buaa.........

literally i will ship anything if u give me one good (it doesnt even have to be good) reason why i should

im Going To Fist Fight my brain

it’s really really fun queueing posts for you guys to look at later, it’s really awesome but you guys wouldn’t know I was gone for like two months other than the fact that I wasn’t messaging anyone and my posting had slowed down a lot

Sorry but why is dating literally the worst

SMSW Day 1: Side, Minor, One-Off Character

ITS OUR GIRL TRIPLE X-MAS

I've had motivation to edit so I just made a simple edit in like.....a few minutes so if it sucks blame it on the fact it's early

@seemoreseymoursbay

sillay tf2 dewdles while i procrasinate on hw <3

cowboy. cowboy felix.

Oh my god people are still on about how "not cis and not trans" is an actual identity people can meaningfully have

The definitions are opposites. The meaning of cis is "always identifies with your assigned gender at birth" and trans is such an umbrella term that it covers every other alternative

If you want to claim "not cis" and also claim "not trans" that tells me that they don't want to be perceived or labeled as trans, which is an (internalized) transphobia issue. Which is not a solid basis for an identity

There's something painful about being the only bbh viewer in my friend's group because the rest of them are in the other team and I know Bad's gonna be blamed/the target of it and I know I'm not gonna stand it

this is not rly abt tumblr but its kind of sad to have bad always be the one people want to lose 💀 like it happened with everyone wanting dapper to die, with the elections, and even now with purgatory? i feel like i wouldnt be so sensitive about it if this hadnt been a thing since dsmp LOL like why couldn't we have a fandom favorite in our team

Aight another tag game

This one is super cool and fun! Thanks dear @nananarc

Dew it for your OC! 🤡🔪

Take the Quiz here. Dress up your OC here.

My Star Wars OC “Edessa Jerrika.” Something AU something. Working with her back story of working as a bartender, Jizz singer/ strip dancer on Corellia when she was young and stupid(er). I think she dyed her hair black then to make herself more striking in neons (or what she thought anyway). Her result is—

The final girl

congrats, you're the one who makes it to the end. your instincts, paranoia, and/or pure fucking stubbornness guide you every bloody step of the way. when the dawn finally breaks, you're the last one left standing. sure, it cost you friends and loved ones and you're going to have one hell of a therapy bill, but at least you're alive.

Tagging @luciferian-herbivore @amorfista @cccrouton @justalittletomato @vexscuro @poetikat @eloquentmoon @stardustbee @grinningnexu @gran-maul-seizure @art-hoe-world @chikuwashika @marmottine @maferartblog if you are interested:)

look gillon tidestrider looks cool but also. why he copying my oc. i mad emy oc FIRST.

Me if Blade's eventual companion quest is about the High Cloud Quintet and his time on the Luofu as Yingxing: Yay! Love ❤️☺️💕💞🥰🥺❤️🥰☺️

Me if Blade's eventual character quest manages to include literally anything about his time on the Zhuming: RAAAHABAHHAHA 😍😍😍🤩🤩💔💞❤️💕❤️💔❤️❤️💞❤️💕❤️💔❤️💞❤️❤️😭❤️💔💕💕🔥🔥🔥❤️🔥❤️💕❤️🔥❤️🥰❤️❤️🥰❤️🔥❤️💕😭😭🔥😭😭💔🥲🥺🥰😭💕😭🥺🥺😭🔥😭❤️💕🥲🥺😭

WAIT WAIT

NO

WAIT

PLEASE NO

GOD I HOPE THOSE RUMOURS ARE FAKE FFS

sitting here casually vibrating like a nervous dog bc we're at the doc, momthers getting an ultrasound of her leg bc her primary is worried about her having a blood clot (shes been in an air cast for her tendonitis) and im like. Vibrates More,

Spent the day at K's. I think it was pretty good, considering. It's bizarre how, on the phone we talk non stop for 6 hours often, but in person we often just cuddle in silence. But when I think about it, maybe it makes sense on one level as originally our relationship when she was our therapist was mostly child parts, but then when it got abusive and we ended therapy, us adults formed a relationship and kept them away. I guess we (adults) are not that used to being around her despite knowing her years. Plus just in general I guess the quietness is both of our hesitancy after so much damage in our relationship. I do also think something else happens though, perhaps some kind of joint dissociation or shut down.

Anyway. A child part came out. It's been so long since they did fully with her, for very good reason. It was unexpected. But they talk together, draw together, connect together, so that makes sense as they are more used to her in person than us.

It was heartbreaking though. They came out and were instantly crying and shaking. She asked what was scary, and they said they don't want to get in trouble. They make people hurt us. They make people leave. K thought we meant her, but they were crying about S. They refuse to talk about S with her, because they hold S so close to their heart and dont want K to mess with it. She was amazing with them though. Being able to witness really reminded me how we got in to this whole bizarre relationship in the first place. She's so good when she's good. And so bad when she's bad.

But the work she's doing in her therapy is noticeable. It does seem perhaps we'll repair and make this work but it'll take a lot of convincing on my side. She still calls us family. I'm still extremely guarded and will be for a while I imagine. But it helped. Its clear she loves us so deeply even if we are guarded and even despite the damage she has done. And we need that right now. I need it to be okay with S more than anything. I know we are ending therapy no matter what, but I need us to be okay. I need her to be her tomorrow. I need. And so even if it seems ridiculous to have any hope from K I will take anything I can to get through this.