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Ok so heres some headcannons for your au imposter. :>
Although imposter is mainly shown dealing/helping with others im sure he has got some issues Besides recovering from the killing game and trying to be a better person. Ok first thing,imposter tends to serpress his emotions,like he barrys any thoughts he doseint want to deal with in the back on his mind so he doesn't have to deal with it. He doseint unpack his thoughts often like when he said "ill unpack this later" he never did. Ok next,they hate mirrors mainly because they probably hate there real face,i mean there body is one thing theres nothing extremely discernable about it. But there face is different. When ever they look at there face all he sees is an emptyshell of a man they dont remember being. They weren't allowed near mirrors for awile. And last thing, He felt guilty for lieing to them for so long that he often questions why his friends actually like him.
Also i drew some art that matches with this
Im not good with angst so it kinda sucks BUT i hope you like it :)
#cloudy-osc#asks#bus au#ultimate imposter#MMM YOU SAY YOU'RE NOT GOOD AT ANGST. LIAR#look at him Q~Q#we totally had the same thoughts about him burying all his issues#he'd rather help people than address that maybe something's wrong with him too#his feelings and issues probably aren't as important as everyone else's right???#everything's falling apart around you so just be a support beam#don't contribute to it#and the mirrors. the guilt. all the self-hatred#someone set the table because this is an e n t i r e m e a l#i think when the others want HIM and HIS attention and HIS help#and not someone he's impersonating#the guilt builds and builds but he also gets a little possessive#makes him bury everything even deeper to keep being supportive so his friends need him more#he's in a loop#please help
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"mithrun is the only real monsterfucker in dungeon meshi" is objectively the funniest bit you can get out of his everything, but in all seriousness i think his attraction to his love interest is deliberately overstated—and that makes sense, because romantic jealousy is a classic and digestible motive, which is explicitly what kabru was aiming for in condensing mithrun's backstory, and also because until chapter 94, mithrun wasn't willing to admit to the true nature of his desires.
but because romantic envy is both classic and digestible, it probably isn’t a unique enough or complicated enough desire to tempt a demon’s appetite. mithrun’s wish, as far as we can figure from kabru’s reduced retelling, was to have a life in which he had never become one of the canaries, and that carries like 3857 implications and desires within it. that’s delicious. his love interest acts as sort of a red herring to his motivation for making it, though. (side note: i'm saying "love interest" here because, keeping in mind that i barely speak japanese on a good day anymore, "想い人" is something i'd usually take as just kind of an old-fashioned and romantic way to refer to a lover, but in context i wonder if both the connotation of yearning and the vagueness are intentional, and i think this phrasing gets those aspects of it more effectively. anyway.)
mithrun considered his love interest to be untrustworthy. there was a minute where i thought that comment might be about a similar-looking elf (yugin, one of his squad members), but comparing the two…
the "sketchy" arrow is definitely referring to the elf we know as his love interest—the bangs go toward her right, she only has the one forehead ornament, and, most notably, her ears aren't notched.
every time she’s given a full-body depiction in his dungeon, she’s drawn as a chimera, with the body of a snake from the waist down. (side note: the “what if a dungeon has chimeras before reaching level 4?”/“then the dungeon lord is unstable” exchange just being mithrun grilling his past self alive is so funny. he’s so. but anyway) there are a couple things about this.
first, the snake part of the chimera appears to be modeled after some species of coral snake mimic
which, in the biology-for-fun manga, i… doubt is a coincidence, especially with the added context of the “untrustworthy” comment. the dungeon’s conjured illusion of mithrun’s love interest was a harmless copycat of a venomous original. for whatever reason, he felt this person was a threat and made up a "safe" version of her to be in a relationship with, and while it’s definitely possible to be attracted to or even love someone you find to be toxic and/or intimidating, when you take that into consideration alongside the configuration of her body, you get some interesting implications.
which brings us to our second point: if we assume that mithrun was not in fact fucking a snake, then sexual attraction, at least, was so far removed from his idea of a relationship with this person that he did not even bother to keep her dungeon copy human enough to maintain the illusion of the option of a sexual relationship. this is somewhat echoed in the depictions of their interactions, which also imply a frankly unexpected romantic distance. she kisses his cheek and he doesn't seem to react; she's at the edge of a narrow bed with only one set of pillows, on top of his blankets while he's underneath them.
the kiss is particularly interesting because it seems to contrast the text. kabru's narration tells us this was everything mithrun could have asked for, but mithrun is there looking unreadable to pensive, likely because this is right before the panel that makes it clear things in the dungeon are beginning to go wrong.
walking through this backwards for a minute, we have the physical barrier of his bedding and the spatial separation inherent in a bed made for one person, the emotional barrier of his mounting anxiety getting in the way of his ability to enjoy the affection he sought, and... the snake, which historically carries the connotation of temptation, yes, but also mistrust, barring physical intimacy. okay. ok. if a dungeon reflects the mentality of its lord, all of this might suggest that mithrun was not able to have any real desire for a relationship with this person. his unwillingness to be vulnerable or let another person in was insurmountable. but in that case, why was she such a focal point that she remained to the end, after his dungeon had stopped creating iterations of his friends to come and visit him? why would he get so upset over her meeting with his brother that he became lord of a dungeon about it?
well. mithrun's brother was also interested in her, probably genuinely. and mithrun had to win.
you have an older brother who your parents completely ignore, probably in part because he is chronically ill/disabled and almost definitely in part because he received a ton of recessive traits that resulted in rumors that he was an illegitimate child. you are aware, most likely because those same parents fucking told you, that you actually are an illegitimate child. but they keep you around because you had the good fortune of looking just like your mother. what can that possibly teach you but that you, like your brother, are disposable?
it's utterly unsurprising that mithrun, under these circumstances, developed a pathological need to be better than everyone around him. people don't keep you otherwise. i'd argue this is also why he says he looked down on everyone he knew while milsiril claims his dungeon reeked of feelings of inferiority—he sought out people's worst traits and prioritized them in his mind to protect his already extremely fragile sense of self-worth, and all the while he tried to be as likable and high-performing as he possibly could be. his parents disposed of him anyway, but even then he tried to keep up the performance. he was kind to everyone. he never once lost to a dungeon.
when he saw his "love interest" meeting up with his brother, what he saw was himself being replaced by a person his parents had always treated as worthless, and if that was what they thought of the child they'd kept, what value could anyone possibly see in the bastard they'd given away to die? mithrun and kabru tell the story like he wanted to win this unnamed elf's heart, but it was never about being with her. it was about cementing his worth, proving that he didn't deserve to be thrown away.
and so it's particularly cruel that his demon discarded him, too. but maybe it's also particularly gentle that, in the end, there was someone who refused to even consider giving up on him.
kui laid it out in three panels better than i could hope to.
yeah. it's love. you wanted to be loved, even when the only way you were able to understand it was through the desire to be wanted, and you wanted that so badly that the idea of being consumed felt like the promise of finally mattering to someone.
#dungeon meshi spoilers#mithrun#dungeon meshi#this has been rotating for a while but i wanted to check my evidence before getting into it thanks user angelspenance for posting that meme#half of this is just the text and the other half i'm sure has been said before but it's making my brain [radio static] so here this is#someone did for sure mention this but i do find it very cute that in his fucked up conjured world meant to portray his ideal reality#his teammates came to visit him. like part of the fantasy was then explicitly that they cared about him and were his friends. even though#he says he tried to see the worst in them.#hm it does feel important to note that i do also believe 100% in mithrun suicidality--his desire to be eaten does seem to focus a lot on#wanting it to be Over. wanting not to be left incomplete and empty anymore.#but that loops back around a bit to the hole in your heart that appears when you feel unloved. it's many things and the same thing at once#snakes#long post#severe problems#meshy
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Alastor may dislike new age tech but that doesn't mean he doesn't have his sources lol
#hazbin hotel#alastor#velvette#hazbin hotel velvette#hazbin hotel alastor#digital fanart#digital art#fanart#art#my art#I just like the idea of Velvette keeping him in the loop with online drama and new age lingo#you can hardly manipulate people effectively if you can't fucking understand half of their slang after all#Velvette likes that he can keep up with her wit and is just as much of a judgy gossip as she is - Alastor finds her brash attitude amusing#he also has sources she doesn't so it's always nice to exchange information every once in a while over some tea/coffee#plus it's funny to hang out with your roommie's main source of hateboners bc he's actually pretty chill
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The musical episode.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jin guangyao#nie mingjue#Remember jin guangyao: If you do any treachery you will face the wrath of five horses.#When are the horses going to come into play? You'll see.#s2.ep8 had beautiful music... I listened to it on loop while drawing!#Good music to chill out to before you fly into a rage.#This episode really cements how JGY's mind works - It is a matter of long-term outcomes at the sake of nearly everything else.#Morals do not matter to him if the outcome is more favourable.#and at the center of it all - he has learned that the only person he can truly trust is himself.#In turn - the only person his actions benefit are himself.#He will do anything and everything it takes to reach a position of power - not just for the power. But because it means safety.#Because it was something he was denied and the idea of not having control in his life again is unforgivable.#'Happiness' isn't a goal. We are looking at someone still stuck at the bottom of Maslow's hierarchy of needs.#Everything and everyone is a piece in a game. Bonds and friendships are assets. People are dispensable.#He wants to climb for the sake of climbing. He wants praise and recognition because he feels it is deserved. It's all so hollow.#We could go deeper into his psyche on this.#But these are also tags under a comic in which 'evil penis music' is the punchline.
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Knowing your chaotic dumbass friends so well that you feel confident in ordering a special vulture dimension set and custom graphic for an episode that has exactly zero to do with vultures is a love language unto itself.
#listen I have been here since the beginning#there have been a lot of d20 ep endings that have thrown me for a loop#but none moreso than the VULTURE DIMENSION#dimension 20#d20#fantasy high#dimension 20 spoilers#fantasy high spoilers#the man called his shot#remember in FY when he hinged the entire campaign on Siobhan stealing a book?#this is the ally version of that lmao
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SO I SADDLE UP MY HORSE AND I RIDE INTO THE CITAAYY !!!!!
#I MAKE A LOTTA NOISE CAUSE THE GIRLS THEY ARE SO PRETTAAYYY#ken would loop this song and be like “yes !! the horses need to be saved !!!!! :)”#and not think anything else of this song bc he has no idea why you would ride a cowboy..but saving the horses is definitely important#do not tell him the actual meaning of this song let him have his fun he loves horses !!!!#barbie#barbie movie#barbie fanart#ken#barbie and ken#ken barbie#barbie 2023#barbie ken#barbie art#fanart#greta gerwig#ryan gosling#margot robbie
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Alright so I'll never play gacha games, I actively dislike them.
But...lord have mercy in heaven above
#on top of the fact he's got multiple checkmarks for my type as a country girl myself this is appealing to me in ways i didnt think it would#robot aspects mixed in with some goth aspects mixed in with western LORDY#AND he's a gunslinger with long mostly white hair#in the chaps too...catch me at the saloon later#*loops She Keeps Me Up by Nickleback*#i need his voice lines like yesterday#they cooked him up just for me#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr boothill#boothill
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Tried something different. This is so messy and rough but I think I needed that ;u;
Also green is not my fave color so it was challenging but also fun to experiment with different hues of green here
#fanart#käärijä#jere pöyhönen#I've been listening to his music on loop for months now#and I've never been so interested in a singer#it was only a matter of time until I drew him#also.. there are so many cool artists in this fandom!#he should wear the heavier eye makeup all the time#looks awesome and is fun to draw
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I need codependent Danny/Jason as a little treat (for me) and I love the idea of them having some sort of instant connection the moment they meet (bc ghost stuff idk)
Danny who's been dropped in Gotham with no way home (alt universe??) and he's been here for 36 hours and having a Very bad time senses a liminal being and immediately latches onto them heedless of the fact that his new best friend is shooting at some seedy guys in an alley and goes off about how stressed he is and how he can't make it back to the ghost zone and what a bad day he's been having (and it's important to note Danny is a littol ghost boy literally hanging off of Jason's neck as he floats aimlessly) and Jason is like "who are you??" And Danny is like "oh sorry I'm Danny lol" and then just continues lamenting his woes
And honestly ? This might as well happen. Nothing about this Danny guy(is he human?) gives Jason a bad vibe and tbh he's never felt more calm and level headed before so he just keeps up his usual Red Hood patrol and doesn't even think about it when he heads back to a safehouse and feeds Danny dinner (breakfast) before crashing for half the day
The only thing I actually need is Jason meeting up with the bats for some sort of Intel meeting and they're like "uhhh who's that" and Jason is like "that's Danny." And does not elaborate (very ".... What do you have there?" "A smoothie" vibes)
And it takes them a while to realize that these two have known each other for less than 12 hours and are literally attached at the hip
#very remora fish with a shark#jason todd#danny fenton#danny phantom#dpxdc#dp x dc#this isnt super important but i imagine Danny's ghost form as young and unaged from his death so jason is used to this small whispy kid#who just hangs off him and talks literally all the time#so when something comes up and someone is like 'idk if we can bring danny looking like... that' (glowing and a literal ghost)#danny is like 'oh ok u need a human? ok :)' and transforms#its been WEEKS#jason didn't know he could do that#nobody did#and now theres this 20ish dude standing there#human form danny doesn't talk a lot (anxiety) ghost form danny can't stop talking (anxiety)#could be a ship fic and at this point jason goes from 'where is my little buddy :(' to 👀😳#i imagine theres a sort of feedback loop with them both feeding off of each other's ecto energies and vibes idk#so when danny is human its not as strong#batman is convince this strange entity is like hypnoyizing his son and like hes not WRONG#but it goes both ways#idk#i just need more codependency fics :(#i should go on a bender#ignore my 500 open tabs and go to town
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You're my angel
Angel baby, angel
You're my angel, baby
Baby, you're my angel
Angel baby
#fnaf dlc ruin#fnaf security breach#fnaf eclipse#fnaf cassie#Angel baby was on loop during this#hes so gentle im gunna cry#Cassie is adorable btw i love her so much-#sHAKES THE DAYCARE DOORS#LET ME INNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
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Siffrin has to get rest whether they want to or not
#haha get fatigued idiot#in stars and time#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat mirabelle#isat isabeau#isat odile#isat bonnie#isat spoilers#Edit: forgot to mention this is based off the idea that Siffrin doesn’t get physical stronger across loops just more tolerant to pain#he’s trying to show how’s he’s ’useful’ but now he has to take a break whoopies
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“I can tell TV from real life, Jeff. TV has structure, logic, rules, and likeable leading men. In real life, we have this. We have you” is still one of the most METAL fucking lines in the entire series like??? abed just gagged him like that??? in front of EVERYONE??? insane. I’m still not over it. goddamn
#top 10 most savage anime moments#I honestly don’t watch this episode THAT much#just bc jeff and britta ‘pretending’ to be in love and annie getting jealous is physcially upsetting for me#but the whole wedding scene is peak cinema#britta’s marryin britta’s marryin jeffrey wingerrr has been on loop in my head for weeks#and betty white is there lmfao kinda funny#ANYWAY#he humbled jeff so fast like GET HIS ASS‼️#community#nbc community#community nbc#abed nadir#jeff winger#abed’s uncontrollable queue-mas
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Take to the skies
...and fly free
#trigun#trimax#trigun maximum#nicholas d. wolfwood#vash the stampede#wolfwood centric#raepliica_art#wolfwood birdliker is smth so personal to me#his fascination for their ability to move freely and unchained.... his desire to fly away from his burden and fears...#🧎#guys he's fine!!! he's with his bird friends now!!!👍👍#i was listening to 生きる懐かしさ from guile by Oblique Occasions and this idea descended upon me like a meteorite#🧍<- guy who looped that 4 min music track during the whole drafting process#i have so much to say but im terrible at putting my thoughts into words so I'll let this comic speak for itself. hopefully.
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I finally finished my first animatic! I’ve definitely felt more confident in my animation abilities since starting college so it’s nice to be able to utilize them ! I hope everyone likes the animatic!
#in stars and time#isat fanart#isat#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat odile#isat bonnie#isat mirabelle#isat isabeau#art#animation#animatic#my roommate said he was gonna GET me if I didn’t finish this so I’m safe for now yayyyy
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more mario and luigi doodles but i took their mouths away
+ extra unfinished stuff under the cut
#the dear doppelganger weeg one is purely self indulgent bc ive been playing it on loop recently im normal#and i know doppelganger is a different whole thing than what he has but. hey its ok we ball#more spm on the way (i hope!!!!!! as long as i dont get distracted by avemuji or sekai for a bit)#most of this was practicing mario bc i still dont like the way i draw him tbh but i think we're getting somewhere#shoutout priv twt oomfies for dealing with my mario fix bullshit youre all so real#drawing these little guys is so much different from my other little guys i think thats why ive liked drawing them so much constantly#it just feels fresh for me!! i just get to fuck around when i draw them its fun to experiment again#ok done talking i like them a normal amount#mario and luigi#mario#luigi#super mario bros fanart#super mario bros#super mario fanart#spm#super paper mario#mr l#starlow#smb#super mario brothers#mario bros#mario fanart#art#fanart#my art#cloudy draws#nintendo#nintendo fanart
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I think about Zuko and Ursa a normal amount
#atla#avatar#avatar the last airbender#zuko#ursa#atla fanart#em draws#illustration#I had heart of stone from SIX playing on loop while drawing both of these#because I enjoy hurting myself#I am on a fucking roll right now apparently#cannot go five seconds without drawing something#the stuff I've been posting is so incredibly self-indulgent but y'know what. I do not care#normally i'd have a modicum of shame but nope#if I want Zuko to look sad in his mom's robes then that's what he's going to do <3#privileges of being an artist#yes it's 4:30 in the morning shut up#id in alt text#edit I fixed his wack ass face
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