)

#hermitcraft #hermitcrimes #hermitcrimes10 #grian #frankly i should just give him 5 additional crime points for the 3 hour research rabbithole he sent me down #maybe more #this assumes i correctly guessed his position anyway. and what counts as a breach. which. i don't know.#i think i'm going insane

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lowpolyshadow · 10 months

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Cringe is dead, embrace the gay

am i doing this right

#shadow the hedgehog #sonic #sonic prime #sonic the hedgehog #sth #so maybe i enjoy them fighting. what of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can also enjoy when they're friends and hang out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ironically i don't know if i actually would tag this sonadow but i mean. i guess you could. yknow. depends on what you want #asks #my art #speaking

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reunitedinterlude · 6 months

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#does he say maybe or baby i Don't know #me captioning these is rlly a guessing game #dan and phil #daniel howell #danisnotonfire #amazingphil #phil lester #danandphilgames #dnp gifs #my gifs #Halloween Baking - SLIME AND SADNESS CINNAMON ROLLS

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finemealprompt · 2 days

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DP x DC Prompt #20

Duke hadn't believed his father when he told Duke he had his "infinite blood" or whatever. Duke wasn't an immortal. To think he would be was ridiculous.

But Damian's old and gray, mentoring the next Batman. And Duke's still young. He's still in his prime. He isn't aging. Maybe his father was right. Maybe he's immortal. But he doesn't want to be.

He's already watched too many people he care about die, he doesn't know if he'll be able to stay sane if this continues.

Turning to Doctor Fate, he asks for help in losing his immortality. He's directed to the "Infinite Realms." Specifically, to a being that has been referred to as "The Great One."

Duke looks for him hoping he can help. He wasn't prepared to find a being that was more beautiful than anyone he's met before. He can almost hear his siblings teasing him in his head.

#finemeal prompt #dp x dc #half-light #danny fenton #duke thomas #danny/duke #i was looking into duke thomas shit for other reasons #and saw that his dad implied he was immortal #and this came into my noggin #also i don't think danny is the ghost king #he's just a powerful ghost #maybe danny doesn't age and is still a halfa #maybe he does age and is now full ghost #who knows #it's a prompt so i guess you do

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therealcallmekd · 2 days

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! _ _ _ R U I N O U S - I N T N T _ _ _ !

THAT DAMNED BSTRD! (I love themmmmmmm,,, uuuauuhhg)

(other stuff + sketches under cut)

SOOOOO SORRY followers for just kinda uh... disappearing of the face of the earth. OOPS!!

So you see I found this COOL AS HELL GAME! FOR FREE! ON THE BROWSER!??!!!?

That everyone here should TOTALLY PLAY RIGHT NOW!!!!

Go Play... Corru... Observer.... -> pllllleeeeease

You are in for a HELL of a ride lemme tell you. It 100% consumed my brain the minute I started playing mostly cuz of how blown away I was with everything. The writing? Incredible. Music and sound design? Realllllly good, been listening to the ost on repeat. The visuals? Beyond interesting and super super cool. Mechanics and interactions? REALLY REALLY UNIQUE! Ouuugh

Here, take my nonsense sketches as propaganda for this...