Behind a paywall (or at least you need an account) but if true fuuuckk

The worst thing about having a chronic pain that isn't visible to others is feeling like your whining when you say, "i'm in pain right now."

i don't ever want the pain in my knees to be categorized as the same kind of complaint as "i don't want to go to work" or "its monday." I say "my knees and joints are hurting" every day because 1. my knees and joints do hurt everyday, and it fucking sucks and 2. i want to be heard by the pepole around me saying that i'm in pain so i can never be gaslit by myself, my family, or my doctor that i'm "not in enough pain".

but when i say "i'm in a lot of pain right now" and then continue to live my life (becuse i can't sit around all day, as much as i want to) pepole assume that i'm okay enough, so therfore it's not that bad. "i'm in a lot of pain" becomes just another mundane complaint.

the thing is; my pain tollerance is HIGH. i don't talk about it much on here, But i'm a type one diabetic and i have been that way since i was SIX YEARS OLD. i've been sticking myself with needles, pricking my fingers to draw blood, dealing with insulin and medical supplies since i was six. i know my body better than most 18 year olds do, so when i say that recently i've been a 9 on the 1-10 pain scale evry day for the past couple of months I KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.

When i say "my joints hurt", i mean that i can FEEL bones grinding and clicking against one another. When i say "i've been sitting for too long and now my hips are fucked" i mean that walking becomes diffucuclt for me and sometimes i have to hobble down the school halways like how my grandmother walks. when i say "my knees are in pain" i mean that it feels like a liquid hot, searing pain in my joints that feels like a poker melting my skin off. WHEN I SAY I'M IN PAIN, IT'S NOT A MUNDANITY, ITS EXCUTRIATING AND I WISH I WOULD BE TAKEN SEROUISLY.

I cant stand for a 10 minute conversation, my knees would buckle. I might need a bench in my shower, becuse for the past few weeks i've been sitting in my shower floor to shampoo and conditon my hair. I can't sit criss-cross anymore or it will fuck up my entire day. I've resorted to taking a bathroom break in every single class every day so i can stand up becuse if i sit for longer than 30 minutes in one of those school desks every joint in my lower back and spine and legs starts screaming at me. i only feel comfortable laying down, fully stretched out, on my back. If i sleep wrong, i'm in pain from the molment i wake up.

ITS NOT A FUCKING COMPLAINT OR EXCUSE WHEN I SAY I'M IN PAIN. ITS MY LIFE.

the genocide in palestine right now makes me fucking sick. how can people hear about what's happening and say "free israel 😹😹" i don't care if it's a fucking joke it's unfunny and insensitive. right now palestinian people are going through a LIVING HELL. women have to use tent scraps as sanitary products. TENT SCRAPS. they have to give birth WITHOUT ANY anaesthesia. they're too malnourished to produce milk for their infants and israel has banned BABY FORMULA from being imported. this is not a war. this is not a conflict. this is a GENOCIDE. if you support israel you're a sick human being and deserve to fucking die.

"I'm gay but I'm not one of THOSE gays" Ok? Do want a round of applause? A prize? A prize for being an annoying piece of shit?

I hate to break it to you, but you hating other queer people who like mushrooms, have blue hair and a septum piercing, or that go by Moss and use bunny/bunnyself doesn't make you look as cool as you think. Because not only are you excluding people from your own community just to fit in better with cishets and homophobes, but you're also being ableist seeing as a lot of "those gays" are autistic/neurodivergent and trying to find ways to express themselves.

What you are doing is no different that those "LGB no T+" people. You're bullying and belittling people you you're supposed to helping because you're no different then them! Just because you dress and express yourself inside society norms doesn't mean that bigots won't go after you too. You're next on their list.

You're not better than us. And, honestly? I would rather be "one of Those gays" than a lap dog for bigots.

i too am obsessed with james smoking so here's a little treat. i'll be delighted to see more of these

i'm now convinced this is one of the only pics of james smoking out there. and it makes me sad.

the fact he is, again, only holding it makes me giggle. i need evidence of him actually inhaling 😭 cause we aren't sharing a cigarette if he doesn't even smoke.

either way, i will be delusional and say that james would light up a cigarette and pass it back and forth between me and him. we would share cigarettes. we would.

Sissy blogs stop following trans women challenge impossible

mattel's distribution of monster high dolls seriously needs to be addressed, like BADLY.

I… I just can't. Can this game be not that fucked up? Refrigerator is literally in the middle of the kitchen. Five minutes ago everything was fine! I don't know why I'm still doing this to myself 😒

i don't know how many more "i just have to get through today" i have in me

I can't do this anymore.

I wish we had not kept Chico.

They can't really coexist if the gate is broken— and I can't afford a new one.

It breaks open every day when the dogs are there.

I can't get the one thing I need to be happy, apparently, so that's cool. 10 extra years of grief and anxiety and no service dog. Wow.

I've been needing this dog since I was 18. I'll have to wait until I'm at least 41.

OKAY so fat pussy is another whole astral projection of the dimensions of heaven so when y'all come on here saying the dumbest shit about how fictional "so and so would never fuck a fat bitch" ...... i'm so sorry to crush your fatphobic little heart. but they absolutely would. it is too good not to. and if a person wielding a dick can't find it in themselves to look past someone's appearance to enjoy themselves... they shouldn't probably can't be sticking it in anyways.

saw an entire comment section on youtube full of ppl saying their eyes have gotten worse since the pandemic started and blaming it on being inside more and while that's probably part of it not a single one acknowledged that covid can absolutely wreck your eyesight with a single infection and most of them have likely been infected multiple times bc almost everyone has and i want to put my entire head through a wall

Here's your reminder that straight up trashing on lily evans because you prefer james in a mlm relationship is Not Okay and deeply rooted in misogynity. She is a fictional character whose only action was to protect her son with her life. She did nothing wrong; she just saved her son by loving him. That's literally it. That's all we know about her. That and the description made by remus later in the books: a loving and kind woman. Now if you don't like her character, that's fine, I don't care. I don't necessarily agree with you but I won't come at you either. But don't you dare shit on her just bc she's a woman getting 'in the way' or your favorite mlm ship because that's fucked up on so many levels. And don't get mad at people calling out your behavior, because it is misogynistic.

I think many people in the fandom aren't ready for this conversation, but it has to be said: This fandom is deeply, deeply misogynistic. It has a problem with female characters, not matter the era we're talking about. They are ignored, underestimated, left out in favour of male characters. It's not a mistake or an oversight: it's decision, a choice made by writers and artists to not focus on the girls.

Like, do you know how hard it is to find a fanfiction where a woman is the main character? And it's even worse if she's in a wlw relationship. I don't think i've ever read a 'marylily raising harry' fic, when we have dozens of fics where harry is raised by wolfstar or jegulus. No hate against those, they're great, but come on. Don't tell me you don't see a pattern here. It's the same as everywhere else: people just don't care about the girls. It's exhausting. It's fucking exhausting and I'm sick of seeing the same bullshit over and over again. Like. I am a queer teenage girl. I would like, too, to see myself represented by and in a fandom constituted (mostly) of queer individuals, just like me.

But no. It's like the world is not aware of the existence of lesbians. They exist! They are very much a real thing and would like fics where they are represented, for fuck's sake. The worst part is that I'm not even surprised; angry, yes, and disappointed, but bot surprised. It happens every time.

I’ve mentioned this before but it really is a fandom pet peeve of mine when someone is trying to talk about the skill sets of their favorite character and someone else feels the need to comment with “Well this person (usually their favorite character) is better at it”. I literally saw someone say “Reminder that Dick Grayson is smart” and someone else respond with “Well Tim is smarter”. Like you sound like the annoying soccer moms, who always need to one up the other moms making audacious claims about their child’s achievements whenever one of the other moms talks about something their child accomplished. Stop, it’s just annoying, people should be able to talk about their favorites without others coming in to talk about how much “better” another character is at it. Especially when the original person wasn’t even comparing them to anyone else.

kpop stan twt will blame the fandom for not voting or streaming and how the comebacks may be flopping (to some people's standards anyways) when the blame will always and i mean ALWAYS have to fall on the company because THAT'S THEIR JOB their job is to promote their artists and if these companies want to reach a certain goal with a group THEY HAVE TO PUT IN THE WORK fans can only do so much but you can't rely on a fanbase for everything like cmon now

guess who's moving schools for the 2nd time this year