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Oh Sklonda's righteous fury hits so hard, as a kid who WAS taken advantage of in many ways by her friends when she was in school, and whose mom tried to tell her they were being unkind and who didn't believe her until she got kinder friends
#christina liveblogs#for me it was middle school so i know we've all grown up#i wish those people nothing but the best in life#but absolutely time and again my generosity was taken advantage of#i got teased for my naivety#my mom loaned a friend $20 when she said she lost it as we were driven to the movies#she found her cash and instead of giving my mom her $20 back we went to the mall with $40#i sat alone at a friend's house while they went to smoke weed in the garage bc i was Very much not the stoner i am now#and when we got to high school and i made friends with kids from my theater class#THEATER KIDS!!!#my middle school emo friends got upset bc i was being 'normal now'#they were not always good friends to me#and i was just like riz insisting it was fine i loved them they werent doing anything wrong#sklonda is right to be pissed and i love her for it#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#d20 spoilers#d20#fantasy high#sklonda gukgak#riz gukgak
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you make loving fun ꨄ pierre gasly smau
pierre gasly x fem!russell!reader
in which pierre has made it obvious he worships the ground his fiancé walks on, but her brother just has to make it clear he can fight if he needs to.
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pierregasly je t'aime mon chérie 🤍
georgerussell63 you better be sleeping in different beds. and the food better be fully cooked
ynrussell we've been engaged for 9 months.
ynrussell and it's a fucking croissant it's obviously fully cooked you dolt
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pierregasly what a great winter break with my favourite person! time to get back to work 💪😈
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ynrussell i love youuuu
ynrussell thanks for massaging my sore ankles after :(
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username they are literally so CUTE
username i want to be ynrussell so bad... like she's so pretty and pierre brings her EVERYWHERE
georgerussell63 this doesn't seem like a safe date option
georgerussell63 my sister better be in one piece by the time you finally return her home
ynrussell i am a grown woman??? i am not being returned home??? what is WRONG with you
pierregasly i think i'll keep her actually, sorry mate!
username do you guys think george is serious or is he just playing a joke
username he comments on EVERY single one of their posts... my mans gonna fuck pierre up if he ever steps out of line frfr
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ynrussell a special happy birthday to the king of my heart 🫶🏻 one year closer to 30 handsome!!!
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username happy birthday pierregasly!!!!!!
charles_leclerc 🥳🥳🥳
pierregasly do you want to fight??? one year closer to 30???
georgerussell63 i've got this ynrussell, don't threaten my sister or it's game over
pierregasly je t'aime 🤍
georgerussell63 is there a video of pierre getting his face shoved into the cake? i'll pay good money for it
username george omg
username LMAOOOO pleaaaase george is ruthless does he even like his future brother in law
georgerussell63 no. happy birthday pierregasly.
username why is no one talking about how he's looking at her in that second photo???? the pure love??? im gonna cry i hate that i love them
username the 😭 king 😭 of 😭 my 😭 heart 😭
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ynrussell spoiled absolutely rotten by all the wonderful women in my life this weekend, thank you all for making my bridal shower so special 🫶🏻 (and an extra special thank you to my best friend for the beautiful present he dropped off for me in the middle of it all)
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carmenmmundt had so much fun celebrating the beautiful bride to be!!
username it makes my heart so full that carmen's planned so much of ynrussell's pre-wedding stuff, she has to be in the wedding party omg
username do we think george is one of pierre's groomsmen???
username if pierre doesn't want to die on his wedding day i'd hope so lol
georgerussell63 i hope pierregasly didn't ruin your special day by showing up. so happy to see how overjoyed you were in all the photos 💗
ynrussell pls stop harassing my fiancé. love you georgie.
username i literally cannot WAIT for their wedding, i just know pierre is going to go all out to make sure ynrussell is the happiest bride in the world (or george will get his ass)
pierregasly i stand by what i said, prettiest flowers for my prettiest flower 💐
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georgerussell63 can't believe the little girl who used to make me zip up her raincoat on the way to school is getting married tomorrow. honoured to be apart of your special day. and even though i mention it 14 times in my speech, pierregasly i know where you live and i will hurt you if you ever hurt her.
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ynrussell 🥺🥺
ynrussell i'm going to cry. love you always georgie 🥺
username the picture of him zipping up her coat i'm going to cry... my fav brother/sister duo HONESTLY
username i just know this man would get away with murder for her if he had to
username pierre would not stand a chance against george
username bestie be so fucking for real, george's skinny ass ankles wouldn't stand a chance against my man pierre
carmenmmundt i think you've made enough threats by now?
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pierregasly may as well make it 15 times, i just dont think 14 is enough little brother
georgerussell63 do NOT call me that
pierregasly and yngasly
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pierregasly i am truly the luckiest man in the world to finally be able to call myself your husband. the tears were worth seeing you in the most beautiful dress, on the most beautiful day. i will hold my vows until the day i die. je t'aime, i love you.
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username omg he cried!!!!!!
username i KNEW IT i knew pierre would be a crier my man's looks like he would be
username do we think george made him cry
username girl dont be delulu i'd be crying too if yngasly was about to be my wife
georgerussell63 i have a video of you crying. don't act up.
pierregasly wouldn't count on it lil bro.
username pierre may get beat up without it even involving yngasly as this rate
yngasly can't believe i bagged myself such a looker
yngasly i love you mr. gasly
pierregasly i love you mrs. gasly
honestly this was one of those one's that i started, imagined myself in this position and then basically HAD to finish it. thank you to the lovely person who requested a russell!sister!reader who is engaged to pierre, who constantly get's threatened by george. i hope you all loved it!!
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The astronomy professor.
Severus Snape x Lupin!reader (past James Potter x reader)
Summary: it's Harry's third year, and the reader is beyond excited that her brother is becoming the boy's professor. When the two siblings goof off together before one of their classes, the reader realizes just how much she's grown attached to Snape.
Warnings: Death, grief, guilt, fighting, talks of threatening behavior, etc.
Author's note: I'm planning on working on the next piece of "His betrothed" soon! Also... maybe a Remus Lupin x reader???
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Severus scowled at the other end of the professors table in the Great Hall, while next to him, Y/N smiled brightly.
They had both had quite different viewpoints of the newest DADA professor.
Remus Lupin.
Being a Lupin herself, she was beyond excited that her older brother was coming to teach.
And he was quite excited to be there as well.
The two were close during their time at Hogwarts. She was often seen flitting around the Marauders like a pesky gnat.
None of them ever thought of her as pesky though.
She was Remus' younger sister, and therefore, their own younger sister.
And throughout their time in school, she had developed a large crush on James Potter.
The only person who ever knew about it was Remus.
And while it absolutely killed her, she was happy when James and Lily started dating.
Then were engaged.
Then married.
Then had Harry.
That was just the kind of person Y/N was. Though it destroyed her, she couldn't help still feeling joyful for him.
Imagine her pain the day he died.
That's how she got to this point now.
So close to Severus Snape.
Because they both bonded together over one thing:
That James and Lily Potter could've had very different lives if they hadn't ended up with each other.
…
Remus approached Y/N after the dinner, grabbing her elbow gently from behind. She turned away from her conversation with Minerva to look at him, "Oh, Remus. What's wrong?"
He shakes his head, "Nothing. It's just… can I talk to you?"
Minerva intervenes, "Go on, you two. We'll finish this conversation later, Professor Lupin." She pauses, "Well, I guess now you're both Professor Lupin. Hmm."
She walks off.
Y/N turns around to him. "There's something wrong with you. Don't lie. We've been siblings for far too long to make you think you can lie to me."
He sighs and pulls her arm, dragging her out of the Great Hall.
Severus, with his ever watchful gaze, notices the urgency in which Remus drags her away.
He didn't miss the tall werewolf at all.
…
"He's just so tall, isn't he?" Remus asked joyfully.
She smiles, "Oh, yes. And Harry is so smart. That, or he's quite good at copying off of Ms. Granger. You'll figure it out when you get there."
"He looks just like James." Remus said with distant look in his eyes.
Y/N smiled at the thought, "Yes. But, he looks like Lily, too. Imagine if he had her red hair. He'd fit in with the Weasleys just fine!"
The two siblings laughed loudly in the middle of the deserted corridor.
It was if they were students again.
She looked back at him, "I really have missed you, Rem."
He sighed, "I'm sorry for my actions after… you know."
"Remus, I don't blame you for reacting to all of it the way you did-"
"-you really can, though. You should."
She stepped back, shaking her head, "No. I don't care what happened in the past."
"You're my sister and I pushed you away," he reminded her. "All because I was too weak."
She scoffed, "You're not weak. You've never been weak. Remus, don't-"
"-NO!" He pushed, "I pushed you away after he died because. every. single. time I looked at you after that, I saw him."
Her mouth opened slightly as she registered his words. She moved to speak, but couldn't trust her own voice.
He took a deep breath and pinched the bridge of his nose, "Look. I'm sorry. That's nothing of your concern, and I don't know why I bothered you with it."
"You… you really saw him in me?" She asked.
"I still do."
"What's going on down here?" Severus's voice boomed down the hall as he approached the two.
Remus resisted the urge to roll his eyes.
Y/N turned to look at him, "Just catching up. It's been far too long."
"And still not long enough," Severus said.
"Severus," she scolded.
Remus chuckled lightly, "Nice to see you, too, Snivelus."
"Remus," she scolded towards him now.
The two completely ignored her as they glared at each other.
She sighed, "Let's just pretend we all get along? Please."
Severus grumbled under her breath, but agreed.
Remus considered her question carefully, and finally nodded.
…
Now, Y/N sat on Severus's desk as he carefully brewed a potion on one of his standing desks.
"Are you happy to be here with your brother again?" He asked as small talk.
She nodded, "Yes. I missed his laugh most dreadfully."
He nodded, throwing another ingredient into the cauldron.
She grabbed a stack of papers on his desk, looking at each one carefully.
"What are you doing?" He asked.
"These are second-year essays, yes?"
"Yes."
She nodded, moving now to sit at his desk. She grabbed his quill and ink. "I'll grade these for you while we talk."
He quickly moved towards the desk, "No. I will grade them another time. Don't do my work for me. You do enough."
She looked up at him with a puzzled brow, "Why? You're busy with your potion. I thought it only fair…"
He stepped back in thought, "It would be a nuisance to you. You won't enjoy the content."
She laughed, "No one enjoys reading or writing essays about anything magical. Everyone would rather just see or do it."
"But that's how they learn." He counter argued.
She shook her head, "No, that's how you teach."
He tilts his head, "And what do you do for Astronomy, darling?"
She smiles, "They draw what they see. The constellations. Then sometimes, I make them come up with new names for each one. When they get older, they get to write stories for them. Come up with their own backstory for how it got in the sky."
He nodded, "But each constellation has its own story already."
"They do. And I tell them those. If people in history can choose what to believe about them, why can't my students? And trust me when I say I haven't had a single student fail the exam for it in four years."
Severus stirred the potion as he listened, "I just don't see how it's helpful, is all."
She shrugs, "As long as they learn, who cares?"
He smiles just barely, "I'll never understand how your little mind works."
She missed the way he almost ruined the potion due to his interest in their conversation.
…
"So, what's in your lesson plans for today, Professor Lupin?" Y/N asked excitedly.
"Well," Remus said, "Today, I figured the third years would get to face a boggart."
She gasped, "You got your hands on a boggart?"
He nodded, "Hagrid helped me, of course."
"How much longer until your class?"
He looked down at his watch, "Hmm, 40 minutes, I'd say."
She smirked, "Still think our fears are what they always were?"
He tilted his head back and forth, "I'd say so. I mean, we're older but… we're still who we used to be. It's worth a try." He smirked.
She practically skipped with excitement toward the bureau in his classroom. "Merlin, you're already better than the last DADA professor, Rem."
He furrowed his brow, "How so?"
"Well," she recalled, "I heard from a Weasley that he opened the cage of 15 Cornish pixies into the second year class. Caused a major disruption. And then… his personality, of course."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know about others, but, he would not let me alone. He asked me out almost every other day. It was so tiring. But then, one day, he just… quit bothering me."
Remus pondered her words, "What would make him quit?"
She shook her head, "I don't really know, Rem."
He huffed, "Well, I gotta know now. Think, dear sister."
Y/N looked up in thought, "It was after Christmas break. But… before the Chamber was opened. It doesn't matter, honestly. I much rather be goofing off before your class starts. C'mon."
Remus smiles and stands in front of the bureau with his wand, "Alright."
She opens the door slowly.
The boggart immediately shifts into the full moon.
Y/N sighs at the sight.
He was still scared of who he was when the full moon appeared.
"I suppose nothing has changed," he stated.
She nods.
She walks in front of her brother to face the boggart next.
It takes its time to shift, making her rethink her decision to do this.
It shifted to something much different.
Severus Snape's dead body.
Her face dropped quickly at the sight and her eyes widened.
She knew it wasn't real. She knew it wasn't real.
Why does it look so fucking real?
Remus looks over her shoulder with a gasp.
And neither of them move for a minute.
Finally, her voice breaks through the silence, "Rem?"
He nods, "Yeah. Yeah. I… I got it."
Remus steps in front of her, waving his wand and whisking the creature back into the bureau.
The door shuts and locks, but the siblings remain just as quiet.
As if spooked, Y/N bolts out of the classroom door.
She runs as quickly as her legs can carry her, almost running into sleepy students multiple times.
She throws the door open.
The door to Severus's classroom.
He stands up from his desk slightly startled by her sudden intrusion.
Her entire body relaxes as she sees him.
"Is everything alright?" He asked suspiciously.
She shakes her head, looking down at her feet in embarrassment.
Severus nods, walking up to her slowly. "I have twenty minutes before class. Why don't you come sit?"
When she doesn't move at all, he reaches forward and gently grabs her bicep.
At the contact, she suddenly wraps her arms around his neck and hugs him tightly.
He grunted in surprise, but made no move to get away from her.
In fact, he even wrapped his own arms around her.
"What has got you so worked up?"
She sighs into his chest, "I don't know. Everything just… clicked today."
"It what?"
"It all makes sense."
He leaned back just barely to see her face, "Such as?"
"You told Lockhart to let me alone last year, didn't you?"
He stiffened, "I… may have."
"Thank you."
"Don't. It was nothing."
She nods, pulling away from him, "I'm sorry for all this. I just… had… a moment earlier and… needed to make sure you were alright."
"Why wouldn't I be?"
She shrugs, "It seems that the people I like don't have a great track record of… staying alive, is all."
He tilts his head, "People you 'like'?"
Y/N blushes, "Um. People I enjoy the company of. You know."
"And you enjoy my company?" He asked in a teasing way.
"How could I not?" She finally regains her thoughts, "I should go before your class starts. Granger will be here any minute."
He nods, "Perhaps you may come by later to assist me with grading?"
She smiles, "Only if you let them draw pictures at some point."
Severus sighs, "Alright."
She bits her bottom lip to hold in her laugh. "Alright then. It's a date."
She begins to walk out.
"And Darling?" He asked.
She turned in the doorway to look at him, "Yes?"
"I didn't tell Lockhart to let you alone. I threatened him quite severely."
She tilted her head, "How?"
He shrugged, "Does it matter?"
She shakes her head with a light blush on her cheeks.
Oh, Remus will eat this up.
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What do you think Light was like as a kid? I ask this despite thinking that basically everything we've ever learned about L's childhood is silly and should probably be ignored, because a preteen kicking everyone's asses at lunch and then declaring himself to be justice just cheapens his grown-up declarations so hard.
I agree that L's backstory is a bit cartoonish for my tastes, even if most things about it do work well enough to me (though to SOME degree I don't even really think giving him a concrete backstory is necessary or makes the plot better for the purposes of the canon story. The mystery of L is a big part of his appeal! I only really care about it much when it comes to making in-depth shippy fanfic about him and stuff)...
So I think Light as a kid was pretty cheerful and maybe a bit on the bossy and overly competitive side. I picture him wearing a lot of T-shirts and shorts and skinning his knees on the playground, but also spending a lot of time reading and watching TV and hanging out with his dad as much as he could. I think since he was so intelligent that he was probably constantly thinking people his own age were ridiculously slow and childish seeming in comparison, and that maybe made it harder for him to make friends at school at first, as he'd be coming off a condescending know-it-all. But I think he learned to get along with others pretty well eventually, and didn't ever get too socially ostracized nor make a ton of waves (he was NOT like Mikami, basically... he wouldn't do things like beat up a bully or make himself stand out like a sore thumb or commit social suicide over anything, even if he did sincerely think the bullying was bad). He probably was often being put into peer leadership positions by adults at school and extra-curriculars and dutifully accepting them, testing himself in various academics and sports and always coming out on top, and feeling kind of secretly bored and arrogant and let down by his peers because of that. I think he probably started dressing more seriously and more adult around puberty/middle school, started getting noticed for his good looks more around then, and started really buckling down on studying hard and thinking about his career around then too.
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You know what the Kiss of Death in a SJM couple is?
Lack of transparency and as a result, the absence of true emotional intimacy.
I'm not talking about things like the "winged baby" pregnancy plot or Rhysand's schemes where everyone else was the last to know. I'm talking about the characters being unable to share their true self with another.
Tamlin and Feyre:
Their relationship wasn't all bad. Truth be told, I was hooked on Tamlin in book 1 because I read a lot of romance novels including bully and dark romance so his behaviors didn't trigger any red flags for me. Probably because I have read even worse behaviors from other fictional MMC and they still ended up together. But ACOTAR was my first foray into an SJM novel so I didn't realize she was writing him to be problematic (or her version of it)
But in book 2, we really see the beginning of the end and it all began with Feyre and Tamlin being unable to reach out to one another emotionally during their PTSD from UTM. They weren't able to connect and talk about the hard stuff. Tamlin chose to ignore the fact that Feyre was throwing up every night and for awhile, she chose to remain silent on his sleeping in his Beast form. When she did finally bring it up, he brushed it off rather than really talking and connecting and she let the topic drop just as quickly.
Feyre and Tamlin lacked emotional intimacy and they failed as a couple.
Celeana and Chaol:
This one was tough one for me, I wasn't over them for a good while. They were such a beautiful pairing in my opinion.
But Celeana was never able to tell Chaol the truth about her past and who / what she really was. She hid a huge part of herself from someone she was planning a future with and though we can understand why she felt the need for it, we can also understand why things turned out the way they did.
The SJM Couples which have worked out have been brutally honest with one another to the point that sometimes it hurts. Feyre is the only one who Rhysand truly opened up to after UTM. He couldn't even bring himself to share it with his friends who he'd known for over 500 years. He allowed himself to be vulnerable with her and also refused to stop trying to reach her when she had sunk into her depressive state. He never accepted her "I'm fine's". He tried to knock down her walls long before they ever got together. They weren't adorable and sweet getting to know each other, they were raw and real and Epic.
Nesta notes that Cassian "saw" all of her from that very first day and she tried like Hell to keep him from getting that close again. But he refused to stop poking and prodding. He consistently put her on the defense making every effort to get through to her. Again, this was no cute and sweet romance. It was Nesta putting up the absolute worst she had to offer and the male who never ran away even when it looked pretty hopeless.
Then we have Az and Elain:
"She had no idea" the things Az had done. He makes zero mention of Elains mental state in his POV (outside of Lucien) meaning the only thing he's focused on is her beauty. Not how far she's come since the loss of Graysen, or even though she's come so far he senses she is still struggling after losing her humanity. They might have had cute and sweet moments but so did Feyre and Tamlin and so did Chaol and Celeana. That means nothing in the end because E/riel are two grown adults who still act like they're experiencing a Middle School crush when they're together. Their interactions are so awkward and uncertain and there is zero emotional intimacy that we've witnessed between them. That is not the way SJM writes Endgame romance. Her couples are real and they see each other's demons. Az and Elain are not honest with themselves or one another when they are together. Neither have ever acknowledged the others struggles and that alone, even without hearing what Az said to Rhys or bringing Gwyn into the mix is enough to convince me they are not meant to be.
Elain and Lucien:
We won't know until we know but for a female who was distraught over having lost the person she felt finally "saw" her and a male who has an eye who can "see" things others cannot, I am not at all surprised that there is a wall between Elain and Lucien. When Feyre slips into Lucien’s thoughts, it was the first time we EVER heard Elain say something vulnerable about her feelings. "I want to go home" and "he'll be looking for me" (which she said to Feyre) have nothing on "can you hear mine?" “No one ever does. No one ever looked—not really.”. Within minutes of meeting Lucien, she let's him see inside of her in a way she's never done for anyone else on page. Now that she's gone on to pretend she's fine in the Night Court, of course she'd shrink away from the Male who sees too much and who she is desperately trying to pretend doesn't exist because of everything he represents and his ability to see the deepest and most selfish thoughts inside of her. We saw more intimacy (i.e honest feelings) between Elain and Lucien after knowing each other for a day than we've seen between Az and Elain after nearly two years. We even saw her express anger to Lucien in those first moments. Anger from Elain who had NEVER shown anger before that. She was more real with Lucien than we'd ever seen from her at that point and that right there was an Endgame couple being handed over on a silver platter.
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Ofc how but mention every single of of The Boys. All of your boys at once
YOU FOOL. YOU DARE TO CHALLENGE ME? LOOK UPON THIS CHART AND DESPAIR.
Gun sipped his soda and watched as Tinn fiddled with his poster tube for what was apparently a vital presentation for the both of them. His boyfriend's nerdiness had grown on him, to a near fatal degree, and Gun was wondering if he'd suddenly have a problem getting tutored by Tinn if he wore glasses during their sessions.
(Tinn did not need to know that it was bound to be a problem if Gun's recent search history was any indication.)
"Okay, okay, so we've been invited to a Party," Tinn said at last as he pulled out his rolled up poster. "Not just any party, but a Panitchayasawad Party."
"Yes," Gun said with a nod.
"Because some how, through crazy random happenstance, you have family connected to the Panitchayasawads."
"Yes."
"Which means we'll be exposed to a host of characters."
"Well, P'Can says they're all pretty cool..."
Tinn narrowed his eyes and Gun put on his most innocent face. "Regardless, we're being thrown into the tiger's den and I think we should both be prepared for all the potential conversations we might have."
"You're over-thinking it," Gun said as he held out his soda cup for Tinn to take a sip. "They said to just relax and have a good time."
"Mother would never forgive me if I ruined her reputation or father's at the party, Gun."
"Who's gonna tell her? Do any of them even know your mother?"
Tinn's eyes took on a surprisingly manic glint and Gun wondered just how far a simple party invitation from a friend of a cousin had driven him. "Oh just wait." Tinn unfurled his poster and Gun's eyes immediately lost focus. "To help us today, I made a non-exhaustive map to chart how all the guests know each other..."
"Tinn... Tinn..." Gun walked over and shook his boyfriend. "This looks like a conspiracy map."
"Well I'd contemplated doing the pinboard thing with yarn and pictures for you but that would have gotten too big and bulky."
Gun blinked. "Oh."
"Anyway..." Tinn stuck the poster up and retrieved a pointer. "We start right here in the middle, with you and me."
Gun couldn't help his smile at Tinn's antics and pressed a small kiss to Tinn's cheek, making Tinn's cheeks turn pink. "Go on."
"Uhh..." Tinn blinked for a second before shaking himself. "Right, and from us, you have your cousins Ayan and Can."
"P'Can is from mom's side, P'Ayan is from dad's."
"And your cousin and my cousin are... dating."
"Who knew tackling an authoritatively oppressive and traditional private school would start a romance?"
"P'Can is dating P'Tin, no relation, and P'Tin is from the Medthanan family."
"Yeah, but P'Can doesn't like it when P'Tin uses his money. Says he's too wasteful."
"P'Tin is friends with P'Pete Pitchaya and also goes to school with P'Kluen, Dao, Mork, Pi, and Ae."
"P'Tin always says P'Pete forces him to talk to the others, but I don't buy that."
"Why?"
"P'Can says he smiles when he says it these days."
Tinn rolled his eyes. "P'Pete and P'Pi are cousins. P'Dao has an older half-brother named P'Fah who will also be attending with his boyfriend P'Prince who actually... is in the family of northern royals."
"Seven degrees of separation is real," Gun said as he traced the lines with a smile. "I'm within seven degrees of an actual Thai prince family line."
Tinn's expression went soft again and Gun pinched his cheek. "Keep going, na?"
"Ahem, right. P'Pete is actually a twin and his twin's name is P'Tutor. P'Tutor goes to school with the people in this box here..." Tinn said as he pointed to the next part of his chart.
"Look, you drew a boot around these people."
"It's not a boot... okay it looks like a boot, but that's P'Bohn's gang of friends who are in the same year as P'Fighter who is dating P'Tutor..."
"Got it, got it, got it. Friends, friends, friends."
"Not only just friends, P'Fighter and P'Bohn's families occasionally do business."
"Tinn, so many of these have families that do business... Just P'Tin's family alone does business with most of them. It's like... half of your chart."
"Regardless, don't forget to not mention webnovels around P'Zon, P'Pete and P'Tutor are identical twins that were separated at birth so be alert, P'Frong will love talking about flowers, P'Thara will love talking about his lizard-"
"Is that a euphemism?"
"No." Tinn frowned. "Where did you learn the word euphemism?"
"From you."
"Oh..." Tinn's expression turned dopey again and Gun flicked his forehead. "Um right. P'Ram likes dogs, P'King's been working on his dog phobia-"
"Did dating P'Ram help with that?"
"...I'm too scared to ask."
"Hmm... valid."
"You can definitely talk music with several of these seniors," Tinn pointed out. "P'Saifah and P'Boss are big ones in this part here. P'Sarawat up here is also good at music."
"But P'Sarawat just goes to the same school. Why is he invited?"
"P'Pete and P'Yo apparently helped P'Tine with something once and P'Sarawat owes someone in there a favor so he keeps playing music for the parties. P'Kongpob says he probably likes to do it so he doesn't have to talk to anyone."
"Why are P'Pat and P'Pran invited?"
Tinn rubbed his eyes. "P'Kongpob invited them. Something about keeping an eye on P'Pat and potentially making him head hazer one day. Also P'Pat's dad and P'Kongpob's dad were in negotiations for some kind of business deal. Maybe that went through?"
"I think P'Ayan invited P'Pran because of art lessons."
"Since when does P'Ayan draw?"
"Since he felt like it. Something about art therapy."
Tinn nodded and scanned the chart for the next section to discuss. "Oh, I forgot to mention P'Solo and P'Kao Ashira. They're also really good at music. Talk to them. P'Kao is known for being able to play any instrument at his school."
"Huh... I think you're missing lines here," Gun said as he traced lines from Tin to Win. "I could have sworn P'Can said P'Dean and P'Win are friends with P'Pete."
"No one tells me anything," Tinn grumbled as he scribbled down a note in his notebook.
"It's still a really good chart, Tinn."
"But now it's missing connections."
"Which you couldn't have known about because..." Gun scratched his head. "Hey, actually how did you get all this information?"
Tinn sighed. "They've all had a lot of stuff publicly posted on social media. And then I asked P'Akk and P'Kongpob to help fill in some gaps."
"You determined most of this from just social media?! Are you sure you want to do engineering at uni and not... data mining?"
"Engineering pays better," Tinn said with a shrug. "Even if it's an oversaturated field at this rate." Tinn then picked up his pointer again and continued. "So that's the gang at that school... Over here we have P'Prapai, Sky, Payu, and Rain. I'd say I should warn you about P'Prapai, but apparently P'Sky has him on lock. P'Tin also invited P'Payu as a favor to P'Pran since P'Payu works at a really big architecture firm."
"So this is how people get all those cool, high profile connections, huh?"
"Do you see now why I was nervous?"
"Okay, okay, you were right." Gun rubbed Tinn's back. "I'm sorry. Now keep going, you still have a whole half of the chart left."
"Uhh... let's do this easy part next." Tinn pointed down to a small section on the bottom. "Here's P'Kao Phanuwat, my tutor, and his boyfriend, P'Pete Phubodin. They go to school with P'Akk Itsara and P'Theo. P'Theo's mom also does business with P'Fighter, but don't bring it up too much since P'Theo's parents got a divorce. He almost moved to France with his mother actually."
"Didn't you say you talk to a P'Theo about books sometimes too?"
"Yep, that's this P'Theo. He's a Lit major."
"So I have to thank him for all the English vocab you've tried to teach me lately?"
"More than you can imagine." Tinn took another sip of Gun's soda and pointed to the last section. "And now the last part over here. The Wild Doctors Gang. P'Pha, Kit, and Beam have been friends since childhood and they all decided to go to the same uni and become doctors. P'Pha and P'Yo have been chasing each other since high school... P'Ming has apparently liked P'Kit since high school... P'Lom and P'Pha are cousins..."
"What's this over here?" Gun pointed at an orange line from Yo to Khai. "Mortal enemies?"
"Oh that... P'Yo says P'Khai broke his One Piece DVDs once and laughed about it. P'Yo has never forgiven him since and P'Third, P'Khai's boyfriend, is perpetually apologetic whenever they end up meeting up. Realistically, the line between P'Yo and P'Khai should be a green one since their dads do business occasionally, but uh... this is the more relevant connection."
"So if I'm reading this chart right... We both could have gotten invited to P'Yo's party several ways?"
Tinn rubbed his eyes again. "Yes."
"And we've only just gotten an invite now because?"
"Your cousins got invited and then you had to tell them we were graduating soon and now their friends want us to pick one of their schools to go to and so P'Yo decided to invite us so we could talk to them about their schools." Tinn pointed at Khai and Third again. "P'Yo says if we ever want to be invited again, we do not pick P'Khai's school."
"Do... do we want to be invited again?"
"Ask me after the party," Tinn said with a sigh as he finally slumped into a chair.
"Thank you for all your hard work," Gun said as he sat next to Tinn and ruffled his hair. "You are truly kind and considerate."
Tinn smiled. "It does feel nice to have you say that."
"I'd have said it more often if you just told me you were trying to help..."
"YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHY I COULDN'T."
"A DEBILITATING CRUSH ON ME DOES NOT COUNT."
#my school president#rich boys au#tinngun#tinn x gun#prompt spam new year#I'm about to reference your socks off right now#of all the things i've ever written this is probably the most self referential thing ever
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Let's Talk About NatsuMikan: Mikan (pt. 39)
I'm sorry. What lies ahead is more of a rant than anything else. It's not required reading in any case. Feel free to read if you want my take on the specific reasons why this ending is so lackluster.
We've come really far to get here, though! If you've read every part of to this, that is CRAZY. I think it's crazy someone would write so much about this, and I was the one who did it. Maybe we're both crazy.
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Chapter One Hundred and Seventy-Eight
Time to meet Mikan! A second-year high school student living in a village near the ocean who lives with her grandpa and a strange bear. She has two friends who don’t seem to wear the uniform. Her life is simple, from the outside.
But she is a person shrouded in mystery! Even to herself! She has lost two whole years of memories due to an illness she had as a child. In her mind, she suddenly went from being in the fifth grade to entering middle school, which must have been jarring for her. All she knows is her grandpa, an ever-present bouquet whose flowers never wilt, and a teddy bear who came with a letter from a mysterious sender, whose name has been redacted. But this bear is not a normal bear! He is animate and can move and clean (and beat her up). The strangest thing is that it only moves in front of her and her Jii-chan. Mikan’s reputation in the village has been affected by this strangeness in her life. She is viewed as being an odd girl, a bit of a space case.
Mikan is the crazy girl in the village. I would have loved to see more of that...
It seems Mikan has always been a weirdo. I speculated at the start of this essay that Mikan didn't always fit in with kids in her village, and it seems that's still the case now. Where Mikan thrived was Alice Academy, where she was surrounded by fellow weirdos, where she made amazing friends and bonds that would last forever.
Despite the bear’s strangeness, she is very close to him. He’s a part of the little family she has with Jii-chan.
Mikan may be a strange girl surrounded by strange things, but she is an optimistic and cheerful girl who likes to look forward to every new day.
At the end of the school day, Mikan’s teacher warns his students about mysterious disappearances and suspicious people in town. All of the victims seem to be girls Mikan’s age, so the police warn against teen girls walking by themselves. Mikan finds this situation strange since their town is so peaceful and idyllic, and doesn’t seem like the place for a string of kidnappings. The teacher freaks out and insists on Mikan paying attention, shaking her by the shoulders and telling her to take care of herself or else he’ll have to watch over her 24/7… which is gross. Get away, Mikan!
Seeing her get harassed isn't enjoyable though. I hatE her stupid friends. Gross. Creepy. Unsettling. One of her friends is a grown man in disguise. I want to rip his head off.
Mikan leaves school crying after that ordeal and her friends just laugh it off, teasing her for being the teacher’s favorite and what bad luck that must bring. I don’t find it funny but nobody asked me! In any case, her friends write off their teacher’s concern because of Mikan’s cuteness, which she seems to love hearing.
Clubs and afterschool activities have been canceled because of the kidnappings, so we have a sense of how dangerous these events are.
Someone calls out to her on their way home--a boy who wants to talk in private. Her friends muse on how many guys confess to Mikan despite her “common” looks--and I must reiterate again how important it is to me that Mikan is not some drop-dead gorgeous model like Nobara or Hotaru are clearly made out to be. Also her friends suck. They figure her mystery might be attractive to boys, and that might be true, but I think her sweetness and bubbly energy might also play a role.
He does indeed confess to her and Mikan apologizes, citing her ignorance in the world of dating. She thanks him for liking her but turns him down. Her rejection of him is not personal at all, and thus wholly non-offensive. She doesn’t seem uncomfortable or put off by his affections, and I think that might soften the blow of her rejection a little.
Her friends scold her for turning him down, since he’s smart and in a prestigious club, and Mikan concedes that he did seem cool, but that she won’t date for anything less than love. They continue to bully her for rejecting him when love comes after dating, and Mikan sees their point, especially because she hasn’t had her first love yet, but she is sure, somehow, that she did love someone during the time she lost. As a result, whenever she talks to a boy, no matter how impressive or cool he seems, she always compares him to that feeling of love she still carries with her, for a person she doesn’t even remember.
Ah, the consistent endurance of love. The question of whether love is something that can be forgotten or whether it becomes a function as natural as breathing or digestion. For Mikan, it seems to be the latter. She remembers that she was--is still--in love with someone, and dating carries no interest to her if it can’t compare to that feeling.
The love is certainly not past tense, either, because she still feels it--an ache, a pain, a lonely feeling. She misses this person.
There's potential here but no follow through. What we get is just endless disappointment.
They stop by the ocean and Mikan relishes the moment, always happy to see the sea, as if she is watching it for someone else too. She recalls feeling that way watching the snow fall, looking at the sky, feeling happy like she was watching for somebody else, and then explicably crying, unable to stop. No matter what she does or experiences, her heart is pulled to that love.
And what do I think of all this?
It’s pretty confusing, the way it’s written. It’s no secret I fucking hate these chapters, and there’s a lot of reasons, but this scene is something I can’t relish in because it can be read a few ways and I can’t help but feel like I know which is the way Higuchi intended it.
It’s pretty clear from the blurry panels of forgotten memories that Mikan is thinking of multiple people as she stares into the ocean, thinking of Hotaru as she stares at the snow. And yet, this whole monologue of hers seems to be thinking of one person. What does this mean?
Well, primarily, I think Mikan’s amnesia mixes the love up, and I feel l want to believe that’s narratively intentional, that Mikan loves and misses many people, but can’t parse out that fact. Instead it feels like she just loved one person that much that everything reminds her of a love she can’t remember.
In my opinion, this love is varied, because she loved a lot of people in different ways: friends, family, Natsume (who has always been different). I think she is put off by romance because of her enduring romantic love for Natsume, but it’s not only Natsume that she thinks of when she sees the ocean. Mikan loved so many people and now she misses them, all the friends and teachers and classmates and family she met and lost. It would make sense then that amnesia!Mikan might look at the moon and think of Natsume, or at the stars and think of her mother. Maybe she hears a violin and misses Sumire, or cries whenever she studies because she wishes Yuu was there--all without actually remembering the person, just the love. As a result, because she knew and loved so many people, she would get reminded of that love whenever she does anything.
What puts me off about this is the rest of this arc and the unproportional emphasis on Hotaru. I already hate the choice to have Hotaru save Natsume so her fate hasn’t actually been sad to me for a few years now--just deeply annoying and pointless. I am of the opinion that Mikan entering the academy was a change for her, that she was a weird girl in her old village, who didn’t have many close friends until she met Hotaru. Then she went to the Academy and was able to make many friends with people who loved and accepted her. She finally found somewhere she belonged.
These ending chapters, thus, should have been about her enduring love for everyone, how the bonds she made at the Academy were impossible to forget. Instead, the reunion with Natsume and her entire class is condensed to one chapter--and very little of it is pleasant--with the entire final chapter being about Hotaru, as if to make the point that despite all of the love Mikan gathered and gained, Hotaru is still the person she loves the most, and by a huge margin, almost to the point where her other loved ones don't really matter at all.
AnyWAY, the kidnappers have found her and Mikan is terrified and confused. A mysterious explosion seems to save her from the kidnappers, and when she looks through the flames, she can see the silhouette of a person in the distance, a silhouette that makes her heart beat faster. She instantly becomes overwhelmed, because now it’s not just external events confusing her; she’s confounded by what’s going on inside of her head too.
On the other side of her, another man knocks the kidnappers out with his hand powers. And that makes her heart beat too. But Mikan assumes her discomfort around this new man is because he must be part of the kidnapping group.
Reminding myself that this is a ship essay and that Higuchi gave me a couple crumbs to work with... There's just not even enough to make a crouton with.
Then it turns out Shi-chan is actually Goshima in disguise and if you aren’t touched or particularly interested in this redemption, join the club! The “Goshima has been by Mikan’s side for years, protecting her” idea means absolutely nothing to me when it all happened in one condensed chapter, when he’s been seen bullying and even physically hurting her in his girl disguise, and when I never really cared about Goshima as a character to begin with. Too little, too late, too weird. I find this off-putting, actually. Whose idea was it to trust Goshima with anything after he’s been established to not be trustworthy, just for the sake of giving him a chance to “redeem himself”? For all the nonsense about Mikan having to forget everything just in case she gets targeted by enemies, they sure did take a huge risk letting Goshima anywhere near her after he knowingly caused her mom’s death.
Anyway, Mikan is overwhelmed and confused, because her close friend just turned into a man and there’s a lot of weirdos around and they’re talking about stuff she doesn’t understand--
And then she bumps into someone as she’s backing away, someone who instantly grabs her hand and pulls her closer.
Chapter One Hundred and Seventy-Nine
Her heart beats fast again, and for some reason, looking at this guy makes her think of that feeling of love she had mused on before, how she somehow knows she was in love before. Somehow, just looking at him and touching him, makes her feel like this stranger knows her, makes her feel something strange and yet unbearably familiar. She knows she’s felt this before--
The potential of this! It's almost interesting but it only lasts three seconds, so who cares?
The stranger gropes her chest.
But of course he does! This arc SUCKS! There’s so little good about it, why would the NatsuMikan reunion be any different??? I am ANGRY. I HATE this arc, not even joking. I’m not exaggerating; I genuinely hate this finale.
Anyway.
She starts freaking out--understandably--that this stranger, who made her feel feelings she was sure she wouldn’t find with any of the other guys who confessed to her, felt her up out of the blue for no fucking reason. She starts screaming for help but he seems unbothered. All of the strange men seem unbothered, actually.
Then, to make matters even worse, three new weirdos arrive. I don’t know why they thought it was a good idea to ambush her with so many strange people at once, all of whom are men, right after she’d been almost kidnapped. They talk about and at her without her knowing them and it’s uncomfortable. If you think I only dislike Natsume’s first actions with her here, you’re wrong! All of it is thoughtless and inconsiderate.
Who thought to themselves, “Y’know there’s a string of alice-related kidnappings near Mikan and she’s been warned not to walk by herself because these are predominantly male attacks on young female victims her age, so we should make sure to save her with an all-male team of suspicious characters who are sure to act strangely and frighten her”? Because whoever did is a fucking idiot.
Why am I surprised though? It’s one of the teachers for sure, and the Academy staff hasn’t impressed me much this whole manga.
They seem to know her name and talk about her like they’re familiar with her, which only freaks her out more. She lays eyes on a blond person who is supposed to be handsome and princely according to her thoughts (but I always despaired about how the finale boys look more than twice the age they’re supposed to be and are bizarrely broad).
But they all voice the same sentiment that the blond boy brings up: they have missed her and wanted to see her for a long time. They’re going to take her away.
Mikan considers this: a group of strange men appears at just the right time to save her from kidnappers, and they claim to be friends from a time she has forgotten, and now want to take her away from home.
She starts to run away, horrified, because obviously these guys are also kidnappers!
She despairs about why her life has to be so messy and mysterious, just as that gropey guy jumps in front of her to stop her from escaping. They make eye contact and the build-up here is that something drastic might happen, that she wouldn’t be off-base if she assumed he’d attack her somehow.
Instead, she is embraced by this stranger, and she’s taken aback by the sudden and uncalled-for sweetness. Until he starts screaming at her that he isn’t about to let her go. He says more cryptic stuff about searching for her endlessly, about how it felt to wake up without her, how hard he had to work to stay alive for this moment, that she shouldn’t have forgotten him.
And poor Mikan can only stand in his arms and listen, overwhelmed but undoubtedly touched somehow.
“Even if you have forgotten your memories, and the alice stone you had back then, you are mine.”
Mikan starts to cry, remembering that she had once been in love with someone, that she had turned down every guy who approached her because no matter how cool or handsome they were, they could never compare to that feeling of loving someone so much--a feeling that she only feels in this stranger’s arms.
Ahh...
Without understanding why, she hugs him back and cries in his arms, thinking about how she feels with this crazy dude she just met, her entire body overcome with electricity, with the “painful intensity of love.” Yes, love, for someone she just met. Love, for someone she’s loved for a long time, even though she’s forgotten him.
Because even though his name and face and all the memories with him have been forgotten, the love she has for him has never budged.
She cries and hugs him until her attention is drawn to his pocket, where something is flickering. He pulls it out to show her, a little pebble. He puts it in her hand and it is instantly resorbed, and WHOOSH!
She starts to cry. Because she remembers everything now! Just like that!
It’s almost as if having her lose all her memories two chapters ago didn’t actually MEAN ANYTHING! The lack of build up to this moment, the all-over-the-place quality of these chapters… it just doesn’t feel as exciting as it should.
It all just feels pointless. Or at least it does to me. Like. What was the point?
She says Natsume’s name as she cries, instant relief at being able to see someone she was sure she would never see again, someone who had maybe even died. Yet here he is, right in front of her, alive. She has recovered her memories so now when Natsume hugs her again, it’s not out of the blue and she instantly reciprocates.
Insert witty or sappy comment here.
She is then greeted with an onslaught of “What about me?” and “Do you remember me?”, which she answers in the affirmative for all.
This whole scene is pretty rushed and unsatisfying but Mikan has a happy reunion with people she loves and now remembers.
Chapter One Hundred and Eighty
I don’t relish analyzing these chapters because I hate them. There isn’t much to analyze, really, but there is a lot to critique and I don’t like being negative about Gakuen Alice, so I prefer to just ignore these chapters whenever I can. In fact, most of the time I'm able to forget these chapters enough that they don't feel like a part of canon at all to me, giving me the opportunity to consider alternate and better endings. I like very little that is offered here. These chapters just piss me off, and that sucks because I set out on this essay because I knew that the manga has so much to offer in terms of intelligent story-telling and this ending just messes it all up.
It is apparently a miracle that Mikan has managed to regain her memories, even if it’s a small portion of what she’s lost (and that feels pointless too). But Mikan is sure she didn’t cause the miracle, because she heard a voice when she resorbed the alice stone that wished she’d regain her lost memories. That girl’s voice set off a big wave of memory, apparently. So it wasn’t even the alice stone.
Apparently, even though she was surrounded by people she loves, nobody’s voice or appearance unlocked any solid memories, but Hotaru’s disembodied voice does? Now, I don’t like that at all, personally, because to me it seems antithetical to Mikan’s character and undermines the love she has for everyone else, both her romantic love for Natsume and her platonic love for her friends and family. This last chapter irritates me so much, in fact, because it seems to be making the point that Mikan doesn’t just love Hotaru the most, but that she loves her so much more than everyone else, and those kinds of revelations being shared openly in front of everyone else who loves her just rubs me the wrong way and gives me a gross feeling.
I find it hard to picture that Mikan’s love for the others couldn’t even come close. It’s stupid.
I'm so mad. Mikan, didn't Jii-chan teach you any manners? What the actual fuck would make you say something like that in front of all these people who love you? That's so annoying. This chapter is not canon to me, I'm sorry.
She even says she “always loved that person more than others” IN FRONT OF EVERYONE ELSE AROUND HER. All these people who have been missing her and waiting to see her, and she just says “I love someone else way more than y’all!” like it’s no big deal!
And that’s why I dislike the scene in 178, where Mikan talks about her overpowering love for one person. Because to Higuchi, this isn’t an amalgamation love thing, it’s focused solely on Hotaru, implying that sure, maybe Mikan is happy to see all her friends again, but the person she’s cried over and missed for all these years is just Hotaru. It sucks, man.
Mikan was a lonely person before she went to the academy. Sure, she went to chase Hotaru, but there's so many bonds and relationships she built while at that school, with teachers, with classmates, with her upperclassmen, all people who impacted her and changed her and made her better. People she cried about leaving, people she didn't want to forget. People she was willing to lock herself in a labyrinth to save, people she would have put herself in danger for.
This final chapter says those people don't matter. The only person who matters or has ever mattered is Hotaru. It makes me feel gross, because that's not the story we've been reading.
Anyway, they all fill her in and Mikan has to deal with Goshima, who murdered her mom, and we have to watch yet another moment of her blindly forgiving someone because holding grudges is bad! Then again, Mikan apparently doesn’t even remember her parents, so her forgiveness isn’t entirely informed by actual memories or feelings, just the general vibe that Goshima is nice now and shouldn’t feel bad about murder anymore.
You're a creep, Goshima! Who the hell would trust you, that doesn't even make sense! It's not "mercy", it's stupidity. Let him prove himself in some other way, not with the duty of protecting your niece, the daughter of the woman he killed. All of Shi-chan's actions are ten thousand times worse when you keep in mind that was actually a grown man.
“Everyone needs to smile!” and just get over whatever bad stuff happens, I guess. If someone wrongs you, you have to forgive them, or else you’re just being a negative nancy!
SHE EVEN ENDS UP APOLOGIZING TO HIM for not appreciating how much pain HE was in! I HATE THIS ENDING SO FUCKING MUCH.
“Let’s just forget about it!” I hate this ending.
There’s absolutely no attention paid to pain, to suffering, to abuse. There’s no respect given to characters like Natsume who underwent horrific trauma at the hands of abusive teachers, a character who might not feel as inclined to forgive as Mikan is. There’s no appropriate time spent considering these feelings. There's no care here. Instead, Higuchi’s narrative implies that bad things should be forgotten and you should in fact apologize to those who wronged you for not realizing they’re in pain!
(I actually did reference this in ATRAD, so if this seems familiar, that’s why. I put a lot of emphasis on Luna and forgiveness, and Mikan’s feeling as if she should forgive because that’s what she’s supposed to do, and what would bring happiness to everyone else. I specifically talked about it because of how much it bothered me in the manga.
“Well, Luna and I were talking about the past issues here.” Kuonji gestured between the two girls. “Now, Mikan, we all know that what Luna did was horrible. Luna knows better than anyone that it was wrong. She’s talked to me about it and I think it causes her more pain than it does you, knowing that her actions caused you pain.”
“She tried to kill me,” Mikan muttered.
“Now, imagine how she feels, knowing that?” Kuonji said gently. )
I feel no desire to talk about this boring information that gets dumped on us all of a sudden in the last chapter. What’s the point? It’s irrelevant. This is the LAST chapter of Gakuen Alice and it’s used as an information dump to justify the nonsense that’s happening, that undermines everything else. What’s there to analyze?
Whatever.
It's a combination of things. I hate Hotaru's role in this end. I hate Mikan's behavior in this chapter. I hate that nearly every page in this chapter is text heavy and loaded with new information that has no place in a finale. I hate that nothing matters. They all deserved better.
Mikan is reminded of Hotaru’s name and she has a little breakdown trying to get why that name is the only one on her heart (WHAT???), when she meets even more people--including Shiki, and she’s told that Mikan is crucial in the efforts to find this Hotaru person. Mikan is again brought to tears when she hears Hotaru’s voice wishing her a happy birthday, recorded on mushrooms that Ruka has kept all this time.
Mikan is then given a choice: to leave with these people as a quasi-Alice, to help save Hotaru, or to forget everything again and go back to her normal life.
The fact that anybody is concerned about what she’ll choose is fucking stupid.
It’s not even a choice. Obviously we know what she picks.
But her reasoning is for some reason entirely about Hotaru, and saving Hotaru, when all her other friends are standing around her hoping that this isn’t the last time they see her. THIS PISSES ME OFF.
She then meets all her other classmates all at once. Randomly. It’s rushed, it’s not heartfelt. It feels like things are being done just to finish them. The only thing of any value is the memory that Mikan wanted to see the ocean with everyone when things at the Academy become better. And it looks like things are better! So they’re all together at the beach! Yay! I don’t care.
It’s time to go on a trip to save Hotaru! Right away. Like right now. And even though Mikan is reuniting with everyone she’s loved at the Academy, the only one who actually matters is Hotaru for some reason.
I remember looking through the raws of this chapter when it first came out and the empty, stirring feeling in my stomach. The lack of interest I had in anything that was happening visually, the huge bubbles of text, the presence of way too many characters. This should go without saying but I didn't actually read any translation of this ending until years after it came out. I've probably read these final chapters 3-4 times total since they came out. They're just not important to my experience of this story at all.
Do I like Mikan chasing after Hotaru at the end just like she did in the beginning? Hmm. No. I hate it. I hate Hotaru saving Natsume for Mikan’s sake. I hate Hotaru being stuck in time-space. I hate Mikan acting the exact same as she did in the first chapter, as though she didn't grow or change at all, as if all the love she’s gained with other people doesn’t compare at all to her love for Hotaru, downplaying how much everyone else means by a lot. I hate the open-endedness. I hate that none of the reunions hold any weight and none of them make me feel anything, not even the NatsuMikan one.
ME. I don’t feel ANYTHING in these chapters but annoyance. I’m the kind of person who cries just thinking about Pengy or Natsume and Ruka’s backstory. I cry all the time. I cried watching House almost every episode. I cried watching the lamest romcoms known to man. I cry everytime I watch a true crime documentary and everytime a mom says "I'm proud of you" to her kid on TV and everytime I look too long at my cat. I cry about fucking EVERYTHING. And Higuchi didn’t make me feel fucking anything with the finale to her manga.
I’m sick and tired of these chapters. They’re not canon to me. They feel disrespectful to me and annoying and I hate them. I prefer Kageki, or even better--imagining an entirely different ending, particularly because of Mikan. Anyway.
It’s no secret, I think, that I hate the GA finale. I am not a big fan of the way Natsume’s death was resolved, or how Ruka’s arc was left hanging open, or how Hotaru got trapped in space time. I don’t like that everything that happens to Mikan in the end doesn’t even matter, that everything in the ending is pointless and results in no change, no development, no consequence.
I’ve said before that I personally can’t write unhappy endings, but I can sometimes cope with them in other people’s stories if that’s the best resolution for the characters. GA is a strange example of an ending because it wanted to have both a happy and unhappy ending, which just resulted in it being a meh ending at best (and excruciatingly irritating at worst). The ending insults all of Mikan’s non-Hotaru relationships and all the readers who liked them. The reunions are all rushed and thus none of it makes an emotional impact.
The worst part, in my opinion, is that the chapters leading up to this finale (so the last couple dozen) aren’t much better because they lend a hand to this. Character arcs are the most important part of a story’s narrative in a work like this. This manga has been incredibly well-written up to this part, particularly in regards to most of the main four having well-defined arcs. There’s three types of character arcs, I think:
Character evolution would usually refer to any kind of change, but for the sake of clarity, for this, I’ll use it as a positive change. Think of a character who has trust issues. Character evolution would mean that he eventually starts trusting in people. The story would climax with his trust in someone being tested and him choosing to trust anyway. That’s what character-based storytelling is all about, fulfilling someone’s character arc by addressing their faults and obstacles.
I’ll use the term character “devolution” to refer to a character arc where the character has a negative arc progression. Technically, this is character evolution as well, just of the negative variety, but for clarity’s sake I’ll call it devolution or deterioration. Let’s say, there’s a character who just wants to protect her younger sister. Over the course of the narrative, her actions become more and more drastic and she does increasingly atrocious things in the name of protecting her sister until she’s become something akin to a monster, maybe even the story’s villain. A well-written character arc does not have to be focused on positive change.
The last type of character arc would be… none. Some characters are called “static” which means they stay the same throughout the story. The story isn’t circled around testing them or pushing them into developing. Characters like this are more involved in challenging other characters.
I think Hotaru is more or less a static character. She becomes a little more open with her emotions, sure, but the little changes she makes are almost imperceptible on a narrative level. If you look at the individual arcs and think about Hotaru’s actions, she rarely plays an active role. She is usually a catalyst for Mikan’s actions, or a strong supportive role. It’s what her character does best because that’s just what static characters do! I don’t think there’s much wrong with characters like this, and people use “static” as a negative term way too often, but I strongly believe Hotaru would make that same sacrifice for Mikan in chapter one that she makes at the end, which makes the action less potent. Mikan’s desire to be able to sacrifice comes from being inspired by Hotaru’s sacrifice. Hotaru doing what she’s always done as the climactic action in the manga sucks out all the narrative potency from the ending when there’s two characters with unresolved arcs. Hotaru would have worked best in a strong support role here, and I think it would have been more meaningful to have Hotaru chase Mikan rather than the other way around again.
I’ve seen that referred to and praised as some kind of narrative bookend or parallel, but to me it always felt lazy, like there was no real change to Mikan or Hotaru’s characters for all of these almost two hundred chapters. It rubs me the wrong way, and maybe that’s because I’m focusing too much on character arcs and narrative, but hey! That’s what I was trained to look at in college, so I can’t change this about myself.
Exhibit B is Ruka, who I think was pushed to the side unceremoniously and whose arc was completely ignored. Yes, I did mention character devolution. It’s possible that a good arc for Ruka would look like him being faced with the opportunity to save Natsume and, despite his very best efforts, not being able to, or even making things worse inadvertently, suddenly feeling like he’s received proof after all these years that he truly is a burden. That’s a sad arc progression, but it works narratively. It would seem strange in a work like GA, which tries to be positive, but it works. But he didn’t get that. Ruka is too easily escorted from the action, from the climax, entirely sidelined. Ruka’s arc is pretty clear--what his biggest issue is and what he needs to change about himself in order to live a successful life is painted for us from the beginning. He’s not static like Hotaru, especially because his character arc is brought up multiple times in multiple arcs and he makes a little progress each time, as a way to tease a huge event on the horizon where he will be fully confronted with his burden complex. He is not given this opportunity and the spotlight is ceaselessly handed elsewhere, making his character inconsequential when it comes to Natsume’s death. A spit in the face.
The only character whose arc seems perfect to me is Natsume’s, funnily enough, but only to an extent. Natsume dying for love is perfect for him, and I believe that ending his arc any other way wouldn’t be as meaningful to his character. This has been set-up from the beginning, almost as if fate has commanded that he would die no matter what changed in his life. And that’s great because we see him change his perspective from Chapter 16, when he’s happy to kill himself, relieved that his suffering will soon be over, into his eventual death, where he can’t accept that his life is over because he doesn’t want it to be. He does everything he can to save Mikan, but ultimately when death comes for him, he doesn’t really want to go. That’s PERFECT! The thing that ruins it is Hotaru rescuing him for Mikan’s sake. Natsume’s martyr complex throughout the manga reveals to us just how little his existence means to him. He always comes dead last to himself and what he needs is other people choosing him first and making him feel like his life is significant and means something other than what he can do for others. Hotaru saving him puts his actual existence dead last. She doesn’t save him for him, but because of Mikan. Hotaru doesn’t really care about Natsume, so when she saves him, it reinforces the idea that Natsume exists for other people, that all he’s good for is what he can give. The absolute WORST part of that is that Higuchi Tachibana didn’t even think of that. There’s no evidence that this story choice wants to explore what that means for Natsume, how that choice would impact everyone involved. The carelessness and sloppiness is what bothers me here, that Natsume’s nearly perfect arc is tainted by the fumbling effort to put Hotaru in an active role that doesn’t benefit her character arc, that negatively impacts everyone else’s arcs.
And then there’s Mikan… Who I believe was done pretty dirty. Mikan had a clear character devolution. She goes from being a generally upbeat but still emotional girl, capable of sadness and anger and who doesn’t let herself get treated poorly, who generally wants to be useful, to contribute something, to be able to sacrifice things. The sacrifice part got a lot of focus throughout, and whenever she gets the chance, she throws herself at it. The best part is that Mikan doesn’t so much “make the choice” to sacrifice as she feels it’s the only thing she can do. There is no alternative to her because she doesn’t even think of it. It’s only when she’s confronted with Kazumi giving her a choice at the end: save Natsume or keep your alice, that her sacrifice feels like a personal choice rather than an instinctive action on her point. Honestly, Mikan has always been a character motivated to do good, so her arc is less about learning to do good and more about realizing that she does do good already. Additionally, she has the abandoned nullification alice arc, where Mikan feels like her alice is completely useless, like it doesn’t benefit anybody. But there is one thread that has tied to that throughout the manga, from the very first arc, and that’s Natsume. If Natsume was always meant to die, Mikan was always meant to save him. That’s clear from the start, when Narumi says “There might be someone out there in need of your alice” over a panel of Natsume. It was as much a part of implicit destiny as Natsume’s death, as the two of them falling in love. And that was specifically in terms of her silly nullification. Her nullification should have played a role here, and the fact that it didn’t annoys me. I don’t like Mikan having the stealing alice at all, we been knew. It completely dismisses the nullification alice from her storyline for no real narrative reason. Mikan having the stealing alice doesn’t really do much for her character. It acts as a plot lubricant, as a tie to her mom, but for Mikan’s existing arc--nothing.
There’s the fact, too, that Mikan saving Natsume would have communicated to him that his life means something, if only it means he lives. That he doesn’t have to give anything, as long as she can have him breathing. It would have meant so much for both of their character arcs. It would have been the pretty, perfect way to tie it all. I know there’s a lot of focus nowadays on “subversive” story telling, on setting up one story only to turn it over with some contrived plot twist for the sake of shocking the audience. “You thought this would happen, but you’re stupid for thinking so, because this is happening instead!” I think that kind of plot doesn’t act in contribution to character arcs, which is actually the only thing I care about. In a story like GA, character has been central, so it should continue to be. To me, Mikan being unable to save Natsume feels stupid and pointless, not in a “sometimes you fail” kinda way, because Mikan has already been taught that lesson. That would hit harder, maybe, if Natsume did die for real here, if he never came back. It would be sad, but it would be potent and meaningful. Instead, Natsume can be saved, just not by her. She is incapable of doing the one thing she was set up to do from the start. Instead, her role is stolen by Hotaru and the act of saving Natsume is no longer an act of love for him, but an act of love for Mikan, which is just insulting to all the characters involved.
Ultimately, how can this finale make you feel anything if the characters have been abandoned for the sake of a lazy “bookend” of Mikan chasing Hotaru once more? All the arcs were abandoned in favor of servicing a sloppy and rushed ending, where no character gets the attention they deserve. The finale just does what it can with the resolution it’s been presented with, and that’s why it sucks so bad. Three chapters isn’t enough to clean up the mess from the last twenty or so chapters, but it doesn’t even try.
I think the last chapter is the worst chapter in Gakuen Alice, hands down. But it’s only made possible by the subpar story told prior to it, specifically about Natsume’s death, which is the climax of the story. That climax is deceptive too, because you cry so much--about Natsume dying, Mikan leaving, Hotaru sacrificing herself, Ruka being left behind by everyone he knows--that you don’t even notice how bad the writing is! And all the stuff that’s making you cry is cheap character ploys to make you feel in the moment without giving you an actual conclusion. GA isn’t just open-ended because Hotaru is still missing; Mikan, Ruka, and Natsume are still missing character arc closure.
And considering how intelligent the story-telling has been up to now, it feels out of the blue and unfair to have such an awful ending.
What a disappointment.
Palate cleansing NatsuMikan to soothe your soul after you had to read all that nonsense and negativity. Sorry about all that.
Conclusion
Yeah, so like i said: a rant. Tomorrow I'll wrap up all of this with a little touch on Kageki, but there's not much to analyze there because NatsuMikan aren't focal.
I'm sorry if this was very negative. Like I'd mentioned a hundred times already, it's hard for me to be negative about GA. I don't like whining or complaining and staying butthurt about an ending that was published more than ten years ago feels unproductive. If anything, I take it as a learning moment. I use this to teach myself how vital endings are, and how not to do them. I also generally don't think of these chapters at all. I sometimes flat out forget the story ended this way until someone reminds me.
In my head, the character arcs are resolved and Hotaru never got lost to time-space because that's stupid. I have quite a few alternate endings in my head, but I prefer all of them to the one we got.
Thanks for reading, folks! Just one more time and then we can move on with our lives and go back to pretending this manga is perfect.
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Thoughts on TBB 1x2 and 1x3
I'm back! I promise that I didn't forget about the whole Bad Batch rewatch analysis thing I just uh... haven't actually been watching TBB recently. In fact it's been a whole month since I made the last analysis post...
But I have some thoughts on the next two episodes! I was hoping to get this out earlier in the week but after writing essays for my exams I had no motivation to churn it out. But here it is!
(Also, I may have started rewatching The Tudors so I have absolutely no idea when I'm actually going to watch TBB again... this whole plan is going very well. I'll try and not wait an entire month again this time!)
1x2
Tech in the Pilot Seat
Straight away, seeing Tech in the pilot seat made me instantly think of that shot from the S2 finale of Echo looking at the empty seat next to him.
That image haunts me.
I will never be the same.
Omega and Dirt
I love the comparison between Omega in S1 and Omega in S2. By S2 you can definitely tell that she's settled into the flow of things and is much more accustomed to a life outside of Kamino. The scene of her discovering dirt for the first time is sweet and kind of funny (especially with Tech's comment) but also kind of sad. Her entire life she has grown up in a completely sterile environment with absolutely no idea about what the world around her was like. The fact that she doesn't even know what dirt is means that she probably wasn't taught about it either. It just proves that the Kaminoans never had any intention of letting her leave the labs. She was one of their experiments, one of their helpers and they were never going to give her the life that she deserved.
But I do love that her awe and desire to explore are still there in S2. if anything, I think taking her off Kamino just enhanced her desire to see more of the galaxy. When we first saw her at Tipoca City, she never showed any real desire to leave, not because I don't think she necessarily wanted to, but because she had resigned herself to the fact that this was her life and that this was in fact normal. She's a child experiment surrounded by millions of other child experiments. That is her normal. At that point, I don't think that she could even conceive just how different the universe outside of Kamino was. But now that she's had a taste for that adventure, she wants to chase that curiosity and explore wherever she can. They may be on the run from the empire, but it was still her first taste of what freedom actually was.
Batch Parenting
So there are multiple points in Cut and Run when they address the fact that the Batch aren't used to having a child around don't really know what to do with the whole situation: Wrecker initially going to take Omega's food, Hunter shouting at her etc. But there is one little detail that I noticed that immediately stuck out to me. When they are walking through the fields to Cut and Suu's house, they are all walking single file with Omega at the back. Now, if we've learnt anything from going on trips at school is that you do not leave children at the back of the line: you have at least one adult at the back and one at the front with the child(ren) sandwiched in the middle. She could've stopped walking and wandered off, or gotten lost, and none of them would've known (unless Hunter's senses picked it up).
It's just one of those little things that show that the Batch aren't used to this. They don't necessarily think that it might be a good idea to keep Omega between them, they just let her trail at the back and assume that nothing will happen.
Echo and Rex
I love how Echo immediately starts asking Cut and Suu questions when they bring up Rex. Personally, I would've liked to have seen a little bit more emotion from that revelation because at this point Rex is officially registered as deceased, but it still makes me happy to see Echo asking about his Captain. That's his older brother. Of course he'd want to know that he's okay. :')
Tech and Echo
My two favourite geniuses with half a brain cell <3
I missed the banter between these two so much when Echo left :(
But I do want to address how close those two are. For Echo, Tech is the other half that has been missing since Fives died. No, Tech will never be to Echo what Fives was, but he's the closest thing to a constant companion that Echo has. The Domino Twins were always paired up, always completing missions as a duo.
And then Echo came back to find that Fives was gone and it would've been a massive empty space that Echo could always feel next to him. But then he ended up with the Batch and naturally partnered up with Tech. Like I said, Tech will never be Fives, but it's probably a great comfort to Echo to have someone by his side again, to have one person out of a group to be your partner in crime.
And I'm sure Tech really appreciated it too. Yes, he's always had his brothers, but it must've been nice for him to have someone who had similar technical capabilities (*thinks about Hunter and the lift*) that he could work with or just talk to. I headcanon that when Echo first joined, him and Tech became really close because Echo was one of the only ones to actually ask Tech about his ramblings and actively listen to them. Yes, they bicker with each other, but they are 100% a couple of little shits when paired up together (...I need Tech back).
Echo
Nothing to say here, I just really like this shot of Echo
Wrecker Knocking Out Droids
So there's a shot of Wrecker knocking out an astromech to help Omega that is very much like the scene in S2 when he steps on the mouse droid. But what I like about the differences in these two scenes is that in S1, Omega needs help after she's wandered off by herself, but in S2 she's gone off alone because they trust her to do so.
It's a little parallel that shows how she's gone from being someone trying to prove her worth and ultimately getting herself into trouble, to being someone who they actively trust to do the things that she was trying to do in S1.
Hunter Didn't Tell Wrecker About Omega Leaving
Just before they get on The Marauder, Wrecker asks where Omega is, meaning that Hunter didn't tell him that she was going to be going with Cut and Suu. And honestly, that doesn't surprise me a whole lot. Hunter is very much a man who will try and avoid difficult situations where possible, so I think he was just hoping to break the news about Omega leaving as late as he could. If he had mentioned it beforehand, Wrecker would've been upset and probably would've tried to contest Hunter's decision. It was probably easier in Hunter's mind to tell everyone when they left (which would've caused it's own problems but Hunter doesn't actually do a particularly good job of avoiding trouble most of the time).
1x3
"Repairs would go faster if I had some help."
...Tech's not there to help him anymore *cries*
Also, the idea of Tech carrying out repairs for the first time after Echo left and that being the moment when it truly kicks in that he doesn't have his partner in crime there... *cries more*
"More squads like this being trained by skilled clones"
The Empire in all their dickish glory are really out here making the clones train the groups of soldiers who would eventually replace them. They clearly acknowledged the skills of the clones enough to use them as tools to teach all the elite teams they were recruiting, but didn't actually care enough to keep the clones around.
And while we're on the subject, there is something ironic about the Empire complaining about the clones lack of loyalty. The truth is, they are loyal. They are arguably the most loyal people that you will ever find, but they are loyal to what they believe is right. The Empire are just pissed that a bunch of highly skilled soldiers have to be brainwashed into thinking that they are not just a group of asshats.
"I'm angry at myself. We don't leave our own behind."
This line alone is all the evidence you need that they still care about Crosshair. They didn't just abandon him because they no longer care, they left because they had to and that decision continues to haunt them. I can imagine Rex saying this exact same thing after discovering that Echo was alive. Neither Rex nor Hunter were wrong for leaving their men behind in that moment, but knowing that they left them will always stick with them.
(Also, the same sentiment is definitely going to apply when they are reunited with Tech because he is 100% alive)
"Enjoy being a commander... for now. We'll see how things shake out."
Now Crosshair looks very put off by this comment, and I don't blame him, but tbf... the guy wasn't wrong. I think Crosshair always knew that the Empire would eventually screw him over, but he hoped that maybe, if he could prove himself enough, they wouldn't throw him out like trash. Being promoted to a commander was probably a tiny bit of hope for Crosshair that he could secure a position, be a more prominent figure.
But obviously we know from S2 that that didn't happen. That role didn't stick, it was only ever temporary and the Empire were fully willing to leave him behind, regardless of the position that he held. They never cared. And so as much as it was a dickish comment from the elite squad member at the time, it ended up being an accurate statement.
Not that it turned out much better for him seeing as Crosshair got rid of him soon as :)
Old Moon Dragon How???
Zoology ramble incoming.
WHY IS THERE AN ANIMAL THAT FEEDS OFF RAW ENERGY LIVING ON A DESOLATE ROCK IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE??? DID I MISS SOMETHING??? HOW IS THAT THING STILL ALIVE??? DOES IT NEVER EAT??? HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE TO BE CRASHING ON THAT ROCK FOR IT TO BE EVOLUTIONARILY ADVANTAGEOUS TO FEED OFF RAW ENERGY WHEN YOU LIVE ON A BARREN ROCK IN THE MIDDLE OF SPACE???
Crosshair vs The Batch
*cries again* Someone give my poor boy, Cross, a hug :'(
But I do like what these two shots show. Despite being in a room with a group of people, Crosshair is alone. He doesn't feel like he has anyone, he's isolated, he doesn't have anyone around him to support him anymore. And then you have the Batch, who are all shown together. They are a family, a unit, they have each other there for support and despite everything being thrown at them, they will always have the squad.
I also appreciate the contrast in lighting. With Crosshair, everything is blue and grey and cold, while the lighting around the Batch is warm and yellow and comforting. It shows how calming and welcoming the environment with the Batch is, while Crosshair is currently alone and away from any of the warmth of his family.
One Final Point
Echo's little "you did good" nod to Wrecker at the end has my heart and is one of my favourite moments in the entire show <3
(Also, Hunter's face in the picture above made me laugh)
#it's finally here!#I know it took a while#I got distracted#but I promise that I didn't forget!#although me rewatching the tudors means that updates on this may be a bit slow#oops#I'll try not to wait an entire month before the next one though!#anyway enjoy these ramblings#honestly this season feels so much lighter after season 2#like it's depressing but I am coping so much better with it#season 2 is going to tear my heart out again#when I finally get back round to it#which at this rate will be in like a decade XD#the bad batch#bad batch analysis#tbb#star wars#hunter#wrecker#omega#tech#echo#crosshair#clone force 99#Steph rambles
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4GGRAVATE UNO STREAM LIVEBLOG ft. lots of out of context quotes
(warning: extremely long post!! also i get who's saying/doing what wrong several times lmao)
PRE-GAMES
REACH FOR THE STARS IS PLAYING !!!!
I KEEP ON RUNNIGGGNG
god i am. too hype rn.
btw i'm team nazeeh and alejandro. i hope they kick everyone's asses tonight
WE'RE STARTINGGGG
alejandro: "christmas treat"
zach...
CY FY!!! BABYGIRL
btw, i'm only watching cy yu's perspective because multitwitch is glitchy for me rn. sadge
"'they hate cynari' HEY I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING" alejandro you are so dear to me
alejandro saying "zach" like a confused mother i'm crying
NAZEEEEHH
nazeeh's voice is so pretty omg
ZACH?!?!?
HE SPEAKS
I'M THE BOY
"zachary???" ben sounds like he's bleating i love it
"messed up as heck" ~ zachary gordon, grown ass man (lighthearted)
zach: "and my mother is calling me!"
zach: "twitch needs to be user friendly for grandpas"
alejandro, in reply: "you're younger than all of us"
alejandro, to nazeeh: "YOU'RE DATING MY COUSIN YOU BEAT MY ASS IN SMASH BROS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL"
alejandro: "the discord? that we have???"
zach: "i am cooking steak rn"
ben, about zach: "as soon as you go live we're gonna hear an explosion and then you're gonna go offline"
zach is so sweet omg
zach in his doxxer era
"windows might have done a thing" story of my life
ZACH
...why did zach just like. moan
alejandro has 141 unique jokes...
alejandro: "get it? ᶜᵘᶻ ᶦᵗ'ˢ ᵃ ᵖʳᶦˢᵒⁿ ᶜᵉˡˡ"
i love how 90% of my liveblogging is just about alejandro and zach
nice plug
FINALLY GETTING INTO THE UNO LESGOOOOO
THE GAMES
UNO BEGINSSS
(i'm probably gonna get less talkative now bc i'll be watching the game)
alejandro: "that's how microphones work, my guy"
everyone playing their wild cards PLEASE
....this is not how i play uno
nazeeh getting uno first??
alejandro: "it's a MyStErY OOOOO"
ALEJANDRO DOING A SWITCHUP OOOOUH
NAZEEH SCREAMING??
alejandro: "that's crazy. nazeeh go again"
ben: "I DON'T HAVE BLUE DUDE"
alejandro: "that. might be racist"
BEN SDHJFHS
god i forgot how funny cy yu streams are
alejandro why did you do that...
alejandro, in the most american accent possible: "¡vamanos!"
JUST GIVE HIM A YELLOW
ben you dumbass
nazeeh's getting his ass beat bro stop he's already dead
BEN
nazeeh's increasingly loud "FUCK"s
cy yu's being just as much of a liar to himself as i am on a daily basis, love to see it
"if i believe hard enough" and then he immediately fails oh we are one and the same
ben: "i've had it"
nazeeh, in reply: "yeah i think we've all had uno at one point"
alejandro having the worst uno he could have
ben, to alejandro: "YOU FUCKGIN. IDIOT"
also ben: "YOU ARE THE STUPIDEST MOTHERFUCKER I HAVE EVER MET"
I'LL KILL MYSELF??? BEN??
in true kaveh fashion, ben is losing the game and his mind
ben: "it ain't easy being cheesy ok"
my faith in nazeeh is wavering greatly
nazeeh +4ing alejandro fuckin harsh
alejandro: "you might've just given nazeeh the game"
ben: "what do i do? what am i supposed to do? WHO AM I"
i feel so bad for ben bro hsjkhfd
OK NVM NAZEEH WILL SWEEP AFTER ALL
ALEJANDRO PULLING LIKE 100 CARDS BAHAHA
ben after pulling the strangest fucking moves and still losing
no bc why did he swap hands with nazeeh when he had a +2
NOT THE +6 TO ZACH
HOW DID BENJAMIN FUCKING WIN THAT
ben after pulling the strangest fucking moves and still winning
MY FUCKING INTERNET WENT OUT NOOOOO
SHIT
WAIT. WE BACK
I THINK
ben: "it's not baby blue IT'S TEAL"
THAT IS NOT FUCKING MAROON WHAT IS ALEJANDRO WAFFLING ABOUT
them reciting the alphabet i'm crying
the triple uno..
YEAHHH ALEJANDRO WON
that's ben and alejandro at 1, nazeeh and zach at 0
the chat keeps on talking abt cynari. we really are a hivemind huh
ALEJANDRO'S SCREECH WHEN ZACH GOT UNO
alejandro: "do i play a normal red or do i fuck him"
BEN WON WOOO
wait no, that was nazeeh. my bad
this chat is kinda cringe ngl
i'm getting so much ram.exe because cy yu knows i'm his number 1 fan
ZACH WON WOOOO
wait alejandro won 2 rounds? huh?
or is he lying
zach: "the wimpy kid has,, woken up!!"
zach??
i've tried playing dos before. i hated it
i feel like something really funny is about to happen
ben i don't think any of y'all were normal to begin with, uno or otherwise
alejandro: "that wasn't red!"
ben, in reply: "i didn't ask!"
this is such chaos i love it
alejandro just missed out on a mean ass play i'm so mad at him (/hj)
the alejandro/nazeeh friendship is so nice
ALEJANRO BACKSTABBING NAZEEH LMAO
cy yu: "STACK IT STACK IT- awwwuh :'("
RUN THAT BITCH
ben: "i'm gonna play the biggest 7 you've ever seen"
damn. alejandro backstabbing everyone but zach
everyone pulling these nasty ass moves on each other except for zach. he's in his own lane. i admire that
alejandro WHY ARE YOU ANNOUNCING WHAT COLORS YOU HAVE
i can't even tell who tf is gonna win this
actually. idc if he has a billion cards, alejandro sweep
HE'S DOWN TO 4, ALEJANDRO SWEEP
cy fy is back bitches!! hashtag feminism
ok we're back in cy yu's flop era. but i still believe he can sweep
even when ben has 3 cards
god this really is anyone's game huh
SKIPPING ZACH NOOOO
zach: "actually broke my heart a little bit :("
"i'm just playing the game" badly /j
NAZEEH'S HAND??
the "wait a fucking second" in (what sounded like) alhaitham's voice LMAOOO
i was once in an uno game that lasted like an hour and a half because we were missing some cards and it made it so nobody could win for some reason, true story
ZACH WON WOOOO
common tighnari fan W
oh zach is fucking stupid i see /j
ben: "you fucked me, buddy. you REALLY fucked me"
"can you make it yellow?" "no" literally them irl
they censor the word "nerd" in twitch chat??? huh
they really are just the sumeru boys if they could swear huh
the joey slander lmao
bro was ben taking a shit just then? wtf was that groan
ben balmaceda would do numbers on tumblr
zach continuing to make the worst possible decisions
zach: "(uno) brings people together and it brings forgiveness and,, i don't want my hand anymore"
these coin flips are tearing them apart i love it
ZACH WON AGAIN GODDAMN
teams are alejandro and ben vs nazeeh and zach
let's get it
ALEJANDRO CAN'T TAKE DUBS FOR SHIT LMAOOOO
zach: "y'all are yoinked"
goddamn. ben and zach won so much
ben: "alejandro why did you just write 'penis penis penis penis penis'??"
zach and nazeeh vs alejandro and ben (??)
cy yu's just doing everyone dirty here. i thought zach was safe but ig not
THAT SKIP WAS DIRTYYY
alejandro please take the dub
ok he is never taking a dub holy shit
ALEJANDRO WHAT ARE YOU DOING
YOU GOT THE WILD CARD BUT AT WHAT COST
AAAAND CY YU GETS THE DUB LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO
I SAID CY YU AND NAZEEH WOULD SWEEP AND DID I LIE???
it only took like. 10 rounds or some shit
BUT IT STILL HAPPENED
that was so much fun. i loved it
4ggravate supremacy, my final message. gootb ye
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Sidelines are for sports games, not characters of color
I want to address the somewhat awful job ST has done with its POC characters not just in Vol 2, but over the course of the show. I've done a similar post talking about the queer rep in the show if you want to check that out.
I'm gonna start with Lucas, who's been sidelined from the beginning. I get this is rural Indiana in the 80's and you wouldn't expect a whole ton of POC characters fine fine fine whatever. But if you're going to include exactly one (1) POC main, you better hope to god you do a good job with that character. Look at S1 -- Will was central to the plot in a major way (duh), Mike was huge in pushing everyone to find Will and was well-defined by his close relationship with him, and Dustin's intelligence set him apart even in a group full of so-called nerds. What did Lucas get to distinguish him in any particular way? Nothing much. Even moving into S2 his character remained distinctly less fleshed out than the others
One part of S1 I did very much like, however, was this scene. I thought it was a great way to address the kind of casual racism that people who grow up with privilege can often display, even unintentionally.
Mike and Lucas had both showed up to school dressed as the ghostbuster Venkman and Mike tried to argue that Lucas should be Winston Zeddemore. Lucas pointed out that Mike only said that because Zeddemore was black, and he didn't want to be Zeddemore because he, like so many black characters in film, wasn't as interesting or influential as many of the white mains.
Ironically, a similar fate ended up befalling Lucas. He began to be drawn more into the spotlight in S2 and S3, but it was more in reference to his relationship with Max than anything else. Listen, I love Lumax (their relationship outclasses Mileven by a mile, argue with the wall) but Lucas needing a relationship with a white character in order to gain real traction within the show and the fandom is pretty fucking shitty.
S4 finally put Lucas' character on par with the others in terms of screentime, lines, and fandom attention, and the Duffers managed this oh-so-impressive feat through the power of... basketball. Come on, I mean really?
Yes, from what we've seen basketball is the fastest path to popularity in Hawkins High (Steve, Billy, Tommy H, Jason) but to make the only black character suddenly a basketball star when he's shown zero interest or athletic ability up until now... it doesn't sit right with me, let's put it that way.
Erica falls into similar black stereotyping as Lucas. We see little development for her over the seasons and from the first moment she's on-screen she's very much the Sassy Black Girl. There's nothing wrong with characters displaying stereotyped traits as long as you can give them other characteristics that define them beyond the typical fallbacks. If your character is essentially reduced to that stereotype, however, it's a problem. All we know of Erica, beyond her never-ending supply of clapbacks and sarcasm, is that she likes DND and My Little Pony. 90% of her lines are full of sass, no matter who she's talking to, and while it's entertaining at times (her calling Murray a bald bastard was funny as hell lmaoo) it can quickly get old. Erica's not the worst black rep I've ever seen, not by a long shot, but the Duffers definitely could've done better with her.
[Having the only black female character also be a staunchly avowed capitalist feels a little weird to me, but I honestly don't have a way to properly articulate why so I'm not going to go into that rn. Maybe in a later post.]
Watching Vol 2 was a crazy fucking experience for a lot of reasons, but watching Jason and his little basketball cult fully beat up black kids significantly younger than them was... really something. A mostly-grown guy full on rugby tackling a middle school girl with aggression that far outweighed the situation...
You can't tell me there wasn't racial motivation there, but the situation really wasn't handled that way on-screen. It wasn't filmed to really make the audience think about the kind of aggressions (micro or otherwise) that black kids in bumfuck Indiana would experience. It wasn't addressed as racially-motivated. It wasn't addressed at all, actually. Thanks to the racist implications of that moment (and, in fact, the racist implications of Jason's entire attitude towards Lucas & Erica) never being addressed ever, the whole scene came across as more gratuitous violence than anything. I'm not saying the show needs to hold the audience's hand and look in their eyes and spell out J-A-S-O-N = R-A-C-I-S-T, but the S1 Zeddemore scene proved there are ways to intertwine talks about racism into the script, ways to address problems like xenophobia without making it stilted or shoehorned in.
When you show the brutal beating of black children and then move on too quickly for the audience to fully process what happened, it takes away from the heavier implications of such violence.
Moving on from the Sinclairs, we have Kali.
I liked her character very much, I'm going to be honest. The way she embodied El's angrier, more violent inner voices, with El's return to Hawkins representing her turning her back on that side of her while never truly facing up to it, made her an excellent lens for the audience to see more of El than what we got in S1.
But brown women in media too-often fall into one of two categories.
the docile, meek woman who comes from a patriarchal culture and will always defer to the men in her life, even when it goes against her own desires and dreams
The angry, probably violent woman who rages against the world because she has been wronged in the past
Again, a brown character being one of these two things isn't necessarily bad, but when we're left room for little else around all the resentment Kali's built up? When there's almost no middle ground between the two extremes?? Let's not rely on the old stereotypes over and over and over again, please.
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...Did someone say stereotypes? Oh hang on wait it looks like we have another one. I once again feel the need to establish that this is not hate on the character himself, Argyle was legitimately one of the best parts of the California group and I love him with my whole entire heart (& also Eduardo Franco deserves so much better from this shitty fandom).
But the first Latine character on the show being a stoner? That's the best y'all could come up with?? Argyle was funny, he was useful to the plot, and he was a nice foil for the often-serious characters he's surrounded by, but all that being said, I couldn't quite get rid of the nagging irk in the back of my mind every time he was on screen because the stoner Latine character??? At this point, all the blatantly stereotyped characters just make this shit boring and predictable. I don't even have anything new to say about Argyle because it's nothing I didn't just address in terms of Erica, Lucas & Kali.
I feel like the treatment of ST's queer and POC characters is definitely different. We see constant abuse and mistreatment of queer characters without getting any outwardly, happily-queer endings for them; with the POC characters it strikes me more as the typical sidelining and stereotyping that we see in a lot of mainstream media. I'm not going to sit here and argue over which is worse or which is more harmful to audiences, they're both shitty and I'm tired of it all.
Do better.
#stranger things#stranger things meta#lucas sinclair#erica sinclar#argyle stranger things#kali prasad#will beyers#mike wheeler#steve harrington#nancy wheeler#el hopper#eddie munson
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I have barely any followers so I dont expect anybody to see this. But if there is any place to talk about my love for Taylor, it is here.
I've had a few people ask me why I love Taylor Swift so much. I understand why they ask, and why I might get weird looks, parasocial relationships and whatnot. But what they don't understand and what I have a hard time communicating is that Taylor is more than just music to me.
We grew up together. I'm five and a half years younger than her, so she completely shaped my adolescence. When Debut came out I was just starting the 6th grade, the grade when I learned some harsh lessons about bullying and friendships.
Fearless came out in the middle of 8th grade, the worst year of my life. That album was a comfort to me when everything else seemed hopeless. I had cut-outs from J-14 magazine plastered on my walls, of Taylor and the Jonas Brothers. I tried to convince my teacher that we should sing Fifteen at our 8th grade graduation (I lost that one).
Speak Now came out when I was 15, and I listened to that album until every word was ingrained in my brain. My older cousin bought us tickets to her Speak Now tour for my birthday, and she was my first ever big concert. We drew 13's on the back of our hands and screamed along with her while she sang Mean barefoot, while she hit giant bells during Haunted (my favorite song at the time), while she floated over the crowd on her balcony in her Love Story outfit right in front of us, close enough I thought if I reached out I could touch her. I don't remember which cover she sang, but she did it in her purple dress, with sharpie scrawled across her arms. I took so many blurry and grainy photos of her that day. Speak Now will always have a very special place in my heart.
Red came out when I was 17. I learned through one of her diary entries that she had actually written the song Red on the flight home from our concert. To think that I saw her not even 24 hours before she wrote one of the most iconic songs of her career was mind blowing. I was dating now, so all of the songs about relationships became relatable for the first time. I knew from the moment I heard it that All Too Well was the best song of her career, and I have some obnoxious Facebook posts to prove it. The Last Time became one of my favorite songs she had ever made. Flash forward 5 years and I was posting 22 on my Facebook the minute it hit midnight. (Yes, Facebook. I'm old and uncool, we've established that already.)
1989 came out the year after I graduated high school. I was on my own for the first time, completely unprepared and immature, with a toxic partner who I ended up staying with for 5 years. I still have distinct memories of riding the bus past the WWU campus on my way to work, blasting the album in my headphones. I was in my semi-popular Lana Del Rey Tumblr days then, and you best believe I was making gifsets of the Blank Space music video. These were also the years when I sank into my deepest depression. 1989 was a bright light in that darkness.
Reputation came out when I was actually 22, right after leaving the five year relationship, and leaving everything I owned behind me or in storage, while my ex took my two beloved cats. This was my revenge era, my short lived "hoe phase" if you will. I remember listening to it for the first time in the car with my mom while driving to Seattle. I remember listening to it in the kitchen with my then 11 year old sister, and her saying "well that's inappropriate" during one of the songs (probably Dress). I was a little too harsh when I said, "well she's a grown adult, shes writing for herself, not writing for kids." What a brat. I specifically remember one Tumblr post from a fan that went to the Secret Sessions, of her gasping and saying "Taylor!" in a scandalized way during one of the songs (my guess is, again, Dress) and Taylor replying something along the lines of "I know, right!" To this day, Reputation is the album I have the most fun listening to, and the one I blast the loudest in the car.
Lover came out when I was 24, living in a small room without a door in my Grandma's house that doubled as her office. This was the no privacy era and it did NOT slay. This was also the era that I was in love with someone I shouldn't have been (you play stupid games, you win stupid prizes). Every love song on that album was dedicated to him. False God became a new favorite. This was the time right before it all fell apart, when the entire world shut down and I hurt people and was hurt myself (again, stupid prizes).
Folklore came out in the midst of being completely isolated from the world, except being dropped off at work every day and trying to go to college online. The beginning of my severe and debilitating germaphobia. The constant fear that I would catch COVID from my irresponsible coworkers. Not to mention, my heart was ripped open because I was August, and she was Betty. This album, I think, is the one where I couldn't deny the similarities to my own situation. It felt like it was meant for me, in that moment. Seven was for the little me that died when I was young. This Is Me Trying was a letter to my loved ones, when I couldn't explain that my brain was actively trying to kill me. I've only listened to Hoax twice, because that one is the most painful. I was the epitome of "I can go anywhere I want, anywhere I want, just not home."
Evermore, bless it's heart, came out of nowhere and was an amazing surprise. That being said (Ryan Bergara voice), Tolerate It, Happiness, Ivy, Long Story Short, Closure, Evermore and Right Where You Left Me were a twist in the knife of a trauma that wouldn't leave me, no matter how hard I tried. I was out on my own, truly alone, for the first time in my life. And I was terrified that, like Taylor said, this pain would be forevermore.
The re-records were amazing. I was so proud of Taylor for sticking up for herself and challenging the leeches that had gotten rich off of her talent. The moment she hinted at the 10 minute version on social media, I flipped my shit. Again, I have Facebook posts to prove it lol. I memorized the new verses in a day, I listened to it on repeat for weeks. I was staying at an airbnb the day Red TV came out, and I spent that night dancing around the kitchen with my headphones on.
And now... Midnights. I'm 27 now, and by this point I've lived a thousand different lifetimes. I listened to it in my dorm room alone, with my headphones on the second it was released. And then for good measure, I listened to it again the second the 3 AM version came out. I always need the second listen, to really soak up and understand an album. I made a bracket tournament thingie of all of the songs, and at first Vigilante Shit won, but after a couple more listens, Karma replaced it in the top spot. I listened to this album so much, on repeat constantly, that even though it was released in October, every single song made it to my Spotify Wrapped (not to mention the fact that I was in the top 2% of TS listeners). I was lucky enough to score tickets to the Era's tour, after much anxiety and freaking out from crashing websites and delayed sales. I screamed as soon as it was confirmed. Things have been rough, especially in the last month or so. One of the only things keeping me hopeful is the fact that in 4 months, I will get to see one of my favorite people in concert again.
That's not to mention the merch over the years. A Speak Now Tour shirt, notebooks and posters with Taylor's face on them, two signed CD's, a Red cardigan, a "fuck the patriarchy" keychain, The Scarf, and a few (not as many as I'd like) vinyls. I'm still pissed that my 1989 CD with the polaroids is lost somewhere in my storage unit.
At this point, if anyone is reading this, which I doubt they will, and especially if they have read this far (I'm sorry this post turned into a monster), they're probably thinking that I am a weirdly obsessed fan. Someone who thinks that someone they've never met in person is their BFF. I don't think I'm either of those things, but Taylor Swift has, and always will be a comfort to me. Especially as a neurodivergent person, having just ONE person who has been consistent for most of my life, someone who I can look up to and learn from, music I can listen to and immediately be comforted, is essential. At this point, now that I really think about it, Taylor Swift really is one of my special interests, and she has been long before I even knew that special interests were a thing (late diagnosed).
On top of all of this, she is just a genuinely good and kind person. You don't see that super often, in this cut throat industry. She is someone to look up to, even if Dear Reader says otherwise.
I've been writing this for about half an hour, and my phone is shaking from holding it above my head while I lay in bed and type. If literally anyone gets this far in the post, thanks for reading my weird diary entry I guess lol. Above all else, this is really a love letter to Taylor. Thank you for being there for me through it all.
#taylor swift#taylornation#tswift#midnights#evermore#folklore#lover#reputation#1989#red tv#speak now#fearless#taylor swift debut#the eras tour#speak now tour
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can you do an aita post for haruhi "AItA for marrying a mutual friend that my gay best friend has been in love with since he was 14"
i dont know how funny this is going to be btw. tried to craft it into an actual post haruhi might make and. well haruhi is fundamentally very boring.
necessary context for this is a situation me and my friend reuben ramón came up with when we were both more into ouran: an unhappily married tamaharu go to their high school reunion where they meet up with everyone else, including kyoya and renge. tamaki and kyoya share some heated moments but also think Its Far Too Late For Any Of That... meanwhile haruhi fucks renge in a janitors closet and they break up. you can read some of the stuff i wrote about it here
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Posted by u/FHNatural 4 months ago
Feeling conflicted about my marriage of five years.
Me (27NB) and my husband (28M) met by chance in high school. We started dating during his last year of high school, and got married a little after I completed undergrad.
For the actual issue: I love my husband, but more and more frequently, I've felt as if I love him like I love a friend. Intimacy and basic affection between us seems off-putting, I've been spending more time away at work just to achieve solitude, and I just feel like I've grown into a person too different from who I was when we began dating. He clearly wants more. He's not demanding anything of me, but I know it upsets him to see me pulling away. Or, he wants kids, and that's something I've always been reluctant about.
We've spent so much of our lives together, and I'm sure that's coloring some of my opinion. I've never been the most adventurous, and I'm confused if I still love him, if I want to split but my own passiveness is holding me back, etc... I'd appreciate some outside perspective on this, but all of my friends are his friends as well, so.
TLDR; How do I deal with feeling like I've fallen out of love with my husband?
UPDATE: I want to start this update, four months after my original post, by thanking everyone who spoke with me through comments and DMs. Some of it was unhelpful, but for the most part I was pleased to find honest, sincere advice. Which makes me feel bad because I probably did the exact opposite of what I was advised to do. The full story of what happened is a bit long, so I'll do my best to summarize:
1. Was looking into both marriage and individual counseling, but was unable to find the time or courage to pursue further with husband.
2. Me and husband were invited to high school reunion with most/all of our mutual friends, including his best friend from middle school. Best friend has been in love with husband since they were fourteen, I was unaware until a little before we were married. This becomes relevant.
3. Re-encountered old friend from high school whom I had lost touch with, found our short connection to be more fulfilling than the one me and my husband had been sharing for some time.
4. Had an affair with said lost connection during the reunion. Husband found us.
5. On impulse, made it worse and handed over my ring. Went and stayed at her house for the night, felt horrible in the morning. He stayed at best friends house.
6. Had actual conversation about everything. Began official separation. I stayed at her house, he stayed at friends house. From what I can gather, this is around the time best friend spoke about his feelings for him, (ex-)husband reciprocated.
7. We're doing better! Things are still fairly uncomfortable, and I admit that I did not make good choices, but I think we're both going to come out on top of this. Again, I want to thank everyone for giving me such kind advice. Sorry, I didn't follow any of it. 😊
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Three's company
An Eddie x fem (oc) that warps into a steddie x fem. If you're not that comfortable with the idea of graphic sexual activity depicting two men...don't read this whole thing. I think you'll figure out when to stop reading. But if you like yourself some smut hope you'll like it
WARNINGS sexual activities, strong language, mention of alcohol and drug use
I'd always had these two best friends, total opposites on the social hierarchy in our school. On the one side I had the golden child, basketball playing, pretty boy with the awesome hair King Steve Harrington and on the other side was freak of nature, drug dealing, DnD playing bad boy Eddie Munson.
Or well Steve graduated already and is now working at the video store with his partner in crime Robin.
So now it's me and Eddie trying to survive our final year of high school. Well I'm in my final year and so is Eddie just that he's in his THIRD final year. We always joked around saying that Eddie would never leave high school because then he would never get laid again. High school girls were the only ones gullible enough to fall for his bad boy crap. He's really the sweetest dude you'll ever meet...but you know...reputation man! Anyway, Eddie always used to laugh at this and agree that it might be just so, but lately he's been a bit strange when we try to tease him. Not laughing, just a smile and then changing the subject. Steve and I started to think he might have found a girl and doesn't want to share that with us for some reason.
We hang out quite a lot, sometimes at Eddies in his uncles trailer, sometimes at my trailer just next door from Edds...very rarely at Steve's house, his parents don't like the reputation Eddie has gotten in later years so we end up hanging out with him and Robin at the video store instead. That's always great fun, usually those nights are a “Who can help Robin make fun of Steve the most” competition. Winner gets a free movie! Steve has, since his girlfriend Nancy broke up with him, been obsessed with picking up girls. So making fun of him isn't even a sport at this point, it's just too easy!
I've been a bit down the last few weeks, the three of us always used to talk about absolutely EVERYTHING including feelings and such. We've been 100% honest with each other. Or well... I've ALMOST always been that honest with them. I haven't told them I crushed SO HARD on Steve growing up. In middle school I had this huge crush on him, but then when high school rolled around and he became Mr Popular and started hanging out with those sort of people I kind of lost those feelings. That's far from my type. Then he was just my friend again and I was sincerely happy when he met Nancy because she was not in that crowd at all. No jealousy or anything, I was over him as a guy you know.
But then at the end of last year I started noticing myself staring at Eddie quite a lot more than before... Had he always been so tall? And had he really been muscular like this? Not in a big bulky way just lean and his arms OMG! And those tattoos he had gotten...geez man. HOT! Was I crushing on him now? I let those thoughts simmer for a week or so and then... Yeah I was... Fuck... I was SO crushing on Eddie and this was stronger than any feelings for a guy I had before. Still haven't gone away these feelings, if anything they're stronger now. He's grown up so much over the summer, or maybe I have? And therefore I'm now noticing him as a man more? It still doesn't matter... Edd's been acting so strange lately as I mentioned before, I can't help but fear I'm losing my best friend.
We've been invited to a party the three of us, or well Steve's a given, I get to come by association to Steve and Eddie doesn't really get invited so much as asked to come and make deals. No one really wants him at the party as a proper guest, he's so scary?!
I decided I needed a little alone time with my boys before so I invited them over for some pre-party drinks and a smoke. We'd be hanging out for a bit then catch a ride with Eddie to the party, he didn't drink much when “doing business” for fear of getting ripped off.
When I hear a knock at my door I'm almost all done. Not wearing a top yet but whet the hell it's just my boys who cares if one of them sees my bra. I open the door and there's Eddie outside. Instantly he gets agitated and start some rant about I need to learn to manage my time so they wouldn't always need to wait for me... Eh...weird? Yeah I am a time optimist sure and I can be late at times. But we're having drinks and we're not leaving for another like 2 hours...I did not get the attitude at all.
“Dude, how long do you think getting a top from my closet takes? We're chilling having some beers, relax man, I think you'll be on time to make good money. Besides Steve's not even here yet” I smile, give him a hug and plant a beer in his hand. The hug isn't the usual soft, warm Eddie hug I love. It's stiff and uncomfortable, which I find strange. What the hell is going on?
“Yeah what ever, just thought if you invite someone over you'd be done instead of running around half naked like this, it's just rude. I mean...you wearing that tonight?” he takes a seat on the couch, not looking at me. I turn blood red all over... yeah I know I've put on some weight lately but he needn't be so cruel about it. He never used to care. “Am I that repulsive?” I think as I run in to my bedroom to finish getting dressed. I hear a knock and then I hear Steve come in to the living room. The tone in Eddies voice changes and he sounds like his old self. Well so ok... it WAS me. I want to cry.
I look in the mirror, ok so my ass and tits has grown this past year or so, and these leather pants are a really tight fit these days. But I mean I don't think I look to bad even with only a bra on top. But apparently I do. I've always been chubby, always the “Yeah she's funny but she ain't pretty” or the “good enough to fuck, not pretty enough to love” kind of girl. I've made my peace with that. I mean I had my guys always boosting me with compliments even if none of them wanted me in that way. Apparently now that's all changed...
I stare at myself for a few seconds, then I decide that if Eddie is so repulsed by me then that's on him. Maybe there's some guy with poor judgement to use and then dispose of at the party. I put on a top that I know makes my tits “look awesome” Steve told me so himself, and I trust that man with tit-opinions. But I can't help being super self-conscious as I go back out to join them
“Hey bestie! Looking hot, on the prowl tonight?” Steve comes up to me giving me a tight hug.
“Yeah I thought you could share some of your magic oh wise one” I say and make a bow holding my arms out like I'm worshipping at his feet.
“With that outfit you don't need any advise from me, am I right Munson?” Steve looks at Eddie with a great big smile and a wink. Eddie looks up, glances over at me
“What ever you say man” then he turns his head away from me again. Steve looks back at me raises an eyebrow.
“Yeah I don't know” I whisper sadly, he hugs me again and whispers in my ear
“Munson's a fool you look hot. Maybe he got dumped by that imaginary girlfriend of his” then he smiles at me and hands me a beer. I laugh and nod. We join Eddie, me on the floor and Steve on the couch. Whatever I did I didn't want to make it worse by getting to close to him.
As the beers and weed Eddie brought go in the tensions drop and he's a little more like him self again. I am very surprised he took a hit with us AND drank beer. I trust him to drive though...foolish of me I know but better him than Steve. He has NO limits so he's flat out drunk as a skunk by the time we're leaving. Sitting between me and Eddie in the van singing “Wake me up before you go go” much to mine and Eddies annoyance. We're both more rock orientated. Wham isn't really our thing. But we laugh at Steve who's really in a groove.
“WAAAAKE ME UP BEFORE YOU GO GOOO *hicup* heeeey sing along my pretties. I love you both so muuuuch... I'm so wasted, what if I can't score tonight?”
“Great that you have your priorities straight Stevie-boy” Eddie laughs “I don't think you need to worry dude, you come in there and the panties start dropping by themselves”
I laugh and reach out to give Eddie a high five, he ignores me. My heart sinks, what the actual hell have I done wrong?
“C'mon dude don't leave our girl hanging that's rude” Steve tries to sound stern but fails as the words are followed by another *hicup hicup*
Eddie sighs and gives my hand a small tap, Steve nods as if he is now pleased with everything.
We get to the party and Eddie disappears into the crowd instantly. Me and Steve go in together talking about everything and nothing as you do when you're drunk
“Hey...what if *hicup* Edds got the hots for you but don't wanna admit it?” Steve smiles as if he's solved a mystery of a lifetime.
“Yeah right Steve, that's probably it and I guess I'll be prom queen too this year” I punch Steve, we have a laugh about the thought of stone cool Eddie Munson, a guy we've both known since we were kids would somehow have fallen in love with me AND began hating me all at the same time.
“Seems he barely wants me as a friend any more let alone anything else” I say and I feel like crying again.
“To be fair to the poor guy if he has the hots for you, you can't really blame him. You did some fucking amazing growing up this past year, hell even I would fuck you” Steve has no real filter when he's drunk. But I do appreciate the compliment.
“Thanks sweetie but I think your skill set is better used on ANY other girl in here” I say and kiss him on the cheek “Now go get lucky, if I don't see you again tonight happy humping” we high five and he disappears into the crowd. I look around and I see Robin and Nancy standing by the kitchen I make my way over to them, at least two more people in here I like.
“Heeeey girl! Hell you're looking hot tonight” Robin is so sweet, she came out as lesbian last year to a select few people, me included, so any compliment from her is worth 10 from the likes of Steve. They're standing talking to this really cute guy I've never seen before.
“Hey Robin, hey Nancy. You're both gorgeous as always” I say and give them each a hug. “Who's this?” I ask and turn towards the strange guy
“Oh sorry, this is Chris. My cousin visiting from New York. Thought he needed some small town charm” Robin says.
“Charm? You call this cesspool of freaks and fucking assholes 'small town charm'? More like 'Hello and welcome to The Hellmouth, Satan will see you in 10'...” I say, so ok maybe my mood and the whole Eddie thing is making me bitter as fuck tonight. They all stare at me... “Well am I WRONG?” I say
“No...but that was a bit...creative even for you” Robin smiles and pulls me off to the side “What's wrong sweetie you seem upset?”
“Nah it's probably nothing just something's weird with Eddie and I don't know what I did wrong. Making me a little aloof” I tell her and smile at her “just a tiny wreck at the moment, buuuut I'll be ok when I get a drink in my hand and maybe a chat with that cute cousin of yours” I continue and wink at her
“Haha go for it! He's single and ready to mingle...geez that was cheesy even for me” she laughs and we go back and join Chris and Nancy.
“So Chris, sorry about that. I'm Jessica, Jess for short, I am not as bad as I just seemed there. Temporary insanity” I give him a showstopping smile. He smiles back at me, raises his cup
“Hey, I've heard a lot about you from Robin. Insanity is ok, we all have it from time to time. So where are the famous guys I hear you're attached to the hip with. They leave you stranded tonight?”
I laugh and I put my hand on his arm very softly and I toss my hair back. My go to move, always works.
“Well as you can tell they successfully separated us, FINALLY!” I smile again give a small giggle “But Steve is around here somewhere finding the trophy of the night so I don't think we'll be seeing him for a while and Eddie is...” I say and turn to point in Eddies direction. I meet Eddies gaze from across the room and his eyes that are usually a pretty lightish brown colour are BLACK and look to be burning from the inside as he stares at us.
“Ahem...yeah Eddie's the long haired rocker guy over there” I manage to continue.
“The one who wants to kill me for talking to his girl” Chris says with a meaning nod at Eddie. “Yeah he's NOT just your friend and if he says so he's lying” he smiles knowingly and continues “I'm not here to fuck anything up seeing as I'm like here for a few days. You talk to that guy because he is clearly having all sorts of feelings for you. Have a great evening and good luck with...ehm...that” then he once again makes a small nod towards the corner. He then leaves with Nancy to go mingle. I turn to Robin
“Well...sweetie he's not wrong. Eddie's got it bad for you we all see it. I think you guys need to have a talk”
I'm so confused, first Steve saying something like this and now Robin AND a complete stranger. What am I missing? Nothing about Eddie's behaviour tonight, besides the jealous look he gave Chris, would suggest he even likes me any more. I look over at Eddie but he's gone now. Well business before pleasure is his motto so he's probably just left the room to try and find other “customers”. I'm not feeling this party any more I wanna go home. I grab my bag and my jacket and I slip out the back door.
“You and tonights conquest leaving so soon?” I hear from the darkness. Eddie's voice is strange, so sarcastic almost mean sounding. We thrive on sarcasm the three of us but we VERY rarely use it on each other, and we've never been mean to one another. Apparently until now
“What the fuck Edd, why are you hiding in the dark like some creep? Scared the shit out of me! And what the hell is this shit about a conquest? You mean the guy who introduced himself, took one look at your moody ass and then left? Robin's cousin? Yeah sure... he turned invisible and now we're leaving. Leave me the fuck alone with your mood swings Munson.” I've had it with his attitude now. This wasn't MY Eddie, and that pissed me off the most. I stare him down then I turn and leave.
“Wait... Jess... I'm sorry. I'm done here for tonight. Can I at least drive you home. Wouldn't feel right making you walk home in those shoes” I hear him smile and his voice is back to being my Eddie. I look at him. I nod and we go back to the van and head home. I get the silent treatmen all the way home. When he parks outside his and his uncles trailer I turn to him, I can't do this crap any more I need to ask
“What the hell did I do wrong? Why are you being such an ass to me? Yeah I know I gained weight and stuff but hell you didn't have to be so mean to me. You've been so weird for weeks now. Distancing yourself from ME of all people more and more. It's killing me not knowing how I fucked up...” I can feel the tears threatening to burst out of me and I bite the inside of my cheeks so hard I can taste blood so that I won't start crying.
“You... Just fucking leave it!” he says with a strained voice the he bursts out of the van and runs inside leaving me sitting there like I've just been hit with a fucking baseball bat right in the gut.
Now there's no stopping it, I begin to cry. One of those heart wrenching sobbing cries that just seem like they're draining you from the inside. So I've lost my best friend and I have no clue why or what I have done. But clearly I messed up bad. This must be what a real panic attack feels like. I can't catch my breath and the sobs won't subside. I scream as the panic gets me. Usually, any time I'm sad I go see Eddie. He is my all, my ride or die, my PERSON. Steve is good for boosting the ego and making you laugh and he's a best friend in another way. But Eddie is my rock ever since we were kids I liked Eddie just a little bit better, our personalities clicked deeper in some way. He knows when I need to talk and when I need quiet cuddle time on the couch watching a movie. And what? Now that's gone?
I somehow get inside my trailer still crying so hard my insides ache. I undress completely and sit down on the floor of the shower, turning the water on and letting it drench me and clean up the mess that I am. I don't know how long I sit there but the water is cold when I snap out of it and turn it off. I wrap myself with a towel and I take out the hairdryer. I might be a mess but I do not need the disaster that is my hair if I fall asleep with it wet. I stare at myself in the mirror, maybe it's time to take my aunt up on her offer to move in with her in Texas. Because if this is what life will be like from now on, I will not be able to get through another year in the same school as Eddie. The tears start again but this time they're just slowly dripping down my face. I don't have any energy left to cry as hard as my mind would like to. I finally manage to get out of the bathroom and head for my bedroom. I scream bloody murder as I enter the dark room and see a figure on my bed, all I have is my hairbrush in my hand so I throw that with as much force as I have left in me straight into the darkness towards the figure. I hear that I hit something then I hear a familiar voice
“OUCH what the hell Jess!?”
“Edd? What the HELL yourself, why are you lurking in the dark like some perv?! AGAIN” I turn on the lights and I see Eddie sitting there on the bed rubbing his forehead where a big red mark is slowly forming telling me I did hit a bullseye with my brush. I also see I broke the skin because blood is slowly running down the side of his face. Oh God now I feel bad. It's then I realise as I stand there looking at him that his eyes are red, like he's been crying almost as bad as I have. I see the blood beginning to form a big stain on his shoulder so I hurry up to him with some paper tissues from my dresser.
“God I'm sorry Edd...” I kneel down between his legs and I put the tissue up against the cut. “Wait I'll get a band aid.” I run back to the bathroom and get my first aid kit. Head back to him, kneel down again and start looking for something to fix him up. I find some wound cleansing wipes and a band aid. I wipe off the blood, put the band aid on the cut and I reach up and put a small kiss on his cheek. I can feel and hear that he stopped breathing. I am suddenly VERY aware that I have both hands on his thighs leaning up against him wearing nothing but a ridiculously small towel that doesn't hide much more than it absolutely needs to. I try to ignore this and I look at him, I raise one of my hands up to his face and let my fingers slide over his forehead, feeling to see if I've made any more bumps and bruises. Had his skin always been this smooth? The atmosphere in here has changed, I can feel it and I am sure Eddie can feel it. Seeing as he can't look me in the eyes but he blushes every time he tries to look down due to the towel situation happening right in front of him.
“Why didn't you knock Ed?” I sigh at him “this was unnecessary you know” I look him straight in the eyes.
“I did...knock. But you didn't hear me so I just let myself in. Had some crap in my eye...they were watering.... light became annoying to I turned them off thinking I'd have time to turn them on again before you were out of the shower.” he smiles at me and my stomach does a flip... Oh this was SO NOT the time to remember the feelings I've been having for him lately! Not … the... time
I smile back, clear my throat “Sorry about the brush Edd...but you scared me” I'm starting to feel so very uncomfortable and self-conscious “dressed” like this kneeling between the legs of the guy I have a crush on. But at the same time it is kind of turning me on knowing I'm this close to him wearing next to nothing. But it's just Eddie, my ride or die Edd! What am I thinking...or well, what am I wishing for really? He made it very clear to me tonight that he does not like what my body looks like now. I get up from the floor and start to head back into the bathroom.
“Where are you going? Please stay with me” his voice is thick and I turn around to see him sitting on my bead tears running down his face.
“Oh my god Eddie, what's wrong love?” I know I was just an equal mess myself no more than 30 minutes ago but my nurturing side can't take one of my guys being upset. That takes over and I need to make him feel better because he is my Eddie, whether he still wants to be or not. And no one leaves this house feeling sad!
I sit back down next to him on my bed and wrap my arms around him and hug him as tightly as I can.
He sobs “ I've been the most unimaginable ass to you all night and I didn't mean to be. When I saw you getting out of the van and I heard you crying out there it broke me. So I followed you back here, I came in right after you had shut the door to the bathroom. I've been sitting here listening to you cry...feeling like the biggest freak for being the one making you feel like this. I am so sorry Jess...please SO sorry” he cries for real now and I can feel myself tearing up again.
“But why Ed? Please tell me what I did wrong, why don't you want to be my person any more?” The tears are running down my face and I put my hands up to my face “I know the weight thing is off putting to some but I never thought you'd care Edd...and I never ever thought you'd be mean about it”
He has stopped sobbing as I speak, I hear him gasp at my last words
“Nooo Jess... no I never... Oh fuck... I did sound like that earlier didn't I. Oh my god sweetheart no I never meant anything like that I promise! I just don't know how to tell you...” and he falls silent again.
“But Ed...we talk about everything? Why don't you know how to say whatever...this is?” I ask him and a horrifying thought hits me. “Shit! Are you sick? You're not fucking dying are you?”
“Dying? No, not any time soon if I can help it. Or well for a short while tonight I sorta felt like I was to be totally honest with you” he says and I don't understand a thing.
His hand shoots up to his head and he ruffles his hair, sighs and says
“Ok fuck it I'll just say it... I think I've fallen in love...” he searches my face for the reaction he seems to dread. I just let out a long sigh
“LOVE!? Well that's great Edd! I'm happy for you...but why would you be this weird telling me about it? I'm not possessive you know that...and why would that turn you into the biggest ass around?” I say and smile at him
“Ehm...I've fallen in love with my friend...my best friend” the tears that had stopped start to trickle down his face again. My brain is totally malfunctioning, how had I not seen any hints.
“You've fallen in love with Steve? Why haven't you told me you think you're gay? Were you scared I'd dissociate from you or tell him about it?” there is no other option in my head than this, he must be talking about Steve.
He looks at me like I'm some kind of idiot “Nooo... not Steve, yeah sure guy's really hot and all, and yeah I'd most likely fuck him but he's not the one”
My brain finally finds some kind of power source because it kicks in to drive and what Eddie is REALLY saying sinks in
“Oh...” I fall silent, this isn't real. Did him and Steve decide to prank me in the cruellest way ever? I can't speak and the silence is becoming very uncomfortable
“Jess... please say SOMETHING... Tell me to fuck off or whatever but please don't go quiet on me” he begs me . I look down and I see his hand, his very masculine sexy hand resting on my thigh just inches away from where the towel sits. The touch feels like it's burning my skin. Fuck, yeah I do have the hots for Eddie... I inhale sharply and get off the bed and start walking out of the room. Then I change my mind, stop and turn back around towards Eddie on the bed. So this guy, my best friend in the whole world, as well as the guy I've crushed on for the last 6 months or so, he is sitting here saying he's fallen in love...with me? And I what? I'm going to tell myself I'm not in love with him too? I'm going to pretend his hand on my thigh didn't just make me insanely horny? When did he become this sexy MAN? Ok fuck it... it really is a go big or go home moment.
I still don't say a word to him, I just look straight at him and let my towel fall to the floor. I walk up to him, stopping when I'm so close I can feel his knees against my legs. His eyes are burning again, but with a different kind of fire. He just stares at me
“Jess...I...”
I shush him and I place one leg on either side of his and sit down in his lap. I let my hands run up his arms up to his awesome hair where I bury them in his locks. I lower my head and I kiss him very softly, since I don't know if this is something he actually wants to do. I hear him let out a coarse moan and his hands are on my ass pulling me closer to him and he kisses me back, pressing his lips so hard against mine it kind of hurts. There's so much passion in his kiss it takes my breath away. “Holy fuck Munson is an unbelievable kisser” I think to myself, this thought paired with the unexpected turn this took makes me giggle.
Eddie stops kissing me, looks at me “What? This was your initiative and now you're laughing at me? I suck that bad at this?” he says panting. I shake my head, still not sure my voice will hold. I kiss him again, deeper this time and he answers my kiss, but with less frustration this time. His hands are still on my ass grabbing as much flesh as they can hold. Suddenly I feel self-conscious again. I think Eddie feels me tensing up a bit as his hands begin to move on my ass.
“Don't you even DARE think what I know you're thinking. I love this ass! Fuck when you came to the door tonight wearing those tight pants I almost came on the spot. I had to throw myself on the couch or you'd notice the fucking hard-on extravaganza you gave me. Trust me you are NOT putting me off the slightest, in fact your size is one of the things I fell in love with first. I was in total chock when school started and you came back from holidays looking like THIS, I've been sporting a semi every day at school” he talks, kissing my lips or my neck in between words. His fingers have moved in on my ass so they grace the very edges of my pussy. Carefully, like he's not sure he really is allowed to go there. I finally find my voice again.
“Hey Munson, don't you think you might be a bit overdressed for the occasion?” I whisper in his ear. He smiles at me
“Might be so, but you see this stunning, sexy girl is pinning me to the bed so I really can't do shit about it right now” he purrs at me sending shivers down my spine “but see if you move just for a short while, you can sit down again and I do think you'll like the seat a lot better then” his voice is coarse and his breathing is heavy. I get off his lap and sit down on the bed
“Strip for me...show me that sexy body of yours. I've been dying to see it for months now” I coo at him
The look of utter chock he gives me “MONTHS? You mean we could have done this months ago? Then why the fuck didn't you just pin me against a locker and tell me to fuck you if you wanted me too?”
I laugh “Well...how was I supposed to know you wouldn't just laugh at me and think I was joking? Not like you hinted at liking me either there Eddie” I let my eyes wander over his body “But right now I do not give a good god damn about that...you need to get naked now”
His eyes stare intensely at me as he begins to undress, agonizingly slow if you ask me. When he's down to just wearing his boxers I'm in awe. What the actual hell...
“When the fuck did you become this sexy beast Munson? You realise you look so god damn good it almost hurts my eyes right?” He look so shy all of a sudden, like he doesn't really believe me.
“Stop...you don't have to put it on that thick...” he looks like he's about to change his mind and get dressed again. Can't have that! I get up from the bed and I press my body close to his, take his hand and I place it right between my thighs. Right smack on my pussy. I say with a low voice
“Eddie babe, does this feel like someone that isn't insanely attracted to you right now? Trust me when I say you are the sexiest guy I've had the pleasure to look at...EVER” at first he's frozen like he can't believe this is real then he snaps out of it and his fingers begin to explore my folds.
He growls in my ear “You mean to tell me that all of this is for me? Mine to use?” two of his fingers has found their way in me now and I moan loudly. “Ooooh good girl...I don't like 'em quiet girls. I want to hear when I do a good job” he kisses my neck and his free hand has found my tits now. “Fucking perfection” he murmurs. I cant take this I need to see what I'M working with. I drop to my knees taking his boxers with me. His cock springs free and I just stare and hear myself go “Yeeeessss” I can't help it I lick my lips.
“Fuck Jess, I don't know if that made me scared or more horny. You look like you're going to devour me whole” Eddie is looking down at me all flushed with black eyes. I keep that eye contact as I let the tip of his cock slip in between my lips. I can taste the drop of pre-cum I had seen when I let it free. Oh God he tastes and feels amazing. I take him in deeper, all the while maintaining eye contact. Eddie tries to keep looking at me but when I've taken him in whole he can't stand it and he leans his head back and lets out a coarse deep moan as he grabs my hair with his hands. “What the hell are you doing to me girl!? I don't think I've ever been this hard” he fucks my mouth, but not too rough and lucky for me he doesn't seem to be the kind of guys that gets off on gagging, I hate that... He pulls out abruptly and says
“For the love of God get on the bed I need to taste you NOW” I sit there, kneeling on the floor. I smile a mischievous smile and I put my hand between my legs letting one finger slip in to my wet pussy. I pull it out, it's glistening with my juices. I stand up and I put my finger in Eddies mouth, he first seems paralysed by that move, then he gets his groove back and he sucks on my finger
“Mmmmm hell Jess, you taste amazing. But I would very much like to eat your pussy like the dessert it is not just get a small taste test” he pushes me over on to the bed and motions for me to get comfortable before he gets on my bed with me and positions himself between my legs. Laying down so he's in the perfect place. He lets his hand slide over the sensitive skin of my inner thighs, then up over my stomach, grabbing my tits and then go back down to spread my legs even more so his head can move in to do the work. At first his tongue is just playing on the outsides of my folds ever so softly. Driving me crazy of course, damn tease. Then he plunges in in between my folds and find my clit. He alternates sucking on it and licking it, it's like a fucking vibrator in speed at times. I moan and move my hips, God damn where did he learn to do this!? Who taught him? I must send her flowers! Then I feel him putting his fingers in me as he continues working my clit with passion. “Oooooooh fucking hell Edd I'm gonna coooooome” I scream as he sends me off into the most amazing orgasm to date.
“Good giiiiirl...damn you squeeze my fingers so good. Can't wait to feel that around my cock love...yeaaah keep coming sweetheart....good...so fucking good” Yup I seem to have a praise kink, can't stop coming as I hear him talk like that. I writhe and moan like I'm possessed.
“Edd...I need... Fuck me” I pant I so desperately want to feel him inside of me.
“Wait...I need to find...” he reaches for his jeans “No, no you don't been on the pill for about a year” he looks at me, grins and grabs his cock and plunges it in to me, he lets out a growling low scream as he does. I let out an equal sound, fuck this guy was made for me. He doesn't start moving right away, he's just looking down at the scene under him
“Damn...you have no idea how fucking good you feel around my cock and how fucking sexy you look filled up by me” he reaches up and takes my breasts in his hands and then he slowly starts to make long strokes in and out of me. I can't fucking take this it feels to unreal. I start moving my hips to meet his every move. “That's a good girl...that feels amazing...keep moving like that. Fuck I'm going to fill you to the brim babe”
He keeps up the slow deep strokes for a little while but then I feel him changing the rhythm and begin to move faster. Is this what heaven feels like? Being railed by Eddie Munson? Then sign me up for life. The pace is fast and hard now, no more talking just moans, heavy breathing and sweaty bodies. I reach down and start playing with my clit and Eddie purrs at me “Oh yeah that's amazing please rub it so you come all over my cock. I want to feel you squeeze me dry babe. Come for me again” He slows down just a bit so he can watch me rub myself as he fucks me. I feel that good, sweet tension building again. Travelling from somewhere in my gut down to my pussy as I come again, just as hard as last time and my screams are just as loud “Fuuuuuck yeeeeeah Eddie...come... come in me please...” he grabs my hips, lifts them up and goes God damn jack hammer on me. It doesn't take long before he lets out a guttural scream and I feel him releasing inside of me, his cock throbbing inside. He lets out a deep sigh and collapses on top of me.
“Are you fucking real? Is this real? Or is it one of my dreams again?” I hear him mumble all out of breath. I can't get a word out I can barely catch my breath. But I get what he's saying this does seem to good to be true. He rolls off me and pulls me in so he can spoon me. “Wanna try to get some sleep babe? I feel like doing much more of this but I need more energy for that” he nuzzles in to my neck and sighs with contentment.
“I need sleep too Ed, but first I kind of need to...you know empty myself of the big load someone put in me” I say and giggle as I wiggle free of him and get out of bed.
“Aww I and was hoping you'd wanna keep it” he chuckles
“Hey...you can refill me any time you want” I wiggle my ass at him and go to the bathroom. In there all the pent up feelings from weeks back catch me like a fucking train and I just let out a scream and pass out.
When I wake up a hysterical Eddie AND Wayne, his uncle, are sitting on the floor beside me in my small bathroom. “What...happened” I can't remember anything but being so happy, oh fuck and naked, when I came in here. I look down someone, most likely Eddie, has put a t-shirt on me and a pair of shorts. That's at least a relief. I like Wayne but that might be a bit too much for our relationship to handle me being butt naked on the floor passed out.
“I don't know what happened... You came in here, I hear a scream and a loud thud and then I find you passed out on the floor. Did I hurt you somehow?” Eddie is in tears. I see Wayne looking at Eddie then he looks at me then back at Eddie a big smile breaks his frowning face
“Took you two damn long enough” he snarls, he's friendly but can sound very grumpy “I don't know either sweetie. Eddie just came home in panic screaming about you being unconscious in the bathroom and thinking he did something... I didn't fully understand until just now. But you ok Jess? Feeling sick or hurt in any way? Do we need to call an ambulance?”
“No, thank you Wayne. I think I'll be fine. I just need to get off this floor and maybe have something to drink... If you wouldn't mind could you make me a cup of tea? I'd ask Eddie but I'm afraid I'd have to wait forever then before he figures out how to boil water” me and Wayne have always had this bit going about how useless Eddie is in a kitchen.
Wayne roars with laughter and gets up. “Sure thing sweetie, 1 sugar and some milk right?”
“Perfect Wayne you're a rock star” I say and smile at him. He leaves and Eddie is still crying in pure fear that I'm hurt. I sit up and I put my hand on his chest “Eddie...babe?” He looks up at me “I'm ok, really I am. I'm not hurt or anything. I'll tell you all about it once Wayne leaves and we're alone. But you didn't hurt me not even a little bit. You just made me feel so fucking good nothing else. Ok? You hear me?” he nods and wipes his eyes and nose on his sleeve. He at least managed to get himself descent to before running in and getting Wayne.
We get up from the floor and Eddie holds me as we go out in to the living room. I snuggle down in the couch under a blanket. “You do realise that cuddling is like mandatory now right?” I say and lift the blanket at Eddie. He smiles and sits down in the corner so I can lean on his chest. Wayne comes with the tea and he looks at us with a smile.
“Happy you two finally figured THAT out at least...been living with this mopey bastard for months now. Seen what's wrong but didn't think it was my thing to meddle in... congrats” he says and then he just turns and leaves out the door.
“Uhmmm... Mopey bastard? You've been moody around everyone for months because you figured out you loved me? Instead of telling me you've made me feel awful for weeks thinking I pissed you off and not knowing why or how? Eddie? You do realise that's insane right? That's kind of what got me to collapse now too I think. I've been a tense mess thinking I was losing my best friend for weeks now, pressure just building. And then we go and do this... Call that a pressure release if I ever saw one. I think It just got a bit much for my body...guess I needed a reset. But I AM fine I promise. Just tired and SO satisfied. But I still am somewhat angry with you for putting me through all of this. And yes I KNOW I could just as easily have told you how I felt but I haven't the confidence to think I could be loved by anyone, let alone by you. You know the whole 'good enough to fuck, but not pretty enough to love' bullshit that ass told me like a year ago. That shit really stuck” The words just flow out of me, there's no stopping them. I can't look at Eddie but he keeps his arms around me softly caressing my hands with his fingers. He sighs
“It hasn't really been months... I've liked you as more than a friend since even before you had your insane crush on Steve. But I've always told myself that you're too good for me... the freak. So I've just swallowed my pride and acted the best friend. Through all the guys, all the tears. I wanted to actually KILL that guy who said that to you. I was so sad for you then, I cried myself to sleep for a week after you told us that. Just wanting to tell you how wrong he was and that I would never feel like that, that I would love you no matter what. But by then I was just scared, you became this awesome young woman you are now with all the attitude and the sex appeal. I buried the feelings even deeper. Then you came home from that holiday at your aunts and I fell head over heals. There was no kidding myself any longer I fucking loved you with all my heart. But you seemed so much more mature and I got scared again. I just couldn't hide what I felt any longer so I started acting out instead, thought that if I made you dislike me I wouldn't have to be so near you and in so much pain. I know, I know that's a fucking mess of thoughts. But then...well then tonight happened and well you know the rest...” he falls silent and still
“I never told you I had a crush on Steve...” I say “can we perhaps take equal blame in this becoming such a mess? Like a 50/50 deal?” I lean my head back and pull Eddies head in for a kiss. He smiles
“Nah but I'll settle for a 60/40 in your favour. And yeah... You weren't as discrete as you thought back then. Both me and Steve knew but we didn't want to embarrass you” Oh fuck...
“We should have just made that into some sort of threesome, you having a crush on me, me having a crush on Steve and Steve well Steve is Steve” I say with a giggle, I notice a small almost silent gasp from Eddie when I mention a threesome and Steve in the same sentence. I get to thinking about that comment he made earlier, that Steve was hot and that he'd fuck him but he wasn't the one. “Is Eddie hot for Steve? Is he perhaps bisexual?” I think to myself. Well if he is I just hope he'll tell me himself some day, no need to snoop around that now. Not after pouring his heart out to me. I yawn
“Should we try that sleep idea of yours now? I just wanna lay down and fall asleep on your chest hearing your heartbeat, like we used to do before” I say and get up from the couch and take Eddies hand. We decide to head over to his place, his bed is bigger and more comfortable than mine. We go over to his trailer, quietly so we don't disturb Wayne who's gone to bed. We walk to the bedroom, undress again and crawl into bed. I lay down with my head on Eddies listening to his heart beating. Like I'd done so many times before, but this time was different. “From now everything is going to be different. But much, much better” I think to myself before I fall fast asleep on the hottest guy alive.
I wake up as the sun shines in through the blinds in Eddies room. I haven't slept this well in weeks. Eddie is fast asleep, one arm over my chest gripping one breast and one leg over my hip. I can feel that he's been having some interesting dreams, something hard and warm is pressing against my ass. I smile, this is unreal, I have Eddie Munson's morning wood poking my ass. Again, the absurdity of this strikes me and I want to laugh. I wiggle free from his embrace and I sneak out to the toilet. Being very sober again I start thinking... What if last night was just some spur of the moment drunken thing? What if he's not that interested today. SHIT! “You need to start working on your confidence here, he spilled his guts last night telling you how he felt and now you doubt him?” I shake my head at my own intrusive thoughts. I wash my hands and I go back to the bedroom. Eddie has moved so he's now on his back, the sign of happy dreams laying rock hard on his stomach. I can't stop staring... I had that in me? Oh my fucking GOD! I appreciate this view even more now in the morning light, with sober eyes. I crawl back into bed and I lay down on top of him straddling him so his cock is now wedged in between my thighs. I start kissing his neck and moving my hips so that his cock slides into my folds. I sit up and start moving back and forth so I drag my now soaking wet pussy all over his shaft. He moans and shifts as he's starting to wake up. His hands move up to my ass and he smiles, still half asleep.
“Mmmmm Jess...just like that” his voice is coarse and I think he's fully awake. But then he jolts his eyes open and stare at me “ooooo shit...oh fuck...this wasn't one of my usual dreams...”
“Sorry to wake you up like this, you want me to stop?” I tease as I keep sliding my pussy up and down his cock.
“Don't you fucking dare!” he grabs me and pulls me down so that he can kiss me hungrily. Then he shifts his attention to my breasts, kissing them, biting then, sucking them. He's so preoccupied with that he doesn't realise I lift my hips slightly, move my hand down and guide him in. When I sink down on his hard cock he lets out a growl like sound.
“Fuuuuck...I love when you wake me up! This beats any dream I've EVER had about you” he starts meeting my movements with his hips filling me up all the way.
I sit up and place my hands on his chest “Dream about me a lot there Munson?” I ask with a purr as I start riding him harder.
“Every fucking night you've made me cum in my boxers. Ever since I was like 13” he's started to breathe heavier now meeting my every stroke with a frenzy. I can feel that I'm about to come soon, I reach down and begin to work my clit with my fingers.
“God you're so hot. Please come on me...good girl” he growls at me. Both of his hand reach around to grab my ass, I keep playing with myself as he fucks me SO good. I feel the tension rise and spill over the edge
“Eddieeeee fuuuuuck” I moan trying to NOT scream and alert Wayne. Don't need him running in thinking I'm passing out again. I come so hard around Eddies cock it feels like I make a dent at the base. I collapse down making my ass pout more and this sends Eddie in to more of a frenzy and he starts fucking me with a violent pace. Slamming his cock into me, his hands holding my ass. Then with a guttural moan he lets go
“Fuuuuuck Jess...you're amazing...” a few more strokes then he pulls out and I feel his cum spilling out all over him. I couldn't care less, I am in a complete state of bliss. I did not need to worry, last night was a one time thing apparently. I smile and look up at his face, red and sweaty but looking satisfied.
“Morning babe” I whisper
“Oh good fucking morning to you too sweetheart! Never ever sleep anywhere else from now on” he's still out of breath. He smiles at me and kisses me deeply.
We lay like this for a little while then Eddie strokes my hair and says
“You wanna hit the shower with me? Someone left some sticky stuff all over me and I might need some help cleaning it off”
“How rude to leave sticky stuff all over you, you should really talk to whoever did that” I smile and I hear him chuckle.
“Yeah I'll take it up with them.” he slaps my ass “c'mon sweet cheeks let's go” I laugh and roll off him, seeing that he was right. There is a sticky mess left behind. We get out of bed and head to the bathroom.
“But what about Wayne?” I ask, not being completely fine with the idea he might hear us or walk in on us in the shower.
“Oh he left early this morning, he's off on a fishing trip for like a week. So we can use this whole place and every surface in it aaaaall week long... Well if you want to” Eddie looks at me, now kind of shy.
“A whole week of nothing but this and not having to worry about being quiet? Where do I sign?” I wrap my arms around him and guide him into the shower. We alternate between actually showering and making out. It's amazing just kissing him. We finish and wrap up in towels.
“You hungry sweetheart? I can make us breakfast?”
“You? Eddie Munson? Make breakfast...you trying to kill me now that you've had your way with me?” I giggle. He slaps my ass and frowns
“That's mean! Now that I finally have you? You think I'm trying to kill you? For your information I make kick-ass pancakes!”
“Ok, prove it!” I say and I go back to the bedroom to get dressed and to dry my hair. “But you're cooking wearing that towel because damn man you're sexy” I smile and sway my hips at him as I walk away. I can hear him take a deep breath in and whisper under his breath
“God damn girl you're killing me” then he turns and heads towards the kitchen. When I'm done and come in to the kitchen to join him he's just about done with breakfast. He's set the table, made pancakes and he's wearing a apron....and NOTHING MORE. The towel is draped over one of the chairs. Well...now I have no idea if I'm hungrier for him or the food. I just stand there and stare at him. Ass out looking absolutely scrumptious, hair in a bun and the muscles on his arms flexing as he moves things around.
“Fuck Eddie... How did you turn out this perfect?” I say as he turns to me when he hears me swallowing loudly at the sight of him.
“I don't know about perfect babe, but thank you.... Heeey are you eyeing me or the food there girl?” He laughs at me. He reaches out his hand at me and leads me to the table. “Take a seat darling, breakfast is served” he kisses me and continues with a whisper in my ear sending shivers down my spine “and dessert is served on the couch when we're done” he looks down and I follow his gaze. Under the apron a unmistakeable bulge has formed.
“Wow...again? Horny all the time Munson?” I let my hand slide in under the apron and grab what's under there. He smiles and says with a grumbling voice
“Not normally, this is all you doing this to me” he lets his tongue slide from my ear down my neck and I shiver “but first we eat then we take care of this” he whispers and moves away from me. I let out a small “aww” which makes him laugh softly. “guess I'm not the only horny one in here” he smiles at me and takes a seat.
I sit down opposite him and I finally take a real look at the food he's made. It looks delicious! I am surprised, every time I've been over it's either been me or Wayne cooking. I have never seen Eddie make anything, ever...
“How...” I begin
“Hey! Be nice now! Who do you think makes food for me when Wayne's at work all night long? I'm not as useless as you two always make me out to be. I have some skills” he smiles at me and gives me a wink
“Oh I've come to notice that...some seriously impressive skills too. But this? This is just icing on the cake babe. You can fuck AND cook? I'm never letting you go now!” I dig in to the foos and it IS delicious, best pancakes I've had in a long time.
Eddie just sits there looking at me with a goofy smile on his face, I feel self conscious all of a sudden and I stop eating. Do I look funny? He thinks I'm gluttonous?
“What?” I ask
“You're never letting me go are you? I like that” he keeps smiling at me and then he starts eating too. I let out a sigh, it wasn't about me eating. I continue devouring the pancakes, realising I hadn't eaten a thing since yesterday afternoon. When we're both full I get up and start clearing the table.
“What are you doing, you needn't do that” Eddie gets up.
“You cooked for me, the least I can do is help clean up. You go sit down on the couch and get my dessert ready” I say with a smirk. He gasps at me
“Ooooh that's my girl, I'll do as you wish princess. Hurry up then” he unties the apron and pulls it over his head. He's now completely naked as he prances off to wait for me on the couch. I loose all train of thought for a second, what the hell was I doing? All I can think of is how good his ass looks. I shake my head to snap out of it and I don't think I've ever cleared a table this fast in my life. As I head over to the couch I start undressing as I walk keeping steady eye contact with Eddie as I do. I can see his cock waking up and rising. He takes it in his hand and slowly start stroking it as he watches me. I stop in front of him and I pull down my pants and kneel between his legs. I look up at him, his face is flustered and his breathing heavy
“Well hello there, can I help you with this?” I say and smile. He slides down a bit on the couch and lets go of his erection
“Be my guest” I let my hand slide up his thighs and I lean in and let the tip of my tongue play on the head of his cock. He draws in a deep breath and his hands move up to my hair. I take him in my mouth and I hear him moan. I take him as deep as I can and I let my tongue move along the shaft with every stroke. He's really loud now and I love it! He's slid so far down now that his ass and balls are out over the edge of the couch. I let one hand slide on the inside if his thigh up towards his balls. I cup them in my hand and gently massage them as I keep sucking him with long slow motions. Then I notice something, every time I move my hand on his balls my fingers almost grace his asshole, and when they do he's ever so slightly meeting them with his movements. Does he want me to? I release his cock from my mouth now licking the length of the shaft, I let my tongue go lower and I lick his balls. The sound he makes now are loud, but at the same time a bit hesitant. Like he's not sure if he likes it, or maybe more if he SHOULD like it. I suck his balls into my mouth and I let my tongue play around them in my mouth. I let my tongue out and stretch it down below the balls, Eddie whimpers.
“Edd...would you like me to...try with your ass?” I say... he gasps...then I hear
“I...yeah...I like to put a finger in there sometimes when I get myself off...” he's blood red. I think about this for like a second and I get an image in my head of Eddie with one hand around his cock and the other is fingerfucking his own ass... and I moan and feel myself getting even wetter. Fucking hell that's hot! Didn't know that was a thing I'd like... Hey you learn something new every day. I smile at him and I let my head go even lower. I start by softly placing some kisses on his cheeks, he moans hesitantly. Then I lick them, moaning increased. I let my tongue play around the hole, he tenses just for a second then I feel him relaxing. I lick him for real now, taking inspiration from how he handles my pussy. I lick him until I feel he's really wet and relaxed, then I take one finger and I place it on the hole. He stiffens again
“You...you don't have to if it freaks you out” he's blood red in the face again.
“Eddie babe, if you like it then I like it because it turns me on to turn you on, just let me know if I'm doing something wrong” I say with a low voice and I feel him relax again. I go back to what I was doing. I let one finger slowly enter his asshole, it's so warm in there...and surprisingly soft. He lifts one of his legs up and places it on the couch so I can access better. I start moving my finger in and out, “like he does with me” I think. I can hear now that he is enjoying this. I look at his fingers, they're so much bigger than mine. I pull my finger out and I “lube” his hole up again with more spit. Then I take two fingers and press at the opening, I look up at him and he meets my eye
“This ok Edd?” I whisper, he just nods. I carefully push two fingers in and start fucking him with them. I sit up more on my knees and I take his cock in my mouth again. I swear he almost screams now
“Fucking hell Jess... Yeeeesss...keep that up...oh fuck me” I don't think I've ever been this horny. With my free hand I reach down and I start playing with myself. My goal is now to make him cum SO hard in my mouth with my fingers in his ass. I get off so hard on this thought I actually come before he does. I moan loudly around his cock and can feel that tightening in his balls, but from the inside of his ass. He lets out a ROAR as he squirts down my throat and I feel the muscles in his ass convulse around my fingers. God is this what it feels like when I come on his cock then I see the fascination! He's panting heavy, fully relaxed with his eyes closed. I smile to myself as I lick the leftover cum from his dick and slowly pull my fingers out of the warmth of his tight ass.
“Be right back” I say and I go to the bathroom to wash my hands. I look at myself in the mirror and think “That was the most intense thing I've experienced, and it was with Eddie” I go back to the living room, he's is still in the same position on the couch.
“Hey sexy, wanna go back to the bed and cuddle?” I ask him and hold out my hand. He looks up at me, he looks mortified. My heart sinks. “Hey...babe, did I do something wrong? Did I hurt you?”
“Hurt me? Did it seem like you did?” he smiles but the smile doesn't reach his eyes
“Well it seems like I did something that wasn't good Edd...” I say
“I just...did you really like that or did you just do it for me?” his voice is low and full of shame.
“Edd, love. I meant it when I said that if you like it I like it because it turns me on to turn you on. And to be honest...that was SO FUCKING HOT! I came before you did...” I give him a big reassuring smile. He just gawks at me
“You...you came? From...fucking me in the ass? Really, you didn't mind?” He sounds a little more reassured now
“No I did not mind Edd, not at all. In fact I would very much like to explore this with you. You gave me ideas” I purr and wink at him. Which is totally true, he did give me ideas. I just might need to slow down the introduction of those ideas. Wouldn't wanna scare the poor guy. He gasps and blushes.
“Ehm...I think I would very much like that. And I'm sure I'll love those ideas of yours, you made me insanely curious now babe” he stands up and takes my hand. “Shall we do the cuddling now? I feel absolutely beat for some reason. He winks at me.
“Strange you seemed so lively just moments ago when you came in me and ON me” I say and lead him off to the bedroom
“Oh fuck, you dirty girl...” this makes me weak to my knees. God I love when he says things like that, and I'll hopefully have forever to have him say it too.
“Yes I am Eddie Munson, and I am your dirty girl so you better tell me all your inner most desires” I say as I lay down on the bed and spread my arms out for him to come lie down and cuddle me.
“I think we'll go for one thing at the time here babe” he whispers in my ear as he lies down and turn me so we spoon real close. I can feel shivers all over, so there's more? One thing at the time? I wonder what else turns him on? I make myself comfortable against him and we doze off again. When I come to again Eddie isn't in the bed any more. I wait for a little while thinking he's in the bathroom. But I can't hear anything from in there. I get up and put on one of Eddies Hellfire shirts that's on the floor next to the bed. I go out into the living room and I see him on the couch... head in his hands CRYING!
“Edd... babe? What's wrong? Talk to me...” I say and kneel in front of him. He just shakes his head and won't look at me. “Eddie Munson! Now you fucking look at me and use your words! You're freaking me out!” I say
He lets out a deep sigh and looks at me, he must have been crying for quite some time? Did he get up as soon as I drifted off to sleep? I can see that he's trying to put his thoughts in order so he can share them with me. I know the look. I wait just looking at him with a soft smile. I'm softly rubbing my hands up and down his arms. “Please Edd, talk to me”
“I... I... I feel so bad for liking that so much. I feel emasculated almost... What's wrong with me? And how could you have liked it? I can't...” he begins to cry again.
“Eddie sweetie, there's nothing wrong with you. Nothing at all. We all like different things when it comes to sex, and the best thing is when you find someone who doesn't judge” I say meaningly and look at him “I've found you now and you found me... have I ever been judgemental towards you before? Before we knew this part about each other? Why would you think I'd judge you on what turns you on Edd? Do I seem like that kind of person to you? Fuck, nothing we've done so far has made me go 'hell no' it's quite the opposite it's all made me go 'HELL YEAH' I want to explore every idea, every kink, every inclination we can come up with. But I want to explore them WITH you! But you gotta let me in babe. And you got to cut yourself some slack and not be so hard on yourself, I love you you know, have done for a long time. And that's long before I knew what a sex god you truly are” that last part did get me a smile from that teary face. Eddie grabs my face between his hands and kisses me.
“You know you're fucking amazing right? Why didn't I man up and tell you how I felt sooner. I've loved you for so long, I just feared that this would make you regret...that this would be a deal breaker. Who'd want a boyfriend who likes to be fingered while getting a blowjob...” he smiles
“I'd take that boyfriend any day if he'll have me” I kiss him “can we shut off the waterworks now and accept that I'm here to stay...curiosities in the bedroom or not” he nod and dries his eyes. He moves over on the couch, picks up the blanket and asks me to get under it with him. We cuddle down on the couch, just talking about anything end everything like we've always done. Suddenly there's a knock at the door
“Hey it's Steve, you guys alive?”
“Fuck I need to put something on for fucks sake” I giggle “let me get to the bedroom before letting him in please”
“You've got my shirt on?” Eddie looks surprised
“Yeah...but no underwear” I laugh and run off to the bedroom. I hear him chuckle as he goes to open the door.
“Hey man! You good from last night?” I hear Eddie ask Steve. I quickly put on a pair of joggers I have laying around in a drawer in Eddies room. I've left them there ages ago as a “in case of emergency” option. They are a bit small these days but not uncomfortably so. I go back out to the living room.
“Stevie the Wham man him self! How was your night?” he looks puzzled
“Wham...man?” he looks at me then Eddie
“You sang 'Wake me up before you go go' obnoxiously loud all the way to the party last night man” Eddie says and laughs
“Fuuuuuck I thought that was part of a dream” Steve face palms himself and sighs.
“Nah man, it wasn't... it was however entertaining” I say and hug him
“Thanks...I think... But hey, did you two make up? There was some weirdness THAT I do remember” Steve looks from me to Eddie with a concerned face
“Yeah, you could say that we did make up... once last night... and twice today...” Eddie winks at him and I gasp... what the hell? But then I think that who else to tell first, besides Wayne who kinda figured it out him self, but Steve.
“Ha...good one Munson...” Steve laughs then looks at us, we just look back at him. Faces serious, I lift one eyebrow and smile at Steve. “NO FUCKING WAY?? The two of you? Hooked up? Three times since last night? The hell Jess, I thought I was the apple of your eye” he comes over and grabs us both and pull us in to give us a great big hug.
“Well... Steve that was quite some years ago... Don't get me wrong I love you but not that way... I do however love Edd...that way” I say and I smile at Eddie who just beams back at me.
“Hey I told you last night Munson had the hots for you...but did you believe me? Noooo of course you didn't” Steve glares at me
“Yeah yeah, you told me, Robin told me, fucking Chris told me and he doesn't even know us AT ALL...” I shrug and throw my arms out. Eddie stares at us
“You...knew?” he asks Steve “and Robin knew? And...Chris, her fucking cousin knew?” Eddie is looking more and more bewildered
“Yeah me and Robin were talking about it the other day that you were always watching Jess, no matter what you were doing you always kept one eye on her. And dude... your pants are too tight to hide a semi...” Steve smiles knowingly at Eddie who blushes violently
“How was I the only one to miss this?” I say “I mean...even a semi on this guy is impressive” I wink at Eddie, when I look over at Steve I see him eyeing Eddies parts with a curious look... what the actual hell? Both of them?
“Stop...geez Jess...” Eddie blushes even more.
“Oh own it love, you're packing! You should be proud” I kiss him and put my hand down the back pocket of his jeans giving his cheek a squeeze. Steve is watching this exchange with a curious look, still trying to look at Edds package but discretely so we won't notice. Which of course is all I CAN notice now. Eddie puts one arm around me and pulls me closer kissing me back.
“So you two are officially a thing now then I take it?” Steve sits down on the couch
“Yeah, I mean I am...” I look at Eddie
“Hell yeah...in my dreams I've been with her for months so” Eddie sits down as well and then he pulls me down on to his lap. I giggle
“Well fuck then I'm really happy for you guys! Imagine that...the two of you bumping uglies” Steve chuckles
“Thanks man...” I say and we all laugh at his choice of words. We continue with the topic of how the party turned out for King Steve.
“Well you know me I don't like to brag” Steve says and I almost choke on air
“YOU don't like to brag? Steve...sweetheart bragging is your oxygen...who the fuck you think you're talking to here?” Eddie roars with laughter as I stare at Steve.
“Yeah... ok... Found a new one last night” Steve looks pleased
“Girls are not things Steven... we've discussed this before. You met some one new last night?” Eddie pokes Steve on the leg looking at him with a stern face.
“Ok, I met some one new... you happy? She's apparently Chrissy's something rather... didn't listen, to busy staring at her tits.” Steve is very predictable, that's why I'm so curious about the sneaky glances at Edds privates. Maybe Stevie-boy has a secret as well. “They were no where near as awesome as yours were last night though Jess!” I laugh always with the compliments
“Thanks darling, glad to hear it” I say
“Hey back off their MY tits now” Eddie grabs a hold of them and glares at Steve who looks like a fool, eyes big and mouth wide open.
“Ehmm...ok... sorry Edd. But could you like....release them? Distracting as hell...” he shifts a little in his seat. Eddie smiles, gives my tits a small squeeze then lets them go. Weird tension in the air for a bit then we just continue the story of King Steve and “the new one” like nothing happened. Steve stays for a couple of hours then he leaves to give Dustin and his gang a ride somewhere. Me and Eddie turn on the TV and lay down on the couch, me resting my head on his stomach just above his crotch. It gets really warm and Eddie takes off his jeans so he's only wearing boxers. I lay back down and we continue watching TV.
“Guess what I suspect...” I can't help myself any longer “I think our Steve is bi-curious... he couldn't keep his eyes away from your stuff all night. Thought he was sneaky but I saw him. I also think he might have the hots for one or both of us... did you see that uncomfortable shift he did when you grabbed my tits. Think it was his turn to sport a semi” I didn't say this to provoke a reaction from Edd I just wanted to share what I saw. When I mentioned Steve sporting a semi I feel something twitching near my neck. “Oh wow... Eddie's liking this?” I think to myself. I let my hand slide up and cup his awakening cock, Eddie moans deep in his chest. I slide my hand inside his boxers and start stroking him. I kiss his happy trail and let my tongue play in the hairs going down towards my new happy place.
“Lift” I say and tug at his boxers, he lifts his ass up and I pull them down. I take him in my mouth and he groans loudly.
“Wait, undress and lay down so I can eat your pussy at the same time” he says with a growling voice. I draw a deep breath and moan. I hurry to my feet and strip naked, while I do this Eddie takes off his clothes as well and lie down on his back. I straddle his face and place my mouth back around his cock. He moans
“Yeeeeah that's my good girl” then he lets his tongue slip into my folds to find my clit. He slips two fingers in me and start scissoring them inside me as his tongue and mouth work my clit. This is heaven but I really need to feel him fill me up. So I let go of his cock with a plopping suck
“Edd I LOVE what you're doing but I want this cock in me right fucking now” he stops working my pussy and I hear the smile on his voice
“Thought you'd never ask babe, how do you want me?”
I get off his face and I stand on all fours on the couch arching my back and pouting my ass out. He gets the hint immediately and lets out a guttural moan
“Fuck yeah babe” then he plunges his cock in me with a roar. I scream out the instant pleasure. Fuck he feels even bigger in this position. He rams me hard and fast, he leans over and purrs in my ear “I want you to play with yourself and come all over me can you do that for me?” I let out a long moan and reach in between my legs and find my clit with my fingers. I start rubbing it as Eddie fucks me like a jack-hammer. I can feel my orgasm building, he does this so fucking good!
“Edd...” I pant “Could you try something?”
“Anything babe” he slows down the pace and bends down kissing me on the back
“Could you put a finger in my ass? I wanna know what you felt” I moan, I hear him gasp and I can swear his cock grew. He growls and I hear him putting something in his mouth really slobbering. Then I feel him spitting on my ass, and I let out a growl. I can feel his finger slowly enter my ass as he makes long slow strokes with his cock in my pussy. It feels a little weird but also sooo good having his finger penetrating my ass. Then he picks up the pace with his cock making his finger move as well. I almost black out from the insane orgasm that hits me. I was probably heard all over the trailer park, I screamed so loud. Holy shit that was intense. I hear Eddie moan
“Oh my fucking God babe, that was amazing. Mind if I come now? Don't think I can hold back any longer”
“Yes babe, come please. In me, on me, whatever you want” I moan and I hear the guttural moan I've come to love. Then I feel him abruptly pulling out and then I feel his warm cum all over my ass. Dripping down between my cheeks, onto my pussy and onto the couch. Eddie slumps over on my back panting.
“Fucking hell sweetheart, I didn't think I had any more cum in me after the previous times. But you have some kind of magic touch I guess” he kisses my back and my neck. Then he stands up and reaches out for me “Shower?”
“I think that might be a good idea, then I think I might need something to eat” I say to him and take his hand following him to the shower. We take a quick shower then we decide that we could actually use some fresh air today. I go back to my place and get some clothes and Eddie cleans up after our latest couch party.
We meet outside by Eddies van about 15 min later.
“What do you want to eat then? Besides me?” I give Eddie a mischievous smile he chuckles
“Well if I thought it was possible I'd try to survive on that pussy alone, that's how awesome it is!” he kisses me “But how about pizza instead, and a movie?”
“Sounds perfect!” we get in the van and head into town. We decide that Eddie gets the pizza and I get the movie. I go in to the movie store and see that Robin is working tonight
“Hey Robin” I say as I enter.
“OH MY GOD! Steve called! You hooked up with Eddie THREE times?”
“Hahaha... Four if we're keeping track... Steve left and we got bored” I say and laugh at the expression on Robins face. I walk over to the Horror section and browse the cassettes.
“Heeeeey... I need more than that! How is he? Not that I'm at all interested in the goods per say but you know... curious” Robin jumps up on the counter placing herself cross-legged on it and staring at me intensely. I pretend to browse for a couple of more seconds before I pick “Chopping Mall” I know Eddie hasn't seen this yet and neither have I. I turn to Robin with a grin “He is mind blowing! I can tell you that much... He sure knows what he's doing and he's packing some serious junk” She grimaces.
“Thank you for that, I both wanted to know that and didn't want to know that. I guess your sex life with Munson is like that Schrödinger's cat” she laughs. “So where's lover boy now?”
“Getting pizza, I was left in charge of the movie, aren't you glad I was. You wouldn't have gotten anything out of Eddie” we laugh at this and she agrees that it was lucky I got movie duty. We continue laughing then we hear a voice
“You laughing at me?” Eddie walks in with the pizza, coming straight up to me putting one arm around me and placing a kiss on my neck
“Awww that's so sweet I almost feel sick... but congrats to you both! Eddie you won the lottery... Jess you could probably do better” she winks at Eddie.
“Hey I'm not disagreeing with you AT ALL” Eddie says and hugs me “unless you wanna eat here with Robin we should go before the pizza gets cold” he says.
“Sure babe, I'll call you later Robin” we say good bye and head out to the van. We get back to Eddies where we enjoy the pizza and the movie in silence. That's what's so good about Eddie, we don't need to talk to have a good time. We can sit in silence and still be totally comfortable with each other. When the pizza is eaten and the movie is over we're both half asleep. I can't move I'm so tired, I feel Eddies strong arms lifting me up and carrying me to the bedroom... how the hell did he manage that?
“I'm too heavy...” I mutter
“Don't be silly, aren't I Eddie the Freak? Maybe I am freakishly strong? Ever think about that princess?” he kisses the top of my head as he continues to carry me in to the bed. We snuggle down under the covers and fall asleep. I dream, I dream very dirty dreams about my boys. My boys having their way with me...and having their way with each other. God I need to calm the fuck down with these thoughts, just because Steve was curiously eyeing Eddies junk doesn't mean he wants to try 'em out! Get a grip woman! I wake up in a sweat, heart pounding and I feel like I've been drinking heavily the night before...and I need to pee. I get out of bed and go to the bathroom. When I'm done I go to the kitchen to get some water, as I turn to go back to the bedroom I hear Eddie moaning. “Oh my... what's he up to?” I think to myself and smile. I stop in the door and watch Eddie, he's fast asleep but apparently dreaming very spicy dreams. His cock is rock hard, with pre-cum dripping down from it so these dreams must have been going for a while. I get so turned on by just looking at him in this state I stay standing in the doorway, one hand on my breast and one hand between my legs.
“Ahhh..fuck Jess... mmmm... Yeah suck that...” Well, well Eddie talks in his sleep... “Mmmmm... yeah suck Steve... no leave some for me” and this is where my jaw dropped. Steve? We're doing Steve in Edds dreams? Well hell yeah! Why not? This makes me even more horny and I start circling my clit with my fingers at at faster pace. Eddie is writhing in the bed, pre-cum oozing out of his cock. Suddenly he jerks awake and pants heavily. His arms fly out to the side of him, he looks around and sees me in the door. Fingers deep in my pussy, face flustered.
“Fuck that's hot! I think I dreamt of that” he looks down “apparently I did...wanna help me finish this off?” he starts to stroke his big hard-on while watching me. I smile and crawl up into the bed next to him. I lower my head and take him as deep as I can in one go. He lets out a coarse growl “Fuckin' hell Jess” he grabs my hair and roars when he comes in my mouth in like 5 seconds. He lies there just panting, stroking my hair for a bit then he looks down at me and smiles “Move up babe, sit on my face please. I wanna return the favour SO bad”
“That might be the way you die you know... Crushed under my fat ass” I giggle but do as I'm told.
“Oh but what a way to die” I hear as I lower myself down on his face. He eats me like I'm his last meal in this world and I scream out my pleasure as the orgasm hit me. Wave after wave I just don't stop coming. The thought of Eddie with Steve even if it was just in his dreams has made me crazy.
I collapse to the side and even feel a bit dizzy.
“Hell Jess, that was fucking awesome. You came soooo hard for me, good girl” he kisses me on the ass and pulls me in to spoon him. “ I must have made a good impression sleeping with my cock out” he says “can't really remember what I dreamt though, must have been good. Long time since I woke up that close to shooting my load, thanks for the help by the way” he purrs in my ear. I debate whether or not to tell him what he said in his sleep.
“You don't remember ANY details? I mean it must have been a really good one considering the state of you when I came from the kitchen” I say
“Probably about you though babe, usually when I dream those kinds of dreams they've been about you. But I wake up in a wet spot” he chuckles “good thing I woke up to have you help me... SO much better... believe me” he hugs me tightly. Oh fuck it... I'll tell him, just need to get the thoughts out.
“Ehm... I kinda know what you dreamt... I think” I say under my breath
“You do? How? You read minds sweetheart?” I can hear him smiling
“Nah... you kinda... talk in your sleep... apparently” I smile
“I do? Cool... was it about you” he grabs my tits and kiss me on the neck.
“Yeah... it was, but not just me” here goes nothing “Steve was apparently there too” I hear a gasp and his hand which was massaging my breast freezes. “I was obviously giving you both head...” he relaxes again “but you needed me to save you some of Steves cock... I think you were helping me with that” the silence is deafening. Eddie isn't moving a muscle now, I wiggle around to face him. He's pale and looks scared. I look him deep in the eyes and I kiss him. “You do realise I did NOT mind that right? Think I would have been that hot for you if I did?” I smile and he looks at me with a bewildered look in his beautiful eyes.
“You... THAT'S what got you so hot and bothered? Me helping you to go down on Steve?” the tone in his voice is sceptical.
“I've been having these images in my head of you two together all day, ever since I saw him looking at your junk Edd. I just... I like the idea of us three...sharing each other... in every way. Never ever crossed my mind before but something about today planted a very dirty little seed in here” I say and point at my head. Eddie gives a small moan, closes his eyes and leans his head in so our foreheads are touching.
“This wasn't the first dream like that one... They come from time to time, usually it's just you but sometimes...sometimes Steve's there too. Those are the really wet dreams. When I wake up in a fucking pool of my own cum. I don't know Jess... I don't know if I might be, what did you call Steve, bi-curious... or if I'm just flat out bisexual...” he sounds so lost my heart bleeds for him “I love you though!” he quickly adds like I would have doubted that in any way. I kiss his forehead, then I kiss his nose and then I kiss him for real. He pulls me close and holds me so tight I almost lose my breath.
“I don't mind if you want or if you're curious about doing Steve, and I know you love me. Hell I'm curious what it would be like to have you both...” I say then adding in a whisper “and to watch you have a go with each other” the arms that hold me have started wandering over my back down towards my ass, gripping it tight. Eddie moans in my ear
“Your really are one of a kind you know that, look at what you've done” I can feel what I've “done” to him without looking. I can feel the twitch of his cock growing against my stomach. Damn he's got some libido this guy
“Hold that thought please” I say and I hurry out of bed and start to dress
“Oook? This is a bit strange babe. What's up... more than me?” Edd is lying on the bed watching me with a surprised look.
“I promise this will be good or I hope it'll be good... but I'll be right back. Don't go anywhere... and don't lose that” I say and nod towards his hard-on. He chuckles and nods at me. I run out and over to my own trailer. I hurry in to my bedroom and open my bedside table. I smile and think to myself “Well this had better work out the way you imagine or you might be humiliated for ever” I grab what I was looking for and head back to Edds. I come back in to the bedroom, Eddie's still on the bed, still hard. Smiling at me
“You good babe?” he asks
“Yes I am... and hopefully you'll be VERY good soon enough... Would you please close your eyes” I say as I undress again, Eddie watching me closely stroking his cock and smiling.
“Ooooh... damn... ok” he smiles but I can see his smile is vaguely concerned.
“Don't worry babe you think I'd do something you didn't like?” I crawl up into the bed and kiss him deeply.
“No I trust you” he says and I see his smile relax. He closes his eyes and I take out a blindfold, I put it on him, he gasps.
“See... I don't want you to get too curious and take any sneak peeks” I whisper in his ear tracing my tongue down his neck giving him goosebumps all over. “Edd, did you really like it when I fucked your ass with my fingers or were you just saying that to please me?” I continue. He moans
“I liked it... I liked it very much” he says under his breath.
“Good...because I want to try something. You tell me if this is pushing you too far Edd. I don't want to make you feel bad” I say and I kiss him again
“I trust you...” is all he says, his breathing is heavy and I can see the glistening of pre-cum on the tip of his cock. “He's really excited” I think. I start to trail kisses down his body, letting my tongue play in the hairs going down towards his cock. I keep going down and I pay some attention to his hard-on. Stroking it, kissing it, licking it and sucking it in to the hilt. The man under me is squirming and moaning like a mad man.
“Babe, would you please put your legs up for me so I get better access to that amazing ass of yours” I beg him and he lets out a moan that sound more like a mix between a grunt and a low scream. He is a good boy and does as he's asked. I wiggle down so I'm face to...well ass with him and I let my tongue play on his inner thighs. Eddie is grabbing the sheets now, really in his own world. I lick his balls, then I let my tongue go where I had planned for it to go all along. I fuck his ass with it just to really lube the hole up good. Then I take one finger and slowly penetrate him, he groans. I spit on my fingers and I push another one in. I start moving faster, fucking him with my fingers. “Here goes nothing” I think and I take out what I went home to get. One of my smaller dildos, I don't use it much because I find it too small to feel good for me but maybe... I suck on it making it wet with my saliva
“Edd babe... Can I try something on you?” I say with a husky voice
“Right now you can do whatever you want as long as it feels this good” he groans. Ok well here we go. I take out my fingers, licking his asshole again to lube it up once more then I put the tip of the dildo on the opening. Eddie tenses a little but I kiss his inner thighs mumbling “This is so hot Edd, but let me know if it hurts, please try to relax” he does relax and I press the dildo slowly in him, stretching out his hole more than we've ever done before, and going deeper than my fingers could have ever reached. When I'm in as far as I feel I can go whilst still being able to hold on to the bottom of the dildo I crawl up and I remove the blindfold and I kiss him passionately. He opens his eyes and they're black with that smoulder in them. Oh he's so fucking hot. I go back down to concentrate on his ass again, Eddies eyes watching me, his mouth open and his breathing heavy. I spit on the shaft of the dildo to make sure it's going to glide smoothly I look up at Edd. He gasps and nods, no words. I start moving the dildo slowly in and out with long strokes, Edd begins to moan louder. Good sign! I pick up the pace some and he gets louder still. This is driving me insane, I put my free hand to good use fingering myself. I'm actually fucking Edd with a dildo! Oh my fucking God this is hot, who knew...
“AHHHHH JESS FUUUUUCK” I see Eddies cock start to pulsate and he shoots thick,white cum like a fountain all over his chest. I see this and I'm pushed over the edge myself, I come all over my own fingers as I watch the man I love have his first anal orgasm. Even in my dazed state I have the presence of mind to crawl out of bed and get some paper tissues. “Hey there might be a mess pulling that out” I think to myself looking at the dildo still sticking out of Eddies ass. I carefully pull it out, it's not too bad mess wise. I take it and I go to the bathroom and clean it off right away. Then I return to Eddie who is still just a panting, hot mess on the bed. I take some more tissues and I wipe off the cum he covered himself with. Then I lay down next to him and put my head on his chest listening to his heart beating.
“Am I dead? Feels like I might be...” I hear from above “that...that was... unreal babe. Thank heavens for that dirty mind of yours” he kisses the top of my head and I smile.
“Well if you ask anyone else in this town heaven had nothing to do with that” I laugh and I hear Eddie join in
“No that's very true love... so thank YOU then for having such an awesome dirty mind” he says.
“You're very welcome, I very much enjoyed that” I purr and look up at him
“Did it look like I didn't?” he grins at me “I don't think I've ever covered myself with cum, nor have I ever come without touching my dick at all.. fucking mind blowing” Eddie sounds amazed and very very happy. Maybe I'll soon be able to present the next part of my idea... The real deal...
“But hey, not to be a buzz-kill here Edd but it's Monday morning we need to get ready for school” I say and tug at him to get up
“Noooo, can't we just stay here in blissful ignorance for the rest of our lives?” he whines a little. School isn't really Eddie Munsons deal.
“Oh c'mon, at least now you don't have to pine over me in the hallways” I say teasing him “now you have me and who knows the janitors closet might be a snug fit for a quickie before lunch” I add and he looks instantly more excited about the day.
“Oh you're on babe! Shower first then breakfast or the other way around?” he rolls out of bed and I sigh looking at his naked body.
“Lets eat then I need to go home to change. I'll shower there since we both need the hairdryer” I smile and give him a wink.
“Ooh not just a pretty face, clever also” he teases and kisses me. I head out into the kitchen and decide since it's still very early eggs and bacon is a good way to get some energy back from this weekend. I begin cooking and Eddie joins me, coming up behind me giving me a tight hug and kissing my neck. Then he starts setting the table. We eat and talk through our respective days. We decide to meet up at 11 when we both have some free time in our schedule “for some quality brainstorming” as Eddie puts it while winking at me. I head back to my place for a shower and some fresh clothes. Then we meet up at the van and head for school. Time just doesn't fucking move this morning. It's like 9:30 for what feels like hours! Then the bell rings it's finally 10:50 and I now have 30 minutes before my next class, I head towards the janitors closet not seeing Edd anywhere. Did he forget? I stand outside it looking at my watch when suddenly an arm shoots out from inside the closet pulling me in. Eddies lips crash into mine and he kisses me ferociously
“Fuuuuuck I missed you” he growls “turn around and drop your pants I need to fuck you hard NOW!” I let out a long moan and do as I'm told as fast as I can, I've been thinking of this all morning so I'm wet all through my panties already. I lean forward slightly and Eddie plunges his hard cock right in with a groan. He wasn't kidding when he said he needed to fuck me hard. Jesus fucking Christ this is intense. We fall over in some kind of spasmic pile of body parts when we once again time our orgasms perfectly, how is he this good? I giggle
“You're completely pussy drunk Munson, that was amazing”
He's behind me on the floor panting
“Only your pussy would make me this much of a slave babe, fuck you're great”
“I am a great fuck, yes” I giggle, Eddie lets out a laugh and slaps my ass.
“Get dressed again oh great one and I'll see you at Hellfire for lunch?”
“Of course. I'll be needing food after this. I feel drained”
We kiss and sneak back out into the hallway, luckily not many people are still around as classes are about to start again. We run our separate ways and I get to class seconds late, but happy as hell.
The rest of the day passes without much of interest, Hellfire Club is planning some big campaign this week. So I spend lunch sitting just looking at Eddie and listening to the guys make their plans. We're careful not to be too obvious about us just yet, we decided to live in our little bubble alone for a little while longer. Afternoon classes are as boring as ever, but I have Eddie and this mornings events to replay in my mind. I almost miss my last class of the day getting stuck in thoughts at my locker. Then the last bell of the day FINALLY rings and I run out to the van to meet Edd and go home. He's standing there talking to Chrissy, laughing and seemingly having a really good time. I feel a dark cloud roll in over my head and that jolt of insecurity I always feel around the pretty cheerleaders. I slow down my pace and then I come to a halt about 10 yards away. Waiting and watching the two of them. Eddie spots me and waves
“Hey Jess, ready to go?” he beams at me and Chrissy turns around and looks at me with a smile. She's actually one of the nice ones... I don't mind her, I just feel like a cow in her presence... I walk up to them
“Hey Edd...yeah ready when you are. Hey Chrissy” I go for the trusted “fake it 'til you make it” attitude. I give her a smile, hoping it looks normal enough. I can see Eddie looking at me suspiciously but Chrissy doesn't seem to think anything is weird.
“Hey Jessica, you look nice today” she's one of the only ones who still calls me Jessica.
“Thank you, so do you” I say “as always” I add.
“Aww you're so sweet, thank you. Well Eddie I'll talk to you tomorrow then” she beams at Edd then leaves with a smile
“Tomorrow?” I ask inquisitively
“Yeah... she wants some... ehmmm... goods” he whispers. I rise an eyebrow...
“I did not expect that answer” I say truthfully
“What did you think? I saw your face babe, you're worth a hundred of her. Plus you're a thousand times sexier and more beautiful” he says looking deep into my eyes putting one hand on the side of my face and letting his thumb caress my jaw. “Never ever forget I've loved you for years I wouldn't trade you for anyone ever”
“Sexier and more beautiful than Chrissy Cunningham? You really need to get your eyesight checked weirdo” I say and take his thumb in my mouth and give it a quick suck, making Edds eyes black with arousal.
“A thousand times” he purrs at me looking intensely at my lips around his thumb “Fuck Jess, what are you doing to me? Get in the fucking van so I can take you home”
I giggle and hop in the front seat, Eddie runs around to the drivers seat and starts the van, full throttle and we're home before I know what the hell happened, I didn't even know this old pile of junk could go that fast. We run inside and the rest of that evening is spent in bed. Eddie does good on his promise to use every space available in the trailer for fucking me during the rest of Waynes absence. By Thursday when Eddie has his Hellfire campaign I've hatched an idea. Good thing he's off for the whole evening or he might lock me up and throw away the key.
“Can't you come with me? I'd love you there as a sexy good luck charm babe” Eddie hits me with his best puppy dog eyes.
“Hey, I think we might survive a few hours without each other babe, and I really need to catch up on homework. Some of us would actually like to graduate with some descent grades” I wink at him. I wasn't going to tell him that I've been doing my homework during breaks and in the mornings before he wakes up. I need him to think I'll be doing nothing out of the ordinary tonight.
“Such a good girl... But ok I accept that. But I will be missing you...and thinking about you” he says and kisses me.
“Don't let that filthy mind of yours wander too far... It might make for an interesting campaign if the dm is off in the bathroom jerking off thinking of his VERY sexy girlfriend instead of doing his job” I let my hand slide back and grab his ass. He moans
“MY filthy mind? My mind is as pure as snow I'll have you know” he smiles at me gesturing a halo around his head
“Yeah right and I'm mother Theresa... now go you freak or you'll be late. I'll be in my trailer when you get back. You'll come over?” I ask as Eddie's laughing at my mother Theresa joke.
“Try and stop me” he says, smacks my ass and leaves. Wayne, who's been back for a couple of hours comes in to the kitchen as Eddies van leaves.
“Well sweetheart, he making you happy? Did I say how glad I am you two finally figured i out that you're meant to be? I couldn't ask for anyone better for my Edd” he smiles one of his rare smiles at me and I feel my heart overflow with warmth for this man. I go up to him and give him a hug
“Thank you Wayne. Means a lot to hear that, and yeah he's perfect! Wish I could stay but I need to get home and try and get some homework out of the way. See you later” he nods at me and goes to sit down and watch TV.
I leave and head to my trailer, it feels so empty. I've spent almost a week, pretty much every hour of the day with Edd now. Feels weird being alone, I make some food and I sit down in front of the TV for a while. I look at the time, it's 6:30. I have around 3 hours give or take before Edd is back. I pick up the phone, dial Steves number and wait.
“Hello?”
“Hey stranger, what you doin'?”
“Hey Jess... Not much just got home from work. You?” Steve sounds genuinely happy to hear from me
“Not much, Edd has Hellfire tonight so I'm alone and bored. Wanna come over?”
“Sure, be there in 15. Can't have my best girl being alone and bored” he chuckles and we hang up. Now lets hope I'm not totally off in my suspicions. I check the fridge, yeah I have some beers left from the party last weekend and some cokes. I get out a bag of chips, put them in a bowl and take it to the couch. I sit down and wait for Steve to come around. Takes about 10 minuets and there's a knock at the door
“Come on in it's open” I yell. Steve comes in smiling at me
“Hey girl, happy to hear from you. Thought you drowned in Munsons cum or something you've both been so quiet all week”
“Gross Steve” I say “but close enough” I add and he roars with laughter.
“So you two are it now? It's good?” he asks and sits down on the couch with me grabbing a hand full of chips. He looks curious, he's so much like a girlfriend that way. Wants all the gritty details handed on a platter.
“Yup, all good... perfect even! Not out in school yet but I guess it's just a matter of time. I've seen Dustin studying us very intensely the last couple of days” I say “How about you, any news? How's Chrissy's whatever doing?” I continue with a smirk knowing well that Steve never keeps his party hook-ups for long.
“Oh...her... Nah not as fun as I thought” he shrugs
“Shocker Steve” I say and laugh “So no one new?”
“Nah... saw you two and thought maybe I ought to wait and try to find that... looked nice” he sounds a little defeated. I take his hand and squeeze it
“Well Steve... There's only one of me and I'm sorry Edd got there first” I smile at him, he gives a small laugh
“Ah fuck... Time share?” he winks at me. Maybe this is the moment... if I don't at least try I'll never know...
“Steve...please don't take this the wrong way but... are you interested in me or Edd? Or both of us? I saw you after I made that remark about him not being able to hide a semi, you we're eyeing his cock very closely. Was that genuine interest or just curiosity?” he looks at me, jaw dropped, completely silent. Then he clears his throat
“Well... I mean... I don't know. Maybe... all of the above” he blushes. I don't think I've ever seen fucking Steve Harrington blush.
“So if I asked you to join me and Edd... You'd say?” I look at him, he looks stunned
“Ehhh... join you? As in...sex?” I nod “well... I'd say yes I guess...” more blushing
“I haven't told Edd about this, and if he seems to be against it when he comes home please NEVER tell him I ratted him out?” I beg Steve, he nods at me and assures me he's not going to say anything. I continue “I've found out that Edd dreams of us three together frequently... as in him fucking me, you fucking me, I give you both head.... and... you guys doing each other as well” this was it, make or break it was out “this is something I've been thinking about since he told me, and I have to say I've never been so horny as when I think of me and Edd giving you head...or Edd fucking me from behind while you're fucking him...” I watch Steves expressions trying to figure out the reaction. We're both silent for what feels like an eternity then Steve lets out a long sigh
“I'd want that too... all of it...” he looks down “I think I've had the hots for both of you for a while just not wanting to admit it. But when you squeezed his ass and kissed him I got such a boner, I just wanted to be in the middle making out with either one of you. I did mean what I said before the party. You look damn good these days and I would SO like to fuck you Jess.”
I just smile, this was exactly what I hoped for.
“Ok so I don't know if Edd will be ok with this, it might just be that he wants it to stay a fantasy then we'll have to respect that” I say and Steve agrees “but what I would like to do is have you watch us here on the couch... then maybe join us as in having me be the focus this first time. If that goes well maybe we can try and shift focus next time” Steve looks like he's about to explode in his jeans I can see the bulge, very impressive by the way.
“I don't think I'll push Edd to this tonight, but I'll bring it up with him. Then I'll call you tomorrow after school or maybe come in to the video store?”
“Sounds like a plan, whatever I get to do is awesome by me... would be lying if I said that I wasn't hoping for all of it” Steve smiles and shifts trying to make himself more comfortable.
“Oh me too Steve, me too” I say to assure him this is no joke to me. I nod at his bulging jeans “That looks quite impressive Harrington, hope to see it out and about soon”
“Oh...thank you...” he seems almost embarrassed at the compliment “before this goes out of hand can we talk about something else” he chuckles a little and I looks at the time seeing that yeah he's right. I change the subject to school and the fact that Chrissy does deals with Eddie.
“Chrissy Cunningham? She's a client of Edds? Fuck me that's random” Steve looks as confused as I felt when Edd told me. “She just seems so wholesome...like ALL THE FUCKING TIME” Steve laughs
“Yeah I know right, and what's this crap calling me Jessica still? No one has called me that since kindergarten” I laugh “but then again...if you're the girlfriend of Jason carver maybe you need something to get you through the misery... imagine the two of them hooking up... I bet he focuses more on himself than her, like literally flexing in the mirror with a hard-on... poor girl” we laugh at this and make up ridiculous scenarios concerning Chrissy and Jason's sex life. We hear the van coming home, the door to Eddies trailer opening....then opening again a few minutes later. Then there's a knock at my door and Eddie walks in.
“Hey babe... Oh Steve hey man good to see you!” Eddie seems surprised but happy to see us both.
“Hey dude, how was Hellfire?” Steve smiles at him looking completely neutral like I hadn't just told him the guy that just walked in wanted to have sex with him. I'm impressed with Steves poker face, I really am.
“Hey babe, successful campaign? Or were you distracted” I ask and wink at him with a suggestive smile. He comes up to us and sits down next to me on the couch, puts a hand on my thigh, kisses me and chuckles.
“Yeah good campaign, was a bit distracted in the beginning can't lie. But then, sorry babe but the game got to intense to think about anything else”
“Awww and here I thinking I'm all you can think about” I smile and give him a pinch on the arm.
“Nope, DnD and weed is in there too... granted it's less of that and more of you these days”
“I agree with Robin, you two are too cute... almost sickening. I'm gonna leave. Have a great night and I'll see you tomorrow Jess.” he gets up from the couch and heads out the door.
“I'm glad you didn't have to spend all evening alone” Eddie kisses me
“Yeah I was just about done with homework when he called and asked if I was busy, he was bored. So we've been chatting away the evening. Can you imagine... he didn't have another date with the girl from the party” I say
“NO!? What... I am so shocked right now” Eddie laughs “any food left I'm starving? Mike was in charge of snacks tonight and apparently Mrs Wheeler's on a diet so they can't have any tasty stuff at all in their house now and Nancy wouldn't stop at the store” Eddie chuckles and I join in. Poor guys
“Yeah I saved you some mac 'n' cheese, want me to heat it up for you babe?”
“You do know I've figured out how the stove works right? I did make you pancakes remember? Or are we getting old?” he makes a face at me
“Oh watch that mouth of yours Munson or this old lady might not let you have dessert” I stick out my tongue at him. He giggles says he's SO sorry he'll behave. Then we watch TV while he eats, he tells me about the campaign. He gets up and goes to the kitchen to clean up, I follow him and come up behind him. I reach my arms around his hips and unzip his jeans
“I've been waiting all evening for dessert...” I stick my hand down his boxers and grip his cock. I feel it starting to grow instantly. Eddie moans
“You'll be the death of me babe” he turns around and grabs me by the hips and lifts me up on the counter like I weigh nothing. He starts kissing me as his hands begin to unbutton my top, freeing my tits. He grabs them and plays with the nipples before starting to kiss them. “God I love these tits! And they're all mine!” he then proceeds to kiss my chest down to my stomach. He wiggles my sweatpants off and buries his head between my thighs. He begins eating my pussy, like it really is dessert. I grab the top of his head and moan loudly. He's so fucking good at this!!! He slips his fingers into me and start to move them while continuing to work my clit with his amazing mouth and tongue. I feel the tension building “That's my good girl, gonna come on my fingers babe? Or do you wanna come on my cock? Been wanting you all evening so this is going to be quick once I'm in ya” he purrs against my pussy.
I'm panting and moaning “cock” is all I can get out. I can feel him smiling against my wet pussy.
“Your wish is my command babe” he says and stands up,dropping his boxers and positioning himself between my legs. He teases me first, just dragging the tip of his cock against my folds. Then he finally penetrates me with a growl. He makes s few long slow strokes when I suddenly just want to try it...
“Edd...can you please fuck my ass” I moan, he gasps
“Really?” I nod and I feel him pull out. Since he knows the feeling he's very thorough, he spits on my pussy letting it drip down to my ass, he begins with his finger, then two fingers. It hurts a little at first then it's just good. He uses more saliva and then I feel the tip of his cock against my tight asshole “Let me know if I hurt you” he mumbles. He slowly pushes in, very slowly. It doesn't hurt that bad considering the size of him. I hear him gritting his teeth trying not to rush this “Fucking hell, you have any idea how amazing this ass is? God... I'm trying so hard not to just fuck you raw right now” his voice is coarse and so sexy. He starts to slowly move in and out as he hits half of his length. It feels nothing like I thought it would, it feels better! I reach down and start playing with my clit, Eddie moans loudly “Such a good fucking girl, make me feel what it's like to fuck your ass when you come” I can feel myself closing in
“Edd...fingers in pussy...please” he moans and pushes two fingers in my pussy as he's picking up the pace in my ass. I scream out my orgasm as it hits like a ton of bricks.
“Fuuuuuck... it's like being stuck in a vice babe...your ass is fucking squeezing my cock off...” he finishes with a grunting moan just a few strokes later. Kissing me and grabbing my tits.
“Wow...just wow babe” he pants as he carefully pulls out of my ass. He helps me down from the counter and embraces me. “God I love you so fucking much, what the hell did I do to deserve you falling in love with me too?”
“Likewise weirdo! Maybe the universe just thought it was our turn now” I kiss him then I go to the bathroom, I can feel cum sipping out of my ass. Kind of want to empty myself and take a shower. I get in and then I hear Eddie coming in and undressing. He joins me in the hot water, kissing me on my neck and upper back. I love this man SO much! We dry off and head in to my bedroom, tonight we stay here even if my bed is smaller than Edd's. We lay there cuddling, me with my head on his chest. I need to bring it up soon before we fall asleep.
“Hey Edd”
“Mhmmm” he's slumbering already.
“Could you wake up just for a second please I need to ask you something” I say
“Yeah ok, awake! What's up babe” he says and shakes his head.
“I've been thinking, you can say no I won't get upset... But could we ask Steve to watch us...have sex...” Eddie just looks at me
“Steve watch us have sex? Just watch?” the tone in his voice is curious
“Yes... I mean... If we feel like it maybe... I don't know...help out as well?” I look at him
“I'd be ok with that babe... I thought you understood that already” he blushes “I mean...the dreams and stuff”
“Well... dreaming is one thing, actually getting a third person to join is another. I needed to ask in case you only wanted things to stay a fantasy...” I say and kiss his chest
“Can we just go for watch first? Not sure I'm brave enough yet to have Steve...you know join in.” Eddie smiles
“Of course... I'm seeing him and Robin tomorrow after school. If I get a chance I'll...run it by him” I say and Eddie nods and kisses my head. I hear his heart beat has increased when we talked about this, good he's as excited as I am. We fall asleep and wake up to the alarm blasting. Another day in paradise!
This day is painfully slow, I don't get to see Eddie more than at lunch and then we can't really sneak off, Hellfire needs his attention. So I just sit and admire his looks and savour the moment. Later on when I'm about to leave school for the day Dustin comes up to me in the hallway
“So does Eddie know you have feelings for him? Or do you actually think you're discrete...cuz you're not” he chuckles...oh fuck it
“Well... considering we've basically lived together for over a week and he told me as late as this morning he loved me I'm guessing he suspects the feeling is mutual at least...”
“OH!? And here I am thinking I was the first to notice...so you're...a thing already?! That's great congrats, now maybe he can be more concentrated when planning Hellfire business when he doesn't constantly pine over you” Dustin smiles
I laugh “Pine over me? Really?”
“Oh God yes... he was awful for a while. Didn't think we knew, but it was so obvious he was crazy about you. Come to think of it he has been in a much better mood this week, we should have known” Dustin looks deep in thought
“He did think you had your suspicions, he told me so the other day. I'm glad he's in a better mood now, for all of our sakes. He was an ass to me as well before coming clean about how he felt” I share “well I need to run, meeting Steve and Robin at the video store soon. Have a great weekend Dustin!”
“You too Jess, tell Steve and Robin I said hi”
“Will do!” I run out to catch the bus that leaves for town. I see Edd heading towards the small patch of wood behind the school. That's usually where he does most of his deals when he's not at a party doing business. I wave at him before I get on the bus, he waves back and blows me a kiss. I smile “if all the people in town that are scared of him knew what a sweet goofball he really is” I think to myself as I get on the bus. 10 minutes later I exit the bus in town and head for the video store. Robin smiles at me when I enter
“My babe! Where HAVE you been this week?” she proclaims making the few people in there look up
“I've been at school...” I say “and under, in front of and on top of Eddie” I add lower with a wink
“Ewwww...but also grats sounds like you two really like each other” she makes a face the smiles at me. “He picking you up or you need a ride? I'm off in 20” she asks
“Edd is picking me up in like 30, but thank you sweetie. Some other day?”
“Any time, any time”
“So where's your partner in crime then? Hitting on girls by the romance isle?” I ask and look around
“No, strangest thing... he hasn't hit on a single girl all day... I think he's sick. I sent him in the back to get the new orders unpacked...don't wanna catch anything” she laughs. We keep on speculating what could be ailing our local Casanova since he is not, as Robin puts it, “Casanova-ing” any more. I do have my suspicions but I'm not telling. 20 minutes goes by and Robin yells
“YO STEVE! I'm off you need to get your ass out here now, keep Jess company until Munson gets here” she smiles at me, hugs me and says “Don't let him trick you into staying and keeping an eye on things while he runs off ok? Have a great weekend with the boyfrieeeeend”
“Wouldn't dream of it... second Edd gets here I'm off. You have an amazing weekend too, might swing by tomorrow for a movie, you working?” I say
“Yup, what else would I be doing on a Saturday” she smiles and gives a sigh, She leaves and I jump up on the counter to wait for Steve, or Edd, which ever one turns up first. I hear Steve coming from the back and I turn on the counter and smile at him.
“Hey there, so apparently you're sick...not hitting on any girls all day. What could it be that's keeping you?” I wink at him
“Hehe...yeah no idea... Must be some new idea I'm trying out” he smirks
“Yeah? How's it working out for ya?” can't help teasing him a little
“You tell me Jess... how IS it working out?” he looks around to see if there's anyone else in the store at the moment “So you talk to him?”
“I did... I think you should swing by tonight after work. Maybe take a hit with us, get relaxed and watch something interesting...perhaps” the look on his face is priceless
“Yeah?” he lowers his voice just in case “so I'm watching? Can I touch myself while I watch you guys?”
“I'd say that at least I am expecting you to, maybe that'll make Edd more into things” I say starting to imagine Steve on the couch cock in hand watching me and Edd and I feel how wet I get in an instant. I blush
“Where did your mind go now?” Steve smirks again and makes a meaning nod towards his crotch. “believe me when I say that I've been jerking off constantly since I got home from your place last night... fuck I'm up to like 5 times today at work...”
“STEVE....you left Robin out here alone to go jerk off at the idea of fucking me and Edd?” I whisper and feel my entire body tingle with excitement
“Yeah... I mean... God, you can't spring that kind of idea on a guy and expect him to leave his junk alone” he whispers back. We hear the door open and then a familiar voice
“You filling my girls head with all sorts of naughty stuff are you Harrington?” Eddie strolls over to us, looking Steve straight in the eye “I say keep going...will make for a more pleasant evening don't you think?” then he grabs my waist and helps me down from the counter. “I guess plans have been made?” he looks at me I smile and nod.
Then he does something I didn't expect which shook me...in a good way. He takes my hand and goes behind the counter so we're next to Steve, who looks at me puzzled. I shrug, I also thought we were leaving. Eddie places me with my ass towards Steve and then he fucking lifts my skirt and pull my panties to the side
“Since I am a gentleman, and I know she's dying to tease you Harrington. Here you go, feel that pussy...put a finger or two in there, see what you think” he kisses me and bends me over slightly, I gasp and then I let out a moan. Steve is gobsmacked... he looks at Eddie, then he looks at my semi bare ass with my pussy showing, dripping wet. He looks around then I feel his hand touching my ass before sliding two fingers in me with a coarse moan. I think I'm going to pass out... My nails dig in to Eddies leather jacket, too good...this is too good. Steves eyes are wide open and his breathing is heavy
“Fucking hell man... You get to finger this every day and night? Daaaamn” he pulls his fingers out of me and sticks them in his mouth “tastes as sweet as she looks too Munson”
“Yeah man, nice huh? See you later...then you can do more than that to her” he fucking lifts me up and carries me out of the store on his shoulder, smacking my ass before putting me down on the side walk nest to the van. I'm so shocked I can't speak... I open the door and get in, Eddie gets in the drivers seat and we head home.
“The fuck Edd? Warn a girl why don't ya...” I say when my brain finally starts working again
“I'm sorry...you mad? You sound mad...” Eddie sounds regretful and looks nervous
“Noooo absolutely not Edd, just very surprised. This morning we agreed on him watching if he wanted now he's gonna get to do stuff?” I say
“Yeah...well... thoughts been brewing all day, been having a boner for hours. All I could think of was seeing you impaled by Steve... railed by us both. Him in the pussy, me in the ass...and hell... I couldn't help myself. You sure you're not mad at me for that thing back there?” he looks over at me. I take his right hand and I move it in between my legs, my panties are soaked.
“Feel like I have any objections to that stunt you just pulled? I feel sorry for poor Steve though... 2 more hours before closing with a rock hard boner” I giggle “at least I have you to help me with this” I move on his hand feeling the pressure through the fabric. He pulls his hand away and smiles a devilish smile at me
“Nah babe, tonight we wait. No getting off until Steve comes. Then we'll take turns making you come all fucking night long” I think I might die from this...
“Oh...” my brain malfunctioned I can't find words. All I can do is smile. We arrive at Eddies trailer. He says
“I need to help Wayne out with some stuff, then I'm delivering some of todays orders. I should be back before Steve comes but if I'm late please do start without me... I like the idea of coming home to you having Steve already working on you”
“What's gotten in to you Munson... you're so... assertive today, I love it by the way.” I kiss him deeply feeling like I might come just from him looking at me at this point.
“Let's just say I've been thinking a lot about this today. I tried the idea of some other dude fucking you that made me violently ill, fucking green with jealousy. But thinking about you with Steve? None of that, just felt my dick throbbing in my pants. I WANT to share you with Steve, but not with anyone else. So I said to myself 'well Munson go big or go home' and when I saw you two whispering through the window well the devil on my shoulder got to work” he kisses me back and runs his hand up my thigh. “See you later babe, hopefully on your back on the couch” one more kiss then he exits the van and head in to the trailer he shares with his uncle.
What the actual HELL... I get out of the van and on very shaky legs make my way to my own trailer. I go inside and I collapse on the floor laughing. I think that there was a bit too much tension there... I sit there for like 5 minutes giggling to myself then I get up and go to the phone. I dial the number of the video store
“Family Video, this is Steve”
“Hey...”
“Fuuuuck” he lets out a guttural sound “that was INTENSE Jess...what the hell was that? Not that I mind but really c'mon am I supposed to get through this shift knowing THAT'S what's waiting for me later? I can't fucking leave the safety of the counter here... boner won't go down” he chuckles
“I don't fucking know... Edd just said he'd been thinking about you fucking me all day and that he wants to share me with you, not with anyone else only you... and that he might be late coming back tonight he needed to drop off some sales. I was thinking maybe you can get some pizza on your way over here. I need food...but right now my whole body is in an uproar...can't eat” I giggle “loved the fingers though Steve...very good technique” I hang up, but not before hearing a gasp and a cursing Steve on the other end.
I decide a cold shower, a beer and then a nap is the best course of action at this time. The shower helped...a tiny bit. The beer made me somewhat relaxed. I crawl on to my bed and fall asleep faster than I thought I would, I wake up and it feels like my mind just shut me off for an hour. I feel a lot better, more calm, cool and collected. I wanna look good tonight, then I remember. I bought a dress like 3 months ago but I've been too self conscious to wear it. It's low cut in the front, tits look awesome in it! Robin said so, she helped me pick it out for a date that never happened. It's dark green and goes down right below the knee, kind of form fitting. According to Robin “giving me the fucking best hourglass shape she's ever seen” so I guess that might be an option then? I get the dress and try it on. Yeah ass and tits have gone up a size since buying this...but I do look good... I think this whole “Eddie worshipping my body” deal has made me more confident in how I look. I brush my hair, put on some of the very fancy perfume my parents bought me before they died. I only use that on the rarest of occasions. It's pretty much all I have left of them. That and this place I call home. I look at myself again, yeah I do look good! I go back in to the living room and sit down on the couch to wait for whoever arrives first. Edd or Steve. I feel tingly all over...this night will change EVERYTHING. That's when it hits me...what if this ruins our friendship? I feel sick... should I cancel? What if this is a mistake and Steve starts avoiding us, or just me, after? I feel like I'm going to panic, and this time I am all alone I can't even go over to Eddies... what am I going to say to Wayne? “Hey can you help calm me down, I'm panicking about fucking your nephew and our best friend tonight” this actually breaks my freak out a little and I start giggling at the thought of Waynes shocked face. I start pacing in the living room, then I go back and stand in front of the mirror once more. I take a deep breath and tell myself to snap out of it, I take one more look at myself and nod at my reflection. I hear a car door slam shut and my nerves seem to have relocated to the outside of my skin.
I head back to the couch, turn on the TV and sit down. I need to look like I haven't just spent too much time freaking out about something I initiated. Everything's quiet outside, I start to think I imagined hearing the car door. I go up to the window and peek outside, there's Steve by his car seemingly frozen in his step. “Oh fuck no, he's regretting coming here” I think and feel a knot forming in my stomach. I open the door and step out on to the stairs.
“Hey Steve... what you doin' there?” he flinches and looks at me
“Oh...hey I...” he drags his hand through his hair and smiles at me “I got too fucking
nervous so I kinda froze”
“Steve... if you don't want to do this I...well we're ok with it, we can just hang out like we've always done. You're still my Stevie-boy and I love you” I reach my hand out towards him
“Nah... it's just that... I'm afraid I want this too much, you know... might be lightning speed” he gives a nervous chuckle.
“Then I take that as a compliment and we wait for it to...ehmmm...recharge” I giggle and he looks up looking a little more relaxed “You do realise I'm nervous too Steve, hell I think even cocky Munson has nerves about this” he sighs and beams at me, finally able to move he takes two long steps and is right next to me taking my hand.
“Good... I thought you two seemed so confident in this you'd think I was a pussy for being this nervous”
“Hey Harrington, the only pussy here is mine! Aaaand as you might remember...that is not nervous about this” I smirk at him and lead him in to the trailer.
I tell him to make himself comfortable on the couch and I go grab us a couple of beers, just to take the edge off a little. I turn around and..yeah he did as he was told. On my couch is an almost naked Steve, wearing nothing but boxers and a smile. I almost drop the beers
“Oh my! Well... straight to the point there Steve, I like it” I give him a flirty look
“Yeah...I mean... this ok? I thought why beat around the bush you know, this is where were going anyways so?” he smiles and pats the couch next to him for me to join him. I set the beer cans down on the table and sit down next to him close enough to feel the heat radiating from his naked body. I can't help to stare. I mean sure I've seen Steve in boxers, or well in like shorts at the beach. Not the same setting, not the same vibe. I try to figure out when my guys went from being goofy boys to these sexy grown ass men!? Steve is tall, slim and his chest hair is as impressive as the hair on his head. SEXY. AS. HELL
I can feel my juices quite literally start flowing as I eye him like a giant candy bar. I can see that my gaze turns him on, the unmistakeable sign is in his boxers. Straining against the fabric ready to be released. I raise one eyebrow and smirk at him
“Well I don't have to ask if you're ready for this do I?” I lean over and I put one hand on his cock, I can feel it's impressive. Maybe not as big as Eddies but fuck that it's big enough to satisfy me... and I hope Eddie too if I get my way. I start stroking him on the outside of his boxers, I can see a wet spot forming where he's leaking pre-cum into the fabric. He moans and his hands run up my thighs
“Did I tell you how fucking sexy this dress makes you look? If I could fuck you without taking it off I would...but I'm pretty sure I would ruin it shooting my load all over you. Too bad Munson's gonna miss seeing you in it because I'm insisting you get out of it right fucking now” he growls at me
“Hold that thought” I say and I get up and go over to the dresser I have as a TV stand. I get out my Polaroid camera. “Snap some photos of me, then we can at least show him that way” I say and smile. I pose for a couple of photos, last one being me having dropped the dress standing wearing only the set of new underwear I bought just for today. A sexy deep purple lace number.
“No more photos, need touching now” Steve puts the camera and the snapshots on the table and reach for me. Pulling me in so I end up standing between his legs. He runs his hands over my back, down to my ass squeezing the cheeks hard, up my back again, over to the front where his hand cup my breasts. “Fucking amazing... best tits ever” he mumbles as he places kisses all over my chest and belly. He looks up at me and with intense eye contact he lets his tongue run over my mound on top of my panties. His hand travelling down grabbing my ass and pulling me even closer making his tongue press against my clit through the lace.
“Damn you smell so good... And you're so fucking wet, been thinking about this all day getting yourself off?” he asks with a sexy smile
“Oh I wanted to, but Edd told me no getting off until you came over. I was to save that for you” I purr while running my hands over his head grabbing his hair pushing his face back into my pussy.
“Mmmm... smart move Munson” he says muffled by my pussy but the vibrations his voice makes are incredible, OR I'm just on the verge of a melt down from being horny all day.
“Steve” my voice is nothing more than a hiss “I need to see you now, feel you”
“Your wish is my command” he says and lets me go, he stands up and drops his boxers and I let out a pleased guttural moan as I see his cock. It's gorgeous, bigger than it felt a moment ago. I let my hand slide down his chest, down to his rock-hard erection. I grip it and begin stroking it slowly while I kiss his neck and draw in his scent. He smells good, not Eddie amazing, but really really good. I feel him shiver with arousal and he groans
“Sit down Steve” he does as he's told instantly. I straddle him on the couch, still wearing the lace panties. I want to keep them on for Eddie to enjoy too. I begin rubbing myself up and down Steves cock, loving the friction it creates. His hands have grabbed my ass cheeks, fingers digging in to the flesh. He kisses my breasts then starts sucking them, nibbling at my nipples.
“If this wasn't fucking everything I fantasised about I'd be jealous as fuck right now...but this is the hottest damn thing I've ever seen” Eddies voice interrupts us and I beam at him
“Welcome, undress and join please” I pant as I keep moving my hips on Steves lap.
“Oh try and fucking stop me babe” Eddie is already down to his boxers letting them drop and that wonderful cock springs free. He must have either watched us for a bit or been imagining what he's see when arriving by the looks of the pre-cum oozing from his cock.
He comes up behind me grabbing my ass and looking down “Fucking LOVE the lace babe but you gotta lose them now. Me and Harrington wanna go to town on ya, right big boy?” he looks down over my shoulder at Steve who's just smiling back at him
“Hell yeah! You've got one sexy girl here Munson, thanks for sharing” Steve says as I get up from his lap to take off the panties. Steve grabs the waistband and slowly pull the panties down while letting his tongue follow in their path. I'm now completely naked, soon to be pinned between two sexy guys. I'll wake up soon, right? Steve plunges his tongue in between my folds as I feel Eddies fingers penetrating me from behind. I scream out my pleasure, this is unreal. I hear Eddies husky voice in my ear
“Sit back down and take Harringtons cock like a good girl...then I'm gonna fuck your ass as he rails your pussy” I straddle Steves lap, meeting his eyes as he turns his head up to watch me when he drives his cock in me. I let out a long groan as he fills me up, he feels amazing.
“Fucking hell Jess... this pussy... oh my God” he grabs my hips as I start to ride him “how the fuck are you not permanently inside her Munson? I'd never leave if I had this around” Steve moans
“Oh I try to go there as much as I can... amazing isn't she? And you just wait til you feel her ass...and her mouth. Unless you got a taste of that before I came home” Eddie is standing behind me stroking his big cock just watching as I'm fucked senseless by Steve. Then he lets out a “Fuck I need to come in now, could you slow down for a second there big boy...don't wanna hurt our girl here” Steve stops me by digging his fingers in to my hips and pinning me down. I feel Eddies hair grace the top of my ass as he leans in. I feel his tongue against my asshole, lubing it up with his spit. Then one of his fingers enters me and I let out a growling moan. He fingers me for a bit, first one finger then two getting me ready for his cock. He spits on his hand, lubing up his cock before pressing it against my tight hole. I growl with excitement. Slowly slowly he penetrates me letting out a long deep moan when he hits bottom. We say still for a bit just getting me used to the feeling. Then I can't wait any longer I start moving, grinding on Steves cock.
“Holy shiiiiit...fuuuuuck” I scream out the orgasm that hits me out of fucking nowhere like a freight train.
“Oh good girl... two cocks is the way to go I see. Feels good right Steve? She feels fucking awesome when she squeezes your cock when she comes am I right?” Eddie murmurs, Steve is panting and moaning like crazy
“Fucking hell man... this pussy is the best I've ever felt... I'm so close...can I pick up the pace now... I just wanna fuck you sooo hard” Steve grunts in my ear kissing my neck and grabbing my tits.
“Fuck me... both of you just go fucking crazy... I need your cum... fill me” I beg and they oblige. I've never felt anything like this. Steves cock is jack hammering in my pussy, juices quite literally splashing around it. Eddie is taking it a bit slower but is still going strong in my ass. I feel the tension growing again, I'm going to come again.
“Yeah, I can feel it...you're coming again aren't you... such a good fucking girl” Eddie purrs. Once again I let out a guttural scream as the orgasm hits me. Steve joins me, I feel his cock pulsating letting his warm cum fill me. A couple of seconds later I feel Eddies hands around my as grip SO tight and I hear a primal roar from him as he releases in my ass. The room falls silent apart from our combined panting. I feel them both pull out of me and the cum dripping from both my holes, I'm going to have some cleaning to do later. Eddie lifts me up, kisses me deeply and carries me to the bathroom. He sets me down and kisses me again.
“Such a dirty girl, I love you so fucking much. That was amazing. Take a shower and come to the bedroom. Me and Harrington can clean up in the kitchen”
“Edd... I love you too... and that was intense beyond words. Promise me one thing though”
He looks at me and nods “Don't start without me” I smile and kiss him before I get in the shower to clean off the cum running down my legs. Eddie chuckles
“I make no promises, fuck Steve looks good enough to eat I might just jump his bones, but I'll be a good boy and wait for you love” he says when I pout at him. He slaps my ass before I close the shower door then he leaves and joins Steve in the other room. I can hear them talking, the walls in these trailers are paper thin.
“So Steve, how was it? Satisfied?” I can hear by Eddies tone of voice that he is giving Steve one of his really awesome smiles
“Satisfied? If I were any more satisfied I'd be dead... how the fuck have we not done this before? She's fucking perfect dude”
“Oh I know... and we're not done yet... are we?” I hear the undertone in Eddies question, the feeling around to see if there might be an interest in him as well. “I mean we've got more exploring to do...”
“Yeah... we do... don't we Edd” and there it was, the thing I most wanted to hear. I might actually get to see the love of my life getting railed by a guy and seeing him fucking loving it. I speed my shower up not wanting to miss a thing outside. I dry off and leave the bathroom, I tip toe so that I can sneak up on them. I just want to look at them, I hear they're still in the kitchen talking. I sneak up to the archway and I position myself against it to watch them. Eddie's on the counter and Steve's standing in front of him, they're just having some small talk while waiting to hear the door open to the bathroom I guess. They're magnificent to look at the both of them, my brain can't fully process this much sexiness at once.
I see that Eddie has spotted me standing there, the look in his eyes go from just a neutral one to the smouldering mischievous one I love. I can feel my pussy starting to throb, he's up to something now. Steve still hasn't seen me he's with his back to me, AMAZING ass by the way. Eddie sees me eyeing Steves ass and raises an eyebrow and gives a small smile. I feel that heavy wet feeling between my legs, can't help myself I reach down and start fingering myself. Eddie's eyes light up, oh he's loving this.
“Well Harrington, how about you and me then?” he shoots a quick glance at me and then stares at Steve
“Huh? You and me? As in...?” Steve sounds confused but also kind of suspenseful.
“Well... I do believe Jess gave you some indications as to... you and me? Am I wrong?” Eddie grabs Steve with his legs around his waist and pulls him in towards him. He then proceeds to put one hand on his neck and go in for a kiss.
At first I see Steve tensing up and I think “Fuck no” but then re relaxes and grab Edd by the neck and kiss him back, deeply and hungrily. “Never mind” I think to myself as I continue watching them, the kisses get deeper and the hands start exploring... and cocks wake up again. I almost scream out of pure arousal. But I want Steve to think they're alone just for a little longer, just to see what happens. I keep playing with my pussy which is now so wet the juices are running down my legs. I bite my bottom lip to keep from moaning too loudly.
The two of them stop kissing and just look at each other panting, I see Edd sneaking a glance at me.
“Well I must say that is a pretty impressive tool you have there Steve, no wonder our girl enjoyed you so much. I'm going to be bold enough to say I wanna try it out to of you're up for it” the smile he gives Steve makes my knees weak, think it has about the same effect on Steve because he just looks stunned. Like his brain can't find any words...at all
“Uhhh... try...how?” I hear Steve finally being able to say in a low guttural voice
“Any way you'll let me Stevie-boy” Edd purrs at him while letting his hands play on the hairs on Steves chest. I can see Steve shiver from the touch and look down, smiling and say
“Well... you don't look too bad there yourself Munson” he must have found his inner stud again because before I think Edd is even suspecting there might be some touching Steve lets his hand grip Eddies cock and he starts stroking it. Edd lets out a groan and lets his head tilt back. Now I can't help myself I let out a loud moan. Steve flinches and lets go of Eddie
“Nah hell no Steve keep going that's so fucking hot” I say as he looks over seeing me standing in the arch playing with myself. He smiles, not looking away from me his hand goes back to stroking Eddies hard cock.
“You like this? Me jerking your boyfriends fat cock? Wanna help or just watch? Didn't you wanna help Edd suck ME off? What if we start with Munson instead?” he smiles and reaches his free hand out to me. My mind goes haywire, is he suggesting what I think he is? I can see that Eddie is wondering the same thing, sitting on the counter having his cock worked on my his best friend. I don't think he suspected things to go like this, but he doesn't seem sad about it. I go up to them, taking Steves hand. He drags me closer, kisses my neck and puts my hand around his hand. We're now double jerking Eddies cock and I let out a deep moan.
“Fuck this is hot!” I look up at Eddie who is watching our hands working his rock hard erection. He growls and lifts his hips slightly
“Suck it babe...please”
I lean forward and lick the tip of his cock, tasting the pre-cum already coming out of it. I take the head in my mouth and let my tongue play around it before I let him go in deep in my mouth. I take him in as far as I can and he groans
“Fuck your mouth is heaven babe” Eddies hand grabs my hair as I continue sucking him. Steve is just watching, stroking his own rock hard cock, then I hear
“Wanna let me try?” I hear Eddie gasp and I let go of his cock with a plopping sound.
“Ooooh I would LOVE to... C'mon taste this sweet cock, I promise it's addictive” I purr at him. Eddie's eyes are now stuck on watching Steve who leans in to taste his cock. Steve licks his lips then he lets his tongue lightly play against Eddies tip. Playfully testing, tasting, exploring. Eddie moans but doesn't move, “no scaring the newbie” I think and I almost start giggling but I restrain myself. Steve becomes more confident and he tries taking the head in his mouth, circling his tongue like he saw me doing. He starts sucking, not as deep as me but good enough by the sounds coming from Eddie. I'm almost exploding where I stand. I need to get some of this action. I lean back in and I say with a low voice
“wanna share some of that Steve? We'll double up with our tongues, see if we can't make Munson scream”
“Mhmm” is the only answer I get as Steve has his mouth full. He lets go and we simultaneously use our tongues licking Eddies shaft, I go down and lick his balls as Steve takes him in his mouth again. I suck Edds balls in to my mouth and let my tongue play around them, I can feel them tightening and I hear Eddies breathing getting faster and his moans louder. I moan “ooooh Steve he's about to blow, I want some too” Steve stops sucking and we go back to licking the shaft
“C'mon babe, come on our faces...but you got to watch when you do” I murmur
Eddie looks down at us as I hear a low guttural scream working it's way out of him, then he shoots his load all over our faces. He grabs a fistful of hair in each hand, one from each of us as he squirts over and over, drenching our faces with his cum. I smile a great big smile and lick my lips “ That was amazing my babes”
“God fucking damn that was better than I could have ever imagined” Eddie is panting on the counter looking like he's about to pass out “but hell...now we need to work on Harrington babe. You up for that?”
“Oh hell yeah I am, question is... is Steve up for it?” I smile and look over to the guy on my left. Steve gasps and looks from me to Edd.
“Up for... that being done to me? Wanna kill me? Ah fuck I don't care then I'd die happy... let me just clean off and then you can do whatever you want to me” he says and smiles. He stands up and goes to the bathroom. I stand up to and put my hands on Eddies thighs
“Wanna kiss a girl with a face full of cum or should I clean off first?” I smile. Eddie just smiles back and crashes his lips into mine, kissing me deeply and purring against my lips.
“That was amazing babe, thank you for being a freak” he says
“Don't mention it, I took inspiration from the other local freak” I say and wink at him. Then I turn over to the kitchen sink and I let the water clean off all the sticky cum from my face, need it fresh for a new load. I hear Eddie chuckle at my remark about him being a freak, he jumps down from the counter and slaps my ass.
“Meet you two in the bedroom” he says and walks off. I dry my face and follow him. As I pass the bathroom Steve comes out and I grab his hand and drag him along. As we come up to the bed I push Steve down on his back and get in to the bed beside him. Eddie is already in the bed on his other side.
“Well Stevie-boy, I'd say you're up but I can see that's an understatement. Someone exited to have two mouths working him?” Eddie says and smiles with a look at Steves massive hard-on twitching at us.
“I don't think I've ever been this exited...” Steve swallows loudly as me and Edd look at each other and lower our heads towards the waiting cock. In unison our tongues shoot out and lick the tip. Eddie starts licking down the shaft as I take Steves cock in my mouth and start sucking. He growls
“Fucking hell Munson you weren't lying about this mouth” he grabs my head and helps me set a pace. Eddie smiles
“Yeah I told you, let's just hope I don't disappoint then” he continues working the lower part of the shaft with his tongue before going down starting to lick Steves balls.
I let go of Steves cock and I whisper in Edds ear
“C'mon babe I want to see you take him now I want to see you swallow Steves load” this makes Eddie moan and sends a shiver through him. He lifts his head and licks his lips. He takes Steves cock in his hand stroking it a couple of times before he lowers his head and takes him in his mouth. Me and Steve moan in unison now. Eddie begins to suck Steve as I take over the balls. I lick and suck them, just like I did Edds. “Eddie really has good technique” I think to myself and moan. Steve's eyes are rolling in his head, his guttural moans are getting louder and louder. I feel the tightening and I release his balls so that I can watch Eddie take the load. Steve has grabbed Eddies head with both hands now while meeting his sucking with his hips. Then with a deep coarse scream he releases down Eddies throat. Eddie swallows to best of his abilities, some cum dripping down the side of his mouth. I lean in and I lick it off.
“I want to taste too... mmm... Steve tastes good am I right babe?” I purr
“He sure does” Eddie smiles at me and kisses me, letting his tongue go deep in my mouth so I can have what's left of Steves cum. I suck his tongue and he moans. “Damn babe if I had known you wanted a taste that bad I would have saved some more instead of swallowing it all”
“I'll take the next one” I smirk and wink at him, he chuckles. “Hey Steve you alive up there?” I giggle
“I don't fucking know...” he's panting like he's run a marathon...or two “how the actual HELL are you two even real?” he asks and looks down at the two of us still lying between his legs smiling up at him.
“Don't know...magic?” I say and giggle, suddenly feeling how tired I am. This has been a suspenseful day. I yawn
“Awww our girl's sleepy Steve, you wanna stay or you going home and we'll see you tomorrow night?” Eddie asks.
“I would LOVE to stay but I have work in the morning, and I think if I stay I won't get a full nights rest. And let me tell you after this... I'm in need of that” Steve smiles at us. I crawl up and place a kiss on Steves lips
“Thanks for tonight Stevie-boy, I love you”
“Love you too sweetie, you're not so bad either Munson” Steve chuckles and Eddie laughs
“Wow thanks man, I'd say you don't suck either but I KNOW that's a lie”
I sigh with relief, nothing seems to have changed. We're still good, I still have my boys. Even if I might HAVE my boys in other ways from now on. I feel myself drifting off, Steve kisses my head and I feel him get out of bed, After that I'm out! I wake up, it's dark and I hear Eddie sleeping next to me with one arm underneath me and the other over me. I wiggle free and get up, I need to pee and have a drink. I feel very satisfied and happy, this night was a success! Now if I could just get Steve to fuck Eddie I'll be in heaven! I smile as I crawl back into bed, sliding in between Eddies arms again. Feeling loved and safe. I fall back to sleep in an instant.
When I wake up the sun is high in the sky and Eddie isn't in the bed. I hear him mucking about in the kitchen, singing along to something on the radio. I stretch out and feel very well rested. I get up and go out to see what he's up to out there. As I open the door I'm met by the smell of coffee and pancakes. I love that he's learned to cook, I feel spoiled and I can't be happier!
“Morning you sexy beast!” I say as I enter the kitchen
“Sexy beast? That sounds more like Hairy Harrington” Eddie says and laughs “breakfast is served...or brunch I guess, I was just about to come wake you up with kisses ans coffee” he says
“Well damn, wait just a second I'll run back and fall asleep again then. I didn't want to miss that” I say with pretend hurt
“Awww...you know kisses and coffee is always offered to you any time” Eddie hands me a mug and covers my face with kisses “I had a fucking awesome night last night, you really are one of a kind. Never ever leave me”
“I wouldn't dream of it! I had the best time also, you two made my knees weak and my head spin” I kiss him back deeply “but what was this about brunch? The smell of pancakes is amazing, you spoil me babe...don't stop” I smile and take Eddies hand and head for the table. Which he of course has set, when the hell did he become so domestic? We eat and talk about the events of last night, both agreeing that Steve was more in to things than we thought he'd be.
“Now I just hope I'll get to see him rail you babe” I say and Eddie damn near spits his coffee all over me
“Fuuuuck woman you have some seriously dirty ideas, you really want to see that?” he looks at me with a curious face
“Hell yeah! I wanna see him put that big dick of his in you...really pin you to the mattress. Make you squirm underneath him...while I sit on your face and make you eat my pussy as Steve fucks your ass and cums deep inside you...” Eddie's stopped breathing, he looks like he's having a stroke. I can almost hear his brain processing what I just said. There's complete silence and I begin to think I might have gone too far this time. Then he just stands up, jumps the fucking table and drags me down on the floor. His hands are everywhere at once. Oh my God! This is turning me on insanely fast! He rips my panties and plunges his rock hard cock in me. I hadn't even noticed he took any clothes off. He crashes his lips into mine, kissing me hungrily. His hands find their way under my t-shirt squeezing my tits.
“I FUCKING LOVE your dirty mind” he growls while he fucks me hard like he's desperate to feel me, like it's the last time. I scream out the pleasure he gives me
“Fuuuuck Edd... fuuuuuck” I can feel the tension before the release. I come hard around his cock and he groans and fills me with his seed at the same time.
“Wow Edd... ALWAYS make me brunch” I pant and Eddie laughs where he's slumped on top of me. He looks up at me and gives me a kiss
“I'm sorry I couldn't stop myself... I should have made sure you were ready, I didn't hurt you did I?” he says with a soft voice
“God no! Did it feel like I thought it was bad in any way? Fucking seeing you lunge at me from across the table made me instantly wet, no worries there Edd. I'm fucking ready for you all day every day” I kiss the top of his head and hug him tight.
“Mmmm naughty” I hear him purr against my chest before he gets up and helps me to my feet “you go hit the shower and I'll clean this off then I'll join you” he says and gives me a kiss. “Then I think we should go in to town and go tease Stevie-boy, what do you say?” he chuckles
“Ooooh my second favourite Steve activity” I say and giggle, Eddie laughs and smacks my ass before I head in to the bathroom. I hear him clean the table then he comes in to the bathroom and gets in the shower with me.
“I need to get my stuff over here...this shit does nothing for my luscious locks” he says and laughs pointing at my shampoo bottle.
“Oh sorry Mr I need my special products to make my hair perfect” I laugh and Eddie lets out a “hmpf” and starts tickling me. I scream
“Yeah that's for teasing me about my locks babe”
We finish showering and get ready to head out. I didn't tell Eddie but I “forgot” underwear under my dress...ops... In case he was planning another one of his stunts when we see Steve today. Might as well be prepared. Or perhaps I should surprise them with a small show. I smile to myself. Eddie looks at me
“What's that smile about? You planning something?”
“Nah just happy I have you babe” I say sounding sweet and innocent
“Awww sweetheart! Likewise” he says and takes my hand and kisses it. Good he bought it I think and smile even wider. We listen to Metallica and sing along to the songs as we head in to town. Eddie sounds amazing as always, me not so much...
We park the van and head for Family video. We see Robin is manning the register again, that must mean Steve is in the back again today. We go in and Robin gives us a beaming smile
“Hey my sweeties, how are you this fine day?”
“Great Robin, how are you? You seem very cheerful... something happen?” I ask her
“Oh nothing much...except” she lowers her voice “I have a hot date tonight” and then she lets out a squeal and claps her hands. I laugh
“Wow that's awesome Robin! Congrats...that girl you mentioned a while back?”
“Yup that's the one! I'm so excited...and nervous...and a little nauseous. Everything at once you know” she says then she does a little dance I giggle at her
“So Steve unpacking stuff again today?” I ask
“No, he's on his break right now. He's in the back if you wanna go say hi” Robin smiles at a customer that just came in. We nod and head to the back room.
Steve's sitting at the table having a coke flipping through a magazine when we come in. He looks up and his face lights up.
“Hey there” he looks behind us to see if Robin's with us when he sees she's not he gets to his feet and grabs us both. Gives us each a hungry kiss and says with a coarse voice “thanks for last night, fuck that was amazing”
“Hello to you to Steve, I like this form of greeting. New Family video policy?” Eddie chuckles
“Yeah, wouldn't that be something” Steve laughs “can't you just see me manhandling Jason Carver when he comes in to get his Friday night movie?”
“Ewww...please I was just getting in to this, don't ruin it” I say and make a face at Steve who roars with laughter at me. He swoops me up in his arms and spins around. I see Eddies reaction and I know my surprise worked like a charm.
“Heeeeey wait a minute... Steve stop and hold her just like that” he says and that mischievous look in his eyes is back. Steve looks at me confused, I just smile. He stops and turn towards Eddie with me still in his arms. Eddie closes in and without taking his eyes off me sticks his hand in under my skirt as I squeal. “Oh we have a very naughty girl here Steve...no panties what so ever”
Steves eyes are gigantic as he looks down at me
“You came in here commando? The fuck Jess, you trying to get me fired?” I can hear the smile on his voice so I don't take offence by this. He sets me down on the table and turns around to check if Robin is anywhere near by. But her head can still be seen turned away from us at the front of the store. He then turns his attention to me again, letting his hands slide up my thighs in under my skirt. Eddie stands beside him looking out the small window on the door, keeping an eye out for Robin.
“Damn it Munson you're right, nothing here stopping us...” he licks his lips as I feel him pushing two fingers in me. I mewl loudly, he puts the other hand over my mouth “No, no sweetie not a sound. I just wanna feel you for a bit. Then Munson can take you home and make you wish you're screaming MY name.” he slips one more finger in and he fucks me to an inch of my sanity. Then he abruptly stops takes his fingers out of me, pulls my skirt down over my knees, looks at Eddie and extends his fingers at him. Eddie gives a devilish smile and takes his fingers in his mouth and sucks them clean of my juices. If I wasn't sitting down I'd be a puddle on the floor.
“Fuck you guys will be the death of me” Steve groans and fixes his jeans which seem a few sizes too small suddenly “now go before Robin starts wondering how long my break is going to be. I need a second or more to you know...cool down” He smiles and gives me a passionate kiss “see you later” then he does the same with Eddie and my heart nearly stops. Eddie smiles and clears his throat and fixes his own jeans as well.
“I might need a small cooling off moment my self before going out there. I'll just go put my hands under some cold water. Be right back babe you go out and talk to Robin” I give the two of them a beaming smile and a little laugh.
“Well sometimes it's soooo good to be a girl. No apparent signs” I say and walk back into the front to talk to Robin, as I turn my back on them I lift my skirt and wiggle my ass at them.
“Fuckin tease” I hear Steve murmur and Eddie agreeing. I giggle to myself. Robin turns around when she hears me coming.
“You tell him his break is over now? Was he sitting there flipping through magazines with that stupid grin on his face again?”
“Yeah I told him you we're in dying need of help out here. Actually he WAS doing exactly that” I laugh “been doing that a lot lately?”
“Yeah, damn annoying if you ask me. All day, like he's on another planet...fucking alien. If I didn't know better I'd say he's in love.” she scoffs “but that's a far stretch considering his idea of a long term commitment after Nancy is like 2 dates.” she laughs at her own conclusion in the matter. I just smile
“Yeah, Stevie-boy isn't the likeliest to fall in love. When was the last girl he had? The one at the party wasn't it?”
“Yeah, and she didn't score too high I get it. Nah...maybe he's just going insane for real” Robin shrugs and turn her attention to me. “What about you? You look flustered are you feeling ok?” she looks worried
“What? No, I'm ok...just you know that break room of yours is very hot, and...well big body I get warm easily” I give a small laugh all the while thinking “Fuuuck maybe I ought to have taken a moment too”
“Oh c'mon girl you're not that big. But yeah that is a compact space, it does get pretty warm in there and you were three people in there.” she looks at me “You look better already, cooler out here?”
“Yeah much better temperature out here” I smile
“Where'd Munson go by the way?” she just now realised Eddie wasn't by my side.
“Toilet” I say, I mean I wasn't lying so
“Ah, ok.” just then Eddie comes back out to us. He smiles at Robin and gives me a kiss on the cheek.
“You girls ought to try that some time. Pissing like a God is good for the soul” he gives us a showstopping smile
“Really Munson? That was necessary why?” Robin makes a disgusted face and Eddie laughs
“Just for the pure joy of it Buckley nothing more” he winks at her, she rolls her eyes and sighs at him. We stay and chat a while with Robin, and Steve who finally comes out of hiding as Robin puts it. Then Eddie slaps my ass and says
“Nope babe this won't do! We still need to hit the liquor store and the grocery store, I have a list from Wayne as well. He must be wondering if we ran away with his cash by now”
We leave with a bye to Robin and a VERY meaningful look at Steve who gives a small nod and a discrete smile. A promise for later. I can feel my insides tingle as I think about what happened in the back room, and I can tell by the look Eddie gives me that it's fresh in his mind as well. We go and get what we're supposed to both from our list and from Waynes. The owner of the liquor store eyes Waynes list and then he looks at Eddie.
“Has Wayne developed a drinking problem? Wasn't long ago he bought booze...you mean to tell me he needs more?” Eddie isn't 21 yet so Wayne always sends a note with him to this particular store, the proprietor is a friend of his. Since Wayne works nights he's rarely awake to go himself, and as a thank you he lets Eddie buy what he wants to, within limits.
“He had some work buddies over last weekend, that was a wet night if you know what I mean. They were shitfaced the lot of them. Had to take one guy home by 11.” Eddie laughs
and this seems to be what needed to be said because Eddie gets his “order for Wayne” pays and we leave.
We then hit the grocery store and then we head home. Eddie goes in to his and Waynes trailer to drop off the stuff he bought for them and to get some fresh clothes and yeah...his hair products. I teased him relentlessly for it when he mumbled to himself not to forget them.
I head in to my place and put away my stuff. Then I go take a shower and I go lay down on the bed. Didn't feel tired but somehow I fall asleep. I don't know how long I slept when I wake up. I can tell it's quite a bit later because it's gotten just a bit dark in my bedroom. I almost scream out loud when I turn and see Eddie on the bed next to me, I must have been fast asleep if I didn't notice him coming in and lying down. He's also sleeping with the sweetest smile on his face. I carefully get out of bed and go out into the kitchen thinking I might start making dinner. If he can surprise me with breakfast and brunch when I wake up I'll make him dinner for when he wakes up. Then I hear a car door outside so I look up at the clock. Damn it's later than I thought, that must be Steve. I look down, I'm completely naked... Oh well he won't mind. So I jump up on the counter facing the door and I wait. I hear a knock and Steve opens the door. He just stares...not a sound coming over his lips.
“Would you come in and close the door, don't need the whole trailer park to see my pussy” I say and smirk. Steve flinches and hastily closes the door and locks it behind him.
“Wow...hello...” he smiles and begins to undress at once not taking his eyes off me for a second. I feel how I get wetter by the second as Steves body emerges from underneath his clothes.
“Well hello there sexy, come here often?” I say and I spread my legs wide for him. He grins at me and lets out a coarse moan.
“This is how every workday needs to end I swear to God!” he takes two steps and he's right between my legs. Sliding his hands up my thighs and kissing my breasts “where the hell is Munson? How is he missing THIS?” he finds my clit with his fingers and starts playing with it. I moan in his ear
“Eddie's sleeping, why don't we sneak in there really really quietly and wake him up in a really good way”
“Fuck yeah!” Steve purrs, he leans down and sucks my clit in between his lips and pushing two fingers in me making me shiver all over. Then he pulls out, licks his fingers, winks at me and helps me down. “Lets go” he says and leads me in to the bedroom.
We carefully lay down on either side of Eddie on the bed. Luckily for us he must have taken a shower to before getting in with me, he's butt naked too. I whisper in Steves ear as quietly as I can.
“Steve...I don't know if you'd be up for this. But I would really like to see you fuck Edd...like REALLY like it” I hear a deep intake of air and Steve moans quietly
“Think he'd let me?”
“Oh I know he would, we've talked about it” I say and I feel Steve getting goosebumps all over as he lets out a long deep growl.
“You have some kind of lube or?” I nod, I bought some today when Eddie wasn't looking just to surprise him. I take out the bottle and Steve smiles. I can see he's already very excited, his cock is twitching and I see the tip is getting wet. I moan softly.
I squirt out some lube on the tip of Steves cock and tell him to make himself ready. I bend down and take Eddies cock in my mouth feeling it awaken almost instantly. He stirs and blinks his eyes. Then his mind registers what he's seeing. Me with his hardening cock down my throat and Steve standing on his knees stroking his rock hard cock that is slippery from lube just looking at Eddies ass. The semi hard cock in my mouth turns solid in a second and Eddie groans loudly
“Fuuuuuck I wanna wake up in this bed every fucking day. It's always a treat! What you got there Stevie-boy, is that for me or for Jess? He spreads his legs and pulls his knees up so his ass is better exposed. I take that as an invite and I squirt some lube on my fingers and I slowly push one in, Eddie wasn't expecting that and he growls. “Wooow Jess, you've bought the good stuff. Oh fuck that glides in easy, give me another one” I'm not late to do as he begs. I put on some more lube and I push another finger in. Then I feel it, Steve is using his lubed fingers to enter my ass, guess the sight of my ass between Eddies legs was too good to pass up. I moan and Eddie looks pleased. “Yeah fuck my girls ass while you wait for her to make mine ready for you big boy. Can't wait to feel you press that cock in me” Steve groans and starts fucking my ass faster with his finger, he has bigger hands than Eddie I can feel that. I feel that Eddie seems very relaxed now and I purr at Steve
“Now big boy, you're up. Please put that delicious cock in my boyfriend” I feel him taking his finger out of my ass, giving his cock another couple of strokes. I squirt some more lube on Eddies asshole and I sit back and watch as Steve takes my place between Eddies legs. He grits his teeth trying to hold back knowing very well he is bigger than my fingers. Eddie is flustered and breathing heavily. His cock is twitching on his belly leaking pre-cum so that a small puddle has formed in his bellybutton. I lean forward and lick it up then I take his cock in my mouth. I tilt my head so I can look up at Steve while sucking Eddies dick. He groans and pushes the head of his cock on Eddies tight hole. I see it slowly entering making Eddie squirm and moan loudly. Steve is taking his time, even if I can tell he just wants to push in to the hilt in one go and fuck Eddie like a crazy man. Eddie pants and grabs my hair with one hand and reaches down my ass with the other one.
“Sit on my face babe, sit on my face so I can eat you out while you jerk me and Steve fuuuuuuucks meeee OH GOD DAMN!” he cries out as Steve hits bottom. Steve stays still for me to get up and straddle Eddies face. He immediately starts eating my pussy like it's his last meal and I scream it feels so good! I lean forward and I kiss Steve deeply as my hand works Eddies cock. Steve starts to move in and out of Eddies ass, very slowly at first. But when he feels Edd relaxing more he picks up the pace. I have the BEST view sitting on Eddies face looking down as he is fucked by a big dick. Eddie is writhing beneath us now, moaning loudly in to my pussy making it feel even better from the vibrations. Steve is fucking Eddie like there's no tomorrow, Eddie is almost screaming into my pussy as he is working my clit like a maniac. And me... I'm just in heaven. I let go and I come like I've never come before, Eddie is squeezing my ass as I release all over his face.
“Fuck yeah babe, good giiiirl. That's what seeing me being fucked does to you? We need to do this more often....ooooooh fuuuuuck man...I'm close too” I can feel he is close, the cock in my hand is throbbing and I can actually SEE the tightening of his balls. Then he lets himself go. He comes all over himself and over me, squirt after squirt as he lets out a long coarse groan. Steve is close too I can hear it he is panting and moaning, his grip on Eddies legs tightening.
“Fuuuuuck man your ass... fuuuuuck here it cooooomes” and he cries out in a long deep moan as he fills Eddies ass with his warm cum. As he emptied himself completely he falls over on his side sounding like he's having a real struggle breathing but smiling like a mad man. I've slid off Eddies face and I'm lying nest to him panting but SO satisfied. This was all I expected it to be. I look at Eddie who's beaming at me
“So this is what it's like... I understand why you're a fan! I love you thank you for being a dirty freak” he kisses me then he looks over at Steve “and thank you for being one too” Steve smiles back at us
“Thank you both for letting me find out I am one! This was mindbogglingly good, not to be rude though Edd... I'd love to do this again but I think I'm more of a pussy guy.” he chuckles
“Who isn't? Good thing we have the best of the best here to share then” Eddie says and smiles kissing me. Steve wholeheartedly agree.
We lay there talking about everything beneath the stars. Not just sex, but life in general. We get up I make us dinner and we watch some TV. Then we have some more sex, a little more mellow this time. We talk about how we're going to go on from here. We all agree that we're not in love with each other, I mean me and Eddie are in love and Steves loves us as a friend. That hasn't changed at all, and whenever we want another in the mix we just call Steve and he'll be right over.
A few months down the line I get a call from my aunt, she asks me if it would be ok if my cousin comes to stay with me for a while. She wanted to celebrate my graduation and maybe see if she could get a summer job ANYWHERE but Texas. Sure, I mean why not. I like her a lot and I think I might have an idea for her.
Eddie and I graduate, one with better grades than the other. No surprise there, and Eddie being himself does exactly what he'd always said he would do on graduation. He flipped the headmaster off and snatched the diploma and ran out of the auditorium. Giving Steve a high five as he passes him! He gets a standing ovation from his friends, as he should.
My cousin arrived a couple of days before graduation and her and Eddie get along perfectly. As I suspected , and hoped they would. He even agrees with me on one very specific detail. See my cousin Leia is a metalhead just like Eddie. If you didn't know then you would most likely think they were brother and sister, twins even. They look so much alike, I want to try and set her up with Steve. Eddie loves the idea, saying that even he can see the resemblance between them, and that Steve ought to like that about her. Giving me a smile that sends me right back to the events of last time us three had some fun together. I grin at him saying that he shouldn't get any ideas, I am NOT bringing my cousin in to the mix. He assures me that was not on his mind, even he's not that weird. Then he laughs and pulls me closer.
“I love you, and that's enough woman for a lifetime babe! Steve is just a toy for special occasions. But lets try and get him a woman of a lifetime too, it's the best!” then he kisses me deeply and slaps my ass.
I talk to Leia the night after graduation, like feeling around a little...is she straight? Gay? What's her deal? She giggles at me
“The fuck Jess, you trying to set me up or what?”
“Actually...yeah... just wanted to know what you like... dick or pussy?” I laugh and she looks shocked
“Wow cus, didn't peg you for being that outspoken. You changed, for the better I must say! Ok so who is it? You peaked my interest here” she sits down on my bed
“Steve” I say “Harrington, you met briefly at graduation today” I say watching her think about all the people she met that day
“The one with the awesome hair...but kinda preppy? That's who you see me with? Well ok dude's very hot I'll give you that, but he seems...you know boring” she says
“Nah, Steve's great. Not boring, looks preppy yeah but from what I've heard he's anything but when it counts” I say and smirk at her, she needn't know that I have first hand experience...
“Oh really! Hmmm...interesting. Ok what the hell I'll give him a chance. You think he'll go for me though? I'm not your average pretty girl...” she looks a bit self-conscious
“No worries there Leia, you're a hot piece of action! He'd be so lucky” I hug her reassuringly “and I'll fucking tell him that”
We laugh about it and I tell her all the dirt on Steve...or well... all the dirt she needs to know. We have a great time and then Eddie comes over. I tell him we have the green light to set Steve up with Leia. He high fives her and says that that's the best decision she's made after coming here. Steve needs a girl to educate him in the finer things in life. Metallica and Ozzy Osbourne
“I love the guy but his taste in music is a fucking disaster... I don't have the tools to... ahem... change his mind like you do” then he plops himself down behind me on the bed and wraps his arms around me pulling me closer “like this one here changing me completely... I was such a loser before she got her hands on me” he kisses my neck and I giggle. Leia just smiles at us
“Fuck I want what you have guys, you're so disgustingly happy”
“Hear that Munson... she sounds like Robin and looks like you. Steve ought to love her just from that alone... and I mean she's related to ME so that should be the icing on the cake” we laugh at this and decide that tomorrow I'll invite Steve over for a party and we'll see if they hit it off or not.
“I think this will be the beginning of something beautiful” Eddie looks pleased.
We spend the rest of the evening watching TV and talking about Leia's life in Texas our lives here. Whether or not she might consider staying here for longer if things work out with Steve. She says she wouldn't mind, that both the climate and the people here in Hawkins suits her better than Texas ever did.
As we say our good nights and I crawl in to bed I hear a small knock at my window. I frown, who the hell? I open the blinds and there's Eddie.
“Edd babe, you couldn't stay away even for a few nights?” I say as I open the window and he climbs in
“Noooo... can't sleep without your ass to cuddle” he says and pulls me in groping my ass and squeezing it hard making me gasp.
“Edd, we can't... She's right outside on the couch, she'll hear and I don't want that”
“I can be soooo quiet babe, and if I tell you to be I know you can too” his hands are already starting to undress me. He pulls my pyjama bottoms down and then he kneels in front of me letting his tongue play over my belly. “Not a sound babe, you hear me? I won't continue if you so much as squeak” he says and stares up at me. I nod and he gives me a devilish smile. Then he attacks my pussy with his tongue making me have to bite my knuckles to keep from moaning loudly. He licks me and flicks my clit with the tip of his tongue, letting one hand work it's way up between my legs so he can push them open a bit more and slide a couple of finger in me. I stand there one hand in my mouth biting down hard to keep from making any sound and the other hand on Eddies head grabbing a handful of hair pressing him closer to me.
“I wanna fuck you so bad right now...but we both know that bed of yours creaks. Mind riding me silly on the floor?” Eddie whispers when he pulls his mouth away for a second but still fucking me with his fingers. I can't do anything but nod “That's my good girl” he pulls his fingers out of me and I sigh deeply. I look down at my hand and I have fucking broken the skin when biting down. Eddie sees it too and he looks at me “For fucks sake Jess, I'm sorry...I didn't think you'd be that obedient babe...does it hurt? Go get that cleaned off and I'll be right here on the floor waiting with my cock ready to impale you”
I smile and I pull my pyjama bottoms up and sneak out in to the bathroom, I can hear Leia has fallen asleep. She snores softly in the darkness. I clean off the small bite marks on my hand and put a band aid on them. Then I sneak back in to my bedroom where a fully naked Eddie is laying on the floor. Pillows behind his head with his cock in his hand slowly stroking it.
“Fucking hell Edd...” I whisper as I undress as quickly as possible. I go up to him and I stand over him one leg on either side oh him and I let my fingers play in my folds. His eyes intensely following my every move
“That's a good girl, show me where you want me. Oh God I made you wet babe, you're fucking dripping down on me” he whispers and I see he's right. Drops of my juices fall and land on his stomach, this makes me even hornier for him. I kneel down and place myself over his cock slowly rubbing my soaking wet folds over his length. Now it's his turn to bite his knuckles
“Not a sound babe, wasn't that what you told me? Let me fuck you like there's no tomorrow” I whisper softly as I slide the tip of his cock in between my folds and let him come in to my warmth. I slide down on him feeling him fill me up and hitting bottom before I start moving up and down his rock hard cock. I roll my hips with every downstroke. His eyes are rolling back in his head and I can see he is fighting the urge to groan out loud, I know he loves this and so do I. I'm having a hard time myself not just screaming his name right now feeling him hit bottom every time I sit down. I slide my hand down and start circling my clit with my fingers feeling the orgasm closing in. How the fuck am I going to come on this cock without making a sound. I lean down and I grab Eddies neck with my free hand and I yank him up in a sitting position. I plunge my lips onto his and I kiss him hungrily as I feel myself tipping over the edge and release all over him. I let out a long sigh and I bury my head in the fold of his neck and I bite down on his skin as I come. He gasps and grabs my ass and his fingers dig in to my flesh as he comes in me filling me up with his warm cum. He kisses my neck and hisses
“Fucking hell... I think you drew blood there my little vampire” I giggle in to his neck
“I'm so sorry babe but that was the only way to keep from screaming your name when you felt that damn good inside of me” I say and I move his hair to look at what damage I have done to him. There is an obvious bite mark on his neck but I didn't break the skin “No blood love just a token of my love on your neck” I whisper in his ear, he smiles at me
“Well you did really good keeping quiet babe, but I must say I like it more when I get to hear you enjoy yourself”
“Oh likewise... making you moan is my favourite hobby” I say as I lift myself off him so he can slide out and we can move to the bed and get some sleep. “I need to go clean off a little” I say and kiss him
“I'm going to join you, need to wash off a bit to someone came good on me” me motions down and I see I fucking gushed all over him, there's even a wet spot on the floor where we sat. I giggle
“Maybe we should have put down a towel, didn't think you'd get me that wet” I kiss him and take him by the hand as we sneak out into the bathroom to clean off. Then we head back to bed and slide down under the covers and fall asleep. We're woken up by Leia's voice in the morning
“Did you fucking crawl in through the window after I fell asleep? You know you could have just stayed from the beginning, it's not like I don't know you sleep together. Get up now I made breakfast” then she laughs and goes back in to the kitchen. Me and Eddie giggle and he gives me a hug from behind
“You heard the other metalhead... breakfast” he says and jumps out of bed and starts to dress.
“Come back I want a kiss and a bit of a snuggle before I eat” I say and reach out to pull him back. He pretends to resist but falls over back into bed. I crawl on top of him and kiss him then I lay my head on his chest and breath in the smell that is HIM. “Love you freak” I say
He wraps his arms around me real tight and kisses the top of my head “God I love you too weirdo...but...hungry” he moans and I laugh and roll off him.
“Ok, ok get dressed and go eat I'll be right behind you” I say and he beams at me getting out of bed and putting his shirt on and heading for the kitchen. I get up and I pick out a dress today, I wanna look nice when I convince Steve I have THE girl for him. I go out to join the two of them already in some deep discussion about the latest Metallica album. Leia made eggs, bacon, toast and coffee... Maybe I need a housekeeper I think to myself and giggle. They look up at me
“What?” Leia asks
“I just thought that I might need a housekeeper this is nice being spoilt like this”
“What the hell?! I make you pancakes all the time, why is this different I never get an offer to be a housekeeper” Eddie scuffs and pouts
“Awww sweetie I have another use for you” I say and kiss him, this puts a smile back on his face and Leia makes a grimace.
“Sickening...absolutely sickening how cute you two are” she shakes her head and continues eating. Eddie smiles and squeezes my thigh under the table. I know he loves to hear that we're cute together. Eddie and Leia are going to go job hunting today and I'm going to Family Video to talk to Steve. I already have a job lined up at City Hall. I'm going to work in their archives, keeping track of files, getting things for people that need to look something up etc. I found it in the paper the week before graduation and I applied. Haven't told Eddie I got it yet, I've said I'm waiting to hear back from a few places and that's why I'm taking on Steve today instead of jobs. I ride in with them and head on over to the video store.
“Hola chica! Isn't it nice being an responsible adult now that you've graduated?” Robin calls out when I enter.
“Responsible what? Never heard of it...have you?” I tease
“Ouch... But ok...no” she laughs “What no Munson today? What gives?”
“Him and my cousin are job hunting today. I'm set so I thought I'd come here and hang out with the only two other friends I have....which by the looks of it is only one today. No Steve?”
“You're set? You got the job at City Hall? Oh my God congratulations sweetie! We NEED to celebrate! Steve? Oh, no he's somewhere out back. We just got a new shipment in. Wait a sec” she hops down from the counter and goes in the back and I hear her shout
“HEY DINGUS! Jess is here come out of hiding” then she comes back out to me.
Doesn't take long for Steve to appear in the back door. He smiles at me and comes up and gives me a hug
“Hey! So how's adult life? Pain right?”
“Again with the adult thing... Would sound so much better coming from someone who actually knows what it's like” I say and make a face at him
“Damn... did you hear that Robin? She called me immature...or something” he looks fake hurt
“Yeah...she did the same to me... guess that's what happens when you get a hoytie toytie job at City Hall” Robin snorts and Steve stares at me
“YOU GOT IT!!! Wow Jess grats! We're celebrating right? Tonight?” he looks at me and I see that glimmer in his eyes and I know what he's thinking in ways of celebrating.
“Yeah... me and Edd we're thinking of having a small party tonight. But DON'T say anything when he gets here about the job. He thinks the party is for my cousin who just got here he doesn't know I got the job yet. Speaking of which.... Steeeve you love me right?”
He looks at me confused “Yeah... what do you need?”
“I don't need you to do anything but I want you to... meet my cousin I think you'll really like her. You saw her briefly at graduation” I give him my sweetest smile
“Hell yeah! A girl for Steve I'm in rooting all the way!” Robin claps her hands excitedly. Steve looks at me with a look that is hard to read
“Uhmm... yeah I guess I could meet her if you think I'll like her. I don't recall her I'm sorry I was talking to so many people that day” he gives me a apologetic smile
“Oh no worries, she remembered you though...thought you were hot” I wink at him and Robin lets out a long ooooh. Steve blushes
“She did? Cool” yup there it was I got his attention.
“Eddie and Leia, that's her name, will be here in a while. Then you'll get to meet her properly! They're out job hunting. Mind if I stick around here with you guys?” I ask and I see Steve is busy trying to remember who she is
“Nah it's cool you can stay out here with me while STEVE continues with the new shipment” Robin shouts Steves name to snap him out of his own mind
“Yeah, yeah you stay I go” he mumbles and leaves for the back again.
“You really messed with that mind of his now... There won't be any more unpacking out back today, he'll just stay standing wrecking his brain to figure out who your cousin is” Robin laughs
“I know, I'm sorry” I laugh. We talk about my new job, what having Leia here feels like. Since it's Friday there's quite a lot of customers coming in to get the weekend movies. Then I see Eddies van park outside and I feel those butterflies. Robin looks at me
“Still? Like it's been months and you still look at him like you've just met” she smiles then she sees Leia “The fuck? They related too? They look like the same person...wow”
“Yup, we decided Steve's gonna love her. She sounds like you, looks like Eddie and is related to me so she's a trifecta of awesomeness” I laugh
“Looks like Eddie? That's a selling point with Steve?” she looks surprised
“Well she's never not going to be related to me and I figured Steve wouldn't go for her as much if she sounds like Eddie and looks like you...sorry I love you but to Steve you're a sister. I mean I know he thinks Eddie looks good, he said so once. Drunk as a skunk but still” that's a nice way to put it that won't make Robin too curious.
“Hahahaha yeah I guess you're totally right there. Better to look like Munson and sound like me. So Steve thinks Eddie looks good...well I guess he does. If you're in to guys” she smiles making a mental note to tease Steve later
“Don't make him feel bad about it Robin... it was just a drunken thing trying to make me feel better about liking Eddie” I say and she nods
“Yeah ok, I guess I would have said it too in that situation” she hugs me. The bell on the door goes off and Eddie and Leia come in.
“Babe! I've missed you...this one is not a good substitute... She's meeeean” he pouts and Leia laughs
“What! I just said I didn't have your love coloured glasses on so he couldn't get away with any old crap” she shrugs and smiles at us “Hi I'm Leia, Jess's cousin” she shakes hand s with Robin who actually blushes
“Hi, Robin... You're very pretty...oh...wait...sorry... I like your look” what the hell Robin's never this awkward
“Thanks! Doesn't make me look to much like this douche though right?” Leia points at Eddie
“See babe...mean” he comes up and throws himself into my arms
“Aww there, there” I say and stroke his head “I'll make it better later” then I kiss his forehead. Leia looks at Robin and rolls her eyes
“Fucking sickening am I right?”
“I knoooow right? So sweet it makes you gag” Robin's snapped out of her awkwardness apparently. We hear the door in the back slam and I look at Eddie
“Ok this is it” I whisper he nods at me. Leia and Robin are talking and having a good time when we see Steve coming out from the back room. He stops dead in his tracks just staring at Leia, then he stares at us and back at her. I can see he's getting nervous, his hand darts up to his head and he runs his fingers through his hair. It's his thing when his nerves gets the better of him.
“Hey Steve, come meet my cousin Leia” I say and he flinches and I see a pink tint hit his cheeks.
“Oh, yeah... Hi... Steve is me” he waves at her and gives the weirdest looking smile I've ever seen
“Hell man...you alright?” Eddie roars at him and me, Robin and Leia laugh as well
“Fuck” we hear him say under his breath then he sighs and looks up again “Sorry, hi I'm Steve. Nice to meet you Leia.”
“Nice to meet you too, Steve. That's you” she says and winks at him
“Yeah... that happens sometimes... especially when I meet pretty girls” there's King Steve again, me and Eddie look at each other and smile.
“Oh, thank you. I mean I assume you mean me because you've met the only other girls in here before. I'm just not used to guys looking like you getting nervous s'all” I hear Eddie whisper in my ear “oooh she's good” I nod at him and smile. Robin looks over at us and raises an eyebrow to say she's also impressed.
“So Steve, you coming to this party these two are throwing me tonight?” Leia continues
“Party... yeah of course I'll be there. When and where?” Steve turns to me
“My place, like 7ish” I say and smile
“Count me in, you coming to Rob?”
“If they'll have me I'm there” Robin smiles
“Great I'll drive, pick you up at like 6:30 then” Steve's beaming now.
“You do that Steve” Robin smiles at Leia and winks at her. Leia smirks back at her.
“Yeah we better head out if we're having company tonight” I say “see you guys later then” Leia waves at the two of them, Eddie takes a bow and I smile. Right before I get to the door Steve grabs me pulls me in to hug me and whispers in my ear
“Thank you” there and then I knew I did good, he likes her and I know just the reason why
“You're welcome sweetie, this is the best I could do for you. Eddie with a pussy” I whisper back and he gasps
“Minx... why'd you have to say that. How am I gonna get through this day now? Huh? Think she'll like me though?”
“I know she does” I whisper and then I pull away blowing them both a kiss and head out the door. I get to the van and Edd and Leia are both looking at me
“What was that?” Eddie smiles he has his suspicions I see
“He just thanked me for introducing him to someone this fine” I say and smile at Leia who has the common decency to blush
“Oh c'mon he did not say that” she starts
“Yeah he actually did, and he's worried you won't like him back so I kinda said you already did because you remembered him from graduation. Soooo... happy humping Friday I guess” I smirk at her
“HA! Yeah right... I don't think he'll wanna fuck me right away. My personality might be to much for him in the long run”
“Hey... he's best friends with that one” I say and I nod over to Eddie grinning in the drivers seat.
“Yup, 10 years and counting. I think he'll survive anything you throw at him... or you in to some really fucked up shit in the bedroom?” Eddie smirks at her
“Thank you... yeah I'm a straight up weirdo in the sheets... dude I'm 19...haven't had the opportunity enough times to develop any weird kinks...” Eddie laughs so hard he almost drives off the road.
“I like her babe, she'll be perfect for Stevie-boy!” he says and dries his tears of laughter.
We head to the grocery store to pick up some stuff for the party. Then we head home, Eddie goes in to beg Wayne to get us some alcohol. Which he is reluctant to do. But when I go over and tell him we're just going to stay at my place and celebrate graduation and Leia's arrival he caves and goes in to town for us. That and I gave him some money to get himself a bottle of his favourite whiskey. That was probably the thing that convinced him the most.
We tidy up the place and Leia shows off her culinary skills when she makes us a whole Texas BBQ dinner pulling out all the stops. Eddie is still muttering in his corner
“I can cook too you know” I kiss him and say
“I know babe, but look at that food... I mean... really?” he sighs and has to agree that nothing he can make would be even close to that delicious.
“I'm lucky she's your cousin...or I'd be out in a heartbeat” he mumbles
“Nah babe, she's the great cook but you're the AWESOME cock remember that” I purr in his ear and that makes him smile widely at me
“Baaabe, thank you... He loves you too” he whispers back and pulls me closer
“HEY! None of that now! Fucking do something useful” Leia scolds us playfully. We finish what little is left to do then we get ourselves some beers and sit down in the couch to wait for Wayne to come back. He arrives 10 minutes later with the things we ordered. We give him a big plate of food and he grumpily thanks Leia and gives her a half hug and a smile.
“Damn he likes you!” Eddie smiles
“That's him liking someone? Wow... he's not much for emotions is he?” she says and looks at Wayne as he heads back home looking at the plate of food smiling to himself.
“Nope, that skipped a generation I got it all” he says and throws himself at me kissing my face all over
“Yeah yeah we know” Leia sighs “wanna go sit outside. This place needs some fresh air, and so do I” we agree and we go out and sit down at the table outside and eat the amazing food Leia made us. Eddie's bandmates from Corroded Coffin are the first to arrive. They all comment how Eddie never said he had a twin and that it was weird how they could be so much alike when Leia was so pretty and he was not. We all laugh at this and agree that maybe Leia would be a better frontman in the band...maybe they'd even get some people to their gigs with her as lead. Eddie mutters something about ungrateful asses, but he's smiling. Dustin and Mike come over, they're a bit young for this as I said to Eddie but he assures me they're not drinking and if they do he'll call Nancy to get them. I agree to them staying, they're fun so ok then. We see Steves car turning in to the trailer park and I see Leia's cheeks turn pink. Yeah she likes him I can tell.
Steve and Robin get out of the car and the first thing Robin blurts out is
“Oh my god, lucky I came here...you two are drowning in dick here...” everyone stares at her...you could hear a pin drop then a roar unleashes as Eddie loses it completely
“Fucking hell Buckley I love you...what a weird and totally random thing to say instead of hello” everyone is laughing now and Robin is a darker shade of beetroot in the face. I hug her and say
“Sweetie... we've talked about this... Maybe not say EVERYTHING that pops into your mind” she gives me a nervous giggle
“I don't know what that was... I just saw you two amongst all these guys and well... there you go...brain fart” Leia comes up to us and gives Robin a hug too
“That was the best thing I've ever heard. You're a fucking rock star Robin! Lets get you a drink” they leave and go inside to get e drink. Steve comes up to me
“Hey Jess, I look ok? I asked Robin...she's teased me about it since we left her house...” I look him over, frown, hmm a bit
“Yes, I'd say you look fuckable. But wait... Hey Edd c'mere” Eddie excuses himself from the other guys and comes up to us
“Hey Steve, what can I do for you babe?” he says and I lean in and I whisper in his ear.
He eyes Steve up and down a big grin over his face “Yeah definitely babe, what you said” then he winks at Steve and goes back to the others.
“Yeah, thanks...” Steve blushes “not exactly what I was thinking of but I'll take it”
“Steve, it's me here... that was EXACTLY what you wanted to know. She fucking blushed when she saw you arriving so...yeah I'd say go for it. Eddie and me are sleeping at his place tonight so the trailer and Leia is... available” I tell him in a low voice so that the other s don't catch on and ruin things for him. He lets out a small gasp
“You think she'd do that? With me? I mean... you know why I felt instantly drawn to her...but like... she's into me too? For real?”
“Hey King Steve, what the hell is this insecure shit? You rule remember that! Use your magic dude, it's been too long... and yeah she's into you” I push him towards the door and follow him inside. We head over to where Robin and Leia are standing and I see Leia looking at Steve and blushing again. I smile at Robin who glances at Leia sees what I see and nod.
“Yeah, I'm gonna go outside now before the tension in here becomes unbearable...and I'm taking Jess with me. You two have fun” Robin grabs me the second we get to them and drags me back outside. I laugh
“Poor them, both so nervous and then you pull that on them... Good girl!”
“Well knowing Steve he's all cocky until push comes to shove then he's just a babbling fool. Better leave him to do that on his own instead” she smirks at me. We join the guys outside and Eddie raises an eyebrow at me questioning. I nod at him and smile. We stay outside quite a while and no sight of Steve and Leia yet. It's getting a bit chilly so we decide to head inside. When I open the door I see Steve and Leia pull apart on the couch and I giggle. I just look at them and I nod reassuringly, I won't say anything. Leia looks happy as hell and Steve is beaming. Oh I did good! When everyone is seated somewhere and talking, having a good time I steal Eddie away for a moment.
“Hey babe” I kiss him deeply “guess what I saw when I opened the door for us all earlier... The plan worked” Eddie looks at me then he gets it and he laughs
“Yeah? Good boy Steve! So kissing or heavier stuff?”
“Nah just kissing but you and I are staying at your place tonight” I smirk and give him a wink
“Hell yeah, I'm not listening to that” he chuckles
“Oh and another thing babe... I got the job at City Hall” I say and kiss him again
“WHAT!?” he lifts me up and spins me around “That's fucking awesome babe! Now I can be a housewife like I always wanted” he giggles and kisses me down my neck grabbing my ass and squeezing it tight.
“Of course you can, I'll bring home the bacon and you just stay here looking pretty and satisfy my every need when I get home” I say and press my tits against his chest making him gasp. Then I pull away and head back to the living room
“Tease” I hear behind me as I feel a slap on my ass.
The party was fun,but by 2 am everyone starts to drop off and leave. Even Robin went home, she got a ride with one of Eddies bandmates. Only me, Eddie, Steve and Leia are left sitting in the living room.
“So ok, new sheets are in the cupboard opposite the bathroom and condom's are in the upper drawer in my bedside table” I say and take Eddies hand “Let's leave these two to do what they've been waiting for all fucking night” Eddie smiles and gets up. Slaps Steve on the side of the head and chuckles
“Fuck her brains out Stevie-boy, I know you have it in ya”
The two of them look like they've been struck by lightning then they blush and can't look at each other let alone us.
“Oh c'mon... seriously? You want her and she wants you... Didn't look like you were having a bad time when I interrupted you here on the couch earlier... fucking get going now! Happy humping see you in the morning” I say and me and Eddie leave to go to bed at his place. When we shut the door behind us we both start to giggle uncontrollably and as we walk away I say
“I know you have it in ya? Really Eddie I almost fell over there... I thought Steve was going to die. I think he thought you were going to tell her”
“I knoooow I saw that too, pale as a ghost. But I think this is going to be awesome for them both they look so cute together... I mean they're no match for us but cute enough” He hugs me from behind and kisses my neck.
“No one is as cute as us Edd, and no one has the cock I have to play with! So I fucking win at life” I push my ass out so it presses against his cock. I can feel it growing in his jeans.
“Oooh you dirty girl, fuck I love you. Hurry up and get inside so I can drive this cock down your throat!” he growls at me. I moan and prick up the pace. We sneak in so we don't wake up Wayne, but we see the bottle of whiskey on the table is almost empty so we know he's not waking up any time soon.
“Shower first babe, wanna join me?” I say and Eddie purrs in my ear
“Yeah...gladly. I can help get you all kinds of wet and slippery” I giggle and we head for the shower. There's some steamy touching in there but I want the bed so I can really have my way with Eddie's body. We dry off and walk to the bedroom arms wrapped around each other kissing. Since we haven't slept here for a while the room is a bit stuffy so I go and open the window a bit. Then we hear it...
“Oh hell they did what we told them at least” Eddie chuckles as the unmistakeable sounds of some great sex sounds through the night. “but babe we can do better than that” he grins and throws me on the bed.
“If we do better than that we WILL wake up Wayne” I giggle “just you concentrate on filling me with your cum and we'll leave the loud screams to those two” I say and look deep into Eddies eyes. He moans
“Oh I'll fill you right up... don't you worry your sexy ass about that”
He straddles me and moves up so he's sitting on my chest cock out right in front of me. I lick my lips and he groans
“Take it... take as much as you can”
I open my mouth for him and he sticks the tip in so I can suck off the pre-cum already oozing out of him. Then he pushes in further and further keeping eye contact with me all the while. His hand grabs my hair as his cock I all down my throat and I feel his pubes on my nose. He pulls out and then he starts to fuck my mouth, not as deep as that first stroke because he knows I hate to gag. I grab his ass and help him with the pace. He moans coarsely as he fucks my face. He looks down at me
“Fucking hell this is hot, seeing you like that with my cock I that deep in your mouth. But I wanna go deep somewhere else babe, I guess the lube is in your place?” he pulls his cock out of my mouth and I whine, I like sucking him.
“Yeah it is... I didn't think of that sorry” I say
“Babe, we did just fine before you bought it remember” he kisses me deeply and slides down the bed kissing my body as he goes. He lifts my legs and places them on his shoulders, then he licks the length of my pussy down towards my ass.
“Yessss Eddie... I remember... ooooh fuuuuck... yeah eat me” he licks my folds and works my clit with tongue and mouth then he moved further down and starts licking my ass. He slides one finger in there lubing it up good with his spit, then two fingers, then three! He stretches my ass so that I can take him in. I squirm in his arms, I want to feel him inside me so bad
“Edd....fuck me... fuck my ass” I pant and he puts my legs down from his shoulders and he positions himself so that he can press his cock in to my tight asshole. Slowly, slowly he enters, I feel him spitting down on his cock to lube it more. Finally he hits bottom and he growls.
“Jess... this ass... fuuuuuck” he grabs my hands with one of his and pins them above my head then he grabs my tits with the other one as he starts to move faster in my ass. He impales me completely and I feel dizzy from the pleasure, I look up at him and the fire in those smouldering eyes is so full of heat and love I almost wanna cry. But then he lets go of my tits and starts circling his thumb on my clit and pushing two fingers in my pussy. Fuck crying! I'm screaming now! I come so hard I feel like I pass out for a second. When I come back Eddie is moaning louder and louder fucking me as hard as I can take it
“Come for me babe, come in my ass I wanna feel you fill my ass with your cum...please Eddie” I moan and he pushes in hard one last time with a growl and I feel the throbbing of his cock releasing in me. He falls over to the side of me panting
“I still can't believe I get to do this with you” he says “ I still think I might wake up and it's just one of the old daydreams I used to have about you” he pulls me in and kisses me
“Still? After all this time? You better start believing babe because if you haven't figured it out yet I'm not going anywhere” I say and I roll out of bed to go clean myself so I don't make a sticky mess in the bed. I hear him chuckle at me
“I just fucked that ass...yay me!” I hear from the bed and I laugh, sometimes he's just such a fucking idiot. I clean off and go beck to bed and lay down and let Eddies strong arms wrap around me. We fall asleep almost instantly.
When we wake up the sun is shining in through the open window and we can hear Wayne talking to someone in the other room. I stretch and I realise I'm alone in the bed. Oh, Eddie woke up before me. I get up and I get dressed and head out in to the kitchen. There's Wayne and Eddie drinking coffee.
“Morning my men” I say and smile at them. I even get a smile from Wayne.
“Morning babe, there's coffee. You looked so peaceful I didn't wanna wake you up” Eddie smiles at me.
“Been up for a long time?” I ask
“Nah about 30 minutes...both of us” Eddie chuckles, Wayne smiles
“Yeah...that whiskey hit good last night” he grunts “Thanks sweetie” he adds
“You're welcome Wayne. Seen those two?” I ask Eddie motioning towards my trailer
“Nope no sightings as of yet” he smiles Wayne looks confused “Jess set up Steve with her cousin, and things went well...you know” Eddie explains
“Oh, well good for him! Well, her too I suppose...but mostly him, he's been looking lonely since the two of you...well... became this” he says “she's a very pretty girl, she might be able to do better” he chuckles. We laugh and agree with him. We sit there and talk to Wayne some more, I tell him about getting the job he's very happy for me. Then we head outside to get some air and wait for signs of life from my place. We don't have to wait long before the door opens and Leia bursts out the door and runs up to me throwing herself around my neck. At first I panic thinking Steve hurt her and she's upset. But she just goes
“Thank you! Thank you! THANK YOU!” then she throws herself around Eddies neck and does the same and runs back to my trailer.
“Uhmmm... I'm going to guess last night was... a success” I say and we break down laughing. We sit there laughing a bit then Steve and Leia come out from my trailer holding hands looking...so fucking cute. Even Eddie lets out a “Awww look at them” before I do.
“Well... I take it you took my advice?” I ask
“Yeah... we took your advice... 5 times over” Leia giggles and Steve groans
“They might not need to know everything” he says
“Of course we do...c'mon we wanna hear about length, girth, stamina and technique” Eddie says “Lets hear it Leia, he did good or do I need to have a talk with him about the birds and the bees” I love Eddie, not even hinting that he knew all of this already from his own personal point of view. Leia blushes and wraps one arm around Steves waist
“He did VERY good...” she beams and Steve looks embarrassed
“Oh Stevie-boy, don't be like that. We're just teasing. I didn't think you'd suck... you wouldn't have gotten the rep you have from being bad in the sack dude” Eddie chuckles
“Fuck Munson... Making me sound like a fucking Casanova here...” Steve blushes
“Don't worry babe, Robin did that last night I already knew you used to be a ladies man...” Leia reaches up and kisses him, he looks stunned. Then he looks at me
“I didn't know... Robin had some alone time with her before you and I came in. She didn't say what they talked about... But then I guess it was you” I smirk at him
“I'm going to go with Steve to his place... Let you have your home back” Leia smiles at me and I feel so happy I could burst. I hug her and tell her that she just smiles and says she feels the same. She walks back to the trailer to get her stuff and when she's out of reach Steve looks at us
“So... thank you both. For not telling her... and Jess...you were right”
“About what?” I say
“That there” he looks back at the girl now disappearing in to the trailer “IS Munson with a pussy...”
Eddie roars “You said that?” he looks at me
“Weeell... I might have said something in the lines of the best I could do finding him an Eddie with a pussy” I give him a mischievous smile
“I fucking love you babe.” Eddie laughs
“I love you too, both of you! Maybe I can have what you have now... If she'll have me for longer than a weekend” Steve says
“Oh I think you're set for life there Stevie-boy” Eddie punches him softly on the arm “Gonna miss you joining us though, I did like that dick of yours...I think we both did” Eddie squeezes my ass
“We sure did, but it's Leia's dick now. We had out time with it” I reach up and kiss Steve on the cheek “Love you Steve and I'm so happy I could do this for you”
Eddie stands and pulls Steve in for a hug
“Congrats man, she's a keeper. I mean she's me with a pussy you won the fucking lottery man” Eddie smiles at him and Steve chuckles
“Yeah I did didn't I”
Leia comes back with her things and they leave. Me and Eddie sit in the sunlight for a little longer. I feel like everything's going to be just fine in this my little corner of the world
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i think my little brother and best friend might also be aroace
my brother who's in middle school openly hates kissing scenes/romance in movies and for a while i thought it was just a normal kid thing? i was the same way although i've sort of grown numb to romance/started thinking 'oh, that's kinda cute.'
but i've been looking it up and- most kids have crushes really young? like genuine crushes? in elementary/middle school? and my brother still hates romance. is this a normal thing? is he just still too young?
and my best friend has never had a partner nor expressed any interest in one around me (and we've been really close for years, we tell each other most things about our lives). we've never really talked about crushes/romance (not that i've had any crushes) and i think most people our age are thinking about that sort of thing? (we're in high school)
but then again i have another good friend who doesn't really have a partner/any interest in one and i'm not as close to them but don't most people like... talk about this stuff? i know people around me are interested in romance and everything, right?
is there a chance that we're all aroace? like, am i just projecting? what are the chances of all of us being aroace? i don't know. i want to bring it up to them in case they are and just haven't realized but i just- i don't want to assume and yet?
i'm so conflicted. sorry for the long ask but i just needed to say something because i can't stop thinking about it
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Hitagi Honeymoon
009
“Well, well, I never thought I'd see the day when I could accompany the esteemed Araragi-senpai and the beloved Senjougahara-senpai on their honeymoon! There can be no greater honor! Oh, dear me, I seem to have let my excitement get the better of me. That's right, she’s no longer Senjougahara-senpai— she's the beloved Araragi-senpai! The honeymoon of the esteemed Araragi-senpai and the beloved Araragi-senpai!”
“Sharing a surname in marriage is trickier than I thought, especially for someone as inflexible as you. Uh, if Hitagi is trying to force her senpai persona on you just to have you tag along, please let me know before she arrives? I'll say something on your behalf.”
Descending from the mountain after seeking the guidance of the local deity, I made my way towards the rendezvous point— the Kanbaru residence. There at the entrance, I was greeted by my lively high school junior who was waiting with great anticipation.
As a medical student aspiring to be a sports doctor, she was wearing a white coat over her tracksuit— a rather inappropriate attire for a honeymoon, but then again, this wasn't Kanbaru's honeymoon.
By the way, when she served as a bridesmaid at our wedding, she had worn a pure white tuxedo-like outfit, stealing the spotlight not from the bride but from the groom instead.
Since retiring from the basketball team, she had grown her hair out a bit, but now it looked shorter, not quite a buzz cut, but shorter than when we first met. Well, being in the medical field, even as a student, was a bit more demanding than playing sports, I guess.
“Hmph, what do you think you're saying, Araragi-senpai? I've always dreamed of attending a party to bid farewell to your single lives ever since high school, and here you are testing me.”
“Planning such a thing since high school, huh…”
“Surpassing my dream, I am elated and surprised to be whisked away on your honeymoon. Speaking of surprises, I always thought you two would certainly get married, but I never expected you to become an FBI agent!”
“It's quite a surprise that you're aiming to be a doctor yourself… umm, medical school takes six years, right?”
“Yes, I'm graduating the year after next, so it's the perfect timing for me as well. There couldn't be a better timing for joining the two of you on your trip. It must be a reward from the gods.”
“I met that god just now. She says she'll pray for clear skies over Tochigi, all the way from a far-off mountain.”
Well, I don’t think a snail god can control the weather— but it did provide me with some comfort. At the very least, it cleared away one of my doubts.
“Hehe, to think of going to Senjougahara with Araragi-senpai, that's an idea that could only come from you, Araragi-senpai. I'm truly impressed.”
“Hm…? Did you mean Hitagi by the first Araragi-senpai?”
“Who else would there be?”
“Won't you call her Hitagi-senpai?”
“I could never presume to do something so bold.”
Ah, flexibility, it seems we've got none of that around here.
Whether coming of age or reuniting, it seems it’s always going to be a bit complicated dealing with a junior who’s climbed aboard the bandwagon. It was endearing, but that didn’t make it any less convoluted.
“Speaking of which, you and Hitagi were quite a convoluted pair, as well. When you were known the Senjougahara and Kanbaru— uh, what was it called again?”
“The Valhalla Duo. I hope you don't forget it— it's a treasured memory of mine.”
“Sorry… though I have to say it was a title you came up with yourself. I wanted to forget that origin. In hindsight, could Tochigi Prefecture’s Senjougahara have been similar to Valhalla?”
It was completely different since it was a battleground for gods, but the imagery seems somewhat close. At the very least, they both shared elements of mythology.
“Hmm. In middle school, I knew about Valhalla but not about the Senjougahara battlefield. If I had known about it, I might've called ourselves the Senjougahara Duo.”
“Your involvement would be lost if you did that… Although it's interesting to think about it, your name does include the word 'god'; it somehow suits you as the master of the North Shirahebi Shrine, rather than Hachikuji.”
“I wanted to become a doctor more than a god.”
It's quite incredible how resolutely she put it.
I could never say that I became a police officer, an FBI agent, or even a college student simply because I wanted to.
“To become an FBI agent without even wanting to be one only highlights the extraordinariness of you, Araragi-senpai. But then, why Washington?”
“It was supposed to be for Hitagi, but things have a way of not going as planned. We ended up being a married but separate couple for a while after tying the knot.”
“That's quite like Araragi-senpai too.”
“Which Araragi-senpai are you talking about?”
“I meant Araragi-senpai.”
Ah, it’s hard to tell… The distinction couldn’t be made through wordplay or different intonations. How does the world conduct itself in this matter? When two old acquaintances get married, how do they differentiate between each other?
“Even if I were to take on the Senjougahara family name, it wouldn't save me from this confusion. What do you think about this, Kanbaru? Since your mother is Gaen-san's sister, you could have been Gaen Suruga, right?”
“Who knows? After all, my parents eloped, so now, even whether they officially registered their marriage is questionable.”
“Could that really be the case?”
“Although I did introduce her as Kanbaru Tooe, it's not like I personally looked into my family's official records when I was just an elementary schooler. However, for Mom, considering the circumstances, she might have wanted to change my last name— to cut ties with the Gaen family.”
“Ah, yeah, Gaen-san’s family is a complicated one.”
“To be honest, it's difficult for me to answer the question, 'What if I were Gaen Suruga?' Regardless, if it had not been for the Kanbaru family taking me in after my parents passed away in an accident, I wouldn't be who I am today.”
I see…
More than just a name, it symbolized her identity. If the term family unity encompassed such things, it was indeed difficult to dismiss outright.
At the very least, completely refuting it wouldn't be fair.
“As for the issue of couples having the same or different surnames, I don't really have any comments to make. Personally, I'd rather see the laws regarding same-sex partnership systems put in place first. But even once that's settled, insisting on having the same last name might seem like a joke. As I mentioned before, I do have an attachment to my own last name, Kanbaru. However, I can understand the desire to share a name with the one you love. If I were still in high school, I wouldn't have hesitated to give up my grandparents' name to become Senjougahara Suruga.”
Yeah.
I suppose that's one way to think about it, and it should be respected. After all, even without being married, one might say that you should let others have their own chosen name.
I wonder if Hitagi thought about it that way too? Araragi Hitagi does have a nice ring to it, but it might have just been a playful whim.
“Suppose, there was a time in high school when you had the opportunity to become Hanekawa Koyomi, you’d have done it, wouldn’t you? Regardless of whether it led to dating or marrying later on?”
“Aah, actually, that’s right. I even wanted to become Araragi Tsubasa.”
“In a ‘wanna be like her’ way.”
“Well, I suppose in a broader sense, that's cosplay or something like that, but there's just something about the desire to merge with someone or something you love that's just irresistible. You might call it fusion, or maybe assimilation—”
Maybe that was the case even for vampires— the mechanism of being bitten and turning into a vampire through infection could be seen as similar. It was an unexplainable rationale otherwise.
“…So it's the feeling of being legally obliged to do that which makes it less appealing, I guess. It would have been nicer if the system allowed for mixing both options, sort of like averaging the two, rather than being forced to choose one of them.”
“Something like Senjougahararagi Koyomi?”
“Divided by two.”
“Gaharagi Koyomi and Gaharagi Hitagi?”
I had only said it based on my vague knowledge of some countries being like that, but it fits surprisingly well. Gaharagi.
Even Hachikuji doesn’t stutter like that.
“If it were about you and Hitagi's last names, you'd probably be called Valhalla Hitagi and Valhalla Suruga, right?”
“Not too bad.”
“Though I must say, there's no vibe of a finance investor and a sports doctor in that.”
“Ah, as for you and Oshino-san, it’s gotta be Arashino Koyomi. So cool.”
“Don't marry me off to Oshino. And the kanji would change.”
“It’d still be Arashino Koyomi if you married Shinobu-chan, though.”
“Hasn't my sense of values been updated? I thought I reached a point where I can't marry little girls anymore?”
Seriously though, marriage aside, what’s up with the bonds of names? It's like the entire family system is designed to bind individuals through their names— not just aberrations.
“That's why I decided to keep the Shinobu part of her name, if I were to adopt Shinobu as a foster child of Hitagi and me.”
“Eh? A foster child?”
“Oh man, I haven’t told you. Well, I've been secretly working on a plan. I was thinking of discussing it in the car, actually. After all, it's not like I can keep Shinobu in the shadows from my partner all the time we're married.”
“Wait a moment, Araragi-senpai. Are you planning something like this without telling Araragi-senpai?”
“If you mean Hitagi by Araragi-senpai, then yes. I initially planned on making it a surprise, but I received a divine revelation to not even attempt that. So, instead, I've decided to casually bring it up during our car ride.”
“I'd like to offer my own divine advice as well. Although I have no intention of meddling with your marital affairs, I think both surprising her and casually mentioning it in the car are not the best ways to go about it,” she said with a stern face.
Was it her medical background that made her feel this way? It felt more like I had just been diagnosed with a serious illness.
A second opinion, huh?
“Well… then, how should I tell her? If both a surprise and a casual conversation are off the table, what do you suggest? Speaking with my eyes?”
“Just tell her there’s something important you need to discuss with her. Bring it up the same way you did when you proposed to her.”
“How did you know I proposed?”
“Well, it's because I received a very long phone call right after it happened.”
“She hasn’t changed at all since high school, has she.”
I don’t think she was playing me up to her junior.
But, maybe it wouldn't be inaccurate to say the same about myself in high school. On closer observation, this also wasn’t something to be mentioned casually.
Marriage problems.
Right, because this was a problem.
When it comes to unity, wasn’t it actually downright indolent of me to have left Shinobu, who is, in a sense, one with me, inextricably linked to me, and with whom I share a common destiny, hanging in the air as we held our candlelit ceremony?
To adopt her and have her bound to my name seemed like a wise foresight, But wasn't it also quite the hindsight, in that it had come too little too late?
After all, as someone still attending the academy, I couldn’t quite shake off my student-like mentality. Though I wasn't a particularly studious individual, I was working in law enforcement, and such a disposition was certainly unbecoming.
“To Hitagi, it’s a bigamous marriage to begin with. The unbreakable bond of blood that exists between me and Shinobu is something she’s probably not comfortable with, which is why adopting her might be met with resistance.”
It's easy to sweep things under the rug by saying we shouldn't worry about it because she's an aberration, a ghost, a sister, or a corpse. But those excuses only work until you're out of high school, or perhaps up through the Heisei era.
“No, Araragi-senpai. As your junior, I can agree with you up to the point of considering her as a little sister. However, even high school me would be slightly bothered by a corpse. In any case, I understand there may be some things on your conscience, but surely you haven't forgotten?”
My junior Kanbaru, a.k.a. medical student Kanbaru, was attempting to continue her diagnosis of me, the patient. But, in that instant, a loud and somewhat obnoxious car horn rang out, interrupting our contemplative debate outside the Kanbaru family gate. The honking was quite rude by city standards, but it was my dear wife responsible for the commotion.
Araragi Hitagi's minivan— the ultimate combination of practicality and leisure— pulled up to join us. Just as I had ordered, a child seat was installed in the rear of the vehicle.
For now, we'd had to make do with a rented one, but eventually we'd invest in a custom made, heirloom-quality model that would last us a lifetime.
With a press of a button, the side door swung open, revealing that Hitagi's car— far from the old-fashioned type she tended to favor— was completely under electronic control. At the very least, I could safely assume this vehicle wasn't haunted, like the aforementioned corpse doll.
“Alright, let's go, Araragi-senpai. I've always been excited by the prospect of glamping— a combination of camping and glamor, after all.”
“Please don't take our glamping honeymoon so grammatically, Kanbaru-kun.”
It seemed she had already switched gears beautifully, but I wondered what Kanbaru was going to say. Regarding the issue of adoption, there was a lingering sense of unease, but nevertheless, our two-night, three-day honeymoon trip to the lost Senjougahara was to begin.
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sorry guys but it's been too long, i have no choice but to write a long post about, my job,
okay so my job is to be a part-time youth services assistant at a small branch library in a low-income, historically black community; we're a five-minute walk from both a middle school and an elementary school, with the outcome that we get a whole bunch of unattended kids after school, especially middle schoolers.
i am not at all anti-middle schooler, but they can be a difficult bunch to accommodate in the library because they are just figuring out that they do not always have to do what random grown-ups tell them—a realization which i generally wish to encourage—but they are not yet very good at impulse control or situation assessment, and we are still responsible for enforcing various library rules with them
a lot of youth "discipline" (ugh) makes me feel really miserable and defensive. we try really hard to only enforce rules that are important, to provide clear limits and communicate consistently, and avoid making teens feel unwelcome in the library. our whole youth department and management team is white (so that is. for scale. 5 people), and almost all of our teens are black; they feel it sharply and we feel it sharply, and i don't really think there's any kind of fix for it, but we're always thinking about it
we also have some teens who are occasionally like. sorry this is stupid. really mean? they're really mean! like i was once mocked by a group of them for "having pronouns" and asked loudly & repeatedly if i had a penis. technically i think that might be sexual harassment? anyway it sucked for the record, i didn't like it! one of my coworkers has a visible disability, and some of them will say horrible shit to her about it. i think all of us have been called anti-gay slurs. so that's miserable too, even though it feels kind of ridiculous to be like "this thirteen-year-old hurt my feelings." like, okay, grow up! but also. they did hurt my feelings, they did make me feel unsafe, even though realistically i have all the institutional power in that interaction
there have also been a ton of physical fights around the library this year. there's been a national uptick as far as i can tell in violent incidents in middle schools, which i am not saying as some kind of stupid, awful "crime wave" nonsense, but because i think it indicates that a lot of children are having an extremely bad time for reasons which are pretty obvious. so on the one hand, i would like to provide some kind of assistance to these children, who have reasons for trying to beat the shit out of each other five feet away from the library doors, and on the other hand i really need them to not hurt each other and especially not at the library, and by the time they're beating the shit out of each other we can't really adjudicate disputes. so like, what the fuck does one do here?? i don't have a community organization to refer them to, there are no decent services that we've been able to find, and our formal policy as a library system is to call the fucking cops. it sucks!! it sucks so bad i hate it!!!
there are libraries that have been working to integrate restorative justice practices, but none in our state. we don't have any kind of institutional buy-in from the rest of the district & efforts to find a local org that could help with some kind of transformative justice process have been unsuccessful, so we are kind of at a loss. like we're getting by but it's just getting by, you know, and i feel like there's a lot of kids we're not reaching in part because of the "discipline" issues—some who feel unwelcome because of over-enforcement, some who feel unsafe because under-enforcement means their bullies are around a lot.
i just want the library to be a place that is as safe & welcoming for as many people as it can be, & i don't see how we can get there when we have some teens who treat hitting each other & making library staff uncomfortable as a form of entertainment, and we have some library staff who are near burnout or suspicious of & unsympathetic to teens. horrible impasse!!!!!
if you have thoughts please share :(
#vocational awe diaries :')#i feel like we're just spinning our wheels on this stuff & it sucks hardcore
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