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livelaughlovesubs · 1 month

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Incubus fyodor 1

Dom!priest!reader x sub!incubus!fyodor

Warning: pegging, CNC, against a wall, in a church lol, also taking virginity??

Sometimes I use strap, most of the time dick or whatever. Then anyone can feel included? Idk?

This was requested by 🍮 anon, like a loooong time ago. Gonna repost it now :> (was too lazy to do so but now that you are back-)

Fyodor was just wandering around, looking for his next victim. It was boring to keep staying at one place, he always craved something grandiose and better. One day he ended up at a church after going around town, he detested those places due to his nature. But then he saw you through the windows, a diligent priest working for god. Proud, hard working and kind. What a sight, you must have never known the pleasures of the flesh. Oh how he pitied you, guess he will just ‘enlighten’ you then~

The incubus was wandering inside the building, looking everywhere for you. Until he found you in the chancel, the sacred place. Perfect, let's see how sacred it will be after he defies god’s little helper. Protecting one’s innocence? How laughable.

Fyodor walked inside, wrapping his hands around you and holding you from behind. Hands running all over your torso, grinning in delight as he said, “come on, let's have a little fun~ I can fulfil all your fantasies...” before he could even react to it, you took hold of his hands, turning around and twisting them in the process. “aAHH-”he yelped, falling backwards and taking a few steps back, his body hitting the wall. Your hand pinning his wrists over his head, knee pressed against the wall in between his legs. He felt you apply pressure to his crotch.

The boy gritted his teeth, showing his fangs. "Are you a demon?" You asked nonchalantly, while he struggled against your strength. Fuck, why were you so strong? “Yea and? What, gonna exorcise me? Haha.” “An incubi probably, by the way you were touching me.” You came to that conclusion, not an ounce of emotion present in your voice.

Continuing on as if you didn't hear him, thinking for a second. “I suppose you wanted to feast on me?” He stared at you with a skeptical look, why did you seem so interested? Before he got the chance to ask you, you commented, “I'm sorry that you were born this way, having to rely on such sinful acts to survive.. what a pitiful being.” “What, oh no you are the pitiful thing here, I bet you don't know what pleasure is, all because of some prideful faith. Want me to teach you?” Fyodor said cheekily, grinning as he looked up at you, his knees bend slightly due to the position.

“Don't get me wrong, I don't detest your kind. God has taught us to accept anyone. In fact, i’d be willing to help you, so that you don't need to bother other innocent souls. It's the duty of a priest.” He didn't understand what you were hinting at, for him you were talking garbage. “You aren’t going to seal me or anything?” The demon was genuinely confused, you want to help him? Why? “No need to fear anything, I'm sure you have experience in this field after all.” Next thing he knew you turned him around, his back arching like a crescent moon. “What are you…” suddenly you pulled his pants down, exposing his plum butt. “Huh?! wha-" poor him, that incubus was super confused now, this can't be what he thinks it is right?

Seems like his worries came true, it was what he feared, he knew when he felt your tip press against him. “Hu-huh? Wait a second..! I-I thought you were...” “I've learned many ways to deal with succubus or incubus, don't worry I'm quite experienced too.” Then you entered him, yearning a surprised moan from the male. “Ahh..!” Fingers desperately gripping the wall, looking for anything he can clench onto, eyes looking back and trying to understand the situation. He was getting… topped? By a priest nonetheless??

Him? Up until now he has only ever been on top. What experience, this is his first! Fyodor felt another push from you, the strap slowly driving into him. “You are so tight... ah, what's your name?” “Why do you care, pull it out!” “I'm sorry, I can't do that.” “Why?!” “Because I have to subdue you first, to make you submit.” Your voice was serious as you said that, pushing more of your dick inside him. “UgHh! Slo-slow down...gentle, gentle! Ah, hu-hurts..” the boy whined now, crying softly as his dick twitched in excitement. “Oh? It is your first? Maybe you aren’t as dirty as I thought.” Still using the same emotionless voice as before, you kept unintentionally leave snarky remarks behind. All while your free hand collected the slick around his rim, covering the toy with it.

“So wet already, more than many others of your kind.” Were you mocking him? He wanted to insult you, if only the dick wasn't making his mind go blank. “Ahh...you, I won't-mhm! Fo-forgive you.” “I don't need your forgiveness, only gods.” You said, before starting to move and trust into him. Then you explained, “in order to excuse this sin I had to commit due to your existence, we will have to work hard to beg for forgiveness.” “AhHh! Ah-aHh.ah. Oh-uhh..uhm! Nghh..!” Each trust was paired with whimpers or a moan. Cute squeaking sounds escaped him, face and shoulders flushed red and figure covered in sweat now. His filthy fluids were running down those slim and shaky legs, eyes rolling into the back of his head. What was he doing, didn't he plan on fucking you at first? So how was he getting dicked down now. It was still too hard to comprehend. Yet it felt so good.. it was melting his brain, he has never felt anything this amazing before.

“Such inappropriate noises you are letting out, i guess you are enjoying yourself?” The hand which you used to collect his slick was now on his hips, holding him in place since he kept trying to wriggle his way out, trying to escape those blissful sensations. “Ah..wait..ah-Uhm! This is..no-no good..stop aHh!” He whispered, shortly after tears started rolling down his blushing face. You only picked up your pace, going faster and rutting into him roughly, sometimes you'd brush against his prostate which made him cry out even more. “Ah-aAhhH! OOHh! I'm c-close.. m’gonna cu-cum.” Fyodor breathed out, his entire being quivering in pleasure. This was heaven. Don’t get him wrong, he knew nothing of heaven but this is how he'd imagine paradise to be like. He was filled with pure ecstasy, it was damn addicting and he doesn't think he will ever get over it.

“You have to beg for forgiveness, and to excuse your pathetic self.” You whispered into his ear. Like a spell he couldn’t disobey, he immediately began pleading with.. whom? God? You? Ugh.. to think he had come this low. “AhhHhAA!! ohHh! For-forgive meHHnghh~..!!” His release came in torrents, coursing through his veins and making his legs go weak. He felt so helpless, so exposed and vulnerable with you. And it was the best feeling he has ever experienced, never in his life did he knew something like this was possible. Those noises were filled with desire and longing, loud and clear as he painted the wall white, “aAhHahhhH~!” A shudder ran down his spine, hole clenching down onto you.

The slick was all the way down to his knees now, and he was still lost in subspace. Guess the climax was pretty intense, rendering him to such a whiny mess. You weren't sure if he could understand you, but you tried it anyway. “So, may I inquire the name of you pitiful thing?” There were no answers, only breathy whines and pants. Eventually he gasped out his name meekly, mumbling, “fyo-fyodor…” After blinking a few times, you leaned down to his ear and uttered in a seductive, as well as sadistic voice. This was the first time he heard your tone change. “I'm going to keep you here, so that you wont cause troubles for others. You don’t mind being my pet fyodor, isn’t that right?” And you let go of him after finishing your sentence. Hands leaving his body. Ahh..another shiver travelled down to his core, how could he ever refuse such an enticing offer? Without your help, his legs finally betrayed his body as he crashed down onto the ground. Sitting there looking all ravaged while a sticky white puddle formed beneath him. Fyodor looked at you over his shoulder while panting heavily, tongue hanging out from his blushing face like a dumb little pet.

Part two

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callofdudes · 11 months

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AleRudy ✨incorrect quotes✨ ft: Valeria, Ghost, and Soap.

Alejandro: As top in this relationship, I think we should-

Rodolfo: I can't believe you're pulling rank on me.

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Rodolfo: *chokes on something*

Alejandro: Jeez, Rodolfo, don't die on us.

Rodolfo: Don't tell me what to do, I'll die whenever the hell I want!

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Rodolfo: Here are two pictures. One of them is your bedroom, and the other is a garbage dumpster. Can you tell which is which?

Alejandro:

Alejandro: This one is the dumpster.

Rodolfo: They’re both your bedroom.

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Rodolfo: Do you think sex without love is a sin?

Alejandro: If it is, I’ll see you in hell.

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Alejandro: You need to stop swearing so much.

Rodolfo: Shut the fuck up.

Alejandro: Yeah, that's not how you do it.

Rodolfo: Alright sorry. It's just that it's hard not to swear. The words just creep up on me when I least expect it.

Alejandro: Now now, don't be like that. Just replace the swear words with 'beep' and you'll be fine.

Rodolfo: Shit the beep up.

Alejandro:

Rodolfo: SHUT, DAMMIT! I MEANT SHUT!

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Alejandro: Yes, I'm adopting Rodolfo and you cowards can't tell me no!

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Rodolfo: Alejandro...

Alejandro: I can tell by the tone of your voice that you are disappointed. Alas, I must further disappoint you by affirming how little I give a fuck.

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Alejandro: This is horrible! This is the most humiliating thing to ever happen to me!

Rodolfo: Oh-? Even more humiliating than-

Alejandro: We are not doing this!

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Valeria: Enough! How dare you mock me in such a manner!?

Rodolfo: Well. How would you like me to mock you? I take requests.

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Alejandro: Well, has Valeria been wrong before?

Rodolfo: How wide are we willing to open this up?

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Alejandro: Five little monkeys jumping on the bed. One fell off and…

Valeria: Was diagnosed with mesothelioma.

Alejandro: Mamma called the doctor and the doctor said…

Rodolfo: You might be entitled to financial compensation if he or a loved one dies.

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Rodolfo: Two years ago, I married my best friend.

Rodolfo: Valeria is still mad about it, but me and Alejandro were drunk and thought it was funny.

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Valeria, to Alejandro: You know, Rodolfo can be really aggressive, so it's important to take all the necessary precautions when approaching.

Valeria: *blows airhorn at Rodolfo* GET FUCKED!

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Valeria, washing the dishes: Who the fuck used this pan??

Valeria: Wait. I the fuck used this pan…

Rodolfo: It was you the fuck.

Valeria: It was I the fuck…

Alejandro: Who cooks rice in a pan?

Rodolfo: She the fuck.

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Valeria: Fun Fact! The average person will walk by 36 murderers in their lifetime.

Alejandro: I like how this is a "fun" fact.

Rodolfo: It's fun because they didn't decide to murder you.

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Rodolfo: You really believe in Valeria?

Alejandro: Luckily, she believes in herself enough for the both of us.

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Alejandro: Guys where did Valeria go?

Rodolfo: She got arrested.

Alejandro: How the hell-

Valeria: *bursts in through the window* The cops are after me, I thought it would be fun to steal crackers and throw them at people.

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Rodolfo, watching Alejandro with the new recruits he's fond of: Ugh

Valeria, watching as well: You know...

Valeria: He doesn't love you. You could always join me and my cartel, we'd treat you better than he does.

Rodolfo: You think I want to join your peacock feather spreading, egotistical little boy band??

Valeria: Ok, sorry I asked

Rodolfo: Yeah, be sorry 😤

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Rodolfo: Is there a cactus where your heart should be?

Valeria: What’s up your ass this morning!

Alejandro: *walks in* ...Hey.

Valeria: Hmm… nevermind.

Rodolfo: WAIT NO!

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Ghost: They... well, I wouldn't call it inheritance per se. What do you call it when you kill someone and get their stuff?

Soap: Um, murder???

Alejandro: Adventuring!

Rodolfo: Tuesday.

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Rodolfo: I give up. I am so tired.

Soap: Get the emergency supply!

Ghost: *carries Alejandro and places him in front of Rodolfo*

Alejandro: *smiles*

Rodolfo: AND I AM BACK BABY, LET’S GOOO

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Ghost: Christmas is cancelled.

Rodolfo: You can't cancel a holiday.

Ghost: Keep it up, Rodolfo, and you'll lose New Year's too.

Rodolfo: What does that mean?

Ghost: Alejandro, take New Year's away from Rodolfo.

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Alejandro: What’s up with Soap? He's been laying on the floor for like….an hour now?

Rodolfo: He's just a little overwhelmed.

Alejandro: Why?

Rodolfo: Ghost smiled at him.

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Rodolfo: I am darkness. I am an power. I am your worst nightmare. I could kill a man in more ways than you can imagine. I am the night. I am fury, I am a weapon, I am-

Soap: A doll.

Ghost: A cinnamon roll.

Alejandro: A sweetheart.

Rodolfo:

Rodolfo: ...stop it.

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Rodolfo: What are you getting Soap for the holidays?

Ghost: I don't know. It's kind of hard buying a gift for your partner when they already got everything they could've ever wanted when they married you. So I'm not sure yet.

Alejandro: I'm getting Soap a divorce lawyer.

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Rodolfo, opening his arms to greet Alejandro after coming home late: Mi amor!!

Alejandro: What's going on?

Rodolfo: I don't know what you mean love, we should go inside now

Alejandro: Where's the body??

Rodolfo: ...

Rodolfo: I don't know what you're talking about-

Alejandro: I'll get a shovel...

I made a few of these up myself, and I'm proud. Giving the babies the chaotic love they deserve.

#alerudy #alejandro vargas #alejandro x rudy #alejandro x rodolfo #call of duty incorrect quotes #call of duty #cod incorrect quotes #incorrect quotes #Rodolfo is my feral baby #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #valeria garza #its long yall

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1moreff-creator · 7 months

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DRDT - Milgram AU: T1 "Voice Reveal" Lines

Hey there! Back at it with this AU. I figured if I'm going to commit to the bit, I might as well commit fully. At the start of every Trial, Milgram gives a sneak peak at some of the lines which will appear in the VDs, combined with "glitchy" lines which relate to their murder. So I'm doing that too! Keep in mind this is not professional in the slightest, so exact wording might change between now and when I actually post the VDs. Especially since it's been a while since I rewatched DRDT so the wording could feel a bit off. Anyways, here we go!

Implied DRDT spoilers and heavy themes. Again not affiliated with either of the series

Btw I'm using crossed out text for aesthetics but there will be a transcript at the bottom if you have trouble reading that.

01- "Levi Fontana, a pleasure"

"Yes, I am a murderer"

"I can't bring myself to pretend to be sorry for what I did"

"I suppose I should watch the other prisoners to learn how normal murderers should handle themselves"

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I know you didn't want this, but it had to be done

02- "Arturo Giles"

"Ugh. Do I really have to be judged by someone this ugly?"

"I'll have you know, I've never murdered anyone"

[Whispering] "I mean, there is... no, no, that wasn't my fault"

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How was I meant to know?! Even if she's dead because of what I did, it's not my fault!

03- "My name is David Chiem"

"It seems there's been a mistake. But don't worry! I won't hold it against you"

"Mistakes can be corrected. It's not difficult to change, as long as you're willing to!"

"I try to be as positive as I can, since I know there's a lot of people that don't get the privilege"

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AGH! CAN YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT, YOU PIECE OF HUMAN GARBAGE?!

04- "Yo! Whit Young, nice to meet you!

"Are you really sure everyone here is a murderer?"

"That's wack"

"I don't remember doing anything suspicious! Yesterday was normal, the day before that was normal, the day before that... the day before that..."

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My mom's really amazing! I love her a lot. I would do anything for her

05- "Tch. Ace Markey"

"You wanna fight?! Wait, fuck, you probably have weapons, don't you?! Shit, don't get any closer!"

"You think I'm a murderer?! Horseshit!"

"Get off your fucking high horse!"

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Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, shit, shit shit shit, FUCK!

06- "Uhm... Nico... Hakobyan"

"I'm- I'm really sorry!"

"You're pretty weird"

"Ah! I'm sorry! Don't get mad at me!"

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Why should I own up for the mistakes that someone else made?!

07- "J Moreno"

"What do you people really want? Ransom money? There's no way you're doing this just because you want to 'judge our sins' or whatever bullshit you're saying"

"Don't make me laugh. Find evidence I killed anyone, and then we can talk about murder"

"Do you really think you're going to understand everything I've been through, just with a silly little song? How arrogant are you?!"

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What happened to her was nothing short of a tragedy. Sorry, but I will make no further comment

08- "Mmmm... Rose Lacroix"

"zzzzz"

"Ah, yeah. I killed someone"

"This really isn't that bad. At least I can paint here"

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I wonder if I can be happy now

09- "H-Hu Jing"

"I know what I did was unforgivable..."

"I really am selfish... I'm scared of receiving the punishment I deserve"

"Please Forgive me!"

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Wake up! Please! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!

10- "My name is Veronika Grebenshchikova!"

"If you don't mind, can you choose not to Forgive me?"

"Death sounds boring. I'd rather stay alive if you don't mind!"

"To Forgive what I did... it would be denying everything I believe about my life..."

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[Cackling laughter, which trails off with a wheeze] I really am a monster...

11- "Arei Naegishi!"

"Pfft! God, you're pathetic!"

"Why the hell are we even here? How could anyone be stupid enough to do anything but Forgive me?"

"Are you really that much of an idiot?!"

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WHO'S THE WEAK ONE NOW, HUH?!

12- "Uhm... Eden Tobisa..."

"Even when things are looking down, we just have to try our best, and trust each other!"

"I... I never wanted anyone to die!"

"Es... why are you doing this?"

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Wh- What have you done?!

13- "Min Jeung"

"This is ludicrous. How are we meant to expect a fair judgement when your 'justice' is determind by one person's whims and biases?"

"When an institution is non-functional, it is highly illogical to indiscriminately tear it down. Improving the basis already in place is by far the most constructive way to conduct progress"

"There is no country in the world where I would be judged a murderer. To say one single prison has the authority to decide that I am is a flagrant display of vanity"

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The condition has been met. There is no need for further intervention

14- "Alexander Matthews. Just call me Xander"

"Don't you see how broken this entire system is?! What makes you think you hold a monopoly over morality, huh?! What gives you the right to Forgive or Not Forgive?!"

"When something is rotten, you throw it away. It's the same with this twisted place!"

"...Warden?"

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Ah... haha... I did it... You all can finally rest

15- "Charles Cuevas"

"I was hoping the Warden would be competent, at least, but clearly I was a fool to think that could ever be the case"

"Are you stupid?!"

"Warden... Es... I have a request"

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Hgk...- Ack! ... Kch[sharp inhale]

16- "Teruko Tawaki"

"Are you okay?"

"You don't need to know anything about my crimes. I'm unforgivable. That's all you need, right?"

"If you can find a way to do it... Just kill me"

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... [sigh] Why did I ever get my hopes up?

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And there we go! Hope they weren't too ooc! Keep in mind different backstories could lead to slightly different personalities; this AU is canon-adjacent, not really canon-compliant. Levi's first trial is coming soon! Hope you enjoyed!

Huh? Secret message? Whatever are you talking about?

Here's the transcript of the glitchy lines:

01 - Levi: I know you didn't want this, but it had to be done

02 - Arturo: How was I meant to know?! Even if she's dead because of what I did, it's not my fault!

03 - David: AGH! CAN YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT, YOU PIECE OF HUMAN GARBAGE?!

04 - Whit: My mom's really amazing! I love her a lot. I would do anything for her

05 - Ace: Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, shit, shit shit shit, FUCK!

06 - Nico: Why should I own up for the mistakes that someone else made?!

(Yes it's just the secret quote on their page sue me it's a cool line)

07 - J: What happened to her was nothing short of a tragedy. Sorry, but I will make no further comment

08 - Rose: I wonder if I can be happy now

09 - Hu: Wake up! Please! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!

10 - Veronika: [Cackling laughter, which trails off with a wheeze] I really am a monster...

11 - Arei: WHO'S THE WEAK ONE NOW, HUH?!

12 - Eden: Wh- What have you done?!

13 - Min: The condition has been met. There is no need for further intervention

14 - Xander: Ah... haha... I did it... You all can finally rest...

15 - Charles: Hgk... Ack! ... Kch[sharp inhale]

16 - Teruko: ... [sigh] Why did I ever get my hopes up?

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aritany · 5 months

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sorry to be nosy, but do u have any insights as someone who went through a divorce at a young age?

don't be sorry - what a fascinating question! it's STORYTIME. i don't know if this is so much my 'insights' as it is ruminations, but i digress.

i guess my number one tip would be: don't marry a bigot,,,

i'm kidding. mostly.

i'm very transparent about why i got divorced (if you know me in real life, you know how true this is), but that's what it boiled down to. i got married VERY young, 95% due to deeply religious family on both sides, 5% because i truly believed i had found the person i was going to be with forever. if you're going to be together forever, why not just bite the bullet and get married young, right?

i came out to my ex-husband as bisexual super early on in our relationship (i think 2 months into dating) because i obviously needed him to a) know i was queer and b) be cool about it, and he was. if i recall, he said, "oh. ok, good for you."

(later, he told me that that moment was almost a dealbreaker for him. i NEVER would have known, based on how he reacted in the moment.)

as a married couple, we were awesome roommates and very good friends and overall a wonderful team. then i started properly deconstructing christianity around the same time i started thinking about gender, and covid hit immediately after. i didn't come out to anyone as nonbinary until march 2021, and when i did, he was the first person i talked to. he was... significantly less cool about it than he was with bisexuality.

here's the thing. he LOVED having a wife. in hindsight, it's really easy to see that i could have been anyone, and he was really ready to settle down. i have to give myself some credit, because i think i'm excellent, but i do think that to some extent i was in the right place at the right time and checked off a lot of his boxes. if that sounds a little cold to you -- a SHOCKING amount of cishet men do this. it's weird.

anyway, i was His Wife™, and while i was by no means a traditional christian wife, i was still a very she/her slay queen girly.

then i started committing sins. (got some tattoos. started writing about The Gays. started speaking out against the church. Cut My Hair Short [cue gasps]. started dressing more androgynously.)

he couldn't get his head around using gender neutral language for me. to his students (he was in education at the time) i was His Wife. to his family, i was His Wife, even after i came out to them too. classic wifeguy stuff.

my current partner (who is SO wonderful) was in the process of becoming that best friend you have really confusing gay feelings about, and had to deal with me talking about this and how i was just going to have to settle for being with this guy who wouldn't respect my gender, even when that disrespect started actually making my skin crawl when he'd get close. because hey, marriage is for life. it didn't even occur to me that we might get divorced until about 4 days before The Conversation. i was genuinely ready to stick it out with this guy who refused to really See me, because i thought that was what i had to do.

then came The Conversation. i'd been invited to be a bridesmaid in his sister's wedding and had agreed to wear a dress, because hey, it's her wedding. if she wants bridesmaids in dresses, sure. (i was still very much reeling from my own wedding, but that's another story i'll tell if anyone's curious.)

anyway. dresses. i go to a fitting. i stand there numbly while wearing the most godawful dress i'd ever seen, feeling like Garbage. i go home. i step in the door, i burst into tears. sobbing, on the couch, i tell him that something's not right. i can't wear a dress to this wedding.

i think that was when he realized i wasn't going to grow out of being nonbinary. we had a really long, brutal conversation, mostly about how i was probably going to want top surgery one day, that ultimately resulted in him ending our marriage.

"i can't make you be somebody you're not," he told me. "but you can't make me attracted to you."

that's right, folks! the thing that ended my marriage was my tits.

we'd sat through and endured many conversations in which i shared my feelings about the church, about christianity, about the patriarchy, about gender as a whole, but in the end, the thing he could not get his head around was a version of me that didn't have a chest.

i won't lie, that shit stung. the constant rejection of my gender expression had sort of eroded any romantic love i felt for him at that point, but he'd been my closest confidant for so long by that point that i really had to work through some shit about worthiness in the weeks after. it was just surreal to me that me With tits was good and worth being married to, but a hypothetical version of me with a flat chest was so repulsive that he'd rather end a marriage than endure it.

and like, i get being a boob guy (trust me), but damn.

p.s. some really interesting notes: he waited to have this conversation with me until literally the week after i received the first 5-figure portion of my book deal advance, which meant when we were settling affairs, it counted as "marital income" and he got half, and then he hired lawyers behind my back after we said we wouldn't do that.

in hindsight? maybe it was never about the tits at all. ;)

#alex talks #storytime #divorce #storytime with alex #personal #asks #i love talking about the bullshit that happens in my personal life it's very fun to me #if anyone else has questions about this or anything else u know where my inbox is babey #full disclosure? getting over him was EZ and genuinely took about 4 minutes. getting over my PARENTS? holy fuck #(they didn't take the divorce Or the gender very well)

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tiger-moran · 6 months

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So Sherlock is Garbage, and Here's Why (I will refer to that from here on as SIGAHW) does talk about Moriarty but not Moran but watching that has made me think about what that show did (or didn't do) with my two favourite characters. Let's get this out the way first, sorry but I'm never going to like 'Jim' no matter what, even if they'd characterised him better and not done... everything they did with him, but that's really not the point here.

What is the point is they screwed Moriarty and Moran over in that show bigtime, and Moriarty/Moran for that matter, which whatever some people try to claim is a pairing that has a very strong basis in the canon, they are one of the most obvious potentially queer pairings of the canon even. There are details in there that are very suggestive even that Conan Doyle could have deliberately coded them as queer, probably for homophobic reasons, yes, but more in a way that tied to the homophobia of the day, so it was a coded way of saying these are characters who break the law and exist outside the laws and the norms of society because in that time and society male homosexual behaviour was literally illegal as well as widely being deemed 'sinful' and a 'sickness', i.e. it could well have been something that emphasised that these are characters who just do not give a shit about the norms and rules of society, something which is not in itself intrinsically queerphobic.

But there is nothing intrinsically wrong with coding villains as queer anyway (and I will fight people over this), and often a lot of queer people do latch on extremely hard to the queer (confirmed or coded) villains because we see ourselves in them. There's also nothing inherently wrong with having queer male characters be 'camp' or 'flamboyant' or whatever. But SIGAHW does address the queer-coding of Moriarty in Sherlock and it's summing up pretty well why that always rubbed me the wrong way, because it linked queerness directly with villainy. But also it didn't even show him as queer by bringing in the guy who would very obviously be a candidate for his boyfriend, i.e. Moran, it did it by making him obsessed with Sherlock and everything he does has to be because of and revolve around Sherlock because Sherlock is the Bestest Bestest Bestest Ever and So Smart and So Amazing (probably because, let's be honest here, Moffat seems to think he is as brilliant and smart as Sherlock Holmes and sees himself as Sherlock). It basically has it that Moriarty is bad and wrong and evil and all of this is because he's essentially in love with Sherlock, his 'badness' all stems from his queerness, which is fucked up and also, none of that is canonical, it's just an interpretation and a very loose one at that, yet it's taken over and they act like it is literally canonical fact and it's got to the point where even the fucking Conan Doyle Estate Ltd are spouting this shit as if it's canonical fact - they still have that Moriarty is "Sherlock’s number one nemesis and obsessive fan. Moriarty is the criminal mastermind who haunts Sherlock Holmes as the great detective hunts him during many of his investigative endeavours. Moriarty’s impeccable intelligence and wit make him a perfect mirror of Holmes, often in an eerily romantic way" crap on their website. They are literally describing Sherlock while claiming to be the 'experts' on the canon and ~guardians~ of the canon and its characters. Which is pretty fucked up, and OK that's probably not inherently the fault of that show or its creators but it does go to show how their nonsense managed to take over in people's minds while shitting on the canon.

Meanwhile the creators of Sherlock actually did go out of their way to insult Moriarty in the canon and in other versions - that "Moriarty is usually a rather dull, rather posh villain" nonsense from Moffat for instance which having seen that referenced in that video now I do remember and it pissed me off back when I did read that originally too even though way back then I didn't even love Moriarty the way I do now. It always, always felt like they had such contempt for the canon and their treatment of Moriarty was yet another example of that - it felt like this wasn't something they were adapting with genuine love and changing details to create their own interpretation sure but in some carefully crafted still very loving way as some kind of homage to the canon and those that had gone before. It didn't even feel like... they were mocking the plot holes and everything in the canon but in an affectionate way. Loads of us do that, I spend a lot of my time infuriated with Conan Doyle and his lack of fucks about making things make sense or making them not contradict each other, but I absolutely mean that in an affectionate way, whereas they seemed to genuinely think everything that had gone before was terrible, including the original stories, and everything about it needed to be 'fixed' and that they had made the stories 'theirs' now and all the other versions including the original stories could get fucked.

Also there's their habit of just tossing around words like "psycho" and "nutcase" for Moriarty (as well as the "sociopath" stuff for Sherlock) which seems... dangerous territory to be veering into? Not only for linking being a "psycho"' or a "nutcase" with queerness (as SIGAHW rightfully points out that is screwed up, in the way they did it) but also making it (again as that video points out) so you don't have to actually bother to give the character of Moriarty any real depth or consistency or, you know, actual decent characterisation because he's so ~zany~ and ~crazy~ because he's just a "psycho" which yes is piss poor, lazy characterisation, but also... you're basically 'villainising' or demonising actual real mental illnesses, or symptoms of them? And saying he's dangerous and bad because he's "crazy"... I don't know, I don't feel like I'm best placed to comment on that but that always rubbed me the wrong way too even if I maybe can't fully articulate why.

(I'm not really getting into the fact that they ultimately did just waste Moriarty too, like they didn't actually know what to do with him beyond make him infatuated with Sherlock, because I think SIGAHW did cover that much better than I ever could. But I mean, it does seem like they couldn't even commit to anything with their own take on the character, they didn't even ultimately have any respect for him never mind for any other version including the canonical character.

I'm also not really getting into how they basically set up this 'Jim loves Sherlock' thing and then proceeded to belittle fans who shipped them together, but that was very screwed up too that they did that.)

And then there's Moran. My beloved Moran. I do not know which is worse, erasing a character entirely, or effectively breaking him up into various parts, showing some of those parts but then removing the main pieces of him that make him who he is. Because in Sherlock they had a character named Sebastian (who as far as I can remember was a total douchebag), they had a character named Moran who was some sort of criminal, they had snipers, they had other people working for Moriarty. But never a Sebastian Moran, never Moriarty's right hand man, never Moriarty's friend (when he is literally called Moriarty's friend and bosom friend in the canon). Moran canonically mattered to Moriarty and he was way more than just some fucking 'henchman' - I have written many tens of thousands of words about this already including multiple essays. Moran mattered. But he didn't matter at all to 'Jim', or Sherlock's creators. And not only that they also did what they did elsewhere and not only showed utter contempt towards the canonical character, they also showed contempt for the people who love him and for the shippers of the pairing. They knew full well there were people who were desperate to see a Sebastian Moran in that show, they knew there were people who shipped Moran with Moriarty, and yet when they were asked about this they just insulted him and dismissed him as totally unimportant (that "he’s just Moriarty’s henchman. There is not much more to it" shit from Gatiss, though I'm almost certain Moffat said something else demeaning about Moran too but this was too long ago now and so much stuff has vanished without trace so that I can't find any of those quotes any more), and they made it sound like the fans desperate to see him in the show were absurd for seeing anything in him or in Moriarty/Moran or wanting that to happen, because of course 'their' Moriarty only has eyes for Sherlock. Of course (because Sherlock is a fucking Moffat stand in so of course everyone from Watson to the original character mortician to the supposed lesbian to the recurring major villain has to be infatuated with him one way or another because he's just that awesome. Even though in actuality they made him into an insufferable prick).

They did screw over Moriarty/Moran and just erase that pairing from existence in that universe, essentially, to the point where anybody who does ship the pairing in it had to create 'Seb' themselves, to fill this void that the creators deliberately put in because they thought their version of these beloved stories and characters was so much better and smarter and more wonderful than anything else, when in reality it's like that video says, it's garbage, and it's insulting to the fans who care about the stories and the characters and the pairing both in itself and in the way the creators treated those fans. No they are not the only people to do this and smugly act like they're better and cleverer than Conan Doyle and of other fans of the stories and the characters while they were merrily wrecking the characterisation and butchering the stories, I can certainly think of one rather famous author in particular who I think did something similar too, but I think they did take it to a whole other level.

#James Moriarty #Sebastian Moran #Sherlock Holmes #anti BBC Sherlock #anti Moffat #anti Gatiss #Sherlock is Garbage

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angelduffhazbin · 8 months

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My Fizzmodeus thoughts

Fizzarolli and Asmodeus are first seen in the episode called "Ozzies". There they are very negative about Moxxie's feelings for his wife Millie. "You singing lovesongs in my lustful lounge. Ozzie´s aint the place for sentimental sounds. What´d you expect from a proprietor like us. You demon host, Asmodeus, the embodyment of lust." But afterwards you can also see that Asmodeus looks pretty unhappy when Millie roasts Fizzarolli with the guitar. And later he and Asmodeus make fun of the two, but then cuddle up slightly. In the episode "Oops" you see that the two are secretly together. So secretly, that...everybody know it...?

This article is about Asmodeus criticizing love in his own establishment "Ozzies" when he himself seems to be addicted to love. Fizz even tries to get rid of this article by putting it in a garbage can and throwing it out the window. The following conversation is about Fizz wanting to go to a competition of juggling that takes place in the greed ring. Asmodeus doesn't think this is a good idea because something would happen to Fizz. For example, that he is kidnapped and Asmodeus is blackmailed for ransom. Asmodeus even offers him an escort. Anyway, Fizz is kidnapped by Strider, Crimson and his people while Ozz is stuck with birdy babe Stolas. "Do you have any idea who you are F*CKING WITH???" "Ya probably just asked if I know who I´m dealing with. And oh yes, I know. The weakest and non-threatening of the sins. The king who will do whatever it takes to save the worst kept secret in all of hell." The episode continues with Fizz and Bliz reconciling and along the way learning that maybe there was someone who wanted to break them up...? Anyway, they escape and Fizz and Ozzie are reunited. "You ain´t never leaving the palace without protection, AGAIN." "Well don´t worry, today I learn that I hate going outside!" "You won´t have to, again." "I am sorry... I got a little messy..." "You don´t need to apologize for getting banged up, babe! I´m just sorry I coudn´t be there..." My thoughts are... The relationship between Fizz and Ozzie is very healthy. You can see that Asmodeus cares and cares for Fizz. Like when he gave him a new arm. Nevertheless, there are people who consider the relationship between the two to be unhealthy just because of these words: "Well don´t worry, today I learn that I hate going outside!" "You won´t have to, again." I also find it difficult to follow what is happening, because English is not my native language. That's why I'm very grateful for the subtitles. Anyway, that's why I'll watch the episodes a few more times. And if you look closely at the episode, you'll notice that Asmodeus never wanted to imprison Fizz. He just didn't want him to go to the greed ring there alone and without protection. And why not? Because maybe that's where the biggest criminals roam? The reason that nothing has happened to Fizzarolli before is because he was important to Mammon and none of the demons living there would have dared to lay a hand on his Property. When Loo-Loo Land burned down, Fizz changed business partners. And you just notice how Asmodeus is not respected at all by the demons... Love is generally viewed as a weakness. Especially with someone like Asmodeus, who stands for consensual sex. And I think that this could still lead to a problem in their relationship. The fact that Fizz has absolutely no desire to go out is less due to Asmodeus. I suspect it's more related to his trauma. He burned and lost his horns, arms and legs. Then it was set on fire again. Let alone that Mammon particularly liked the fact that his Loo-Loo Land burned down because of him. And in the end he was kidnapped by criminals, threatened, gagged and...almost set on fire again.

Of course that's traumatic.

#helluva boss #fizzmodeus #fizzarolli #fizzaroli helluva boss #helluva boss asmodeus

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mooodyblue · 2 years

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trying to get to you | 50s!elvis x fem!reader

READ PART ONE

summary: you were supposed to hate elvis presley, but what happens when you get swept up at one of his concerts and you find yourself having feelings no girl like you should ever be having?

wc: 3.5k

warnings: NSFW MDNI!! religious!reader, mentions of god and church, virgin!reader, riding, oral(m.receiving), slight overuse of the word baby sorry LOL,

notes: ty for the love on the first part, this is definitely going to be an ongoing series. i need to do longer parts but i'm so garbage at ending things. anyway, may contain inaccuracies and mistakes.

>REQUEST/MASTERLIST<

for your entire life, you'd made sure to always be a good girl, a good child to your parents. going to church every week, praying before every meal and before bed, confessing during the rare times you did mess up, and overall just doing your best to make your parents proud. getting into trouble or breaking the rules was something that never crossed your mind. that was until elvis presley came into your life. you haven't told anyone what had happened with him the night before, not even during confession. if god was always watching, he already knew what you were getting into. and just as elvis said to you, there had to be a reason god brought you together again.

you'd broken so many rules at this point, last nights events replaying in your mind. you still want more, you needed more. you wanted to see more of elvis, to give him the pleasure he deserved, to tend to his needs like you couldn't yesterday. perhaps being asked back to his motel was a test. if you said yes, was god going to punish you? and if he didn't, maybe you and elvis really were meant to be.

"well?"

your leg bounced anxiously up and down, silently praying and asking god to give you a sign that you should go with him. you felt as if you always needed permission from your parents to do anything and now, in no position to ask your father, you glanced up at the sky, as if god himself would appear from the clouds saying something along the lines of 'yes my child! go be with elvis presley!' if only that were the case.

"if you're wonderin' what he's thinkin', he may be letting you decide for yourself for once." elvis spoke up. you looked back down at him, still unsure of your decision. there he was again, placing his hand on your knee in a soothing way like he could feel how terrified you were in this moment. "you know, i won't force you to do anything you don't wanna do. i ain't forcin' you to come back with me either." he said softly in a reassuring tone. "'m just like you. i go to church, i pray every night. my mama even says what i do--everything i do--it's because of god. it's all godgiven."

it's amazing to you how people view him differently. how people live differently because of him and his rules. one may live a strict, christian life and listen to every word that bible says, just like you and your family does while another may live life to the fullest while continuing to stay true to god, learning to love thy neighbor throughout all their sins and flaws. god does love everyone, he's supposed to.

"we can just end it here, if you want. you won't have to see me again, i leave in a few days. i'll make sure we never cross paths aga-"

you interrupted him. "i don't want that."

elvis sighed, taking your hands in his and holding them tightly. "then what do YOU want? not your daddy, your mama or god, what do YOU want?" he asked, shaking your hands with every 'you' for emphasis.

you looked him in the eyes for a few seconds then moved your head back up at the sky. he softly gripped your jaw and moved it back, forcing you to look him in the eyes again. "this ain't about him, baby. it's about you."

you took in a deep breath and exhaled, hands shaking slightly. "will you have me home by nine?" he grinned at you. "of course, hon. we won't do anything you don't wanna do, we can just talk."

the drive to his motel wasn't as bad as the drive home from yesterday. it was more comfortable. he told you about his life, his upbringing and how his career started. you even admitted you hated him only because of your parents. he couldn't believe some of the things you didn't know about him.

"y'know how many shows i've been banned from? you probably weren't missin' out on much anyways."

it didn't hit you what you were doing until he pulled up to the motel. you sat in the car silently as he gave you one final look. "you don't have to do this. i can take you home."

"i want to though....i want to spend time with you. i'm just...."

"afraid?" he said, cutting you off. "what are you afraid of?"

the real question was, what weren't you afraid of? your parents disowning you, the local papers getting ahold of you two together, not being able to be the perfect child your parents taught you to be. "everything." you muttered.

he felt for you. almost feeling bad for having to be the one to tear you of your innocence. but he knew the way you were being brought up wasn't right, your parents way of thinking wasn't okay. you needed help getting yourself out of your shell and out into the real world and he was willing to help you at your own pace. "let's go inside, talk for a bit and whenever you want to go home, i'll take you home. is that okay?" you nodded in response.

like the gentleman he is, he got out of the car and rushed to the passenger side, opening the door for you and shutting it behind you. it was a cute little place, not as rundown as most motels you've seen. the inside was a simple one bed, small couch and a tiny bathroom. it wasn't messy, as if someone had just come by to clean and change the sheets. you stood in the corner while elvis tossed his things on the dresser, closing a suitcase he accidentally left open before he left earlier that morning. he took his shoes off and hopped onto the middle of his bed, letting out a sigh then looking over at you.

"you can sit down y'know." he said, gesturing at the couch. he would have asked you sit with him on the bed, but he respected your boundaries. you took a seat on the couch, tapping your fingertips at the arm to soothe your own nerves. "am i allowed to ask about your family? about you?"

you shrugged, "what do you want to know?"

"why are they so uptight?" you let out a loud 'ha!' at his question and sat back.

your parents raised you the same way their parents raised them. of course, times have changed and they were softer on you yet in your eyes they had their harsh moments, especially with you being the only child. you had to look good for the rest of the family.

the conversation had carried on for longer than expected, it wasn't close to nine but the sun was also setting. you were enjoying eachother's company and had grown to appreciate elvis more than you did before. there was no reason for you to have any distaste for him except for your parents not liking him. you'd grown so comfortable with him the last couple of hours, you had sat on the edge of the bed facing him, laughing at the various stories he would tell you about his time on tour.

"-caught em right in my hand. good lord, those girls are crazy. i'm telling' ya." he shook his head. "i don't know how you do it." you chuckled.

"i think that's why you're different." he scooted slightly closer to you. "you weren't throwin' yourself at me. or throwin' anything at me at all i guess." he joked. "i was almost kinda sad when you left me last night."

you frowned, remembering the guilt you felt after rushing off. "i'm sorry. i shouldn't have left you, especially...y'know......you were..." you stuttered, a slight blush appearing on your cheeks.

"oh, yeah. don't uh...worry about that." he said, letting out an awkward laugh. "i was just worried about you. couldn't stop thinkin' about you last night, i couldn't sleep."

"you and me both." you mumbled.

he brought his knees up to his chest, fiddling with a string coming from the comforter on his bed. "do you regret it?"

you gazed down at his fingers messing with the same string, watching how how he tugged at it with the same fingers he used on you. "no." you said embarrassingly quickly. "is it bad to say i wanted more?"

he let out a soft laugh. "no, not at all." if he wasn't so worried about protecting you and your innocence, he would have had his way with you. even now, he wishes he could just kiss you and make all your problems go away. "can i ask you somethin'? you don't have to answer if you don't want to."

"yes, of course."

he cleared his throat and brought his hands to his knees. "have you...really not done anything? like, besides last night?"

"no, my daddy doesn't like me talkin' to boys. i've never even dated one let alone kissed one."

he looked up at you. "you've never had your first kiss?" you shook your head and looked down in embarrassment. it was embarrassing telling people you've never had your first kiss especially at your big age. your friends had their first kisses in their teens, now here you are in your early 20s and you still haven't been kissed.

elvis could sense your mood change, frowning at you. he crawled closer to you and crossed his legs, using the tip of his index finger to your chin to bring your face back up. "hey, it's okay. it's nothin' to be embarrassed about. you just gotta meet the right person."

"but what if i never find the right person? what if my daddy never lets have my first kiss? he's always watchin' my every move."

he rested his hand against your jaw, brushing his thumb softly on your cheek. "i don't see him here, darlin'." he whispered.

"elvis i-"

"you can say no."

you'd only known elvis for two days now, but it almost felt like an eternity. you learned more about him in 24 hours than any friend in your life. you trusted him. but what if you were moving too fast? this could be a mistake. you were going to make this decision with your heart, not with what god would think and definitely not with what your father would think.

you looked into his eyes. "would you kiss me, elvis?"

"are you sure? like--really sure?" he asked.

"please."

he tilted his head and pressed his lips against yours. his lips were soft, delicate and sweet just as you imagined. there was a new feeling now, not arousal, but pure love. you felt a spark go up your spine as he continued to kiss you, still being gentle with you. if this were a movie, you're sure there'd be fireworks behind you. you even hoped he was feeling the same way. he pulled away from you, looking in your eyes for a reaction. "okay?"

you smiled at him. "more than okay."

"okay enough for me to kiss you again?"

oh god. so he does feel the same way. you almost wanted to kiss him forever. "please."

he kissed you again, with more passion yet still gentle. you pushed him slightly back, crawling into his lap as he held you tightly. he kept one hand on your jaw and the other against your hip. you decided to experiment a little, opening your mouth slightly for him to slip his tongue in. you wish you had done this sooner, but you were happy it was with elvis. you could tell he wanted to take care of you by how gentle he was with you. always asking permission before doing anything with you or asking if it was okay to speak on specific topics, he respected your boundaries and just wanted to keep you safe and out of trouble. this was all new to you. the thought of falling in love with elvis presley hadn't even crossed your mind until this point, but you hadn't known him very long so you quickly erased that thought from your mind.

you continued to explore his mouth, releasing a small moan from your lips as he held tighter onto your jaw. you felt him twitch under your hips, accidentally bucking his hips up. he pulled away quickly, breathless. "fuck, i'm sorry. i-" without a second thought, you pulled him by his shirt, kissing him again and taking him by surprise. he didn't expect this from you, especially being so inexperienced. he let out a groan as you rolled your hips against his, feeling his clothed hard length against your thigh.

"wait-" he forcefully pulled you away, grabbing ahold of you shoulders. "i-i don't know what you're tryna do. don't force yourself to do somethin' you don't wanna do."

letting out an annoyed groan, you moved yourself over his hard-on and rolled your hips once over him. "let me make up for last night." he noted your blown pupils, dilated and nearly full black with lust. "you don't have to." he gasped. another roll against his hips. "i want to. i want to learn. god sent you to me for a reason. let me please you, please elvis." he took one final look up at the ceiling, shaking his head and muttering a 'lord help me' before attacking your lips again.

you pushed him back against the bed and worked your way to his belt, undoing it and zipping his pants down. he lifted his hips for you to pull them down along with his underwear, releasing his hard cock to the cool air. you looked at it for a minute then back at him. "take your time, honey."

you experimentally wrapped your hand around him, stroking him up and down a few times. "that's it, baby." you rubbed your thumb across the slit, using his precum as a form of lubricant as you moved your hand up and down. tiny mewels were leaving his mouth, showing that you were doing something right. you bent down and took him in your mouth, taking elvis by surprise. "good lord..." he mumbled. you took him as deep as you could, gagging once he hit the back of your throat then slowly coming back up and giving his tip a quick lick. "so fuckin' good. my god." you went down on him again, looking him in the eyes and bobbing your head up and down.

oh, you were a sight to see. this once pure, innocent girl who devoted her whole life to god and following by his rules, mouth full of another boy's cock with drool slipping from the corner of your mouth. you still had so much to learn, so much to open up about yet elvis continued to be patient with you. if it were any other girl, he'd be pulling your hair and face-fucking you until no tomorrow. but you were different, he wanted to take his time with you.

you went quicker with your pace, going as deep as you could and barely hitting the top of his pelvic bone every time. "baby, baby-i'm close." he warned. you weren't exactly ready for him to come in your mouth, still kind of grossed out by what you were doing already despite the growing arousal inside of you. you released him from your mouth with a quick pop of your lips and took him in your hand again. you jerked him off, picking up your speed as he bucked into your fist. elvis threw his head back, hands automatically going to your hair and tugging it slightly as he came in your fist. "fuck. y/n....what the hell." he laughed blissfully. you wiped your hand on the comforter, watching him as he catches his breath. "was that okay?"

"hell, are you kiddin'? best damn head i've had in my whole life." he sat up against the headboard and ran a hand through his hair. "no experience my ass, you really are a gift from god."

you shook your head, you can't imagine what god must be thinking right now.

elvis gave his thigh a pat, "c'mere, baby. you deserve to be rewarded." you slid over and set yourself on his thigh with your own soaked panties against him. "mm, so wet. want you to get off on my thigh, sound good?" you nodded, slowly rubbing yourself on his bare thigh and whining at the friction against your clit. "look at you, like a dog in heat." he spat. "wonder what gods thinkin', watchin' you do dirty things to a boy you barely know."

that shouldn't have made you feel a certain way. one should never talk about god in that way, let alone during a moment like this.

but you kept going, you continued riding him. feeling yourself get wetter and wetter. he started bouncing his leg up and down, almost the same way he does on stage. "yesyesyes, keep doing that." you moaned, bouncing on top of his thigh as you went faster. you came with the shout of his name, thrusting a few more times to ride out your high. "see what you been missin' out on?" he said, grinning up at you. you crawled off his thigh and sat yourself next to him. he then got up, leaving to clean himself up and to clean you off too. you giggled slightly at his now messed up pompadour, he was almost cuter with his hair all messy. "hey, don't laugh at me! you did this!" he pointed at his hair and wandered to his suitcase, opening it putting on a fresh pair of pants before tossing you a pair. "you don't have to leave in 'em, just until i take you home."

you got up to change and got back on the bed, him following you shortly after. "is it bad to say i almost don't want to go home?" he sat back against the headboard as you rested your head against his shoulder. "would it be a crime if i didn't drive you home?" he asked, running his fingers though your hair.

"i don't know what my daddy would do to me if i didn't come home." you sighed. part of you wanted to test the limits, to see what he would really do if you never came home. you just wanted to sit there against elvis and sleep all your troubles away.

he took your hand in his, squeezing it tightly. "i know we only just met, but i'm gonna do everything i can to protect you, alright? i won't let anything or anyone hurt you." and you believed him. there was just something about elvis that was so special. perhaps it was just the adrenaline or just him being the first boy you've ever been able to speak to, but you trusted him.

"okay." you responded, sleepily. he let you doze off on his chest, "i trust you." you muttered. the two of slept for the rest of the night not worried about a single thing.

you didn't mean to fall asleep, especially not with elvis. you woke up around six in the morning, glancing at the clock and quickly jumping out of bed. "elvis! oh my god, elvis i need to go home. you need to take me home." you shook him quickly as you changed back into your skirt. he rubbed his eyes, checking the time and getting up. "baby, hey." he stopped you, putting his hands on your shoulder. "calm down, it's alright. i'll get you home. don't you worry about a thing." he gave you a reassuring kiss and grabbed his keys. "are you not gonna change?"

elvis scoffed, "it's six in the mornin', i got nothin' to worry about."

he tried to get you home as quick as possible. his hand was on you the whole ride, trying to calm you down. he stopped in the same area from the other night just so he wouldn't have to come in contact with your parents. just as you were about to get out, he stopped you. "hold on." elvis looked around his car, searching for a loose piece of paper and a pen to write his number. he wrote it on the back of an old receipt and handed it to you. "i want you to call me later, if i don't pick up, keep callin' until i do. you tell me if he lays a finger on you. "

you gave him a sad smile and hugged him once last time. "thank you elvis." he watched you get out once again and into your house, worrying about how you'd be punished for staying out late. he wanted to sit and watch, to make sure you were safe but he wanted to get back to his motel in case you called. he definitely cared about you more than he'd like to admit. thoughts of you and what your father were possibly up to wouldn't leave his mind. there were only a couple days left until he had to leave for his next stop but he was going to make the most of it, especially with you.

#elvis #elvis 2022 #elvis presley #elvis smut #elvis x y/n #elvis imagine #aus!elvis x reader #elvis x reader

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ultraericthered · 5 months

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Why am I encountering Akito Sohma discourse in 2024, soon to be exactly 5 years since the premiere of the second anime adaptation?

Not naming names, only commenting on the garbage takes here.

No duh on "being abused doesn't justify abusing others", but you might want to tell that to all the stans and simps for (usually male) villains who were abused and took their inexcusable actions towards others even further than Akito would've ever dared to yet they get their crimes downplayed or even defended and rationalized with "the abuse they suffered made them into people who act this way, don't judge the way any abuse victim internalizes and externalizes their trauma from the abuse they experienced, there is no 'perfect victim' y'know?", and are said to "deserve better" or "deserve" redemption.

The idea that Akito "got away with everything Scot-free" seems like a really poor reading of the story based on only the notion that if Akito is not dead, locked up in a penitentiary or asylum, or left completely alone and miserable forever by the end of the story, she faced zero consequences for her actions. Totally disregarding how almost the entirety of what the 2019 anime has as its final season was reality coming in to smack Akito around repeatedly and make her face all the natural consequences of her actions, of how she'd lived her life and ruled over her family as an abusive tyrant. See this? All of this?:

This is all Akito's karma. It's from the punishment she wrought for herself. The misery she passed around through her family came back around in full, and she had to watch her entire world, the world of the "eternal banquet" she was promised and believed herself entitled to, gradually unravel along with her own mental and emotional state.

In the anime at least, it hits a crescendo that's regretably so brief and silent that it's easy to miss, but when Akito has mentally shut down and is just sitting there moping beside Shigure, we're shown a bit where she suddenly gets up, like she just hit a breaking point and without any thought, just on pure instinct and emotional impulse, she walks to the screen door and hits her head against it. Given her frail, shaky body language, and the mix of alarm and pity that lurks beneath Shigure's still calm facade, I'm to assume that Akito is wailing and screaming. She's having a full psychotic breakdown.

"She never apologized, never made amends, never did anything to deserve anyone's love and forgiveness". ...I'm sorry, this person really stopped watching after Tohru got put in the hospital, huh? In the last couple of episodes, Akito did nothing BUT be apologetic and set out to make whatever amends she could, including undoing all remaining bonds and breaking the Zodiac curse! She did nothing to "deserve" anyone's love and forgiveness even at this point because now she at last understood she was undeserving of such things and was entitled to nothing, especially nothing from her victims, after the way she'd behaved and the many sins she'd committed. Forgiveness is earned and granted, never "deserved", and it's always a choice whether or not to grant it, so anyone who'd never forgive Akito for as long as they lived would be entirely within their right to do so, and so would be those who did make the choice to forgive her. Neither is invalid. And love is never a matter of "earned", "deserved", or "owed", and to think that it IS is ironically adopting a very Akito mentality.

Also have to go back to that "she never apologized" thing. Really?

Really?

And if "that Tohru, of all people, befriended her despite the horrific things she did to her (not yet and in fact he'd just rejected her) husband" disgusts anyone, than Fruits Basket was never the story for them and Tohru was never a character they were going to love. That moment, and that gesture from Tohru, was one of THE core pillars of the entire narrative, something everything had been building up to from the very beginning. Tohru looked deep inside the cruel, childish, deranged, abusive, controlling, possessive, selfish, cowardly, downright evil pseudo-god that she, and the entire Sohma family, knew as Akito Sohma and she found who Akito Sohma truly was: a sad, abused, broken, twisted, pathetic, wretched, needy and terrified child who'd suffered through an upbringing in which she'd never been allowed to forge a single human connection with anyone else that was not dependent upon her status as the family head and the bonds with the Zodiacs that was her promised birthright, and was thus left with so much vulnerability, so much mental and emotional instability, such fear of living her life in the world as the woman she should be, as the human being she should be, that she kept concealed beneath the armor of a wrathful god who she felt could be comfortably in control of everything in her life and keep it all from slipping away from her and leaving her all alone with all her internal anguish and misery. It's that Akito Sohma who Tohru reached out to and extended the offer of friendship, to become her first ever true human friend in her life, no string attached and no bonds or godhood required. Because that's what Fruits Basket was always all about: the existence and value of love. family, and friendships as forged, mutual, equally consensual connections between humans rather than as some divine mandate upon animals or some commodity to be horded by a god.

Already took shots at "she gets away with everying and does nothing to deserve anyone's love or forgiveness". On the belief that Akito needed to be jailed for her crimes, that is actually something I can agree with and see as a weakness in the series' ending. Once the Zodiac curse was broken and Akito was no longer "God", there'd now be nothing standing in the way of some of the Sohmas, the family members and servants alike, pushing charges against Akito for all the worst things she'd committed against them. We should've been told that such legal action was taken and that Akito knew it was coming and accepted it, being fully ready to accept accountability and justice for her crimes. When last we'd see her and Shigure, they could be doing a round of community service together! That would've been perfect! But Takaya didn't go that route, and I think what we did got was also satisfactory: Akito had lived her life with power, privileges, and freedom with which to do whatever she wanted but was also a prisoner of her own damaged psyche and of the broken family system she was born into and had to play such a large role in perpetuating, so by the end, it's now flipped so that Akito has been internally set free, is healing and finding inner peace, but without the Zodiac curse, the family headship in a lonelier, harder, constraining position but she voluntarily endures with it so that she may live the rest of her life atoning for the sins she'd committed when she was "God", all at a distance from family members who mostly will never forgive her, never think any better of her, and are glad to be free of her. So the idea that Akito's fate not being punitive enough being akin to a slap on the wrist is misguided. It's a lifelong committment to restorative justice and not getting all she desired that Akito's made, and she has to endure it while being romantically involved with Shigure, which honestly feels like a punishment worse than prison!

Piss the fuck off with the "blatant abuse apologist" claim, too. This is the same bullcrap spewed towards Kohei Horikoshi when he gave Endeavor a self improvement/atonement arc. WIth both Endeavor and Akito, the narrative is never at any point remotely pretending that their actions are anything but monstrously abusive, toxic, cruel, harmful and wrong. They're bad and so the abuser is made to feel bad about having ever done them and must face up to all the natural karmic consequences that will inconvenience their lives. An anti-abuse narrative that does not keep it as simple and black-and-white as "the abuser is 100% Bad Person, it's a problem that they exist and hurt people, the solution is to remove them from life entirely" yet still condemns the abuser for their actions and champions their victims ability to move beyond them, find healing, peace, love, and happiness in lives better than what the abuser could ever hope for, is not in the slightest bit "abuse apologism": no apologies or excuses for the abuse are being made.

Not Akito-related, just showing how this same person truly feels about Fruits Basket on the whole due to how "problematic" it is. If it's not for you, fine, and this is actually 100% correct regarding Katsuya Honda being a sociopathic predator who fucked a child student of his yet it get beyond inappropriately framed as a beautiful, romantic, loving thing within the narrative. But when it reaches this hyperbolic "the entire series has no value, it's irredeemable media and deserves to be trashed" level of vitriol for the work...nah. That's not agreeable.

And then there's this anon who called in to say:

Seeing you rightfully call out the utter bullshit of Akito's "redemption" has me heated. The story becomes irredeemably bad the moment the forgiveness shit is pushed.

Let me say this much: there was no "redemption" or "redemption arc" for Akito. She had her big epiphany and recieved personal salvation from Tohru's approach to her, and from then on she turned herself towards self-improvement and atonement for her many sins while finally living a true human life of her own. Atonement /=/ redemption, as all avenues for her to redeem herself for her abusive acts directly to those effected by said abusive acts got closed off a long time ago.

And forgiveness is entirely another matter from redemption and atonement. Tohru, Kureno, Shigure, Momiji, Arisa, and Saki chose to forgive Akito. Literally no one else was shown to do so. Rin even said outright she could never forgive Akito after everything she did, and in the anime at least, she was positioned as not in the wrong for that.

Takaya is on my shit list for life for how she handled Tohru's character, she is my favourite I love her compassion for people and her determination to never give up despite how difficult things can be plus her learning to move on from her crippling grief resonates with me. The ending Takaya gives her is fucking vile Tohru forgiving and befriending Akito is bullshit and my mind is never going to change on that.

"I love her compassion for people." "Tohru forgiving and befriending Akito is bullshit!" Do...you not see how these are conflicting ideas? "Tohru is wonderful for how much empathy and compassion she has for people...wait no, not THAT people!" How do you miss that big?

The sole reason Tohru wants to break the curse is because she sees how much her friends are suffering under Akito's abuse both mentally and physically. She would never be so inconsiderate of their feelings as to befriend the person who hurt them so much.

And she also saw how much Akito herself was suffering under the curse and the role that was forced upon her from birth. Also, how is choosing to befriend her friends abuser inconsiderate when they don't need to factor into it at all? Tohru doesn't try to force Yuki, Kyo, Rin, Momiji, Hiro, Kisa and the rest to also be friends with Akito. She at no point even considers that possibility. What's between Tohru and Akito is kept purely between them, away from Akito's victims. Tohru understands that they'd never be comfortable around Akito due to having a history with her that Tohru herself does not have, and while she wants to help Akito move past her pain and put in the good work to make reparations for her sins, she's not going to ever downplay how vile those sins were and how badly they hurt people, nor would she put up even the pretense of giving absolution of them to Akito.

That's not even getting to my other major problem with this storyline Tohru never even learns about half of the horrific shit Akito does to her friends, Takaya intentionally has her character be left in the dark. Not to mention how abusive akito is to HER!

Why does it need to be Tohru's business to know absolutely every horrible deed Akito ever did to every person she was ever horrible to? Akito did that shit, it happened, there's nothing Tohru can do that could possibly change that or make any of it better. And oh dear, are we getting into the "antagonistic behavior = abuse" bullshit again?

She manipulates her the first time they meet and then at the beach house she threatens her and scratches up her face. Tohru outright admits she is scared of her. Then towards the end of the story akito then has the audacity to blame her for the zodiacs not loving her despite that being the consequences of her own disgusting actions. She shows up at the house to hurt and potentially kill Tohru, she slaps her multiple times, stabs her and pushes her close to the cliffs end directly putting her in danger. Akito almost gets the poor girl killed. Akito spends the entire story being an abusive monster to Tohru and the people she loves. And nearly leads to multiple characters dying, Takaya really wants us to think a friendship Between the two of them is cute because they both relate to being lonely????

Ah yes. Yes we are. Most of what's described above is Akito being a cruel villain and acting as a threatening adversary to Tohru, with actions that are clearly reprehensible and uncalled for but are not inherently "abusive", as Akito is treating a stranger badly and making enemies with her rather than being in any relationship in which she can treat her abusively. The hardest into abuse it ever swings is when Akito is holding a knife to Tohru and physically strikes her, and that's when Akito is in the midst of a full-blown psychotic episode.

And that the characters apparently aren't that different to each other??? When they clearly are. Tohru is a kind and compassionate person who helps those around her while Akito is a manipulative snake who treats those around her like they are her possessions. Tohru grows up being bullied and alone. Akito is a child abuser and commits multiple attempted murders. Trust me Takaya these characters aside from them having tragic backstories and fears of abandonment are as far away from each other as you can get.

Tohru was brought up to be kind and selfless, to the point of seeing her own self as lesser in value than others. Akito's upbringing shaped her into becoming cruel and selfish, to the point of seeing others as possessions for her to keep hold of, to pleasure her with a sense of superiorty as a cover for her own poor self image and lack of self-worth. Tohru was left alone without her mother and was ostracized by her peers. Akito was left alone without her father (as her own mother would never give her the time of day) and was "othered" by literally every person around her. They're foils. Akito is a broken reflection of what Tohru might've become if Kyoko had not put in that effort to be such a kind, loving, nurturing parent, and Akito always envied Tohru because she reflects the girl she might've been had she been allowed to be, and not internalized everything wrong with the Sohma family nor adopted her mother's own internalized misogyny.

The friendship is disgusting, Akito is an evil bitch period she is not Tohru's problem or her responsibility. Also Uo and Hana being friends with her after they find out she nearly killed their best friend and Kureno was also so gross. The characters do some of the most OOC shit in order to give Akito one of the least deserving redemption arcs i have ever seen. It is truly some of the most atrocious, insulting writing, Takaya should be embarrassed for thinking this was an acceptable way to end the story.

If you want to get technical, none of the Sohmas are Tohru's problem or responsibility. It's not on her to "fix" them or be their therapist and savior, she doesn't owe them anything. She chooses to help them out of compassion, empathy, and a desire to do right by others, to see true justice done and freedom, peace, and happiness assured for the people she cares about in their lives going forward, With Akito too, she did not impose or make her into her responsibility; she extended her hand. She offered Akito a choice. The friendship would not happen if Akito decided she was unwilling to put in the effort to do her part and accept the care, help, comfort and understanding offered to her by Tohru. So yeah, you can blame Akito for that too, even though it's not a wrong thing of her to do whatsoever! Uotani also did not become Akito's friend, more like a friendly acquaintance. Hanajima did follow Tohru's lead and befriend her, and considering she knows how it feels to internally tear yourself apart with self-loathing over guilt from having hurt people to the point of cursing your very identity and existence, I'd say her decision makes sense.

I haven't read the spin off but Akito having a child just reinforces that she is still the same selfish person she has always been. Her wanting to have children but deciding not to because of how they would suffer due to her terrible actions would actually mean she has to live with the consequences of what she has done. but of course we can't have that.

Meh. Not much a fan of that spin off and I'm kind of hoping we don't get it adapted into an anime. Some things are best left open-ended.

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altargarden · 2 months

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What is it like to worship Lucifer?

What sorts of things does he help with? What kind of impact has he had on your life so far? Is he easy to approach? Is he forgiving of beginner mistakes?

Sorry for all the questions! I'm new to this sort of thing.

this is going to be a deeply personal answer, potentially oversharing in some aspects, so warning for mentions of abuse and emotional neglect. i just want to be perfectly transparent.

lucifer may have been an angel who had forsaken god, but in comparison, i have never felt more love from a deity than i have with lucifer. to me, lucifer is god's love - even if he claims to have abandoned god, he still carries a divine love that to me, is unable to be compared.

he came into my life during a very vulnerable time - i had just gotten out of an emotionally abusive relationship, and the treatment of my parents was as awful as ever. for context, i am a disabled man living in the same house as my mother, who is chronically ill and thus tends to lash out due to her feeling like garbage most of the time, and i share this house with my father as well, who is both emotionally neglectful and emotionally abusive (it tends to swing rapidly from one extreme to another). my father had been like this since i was around 10, and my mother has been like this since i graduated high school, which was about 10 years ago.

when you ask me what lucifer is like, it is almost unfathomable to imagine just how kind he is towards those suffering. towards those who want or need him. i've been through christian high school and my mother is christian too, and i still have never found that sort of kindness, by humans or by spirits. i have lived my whole life without knowing what parental kindness was, i have been put in so many unfortunate positions by both of my parents that i never thought i would ever taste parental compassion - even the nicer days where i could smile, i knew something was deeply wrong.

but when he came into my life, that feeling diminished, little by little. it did not change the nature of how my parents treated me, but it gave me much needed support. i felt something so new, and so warm. he protected me as much as he could from my parents, he kept me company when i needed to cry - he encouraged me to seek out my passions, and to do what made me happy. he told me to stand up for myself when my abuser came back into my life, and he encouraged me to always do what was right. he made me smile, he made me laugh, he gave life vibrance and light.

he was the parent i never had - he was my first taste of what it meant to be loved; to be worth something more.

when i started contacting him, if i had a dollar for every mistake i made, i would be rich. and yet, he laughed as if it didn't matter, he told me to keep going, he encouraged me to explore with curiosity, an open mind, and most of all, bravery. i met many demons after i started working with lucifer, and i still made mistakes then, even with his company. but he was there, he supported me. he always supported me.

i want to say, whatever frightens you with lucifer, i have to tell you he is not god. there is no sin that will make him cast you out. there is no sin that he damns humanity over. there is no sin that makes him turn away, or frown, or curse you. there is no sin that he'll sacrifice his own son for, there is no sin that he will sacrifice you for, either.

i'm telling you that you're best to just dive in, and ask him as many questions as you're able. he will listen, and he will answer. he may help you with that feeling of missing out on love, just like he did with me. for lucifer loves the suffering, he loves those who endure, he loves those who are brave, but he also loves those who are broken, weak, sick, the list goes on.

there is no sin that will make him give up, not on you, not on humanity.

#bun talks #not putting this in tags bc it's kinda iffy but #i hope this convinces you it's okay anon <3 #abuse tw #neglect tw #ask to tag

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rileytakeda · 5 months

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The San Diego airport is tiny compared to LaGuardia, but somehow no less busy. Riley sits at her gate, motionless with her carry-on at her feet, eyes staring at the faint stain on the ugly patterned carpet. It's the typical hum of travel, with the whine of jet engines and the chatter of families overtaking everything. She got a coffee from the stand just past security, more of a habit to have the drink than anything, and it sits untouched on the table next to her.

The events of the five months play on a loop in her mind, from the conversation she'd had with Aria explaining everything that had gone on with her father, to the phone call she'd gotten from her mother not even a week later.

'It's terminal, Riley.'

With her father, it was easy. Despite the death of her relationship with Aria, there was really nothing else to it. Riley made the proper appearances, parroted the right words, and she left again, free to leave him in the recesses of her memories once more. When her mother called, saying that she had no one else, that was a lot harder.

Kathleen Takeda never raised a hand against her, rarely even had a bad word to say about her daughter. She was stern, yes, but Riley remembered sharing moments with her mother that she will always cherish, despite everything else. No, Kathleen Takeda's greatest sin was always staying silent when she should have spoken up. Riley had learned early on in her life that her mother would never be her savior, and that had been a harder pill to swallow than her father being an abusive fuck. And it made it easier for Riley to agree when her mother asked her to come home.

For the better part of four months, she watches her mother go from the peak of physical health to skin and bones. She deteriorates rapidly, quicker than even the doctors predicted, and Riley carries her through it all. She thinks that maybe the idea of a looming death will allow them to finally talk about the things they've tiptoed around for so many years. She thinks that with her father dead, maybe they can actually talk about the things that happened, and Riley naively even thinks that maybe she could get an apology.

But soon she realizes that is a pipe dream. Her mother avoids the topic at every turn, faking coughing fits until they turned real, or pretending to be asleep, all so she doesn't have to face accountability. The one time Riley presses things, it escalates into a fight that ends with a trip to the ER when her mother begins to hyperventilate. The doctor tells her then that she needs to keep the dying woman calm, that any type of exertion will be fatal for her.

Riley could have left then. She probably should have. What does she owe her mother at that point other than a giant fuck you? But she stays, still too afraid about what people would say about her for abandoning her. Too afraid to turn into her parents, who stopped giving a shit when it got hard.

Kathleen Takeda passes away a week before Christmas. She's given a burial befitting of a military officer and interred next to her husband. A surprising number of people show up despite the fact it's right before the holidays. Riley pulls it together literally overnight, and she realizes she never knew her parents at all. An unnamed soldier hands Riley a folded flag that she accepts with a solemn nod, with the sound of rifles echoing behind her.

"I'm sorry for your loss." Bang. "She was a great woman." Bang. "At least they're together now." Bang.

The chime of the overhead intercom interrupts her stewing with an announcement that her flight is boarding. The ticket price was obscene because of how last minute it is, on Christmas Eve no less, and she's stuffed into a middle seat, but she hopes leaving her hometown will finally allow her to fucking breathe once she's three thousand miles away from her parents' graves.

It doesn't. The air in the city smells like garbage and piss and she feels just as suffocated as she did in California. The cab driver curses at the traffic and flips off no less than four cars, and Riley doesn't feel as comforted as she thought she would. In the weeks leading up to her mother's death, Riley thought it would finally mean true freedom from her parents, like the last remaining tie to that part of her life would disappear and she could move on for good. But she's learning that grief is never that simple, and more than grieving her mother, she mourns the possibility of ever finding real closure from them. Coming back to New York changes none of that.

Her breakdown lasts well into the morning and she feels like a zombie as she starts to come out of it. The TV is playing some cheery black and white Christmas movie, where the middle-age overworked father remembers the true meaning of the holiday in time to bring home the perfect gift to his daughter, and Riley wants to laugh at the irony, but even that feels like too much energy.

"Merry Christmas, ya filthy animals," she mumbles to herself as her eyes slip closed, finally exhausted.

Finally home.

#[ self para ]#terminal illness tw #parental death tw #abuse tw #lmk if there's anything i missed #some insight as to where riley's been over the last few months

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paradoxesofgalaxies · 1 year

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As I was working on the letter to my parents about going no-contact, I tried looking for examples because I was so lost in how to approach it but most of what I found was a bunch of ableist garbage (can we please stop assuming abusive parents have a personality disorder?!)

So now that I've sent the letter and feel pretty good about how it turned out, I thought I'd share it here for anyone else who is thinking of cutting off a parent.

Before writing it, I had decided that I didn't want to address any of the abuse with them. When I've brought it up before they just tried to gaslight me and I don't need to deal with that. Instead I chose to focus on their transphobia as it is also a valid reason for why I want to go no-contact, but it's less vulnerable to address (for me).

To Mom and Dad,

I want to start by saying that I'm not asking you to change your values or beliefs. This is not an attempt to force you to accept me. This is a boundary I need to set because of my own values.

Over the past few years, trans rights have become a major point of political discourse. And lately, Republican attacks on trans people have increased. Over the past few months, this has escalated to calls for the eradication/elimination of "transgenderism" which is a call for the eradication of people like me.

I'm sure you think I'm overreacting or being dramatic, but I have watched this country rapidly become less safe for me and other trans people. And yet you still support politicians who want to eradicate me. Who call people like me groomers and child abusers.

The Republican party is working to enact genocide against trans people. I don’t feel safe with anyone who still supports them, and I’m sorry to say that includes you.

And I can no longer just pretend this isn't happening to try to maintain our relationship. It's been nearly a year and half since I came out. Dad, I don't think I've ever heard you use my name. And Mom, you may use my name sometimes, but you've shown again and again that you will swap back to my old name and pronouns as soon as you think I can't hear. I'm not interested in half-hearted placations as you make it clear how little you respect me.

While you may see this as "just politics", I don't have that luxury. These new laws are targeting people like me. These politicians are calling for my eradication.

Going forward, I do not wish to have any contact. This is not a decision I've made lightly nor quickly. I have spent years and years carefully navigating conversations and having to keep quiet about so much to be able to maintain some form of a relationship with you, but I’m no longer interested in trying to force myself into an acceptable form for you. It may not have been spoken, but I’ve long understood that your love for me has always been conditional. I am a gay trans man. I know you can’t accept that, and I’m not interested in your “love the sinner, not the sin” mentality. This is who I am, not a “sin” that can be separated off and rejected. But, again, I don’t expect or ask you to change your beliefs. I know how strongly you hold your faith. But this is what I need to do to hold to my own values.

I ask that you don't try to contact me. I will not be responding.

#galactic gab #the parent breakup

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sweetfirebird · 10 months

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Purity culture post making me think of a lot of youtubers and how they all do the same topics and reaction videos, and police each other for 'correct' behavior, but also how another youtuber somewhere said that the policing is mutually beneficial to them all. It's engagement. It's clicks. And they can issue carefully written apologies before they all continue on as they are, still all friends with each other, and still all marketing themselves as okay for consumption because they are "pure." But even the "pure" is calculated. They can read their comments. They've got analytics. At some point, it becomes less about trying to make a safe space and more about building an audience and getting those clicks, because that's where the money is.

Of course, support of a system with arbitrary purity standards and a habit of routinely turning on each other has its other problems. Like how eventually the "pure" goalposts are going to move to exclude these youtubers for real, and they will likely get dogpiled or abandoned, but most of them will have made their money by then. Gotten their book deal or whatever. And this isn't to excuse actual trash behavior like not paying your employees or being "jokingly" a racist, or things like that, and yeah, dogpiling on people is not great, (though also take a moment to consider *who* gets dogpiled and who doesn't and why that is) but watch enough youtube and you can see how calculated a lot of the moral outrage is. They fucking love it when one of the other youtubers gets involved in a scandal. Or sometimes, a "scandal." That's more content for them. Reaction videos! Easy. They get clicks AND they get to seem more moral and good.

Some of these people might start out doing their vids for fun or because it's their field and they like talking about that subject, and probably a lot of start out genuinely wanting to do good and be seen as good people, but once they start having to produce content consistently to make money... Once they all become friends with each other and learn how to game/use the system.... Once they realize that videos condemning certain "sins" get more hits... idk how strong those morals stay.

They talk smart or funny and they look straight ahead into your eyes the camera for a while every week, and they talk about the things they know you want to hear because their analytics tells them what you want to hear, and the prolonged eye contact can feel like connection! They are on your phone/laptop/tv, talking about what you like, regularly! Like friends! You're friends!

Except you're not friends, they are, no matter how nice some of them seem, selling you something.

Anyway.

Sorry. Been watching too much youtube while doing my embroidery and my suggested videos are the most telling pile of garbage about how youtube and many youtubers operate.

This is really like several thoughts that need to get teased out into a proper essay but I'm not doing it. I was avoiding work and now I am getting back to it.

#this is barely comprehensible #youtube #youtubers #remember when i joked the theater geek to youtuber pipeline was real?

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saiwola · 2 months

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"Keep the wine flowing! On the house!"

The atmosphere at The Siren's Lure was vibrant as always. The air filled with the scent of spices and incense, masking the scent of sin. Silks hung before stained glass windows to further soften the light in varying hues of pink and purple. The interior filled with music and voices and the clinking of glasses. With heat and reverie.

And at the center of the party was Adonai, Lukios to most. Propped up on the bar laughing it up with a few patrons. Dressed in his usual finery. All his gold outshone by that perfect, inviting smile. He waved the pale haired bartender over. Before wrapping his arms around the shoulders of two inebriated men, pulling them into a casual hug as he addressed the man behind the bar.

"Evius. Make sure these men's cups never run dry," he laughed.

"Thass awful kinn uhf yoo, lukios," slurred one. His cup already being filled again.

The other added, "Yeah. Yoo really arr azz kinn azz theey shay. Nod liyke ozzer celebrities."

"Hey. I want you to feel comfortable," he purred. His voice sickeningly sweet and smooth. "Now if you need anything, you let me know, okay?"

At that, he watched as the two glanced toward one of the barmaids. A petite mousy thing that flinched as she noticed the men watching her. Quickly hurrying into the back. One of the men whistled after her before the two started their crude comments.

"Too bad shese sush a fuckin' bish..."

Adon's eye twitched.

"Maybe yoo coud mayke herr c'meere t' serve us. Eh?"

Though he maintained his smile, there was a glint in the musician's golden eyes. A hint of something more sinister. Violent. Predatory. His fingers squeezed the men's shoulders a bit too tightly.

"Well," he crooned. "I do take care of my own~" For the briefest moment, it seemed like black was peeking at the edges of his sclera. His grin grew wider, toothier.

"Which is why I don't take kindly when people put their hands on my girls..."

One of them opened their mouth as if to speak... just as both men passed out on the counter. There was a brief lull in conversation as their heads hit the bar. The closer crowds eying the situation. Though that was quickly remedied when Adon spun around, Clapping his hands together.

"Sorry for that. Next round's on me~"

Everyone in these parts knew how protective he was with his staff.

"Evius. Can you get started on these for me," he asked as the bar stools seemed to come to life, carrying the unconscious men into the back.

"You got it, boss."

Adon watched as Evius followed the stools. Makign his way to the back as well, stopping at a nearby table first.

"Hey Sylvie... You don't mind going ahead, do you? Something kind of came up," he said, gesturing toward the back.

"I can see that. And I don't mind. I'll let her know you'll be later. I don't think she really needs your help anyway."

"You're the best, Sylvie~ Give our little witch a big ol' smooch from me as an apology." He chuckled before walking off to handle the garbage.

"You know she'd smack you for that."

"Why do you think I'm asking you to do it~?"

#{These Secrets We Keep} drabbles #{The Blessings}#Adonai!#Blessing of Community #bit of a flirt #bit of a dick #but he's a good guy

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Answering Hazbin Hotel Questionnaire in Great Details

from nayla (@misfirerules) on twitter

☆ who’s your favorite character?

Alastor and Vaggie (one was instant and the other slowly grew on me and now i legit can't choose)

Alastor is a trickster with standards, he punches up, confronts bullies, but honestly he's just so cute i automatically forgive him any crimes. Bonus points for helping me realize being affectionate with friends doesn't ruin your bad boy persona, it shows you're secure in it. Don't redeem him it's demon cruelty!

Vaggie is a tragic reformed soldier who desperately tries to repent for her war crimes; the juxtaposition of regular tough attitude and complete guard dropping for Charlie endeared me to her a lot. 'Whatever it takes' came up and i was like oooowww~

Also this scene before the final battle where she tells other hotel residents to save themselves cause "We.. I can't protect you anymore". She CARES

The funny thing is that Vaggie and Alastor share that strong preference to only socialize with women (me too! i feel so seen!) but CAN'T STAND each other

☆ what’s your favorite song from the soundtrack?

Stayed Gone and Hell's Greatest Dad, obviously. I also composed the complete tier list (i feel SO BAD for placing It Starts with Sorry this low):

Stayed gone | Dad beats dad

You didn't know | Ready for this | Finale (big musical theatre ones)

Poison

Respectless | Out for love

Happy day in hell | Loser baby

Hell is forever | Whatever it takes

It starts with sorry

More than anything

Welcome to heaven

🎶 it will take time to cover your vast multitude of sins 🎶

If i were to take into account visuals, first place would be either Loser Baby or Poison

☆ who are your otps?

I don't have a strong preference, but Charlie and Vaggie check too many of my personal boxes:

working on a project together

back-to-back fighting scene

picking a woman from a garbage dump

and nursing her back to health

DRAMA of one being another's lifeline

and never using it as leverage ever

fierce protectiveness goes both ways

casual pda

Wanted to do a full diagram and it turned out i'm so much more invested in friendship dynamics i need a separate chart for them

(what will be friendship categories? mentor/student, making each other better/worse, bonding over unique exp; we as a society should develop this concept)

As you can see i was kin assigned Lucifer and took it to heart lol

☆ who’s your least favorite character?

I don't care that much about Adam and Lute, actually

☆ are there any ships you hate?

I have an irrational personal vendetta against Alastor x Lucifer; i enjoy a good fan work, but the concept itself pisses me off; like, there's a painful power disbalance and zero positive interactions in canon

Adam does not deserve to be shipped with neither Lucifer nor Lilith. Lute kinda deserves him, but i prefer them as comrades

☆ least favorite song?

I don't feel much for Welcome to Heaven

☆ what made you watch hazbin hotel?

I think it was impossible not to watch it at the time, and of course i did, i adore this classic DeviantArt edgy lanky angular over-the-top style

☆ what made you love the show?

aesthetic really clicked with me

groundbreaking animation

lots of musical numbers

lovable characters

mlm & wlw representation

deconstruction of religion

you can tell VA's and artists had fun working on it

it's an inspiring indi-project success story

If we're talking about the animation specifically:

the character and camera movements are full of energy and satisfying to watch

characterization through body language

complex emotions

exciting action

interesting shots

you also can rewatch scenes multiple times cause characters on the background are doing stuff too

creative coloring and lighting

everyone is SO PRETTY

upturned eyes, sharp features and teeth they seemingly had to invent a new lip-sync technic for

☆ how long have you been a fan of hazbin hotel?

After i watched the pilot it took me a while to start Helluva Boss, but we binged it with a friend few years ago and i was really invested in this universe since then

☆ what’s your overall opinion on the show?

Innovative industry-changing trendsetting project we do not appreciate enough yet as a society. As a person who loves musicals, animated music videos, action, fighting and dancing, i was finally fed~

It's a crime it wasn't given more episodes; it's so tightly packed that even if i have some issues with pacing and priorities, i can't imagine HOW it can be rearranged without loosing important elements that are there already. I also firmly believe that fast story is better than less story so i'm against "just cut stuff out" approach

☆ if you could remove anything or someone from hazbin, what would it be?

This one scene where sir Pentious got dragged into a sex room as a joke 😑

☆ do you have any theories? If so what is it?

— The reason you end up in Heaven or Hell is that deep inside you're sure you deserve to go to Heaven or Hell (stole this idea from tumblr). That's how Adam ended up where he did. And sir Pentious unlocked a new mechanic cause he was exposed to the idea of redemption by Charlie (my 5 cents)

— There're more former exorcists in Hell besides Vaggie, and Carmilla saw them

— Rosie will teach Charlie how she made Cannibal town that nice of a place

— Alastor killed the most cruel and ruthless overlords, that's why the more decent ones, like Zestial / Carmilla / Rosie accepted him into the club (fandom commonplace)

— Alastor didn't kill Husk but kept his soul cause Husk wasn't that bad of a person in his overlord days and Alastor actually likes having him around

— Alastor doesn't own Nifty's soul

— Nifty is actually crazy powerful, she just wasn't properly motivated to unleash it on anyone yet

— Angel sold his sould to Valentino not out of desperation but cause he was manipulated into thinking that was a good idea somehow (he put a heart in his contract signature, also not my theory)

— both Angel and Husk will get their souls back one way or another

☆ opinions on the Vees?

Velvette is the coolest V. Vox is very relatable cause he's so done and just wants to do his job in peace and he still can't cyberbully to save his life. Valentino is a great reminder that your life can be ruined by an IDIOT which adds an insult to injury

I was dead sure Vox and Valentino are married. I hate the fact that i enjoy Valentino's dynamic with other Vees that much

I know and love Vox and Velvette's VAs from their Broadway performances as Marvin from Falsettos, Helene from Great Comet and Persephone from Hadestown

☆ thoughts on adam?

Adam can die in a fire, the genocidal maniac. He's much MUCH worse than Valentino, there's even no comparison, but i feel like fandom thinks the other way and it's wild. He was an extremely entertaining antagonist, but please don't return him in season 2

☆ if you could be best friends with any of the characters, who would it be?

I feel nerd kinship with sir Pentious but i don't think we'll be like Best Friends; i could see myself forming something like that with Vaggie if i happen to fall on her good side

☆ which scene from hazbin has permanently stuck to you?

~ hey! sssoo.. i see, the club has a sEx room! ..so i was thinking, maybeEe, you'd want to.. aa.. doo aa sExss with me 🕶️

Also the amount of serotonins Rosie and Alastor's duet gave me..

☆ who’s a character you want to see/see more in the upcoming seasons?

I need to know what happened to Eve and i need sir Pentious to be present and plot-relevant

Would be nice to meet Angel's sibling(s) and Lilith

Vaggie needs friends and support network outside of Charlie; hope Carmilla will keep mentoring her and Rosie keeps mentoring Charlie

Really excited for more Vox and Velvette

☆ what are your hazbin hotel hot takes?

The hatedom for this show is wildly disproportionate and uncalled for and it's genuinely breaks my heart cause i fear it may discourage other animators with personal projects. Hazbin deserved MUCH more praise and recognition

A good chunk of the critique can be boiled down to:

don't vibe with aesthetics so it's bad

story is not what i expected so it's bad

bad faith reading

evaluating animated show by static character sheets and random in-between screencaps

petty neatpicks

PLOT RELEVANT HOT ΤΑKES:

Sinners don't need redemptions, they need to be left alone by Heaven and work on making Hell a better place

Sir Pentious did not get a good ending, he lost all the friends he just made (it may turn out for the better but right now i'm sad)

Charlie did her best in Masquerade and as an untrained group therapist at the Hotel, cut the girl some slack, she does learn from mistakes

It's possible for Alastor to simultaneously like and help Hotel residents when he can and pursue his own agenda when he must

I think Mimzy is cute, sue me (we need more pathetic women representation, hope we'll get it in season 2)

Fandom plz stop with the infantilization of Nifty; people realized it's a problem with Velvette, which is cool, but Nifty still suffers from it too often

☆ any headcanons?

— Alastor plans on actually befriending Charlie to have a powerful willing ally like Rosie who can help him get off the leash

— Alastor decided to fight Adam to show off his powers and publicly defeat the First Man, but miscalculated catastrophically (stole this one from my sister)

— Nifty will be forced to choose between Alastor and the Hotel residents at some point in season 2

— Charlie subconsciously treats Hotel guests the way she was treated by her parents as a kid cause it's her only point of reference

— Vaggie and Angel will grow closer cause they're very similar in their protective nature, realistic worldview and self-neglect (season 2 i'm begging you)

— both Charlie and Vaggie visited Rosie and Carmilla, respectively, after the final battle to tell them how it went

— Carmilla will introduce Vaggie to her daughters and they will start hanging out sometimes

— Charlie will introduce Vaggie to Rosie

— Vaggie had good relationship with other exterminators during her Heaven era, even with Lute at some point, and she always hated Adam

— i like the idea of Husk winning back either Angel's soul from Valentino or his own from Alastor in a game of cards (it's like poetry; irl don't play if you're an addict though) or any other seemingly inoffensive game

— after he looses Angel's soul (and get his own beaten out of him preferably) Valentino will reevaluate his life and start dating Vox officially

— Cherry and Husk will become unlikely pals through Angel

— the apple tower is more likely Charlie's office, not Lucifer's, but he will be involved with running the Hotel

— considering Lucifer is actually a sincere, nice and caring person, it will be HARD for Alastor to win back the spotlight after he returns to the Hotel

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