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veryliteralsin · 2 months

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go go reading comprehension for me — for the ask game: A, B, J, F, G, and M for mash and indiana jones!

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.

MASH: I'm always gonna be all aboard the Hawkeye/Margaret train but this is where I get weird: only in my head. like...would I want it to be canon? absolutely not, it would fuck me up; the tension is perfect how it is when it is. this is also me admitting that BJ/Peg/Hawkeye is kind of sweet.

IJ: currently living for the Indy/Marion thing (of course) but I'm also kind of working on a fic that's literally just Indy flirting/sleeping with a ton of different women from different places just because 1) he can and 2) the poor man needs to forget

B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind.

MASH: okay, look. I've been watching this show since I was born, you know? I never considered ships outside of the obvious Hawkeye/Margaret because well, what kid didn't want that?? but... BJ/Hawk and BJ/Peg/Hawk kind of consumes my brain sometimes.

IJ: initially I hated pairing anyone with Indy except for Marion. like...my angry ass was like "why bother when we know they're perfect for each other" but a few years ago while scrolling through Tumblr it clicked that like... it's all valid. like you absolute idiot, relationships are a learning experience!!

F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom?

I'm not counting MASH because I've been watching it since birth... probably if you count To Kill a Mockingbird as a fandom?? I read the novel when I was 8 (while asking a LOT of questions to my mother) and it's lived rent-free in my head ever since. if we're not counting TKaM then probably Hannibal Lecter (etc.) since I was like... 11. yeah, I watched Silence of the Lambs too early in life. whoops

G - Have you ever had an OTP? If so, do you remember your first one? Who was in it?

you know, I don't really know?? my first (and possibly only OTP) was/is Heavy/Medic from Team Fortress 2. it clicked in my 14-year-old brain and never left.

J - Name a fandom you didn’t think about until you saw it all over Tumblr. (You don’t have to care about it or follow it; it just has to be something that Tumblr made you aware of.)

I had no idea people were that into Critical Role????

M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend.

MASH: gotta be honest (and predictable) here: Hawkeye. especially post-war, that man and I would get along so well.

IJ: aside from Indy (who would totally be my frenemy because God I cannot stand that fucking asshole sometimes), Helena Shaw although it'd probably be weird bc I'd probably hit on her godfather. she's just such an interesting character and I know she gets a lot of hate but goddamnit I don't care

#ask game #good LORD this took me a hot minute but I regret absolutely nothing about it #THANK U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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thespianinthebackcorner · 8 months

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things my sibling has said while gaming with friends

"how do I get to- this??"

"Famine.

"I coulda gone to Yemen. Goddamnit"

"I'm in Ancient Greece. I want Greece. Classical Greece, Persian Empire"

"Ethernet"

"Jesus, the Bible, Christianity-"

*while laughing* "the Republic of Congo"

"Communication Theory."

"May, Kentucky- I COULDA GONE TO KENTUCKY"

"Dungeons and Dragons? How did you get to- Dungeons and Dragons???"

"On fourth, in the day leaders. No you're not,"

"how did you find five? What is at- at- how do we do this one???"

"I swear you get quicker- MARGARET THATCHER FROM TOMATO"

"...which is not Ecuador."

"Britain? Britain."

#Literally what is this #I can't hear the other side of the conversation #So this is what it is #lmaoooooo #I'll keep updating this as they talk

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operafantomet · 3 years

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A shout-out to WOC taking on the role of Christine (*)

Lana English, principal in Cape Town and Pretoria

Lucy St Louis, principal in West End

Margaret Ann Gates, alternate in Toronto

Caitlin Finnie, alternate in the World Tour

Ali Ewoldt, principal on Broadway

Leila Benn Harris, principal in West End

Sandra Joseph, principal on Broadway and the US Tour

Emilie Kouatchou, alternate/principal on Broadway

Maaike Widdershoven, alternate in Scheveningen

Beatrice Penny-Touré, u/s in West End

(*) Not including the Japanese and South Korean Christines performing the role in the respective countries

#christine daae #phantom of the opera #lana english #lucy st louis #margaret ann gates #caitlin finnie #ali ewoldt #leila benn harris #sandra joseph #emilie kouatchou #maaike widdershoven #beatrice penny touré #representation matters #goddamnit

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bansheeoftheforest · 3 years

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Like I think if it be funny I’d like Jekyll grew up with mostly sisters and he was somewhere squared in the middle and he gets a letter that says “Mairead is gettin married, we like it if you actually come home for this one. It’s your sister.”

And Lanyon is like “I thought your sister’s name was Margaret.”

“It is…my Ma is just having a laff—laugh!”

Henry’s brothers all being jacked though is fun to think about. Like not even they make fun of him thing, he’s him and they are them but it’s still funny to imagine Henry is still as tall as them but lanky. (Oh and I def hc that Jekyll’s mom was a blonde but had jekyll’s brown eyes. And his dad had the reddy brown hair with the baby blue eyes. I think it be funny to imagine one of Henry’s hypothetical sisters as a taller Hyde tho. I think all the jekyll’s as fucking giants.)

I'd love to imagine Henry's brothers as jacked bastards, the most stereotypical Scottish brutes you can think of, dressed in kilts with large beards and shit, and then you look at Henry, the youngest brother, and while he is just as tall, he is still baby faced, refuses to grow a beard, and is also lanky as fuck. I'd also love to imagine that Henry was closer to his sisters than his brothers (even if he was really close to all of them) so they tease him even more for that.

(absolutely not because I want to imagine young Henry having gossip nights with his sisters where they convince him to let them do his make up, absolutely not. And absolutely not because I, too, want to imagine Henry wrestling with his brothers)

I'd also love to imagine as all of them taller than Hyde. Literally the only proof that Hyde isn't a Jekyll is the fact that he is teensy tiny. Goddamnit now I want to update my entire fucking oc list. I have so many new more hcs for Henry's family goddamn. I just want to see the shock of Lanyon and the Lodgers bc they thought Henry very well could be orphaned and yet here he is, with his large, bearhugging mess of a family.

#ask #anon #banshees hc #banshees au #family au

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johannstutt413 · 3 years

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How’s the queue lookin, boss?

1. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Blemishine/Nian (working on this one now)

2. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Tails Club II: Fluffier than Ever

3. (requested by calligomiles) Gavial/Zima II, Tomimi’s Reaction

4. (requested by calligomiles) ShiraYuki/Scavenger II, The Date

5. (requested by anonymous) Doc/Whislash

6. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Blemishine x Eunectes

7. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Blemishine x Chiave, Blemishine calls Whislash auntie one time too many

8. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Shining andor Nightingale doting on Blemishine

9. (requested by mathmaticalknight) The Doctor talks to Blemishine about the fact she is the only person at Rhodes Island willing to attack sleeping enemies, and that she considers it mercy.

10. (requested by calligomiles) Platinum/Nearl/Gravel

11. (requested by anonymous) Just after Maria Nearl, the Kazimierz Media’s hatchet job...and a little more besides

12. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Aosta/Bibeak

13. (requested by greenone170b7) Shining and Liz cheer on their wife while she kicks ass to save her sister

14. (requested by greenone170b7) Maria and Platinum start dating (and Margaret is suffering because of it)

15. (requested by greenone170b7) Zofia is lamenting her single status in the bar when she gets swept off her feet by a gorgeous fem!Doc

16. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Broca/Click

17. (requested by anonymous) Ifrit joins Reunion...and Saria and Silence have to stop her [GODDAMNIT SADFIC ANON]

18. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Blaze x Saria

19. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Surtr and her talking sword

20. (requested by anonymous) Mudrock/Fem!Doc

21. (requested by anonymous) Hung is a dudebrochadmyguy

22. (requested by calligomiles) Zima/Leto in this timeline

23. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa/Istina in this timeline

24. (requested by calligomiles) Jackie/Grani/Absinthe Poly-cop-ule

25. (requested by anonymous) Doctor/Gavial during Great Chief, Tomimi no likey

26. (requested by calligomiles) Jackie/Swire (OkaKoro!)

27. (requested by calligomiles) Mudrock/FrostNova

28. (requested by calligomiles; continuing from this) Mudrock/Gummy/BP

29. (requested by calligomiles) Mudrock/Rosa

30. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Nian/Whisperain [I see what you’re doing here]

31. (requested by calligomiles) Zima/Glaucus

32. (requested by calligomiles) Istina/Deepcolor

33. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa/BP

34. (requested by calligomiles) Leto/Specter

35. (requested by calligomiles) Gummy/Skadi...V? Likely with all of these Abyss/USGG couples coming together at a meeting or some’n

36. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Warfarin, Pramanix, Conviction, and Ansel learn to helidrop

37. (requested by anonymous) Specter/Doc

38. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa/Gavial 2

39. (requested by mathmaticalknight) ChenPipe 5ish (Ch’en working Command Center accidentally brings Bagpipe and Reed into contact)

40. (requested by anonymous) Jaye/Utage, Resting Terror Faces come together

41. (requested by calligomiles) Utage/Zima

42. (requested by calligomiles) Utage/Gummy II

43. (requested by calligomiles) Flint/Zima

44. (requested by calligomiles) Flint/Leto

45. (requested by emburbaguette) Doctor/Rangers

46. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Angelina/Utage II

47. (requested by calligomiles) Absinthe/Zima

48. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Doctor gets TP’d to G&K

49. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa and Talulah, bonding over shared rejection of nobility

50. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Saria/Nian 5, meet the family (Dusk)

51. (requested by calligomiles) Swire/Rosa III

52. (requested by calligomiles) BP/Andreana

53. (requested by anonymous) Blue Poison/Astesia

54. (requested by calligomiles) Saga/Archetto

55. (requested by calligomiles) Saga/Absinthe

56. (requested by calligomiles) Dusk/Deepcolor (“I’m not worried about collateral damage”)

57. (requested by calligomiles) Ifrit/Rosmontis/Eyjafjalla

58. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Ceobe walks Dusk’s paintings freely

59. (requested by calligomiles) Skadi/Gummy 6: Someone’s Gonna Die From Sugar Overload

60. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Dusk burns Nian’s movie collection, Shaw is the most upset

61. (requested by mathmaticalknight; continuing from this) Archetto joins the group

62. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Franka gets Liskarm to help with her biggest prank ever

63. (requested by calligomiles; continuing from this) Rhine Labs Sandwich

64. (requested by calligomiles; prequel to this) Mayer and Magallan’s Meeting

65. (requested by lonewanderer2033) Operation: Nine-Tailed Frog [Suzuran gets Blue Poison an outfit similar to hers]

66. (requested by mathmaticalknight) “Hey Dusk…Why don’t you fight like you did during your event?”

67. (requested by calligomiles) Rosa/Nearl III

68. (requested by calligomiles) Beeswax/Mint

69. (requested by mathmaticalknight) One of the gang [from Dusk’s event] learns Dusk has the worst physical results of any non-robot Operator

70. (requested by anonymous) Surtr vs Platinum – Who Wins the Doctor’s Heart?

71. (requested by anonymous) Ch’en/Doc post Chap. 8

72. (requested by calligomiles) Horsebucket II: It’s All Coming Together

73. (requested by anonymous) Skadi/Suzuran/(maybe Specter too)

74. (requested by wealmostaneckbeard) Tachanka becomes the USSGG’s surrogate dad

75. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Utage becomes the Great Chief

76. (requested by calligomiles) Swire/Rosa IV: Sweet as Honey

77. (requested by calligomiles) Swire/Talulah (in a world where Koschei doesn’t exist that fucking prick)

78. (requested by anonymous) Blue Poison and/or Platinum in the Arknights equivalent of this scene [Mr. Incredible’s part at least…anon feel free to clarify, it’s been a while since I’ve seen this movie]

79. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Someone starts worshipping Dusk or Nian (…probably the Doctor honestly)

80. (requested by calligomiles) FrostNova/Alina/Talulah, in an idyllic setting (similar world setup as Talulah/Swire imo)

81. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Ceobe and Saga, maybe a couple, maybe just being hungry doggos together, we’ll figure it out when we get there

82. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Iris returns something to Whisperain from before her last reset

83. (requested by mathmaticalknight) Dusk/Whisperain

84. (requested by mathmaticalknight) What If…Nian made Chen’s sword?

Yes that is 80+ fics deep. No that is not intimidating. *shivering*

#the queue

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brinnanza · 7 years

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@ hawkeye stop hitting on margaret’s fiance at his own bachelor party jfc

#brinn watches mash #margaret's wedding au where instead of plastering penobscott they just let him sleep and they have to share hawk's cot #give me bed sharing goddamnit

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lordsgiven · 3 years

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It was December of 1943, a cold December in fact. Maybe due to it being the change of atmosphere, or that the brisk of Italy was far compared to the dense frost of American grounds.

There were no more present’s under America’s tree, Kennedy sensed this was going to be a long winter. More men were killed and captured compared to any war. The young Lieutenant dealt with the incomparable losses with anguish and frustration, knowing deep down that America’s greatest weapon was being used for a stereotypical act across the nation. Erskine wanted a fighter, not an actress.

Little did he know that the dense circus act the U.S. government was conducting was coming to town.

Lee stood among the crowd of based soldiers, listening to the overplayed piece “Star Spangled Soldier”. Holding a stale piece of bread he currently took ample bites from, Lee couldn’t believe what he was watching. Both side by side, Carter and Kennedy sported stern frowns. “This is ridiculously thick.” He growled lowly, watching as Sorcha superficially smiled throughout the choreographed show. Margaret bit her lip out of frustration, “Agreed, Lieutenant.”

The patriotic program was brought to a sudden halt when a simple-minded soldier threw an unopened contraceptive. “Pull up that suit, Captain!” He hollered, causing a howl of laughter's among the other men. “Come on Cap, why not show us brave soldiers those stars of yours!” The eruption of laughter arose.

Kennedy crossed his arms tightly. If it was ever so possible, steam could’ve escaped those piping red hot ears of his. Sorcha didn’t spend months training, Erskine didn’t spend years chemically practicing, and he and Agent Carter absolutely didn’t spend weeks training Rogers for these dogs to treat her like a joke.

“Lieutenant!”

Before Carter could pull the stocky soldier from causing a scene, Kennedy was already in pursuit to the stage’s stairwell.

With the respected man’s entrance, the crowd’s calls for comical relief made an appearance once more. Kennedy ignored the immature men, silent and stern. He turned to Sorcha, looking her straight in the eye.

Among the many hoots and whistles, Lee whispered to Sorcha. “Don’t let them undermined you, Captain. They haven’t seen your abilities.”

If these men wanted a show, Sorcha was going to give them a show.

“Knock the daylight out of me, do something to show these dim-wits you’re not to be pushed around, for Erskine’s sake goddamnit.”

He looked her straight in the eyes. “That’s an order.”

@avenginggirlscout

#avenginggirlscout

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claudiasjeancregg · 3 years

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I hope this helps with the stress at least just a little bit <3 and I do understand wanting to write but not being able to, so if you want, write as much as you want with (specially 12!). So. Here we go! 14, 13, 12, 10, 1!

hey ariel thank you so much this literally made my entire day, i wrote a fucking essay so here goes.

1. favorite episode

EVIDENCE OF THINGS NOT SEEN, institutional memory, the supremes, drought conditions, holy night, the inauguration episodes, the midterms, noël... all of them. just. ALL OF THEM

10. something you wish had happened

oh my god SO MANY THINGS!!! cj/toby kissing in the 7.21 scene would have saved my entire soul, or really just a kiss at any point. i just wanted them to ADDRESS THE CHEMISTRY IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?? just confirmation that they dated at one point, or hooked up occasionally... god. ANYTHING! more canon specific, i really wanted a scene of donna in therapy or talking to josh about the ptsd / trauma she undoubtedly faced after gaza. when they F I N A L L Y got together, i wish they had more of a conversation about why she quit! because she HAD GOOD REASON to do it, and i wish had talked about how he had treated her after gaza. also, seeing how cj and toby had dealt with rosslyn, and more conversations about cj getting the COS role over josh and how he forgave her for that. just. MORE FOUND FAMILY CONTENT GODDAMNIT i could watch entire episodes of the senior staff + donna just hanging out, i love them to death. LAST ONE I PROMISE- CJ HAVING FEMALE FRIENDSHIPS. or friendships, period. god, i would have died for some amy + cj content swapping stories and making sarcastic jokes, cj helping amy to adapt to the white house after being in a different environment her whole career. CJ AND ANDY! i mean i ship the ot3 and cjandy to death, but even as friends! donna and cj!! the assistants all being friends! just. let these tired women have friends, that’s all i want.

12. headcanon(s)

yeah, i’ve... basically covered these BUT i always have more!!

first off- BISEXUAL CJ. bi cj!!!! it’s canon in my heart. this next one is less of a headcanon and more of a dream, but the ot3! cj/toby/andy is my favorite thing in the world and i love the three of them.

i think cj and josh were a lot closer than we see, and i have many feelings about them sort of being siblings.

also, hc that cj and toby ended up together after the show BECAUSE I NEED IT.

um, donna went to therapy! i feel like the show largely ignored the fact that she was the only one in the car who survived!! and so did josh, especially after he realized a part of the way he treated her after gaza was bc of his guilt about sending her there in the first place, and then donna almost dying.

okay let’s see... 50% of my brain is thinking of tww headcanons at any given moment so-

huck and molly grow up with auntie cj, who wishes she could be more of a parent but is so, so, so thankful for what she gets. i didn't really think cj wanted to get pregnant and have kids, especially with danny, but the show really threw that in there at the last moment lol. the reason for this is NOT “she’s too focused on her career,” trust me. i actually think cj’s mom died from breast cancer when she was pretty young, about 13. it’s heartbreaking, and miserable, and cj doesn’t smile for a month after. her dad was at a complete loss as to how to help her, since he was still dealing with it too. so for about half a year they co-existed in the same house, barely speaking. cj’s passion for politics and journalism eventually led her to come out of her shell more, about a year later, but she didn’t come back to the joyful person she used to be until college. she’s deathly afraid of passing the cancer gene onto her kids, which is why in my brain, the ot3 always had plans for kids but andy was going to get pregnant. (i talk about cj’s thoughts on actual canon andy’s pregnancy so much in my fic, so i should probably shut up now.) also i really think cj works herself to the bone after becoming COS, especially after toby leaves. he was the only thing keeping her from self-destructing, making her sleep and eat and remember to function. i can’t get over allison janney’s acting, the way you FEEL cj’s exhaustion. she has... no self- preservational instincts when it comes to doing her job as well as she can, and that really hurts her mental health, and like. SANITY. charlie and margaret know this and this duo practically running the white house might be my favorite thing about season 7. also HOW DID THIS TURN INTO ONLY CJ HEADCANONS i have so many other ones!)

QUEER ELLIE BARTLET how could i forget? my random desire for ellie/mallory has no canon basis but i’m obsessed with them. tbh, i’m obsessed with all f/f west wing ships.

josh definitely has anxiety, that’s kind of canon. donna helps him manage it but after she leaves, his panic attacks become a lot more frequent and he forgets to take care of himself. also, i think cj has anxiety too.

WAIT WAIT WAIT IS THIS A PLACE FOR ME TO TALK ABOUT DONNA AND TOBY?!! aleena has a soapbox and she can’t stop, i’m sorry. okay so donna and toby are my favorite unlikely tww friendship, and i’m going to limit this to a few sentences but i will talk about this whenever anyone gives me an opportunity to. BASICALLY donna is the only person who doesn’t take any of toby’s bullshit, (who isn’t in love with him) and he underestimates her at first, yeah, but he is one of the first people to realize donna’s potential. and they have some very good, very small moments where he really sees her strength and she sees that he’s more than the stubborn grump he pretends to be.

i have so many headcanons about josh and toby, and cj and toby, and josh and donna, and cj and donna, and TOBY AND DONNA. josh teasing toby about cj. toby making fun of donna for being in love with josh because he says she’s too good for him but he loves josh like a brother despite what he says. HE SHOWS HER BABY PICTURES AND SHE GUSHES OVER THEM i don't make the rules!!!! anyways that’s NOT all of my headcanons, i just don't want to make you guys read any more lmao. thank you so much for indulging me, i would be thrilled to talk about more of these or to hear more of your headcanons! (this goes for anyone btw) THAT WAS SO LONG AHH.

13. character you wish you could be / aspire to be

cj cregg

14. on-screen crush

yeah, i’m a simple bisexual. cj cregg.

THAT WAS INSANELY LONG BUT SO FUN FOR ME, THANK YOU!!!

#aleena answers #tww #tww headcanons #tww ideas #the west wing #ariel tag #aleena rambles

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cauldronofmorning · 3 years

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More Surgeon!Margaret:

She has to remind Charles that she is his equal now, and to stop treating her like a nurse, goddamnit. It finally sinks in when she's right and he's wrong on a surgical matter.

I would very much like to see that happen

#women of mash week #m*a*s*h #Anonymous

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dolce-peach · 4 years

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I love “fracture” so much❤️ Would you consider doing a part 2, pretty pretty please 🙏

fracture [part 2]

pairing: bucky barnes x reader, steve rogers x reader

warnings: lots of angst, language, arguments

a/n: get ready for another angsty adventure, anon! if you haven’t read the first part, please do so here! also, i know this is bucky barnes x reader, but this part is more centered around reader’s relationship/marriage with steve. hope you guys like it 💗

permanent taglist: @kaitlynmalikisnotonfire

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“Margaret!” you called. “Come down for a snack!”

You smiled when you heard tiny scuttling footsteps coming down the stairs, and couldn’t help but laugh when you felt your young daughter come crashing into your legs, hugging them tightly.

“Careful, sweetheart,” you said as you continued chopping an apple.

She peeked over the counter and grinned. “Apples!”

You plated the fruit and walked her to her high chair at the table, sitting her down as she grabbed for the slices.

You smiled as you watched her eat, her blue eyes widening happily.

It was hard to believe she was already three. She had an incredible amount of energy and intelligence, but that wasn’t surprising, considering who her father was.

You sighed heavily.

Who her father was.

You tried not to think about the technicality of the statement. Her father was Steve Rogers, and that was it. He loved her more than life itself, spending as much time with her as possible, when he wasn’t on a mission, of course. He was the best father you could’ve imagined him to be.

And you were thankful to him for that. At the same time, you felt tremendous guilt for deceiving him.

“Mommy, where’s Daddy?” Margaret asked.

“Right here!” Steve called as he walked through the door.

He ran over and planted a kiss on Margaret’s rosy cheeks before greeting you with a kiss of your own. He pulled you close, making you laugh into his lips.

“Steve!” you scolded lightly, stifling a laugh. “PG, please.”

He smiled sheepishly. “Right.” He handed his daughter another apple slice. “How’s my baby girl?”

“Apples,” she murmured as she continued eating.

Steve chuckled, ruffling her hair. He wrapped an arm around your waist. “And how’s my best girl?”

“Doing alright,” you replied.

“Just alright?” he asked as his lips brushed over your neck. “Do you need me to do something?”

You shook your head as you touched his cheek.

His eyes were tired. You could tell all he wanted was sleep, but he lived for missions. You knew he wouldn’t stop until the world was guaranteed safety and peace.

He gave a sad smile. “Alright, well, I have to pack. Going on another mission with Nat.”

“They’re overworking you, aren’t they?”

“No, just...” He shrugged. “Duty calls.”

You chuckled. “You know, you can take a vacation once in a while.”

“Right,” he trailed off. “It’ll be okay. I’ll send Bucky over to check on you guys. You’ll be safe.”

Your heart skipped a beat. You quickly cover it with a smirk. “Don’t you think we’re safe enough with just me around?”

Steve laughed as he kissed you again. “Of course.”

Steve had been gone a couple weeks off to God knows where, which meant you had to get things done by yourself. It meant a huge deal to you that Steve was willing to go grocery shopping during his time off. Even something silly like massaging your shoulders after a hard day of training was a luxury you sorely missed.

You had just tucked Margaret in for the night when you heard a soft knock at the door.

Bucky stood there awkwardly as you opened the door.

“Hi,” you managed.

He smiled. “Hi.” He coughed. “Um, sorry I haven’t been around, but I figured I’d check up on you.”

You shook your head. “No problem.” You stepped back to let him in.

As he sat on the couch, you made your way to the kitchen.

“You hungry? There’s pasta,” you said over your shoulder. “Or something to drink?”

“Vodka would be great.”

You paused in your movements before laughing. “Bad day today?”

“No, just tired,” he said, taking off his jacket. “Seems like I’ve become the janitor, just cleaning up everyone’s mess.”

“Well, you are capable,” you said.

“So are you.”

You sat down next to him, a couple of glasses and vodka at hand. Once filled, you handed him a glass, receiving a smile and a nod in return.

Bucky sighed. “How have you been, Y/N?”

You blinked. “Why do you ask?”

“I barely see you anymore,” he said. “I mean, you’ve opted out of missions --”

“That tends to happen when you’re trying to raise a kid,” you said. “And Steve would rather me stay at home.”

He backed off. “Sorry,” he said quietly, letting the room fall into an awkward silence.

You shifted on the couch, holding your glass with two hands, staring down at the clear liquid. You took a large gulp before placing it on the coffee table. You could feel Bucky’s eyes studying your movements.

You glanced at him. “What?”

“I miss you.”

You looked away, trying to maintain your composure, when in actuality, you wanted to say the same and fall into his arms. You couldn’t believe you still harbored those feelings for him after all this time.

You disgusted yourself.

Steve, you thought. Think about Steve.

It would crush him.

Bucky pursed his lips. “You don’t have to say anything. Just putting that out there.”

You nodded, humming as you downed the rest of your glass.

“I miss you too,” you found yourself saying.

Damn it.

“And I wish it didn’t have to be this way,” you added.

Shut up!

“Me too.”

You looked at him, your heart fluttering. “What do we do?” you said. “I’ve been trying to be there for Steve, because he’s my husband, and I...”

Bucky raised an eyebrow.

“I...love him,” you finished. “What we had was in the past, and I thought we agreed we couldn’t live our lives like this.”

He leaned closer to you, causing you to lean back into a pillow. He was so close you could feel his breath on your lips.

“Just this once,” he whispered. “Please.”

Your lips were touching, your skin electrified.

You had to say no.

But you sat there helplessly, not wanting what you really wanted. Were you going to succumb to your body’s wishes, or think with your head and refuse? There wasn’t much time to act, as his lips hovered over yours, waiting patiently for permission.

“Just this once,” you breathed before meeting his lips, your eyes closed.

You’d forgotten what he tasted like, what his lips felt like against yours. He was gentle and tender, something you missed. You felt his hands reach for yours, the contact making you tremble.

“Y/N?”

Your eyes shot open at the sound of a voice you didn’t want to hear.

You quickly pushed Bucky away and turned to see Steve standing there, his duffel bag over his shoulder. The horror you saw in his eyes was something you never wanted to witness, and now that it was happening, you wanted to die right then and there.

His jaw tightened as his gaze shifted to his best friend. “Buck.”

“Steve,” you started, wiping your mouth. “I can explain --”

“Damn right, you can,” Steve said rather calmly. “And you’ll do that after he leaves, because if he stays for one more second, I might kill him.”

Bucky furrowed his eyebrows. “Steve --”

“Now!”

You watched Bucky throw on his jacket and quickly start for the door. Involuntary tears streamed down as he looked back, unsure whether he should leave you or not.

But he left, closing the door quietly with only a soft click.

You sat there on the couch in silence, trembling. “Steve,” you whispered. “I’m so sorry.”

“Do you not love me?” he asked, not bearing to look at you.

You shook your head. “Of course, I do.”

“Stop lying to me.”

“I’m not. I really do, Steve!”

“If you do, then why the fuck did I come home to see you making out with my best friend?” he shouted as he turned towards you, his blue eyes furious.

You bit your lip hard.

He shook his head. “There’s no excuse for that.”

Guilt consumed you, filling your face with a feeling of cold dread. You sighed as you rubbed your temples, wishing that this was nothing more than a dream.

“Was I not enough for you?”

You faced Steve with tear-filled eyes. “You were.” You shook your head. “You are.”

“Then how could --” He hastily wiped a tear away from his bloodshot eyes. “How could you do that to me? And what about Margaret?”

“Honey --”

“How long has this been going on?”

You shook your head. “Steve, this is the first time. You have to believe me,” you insisted. “I promise you --”

“Don’t make any more promises,” he said. “You already broke our vows.”

You looked down.

Steve scoffed. “Nothing else to say?”

You grasped the hem of your shirt tightly as you stood. Anger surged through you, enough to make you shake. All of a sudden, all the pent up frustration you’ve kept inside for all these years needed to escape. All of the lies you shouldered were finally enough to make you break.

“Fine. You want me to talk?” you shot. “You’re Captain fucking America! Every single move I make is scrutinized and criticized! I will never be good enough for you, and I’m sorry. So forgive me if I fall short because I can’t live up to your perfect expectations!”

“Since when did this turn into a pity party about you? I’m the victim here!”

“You wanted to hear what I have to say!” you shouted. “Bucky just so happens to be our friend --”

“Don’t you dare say his name,” Steve seethed. “He’s not a friend, not anymore. He stole you from me, and you let him do that.”

You pulled your hair and groaned with frustration. “See? I’m just simply an object to you! You only wanted me because I was part of your beautiful retirement plan!”

“I wanted you because I loved you, goddamnit!”

“This is love?” you asked, exasperated. “You keeping me cooped up in this house is love? No wonder I’m desperate for some fucking attention around here!”

His jaw tightened. “I do that to protect you.”

“You know that’s bullshit. You know what I’m capable of. You know I can hold my own.”

“Exactly! I know that you’re reckless, and you won’t think twice about sacrificing yourself for others!” he said. “You wouldn’t think twice about leaving Margaret behind!”

Your eyes widened as you staggered back.

“Mommy?”

You covered your mouth in horror as you turned to see Margaret in the doorway, clutching her stuffed bunny close to her chest. Her eyes were glossy as she cowered back into the shadows as you and Steve’s furious eyes met hers.

Out of instinct, you scooped her up into your arms, hiding her face in your chest. “It’s okay, sweetheart,” you said softly.

Steve sighed as he turned away, crossing his arms.

“Why are you and Daddy fighting?”

“Nothing. Everything’s alright, okay, dear?” you said, pressing a gentle kiss into her forehead as you walked to her room. “Come on. Let’s go put you back to bed.”

You bit your lip, trying to prevent a sob from escaping your lips. You set your daughter down into bed, covering her with her blanket.

Margaret’s large, curious eyes met yours. “Mommy?”

“Yes, sweetheart?”

“Would you leave me?”

Your eyes welled with tears. “Of course not!” you said as you stroked her hair. “You’re the most precious thing on earth to me, and I’d protect you with my life.”

“Promise?”

You already broke our vows.

You pursed your lips into a smile. “I promise.”

You didn’t sleep at all that night. You could hear Steve turning on the couch occasionally, and part of you wanted to go to him and keep apologizing until you were blue in the face, but you knew you both needed to be alone right now.

You thought about what Bucky might be doing, and how he was planning on dealing with this.

You still haven’t told Steve your biggest secret, and part of you wanted to keep it that way. If he found out Margaret wasn’t his, he’d be absolutely crushed.

He would hate you for life.

When the sun began peeking out, you went to the kitchen and made yourself some coffee. You left a bit extra in the pot for Steve if he wanted some, though at this point, he’d probably just pour it down the drain.

As you poured in some creamer, you jumped as you heard Steve behind you.

“Do you love me?”

You lay a hand over your racing heart. “Jesus Christ, Steve, it’s 6 in the morning.”

You turned to see the massive dark circles under his eyes. You figured you probably didn’t look much better. His eyes were red and puffy from crying, and his lips were raw from biting them in thought.

You turned away.

“Do you love me?”

The question was weaker that time, but still enough to stab your heart.

“If you don’t, then we should just end it here,” he said. “No point in living this lie anymore.”

“I’m sorry,” you whispered, setting your cup down.

“I don’t want an apology,” he said. “I want to know if you love me.”

You closed your eyes, gripping the handle of your mug. “Steve --”

“Please.”

“Even if I did love you, you wouldn’t love me the same,” you breathed.

“How do you mean?”

You took a deep breath before turning to face him.

Seeing the look in your eyes, he took a step back. “Oh, God,” he muttered. “Margaret?”

Your heart shattered.

“I should’ve known,” he said. “I should’ve known...”

“Steve --”

“Shut up.”

“Steve, Margaret Sarah Rogers is your daughter, always has been and always will be,” you said. “I didn’t want to give her up because I knew how much you wanted to start a family, and I was scared.”

He shook his head. “You could’ve told me.”

“She’s your daughter,” you repeated. “You’re her father, and she loves you.”

“Christ...”

He ran his hand through his long locks, sighing heavily. His eyes were away from you, searching his surroundings for something to ground him.

You nearly collapsed from the weight. Even though the secret was finally out, the pressure on your chest remained tight, leaving you unable to breathe.

You fucked up.

“I need some air,” Steve finally said before grabbing his jacket, keys, and walking out the door.

When it finally closed, you fell to your knees, involuntary sobs surfacing.

You clutched your shirt tightly as you doubled over, tears falling to the kitchen floor. It felt as though your heart was being ripped into two, along with the rest of your mind and soul.

Because you knew Steve was never going to come back.

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Alright here’s my belated Thoughts on that latest TSP episode. I should add again, I am in no way saying people shouldn’t like this show, I just need to be petty on my own blog.

- Stafford’s Performative Masculinity is a bit Much, even for a sixteenth century man

- Katherine doesn’t want Wolsey appointed chancellor because that would give him too much power and the chancellor is apparently the second most powerful man in the kingdom... so powerful in fact that I’m not even sure we’ve seen the current chancellor on screen, except in his ecclesiastical role as archbishop of Canterbury

- Ah the migrating towers of Holyrood. They weren’t there for the last two episodes and they won’t be there next scene either but they’ll be *theoretically* here all week folks.

- It is mildly hilarious that this show seems to think that every single moment in Scottish politics took place in one wee house in Somerset “Edinburgh”, and the only people who are ever involved are two dozen stereotypical Scottish noblemen, and one Englishwoman (and no clergy? Which is extremely weird given how heavily involved they were in royal administration).

- Not to mention they imply Holyrood is meant to be Edinburgh (it is now, then it was actually in the burgh of the Canongate but close enough) and yet the burgh skyline of Edinburgh is never visible in the background of these shots, just rolling fields and a nondescript hill that I assume is meant to be Arthur’s seat.

- Ok so we’re portraying Angus as the poetic soul instead of his uncle, that’s fine, that makes no sense but it’s fine.

- Who the fuck is Bishop McElroy. Setting aside the fact that McElroy was more common in Ireland than Scotland during the sixteenth century (and there were no major noble or even influential lairdly families bearing the surname), why could they not have just done a google search and found out that, oh yeah, there were Real Life Scottish Bishops in 1515, anyone of whom would have done. And I don’t know why they mucked about with the timeline but if they were going to muck around with the timeline anyway then then how about maybe even, dare I say it, Gavin Douglas, bishop-elect of Dunkeld???

- Also I didn’t quite catch the full line so I may have misheard but I think Margaret states that they got married in the kirk of South Queensferry? I mean tbh this only confirms my belief that the writers think everything happened in the vicinity of Edinburgh (and that they didn’t even bother to think to TRY and find out where the marriage might have taken place, just started tossing a few Scottish place names out there as if that would do. The Ferry’s not even that private, it was on a major pilgrimage route and an important crossing point over the Forth). It’s also a bit irritating because there’s no reason for the inaccuracies? They didn’t have to show the wedding so they didn’t have to change the location or characters for ease of filming or anything, it’s just a throwaway line, there’s no reason for them to make up a bishop and unlikely wedding location? Anyway join us next week as Henry VIII and Anne Boleyn conduct their affair in the middle of London Bridge.

- Also excuse me while I make an unconvinced noise at that line about how the Douglases (i.e. all of them, not just the Red ones) have always ‘licked the balls of England’. While their notoriety for being Shady As Fuck and occasionally siding with the English was certainly well known, no sixteenth century Scotsman worth his salt would have sullied the name of the Good Sir James just to score points off the Angus branch of the family.

- (Maybe this is a bad time to point out that they’re not technically licking ‘balls’ in this instance either...)

- I take it back there was one (1) woman very briefly in that scene where Margaret and “Angus” rushed to grab the bairns. She was promptly never seen again. Confirmed Cryptid.

- Also where did all the other bairns (James IV’s ones, not Margaret’s) go. I mean they were actually there last episode I think, so it’s not like they were implying that Margaret got rid of them as soon as she could. Have they FINALLY grown up?

- How quickly do letters travel in this world? How long have they been in that cellar? Are they still there?

- Wait so now Katherine of Aragon knows his name is Archibald??? Why has everyone been calling him ‘Angus Douglas’ then, even when his dad (and presumably grandfather) was alive?

- Lol @ Henry ‘after all I’ve done for her’. Do tell, what HAVE you done for Margaret.

- Hang on so Thomas Boleyn is Earl of Wiltshire already and yet his father-in-law Thomas Howard still isn’t duke of Norfolk

- Second LOL @ an archbishop of York willfully summoning a naturalised Frenchman to Scotland without the king of England’s permission, as if Scotland lay in his gift and as if that was in any way a good idea, even for some political point-scoring

- “Margaret’s sons must take the throne”- Katherine are you aware that James V was crowned King of Scots not two weeks after Flodden, and approximately seven months before his younger brother Alexander was even born.

- Again, HOW LONG HAVE THEY BEEN IN THE CELLAR? Angus has grown a BEARD.

- He’s not the future king he IS the king. A tiny toddler king. You help him go potty you disrespectful shite, I don’t care if you’re having a nervous breakdown. (May I just point out again it is CRIMINAL that David Lindsay isn’t in this)

- We all pause for An Exaggerated Whispering Scene, that great period drama staple. I mean are we sure they’re gossiping about Henry and a *woman*, because the way people are talking about Wolsey at that dinner once again makes it look like he’s the real Mistress

- So wait how is this ‘letting’ Margaret go with Howard thing supposed to work. Is it like knock-knock special delivery for the duke of Norfolk, here you go please take your princess back.

- And when exactly did Angus do all this negotiating when he has supposedly been stuck in a cellar for weeks. Gavin Douglas has a lot to answer for, and not just the sheer length of the Eneados.

- ‘Bog-fuckers’ - not a bog in sight in this west country version of Scotland. Also er, just how does one fuck a bog. Asking for a friend.

- I’m just being pedantic, Howard’s foul mouth is actually the only genuine piece of comedy the writers can come up with in this tv show.

- Howard putting up a good front here but come on there’s like six of them and about two dozen Miscellaneous Scotsmen. I know that the English were very practised in quartering Scots whenever they liked but eight to one is not good odds, even for the victor of Flodden.

- Yeah that whole scene is not how the history worked. At All. But let’s let them ride dramatically away across a field as if it’s at all plausible. (Also why is it always fields- I know Scotland’s roads were bad in the sixteenth century, but seriously they were at least *technically* roads when you got near Edinburgh)

- And there was definitely no Isabella Hoppringle, which is again, criminal. I mean I expected it but it’s still sad. Mind you I suppose that might imply that Scottish women are real creatures and not cryptids which, as we know, is totally unrealistic.

- Even weirder though, they’re not including Margaret Douglas? Why?

- Only one man has ever been in the king’s rooms? Seriously? You expect us to believe this, not only from a historical accuracy perspective, but also from the tv show that gave us implied Wolsey/Henry?

- The Great English Midwife Shortage c.1509-1516

- Do NONE of the many many grown-up people at the English court understand the lottery of birth and that you can’t just like, assume the baby will be a boy even if you hope it will. Wishful thinking is one thing (and common) but this wholehearted belief thing is frankly unrealistic.

- It’s also unfair how they’re treating Mary as unloved by both her parents. We know Katherine loved her daughter in some way, and it’s also not really fair to say that Henry VIII was anything less than a doting father in her early years.

- And the record for fastest churching goes to Katherine again. Cracking cape though.

- Katherine all ‘he won’t visit his daughter’- you won’t even look at her either though. How is this a sympathetic depiction of Katherine again? Don’t get me wrong, it’s absolutely understandable if a royal mother didn’t always want to hold her daughter but really? After every other negative light they’ve shown Katherine in and called it Empowerment?

- Hey I don’t know much about English customs but seems to me that inviting the French to intervene in Scotland without consulting the king might just be a beheading offence Wolsey. AND THEN HENRY COVERS FOR HIM? THE PAGES OF ENGLISH HISTORY BOOKS ARE NOT STAINED WITH THE BLOOD OF CIVIL SERVANTS EXECUTED FOR FAR LESSER OFFENCES FOR THIS KIND OF NONSENSE TO BE ACCEPTABLE.

- Thomas Boleyn, dad of the year

- People do kiss, Margaret Pole. That was a common thing. MEN kissed each other goddamnit. Not really good enough. I mean by your logic Katherine should have broken up with Henry after her dad laid one on him in the first episode.

- How is it that Thomas More, of all people, has the Goss.

- Oh and apparently there was also a National Laundress Shortage in 1516 too.

Ok so it was about as meh as every other episode but I think this one really brought home to me how poorly thought out Margaret’s storyline was. I mean usually these period dramas have to insert Drama for no reason to keep people interested, but Margaret’s life was FULL of drama and they had so much to work with. Instead they seem to have actually stripped most of the drama out to tell an utterly incomprehensible story about a bunch of stereotypical Scotsmen, who all live in the same house in Fake Edinburgh, chasing the only woman in Scotland into the cellar, and then posting her off back to England a few weeks later.

#TSP #Margaret Tudor #rants #I know I know #I finally got the internet back #And I'm using it to have a really petty rant about a tv show I'm largely indifferent to #This is the true purpose of tumblr

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