😭bestie you really hurt my feelings with the ghosting fic, now I'ma need that part 2 of us raising this lil boy that looks damn near just like his late father.

I think she’d be a little girl and she’d loook just like him and act like him, the way she smirks and scrunches up her face in disgust and the way she argues and fights for justice (in her case that’s staying at up late past her bedtime.)

she’d be inquisitive and ask every night for stories about her dad, what he was like, what he was he doing, funny stories sad stories she wanted to get to know him and with the way you talk about suguru it feels like she does.

your daughter would know geto so well that when you’re out and you see kenjaku posing in his body, even she can tell that isn’t him. you’d both pause stunned by the walking and talking figure of the man you once loved, but there’s an instinctive feeling inside of you that just tells you that he’s not him.

“mommy, that thing has daddy’s face” she’d whisper to you as you stare at the imposter.

I point you all to my ko-fi page once more -> link

my parents, enraged that I didn’t sort a massive mound of clothes yesterday (after doing the other chores they asked), essentially decided they are going to start charging me rent.

So this is just in preparation for that moment when they do start asking. I’m still trying to save up to move out. It’s not a huge deal yet (idk how much they’re going to charge) so there’s no pressure to donate.

I work a full time job so I can’t really give much in return. But I can take doodle requests upon proof of donation! I’ll doodle any DCA you want.

Thanks.

really wish my one friend would quit flirting with me. and trying to goad me into hanging out more. and assigning us fictional characters that are oh-so-coincidently either couples or with romantic tension. and then interrupting our gameplay to ask me repeatedly if I think they’re “like us” (which they rarely are…). and matching my icon on discord without asking (again, usually by insinuating a couple connection). and giving me random things I do not want and did not ask to receive (and then forcing me to take them???).

rule #1: never take ashwagandha and get wine drunk 🧍🏾‍♀️

I genuinely did not notice at first but they swapped his eyes around? I know it’s concept art but I’m curious on why

I’m like Johnny Truant in the tags of every goddamn post I make or reblog on this site and I’m not apologizing. If you want me to apologize come over to my house and you can talk to the minotaur about it

Sometimes I wish my “friends” or whatever who ghosted me would talk to me again just so I could bite their fucking heads off

everytime i’m faced with wild overt misogyny that’s just platformed like it’s nothing i remind myself that people don’t actually have to feel this way about women. men are fully capable of treating women like human beings and viewing them as such. “but socialization but male fantasies but patriatchy speaks through us even when we don’t recognize it” sure but actually regardless there exist men who are fundamentally not raging misogynists and they generally seem happier and better adjusted. misogyny to me isn’t disappointing because “oh i can’t believe Men, as an essentialized category of person, are like this” it’s disappointing because people make the choice to be like this. “it’s my biological imperative as a man to dominate you” okay well it’s my biological imperative as a freaky bitch to dominate you so what now. what biological imperative is making you comment “onlyfans detected opinion rejected” on every picture of any attractive woman. i think i will always be understood by most people as a woman and i’m learning to accept that and trying to like it but misogyny makes me feel very trapped of course. but misogyny is a choice. which means some people make the choice to be misogynistic which is profoundly frustrating. but many other people choose not to be actively misogynistic and i believe anyone could choose not to be actively misogynistic if they wanted. so it’s a whole thing

I’m closing my ask box

At least for a couple of days

I’m tired

I should go to bed

@lonely-cereal oh i get to explain this ship. ohhh my god. i don’t have the energy to put this in essay form, but here’s the breakdown of my Rayvio agenda 💜🖤

I personally prefer to ship Ray with someone who isn’t from Grace Field, for Isabella reasons 

and Violet is unlike anyone he’s ever met, in both looks and personality

but let’s be so serious: she looks like a slightly less feminine Norman, has Emma’s courage. the twist is her attitude. I think Ray would be drawn to her.

they instantly understood each other 👇

they both try to pretend they’re cool and chill, when the opposite is true they care so so so much and have a natural inclination to protect 

they look like punk ass mallrat MySpace emo kids like that’s all i can really say on that aspect. but bro trust me on this just trust me

Ray guided her and the rest of the Goldy Pond kids back to the bunker, and it took two weeks, and they had a lot of time to get to know each other. Violet was relativity uninjured compared to the other GP main players, so she’s probably the one who Ray spoke to most often (aside from Lucas ofc) and they definitely worked together while getting such a huge group across that vast distance.  

And they had even more time to get close during the search for Cuvitadala. further reading. I think, if we’d gotten more fleshed out chapters from that part of the story, we’d see them interacting a lot more.

it’s not a jump to say they became friends pretty quickly, even less of a jump to suggest they have a solid dynamic. we saw them gang up on Emma for being reckless (really, they’re both worried about her), demonstrating that they’re on the same page, and they already move as a unit. 

(we’re entering headcanon territory so just close your eyes and open your mind to my vision) While I assume Emma and Ray paired off most often during the search for Cuvitadala — they are the besties of all time after all — as well as Ray and Don, I see Violet and Ray being a surprisingly frequent pair. Gilda and Emma definitely take notice of this development.

now walk with me here, because in my expert opinion, this ship is a slowwwww burn. like it takes them almost a decade to actually get together. But they just vibe with each other. they hang out more and more after coming to the human world, growing steadily closer. 

Ray probably understands what’s happening and comes to terms with it first, deciding to simply Ignore these feelings until they go away. He thinks there’s just no way she’d ever like him like that. And seeing as he places such high value in friendship, he might even think it unfair to put those feelings on her. 

Violet is more hesitant, always cautious when it comes to investing emotionally. However, she knew early on this nerd was going to be a problem for her. She also elected to ignore these feelings, and it works for a decent amount of time. 

Time goes on, and they start to grow up. The dynamic changes a little, and their sarcastic banter has become more like play flirting, then more like actual flirting. They both think the other is 100% joking.

But Violet gets annoyed with the will-they-won’t-they a few years after they find Emma, and just decides to say Fuck It and kisses him to get it out of her system. this plan backfires, spectacularly. 

Ray is like Woah ?!?!!! 

They kinda just don’t talk about it and carry on like before, for a few weeks. Until she’s like “oh hey btw what the fuck is your problem” and he’s like “what’s UR problem” and then. bam. Rayvio. Vioray. You agree. 🙏

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i’m not sure if it’s the majority of people i’ve been talking to or if there’s something fundamentally broken w me or if it’s the way dating has been gamified but i swear to god no-one asks questions back or has an overall curiosity about the other human being in the conversation and it makes me want to drop every chat i have within two to four messages

twt if i see one more “zhongli and tighnari’s eng vas are zionists don’t support them” tweet i’m deleting the app

everything that could go wrong today has and I’m just ready to call it quits for this year while I’m ahead. Not even going to try anymore.

to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

Random art vent lol

I get tired of constantly pouring my heart out when asked about my stuff only for it to fall flat. Like why did they even ask me to begin with??? Just to tease me??? 😭 bruh