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marleysfinest · 7 months
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Hi Mar! Congratulations for the milestone! ✨ I see you open your request and I'd love to join the event. can I please request Erwin x female reader (she/her) with prompt 4? Something about myself, I'm shorter than Levi (5'0) 😂 but also in my 30s. Reserved and tactical but not as brave as our Commander 🥲 what turns me on, I like power dynamic/authority play/fight for dominance but I don't like degradation. I hope that's enough from me. Thank you in advance and have a nice day 💕
thank u sweetness!! oooooh I've never written for Erwin before, this is going to be fun...
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erwin x f reader (she/her). prompt: close your eyes. 18+minors dni
cw: pet names (kitten, baby, daddy), bdsm if you squint (tying up)
smut below the cut!
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you finish cleaning up the last part of the kitchen counter, scooping the rogue crumbs into the palm of your hand while erwin rinses the last of the dishes. this is your usual evening routine when you spend the night at his place; quiet buzzing as you both undertake your own chores without complaining, returning erwin's sophisticated kitchen and dining room to its original cleanliness. you're so in the zone that you don't notice that he's finished doing the dishes long before you're done with the countertops, and it's only when you glance at him that you notice him standing, arms crossed, staring at you hungrily with his towel slung over his shoulder, as he leans against the sink.
"what?" you ask, unable to help the smile spreading across your own face. you mimic his stance and cross your arms over your chest, eliciting an amused huff from your beau.
"nothing," he replies, "just lookin' at you. that alright?"
you narrow your eyes, knowing that he's up to something more. it takes a lot to distract him from his evening glass of red wine, something he enjoys without fail every night after dinner. you shake your head, amused by his attempt at being dark and brooding.
"if you must," you sigh, heading for the wine rack and pulling out a bottle of pinot noir, "are you partaking tonight, or do you have other plans?"
erwin pulls the towel off his shoulder and places it gently on the countertop before sidling over to you. when he's in front of you, towering above you like a skyscraper, you're reminded of the sheer size difference between the two of you; he can hold you in the palm of his hand in more ways than one. your eyes meet, and his gaze bores into you in a way that makes you weak at the knees, but you won't admit that. despite never growing tired of the way he bosses you around and reduces you to a puddle day after day, you'd rather die than give him the satisfaction of letting him know that for certain. he takes the bottle from your hand and sets it down.
"close your eyes."
his command is soft, but absolute. it's not a question, nor an option. knowing that he was likely on the brink of a game, and you wouldn't want to disappoint him, you oblige with a smile. erwin places his hand gently on your cheek, running his thumb over your cheekbone with a feathery touch, sending shivers throughout your body.
"you're so beautiful," he whispers, his eyelids lowering to soften his gaze, before leaning in to plant a kiss on your lips. as ever, he manages to marry the softness with an intensity that bubbles beneath the surface, and soon he's scooping you onto the counter to bring you face-to-face with him. his tongue slides into your mouth, his teeth nip at your lip, and a desperation leaks from him that wasn't there before. although, who are you to question it? you certainly don't protest while he slips his hands beneath the waistband of your sweats, and slides them completely off easier than he would his own. you match his desperation by unbuckling his belt and trousers, feeling how hard he is already. your eyes flicker open for a moment, but you quickly correct yourself when erwin takes your chin in his hands firmly, almost like a warning.
"that's it, kitten," he purrs as you obey him, his breath hot on your lips as it leaves him in frantic spurts, "give daddy what he wants."
your head lolls back as he shifts his focus to your neck and pulls your hips to the very edge of the counter. he sucks and licks so intensely, so feverishly, you'd be mistaken for thinking this was the last time he'd ever get to do it. your hands are in his hair, tousling and pulling the golden locks to give him a dishevelled look he hardly ever sported, feeling so lost in the heat that it takes you entirely by surprise when he enters you, slipping in effortlessly but not without eliciting sharp breaths from you both. you, always taken aback by his size and him, never growing tired of how warm you feel around him.
"fuck, baby," he growls, "what did I do to deserve this?"
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jeankirstein4ever · 23 days
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Professor!Erwin who will smile and nod a little when he sees his best student already set up at the very front of the class, an hour before lecture.
Professor!Erwin who loves grading your work, adores the fluidity of your handwriting and the way you sign your name so neatly at the top.
Professor!Erwin who loves to see the look on your face as you read his encouraging marks across the page but even more so the look of shame when he leaves a discoursing comment, “I hope you are able to reevaluate how you spend your time, you’re clearly becoming distracted miss y/n.”
Professor!Erwin who has to bite back a scoff when he watches the rather obnoxious and duller one of his students ask you to tutor.
Professor!Erwin who watches you present for the class, having you dig his nails into his leg to keep himself focused while you’re damn near bent over trying to click through your slides.
Professor!Erwin who extends his office hours just for you, “wouldn’t want my best student to fall behind now would we?”
Professor!Erwin who admires how hard you work, “you have the most admirable drive of any student I’ve met.” He’ll lean over you to read your paper as you write it, his breath and cologne making your body painfully aware of how needy you wanted to be.
Professor!Erwin who groans when you press yourself against him, not being able to wait anymore , “Poor girl, been needing something other than some dumb college boys dick, huh? You work this hard for all your teachers or just the ones you want to fill you up?”
Professor!Erwin who’s hand is moving up you thigh, at an agonizingly slow pace, your hips already trying to buck for friction. His other hand holding you by the crown of your hair. Thumb pressing perfectly through the soaked cotton keeping you too far from him.
Professor!Erwin that goes soft as tears start to blister your eyes, finally moving aside the fabric to move two of his fingers swiftly inside your sopping wet hole. “You like this babydoll don't you?” His hand tightening in your hair making you whine so pitifully, “Answer or I'll stop.”
Professor!Erwin who feels himself strain against the fabric of his trousers and flesh of your ass; feeling you squeeze harder and harder around the cold metal of his wedding ring, pushing you further down on the desk.
Professor!Erwin who has to practically race to pull his length out before he ruins his favorite pants, his tip hitting your cervix with what he knows is not enough time to adjust, “m’ so sorry baby, just take it all in okay, I know you can, your my best girl, I know you can do it.”
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m-jelly · 17 days
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can I have some random headcanon of the vets and reader please 🥺
thank you jelly 😊😘❤️
I'm not sure what HC's you wanted? So I just went with basic stuff of being in a relationship with them because there are all kinds of HCs.
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@ladycheesington Thank you for the banner and helping me with the HCs
Reader x vets HCs
Levi
Time takes to ask you out: 3 weeks
First date: Cafe
First kiss: After the second date, a bit shy but then becomes passionate due to his built up strong feelings.
First gift: Flowers and tea
First time together: After two months as a couple, he'll be a bit nervous and he'll keep asking you if everything is okay and he'll go at your pace. It's very passionate and sweet with a lot of feelings.
Favourite date: Being at home with you, making your lunch or dinner with a movie or TV show. Sometimes a nice sit in the garden during good weather.
Jealousy level: 6/10 - more possessive than jealous. Trust you but not other people.
Sex drive: Increases the longer you are together and he has learned a lot about you and your body. His drive grows with his feelings for you. Explores more as you become more comfortable with each other. He does enjoy exploring and will try many things.
Contact time: Likes a lot of contact, loves hugs and kisses behind closed doors. Needs to have some sort of contact with you even if it is a slight touch. Loves to spoon as much as possible. Not very keen on PDA but will hold your hand or put his hand on your thigh under the table.
At home: he’s very domestic and likes to do chores together. He enjoys working together as a team and showing you the joys of cleaning and the cleaning tech. Cooking together is always fun for him.
Erwin
Time takes to ask you out: Few days
First date: Italian restaurant
First kiss: On the second date he would ask you, very light and sweet
First gift: Flowers and a book
First time together: One month as a couple. Rather confident and makes sure it is loving and passionate
Favourite date: At a history museum or restaurant
Jealousy level: 3/10 He’s secure, knows he’s a good partner, and he doesn’t get easily jealous. If someone bothers you he will step in.
Sex drive: Bit more vanilla, but has a very good medium to high sex drive. Does enjoy being a dom.
Contact time: Likes being in the same room as you and just reading a book. He loves your company and presence. he doesn't need constant contact. Happy with PDA, will kiss you and hold you in public. Likes to spoon and enjoys kisses.
At home: Likes to work together with the house. Tends to take the lead a lot though, he mostly is in charge of a lot so if you want more responsibilities you will need to talk to him.
Mike
Time takes to ask you out: As soon as he realises he likes you. He will ask you out the very moment.
First date: Arcade or outdoor adventure
First kiss: On the first date
First gift: Perfume
First time together: Month and a half of being a couple. He's very careful and gentle as he is a big guy, so it'll be a slow process of you getting used to him.
Favourite date: Camping or gaming day
Jealousy level: 1/10 Rather confident in himself and finds it amusing if someone tries something with you because he knows they have no chance.
Sex drive: When you are comfortable and okay with the size difference, he'll have a high-ish drive and does a lot to pleasure you.
Contact time: Loves to spoon a lot. Really loves holding you for as long as possible. Likes to nap together too, he's like a cuddly wolf. Very okay with PDA. Likes to pick you up a lot and carry you around. Enjoys nuzzling because you smell incredible. Very passionate kisser.
At home: Does all the cooking, he really loves food so he will always make the food. He is rather good with keeping up with bills and tends to get on with things, but he keeps you in the loop and will work with you as a joint thing on everything else.
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riewritten · 10 months
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I’ve always wanted to be in those nostalgic children books; I’ve always wanted to live I their world where it was really comforting and not worry a single thing
then would you mind hearing a story about erwin smith, a character you only had known in story books & dreams, and how you beg the deities every night to live a life as adventurous as his? :) and what if the deities played around and granted it, and the only condition was that you’d have to help him adjust to your world?
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𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐋 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠. erwin smith x gen neutral!reader 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬. 2.9k 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬. modern au, romance, parallel universe, slice-of-life, cohabitation inspired by my goofy story idea:
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Even the milky way galaxy wouldn’t suffice to explain the entirety of the world. After all, you believe it could be way larger in your mind! Perhaps, the way your brain could quickly transform words into vivid motion was a gift from the deities, too. What else could you wish for?
What else could you wish for?
At age ten, you read a storybook about a valiant soldier named Erwin Smith. The book, although made for children, didn’t have any pictures. That was the least of your concerns, though, because his story awakened something in you. His character awakened something in you! Erwin is a steadfast individual, not afraid to go against the waves of the world, not afraid to challenge it, to take risks, to save lives. Was it because you’re quite the opposite? No matter, the story didn’t even pique your interest too much. You’re just enthralled by how he deals with the hurdles in his life, perhaps even how his ideals are structured in the first place. You want how he sees adventures, how his life is filled with no worries even at a story premise where a human could be worried! It’s simple and creative, and you hope your life is wired that way, too.
You grow up idealizing what Erwin looks like. Erwin became your muse in the books that you read. Even if the character’s name is Roberto, the face you’d imagine was the Erwin in your mind. Sometimes it wouldn’t apply to utterly realistic literary pieces, but if the character matches Erwin's resilience, then alas! You’d be with him again! You would be him again!
The way your brain could quickly transform words into vivid motion was, perhaps, a gift from the deities. What else could you wish for?
Oh, oh no. You wish Erwin is real. You want to be him. You wish you could be with him. Anything. You just want to be where he is. You want to be in a world as simple as his. A mental physique as uncomplicated as his. You often think about it whenever you’re riddled with stress or when your thoughts are too complicated, sad, grim, or conflicted—every semblance of intricacy in the emotions or the lack of ability to deal with the unideal.
Tch, all the gifts of life, and yet you’re still wishing for more; a grumpy deity (or so you thought) whispered in your mind as soon as you finished your prayer of “Please make Erwin real! Or please make me become Erwin! Perhaps you can have Erwin be with me? Pretty please?” What a pain in the ass. You’re lucky you’re one of god’s favorites.
You initially had no idea what it might’ve meant, but man, is it answered as soon as you wake up!
It is the Erwin in your mind in his full glory, sitting on the edge of your bed, looking as horrified as you are!
And he’s naked? Oh god, why is he naked?!
Erwin, the rational man you imagined him to be, pinched his cheeks to check if it was real. His reaction was enough to warrant an answer on your end, too. He immediately turned his back on you in an attempt to cover his body and cleared his throat, a blush evident on his features. His muscular back blocked the sun rays from your window. Perhaps it made the room warmer too. Was it his ass that made it warmer? Maybe? What the fuck is wrong with you?
“I… uh… I apologize. Please believe me when I say I did not intend to enter your room like this, even more not perverted to do so while naked.”
“Are you real? Like, the real real?”
“This is one of the moments I hope I’m not,” he attempted to hide his chagrin by turning around your room, seemingly finding something to be used at his disposal. “Would you mind giving me a spare cloth to cover myself?” he asked, still not having the guts to face you despite his imploring request.
“O-oh, yeah, of course!”
Perhaps you’re the irrational one to begin with because you did not panic at all. You rushed through your closet to find the baggiest clothes instead of slapping Erwin and calling the police. If anything, the strange stuff some grumpy man whispered in your head last night made a bit more sense. Am I really god’s favorite? 
Damn, if you were, people would die to be in your place!
“H-have you eaten already?” you uttered in attempts for small talk while scurrying through your closet.
“I was fighting monsters minutes ago. I fell off my horse and perhaps cracked my head. The next thing I know, I’m sitting on your bed,” Erwin grimly answered. He sounded utterly obliterated.
“I’m planning to have my breakfast; perhaps we could talk about how to work around this there?”
“Would you mind? That’s not a normal response for someone who just had a man naked in their room.”
“Well, do you want me to slap you and call the police instead?” You awkwardly threw him your giant clothes. Not as if you could slap him and call the police. Hell, you even think it was your fault that he’s here.
Finally, Erwin faced you with an apologetic smile. “Although this sounds blunt, I appreciate that you chose not to.”
The breakfast was silent. The dishes were mundane. You can’t help but be shy because Erwin’s world is fantasy. His whole character entails adventures and playing heroes. The children's book you read about him that started your obsessive idealisms was very simple and uncomplicated. How would Erwin survive in a world like this? Deep inside you, however, is thrilled for an answer. Indeed, how would Erwin behave and respond in your world, in your shoes? He is your ideal person, the very being you wanted to be. If you follow his responses and behaviors, you could be the person you idealized for yourself.
“I’ll be frank with you,” you trailed, “I didn’t panic because I know you.”
“You do?”
And thus, you narrated the story—his story. He was a hero that led soldiers from monsters so they can be freed from a world full of walls. His ending is good—of course, it would be because it’s a children’s book—and his personality entails the generic moral lesson of being kind and thriving for freedom, even at the expense of going against the waves.
He dropped the fork. It seems like the shock deprived him of the ability to pick up his hotdog. Still, because he is a rational being who has witnessed and bested a lot of things in the fantasy world, he instead strategized on how to blend in your world while finding resources to come back to his.
Contrary to how you idealized him to overcome hurdles easily, Erwin has been frowning since you took him in. The gym down your place distracted him. The work you referred him to—the same part-time job you have—gave him the leverage to interact with different people in your world and adjust based on his intuition. He thirsts for knowledge, and you can see he somehow enjoys exploring this whole new world, yet he still frowns most of the time. He looks grim, unhappy, and complicated. 
Why?
One night, you knocked on his door. “Can I stay for a while? I can’t sleep for some reason.”
He gave you a small smile and indulged you in his bubble.
This is the first time you have entered his room, and so you took your time to explore it. You gave Erwin the leverage to decorate it as he pleases. He bought wooden wallpapers for his first salary and removed the lightbulb to replace it with candles. Perhaps it was his way to find a semblance of his origins. You bought him an air diffuser with forest scent, and he liked it, too—his bedroom reeks of vintage and ancient, a very fitting demeanor for his character.
“So, how may I help you? I might not be the best in night talks, but perhaps I can try for my provider.”
“Tch, you’ve been so independent since you came here. If anything, you could be more qualified to be my provider,” you joked, then your features changed in worry. “So, how are you adjusting?”
“I’ve been good! The amenities of this world are exquisite. I’m glad to have the privilege of—”
“You can tell me the truth, Erwin.”
His eyes widened. Then it became lament. It eventually became a rueful smile. “I really do enjoy my time here, but I still feel lost and worried for the world where I came from. I bear lots of responsibilities there. I am certain I died after falling down the horse and need to come to terms with that, but I am still worried. I don’t think it will pass anytime soon.” Still, the character tried to console you. “But you’ve been a great help. Without your kindness, I wouldn’t be able to survive this hurdle. It’s not enough to say I’m lucky I ended up under your roof months ago.”
“Don’t worry too much about me. I’m sure you could survive even if you ended up in someone else’s crib. You’re built like that,” you defeatedly yet confidently replied. “I’ve idolized you since a child. If I were a character in some storybook in your world like you were in mine, I would be a mere extra. I bet my being wouldn’t suffice for how well-built you are. All this time, I’ve been observing how you respond to things, how you approach this challenge, but now I can’t help but worried. I thought it would be easier for you.”
“Hm,” it’s needless to say that Erwin is intrigued by your words. You never opened up like this to him—you’re too busy teaching him the ways of your world—and he didn’t want to pry even though he was curious. “Why do you think so?”
“Because you’re perfect. You were built to be ideal and simple because you embody a valiant moral story.”
He called your name, quite confused yet still willing to understand. “Humans are much more complicated than that. A mere storybook and the moral story it entails would never define the intricacies of our being.”
You turned your eyes sideways in guilt, “S-sorry. That’s just how I see you all this time. My fixation over you stems from my desire to live in a world where it’s much simpler and free of worries. A world where comfort can be easily attained after overcoming a hurdle.”
He nodded, finally seeing where you were coming from. He tipped his head sideward, his smile becoming more warm as the candlelight illuminated the perfection of his features. He is indeed your ideal person—the one you want to become. No, wait. It’s becoming blurry now. It seems like the desire to be with him overpowers the want to be him.
“You’re feeling bad for seeing me that way, aren’t you?” he teased. “You see, if you were a book character and I came across your story, I would be enthralled at how easily kind you could be—to let someone in your house even at the strangest encounters. I would be jealous of how smoothly you help without qualms and in return. I would be fixated on what your character could offer, too.”
You looked at him with wide eyes; heat crept up your face. Still, Erwin was honest; hence he didn’t falter. He remained with his cordial smile, his elbows now leaning on the table and chin propped on his palm. He seemed to like observing you the way you observe him.
Oh, the night is becoming warm. Was it the candle?
“W-well, that’s nice to know. Perhaps I really have to unlearn how I see humans in story books.”
“Indeed, you must. You seem to be putting me on a pedestal way higher than yours when it’s the other way around.”
“Me? Way higher from you? That’s not true!”
He shook his head teasingly, “It is. The Commander is barely wrong with his observations.”
“You are in this one.”
“See, if you want to indulge with the intricacies of my thoughts to deconstruct how you see me as a character, don’t you think this night routine must be compulsory from hereon?"
“You want me to visit your room every night?”
“I can visit yours from time to time, but I rather bring my candles instead of the lightbulb,” he clarified. “It eases my homesickness during the dark.”
“Don’t you need to sleep early? You seem to be someone who has healthy life habits.”
“I’m quite too disgruntled to sleep lately. I’d rather listen to you talk all night than struggle alone.”
“What a time to fluster me, Commander.”
“The pleasure is mine.”
Night talks became a routine. Erwin likes patterns. You’re the one to visit his room for a week, then the next week, he’ll be the one to visit yours. You could talk in the living room, perhaps the dining room while munching on some snacks, but you never did. Going to each other’s rooms might be somewhat of a symbolic routine. It means being more vulnerable, being allowed to enter a much deeper facet of your characters. Bedrooms can offer a space in your personality that common areas couldn’t give. Perhaps it was because how you act in the living room is the same as how you’d act outside, much more concealed and reserved? Amidst the ponders, however, you could see Erwin deeply enjoying the arrangement, too.
He stopped frowning. Your coworkers could see him smile more. One day, he proudly told you that he had attained prime membership at the gym. He offered you to jog with him during the mornings, even. The gym eventually hired him as a model, which meant more income, and he was visibly happy when he paid the bills of your house for the first time. You brought him to a local library, and he did get the brightest smile at the sight of bookshelves. Both of you would sit at the corner of the shelves during weekends, then quietly indulge with the pages. You would maximize the gift of quickly transforming words into vivid motions while he would explore world history, taking a sheer liking to documentations of societal change and revolutions.
The day talks are about the mundanity of life, while the night talks are deeper run-throughs of your and his ideals. Of his and your philosophy in life. Of your long-term goals and perspectives and how the other could intervene with them. Erwin plans to study to become a teacher. You smiled so wide, aiming to support him in every way possible.
“Every school asks every student for a guardian. I’m so excited to put my name in yours! I’ve never been someone’s guardian!”
“I seem to be older than you, though, and to quote you: I might be way more fit to be your provider.”
“Don’t boast at me just because your modeling sideline earns way more than my side jobs.”
“Heh, look at me adjusting in this world way better than you.”
“You have the pretty privilege, Erwin.”
“I think you’re way prettier than me, but I wouldn’t disclose how you can maximize that. I want to indulge in my leverages for now.”
“Go on and indulge with your success. You make me love the mundanity of my life, so reap whatever reward you could have for that.”
“Oh,” Erwin was a bit taken aback, “really? I do?” 
Well, was that a blunt statement on your end?
You tried to excrete the heat covering your face through a yawn. “I’m getting quite sleepy now. Let’s call this a night!” Then you hurriedly stood and gestured to leave.
Erwin closed the book he was reading and then, for the first time, escorted you to your bedroom. He opened the door for you, but just before you could close it, he held onto the knob, scooted his face nearer to your ear, and whispered, “You made me love mundanity, too. It wouldn’t be long ‘til I accept being killed by a crack in my head, so long as your being continues to indulge someone like me. If it helps to tone down your fluster, I’d be pleasured to take any indulgence you’d grant to my being.”
You abruptly turned your head to face him, "Huh?"
"Reap whatever reward I could have, you said."
Oh my word, when did he get this blunt?
Instead of retracting to widen the proximity, he just reached for your hand and gave it a chaste peck without breaking eye contact.
Then, as swift and gentle as ever, he closed the door for you. He could see how bad of a flustered mess you were. It was very evident with his smirk milliseconds before he shut your door.
His character awakened something in you—no, bloody hell! He’s not a mere character anymore! Erwin’s being, indeed, is someone unafraid to go against the waves of the current arrangement, but you never thought he’d also challenge the structure of cohabitation both of you have right now! 
What a pain in the ass. You’re lucky you’re one of god’s favorites. The grumpy voice said the night before Erwin came.
You used to think of the ideal in your mind whenever you were disgruntled at the complexity of your mental physique. Never in your life did you feel that the intricacies of exploring your feelings would be as thrilling as this. Indeed, one of your wishes was heard by the deities. How lucky it is to be one of god’s favorites.
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pls pardon me for this 4-hour word dumping. the last time i had written something was last month. writing has been very hard lately but i still want to try bc given these turbulent times, i would die if i lose the capability to write. i consider this as my writing exercise before I indulge with my WIPs and pending requests. ily.
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n0tamused · 1 year
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since your aot blurbs requests are open can i ask for an erwin smith x reader and how he'd definitely be private with your relationship but it's no longer a secret when he almost dies and his arm is gone (💀) and the scouts find out and their reactions?
Sorry if the requests aren't open I must have misread! Anyway love your writing (and drawing) so yea thanks<33
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A/N: Started working on this the moment I got the request because one thing I can't get enough of is Erwin Smith. Anyway, this is a bit lengthier than a blurb, but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless <3 Thank you for the request and your kind words. I may expand on this some other time, just to write more on the actual interaction between reader and Erwin.
Genre: fluff, tinge of angst if you squint really hard, gn reader
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“Did you hear?”
“How didn’t we notice before?”
“-it was right under our noses and we missed it”
“Have you ever seen them-?”
By the sheer volume of their disbelief and glowing eyes, one could easily mistake the situation for what it was. To say it was surprising would be an understatement, even downright shocking to some. For them to not have found out sooner about their Commander’s private affairs was a big deal.   Levi found a great deal of amusement in these sudden rumors and whispers, even entertaining some of them while you were close enough to hear it. To fluster you or irritate you, you couldn’t exactly tell, but he was fanning the flames either way. As he was the only one privy to know of your relationship with Erwin from its start, he became the center target for these sorts of questions while you were cooped up in Erwin’s room.
You almost lost him.. 
His hand rested clasped between the two of yours as he slowly came in and about his consciousness, blinking open slowly only to be met with the observing stares of you and the doctor. He knew you were biting back on a scolding and a whole waterfall of tears, he could tell by that tell-tale twitch of your brows and the light tremor in your fingers that held him like you were his last link to this place. And you were.. 
While the rest of the scouts gossiped and entertained plenty of ideas of their Commander and you, Erwin’s room was filled with gentle sobs and scoldings before it simmered down to smoother conversations. You found yourself glued to his side of the bed, unable to leave unless you saw him consume something, anything. And when he did he came to learn from both you and Levi about these news, but instead of shock or displeasure he found himself chuckling.
“Well.. the cat is out of the bag now. What would be the use of pretending it's not” he smiled, his light stubble giving him a touch of domesticity and something less refined that you scarcely got the chance to witness any other time. He didn’t even try to brush his hair with his fingers, letting you hold him in your grasp, knowing both of you needed it. He looked so himself in that moment, and his bright eyes glistened with tender mirth as he looked over at you.  Maybe if he wasn’t so hellbent on this dream of his, you’d see more of him in this raw light.. but no matter where he chose to tread you swore to follow him.
 He sighed, rubbing his thumb on the skin of your hand, shaking his head a little as he looked down in his lap, losing himself in his thoughts. It would be a lie  to say that this wasn’t something both of you hoped wouldn’t happen, or at least not in this fashion, but neither of you were angry about it. This spared you both some confessions and awkward sappy speeches, so perhaps it could be viewed as a blessing in disguise. 
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crisalidaseason · 2 years
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how do you think each of aot characters kiss?
Hard question, I'll do my best!
Warnings ⚠️ Descriptions of kissing! PDA, Making out.
AoT characters kissing headcannons
Mikasa
Shy kisser, at least in public. Her kisses are very domestic, quick and usually happen early in the morning, right before sleeping, when she's been appart from her partner for too long. I think kissing holds a deep meaning for her and making out isn't frequent unless is a super intense situation.
Eren
Clingy and annoying kisser, but not in a bad way. He just loves physical affection so kisses are a must! Also doesn't care about PDA at all, will kiss his partner in public shamelessly. He is a messy kisser, will in fact try to eat his partner's face.
Armin
Cute devil kisser. Much like Mikasa, he is not into PDA and prefers more of a domestic setting when it comes to kissing. But he is also a menace a little clingy too, kisses are very slow and soft, also very frequent although he asks for consent every single time!
Connie
Emotional kisser. I know, he is constantly joking, but I think he would be dead serious about affection. He gives his partner little pecks on the cheeks and lips out in public, but real kissing and making out is for important and emotional moments. Since he is a funny boy, he also gets sad easily, so kissing is kind of his serotonin booster.
Jean
Passionate kisser. He is a hopeless romantic, loves kissing his partner anytime, for no reason at all. A very very good kisser, be careful, your legs might not work afterwards. Loves PDA, but HATES seeing it (like, the audacity!). Does the little smile while kissing.
Sasha
Joker kisser. She can't kiss seriously, always teasing her partner. LOVES imitating the "lady and tramp" spaghetti kiss or sharing a pocky. But on a serious note, she is such a cute kisser too, she holds the partner's face and kisses them all over.
Levi
Doesn't kiss in public AT ALL! Kisses are extremely intimate and private, not so frequent. His kisses are usually very soft and long (it usually ends with him kissing his partner's forehead).
Erwin
Much like Levi, he's a complete private kisser. He is way more passionate and his kisses are way more frequent than Levi's, but still holds a lot of vulnerability and intimacy. Doesn't understand the concept of making out though, but will indulge in it for his partner.
Hange
Honestly, doesn't really understand the appeal of kissing but will try for their partner's sake. Will do it like a science experiment and probably ask people how they do it just for researching purpose. For a clueless person, they kiss very well! They prefer brushing noses.
Reiner
The crying kisser. This man is a depressed bean. Much like Connie, kisses are a serotonin boost for him. He is a very desperate kisser, maybe because he's scared of loosing his lover. His kisses are fast, intense and very wet from his tears.
Berthold
Quick and innocent peck kind of guy. He is tall, making out and intense kissing is not something his height allows him to do (unless the partner is also very tall, but Bertie is almost 2 meters!). Although in private, while in bed, he is a very slow kisser, just basking in the moment and caressing the partner's face.
Annie
Awkward kisser. Just like Hange, can't see the appeal but only because she is a little too scared of intimacy. Once she feels safe and more open, her kisses are very romantic and careful. Will hold her lover's neck. LONG kissing afternoon sessions.
Pieck
Pieck is an angel! She loves to kiss her partner anytime and anywhere. Her kisses are lazy and sleepy, but very dreamy too. Although she hates kissing with chapstick or lipstick texture going on, so she will remove it or ask her partner to remove it as well if they wear it.
Porco
Low-key pretends he doesn't like kissing in public but is a sucker for PDA. Also smiles while kissing (I love this man) and is such a messy kisser too! Lots of tongue.
Colt
Extremely shy kisser, even in private. He like to take things slow and calmly and his kisses reflect that. He loves to give small pecks to his partners lips, nose and forehead. He will absolutely die from shame if he tries making out with his partner.
Zeke
Honestly, not much of a kisser. He enjoys it, but doesn't really care (only does it for his partner). His kisses are quite good and he tries his best to keep the beard very clean and tidy to make the experience better.
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gotmesimpin4levi · 1 year
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How the aot boys react to finding out y/n can sing
Eren
f7cking blown away
eren would immediately pull out his camera and record like all the cameras in the world would break tomorrow
After this be prepared for eren to make you sing at literally EVERYTHING
He'd get so excited that u can sing that he'd also forget your kinda of a person with shit to do and make you sing for everyone
Armin
A part of me feels like armin would just burst into tears
Like he'd think your singing is so beautiful and just start crying out of nowhere
Unlike eren armin wouldn't embarrass u and make u sing everywhere but he would brag about you alot
Jean
Like why and I sensing jean can sing too?
Yall prob met at some kind of singing gig
Of course jeans proud u can sing but he likes to sing duets or harmonies with u instead of just bragging on u and making u sing alone
But initially when he finds out you can sing OML he immediately felt in love
Connie
Lets be real connie...prob doesn't care that much
Hes happy his gurl can sing and he's glad u like to sing but bsffr (being so f7cking for real)
He doesn't really care
For hum its like "oh you can sing. And remind me when I asked? Lol"
Erwin
With erwin he will proudly show u off like a new trophy
Its unbelievable
Like eren, erwin would definitely try to get u to sing for everyone but if he sees ur uncomfortable with it then he won't make you do it
Levi
Levis very possessive so when he finds out u can sing he wants it for himself and himself only
Therfore he doesn't make u sing everywhere
Infact he gets a bit frustrated when u do sing everywhere like that
I feel like he would ask you to sing for him before yall go to bed or smt like that
Maybe while yall are cuddling
Thank you for reading! If u have any recommendations just lemme know or if u think I messed up on any of the characters. This is my first time posting headcanons like this and i hope I can continue to do this and possibly get into an actual story.
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strawhatsoraya · 2 years
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Congrats on 100+ followers! Well deserved and fun event! I’d like to ask for the Classic Love Triangle AU with Erwin x fem!reader x Levi, smut and July prompt  “I give the orders here, not you.”
omg ;~~: thank you so much!! I still don't know why people follow me LMAO. But I am thankful for all the support. Okay SOO!!!! I wrote this piece for you and you did say smut so you're getting smut. This could have easily gotten very long OTL but I tried to keep it at a reasonable length. I hope you enjoy!
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Judge & Jury
ERWIN X FEM READER X LEVI | NSFW
WORD COUNT: 1.8k
CONTENT WARNINGS: it is smut so lol, anal, fingering, butt play, handjobs cause they cute and shit, biting, vaginal penetration, erwin is a bully so if you want to be warned for that there you go, levi is very good at following orders but we already knew this, y/n is stuck between a hard place and a hard place and she can't complain, i barely proof read so that's also a warning if you see a typo NO TF YOU DON'T OK??
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“I give the orders here, not you. Are you listening?” Erwin asks from his position, his naked body hugging Levi’s from behind.
Sweat clings to their skin as they move in tandem. Levi’s face is flushed, eyelashes fluttering every time Erwin slaps his hips against his ass. The lewd sound of Erwin’s hip slamming against Levi arouses you, dampening your panties right through. You watch as his sweat soaked hair hangs like a curtain around his face, the little tendrils stuck in swirls across his damp forehead. 
You can’t help yourself. You reach to brush his hair out of the way, not wanting to miss a single expression.
Erwin sucks on his teeth, casts you with a disapproving frown. You bite your lower lip. You don’t mean to disobey your commander, but it was very easy to get distracted in this situation. His gaze, powerful and demanding, is on your face. Your hands tremble. You feel as if your skin flakes away, a heat that claims a blush as its prize.
“Y-yes, sir,” You stammer, walking forwards on your knees. “I was on my way.” You were not, actually. You had been too hypnotized by the way Erwin kissed Levi, and how Levi had melted under his touch. It was a stark contrast to the usual Levi Ackerman–scowling, unbothered, untouchable. 
You don’t want to disobey your commander, plus you’re concerned about the punishment. So you move as he had ordered you to, and run your hands softly down Levi’s biceps. You’re kneeling in front of him, on the ground, while Erwin slows his pace a little bit. Levi moans next to your ear, on his hands and knees. You’re not sure how much more he can take, but still you bury your face against his neck, kissing and biting.
“Like this?” you ask when you come up for air, licking up Levi’s neck to his earlobe. Your hands are gripping his biceps, and you feel him trembling. You try to pretend you didn’t. Erwin grunts, his hands gripping Levi tightly by the hips. He is snugly inside Levi’s ass, feeling him squeeze with each thrust. He grits his teeth, taking control.
“Your hands don’t look busy,” Erwin comments as he leans forward. He looks away from you to lick up Levi’s back, dragging his teeth against his skin. Levi cries out, eyes fluttering open. He sees your face close to his, and he swallows, tilting his head trying to capture your lips. You give in, hating to see him so vulnerable. It wasn’t that it didn’t turn you on, or that it appalled you. In fact, you were jealous you weren’t the one turning him inside out. Your hands move from his biceps to his chest. You suck on his tongue, and he moans. You try to go with the rhythm Erwin sets, moving as he moves, feeling Levi push against you with each thrust Erwin gives. Your fingers wrap around Levi’s hardened cock and he gasps loudly against your ear.
His moans sound sweet when you move your hand. You press your mouth against his shoulder, and watch Erwin behind him. There’s a small smile stretching his lips as he watches you. 
“Follow my lead,” he says softly, and you do–matching your strokes to the swing of his hips; every thrust you grip Levi tighter, every time he moans you wonder if it’s for you or Erwin or  both. You can’t help the  jealousy, the possessiveness so you bite on Levi’s shoulder hard enough to leave imprints on his skin. He cries out and you kiss him, almost blind. Levi moans, brings a shaky arm up to hold you against him.
Next thing you know, you’re being pushed on your back. Levi crawls over you but he is pushed aside by Erwin. He cages you in between his arms, his hands pushing on the ground on both sides of your face. “I don’t know why you’re all acting without my command,” he breathes out, breath ragged. There are splotches of pink hues on his cheek that travel down his neck and chest. “But need I remind you, I’m the one in charge here.”
You tremble under his gaze, and rub your thighs together.
“Uh-uh,” he chastises and slaps your legs apart. “No, you don’t. Levi,” he said, tilting his head to nod. “Grab her legs.”
You swallow a lump in your throat, feeling as if you couldn’t get enough air in your lungs. Levi’s hold on your ankles is strong. You test it by kicking your legs but he straightens them down almost immediately.
“Tsk,” Erwin admonishes, slapping Levi’s hand away from your legs. “Not like that.” He forces Levi to sit beside you on the ground, ass naked, erection pressed against his lower belly. You lick your lips at the sight of precum glistening on his pink tip. Erwin makes him hold you by your calves, and spread you open. “Like this. Stay focused.”
Levi’s breathing is ragged. He looks back at you through his lashes, and wishes he hadn’t. The sight of your flushed face, your bruised and puffy lips makes him want to devour you. Your breasts are riddled with pink and purple bruises, half moon marks of teeth he didn’t know belong to, him or Erwin. He wanted to leave more of his own, everywhere.
You mumble his name, hand reaching out for him, and he tries to meet you halfway, fighting the urge to scoop you in  his arms. Erwin intervenes, slapping your hand away. 
He grabs your chin with one hand. “Look at me,” he hisses, fingers digging into your cheeks. “We’re not done here yet.”
You watch him, an icy chill running down your spine as he moves. He lowers himself to suck on the hollow of your neck. Your teeth bite down on your lower lip as you try to be quiet. You know how much you hate it.You know you should give him what he wants but a part of you always wants to resist. He leaves a trail of saliva as he kisses down your sternum, mouth hot open and greedy. He nips at the flesh of your belly as he travels lower and lower, to your core.
His shoulders are wide, and had Levi not already have you spread open for him, you were sure Erwin could have easily shouldered his way into making you submit.
“You’re always so stubborn,” he says as he circles his tongue around your swollen nub. You moan, back lifting from the ground. Your breath is hard to control, little pants filling the air. You can hear Levi’s breathing becoming more urgent next to you, his hands trembling as he holds you. Erwin suckles on your clit, his hands sliding up your thighs. The scratchy feel of calluses makes you shudder. “I guess I should work harder at breaking you in.”
His eyes are dark, full of promises he’d rather not keep. Your breath hitches as he lowers himself completely towards your dripping pussy. You cry out at the feel of his tongue slipping between your folds.
He fucks you with his tongue, and you hate how good it feels. You hate you never realized it before, the length of Erwin’s tongue. You should have paid more attention. Not that it would change anything. Levi’s grip on your calves tightens as you twitch, as you try to kick your legs out when Erwin begins using his thumb to draw circles on your clit. You become desperate, so you grab Levi’s wrists to ground yourself.
“You keep touching Levi without permission,” he growls against the inside of your thigh, and bites you as punishment. You cry out, and Levi shushes you gently, a frown set on his pallid face. “Apologize.”
“S-sorry,” you stammer, and you’re embarrassed, not sure if it’s because you were admonished or at your pathetic stuttering. Erwin finds it laughable, or you, you’re not sure but he’s almost cackling as he licks a sensitive spot behind your knee. You mewl, which makes him laugh again. 
“You should be,” he says as he lays down beside you. He nods at Levi, and you feel him lay down behind you. Your heart starts racing, faster and faster. You feel Levi’s hands on your ass, touching gently, before he’s grabbing your cheeks with greedy fingers. They dig into your flesh painfully. You lean your head back, a soft moan rumbling in your chest. Levi’s teeth drag against your neck before he sucks.
Erwin’s hands are on your breasts, and he kisses the other side of your neck. You’re trapped in between the heat of their bodies. Their roaming hands are taking and consuming without remorse or guilt. Levi hooks an arm under your knee, and you feel Erwin’s tip around your entrance. 
There’s another stuttering response on your lips, and Erwin laughs against your mouth. Levi is shushing you again, his voice soft against your ear as he whispers little words of encouragement.  
“It’s okay,” he says softly, licking up the shell of your ear. “Just give in. It’s easier that way.”
You feel your body relax, and at that moment, Erwin slides inside you. His cock feels thick against your gummy walls. You whimper, bite down on your lip to keep from crying but Erwin hisses against your cheek. 
“What did I say about holding back?” His breath is hot against your skin, and he licks up your cheek, moving his hips carefully against yours. “Kiss me.” It is a command you can’t deny. You kiss him even as you feel Levi slip fingers in between your ass cheeks. You moan when Erwin sucks your tongue, even as Levi slips a finger, then two into your hole. 
You cry out, time and time again. Erwin picks up the pace, his bondy hips bruising yours. You bite his bottom lip, fingers digging into this straw colored hair. You break the kiss, desperate for air. Your head leans back on Levi’s shoulder, and you moan in between gasps. In your hazy vision, clouded by lust and ecstasy, you can see them kissing–tongues curling around each other, mouths desperately sucking on bottom lips. A sight so lewd it provokes you speed towards your orgasm, you clench around Erwin’s shaft enough to distract him momentarily from Levi.  He grits his teeth, eyes closed, and reaches for Levi’s head. He brings him close, to press his forehead against his. You feel Levi’s fingers’ pick up in your ass, pummeling to the point where pain and pleasure become muddy.
You’re not sure who came first: you, or him or Levi.
All you know is that your body won’t stop trembling, that you can feel hot, sticky wetness on your back, dripping over your ass and the back of your thighs. You feel Erwin’s load spilling out of your throbbing pussy, even as he still moves slowly inside you.
Levi’s hands are stroking your arms, brushing your hair back as he kisses your temple. Erwin still refuses to budge, he moans gently as he moves inside you, thrust after thrust.
“You did good,” Levi assures you, kissing the roundness of one of your shoulders. Erwin chuckles.
“I should be the one to judge that.”
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lucysarah-c · 1 year
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Stoppers
Summary: Levi feels overwhelming jealous and decides that nothing better to set things clear of who owns who than a good old fucking
WARNINGS: SMUT, HEAVILY EXPLICIT CONTEXT. Levi x reader. Dubious concent, Degradation, spitting, oral sex, oral male sex, harsh sex, vaginal sex. Top Levi. Sub Yn. UNSAFE SEX, don't be silly guys wear condoms not like Levi here. Desk sex. Canon universe. Dirty talk. Smut. Praise kink. Possessive behaviour. Possessive sex. Rough sex. Breeding kink.
Context: Y/n and Erwin used to flirt but it never reached far. They broke up before anything happened. Y/n and Levi began to have a relationship, Levi was her first. Levi get overwhelmingly jealouse. THIS takes place before Erwin becomes a commander or Levi a captain BUT, after the events of ACWNR.
I wrote this to practise smut for my main multichapter Levi fic, this my 4th smut so be nice lol. I'm self concious of my smuts so... practice makes perfect. This could be consider an spin off from my fanfic Holy Ground.
Thats it... in case I forget any warning or tag, feel free to tell me.
She was so happy, the way she jiggled and did a little dance in her place during lunch. The smile from one ear to another, it was absurdly big for her face. Levi just admired from the other side of the table, the glass (that was actually made of wood) of water close to his lips and he couldn’t help to smile a little bit. If she was happy then he was too, it was as simple as that.
“I’m going to be in charge, I’m going to be in charge” She repeated almost mockingly but also cheeky, as if it was a little kid showing off their win.
“The commander will still be around, don’t forget that,” Hange reassured the girl, who was getting ahead of herself, with it. The brunette was smiling tired as if they were the mother who succumb to the idea and wasn’t getting as much credit as they should “I agreed to Erwin to this, don’t forget that either”
“Yes Yes! Thank you!” The girl hastily agreed.
“She’s not listening to me,” Hange said while chuckling bitterly.
“She’s definitely not listening to you,” Levi agreed with them.
Y/N squealed again, gritting her teeth as the emotion was too much to handle. Erwin was leaving for a week to the capital and he had just announced to her that she could fill his work during his absence. Not that he was letting her do any actual leading work but more like not letting his paperwork accumulate and make sure everybody delivered their part on time.
Those were the crumbs of Erwin’s job, even when he wasn’t officially the commander yet and Shadis was still around, but it was the biggest official responsibility the girl was getting tastes off and she was enjoying it as there was no idea. It was a high state to be in, not only for the responsibility but also for the relief. Not only hers but everyone else. ‘War is over’
It was a shared alleviation, with both of them on good terms. The trench war that had fallen upon everybody during winter had been lifted. ‘They are in good terms, not a couple but good terms and that’s what it matter,’
They were over, both. Y/N was secretly dating Levi but it was like a whispered fact. They didn’t give any sort of hint that they could be together but people could feel it, or at least those who wanted to believe it. Erwin on the other hand was playing the mature party, the ‘we are comrades of many years and also friends, let's keep the friendship’.
Then, once the not hostile interactions began again people were quick to question him ‘Are you two back together?’  and the answer was always ‘We had always been friends, that’s what we are,’
Levi wondered if it hurted the blond, at the beginning it was obvious but time heals everything… right?
That was another hard edge of the polygon that this situation was. Levi and Erwin had been setting the base of a good comrades and friendship relationship. What was an enmity when the short man came to the scouts, became a mutual respect and, then it evolved to both starting to get along. What felt a disinterest of the blond’s romantic situation with his actual girlfriend become a ‘I’m fucking his ex behind his back’.
Not that Levi regretted it but he wasn’t used to that, playing those sort of games and the guiltiness of not being the mature party to set things clear made him grim uneasy. ‘I own him an explanation’
“Should I pay for the cleaning service or the first time is free?” Erwin questioned, entertained, as Levi, who came to deliver some papers, got overwhelmed with the state of the office and began to clean on pure will.
“How the fuck can you work in the state this place is in? When was the last time you brushed the fucking dust from this shelfs?” Levi, who was already in a whole rampage of cleaning duties, complained.
“I’m doing my job, Shadis’ job and trying to make sure the scouts aren’t erased from the military… I’ve not had time recently to keep the space tidy,” Erwin excused himself while he went back to work on his desk.
From his peripheral view, he could see the agile and tiny shadow of Levi moving around the office, murmuring to himself and clicking his tongue like a mother who says ‘nobody helps me in this house?! what are you going to do the day I am no longer here?’
“This is not the first time you have this shitty load of work, I’ve never seen your office this fucking pigsty,” Levi lectured again and as soon as he said it, he regret it.
“Well… mh,” Erwin doubtful tried to find the politically correct and ambiguous answer “Someone else took care of it before,”
They both knew the reality to that. Levi didn’t insist because he was one of the reasons that person wasn’t doing these duties anymore. The blond also joined in the mood. This time, silently, Levi kept carrying on his previous activities. Without an actual team to lead and had finished training cadets in the morning, his afternoons were quiet and relaxed.
“If you don’t want me to mess up your stuff, say it now beforeI lose my boundaries,” The shorter man clarified as he had finished tidying up the place.
Only the office was suffering the rampage of his obsessive behavior but the attached bathroom and bedroom felt off limits. The future captain wanted to respect those boundaries. 
“Erwin,” He insisted.
“Sorry, what?” The blond raised his attention from the papers to look at the other man then, as he processed the words , he replied “Oh yeah, please, feel free.”
“You sure? even the room and the bathroom?”
“I’ll clean every corner…” he insisted.
“You’ll make me a huge favour,”
Erwin chuckled a bit dry “I don’t know what you think I hide in my personal chambers but yeah, go ahead,”
Those words kept resonating in Levi’s head. His pale fingers folded the laundry and then found a place for them in the wardrobe. Between the tide of uniforms, bluish and purplish pieces of clothes there was a striking colour at the back of it. Levi, who was kneeled on the ground to tidy up the bottom of the closet, didn’t give credit to his own eyes.
Behind boxes that probably had special occasion outfits that were worth keeping separated from the rest. Behind the couple pairs of spare training boots, behind some perfumes, behind some tightly squeezed sweaters that he wasn’t wearing during this hot season, behind all that there was something that had a pastel pink ribbon.
That was all Levi saw between the space of the hanging laces of the spare boots. The colour was striking, nothing like the rest. It was so back in the wardrobe, so covered up, so squeezed on the deepest corner that it screamed ‘I’m a secret’
But Levi had been there before searching for secrets, back when Isabel and Furlan were still around and if that pink thing ‘whatever that is’ had been there, he would have seen it. There was something so particular about that shade of pink with golden tiny letters on the edges. He had seen those before, he knew exactly what that was the second his eyes landed on it.
His pale hand slowly but surely penetrated to the back of the wardrobe, reached the pink ribbon and pulled from it. The champagne coloured cardboard bag had the name of the expensive Sina’s wall clothes shop that his, his, girlfriend liked so much. The subtle rose pearl ribbon was tying the opening of the bag. The satin fabric of it shined gracefully in the light of the room and felt like velvet under Levi’s finger as he pulled from it.
Usually, he was known for his stoic uninterested expression but right there, he was lost in the process. His lips slightly parted, his hands grabbed and pulled out part of the items inside of the bag. A perfume, hygiene stuff, a cute thick baby blue dress, stockings, what seemed to be pyjamas, a thick knitted cardigan, cute soft and pretty rose pearl underwear.
He didn’t need to get it closer to his face to smell it, it stinked with his girlfriend’s perfume. He didn’t need to check the size of it, because he knew it by heart. He didn’t need to question where he got it from because Levi already knew.
Morning before leaving to the former HQ of the scouts for their winter break, their winter break. Before the ball, before all the shit that went down. Her, his sweet baby girl, carrying on that cardboard bag on her elbow as she delivered Erwin’s breakfast. The cardboard bag with the clothes for the morning after the ball, the morning that was meant to happen but never did. The morning after everything was planned for them to lay together for the first time. That cardboard bag.
It hit him like a bulk of ice water. The simple thought of those ridiculously expensive clothes that his girlfriend wore lying there as a dirty secret made him want to throw up in range.
‘What do you do with her fucking clothes? you jerk off? you sniff them? to keep them as a last hope or a lost dream? you keep them… you keep my woman’s clothes. You, you who said you moved on, you who said that you just wanted her as friends’
Levi, who had plenty of sex but non relationships before this, was the only authorised to keep Y/N’s clothes aside from herself, obviously. Because those were her clothes in his place. He felt it possessing his body, the rage. The thought of his innocent angel talking to the blond and him observing her to keep memory for later on, later on when he may grab those stockings and stroke his dick with them.
‘if this was the underground…’  Levi said to himself ‘I would have cut your dick off and fed it to the dogs, then I would have made you bed for it,’
Levi gritted his teeth so hard that they began to make a crackly sound against themselves, painfully almost.
The anger was clouding his judgement, he knew that Erwin was much more than just his girl's ex and so that made the thought stop there… a mere thought. ‘We are not in the underground,’ Levi remind to himself. While down there taking matters into bloody hands was the norm, and the recommended if you wanted to keep your own head safe and send the message; Levi was smart enough to quiet himself down.
‘I need to be subtle like this surface assholes yet assertive’
He was quick to place everything right as it was, hide the crime scene and Levi had cleaned enough houses to know how to cover up a scene. Once the door opened, he was just making the bed.
“You want tea?” Erwin's approach was friendly, perhaps happy that Levi was finally easing out between both.
“Sure”
His face was stoic as usual, the voice was monotone as it should be but the eyes. Erwin was a clever man and he noticed the change of attitude, those silver ones were aiming for blood.
“Everything alright?” the commander in line questioned.
“If by alright you mean the mess you have in this fucking place,” Levi replied and moved to the door of the room as he knew the tea was going to be at the office.
“Ah, sorry,” Erwin chuckled, slightly imprinting a ‘non-aggressive’ attitude.
‘Calm down, calm down,’ his head repeated ‘I had always liked to save the best bite for last, savour the taste,’
But the overwhelming feeling of foreign anger was a demon possession. Y/N was his first romantic partner and he had made it clear that she was the last one. Dealing with the necessity of making clear that something was ‘mine, mine and only mine’  and the overtaking greedy green demon of jealousy was something he wasn’t used to.
Especially since they were trying to keep it as a secret. Like an optical illusion that once you see it, you can’t undo it. Levi felt his trust in any aspect of the matter abandoned his rational side, Erwin wasn’t trustful around his girl. His girl. How his large hand would land on the bottom of her back as he squeezed to pass through on a tricky small corridor.
‘Why doesn’t he stuck his hand on his fucking asshole before touching her?”
Or the little tap on her shoulders as he appeared to reach for a book she was jumping for. Her pounding expression as he messed up with her height. The smile he gave her, the adoring eyes of a lost lover. Levi felt as if he was losing his mind.
“You alright?” Hange questioned, concerned next to him during dinner as he had dead eyes, that type of expression he usually saved to hunt titans outside of the walls.
“Yeah,” He quickly replied but the pressure his fingertips put against the palm of his hands wasn’t healthy or painless. They were walking back to the blond’s office, for more paperwork before his trip. Levi hadn’t even mentioned to her, he kept it to himself. But if he had to declare it to her, he would have say “I trust you! I don’t trust him,”
‘I can’t take the bag away, he will notice,’ Levi replayed the options in his head as his insomnia kept him up at his shared room in the male barracks.
The simple thought of those clothes pure as a white dove laying in Erwin’s personal chambers was driving him nuts. They smelled like innocence because that was what she was before Levi stepped in, and that innocence was something she gave up for him. It was his gift, Levi was the man that made her feel safe enough. Erwin had no right in keeping a little fragment of that innocence.
‘Maybe he forgot to give it back,’ His only rational size tried to fight back the overtaking of his soul  ‘Please, he had over half an year to give them back. Those clothes weren’t forgotten, they were laying perfectly saved and protected there. There were kept with love, with affection, with lust’
His memory recalled that time that someone dared to cut Isabel’s hair and how quick he was to kill them. ‘I’ve grown soft’
‘We are not in the underground anymore,’
He waited for his dessert patiently so the third day of Erwin’s absence, he insisted on delivering papers to his office. She was there, immaculate, and sat down on a chair that looked absurdly big for her. Y/N smiled brightly when he crossed the room, submerged in paperwork. Trying to give more than just her best performance, prove she was worthy of such responsibility.
“Hey there” her voice was soft and excited, it held the kind of feelings that being in love could only. It bothered him how much it made him tremble inside, getting her adoration gaze upon him.
“I made you tea,” Levi said as if the tray with it wasn’t enough information and then added “And more paperwork,”
She groaned a complaint and stood up, the chair was pushed backwards to hit the window on the back. Her slightly bending position over the desk as she tried to add perspective to the strategy plans that she was analysing. If she hadn't been so lost in her work, she would have noticed the lock click or the tray left at a side round table and not at the desk.
The pencil in her rosy lips moved from one side to the other as she studied the situation. The candle burned steady on the upper right corner and the window revealed the dark panorama of the training forest. It was late, late enough for cadets to be on curfew and superiors crawling back to their chambers.
“You’re getting yourself overwork, let him have some shit to do when he comes back,” Levi said. His finger brushed her hair out of the way, scooping it to her right side and making the hairs of her neck raise.
She hummed as Levi grabbed the sides of her hips and pushed them backwards, her cheeks resting on top of his groin as his fingers tried to feel the flesh of her thighs through the uniform.
“Oi, I’m talking to you,” He insisted as she kept her attention on the blueprints.
With the neck exposed he began to kiss and gently suck the sweet stop of it right where the jaw met the neck. Taking his time nibbling the left shoulder and the collarbone as his left hand left the hip and pushed the white shirt she was wearing to a side.
Her humble mixed with a repressed moan resonated, her hand trying to push the one that remained securing her hips,  “I’ve a lot to do,” was her first attempt to brush it off, “I need to focus, Levi,” she insisted.
His lips were persistent trailing her shoulders to her neck, as the nibbling became playful bites that made him dip his teeth slightly deeper.
She chuckled, “Stop it,” without any conviction in it. Her teeth pressured slightly on her bottom lip as she enjoyed the demanded attention from her lover. Levi’s sucking the tender parts made her escape a shy moan.
“Miss L/N? I’m retiring for the day,” a strong knock at the door of an office that wasn’t hers and the voice of a soldier on the other side made her come back to her senses.
“Sure, you’re dismissed from activities John,” She replied quickly readjusting her shirt, ashamed. Levi’s patronising hand didn’t leave her hips which made her turn around frowning seriously.
“Stop it, you’re insane if you think we will do anything here,” she whispered.
Y/N had hardly initiated anything before, her girlhood lost only a couple of months. Therefore Levi had always been the controlling one and, aside from his personal preferences, kept it vanilla. She was a little delicate Sina’s wall flower, unused to the rough handling and a taste made for sweets.
Levi’s pale slender finger tapped rhythmically the bones of her hips that he refused to let go and little could she do against his power. Thoughtful, he observed intensely making her pale. Silver piercing eyes in the search of any weakness.
She glazed around, “I-I don’t want to disobey him,”
Levi’s stoic expression remained outside, but he could feel his core burn with irritation. The mere thought of Erwin’s feelings or wishes holding privilege over him made him tutted.
“Oh,” a breathless mock, baring teeth as the clench of anger turned into a smirk. Levi allowed a chuckle to escape momentarily before humming “So it’s a matter of orders?”
The sudden change of attitude made her turn around completely, “Well yeah…” she hesitated “He’s… my future commander,”
The dark haired man frowned intensely, each word filled the fire that burned him from inside.
“No, no,” his voice was passive and quiet but deep. His movements were casual, as he raised a hand to touch his jaw, wondering or pretending that he did. Before the same hand grabbed her soft face, pressuring the cheeks together as his thumb caressed her lips. They began to turn so scarlet with blood rushing in. This thumb pushed her bottom lip down as he admired the inside without rush, he had all the time of the world.
The girl, on the other hand, timidly tried to remain still as her mind battled the idea of comprehending what was going on. 
“I’m the man you answer to, I own this pampered little body of yours,” Levi’s voice got authoritarian as it got firm, not excitement whatsoever as if he held all the power. Why the rush or the strength if he already knew who was in charge “If I say that we are fucking here, with me bending you over this polished desk so I can fuck you harsher and steadier than in a bed, to the point the only shit you can do is part your legs wider trying to fit me in that slutty tight cunt. The only possible answer from you is asking if I want my cock sucked first.”
“You’re getting it all wrong, sweetheart,” His voice was steady and patronising, as he was talking to a child. “He’s not your commander, he’s nothing of you and you’re all mine.”
The push on her chin to make the head bend downwards, forcing her eyes to look up.
She was in a complete blank state, Levi had never behaved like this before. But she felt her heart thudding, was all she could feel aside from the saliva accumulate. The thought that she may have been biting more than she could chew echoed at the distance. Her body filled with the stupidness of bravery, the shameless intrigued to know how far this could go. Poisoning curiosity clouded her judgement as Levi’s voice deepened with husk.
The only few inches that made Levi taller than her felt like feets. The strength that he showed off in the training grounds felt like completely put into the grip of her cheeks and this new version of him, that she wasn’t entirely sure from where it came from, was making her lose concentration. She had always liked Levi’s dominant nature, sure but this? She felt like she was a prey getting cornered as her aggressor wetted his lips to the thought of having her as a whole course meal.
Tired of pampered little daddy’s princess, it was time for her to learn how to please him properly. To take what he had to give and be grateful for it. They had spoiled her rotten, it was his duty to show her the place where she belonged. And that was keeping his cock wet and warm.
Words were trapped in her tight throat as her mind spinned around, trying to grasp the situation as Levi did her face. Hazily shy tongue tasted the salty feeling of the man’s thumb. The hash texture of the teeth under his digit, the velvet feeling of her tongue and the witness of her mouth around it. Enough to almost make him blush or smirk, no holding back, no anymore.
“Good girl,” Levi’s puffed heated whisper made her tremble.
Glittery eyes, the embarrassment was unfurling in her rosy cheeks. Ashamed of how much it made her feel tight and warm but yet as if there was a place inside her that wasn’t filled properly. The deepness and reassurance of his tone, she wanted to hear it forever. On repeat until it was the only word she knew.
The whiddraw of his finger, only to add two more. Index and middle pushing deeper as she voluntarily ran her tongue under them. Hollowing cheeks as the pulling sensation pushed Levi’s finger deeper. The spit filled her mouth as it got wider. The pressure those digits did against her tongue as they adventured deeper, pushing her jaw and tongue downwards as they curled at the end, forcing gag reflex. Her mental will of keep sucking as brushing her tongue against them filled her conviction despite the overwhelming feeling of throwing up. ‘His dick is bigger,’ the thought that kept her pushing forward as the man felt the spit of her lips against his knuckles, sometimes teeth nibbling slightly. 
“Good girl,” he repeated, “You want to impress me?”
She hummed a positive reply as her pressure intensified while Levi took them away slowly. Rubbing his fingers together, enjoying the moisture that made them glide easily. 
Taking a step behind, Levi sat down in Erwin’s English green chenille chair. Resting his weight on the pushed surface as if he carried on so much on his shoulders. Elbows on both sides as if he was waiting for entertainment. Knees parted, creating an outward tilt that made the bulge shine prideful as it strained against the tight white trousers.
It made her jolt in her body, the sight of it as if she would never get used to it. Seen it before but it was always as mesmerising as the first time. The candle was still burning on the desk. The window was as wide open behind the chair as Levi’s leg while he waited for service. The idea of anyone recognizing that there was still someone in Erwin’s office or, for goodness sake, Erwin coming back from the trip early made her tremble. Her bottom lip became a prisoner of her teeth as she still wondered how much of a good idea this was.
“You don’t call me that.” His deep frowned expression made her remain quiet “Call me commander,”
“Lev–”
“Commander, sir..” Her breaking voice as she tried to process whatever that was happening conceived him the pleasure of carrying on.
“What a good girl,” Levi breathed out, mocking how easy it was to make her obey. “Come here. Are you going to behave for me?”
Her body combusted, it felt tight and warm but empty. Her covered knees with the combat boots hit the carpet of the floor as she squeezed between the chair and the desk. Levi pondered the idea of calling someone, so they would come in and force her to gag on his dick as she kept sucking while he tugged her under the desk. ‘Maybe for another occasion,’
“I asked you a question,” Levi’s firm, demanding voice warned. His demeanour held the undertone of someone who won’t accept rebellion.
“Yes,sir- Commander, sir,” She quickly corrected, and it made a chuckle echo in his throat.
Whatever was the thing that possessed Levi was making her succumb to a situation that she truly didn’t comprehend but made her whole body feel in a way it had never done before. Her body ached with the need to take anything he offered, thank him for it and do her best to get a compliment for taking it so well.
The meat of his inner thighs felt trapped, he petted himself through his uniform pants, lazily as his body rested on the cushioned surface.
“Make me happy, do your job,” Levi ordered with his voice dying from husk. She was reluctant at first, it felt wrong that it was someone else's place. It even smelled like someone else. Levi dedicated her his undivided attention as he frowned deeply.
“Do I’ve to do all the fucking work?” Levi complained under his breath as he sighted. Pale hands quickly unbuckled his belt, then he raised slightly from his place, just to push the leather off completely and let it rest on the desk.
A short hiss quicked his breath and then he sighted, as he unbuttoned the front of his pants and dragged down the zip. His hand reached for his cock as it shifted to the contact and then pulled out.
Y/N glazed up to him, trying to find the conviction. The fear of being seen from the training ground while sucking her boyfriend’s dick at someone else's office was something hard to forget. His finger’s run through her hair before gripping it in a handful made ponytail. Strands of hair tangled with his pale fingers as he pushed her face close to him.
“C’mon. Behave..” Levi breathed out as his other hand tugged his own pants off down his thighs and grabbed his dick from the bottom. 
Gripping tightly the strands, making her his as he pushed her closer. Shiny curious eyes getting closer to his cock as she didn’t push away anymore, her breath ghosted against it. The difference of temperature of his warm shaft made him want to buck his hips against it.
Yn’s mouthered herself as he lazily did one, two jerks to push down the foreskin to reveal the flushed deep red tip. The side thick vein shined proudly as he pressured near the sack and then raised up to pressure the slit. Her rosy lips parted to give it a timid kiss before flatly running her tongue against it, giving it a particular harsh suck to that throbbing vein. Closed eyes before they opened lazily to look through her eyelashes with lidded eyes. 
Levi’s breath stuck on his throat as she got him wet enough to engulf him soon. “Yeah, just like that, as I taught you,” Levi growled as he remembered that those lips had only been corrupted by him. She was getting better and he could tell. By the grip of his made ponytail, he pushed himself down her throat, quickly and aggressively.
No time, no patience. He did another tug and forced more of himself deep down her throat. Enjoying the warm and the wet as he groaned echoing in the empty room. The idea that he had been training her to take him exactly as he liked him, drove him nuts.
The girl choked a noise as her eyes tear up, relaxed her jaw to take him deeper as Levi forced her head still while his hips rocked forward.
His hissing reaction to each time he drove deeper into the engulfing wetness that dripped from the corner of her stretched rosy lips. “Fuck, suck harder. I taught you how to suck a dick, didn’t I?”
‘I’m trying!’ she wanted to say but Levi was so thick, so heavily against her tongue and he wasn’t yet all the way. The tip hitted the back of her throat each time he trusted forward. If she hollowed her cheeks, she would gag more on the spit. It would have been easier to run her tongue as he pushed in if she wasn’t fighting to slack her jaw trying to fit him.
The wet glide produced obscene loud noises as it sliced Levi’s cock.
“This view is mine only mine,” Levi moaned as he observed her face contouring, eyebrows drawn together as she tried to fit him all in.
Y/n’s also glazed up to look between heavy lids Levi undo in front of her, dusty cheeks, frowned expression and nor particularly of pain, groans resonating in his throat as his dick hit his throat. She gagged, hopefully, as he hissed before letting his head fall back. It was ridiculous how much he was enjoying it. The wet lovely noises before her gag as he forced her head to bob down on him filling the office. He liked it so much that he moaned while painfully gripping her hair.
He tugged her off, impossible pumpled red lips fighting for oxygen as she was breathless. Dizzy on arousal and in confusion. Watery eyes looking up to him and he commanded “open up,”
Reflective pinky tongue out as it was covered in glistering saliva, flat exposed as Levi hollowed his pale cheeks. Gathering moisture and with a loud sound, let the spit hit her mouth.
“Swallow,” and she obeyed, at this rate not questioning much. “Open up,” he breathed and smirked at the clean surface, ready for him to ruin again. “You’re a fast learner,”
Re-adjusting his position. Without warning, his firm grip that pushed her off, forced her back on his cock. Easily slipping in, she put all her back into it. Each time an inch deeper, a harsher pressure and moved more her tongue as they got a pleasant rhythm.
“Fuck, yeah. Just like that, love. Use your tongue more,” Levi seemed to have lost all inhibitions and he began to succumb to the pet names. All she could do was whimper around it and dipping into Levi’s thighs for balance.
Seeing him come undone was marvellous, it filled her pride. Maybe he was the one in command but her mouth delivered so much pleasure that he was head slackened against the chair, hissing in need, was beyond comparison. Maybe those previous underground chicks were naturally better but Levi became insane around her, always wanting more, always ready to break another rule for the sake of having her.
Hm her throat groaning warned him when he had pushed her all the way down, her nose against the dark hairs tingling against her nose, drooling down her chin as the spit turned thicker and sticker. Deeping her nails on his legs, patting out heavily of her nose.
Handful of kick breath as she her throat pushed Levi’s head past it “Shallow, shallow all of it,”
No more resting on the chair, curved for a better view as he tighten the grip to fuck fastly her flusterring throat. Tears merciless crossed her cheeks as she jerked and turned impossible red trying to fit it all.
“That’s it, fuck.” his breathing quickling as his voice was covered in necessity and arousal “You’re taking it so well, so fucking well,”
‘Oh that’s it,’ who needs oxygen when humanity’s strongest soldier is loudly moaning how good you take it. There was no instinct of survival, as she took all of it, felt deeper each time and drooled over his hips. The burning sensation each time that he went balls deep and the prideness of taking each inch.
Sobbing as it becomes too much at some point. She wasn’t sure what was wetting her face, her tears of her split as her hazy brain fighted for survival. Her knees hurted from the strength of not falling backwards from the trust of his hips.
“Fuck, yes yes,” Levi was in his own world, scratching the desk chair that didn’t belong to him. Staining with dark spots the chenille  each time that he drove to abused that hole “Fucking shit,”
At this rate, she wasn’t even trying to not gag to reduce the chances of someone hearing. She couldn’t take it anymore, too much. Her lungs hurted as her hand pinched his thighs, patted them. Anything that would make Levi erase the grip. Finally free, Yn rested one hand on the floor as she caught her breath.
“God…” she hissed dizzy, coughing as their ragged breath filled the place. Levi took a brief moment to observe her down, quickly catching his breath before raising from the chair to grab something from the desk. 
Piercing grey eyes looking into her demanding, squeezing her cheeks together. Forcing dewy eyes to look back at him with tears on the corners, glimmering gems looking into his. ‘What a pretty little sight,’ He was the only one he had seen it, and he was going to make sure it remained that way.
“Whose whore are you?”
“Y-yours,”
“Whose?”
“Yours,” this time with conviction, making him sight contented.
“Get up, I’m not done with you,” Levi growled.
Tugging from her forearm, obligated her to raise up by placing a hand on the carpet. Warm red cheek against the cold surface of the desk, hands pinned on the back. Levi’s cold hand made the hairs of her neck raise as he pushed the shirt and jacket up her back as far as they could go. Hot tongue tracing up her tailbone as he travelled the exposed skin.
It took all her self control to not moan under the minimum touch, she had been feeling dripping since the moment she decided to thoughtlessly invest in this idea and finally the attention was back on her. Hips pushing hard against hers as he humped her clothed ass, enjoying the pressure and squishing her against the desk.
Persistent lips sucked the crock of her neck a couple of times before straightening up. Palm of his hand on the bottom of her back. Pupils going thin as he remembered the owner of the office touching that place. Levi sighed breathless as he admired the view, her timid arousal eyes looking at him from the corners as he gave another good push with his hips, trapping her against the table. Soft moan as he shoved her promptly onto the table.
Levi wished she would be wearing a skirt, it would make it so much easier. Cursed under his breath the uniform tight pants.
“W-what is that?” She quickly questioned as he grabbed her hands and tight them together with his own belt, quite painful.
“This,” Levi bended to hower on top of her, to whisper “is for making me so fucking jealous,”
She could feel the bruises happening, not only around her wrists but on her hips as Levi gripped them with such strength as his teeth clenched. 
Pelvis pressing against hers “Levi,” Yn gasped enjoying the friction but it was getting too much to handle. The moisture between her legs was getting uncomfortable as she needed something, anything, to fill her up.
Strong tug from her hair, pushing part of her upper body up and mixing her pleasurable necessity with arousing pain.
“I think we had already agreed it was commander, cadet,” Levi gritted his teeth.
“I’m sorry, sir. I’m sorry commander-” Y/n hissed in pain and then her face fell into the cold surface again, breath clouding the polish surface as her lungs ragged. Slightly shaking to the sides, trying to win back his interest and finally allow her some relief.
Undoing her belt and pulling down the pants, they reached far enough to her knees. The boots would make it impossible to take them off completely, the tingling sound of the buckle moving as her legs parted trying to fit him between them better. Biting the inner part of her cheeks with the molars, patiently waiting for him to finally rampage inside her.
Levi was taking his time, lazily jerking his hard cock as he admired the views. Pert, round ass and youngful beautiful legs that shined with her wetness that runned known from her neediness. It made him bite his bottom lip, thumb parting her inner fingers without touching her clit. If she was coming, it was from his cock only.
Tight little hole, he had been using it non stop the last couple of months and yet, it still looked so small. Gripping her ass, pushing it to the side to admire it better. Fingers kneading the meat to his heart content, full display only for him. ‘I’m getting that damn Captain promotion just for this, my own desk to ramble her every fucking day,’
She couldn’t take it anymore, feeling the tip of his head running up and down her folds, collecting her slick, but not getting close to her enter and neither to her clit. .
“Commander, please. Please-”
“How pretty is it when you beg,” Levi murmured holding his shaft as it leaked an ooze of precum with excited “Beg me more, princess,”
“Please, I really need you inside-”
“Oh you can do much better than that.”
Planting her forehead on the desk, sucking her bottom lip harshly as she got exasperated. She couldn't touch him, she couldn’t see him, she could barely feel him as he refused to get near the good places with his dick. Legs trembling in anticipation “Sir, please. I’m begging, fill me up until all I can feel is your dick pointing me to the point it hurts,”
His sinister chuckle as the words would have been impossible to come from her lips a few months ago when she was still an innocent girl, now she sobbed for him.
“I wish he could see you. Hungry little slut for my cock,” Levi grunted as he pressed the head against her enter and trusted himself aggressively.
Red bruised lips from biting parted soundless as she pulsed around him. It felt as if he was in her throat. It felt too much to handle but he didn’t wait for her to adjust, not this time. His right hand on her neck, forcing her head back down and imprisoned her. She felt the need to push away but the desk made sure there was nowhere to run. 
Air hissed through his clenched teeth as Levi drowned his eyebrows together, it was a heavenly warm and tight encompass. Despite the grip on her hands, keeping them together, her knuckles paled as she pressed her fingers into her palms. The feeling of her cunt being abruptly filled, her legs trying to part more in vain to fit him better. She could feel Levi press and pull against her walls, it was overwhelmingly good that she swore she was sobbing.
Her moans began to mix with Levi’s groaning as he gravitated and rocked his hips. Moving himself steadily, trying to fully make his wave the tight place. Levi hissed breathy as she tugged his cock in all the right places.
Quickly, despite feeling his hips against hers, buried to the hilt and satisfied groans living his mouth, he didn’t wait. Slowly pulling out, her legs backed up of how painfully slow it was before rambling back on it. Slamming himself with no restriction, stood up properly to repeat the action.
Jaw tightening up as his teeth clenched “fucking shit, yeah, that’s it. Open up,” sighed as he enjoyed every minute.
“Commander-” her voice soft as a plea to then wheezed incoherent moans that filled the room. It felt too much, Levi bottoming each time, pistoning her hips.
“This fucking hole was made for me,” Levi pushed Yn’s cheeks apart as he gritted “I could barely fit my fingers before and look at that, now your cunt is sucking me in so nicely. Doesn’t want to let me go. Do you feel me rearranging your guts? It’s taking my fucking shape”
Levi had always had a dirty mouth but hearing him talk like that felt too much. Each time that he went balls it, it hit all the nice places. It was overwhelmed, to the point that all she could do was just slacken against the desk. Sobbing in pleasure how good it felt, she kept teething over the edge of coming but it kept building up.
“Are you crying because it feels good?” Levi pulled out completely, making her gasp loudly and watching the slick still connecting them.
“Ah…” She breathed, unable to perform any actual word and her legs shaking. Gladly she was that the desk was doing all the support, otherwise she wouldn’t be able to hold herself up.
Grabbing her neck and using it as support as he smacked back in with a loud wet smack. Bending over, whispering “or because I’m fucking you in Erwin’s desk as some cheap corner whore?”
“Commander-” Yn weeped as she gritted her teeth, feeling the pressure of Levi’s hand on her neck and the other on running up and down on her body before painfully grabbing her hips again.
“You’re fucking dripping, you enjoy it Don’t you? You get off by me treating you for what you’re, just some tight cunt for me to use? Wait until you see his face when he notices the stains on the carpet,” Levi growled, getting himself excited.
“Ah-” She cried, trying to part her hips wider in vain, restricted by the uniform. Levi raised his right knee to the desk, to shift the angle and go deeper, if it was even possible.
The orgasm was foreshadowed. She came, muffling her cries the best she could so the rest wouldn’t hear, the bricks were thick but not that much. Pulsing against him as she cried overwhelmed. Levi wasn’t stopping.
“Ah- Fuck,” He moaned feeling the sudden walls sucking him so nicely.
“Tell me how much you love it.” no waiting, only unstoppable necessity of more. The desk shaked under the power and the blue-prints with the stressing paperwork falling from it. The candle falling and, luckily, turning off. Leaving them in the dim of the night.
“I-I love it, it’s so good. I love your cock-” Bumbling and sighting out. She didn’t even know what else he wanted from her, she couldn’t even feel her arms or her legs from knees down at this point. Head turning to the side, trying to catch some fresh air. Desk fogging with her rushed puffs.
“Ah- Ah-Ah” little noises escaping her lips as she felt coming again, jolting her body as Levi didn’t seem to have intentions to stop but the rhythm getting chaotic. Without lights all she could feel was the permanent presence of his hand on her neck, keeping her in place.
“I’m gonna breed you properly, so anyone can know to who you fucking belonged to,” Levi muffed out, hitting deeper and rougher each time. If it was even possible. The head of his cock met her cervix each time as he got carried away, dangerously.
“Fucking hell, yes” Levi gritted his teeth, succumbing to a muffle mix of swearing as he reached the end. Head throwing back as he lost any rhythm and inhibition. 
“Levi…” forgetting the formalities and saying his name. The fingers of her feet contorning in pleasure, her hands tugging from the belt, arching her back and squirmed.
The not yet captain pressed as deep as he could, as his dick twitched and unloading himself inside. Laying on top of her back as both tried to regulate their breath, resting his chin on her shoulder as he admired her dizzily state and her features covered in wetness, from tears, spit or the sweat. He waited there until he finished working himself out.
“Stay still,” he groaned, raw voice after all what happened, straightening up. Both hissing as he withdrew his softening dick.
She attempted to look over her shoulder but she couldn’t even phantom the idea of gathering the energy for that. All that she could hear was Levi’s humming as he pushed her cheeks apart. Thumb gently massaging the hole as it began to leak his cum.
Then something began to clean her up as he kept prying open to see it all out.
“So pretty,” he murmured, mostly to himself.
All she could do was lay there limp, gasping for air or for her consciousness. It was so dark when she finally opened her eyes again. He was gently tugging her from her arms, soft quiet touch nothing compared to before.
“Do you want a shower?” He offered, knowing that they could take advantage of staying in the private chambers. After all, it was almost a suicide mission trying to leave the higher ranks’s building at the middle of the night without getting caught.
Not entirely sure how but Levi had manoeuvred both of them to be cuddling against the chair, playing with her hair.
Sleepy hummed a negative replied “I can’t feel my legs… neither my hands,”
“Oh yeah…” he undid the grip but she hissed loudly now down from the high, noticing the deep marks around her wrist.
“What the fuck happened to you?” She questioned once she felt her regular partner was back.
“I got carried away,” was all he murmured.
“It’s my fertile week, you said we weren’t going to sleep together these days,”
“I got carried away,” he repeated uninterested in going into details.
She fell asleep at some point and he allowed her. Carefully as a mother that puts a kid on the crip, Levi slided her body off from his. He cleaned the papers, picked up the blue-prints, and turned off all the candles. The place was right as it was before they came in, except from one thing.
The uncomfortable silence as both pondered over the recent activities “... how am I supposed to look at Erwin’s face after this?”
Levi didn’t reply right away, chuckled dryly and said “well better for you, less neck pain from looking up,”
Pale finger reaching across the wardrobe, pulling out the pink ribbon bag and opening it. He admired the lingerie with what he had cleaned up his own load off. It was pristine before he stole it a couple of days ago and now it was stained with him. As so was her. He could help it to grimace as he folded it and put it between the clothes.
‘I’m fucking insane,’ he thought with no remorse. However, Levi was sure that if the blond found out, he wouldn’t bring it around. It was either admitting that he had kept his ex clothes or both pretending this never happened. As the future captain was getting to know the Commander in line… he bet that this was the last time he was going to hear from this.
Perhaps this was the last time he could let his inner sassy thug shine through until he had to shut it down to behave as a proper leader. Then when the blond came back, they crossed pathways in the corridors.
“I cleaned your office. You live in a pig’s shit,” Levi casually commented.
The tall man smiled “Thank you, I appreciate it,”
Humming positive as the former thug slowly kept his stroll in the opposite direction but stopped midway “Oi,”
Both man looked over their shoulder to see what the other had to say, Levi casually dropped “I also put stoppers to your desk, that shit moves a lot,”
The blond frowned, Levi stoically turned back and kept going as if he had said nothing. It took all his will power to not smirk on his way down to the mess hall.
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YN Ackerman: Dating Jean Kirschtein
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Jean Kirschstein featuring the whole AOT gang x Yn Ackerman (Levi Ackerman's sister; she/her pronouns)
Warnings: swearing, kissing 😍
AN: This is a request from @lilacveiledsea! I figured we need a tiny change in fandoms for the day 🥰 also this is kind of modern remix with some of the wording. I can’t and won’t be stopped on my emoji usage 😂
Oh my dearest YN
Dear dear, innocent YN
You precious angel I'm so sorry 🤣
Not only are you related to this 👇🏻
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But you are also besties with the chaotic duo known as Hange and Erwin 😃
Thoughts and prayers YN 🙏🏻
Because wow is your life hectic!
Seriously I'm not sure how you do it
You basically wake up and your life is in shambles
"YN WAKE UP!" Hange screams, banging on your door
"It's 4am!" You yell
"Get up YN you're late," your brother shouts
"Late for what?!?! It's 4AM!" You again
"If you have to ask YN then you're already behind," Erwin shouts
You 👉🏻😐 dear god why me?
Life in the scouts is anything but boring for you
Seriously being the baby sister of Levi is a full time job
Mans needs someone to just chill him out Ok ✋🏻
"Levi will you please just calm down," you say exasperated
"YN we have alot to do before the next mission," your brother says
"Yes and we have time so stop running everyone ragged if you expect them to fight off 15 meter titans!" You argue back
Levi 👉🏻😐😑
You 👉🏻😠
Please YN you are the only one (besides Historia) who can talk back to him
Not that he takes you seriously 😒 but still
Not only do you hold major control over Levi but also you are the calm Hange needs
"YN ALL THIS RESEARCH ISNT GOING TO DO ITSELF!" Hange screams
"Yes but it can wait for you to sleep for a few hours," you say, pulling your friend from their station
"YN I'm so close to a breakthrough!" Hange exclaims
"That's great but it can wait for you to take a nap," you say full on grabbing your friend and dragging them from their workshop
Literally YNs job is not to fight titans, it's to babysit the scouts 😅
Even Erwin relys on you to keep him sane
"Alright times up, put the pen down," you say, bursting into your friends chambers
"Just a few more minutes," Erwin says, scribbling on some papers
"No! The timer went off and the pen GOES DOWN!" You say going up to grab the pen from Erwins hands
"Just a few minutes YN," he says quickly pulling it away as you glare 😑
"I swear to god Erwin I will set fire to this entire office if you don't put that pen down right now-" you 😡
Erwin 👉🏻😐 you wouldn't dare....
You 👉🏻 🕯 try me....
The pen goes down as Erwin stands up, moving past you
"You are ridiculous," he says
You 👉🏻😊 🤗
But you see YN, your efforts don't go unnoticed...
Because a certain someone is always watching 👀
Kind of creepy but listen, his intentions are good ok
You see, a certain Scout member just so happens to have a MAJOR crush on you
Literally he's hard-core in love with you YN
Jean has always thought you were perfect and an all around amazing person
He respects everything about you from the way you kill titans to the way you care for your friends and family
You've sort of formed an interesting friendship with Jean
While we all know he can act a bit "childish" we also know he is super reliable and helpful
Hrs always there when you need him 🥰
So much so that you sort of, kind of, develop a teeny TINY crush on the man's
Honestly, do not blame you YN 🥵
But you had always thought Jean liked Mikasa
I mean, would wouldn't be entirely wrong YN but he still had more feelings towards you than anyone else
In fact 👀 he'd often get a little jealous when he say you talking a certain someone
"Hey YN!" Eren would say as you turned and smiled
"Hey Eren! What's up?" You asked
Jean rn 👉🏻 >:(
"Not much just taking a break," Eren would say sitting next to you
As in, RIGHT next to you...
Less than an inch apart 😑
So leave it to our buddy Jean to waltz right up to Eren and tell him off!
"Aren't you suppose to be cleaning Titan boy?" Jean would growl
You 👉🏻👀 🍿
"I'm just taking a break and I thought I'd spend it talking to a pretty girl," Eren said as you blushed heavily
Oof Jean was not impressed in the slightest!
"Maybe YN doesn't want to talk to you? She looks busy," Jean said, bending down in front of Eren and glaring at him
You are still just like 👉🏻😃
"Well if I'm bothering YN she can tell me herself," Eren says back, standing up and facing off with Jean
Alright nows definitely the time to interfere YN
Too bad your big brother has that taken care of
"YEAGER get your ass back to cleaning! KIRSCHTEIN pick up a mop, if you have time to talk you have time to clean!" Levi yelled as you giggled at both men
“YN WHY ARE YOU INCITING A RIOT?!?” Levi yells at you
You 👉🏻 🧍‍♀️literally existing
You see, Levi knows Jean had a crush on you
And he also knows you have a crush on jean 👀
And he doesn’t like it one bit
Jean also knows that Levi knows that he has a crush on you
Phew 😮‍💨 it’s like a game of telephone over here
But Jean isn’t deterred
He does everything and anything to impress you
From finishing his cleaning first to helping you clean to killing 15 meter titans
“Did you see that Yn?” Jean boasts as you smile and nod
“Everyone saw that brat,” Levi says, swinging by and killing two more 15 meters right in front of Jean
Oof-
However Jean just takes that as a challenge to win your brother over
So when your ODM malfunctions as you are swinging through the forest, you panic
“Crap crap!” You scream as you fall
“YN!” Erwin and Hange both shout as they race to get you
Fortunately for you, a knight in shining armor comes to your rescue 💅
That’s right, Jean is there to save the day!
He catches you, carefully swinging to a branch and setting you down
“Are you ok?” He asks as he checks you over intently
“YN!” Hange and Erwin shout as they land next to you
“I’m fine, thanks Jean!” You say as your brother swings by
“YN your lucky there weren’t any titans around or you would have been a goner,” Levi says as you glare
“Well thankfully Jean saved me!” You spit back as your brother rolls his eyes and continues on
Poor Jean isn’t going to get Levi’s approval that easily
Good thing your an independent woman and you don’t need your brothers blessing
So when you get back to base, you confront Jean
“Jean, I just wanted to say thanks for today,” you say, playing with your fingers as he looks at you
Suddenly, you lift your head and your lips graze his softly
Jean rn 👉🏻😐😳
“I like you Jean and I was kind of wondering if maybe…” you say before you are immediately cut off, his lips on yours again
“I like you too YN, a lot actually!” He says as you smile
And everyone lives happily ever after 😌
The end.
Just kidding 🙃
Because one thing about being in the scouts in that you literally have zero alone time
Every time you and Jean think you can be alone, someon interrupts
Once it was Armin, another time Mikasa, then Eren
Literally there is no safe space
Thankfully you manage to find a safe space behind the stables
That is, until 👀
“HOLY CRAP I KNEW IT!” You hear shouting as you and Jean quickly seperate to see Hange and Erwin staring at you
You and Jean 👉🏻😳😳
Erwin and Hange 👉🏻😐😍
“Please please don’t say anything to Levi!” You immediately beg
Hange rn 👉🏻😐😏
“Don’t worry YN, your secret is safe with us,” Erwin says as you sigh in relief
“Thanks commander,” Jean responds as he smiles at you
“You two really like each other huh?” Hange says as you both nod
“You really think Levi would disapprove if you were happy Yn?” Erwin asks
You, Jean and Hange 👉🏻😐 really?
“Ok noted but I really think you should tell him,” Erwin says walking away
Sure, you’ll tell Levi one day
It might be on his deathbed but you’ll eventually tell him right?
Well unfortunately for you, things don’t happen that way
You see, Jean is kind of, well he’s a possessive guy
Literally he gets so jealous and so incredibly easily
So when Eren is innocently flirting with you in the dining hall 👀
“TITAN BOY LEAVE MY GIRLFRIEND ALONE BEFORE I REARRANGE YOUR FACE!” Jean yells as everyone looks at him
Everyone including Levi
“This is fine just don’t make eye contact don’t make eye contact… CRAP,” you think as you accidentally look at your brother who is now glaring at you over his tea
“YN, Kirstein my office NOW!” Levi screams as he stops out
Hange 👉🏻🫡 fair well YN
Jean 👉🏻😃 crap-
You 👉🏻🙏🏻 counting your days
You and Jean enter Levi’s office and sit down
Not only is he sitting at his desk but he’s staring at both of you
“Levi I can explain-”
“It’s not Yn’s fault-”
Levi 👉🏻✋🏻
You and Jean 👉🏻🤐🤐
“I just want to know one thing… why didn’t you tell me sooner?” Levi asks
You and Jean 👉🏻🤨🤨 wait what-
“I knew you two liked each other for a while and I suspected you were dating but I’m just wondering why you wouldn’t tell me?” Levi asks
“I- I just thought you wouldn’t approve,” you say
Levi sighs, “are you happy Yn?”
“Im happy,” Jean says : D
“I didn’t ask you Kirstein! YN?”
You grab Jeans hand and smile, “I am!”
“Ok well that’s all I need,” Levi says, “now get out of here.”
You and Jean stand, quietly moving quickly to the door
“Kirschstein, I’m not done with you yet!” Levi says as Jean gulps
You just smile, turning to kiss you boyfriend
“Thoughts and prayers” ✌🏻
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saturninesstuff · 1 year
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Poker face. Levi x reader.
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Summary : what happens when Y/n catches petra flirting with her boyfriend. And he does nothing about it? Ship : levi x reader + oc Warnings : cussing, violence, jealousy, yandere, spitefulness, drama, hurt/anger, comfort.
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It was no secret that Y/n was one of the few people who wore a poker face like levi and mikasa. Any and all emotion on her face was not visible to the naked eye. So when she catches her boyfriends cadet flirting with him, and him doing nothing, she's not so pleased. Ofcourse they weren't publicly dating. She was a captain of a completely different squadron with hange being her right hand woman. But it was still risky.
Yn watched as petra giggled bringing levi his tea. That wasn't her Job. Anger slowly took over yns vision, deciding she was going to smash that woman's head into the wall, yn started to strut forward. Sure yn was very confident in herself, always put together, sassy and neat, but she had an incredibly short temper. Just as she was about to enter the mess hall she stopped. Maybe she shouldn't hurt the poor thing, instead hurt the thing doing nothing about this absurd situation. It wasn't JUST the tea. Petra had done many things to show her intrest in levi. She even got her dad to try and bribe levi into marrying her???. Yn looked at the scene a little longer, then turning her back and leaving. Not noticed at all.
Now it was levi's turn to witness a scene that made his blood boil. Yn almost always trained the women of the scouts but today she was training with the boys, no, boy. One in particular. Damien Anderson. A cadet that loveeed testing levi's patients, he was cocky, disobedient, and a perverted bastard. To levi atleast. But only because he caught him sneaking out of the girls dorms a few times. Now Damien was most of those things, but he acted as sweet as honey around the women of the scouts. He wore his hair long, in a braid, and had icey green eyes to match his dark black hair. "Gonna give me a run for my money cap?" He smirked at yn, "you already know it Anders" yn retorted with a smile, a smile. Something that used, to be reserved for levi only. But apparently not today. Damien snorted, "did you just smile at me?", "no, I frowned at you dipshit" yn rolled her eyes. "Your more expressive than usual, what's got you so sassy huh?" Damiens smirk never left his face as yn tied her hair up. "On your feet anders" she playfully kicked his shin. Why was she so friendly today???.
"Hey." Levi called out. "Hm?" Yn turned around, face smeered with dirt and a bored expression. She never got dirty. Atleast not for long. "Whats up with you?" Levi asked concern laced in his smooth tone. "Nothing." Yn turned back around and started walking off "hi yn!" Petra called. Yn stopped walking now, standing dead still, then turning around seemingly excited?. "Hey do you think I could transfer that Damien kid to my squadron?" Yn smiled sweetly. Levi's face contorted into disgust, "no." Oh. "Its fine I'll ask erwin" yn shrugged and walked off again. Wtf? Was all levi could think.
"Yn" Levi said sternly. Stopping yn infront of erwins empty office. "Mm?" She said avoiding levi's eyes. "What have I done to upset you." He said, more demanding than asking really. "You tell me" She shrugged. "Drop this facade. Tell me what I've done." Levi scowled. "Ask PeTrA" yn emphasised her name. "Oh cAptAiN. LeT mE mAkE yOu sOmE tEa. Oh CapTAin yOuR sO fUnnY. Oh CapTAin oh cAptAiN." Yn waved her hands around dramatically and rolled her eyes. Levi stood there, beyond baffled. "Are you-.. jealous?" Levi tried his best not to smile at this stupid pettiness of his lover. "Look at you sherlock Holmes." Yn scoffed. "I don't see why?" Levi asked, very very confused. "That's the point, you let her be all over you, and then get mad when I do the same. Get a life man." Yn started walking off only to be tugged back. "I'm sorry my dear, I didn't know you were so pissy about this. I'll get her to maintain distance." Levi pecked yns cheek, "hm." Yn still wasn't looking him in the eyes. "Fine, but if I see her on you again I'm going to smash her face into a tree." Yn 'joked'. "Deal" Levi rolled his eyes, holding her close. Just as Petra turned the corner she saw Levi lean down and kiss you, which you noticed was intentionally planned. As you saw Petra, levi would never display any pda. But you enjoyed this.
"Hey, morning cap!" Damien called, "get back to your squad Damien." Yn sternly said, confusing the absolute shit out of Damien, but when Levi shot him a glare he was quick to run off.
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kuldren · 2 years
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I just remembered an Erwin x reader I read where Erwin would find books the reader had annotated and fell in love with them through their thoughts and writing and it was so wholesome I wanna read it again if anyone knows where I can find it please let me know
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animedaddymilkers · 2 years
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AHAHA IDK IF UR EVENT IS STILL OPEN BUT NUMBER 10!!! WITH ERWIN SMITH FROM ATTACK ON TITAN (this could be where he’s about to get chomped by an ugly ahh titan yet yn comes in to save the day; whether she gets hurt, eaten, or comes out completely fine is up to you but yeah) THANK YOU!!!!
Prompt 10. spooning at night
characters: erwin smith, gn!reader
tags: fluff, slight angst, mention of injury, hurt/comfort
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"You should retire," Erwin's voice was quiet, but the sentence was a statement.
"Funny, I was about to say the same to you," You retorted and looked over shoulder at him.
He stood behind you; his expression was conflicted as he gently placed his hand on your injured side. To say he felt guilty about you getting injured while saving him was an understatement. Erwin blamed himself completely and wasn't about to let himself live it down. Meanwhile, you were just thankful that you were in a position to save him. The event left you with mild injuries-- hurt but not bed bound. An all around win in your mind, but you understood where he was coming from.
"I'm not retiring, Erwin. We're in this together. Let's just... Let's just forget about it for now. Let's focus on tonight," Your pleading eyes met his and his chest tightened.
Bringing your hand to his lips, he kissed the back of your hand before answering softly, "Of course, darling. We'll change your bandages and lie down."
You nodded in agreement and Erwin grabbed the bandages. He attentively tended to your wounds; his fingers were gentle and apologetic. Each touch conveyed all his emotions without words. When he finished he kissed your shoulder softly and helped you into the bed. Due to your injury, your laying position was a mildly awkward position on your side.
"Comfortable?" Erwin questioned as he rubbed your outer thigh.
You huffed and buried your face into the pillow, "Barely, but it'll do until the pain meds take hold. And of course it'll be better once you get in bed."
"Of course," a quiet laugh left him at your more than certain tone, silently asking for him to hurry up and get under the covers.
Erwin did just that; he rid himself of his uniform and for the first time since you were injured, he listened to his own needs. An agonizing ten minutes later he finally crawled in bed behind you. His large form always radiated heat and tonight it felt especially soothing. Ever so carefully, his arm draped over your side after he paid extra attention as to where your injuries were.
His breath fanned across your neck and shoulder in a rhythmic pace; if you had been any more awake it probably would have tickled. Fingertips brushed against your skin and pajamas as they traced imaginary shapes. Quiet words made it to your ear as you entered the blissful state between awake and sleeping.
"I'm thankful you're alive, I can't imagine living a day without seeing your face. I love you."
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m-jelly · 11 months
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Naughty demon Erwin or Levi thought.
Imagine them confessing this to you and you're a demon as well (you can be something else if you want):
Them: "Let me be clear, little bunny, I want you and I don't mean wanting as a simple thing. I want to kiss you. I want to fuck you. I want to hold you. I want to eat your pussy. I want to spank you. I want you to call me yours. I want to love you and I want you to love me. And I really want to fuck you hard. I need and want you."
You: "You said fuck twice."
Them: "I did and I mean it. I really want to fuck your brains out until you're stuffed full of cum. I want to put a collar on you and make people see who owns you. I love you, my darling bunny." He leans closer his lips close to yours. "I want your body and soul. I love you for eternity and more. Your name is written on my bones. Say yes and I will be yours."
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milfs4lif3 · 3 years
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aot on crack part 4
Connie: *Eats a brownie*
Levi: “CONNIE STOP!”
Connie: “Dude what did you put in this brownie, it tastes like colors”
Levi: “That’s because it’s Erwin’s special brownie...”
Connie: “Weeeeeee”
Levi: “The special ingredient is dr*gs...”
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sufjanoflove · 2 years
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Unrequited Love
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Featuring Erwin Smith x Reader!
Synopsis: One sided love
Warnings: Angst </3
Your love for him was strong. Being his right in command made it even harder for you to hide your emotions. So deep and dearest to you, and so.. so disheartening as well. He told you when you were just cadets that he’d dedicate his entire life to finishing his fathers legacy, to finish what he needed to finish. If he died, he never had to worry about anything.
Yet, you’d still sacrifice everything for him. It developed so early on that when the time came to tell him, he told you he could never love.
Every night, before bed, you’d pray.. to God, to Allah, to anyone who would hear, asking if the angels could come and help you, begging for mercy. Tears after tears, you’d soak your cloth blanket, your knees ached as you stayed crying into the edge of your bed, on the floor, for hours, sometimes even all night. Just talking, begging, wishing, everything that you could think of.
“I can’t trust anyone besides him. I have no one but him. You saw my family die in the attack of shinganishina. I have only Erwin, so please… To be in love with someone who you know could never love you is such an agony, constant suffering on my body, my mind, my soul. Please let the ache leave, please.”
The only way you thought would take the pain away was to finally tell him. Confronting him, alone in his office one night as he did his usual paperwork. When you walked in, he was mapping out a plan for the retaking of wall Maria.
“Ah, Y/n. Come in.” He faced his papers, never taking his eyes off of them to even give you one look, look of gratitude or look of appreciation. Nothing, just his voice welcoming you into his office.
“I see you’re finishing your plan.”
“Yes, it’s quite difficult, knowing these boys are Titan shifters and we still don’t know much about them, but I think I have the right ideas.”
“Erwin I’d like to speak with you.” He finally looked at you causing you to falter in your speech but you regained some confidence in the matter of half a second, “about something very important. Just please, don’t get too angry.”
He nodded, stepping away from his desk and to you, hovering over you.
“Remember, back in our training days before we even thought of becoming leaders and I told you someday I’ll find my will, or the passion for my devotion? And you told me to never give up, well, I never did.”
He scrunched his eyebrows a little, “what are you getting at, Y/Ln?”
“I’m in love with you Erwin.”
“You’re going crazy, get some rest.”
“Always have been in love with you, ever since we first met, I knew.”
He stayed quiet, allowing moments of silence to pass between the both of you. You finally looked at the clock, 10 minutes of silence had passed. Erwin never faltering his look on you, and you never let your eyes away from his neck. Too embarrassed to meet his eye.
“I’ve got lives, millions of lives, balanced on me. I cant do this, Y/n. It is inappropriate.”
“You- this—” Speechless, he left you speechless. You felt moronic, stupid, any synonym that shared the meaning, is what you felt.
“You’re so selfish, Erwin!” Leaning to the side, you knew this argument, just like your love, was one sided. Smith would never budge, and it saddened you. “You’ll never win this fight against your beliefs, so just stop an-”
“And what, Y/n? I can’t, and you know that. You, out of everyone in this whole world, know that I can and will never stop in my tracks to- love someone.”
“You don’t even love me?” You grabbed his arm, allowing your feelings to reach his eyes, staring at your soul and everything within. He knew he hurt you, and frankly he didn’t worry, for he knew it was best.
“Tell me, say it exactly Erwin. Because right now, it feels like I’m in a one man cult. There is no amount of crying I could do for you that would make you love me back?.”
All the dedication, fighting, misery, and pain you dealt just for him was making your blood boil. You felt like vomiting with the way that nothing you did was worth anything, all your hardship just for him to use you in getting to his goal.
The moment you met him in the training corps, you should’ve known never to fall for a man like this. A man who would never give, even his shadow, the time and love of his heart. His soul was dark, reaching only for his ambitions, and when they were met, his soul would either burn to ash or find something else to worry for. Humanity meant more to him than you ever did.
Tears streamed down your face as he stared blankly at you, “Please, just tell me.” You wished in that moment, you could just read his mind.
“I don’t love you, Y/n.” You choked, letting go of his arm and bending a little to hold your stomach. Everything in your body churned, your heart felt like giving up, your breathing felt as though you fought a billion titans, and still, you still fucking loved him.
The next mission, you dedicated your heart and soul to dying. Doesn’t matter how or when, you wanted to die. You knew, in this life you didn’t matter to the man you cared for the most, and just like him, you’d rather die than fail. Failing was much more devastating and you couldn’t have been too dumb to realize that.
But you never did, you survived every mission since his death. You got to hug your children, sing soft melodies to them to bed, and got to live a peaceful life. To some, it was a dream, but you were still hurting, now that he’s gone, you could never, truly devote your love to him. You married then divorced because of your devotion for Erwin. He never got to fully hear you out, and if he did, the world meant more to him that you did, so why won’t you give up?
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