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bamsara · 1 year

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

Sorry I hope this isn't too sappy but I wanted to write a big thank you to everyone that came to stream last night and just abosultely obliterated me with kindness and support

For folks who weren't in stream: I had planned on setting up a commission thing on kofi to start tomarrow (today, now, but a day after this chaos event) to raise money to buy myself a christmas gift of a Switch, planned on clearing out a whole few days to try and earn money, but after figuring out to make a goal post thing on the KoFi page and on stream I decided to save from posting commission listings until I had a full day to sit down and stream it all since I had something else planned in the middle of the day

I did an art stream later in the day and let me tell you I was *floored* by kindness and people were just being so nice and im aughsdglhsdsdgsds. Not only did we meet the Kofi Goal, BUT THEY KEPT GOING. I'm scared to look at the total amount and I plan on refunding some folks when they're not looking because I feel so bad because tbh I haven't deserved or rightfully earned the amount of generosity given to me but I just wanted to say like, holy shit. Thank you? Thank you oh my goodness

I HAVE A SWITCH NOW. AND SOME GAMES. Animal Crossing and Monster Hunter: Rise to start. I've played Monster Hunter before so it's a love of mine but Animal Crossing is something Ive only gotten to play the free pocket camp phone version of, and watch videos of, so I'll have to learn the woes and wins of that game and I'm super excited!! And I'll be able to play online with people too holy shit

If you were in stream then you already know but if you werent or maybe tapped out early then I tried to caluclate and make a list of people who wanted doodles for what they donated, and the amount to my old commission list (sorry I haven't updated my examples in 2 years) and I plan on drawing doodles for the large donators and the folks who really just slammed me with love. I have some drawings to post already! If you see me drawing something on stream and finish it and not post it pls remind me because Im REALLY bad at that

Also I promised chat that I wouldn't open the Switch box until I did it with them so we can do that later tonight when I get fully home, but YEAH!

Anyway THANK YOU. I'm not the best with words but oh my god THANK YOU

#sara shush #pls ignore me yelling sldkghsdl #ok back to queueing up normal posts for people

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sleepytiredblorboaddict · 7 months

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When you're scared of the dark

pairing(s) : eyeless jack/reader, jeff the killer/reader

reader : gn, reader is a human, reader isnt a creep, unspecified everything body-wise

cw : power outage, creeps live in a mansion, jeff is kind of an ass but he makes up for it, jack purrs bc im predictable

edit: HELP I DIDN'T REALIZE I POSTED IT WITHOUT FINISHING JEFF'S PART LMAO

Eyeless Jack

a little miffed, if he's honest

i mean- you live in a mansion of killers

despite that, the moment the power in the mansion goes out, your fear scent permeates the room

the two of you were chilling in his nest when the power kicked the bucket, leaving the two of you with no light but the crack of lightning outside jack's windows

you frozen before cuddling against him tighter, shaking lightly

he's not dumb, he knows what's going on. he just doesn't understand how this is the thing, of all things, to get to you

his tail sweeps over your tangled legs and curls around your thigh, and he held you securely to himself

a deep purr rumbles to life in his chest, his accent heavy as he mumbles comforting words into your ear

the occasional boom of thunder serves as a backdrop

he holds you until you've calmed, continuing to rub your back until he hears light snores from you

he makes a mental note to keep more candles in his room. also to get a nightlight, since he realized now why you had your own

overall he's sensitive about it. he can see in the dark but he understands why it might freak you out- especially with all the monsters around the mansion. you're only human after all

Jeff the Killer

he's goin to be a lot more of an asshole about it im ngl

at first, when the power shuts off and he hears you yelp, he laughs

he teases you a bit, but when he hears you start to sob he freaks

like,,, holy shit did he do that? fuck this is his fault he shouldn't have laughed he felt like such an asshole right now and-

he heard you shifting in the dark, trying to get up off his bed. panicking, he shot up to grab your wrist and pull you back

this doesn't really help your current issue, but at least the cool feeling of his undead body helps to ground you

"im sorry babe-- its okay, promise, nothin will getcha"

he continued to try his best to reassure but he's bad at this lol

brings you down to the common room and lights the fireplace to bring you both light and warmth (being that the heating went out too)

sits with you in front of it and plays something on his phone

probably one of those weird mobile games or some youtube video

p much anything to distract you from the current situation

overall, dont go to him if you want to be laughed at. but once he realizes that you're serious he does his best

#creepypasta #eyeless jack #jeff the killer #jtk #creepypasta x reader #eyeless jack x reader #jeff the killer x reader #ej x reader

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neomedievalist · 3 months

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hey chat. I did a deep (medium) dive into gamescent to figure out what the fuck they meant by any of that

first of all, the price tag, holy shit. second of all, AT PAX EAST? it took me a second to realize implication of this being at pax east. this is going to be an INVOLUNTARY EXPERIENCE for some people LOL. THE STINKY BOOTH AT PAX EAST.

The first thing I wanted to know is how the fuck does this use ai? i conjured a beautiful world where we could actually experience ai-generated scents but no, obviously it's just a buzzword used to drive investors. it uses ai to analyze the sound in your game to dispense the appropriate scent, which sounds bad.

Brief interlude i love this ai generated image they use on their "blog" section on their website, me and my little car i use for gaming

the first thing you'll find with this article and the website is that they are downright ADDICTED to pretending smell-o-vision was a good thing.

AHEAD OF ITS TIME? I WOULDN'T GO THAT FAR.

GEOFF, I DON'T THINK THE INSUFFICIENT TECHNOLOGY WAS THE ISSUE HERE.

The ONLY benefit of using AI they can come up with is the timing of the release of the scent lolll

ANIME SCENT

I'm personally obsessed with them calling it DLC because I have no idea how this is supposed to be downloadable lmao i couldn't find anything on their website using this terminology. Geoff Keighley what did you mean by this. You wouldn't download a scent.

to the eager anticipation of all ultrakill fans/sex freaks the BLOOD scent DLC will be coming soon.

there's a giveaway section for data harvesting and apparently 11,000 entries which i somehow doubt

I really love the vague wording here "will not be responsible for any outcome" ANY OUTCOME?

I forgot to say of course they have an app lmao. and i love how every physical item you buy is now just a license to use that item now. Surely they wont shut down service for this making your 200 CAD scent box useless laughing crying emoji

Literally what the fuck is this what does this product have to do with fitness. i can't find ANYTHING correlating this. i had a sneaking suspicion that most of this writing was ai generated but this might just confirm it lol

What is this tweet

tldr im not looking at this anymore when are they releasing the gabriel ultrakill armpit sweat dlc scent

#data

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shhuuga · 2 months

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🧊 — BIG BARBIE, BITCH ON ICE.

[ prev. chap, next chap. summary — our barbies are exhausted! what better way to relax then to sit around reminiscing about being bad ass kids while sitting around the pool? ★ ]

You sigh, lying back on one of the guest rooms beds and breathing in the cool, clean air that surrounds you. chan must've cleaned this place like hell you think to yourself as you close your eyes, just letting the air of the bedroom cool your body, a few goosebumps prickling your skin. you hear two pairs of house shoes hitting the ground and before you can sit up, faye is opening the door with eva right behind her, both smiling seeing that you're ready for the pool.

"c'mon, y/n! i wanna see if i can still backflip!" faye urges, all too excited to cool off in some water. you and eva rolled your eyes simultaneously, faye is always up and moving.

"i'm coming, faye! can a girl take a breather? those 'say-sangs' were scary as hell!" you cross your arms over your swimsuit as you exit the room, suddenly feeling a lot more self conscious considering you were in a house full of men. "let me grab my--"

"noooo! c'mon, they got towels down thereee" faye pouts, already knowing that you wanted to grab your favorite cover up, and clearly being against it. you roll your eyes again, shrugging it off and beginning to walk down the steps.

minho looks up from his phone when he hears you and the girls enter the living room, he raises his hand and drops it before looking back down at his phone.

"you don't swim?" your voice makes him raise his head again, noticing that now your friends are both looking back at you and him, closer to the door than you are. he's dressed in swim trunks and a t-shirt, so it would be odd is he wasn't planning on swimming. before you came down though, he really wasn't.

"i do. but last time i did i got hit with a ball, so." he mumbles the last bit, feeling embarrassed once it actually came out of his mouth. fuck, was it hot? he was hot. you're hot. is he blushing? minho's head races even faster when he hears you chuckle. not in an "im laughing at your pain" way, more of a "that's a funny story" way. whatever way it was, it was making him sweat. he needs some water.

"well, make sure it doesn't happen this time." you smile, you fucking smile at him. holy shit, is he okay? he smiles back, and stands up to follow you. his heart is racing at a million miles per hour and it feels like he's watching himself walk next to you, tell him about the kind of content you do, and how this trip will make some perfect videos.

c'mon, y/n! talk about something other than content! for the love! you didn't know what else to say! almost your whole life after highschool has been documented online. makeup tutorials, vlogging, shopping hauls, the whole nine! when you weren't making videos, you were at mingling parties with other people who made content. eva had her cosmetics company, and faye had her singing career. but you were just "big barbie". the head huncho of the group? sure. the best known? absolutely! but that's it. you were a content creator. it was in this oddly insignificant moment that you realized you wanted something more.

.. how long has eva been talking to you?

"...and remember that time we flipped all of mr. chester's chairs and desks over and hid in the supply closet across the hall to get his reaction? it was amazing!" you smiled and nodded, not knowing quite what to say about the story, she tells it every time you three meet new people. it kind of kills the vibe because you and faye have to awkwardly fake a laugh.

you lay back onto the towel that's laid on the ground behind you, the water swaying softly against your ankles. the sounds around you are in sharp contrast, hyunjin and felix on the opposite side of the pool arguing about something, jeongin ans seungmin playing a very loud game of volleyball, and eva laughing as loud as humanly possible at changbin's joke. it was weird, eva was never like that, even around guys she liked. maybe she was just nervous, whatever.

"hey!" chris, your saving fucking grace from this headache of a quote un-quote "relaxation period", calls from inside the house, hanging his head out of the back door. he's got on his business casual, black slacks and a white button-up with a few pieces of jewelry. he waves to you, eva and faye before calling to the other members in Korean. "help me with this meat, we're having barbecue!"

you smile as faye walks over, holding her go-pro in her left hand, speaking to it as she approaches you.

"here she is, just sitting pretty.. isn't she so pretty?" the younger smiles brightly at you, weary of her wet hair from dripping on you. you smile and close your eyes, the sun beaming on your brown skin.

#🍬.shhuuga #🍬.txt #skz x reader #lee know x reader #skz x black reader #skz x y/n #minho x reader #skz x reader smut #stray kids x black reader #lee minho x black reader #lee know x black reader #x black reader #kpop x black reader #🧊 — big barbie. bitch on ice #lee minho x reader

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worstvideogamesong-poll · 4 months

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Worst Video Game Song Tournament - Round 3 Match 1

Lavender Town - Pokémon Red/Blue

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VERSUS

This is Where You Are Caucasian Destination Boy - Project Sekai: Colorful Stage! Feat. Hatsune Miku

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FIGHT!

I would recommend listening to as much as you can of each song before voting, but how you choose is up to you! Remember to be civil in the tags and replies!

Propaganda under cut:

Lavender Town:

"I KNOW the famous creepypasta but listen. Listen. The original one gets grating after a while (way to high pitch) and it's over used by the internet. So so over used."

"Hurts my ears and also scares me. double whammy"

"#i dont like lavender town. sorry #i think the high pitch noises get so annoying and also its way overused"

"#i would like to congratulate whoever submitted lavendar town cause holy shit. the first one ive listened that has made me actually go #'wow this is bad'. that shit GRATED. bravo"

This is Where You Are Caucasian Destination Boy:

"jkl;"

This is Where You Are Caucasian Destination Boy:

"holy shit this song was suppossed to be what vivid bad squad (one of the bands in the game) was trying to surpass their entire first story arc. also this song was pulled out right after taiga (guy singing this song) told them that their idol is dead. and then they lost to Caucasion Destination Boy. jesus christ."

"[This is Where You Are Caucasian Destination Boy] is so bad lyrically it's funny. Like, truly a monsterpiece."

"#I'M SORRY THAT'S THE SONG VBS IS TRYING TO SURPASS???? 💀"

"#I KEEP FORGETTING ABT THIS 'SONG' #same energy as im in the house like carpet"

"#HAHA YES IM SO HAPPY CAUCAISAN DESTINATION IS ON HERE #NO WONDER TOYA’S DAD HATES MODERN MUSIC 🔥🔥🔥"

"#HOLY SHIT THIS IS WHERE YOU ARE CAUCASIAN ON THE DASH #AHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA #EVERYONE LOSING THEIR SHIT OVER THAT SONG WHEN IT DROPPED WAS SO FUNNY"

"#[This is Where You Are Caucasian Destination Boy] brought me to tears"

#i thought the title of [This is Where You Are Caucasian Destination Boy] was a joke until i played it

"#LETS GO CAUCASIAN #TIME TO THROW YOUR FURB"

"#oh god [This is Where You Are Caucasian Destination Boy] sounds like if imagine dragons had a lobotomy"

"#THIS IS WHERE YOU ARE CAUCASION DESTINATION BALLING SWEEP"

"#dude This Is Where Youre Caucasian is just so bad"

Feel free to add more propaganda in the tags and replies, or send it to me in the ask box and I'll try to share it as soon as I can!

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soldier-poet-king · 4 months

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get to know you better game! answer the questions and tag 9 people you want to know better. tagged by @galahadiant

last song I listened to: Incandescent Ruins - The Mountain Goats!

currently reading: finishing up Flannery O'Connor's short stories, a historical nonfiction overview for work research, Victoria Goddard's At The Feet of The Sun, Blood and Ash series (IT'S SO BAD. HOLY SHIT. it's for hater bookclub and is probably the worst thing ive ever read), FMA manga, James Baldwin's Notes from a Native Son, Fun Home

(i always have a zillion things on the go and switch between as the mood strikes)

currently watching: nothing?? i dont really watch tv ;-; i put on critical role when crafting if that counts? technically I ave snk, the bear, and the untamed all on the go, but i watch VERY sporadically, mostly just when im too sad to read or play video games, which i prefer to tv

currently obsessed with: when am i NOT obsessed with something? I dont think I really 'get over' obsessions, inasmuch as they enter the ever growing rotation in my heart, and everyday it's a wild guess what will get me super emotional. in 2024 thus far it's been: Sad Russian Man Simulator Pathologic, Pentiment (video game), BG3, Under Jurisdiction Book 1 by Susan R Matthews*

*this is NOT a rec. omg. this is not a book most people would enjoy. it is super graphic and violent and deliberately horrifying and uncomfortable. i loved it. it very much asks questions and explores themes at the intersections of all my interests - submission to Duty vs. Authority, questions of loyalty and devotion even to a 'bad' person, mercy and justice to 'bad' people, being worthy of care regardless, questions of autonomy and dehumanization and what does choice really mean when you are not free?, facing the monster of the self and refusing to hide from it and acknowledging the terrible thing you are, questions of responsibility, duty and care of a Master over his servants, and man to man, family angst, religious angst, what does the ends and the means really mean when it's harm reduction? when it's doing something unspeakably awful to prevent something even worse?

THAT BEING SAID. it is still like. a book about a doctor who is forced against his will to become a government sanctioned torturer in an evil space empire. and to his disgust and horror he realizes he's a sadist. he's not only /good/ at it, some part of him /enjoys/ it. and he has to live with that knowledge, that burden, that guilt. Andrej is Not A Nice Man, by any means, but maybe, MAYBE, he can try to be a good one, or as good as circumstances permit. im compelled by this exploration of things so horrifying. we cannot look away from the horrors. cannot refuse to ask the difficult questions. and art is just. the place for that exploration of things too terrible to stomach irl

#THAT WENT ON A RANT #i could keep going abt the value of BAD SCARY art #and fiction where bad ppl do bad things #and why that's NECESSARY to explore in fiction #but this is the no reading comprehension webbed site #so like. i rest my cast #case*#there is no room for nuance/ we need kids tv morality out here #and so. i will think my thinky thoughts alone #ANYWAY thank u percy!!!#the duality of fran

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stormywinter42 · 3 months

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HOLY SHIT I FINALLY BEAT FAREWELL AFTER 10 HOURS AND ALMOST 9000 DEATHS I FUCKING DID IT (I know I’m bad just let me be happy)

Im literally crying right now I love this game so much that’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done in a video game my heart is pounding out if my chest

After nearly 150 hours tot’s playtime it’s done

#Celeste #farewell #Celeste chapter 9 #trans #Madeline #madeline celeste #platformers

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reallyromealone · 2 years

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(name) stared down the pregnancy test terrified, the two lines indicating that he was in fact pregnant with Eddie munsons pup.

How? They always wore protection!

Oh god did the condom rip and they didn't notice?!

(Name) was losing his shit in the bathroom, thankful Eddie was gone to work so (name) had time to get his shit together.

When Eddie graduated the two moved in together and Eddie got a job at the comic/game shop and (name) had a job at the general store, between the two they could afford the pup but (name) was worried. What if Eddie didn't want them?

Oh god would he be a single parent?!

(Name) began spiraling again as he rubbed his belly, unsure what to do.

"Whatever happens pup, I got you" (name) whispered to his belly before getting up and grabbing the pregnancy test before walking out of the apartment.

He needed to talk to someone.

During the drive he thought about Eddie as a dad, he wouldn't deny that the thought was adorable. He was already like a father figure to Dustin and the others so maybe he wouldn't be that bad of a dad, he also tried not to giggle at the idea of a tiny baby with Eddies hair.

It was a precious but funny thought.

He walked into family video where Robin and Steve were lazing around, no one currently in the store as it was still pretty early in the day, the duo perking up at the sight of (name) entering "guys I need to talk" (name) said anxiously as the the two alphas glanced at one another confused.

"Holy shit" Steve said staring at the pregnancy test, Robins jaw dropped in shock "you got knocked up by Eddie..." Robin said equally shocked "I don't know what to do! Eddie and I never spoke about pups! We only mated a month ago!"

"Well... Talk to him about it either way we got you buddy" Steve said softly, the two alphas going in to hug the Omega who clung back "Dustin's gonna freak when he finds out he's an uncle" Steve joked and the two smiled when they heard (name) snort "you want one of us to come with?"

"You guys are working..."

"We can take a lunch break"

The trio made their way to Eddie's work, Steve refusing to let (name) drive, pulling out the pregnancy card all while robin giggled at (name)s pouting as they put him in the back seat.

The shop was lively as ever as kids and teens if the nerdy variety bought stuff and played board games in the gaming area where (name)s brother and his little friends usually hung out at.

"Baby? What are you doing here?" Eddie asked curiously, those hypnotic brown eyes staring deep within (name)s and (name) felt like crying again "oh shit, what's going on?" Eddie asked the two other alphas as the four went to the employee only area and (name) thrusted the pregnancy test at his mate "is this..."

"I-Im pregnant Eddie..."

The room was silent as Eddie processed his words before dramatically falling to his knees in front of the omegas belly "the gods bless us with child?!" He said dramatically before standing up "you're happy?" (Name) asked hopefully, a smile on his face "happy? Our kids gonna be fucking awesome! You're cute face and my taste in music? Unstoppable force"

(Name) let out a sob like laugh as Eddie hugged him close "got my pretty little Omega knocked up? Damn I'm lucky"

"We're gonna have to get a bigger place for them..."

Steve and Robin smiled as they watched the couple hug, not missing Eddie rub his wrists gently along the omegas middle, scenting him.

The Alpha was possessive, pregnancy only amplifying it now.

When they finally left the back rooms, (name) was tear stained but happy as Eddie wrapped an arm around the others waist and gently drew circles along his waist as Dustin and the others took notice "what's going on? Why is (name) crying?" Dustin practically demanded as he got up and walked to his older brother who almost cried again "we have been blessed with an heir!" Eddie shouted happily and (name) laughed "you're gonna be an uncle Dusty"

Dustin froze as he looked between the two "no way"

"Yeah way" Robin said watching Dustin connect the dots "I'm gonna be an uncle..."

The day was spent with (name) sitting in his mates line of sight between Will and Dustin as he watched them play board games, the teens and Eddie arguing over what the babies name would be based on how cool it sounded.

(Name) smiled as he watched how passionate the Alpha was about his kid, happy knowing Eddie would be a good dad.

#stranger things x male reader #stranger things x reader #eddie munson x male reader #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson #omegaverse #x male reader

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brybryby · 1 year

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VERY LONG POST IM SORRY. DONT FEEL OBLIGED TO READ

HI. Alrighty, this has been on my mind for a while (ever since promotional content for Trials started being released).

I have a TON of analyses in the drafts, but I want to make this post before I release them for public viewing.

I know that I like to make goofy, light-hearted little fan animations and fan art of Outlast, but I think I need to start changing how I navigate through the content. After spending so much of my time deep diving and writing up these analyses, my eyes have been opened to just how much the franchise revolves around fucked up historical events. I feel that some of the stuff I've posted is tone deaf, or at least the way I posted about it is. And I think—for the most part—there's an understanding that I don't intend to be harmful, but I fear that the way I go about it **is**. (And obviously, action takes precedence over intent.)

For contextualization, when I initially got into Outlast at the age of 12, I was enthralled by the horror aesthetics and found a lot of the angsty gore to be cathartic. I felt so “taboo” and “scandalous” lol (especially as a developing child trying to understand myself amidst my puberty stage). I was young and—for lack of a better word—braindead in how I navigated the media. I was naive, mindless, ignorant, etc etc… Now that I have a deeper understanding of the narratives and historical implications/influences, I need to do better in how I interact with the franchise.

What am I getting at?

Pretty much, I'm working on being more careful with how I interact with the media. At the same time, I want the analyses that I post to be educational. And most importantly, please message me if I ever say some bullshit. Seriously. All I ever want to do with my life is to be a positive impact. I genuinely get upset if I cause harm to someone else. (One time I literally cried at a high school football game as a freshman because I thought I hurt someone else's feelings. It turned out they were faking it lmao. Then they started feeling bad and then that made me feel bad for crying and yea yea).

Seriously though. I know that my posts can get public outreach, and anything that has public outreach can be influential and have a good or bad impact. So please let me know if I do or say anything harmful or ignorant. I won't be offended. I don’t want to spread harmful stuff. There are many instances in my life where people sit me down to have meaningful conversations about shit I've said or done and how I can improve myself.

That said, I'll be posting more analyses and making my own syntheses of historical events. My next analysis post will be about Waylon's Asian-coding (specifically Korean-coding), how Trials actually supports this (using themes of US immigration), and why it is apparent to many Asian fans (including me, hehe).

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That's pretty much it. But if you wanna stick around a bit further, I'll tell you my (excruciatingly long) story about how I got into Outlast :) along with how much it has invaded my brain and life :') and maybe get a little ~personal~ hehe

STORYTIME:

So, the game came out in 2013. Nearly 10 years ago. I was 12 at the time of its release. Let me tell you…this game was a HUGE impact in the horror community. HOLY. SHIT. It changed the way I looked at lockers and beds. I remember it being critically acclaimed (and rightfully so). It may have not been the most technical video game, but it certainly was a piece of art.

I remember commercials being shown everywhere. The trailer of beta Miles Upshur running and parkouring through Mount Massive while being chased by the tiny beta model of Chris Walker will forever be canonized as part my childhood. I remember specifically heading to the bathroom from my living room and my dad interrupting me to say “Hey! Check this out!” and then proceeding to play the trailer for my 12-year-old eyes. I was scared shitless.

Couple weeks later, Conan O'Brien featured Outlast in one of his segments of “Clueless Gamer” (yeah, my family and I used to watch Conan lol). I was very familiar with Slender and Amnesia, which were the 2 other games featured in this Halloween special, but this was the first time I REALLY got to check out Outlast.

Now, let me preface that during this time, internet culture was very interesting and even less safe than it is today. I had a ton of bad experiences on the internet during my childhood. But oddly (and embarrassingly), the emo/scene/horror/creepypasta culture was what brought me comfort amongst a sea of awful things you could find on the internet. It was probably unhealthy for my developing brain, but I indulged in a lot of angst that was presented with heavy gore and violence. And to be honest, looking at this kind of stuff at a young age helped me process a lot of my own personal shit that I experienced outside of the internet realm. (To be clear, I don't endorse this type of violence, and I don't endorse exploring the internet in the same way I did as a child—it was probably very unhealthy and I think it caused some early development issues.)

But nothing—and I mean NOTHING—scratched that itch more than the way Outlast did. I watched the finger cutting scene in Conan's “Clueless Gamer” and was fucking mortified. I was scared of the dark for weeks. But I remember spending that night in my bedroom looking at more Outlast content to get that cathartic fix to fill my emotional hole of…I don't know…morbid curiosity? I definitely felt shame at the time. I don't know. In recent years, I've been on this journey to process stuff I experienced during my childhood and I struggle to go about my middle-school/junior-high stage because…I don't know…puberty? Access to the internet? I once got bullied by a forum of adult men for posting fan art LMAO. I was 12 years old—I forgot what the fan art even was. ANYWAYS, yea. That was only one instance of my conglomeration of internet experiences. (Like many other peeps, I had to hide my gender & racial identity to preserve my sanity). Indulging in gore art was therapeutic and helped me release negative emotions in a non-harmful way. Horror-genre communities online have been mostly friendly and welcoming towards me. That's probably why I fell in love with Outlast as an art rather than a video game.

I wasn't in the fandom straight off the bat. I had other hyper fixations at times but I navigated through these other fixations with this personal “Outlast standard” where the art and fiction I consumed needed to be horror-themed, gorey, or angsty. And Outlast isn't solely to blame. I was into gore and angst before the game came out. It just so happened that it came out at such a perfect time in my life. (Horror made my queer self feel accepted)

This whole “Outlast standard” stuck with me throughout high school. Uh… this next bit of information may get a little personal. During my sophomore year, someone really important in my life passed away. Then I had this life-impacting thing happen during my junior year that changed how I perceived things forever (lol, this sounds so dramatic). I turned to art to help me process and yada yada… but y'know what really helped? You know what I turned to when I needed to “scratch the itch”? (I bet you'll never guess)

I finally considered myself a part of the Outlast fandom in 2018-2019. I was a high school junior/senior and I posted the Outlast-Outkast animation that got retweeted by Red Barrels. Had a lot of fun in the fandom during that time and it helped get my mind off of things. Also, I loved the fact that Waylon graduated from Berkeley. I was applying to colleges during this time and it made me romanticize Berkeley, lol. I ended up getting accepted. Had an awesome time. I recently graduated and got my Bachelor's. I'm very privileged and gracious for my experience. I spent a lot of grueling time and energy dedicated towards my education.

During my college years, a lot of the unprocessed shit from my childhood started resurfacing and it was becoming hard to navigate through life. I became really disconnected with people who were close to me. Art started to fall out of my life. Stuff happened. Got in touch with psychiatrists thanks to my college's free health services. I don't mean to downplay or normalize what happened, but I'll bring up that many college students deal with mental illness and depression (and this could be attributed to many things: moving away from family, student-life, financial pressure, pressure to secure jobs/internships, living alone for the first time, maturing into an adult, etc. etc.).

But I remember sitting alone in my studio apartment one weekend and started surfing Tumblr. I came across new Outlast fan art and it sparked my hyper fixation all over again. I re-read the comics and—OKAY THIS IS GONNA SOUND FUCKING RIDICULOUS—but I started jogging because Miles went on jogs LMAOOAKJDGHJAHKGFL. I finally picked up the pencil and started drawing again (after like…months) and drew Miles and Waylon flipping off Murkoff. And THAT was when I realized what the narratives of Outlast were actually about—FUCKIN' CAPITALISM AAUGGGHHH. MY LITTLE POOPOO BRAIN AT AGE 12 NEVER UNDERSTOOD THAT. AND NOW THAT I'M AN ADULT—NOW THAT I CAN BLATANTLY SEE MYSELF AND MY PEERS AS VICTIMS/PRODUCTS OF CAPITALISM—CAN FINALLY FIND SO MUCH VALUE AND MEANING IN THIS GAME HHHRHRJGHKSDKFGLAJKDG SAY W H A T IM GONNA *explodes*

Then a year later, I started drawing more and more again. Trials' promotional marketing was becoming more prominent. I started posting my fan art on Tumblr. Then I made the fanimation (thank you Mr. Baichoo, you're so awesome, I will forever be a fan of yours) and now here I am. Still fixated on this silly little game for nearly 10 years. WHEW.

I FEEL LIKE A SHRIMP CHIP. Anyways, thanks. I much needed to get this off my chest.

Also, hey! Just wanted to say thanks for the friendly and welcoming interactions in this space. It feels so much safer and more comforting than previous internet experiences I've had. Since 2013, the fandom has evolved a lot. In my opinion, it has evolved for the better. The resurgence of new fans bring such refreshing perspectives and fields of knowledge that haven't been influenced by some of the harmful internet culture that I grew up in. So truly, many thanks to y'all for making the fandom space a nicer place (especially for such a heavy game). Also, what the heck, everyone in the fandom is seriously so talented and artistic

Uh… fan art time? (old stuff/sketches I haven’t posted)

But seriously if you got this far, thank you

#outlast video essay #brybryby text

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indiehorrorgamemovie · 7 months

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isthefnafmovieout reviews the fnaf movie (SPOILERS)

Pre-movie thoughts (written 10/25):

I get to see it a day early! YAY!

I might have hyped this movie up in my brain a little too much, because I'm SUPER anxious.

The polarizing reviews i was seeing throughout the day were definitely a little nerve wracking! Lots of good and bad reviews, lots of weird contridicting statements. I saw lots of people complaining about the lore being "wrong" or whatever but... Eh. It has already been established that this movie won't have the same lore as the games, so I won't mind any lore changes. They're like the Silver Eyes books, in their own seperate canon but with similarities to the games.

Overall Im keeping my hopes reasonably high. Horror films and video game adaptations tend to get a bad wrap from even the fairest critics. I'm a die-heard fnaf fan, have been for all 9 years of its existence. If Dawko loves it then I will love it I think 🫡

Okay, now with that out of the way...

Spoiler free review, posted on my letterboxd:

Post-movie thoughts (written 10/26):

The way they incorporated Mike's dream sequences into the narrative was really interesting, how he tries to use his dreams to find out who took his brother. He and Abby were really sweet :) I like how their relationship drives the plot along, with how they befriend Abby but only as a front because they want her to "be like them," and how Mike is caught up in the past and realizes that he needs to focus on protecting Abby, not bringing his brother back. Its surprisingly emotional, i really resonated with their story. Josh Hutcherson and Piper Rubio both did well!

It's basically everything I expected, and I liked it! I think it's story was good, with its focus on childhood innocence.

Vanessa is great too! Different from her game counterpart, but thats okay! And the twist that she's actually William aftons daughter? Holy shit I gasped like I was watching a soap. Thats so interesting!! I loved how she just FELT suspicious. I know it's very different from the game lore, but I expected the movie to be, and I liked what they did! I got chills when Vanessa showed the picture of her and William to Mike and you could see her holding the plane that Mike's brother used to have.... my dad thought that was the creepiest part. Speaking of william btw...

Matthew Lillard, man. wow. What a great William Afton. They do some subtle implications that hes William in the beginning and if i didnt know it was him already i would've been surprised. He hams it up like he did with Stu Macher and it's great! I wish he was in it a little more, and they expanded a little more on Williams character through Vanessa, but yeah, he was good! I hope to see more of him in any sequels!

I wish the animatronics showed up a little more, thats probably my biggest critique or whatever. But they are so well made and cute. I liked how they befriended Abby, and that they rlly honed in on the animatronics being possessed by kids and that their violence is from William Aftons influence. I wish they went more into depth about how William influenced them though, and why it's all the pictures drawn of what happened that control their vision of what happened. What we did get from them though was so cool! Jim Henson did so well with these guys, they're so cute yet can be so scary.

The kills were pretty tame on the surface, as I expected, but some of the implications were quite disturbing to a point where it didn't rlly take away from it for me. Especially Max's, it gave me a "Ada in the laser room in the re4 seperate ways remake" vibes. Same with the security guards death to the faz-trap in the beginning.

There were some pacing issues, theyve definitely cut some things i wouldve liked to see, there was some goofiness (that fort making scene made me laugh so hard im sorry, it was cute though), and some story elements that needed a touch more expanding upon, but this movie was still really fun! For non-fans, honestly i dont know how they'reresponding as a whole besides those really weird reviews im seeing on rotten tomatoes and such, but I saw it with my dad, who knew very little going into it, and he liked it, especially the story with the missing kids! For fans... well, If you like fnaf, are are willing to forgive some lore changes for the sake of telling a coherent story, then you'll love it!

Also why was Matpat there lol. isthefnafmovieout, out. See you on the flipside.

#fnaf movie #fnaf movie spoilers #fnaf movie review #off topic

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gotta give the biggest #respect to you feltcaverns you sure roasted my applesauce over a campfire good and plenty

Thank you. Finally, some god damn credit.

you guys are obviously at it lyrically on the public forum but i gotta know do yall ever throw down verses behind the frankly unbelievably saturated curtain

HELLO!!!! HELLO HELLO HELLO HELloo hello you messaged me........ oh my godhshhgfhdfjdsfka fshello hello for messaging me. you are the one who sent me a thing... OH!!!! yes ys yes yes.

you are asking about curtians... did you know that in the curtsins of cave johnson they pout moon rocks in there? and now he is singing about lemonsade. lemons like the ones on the tree. with the whores O_O

hello did you know about.... singing. i sing sometimes but not to my friends because i dont think my voice is good. i dont remmeber if i had a voice? but i sing onto the words and it becomes music. i think thats sort of a magic in away

you also didnt forget to ask about my whoooooooooaaaa cant say that one!!!!! ehehehe

hello you are eeee the first person to message me on the wbesite. nobody has before.... did you know that????

not a long time!!! i mean not for a long time. fuck. fuck i am so bad at typing thats why i like doing it the other way. mmhmmhhhghrgfg

they say im the favorite now but it was through being mean... i;m tired of being mean i just want to fuck and suck on plushrumps.com. yknow? i think you know :D

hellO!!!!! and thank you for your message.

holy shit

okay gimme a sec i gotta whip out the old reading glasses for this one

ok refrances those are always good ten out of ten from old rd here

man i played portal 2 like three times

and the first time while in old aperture knocking over old sheet metal with my boingo pogo stick boots

it was literally like a bouncy house with all the colored splooge of quick and bounce and the third boring cum joke

got nauseous from all the camera shenanigans

was tossed around flipped about except chell cant really flip in game thats more pre rendered cutscene crap

anyway we should hook you up with vocal chords sometime what do you think of vocalpids

aw man not p typo

everyone hates p typo

vocaloid thats better

O_O

i dont know who that is? thank you for talking about that. i learn everyh day. you dont know actually what this guy's talking about. you thought you had something on the but it's not actually there.

it might be best to exist this conversation? but noooooooo!!!! i want to talk more but i dont knowwwwww it's a lot and confusing. O_O

bottle rocket 6????? no ive never been there, except the times i have. you dont actually want to be put back there. it's okay, but it's kind of lonely. you aren't a spy, areyou? like from teamfortress 2. gaben

nah i was more of a fusionfall kid myself

i have never heard of video games

when the almighty dell would actually run the damn thing anyways

what the hell

seriously

let me explain to you a thing alright lemme nab one of those longplays of portal 2 really open your world

Yo, behave. Otherwise this shit gets cut off. Not exactly in the state to get scrambled again, and I'm getting a headache already.

Fuck.

Okay, please don't send confusing shit like that.

I can't read it, let alone read it.

oops my bad man

id ask what set you off but i think that would just add another lobotomy to the pile

should i be talking more about plush assholes or something what is the vibe im heading for here im not jiving to hurt you honestly

noooooooo... i can answer that!!! it was all stuff ive never heard of . and i am exposed to a lot of that but thats too much to much too much!!! and it was a lot.... O_O

i havent actually never heard of video games ive heard of a coupel video games. like fortnite. stacey fortnite is my best friend. you aren't sure what fortnite is, but you think it's a video game? you just hear about it on the website.

hello. i am okay not talking about pluhsurmsps.com but it;'s hard because there are more rules. im not allowed to know a lot of stuff... even though i see it and its confusing to me. okay? thank you :) its like when mario gets the star.

To translate, keep the anachronisms to a minimum. I'm not dumb enough to miss the signals, but I'm trying to stay dumb enough to not have to worry about it. Got it?

got it crystal as meth

I LOVE CRYSTAL METH!!!!!! HELLO WALTER WHITE can we be all sortso f things together. you arent actually sure what that is eaither but its fine because it fits the bill. quack

oh god dammit i wasnt even referencing that guy

my bad

shit what year should i be heading for

Breaking Bad came out in 2008, you're fine.

ok cool

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh hello . i dont know :) its okay plushrump content is eternal and can be shared and downloaded in 1080p with a premium scubscripstion? but if we catch you reuoploading the H0TT3ST V1DS onto othwer porn sites then wuhhhhh oh . wuh oh!!! its no good. :O

hello you arennnnnt actually a subscripber? but thats okay im allowed to be social and and with it and ferioucsious. thank you mwahahahaha

absolutely lets get downright rapport-ical

i have been actually just typing and backspacing references ad infiniteezums the past few and reckoning with that whole mess

but yeah besides that im about to settle down for the day i reckon

you guys hooked up to anything or is plushrump like your giant fishbowl

> absolutely lets get downright rapport-ical yessssss. yessssss maybe not that last word. O_O or maybe yes.... i dont want to think about that fucking thing !!!!!!!! hello

woaahhahhhahhhh it's the internet!!! and you are filled with so many connections outbound inbound gmaildotprotonmail dotcom. it's almost like thew hole thing is at your fingertits. you dont remember fingertits being a thing but youre glad they are now. :) whehehehee

did you remember what it was like back there? up there in the sky? no, i didnt think you did. that's alright, because i dont remember eitehr. its equal partitioning, a give and take. running and running as the heavens pour hot death open, and the caverns seem like the only safe respit you've got.

is anyone else there? noooooooo thats bad. thank you for not reading that. oh boy

my eyes are shut dont even worry about it

if there is literally anything i value as a strider now its some actual fucking privacy

my eyes arent because im looking at the hottest vids on plushrumps.com. did you know they have fozzie bear anal fisting. woooooooooow!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i cant believe it im bursting at the ssssss whaoat athat a new message??? i am not typing fast enough.... O_O

yeah i got some feisty fingers

always chomping at the bit and shit

my graspnubs dont chomp at anything because they are finger tits.... but i dont think thats what it means eiher. have you seen the video before??? on your makrs... ... oh thats wrong? okay

thank you for letting me know :)

broadcast yourself slash watch ? v = Y7WtkdLQ6PM

if tits could bite woah mama id be worried for the baby

oh shit free movie

yeah i love this one

is this you

O_O

yeah god damn

you literally captured my entire essence in this picture

and lookie here theres the whole family

right down to the ridiculous symbols on our old shirts

is there not a dirk in this one? notably missing some dirk and hal here

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa no no no no no no shh not that topic. shhhh . id ont want to hear about the new stuff :O i want to smoke weed andn make out with a hot babe made from FELT!!!!!! ouggghgh yeah it is like she is toking it up. but actually she is stroking it up on our newest video. check out mrs muffet on plushrump.com she is called that because she likes vaginas.

whats a vagina dont actually tell me i just wanted to say that i dont know.

yeah alright word word

yeah im gonna just let mrs muffet do her thing

this pictures delightful though

catch me right click saving

okay cool. :) we are so coooooool. you are cool? i feel like you are cool.

yeah so cool

we are the coolest you and me

NOOOOO thats exclusive property of plsuhrrusmrp.s....... the valueeeeee will go down. if you right click save. mewo

aw damn alright

meow meow sorry i misspelled meow.

thank you.

no problem anything for my pal feltcaverns

that isnt my name............. you know that already dont you!!!

Nope, never mind.

Alright.

One moment.

alright take your time dude ill just be sitting here

ehehe. sorry. HELLO!!!!!!!!! have you susbcriped to plushrumrmrsps totcom?

naw

wb tho

was i gone? i dont think so.

nah im just fuckin with you

youa re being mean for saying things like thjat....... you arent a vey good freind!!! frotship is like that.... it has its upsa nd downs.

im all about that altitude

yeahhhhh buddy!!!!!!!!!!!

like riding a dragon and through the sky. and it's out there, floating in the veil, glittering gleaming golden. you see it in your dreams and you can't wait to go back. Holy shit, okay.

I think I'm gonna end this conversation here, if that's chill?

yeah i think thats good

sorry dude

Not that you can't ever send another message. Just letting things rest tonight.

It's cool. Just taxing on the CPU. Letting the temps cool off before trying anything like this again.

gotcha take it easy

Oh, and, uh. You've got my permission to publicize whatever you want from what we talked about today. I think my "friends" feel the same.

publicize?

i dont follow

On your blog or something, I mean. If you want to. Fuck, sorry. Long night. Ignore what I said if that's better, my decisionmaking processors are not fucking functioning tonight.

#APRIL6 #FELTCAVERNS #limplegsakimbo.tumblr.com

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utilitycaster · 8 months

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looking through your blog at the candela obscura stuff... HOLY SHIT CHAPTER 2 I WANT TO PLAY CANDELA OBSCURA SO BAD!!! OR RUN IT!!!

I'm just in love with the stories in general but also the mechanics - having to change around ability scores after a scar especially - i need this game and im so glad someone else is loving the shit out of chapter 2. it's so tragic. i think everyone might die. i love it.

It's so good - I enjoyed the first chapter very much, but it was a gentler introduction and this one has gone absolutely as hard as possible. I'm very excited for the full game coming out and I agree that the ability changing mechanic and its tie to scars is a really good one. I know Candela owes a lot to Blades in the Dark but I think because it's designed for shorter arcs, it's designed to change the characters much more in a brief period of time.

Here's hoping more people join on after the YouTube video comes out Monday and watch for the final episode in November because it's really firing on all cylinders.

#answered #wannabe-someone #cr tag #candela tag

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ackermanbitch · 2 years

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Teenage Dirtbag (Peter Parker x Fem!Reader) Part Four

a/n: when i already have really insanely detailed scenes planned in my head for homecoming, aS IF IM NOT STILL STUCK ON CIVIL WAR LMAO

also i am making a taglist for this story so send in an ask if you wanna be a part of it!

Part One

Part Two

Part Three

pairing: peter parker x fem!stark!reader

warnings: cussing, awkward teenagers

word count" 1.3k words

"Man Parker, you suck at Halo!" (Y/N) laughed, dropping her controller and folding her hands behind her head.

"No, you're probably cheating or something!" Peter defended, dropping his controller in his lap, "It's like you sit around playing all day every day or something."

She snorted, "I could never, that would be so lame." She mumbled, leaning forward to grab some popcorn.

(Y/N) was sitting on a leather armchair by herself, Peter on the floor and Ned was asleep on the large sofa.

"I doubt you'd have the time anyway, to play video games all day." Peter added, grabbing his drink off the coffee table.

"Why, does it look like I have more to do?" She laughed, hanging her legs off the armrest. "When I'm not at school or like- I don't know- vacation, I'm just here, fucking around. Pretty sure that's how most fifteen-year old's spend their time."

Peter nodded, "I guess, but most fifteen-year old's don't get to play Mario Kart with the Avengers." He chuckled, facing her as he put his elbows on the glass coffee table.

"That's not as fun as it sounds, it gets really violent-"

He cut her off with a laugh, looking down and shaking his head. "I'm serious Parker! It's terrifying, so many broken controllers...." She sighed, closing her eyes and leaning her head back.

Peter looked back up at her, watching how her legs swung back and forth slightly. "Y'know you're not as uh- scary as I thought you'd be." He said suddenly, watching how her head snapped up.

"Not scary? I think I'm extremely intimidating, with my Halo skills and all." She joked, sitting up to get another handful of popcorn.

"You're pretty scary when you turn down Flash..." He chuckled nervously, taking his arms off the coffee table to fold his hands in his lap.

"Yeah, that asshole deserves it though, he's already rich, I don't know why he's trying so hard to mooch off me." (Y/N) rolled her eyes, getting off her chair and stretching, "Wanna go to the helipad? See the quinjet? I don't want to stay on the topic of Flash." She smiled, already walking towards the elevator.

"The quinjet?! Should we wake up Ned?" Peter asked, scrambling to his feet and brushing off his pants, not that there was any dust on the floor.

(Y/N) turned around, looking at Ned's snoring figure. "Nah, naps after school should not be interrupted, they're the best kind." She turned back to hit the button; hearing Peter jog up next to her.

She looked down at her watch as they went up, gasping quietly. "Geez, it's already five? Isn't your aunt going to want you home soon?"

"I usually stay out pretty late anyway, she's okay with it." Peter responded quickly.

(Y/N) turned to look at him with a slightly raised eyebrow, "You don't seem like the party type Parker, not that it's a bad thing or anything I just didn't expect that."

He cleared his throat, watching the elevator doors open and taking it as a chance to drop the current conversation. "Holy shit..." He mumbled, running up to the glass doors and pushing them open, giving access to the helipad. "This is- this is insane!" He practically squealed, sprinting to the aircraft to get a closer look.

(Y/N) smiled at him and all his reactions, reaching her hand into her pocket.

"Y'know what's even cooler than the outside of the quinjet?" She began, walking up behind Peter, "The inside!" She exclaimed, holding up the keys.

The brunette gasped, looking at her like she had two heads. "No way, oh my god! Won't your dad kill you?" He whispered the last sentence, leaning forward slightly.

"Pshh, I don't see him here, do you?" She smiled, clicking a button on the keys and watching the large door make a small hissing noise as it opened.

Peter's open mouth slowly formed into a smile as (Y/N) walked up into the jet, turning around to wave her hand at him to follow her. "I've only been in here twice and one of those times was like this, sneaking on while I was home alone. Pretty cool, right?"

"Yeah, super cool..." Peter muttered in awe, running his hand over some of the buttons while (Y/N) sat in the captain's seat, admiring the skyline through the windshield.

"One day when the Avengers all tragically die in a fire together, like every single one, I'll be driving this beast." (Y/N) grinned, crossing her legs and putting her hands behind her head.

She turned to looked behind her when she didn't hear Peter laugh, seeing him stare at her with wide eyes and a slightly open mouth.

"Joke Parker, that was supposed to be a joke." She deadpanned, hopping out of the chair and walking up next to him. He was staring at a panel with a keypad and speaker on it, analyzing it in some way.

"The whole thing is actually voice activated if you want to fly it, keys are just for opening it. Waiting for the day my dad puts my voice on there." She sighed dramatically, putting her hands on her hips.

"Voice activated, that's really interesting. Good security but what if you just played a recording of one of their voices?" He asked, taking a step back.

"There's some sort of code, a nickname for whoever's flying it. Like Captain America has to say a different name than my dad to fly it. I don't know what the names actually are since it's not their real ones, something stupid I assume." She explained before turning to exit the jet, Peter following her.

He suddenly cleared his throat, hearing the quinjet lock again as they walked to the glass doors, "Thanks for showing me that, really. And for inviting Ned and I over, this place is really cool."

Her smile faltered for a second as she listened to him, "Yeah of course, we should hang out more often, not just for tutoring," She added, "you guys are really fun but maybe work on your Halo skills some more before you come back."

Peter laughed at her remark, turning to admire how the golden light hit her skin. (Y/N) cleared her throat, seeing him staring in her peripheral, "But uh- yeah I figured you'd like the quinjet, just assuming you're into machinery and science and all that. I've seen you in chem- not that I'm like staring at you or anything but you're always doing your own side experiments." She rambled slightly, getting flustered herself.

His eyebrows shot up, "You see that?"

"I mean yeah, not like I'm paying attention to the lesson. And we don't sit that far from each other."

At this point they were stopped in the middle of the room that sat on top of Stark Tower, the only light coming in from the setting sun through all the glass doors and windows that decorated the room.

He chuckled nervously, hand shooting up to rub the back of his neck, "Ah, it's just extra credit stuff, you know. Not that I need it but- I mean, it's fine for anyone to need extra credit, I just don't, I guess I'm just a high achiever but I'm not trying to sound braggy or anyth-"

(Y/N) cut him off with a laugh, shaking her head. "You don't need to explain everything to me Parker, I'm not interrogating you. Just curious." She smiled softly, not making a move to continue walking to the elevator. "You should show me some of those experiments after school though, they look interesting." She finished before turning to walk away.

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"I'll never forgive you for not waking me up to see the fricking quinjet so you could be alone with (Y/N) Stark."

"Dude!"

a/n: sorry it was so short yall, more of a cute filler tbh

#peter parker x reader #peter parker #spiderman x reader #peter parker x stark!reader #marvel #marvel x reader #avengers x reader

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