Setting aside the obvious massacre of the villagers and the guilt Maria would have felt over that alone, I think it’s brilliant that what probably pushed her over the edge to the point where she actually felt the need to completely bury her past was the violation of a mother and child.

Maria’s life as a hunter was, likely in her mind, dedicated to protecting innocent people, especially those as vulnerable as mothers with their infants.

But to oversee the dissection and brutalization of a god-mother with such an obviously humanoid face and child….to watch the infant itself be ripped from the womb and its umbilical cord severed….yeah, of course she didn’t want anyone to see that. I can’t even blame her for fighting to hide it, because that is just horrendous.

But at the same time, the concept that what forms Maria’s nightmare is a loop where she fights to conceal the truth is fascinating to me. She was only free when her sins were revealed and she could stop fighting to hide them.

justin williams…..👀

“Something in the orange tells me we’re not done”

I’ve officially watched the entire Hilda series and man, it’s awesome.

This show means a lot to me, has brought me so much joy, and has helped me get through some real rough patches. The fandom has been such fun too, and I don’t plan on leaving it for a while.

It’s such a bittersweet feeling to have been there with an ongoing series for so long and to see it end. But it was such a beautiful wrap-up, everyone who worked on it did an amazing job.

Thank you, Hilda. See ya. ❤️

Nick drives me fucking crazy because the first chapter was literally just “Gatsby’s not like other girls :(“ STOP SUCKING HIS DICK HES IN LOVE WITH YOUR COUSIN!!!! HES DOWN SO BAD ITS PATHETIC!!! Nick stop being a funky gay dude challenge IMPOSSIBLE.

Coalescence

Crying about it

hi so i just finished bridge to terabithia and now i’m unwell and my eyes are red because i’ve been crying before i’d even reached 20 minutes of it for i actually knew what was going to happen and by the time i reached an hour something something i just straight up sobbing screaming into my pillow. and now it’s 12 am and i’m still thinking about them. because god, look at them, how they were, the little world they lived in, wouldn’t you just love that, to run away, to escape, to grasp that childhood naivety and innocence that you lost a long time ago, to feel the sun in your skin and the air in your lungs and to paint fantasies and laugh and play and run hidden away from the world and find an old run down tree house and decided to make it your own little shelter and pin up canvases on the worn wood and paint and let your creativity goes wild and have someone understand you and gets you and do it with you, and wouldn’t you just love to have something so constant, so sincere, so genuine, so pure, so real, that there wasn’t anything else. if i knew i was going to cry this much, if i knew how much space this movie would make in my life, i wouldn’t have started this movie tonight. i would have been in peace on the floor of my room, not realizing how badly i actually want something like this even though i would never unironically admit this to anyone in my life or even myself when i’m outside of the familiar place of my mind, for that matters

suuuper duper anxious rn 🥰🥰🥰

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

where did my productive phase go? i miss her…

Good let this poor kid finally let his tears fall for once

Absolutely despise the feeling when you lose a thought just as you’re about to write it down somewhere

the ASL version of the barbie movie is SO cool, everyone should watch it

If it wasn’t for my brain that is full of COVID tm it’d be over for you bitches-

maybe controversial but I’m personally looking forward to seeing Pete suffer without/because of Vegas a bit more than the opposite. I loveee Vegas and I’m so excited to see him broken too (lol) but to me his brokenness feels different compared to Pete. Pete’s gonna go from tortured to in love w his torturer and bc of that he’s gonna go through so many conflicting feelings. We’ve already seen him crying in the why don’t you stay mv! Like I can’t WAIT to see Pete escape thinking he’s finally free only to realize he misses being with Vegas So Much. That something is Wrong when he’s without him but it also might feel wrong to feel that way. And I can’t wait until we see the Pete who thinks “he was supposed to be the person I had to be angry with. He was supposed to be the person I had to hate, and he was supposed to be the person I had to stay away from. But now no matter how hard he tried to escape, I would follow him wherever he went. No matter he ran to the edge of the world, dived deep into the bottom of the ocean, or even fell into state of unconscious, if I couldn't pull him back I was ready to go anywhere with him” about Vegas (if (hopefully) boc lets them get to that point). Although that’s from the special chapters in the novel my point is Pete’s gonna go from the state he’s in now to something so opposite and he’s going to suffer over it and that’s just so exciting to me. That through all this in his heart he still chooses Vegas….yeah. YEAH.