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dykefaggotry · 2 days

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[image id: an ask from @harbingerofskulls that reads: "im gonna b real i only knew the jerking off i would love to hear you elaborate more if you want to go on the whole situation" /end id]

answering here so i can save as a draft without risking the ask disappearing bc tumblr's been doing that lately but

oh god </3 for everyone else- it's talking about this post. sooo i'm gonna go through each one bc i've been feeling insane for several weeks. i'll do my best to cite my sources lmao

i don't know (johnny johnny)

this is referring to this unreleased VERY early beatles track from 1960. the audio quality is absolute shit & as such unfortunately people love to put words to it that don't make much sense in either direction (i.e a lot of mclennon fans want to hear "you're in love with me" and a lot of people that hate mclennon will just make up the weirdest lyrics that make 0 sense so it's Not Gay). some of the lyrics that ARE clear make it obvious this song is about the two of them running away together- at one point i'm fairly certain paul says "how am i gonna tell my father that we're leaving town?" probably referring to them leaving to hamburg. which would be fine but some of the other lyrics areeeee..... very..... Hm. like multiple times paul refers to john as "my boy" and there's bits of them talking about not knowing what to tell their friends & wanting to just run off together alone. if i were the other members of the band having to record this i would have killed them with hammers <3 also the entire end is just paul going "oh johnny" like 1 million times. okay. sure. also since the lyrics ARE so garbled i mean i guess people could be right about it saying "how am i gonna tell my father you're in love with me" but i just don't hear it. still, a very gay song about running off together and getting away from everything and everyone, complete with moaning the other's name </3

2. paris

this one is a huge part of McLennon Fandom Lore lmao but for good reason. not citing sources on all this bc it's one of those that's just Fact & can be found in like any beatles biography or thebeatlesbible.com (my savior) but. for john's 21st birthday, he got 100 pounds from a rich relative. instead of taking his girlfriend or any of his other friends, he decided to use the money to take paul to spain. but they stopped in paris on the way and just decided to stay there. which i mean like. taking your best friend over your girlfriend to the city of love is a little weird but it's not THAT weird. it's everything else that makes people want to chew glass about it. including some of the other things on this list. like this audio of john just goofing around singing about paris and paul, with such hits as "my cheri, my pau pau my pau paul." which is :| okay best friend. and paul has this picture hung up in his house that he took of john sleeping in paris. okay. sure. why not. (although ig there's some doubt about if the photo is from paris? either way it's a picture paul took and has framed in his house which is incriminating enough my man). also NOT in the original post but may pang, a woman john had a brief affair with in the 70s, wrote a book called loving john. in it, there's this quote:

After a late lunch, Linda launched into a long paean to the joys of living in England. When she was finished, she turned to John and said, “Don’t you miss England?”

“Frankly,” John replied, “I miss Paris.”

okay! also in an interview once he said:

The thing was all the kissing and the holding that was going on in Paris. And it was so romantic, just to be there and see them, even though I was twenty-one and sort of not romantic. But I really loved it, the way the people would just stand under a tree kissing; and they weren’t mauling at each other, they were just kissing.

(interview with david scheff for playboy in september 1980)

3. if i fell

this one i already made an insane post on that started my spiral into posting about the beatles publicly </3 but, essentially, the song "if i fell" by john is..... well it's most likely about paul. he said it wasn't about his wife but that it was auto-biographical and he never really had any public affairs that weren't flings, certainly not a lover. but most damning is he wrote the complete lyrics for the first time on a valentine's day card addressed "to paul with love" with some hearts and arrows pointing to where the lyrics were written. absolutely insane. made me insane.

4. oh! darling

rawest paul song of all time if i do say so myself lmao. but it's just.... Highly Suspicious, that's what it is. a Lot of beatles fans/historians will admit this song is most likely about john but they won't admit that it's fucking romantic if it is. like.

like that is so blatantly romantic idk what to say other than that. also, in the official recording on abbey road, there's Several points where paul says "darling" that sound more like he's saying "johnny" which is what he called him. people brush it off by saying it's his accent, but there's a very clear difference between when he's saying "darling" and when he's saying "johnny". i mean the Lore behind this is that it was written right when things were splitting up between them (& the rest of the band) so it makes sense and it's why most people are willing to accept it's about john. it's just insane to me that they'll accept it's about john without considering the implications of that.

5. the real life demo

this one made me want to light myself on fire i won't lie to you. but here it is! john had a song called "real love" and this is a very early demo of it. but instead of the lyrics that came to actually be in the song (which are thought to be about yoko but let's not get into the fact that it was on a tape labeled "for paul" but whatever), it includes john fucking crying as he sings saying:

"was i just dreaming or was it only yesterday? i used to hold you in my arms. and now a baby and another on the way... la la la la farm..."

which can quite literally be about no one else but paul, as this demo was recorded when he'd just had two children with his wife linda and linda was pregnant with their third child. they'd moved to a farm in scotland. hearing this audio clip did genuinely make me want to lie down in the dirt for a week. also "i used to hold you in my arms" just... yeah. god. when people think it was unrequited idk what to say, really.

6. If Paul Were A Woman-

shoving these two together but. in april of 85, paul said in an interview about john and yoko's relationship:

"I mean, I couldn’t stand in the way of someone who’d fallen in love. You can’t say, 'Who’s this?' You can’t really do that. If I was a girl, maybe I could go out and…"

okay bestie <3 and what would make your relationship different if you were a woman? interesting! and yoko had something similar to say. in this audio, she says:

"I’m sure that if he had been a woman or something, he would have been a great threat – because there’s something definitely very strong between John and Paul."

just reminds me of being a kid and telling my best friends "if i were a boy i'd date you" lol. incredible. does anyone here know about bisexuality.

7. stuart!

not much to say here except that john had a best friend, stu sutcliffe, who died young & before that had been the bassist in the band. paul fucking hated him sooo much oh he SEETHED. a lot has been written on that relationship but it was.... very interesting to say the least. it could have just been about the band, or just jealousy over john's friendship, but take that with a lot of john biographers suspecting john had feelings/even a sexual relationship with stuart and it paints a very Interesting picture to say the least

8. john's bisexuality

here's a compilation of quotes about it, but john was more than likely bisexual. which has nothing to do w paul, really, but more to do against people that like to claim they were both Heterosexual Men. although an interesting quote in this compilation is him saying he's "had paul" lmfao

9. paul's post-beatles work

there's just.... there is so so so much here i don't even know where to begin. @ringompreg has a good compilation of paul songs here. a lot of them do take a bit of Lore but like..... it comes down to the fact that both him and john have/had admitted many times to using their lyrics during The Breakup Years to talk to/reference each other and sooooo many of these lyrics are insanely blatant. the two i mentioned were tug of war and let me roll it, both of which are acknowledged to be about john by most people WITH NO ONE BOTHERING TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE IMPLICATIONS OF THAT which..... tug of war has this:

we could stand on top of the mountain with our flag unfurled? dancing to a beat played on a different drum? this is what gaylors think gaylor conspiracy is but paul mccartney is really out here saying this shit.

and let me roll it is so fucking blatantly romantic but every reviewer is like haha! what a cool song that's "making fun" of john and clearly in his style! like are straight people stupid genuinely. anyway:

bonus to that but about JOHN'S solo work :)))))) he wrote a song called "watching the wheels" and when you consider he very much responded to MANY of paul's solo stuff it's :)

which as a response to let me roll it would just be... so devestating but it may be a stretch idk if i'm onto anything there it's just worth Mentioning

and there's a lot of others, a lot of them in that post up there. like far too many where paul mentions falling in love with a friend like Alright.

10. paul's first lsd trip with john/"i know" "i know"

this one is less blatantly romantic but it is just insane. here's an article. and a quote from george martin about it. the first time paul tripped on acid w john was bc john accidentally took some and he took him home & then took acid w him bc he didn't want john to be alone on the trip :( but, notably:

"And we looked into each other’s eyes, the eye contact thing we used to do, which is fairly mind-boggling. You dissolve into each other. But that’s what we did, round about that time, that’s what we did a lot," the singer recalled, "And it was amazing. You’re looking into each other’s eyes and you would want to look away, but you wouldn’t, and you could see yourself in the other person. It was a very freaky experience and I was totally blown away."

he also apparently saw john as the, and i quote, "emperor of eternity" during this trip??????? okay

SOMEWHERE i can't find it rn and i'm getting lazy but somewhere they (i think paul?) talk about the fact that they used to just stare into each other's eyes and then say "i know" "i know" which. considering john's song "i know (i know)" makes me crazy

11. in my life/i will

these are really just some devastating songs with lyrics that make you really raise your eyebrows. for in my life, written by john, it's just an incredibly romantic & sweet song that is again, not about his wife. given that the lennon estate is still out here posting pictures of paul to those lyrics i have to say it's a liiiiittle suspicious. and i will is...... it's one that paul insists is not about his girlfriend at the time, jane asher. and when you look at the lyrics vs how him and john met.... like. the song goes:

and the story of how they met was that paul saw john repeatedly before they ever met, when he didn't know who john was other than that he thought he looked cool & admired his sideburns (lmfao). and when they did finally meet, it was when john was singing at a garden fete (party) and paul was in the crowd just Mesmerized. so. well. you can see.... you can see how fitting that is. makes me crazy makes me want to chew glass actually

12. "we were each other's intimates" and other insane quotes

"we were each other's intimates" is a paul quote about john which is just insane but that's not even the tip of the iceberg. here's a ton of quote compilations.

13. "literally everything else"/honorable mentions

some honorable mentions go out to: john going on stage w elton john & playing i saw her standing there and introducing it as "a song by an estranged fiance of mine" okay! the "just like starting over" demos. okay! which isn't even to MENTION the fact that paul locked himself away in the studio listening to "just like starting over" on repeat for DAYS after john died like???? john saying repeatedly that he considered paul & yoko to be his two major partners in life including in an interview the literal day he died. a whole ass rpf movie where they kiss & talk like they're ex-lovers and dance in central park (two of us) made by the same dude that made the let it be movie like. he knew them personally? he worked with them closely? and the only thing paul had to say about it was just essentially that it was what he wished would've happened like???????? i can't find a super reliable source for this so take it w a grain of salt, but apparently paul referred to mclennon fanfiction as "beautiful stories" and doesn't mind them being written. paul also had a cat that had kittens & he named two of the kittens pyramus and thisbe after fictional lovers he and john played and he gave pyramus (the character paul played) to john :|

and literally so much else like all of this and it's not even all of it. it's not even close to all of it. i didn't even get to talk about the way in "get back" the documentary, paul started talking about john leaving the band for yoko and how john would choose her over them and then he got teary eyed, started choke laughing, and then started singing "build me up buttercup" before looking at the cameras and stopping. what the FUCK was that about! IT'S NOT EVEN GETTING INTO THE SONG "TWO OF US" THAT'S SO OBVIOUSLY ABOUT JOHN THAT IT HURTS. it's. it's not even scratching the surface. they were just genuinely insane about each other.

#mclennon #this is long but it had to be to expand on every reference i made in that post FJADJFASDF

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lemonadeandlanguages · 1 year

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Absolutely insane that the fake movie is trending higher than one of the biggest international events

#i mean this is tumblr so i guess it makes sense #goncharov #world cup

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mjulmjul · 2 years

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stargazing

#ofmd #our flag means death #gentlebeard #blackstede #sketch #the writers heavily imply they spent at least part of the night up there bc stede nudges ed awake for breakfast so! canon compliant I guess #listen. I know that crow’s nest doesn’t make sense. but have you seen the set? exactly #digital art #ofmd fanart #ofmd art #stede bonnet #blackbeard #artists on tumblr

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theechoingasteroid · 7 months

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NINJAGO DRAGONS RISING SPOILERS again (brainrot atm)

Y'know Agent Walker and The Administration and the theory about Pixal also being there with Jay

(I assumed Pixal was going to show up instead when they found Zane in The Administration, I'm so desperate for Pixal content)

I drew this on my phone instead of my laptop like usual 💥💥💥

(ignore that I don't know how to draw Pixal, this is the first time I've drawn her in like... Over a year??? Or something??? I promise I'll draw her again eventually.)

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forgetful-river · 1 year

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Darling, it's the end of the world! We've reached the end of our usefulness and now we're doomed, let's waltz into the grave together!

#fdjakfhdasjkfhkjlsah!!!!!#tumblr user gingerslapnotion had some Really Good thoughts on my post scratch damara & doc scratch post :3c #the handmaid & snowman play similar roles in the story but the handmaid is Mad As Fuck about it and snowman revels in it #but both of them are looking for the release of death #snowman so she can fuck shit up and the handmaid so she can finally get out from under lord english #those are some good fucking parallels!!!!!!!#also mean old women hot!!!!!!!! both of them would stab me in the eye with no hesitation & I would thank them!!!!!!#what the fuck would their ship name be????#the handmaid x snowman #I fucking guess. handman or snowmaid don't make much sense.#the handmaid #snowman #damara megido #hs #homestuck #my art #also the way the handmaid's dress flairs makes an upside down aries symbol!! i thought it was a cute touch >:3c

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svtskneecaps · 6 months

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feel like the global tasks sweep strat should probably be nerfed somehow. my thought would be, give each team an individual ten minute overall cooldown on global task claims. that is to say, a certain team can only claim one global task per ten minutes. say, deliver gas masks, and then in ten minutes you're allowed to deliver tea, and then after another ten minutes you can claim hot chocolate.

another teams would be able to claim a global task for bananas during this time, and their own ten minute cooldown would start.

(the global tasks can either keep their individual ten minute cooldown [i.e. after tea is claimed no one else can claim tea for ten minutes] or a slightly shorter cooldown, say 5-7 minutes)

when a global task is claimed, everyone is notified, right? if not, in my hypothetical, they will be.

then, a team trying to sweep six tasks at once would actually take sixty minutes to do, allowing another team to swoop in and have a chance to stop it in cinematic, entertaining fashion rather than tubbo having to grind resources and then log out in front of the merchant to counter this, which is boring for everyone (including the person delivering). plus, if a team cuts it down to the last second and ends up getting delayed, they physically wouldn't have time to make a delivery, meaning even being a BIT of a nuisance could be a viable strategy, even if you can't manage to kill; if you can STALL you could still wreck their plans.

that's my dream anyway idk i'm not a game designer. just think it would be interesting for most players

(i elaborate under)

red team would have to shake up their strategies, which is fun since they're a team that kinda has to rely more on strategy than outright brawn (overall the team's pvp can't be relied on unless they have carre or phil, as seen today when pierre, bad, and etoiles attacked phil cellbit foolish and baghera, and cellbit and foolish both died to etoiles in the attack, despite it being a 4 on 1 at the time. baghera was killed by bad soon after. phil was the one to get the kills. the first day, when blue attacked [niki, tubbo, and bad as i recall] carre got both kills)

the other teams would then still have a way to stop a global sweep since a sweep would have to start earlier, allowing not only more time to arrive at global to pvp about it, but ALSO allowing another team to swoop in and steal the goal out from under the team again

i'm gonna use it in a scenario bc i'm badboyhalo and i can't stop myself from making examples:

so, tonight, if the proposed cooldown was in place, bad and tubbo would both still had roughly 17 minutes when red team would have HAD to start the sweep process if they wanted all six global tasks: 1 hour until the server closed at absolute MINIMUM. more for safety's sake.

therefore, in this scenario, there's a lot to happen

blue team could wait at globals, knowing red will probably try this strategy, and attempt or perhaps SUCCEED in killing red. if they kill red entirely, the operation is a wash; red doesn't have to gear to come back from scratch and take out blue team, and even if they could, the travel time to return to globals alone would mean they wouldn't get all the global tasks, potentially meaning they don't take the lead. if blue team is unable to kill red and dies themselves or has to retreat, but succeeds in delaying red, red would face the same problem.

if red sends in all of the task items on one person, and that person dies, even if the rest survived, blue could loot the items from that person and would be able to either use the items themselves, if green is currently the owner, or could run away with the items, effectively wasting red's time and again, meaning they wouldn't get all tasks claimed even if they were able to overtake the runner and reclaim their items.

i'm unclear what would happen if red divided the task items between them since it seems like the person claiming the task doesn't have to have all (or any? again, unclear) the items in THEIR inventory in order to claim so long as a teammate is nearby with the items in their inv (evidence: pac's vod "voltei... o que tá acontecendo no QSMP?!" at roughly 3:00:00; tubbo claims tea and tea is taken out of pac's inventory. i don't know the limits of this strategy)

blue team also has time to swoop in and steal a global task out from under red during this time. say, if red team had claimed the task for 10 tea leaves, upping the price to 15 tea leaves, and then blue team snuck in and claimed the task and set the price up to 20 tea leaves, (since the proposed 10 minute cooldown on claims would be TEAM LIMITED; red's cooldown applying to red only and so on). if red waited until the last second, they wouldn't have the time to reclaim this task even if they did have the resources, possibly forcing them to start their sweep earlier to counter this possibility, at which point team members who had logged on earlier and are out of time by the end of the night, OR members who live in time zones that don't allow them to stay up until server close, may have an easier shot at participating in defending against a global sweep.

all of this DIRECT CONFLICT would make for good audience entertainment and heighten the stakes of an attempted global sweep, since it would practically have to be one team defending globals for an hour while they pipe all their resources into it, knowing that if they die another team could easily swipe their task resources and use it themselves (along with the rest of their gear). it makes it more interesting, while still mostly viable.

plus it would force more strategizing for red team which is maybe just a personal plus, i just really like seeing people planning both in advance and in spur of the moment. it's really satisfying to see how a plan comes together and succeeds or fails; plus, since red team is the main team using this strategy at the moment and their main draw and strength as a team is cohesion and communication this would be completely fucking riveting for me as a viewer so maybe this is just a personal thing. but i really really think it would be fun

but again, i'm not a game designer, or a qsmp player, or a qsmp admin, or honestly even really a gamer? so maybe i'm off my rocker and out of my gourd and this isn't viable or balanced in any way shape or form but YKNOW what is this blog except putting stupid thoughts into the void and seeing if this time the void spits back hate mail so. i'm folding this into a paper airplane and throwing it into the abyss. hopefully it made sense.

k love you appreciate you getting this far, have a good week!!

(i hope your team gets a win in dramatic fashion and celebrates together!!! i hope they come together and unleash a plan so spectacular it takes the server by storm!!! i hope it's so good it becomes a vod you go back to even years in the future!!!! i hope you have a good week!!!!!)

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #shut up vic #block game brainrot #yes it's long beneath the keep reading no i'm incapable of being succinct #i color coded the important parts though i just wanted to try to be clear #examples are my bread and butter i do programming and math they make everything easier for me to understand #god i hope this makes sense to other people i didn't ask my biological peer reviewer so idk if this is stupid or not #tbh it's just a tumblr post so i guess it's whatever if it is but i put wayyy more work than necessary into double checking timelines lol #(i didn't watch blue today sorry :/ idr if i mentioned in the body of the post but i main red team)#(their energy is just more entertaining for me personally; though i kept an eye on pac once i could multi-watch!)#anyway other team mains feel free to weigh in if i'm making weird assumptions about what the teams are capable of #heaven knows my pov is biased here LMFAO #((for what it's worth i am fully aware this means red team aren't rly underdogs anymore and i super want them to be kicked in the stomach))#((back to the drawing board; what will they do??? I WANT TO KNOW :O))#((seeing them crawling back to victory from being like two pixels on the bar on sunday was great. more of that pls))#idk i've rambled enough #long tags #ignoring daylight savings it's technically one am goodnight friends i hope this post doesn't suck hahahaha...............#OH AND IF ANYONE THINKS I SHOULD TAG SOMETHING FOR FILTER PURPOSES ABSOLUTELY LET ME KNOW #i want to be courteous but i think this post is pretty neutral in tone? but if you think it deserves a tag i will absolutely add it!!!!!

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coquelicoq · 8 months

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i just saw someone say that "the vast majority of the userbase is complaining" about tumblr's recent layout change. i see this a lot after a change: people complaining about it (sometimes without saying what about it is bad, making it sound like either it's self-evident (it usually is not) or just that it's bad because it's change and change is always bad) and saying that everyone else is complaining about it too. i don't know how to tell you this but a) you don't follow every user on tumblr so how can you possibly know what "everyone" or "the majority of users" thinks about anything and b) ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO FEEL VERY STRONGLY ARE TALKING ABOUT IT!! people who are not bothered are not spending time posting about how unbothered they are! please look up "selection bias" and stop making me read this nonsense with my own eyeballs.

#i don't get what's so bad abt this change bc it doesn't bother me & no one is explaining it! the most i've seen is it's 'like twitter'#which people don't like i guess bc this might imply that tumblr could be taking more cues from twitter than just the layout?#which is also fallacious reasoning #some changes i do hate. like for instance the change that made it so i can no longer click to the version that someone rbed from #which breaks the prev tag culture :(#but some changes are whatever! and some changes are good even!!#it's fine if it takes time to get used to something being different of course but it seems like the reaction on here can be so extreme #so fast. 'bombard the app with 1-star reviews!!!!' how about you give it a couple weeks and maybe you'll calm down.#i think there's a sense of 'if it ain't broke don't fix it' but it is broke though! tumblr is unsustainable and they gotta do stuff to make #the site more attractive and easier to use for new users. they can do that without losing what makes tumblr tumblr #the layout is not what makes tumblr tumblr! the functionality is. and sometimes that does change for the worse #and i get having complaints about that. but not really about moving the location of some buttons #anyway i haven't said anything before because i don't have strong feelings about this UX change but i DO have strong feelings about #the vague yet very forceful complaints about the UX change that i keep seeing lol #tumblr #fallacies #anyway don't get distracted by my tags. this post is not really about me not understanding what's so bad about this specific change #it's about people who hate a change assuming that everyone agrees with them because they're only seeing the reactions from #a biased subset of the userbase #(by biased i don't mean the users are biased. i mean the sample is biased...it's highly likely to include people who feel strongly #and unlikely to include people who are neutral or feel less strongly)

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theladyinwhite13 · 4 months

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think fast, name a state with the letter q /neg

what the fuck 😭

#I’m guessing lou cause you’re active on discord rn so it would make sense that you’d be on tumblr too #BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS 😭#WHAT THE FUCK #HELP #okay edit Laura is active too #it also could’ve been laura

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hihopelessromantics · 1 year

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BOOM. FANFICTION

We have a dead OC haunting the narrative, we have absolutely soul crushing whump, we have hurt/comfort and a little sprinkle of hurt again at the end! What's not to love!

HELL YEAH! Another entry to the 7-rats-in-a-trenchcoat holy war cinematic universe!!!! Today is a gooood day

when I saw the mail icon I was like I HAVE BEEN CONTACTED YEAAAAAAA

today... is an even better day because we got more Saorise... I'm gonna cry.

You know, I didn't recognize that the "dead oc" was her until I saw her actual name, because in my mind she's still alive and running around as a vital part of the ten commandments. I haven't done anything but gently put her in the background of the daydreams with a cookie of her choice yet, because knowing she was Zeldris's only friend on top of being her own lovable self and now learning that she was a like sister to them both- my HEART 😭

i cannot touch that yet. it is holy. but one day, if I have your approval, I swear I'll make her a happy ending. bc that's what I've been doing since I was little for tragic narratives (Cough, cough, Darkstalker Legends, if you know you know) and now's as good a time as any to step up my game. just the prospect gives my heart the zoomies

me when a writer I love makes an oc and gives them the good angst: 👀 is mine to love? to cherish? to make fictional happy endings for? fictional happy endings that don't exist for the characters that don't exist, that are wonderful and die a horrible undeserved death that fits the themes and story so well my heart is screaming?

oh... so THIS is where that sketch is from...

can you tell I can't write tragedies but enjoy the themes and execution of them so much that I religiously read and corrupt them anyway? yeah 😍

#7 rats holy war melizabeth cinematic universe #idk I'm calling it that now #holy war #melizabeth #not zeldris losing his only friend and brother in a matter of MONTHS. he... he refused to come with... i just remembered he KNOWS...#oh that's hitting me hard. can you blame me for throwing your angst-ridden versions of characters into a timeline where things go better #the angst makes the non-canon compliant daydreams sweeter #so glad the people on Tumblr know exactly what I mean when I say you guys please devour this fanfic Experience 10/10 #i do NOT regret spending 3 months coming up with a very complicated intricately plotted holy war au. that was very difficult.#now when I'm free I'll go back and give them more bloody angst I guess. then more sweetness. thus is the life of me #you. you melted his eye.#not Elizabeth getting beat up by her mother #thus proving herself right to have hidden things. she would have been beaten either way because abusers don't make sense #they only care about control #also did I mention the name you used for the demon palace ROCKS and KICKS ASS #Mel is so traumatized he hates his own home omg #I mean of course he does... but you made it feel REAL #and Elizabeth's obliviousness .... ohhhh you did that good. the demons she could have saved ...#what's not to love!

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elequinoa-world · 1 year

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I finished reading crooked kingdom

I’m a sobbing mess

Chapter 40 really wasn’t necessary 😭

#whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy #i mean tumblr had spoiled it for me #but the way it happened????#I’m so sad #i haven’t cried like this in a while for a piece of media #well done #six of crows #crooked kingdom #3615 ma life #shadow and bone #now I just need the spin-off series to make some changes accordingly #cause I won’t be able to witness that on screen #and it was a bit underwhelming…………….#because of the way it happens……….#makes sense in a way I guess but I really didn’t want it to happen #I’m angy

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noxtivagus · 1 year

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THIS IS V RANDOM N I MAY DELETE LATER BUT LOOKING BACK AT SOME SCREENSHOTS FROM TODAY N AAAA THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY

🥹 when i logged into ffxiv n saw the gifts a friend gave in the mailbox i really got so happy i was so enthusiastic in our lil trio server 😭😭 HONESTLY I'M REALLY HAPPY ABT A LOT OF THINGS RN BUT YEAH HSKGJSHFD.... i'm too shy to talk abt anything else directly bcs when i'm shy i naturally end up hiding n. tumblr twt n irls may see this so i'll just place the one pic ik wld never allude to anything more bcs my ffxiv friends do not know i use this site <33

I GET TOO SHY I HONESTLY GET TOO SHY BUT TYVM WVERYONE I LOVE ALL OF MY FRIENDS SM 🫶🏼

#🌙.rambles #SEEING OTHERS HAPPY MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY #hdkgjsjfjs c:#goddamn i find it. idk what word but #i guess rambling abt this here is #MY FRIEND DOESNT KNOW MY TUMBLR HE WONT KNOW THIS #n i think that symbolizes a bit of how #even more than what i've already shown n given #I GENUINELY CARE N ADORE YOU ALL SO MUCH MORE?????#maybe for some friends i don't say i love you like i do to my childhood friends! besties #my sisters 🫶🏼#but i love you a lot! even if i may never say it! for certain people!#& then when i say i care mf i really mean i care 😠#i v much know how it's like to doubt receiving that but god for me i am. absolutely certain #of how much i care. it overwhelms me a lot bcs i really love the ppl i love so much?#like goddamn when i sense my friends r struggling. while i do also cry at times when i feel helpless that i can't do anything at that moment #i also cry in those times bcs i genuinely do care #god thinking abt it n while i'm far from perfect n i'm keenly aware of my own mistakes n faults #i think. the very way i think of others out of pure unconditional love n care #i love that. i think. i think in that sense i can say that i am. kind and good...?#aaa i feel sm better now.... a lot of things usually change around the time of my bday for me #two years ago in november that happened but sob i started genshin n ffxiv on my bday !?! that's enough.#last year i got closer to my irls again! i find it funny how it's like. idk it's just some coincidence but #start of summer last year was me getting more more into ffxiv. this year was more more w my friends #sobs thinking of a lot of things n i realize i can really be a bit of a schemer 😭 no bad intentions but. i still feel bad if i'm not direct #unintentionally i end up. hiding? i have this barrier? IDK BUT #GOD WAIT MY MIND KEEPS ON GOING FROM ONE TOPIC TO ANOTHER BUT #ONE OF MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS FROM. like way before grade school. my longest friend #we haven't really talked much for so so long now but she greeted hbd so i brought up discord with the we miss each orher n wna talk more yh #i brought up discord..... n soon i wna at least. maybe check in w old friends. initiate for once! maybe i'd make a closer friend

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unproduciblesmackdown · 2 years

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speaking of “what else is new” the eternal genre of Takes available online or off through any platform that go like “this hangup / issue people can have can impede the success of like, connection & relationships & other aspects of someone’s life” like oh groundbreaking insight, go on. & then the conclusion is just “And That’s Bad” generally through like, criticizing any hypothetical individuals in a “have you considered that that’s bad? have you considered stopping? why haven’t you? sounds like a lack of Individual Responsibility...and maybe...You Suck??” vein like oh, again, groundbreaking. and it’s fast easy & free [sense of righteousness] i guess b/c it’s like oh i’m just helping, are you saying it’s Good / Better to have to struggle with / be impeded by xyz issues hmm? and like “here i am up on the cross >:)” satisfaction if anyone’s disagreeing lol like not only am i correct but ppl Hate it so it’s gotta be cutting edge, rather than it’s like, this is the most basic, well-trodden ground possible here. people hear about the notion of Ableism, resent the idea this might be a complicated thing to engage with requiring effort (but will also complain that idk it’s not serious b/c oh alllll people want to do is unreasonably issue a list of frowned upon language. like yes that’s all that exists and it must be frivolous vs being if nothing else an exercise in asking someone to shift their perspective / framework around taken for granted ideas) and then be like “well enough is enough (hasn’t done anything) i think this has gone too far & have we considered that it sucks to be depressed?? what about the people Dealing with other people dealing with issues who are doing everything right by being Not Mentally Ill but burdened or punished by the mental illness of others. not Their responsibility” like yes if we keep this in the realm of Individual Responsibility Apolitical Vibing then we can just call it a day. what does anyone expect the “absolutely demolishing these hypothetical Complacent mentally ill people, one issue at a time until everyone learns they should strive to be normal” to accomplish here. like oh enough, nay, Too Much consideration of Supporting anyone out here. i think it’s time we turned to voicing Disapproval & even moral judgment condemnation of these hypothetical individuals. can’t argue with that unless, what, you Want people to have problems? you think it’s good and right to potentially harm other people / make interpersonal relationships more difficult??? sounds like someone has some growing up to do 9_9 lmfao like again. just visionary & groundbreaking insights which is why this approach has kept being continuously reinvented here & everywhere else this whole time. like how would this relevantly / helpfully apply to the Reality of anyone’s situation on any side of anything. vs like well at least some people will be mad about This one, good posting

#ppl going ''hmm what a hugely complex topic tied to all other aspects of our lives...which'd be Resolved if everyone had My Common Sense''#take it back on this site by a decade like ppl going ''trans people on tumblr are so unreasonable'' & ''tumblr's so Anti Recovery''#the catchphrase of like. idfk ''recovering'' to a state of being nt i guess. b/c that's The Way & how it works for absolutely everyone #like of course there's gonna be idk Takes abt how to hypothetically Support ppl's struggles that'd be deemed Mental Health Issues which are #in turn at least Potentially counterproductive / unfounded/misguided but like. well throw the whole matter out then right #forget everyone in turn having to struggle through ongoing efforts to support Other People in this realm & plenty of others; theoretically #just say it Sucks of people to make other people deal with / be negatively affected by their Issues & who could disagree? toxicity gang??#or even just the vague implication that if it's Extra Effort put on Normal People who are acting correctly then that's bad too #cue any ideas that like. if friends are too much effort in [pick any way you could interpret that] it's Bad #or really if they're Any effort it can be seen as bad. you Are a romcom protagonist & friends Are unconditional nonstop backup #i think if going ''have you considered that you suck'' at people hard enough would bestow w/e concept of perf Mental Health uponst them #then we'd've been all set by now...and does everyone really think that the like. call it mainstream ideas abt Good Relationships and/or #Good Communication are universal & objective & immutable & everyone agrees on those standards already right now #and like. A Post doesn't have to be something someone thinks applies to everyone / isn't abt their personal experiences but #the way plenty of shit is phrased in posts Pwning the concept of someone being Too Anxious or sm shit you Know it's meant to be general lol #and even then of course it doesn't have to be like ''any random post must be dedicated to real; specific support or it's worthless''#but people clearly also like. are like yep this is on principle; ideally this will Affect people & they'll Get Right #(i mean probably it's more just about their own satisfaction in feeling totally justified while Also getting inevitable negative reaction)#but also like you know what. someone's Issues may not be contained within the realm of what either You *or* They can control #that like all issues of what provides ppl material support / meets their material needs are matters of Mental Health Support or what have u #like pointing out that shit like healthcare & housing & accessibility are matters of suicide prevention...#like yeah of course individual responsibility is relevant in everything but there's broader concepts of Responsibility beyond that #only addressing the individual responsibility in any matter is the flattest easiest shit you can do. why else is it so popular lol #and going ''but have we tried ascribing personal failures / inferiority into ppl struggling w/issues????'' yes. we have & continue to do so #like 95% of my life including now i am beset every day w/someone who absolute Won't take personal responsibility ever & yea it sucks #but i'm not like. making that ''wow this sucks a ton'' experience my like Worldview lmfao this isn't now my Personal Policy abt shit #going ''have we considered that anything but deliberately punishing Mental Illness just Enables/Encourages their destructive vibes??'' yes.#''well if everyone just accepted their Personal Responsibility in all ways this & any other matter would be completely resolved forever??''#then by that framework if anyone goes ''well that's not quite it'' you can go ''sounds like someone isn't accepting their Responsibility''#checkmate Individuals...

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ourflagmeansgayrights · 2 years

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aalgjfhdjkvghdkjgdhgjk i got blocked for my tags on the stede/iggy post WHOOPS

#mine #not gay pirates #i mean idc abt being blocked but i DO feel kinda bad for bothering op. SORRY MY B #genuinely didnt mean it as a personal attack or anything y'all can ship whatever u want however u want fuck if i care #but as a huge fan of Bitch Bonnet i just get. SO confused when ppl make him nice to izzy. not mad just confused #like if i shipped it i feel like stede's bitchiness would be a key feature of the dynamic. i dont Get why so many fans declaw him #baffled. and the fact that i see it So Much makes me all caps WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING levels of confused #but again. CONFUSED. i DONT rlly care lmao. hence why i dont have the tag blocked!#but i also DIDNT seek it out lmao i just went on the tumblr for u page on a whim. i literally never go there lol #and ive MADE my own post abt how confusing it is that so many fans make stede nice to izzy. ive made TWO posts abt it lol #i just saw that post right after work and was like 'THIS DOESNT MAKE SENSE TO ME' but it's FINE y'all can do whatever u want!!#i guess i come off more aggressive than i mean to when communication is text-only. i should prooobably work on that lol #typing entire sentences in all caps means nothing to me she's like adding flavor adding passion.#im adding a dash of an intense emotion which does not necessarily have to be rage #in this case the emotion was baffled confusion at a phenomenon that doesnt make sense to me but is SO prevalent #and like. iiiidk i often dont realize how adding tags/comments on someone else's post can make them feel like im invading their space #which i should. start considering.#living and learning! anyway sorry to the op of that post i didnt mean to upset u. u are probably not reading this

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caroloftheshells · 2 years

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experimentalmeowsiclesbian said:

i read a paper last year that said that music in the west is treated as a science, only accessible to specialised practitioners with appropriate training, and i think the heavy criticism of theory teaching is a response to that attitude, that you "need to know the rules to break them" kind of thing, rather than seeing theoretical knowledge as part of a personal relationship w/ art

i’m replying to your replies as a post lol bc this got long-- but yeah that makes sense! thank you for adding these and especially your points re: spirituality, which i hadn’t thought about in that light. what i was trying to get at was a specific attitude towards wam in particular and how i’ve seen people use “theory isn’t always helpful” to mean that this music is too special/precious/transcendent to analyze, or that it doesn’t have just as specific a cultural context as any other music (e.g., bach is just obviously good bc he was a genius individual, there are no shared aesthetic preferences governing his decisions or trends his music falls into). i should have used more precise language there though, bc i think having a personally spiritual &/or otherwise non-theoretical relationship w/music is great when cultivated on your own terms. i’m also coming from a background of choral singing in the southern u.s., which i have found to be fraught about this even in nominally secular contexts. you can’t get through a typical voice degree here w/o singing casually xian music, sometimes church gigging, etc, so that is informing my use of the term “spiritual”

#carol replies to things #theorycomp tag #thank you!! been away from tumblr for a while so had to reread this whole convo to remember what i meant at the time #i think also just to clarify my issue is less with critique of western theory ed which does almost unilaterally suck rn #than with critique thereof by wam stans who are like very invested in the purity and universality of Their musical traditions #& get uncomfortable when wam is analyzed because they don't like the idea of said music as having a specific context & being made by people #like idk my own circle of music theorists irl is mainly people interested in musical/cultural studies of timbre & genre which are v social #and which show up basically nowhere in formal curricula because of a larger investment in getting people to exclusively study wam #ie 'useful' music for performers to know and 'useful' parameters thereof #(which is common to private lessons; ensemble rep; history classes...) & is job training for conservative opera/orchestra spots etc #so it's funny to me how some ppl otherwise very ok with western music ed & wam culture are also very against theory for like #revealing the weirdness & specificity & rules of said music that was 'supposed' to be transcendent & universal etc. is what i mean i guess #like there are bigger fish to fry but instead people are stuck on 'put more women in theory textbooks' or w/e which does not solve The Issue #if any of this makes sense. idk

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