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Sorry about the drought of new art </3 I've spent the last month working exclusively on commissions, artfights, and a webcomic that I'm almost ready to publish, so I've haven't had much time to work on pony art.
The textpost-pocalypse this blog is going through will Probably be done soon, but thank you for the patience anyways!
#about to upload a whole batch of revenges to art fight soon. so ig go check that out if you care about my misc art like#and chapter 1 of this webconic is almost done. the full sketch is complete. its very very long. i hope people like it#thabk you for coming to my art update post#not art#every single one of those tags has at least one typo but im too lazy to fix any of them#but yes im aware theyre there. im bad at typing
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TW: mention of grooming & sexual assault Please dont read If this topic makes your uncomfortable
Quite of a long test ahead. Sorry
Listen, i dont want to sound rude or anything, but everytime someone on the murder drone fandom (twt specifically) gets outed as a groomer, sexual predator, or Just someone who has caused harm to other people in general MD fans on twitter always turn these types of situation into a:
"LMFAO murder drone fandom suck ass!! I hate you all!!!!!! im out of here for real!!!!!"
"i love murder drones But i hate this fandom"
And ...no... Please....dont.
I know these guys are all just teenegers just like me and may or not may have good intentions when they say this, But i have an awful truth about to say about these situations;
Those groomers and sexual predators are not on the fandom bc they are interested on the show and just happen to be groomers just because. They are on the fandom bc they know murder drones Its the type of show that attracts vulnerable teenegers and kids
Stop making these type of situations into a fandom thing, bc Its something serious. These groomers are not genuine fans of the show (most of the time) theyre here to make victims
And yes, these groomers are capable o spending months building their murder drones fandom accounts just to befriends the minors on the fandom, even If theyre not even acctually interested on the show.
Im tired of seeing groomers in the fandom getting outed and then some minutes after some corny;
"lmfao, in out here, im just gonna be a normal account now lolll"
"muted all the words related to murder drones <33333"
"wait??? Thad the cool guy is a groomer??? Cant this fandom be normal for once???"
tweets pop up taking the focus away from the real problem.
Some predators using the show to make their victims doesn't automatically turns the fandom into "an awful place full of disgusting people" and its because of that generalization that these events keep repeating themselfs.
Theres some assholes and toxic people on the fandom? Yes totally. I saw toxic envy shippers trying to turn nuzi into a """pedo coded"""" ship in real time.
But, this is difference, a groomer disguising themselfs as a fandom member is not a fandom problem or drama, and doesn't automatically makes the an entire group of people bad.
If the fandom knew how to handle these types of situations Instead of making;
"block this disgusting murder drones fan!!!!!!! Loll im so tired of this fandom, in out"
posts, people should make;
"therese another predator out there, Please everyone be carefull and block all of their accounts and i feel so sorry for all the victims"
(they do make these posts, but get quickly overshadowed by the fandom focused corny ones)
Things would be so much better.
Remember the murder drones strike thing? The fandom could make a campaingh similiar to that but focused on spreading awareness about predators that use murder drones to attract kids. Its a sad truth, But only facing reality is a way to make things better
Maybe that happens bc MD is the first fandom these people have ever been at, so they don't know how to react to these type of things but trust me i have seen fandoms that are much worst who have had terrible things happening out there.
Anyways, this is all i had to say, sorry if Its kinda confusing, english is not my first language, but i hope i made a clear point here a least
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srry not srry but im currently obsessed with the idea of Ghoap, post kidnapping reader (dlmliyh is the easiest to reference but i feel like this is probably more serial killer au coded? idk u tell me theyre your playgrounds im jsut giggling while playing on the swings) doing something like - im aware of how this sounds bare with me - in hotel transylvania, where Drac sets up a fake town to scare his daughter into not leaving?
like i know youve done the price and gaz bringing reader back but mb ghoap finds someone (or maybe its price n gaz) to try and kidnap reader/scare them/etc so ghoap can come rushing in and be the saviors so reader cries and clings to them and stops trying to escape. they still punish her for escaping of course but only after comforting her and establishing that positive connection in her brain.
shit maybe ghost hires another killer to kidnap her out of the woods and they orchestrate a whole thing to encourage reader to escape subtly, dont tell johnny, and let johnny go fucking feral to show reader how much johnny loves her. and sure, ghost hired the kidnapper, but did he really think ghost would actually let him take whats his?
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your analogy of my au's being playgrounds has me audibly giggling i think it's sooo funny comparing my weird dark fanfics to light things. yes my noncon kidnapping serial killer fanfic IS like a swingset on a playground. you're so right yoyo
also if i say hotel transylvania is the best dracula adaption? what then?
i think i said this before but i think gaz is the type to most likely do this tbh. like dark!gaz SCREAMS making you think you're in way more danger than you are, so when you come to him for comfort he doesn't look bad or scary at all. to me, ghost is gonna scare the shit out of you and then comfort you - he's everything, the good, the bad, and the ugly, and you're stuck with him. same with price
to me, ghost and soap will just scare the shit out of you and then comfort you after. cross all those wires in your head - they're horrible and kind to you, and you have to find some way to reconcile those two facts
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SOOO true on the being in love thing … I have tried to convince myself things are crushes or love but as an autistic aro it’s like.. meh? Could take it or leave it. What’s the big hubbub
i spent so long trying to convince myself i was getting crushes when 99% of them was just. wanting to be that person or be friends with them or sexual attraction. Like i have nothing against romance, it sounds nice sometimes! but i’ve never met someone and felt like i. need to date them. like if it happened, sure thats nice! but like. its awkward to say any of that to somebody. I’ve never liked someone enough that i wouldn’t be just as happy just being friends, i like that too! im not against dating and i would probably say yes if someone asked me out bc i think dating casually would be the way to figure out if that’s someone i liked enough to date but sometimes i see ppl talking about how they feel like theyve fallen in love with someone and they cannot handle the idea of them with anyone else even if they’ve never dated or anything and im like. that sounds like that sucks. im glad i dont experience that. even when ppl i thought were cute were dating someone else i’ve never been like ‘i wish that was me’ i was like. oh cool. glad they found someone they like. and move on. like i think being aro has saved me a lot of pain tbh.. for so long i just kept pushing myself to feel things that i simply.. do not and can not, and at a certain point i just realized that maybe some day i’ll fall in love and it will be amazing and ditch the aro label.. and maybe i wont. and it’s not bad either way, theres nothing to regret about the fact i identify that way now because i feel it fits me. Similarly, for a while i was convinced that it was just me being autistic, not aromanticism- but the reality is.. its probably both. me being aro because im autistic doesn’t mean im not really aro.. its just means that the fact that i don’t understand social cues probably amplifies the fact that i dont understand romance. this isnt true for all autistic ppl, in fact, the majority of autistic people i know aren’t aro or ace. But I am, and they connect for me! I feel like they are related for me! but in reality i think there are so many aspects of life to enjoy and so many ways to interact that i never got these intense borders between types of relationships or one being more important than another. I simply do not get why it’s this massive deal that is supposed to change your life. i just don’t get it, and i don’t claim to, and i dont think its bad either! im glad ppl feel happy when theyre in romantic relationships. i just wish i didn’t spend so long thinking there was something wrong with me because i didn’t feel that way, yknow? would i date someone? yes, if they were 100% aware im aro. i would get married, i would have kids, that’s all a possiblity to me. could i also see myself never dating ever? yes, that would be fine in its own way. I don’t hate it, it’s just not this thing i feel like i HAVE to do, yknow?
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Why on earth are you defending Zendaya in this? She did one post months about Gaza and that’s it. Would you defend any other celebrity that isn’t your fave or you consider a fashion icon?? People are literally going through a genocide and your thought is “WHY IS ZENDAYA BEING BROUGHT UP” because it applies. It applies to her and other celebrities.
genuinely such a bad faith interpretation of what i said but i’ll answer based on the assumption you truly did not get the point
no im not defending zendaya and that poster i reblogged wasnt defending her either. what people are saying is that blasting only zendaya is suspicious because she is one of the only black celebrities at that event, when there are far more people there who are deserving of the same criticism who are not black. yes, zendaya should be held accountable. but other celebrities there like the kardashians, lana del ray, sebastian stan, etc all of these white celebrities (some of which have outright supported israel) are not getting these hunger games type comparisons, people are singling out the black celebrity. why?
if you read the other reblog, you’d see their point on black hypervisibility, and how black bad deeds are amplified but their good deeds are silenced. and they’re right. when you think about pro-palestine student protests (in america at least. i cannot speak to other countries my apologies) they’re being broadcasted as rich white saviors doing good for those brown people across the globe. the reality is, and you’ll see it if you ever go to one, is that most of those protests are led by people of color, including a lot of black students. but thats not a narrative that will feed the ego of the white majority, is it? look up white savior complex if you havent already. thats the whole goal basically.
thus, the need to single out zendaya specifically. downplay black greatness while shining a spotlight specifically on a black person who’s not doing good. oh, but lets make it one of the most successful black women in hollywood right now so we can make sure everyone knows black people dont deserve that kind of success because look what they’ll do with it! do you see my point. its these kind of narratives and theyre so subtle but they work and they get into your head and starting forming these associations whether or not youre aware of them
yes, zendaya should be held accountable. she should be brought up in this conversation and criticism of the met gala. but shes not the only one there and if you dont see the problem in singling out a black woman among a sea of white people then thats not really my fault. and if you wanna try the “stop making everything about race” card then i need you to take a step back and realize that yeah, actually, it is. racism is integrated into modern society in ways you would not believe and no matter how many times you reblog “racists dni” youre not gonna fix it.
#asks#pissing on the poor website jfc#normally i ignore these kinds of bad faith takes but idk. in the off chance someone genuinely doesnt understand here you go#its whats fueling the fucking genocide ffs#i forgot how white this damn website leans. never experience a day of racism in your life and you think you can talk ab it#delete later probably i dont like getting mad on this website#god forbid someone say ‘racism is bad’ on this website#get hit back w ‘oh so you excuse genocide’ like babe go sit down
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ABOUT THE MUN
please repost, do not reblog !! feel free to add to any of your answers! yhe purpose is to tell your partners about the way you write! for the multiple choice ones, BOLD all that apply and, if you want, italicize if it’s a conditional answer!
– 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐒 –
NAME : Lexi
ARE YOU OVER 18? : yes / no
IS YOUR MUSE? : yes / no
ARE YOU SELECTIVE ABOUT WHO YOU WRITE WITH ON THIS BLOG? : no ( anyone ) / semi ( most people ) / yes / highly / private ( mutuals only )
ARE YOU SELECTIVE ABOUT WHO YOU FOLLOW ON THIS BLOG? : no ( anyone ) / semi / yes / highly
IF YOUR MUSE IS CANON, HOW MUCH DO YOU ADHERE TO CANON? : not at all / a little / some / mostly / strictly / original character (Overwatch barely has a canon bro)
WHAT POST LENGTHS DO YOU WRITE? : one-liners / single - para / multi - para / novella
DO YOU USE ICONS AND / OR GIFS? : no / gifs / icons / gif icons
DO YOU WRITE ON OTHER PLATFORMS? : no / yes (not yet!)
WHAT LEVEL OF PLOTS DO YOU WRITE? : unplotted / open-ended plots / semi - plotted / fully plotted epics
HOW QUICKLY DO YOU USUALLY RESPOND TO THREADS? : very slow ( more than a month ) / slow ( 3 - 4 weeks ) / average ( 1 - 2 weeks ) / fast ( less than one week ) / very fast ( less than three days ) (unless im depressed and then good luck idk what to tell u)
WHAT TYPES OF THEMES DO YOU LIKE? : fluff / angst / smut / action / tragedy / domestic / family / conversational / hurt - comfort + more! (eh theyre all fine)
WHAT GENRES DO YOU LIKE? : high fantasy / supernatural / science fiction / historical / horror / comedy / romantic / drama / action / adventure / espionage / everything (i'm least comfortable with romance. yes i'm aware of my my most recent activity)
ARE THERE ANY THEMES YOU’RE UNCOMFORTABLE WRITING ON YOUR BLOG? : no / yes
DO YOU HAVE ANY TRIGGERS? : no / yes
HOW DO YOU REQUEST IT BE TAGGED? : i dont remember but i'll search for a suicide tag, i do bad w that
– 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐆 –
WHAT TYPES OF RELATIONSHIPS ARE YOU OPEN TO? : romantic / platonic / familial / physical / sexual / queerplatonic
WHAT TYPES OF PRE - ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIPS ARE YOU OPEN TO? : romantic / platonic / familial / physical / sexual (idk lol)
DO YOU HAVE OTPS? : no / chemistry / yes ↠ i ship with chemistry + have a preference for my mains/exclusives
DO YOU HAVE NOTPS? : no / yes / i don’t know (ever since i saw a racist fanfic yes lol)
ARE YOU COMFORTABLE WRITING SMUT? : no / selectively / yes
HOW EARLY IN A RELATIONSHIP DO YOU SHIP ROMANTICALLY? : autoship / during plotting / after a couple IC interactions / several IC interactions / slow burn / depends on partner & muse
ARE YOU OPEN TO TOXIC SHIPS? : no / selectively / yes / never tried it
ARE YOU OPEN TO PROBLEMATIC SHIPS? : no / selectively / yes / i don't know
ARE YOU OPEN TO POLYSHIPPING? : no / selectively / yes (tentatively, someone explain to my old ass what the fuck this is)
ARE YOU AN EXCLUSIVE SHIPPER? : no / sometimes / yes
DOES CRACK SHIPPING EVER HAPPEN? : no / sometimes / yes
DOES CROSSOVER SHIPPING EVER HAPPEN? : no / yes / depends
tagged by : @batinstincts ( tysm this was fun :3c )
tagging : @godblooded @austerulous @deathsighs @cartaxus @spec08 (actually either of ur blogs lol) @poeticphoenix @lylavanek @jurati @dontstepinmypuddle @xrevolucionario (also for either!) @healingbrews steal it follow ur dreams
#tagged in#mun#this quiz didnt tell me to tell yall im old but#let me take this time to do so in the tags#mun is aging at a rapid pace
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im exhausted and could very easily pass out at any point in time, but it’s our skyy and it’s 11:30pm so here we go again
(because I’m so exhausted my commentary will very much be either very incoherent or there won’t be much of it at all)
theyre so cute omg
AYO THAT WAS UNSETTLING
IM SO USED TO HEARING THE ICONIC WOMAN SAY 'viewer discretion advised'
IT WAS WEIRD TO HEAR SOMEONE ELSE SAY THAT, JEEZ
maybe not QUITE like you love him, i think you'd get jealous
I FREAKING KNEW IT
DID I NOT CALL IT??
I THOUGHT THERE WAS SOMETHING BETWEEN THEM, HUZZAH I AM A GENIUS
does this mean phum also likes men?
cos if so... my man had a lot of internalised homophobia going on, jeez
its okay, you dont need to come out to anyone at any point in time ever. but telling nueng took some real guts, that was really brave of you, and im proud of you
WU AND DAVID
WU AND THE-ONE-WHITE-GUY
I LOVE THEM
im pretty sure i cried when he proposed to him
it makes me happy to know they remember them
EJRHDFBKV
ITS ALREADY WORKINGGGG
EYE CONTACT LETS GOOO
am i about to cry? are my eyes welling up with tears this very moment as i type this? we may never know.
but the answer is yes
AAAAAAA
THEY MADE IT TO 7 FREAKING HELL YES
THEYRE SO EXCITED FOR THEM
to the surprise of literally no one, i am quickly becoming more obsessed with the side couple than i am with the main characters
AWWWW
theyre back now yayyyy
my bro now has ✨visual impairment✨
but... if he's his ancestor... then petch had sex with a woman?
i guess they had to
as long as they were together and happy tho, it's alright
and as long as the woman/women were aware that like. the guys didnt love them like that.
HOLY QUACK
HELL YES
FREAKING HELL YES
THEY ARE WONDERFUL
THEY ARE PERFECTION
THEY ARE HAPPY
I AM OFFICIALLY OBSESSED WITH THE SIDE COUPLE
everyone act surprised
the letters are so cute
WHAT THE HELL FLASHBACKS???
IM CRYING AGAIN
i aspire to one day have a hawaiian shirt collection as plentiful as palm's
THEY HUG
THEY KISS
THEY FOREHEAD TOUCH
i strongly believe that forehead touching is more intimate than kissing and i will die on this hill
but. why. life in modern times is just generally better for literally at least two reasons that i can think of off the top of my head (shut up its nearly 1am im not thinking properly rn) 1. gay tights, 2. health
i meant to say gay rights but honestly gay tights is also a plus
so theres three reasons
1. gay rights
2. health
3. gay tights
OHHH, THAT ONE
YOU WANNA ENEMIES TO LOVERS YOURSELVES??
thats it. that's the only reason.
palm, you astound and confuse me (in a good way)
wHY
WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO GO TO WAR
WAR IS BAD FOR AT LEAST 6 REASONS
1. death
2. sad
3. i think lots of dead bodies are probably bad for the environment
4. none of the wars in the past are cool. id wanna see a war like 50 years into the future, what if there's like space lasers or something
maybe i should just watch star wars instead of time travelling
5. killing people makes you feel like a mean person
6. picture this scenario: you really want a snack, your favourite snack, whatever your favourite snack is, you're just really craving it. but you cant have it, because you're fiGHTING IN A FREAKING WAR
GERIKJDBF
i was right
IM FALLING APART AT THE SEAMS
AND NOW THEYRE PLAYING IT IN THE BACKGROUND AGAIN???
I AM DEAD. DECEASED.
THAT WAS FREAKING LOVELY
hey, you were just here!
^D^ i am excited for simm
my final thoughts: GUJERKDNGREJKVDBNREUJDFLGHNEOIRLHGPI34EHRNGP9O34EJTPGOJ34ERPOTGJ3P4IERHTG9P34HEJ9TGFH34EI0RHOTGF893UOWB4E0TIOFHJ3490WEIHGUVIBERNDGOIVHEROIDSUFJ390I4OWEHCUOBJREFDNICGOBVPREIODFN
thank you and goodnight
#im gonna sleep now#quodekash watches our skyy 2 despite desperately needing to sleep#our skyy 2#our skyy x never let me go#our skyy 2 nlmg#quodekash finally watches never let me go#palmnueng#nuengpalm#nuengdiao#nuengdiao kiattrakulmethee#palm nlmg#benchopper#chopperben#perthchimon#chimonperth#chimon wachirawit#perth tanapon#pondphuwin#pond naravit#phuwinpond#phuwin tangsakyuen
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Hhh just got around to remembering anxious!xiao brainrots so here u go!
For starters, im calling him a nerd. I love ners tropes so much they itch my brain so perfectly. He can probably read off his favorite science/math/history book in the exact words. If your lucky he can even cite the direct sources.
Anxious!Xiao not knowing when he should speak during conversations and just floating in the background or ignoring large groups entirely, if they arent his friends he arent going near them. Double fuck no if theyre anyone that bullies him.
Anxious!Xiao knowing how to kick ass. As in, if someone fucks with him he will lay their ass on the ground immediately. Im a firm believer in Xiao being able to takw someone out easily despite their size. He wont say anything of course after he wins a fight, he doesnt want that type of attention.
Anxious!Xiao only being himself to close friends and people he truly trust because everyone uses him and he believes he isnt worth their time or friendship after they all leave him after they get what they want from him. Xiao getting rlly bad anxiety when they add him to group chats and just lurking in the background until someone speaks to him directly (now theyre wondering when he was added).
Now a few purely indulgent headcanons
I will be a strong believer in Xiao's ear twitching when someone says his name and knowing exactly who it is. Also, Xiao having a pet bird. Dont ask just him with a pet bird. Also Xiao just infodumping about his favorite thing whoever has been unlucky enough to ask.
And for some angst.
Xiao's caregivers only caring about his grades, when they ask about why he has anything lower than a A his anxiety gets worse, his caregivers are probably acutely aware of this man's crippling anxiety but they ignore it, because he has grades and school to take care of. Xiao's siblings picking on him for not having many friends or not going out as much and making fun of him for fidgeting or stuttering when he speaks, or when hes speaking softly they mock his voice so he just clams up (love u xiao i promise 😊).
Xiao getting bullied but the moment they mention any of his younger siblings he decks them in the face and might even give them a black eye, or might even sprain their wrists only Xiao can mess with his younger siblings. (Alternatively, Xiao being the fun big brother to anyone younger than him because he adopts the outcasts of his school)
I feel as though this was longer than usual for some reason. The amount of times i had to retype this because i closed the tumblr app (i write on my phone) and fell asleep halfway because i started writing this at like 5am 🫡 i did get sleep i just love staying up late during the summer
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ANXIOUS!XIAO- XIAO BRAINROTS- FROM FISCHL ANON, TODAY IS A BLESSED DAY-
xiao is a nerd. yes he is. he is just so smart <3 and he's really proud of it too. also- xiao with glasses- HHHHHH- but like, the round glasses, with very thing metal thingies if you get what i mean,,, and then him just pushing it up and mumbling about homework and uasiudfgjha-
anxious!xiao who has no idea how to interact with anyone, like anyone at all. it makes him super nervous and he'd rather not speak at all if that means he won't embarrass himself. especially if it's a group of strangers- xiao is an introvert.
also, xiao being a badass and no one knowing he is one- i- yeah, he will absolutely destroy someone if he wants. but until he gets to this point... takes a rather long time and this is why he often gets picked on. they all think he's weak, but he is in fact not, he's just the bigger person abt it <3
anxious xiao who has very few friends, maybe one or two and even with them he feels just... so anxious. class chats always end up with him reading but never writing/sending something, not even homework when someone asks. he just can't- he gets too nervous, fearing another situation, where he ends up used and alone. he just doesn't really have trust in humans anymore :(
PLEASE?? xiao with a bird??? that bird's name is alatus and is his one big love. when someone asks if he has a pet, xiao will literally bloom and hhhhhh- just talk about his fav lil birdie.
sobbing rn. this hurts really deep. my heart is bleeding- xiao's family just being assholes and xiao can't do anything about it and they only make it worse- this is why he's always studying so it doesn't get worse. he has the unhealthy mindset of being perfect and it's- not good for him :((
but him still being protective of his family is just <3333 xiao, you're perfect and i love you very much <333
just- xiao, who has problems with social things because he never learned, always feeling pressured thanks to his family but he can't just- stop. he has to continue, so they will be proud, he has to protect his siblings, because who else will??
ALSO- thank you sm for sending this!!! i totally feel this, tumblr moblie can be a fuckin bitch <33 but please get enough rest, even tho it's summer :)
#genshin impact#xiao#modern au xiao#xiao brainrot#genshin xiao#xiao genshin impact#✨ star dust#⭐️ 🪶.star#i always love it when you send so long asks and i know it takes a lot of time#please know i treasure these brainrots very much <3#🌚 knowing moon
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hi !!! im happy to see ur response n dw about taking ur time school has just started for me too so i dont anticipate being too free myself!! btw i loved ur izuki hes very cute regardless ^O^ im gonna reply kinda out of order hope its ok!! also dw at all i feel ur personally very insightful too n as for writing u shdnt avoid ur personal taste n opinions !!
i think since u know what direction u want u shd definitely lean into this angle of having a morally grey villain or someone who portrays them as such or may not even be aware of either extent or their morality! either ways its a rlly good thing to know what u want and how u want to express ideas!! ^W^ no matter what type of writing clarity is important
also mm yea personally i dont read a lot of stories w villains i realised? i like tokusatsu where theres a lot clearer good vs bad but i havent watched a lot of the recent entries w more moral ambiguity so i couldnt offer much on a personal front. i guess i like them because theyre evil n nasty n interesting sometimes n like also i like magneto too!! :D i find i pesonally agree w his ideas but i also think how different writers portray magneto, his beliefs, background and try to skew them rlly reflects interestingly on how they view the ideas he represents, just off topic but neat stuff.
although i do think yea in writing n commentary villains can serve actually a rlly important role in reflecting peoples opinions, biases ect. back on them ah but thats getting off topic
in response about the enemies to friendsish thing actually i encountered the same issue!!! :DDD albeit it was cough a knb ship (i dont think anyone knows what it is) so if i may offer my personal insight i think having obv similarities always works. for me i found my two characters were more similar than theyd liked to admit but when in their usual environments surrounded by their peers they were super unlikely to interact so i put them in a different environment! sometimes what u need is smth to kickstart their interest in each other! an encounter that exposes smth worth talking about. like for me the more villainous character realises the more "heroic" character is actually more than a boring farce n finds an opportunity to corrupt him n the heroic character wants to resist this but himself returns because of the villains intelligence n their similar points. it leads them to enter a sort of cat n mouse game into each others minds. but thats cuz my characters i was working w were more intellectual
BUTTT the gist is basically ur allowed to do a little deus ex machina or have smth thats out of their control give them the opportunity to choose to interact n stuff. not all the time ofc important advancements n influence shd be made frm autonomous actions of the characters but a little coincidence never hurts!
ive briefly dipped my toes in writing before but ive never had enough clarity to write anything good tbh!! but i do like helping others edit if i can!!
anyways it means so much that i can give u something to chew on tbh!! ^w^ ur inquisitive nature is lovely! also yes itll always be okay to pop in !!
hi lab!!!! how r u!!!! thank u for this reply!!!!
i for sure get that about liking clearer bad/evil characters!! i really can’t think of any i also don’t read a lot of villain stories i realize! but for knb hanamiya is so hard for me to look away from he’s so funny and i really wanna know why he’s the way he is dhjdshfj. magneto!!!! love that ur a comic fan!!!!! my last url was eriklehnsherrgf hes the best heh. ooo that’s really interesting about different ways writers portray him and his beliefs representing their own views… i also think our writing and thoughts on characters and which we’re drawn to and which we dislike can reflect a lot, especially biases. i really like talking about it; why myself and others are drawn to certain characters and dislike others… what do we find in them and what are we looking for. and our own art we create is so often a self-portrait, right?
a knb ship oooooo! are you writing a fic for them? so u ARE a writer!!!!! or a future writer!!! fdjfdfgjh but that sounds so cool lab! i really like the detail about how in their usual environments w friends they’re unlikely to interact despite being quite similar… i don’t know how to articulate it but i really find this interesting in fiction/media… two people who could have a close relationship if they were just to go outside of their usual environment, and the significant role being surrounded by their peers in said environment plays. and then something pushes them out of the familiar, often by force, and our story begins, right? i love the “an encounter that exposes something worth talking about” line, so lovely. something worth talking about!
much of it is about change, and putting your characters in situations that force change, and thus character development? it’ll be fun to see what the new situation/environment brings out in your characters, what they bring out in one another when they’re finally able to interact alone. i wonder if there are things only the other person can bring out in themselves.
i love characters seeing one another in a different light, realizing there's more to the person they disliked then originally thought. ESPECIALLY when its the more villainous character seeing something that draws them into their heroic counterpart. OO THE OPPORTUNITY TO CORRUPT HIM im getting nervous nd excited!! so theres a unignorable interest there on the villianous characters side!! i wonder what makes them want to corrupt the “heroic” character!! a more sort of twisted, self-interested and self-indulgent desire to bring out something darker in them or more genuine interest in the heroic character.. or both or something else?… hm!!!!
wait wait is one of them hanamiya? the intelligence and want to corrupt part made me think of him. teppei and hanamiya? dfjhjsdf anyways u dont need to tell me anything this just sounds so so cool and i love how deeply and intentionally you’ve thought about their relationship. thank you for sharing your plans with me, really wonderful and im excited for how it comes along!!!!
yeah!!!! you've given me a lot to think ab!! giving them a little push to interact.....
really love talking with u, i genuinely feel like i learn a lot from you wow. as always, thank you for your thoughts and kind words!!! and thank you for your encouragement ab my work!!! always value your feedback and opinion on things, you’re so very articulate and open-minded.
i hope u’ve had/have a good day!!!! 🌟💌
#ALSO I HOPE U DONT THINK I WAS IGNORING U AGAIN!!! i just know im gonna wanna read and respond ur notes rlly attentively!!#and latley theres been less moments where i can do that boooooooo#thank u so much for this my friend :) also i love talking ab my stories nd characters so if u ever wanna share more ab urs im all ears!!!!#also not really sure how below the cut/read more things work so i hope its ok that i added one!!!#77nanao.lab :)#asks
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The Art of Cooking, or...Not Knowing How
A/N:
-Based on my HC that Ginrai can't cook, has no experience since he never had the time to learn, and every time he tries it goes very wrong. On the other side, Hawk is a great cook, and usually ends up cooking for the base when no one else can. Shush, I like this headcanon ok--
-by this point theyre pretty much a couple :3 or at least, openly physically affectionate towards one another ^^
-oo yes also, set in canon, (hence the tags) but tbh, many of my HCs for canon versions of the characters carry into my Reverie stuff so...this exact thing could definitely happen in that universe loll ✨
-shoutout to anyone who has listened to me ramble about this exact scenario before because not only did you endure that bs but now you get a whole elaborate fanfic about it so....holy shit im so sorry jsdjsiskjsd 💀😳
-omg dont hate cloudburst btw I didn't know how to write this to make him look less bad but I swear hes not a bad person and none of the others are either they just. are used to letting Hawk do most of their paperwork for them & also the other three pretenders (not Hawk) have sort of, day jobs? So they are pretty busy....
-literally y'all I'm so sorry this exists, I blame the early morning hours of yesterday and a single cup of coffee this morning getting me from start to finish of this thing in record time. and my own inability to cook fueling this idea in the first place lmaooo I hope it's at least...somewhat enjoyable....so without further ado, here I go again with self-indulgent ginhawk content o///o''
-bruh it's been an actual age since I've written & finished a real fic-type thing...😳😳 again like, I'm praying I didn't miss anything in my grammar/typo checking 😅
-i sincerely hope you enjoy :]
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“But—but I can cook!”
“You…can cook?”
“Yeah!”
“You can…cook?” Hawk repeated, as if this was impossible to believe.
“I—yeah? Well, I'm not all good at it, but it's food, right? It's edible…” Hawk raised an eyebrow at this as Ginrai pursed his lips and looked away, flushing slightly.
Suddenly, the kitchen seemed to fill again with the distinctive smell of burning chicken.
The image of large, misshapen chunks of it rather…creatively charred to ashy black and stuck to a Teflon pan.
Ginrai waving the smoke frantically, and then grabbing his cup of drinking water splashing it over the smoky meat, rendering it more inedible than it had already been….it was an amusing, yet depressing sight.
Hawk also recalled the price of the new pan he’d gone and ordered online an hour after.
He wasn’t joking when he told me it was dangerous to leave him alone in the kitchen. Was he aware it was burning before the smoke started up?
“Ok, ok…so I’m no world-famous chef...” Ginrai admitted hotly. He started to play with a stray fork from the newly-cleaned load.
Hawk stifled laughter and shook his head wordlessly. Ducking below the counter to organize the lids of pots and pans, his lips played at a smile.
“Yeah, that poor pan might have to agree with you—”
“But I would....like to…try again. Maybe, with some guidance this time,” he added more quietly.
“So that you don’t burn the food?”
“Pretty much,” Ginrai agreed, watching Hawk turn on the sink, continuing to unload the dishwasher.
Absentmindedly, he let his eyes follow the trail of water as it ran from the faucet next to him, freely touching on the items piled in the sink. From the upside-down bowl, down the slim, blue plates, pooling in another bowl, or heading further down to fill an empty red container….
“And…would you be aiming for somewhat of an edible meal this time around?” Hawk asked innocently.
“'Somewhat'—”
A sparkle flashed in the trucker’s gaze, and he reached forward to flick the running water at Hawk, who ducked to the side. The water hit him anyway, but he didn’t mind.
Meanwhile, Ginrai attempted to defend himself.
Hawk began loading the dishes now.
“In my defense, I’ve only made chicken twice in my life, and that fiasco last week doesn’t count!!”
“Well, neither do the other two times, since those were microwaveable chicken dinners—”
“Shut up!”
But they were both laughing.
Hawk got to thinking all the same.
As it was, there weren’t many people left in HQ at the moment, and fewer who could actually cook. Ordering out was not an option since their budget for the month declared they were already $126 over that spending limit.
So, all that considered, the duty of cooking fell upon Hawk once again.
Well…I have paperwork to start on, but as long as nothing else comes up, cooking shouldn't be a problem.
A quick knock on the side of the kitchen’s entrance grabbed the attention of the pair, and they looked up to see Cloudburst standing on the wooden threshold, holding some papers.
Ginrai had no idea what they were, but from the look on Hawk’s face, one could guess he did.
“Oh—hey, Clouds,” Ginrai waved, grinning.
The man waved back a little sheepishly. It didn’t look like he was here to hang around for fun.
He quickly looked to Hawk, and before he could say anything, the Pretender commander straightened and closed the dishwasher, entering the settings for the load.
“You…need those investigative patrol reports done, I presume?” He asked, not looking up. As the machine whirred into action, he moved to the sink and started to clean it.
The silence that followed seemed to suffice for an answer.
And suddenly, Ginrai noticed, Hawk looked tired. Very tired.
After all, Ginrai remembered, it was Hawk who ended up doing most of the paperwork associated with their team. He was supposed to review them, too…
“I take it you forgot to do these, and they’re part of what’s due tomorrow?”
Cloudburst was beginning to look a little embarrassed, and he started to play with the edges of the papers for a moment before stepping into the kitchen and setting them down on the marbled counter.
Finally, he spoke.
“I—well, yes. And I was going to do them tonight, but my office called and, um, they’ve sort of—they’ve got a lot of guys out. Naturally, there need to be people at the desks doing stuff, but also someone to sit watch on the communications station, and I don’t know if my boss would be too happy to have me call in to let him know I can’t…go either…”
Cloudburst broke off abruptly as he watched Hawk slipped his apron off and turned to face him, a polite look tying his features to a mild, calm expression. He leaned over and rifled through the papers for a moment, then spoke again.
“Don’t worry about it, go and do your job.”
“R-really? And…you’re ok with it?”
Hawk nodded. “This kind of thing can’t be helped.”
Ginrai made a slight face. He wasn't so sure about that one.
“I’m just glad you told me now rather than five hours from now. Remember to let me know immediately if anything important comes through the communications room tonight.”
Cloudburst smiled, saluted. “Yes, sir!”
He then gave a ‘goodbye’ nod to Ginrai, and quickly left the room.
Just a little curious, Ginrai leaned over the counter to take a look at the papers himself, then winced at the sight of nearly-illegible text scrawled in different places on the page, in different shapes, shorthand—
So….this is what they look like before they’re done. This is what he’s got to work with.
The young Autobot commander started to feel bad about the fact that clearly, he’d never even done the record-keeping part of reports, let alone the actual filing of them. In his opinion, they were a little pointless, but that didn’t mean someone wouldn’t get stuck with them anyway.
Yes, it technically wasn’t his duty as the leader of the team, but…he still felt guilty.
It looked like a lot of work, after all.
Hawk really did a lot for the team, Ginrai was always fully aware, just…he wondered if anyone else seemed to realize that. Like, really realize.
If they did, maybe they’d be more careful about their own paperwork stuff, instead of dumping it on Hawk all the time, who’s too nice to say no.
Next to him, Hawk was already starting to read the papers over. Ginrai vaguely recalled the list of projects the man was already swamped with, and came to a new resolve.
Ok, next team meeting, I’ll ask them all to start doing their own reports. I am their leader now, I can do that sort of thing.
Feeling good about this, he put an arm around Hawk, leaning over and giving him a soft kiss on his head. With a soft exhale, Hawk seemed to accept the gesture, letting his weight fall more limply on Ginrai. The smile on his features was a tired one, but it read of soft gratitude.
Neither said a word for a few heartbeats, letting the silence embrace them. No one needed to say anything, no one wanted to.
Outside, the autumn sky had begun to darken, making it seem much further into the night than it likely was. It was as if there was not a living soul in that base save for them.
Then, Hawk shifted and Ginrai stepped to the side to let him stretch.
“Do you need me to do anything?” He offered. The grin from earlier seemed to return.
“Well, Supreme Commander,” Hawk said, giving him a decidedly more sultry look.
“Well, my lovely subordinate?” Ginrai prompted, blushing lightly.
“I’m going to need some help getting dinner done if I want to have time to file those reports before the deadline…”
Ginrai’s eyes sparkled. He knew where this was going.
“…you said you wanted to try cooking again?”
“Hell yeah!”
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“Alright, now that we have our water…” Hawk motioned to the pot sitting in the sink, then the stove. “It’s got to heat up.”
Ginrai nodded, still rubbing his newly bandaged hand.
Minutes ago, the two had thought to prepare the vegetables going into the pasta before starting on anything else, just to get it out of the way.
Hawk had begun cutting things up while Ginrai watched, then after a few minutes, handed Ginrai the knife to give him a go at it.
Not a minute went by before the man decided to speed up the cutting pace, drop the knife, and well…the band-aid could speak for itself.
It was quickly decided that Hawk would handle all the other parts of this dish, and Ginrai would be on the pasta, and only the pasta.
What could go wrong there, after all?
“Um…you wanted the fire on high?”
“Yes.”
“So, I turn the knob this way?”
“Other way.”
“Oh, yes, right.”
“Alright."
Hawk quickly added, a little nervously, “And please, try not to burn yourself.”
Ginrai gave a thumbs up, then moved to operate the stove. He frowned at its lack of fire after turning the knob. After a moment or two of trying, he looked to Hawk again. He’d forgotten to push the knob inwards to get the fire going, but clearly wasn’t aware of that.
“Is…is this thing on?”
Hawk fought the urge to start laughing. It would be light-hearted, but he didn’t want to hurt Ginrai’s feelings, so he bit his tongue instead.
He must not be joking when he says everything he eats is store-bought and microwaved.
What made this especially funny was how he did this wearing an apron Hawk remembered receiving as a Christmas gift from Waverider.
The front side read “Master Chef, Move Along” in English, written with big, red letters.
The irony of it was almost too much for Hawk. However, he composed himself and walked over to the stove.
“Push it first, hold,” as he did this, a rhythmic crackling noise sprang from the stove, “and then, you’ve got a fire. So now, turn it where you need.” He stepped back and watched as Ginrai tentatively held the knob, then nodded to himself.
“Alright, fire on high, here we come,” he murmured. And with a gentle twist, the fire popped up under the smoky grates at what seemed to be the ‘high’ setting.
At last, they were getting somewhere!
A half hour had gone by, but perhaps the next one would make up for the lost time. And, thankfully, Ginrai hadn’t burnt himself on anything—or burnt anything—yet. The pot was carefully placed atop the fire with no troubles.
Now, it was time to for Hawk to focus on finishing the rest of the meal. Dumping the tomatoes into the bowl and beginning to crush them, Hawk called to Ginrai to add the pasta to the water if it seemed to be boiling.
“And…how do I tell it’s boiling?”
“Bubbles,” Hawk responded more quietly, seeming very focused on smashing the tomatoes in his bowl.
“Got it!”
The trucker glanced at the pot and saw a couple bubbles. Two, he counted, probably from when he’d filled the pot with water.
Did he mean a lot of bubbles or a little?
Guess there was only one way to know.
He then looked to the unopened box of pasta lying near the edge of the counter. Quickly, Ginrai opened it and plopped it into the water, jumping back as it splashed out a little.
From where he was standing, Hawk called out to him.
“Could you grab the two bowls near the window? The water will need some salt, and this paste will need some flavoring.”
“Roger!”
Hawk thought about going to check the bowls, but his present task seemed to have all his concentration. He only hoped Ginrai knew the difference between the two ingredients.
And once again, Ginrai proved he could not be left to do anything alone in the kitchen.
He played a short game of eeny, meeny, miny, moe to decide on which bowl was going to the pasta, and which was going to Hawk. Then, feeling satisfied with his decision, he flipped one of the small bowls upside down, dumping the entirety of its contents into the pasta.
No, he had no idea which was salt, and which was the flavoring. He'd instead opted to hope it was salt he’d just added to the pasta.
As the water started to bubble more vigorously, the trucker stood and stared at it, thinking.
Huh. I didn’t know you put that much salt in pasta. Maybe that’s why they say it’s bad for your cholesterol or…something.
“Hey, before you bring the flavoring here, you might want to make sure the pasta fits the pot! It’ll be easier to work with if its been cut down to fit.” Hawk called over again, seeming to still be working on the tomato paste.
Ohh…well, that makes sense. How do I get that out of the pot to cut it, though?
Ginrai tapped his chin in thought, still staring at the murky, white water as it bubbled—viciously, now—and the pasta as it started to bounce and move.
I wonder if—
He reached in to pick up the pasta with his bare hands, then snapped back, hissing in quiet pain.
Obviously, it was hot by this point, and so it had burned him. But what really hurt was when the heat felt like it had seared through his band-aid and touched his cut from earlier.
Was cooking supposed to be this painful?
Calm down, you're just resizing it.
He exhaled slowly and carefully putting the pasta back in the pot so he could contemplate plan B.
Which was…well........those scissors near the knives looked pretty good.
Because maybe, he didn’t even need to take the pasta out of the pot?
Shaking out a hand to get rid of the burning sensation, he reached over with the other to take the scissors, and without a second thought, began to cut the tops of the noodles so they didn’t stick out so much.
“When you’re ready, I need that flavoring!”
Ginrai nodded and dropped the scissors on the counter, grabbing the unused bowl and heading to where Hawk was working.
He didn’t quite notice all the extra pieces of cut pasta had rolled all over the floor, the counter, and…into the grates below the pot. Right next to the fire.
“Here you are,” Ginrai said, grinning, brandishing the bowl and getting ready to pour it in. Hawk looked up to thank him, and was glad he did.
“Oh, that’s the salt, what I need for this should be in the blue one. Though, you can add some salt if we need it.”
Ginrai felt the heat rise to his face.
Oh no.
Hawk tilted his head at him, looking a little concerned.
“Did you put the flavoring in the pasta?”
Meekly, Ginrai nodded. He was sure his face was red by now. But Hawk just smiled.
“That’s alright. Pasta can have flavoring of its own,” he resumed stirring the tomatoes as he continued. “But I’ll need both for this, then. Just add as much of the salt in here as what you put in the pot over there, okay? Hold on, I need something from the fridge.”
It’s…okay. Alright. Ok.
As Hawk put the bowl down and headed for the fridge, Ginrai swallowed, staring at the salt sitting on the counter.
He was no cook, but…he wasn’t sure there should be that much salt added to tomato sauce?
But Hawk is a cook, maybe he has his own reasons. He said same as with the pot.
So, Ginrai lifted the bowl, and turned it upside down, same as before. Then, seeing nothing else to do, he started to mix.
Meanwhile, Hawk returned, but didn’t say anything for a moment as he noticed the empty bowl of salt. For a moment, he stood there, visibly piecing together a couple things.
Then it seemed to hit him all at once as he slowly looked from the bowl to Ginrai, eyes wide.
“Um. When I said 'the same as the pot'…”
“…yes?” Ginrai slowly stopped mixing and put the bowl down. He heard the slight uneasiness in Hawk's voice.
“Exactly...how much did you put in the pot?”
“Er….all of it?” He answered slowly.
“I see…so, I assume…there’s no more of the flavoring?”
“Um...and…no more salt, either,” Ginrai finished his train of thought for him.
"I...see...."
Ginrai touched the back of his head awkwardly, feeling the heat return to his cheeks.
Hawk stared at the bowl again, trying to figure out how to salvage this.
Perhaps if we start over, and I handle the pasta. He could crush up the tomatoes.
“Um, Hawk.”
But first there would have to be—
"Hawk."
Ginrai poked him timidly. Finally, he looked up, then followed his gaze to the other side of the kitchen. And promptly regretted taking those extra seconds of thought.
Oh, Primus, please tell me I’m hallucinating.
The deity seemed to answer through the pasta itself.
From under the grate, there was a violent crackling noise and a pop of light. And just as suddenly, smoke started to rise from the floor, the counter, under the grate.
All the while, the milky-white water in the pot seethed with bubbly rage, beginning to overflow and spill over, jostling the uneven pieces of pasta sticking out with such force that a few fell to the floor.
“It's burning!” Ginrai exclaimed, audibly starting to panic. Hawk blinked at it, somewhat amazed at the spectacle.
Yes, it was. It was definitely burning.
“Is—is it supposed to do that?”
No, it wasn’t.
Without responding, Hawk darted towards the stove and reached out to turn it off, but pulled back sharply with an utterance of pain.
The fire had burned him.
Judging by the pieces of pasta everywhere, he must have…literally cut the pasta off to resize it.
After a second try, he was able to switch the stove's fire off, and the two of them quickly stamped out the little flames started on all the pieces of burning pasta.
Then, Hawk ran over to the pantry to get the oven mitts, so he could get the pot into the sink.
But the smoke hazing their visions wasn’t hanging around for decoration. And Hawk realized that a little too late.
He looked over from the sink to see Ginrai carrying the bowl of tomato paste to the garbage and called to him.
“Um—Ginrai, my hands are full, could you open the window so the smoke doesn’t set off the—”
Before he could finish, the piercing, high-pitched sound of their fire alarm went off, startling Ginrai enough that he dropped the bowl he was holding. With yet another loud noise, the ceramic shattered, and the tomato paste went all over the floor.
But, rather than worry about that, he knew Hawk had been trying to ask him for something.
“The what?!”
“The window! Please!” He repeated, his voice rising.
"Open it?"
"Yes!!!"
The window was opened. And thankfully, the noise stopped after a couple beats.
Quietly, the two watched as smoke drifted out of the kitchen and into the night air. Then, they began to clean in silence.
Hawk began to think.
Pasta had been, in his opinion, the easiest option for a guided intro to cooking next to a literal salad, but at this point, he wasn’t even sure if that salad would have been a good idea.
“Hey, um…"
Ginrai’s tentative tone caused Hawk to stop what he was doing and he turned to see the 19-year-old fiddling with the cleaning rag, standing by the counter.
“I feel like an apology isn’t gonna cut it here, but…I wanted to apologize anyway…” he continued, looking to the floor, ashamed.
He was still wearing the apron with words that created such irony to the whole situation that Hawk couldn’t help but smile a little.
“I’m really, really—”
“It’s alright, Ginrai,” Hawk responded, setting the clumps of rubbery pasta back down in the pot and walking over to him.
He looked quite surprised, so Hawk elaborated. “We’re good at different things, and you tried here tonight. Plus, with practice, you’ll get it right someday.”
He then placed a hand on Ginrai’s arm, and squeezed lightly.
The young commander gave a flustered smile and blushed again.
"Well....at the very least, I'm glad we got to spend some time together, you know?" he murmured, still smiling.
“Absolutely. I’ve got a long night of paperwork ahead of me, which I’m dreading, so this was nice. As chaotic as it was, you know I’m glad for the time we spend like this…not fighting battles with Decepticons, not sitting through conferences for battle plans and upgrades…I’m...really happy right now, Ginrai…”
He hugged Ginrai suddenly, trailing off. And after a moment, Ginrai smiled and hugged him back.
“I’ll ask more questions next time,” he murmured.
“I’ll be clearer as well. I was at fault here, too.”
"No way..."
"I was. So don't be too harsh on yourself for it."
“I love you,” Ginrai whispered finally, squeezing Hawk lightly.
“I love you, too…”
And I’m glad both of us come away with only mild cuts and burns, nothing more.
After a period of silent affection, Hawk drew back gently and gave a slight smirk.
“I’ll always love you,” he repeated, “even if you can’t cook to save your life.”
And they started laughing again.
Standing in a messy kitchen with the window open and wearing aprons that read silly things in English. Hawk, with a small burn on his hand, and Ginrai with bandages on his.
The pair laughed about the whole fiasco.
Sure, they’d go into something like $200 over their “ordering food” spending limit after tonight. If there was nothing left to eat from their cooking attempt, then ordering was their only Plan B.
But…tonight was a night to remember, like many others.
And, Hawk would be going into yet another paperwork session feeling less stressed than before.
For that, he was also glad.
Who knew the good that could be accomplished by, well, setting pasta on fire?
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#ginhawk#kuniwrites#fanfiction#fanfic#drabble#writing#transformers fanfiction#tf#super god masterforce#transformers super god masterforce#super god masterforce fanfiction#for fun#scenario#Masterforce#masterforce moment òwó 🥺💖✨
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one of the nastiest nastiest feelings is taking our shirt off and its not even because the body is human and afab and im a tabaxi tiger and amab, i have accepted that and i can look past it. i can cope with that, it doesnt bother me or any hosts or ex-hosts. what bothers me is the scars on our arm that come from a very harmful frequent fonter we had because i KNOW that the scars from him were preventable. i know we couldve stopped him. why the hell didnt we stop him from doing any of that? if we had known he had bad intentions and was doing all those bad things on purpose we wouldnt have let him front but he kept saying he was trying, he would be better, hes just anxious, hes depressed, he has bpd. so do the rest of us the body has those disorders you dont see me causing half the shit he did?? i hate him.
seperate rant/ramble: as i was typing this i heard either coyotes screaming outside, or i had an auditory hallucination. i hate this body and it's schizophrenia for a multitude of reasons which sends me on a new tangent ☝️🤓 i hate having schizophrenia because its often misdiagnosed as did (/srs) and we go "ohhh but maybe im faaaaking" i can garuntee you that the disassociative amnesia regarding our childhood may be a sign! and the very obvious shifts of personality, and also earlier today i had a fleeting thought that was something i wouldnt think and i thought it in the voice of one of my headmates. lo and behold he fronted without my noticing and neither of us know how long he was in front for.
on another note i hate hate hate having to self disgnose. our mother gets aggravated and has a borderline mental breakdown every single time one of us asks her why she thinks we are not autistic because to us and to other people with autism it is BLINDINGLY obvious, just as an example of why we need to self disgnose this much. schizophrenia, adhd, depression, anxiety, and various physical issues are all things we have been diagnosed with. we suspect autism, bpd, aspd, did, and dyslexia. we did not think about any of these disorders or about having them, and we knew nothing about them until friends with said disorders would talk about their experiences and vent about it and we went "oh no... oh no..." and then we had to go do vast amounts of research into them and overlapping disorders and just. so much research. and the autism part takes EVERYTHING literally and at face value so very often we will go "oh this cant be us! we dont have every single symptom!" and it is, in fact, us. we also fakeclaim ourselves when we hear stories about how bad these disorders can be and ours is never that bad. its bad enough to actually genuinely impact our life more often than not and the symptoms are very distressing when we notice them, but they arent as bad as they could be which to a lot of my headmates makes it very obvious that we do not have the disorders we very much do. it causes a lot of denial towards ourselves, we had looked into dyslexia and joking about having it for months but we never flat out said we have dyslexia until one of our managers straight up told someone "yeah we're dyslexic this losers are just in denial because we can send messages that are coherent. they think we are not dyslexic because we go back and correct any typos? doesnt make sense to me. the typos are still made, and we still miss a lot of words we need to correct very often. oh yes im aware theyre idiots." sometimes fakeclaimer logic is just so broken. we also have a lot of alters that have dyslexia in source memories and whenever they fromt our typing gets much worse which obviously means we don't actually have dyslexia OR did! /sarc. DID truely stands for dumb idiot disorder because i could spend a week listing times when our symptoms for all our disorders were very very prominant.
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#did vent#osdd vent#sys vent#system vent#tw: ableism#cw: ableism#tw: hallucinations#cw: hallucinations
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oh, our discord is raihansofficialboywife if thats .. reassuring (?) for you. .. dont say anything about the username, i know its silly but its personal for us so just dont question it lmao . again i dont really have any interest in moving this over there but im.. sure youre well aware of that by now hm?
we have the inner voice thing, kind of. im not really sure if thats actually even what it really is, but we can talk to each other without saying anything outloud, headspace or otherwise. ("i think thats just telepathy" - luca .. true, but still lol..) admittedly sometimes i miss my old bodies, but i think the one i have now is pretty nice. i dont really have a solid form, i kind of change tiny things about my appearance constantly even when i dont mean to, but mostly i latch onto whatever im presenting as at the moment with my own things added, some of them are surprisingly consistent between forms, like my fucked up eye whcih is why i have the x as that eye in the little emoticon thingies (x_o <- those) .. i like having my own little typing related things that are specific to me because theyre tied to my personal appearance in headspace, its a nice special comfort. andrew does it too, he puts little bunny ears on the sides of all his kaomojis.
i could talk a lot about my headspace appearance, because i personally find it very interesting .. but i also am very much a narcissist (npd holder, along with.. just being incredibly self absorbed and otherwise narcissistic by definition even outside of the pd, hahah) so i personally find every little tidbit about myself to be utterly fascinating.
man thats fuckin awful, im sorry that shit happened to yall. like.. i cannot express enough how genuinely insane that is..? and excuse my language in referring to it.. just. lord. it still disturbs me to this day how malicious people can be for no real reason greater than for the sake of it. how i wish it was just humans but i suppose every being is unfortunately prone to that ill natured behaviour ..
thats a really crazy coincidence in all honesty лол. i forgot how exactly i started using it for myself, i think it started as an aesthetic thing to go along with an old layout of a blog i dont use anymore, and then i started using it as signoffs in asks and just.. got attached, and started using it for myself in general. we even use it for ourselves as a collective now, its been in our discord status and bio for like.. a month or two i think? maybe three. were really bad with time perception so i couldnt give a very good estimation if i tried.
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No no it's okay, we don't need your discord but I am thankful you were at least open. While we are on discord far more frequently we should be talking where you're comfortable. Where both of us are comfortable.
And yes, I believe telepathy is very common in the headspace so I'm not too surprised it's not just us. It's funny too, because while we don't have a fucked up eye, we often feel like we do. It's so strange and I think almost like phantom feeling, like having a phantom limb except it's more of a phantom scar we can't explain. Of course we're not going to be dumb like those "trans-abled" people and fuck up our eye just because we think it would feel right, that's just stupid. (it's our left eye)
And yeah we know what you mean, having little things helps a lot. We have a hood with ears on it but it's got paws attached too. The ears are fixed upright but it's a black hood. Still, we love it and we're glad we have it.
We love our self absorbed alters /hj
No okay for some odd reason our brain tends to latch onto alters that tend to have more self-absorbed personalities. Does this go for all of our alters? of course not. But Edgar Valden, Bob Aken (Obake), Me and the multiple doubles we have of each. But then we also have our Andrew and Aesop doubles and they aren't self absorbed so much as they just prefer their space. It's so strange how our system works. Systems are fascinating tbh.
And yeah, it was just beyond fucked up. It was ridiculous and even when we tried to move someplace else they followed us over. It's just.. such drama. The idv fandom is really fucked up in general. Already a few servers we've come forward on have either been hostile towards us or have actually infantalized me. And I mean waving images of baby keys in my face level and "feeding me meat and rice."
Frankly our status will not hold that emoji forever. We actually.. have no clue why it's even still there lmao. We just put it there one day and never changed it. Time perception is hard fr.
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IM SO GLAD YOURE ALSO LOVING SUMMERS FIC IM LIKE ACTUALLY SO IN LOVE WITH IT (insert me going batshit insane) alsooo do look forward to more stupid banter in the middle of supposedly serious situations , they are the best and there are more . stan mcs little water creations tbh
bleh , honestly all my other writing works are old and i think pretty shitty at this point but i can link you to some if you really want (or i could write you a short story / drabble , i feel like thatd be less embarrassing on my part lmao , lmk if you want that) about my games though ... 1 2 3(WIP) the first two are well over a year old now , plus primarily unedited , so dont mind any possible grammar mistakes or generally terrible story flow (i swear ive gotten better since these 😰) and the third was also created last year (for a school project) , im slooowly chipping away at finishing the code haha ...
I ACTUALLY COMMENT ON MY OWN DOCS AS WELL !!! there arent much of them because .. well i havent wrote much outside of my private dms LOL
i also think it is insanely fun to comment on my own work
aand ive contacted my friends (aka my two and only true loves /p /hj) about the kinnie thing .. and one of them sent me this to fill out
youre not wrong actually haha , am i that easy to read ?
im an ambivert , i dont like seeking out social interaction irl unless its one of my close friends or im just that bored , but i do get really loud / energetic when i am comfortable (i think you can tell that by how much goddamn energy i put into these asks) but my "social battery" still drains relatively fast i cant handle people very well lmao honestly , my and cynos reasoning for making our terrible jokes align a bit , although most people (apart from my irl friends apparently ???) dont find me intimidating , my main motivation when i slip in puns is to get people to laugh at how terrible they are , because im well aware theyre pretty bad (or all my friends just have the same broken sense of humor i do) . but yeah , i guess now theres two people on my genshin kin list now why do i kin both of the artificial humans in the game -
lets play a game where we ask eachother random questions , so its easier to end things off lol , got a window in your room ? if so , rate the view it has !
- jellyfish
yes the summers fic is so good thank you very much for recommending me it 😖🫶
AND YOOO THOSE GAMES ARE CUTE HAHA i liked nel and akira!!! also impressive how you did 2/3 of them in scratch,, i've had very little experience with it from like a few years back when i took a computing class and damn was it hard as hell 😵💫😵💫 so kudos to you man
glad i'm not the only one who comments on my own fics on docs LMAO and like you said, it's insanely fun!!!
the way that you're technically all of the above in the bingo 😭😭😭 and that drawing is sooo pretty!£8483£!!£! is that you or an oc of yours? (either way i've been eyeing it ever since i started typing here, hehe)
sooo i basically predicted what you're like irl?
i think for the most part it's because i'm a bit similar to you in some sort of ways, i'm only ever close with my closest friends and can get tired by interacting with people sometimes 😞 but the downside is that everyone finds me scary HAHA 😭😭 my friends had told me a bunch of times on how intimidating i look, when i really just have a normal expression on my face... apparently they said i always look like i have murder on my mind 🚶♀️
you now have another addition to the kin list, congrats 🤗
GREAT GAME!!! i do have a window in my room but it doesn't really have a great view... i'm currently living in a shitty apartment for the time being and the only thing i see from the window of my room is my neighbour's unit from my apartment complex 🤷♀️🤷♀️ so i'd probably give it a 3/10 T-T
now, a question for you! what's the most silliest thing that you currently own? (it can be a purchased item, a gift you got, etc)
hope you're having a great day jellyfish ^^
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HI YES IM SO GLAD U LIKE THAT CONCEPT I THOROUGHLY ENJOYED READING UR THOUGHTS ON IT AND I AM NOW VERY EXCITED. yes seth would absolutely treat kane like a pet and he would be literally drunk on his own power over a usually powerful and very immortal being. he would take absolutely every chance to humiliate kane, to drag him around, to just.... make everyone in the house acutely aware of how hes able to control a literal vampire. at all times. kane could breathe wrong and seth would be all up in his face shoving him against the wall and telling him to remember his place. which- very unfortunate for kane he rly doesnt deserve that :(
pumpkin would be so confused by kane treating them w adoration. very similar to celeste, they would Not understand why anyone would.... say please or thank u to them? much less ask for permission and ask them if they were truly okay w letting kane feed on them? in their mind its just common courtesy, and also kane is a vampire and he could just take the blood so why is he asking these things, and also seth told them to let him feed so Of Course its okay- i mean, they didnt even get to keep their name, theyre rly just a stupid pet, theyre not a cool immortal vampire, theyre not the perfect god-like type of human that seth is, theyre just... pathetic really. so kane would absolutely get the timid "i think ur better than me" treatment back. and my god if kane ever tried to protect pumpkin or go against seth in any capacity for their sake they would be freaking out, not even necessarily bc they dont want him getting hurt in their place (but it is part of it), but bc holy shit the other pet is being disobedient and defiant because of them, that is bad.
BONUS IMAGE, kane gets punished and hes sobbing and miserable afterwards, and pumpkin softly offers jello for him to hold and cuddle bc it always makes them feel less alone and scared and so they think it might help kane too,,,,
OKAY OKAY SOME THOUGHTS
pumpkin not getting to keep their name made me think... would kane get to keep his name? would seth ask kane what his name is and actually call him it, or would he call kane leech/parasite/etc like the hunters did, OR, since he's seth's pet now, would seth give kane a NEW name? and if so what would it be? if given a new name, kane would still think of himself as "kane" in his head, though he'd never admit it out loud. (edit: maybe keep the food theme going and call him candy kane? idk i feel like seth wouldn’t care enough about his original name for that)
kane has zero pride left at this point, he just wants to avoid pain. he would gladly take humiliation instead, he might even play it up and initiate it if he thinks it's what seth wants from him.
kane is not starving anymore, it's not like with the hunters where he was physically overpowered. he heals from any injuries within a day due to being adequately fed. two days if it's something really serious like being left in the sun for a long time. he is very powerful, the only thing keeping him obeying seth is his conditioning. if seth went too far against him or pumpkin, especially against defenseless pumpkin who won't heal overnight... kane might kill him. he probably wouldn't even mean to. cue both kane and pumpkin freaking the fuck out. kane would beg pumpkin to help him, he's deep into human territory and has nowhere to go.
wahhhh pumpkin letting kane borrow jello is the CUTEST THING EVER i'll cry... here's another cute concept i thought of: pumpkin has a phone and is very into using tumblr. kane is an old man who has never used the internet or a cell phone before in his life. imagine pumpkin teaching him about technology and how to use a cell phone...
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Sapnap's Lore Teaser: Assorted Thoughts and Ideas
we are just being FED sapnap content lately huh god bless i aint complainin its about time
JUST LIKE ITS ABOUT TIME WE GET THE SAPNAP LORE TEASER LETS GOOOO
I havent looked at it super in-depth yet, but I did watch it a few times through and I have some thoughts/theories/discussions to put out from my assorted ramblings in discord lmfao. theyre below the cut enjoy!! tw for torture mentions and fighting ig? nothing graphic or detailed but just in case :)
The glitching/flashing images over the community house for the ending segment aren't just of the community house, they're also pictures of Kinoko Kingdom?? IS HE- IS HE FORESHADOWING?? FORESHADOWING EITHER 1. HES NOT GONNA LET KINOKO KINGDOM END UP LIKE THE COMMUNITY HOUSE MEANING WE GET OVER PROTECTIVE SAPNAP ARC 2. HES GONNA DESTROY KINOKO KINGDOM BECAUSE, SIMILAR TO DREAMS DOWNFALL LEADING UP TO DOOMSDAY AND THE DISK FINALE, SAPNAP HAS REALIZED THAT GOOD THINGS DONT LAST ON THE SERVER, LEAST OF ALL FOR HIM, SO HE'LL GET RID OF THEM HIMSELF
The pathway hes standing on looks like the prime path or the pathways leading up to the prison. you can tell based on like the- the wood and chiseled stone bricks. hes near the community house in the end frame where he pulls out the sword. the fact that he pulls out a sword feels important as well because if he was just destroying things, he would use flint and steel or tnt or some other kind of destructive material. but swords? swords are only good for bamboo, cobwebs, and killing in minecraft. so hes definitely preparing to either kill or fight someone as he approaches the community house.
The flashes of kinoko kingdom that appear over sapnap looking at the community house in both the past and present lead me to believe that he's mentally connecting them, as in seeing history repeat itself, and that the symbols of his past memories are "gone" hence the title. So using that kind of inference, he's probably killing someone at the community house, someone that has some kind of connection to kinoko kingdom and probably doomsday or the past in some way.
that narrows things down pretty well in my eyes to Dream, George, Karl, Quackity, or Sam.
I don't think it's Dream. If he's going to kill Dream, why show the community house and not the prison or something? Or allude to the prison in anyway? I feel like their relationship will be an important factor in the Sapnap lore but I don't think that's who sapnap is planning to fight/kill.
Similarly, I don't think it's Karl. Yes Karl's in Kinoko Kingdom and is connected to memory and time and all that, but... he doesn't have the same connections to the past of the smp. He has a lot of lore but its mostly background type of lore i guess? its not tied to a lot of the major plot events, and while its affected sapnap, I don't think its gotten to the point of sapnap wanting to fight or kill karl yet.
George has been there since the beginning with Sapnap and Dream, so he's got the connections to the past, plus he's in Kinoko Kingdom with Sapnap. We also know due to his Dreaming lore that he still cares about Dream and wants him to come back and be with them again outside of the prison. He wants to ignore all the bad Dream has done because he cares for him more than he cares for the server overall. This could be an interesting conflict between their characters and I think it's possible, though unlikely because this is George we're talking about. My mans doesn't DO serious lore like this.
That leaves Quackity and Sam, who honestly id be satisfied with it being either of these two, but I think Quackity is more likely. I'll explain.
Quackity is not in Kinoko Kingdom, it's true, but this is a source of conflict for him. He's upset that he's not in Kinoko Kingdom, that his fiancées didn't invite him to their new country especially after spending so much time building a new country for all of them together. We also have many shots from Quackity's own lore streams which show him walking along that same path to get to the prison. Could be a coincidence, but personally? Personally I think it's an interesting parallel, especially when you take in to consideration that in Sapnap's prison visit lore stream he mentioned not wanting Dream to escape, but that he still cared for Dream and loved him even though he fucked up big time. Maybe Sapnap finds out that Quackity has been torturing Dream somehow and goes to confront him about it? This situation makes the most sense to me, at least compared to Sam
Sam lines up with the messages about the past and the community house and the connection between the original SMP/history with the current SMP, but he really doesnt have any connection to Kinoko Kingdom that I'm aware of. He could approach Sam possibly for allowing Quackity to torture Dream in prison, or something along those lines, but ehhhh Makes sense, would work for him to do that, but I'm not really sure how to tie that into the Kinoko Kingdom evidence yet.
No matter what happens though, I'm SO excited for Sapnap lore becuase I think his character is definitely one of the most fascinating on the server and yknow what? ill say it im biased i just think hes neat
#dream smp#dsmp#dream smp analysis#dsmp analysis#dsmp theory#dream smp theory#sapnap#sapnap theory#sapnap lore#george lore#georgenotfound#dream#dreamwastaken#quackity#awesamdude#mcyt#kinoko kingdom
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as you all may or may not know mammon is clingy. like, really clingy. so clingy that it’s kinda annoying to the average person.
which is why he’s so completely caught off guard when you return his affection without hesitation.
he’s very confused, bemused, shell shocked, flabbergasted, and in complete awe of how unapologetically touchy you are with him.
at first he thought, of course they’re clinging onto me, im great! then it quickly turned into what if theyre only being clingy because they feel bad that my brothers keep making fun of me.
(okay levi 🙄🤚🏾)
like, mans is just feeling all types of ways but you’re over here like, “yes, finally someone who isn’t running away from my love.”
you’re constantly touching mammon, not in a sexual way, just in a way to remind him you’re there.
like resting your head on his shoulder, holding his hand, ruffling his hair (says he hates it but you know you better), sitting on his lap (he doesn’t care if you think you’re heavy, sit on him mamas), and just about anything that that has to do with you being really close to him.
(he complains that he needs his space but will get all huffy if you aren’t practically glue onto him)
you’re always making the first move.
(be nice, hes shy 😔👉👈)
he would make a move first but his brothers are little shits who will stop at nothing to make fun of him for being “soft”
says that he is, in fact, not soft whilst also simultaneously cuddling you and peppering light kisses on your neck.
(righttt 🙄🙄)
now, all this is happening in the comfort of your own home, the house of lamentation.
god forbid mammon even think of making a move while you two are in a public setting. sure he talks a big game but he, like levi, is going to need to conjure a lot of confidence to even show any pda.
(consciously of course, because he’s really affectionate when he’s not aware that he’s being affectionate)
he’s trying his best, he really is, but mammon would rather die than to taint his reputation.
(not like it isn’t ruined already goofy)
but it’s not like he can’t make the first move, he’s just thinking what if he doesn’t read the room, makes a move and fucks up so bad you think you should break up with him then and there.
(you don’t think mammon is thinking these things because of his kleptomaniac tendencies but, my boy’s got a brain in there)
but mammon loves, loves, loves how clingy and affectionate you are with him. you just drown him in your love and he just wants to stay in your loving embrace for the rest of his long, long days.
you both have a ritual where everytime you see each other, whether its switching between classes, outside shopping or even just hanging out in the house of lamentation, you both will always, always, sprint towards each other at full speed and basically tackle the other person into a hug.
(most of the time you are the way whose ass gets knocked over when y’all do this, your poor booty 😔 and everything else)
you guys are known as the “how the fuck can they stand that guy” couple. everyone seems to think mammon isn’t that great for you.
(even mf who dont like you feel bad he’s dating you lmao but fuck them 🖕🏾🖕🏾)
when everyone is ignoring mammon you’re immediately the first one to shut them tf down.
“umm, hello? why the fuck are y’all not listening to my amazing boyfriend and his tale of how he stole from that one witch, who ended up cursing him to hiccup loudly every time he tried to steal something from someone, and how embarrassing it was to be caught by lucifer like that?”
“because he’s told us this seventeen times!”
“WELL, LISTEN AGAIN!”
he use to be very insecure about your relationship because of the attention you get from not only his brothers but also the exchange students. it also didn’t help his brothers and his peers would constantly tell him how much you deserve better than a scummy idiot like him.
you obviously defend your boyfriend because why the hell are they making him feel insecure about the relationship you both agreed upon.
you like him, he likes you, thats it. why do y’all need outsiders opinion on your relationship
(not me falling in love with you 😩😩😩 go bestie speak your truth 🗣🗣)
mammon practically melts into your arms whenever you guys cuddle.
when you caress your fingers across his cheeks as he stares at you with this look thats filled with love, and pure admiration, slowly trailing your hand to his head as your fingers glide through his hair, putting him at ease as he gently closes his eyes, allowing himself to yet again be vulnerable, with you and only you.
that side of mammon is reserved for you. he loves you dearly.
(hes so soft 🥺🥺)
granted, sometimes mammon messes up and the fact he activately is trying to stop his bad habits is amazing!
you being there for him and loving him; he thinks it’s a privilege.
you bring out the best in him and he’s grateful that it was you who gave him the honor of being your bf.
#[ 📝 ] shh， mio’s writing.#mammon x reader#mammon x s/o#mammon x mc#obey me mammon x reader#obey me shall we date#obey me headcanons#obey me x reader#obey me brothers x reader#im soft#i love him#omg im gonna cry wtff#nobody talk to me im in my mammon loving hours#its the fact that mfs HATE mammon#like how could you hate such a sweetheart#more for me 😩😋😋#motmps#ngl im clingy as fuck so if the mf i like or am dating said im /too/ clingy id disintegrate on the stop 😀🤚🏾#fuck no am i suffering that humiliation 😟😟
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