the wheeler siblings are both bi disasters. argue with the wall.

Holly as a half-elf half-goblin, as per Kitsune_Heart’s meta analysis on AO3. I dunno, it speaks to me. Isn’t she cute and feisty ? Just picture Holly, but she can throw fireballs. See ? Perfection.

… pitié je veux dormir T.T

Sean Kendrick and George Holly b-plot bromance of all time

i think i would enjoy being trapped in a labyrinth

been re reading tithe since halloween for personal reasons and WOW the insurmountable guilt roiben feels about kaye… like he really thinks the moment she saw him, he ruined her life. even in a visit to impossible lands when they have been relatively happy together for years, he still describes acts of love as his removal or withholding any negativity for the sake of the ‘goodness’ that the relationship provides him.

like i can’t help but think about how his blind devotion to the seelie queen had skewed his understanding of love since i suppose that all seelie court members live in blissful naivety and adoration. the disillusionment with something you once believed to be perfect and the cruelty of it all… okay so what is love then……………..

anyway it is not necessarily healthy for him to have these conditions for why kaye should want him, but it’s actually really nice to see how they evolve and grow together. like clearly he is not trying to repeat the blind devotion that resulted in him becoming his crueller self! and we get to see his emotional progress and him on the healing journey? when he says smth like ‘i love you far too well for that’ (about his burdens) and she is telling him that that’s not what love is, love is shared etc etc i’m paraphrasing idk. and then at the end after the coup, he’s trying to be like ‘see you can’t get hurt it’s scary here, my life and my world is scary’ and she wants to take that next step idk idk i like it…..

also it’s not as tho she is some idealized object of innocence and perfection that has replaced the seelie queen. he grows to understands this, but i guess even in ironside there is still the sentiment that she is normal and doesn’t ‘deserve’ all of the difficulties in his life. as if being with him and having to share any emotional load would be some cruel punishment……………….!!! i’ll probably have more to say abt this specifically when i get there w my reread, but very fun and painful and sweet to see how his understanding of love changes!

whenever there’s like a character who has developed skewed visions of love i become soooo not normal about them… i love thinking about love (libra sun scorpio venus etc) esp since finishing all about love by bell hooks i just keep repeating some of the core ideas like ok 👍🏼 love can not exist when abuse and violence are present. we must live honestly and by a love ethic etc etc. it takes time, it takes work, it takes support, it takes commitment etc etc. as my friend said love is as love does!! anyway i love kaye and roiben i loooove them

“stop talking about the Citadel DLC” but it’s hilarious Samara was sober the entire time. literally aside from EDI she was the only one not hammered, and EDI can’t get hammered. but she still stayed and partied and DANCED like she was high on life. everyone else had to get plastered first but she was like baby I don’t need a reason

I’ve been listening to the deluxe tracks of GUTS and i was listening to Obsessed and idk why, but it’s made me really want to write a Holly x Lucy fic lol… like don’t get me wrong locklyle for life but like, that would be so fun to write!!

What is Joe Biden’s plan to make sure every tumblr swiftie taylor followed in 2020 gets to meet her at the eras tour?

I’m constantly thinking about the fact that Argo, Kirell’s adoptive dad, has an opportunity to kill Kirell’s abusive biological father in one of the alternative game routes, without him even realising what exactly he has done for the little girl he never met and her poor mother.

dio,,, DIOOOOOOOO I AM IN YOUR WALLS!!! the yearning b side absolutely haunted me, I could see and hear that shit in my head like a damn MOVIE! thank you thank you thank you for the delicious angst it’s so precious and heartbreaking realizing how scared Steve truly would be about how he feels about Eddie. he’s seen as this strong protector who can handle it all and well and truly he’s just a boy (he’s jUst a boy!!) with vulnerabilities and that needs to be emphasized more me thinks. bless ur soul <3

[yearning hours b-side]

:D hdhdhdg first of all thank you so much, i feel so powerful rn :D emotionally hurt steve harrington is one of my favourite things to write and explore because there’s just so much, it’s like an open buffet of trauma and repressed emotions :D

but also YES!! i think steve would store his feelings for eddie somewhere very close to his trauma and memories, and that would just paralyse and petrify him in a way that’s not easily lifted. they’d mingle and he’d be powerless to stop it, and before he knows it, he feels like he’s already lost before it even began. i personally think that’s how steve’s series of concussions, near-death experiences and grieving and loss within just a few years but during important personality development years come into effect. a quiet effect, but one that leaves him petrified of all things good that happen to him. all things good that are only for him, in a sense.

i also think he’s had to store away the feelings of fear and desperation and apprehension in the face of life or death situations so that he doesn’t know how to handle this fear of being, and being known, which is one of the easier fears to battle — if only one knows how to. and that’s why he can’t have good things for himself, he can’t get over the initial freak-outs of a crush, just finds himself in love and unable to do anything about it.

there’s something endlessly tragic about that, because imagine you preserve your life and that of your friends, right, but then you lose the ability to enjoy what makes it worth living after surviving. and then you find yourself at the quarry because places of horror and darkness —where there’s only one wrong step separating life from death — are the only places you know how to be anyone anymore.

sometimes i take this steve and think, “how do i possibly write a steddie fic with you, romance won’t fix this. you wouldn’t let it if it could.” but then i also take that eddie who knows a thing or two about being scared and not being allowed to be just a boy in your own right, who knows something about the terror of being queer in bumfuck, Indiana, and i think, and i think “yknow maybe these two can see each other in a way where darkness doesn’t matter as much. maybe romance won’t fix this, but kindness and understanding and love can.”

and then i end up with hurt steve yearning fics :D (though i love to make eddie just as scared)

(the steve doesn’t know how to face his emotions or be entirely vulnerable even in an established relationship is also indicated here, but in an entirely fluffy floaty way)

I watched Breakfast at Tiffany’s for the first time this morning and I can’t stop thinking about how much I hated it. I can’t figure out why. But I also watched the first part of Barry Lyndon and I’m really into it so there’s that too

Rant in tags because I have thoughts and opinions

Seeing Tom advocate for mental health finally makes me so happy 🥺🥺

hey sorry we turned your boyfriend into a statistic showing how christian views have warped americans’ opinions of poverty as a reflection of moral value. um yea, actually his views of underprivileged communities being lazy reflect how we view success on an individual level as to not blame the system. yea, turns out he thinks his privledged success story is the same for everyone. sorry, i’m so sorry.

they could’ve just. not drawn him like that

Nothing like having a headache from crying ✌🏻

actually kinda want to off myself rn because I’m so fucking screwed but alas life goes on. I’m literally such a shitty person though. Why am I like this?

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