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#i'm not even going to do my normal thing of baking cookies for my birthday probably
defira85 · 1 day
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This is incredibly petty and pointless bitching about family stuff but I'm stressed and exhausted and it's making me miserable so I need to vent
So anyone who's followed me for more than 5 minutes knows I like to bake, yeah? Has seen my posts of my elaborate christmas cookie boxes or the multi-tier cakes I bake or the extravagance of my choc cherry brownie loaf and so on? Feeding people is important to me! I won't say it's my love language cause whatshisface was a weirdo christian fundamentalist so we don't believe in love languages but you know. I like to nourish! I want to cook people a big meal and have them feel loved and indulged!
My SIL is having her 40th birthday in May, and she wants everyone to come on a 4 day getaway which is just. I don't understand why certain parts of this family don't understand that people need to work (I do understand, the reason is money, this family has money and so they don't understand that normal people have Mon-Fri jobs that they can't just drop for a 4 day beach getaway for a birthday) but anyway, that's another rant
She's been asking people about the food, and people have been volunteering for certain meals and I've got my assigned meal planned out to the letter (a giant paella with fresh baked olive bread and patatas bravas with a mediterranean salad) and I asked her last night about desserts with the implication that I was asking her what cake she wanted for her birthday, because so far she's just put "icecream/fruit salad" on every meal
She answers "oh I've just got a brownie box mix we were going to make. Also a carrot cake box mix, we don't really need anything else"
Now I've tried to calm myself down by reminding myself that SIL really absolutely does not care about food. Not in the slightest. She doesn't understand about things tasting good, she just eats whats in front of her
But. But. I cook. I bake. I express love with my food. She KNOWS that. And I went to a lot of effort in November to make an EXQUISITE carrot cake for my MIL's birthday when we celebrated her life and the one year since her death, I worked so hard to make sure it was perfect, and she's just like
yeah here's a packet mix. Tastes the same.
Like, does she even care about any of the meals I make? Does she notice? Does what it expresses as a gesture of love mean anything?
I KNOW I'M OVERREACTING. I KNOW I AM. BUT I'M REALLY EXHAUSTED AND MISERABLE and it just hit me a lot harder than I was expecting it to. Just a slap in the face, you know? All the hard work I do, all the love I pour into it, it's just the same as a box she bought at the store and adds an egg to
/throws away the recipe for the salted caramel and macadamia monkey bread I was planning
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mayonakano-archive · 2 years
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i still can't believe i'm turning 18 next month...
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honey-milk-depresso · 2 years
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Tell me how much you despise trey *pen and paper out*
I DEFINITELY DONT LIKE HIM-
EW YES- I WILL TYPE PURE HATE- MOST DEFINTELY- NO ROMANTIC FEELINGS FOR HIM WHATSOEVER-
**Here is where my ramblings never cease
He's selfless for the sake of not getting into trouble ALTHOUGH he's genuinely caring (in a way) for his family like during his Starry Night lines of how he gave all his pocket money for his little brother in order for him to buy a Magift ticket to fulfil his wish, and I'm VERY SURE he wanted his best friend Riddle to enjoy the famous store bought strawberry tarts because Riddle always wanted those when he was younger,
and it's IRRITATING that he's not giving time for himself or doing something and dare hides it professionally with good sounding excuses to cover up he is indeed genuine (most of the time) and I HATE HIM FOR THAT-
He's NOT a normal, nice guy. He's sadistic seen in Episode 2 as he wanted Savanaclaw to suffer and I totally didn't scream when I saw him smirked he's shrewd in literally HIS OWN PERSONAL STORY OF YET AGAIN STARRY NIGHT WHERE HE GOT RIDDLE TO BUY HIM A FOOD PROCESSOR- he seems to hide things about himself, like how he always dismisses that he's normal and basic and based in general in everything he does yet he can save Kalim with his excellent broom flying skills, and that's FRICKIN SHIT DJHDJHD- I'M NOT ENTRANCED BY HIS HINTING ENIGMA SELF-
He may be flexible and all, saving everyone's asses before Riddle can "Off their heads" countless of times like in his Ceremonial Robes personal story, or his Dorm Uniform personal story, I'm sure he's very tired, and that's annoying because GO TAKE A FRICKIN BREAK YOU IDIOT- YOU MORON- I WILL TUCK YOU IN AND YOU WILL SHUT UP DHKDHDK-
T*ey still brings his big brother energy even to NRC it's cringe. No I wasn't smiling like an idiot during his School Uniform personal story where he brushes Deuce's teeth like how he does with his siblings,
and no I'm not attracted to his dental care obsession and think it's cute he also does that with Sebek and geeks out about his father who's a dentist during the Endless Halloween storyline, no I didn't-
T*ey little glasses story in his Halloween Costume personal story while chatting with stupid A*ul about how he talks about his family and their opinions on his glasses, and how he alters his glasses because of how they felt when he wore each one of them showing his hints of him being genuinely caring and loving to his family even if it's just a small thing, and he's just so annoying oh my god, I can just kiss smack his face with my lips so hard right now-
He's a sweet tooth mf and I totally am not and wish that we can both indulge in sweet things together and he can brush my teeth defintely not-
T*ey is a horrible flirter and compare people's eyes to grapes which I totally don't find that cute, not at all, I hate him, god- I will kiss him so badly-
OH- and his perseverance and dedication to perfect a dish since young through his Birthday Suit Up interview of how he tried to bake his first batch of cookies and failed but tried again and again, and he still does, and his willingness and determination to learn something through an extra mile like how he was a damn idiot and attend the Apprentice Chef Class to learn how to teach others cooking. YOU CAN JUST GOOGLE IT, BUT HE WANTS TO LEARN THAT BADLY-
ALSO- THAT CAN TRANSLATE THAT HE'S SOMEONE WHO LEARNS BEST HANDS ON AND THROUGH EXPERIENCE WHICH IS ALSO WHY HIS BEST SUBJECT IS ALCHEMY BECAUSE IT'S HANDS ON AND REQUIRES MIXING POTIONS AND SHIT AND ALL THAT PRACTICAL STUFF I CAN'T DO SO STOP FLEXING T*EY I SUCK AT CHEMISTRY-
GOD I HATE HIM SO MUCH, ALL HIS TRIVIAL DETAILS OF HIS CHARACTER DOESN'T MAKE ME FIND HIM CUTE AND ATTRACTIVE, NOTHING LIKE THAT AT ALL-
HE'S NOT BORING THOUGH BUT I STILL DON'T LIKE HIM- NO WAY-
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fuck-customers · 2 years
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Fuck this one lady that came in and completely ruined my day. I work in the bakery of a blue grocery store that rhymes with Joker. (Side note, fuck that place and it's understaffed bullshit)
So I take orders for cakes, since I'm usually the only one in the entire department from like 3 pm onwards unless it's especially busy. And normally, it's a pretty streamlined process with customers causing very little fuss. I can also get orders from the cooler and call a manager if there's any mistakes (since I'm not a decorator and I actually know fuckall about that side of business, all I'm paid to do is handle the cookies and bread)
But this one lady. I swear to God me and my manager both agree she was hopped up on some kinda drug or I guess rage at underpaid college dropouts is just strong as hell. I first saw her while I was grabbing stickers to put on some cookie bowls and she was already looking pissed, but I didn't want to deal with her and I internally reasoned that she was probably looking at the cake kit book we have out there and she'll give me a holler if she needs me (like all our other customers do). Plus she had her phone to her ear so I didn't want to disturb a phone call.
So I just finished labeling the cookie bowls when she comes around to the other entrance (closer to where I was working) and she just starts SCREAMING at me like "EXCUSE ME DO YOU WORK HERE? WELL WHY DIDNT YOU HELP ME YOU STARED STRAIGHT AT ME AND WALKED AWAY!!! YOURE SUPPOSED TO HELP ME, ISNT THAT YOUR JOB? TO HELP CUSTOMERS?????" (Side note; I have extremely terrible eyesight that blurs everything i see. It's a miracle I was able to even see her at all)
and at this point I'm frozen like a deer in headlights because I'm being yelled at and eventually she says she's here to pick up a cake, but I can't find a cake in the cooler or an order anywhere. So I'm instantly skeptical as fuck that she's just trying to get a free cake. I have to call my manager who thankfully takes the rest of the interaction but even in the other end of the department I can still hear her yelling about how she so desperately needs this cake and she better get one because she placed an order and explicitly told us not to cancel it, something something about her mom died idk I wasn't paying attention. Oh yeah through this entire interaction she still kept her phone to her ear. My manager says there was nobody on the other end and she was just. Holding it there??? For whatever reason
So everything is well and good, I finish up my shift and go home for a shift tomorrow. And next day, WHO DO I SEE BUT THAT LADY. perfectly calm now that she's gotten what she wants. I get her stupid $10 cake and she has the gall to tell me "thanks babe" and hangs out by the bakery for another good 5 minutes. Another side note, we have a policy that you have to place your order at least 2 days in advance. Meaning her bitchfit got her past that policy.
There are no words in the English language that can describe how much I fucking hate entitled prissy ass customers that get so riled up over a stupid cake they haven't even paid for yet. Sometimes I can get it because they ordered a week in advance to pick up the day of a birthday party, so I get that, but other times it's not my fault if you left this thing to be last minute.
why cant people just make their fucking cakes at home? We have a baking aisle, do it your damn self.
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karofsky · 2 years
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Do you think Kurtofsky would do a lot of baking together?
(I am now going to answer my own question so sorry about that but of course I want to hear your thoughts as well)
I could see them spending Sunday afternoons baking and then giving all kinds of food to their friends. Every time somebody comes to visit they leave with a little container of cookies or muffins or whatever. Their kids always get a delicious homemade birthday cake. Kurt gets a little icing on his face and Dave points it out, Kurt asks him to get it after he keeps missing and instead of being Normal™ about it Dave licks it off and maybe just... doesn't remove his mouth from Kurt... alright I'm derailing a bit so I'll stop, I think you get the picture.
YES YES YES, 100% agree. I always headcanoned Dave as a decent cook-- like he knows how to make actual dishes and does so well. And with baking, he is genuinely good, but not at first. He's got a huge sweet tooth (something I HC'd early on even before it was made canon) and he's really one of those people that like... picks up things really quickly? And after his mom left he noticed he stopped waking up to cinnamon rolls and holiday cookies, so he took it upon himself to learn so he could both still have the things he loved personally, and also fill the void for his dad. It just kind of continued to spiral after that.
And Kurt, bless his heart, knows almost NO one who bakes. Baking is the only thing Rachel can do even remotely correctly in the kitchen, but everyone else he knows is like, "yeah I bake [buys instant cake mix]". Which is fine really, and he still bonds with them over his own sweet tooth, but when he finds out Dave can like, whip up shit from scratch? Immediate heart eyes.
I always assume they kept up casually until Kurt left for New York and they drifted, so Kurt would have known by then that Dave had a knack for it, but it wouldn't be until the reunite post S6 that he really sees how far Dave has come with it, and is obviously pleasantly surprised. So when they get together, yes, it's just a baker's paradise. They both enable each other in a lot of ways but 100000% the worst is with baking. One of them is almost always making something, which they can justify because it's more rewarding than simply filling the various candy bowls they have around the house (which they still do, regularly).
This gets them invited to parties from Not Close Friends btw. Like they are both homebodies so they really don't like going to work parties or big gatherings where they don't know a lot of people, but they go anyway and are always invited because people know they will bring something (and OF COURSE, people just naturally like them, but the baked goods are always a bonus) (also Dave starts making cinnamon rolls like his mom used to for their kids every Sunday)
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thessalian · 2 months
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Thess vs Annual Leave Entitlement
I have a whole thing about annual leave. I mean, I get a pretty generous annual leave allotment, considering I'm part time. Then again, the amount I work, it's probably my due. Anyway, it is not that I don't want to take the annual leave. It's just ... I have a few issues about remembering to book it. The issues are:
Probably-ADHD Brain where when it is not staring me in the face, I will probably forget about it when I get to hyperfocusing on something like ... I dunno, actual work.
I tend to use "I JUST CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE" as a bellweather that I need time off (probably a holdover from my temp days, when time off had to be planned way in advance and budgeted for because I didn't get paid leave), and I don't get to that point very often now that I don't commute and we've stopped having so many "unexpected absences" (and we're even hiring more staff, wow). So, again, I forget.
It's a lot easier to book annual leave when you have a plan about it. Because I work from home, it's not unreasonable for me to be one of the ones actually working over, say, the Christmas or Easter holidays, because at least I don't have to deal with the public transport slow-down that happens during all bank holidays.
By the same token, it's a lot easier to book annual leave when you can actually afford to go anywhere. I can not afford the money or the spoons to go anywhere. I took time off around October for some recovery time both before and after MCM Comic Con, because it was a scheduled thing I really wanted to do. Those are rare for me at this point.
So for all of those reasons, what tends to happen is that I get my annual leave allotment at the start of April, I book at minimum the week around my birthday off, and then kind of forget about it until management starts yelling about getting time booked. This normally ends up with me having a lot of time off around March, as I just dump the remainder of my leave allotment wherever there's still an open week or so left. Now, unlike Temp and her three-week holiday the other month, I at least try not to take more than a week off at a time. So what happened was that this March has me off for two non-consecutive weeks. The first one is next week, and I have plans in the direction of more baking. Probably chocolate chip cookies, snickerdoodles and a coffee loaf.
And then there's the week of the 18th, plus the 26th to burn one last day. And Horizon: Forbidden West comes out on the 21st. I did not in any way plan that, but clearly the universe wanted to give me something to do that week. And next week, too, as I not only plan to bake, but could spend some time finally getting an entire BG3 playthrough done before I go spending time in the Horizonverse.
Of course, then the end of March will be upon us and I'll have a whole new leave allotment to try to use up...
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Food cravings - gone? 🍔🍕🍟🍪🍫🧁
So ever since I've been taking my multivitamins and magnesium. I've been getting little food cravings. Of course, I'll get occasional eating-out urges and I'll have a diet Coke and some chocolate (I had some chocolate cake last week for my brother's birthday from Whole Foods and they have really good chocolate cake). But these cravings don't come as much as they used to.
I wish I kept track of how I ate in previous months. I just know that I did enjoy sugary stuff. And there are 2 reasons for that - nutritional deficiencies and suppressive eating (you'll crash eventually regardless of how "disciplined" you are).
I would drink sugary coffee (from the cafe I like going to), eat cookies (Crumbl and pumpkin chocolate chip oatmeal), chocolate bars (from Whole Foods), etc. I would eat chips and Chick-fil-a pretty often. Keep in mind that I do enjoy these stuff, just not as much as before. I think this all started in April when one Friday I got some coffee from the cafe I used to go to every week, and it just tasted too sweet. Also, on the 21st I went to Starbucks and got a mocha and a warm brownie. I got the same thing once when I was eating restrictively and felt like I was in heaven. On the 21st, I just did not enjoy it that much (even though I do love coffee and chocolate). My vitamins are likely responsible for this.
For dinner today, I ordered some fresh soft tacos from a local Mexican restaurant with chicken, avocado, sour cream, jalapenos, cilantro, and other veggies. I don't like beans nor rice so I did not get those. While I did eat out, I did get something relatively healthy (rather than Chick-fil-a or frozen pizza, though in theory, you can make pizza healthy). I had healthy carbs from the whole wheat tortilla, white chicken as protein, veggies, and healthy fats (avocado). The place was actually good and I can see myself getting this for lunch every now and then. Eating out is fine, it helps to find places that offer healthy options too.
Sometimes I will get some cravings at work, but that's simply because I am hungry. It's a similar idea of getting groceries on an empty stomach because chances are, you'll get the tempting stuff such as chips, candy bars, baked goods, crackers, etc... I'll go home and eat normally and the cravings go away.
Recently I have not had the healthiest relationship with food. I have restrictved. inthe past, but I felt there were moments where I was eating healthier. But that moreso came from a perspective of fear and restriction as opposed to actually craving healthy stuff. I also had a lot of protein bars, protein powder, sugar free garbage, etc... So I wasn't necessarily healthy in that aspect (I believe in eating the real deal instead of substitutes). And yes I was pretty slim. But that came from fear and restriction.
I want to continue taking my multivitamins and magnesium supplements and hope I can continue this habit of eating healthy and well. Because cravings suck. I want to be healthy and I don't want to have doctors boss me around since they treat allopathically and know little about nutrition (sad truth most people won't admit) and just prescribe medication and treatments that temporarily treat symptoms rather than finding ways to heal the body within. So I want to continue my healthy eating habits and eliminate/reduce my cravings for junk and sugar. I want this to be something long-term (I'm talking years/decades) but it's so hard to project this since I just started having this feeling for about a month. But I want to live a healthy life and I know the dangers of eating a ton of sugar and processed foods. Of course, I want to enjoy life and live a little, but I want to stay healthy.
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Cookie Run Ligyrophobic/Globophobic Headcanons and Scenarios (Part 2)
Back again with something simple, I'm feeling like writing this days, so I'll do my best.
Only two characters this time because I was tired, but I'm open for request!
Again, sorry if some of this feel Out of Character, it's to fit more into context and for comfort, so they will be very flexible.
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~ CREAM UNICORN COOKIE 🦄🍪 ~
- As the protector of the amusement park, they are hyperempathic, Cream Unicorn can feel how everyone is feeling on the park. When they felt someone (You) isn't feeling comfortable with something, will come flying as fast as they can.
- "Hey dear, what's wrong? Are you not having a good time? What can I do for you to feel better?"
- It's hard for you to admit your "silly fear", Cream Unicorn worked so hard to make the night at the park special for everyone.
- After asking so much and so nicely, you confess to them that the balloons popping and the fireworks are scaring/bothering you a little, and you would love a little peace.
- "Oh dear, that's what was bothering you? I'm so sorry for not noticing before, I'm going to fix this for you faster than chocolate chiptah!" (Ingredient animal pun intended)
- And before you notice, you were on a table with delicious cream treats, on a quiet zone of the food stans, no balloons from the games zone near, and the fireworks where far enough to not scared you. On your lap, there was a gift box nicely wrapped with your name on it, so you opened to find a pair beautiful pastel colored headphones, great for protection those ears whenever you needed.
- Now Cream Unicorn Cookie knows that no balloons or fireworks for you (Even tho they love giving balloons to everyone in the park and having a good view of the fireworks) They understand.
- From time to time they try to see if you are more comfortable with balloons, showing you that there's nothing to fear. They leave some at your door on your birthday, but you know it's not with bad intentions, and you appreciate it.
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~ Red Velvet Cookie v2🍪 🍰 ~
- You were walking back to the oven with Red Velvet Cookie. You and him were collecting some wild ingredients for more Cake Hounds.
- Even though you only started hanging out with Red Velvet and everything was new with him, but what you saw when you entered the oven room was scarier that 1000 witches.
- It seems like Poison Mushroom Cookie sneaked in and filled the floor of the room with balloons. Chiffon and a newbaked hound were chasing some balloons that where bouncing around.
- "Surpriiiiiseeee...! Happy birthday Red Velvet, heheheh... Let's bake some cake for the partieeeeee..." Poison Mushroom's head was on the clouds again. "No buddy, that is in two weeks, not today... Look at all this mess, we should clean up before start baking. Up everyone! Now, start cleaning here!" Ref Velvet said on his commander voice, making the Cake Hounds obedient for a moment, and Poison Mushroom started tidying things up.
- You looked tensed, but Red Velvet keep walking like nothing. He thought that the spooky vibes of the over made you feel weak again.
- Red Velvet tried to pick up some of the balloons, but the claws of his cake monster hand popped them.
- He wasn't ready for the scared scream that came out of your mouth, even the cake hounds and Poison Mushroom Cookie stopped what they were doing and looked at you.
- "Hey now, wowowow y/n, is everything ok here? Did you get hurt? Answer" You were trembling, with a "normal" face because you wouldn't want to make a scene.
- "Yes Red Velvet, I'm f-fine, I just, I just, REMEMBERED I HAVE SOMETHING TO DO NOW I HAVE TO GO BYE GOOD LUCK YOU TWO-"
- "But wait, what is wrong? You were ok just a moment ago, it's something wrong? I thought we were going to bake hounds together..."
- "Yesyesyes it's just I remember I have to gather some-" * POP * Chiffon bited too hard one of the balloons "*EEEEEEEK*" you tried to bury a scream, just letting a little pain sound to go out, while jumping a little.
- Red Velvet looked around and then looked at the balloon that was on his cookie hand, trying to connect points. "Are this balloons bothering you...?" Putting the balloon near you, making you give some awkward steps back.
- "N-no no of course not don't be silly, I just need to go now-", you tried to get to the doors, but Poison Mushroom was blocking the door, and they had some balloons too, looking you right in your eyes like they always do, like if they could read your mind.
- "Oh I see, everything is ok, so it doesn't matter if I do THIS?!" Said Red Velvet as he hold the balloon near you with his monster hand, teasing you with popping it, wich make you take another step back, as you give him a grim look of fearful pain, waiting for it to pop.
- "OOOOOH OK YES THAT'S IT IT'S THE BALLOONS BUT PLEASE DON'T POP IT" You said in a weak scaredy voice.
- Red couldn't say anything but laughed out loud, with an "evil" maniac laugh. "BWAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA YOU TRULY ARE A COOKIE FULL OF SURPRISES" Red Velvet said as he wiping away tears from laughing. You took this a little personal, but knew deep inside he wouldn't do anything to hurt you "Hey it's not that funny! It's not like I have a choice after all..." You said, thinking Red Would take you seriously.
- "First the fireworks, and now this, ahahahahah, you never end to surprise me, y/n. Do not worry, we are going to find a solution... UNLESS I DO THIS!" said Red as he puts the balloon near you again, making you wimp again. "Ahahahaha, how did you survive until now like that? Ok, now it's time clean here for real this time! Poison Mushroom Cookie, you and I will take this balloons somewhere else, y/n, take Chiffon and this other Cakehound to their compartments, clean the table and get the ingredients ready." Said Red Velvet Cookie on a serious leader voice again, and you had it easy, at least you wouldn't have to see those balloons again. "Let's move everyone!"
- Even though he made fun of you, Red Velvet Cookie was very careful picking up the balloons with his cake monster hand, besides, it would be useless to have a cookie scared to do anything on the kitchen. But if by accident one of them pooped, he would verbally check if you are ok and reassure you. He's great with affirmations when he wants to.
- "You are doing great y/n, keep it going" "Sorry, that was my fault, is everything ok y/n?" "We're almost over here, let's go! Hang on a little more, you though cookie!" His commander voice was sure reassuring, now you see (or hear) how he is a great commander for the Cake Hounds.
- After this little incident, he usually test your fear from time to time, mostly as a joke, but deep down he thinks exposure therapy can help make you a more though cookie. "Y/N CATCH THIS" "Y/N take this for me" are usually hear as he gives you a balloon or tries to play don't let the balloon touch the ground.
- He just wants the best for you, even when that usually comes with questions like "Why?" "How?" "It's just a balloon, noise can't hurt you(But my cake army can!)". You know he isn't trying to be rude.
- But Red Velvet Cookie is very compassionate towards you, so he never tolds anyone about it.
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squidyyy23 · 2 years
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Hi hi! Good evening on my end, happy question friday! Here are some questions:
So...where did you go to culinary school? (Yes I saw your nutella waffles picture this morning on discord and what the hell dude? You never mentioned being a master chef)
Do you budget? Or are you fortunate enough that you don't really need to? Or are you fortunate but still thrifty?
Did you know any/all of your grandparents? What was your relationship with them like?
😘🦑
howl my love! the way you manage to make fridays ever better. 🥰
1. uhh...the school of trial and error and a neurotic penchant for following directions to a T? lots of baking shows and a husband who is not afraid to tell me when something sucks? i don't know. it's fun. my perfectionism makes me have to repeat it over and over again until it's right. (i've made four batches of macarons in the last past month because i will get it right!). i don't do it as much as i used to now that i've got "helpers" in there with me most of the time, but even that's been fun teaching the kiddos stuff. they have serious delusions about what a "normal" birthday cake should look like. but it is pretty impressive that a three year old can tell me what ingredients go in cookies. 😂
2. confession time: finance crap makes me want to cry. i hate it. like yes, i could do it if i had to but i do not want to. and my husband is a total nerd about that kind of shit. like stock markets and retirement funds are things he reads about for fun. so i just turn that all over to him. i do my thing and let him tell me if anything is getting out of whack. i couldn't even tell you what any of our monthly bills look like. real femenist of me, yeah? 🙈
3. i come from a long line of sluts (affectionate) who have children young and get divorced all over the place. so i've got grandparents galore. i even have a great grandmother still kicking it (meaning my kids have a great-great grandmother!) both my young parents also lived with their parents for a good portion of my childhood so i'm pretty close with them. my mom's mom in particular (my nana) is definitely the one i'm closest to. she lives out of state now but usually comes back about twice a year. love her so much! ❤️
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m00niesk7 · 3 years
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just yuki things
masterlist🐱
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ℴ𝓃ℯ. a smiley, sunshine child
𝓉𝓌ℴ. take her food, she'll take your life
𝓉𝒽𝓇ℯℯ. the members poking or pinching her cheeks
𝒻ℴ𝓊𝓇. mEmeS fOR dAyS
𝒻𝒾𝓋ℯ. having such a huge appetite but gains no weight (kun: you're so skinny, you need to eat more😠//yk: i do! i'm just like this)
𝓈𝒾𝓍. baking cause that's all she can do in the kitchen other than eat
𝓈ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓃. crackheaded to the extreme
ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉. "oppa?" "oppa." "oppa!"
𝓃𝒾𝓃ℯ. the confidence is unreal (or she's just shameless idk)
𝓉ℯ𝓃. always on top of social media drama/trends, especially twitter and tiktok
ℯ𝓁ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓃. being one the last members to wake up (she's a heavy sleeper) (rj: *attempting to wake yuki up* OMG YUKI WAKE UP!//yk: *still dead asleep*//rj: i give up😑)
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓁𝓋ℯ. going out to explore when she's bored (always takes at least one of the boys, preferably any of the j line)
𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓇𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. horror/romance movie connoisseur but she still gets scared tho
𝒻ℴ𝓊𝓇𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. "dangerous" when hungry or angry
𝒻𝒾𝒻𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. language genius
𝓈𝒾𝓍𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. scaredy cat but acts like she isn't
𝓈ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓃𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. being slightly anxious around any type of animal (except bella, louis, & leon)
ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. but she likes looking at animals from afar
𝓃𝒾𝓃𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. slight weeb more like total
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎. cooping herself up in her room when she's crocheting or crafting
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 ℴ𝓃ℯ. huge cinephile
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 𝓉𝓌ℴ. foodie....fooood
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝓇ℯℯ. flexible queen
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 𝒻ℴ𝓊𝓇. debating about weird and (sometimes) frustrating things with the '00's
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 𝒻𝒾𝓋ℯ. asking jaemin or haechan to teach her to cook something rather than having them do it (cause she feels bad)
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 𝓈𝒾𝓍. a child at heart
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 𝓈ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓃. loud, loud, LOUD, but somehow still quiet
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉. actually really good at making quips
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 𝓃𝒾𝓃ℯ. tendency to daydream
𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓇𝓉𝓎. a total homebody
•̀ғᴀᴄᴛs•̀
ℴ𝓃ℯ. she the first female in kpop history to be place into a male-dominated group
𝓉𝓌ℴ. sm placed her in many sub-units and such because they wanted to see more positivity from the fans about having a girl for those concepts
𝓉𝒽𝓇ℯℯ. her and her brother still meet up (when she's not busy) and only meet up in the evening or nighttime to avoid getting caught by dispatch
𝒻ℴ𝓊𝓇. she one of the most emotional members in nct
𝒻𝒾𝓋ℯ. yuki had back problems during 'we young' promotions and had to have restrictions on her performance
𝓈𝒾𝓍. she hadn't met her biological parents until she was 18 (korean age)
𝓈ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓃. has a photo album dedicated to her, her brother, and mark from when they were kids
ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉. she doesn't have the best eyesight, it's not terrible but she needs glasses or contacts to get around
𝓃𝒾𝓃ℯ. has a few secret stan twitter accounts for lurking on the twitterzens
𝓉ℯ𝓃. during mid 2017 (a while before cherry bomb era) a staff member told her to loose some weight, about 5-10 lbs, for her stage outfits. she was already relatively really skinny/small to begin with and she had a lot of trouble with it. but she went through with it and had an eating disorder as result of it. she had to go through a lot to get back to a normal weight
ℯ𝓁ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓃. she's not a fan of dyeing her hair as often, in fear of damaging it
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓁𝓋ℯ. on each one of the members birthdays, she bakes their favorite dessert (cake, cookies, macarons, etc.) (yes, even all the feb. birthdays)
𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓇𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. when she was younger, she had little to no knowledge of cooking. nowadays, she's likes to learn lots of recipes and cook for her members and friends. it makes her feel good about herself
𝒻ℴ𝓊𝓇𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. she remembers mostly nothing about living in japan. if you asked her about it she'd just say, "i was just living my best life, i don't know"
𝒻𝒾𝒻𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. yuki, in the dreamies opinion, has the most decorative room since she decorated it with lots of her self made crafts and is hella aesthetic and they have no idea how she was so messy before
𝓈𝒾𝓍𝓉ℯℯ𝒷. knows every iconic spongebob quote (don't ask)
𝓈ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓃𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. she has sensitive ears and her members sometimes tease her about it. especially haechan
ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. she was diagnosed with adhd when she was 7 years old (international age), she took prescriptions for it when she became a trainee though she hasn't taken it since 2017
𝓃𝒾𝓃𝓉ℯℯ𝓃. she's very, very pan(sexual)
𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎. learned how to edit on her own by 2018 and even helps with official nct concept photos, art, etc
•̀ʜᴀʙɪᴛs•̀
ℴ𝓃ℯ. covering her face when she laughs
𝓉𝓌ℴ. puffing her cheeks
𝓉𝒽𝓇ℯℯ. smiling
𝒻ℴ𝓊𝓇. messing with her hands/fingers
𝒻𝒾𝓋ℯ. rubbing her ears when spaced out
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ladytemeraire · 2 years
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Warp 31
Today is my birthday! It's been a very quiet and peaceable one overall; I spent most of the morning snuggling with Sadie while it rained, went on a long walk with her around lunchtime, did some shopping and errands, and made myself a nice dinner to have with wine (a housewarming gift from a friend) and had a decadent slice of cake I picked up with my groceries. Presents and more cake will come this weekend when I travel to visit my family for Thanksgiving, but I still felt I should mark the actual day in some way.
It's very difficult in some ways to be reflective on the past year, because the past year has been so abnormal. The past year has been hard for me; I turned thirty in the middle of a global pandemic (I'm turning thirty-one while it's still going), and while I was used to spending my actual birthday away from my family (we just celebrate together when I go home for Thanksgiving), it was the first year I spent Thanksgiving and Christmas without seeing them in person. But as much as I hate to admit it, that separation was honestly good. It gave me a breather from family drama, let me establish boundaries, and it gave me a chance to start some traditions of my own with friends and chosen family. One of my closest friends had never decorated sugar cookies before; when she came for Christmas with our little bubble of four people, I baked two dozen gluten free sugar cookies and made a stupid amount of icing and she and her boyfriend/my best friend and I had a cookie decorating party at his apartment before exchanging gifts, and it's one of my fondest memories. I made duck breast for Thanksgiving and Cornish hen for Christmas and tried a bunch of other things I would never have considered. (Turns out pretty much every vegetable you hated growing up tastes delicious when roasted at 400 degrees with some olive oil and salt and pepper.)
Even the parts beyond 2020 have still been hard, I am not going to lie or sugarcoat that at all - but the last few months have been a redemption arc coming in clutch. I moved from my shoebox apartment of eight years into my first house, I adopted an absolutely darling GSD mix from a local shelter, I got my knitting and writing mojo back with a vengeance, and I should be up for a promotion at my day job very soon. It finally, finally feels like I'm starting to get somewhere in my life, rather than just being in survival mode, and it's equal parts exhilarating and terrifying . Exhilarating because hell yeah, I'm finally hitting milestones I kind of always thought were pipe dreams, my hard work and planning and preparation is actually starting to pay off; terrifying because shit, I never thought I'd get this far, so what do I do now and where do I go from here?
I guess those are my thoughts: your thirties are not the end of your life. They're when your life is just really kicking off. If you're in your twenties and you feel like you have no idea where your life is going or what the hell you're doing: that's fine. I'd even argue that's normal. You've got plenty of time and good things ahead of you, so hang in there. I can't wait to see what happens next.
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YO!!! That story about the boyfriend broke at first. I was like NOOO she lied!!😡 But I'm glad it wasn't real. BUT how did Mickey know and dreamed of what his Y/N and that guy were doing in the bedroom? He must have seen it somewhere, maybe Constance.🤦🏻‍♀️ Anyway it's my birthday today, so let's say it's Mickey's birthday and Y/N surprises him, and sings Happy Birthday to him. Oh and Elmo from Sesame Street has to make an appearance, somehow. 😁
           I couldn't do this to Mikey, it couldn't be real... To answer your first question, it's a bit of multiple things. First, Michael is still the antichrist, so even if he is not at all interested, Satan is carnal pleasure. Second, he saw it on TV, during films or series, even if his mommy tried to cover his eyes and ears everytime (it's difficult to cover both with only two hands...). And since she explained to him that the boy was putting his pecker in the girl's hole to make babies, Michael is not stupid, he just add two plus two, his brain did the rest, and he had a awful nightmare...
IT WAS YOUR BIRTHDAY ?! AND I REPLY TOO LATE, IM SORRY !!! I WILL TRY TO MAKE IT PERFECT, WITH ELMO ! (I had a Elmo fluff when I was young. He is still somewhere in the house.) HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!
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           When Michael opened his eyes, the first thing he noticed was that his mommy was not there and the coldness of the bed told him that she had been up for a long time. Yet it was still early, so even though he was still a little sleepy, he rubbed his eyes to investigate, because it was not normal. None of them liked to get up before it was necessary. Slowly, dragging his feet, he first went into the living room, plunged into complete darkness, totally silent. No one in the bathroom or the restroom Michael heard a noise coming from the kitchen, the door was closed, so he approached quietly, slowly opened and discovered (Y/N), wiping her forehead, before continuing to stir a dough which looked like chocolate. There were cookies baking in the oven, and the smell made his belly groan.
           "Mommy, are you making cakes ?" he asked, hoping he could get some.
           "Oh Mikey, you're awake ! I've made too much noise ? Excuse me, it's so early, you can go back to bed if you want."
           "No, it's not the same without you... Can I help you ?"
           "You're nice, but I have to do it alone."
           "Why ?"
Michael had been very quiet this week, to (Y / N)'s surprise who expected him to be a little excited with the important date that was coming, thinking then that he was good to have more gifts and sweets. But now, seeing his innocent and curious look, she realized that he had no idea what they had to celebrate today. In fact, he did not care about dates, how much time passed, just looking at the clock when she was not there. No need to take all these precautions to surprise him, and no way to wait, because it would give him time to think ! (Y / N) took Michael's hands and started dancing with him in the kitchen, singing.
           "Happy Birthday to you ! Happy Birthday to you ! Happy Birthday my dear Mikey ! Happy Birthday to you !!"
           "It's... It's my birthday ?" he asked, starting to jump.
           "Yes, silly. I'm making you a cake, it must have been a surprise, but now that you're here, you'll be able to choose the flavour of the cream and the colours of the decorations."
Not having many birthday parties, because he had no friends, because Constance was just buying a cake and one present, and he was officially only seven years old, Michael was very happy that his mommy would make as much effort to please him, having prepared two human-shaped cookies, a mini Michael and a mini (Y / N), which she would put on top of the chocolate cake when it would be ready. While it was in the oven, his mommy told him the program she had prepared, to check that everything would please Michael.
           "It is very cold outside, so difficult to go to the beach but... We can go to the pool ! The water is heated ! You can have fun jumping from the diving board. Then we go to the restaurant that you want, and you will be able to eat whatever you want. We come back, I offer you your presents, and we eat the cake for the merienda. Then you can play, while I clean everything."
           "No, I want you to play with me !"
           "It's your day, so I obey Sir Michael's orders."
           "Really ? I want my presents now !"
His mommy suddenly seemed very disappointed, looking at him with narrowed eyes, as if he had just done something stupid, so Michael started to be scared, thinking very quickly.
           "... Please ?" he added.
           "Ah, I was scared ! For a moment I thought my baby was gone and a poorly educated boy had replaced him, but since it's you, let's go get those gifts you're so hurry to open that you forget your good manners."
As she asked him, Michael agreed to stay on the couch, putting his hands on his eyes while (Y / N) brought back all the presents in the living room. He was surprised to learn that there were several because his grandma had always said that one gift was enough, otherwise he would be spoiled. He took his shirt to hide half of his face when he opened his eyes and he found ten gift packages, of all sizes, shapes, colors.
           "Mommy, that's too much !
           "It's never too much for my baby. Go ahead, open them."
It was so beautiful that he did not dare, the mere fact that she had bought him gifts was enough for Michael, but he finally put a trembling hand on one of them and tear the package. The head of a soft toy Elmo then appeared, smiling at him and when he wanted to take it out of the box, pressing on his stomach, it spoke.
           "Hello, I'm Elmo, I'm your friend !"
           "OH ! MOMMY ! MOMMY ! Elmo said he was my friend !"
           "I heard !" she said, ruffling his hair. "You are happy ?"
           "YES !"
Michael began to cuddle the stuffed toy, which began to say several nice things, compliments, jokes, which excited the boy even more, to the point that he seemed to forget all the other gifts he still had to open. Of all the shows he watched, Sesame  Street was one of his favourites, a bit odd, funny, sometimes serious, but always great ! Of course, he was still happy to discover his other toys, new books that his mommy would read him, but nothing seemed to surpass his friend Elmo, who accompanied him everywhere for weeks, until (Y/N) begged him to not make him talk when they slept. Michael began counting the days until his next birthday, planning to get up early to help his mommy prepare the cake next time. He also asked her when was her birthday, was sad to hear that he had missed the date, and noted it so to not forget it, even if he could not do as well as (Y / N) because he did not know how to cook and he did not have money to buy gifts... So he asked her if she would help him to prepare a surprise party for her birthday. She accepted, asking him once again to stop being so cute. Michael never understood why she was asking him that.
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Hey! So December's coming and I'm incredibly scared of it because for me December represents almost a daily huge family dinner (we've got birthdays in top of Christmas and New Year's) I was just wondering if you had any tips on how to survive it, since it's so full of triggers...
Yeah wow big holidays can be just awful at times 😬 I love Christmas but hhhhhhh there's a lot of eating involved.
The first thing I'm gonna say is that you dont have to eat more than you need to. Just because there's food everywhere all the time and more in the works constantly, you don't have to have five big feasts every day and a hundred cookies between each meal. People like to overdo it bc it's a holiday and a celebration, but honestly there's no reason why you should have to overeat just because it's a certain day.
You can still eat normal portions, normal amount of meals and normal amount of snacking, even if everybody else is going at it as if the food is gonna grow legs and run out the door. Yeah some people might get a little judgey, but honestly who cares. If you don't want to overeat just because it's Christmas, that's fine.
Secondly, when it comes to all that cake, cookies, chocolate and whatever else, if you want some you can absolutely have some. I find it easier to have sweets when I give myself a conscious permission to eat them. If I want some candy one day, I already start giving myself permission to eat it while I'm having breakfast. Throughout the day I'm telling myself that I'm going to get some candy today and that I can have as much of it as I want and that I have full permission to eat it. Spontaneous sweets might make you feel very guilty and uncomfortable if you're not at that place yet so keep an eye on that, but for me at least this has worked really well. You gotta give yourself that permission first, so it won't feel like you did something prohibited. It also helps me to remind myself that I can have "as much as I want" because it calms that mental hunger down a lot to hear those words. There's no need to panic, you have a permission and you can decide for yourself how much you want. (Obviously if you're prone to restricting, you have to eat enough to meet those proper nutrition quotas, but in general you can have as much as you want)
You can also start thinking about December as a whole. If you start thinking about every single day of the month and every single meal in them, it can get really overwhelming, so try to just shove all of that into one box and don't look at it too closely. It's just one month, that's nothing. I know you must dread it a lot, but try to think of December as something nice instead of a big ole danger pool. You're still in control of what's happening, you can still decide what you eat and how much of it and there's a lot of fun to be had. It doesn't have to be a constant source of stress and anxiety. Try to approach it with a little bit more confidence in the fact that you'll make through it easy-peasy. It's just a month like any other, you've made it through every Christmas so far, you've made it through countless birthdays, this shouldn't be any different.
I for one will really go for it this christmas since my last christmas was so pathetic😎 I'm gonna bake stuff and have some and that's cool. I'm gonna eat chocolate if I want to and I'm gonna snack on cookies if I want to, just like I would any other month. I might eat more sugar than I usually do, but it's just one month and it's gonna be fine.
Good luck and if you ever need encouragement or a permission to eat something, I'm your girl! 🎄🎅☃️
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“you were wrapped in red (when we met)”
{ in which jennie and jisoo meet for the first time on christmas eve and not everything is as it seems }
→ jensoo | santa!jennie | single mom!jisoo
jisoo's sense of time had always been a little bit off
like she never knows what day it is and constantly has to ask her co-workers, and nobody blinks an eye anymore when she forgets their birthday—they know it's nothing personal anyway since she even forgets hers sometimes
so she isn't really that surprised when she realises christmas is just around the corner and she had absolutely no idea, too busy working and taking care of her three year old daughter to actually notice the slowly but steadily increasing amount of shining decorations all around town
it only takes getting stuck in traffic on her way to the office and having to listen to a unhealthy amount of christmas songs the radio throws her way first thing on a monday morning before she realizes what time of the year it is
and of course she gets as excited as ever because, well, jisoo is that type of person
the one who used to stay up all night as a kid just so she could spy on santa claus and make sure he brought her what she had asked for (and also steal one or two of his cookies)
the one who would ignore her classmates' comments and would stubbornly keep on repeating that the chubby guy with the white beard is real even though nobody ever sees him or knows anything about him apart from the fact that he apparently enjoys going around every year to sneak into people's house, bring them gifts and eat their food
jisoo was and still is the type of person that could listen to the same christmas carol ten times on repeat and enjoy herself every single time, following the tune by shaking her head while pretending she's in charge of some big orchestra in her mind
she absolutely loved all the bright christmas lights and ornaments as a kid, and the same could be said for adult jisoo as well, so she's more than ecstatic to buy as many as possible and help her daughter decorate the christmas tree while she snaps some cute pictures she's going to stick on the fridge door later
that's how she ends up getting stuck in some shopping mall for hours, going through an unbelievably large amount of ornaments—big and small, covered in spangles and colorful glitter that gets stuck all over her palms—, getting gifts for her friends and family and of course buying two ridiculous rudolph the reindeer sweaters in different sizes just so she and her daughter can match
the two of them immediately get to work once they make it back to their apartment, creating a colorful mess all over their living room in just a few moments, but jisoo doesn't really mind
sure, this is going to be a hell to clean up later, but right now she's too busy watching her baby giggle as she's standing right next to their christmas tree (which isn't that big cause their apartment doesn't have that much space, but it's still way taller than her uwu), her rudolph sweater fitting her perfectly and making her look absolutely adorable
jisoo even helps her write a letter to santa claus because the little girl has only learnt how to write her name so far, and promises to send it to him
and then time goes by and before jisoo even realises it it's christmas eve and she would give absolutely anything to be home with her daughter, some of her mother's freshly baked cookies and a home alone movie playing on the tv, but here she is instead, stuck in the office until late at night because someone else didn't do their job right and she had to pay the price for it
she literally has the biggest pout ever when she gets back home, but she immediately forgets everything about how shitty her day was when she finds her mother and daughter waiting for her
and after eating, her mom goes to sleep, tired after having to look after the baby all day long, leaving the other two alone, and it doesn't take long before jisoo's eyes turn heavy and she craves her bed more than anything in her life
all she wants to do is sleep, but she has to take care of the little one first, who's also looking very sleepy, judging by how she can't keep her eyes open for more than just a couple of seconds at a time
and once the baby looks comfortable and warm enough, jisoo returns to the living room to turn off the tv and head to bed after what felt like the longest day of her life, but she somehow falls asleep on the couch with the tv still on
that's how she wakes up a few hours later, extremely disoriented and confused because what the hell is that sound? it's definitely not the baby and all the tv screen has to offer now is static, so she has absolutely no idea what is going on until she turns her head to where the christmas tree is
and at first jisoo can't really see anything because it's too dark and her eyes are still adjusting to the world around her, but then she spots the source of the sound aka a figure in the darkness, lean looking and just as tall as her, so she guesses it belongs to a girl
which means it can't possibly be that hard to take her down or at least try because there is absolutely no way jisoo is letting anyone steal from her, not when her mother and daughter are sleeping upstairs and definitely not on christmas eve
and she's this close to kicking the girl on the back and making her fall on the tree face first, but just then the stranger turns around, eyes going wide with surprise as they're locking with jisoo's in the darkness of the room
and jisoo decides to take advance of the thief's stunned moment because she knows this is her chance, so she quickly grabs the first thing her hands land on—her daughter's feeding bottle oh my god— and is ready to throw it on the girl's face
except she doesn't go through with her plan because the stranger starts talking really fast and loud and she looks like she's on the verge of bursting into tears
which means more noise, which means more changes of the baby waking up and starting crying like there's no tomorrow, which means no sleep for jisoo, so she quickly leans in and covers the thief's mouth with the back of her palm until she looks calm again
and now that jisoo's eyes have adjusted to the darkness and the stranger isn't looking that terrified anymore, the girl notices how pretty the other is, all sharp yet delicate features, and she also pays attention to her outfit aka a short fur dress in a vibrant red color with hints of white at the top and bottom
she even has a matching hat on and jisoo can't help a “for a thief, you're fashionable and have a sense of humor at least”
and the girl is looking at her like ???????? because thief? hell no
“no, i, huh—well, i'm actually santa claus' daughter”
and jisoo can't help but burst into laughter because of course she had to be the one getting robbed tonight and by an absolute awful thief at that
and no matter how many times the stranger repeats things like “i'm not a thief, that's what the yule lads* do, they're awful”, “my dad is retiring and i have to take over”, “could you please not call the police? my reindeers are waiting on the roof and rudolph is getting more impatient the older he gets”, “my father is going to be so damn angry if he finds out, he'll probably make me train the new elves and let me tell you, no one wants to do that, they're so freaking loud” jisoo still laughs with her palm over her lips to make sure she makes as little noise as possible
until she suddenly stops because the stranger opens her red bag and a piece of paper jumps out, floats in the air right in front of her face and grows longer, until the end reaches the ground
and jisoo just stares at the other girl because what the hell just happened??? is this some type of secret thief technology or is jisoo finally losing her mind?
and the girl just stares back at her as she grabs the floating paper like it's the most normal thing ever and shows her the list of names with either the word naughty or nice written right next to them
and then jisoo just stands there because floating lists with children names, her daughter's included, and waiting reindeers on her roof and some strange yet pretty girl in her living room talking about santa being her father is too much
and she doesn't know how it happens, but she's suddenly back on the couch and the girl is feeding her the cookies her daughter insisted on leaving out for santa while rubbing her back to calm her down
and then out of the blue she starts talking about how cute baby reindeers are and how she used to take care of them and make sure they grew up healthy and strong before she had to leave other people in charge in order to get ready for talking over her father's position because he's growing too old to be traveling around the world
and just by looking at her jisoo can tell she isn't very fond of what she's doing and she would rather go back to the way things were before
and maybe she's too tired to be rational, or she's simply going crazy,,,, like a girl dressed in red fur sitting on her couch is claiming she's the daughter of some imaginary guy and jisoo actually believes her, how crazier could it possibly get?
but jisoo starts talking about how her life was before the baby and how changes aren't always bad, just different, and it takes time to get used to them
and the girl keeps her eyes on her all the time, making jisoo blush because damn she's so pretty and she really hopes the darkness of the room can hide how red her cheeks have gotten
and jisoo doesn't know for how long they've been talking, but suddenly the girl gets up, looking all panicked and mumbling things like “i'm so late”, “dad is going be so mad”
and the girl gets ready to climb up the chimney—“don't look at me like that, it's easier than it looks, magic does wonders”
but before she leaves jisoo asks for her name and is pretty disappointed when she finds out jennie doesn't have a phone number—“well, um, using reindeers and stardust is easier and cheaper, you know?”
she still gives jennie her number anyway because come on, who would let a girl like that walk away so easily?
and maybe it's silly but after that night she keeps checking her phone for any messages or calls, partly to make sure that what she experienced actually happened, but most importantly because she simply wants to talk to jennie again
which much to jisoo's disappointment doesn't actually happen until after a whole year
jisoo thinks it's silly, and maybe she did imagine the whole thing after all (maybe the whole thing was just a scenario her mind made up just so she could have an excuse to eat all the cookies her daughter left for santa), but she still stays up all night and waits
she waits for so long she's almost ready to lean back on the couch and let her eyes close, but that's when he hears a strange noise coming from the chimney, like someone is making their way down
and her heart starts beating fast because she isn't crazy thank god, but most importantly because jennie is here
jennie, who she almost attacked last year because she got into her house without permission, but now look at her, staying up late to see her
jennie, who has a sweet smile and cares about reindeers and ended up being late just to make sure jisoo was feeling okay
jennie, who comes out of the chimney opening with her red bag on her shoulder and the same big smile like last year
jisoo watches her as she goes to stand next to the tree, leaving her daughter's gift right next to the cookies she left for santa
and when they're finally facing each other jennie grabs something from her bag—“stardust. you can write your messages for me on a paper, any paper, and i will get them. well, you know, if you actually want to send me something. no pressure.”
and then jennie leaves, climbing up the chimney like the year before
and once jisoo makes sure the sleigh isn't on her roof anymore she sits on her office, opens her notebook and uses a little bit of stardust to write will you go on a date with me?
and a few hours later a big shining yes is waiting for her right under her question
♡ bonus ♡
jisoo and the baby moving in with jennie and her parents after dating for a couple of months
jennie convincing her father to make snow fall down in the shape of little hearts just so it can be extra romantic when she proposes to her girlfriend
them getting married in matching white fur dresses and hats and looking cute as hell
jensoo and their daughter taking care of baby reindeers and taking cute pics to hang on the wall
jennie cheating during snowfights by making snowballs float and chase after jisoo
jensoo traveling around the world together every year to make sure all the nice children get their presents
jisoo taking care of the elves and even teaching some cool tricks to the younger ones, making them all swoon over her
jennie getting sick because she played out in the snow with the baby for too long and jisoo scolding her but still taking care of her
jisoo teaching jennie how to use a phone and jennie getting introduced to memes
did you know? santa claus' favorite swimming spot is the north pool xD
...
i'm telling your dad
NO!!!1!1
jensoo cuddling and being happy and in love and drinking hot chocolate while it's snowing outside uwu
*yule lads: mischievous pranksters who sometimes steal and harass people. their role has become more benevolent in recent years, though.
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hi! this is the first time i'm doing something like this, i hope it doesn't suck that much. i just saw jensoo's recent pic and simply couldn't resist, they're so cute. any feedback would be very appreciated! ofc u can send me ur requests if u have any, either for an idol or idolxidol,,,
merry christmas, guys ♡
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Sorry to bother you, but I was wondering how do you handle an adult life? I'm 17 and the fact that I'm going to be an adult is starting to panic me more and more. Like I CANT talk to adults. I stutter&I'm a mess. I'm even bad with my peers. Some advice on how you do it would be nice. I try to ask my parents, but they aren't very helpful and seem ready to drop me into the deep end to "teach me" a lesson about being an adult. (Sorry again about non blog related question. No obligations to answer)
Oh boy, I’m gonna do my best to answer this, but full disclosure? I’m pretty bad at being social. I have some issues, and talking to people is really hard for me. That might be helpful in this context if you’re coming from a similar situation, but I don’t know if that’s the case, so it’s possible that my stuff won’t work for you. I’ll give it a whirl anyway.
I actually was thrown into the deep end when I was about your age, because I ended up going to college in a state where I pretty literally didn’t know a single person. I don’t know if that was a positive thing or not, but I can definitely say that I’ve gotten significantly better about talking/adulting since then. I’m still terrified of everyone older than me, but I can fake my way through the majority of it now. 
For me, the biggest step was increasing my self-esteem. When I started living on my own in ‘14, my goal was basically to be invisible (a skill that I mastered a looooong time ago). I have this thing about people looking at me, so I didn’t like any kind of attention. It definitely affected the way I talked to people (I didn’t) and the way I acted.
That shifted after I discovered a couple of things
1) some attention is positive, and positive attention feels good
2) I’m imagining a lot of the judgement I feel from other people
The truth is, people don’t pay as much attention to you as you think that they do. We’re all trapped inside our own heads, right? My frame of reference puts the majority of emphasis on me, because that’s the only person I can hear and the only emotions I can feel. The same is true about you– you hear your thoughts and feel your feelings, so it seems like everybody else should be focussed on you.
That’s your mind playing tricks. Don’t believe it. Everybody else is focussed on themselves, not you, and that’s a good thing! They’re not actually looking at you. They’re just looking around. As soon as y’all walk away from each other, odds are you’ll disappear from their mind. It means that you don’t have to worry about doing everything perfectly. They don’t actually care. 
Repeat that to yourself whenever you feel like you’re doing badly. It doesn’t matter. They don’t care. They’re not that concerned about the things that you do.
Two tactics for increasing your self esteem:
Find something you’re good at and do it. A lot. I started writing fanfiction when I was 18, and it straight-up changed my life. I’d never had that level of positive reinforcement before– for the first time in my life, I felt better than mediocre, and it made me proud of my own skills. Once I knew I was good at something it became a lot easier to talk to people.
(This is where you need to bear in mind that I’m not what the kids call “mentally stable” so like…. this might not be healthy) For a solid two years, I played this mind game where whenever I felt like somebody was judging me or being unkind to me, I picked one of my more angry favorite fictional characters and imagined them yelling back at that person. It worked really well for me because it let me fight back without actually doing it myself. I don’t really get angry, so I imagined someone getting angry on my behalf. Thing is, after awhile I really could think things like “I don’t deserve this” and “hey asshole back the hell off” in my own voice. I don’t know if I can explain that any better
Practical tips for maintaining a conversation:
Ask questions. It’s a lot easier to have a conversation if they’re doing most of the talking, and they won’t think it’s weird if you seem interested. Just keep them talking by asking for more information about whatever they just said.
They’ll get more comfortable (and more talkative) the more emotion you express. Listen actively. Nod along. Say stuff like “Really??” Your eyebrows are your friends. React to the stuff they say.
If you don’t know what emotion you’re expected to express, draw your eyebrows slightly in, rest a hand on your mouth/chin, and say “interesting.” They’ll interpret that as whatever response they were expecting.
 I feel more comfortable if I’m prepared, so I straight-up have memorized anecdotes that I practice until they go smoothly. I mostly use stories about my siblings, but I also have this speech about communism that I use every time someone asks me what I’m thinking about.
I don’t know what kind of English you speak, but I realized a long time ago that if I amp up my accent, other southerners trust me more and everyone else sees me as less threatening. If that applies, use it.
Don’t be ashamed of your interests. It might seem embarrassing, but other people don’t see it that way. Niche comic book knowledge actually goes over pretty well at parties. Related tip: find The Interest of the person you’re talking to, and your life will get a lot easier. Let them teach you about it and they literally will not shut up. It’s great. Also you get good recs that way.
Tips to get people to like you:
Be helpful. Good in two ways: if you don’t know what you’re supposed to be doing and that makes you feel anxious, ask whomever is in charge if there’s something you can do to help. They’ll be charmed, and you won’t feel awkward anymore. Also good because people really like the folks that do them favors. They also like the people they did favors for, so let people do things for you if they offer.
Everybody likes the kid that brought food. Bake cookies. Bring cookies. New friends. Even if you don’t talk to them afterwards, they’ll have a positive opinion of you. I never spoke to the majority of my dorm neighbors, but they all liked me because I set candy and juice boxes in the hallway every holiday. In a classroom setting, offer to share your gum, buy extra scantrons, and lend people your pens. 
I befriend people solely by throwing gifts at them until they feel my love. Ask any of my mutuals. They’ll tell you.
Kindness honestly goes a long way? A lot of people, especially young people, really need someone to be kind to them, and they’re not used to getting that. If you can be that person, it’ll help them and it will make the two of you a lot closer. That’s how real friendships start. 
Always be respectful of other people’s trust. If they tell you important things about themselves, treat it seriously. Try to understand how they feel, and then let them know that you understand. Don’t tell other people’s secrets.
Tips for forcing yourself to Do The Thing:
I keep my to do list on post-it notes stuck to my dresser, one item per note, so I can pull them off one at a time as I do them. It’s more satisfying that way.
Personally I’m a lot more willing to do the things I hate if I feel like I’m doing them for someone else. Easiest way is to get one of my friends to ask me to do it (Hey in an hour text me and tell me to go to the grocery store). The best way is to bargain with one of my friends (if you call your doctor, I’ll make a real dinner tonight)
Again… I don’t know if you’re coming from the same place as me, but it really helps me to be open about my problems. I just tell my friends about my mental health issues, and then they help me to work around them.
Treat!!! Yo!!!! Self!!!! Seriously reward yourself for getting things done. Give yourself an episode of The Office for every page you write. Buy yourself ice cream for getting your errands done. If you’re going to do something stressful, have a plan for something relaxing afterward (I’ll go to the induction ceremony, and then I’ll go to the puppy store and pet a beagle)
[Eliza voice] 🎶 T a k e  a  b r e a k 🎶 If socializing is hard for you, realize that you don’t have to do it all the time. It’s okay to opt out, especially when you won’t lose anything by doing it. Personally, I go out of my way to make sure that no one speaks to me on the bus, walking across campus, or during lunch. Those are me-times. You can make sure people get the memo by wearing big headphones, bringing a book (even if you’re only pretending to read it), and avoiding eye contact. 
I find music really helpful for prep/recovery too. It works best if you find one song and play it on repeat until you get to the stressful thing, and  then do the same thing on the way back. Focus on one element of the song at a time. If you do it right, you can hit this meditative sweet spot where you stop thinking about what you have to do.
Stress relief (take it with a grain of salt because I am 95% stress at any given time):
Make your bedroom into a happy place. Pick a strong scent and make that part of the atmosphere– your brain will start to associate that scent with calm. My room smells like Irish Spring soap. When you finish something stressful, go to your room, take a few minutes to lie down and relax, breathe in and out, smell the happy smell. You did it.
Do stupid shit that makes you happy. Blow bubbles on your porch, put colored glassware on your windowsills so the sunlight turns red and blue, sing in your bathroom so it echoes all over the place. 
I hate admitting this with every fiber of my being, but exercise does actually reduce stress. So does eating healthy and sleeping normally, but I’ve never tried those last two.
If something makes you happy, keep it around. Save birthday cards, display presents from your friends, keep a happy tag online so you have a list of stuff to come back to. Your brain will remember the positive reaction, so it’ll undo some of the damage when you’re upset. 
Making other people happy will make you happy. Easiest method? Hit that anon button on the asks, pick the top five people on your dashboard, send them a nice message. Wait for excited response
It’s okay to google “cute babies” and scroll through pics until you feel alive again
I find it helpful to make things. I don’t know, there’s something about spending a long time on a project that makes me feel more productive, especially if there’s a visible product.
Things to remember: 
They aren’t watching you. They don’t care if you mess up. Your brain is lying to you.
Your worth is inherent and cannot be diminished by any of your actions or failures
Odds are the people you meet now won’t be the same people in your life in a few years. That means you don’t have to impress them. If you embarrass yourself in front of the lady at the brochure stand, it doesn’t matter. You probably won’t ever see her again.
It’s okay if this is hard for you. You don’t have to love meeting people.
You don’t have to like everyone. You don’t have to be friends with everyone.
It’s okay to say no. I repeat: it is okay to say no.
You’re going to be okay. You have a destiny, and you will fulfill it. It’s going to turn out exactly as it should. You don’t have to worry about your future.
These things get easier with time.
There’s no shame in seeing a therapist or talking about your problems
You have talents. You are interesting. You deserve attention and praise.
You know where to find me if you need anything
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2:15am, my memory is feeling weird.
Can't remember what are daydreams and what actually happened, since I guess my memory tends to get fucked when my stress levels get too high.
I don't even know, whats left to say?
I hope he's okay. That was really really fucked up what happened.
I really wanted things to work out, this is all a lot to process tonight....
Its a shame that our relationship finally got back to a normal level, just to fall down like Dominoes all over again thanks to meddling when theres no point other than to ruin an event for him...... I think its really toxic that his friends did that to him, and i guess i always worry seeing red flags like this pop up in a relationship.
It was nice when he opened up to me like that.... Felt extremely comfortable, i really liked the feeling of hugging him instead of resentment over the other day......
If only we stuck to the rule of "dont get involved with his friends"... it was one thing to just know its too soon, have a separate birthday celebration or hangout with him, and just move on from things. Its a special type of pain, when its me thinking of potential board games or things to bring for his birthday party, and getting booted out for the sake of someone else. (Which if anything, reopened a wound we swore was sealed.....)
Its 2:22am, and according to angel numbers, now is a good time to "manifesting miracles and new auspicious and timely opportunities. Angel Number 222 encourages you to take a balanced, harmonious and peaceful stance in all areas of your life. The message is to keep the faith and stand strong in your personal truths".
......I'm only 40% sure I know what that means, but alright.
Oddly enough, our original breakup, he texted me directly at 2:22am. It was just a petty message, but solidified my stance in "yall are both clowns if yall cant see how weird any of this is to do to me????"
......alright.
I can't really change the past, and well, I definitely am not gonna be speaking to anyone he knows anymore.
Shit, its like....
One second its Christmas, you're getting a wool hat and a nice knit scarf from his mom, you eat dinner with his family, relax, enjoy his company and theirs, bake some cookies, cuddle with eachother, and then promptly bang like animals.
And a mere few days later, you're getting cast aside in the relationship in favor of other people, and are having chest pains in bed; over someone who wouldn't make the right effort for you, or to stand his ground.......
And all your friends are collectively going, "Throw the whole man away, sis!", even though you still sympathize with him to an extent. Even in anger, I was like "Well I get why she wouldn't like me, but it still doesn't hurt any less that I got kicked out, instead of an assertive *just dont show up if you plan to start shit*."
That's what had me the most annoyed, really.
"I don't wanna have to choose between you two", and you still did..... jesus christ.
I'll still be happy for the moments we shared before, but gosh.... jesus christ!
What the fuck, even?
I can't even process tonight at all.
Too many.... emotions, all over the place. Brashness, hostility, tears, whatnot.
And it does hurt to kinda hug someone as they're crying about being sad that the relationship is ending and how they still want to know me, before they go, "I'm not gonna want to see you or talk to you for a long time, and, dont expect me to anytime soon."
You can kinda hear the cracking noise in my chest audibly upon hearing that interesting information.
Big mood flip.
But, in context, it was still somewhat understandable.... But at the same time, not really.
Hell, his only reason for wanting to break up upon seeing me was, "I dunno, I feel bad about dis-inviting you to my birthday party".....
And no other reasons fully stated until the situation just got worse and worse.....
I just.
Of all the outcomes?
.......Context makes it worse, and im not in a place to really talk more.
I just gotta move on. Thats the point. As much as I liked talking to them, and holding them, and other comforts... they simply werent dedicated to me enough, and i felt more into them than they had been into me.
Since of course, if roles were reversed, I'd be the one going "If you don't like my boyfriend, then simply don't show up. I like them, and you need to respect that or just stay away."
(Hell, i even *was* doing that! The ladies on my spam kept roasting his face in the photos i had of him, and i was telling them to knock it off or else they would get blocked. Why? Because i stand up for those who i like, and who i date, whether or not they are watching.)
And his way of going "azalea doesnt like you and i wanted her there, so i decided youre no longer invited", instead of "thats my girlfriend, and if you cant even agree to be civil at a party for the sake of me enjoying my own birthday, you can get uninvited"......
....speaks volumes.
How amazing.
Yeah, its making it harder to regret things, if this was the main problem.
Patrick = unable to stand up for me, and simply doesnt like or respect me enough to ever do so.
Solution = you cant get pussy if you're gonna be treating the girl who doesn't fuck you as the one youd rather spend a lovely time with
The extra stuff is eh.
No other solution, other than "he was gonna ghost me anyway, so", and just moving on.
Some other dude tried to hit me up as well.
And my other ex, Blonde Patrick, had messaged me.
He's still salty about our relationship ending before.
What a loser.
I told him "if youre still hurt then sure, i dont mind not hanging out with you", and thats all that ive said so far.
(Nigga really is such a dumbass, i dont regret leaving this other guy either.)
Long story short, i understand why nuns are a thing now.
Thats all. Peace out.
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