Our school performed a play about depresdion in youth

The entire soundtrack of dear evan hansen, don't try suicide from Queen and dumb ways to die, as well as mario kart coconut mall is playing in my head now

I wonder how he did it. I had a friend n he just disappeared all media all contact if you called it turned out to be his dad. Maybe he did may that's so so good right now dead . I'm at this point again this gunking point I worked so hard to get away from to protect my self from. I try n try n pray and try to. E a light n I get dragged down. Y deamons depression ppl the weight of being a supportive person is far 2 much 4 me now

I'm done I cant anymore I just want to go home n that dident even make sense cuz I home. I talking to the internet 4 crying out loud. Sorry for the inconvenience my head is full at the moment try again later. Fudge I just stop to correct my self as if any of you are even going to read this as if I'm not just going to delete this the moment I feel a slight bit better. It's all gonna restart the conversations the personalities.

I doubt anyone will notice if I leave n they ne or hear from me a shain. I get it I'm a stepping stone for ppl. To help them grow. Ik I swear everyone happier once they leave me

I attract broken ppl a d I care for them not out of pitty but because I want ppl to be loved n feel loved even my goal in life is to make others feel loved or happiness at least once. Its always about others 4cme cuz I know that I dont have anyone and I know I most likely will at this point I can tell if I'm pushing them away of they just not trying to come close. I'm worse thin in trued the things I love dont sparl joy anymore. If I do feel anything it last for like 5mins. My hamster dying and yeah il that "YoU Dhouldn,t have a pet if u cant afford a vet" sorry for making hamsters my emotional support. Ha they just my support I didn't mean 2cit was just supposed to be a let but as my metel state started to decrease over the years they became so much more. . I had consoling sessions b4 but they scared me. One time in the little prequiz b4 the mettingvi guess my result showed me to be a dangour to myself or others so my console told me that if it happend a second week she might have to refer me to a hospital. I know how to act it how I survive. How to form myself not to step on toes how to show my best side while trying to fix the not do acceptable. What to say to certeirb friends n ppl. How to keep silent maybe to mich. I was raised by example how to assume to much n I fought not to be like mym but I am. I hate it I hate me. I love me but I also hate her. I speak in like multiple cuz their diff messages but yet all akart n the same. That disentvmake sense which is fine. Imma take a break from everything. I just wanna sleep dont worry I'm not goona kill myself I'm just need to to fully restate. Knowing merci womt even be able to do that. I'm just a broken record like the rest of my family

Fuck, fudge sorry whatever ( this lone was very much scripter. I dont cursevmuch (( I dont like to) so well I can I'm taking full advantage b4 logic or guilt sets in)

Nice talking to u empty/filled void of the internet, love ya bye

At what point are you ignoring

Everything good that has ever happened

Just to call yourself a failure

Sometimes I feel like I'm on top of the world and sometimes I feel like the world is on top of me.

Perdón por decepcionarte, mamá.

#Quote #inspiration #motivation #Bekind #Depresdion #prayers (at New York City, N.Y.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CddK5EzOOGz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Sorry I haven't posted much today.

"How are you? What do you feel?"

Yall ever feel like your hobbies are just unproductive distractions from living life but then you dont actually know what it means by living life or how else you'd fill the hours in your day so you find yourself googling "what do people do?" And "how to live?"

Ferdinand Hodler – The Disappointed Souls (1892)

#art #traditional art #artist #depression #painting #painter #drawing #sadnnes #sadbeautifultragic #Ferdinand Hodler #disappointed 

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I look like skelator and I’m continuing to lose weight, BUT I’m doing okay. I’m feeling okay. I’m proud of myself for not splitting on Adrian. I’ve been practicing opposite action these last few days. I’m still feeling sad and jealous but I’m managing it well.

im so sad i rly miss my best frienf a lot nd she just mssgrd me 2 skype but i cnt bc no laptop nd my ipads not in my room rn nd also i wss just abt 2 sleep nd im just ckcjjcj