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0alanasworld0 · 1 year

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Celebrity Crush (Pablo Gavi x reader) *request

Request: Hii can u do gavi having a crush on actress reader and he reveals it after being asked abot his celeb crush in an interview :) ♡

A/N - I know that this request has been completed before but I've always wanted to write one of these and I think that my take is sufficiently different from the other writer's -> I feel justified in posting it. I hope that makes sense lol

Warnings: none

“The love of your life is gonna be there, eh!” Pedri pokes at his best friend’s shoulder, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively. Pablo scoffs, one tiktok post on his screen is all it took for his little crush to become the team’s hot gossip. And it’s been a month!

“Are we really still on this?” gavi groans, throwing a hand over his face in an attempt to cover the blush of embarrassment as his teammates cackle around him. The joys of being the youngest (!)

“Hey, it's completely natural to have feelings lik-”

“No no no no no I can’t deal with this today!” He grabs his bag and stomps out of the locker room, shaking his head with a huff. He would never dare admit this to his friends but my god if you weren’t the most stunning woman he had ever come across. Everything about you just oozed grace and elegance. Your voice was smooth and honeyed, striking eyes and a dazzling smile. You had an aura that just drew people towards you yet a shyness: there’s a little glimpse into how nervous the attention made you but you were still an infectiously positive influence on those around you. It certainly wouldn’t be surprising knowledge to anyone that Pablo had a little crush on you, many did. BUT the idea of you ever getting an idea of those feelings from the internet just made him cringe. He didn’t want to join a roster with those creeps. He didn’t even know you!

It was all an especially sensitive topic to him since you had mentioned being a football fanatic in a recent interview and you did express admiration for a certain La Liga goalkeeper that had him slightly disgruntled. However, when you also mentioned a certain Catalonian team as a favourite, he was shocked to say the least. You spoke very highly of them and it was becoming more and more apparent that you likely knew of him. Were you a fan? Did you just think of him as some stupid kid like everyone else? Have you ever been to one of his games and if so how did he not see you??

“So, you’re pretty new and upcoming so there's an air of mystery around you. I mean, we really don’t have anything on you! For a break-out star, it's a bit weird, don’t you think?” the host says, elbow propped up on the table with her head resting on their hand.

“Yeah, I get that but suppose I’ve been a bit of a recluse my whole life uh… I don’t know! I’m not always on social media and I haven’t really done many interviews so I guess there never really is much of an opportunity? Even with the press stuff I have done, it’s all been very much focused on the show itself so y’know…” you trail off with a bit of uncertainty, wringing your hands under the table.

“Well, I’m gonna try and change that! We’re gonna treat this kinda like a first date, just a basic get-to-know-you type scenario, you cool with that?” she asks tentatively

“Yeah that sounds pretty good!”

“Okay let's start easy uh… favourite colour?”

“I feel like the range between blue and green is pretty solid, what do you like doing outside of work?”

“I’m kind of a soccer fanatic, actually! I used to be a die-hard football fan but something about soccer just makes it feel so much more energetic y’know?” You nod in agreement, smiling at the shared interest, perking up a bit.

“I have to agree with you on that one. I used to play all the time when I was a little kid and I burned out on it as a teenager but seeing it regain that energy over recent years is something so special!”

“Exactly! I really think we’re meshing here!” you both laugh as you jokingly hold hands over the table.

“Okay okay back to the subject matter, what's your favourite league?”

“The EPL.” you say, mouth twitching as the laugh threatens to break out. The interviewer narrows her eyes and takes her hands back, cocking her head to the side. The silence only makes it harder until both of you burst out into laughter, tearing up a little bit.

“Okay no be real…” the interviewer struggles to get the words out through the giggles. You finally manage to settle down and get the words out.

“Honestly I think that La Liga has really been seeing a revival. I still love the Bundesliga and Serie A but it's been super interesting to see the quality of La Liga go up so dramatically.” The interview nods and hums in interest. She raises her eyebrow with her next question.

“Any favourite players?”

“I can’t say any names for fear of it actually reaching them but the goalkeeping last season was stellar and I think that the Zamora trophy was very well earned.” ducking your head down as a small blush appears on your face. The interviewer smirks but continues.

“Okay fine but you have to have a favourite team?”

“Within La Liga, Barcelona has been super inspiring! It was a pretty tough time losing such consistent and reliable talent especially under those circumstances where they didn’t want to leave but I would have never expected a revival like this!”

“Tell me about it, and to come from such young players too?!”

“Exactly, it’s wonderful to see them be so resourceful given their… situation and it’s clearly working so I’d say that those promotions were very wise decisions on their part!”

…..

The teasing had always been there since the team found out about it but it took an upturn after that interview. Fans were picking up on the idea given the fact that the pair of you were the same age. The edits rolled in much more quickly than what he expected: the sensual music, the mashups of his and your best moments, the illusion of the pair of you looking at each other. He doesn’t understand how they did it and he’s angry at the fact that he isn’t more offended by people imagining you as a couple. He wasn’t overjoyed by the ones of you and Pedri or a certain Moroccan goalkeeper that you referred to in the interview but nevermind. He couldn’t help but be a little curious about whether you two would be compatible. I mean it wasn’t too outlandish of an idea was it? You’re both young, struggling with fame, passionate, who knows maybe-

“Pablo, I’m begging you: get your head out of the clouds and pull it together!” his agent yells, throwing an empty water bottle in his direction.

“When are you free for a fitting?”

“... Huh?” he breathes out deeply, pinching the bridge of his nose and closing his eyes in annoyance. The poor man just needs this one date sorted for the gala, he just wants to go home and yet here they are. All he needs is about a minute of focus.

“Okay if I have to say this one more time, I’m throwing the whole water drum at you.” the boy gulped, eyes widening at the threat, nodding vigorously as he straightened his back. Julian was a lovely guy with the patience of a saint and Pablo was grateful to have him as a publicist but he had his limits.

“Y’know that premiere Robert was going to?”

“Vaguely” Julian raises his eyebrows at that. This show has been on everyone’s lips for a good few months and to add to that, a particular name was frequently attached that would have been very familiar. Nonetheless, he chooses not to press. He just wants to get this all over and done with.

“Right well, some idiot insisted that he needed to do some promotional stuff instead so you’re going… well if you can actually cooperate and help me sort out a fitting date, that is.” he says, eyes narrowed at Gavi. Sighing out when he realises that the message has finally been received.

“Wait wait wait, why can’t pedri go?!” Julian decides that he will, in fact, push.

“Okay, I just told you that you’re going to be able to attend a premiere for the film that the love of your life is leading and you’re asking me why someone else can’t go?” Gavi looks down and plays with his fingers. Julian shakes his head, let's get this over with.

“No, magically no one else is available. Let’s get this fitting done at 10:00pm tomorrow, yeah?” any chances of being flexible are long gone, his patience running very thin. Julian hurries out of the room, holding his hand out to prevent Pablo from saying anything that would prolong the conversation.

“You do realise that this girl literally has no reason to dislike you, right?” Pedri says, looking up from his phone to see Gavi messing around with his tie and rolling his eyes.

“Apart from the fact that I’m largely advertised as a player with a giant ego and no anger management skills?” Gavi huffs. Sure, your comments on the team were largely positive but you had to have seen some of the famous outbursts.

“Hermano, I can assure you that the way that you play completely overshadows the angry chihuahua behaviour. If she can’t see that, then she’s not worth your time.” he shrugs. Oh if only it were as simple as that. Pedri may have been right but the fact of the matter was that he wanted you to like him. You were ethereal and the idea of you not liking him made his chest tighten.

“See! This is what I mean! I doubt she’d have any interest in an ‘angry chihuahua’” Gavi turns around to face his best friend, aggressively air quoting.

“C’mon man, I was only joking.” Pedri gets up to give him a reassuring hug. He can sense that his friend is still extremely nervous so he releases the hug before continuing.

“Look, she seems nice enough and she likes the team. The most you have to worry about is the great wall of Morocco sweeping her off her feet before you.” patting his cheek with a smile. Gavi looks away and huffs again but is unable to hold back the smile. Okay, that was funny. He’d never admit that, though. Thank goodness, he’s married.

“Oy, apparently that Gavi kid is gonna be there!” your ears perk up at your friend’s comment. ‘That Gavi kid’ was a phenomenal footballer and very quickly caught your attention the first time you saw him play live. The guys you’re constantly having to deal with are all the same type with very little motivation or ability to do the simplest of things. The fact that there was someone around your age having the talent, motivation and passion to play for (and help resurrect) one of the most iconic teams in the world as well as his national team was so incredibly attractive to you. His doe-eyes and fluffy, chocolate brown hair definitely helped him out in the looks area as well.

“He seems like a sweet guy, I happen to think we’d get along quite well actually!” your cheeks heat up as a shy smile makes its way onto your face.

“Oh there's no doubt about that! Being swept off your feet by Barca’s golden boy is very on-brand for you! And have you SEEN those edits, wow!” She fans herself jokingly as you throw a pillow at her head.

“Okay that's enough of that. Now I beg you just choose between one of these!” you’re holding up the two dresses you spent ages narrowing down to.

“Girl, you’re going to be the star of the show, those edits will be up and out regardless of whether your dress is cerulean blue or midnight blue.” you roll your eyes as you eye the 2 dresses once more.

“What has gotten into you? You usually have this stuff picked out weeks in advance!”

“I don’t know, just having some doubts is all.”

“Look, I promise that your lover boy is going to be blown away with either of these.”

The taxi ride feels like forever. He’s redone his tie more times than he could count. He’s been keeping a close eye on every rumoured attendee’s social media to try and up his morale but finally, they make it to the venue. It’s all glammed up with lights lining up the red carpet. It leads to the doors which are strictly guarded by 2 burly men in all black. The odd nightclub visit may have felt normal to the poor boy but not this. It's a little too much and just as he thought he had calmed down, the nerves make their unwelcome return and his hands are sweating again.

The second he opens the taxi door, the cameras start flashing and people start yelling his name. Gavi takes the time to thank his driver, passing over a generous tip before slowly exiting. Why do they have to be like this? Why do I have to be like this? He asks himself. The suit that he had made to his form by the finest tailors just days prior suddenly felt too tight. It was some of the most expensive material yet it now felt scratchy and coarse against his skin. It was all suffocating: the noise, the lights, the smell; everything. He rushes down the carpet with his head down, ignoring the requests to smile for the camera. The words were barely intelligible anyway.

The temporarily converted mall is still extremely busy and loud but the lack of paparazzi and yelling was a change he felt very grateful for. The noise is more energetic chatter and less ear-shattering screeches as the walk-in was. He sighs in relief when he sees a familiar face.

“Ah, Gavira! You made i- what’s wrong?” his teasing smile turns into a look of concern.

“What?! Nothing! Why would you ask that?” he’s rambling, still rattled from the entrance.

“Oh hermano you look like you’re about to cry!” Julian gives him a hug which Pablo gladly accepts. It’s just a lot. He has nothing to ground him or divert his attention like the pitch does. There is probably a reason why Robert is usually the one to go to events like this.

“Look, I know that the entrance was a bit much but I promise you, that was the hard part. Now it's just gonna be a couple interviews, some less chaotic photos, try to talk to some of the actors here… you’ll have fun, okay?” Gavi nods with a semi-enthusiastic smile on his face, it probably looked more like a grimace but nevertheless.

It’s been a big improvement from the first impression and Gavi is enjoying himself. He didn’t have very many photos taken at all and it’s been a relief to see footballers other than himself dotted around. Talking to them, among some of the actors, has given him some reprieve. It isn’t so bad after all.

The first interview isn’t too much of a hassle for him either. He’s used to much less friendly people than this.

“So, it must be pretty crazy to receive such high praise from such a highly coveted actress, huh?”

“I mean, yeah! She didn’t refer to me directly but it’s awesome anyway. I’m glad our team is still inspiring so many people and that SOMEONE understands the approach Xavi is taking!” he manages to get a little chuckle out of the man which releases some tension. He continues.

“No seriously, she’s an insanely beautiful and talented person so it really is an honour to hear it from someone of her calibre.” gavi says with a wistful smile on his face, cheeks heating up at the mere thought of you being aware of his existence. The interviewer smirks but keeps things rolling, that footage was going to be golden.

“On a more personal note, thank you for what you’re doing for Barca and the national team. Absolutely phenomenal coming from someone so young and I can’t begin to describe how excited I am to see how things work out for you in the future.” Well that's very different from what he’s used to hearing from older fans. It warms his heart.

“Thanks man, that seriously means so much to hear!” They give each other a bear hug before he walks off, relaxed and confident. But the second he turns around, it all dissipates. There you are, in all your glory. You’re not even doing anything intentionally model-esque, simply looking down and readjusting your dress as you wait for the journalists and camera crew in front of you to have everything set up. It's a moment he feels guilty for intruding on but you smooth down your dress, smiling as you twirl around in it. He’s mesmerised within seconds of seeing you in person, the photos don’t do you justice. At all.

He can’t hear what you’re saying and doesn’t dare get any closer but the second you start speaking you have everyone’s attention. He can tell whenever someone is complimenting you as your hands move to cover your cheeks as they heat up. He wonders how you feel about the small crowd gathering around you. Did you ever get as nervous as he did? Was this stressful for you too? He’s brought out of his thoughts as the crowd laughs quietly at a comment you made. Oh and she’s funny too? Of course she is!

Much to his disappointment, Julian is dragging him off to another interview before he could even muster up the courage to go and talk to you, with the crowd beginning to disperse. He stills looks back at you, heart pounding as you make eye contact. He sees you offering a little wave before he loses you among the people. Your smile was breath-taking but smiling directly at him was a whole different story. The rest of the interviews couldn’t last any longer, or at least he felt that way. He just wanted to see you again now, nothing else was on his mind.

That idea was a lot harder in practice, he learned. You’re right there, swirling your sprite can at the drinks bar, looking up and around every now and then. He’s been dawdling for about ten minutes now, “figuring out what to say.” He looks up every once in a while, you’re playing with your dress again and you still look just as mesmerising. Julian has had enough of the situation, pushing Pablo towards you and walking off before the boy could try to hide behind him.

“Oh my gosh, hi! It’s Pablo, right?” good lord you’re somehow even more gorgeous up close and he doesn’t know what to do with himself. Have you seen that interview? They posted that one clip very quickly and he’s extremely anxious at the idea of you being spammed with the clip. It’s a shame he hadn’t been paying attention to the posts other than his interview clip. Or listened when he saw you being interviewed.

“That's me!” he says, laughing nervously.

“I’ve honestly been wanting to meet you for so long!” you say with a bright smile on your face, bouncing up and down on your toes with excitement. You can’t resist giving him a hug and he thinks his heart is going to burst out of his chest any time soon. You smell absolutely divine and he’s trying to commit the whole moment to memory. You take his hand and pull him to an area behind all of the giant posters where things are a little quieter.

“I could say the same about you, I mean you’re just…wow!” He’s properly kicking himself. One chance to look cool in front of you and he’s fucked it up.

You’re so caught up in the excitement of talking with Pablo Gavi that you forget the fact that you elicit the very same feelings in him.

“No, seriously you’re incredible! I usually find defensive tactics more interesting but you are absolutely explosive in midfield! I haven’t seen anyone play quite like that for ages!” you gush. Pablo couldn’t be more grateful that everyone forced him to come here. You liked him! You liked him!

“It's honestly just what I love doing, I suppose the passion builds into the output…” he trails off as you nod enthusiastically, giving him a reassuring smile and eagerly waiting for him to continue. You don’t like eye contact very much but his hazel eyes are truly gorgeous and you can’t bring yourself to look away.

“Hey, enough about me, this is a big day for you! You’re finally getting the recognition you deserve!” he says, gaining a bit of his confidence back and nudging you lightly. You can feel your cheeks heat up.

“Eh, the me-fest was fun online but holy shit am I tired of it after this!” you laugh together and simultaneously realise that you’re still holding onto each other's hands. It just feels too right to let go.

“Do you hate the noise as much as I do?” you whisper in his ear. He feels a chill run down his spine from your warm breath and goosebumps form immediately. He nods softly, confused and suspicious of the mischievous look in your eyes.

“What’s on your mind, bonita?” he narrows his eyes, squeezing your hands lightly, waiting for you to elaborate.

“There’s a park literally 2 minutes away from here! if we manage to make an escape, we can get away from all the noise, look up at the stars…” you trail off, waiting for his response. He seems to have a permanent smile etched on his face with you but it widens with your idea. He wraps an arm around your shoulder and you begin to weave in and out of the crowd which has begun to disperse a little already.

The pair of you make it out unscathed, giggling to each other as you look back to make sure you haven’t been caught. He keeps his arm where it is, again it just feels too right. You reach one of the park benches and decide to take your seats. The dim glow of the street lamp above you illuminates your features and he can’t help but stare. Your eyes are focused on the stars, you’re holding out your hand to map out the stars you were familiar with. Your other hand is gripping the bench and he inches his own closer and closer but he has an idea of his own. He doesn’t know how but he’s thankful that his confidence resurfaces once more as he stands up, holding a hand out to you. Your focus returns to him and you cock your head to the side in confusion.

“Dance with me” the idea makes you all giddy inside but you can’t help but tease

“Without music?” He sighs in faux-annoyance as he opens his phone to play a soft tune, propping it up on the blazer he opts to take off. He’s a sight for sore eyes in the crisp, white button-up. He offers his hand to you again but you oblige this time. You squeal slightly as he unexpectedly pulls you towards his body, instinctively placing a hand on his chest while his free hand finds a place on the small of your back. His hazel eyes are so much prettier up close. He simply can’t believe that this is happening. You both fall into a rhythm together as you move to the soft melody.

“I’m a genius.”

“Of many things” he says with a wistful sigh, smiling softly.

The butterflies in your tummy grow more and more restless as your faces grow closer together. You can feel his warm breath on your face and you can see the little scars that adorn his face. The hand that rested on his chest slides up towards his face to cup his cheek and his eyes flutter to a close for a second as he relishes the warmth. You’re both breathing heavier, almost panting, even though nothing has happened yet. Your eyes are frantically flickering over each other's features, desperately trying to commit even the most minute detail to memory. Your gaze lingers on his pretty pink lips for a second too long and like that: you’re the first to give in. you pull him towards you, finally capturing his lips in a soft kiss. He tenses for a moment, mind completely blanking as he attempts to process what is happening. Just as quickly, he relaxes and pulls you even closer to him, if that were even possible. The taste of your watermelon flavoured lip gloss was borderline addictive and the softness of his lips had you feeling dizzy. You part slowly and reluctantly for breath, your hands stay in each other's hair as you stare into each other’s eyes.

“Promise you’ll call?” you say as the taxi pulls up at your place. You really have no idea just how infatuated he was with you.

“I swear on my life, bonita. I’ll call the second I get home!” he smiles, pulling you in for the final kiss of the night before you open the car door and leave. Before entering your place, you turn around to give him a wave, smiling widely as he waves back. You kick off your heels and flop onto the couch, a wide smile plastered on your face as you recall the events of the night: he, Pablo Gavi, really liked you.

Pablo tries to close the door quietly behind him, finally returning home after going rogue at the premier with you. The lamp in the corner of the living room flickers on, spooking him as he sees Pedri sitting there, wide awake and waiting.

“Look, I know I should have called about where I was but I swear I know how to handle myself I just-”

“Yeah yeah whatever, I couldn’t care less about that Gavira. You owe me something.” Pablo is stumped, his tired mind can’t wrap around what his friend is trying to get at.

“An apology? I was trying before I got rudely interru-” Pedri turns the laptop around so the screen is facing his best friend.

Oh god no, this was all much quicker than anticipated. No words can be heard and the camera quality is rather shaky but the faces are obviously you and him. The camera has captured the moment where you drag him to behind the posters to talk privately, your hands resting in his, and they capture the pair of you walking off back into the crowd together in the middle of the escape.

Pedri gets up, places the laptop on the table and goes to ruffle Pablo’s hair and then shakes him by the shoulders.

“I told you she was into you! I told you! You’re such an idiot I swear!” Gavi rolls his eyes, mouth twitching as he tries to hold off a smile. He doesn’t want to reveal all the details yet but it was a magical night, to say the least.

“C’mon you have to tell me something!” Gavi looks down as a blush dusts his cheeks.

“She said she wants to see me again,” he says, stretching the back of his neck. Pedri wraps him in a tight hug.

“I’m always right, see?”

“Whatever!” Gavi retorts with a smile, jogging up to his room. He’s itching to call you. Pedri lets him go in peace, oh he’s going to be relentlessly teasing the poor man in the morning.

Once Pablo reaches his room, he quickly unbuttons the shirt, throwing it to the side before falling onto the bed, sighing in relief as the cool and crisp sheets felt like heaven against his burning hot skin. The effect you had on him clearly hasn’t worn off just yet. He opens his phone and immediately goes to call you. A smile immediately makes its way onto his face as he hears your voice.

“Did you make it home safely?”

“As per instruction, bonita.” he thinks he can hear your smile over the line. Oh this was the start of something beautiful.

I’m sorry this has taken so long, lovelies. I have a lot on my plate and have been feeling a little demotivated but I've been feeling a lot better recently so hopefully I can start posting more often again! I hope you enjoy this one xxx

#pablo gavi #gavi #gavi imagine #gavi x reader #pablo gavi imagine #footballer fic #footballer imagine

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miru667 · 1 year

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Hi, i watched the lorax for the first time since i was a kid like a week ago thanks to its recent tiktok fame with #ifithasascreentheloraxwillbeseen

as a kid i used to be obsessed with like behind the scenes dvd extras and cut content from movies and tv shows, so i always watched the extras menu stuff, and would look up them on the internet too, i still do that to this day,

after watching the lorax i decided to look and see if there was any cut scenes or maybe some finished unused animation, but instead i found a cut song called

Biggering (demo version)

i listened to it and noticed how similar it was to how bad can i be, so i dug more and more and learned all about it and the early version of the lorax

and by looking for more info on this movie because my autism brain decided to latch onto this movie, i found your page, so i have to ask, what else is there to know about biggering, and the early version of the lorax, as i still know very little about it, and since you are apparently a onceler og, what was your reaction to biggering and the story details that left with it when it was cut from the movie?

Welcome to the Once-ler fandom! 😊

Biggering is a mysterious song, no one who worked on The Lorax has said anything about it as far as I know, so we can only analyze it on our own. It's been around since the beginning of the fandom in 2012 and was popularized by Gloria's fan animatic back then: [link] which I'm sure you've already watched by now.

Here were my thoughts about the song when someone asked me a few years ago: [link] and I still stand by them. We've since learned that the animation team didn't want to make a dark movie: [link] They believed that animated movies should be bright and colourful, or at the very least they wanted to depict the fun tone of Dr Seuss's works, so I think that gives us a clue as to why they decided not to use Biggering.

We can only imagine what the film would've been like if it had a darker and more serious vibe. Fortunately, the fandom has provided many, many, many fanworks to make up for it. 😎 And we'll always have the perfection of the 1972 Lorax movie anyway; I hope you've seen it already too but just in case you haven't: [link]

To learn more about earlier Lorax concepts and things that were cut from the movie, you can browse this tag on my blog, which I have been building up meticulously for 11 years: https://miru667.tumblr.com/tagged/concept%20art

Thank you for sending me an ask! ;w; I'm on a two hour train ride currently so it was perfect timing haha

#biggering #shiningmew1230 #onceler #the lorax #miruask #reference #i hope this was helpful!

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sequinsmile-x · 10 months

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Stained Glass Windows - Chapter Thirty Eight

Life was complicated, but they wouldn't have it any other way.

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Hi friends!!

Even though it's my birthday today, I thought I'd post a little something as a thank you for all of you being so sweet and kind to me all of the time.

Also, this chapter of Stained Glass Windows brings my entire word count to 1.5 million words of fanfic. 1.5 million words of Hotchniss!! Thank you if you've ever interacted with anything I've written, I cannot express how happy those little emails from Ao3, or notifications from Tumblr makes me.

I love you all very much!

On a different note, there will a new fic in this universe full of smutty little outtakes. It will be called Obsidian and will be up soon so keep an eye out!

This chapter is partially based on a request I got a little while ago that I promised to fit into this fic, and a Tiktok I saw of a very pregnant woman crying over fast food!!

-x-

Words: 2.9k

A full list of warnings for the fic can be found on the Series Master List and will be updated as we go along.

Read over on Ao3, or below the cut

Emily grumbles as she straightens her dress as she looks at her reflection in the mirror, huffing out a breath as her hands fall to her sides.

“It’s useless.”

Aaron turns to look at her, clearing his throat to hide a smile he knows will get him in trouble if she catches him. The dress was dark red, a colour that reminded him of their favourite wine, and fit her perfectly, hugging every curve and extenuating her bump in a way that made his heart skip a beat. She was gorgeous, getting impossibly more beautiful every single day, and he felt lucky to call her his wife.

If only he could get her to believe him.

He knew throughout her pregnancy she’d struggled with the changes to a body that no longer felt like her own, and no matter how much he reassured her that she looked incredible, no matter how clear it was that he was even more desperate for her than ever, he could still see the doubt lingering in the edges of every smile. The way she’d stare at herself in the mirror a little longer than she ever had before, a critical look in her eyes as she looked at the stretch marks that had started to bloom across her stomach in recent weeks.

“What’s useless, sweetheart?” he asks, even though he already knows the answer, and he walks across the room to wrap his arms around her from behind. He presses a kiss to her neck as he places his hands on her belly, smiling at the familiar feeling of the baby rolling around.

“I look…huge,” she grumbles, scrunching her nose up, “And my big fat elephant feet won’t fit into the shoes I bought to go with this dress.”

“Em-”

“I know, I know,” she says, cutting off his platitudes, resting her head back on his shoulder as their eyes meet in the mirror, “‘You’re 36 weeks pregnant, Em,’” she says, clearly attempting to do an impression of him, deepening her voice and making it sound ridiculous at the same time, “‘Give yourself a break.’”

He shakes his head, ignoring her impression of him, and kisses her cheek, “It’s true,” he kisses her temple, “You’re beautiful.”

She hums and leans further back into him, shifting from side to side on her feet in a failed attempt to relieve some of the pressure on her hips. The baby had dropped recently, and whilst she was grateful that she could breathe a little easier, it had just transferred her discomfort elsewhere.

“Do we have to go?”

Aaron fails to hide his smile this time and she narrows her eyes at him in the mirror, a glare on her face that fades as quickly as it appears when he places his hands on her hips, to stop her from moving side to side, before he places his hands under her bump and lifts, taking the weight of the baby into his hands and giving her some much needed relief. She groans, a sound of contentment and relief as she turns her head to kiss his jaw, a silent thank you for him always knowing what she needed.

“To the baby shower/leaving party our friends are throwing to mark the fact today was your last day at work?” he asks, winking at her, “I think we probably have to make an appearance, yes.”

She scowls at him, “I hate baby showers.”

She’d been resistant to the idea of it from the start, entirely uncomfortable with being the centre of attention that way. It reminded her too much of the birthday parties her mother would throw her when she was young, grand events with people Emily didn’t even know invited along just another opportunity for Elizabeth to make connections, especially if they were somewhere new. But, Penelope had insisted, and Aaron had gently encouraged her to let her friend do this for her, a small way the technical analyst was desperately trying to claw their friendship back to what it had been before the incident with Emily’s father.

“Just think of all the free stuff we’ll get,” he says, and she hums in response.

“Yes, thank god. We never would have been able to afford it,” she says, her voice dripping with sarcasm, and he simply raises an eyebrow at her in the mirror. She tries to fight her smile but she can’t, her teeth sinking into her lower lip, “I know I’m being grumpy, but I’m very pregnant so I think I have the right.”

“You absolutely do, sweetheart,” he says, agreeing with her immediately, and she tilts her head back enough for him to stamp a kiss on her lips. He nods down towards her belly, still held up in his hands, “Ready?”

She blows out a breath and nods, “Yeah,” she says, not sure she’s ever loved him more as he gently relaxes the weight of the baby back into her pelvis, “We should get going, the sooner we get there the sooner we can leave.”

“That’s the spirit, sweetheart,” he says, turning her in his arms and kissing her before she can retort, “I’ll take you anywhere you want for whatever fast food you want afterward.”

Her eyes light up, excitement sparking in them for the first time all evening, and she pulls him in for a kiss, “I love you.”

He chuckles and shakes his head at her, “I love you too, Em.”

She smiles at him and reaches for his hand, “Come on, you’re going to have to help me force my sneakers onto my feet.”

He squeezes her hand and leads her out of the room and down the stairs, not so secretly delighted that she not only recognised that she needed his help, but was asking for it. Something that he knows wouldn’t have happened even a few weeks ago.

“Anything you need.”

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The baby shower is nowhere near as bad as she’d built it to be in her head. She has fun with her friends, overwhelmingly aware that her relationship with them will change once the baby is born, her priorities shifting as well as her job. It felt strange to think she was no longer part of the BAU, that she’d worked her last day on the team. The final hours fading away into paperwork and meetings, a quiet end to the last few years of her life that had changed everything.

This job had given her a family, a group of people who had once been strangers that she now knew her kids would call ‘aunt and ‘uncle’, and the love of her life. A man she could never have guessed would end up being as important to her as he was when they first met. He’d been married to someone else and clearly didn’t trust her at first, something he’d apologised for countless times since. Pinning the blame on the instability in his own life, how it was crumbling around him, and the timing of her arrival. He’d told her once, when he was a few drinks too deep in a team night out, that he also thought it was because he was attracted to her from the start, that he’d been pulled towards her even when he was still trying to save his marriage to Haley.

It was a romantic notion of sorts, and she also likes to think it was true. That they were so drawn to each other and so unsure what to do with the feelings, that they acted like schoolchildren. Metaphorically pulling at each other's hair in the playground until they realised it was better to be friends. Until they realised they were falling in love with each other.

She feels the baby kick particularly hard, hard enough that she knows if she wasn’t wearing anything she would have seen her skin move. It makes her wince, the sound turning into a chuckle as she rubs her skin over the place where she’d felt it.

“Are you ok, sweetheart?” Aaron asks, and she turns to look at him, smiling as their eyes meet, his pinched together with concern. He removes one of his hands from the steering wheel of their car and places it on her stomach, smiling when the baby moves again.

“Yeah,” she replies, reaching over and playing with his hair, running her fingers through it, “Nugget’s just hungry.”

He smiles at her, “Good thing we’re almost done in this line then,” he says, winking before he turns his attention to the drive-through he’d promised her on the way home, “The usual?”

She blushes, slightly embarrassed that this had become so normal over the last few months, and she clears her throat and nods, “Yes please,” she says, looking over at him in an attempt to distract herself from her hunger, an overwhelming feeling even though she’d eaten a fair amount of cake at the party Penelope had thrown, “Pen was…slightly over the top.”

The trunk of the car was filled to the brim with gifts, most of them from Penelope. Emily knows her friend was exuberant anyway, that she’d always shown her love through gift-giving and acts of service, but this was a new level entirely. There was no way the baby would ever get the chance to wear everything they’d been bought, even if they needed changing a dozen times a day.

“You know what she’s like sweetheart,” he says, reaching for her hand as he pulls the car forward slightly, “Plus, she’s trying to make up for what happened,” he lifts their hands to his lips and kisses her knuckles, “Not that any amount of baby clothes ever could.”

She hums, something close to guilt bubbling in her stomach, “Is it bad that I don’t want to forgive her yet?” she asks, turning to look at him, “Because I keep thinking I’m getting over it, that I’ll be able to move past it, but then I just feel so…angry again.”

“Sweetheart, you know as well as I do that you need to take this at your own pace,” he assures her, squeezing her hand before he lets go of it, both hands back on the wheel as he drives the final distance to the window, “What she did, whilst well intended, was incredibly invasive. You don’t have to forgive her if you’re not ready to.”

She nods and smiles tightly at him as he lowers his window and gives her order. She avoids eye contact with the McDonald’s server, who clearly recognises them, and looks out of her own window. She was grateful her father had seemingly taken what she’d said onboard. She hadn’t seen or heard from him since she’d told him to leave their home a month ago, but she still hated that he knew where she lived. That a part of him felt comfortable enough to show up after all of this time, that he felt as if he had some right to be part of her life after walking away. It made her sad, sometimes, to think that she was about to become a parent to a newborn herself without being in contact with either one of hers.

Her relationship with her mother had always been far from perfect. She’d never been the kind of mother Emily would have called in the middle of the night, panicked because the baby wasn’t latching on or their behaviour had changed ever so slightly, but that didn’t stop Emily from yearning for it. Some deep-seated, biological need which made her want her mom just as she was about to become one. It seemed cruel, more than anything, but she knew she couldn’t call her, couldn’t break the silence she’d created and insisted on, because it wouldn’t help any of them in the long run.

“Here you go, sweetheart.”

She turns to look at him, the smile on his face and the smell of the food pulling her out of her thoughts. She takes the bag from him gratefully and settles it in her lap, only half paying attention as he tells her that her drink is in the cup holder. She turns her nose up as the, usually enticing, scent of the fries and nuggets in front of her puts her off, and, for a reason she can’t quite explain, it’s suddenly the last thing on earth she wants to eat.

She looks over at Aaron, her eyes glancing over him as he pulls the car around to leave the parking lot, and she spots the smile on his face. The way he was always happy if he made her happy, loosening some of the tension in his shoulders, and she feels terrible. She sniffs, her lips sinking into her lower lip to try and stop it from trembling, and before she knows it’s sobbing, partially because she no longer wants to eat chicken nuggets, and partially because she feels so ridiculous for being so upset over something so small.

The sound of her crying immediately makes him snap into action, looking at her briefly, his eyes going wide with confusion and concern in equal measure as he spots her trying to capture her sob with her hand, tears streaming down her face. He parks the car into a spare space and turns off the engine, making sure all of his attention is on her.

“Sweetheart,” he says, reaching over and placing his hand on her thigh, squeezing tightly to get her attention, “What’s wrong?” He asks, cupping her cheek to tilt her head and make her look at him, “Are you upset about Garcia? I can talk to her if you want her to tone it down-”

She shakes her head, the action making more tears fall from her lashline, “It’s not that,” she says, growling at herself for the fact she can’t control the fact she’s crying, the emotions overwhelming and all-consuming in a way she still wasn’t used to even this far into her pregnancy, “I don’t want it.”

He frowns, confused as he wipes a tear from her cheek, “You don’t want what?”

“The food,” she chokes out, her chin wobbling, “You drove all the way here, past the house, and we were in line for ages but I just don’t want it anymore,” she says, her words catching on hiccupping sobs, “And I feel so fucking stupid because I’m crying over chicken nuggets like a crazy person.”

If she wasn’t so upset, a level of distraught he hadn’t seen from her since he’d been attacked by Foyet, and even then she’d tried to hide it from him, he’s sure that he’d try and make out of it to make her feel better. But instead, he leans forward, his seatbelt cutting into him slightly, and he kisses her forehead.

“I don’t care about any of that, baby,” he assures her, kissing her forehead again before he pulls back, “What do you want to eat?”

She shrugs half-heartedly, saying the first thing that comes to mind, “Pizza.”

He smiles at her encouragingly and takes the bag of food from her and places it on the back seat, “Then we’ll get you pizza and I’ll eat this when we get home.”

“You hate McDonald's,” she says, blowing out a steady breath as she wipes tears from her cheeks, her sobs dissipating as quickly as they had appeared.

He reaches for her hand and kisses her knuckles before he restarts the car, “Yes, but I love you. And I’d drive all over the damn state, or the country, at any time of night to get you whatever you want to eat if it makes you happy.”

She feels her lower lip tremble, his overwhelming love for her threatening to make her cry again just as she started to calm down, and she shakes her head, “Fuck, I am looking forward to not being pregnant anymore,” she says, running her hand over her stomach, hoping the baby took it as she intended it - a silent request to stay exactly where they were until they were full term, “I used to be able to look a sociopath in the eye as he held a gun to my head without flinching, now I cry at fucking everything.”

It was frustrating because she knows realistically that this wasn’t the end of it. That exhaustion and self-doubt and everything that came with having a baby would make her feel this on edge even after the baby was born, but right now that felt like the most achievable goal. The thought of having her baby in her arms enough to make any other worries disappear.

He smiles knowingly, holding back a comment that, from experience when Haley had Jack, this was only the start. The so-called ‘fourth trimester’ as they got used to their baby’s likes and dislikes, and a new schedule that would be entirely dictated by the tiniest Hotchner, would likely be even harder on them. He knows she knows that, that she’s read the same books as he has, so he leaves it, wanting nothing more than for her to just be as content as possible.

“Only four weeks to go, sweetheart.”

She smiles and nods, running her hand over her bump as the baby shifts again, “Yeah, only four weeks to go.”

-x-

Here's to the next 1.5 million words <3

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scp230kinnie · 1 year

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do you mind if i ask for some general hcs for your characterization of draven kondraki

maybe even some boyfriend hcs perchance... :]

ABSOLUTELY YES HELLO

IVE LIKE NEVER ACTUALLY SEEN ANYONE TALK ABOUT HIM BUT YES

Also once again for all the asks and submissions I am getting to all of them don’t worry 😻

Now I introduce to you

Draven Kondraki Headcanons

(General and relationship)

Characters: Draven Kondraki, mentions of foundation personnel

Warnings: cringe, gender neutral, blood & death & SCPs

ART NOT MINE !! ALL CREDITS TO ORIGINAL OWNER

General Headcanons

Being the son of one of the best, he is therefore very respected over at the foundation

He looks like he listend to slipknot tbh

His favorite band is Pierce the veil but he’s never gone to a concert, his dad won’t let him

Same

I’m gonna hc that he’s around 16-19 lol

He def smokes and he gets it from his father

AN AMAZING COOK AND BAKER FR

Looks like he would dye like bits of his hair bright colours

He tries to act chill and nonchalant but he’s not

If someone were to let him talk about something, he would for hours

He tries to convince clef to get Spotify premium because it’s the “best thing he’s ever done”

Nope

He drinks BLACK COFFEE

no sugar or creamer or anything

Also gets it from his dad

He drinks Mountain Dew for sure

He probably smells like a mix of cigarette smoke mixed with the smell of the morning after it rains

He paints his nails

Bro probably claims to be famous on tiktok but he probably has a private account with 31 followers

He’s got good style

He is also really good at interior design and knows where things should go

He KNOWS his way around the foundation

You will never get lost there with him he’s like a living map

He loves his dad no matter what like even if they fight and stuff he’s not generally one of those rebellious kids

Also not an angel child but still

My guy does not know how to dance

Relationship Headcanons

Let’s pretend he’s not dating Talloran okay

Okay

He’s canonically bi so HE WOULD LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT GENDER YOU ARE

Wear his clothes and he folds IMMEDIATELY

Loves that fr

Fav place to kiss is ur lips and forehead 💍

He likes to hold ur hands even tho his are always cold

Not the biggest fan of PDA but still probably will if you want

So much cuddles in private tho 🫶

He doesn’t like getting into fights with you but he would probably be really petty if you guys were in one

Sleeping on the couch and stuff 😭

Talks his dads ear off about you

Paint his nails and he’ll paint yours duh

If you also smoke he would be hypocritical and tell you to stop over him

If you were to write him letters, he would save every single one no joke

His love language is words of affirmation

He just loves to hear you say he’s doing a good job

He is almost never jealous but when he is he’s also really petty

He’ll go up to you while ur talking with another person and kiss you in front of them and hold ur waist n stuff

Then he’d like complain

He’ll forget about it dw

If you ever get hurt he will PANIC

Like examines your injuries makes sure nothings broken or cut too deep and helps fix you up

If someone he’s close to recently passed away I feel like he would get kinda distant for a bit

Just help him thru it 💪

He straight up MAKES YOU like his TikTok’s

LMFAO

His doesn’t really have any couple nicknames for you, just some variation of your name will do

His singing voice is so sweet. He doesn’t like to sing, but if you’re having a nightmare or something he will sing you back to sleep so gently I can’t even

He’s not usually around a lot so he likes to call you and just hear your voice

He also loves to see you smile

He memorized all of your orders in different restaurants and coffee shops so he can get you things

His dad knows ur dating and likes to tease him lol

Shows you his baby pictures LMAO

His dad does care about you tho, cuz he knows if anything happened to you, Draven would be devastated

You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to him

Sorry this was kinda rushed it’s 3 in the morning

Idk why I always choose to write late at night

I also don’t know too much about this character I read a bit of the stories and got a general idea, but otherwise this is what I came up with

Hope you enjoyed

Everyone leave more requests pls

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thenanamisimp · 5 months

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What I've watched recently (spoiler warning - see bold titles)

Before the tragedy of Jujutsu Kaisen season 2 episode 18 happened I had actually started watching Great Pretender. However, after the loss of a specific someone (Gege when I catch you) and a few days of mourning and crying at tiktok edits and angsty tweets, I couldn't bring myself to keep watching Great Pretender (I will get to it once I feel capable enough to commit to another series in a few days probably). I have instead caught up with some weekly anime that I've been watching this season as well as (finally) started reading MXTX's The scum villain's self saving system. Since I haven't posted in a few days, I wanted to share my opinions on the media that has been keeping me sane since the tragic loss of my favourite character (considering the situation as well as the fact that my average state of sanity is still slightly insane - take this with a grain of salt).

Jujutsu Kaisen (season 2, episode 18) - every Thursday on CrunchyRoll

The production team went above and beyond and I thank them for it. Nanami looked so peaceful in his imagination and I highly appreciate that they extended the couple pages from the manga into 7 minutes of perfection (I'm in so much pain)

Jujutsu kaisen (season 2, episode 19) - every Thursday on CrunchyRoll

Episode 18 felt like a fever dream and so did this one. To keep it short and sweet again (aka I don't wanna cry again), the production team did incredible work once again.

The apothecary diaries (season 1, episodes 1 to 8) - every Saturday on CrunchyRoll

I really wanted something short and more light hearted to watch - hence I finally decided to start this series. In reality I was planning to binge it when it finished airing but I was impatient. The story of an apothecary knowledgeable about poisons and medicine who serves one of the emperor's concubines - with the added bonus of a handsome fool who is in love with her while she doesn't seem to be interested at all! (Jinshi is so madly and hopelessly in love with Maomao it makes me die laughing every time she cringes at his flirting but also I LOVE HIM). THE ANIMATION AND COLOURS of this anime are incredible, there is literally no reason for anyone to not like this show. Absolutely watch this if you have even the slightest hunch you'd enjoy it

Spy x Family (season 2, episode 8) - every Saturday on CrunchyRoll

As a lover of season 1, I've been very excited for season 2. Up until episode 5 of season 2, I couldn't see what the plan with this season was but after the start of the cruise arc (I'm afraid to google the actual name of the arc - spoilers haunt me) my faith has been restored. We're back to exiting ventures with the Forger family, this time more focused on Yor's assassin adventures. Even more so, this episode was extra incredible as we got to see Yor in real action, fighting a storm of other assassins looking to kill the family she has been assigned to guard and looking hot while doing it. Spy x Family is truly an incredible shounen.

Ron Kamonohashi's Forbidden Deductions (season 1, episode 9) - every Monday on CrunchyRoll

I started this anime on release day and I started it for Ron. And I stayed for Ron. And mysteries (I do love me a good detective story). Overall, this anime is a good way to take a break from your daily routine by watching a mystery being solved in a comedic way while slowly also unfolding the bigger mystery of why the renowned Kamonohashi Ron stopped sleuthing. This week's episode finally gave us a good hint to his past! Honestly I wish more people were talking about this anime this season, it's so underrated.

And finally! I've been reading The Scum Villain's Self Saving System (Chinese name: Ren Zha Fanpai Zijiu Xitong), Mo Xiang Tong Xiu's first novel series. I've read both Heaven Official's Blessing (Chinese name: Tian Guan Ci Fu) and The Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation (Chinese name: Mo Dao Zu Shi) and every time she impresses me with her writing skills. While I really want to share my opinions on her novels, I would like to make a dedicated post for MXTX's novels once I finish all of them, as I've actually not read most the extras for either TGCF or MDZS and I've not finished reading Svsss. I'm also very (im)patiently waiting for my copies of TGCF volumes 5-8 to get here in the mail in the next few days. I do have to say tho, Svsss has surprised me as I find it to be quite different from MDZS and TGCF, which is valid considering it was her first release.

Thank you for reading this (mostly) anime ramble! Enjoy watching :)

theNanamiSimp

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sebastianthemadlad · 4 months

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I am annoyed with parents of gen alpha kids

So, shocker, gen alpha kids are basically being raised by the internet, this is just me gonna be ranting about it.

(keep in mind not all parents of gen alpha children do this or have bad intentions so please don't get upset with me)

So I began realising the state of gen alpha back in late 2022, when my then 7 and 8 year old sisters (who are not gen alpha but are very late gen z kids) were joking about sex, I was a bit concerned so I asked them how they knew what it was and who/what told them, I wasn't being intimidating or angry at them because I understand kids accidentally find out about sex all the time, wether that be from another kid telling them or them accidentally seeing a video about it, or simply hearing a joke about sex and not understanding it but repeating it because it sounds funny.

My sisters did nothing but laugh at me for asking. A few months later they were talking about sex again, so I asked them "What is sex?" Trying to see what they knew about it, my then 7 year old sister who we'll call G (we'll call the other F) said "Its when 2 people get naked, rub up against each other in bed and make funny noises" I'm grateful they didn't know the actual definition but its still concerning how they know what the word means.

My 2 sisters, mainly G as she's younger have been getting more out of control these past few years since covid. They have been OBSESSED with youtube shorts to the point where they barely watch actual full length youtube videos unless its a compilation of TikTok POVs, I've overheard some of the things said on the TikTok POV videos and surprise surprise, it talks about subjects that are not for kids like sex, drugs and the people in these POV videos often swear.

My sisters ALSO watch a lot of elsagate crap, you're probably wondering "but elsagate died down back in the late 2010's?" Well in recent years its resurfaced, instead of popular kids cartoon and movie characters like spiderman, mickey mouse, joker, peppa pig and of course, Elsa, they now use popular video game/internet characters like Huggy Wuggy, Skibidi Toilets, Freddy Fazbear and characters from the Amazing Digital Circus.

I was also a victim of elsagate as I was on youtube when the first wave hit, you will not believe the amount of "Elsa and Spiderman inject Joker with a needle and eat bugs" type videos I watched when I was young, and now that I know them videos probably did harm to me during my childhood I don't want it to happen to my siblings, majority of the authority figures in my life don't really care, most of them are millennials or even older, they don't really understand how the internet works and don't pay attention to the seemingly kid friendly elsagate videos my siblings watch on youtube long enough to see all of the innapropriate stuff happening in them, all they know is "G and F are watching a funny cartoon with that blue poppy playtime character"

Most of these new wave elsagate videos are fastly paced and overstimulating, I have heard this can have bad psychological effects on young kids, this is what causes them to have low attention spans and behaviour issues, I mean G literally got bored watching renaissance Disney movies like the Hunchback of Notre Dame and the Lion King, I would understand a kid getting bored watching Hunchback as it touches on more mature subjects which may be hard for them to understand, but she also got bored during the LION KING, which is also a mature film but is more kid friendly with brighter colours, upbeat songs and funny characters like Timon and Pumba, SHE COULDN'T EVEN GET THROUGH THAT.

I have seen countless videos on TikTok of preschool teachers going mad because younger kids are not focusing or behaving and keep talking about sex. Apparently one time a 5 year old said that his teacher had a "nice gyatt" which is basically slang for "nice butt".

I've also heard stories of ballet teachers getting requests from 6-8 year olds requesting to twerk to inappropriate music like WAP, CPR, Squidwards Nose, basically any Cupcakke song (which no hate to Cupcakke or anyone involved with these songs, I actually think grilling n**gas by Cupcakke is a fun listen as well as Squidwards Nose but it obviously shouldn't be listened to or danced to by little kids)

Now, I have seen many people online making fun of gen alpha kids/late gen z kids for having brainrot from watching stuff like this, but its not exactly their fault. When I was young it wasn't my fault I was watching all of those Elsa and Spiderman get pregnant and get an injection videos, nor is it the gen alpha kids fault they watch Skibidi Toilet and Pomni from Digital Circus has an "awesome gyatt" videos.

I think its more to blame on the parents who give an ipad to a 4 year old and pretend its a robotic babysitter, because its not, on the internet in general, not just youtube, its easy to come across some harmful content and people. For example I was watching My Little Pony vore videos (because yes I used to be a huge brony when I was young) not knowing what it was or how I was basically watching a fetish take place because all I knew my favourite character Rainbow Dash was about to be eaten by Rarity or Pinkie Pie (and speaking of Pinkie Pie I will not get started on Smile or Cupcakes HD)

Throughout this rant I have forgotten to mention I have a 2 year old baby brother (my family is complicated so thats why I have a lot of siblings younger than me) who thank god doesn't have an ipad yet but he watches Cocomelon, I have seen countless articles by parents talking about their toddlers getting addicted to Cocomelon like a drug and crying and screaming when they can't watch it.

I hope one day one of our authority figures like my Mum or grandparents can talk to my siblings about why this stuff is not for them, why watching "Skibidi toilet sniff Huggy Wuggy's gyatt while moaning" is just wrong, whenever I try to talk to them about it they just laugh at me, because I'm their "dumb older brother"

I don't want to seem like those old boomers everyone makes fun of who say "YOU DARN KIDS WITH YOUR BRAINFRYING INTERWEB!!!!!!!!" But I do want to be an older sibling who cares, the internet causes major mental and psychological issues if one uses it at a young age and becomes addicted especially if they consume harmful content like elsagate, I of all people know that, I experienced elsagate, I was bullied and told to KMS on amino multiple times because my fanarts were cringe, I watched scary jumpscare videos that gave me nightmares, I of course, saw all of them violent and sexual my little pony fan animations, I till this day still have mental health issues, and while these experiences online are not the only cause as I have been through a lot on the internet and real life, I simply worry for my younger family members and just the younger generation overall.

If you're a parent or older sibling of a young child, please make sure they are staying safe online, make sure to check on them and only let them watch content appropriate for their age, of course I'm not saying sugar coat everything, its okay to introduce your child to mature subjects every once in a while, but unlike these gross elsagate videos do it in a mature and understanding way, maybe when introducing the concept of death show them movies like Coco, Puss In Boots: The Last Wish or Guillermo del Toro's Pinocchio, or when discussing things like growing up show them Inside Out or Toy Story 3

#rant #elsagate #gen alpha #kids content #younger generation #gen z #millenials #gen x #older siblings #older brother core #younger siblings #baby siblings #mature #mature topics

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dxntloseurhead · 1 year

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some excerpts from yaz’s article in british vogue

[ID: Multiple screenshots from an article about actress Yasmin Finney. The screenshots read, “A dream for any young actor, not least one with a single screen credit, the role will turn the teen into a household name - and is set to reshape the TV landscape in the process. I mean, how many young trans actors can you name in long-running prime-time BBC dramas, not to mention a series as quintessentially middle England as Doctor Who? "It will change the world," she says knowingly, eyes sparkling over high cheekbones. As Finney sips from a technicolour slushie in Inflata Nation's café, candy-cane halterneck and bubblegum trackies matching the pink-and-purple seats, it's unclear if she knows how much her life will change too.

Finney has always felt a call to represent. It was on TikTok - where she currentlv has 1.8 million followers and counting - that she found her first audience creating videos about the trans experience, the most viral on a crush's reaction on learning. ("It's so sad dating as a trans person, because you've gotta explain yourself to people, like, 'Oh, hey, look, I hope you don't mind. and then prepare for answers that shouldn't be the case.")

Those calls got louder. A lip-sync to a quote from the show Pose - in which house mother Elektra snaps back at a transphobe without taking a breath - caught the eye of actor Billy Porter's team, who asked her to send a self-tape for the lead role in his directorial debut. Around the same time, she auditioned for Heartstopper. News that she got both roles arrived a day apart (although, the pandemic would prevent the Porter project from happening). "I went from nothing to having a feature film and a Netflix series" she says, still in disbelief.

Finney auditioned for Doctor Who before Heartstopper came out. Director Euros Lyn alerted Davies to the talent coming his way. "When you get into the casting room," Davies writes over email, "there's only one question: can you act? And that's where she stole the show. She was immediately right. My greatest worry was whether 57 other shows would snap her up instead." Watching Finney since has been "an education", he adds, "to see someone commanding such attention - and let's face it, such enmity - with grace and wit and a wonderful smile".

Raised Catholic alongside her half-sister by a Jamaican mother (she's never met her Irish Italian father), her earlv life was coloured by poverty and bullies - at 11, she was living from hotel to hotel while facing tormentors at school. "Being a Black trans woman, I've been forced to grow up early," she says, softly.

As we speed through the city now in a taxi, though, she excitedly points out her primary school, her nana's home, the council house she shared with her mum... until today. After our meal, she will be moving into her first apartment on Canal Street, Manchester's "gay village", where she'll throw her first-ever birthday celebrations with the chosen family she created there. "Now I get to give myself the childhood fantasy, and raise myself up the way that I should have been raised."

At first, Finney wasn't aware of any labels categorising gender or sexuality. She just knew she wanted to wear the Topshop coat all the cool girls had. As an eight-year-old, she ran around the house in a pink tutu her nana gave her. "She saw me from a young age," she says, smiling. "I would search up 'femininity' and Why do I feel like a girl?" she recollects, pausing to pick at peri-peri chips on a restaurant terrace. "I remember searching, 'Why do I have a penis?'" At a recent picture of Finney in the ocean, her mother almost cried, remembering how she hated to swim as a child. "You just never wanted to get changed with the boys," she repeats. "Now it all makes sense."

At school, she'd change alone in disabled toilets (towel-whipped the times she braved the boys) until one day, the girls snuck Finney into the changing room for PE. "They loved it. For them, I was their gay accessory," she recalls. "They loved me because I was overcompensating. I was overly feminine. I was making them laugh." But, when word got to the headteacher, "It all went tits up." On the brink of expulsion, her family asked, where could she get changed? Eventually, unisex toilets were installed. Yaz happily used what unofficially became "the girl's side".

Experimenting with make-up by year 11, her GCSEs marked a turning point. Late to arrive, she walked in wearing a skirt. Steps echoed through the silent room as all eyes followed her to her seat. The football players who would trip her up and shove her in hallways, call her names and do limp-wristed impressions were "gooped, gagged and everything in-between" she recounts. "From that moment, I felt so empowered. I never looked back."

Finney is bouncy and dramatic, comfortable taking the lead and prone to slip into the accented dialect of queer Americana. She's perhaps most visibly alive recalling praise. Rather than pure ego (although, justifiably, there is a little gloating) there's a sense it provides an amour she had to go without as a vulnerable child. "All the people that doubted me, they've got nothing on me anymore, you know? Not that I did it for them," she says of stepping into the spotlight. "But it's like the cherry on top," she smiles. "| just like to know that people are realising that everything I did from a young age, I wasn't in the wrong. Everything I did was perfectly fine." /end ID]

#long post #yasmin finney #vogue #british vogue #lgbtq+#lgbt #transgender #trans #heartstopper #heartstopper netflix #doctor who

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foxesarepretty · 10 months

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I Love How...

There is no feeling in the universe like when I gaze adoringly into your eyes after you’ve made a joke, or told me a story about yourself that gives me that little glimpse into your history. Every new piece of information that you voluntarily give to me, makes me feel like we are special. We are different from the others. You make me want to spill my innermost thoughts and then whisper the things that I can’t even bring myself to admit,

I love being in a group of our friends, and either you or I will ask a question, that is some sort of inside joke between us. I love how you try to catch my eye after one of us has asked the question, as we both stifle our laughter and pretend it’s a serious question.

I love how we’ve recently started to try and match each other’s outfits, but we won’t say what colours we’re going to wear so we can see how telepathic we really are. We haven’t matched yet, but I love those butterflies in my chest when I’m on my way to meet you to see if todays the day we’ve finally done it and are wearing the same outfit.

I love your laugh, and the little giggle you do when I’ve said something funny to one of our friends. I especially love how you laugh when I say something that’s caught you completely off guard. It makes me lie awake at night and try to come up with things that will elicit the same response.

I love how this week, you were on a call with someone and they were rambling, and you could barely understand them so you called me over and got me to put my face right beside yours so I could also hear them and we could laugh about it. I loved how close we were, and how you called me over specifically so I could experience this with you. I hate how much I wanted to kiss you then. How it took every inch of willpower not to turn to your pretty face, and spill everything I feel for you.

I hate the way you make me feel. I hate how I feel like a little kid whenever I know I will see you, and how I can’t stop myself from going over and analysing each interaction we have as if there is a secret message in each one that you’ve left me to try and decode. I hate how I’ve convinced myself that once I crack that code, we will be together.

I hate how my TikTok is all tarot readers telling me that soon, soon we'll be together. I hate how they tell me you are my soulmate, that we are karmic lovers, destined to be together forever. I hate how I come up with ways to text you, some sort of excuse or reason that won’t make you suspicious of how I really feel about you.

Most of all, I hate how on that Saturday night, you barely spoke to me. Hardly even looked at me, after I put in so much effort, all in the hopes of catching your eye and finally having you notice that I am meant for you, and you are meant for me. I hate how you spoke to that other girl all night, who didn't do anything wrong, how is she supposed to know what I do? I hate how you kissed her in front of everyone, and then went home with her instead of me.

I think what I hate the most, is how much I still love you, and how all of these things are true at once.

written by me

#writing #love #original content #unrequited feelings #unrequited romance #unrequited love #feelings

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Okay this is so so random but I recently came back to the fandom after be bullied out of it (not by carats but by my school mates who found out I was on AfterSchool Club for an episode and treated me like the black plague) and backstory is I am a white passing mixed kid, and my whole life me and my friends who were also mixed would make jokes calling each other ‘whitie’ or ‘cracker’. And when i left the fandom people where still making White Boy vernon jokes. Fast forward, I am getting back into for the first time in years and comment on a tiktok how i will call Vernon “Frat boy” or occasionally “white boy” to my friends to distinguish him from the other members. And the Original poster answered my comment with a video saying “I hate when White Carats-“ and then proceeded to make fun of my name. I obviously got a little upset and just said things like “im not white, im white passing. Its a little bit hypocritical of you defend one mixed person and then in the same breath make fun of another mixed persons name” (the part about that is my name is related to my culture). Any they pretty much said “doesnt matter, my point stands” and i thought that was valid. I did some more reseaech of recent interviews and while I could only find him being upset about racism and colourism in Korea, I know he has stated he feels more korean and I respect that. So i went back to the original post, deleted I comment where I accidentally misgendered OP and apologised, explained how i felt, said that they were right and left it at that. But now I cant help but feel like a horrible person and I am worried about how my stupid one off joke may make people think im racist or a karen and I am lowkey just freaking out cause in my mind it wasnt a big thing and now i just feel like a horrible monster for saying it at all even if it is a joke and even if i did apologise. Anyway, I just need a Fellow Carats advice/thoughts before i spiral even further.

id like to preface this by saying i’m white so i’m not gonna speak on some of this

i think of course, you can call yourself and your friends whatever you want as long as they’re ok with it but when it comes to a celebrity you can never really know what they’re comfortable being called unless they joke about it themselves, so as a blanket principle i wouldn’t call anyone anything they could be potentially uncomfortable with /lh

i don’t think it makes you a horrible monster but i would just be more thoughtful of what you call other people, bc again we never know what people are comfortable with unless they say so themselves

of course he could have said something either way about being comfortable being called these words but i’ve never seen anything so i’d just air on the side of caution

#i’m sorry i didn’t say more but it’s just not my place #if any poc would like to send an ask or reply to this post w their two cents feel free to #asks #anon

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GIVE A BOOK REC LIST PLS 🙏🏻 esp since i’m graduating soon and want to catch up on missed reading time haha 😌

frantically opens my goodreads AHEM this is going to be a read more moment it seems, congrats on almost graduating angel!!!

like i had said my current read and woman i would lay down by life for is from talia hibbert & the brown sister series (18+). i've never read such an inclusive and well done romance in my life — there's dual perspective, the man falls first and is whipped for their respective sister, the tropes, the chemistry UGH!!!!

more romances include the spanish love deception by elena armas (18+) (her second book is out in august which i am very excited about), the kiss quotient by helen hoang (18+) which was the first book i've read with an autistic main character, & it's not come out yet but i have High hopes for book lovers by emily henry (i think will also be 18+) since beach read slapped but you and me on vacation is being respectfully ignored by me after i read it the first time

let's start with some 5 star reads recently:

the seven husbands of evelyn hugo by taylor jenkins reid: a predictable choice thanks to tiktok but this is one of the few that is genuinely beyond worth reading. i went into it assuming i had the plot spoiled after some videos i'd seen but turns out it was only scratching the surface, it's so complex and well done so i will now be recommending it until the day i die.

open water by caleb azumah nelson: a debut novel which has some of the most beautiful writing i've ever seen, the author writes love in such an interesting way but also brings light to the way that people of colour are treated in the UK — as much like countries like the USA, it's still a massive problem even though people don't act like it. for a more informative read into that from the perspective of living in the UK i also read why i'm no longer talking to white people about race by reni eddo-lorge!

some good translated works:

kim jiyoung, born 1982 by cho nam-joo: it left me angry but a lot more well informed on the societal standards held to women living in south korea, it's fiction but you leave it like... knowing it's happened to so many of them at the same time?

convenience store woman by sayaka murata: this is a little different but still comes to my mind after reading it earlier this year, it's about a woman who's worked in the same convenience store for i think like 18 years? and she navigates her adult life knowing she's not doing what everyone else is while making some... questionable choices hhhh

then if you want some shorter form:

poetry: watering the soul by courtney peppernell (also her pillow talks series), life of the party by olivia gatwood (relating to crime against women, check tws!), night sky with exit wounds by ocean vuong

i also recently reread heartstopper by alice oseman after initially reading it in i think 2019? it's all free on tapas/webtoon but the physical copies are lovely as well, plus the show just recently came out!

#.💬#.books #.faye #aaaaand i rambled #noice #i hope you find something you like hehehe

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Maaaaany truths being spoken here 👀 also I wanted to point out, idk if its just a change of image and style that comes with a new album era, like you’ve discussed before there seems to be a pull between both more casual outfits and circus-y outfits (dublin/turin fit) but I saw a tiktok recently on someone commenting something harry did on stage this tour that «would’ve been soooo hot if he didn’t wear that.» And it was just a clip of energetic harry aggressively kicking about on stage in his pink and yellow pastel madrid outfit, and it made me think how much more colourful and simple his EU fits has been in comparison to his dark slacks, suspenders and various bare chested looks he pulled in the US at the end of fine line era and it made me think about how much certain fans only finds him hot/sexy for what he wears and not how he acts etc. also made me think if its a calculated move from his team to wear more revealing/sexy looks in the US to bring fans to shows or it its simply just fine line slutty era coming to an end

So while there are some fans that only think he’s hot or sexy for what he wears, honestly, I think that’s not as large of a number of fans as people try to claim and I also think people are wrong about what clothing women find sexy. Did people find his leather Grammys look sexy? Of course they did. Is that type of outfit the only thing that people find sexy on Harry? Absolutely not.

I kinda touched on this yesterday when I mentioned how Harry’s femininity is part of his appeal to a lot of women. Harry’s become more popular since he wore a dress in Vogue and that photoshoot was literally everywhere (particularly because of the controversy with the conservative backlash) and Harry’s nail polish, pearls, bright colors, and other more feminine aspects of his style have caught on with a lot of other men BECAUSE women find them appealing. Like I said yesterday, many heterosexual women talk about how Harry was “written by a woman” because he’s masculine while still being in touch with his feminine side and he’s sexy without being threatening. These aspects of Harry’s image, which are directly reflected in his clothing while he’s working (his off duty clothing is very different) and which many Larries and even some other fans try to claim het Harries or the general public hates, are actually a huge part of peoples’ perfect boyfriend fantasy of him.

Of course, there are outfits that people think are ugly. Right now, some of Harry’s stage outfits have inspired TikToks like the one you mentioned and a lot of comments on Twitter and other social media about the clothing being ugly. However, the issue that most people seem to have is not that they aren’t sexy or that they’re too feminine, it’s that the colors and patterns clash. People were widely praising his rainbow jumpsuit from the other day, most of the leather pants/cute t-shirt looks, and even some of the bright or pastel pants/shirts combos when they don’t make your eyes bleed.

Basically, I think people tend to make assumptions about why fans aren’t responding to a certain type of look on Harry based on their own per-conceived (and often inaccurate) ideas about what those fans are attracted to, but I think when you look closer, that’s not actually true in most cases.

The question about whether his looks for the U.S. versus Europe are different is an interesting one, but I don’t think it’s something we can know at this point. Last year’s tour was a different era, like you mentioned, so I don’t think those outfits were necessarily an attempt to look more toned down or sexy to American fans. I also think the suspenders weren’t that sexy, and there were lots of bright and feminine colors in those looks too. His current style started with this era - and he has showed it in the United States during promo (look at his performance on the Today Show and One Night Only in NYC) - but we won’t know if it’ll continue into his U.S. residencies or not until they begin. My assumption is that the outfits will have a similar vibe, but not be exactly the same since it’s basically a different leg of the tour. However, it would be interesting if the looks do turn out to be drastically different or toned down.

#asks #idk why this got so long....#anyway i think i have another ask or two to answer #i will do so later

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What does TikTok's EGX sponsorship mean for the games industry?

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By Andrew Rogers

BBC Newsbeat

Walk around EGX, the UK’s biggest video games show in London’s Docklands, and you’ll see bright lights, demos for the latest games, and plenty of colourful cosplay.

But this year you’ll also see something else – TikTok logos everywhere.

The company is now the show’s main sponsor, signing a three-year deal to support it.

It’s probably no secret that TikTok is looking to muscle in on games content – it’s a rapidly growing area for the platform, another category it wants to expand into alongside music and films.

According to its own figures, gaming posts racked up more than 3 trillion views last year.

But video games content is a crowded field, still ruled by YouTube and live streaming site Twitch, although that’s seen some high-profile users move to rivals like Kick.

Some creators say they’ve managed to boost their audience via TikTok, such as Sophie, known to her 500,000-plus followers as Cadaea.

After struggling to build an audience on Twitch for a “good eight years”, she started posting news and views on games on TikTok.

“The discoverability on Twitch isn’t very good,” says Sophie, adding that the competitive platform is dominated by big-name streamers like Ninja and Pokimane.

She believes TikTok is to thank for her boosted following, and it’s going pretty well for her.

“I actually quit my full-time job earlier this year in investment banking to pursue content creation, which is pretty insane if you ask my parents,” says Sophie.

“However, the money is out there.”

On an app with more than three billion downloads, not everyone can become a star. And how much money those who make it actually get from TikTok is a source of debate at the moment.

The app recently revised its payment programme, and some creators have claimed the amounts received vary massively from video-to-video.

On the EGX show floor, Dorrani, known as 100PercentCrit, tells Newsbeat there’s more to be made from brand deals, as with other social media apps.

“There’s career paths here in content creation,” he says.

“You’d be very, very surprised at the money that can be earned. But I don’t think it’s from the sense that people would think.”

TikTok’s UK head of gaming and sports Rollo Goldstaub tells Newsbeat the app is “becoming a more influential part of how games are discovered”.

He believes the app can give smaller developers a chance to go viral.

That’s what happened to the makers of Billie Bust Up – a colourful musical platformer that flooded For You Pages after being boosted by the app’s algorithm.

The small team behind the game said their Kickstarter crowdfunder to raise money for the project hit its target in 48 hours after the viral moment.

“It was a big surprise. A big, big surprise,” says Ash, one of Billie Bust Up’s creators, who’s showcasing a demo of the game at EGX.

“The fact that people are so interested is a big motivator and a big help.”

Rollo claims stories like this are an example of TikTok helping indie developers to reach new audiences.

“The playing field has truly been levelled. The barrier to entry is low. You only need a phone and internet signal.”

But there’s still space for big companies to get their products into your feeds the old-fashioned way – by paying to boost content.

It’s not unique to TikTok, and something big developers such as Activision Blizzard have done for their new releases across most big social networks.

Gaming conventions aren’t the only place you’ll see TikTok’s logo. UFC, the Women’s Rugby Six Nations and Burnley FC’s women’s squad have all been sponsored by the app this year.

The Chinese-owned app is often the subject of negative headlines and criticism, and there’s been talk of banning it among some US politicians.

Could sponsoring some of our favourite hobbies and sports be a way to create positive associations in the people who actually use it every day?

Rollo insists that’s not the case and TikTok wants to be a “friend to games”.

With apps constantly adding features offered by other social media apps to keep users on their platforms for longer, is TikTok looking to follow Netflix and start making games itself?

“There are no plans”, Rollo says, but adds that the company tests new features all the time.

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