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hate my biology teacher
#he’s rude#he just made fun of mental health#says that the world is doomed because of our generation#made fun of pronouns. basically calls us all dumb everyday#as I’m writing this he refused to turn closed captions on for someone for a video we’re watching#literally treats us all like idiots#makes fun of how everyone talks#apparently he’s really strict with his kids#is one of those people who say ‘you’re supposed to be their parent not their friend’#mocks us#hates technology#excessively#he literally acts as if just cause we’re teens we couldn’t possibly be stressed or have any problems in life#goes on and on about how he’d Love to see us in 20 years when we’re working at McDonald’s#even insulting our future kids???#‘this generation is so soft oh you hurt my feelings’#he’s British but he sounds Australian#dismisses mental health problems and disorders and says to just ‘take a walk’#and there’s more
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no big updates because i finally got a full-time job, and i have a lot of commissions and trades to draw. BEAR with me here guys 🥱
#fallout#fnv#courier six#oc: wendy#oc: aletus#he was supposed to be a goat but i recently found out that its an acronym for 'greatest of all time'#which he's not#chicken suits him better#ALSO if yall interested#i really like my new job#i was scared but my colleagues are genuinely so nice and the work is fun#i initially left uni because of how fucking alone i was and my untreated autism made me terrified of doing ANYTHING in public#it was. cosmically bad. that bad i fucking left the campus as soon as i could and just came back home 😭#but now im here and i like my job and my mental health is not declining and im fine :) for the most part#these two semeters in hell were actually useful tho#i realised im asexual + i improved my english#YES for everyone asking YES aletus is a history teacher 😭😭😭
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It's been 4 days since it ended now but i'm still emotional about saturday night takeaway ending and I just can't get over it yet... and one thing that I can't stop thinking about is how every time they started the show they always welcomed us by saying welcome to YOUR saturday night takeaway even tho their names are literally in the show's title. And honestly the show really was a massive comfort for me at times. There were countless times I'd had a shitty day/week and just watching it on a saturday night lifted my mood so much and made me forget about my problems for 90 minutes. It was just something always guaranteed to put a smile on my face and make me laugh no matter how bad things were. So I'm just a bit heart broken that I may never get that feeling again when i need it 😔💔
#also i remeber reading a comment about it on social media one day#and it said the show is literally just two best friends having fun and sharing it with us#and honestly i think that's the perfect way to describe the show#and i loved when the boys said it's the kind of show they enjoyed watching growing up#cause they are literally just doing their best to entertain and make us all happy#which is why i can feel a little selfish for wanting them to continue the show when they clearly need the break#and then that also reminds of the time ant went through his personal problems#a lot of people weren't very sympathetic towards him and yes he made a big mistake#but i was always supportive because i believe in 2nd chances#and especially when it involves mental health which is something i've always struggled with most of my life#so i saw it as a way to return the favour for the all the times ant (and dec of course) have made the world a little brighter for me#anyway i'm going on a lot here#but i need to say all this to express just how much i love them and to process the fact that a show#that has given me so much joy could be over forever#ant and dec#saturday night takeaway
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i went on a walk and came back 60% more evil
#snap chats#you know that meme of spiderman holding back the bus while a kids walking across the street thats me @ myself right now#STOPPPP STOP BEING SAD STOP THINKING OF SAD THINGS TO DRAW OUUUUUGGGH theyd be SOOOO nice tho..#NOOOOO STOPPPPP its JUST angst for Everyone involved#this is what i mean my dad a fucking LIAR he be like 'go on a walk to feel better :)' father i came back with the intent to harm#with the intent to harm all ten people invested in the arakawa family i have come to be cruel#but NO. NO i said no more. wheres that electric fly swatter i need one of those#i have CUTE and WHOLESOME things on the menu THAT is the OBJECTIVE#my mental health keeps getting worse and it shows im trying to fight it with family fun time#who tf made that graphic of the mate in charge of ghibli movies and he's depressed as all hell im tryna live like that#i might be dying inside but let me make something pretty at LEAST#okokok let me actually start drawin onea them sweet things. the urge to lie down all day is strong but i shant i must be stronger#also dont walk outside it hot as hell out. im built like a lizard though thats perfect for me#but tryna sit in a cold place afterwards No Thanks.#ok my head hurts bye lets see if i come back with anything or the apathy wins
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boyfriend and i celebrated our anniversary today :) went to our annual christmas light-show that they hold in our town... there was this one stall that was selling this giant cute stuffed pink bat and of course we bought it. of course we did.
#unfortunately he's got work tomorrow so he had to leave and i miss him already :(#but we had a lot of fun... exactly what i needed honestly because my mental health hasn't been. Awesome lately.#a little exhausted and freezing my ass off so i'm getting cozy with some pokemon now.#haven't made a lot of progress so i'm gonna get to it. i've just been busy exploring LOL#riley rambles
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hm.
#i asked my roommates if they wanted to go to the local gardens w me bc i thought it'd help my mental health#but instead they delayed it 3 hours and my roommate just showed up w his new gf who im still not comfortable around bc ive met her once#and this has not helped my mental health it has just made me more uncomfortable so thats. fun#we got food but i have weird eating issues and i do Not want to eat around her bc i know nothing ab her so im 🧍♂️#i wanna go home but i cant say that cause that would make me sound rude since this was my idea#i just. i asked for this bc i wanted to spend time w my friends bc i haven't gotten to spend time w just them since i got back#and now i regret ever asking bc I'm not comfortable here#he just. keeps showing up w her without telling me and brings her home constantly without warning#and its just another in a long line of things that makes it feel like everything changed while i was gone and theres not room for me here#and it sucks bc i. dont have anyone else i don't have anyone outside of my roommates and now it feels like i dont even have them#negative cw#i just feel very. not comfortable
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i created this compilation for myself last year (or more like last month tbh) and was so excited to post it once it hit 2023 but then i forgot to post it here and it’s already a third into the month now but IT’S FINE I CAN POST IT ANYWAY ……. MY PRIDE AND JOY MY RICCHAN STOMACH ISSUES VIDEO …..!!!!!!! hell ye
#it’s so dumb ITS THE DUMBEST THING TO MAKE BUT IT MADE ME SO STUPIDLY HAPPY THROUGHOUT IT#made rewatching so much fun too …… there’s only four instances here but whenever it happened i was like#O H MY GOD RICCHAN STOMACH ISSUES CLIP IT CLIP IT#there’s actually also two other instances of him touching his stomach in anguish that i considered adding but like#i ended up leaving it out bc it’s too long of a vid already ;w; man makes so many grumbling noises when talking about his stomach#i love him tho ….. i hope i can hit another thousand views this year#ricchan stomach problems the pinned mental health ricchan video of the year#i say this in every other post i swear but he just makes me so happy like life is hard and i am living it but then i think of him and just#ah ….. ricchan …….. ricchan you make life worth living and fighting for …….. i’ll work hard for you baby oh god#okay i hope posting this video works …… never posted shit on tumblr before so if i have to repost after typing an essay in the tags#you’ll never see me again goodbye
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Needed to put this somewhere. It’s mainly just about Sandy and how cool he is and why he’s one of my favourite characters because I feel he’s a mental health icon and I wish the fandom kinda talked about it more [ I don’t see it a lot :( ]
also under the cut because I DON’T want to
Okay so Sandy is probably one of my favourite characters in mon.kie ki.d not JUST because he’s an f/o, Like yeah. I love him. I want to give him a little kiss BUT he’s so much more than that to me you have no idea. So here is the idea:
He’s genuinely a mental health icon. Like I’M TEARING UP WRITING THIS because he’s just SO GOOD. GOD. This man, He used to be filled with so much hate and genuine anger without knowing how to cope. His only thoughts were trying to prove he’s the strongest person and hurting almost everyone around him to some extent - Which probably has some underlining trust / self esteem issues but I might be reading too much. Either way, He probably had a lot going on mentally and it was taking it’s toll.
Then here he is now, He recognized he had a problem - Went to therapy and worked on himself, Clearly he’s spent years doing so. Now he’s a confident, comfy with himself and happy to do what he can to help those around him, no matter the circumstance. When someone acts with hostility, instead of doing the same: he sees it as an opportunity to make a new friend and works hard to try and establish a bond. He’s learned to live with his anger and uses his own ways to cope aka: Cats and tea!!!! I imagine he was more but these have been the ones prominently shown
and WHEN HE IS PUSHED TO THAT EDGE. He still doesn’t physically hurt anyone, Instead he tells them to leave because he wants to disfuse and remove either the other or himself from the situation because he knows what might happen if it doesn’t and doesn’t want to go back into that whole. He’s nothing short of genuine and probably as authentic as they get and I’m HERE FOR IT.
He’s everything I want to be and more. He’s one of my favourite characters soley for these reasons alone and that’s probably why I fell in love with him because it takes a lot to do what he’s done and he’s come a long way. It adds so much depth to him that, from the seasons I have seen ( S1 and S2 ),it hasn’t been explored that much and YOU BET I will be exploring this w/ my sona + where ever I can really.
I love this blue man he is so sweet and I would sit down and have some tea with him. Please let me hold him softly.
Obligatory Sandy image added because you will look at him. He is so cool. Waiting for more water adventures smh.
#[[ He made me tear up in the S2 episode where he needed to get the tea. I love him sm#tw caps#caps tw#[[ I would and WILL die for Sandy. I might also post some stuff for my sona soon. I've got plans and eujsfiuhehuisf#[[ He's a mental health icon and I don't think the Monk.ie Ki.d fandom talks about this enough#[[ Also for one the resident ' odd / big ' looking characters in a le.go show. He's really fun / He feels like he's actually there#[[ and NOT just comic relief or something. Not that that's bad but like. I like my comic relief characters WITH depth.#[[ Not me imagining him helping get Maca.que therapy. Because damn I would love to see them bonding over stuff#🍵💙🐈 ;; Things never change#🌌🌌 ;; Scrambled Thoughts#🌌🌌 ;; Do not reblog
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Ahh~ my good old friend, The Anxiety Attack
Thankfully I have an anti-emetic to nip the nausea in the bud, which is like more than half of the reason I'm anxious
I can feel where I'm tired, but I know for a fact that any sleep I get will be light & broken up at best...and that's only when I can get my breathing somewhat regulated
my brain feels like it's burning in acid, but my extremities are cold, and my whole G.I. system is completely shot
But tbh im just riding the high of no longer being in Crisis Mode atm
#mental health bs#ngl im just trying to shift my hyperfixation#away from Helluva Boss/Hazbin Hotel#bc while the characters & songs are fun#my faves from it are NOT made to be comfort characters or F/Os#at least not without making them super ooc#...neither Alastor nor Vox would give a shit genuinely#like lets be real here—it's Hell lol xD#Lucifer probably would tho—but he would also be 'overly helpful' y'know?#like he would hover and be equally stressed bc his Love is stressed
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if anyone's got good pick-me-ups lmk i could really use them
#preferably without animals/pets#this might get a bit venty#sorry im just trying to extend the preamble so nobody gets triggered lol#um basically (animal death tw)#tw animal death#vent#my cat passed away really unexpectedly like 3-4 hours ago#his name was monty he was six i love and loved him a lot#we think he got stuck in a fence by the time we found him rigor mortis had set in#im really grateful for all the time we had with him and im glad we could give him a good life (he was a rescue)#really fun little guy really silly and super social with people. really helped me with a lot of tough mental health stuff#and just made life a bit livelier generally#im glad it was a really beautiful day today when he died. and im glad he got to come home and live the last of his life near us.#but yeah um. shit's sad shit REALLY sucks and i wish we had more time but that won't bring him back so ive got to treasure what we DID have#trust him to die in such an unexpected manner he's always been wildly unpredictable. kind of caught between crying and laughing.#but yeah if anyone has like. pick-me-ups or resources for grieving pets that'd really help i dunno.#he loved and he was loved and thats all i couldve really asked for
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imagine like simon goes into some sort of surgery and has to be put under anesthesia, and when he gets out hes like still high asf on it 💀 and hes being a lil silly goose
okay this is such a cute idea omg, this is 100% based off that tiktok audio where it's like "my wife wouldn't like you touching me like that" "i AM your wife."
thank you so much for the request nonnie, a forehead kiss for you MWAH MWAH
simon 'ghost' riley x reader
wc: 563
warnings: none really, lots and lots of that good ol fluff, mentions of surgery, goofy simon, maybe a little ooc simon (he's high so it's fine)
a/n: i hope this is okay, i'm feeling a bit rusty with my writing but i've finally got back some motivation and energy to do so after the past two months of low energy and bad mental health. if you guys want to know a bit more about it and my mental health (i don't see why anyone would but lmao) let me know, i don't mind making a post about it if you guys want an explanation of some sort or whatever. anywho, sorry this is so short but i hope you still like it!! <3
a/n 2.0: i recently applied for a part time job at a bookstore so y'all pray for me that i get this job because i want it so bad. i am just gonna decide that i WILL get this job, because why wouldn't i?
simon had been out of surgery for just over an hour now, being a soldier you 'd think perhaps he was going under surgery for some kind of wound he had inflicted upon him on the battlefield but no, he was just getting his tonsils removed after a bad bout of tonsillitis ended up with him developing really bad tonsil stones.
so here you were, waiting by his bedside for him to wake up. the doctor and nurses reminded you just as he had gotten out that he may still be a little, well loopy, off of the meds depending on how quickly he woke up. you waited in a chair at his bedside, reading a book when you heard the blankets of the bed rustling just a little.
looking up from your book you see simon starting to wake up and you reach out to grasp his hand, only for him to rip it away from you when his eyes were fully opened.
"uh, si? you okay, hon?" you ask gently, maybe he just wasn't feeling too well after waking up, or perhaps he wasn't wanting physical touch, that happened quite often and you always respected that space he may want when he wanted it.
"don't call me that." simon said, voice hoarse and scratchy from the surgery, he sounded a little angry.
"what?" you questioned, this wasn't like simon, you couldn't understand why he wouldn't want you speaking like this to him.
"i'm taken."
"i know." you replied with a short laugh.
"you should be touching me like that then."
it hit you then, he was woozy from the meds and didn't recognize you. the realization made you laugh a little more. you decided to have a bit of fun with this high version of your boyfriend.
"sorry about that simon. wanna tell me about your partner?"
"oh, (name)? they're amazing, you know they're so pretty. and they're funny too. they always know how to make me feel better, i miss them." simon replies, ranting and raving on and on to you about his partner, about you.
"you love them a lot, don't you?" you ask him with a smile, it felt so nice to hear all these lovely things about yourself, your boyfriend clearly unfiltered by the effects of the anesthesia he was under.
sure he definitely said sweet things to your face, but something about hearing it when he was basically high as shit made your heart pound a little more.
"i love them with my whole heart." simon replies, a goofy little smile on his face.
you can't help but reach out to gently caress his face at those words, body filling up with some much adoration for the soldier in front of you.
"hey! what did i say about touching me. i have a partner!" simon scolds, trying to dodge your touch.
"simon, love... i am your partner. it's me, (name)." you reply with a laugh.
simon takes a good long look at you when you tell him this, he stares at you, looks you up and down before letting out a soft and quiet "oh."
you begin to hear the beeping of his heart rate monitor speed up, his cheeks turning slightly pink as he stares up at you.
you couldn't help but laugh a little more at this. what a sweet idiot. your sweet idiot.
#ghostedcas#casper writes#casper's 💌#simon ghost riley x reader#simon ghost riley fluff#simon riley x reader#ghost x reader#ghost x reader fluff#ghost riley x reader
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Mike schmidt as your boyfriend hcs ꩜
Pairing: mike schmidt x fem! Reader
Contents: slight angst if u squint, Fnaf mention, Reader and mike are sooo cute hehe
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-You and Mike met in 1983 when you were 15. Mike was smart in the things you werent, So you two made a deal that you could copy off of him . One day when you were walking down the halls you saw the meanest boy in school Trying to bully mike and it pissed you off.
-You pulled the boy off of mike and punched him with no hesitation, Mike was so sure there were hearts in his vision. You were brave and fearless, But you were also gentle and caring when you offered help if he was hurt, He wasnt but He had never wished he was more than on that day.
-Thats when you two started becoming close. At first it was small talk or friendly banter but it slowly turned into never being seen anywhere without each other.
- One lucky day in december of senior year he decided to tell you how he felt in the garden you had showed him. Mike was never romantic, He didnt know what to do or say, So he did whatever guys did in the movies he’d seen. He handpicked you some beautiful pink flowers and wrote you a cute but short letter and handed it to you.
-You accepted his feelings and looked at those puppy dog eyes that crinkled as he smiled.
-Mike is very loyal. He has your initial around his neck and he talks about you almost all the time. (Abby tells you all about it) He has even gotten into a few fights for you, He always defends you even if you aren’t there.
-As mike got older, He starting learning the old way of love. He opens all doors for you, The occasional flowers and cute poems he writes for you, the sidewalk rule, He really knows how to treat his lady.
-Mikes Love Language is definitely quality time. Youre the love of his life and he wants to be with you always! There are alot of times where mike doesnt know what to say or show you how much he loves you. But you know he does by the way he follows and takes you everywhere. How he offers to spend time with you when he gets off of that strange nighshift where he works, Even if it means he gets no sleep.
-Mike is a family man. He loves his little sister and you love her too. You and Abby have a bond that was fun and ‘girly’, in mikes words. (Mike wears bracelets you and abby make for him) When Mike opened up to you about his brother and his parents one day, You just put your head on his shoulder, letting him talk and not mentioning how his voice would wobble and crack every once an awhile.
-Mike struggles with his emotions and mental health. When he feels like its getting bad, He tends to distance himself but you reassure him you are there for him no matter what. You hold mike whether hes crying or not and whisper sweet words into his short curly hair.
-Mike is very jealous and protective. He tries to not to show it but its obvious. His arm slinged over your shoulder everywhere, Making sure everyone knew you were his. Even when you talked to people, He subconsciously glared at the people taking your attention away from him. Mike eyes, that could be so welcoming, were cold.
-Mike loves the date nights you plan for the two of you. Whether it was going out or staying in, He loves being in your presence.
-Mikes favorite part of everyday is at night when you two would cuddle while talking about your future together. He wants to spend the rest of his life with you and hes thrilled someone like you wants that with him too.
A/N!!!: happy halloween!! What are u guys going as? Me and my bf are going as mavis and johnny :3
Hope you enjoyed!
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#mike schmidt x reader#mike schmidt#mike schmidt fnaf#fnaf movie#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#josh hutcherson#mike schmidt smut#mike schmidt imagine#william afton
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#1 thing I am the most curious about/eager for the series to explore is 1000% the Morningstar family, especially Lilith
Bc who even is Lilith in reality besides what we have seen her as in the eyes of the other characters
Clearest image we get of her is in their family portraits
We usually see her as the menacing mystery figure working in the background, but in these photos she's clearly a normal happy mom who genuinely loves her family as any mother/wife would. She's not just a smirking dominant figure with a hidden agenda. All she's doing is having fun with her family and has no qualms about showing a range of emotion.
Charlie sees her as the role model she takes after and wants to make her proud. It turns out she sees Lucifer in pretty much the same light, but with the addition of having an awkward relationship bc of the distance they've had. With Lilith she never speaks about her with any lingering awkwardness, so we can assume she's been a good mom raising Charlie this whole time.
(For those who are saying "Lilith is a bad mom bc who leaves their kid alone for 7 years???"- she is literally thousands of years old while Charlie is well into adulthood before those 7 years. It's like a business trip to them. She wasn't an absentee parent for leaving for 7 years out of Charlie's 200+. The thing that's weird is that she's not communicating with Charlie. Our girl deadass owns property with a job and employees. Just bc she's not great at it and is having Lucifer step in to help recently, doesn't make Lucifer the superior parent suddenly. He's confirmed to be a kind of shitty dad despite how much he cares for her by the creators themselves. Kind of the point of his introduction ep guys. The 7 years are a mystery to unpack. Chill tf out.)
In this flashback people are blaming Lilith for separating Lucifer and Charlie on purpose, seemingly as the cause of their distant relationship. But it feels more complicated than that, based off Lucifer's reaction.
He's sad reaching out to Charlie by the end of the flashback, but when Lilith first appears he's smiling all the same and not deterred in giving Charlie to Lilith to carry away for what reason we don't know. A normal, standard occurrence he's used to. It seems both parents have agreed it's best for Lilith to take Charlie at this age now, for whatever reason.
Was his mental health affecting his parenting too much so they decided Lilith would shoulder the bulk of the task? Maybe Lilith really did separate the two somehow for her own reasons and convinced Lucifer with it? Another mystery reason each parent agree on?
When exactly did both of them separate? When Charlie was already an adult or around the time of the flashback when Lilith was her primary caretaker as a kid? (I'm assuming adulthood since Lucifer and Lilith seemed to still be getting along in the flashback despite her emotionless face.) Why did they separate when Lucifer seems to clearly love and yearn for her all the same, still wearing his wedding ring? 😭😭😭
And ofc what is this deal she made with Adam to stay chillin on a beach in heaven, and why did Adam, a reckless narcissist who likes yappin to whoever is gonna listen, not ever reveal this fact to her family to the very end?
There is just so much to unpack with their family and Lilith is the key ingredient rn to unlocking it
Like ofc I'm looking forward to Sir Pentious in heaven, Alastor's deal, the future of the rebuilt hotel, Lucifer now being a seemingly main character in season 2, etc.
But the Morningstars,,,different level
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𝗜 𝗖𝗔𝗡 𝗗𝗢 𝗜𝗧 𝗪𝗜𝗧𝗛 𝗔 𝗕𝗥𝗢𝗞𝗘𝗡 𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗥𝗧
pairing: matt sturniolo x fem!reader
word count: 1.1k
summary: when you think you’re ready to give matt’s stuff back and move on, one question from his brother breaks you
warnings/notes: part two of ‘Polaroids’, angst, established relationship, mental health mentions, kissing, thank you to everyone who wanted a part two! this is for you 💋 also based on ‘i can do it with a broken heart’ by taylor swift because the new album is amazing 🤍
You always thought of yourself as resilient. You pushed through hard times and tough situations even though you felt like you couldn’t. You hear the phrase ‘fake it till’ you make it’ your whole life from your parents . . . So that’s what you did. You put on a fake smile and pushed through. You only let yourself feel every once and a while, while the rest was spent pushing it down.
With Matt, you never had to do that. You always had someone there to let you know you were okay . . . That you weren’t alone. He was there holding your hand and grounding you, he was there being your shoulder to cry on and held you when you broke down. For years, you weren’t alone. Now you were again, and you needed him.
After that night you put the last few polaroids from your wall away, you pushed your feelings to the back of your mind like you used to. You felt like you had been tricked ━━ like you had been fooled. You didn’t hate him . . . You were just unknowingly putting the blame on him because you felt embarrassed.
You went out with your friends acted like you were having fun, dancing and smiling for pictures while you felt like you were dying inside. You answered Nick and Chris’s texts with fake ‘I’m okay’s’ and ‘I’m fine’s’. You were now the one tricking everyone else. No one seemed to catch on that you could see. But Matt did.
He saw how your smile didn’t quite reach your eyes, how your hands would be gripping a glass to the point where he knew it would make imprints into your palm. He saw how you used your punctuation when you answered his brother’s texts and how he heard your voice when they FaceTimed you (they thought he was asleep). He knew . . . He would always know.
It was a couple months after you had finished packing his things that you still had away when you decided it was time to drop them off. At that point in time, you were too focused with acting like you were okay to realize you weren’t actually ready. You didn’t realize it until Nick asked you that one question.
Your knuckles banged against the wooden door as you waited. You saw that Chris and Matt were out from one of Chris’s snaps he sent you, so you thought you could get it over with now and not have to face your ex-boyfriend. There were footsteps before the door was opened and there stood Nick. You smiled at him, and he smiled back. He knew something was wrong but it didn’t solidify until he saw your face.
Your eyes were sunken ━━ under eyes black like a buildup of cried-up mascara. Your face was pale, the rosiness of your cheeks Nick was always jealous of was like a fading memory. You looked almost . . . Hollow. A facade of your old self. He decided not to say anything, at least not yet. “Would you like to come in and set that down? Matt and Chris are out.” He told you. You nodded, not wanting to talk just yet incase you broke down.
You two made your way up their stairs, walking into the kitchen and putting the box on the kitchen. You resisted to look around or sit down like you used to. You weren’t his anymore, this wasn’t your second home anymore. “Want a coke?” The brunette asked you. You replied with a small ‘sure’ and stayed where you were. You were handed the coke and Nick went to sit down, looking at you as if to to tell him to follow him. You did.
You two sat in silence for a minute before you started the conversation. You were confident enough you weren’t going to sound like you wanted to cry. You didn’t want this to be any more awkward than it already was. You two talked about things ━━ family, friends, things that have happened. You don’t know how long you were there for, but soon enough your drink was finished and you were excusing yourself. Nick was following you to the stairs when he spoke up.
“Are you okay?” Nick asked you. You froze. Were you? You had tricked yourself into thinking you were okay because you acted like you were fine . . . But you weren’t. A sob broke through your lips and he grabbed you and pulled you in. You knew you would feel embarrassed if you could think about anything else but the feelings you had pushed down breaking through the dam you had put up. “Oh honey.” Your knees shook and Nick continued to hold you even as you fell to the floor. You ignored the pain that flared in your knees.
“I miss him.” You cried, knuckles holding on to him as if he would disappear if you let go. “I miss you too.” This time, the voice came from behind you as you turned around to see the boy who still had your heart. Now, you felt embarrassed. But also relieved that you weren’t alone in feeling like absolute shit. Matt nodded to Nick and Chris who showed up with Matt who then left leaving you and Matt. You continued your sobbing and Matt joined you on the floor. He pulled you into his lap and just held you, whispering things you couldn’t hear over the sound of your cries into your neck.
Matt was hurting as bad as you were, but he knew you. He knew you had been holding everything in. He knew you needed to let it out more than he did. He never stopped you or interrupted you once, just rubbed your back and told you to breathe every once and awhile. When you finally stopped, you looked up at the man who was holding you.
He had tears in his eyes. “I’m sorry.” You apologized, moving to get up and wipe your tears. “Don’t be sorry.” His hand stopped you, keeping you where you were. “I was an idiot. I never should have hurt you the way I did. I made a promise, and I broke that. I’m sorry.” You could feel his hands against the sides of your face. You smiled softly, a tear joining the ones stained in your face. “I don’t want my things back. I want you back, and want you to keep them. I want the Polaroids up on your wall, the smell of your perfume permanently on my sweaters, and you the evidence of you in my life. I want you.”
You pulled him into a kiss, your feelings being let out. You were letting him know how you were feeling. “I love you, Matt.” You whispered as your forehead pressed against his. “I love you so much,” you laughed, “I love your shoes at my door, the smell of your hoodies, you.” He smiled. “Glad we’re on the same page with that one.” He joked as you let out a quick laugh.
“Just shut up and kiss me, Matt.”
“Yes ma’am.”
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I work in elder care as a social worker and the sheer number of people on this 'leftist' site that called prince Andrew a 'skeleton' and a 'mummy' and made memes about how 'ugly' and 'disgusting' he looked made me ILL. They weren't mocking him for being a billionaire dipshit. They instead made fun of a sick old man for looking like a sick old man. Most vindictive block spree I've gone on since the days of ace discourse.
Sadly, it is deeply ingrained in our society to ascribe looks and health to morality. It's a narrative many of us have been fed from birth and don't even recognize as an issue until someone points it out. And even then, some people remain resistant to the idea that it's an issue at all because they don't like to think they've been doing something wrong. Which is understandable. No one likes to feel like they're a bad person.
And they're not.
They just need to unpack some damage and realize that health and physical appearance are morally neutral things. I know my relationship with my own mental health and other disabilities got a lot better when I started making a conscious effort to decouple them.
By all means, criticize people for their actions. Hold them accountable for their deeds. But you can do that without perpetuating what is often ableist, classist, racist (etc.) values in the process.
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SUCCESS STORY (manifesting)
OMFG you guys! I did it! I made it to my desired reality! I'm living my desired life!
All I did was decide it's done. More specifically, I just did Angel's fulfillment challenge (which you don't have to do). Everyday I just decided to live like I was in my desired reality right now as often as I could and whenever I wanted to.
If I vented, I vented. If I ranted I ranted. If I sabotaged my manifestation I just decided it wouldn't matter and that nothing would ruin my manifestation and everything was ok and fine.
And this is totally optional but I affirmed sometimes. I just did to remind myself that it was done.
My affirmations were:
-I'm living my desired life
-Nothing can ruin my manifestation
-I'm in my desired reality
-I'm in my desired reality in my penthouse in Tokyo
-I have all my desires
-The 3D conforms instantly
And it worked! And now I'm happy! I woke up today IN my penthouse in Tokyo! The view of the city is amazing. I checked my bank account and it turns out I'm super rich! Like I literally have BILLIONS of dollars. And it's like I always get millions of dollars out of nowhere! So it's like I get paid just to exist!
Also life in this reality is soooooooo different than on Earth. Like the people in the city are nice... but they aren't just humans beings. I'm seeing Japanese monsters walking around wearing uggs! I can also see Godzilla walking around in a place in the city it's so cool! (don't worry, they made a place in the city specifically for her)
I can also enter the void anytime I fall asleep. Like everytime I go to sleep I wake up IN the void state completely aware. I know this because I just decided I would go to sleep and I did! (one of the things I also manifested, to fall asleep instantly)
And guess what? I also revised my ENTIRE life. Like all the shitty, terrible things that happened to me and all the awful things I've done are GONE! They never happened. All the arguments I had with people on Youtube are gone, they never happened. I never met those people. All the people who I argued with on Discord, well I never argued with them. All the problems with my family are gone.
I also have new memories of me being in Highschool. It went great! I made some friends, they never got angry at me, I got to play my videogames, and I never had to deal with any kind of stress. And I also have my college degree even though I never went to college.
Also let me show you what I look like:
This body:
This is my hairstyle (except it's white colored):
This is my face (trigger warning: AI art, also dw I'm black):
And I'm like popular on Twitter. I'm as popular as @rariatoo. People follow my art and they love drawing my OCs and characters, it's so much fun. Plus I have a patreon and a redbubble. I get to make my OCs as plushies and stickers and ship them off.
And the best part is that there's no wars! No covid, no genocide in the Congo or Palestine, no racism, no problems. And there never will be, everything is fine! Its literally a Utopia.
Summary of what I manifested:
-Desired life & reality
-Freezing Time
-Revising entire life
-Different family (same soul but different looks (slightly) and better personality)
-Entering the void whenever I fall asleep and at will
-A butler friend who I can summon and make disappear at will (he's super nice and never have any problems, perfect personality, kinda shy, and we just had some woopie 🥵🤪)
-Magic (I can do LOTS of crazy stuff)
-Being able to shift realities at will
-Visiting my family through a magic door (my family lives in what I call, "Reality # 3 and I can visit them anytime I want)
-Spawning groceries and food whenever I want (I still go out, dw)
-Friends on discord and some IRL
-Money money monayyyyyyyyyyy
-Perfect health and mental health, no problems with my body
-Never getting yelled at ever again or abused/nobody gets abused/abuse doesn't exist. Yellers don't exist.
& a lot of other personal things
You guys got this! You can get your dream life! Go for it!
*I didn't get my dream life yet, that's why the title reads:
"SUCCESS STORY (𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗳𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴)"
When you put "manifesting in the title it means you haven't gotten your desires yet but you're doing it to help you live in the end. SO please don't be angry or offended.*
#void state#law of assumption#loa#manifestation#law of attraction#void#manifest#neville goddard#void success#success story#manifesting#affirm and persist#48HC#3dolc x roe
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