I should probably stop talking about creepypastas/horror content with my sister late at night because it really makes my paranoia flare up lol

applejack for your thoughts

Not to sound like some kind of weirdo freak or anything but I would really like to be in love with someone who is also in love with me .

speaking of interpretations i don't like i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee the idea that lifesteal characters are somehow different people or lose memories between seasons i hate it so bad

For me being ace aro is weird, I keep wanting a relationship (like you know how you sometimes have the intense craving for like emotional and physical intimacy that non ace aro people have and like that desire to feel connected to another person in a bone deep way, but you can never seem to get that and there always seems to be that someone for another person but never you) , but that's usually solved by heated blanket

i love hyperphantasia i get to vividly see flying krill in my brain and also have the subway surfers music playing in my ears for half a therapy session its so great

"A beautiful crafted piece of living flesh. The limbs were functional at a 70% capacity, and so was diction, 40% capacity. It did speak to me besides its language being completely incoherent." To share the advancement of her experimentations with him always brings a certain level of satisfaction to Kaeleena. The erudit has become quite tired of minding people's "sensitivity" and "sense of ethics" about her research which involves either human lives or corpses. It is all for science or well, leisure. "It did die in three days however, what a shame brought to my own name. I shall coordinate the performance of my next revival together with your return from vacation, in order to show you. To where have you been? Any tales from distant lands?"

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One thing that's so odd to me about the Eugenia Cooney thing is how there's still people who think she's in denial about her ED.

She knows. She was in a treatment program, she mentioned in it Shane's "documentary". The people who are wondering what she's saying to convince doctors (and the recent crisis team) that she's fine kind of boggle my mind.

She just tells them the truth. That she has an ED and either that she's trying to work on it by herself or that she does not want to get better. It depends on where you live, but very often medical professionals aren't going to bother putting limited resources towards someone who does not want the help.

She can say, "Yes, I'm anorexic. Yes, I know I could die. No, I don't think going somewhere would help but thank you for the resources." Whether they decide that's grounds for commitment or not depends on the laws of her state and the personal judgement of those evaluating her.

Leaving her to die and moving on to the people who are in her same physical state but begging for help isn't exactly a wild decision.

it's taken me 21 years to notice that my brain/hormonal shit is real weird. or maybe it's normal and everyone else goes through this but -

Every month, when my period is getting closer (so about 4 days before it starts and then the first couple days of it) i lose all my energy for everything. i get super super super anxious and paranoid and I can't focus, I can't think, I can barely communicate to people and I essentially become like. A Husk. My RSD gets bad, I can't write no matter how hard I try, sometimes it even gets so bad that I can't read.

And then, usually in the middle of my period, it gets better. It all goes away. It's like waking up into the real world, breathing in air for the first time, it's so weird.

And I've only really recently started to notice this cycle, over the past few months since moving out of Florida, how I'll feel awful, worse, worst, and then I'll wake up the next day feeling healed and refreshed and fine.

I need to find a way to 1) communicate this to a doctor and 2) communicate this monthly to my FRIENDS so there stops being that weird little period of time where all I'm ever saying is like, generic AI responses.

IDK. Maybe this is totally normal and I'm just overthinking it. but this week is when I have my worst intrusive thoughts, my worst depressive thoughts, etc. etc. and I think it's in time with my Cycle which probably means that something is Wrong.

I don’t wanna ask I feel like that’s annoying I can’t ask I don’t wanna be a bother but I want to be able to look at my friends blogs without feeling upset lol

To anybody who takes new information that is generally negative the same way I do:

Yes, a few hours ago you didnt know. You were smiling and laughing. You didnt know this was going on and it was. That doesnt mean you were a bad person or you should feel bad or guilty because you were enjoying yourself when bad things were happening or happened. You didnt know. Now you do. That's how news works, and that's how it happened. It's okay. You dont have to look into the past and feel guilty now that you know what has become of it. You're fine. You didnt know. It's going to be fine. I love you, you're doing great.

I am writing a new Jay smut as I am typing this

If you do end up choosing a funk troll representative then I nominate Scott or bigb

Scott because the bright rainbow colors of chromia and the rainbow pride flag 

Bigb because the trippy imagery would be a reference to the trippy cobble rooms

As much as these are both fun ideas, I actually already have plans for both BigB and Scott!

BigB is part of the Snack Pack, aka Lizzie’s (Poppy’s) main friend group! He lives in pop village and is one of the first trolls yoinked by chef Joe Hills. (Funny enough, I initially was planning on the snack pack being mostly fairy fort folks before you suggested Ren and Martyn lead the rock trolls! It’s one of the reasons I have Cleo playing Creek.)

And Scott’s not even a troll! He’s a rageon. He, Gem, and Impluse play V+V’s roles!

(It is a fun idea though, taking into account all the colors. I’ve already got the Ocean Queen as a separate character from regular Lizzie playing her mother, so maybe Chromia!scott could work as a phsycidelic troll… maybe a bounty hunter… oooh I actually really like that I might go back to Roseblings as V+V so I can have bounty hunter Scott lol… maybe I’ll make a poll)

sometimes ill send my mom a funny meme or video like goofy singing bring me to life by evanesence or a rat stealing pizza or whatever and she will respond with something like "when i was pregnant with you i cried because i didnt want you to be born into a world of suffering" and i never really know how im supposed to respond to that

I find it weird when people tell me they’re blocking me like. Just block me im not gonna respond to you anyways chances are if our some interaction was arguing over something then I don’t want to interact with you anyways?

realistically, i don't think tubbo would ever let his character experience a kidnapping arc unless someone drags him away from that damn computer, but because of this his existence on the island is so comedic. like anybody else wouldve gotten got by now in some way, shape, or form with all the federation-annoying things tubbo does, but he hasn't. he is a weed in cucurucho's carefully maintained front lawn and they've just run out of weedkiller. he is the jerry to cucurucho's tom, even.