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zaukiel · 6 months

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i dont apologize for spamming today bc as i clean out my folders i can find shit to post that i havent put into my art blog yet

INCLUDING THE VIKSTUCK i did for 4 13 a few yrs back when we were still doing our FF8 dungeons and dragons campaign

LONG POST INCOMING

>WAKE UP Rise and shine, you got shit to do today.

>TURN OFF ALARM There ya go, champ. Welcome to the waking world!

>ENTER NAME Your name is VIKTOR RACHMAN. You are currently in TRABIA GARDEN training to be a SEED. Today is your day off, and you get to spend it mostly how you would like.

>GET OUT OF BED. You rise out of bed. You made sure to sleep earlier last night as tonight you plan on going out to be a rowdy bitch. You still have some chores to get done before you can start your day. But first! What would you like to do?

>EXAMINE VINYL ALBUM ON WALL That is your STRAY CARBUNCLES album, you still arent sure why they went for the pixellated look for the album art, its illegible, but it was the first vinyl you ever bought because you love that rockabilly sound.

>OPEN BLINDS AND PEEP OUT THE WINDOW It’s very bright outside, you’re not quite used to it, but at least now your room is lit up. There appears to be some people out and about right now in one of the concourses, you sometimes wish you had a south dorm for a better view.

>WOSH HIM You look down at yourself and realize you probably could do for a shower or something. Time to get BIG CLEAN.

Victory! You are now clean and the first of the things on your list of tasks is done, good job Viktor. You did your basic duty of not smelling bad and the world thanks you for this.

>ADMIRE SELF IN MIRROR

You pull your hair back out of your face so it looks more like your usual cut, you give yourself a wink and a finger gun. Looking damn fine, Viktor, as usual.

>EAT SOMETHING

It’s occurred to you that you probably need to eat. But you have a few things you need to do still before you can leave your room. A shirt at the least is one of those requirements. You should probably consult your LIST of THINGS YOU NEED TO DO TODAY.

>CONSULT LIST

Right, the LIST. You should probably figure out what you did with it.

You return back into your room and have a look around, you’ve thrown your clothing you’d had on before minus your jeans onto the floor and bed because you’re too lazy to deal with them right now.

Priority 1: List, where the fuck did you put it?

>LOOK DOWN, JACKASS.

Oh, right. The paper. The one that’s been there literally this entire fucking time. On your floor. Because you don’t know how to put things away.

>PICK UP LIST AND LOOK AT IT.

There ya go simple shit to do you can manage that.

HEY don’t give ME that look, you and I both know I struggle to draw you when you dont have a shirt on, just put one on.

Now you’re just being facetious.

this isnt how shirts work and you know it but im going to allow it for progression’s sake. good job you have a shirt on despite the laws of physics. now what?

>STYLE YOUR HAIR!

Do something flirty and fun! I think we both agree that’s a good place to start, right buddy?

>MONTAGE

>HAIR FIX COMPLETE!

Looking good~ as always! Well now that that’s done you’re almost done your list!

>CHECK LIST AGAIN.

listen you can hang around shirtless later, for now we have work to do.

and thats as far as it went bc i got tired

i should do another one sometime for the new age vik :3

#long post #like srsly its long #and homestuck related #if you didnt know i was one of those then idk where youve been all these years lmao

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bbarican · 10 months

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july 30, 2023; 7:21 pm - life updates

hi, tumblr! its been a minute ~ how are you guys? isnt it so weird that july just decided to be a blip and is now over like it never actually happened even though it was a super busy month? either way, im here to update ya'll on how ive been and other things and if youre interested, just keep reading along; either way, i love you!

family:

bittersweetly, wala na kaming bisita sa bahay; ang weird kasi my mom pointed out na we had visitors nga pala ever since may, thats a lot of time to have people over at your house and to not have privacy; it is sad though to have the house this quiet again but i, glad for the memories we all made over the course of everyone's stay

i treated my mom to a mani pedi session yesterday and it was really nice and relaxing; i finally got my nails done again and im so happy!

other than the aforementioned, we dont have a lot going on except the fact that we're going to a lunch buffet on saturday so atleast we have something to look forward to

im just really excited for the rest of the year and what that holds for me and my family

personal life:

im in a much better headspace and i am truly grateful for whatever or whoever helped me along the way

july was tough kasi i kept pushing myself to my limit without really noticing and again its very bittersweet kasi a part of me is super proud na i can actually juggle so much but at the same time my mind was not doing okay

but im glad im better now; maybe it was just a bad and busy week but i know for a fact na hindi lang yun yung week na ganun sa buong buhay ko so atleast now i know i can actually handle it

i finished reading happy place by emily henry already and i love that book so much; it being about people around my age made it all the more relatable + its super funny + it hits a little too close to home knowing that im the same as the protagonist; overall, its such a great book and i wish i could read it for the first time ulit

been trying to download bumble again pero literally my phone wont let me kasi it always prompts me to fix my payment method sa apple id which is totally fine btw but it always ends up being in error so i just take that as a sign na downloading bumble is just gonna be a waste of time anyway

i need to buy clothes kasi 1.) i wanna invest in them (again, my mom has a point na i need to stop repeating my outfits as much as i do) and 2.) i have an event to go to on the 11th ata so i need to dress up for that

i also want to sell some of my stuff kasi day by day i just keep realizing na i have so much stuff and instead of throwing them away, might as well make some money out of them

work:

im relieved that work is better now; not as busy, but busy enough to keep me on my feet without actually killing me mentally

i love my officemates; i love how the board takers are back and that the noise is back too

na approve na din kaagad yung revisions namin for our community library project which means we get to go to ikea already and purchase the stuff we wanted to for the project

feels kinda weird din talaga to not have been able to go to the office for a week cause of the weather kaya tomorrow im really gonna push myself to go kahit na alam kong uulan parin kasi i just know im gonna be lazy as fuck if i dont go to the office nanaman

regarding our team building, again, im not so keen on pushing through with it this august kasi 1.) its raining, 2.) mahal na since we're booking for the same dates, and 3.) again, i have no idea what our budget is to begin with so its really hard to plan anything anyway

and yeah, thats it for my life updates ~ im beyond excited for august, so here's to making the last day of july super fun and productive and memorable in whatever way it could be

ingat kayong lahat especially since for sure uulan parin this week!

#bbarican #personal #thoughts #writings #list #life #update #updates #dump #me

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littlecarmine · 1 year

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what's wrong with jj? i hated the jeid storyline too but i'm fine with her character, i liked her better in the earlier seasons but i still don't mind her. i don't care about will however

hi anon! im not a big fan of how they developed jj but thats a whole other thing sksfjkh

im talking more about how she was disliked for the jeid confession so the writers had her get shot as a lazy way to get sympathy / have her on good terms with spencer. even now i think the 'will is sick' storyline is to erase jeid by showing how much they love each other

i dont completely trust the writers to fix penelope bc they've been very sloppy trying to rewrite jj

#not cm #h answers #anons :)#criminal minds spoilers

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bellatrixobsessed1 · 2 years

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Ten Into The Fog (Last Part)

"How are you feeling?"

Azula is growing tired of the question, partly because this is the hundredth time she's been asked, mostly because she is just plain cranky.

She supposes that several hours of labor will do that to a person. "Im fine, mother."

Evidently, of the hundred times she has been asked, mother had asked about seventy times.

"Are you sure that you want to go downtown tonight." She tilts her head."you should be resting."

Azula folds her arms across her chest. "Of course I want to attend the dinner party. Sokka, Teo, and I have worked hard on this." She stretches her arms and her back. It us rather nice to not have a baby making it twice as sore. "Can you handle a dragon and a baby at the same time."

Ursa chuckles, "I've done it before with you and Zuko."

"Of course the doctors will be attending her most of the time." Azula mentions. Her birth wasn't particularly easy and she wasn't supposed to have come along as early as she had. But no less, their Hara is here.

Their Hara is flourishing just as swiftly as Yakone is deteriorating. Sometimes Azula wonders if the baby is siphoning his energy away and taking it for herself just as he had tried to steal her life from her.

Maybe with a touch of luck, she will steal enough to minimize the damage done by oxygen deprivation.

Done by the mistakes and failings of her mother.

"Can I?" Ursa asks, comb I'm hand with a gesture to her hair.

With a sigh, Azula resigns. "I suppose that you can. Just don't snag my hair!"

Ursa beams way too brightly.

She runs the comb through Azula's locks, humming as she does so. And Azula remembers being very small. Remembers sitting in her mother’s lap several years prior to Zuko's banishment. "You have such beautiful hair." She comments just as she had commented then.

"Thank you."

Ursa fashions most of Azula’s hair into a tight bun. The rest hangs silky and loose over her elegant shoulders. With delicate fingers, Ursa fixes a golden, ruby embellished hair comb at the top of the bun. Etched into the gold is is a dragon exhaling a fire of amber.

"This was my wedding hairpiece. I let you wear it for your own."

"This occasion isn't quite as grand."

"But its still special to you and Sokka."

"You're just looking for an excuse to give me that hairpiece." She quirks a brow.

"That might have something to do with it." Ursa confesses. "And besides this is your first formal public appearance since…"

"Sokka and I announced ed Yakone's defeat and out plans to make Republic City safer. Remember?"

"Thats right." She smiles. She finished fixing the hairpiece in place. "Perfect."

She looks away from mother to find Sokka leaning in the doorway, a lazy and tired smile tugging at his lips.

"How is Hara?"

"Really angry that we're going to be taking a night for ourselves. Honestly, I'm exhausted. I haven't even had time to practice my dad jokes!"

"We're all thankful for that." Azula mutters.

"Oh, don't worry, I'll tell you all of the one I got on the way to the ceremony.

.oOo.

"You can leave Chomp at home." Sokka mentions as if it isn't already too late, as if they aren't already pulling up to The Museum Of The Up And Coming. Up to the first place in Republic City to be declared fully accessible.

The first of many to come.

And tonight they will be celebrating with a ribbon cutting, love music, a dinner, and an extravaganza of fresh artwork and new inventions.

In the parking lot, several satomobiles are already lined up to be unveiled. Newer, safer models than even the ones that they have now.

And he likes to owe it to Suki. To the creation of safety features that her loss has prompted. These new features fall under the recently enacted Suki’s Code, a standard for Republic City road safety.

It isn't anything like hearing her laugh and her lectures. But at least she has amounted to something. At least he doesn't feel so hollow when Toph reports back that they had been able to rescue a kid that would have been lost without the new safety features.

Sokka finds himself flushing as Chomp climbs out if the vehicle. He doesn't even know how they have managed to fit her into it. She is twice as long as Azula is tall. And yet the councilwoman still manages to keep her on that gold and ruby leash, guiding her along like a cat or a dog.

"I can't believe I let you bro gbthe dragon." He grumbles.

"I can't believe you think that you could have stopped me." She casts him a sidelong and mischievous glance. "Think about it this way; if your scissors fail, you can use Chomp's claws to cut the ribbon."

"Yeah su--oh geez!" He exclaims at a sudden camera flash.

Azula gives a good laugh. No doubt, thrilled that it was he this time who had been spooked by the camera.

"Can I get a picture of Republic City's most prolific couple, for the paper? The people will love it!" The reporter declares.

"Finally some good news!" Another butts in. "How is the baby? What is her name?"

Azula dodges questions and flashes with the same fluidity and agility as dodging fireballs and water whips. She takes his hand and pulls him along until they are relatively safely at the top of the grand entrance staircase.

The crowd has well and assembled and he listens to Azula formally address the crowd. And thank Raava for her,public speeches still make him want to hurl. Even when she is standing next to him, quite literally holding his hand. Even with Chomp purring happily.

Teo speaks second running through a list of future goals. Among them he has ideas for systems to help the blind read unassisted. Teo is brimming with ideas and oozing enthusiasm.

And then it is his turn. Azula passes him the scissors.

Cutting the ribbon feels like cutting loose the last vestiges of his woes.

Cutting the ribbon feels like all fruition. work coming to fruition.

He meets Azula’s eyes. He thinks that she is feeling rather prideful today.

And he remembers that he hasn't yet told her about her greatest accomplishment.

He will tell her tonight all about how she had helped protect the Sun Warriors and helped the preserve their culture and customs. About the hand she had in Chomp's very existence.

Tonight they will celebrate accomplishment.

Accomplishments of today and yesterday.

Accomplishments to come.

He still gets anxious and moody. But tonight he has no worries.

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Epilogue

Sometimes as they drive beneath the streetlights Azula has a quiet sense of kinship with the skyscrapers, namely the older ones at the heart of the city. The ones that stand tall, proud, and weathered.

Republic City is a changed place. Changed but somehow the same as it always was. It is ever changing at a rate where the familiar becomes unfamiliar over night. At the same time it is a constant; the same streets have the same cracks and the same shops have the same street art.

It is glowing and luxurious.

It is dirty and deprived.

It is inviting and it is unforgiving, exciting and turbulent.

It the kind of place she can thrive in. The kind of place that always has some task to keep her busy and useful. It is the kind of place that allows Sokka to express his practical creativity.

She can see the city's lights reflect in Hara's wide eyes, one ocean blue and the other a sandy yellow.

Sokka puts the car in park and Azula lifts Hara from her seat. "Where are?" The child asks. "Where are?"

"Somewhere special." Azula replies. Somewhere important. She holds her hand out for Sokka to take.

It has been a while since they've had the chance to come here, to play that distorted record and watch wax drip down glassy globes.

The place has grown unruly in their absence with a new tangle of tall grass that licks the tires of a now severely rusted satomobile and a knot of vines that embrace the gramophone and the tree behind it.

There are more contraptions here now; discarded ramps that have been deemed unfit to hold up wheelchairs and wheelchairs that have been deemed unfit to hold up people. Not that Sokka isn't trying his luck anyhow.

Azula rolls her eyes and shakes her head. "See your father, Hara?"

The girl nods.

"Don't do what he's doing."

"Why not?" Not a moment after she asks, the wheelchair buckles under Sokka’s weight, sending him sprawling to the floor with a yelp.

Hara giggles, "he falled."

"He fell." Azula confirms.

Sokka rises, rubbing his rear and grumbling to himself as though he hadn't put himself in this position. "You wanna drive a satomobile!?" He asks once he recovers.

Hara squirms her way out of Azula’s arms and dashes towards their perfectly functioning vehicle.

Sokka catches her, swooping her into his arms. "Not that one! The one over there."

The girl makes a face. That one with the puffed out cheeks and the pout. Yes one that Sokka insistslooks exactly like the painting of her that Ursa had showed him."The broked one that doesn't work?"

"We could pretend like it works and that it goes really fast!"

"Nah. I wanna drive dat one!" She makes another dash for the working satomobile only to have Azula scoop her into her lap. "Oh! Oh, how about dis!? I drive Chomp Chomp!"

"Good luck with that." Azula grumbles. "Chomp Chomp only flies when she wants to. I swear, the Avatar's bison made flying animals look more charming than it is."

She watches Sokka pop the trunk and pull out a picnic blanket and a blanket to wrap themselves in. "You want to help with the tent?"

"Nope." Azula shrugs. "I have never once set up a tent and I don't plan on trying."

"You have too!"

"If I don't remember it then it didn't happen." Except, of course, for the moments that sounded thrilling or joyus.

She lays back and lets Hara get comfortable snuggled up next to her.

Although the starts are growing harder to see with the increasing light pollution, they still show more vividly here than they do in any other part of the city. Hara wraps her tiny fingers around Azula’s.

And for some reason it finally hits. It hits when she feels Hara's head nuzzuling against her chest. It is a strange wave of emotion. One that takes her a good several moments to place.

For a heartbeat she mistakes it for melancholy.

But that is not it.

That us not it at all.

Here under these stars, in their special place, here with their daughter for the first time it finally occurs to her that she is alive. Really it isn't a shocking g nor profound revelation, she is very much aware that she is nowhere near dead. But tonight as Sokka fusses with the sleeping bag while Hara chirps and giggles, it occurs to her that she truly appreciats that she hadn't died three years ago.

That isn't the limit of what she feels,, what has finally occurred to her. Not only is she alive but she is at peace. As much as she can be with the frantic grandure of her life. Hara gets fussy sometimes and Sokka and Zuko have this special knack for aggravating her on occasions. But things are well.

Mostly things have resolution. She and uncle have reached some degree of understanding and tolerance. And where father is concerned, he must be improving because he hasn't pushed Azula to 'be rid of' Hara. Neither has he declared that she should be hidden away for her broken speech. He doesn't insist that she is a useless or stupid child because her motor skills aren't where they were expected to be.

And perhaps Azula owes that to his guilt. To that he knows that Hara's development might not have been impaired had he not left her at the mercy of Yakone.

Visits to his cell are becoming less frequent but she is considering granting him some sort of freedom, perhaps a weekend at home a moth or something of the sort. Or a week where she will show him around Republic City. Of course that will be a discussion with Zuko for another time. Sokka has already been trying to talk her out of it.

She jolts at a decent thump.

Once her heart slows she sighs, "perhaps we should help your father, Hara."

The man lays melodramaticly facedown on the ground, bemoaning his cruel existence and the unforgiving folds of stubborn tent fabric. "That's it!" He declares. "We sleeping directly under the stars!"

"If you say so, Sokka." She strokes Hara's hair. But she sits herself up right and wanders towards the minor mishap.

.oOo.

She can hear the crickets in this part of Republic City and a few of the tree frogs that have made homes inside of the gramophone. These critters have lulled Hara to sleep long before Sokka could tell his bedtime story.

It is just as well, she had been hoping for a privet moment with him tonight. They lay on the roof of that rusting car, Sokka has settled himself into her arms. She wraps her arms and legs around his body, rests her forehead against his back.

The campfire has already snuffed to glowing embers and only a few of the candles are still glinting off of the glass. The rest of them have dripped down into wax pools in the grass.

Azula kisses his back.

She thinks that he is asleep too now. That is how it usuly works, she is the first to wake and the last to sleep. But she doesn't mind. It gives her time to think.

She used to fill those hours trying to remember, insisting that she o my needs to think a little harder, that they only have to bring her to places of significance and then it will all come back to her.

But it doesn't.

And truthfully, she doesn't think that it will.

Perhaps bits and snippets but there will always be holes. Always stories that they tell at parties that they insist she was there for, if only she could remember.

But she supposed that she doesn't need to.

She remembers what counts; she remembers how it feels to be cherished, remembers how it feels to heal. Remembers the emotions that come with certain gestures.

And that which she can't recall is something new. Something g just as fantastic as they tell her it had been the first time around.

She hugs Sokka tighter. What remains of the candle light glows on her arms. It shines over artful ink work.

That ink shines on her skin

The scars mark up her body, ones that she have been there since she could remember and ones that have formed there after she had forgotten. Ones that had come in the days and months between.

But they are hers

This mind.

This body.

They are heres and she knows that well.

#Avatar The Last Airbender #Azula #Sokka #Sokkla #Fanfiction

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beautifulnightmareunknown · 1 year

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oh deer (lol this is cringy)

hiii. so my morning was actually really nice. i woke up, went to the gym with my sis, got back home, ate and made my meals for the day then went to go get ready for work. while i was showering grace (my sis) got my clothes and all my “getting ready” things together for me and she even made and brought me my coffee. omfg and she made my bed for me lol. ive loved having her home from college. she really is my best friend. i feel like i can literally talk to her about anything and everything and there is no judgment or negative thoughts/feelings. i go to her for just about anything and she is always there. ANYWAYS, i left home and was bee bopping on my way to work listening to some music and just doing my thang. well i was almost to work and i freaking deer jumps out in front of me. i was only going about 35mph so the damage isnt that bad, but my hood is a little bent up and my grill is a little busted. other than that though my car is fine. i did however get in touch with my insurance guy and hes referring me to this place to get it fixed without filing a claim if i dont have to. hopefully its not too much money, but either way i just want my car fixed. i wouldnt mind driving around a cute little rental car either.

im currently at work right now, its nap time. i really cannot wait to start my new job. this place is just forever getting on my nerves. i love tammy to death (my co-teacher) but damn she is lazy. like when the kids need something shes always like trying to sneak tell them to ask me so that i will do it. and dont even get me started on the admin here. theyre just as bad if not worse. i was supposed to get finger printed like 2 or 3 weeks ago but i was sick on the day i was scheduled so i missed it and they just keep getting on my ass about rescheduling it like its my job to do so. which its not by the way. but little do they know its my last week here so it doesnt even matter. they just all get on my nerves here. its like no one wants to do their job and i mean thats why half the workers are leaving and why the whole class comes to me instead of the lead lol. i am going to miss the kids somewhat but not enough for me to stay and the pay here sucks. but yeah im going to work this week out and then text melanie (the director) that i quit. i dont care how unprofessional that is only because when they hired me here they made me not put in a 2 weeks notice to my previous job like i didnt have a choice and you know what they say.. “do unto others like you would want done to you” or something like that. then ill just have a week to chill and get into my new routine because quite literally fuck this place and lowkey fuck my schedule right now too.

ive been really good this year about keeping a positive mindset and not letting certain things get to me. i plan to keep it that way for the whole year and only work on bettering myself. i have weeded out most toxic aspects of my life and have gained more positive and encouraging in replace. i believe this year is only going to get better and more successful. one of my personal goals for this year is to read as many books as my height. thats crazy sounding i know but i am already off to a decent start with one book lol.

nap time is almost over so i am going to go ahead and sign off now. byeeee

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beaniebitch69 · 2 years

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word salad ahead me boy!

while my parents rnt completely all bark and no bite the only thing they can seem to ever do is talk, lecture, rant, bemoan, belittle, word vomit (salad?), talk down to, and over-explain anything and everything that they think they want me to know as if i dont already (at least most of the time😑) know what "message" ur trying to columnist into my head by proxy of being in the same place at the same time and usually bc i Am the problem that screwed everything up. so thx for the constant and unprompted "heres how u screwed up"s, what u shoulda done"s, "what I woulda done's bc trust me even with my flaws i and everyone else would have done it a million times better, and i know i never give u time to speak or defend urself but its only bc i dont see this as an attack on ur character like u do! even tho weve been playing this exact same song and dance since u were kneehigh: eventually giving me Definitely Undeserved attitude after X amount of times of me talking at u after a Situation that, at this point in time since u werent 10, would probably have left u crying or abt to. this exact scenario happening and me being too thick in the head to actually fucking put 2 and 2 together or fucking change or do anything besides whats easy bc im a fucking lazy peice of shit monster times 2 who wont spare more than my words and even then theyre shitty words just meant to keep us afloat to the next joyous moment bc thats all a family is to me :)"

woops srry, by easy i meant they called me sensitive and dramatic and would always react Big (i say big but i mean mean and callous. or should i say dismissive? i mean im not mad that their 1st priority was always fixing the situation but when they did that i felt like i couldnt talk abt it anymore. its in the past get over it) whenever i started crying and not doing anything in front of them. yrs later my mom says shed get mad at me crying its bc shes pissed that all im doing is sitting and crying, maybe it wouldve been better if she never told me that... it makes me feel awful. every day its almost like i learn something else i do or live like that pisses her off. but im an adult now its fine everyone has things their loved one do that piss them off! its natural!

too bad everything she does pisses me off

but when i say that i feel terrible inside

my dads worse, on account of doing even less with more (fake) bravado. honestly im deeply disappointed in my parents. like no joke, this is like failing a bird class, like what did u 2 think was gonna happen? sure ive got hindsight but looking back u 2 either dont trust urselves so ur taking a more "hands-off" approach where u only do things ur confident in and expect ur kid to come to u whenever they have a problem (which i get, but u guys never built that 100% ford certified trust in me: everytime i came to u u were useless or harmful), Or ur idiots who i should stop trying to get anything out of bc ull never give me what i want (maybe im too picky in what i want? i should be happy with anything they give me, but i dont want to be a pussy bitch like that. im too proud to accept pain and if im not i will be.).

i can dish it but i cant take it. maybe im expecting too much? i dont expect them to be perfect, trying to get them to at least acknowledge whatever pain they caused me and my brother would be too much. mainly bc the only way to get them to is by having a very emotional argument and once we get to that point theyre only goal is to win the argument. so they only ever use it to advance their argument or as a stepping stone to disparage mine. thats why i hate even talking to them unless theyre on cloud 9 bc inevitably well disagree and/or just start an argument itll ramp up bc they always raise their voices and i either shutdown and cry (which pisses my mom off and makes her argue More for some fucking reason the bitch of a woman (her fav saying is "u cant teach an old dog new tricks" and uses it for herself often (her other is "insantiy is doing the same thing and expecting a different result" i hate that one bc the 1st time i heard it it was directed at me, tho now sometimes shell say im acting wrong or insane whenever im abt to lose it or somtimes just crying)) if ur no better than a dog then i hate u for trying to make me look up to and love someone who isnt even better than a Fucking DOG) or try to defend myself. now im thinking back to all the times i went thinking to defend myself, did i rlly need to defend myself? what even is defending urself? insecure ppl r constanly defending themselves, against real and imagined threats, tho usually theyre imagined. am i just insecure? am i even defending myself or am i just listing the ways they wronged me? typing that last question makes me feel spoiled. i mean i Do usually get what i want in the end, sue me, but... well im old enough now i can think critically and i know my flaws, i can and should do more. but its so impossible with them, but i bet they think the same of me, my 2 disappointing parents

#my ma has expressed disappointment at how she raised me for yrs. since i was abt 13 or 14 i think? thankfully she doesnt say it often #everytime she does its a tie btwn wanting to rip her throat out or mine #like thx u rlly r the worlds most useless parent ill just save us all the trouble and off myself u fucking waste of space #or How Fucking Dare You say such insulting things abt me im gonna hurt u as divine retribution #the only time u ever try to do anything is right after it happened almost as if u dont care unless its happening in front of u #if u feel ur kid has issues with handling things r u just gonna sit there with ur thumb up ur ass or r u gonna do something #and these r the same cunts who yell at Me for not doing anything plus they fully embrace and accept the fact that theyre hippocrites #beyond frustrating bc whatever point u Think u just made they suddenly dont care or readily accept it and now u need to hurry and make a di #fferent point otherwise ur argument has no water and u lose #idk what they coulda done... honestly idk what options to take either. but at least i didnt waste (when did they notice?) yrs being insane d #doing the same things over and over while expecting a different result or just bc im too stupid to change

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hobgobbin · 5 years

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I’m FINALLY done with this sweet sweet fey warlock bitch. He took ENTIRELY too long and I was kinda lazy with his shading

I was also heavily inspired by @japhers beautiful art and designs to actually take the time and make a detailed (and thotty) design gghhdfgf

#dungeons and dragons #tiefling #d&d #warlock #fey warlock #drak ocs #cheri #i just realized I forgot the accent on his name but thats. fine #im too lazy to fix it gghkdhkf #he took me like 12 whole ass hours to draw im. suffer #I ALSO HOPE ITS NOT WEIRD TO @ YOU IM SORRY IF WEIRD. I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW #hobgob arts

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hopeheartfilia · 3 years

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Me, between 3 and 4 am: I should learn HTML

#it was more like. I should learn some basics of coding and im aware that the ideas in my head are overly ambition #amnitous* like bitch as if you have the attention span to learn two coding languages. youll learn like basics of html and leave #on th3 other hand i am pretty alright at things like logic and precise language and technically math #like i dont like it but i am naturally good at math. i just refuse to put absolutely Any effort in it #so like i probably wont be shit at it if i genuenly try and it seems more of an if you put time i #then you should get the basics #and i dont expect to get beyond the basics but still #my most in debt go at htmls was probably my ao3 skin #which.. doess need some chnages but i was very sleeo deprived when doing it so past me is forgiven #i did just decide ima do it without having any idea about anything #and then decided to proceed without checking out a single tutorial #so i played with the presets of the wizrads #then decided fuck that #found a skin with a reasonable amount of different colours for all the important features and manually recollered it in the code #because thats reasonable #especially if youre guessing what the colour is for lile 90% of the time #thats why i currently cant see where im up to in a chapther. i coloured the scroller the same colour as the background #but it works fine and ive been too lazy to fix it #i feel i could do a lot more with it if i actually put time into u derstanding the language its written in #and also if i could possibly go and deal with some web desing that would be very good for job prospects #so like i should #but also idk why i still think in terms of so learn this and then maybe learn python like ill get that far when i probably wont

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amethyst-skeleton · 4 years

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#i need to vent but i know people will see it and so uh dni at all please? i will be ok im just fuckin Sad rn #im so tired. ive had enough. i have nothing left to give the universe #i am? was? idk trying my best. trying to keep everything afloat and take care of everyone #but my best isnt good enough at all. i dont even know if it is my best truly #look at me complaining like this like i deserve to be pitied or coddled into thinking im good and kind i dont im awful and the guilt eats #me alive. i am not a good person. i am cruel and selfish and inadequate. i hurt those around me and have no way of fixing it #i cant cry anymore because it feels too fake so i just wallow in silence. everyone does leave eventually and again i was right #thats the one thing i can take pride in now is that my bitter anxious premonitions are right. or at least reliable. ive been doing it for a #long time. and now i just wonder who is leaving next. i felt so secure i thought maybe this time they would all love me and i would be safe #maybe its not me that needed to be safe maybe i was subconsciously looking for something else to fuck up. maybe they should be safe #so im not mad when people leave. its just a reminder i cant always help. i cant be good enough.#history repeats itself and instead of me being hurt im hurting everyone else. im just like he was. i knew i would be.#i think im just going to sleep more. i wish i could outsleep the world. put me in a coma please.#i already ruined my future and im ruining the present too. everything i touch i lean on too heavily until it breaks and crumbles.#inadequate. bitter. undeserving. cruel. manipulative. failure. lazy.#scared #scared of myself and the world around me #i wish i deserved help and comfort and i wish i wasnt too much to handle. i wish all my friends werent sick of me #im tired of pretending im functional and fine #and when they all say oh youre so nice kind angel darling baby sweetheart i want to cry because im not like that truly im sorry you thinktht #...idk what else to say. im done. i dont know what to do about this i cant help and my help doesnt work anyway #im tired and i cant unload anything else on friends its not fair to them. to have to put up with my mistakes.#i'll get up soon and ignore the guilt and pretend i can be ok but i dont know when bc time is liquid right now #i wish i could cry it out i wish i deserved that #thanks. if you read this please dni w this and dont message me ill be ok eventually but thank you for listening i suppose #especially particular friends i hope you never see this post because you dont need any more of this on your plates #the leaving has already started. you will all be gone too soon. it always happens. im meant to be alone but im not built to be happy alone #oh well.

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mojwisungie · 3 years

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hc | boyfriend ♡

req (from: anon) ➥ : read the mark-jaemin boyfriend, and then then renjun-jisung boyfriend headcanons,,, can you do one for the remaining members? thank you~~

☄︎ with: lee jeno, lee donghyuck, zhong chenle ☄︎ lou.note: this has been in my wips for so long im sorry anonie but here i am to give it you guys as an offering for my birthday (its tomorrow on the 26th but anyway) hehe hope you all enjoy <3

ੈ⋆ mark & jaemin ver. | renjun & jisung ver.

Jeno

the observing, supportive boyfriend

jeno doesnt pay much attention to things that arent important

but YOU are important

you mean so much to him, and thats still an understatement

he often thinks that by paying attention to you and everything you do

he'll know you in a way no one else does

at this point, he knows everything about you

your favorite sweater (which he owns), favorite color, favorite artists, favorite songs, etc.

jeno actually knows your order by heart even if it varies in different restaurants

his mantra is actually happy y/n = happy jeno ^_^

thats also the reason why fights dont usually happen

he knows when its too much for you and so he will do what he thinks is best for the situation

anyways: dates with jeno are either doing physical activities or plain cuddling on the couch

it would mostly be him who initiates dates like hiking, biking, etc.

but, he would also always check with you if youre okay with it or if you want to rest

one time you asked him for a day in those sport grounds ?? like those places that has random games like wall-climbing, archery, and trampolines

oh this boy has the biggest smile on his face asking you, “hold on love, are you serious ( ◕▿◕ ) ?”

during hectic weeks, he’s definitely up for movie marathons

if he still has some energy, he will make a blanket fort for the both of you

also jeno lee is a cuddle bug (you cannot change my mind, this case is closed)

and so he’ll use these lazy dates to indulge in hugging you for as long as he can

on the supportive note, he always reassures you with the kindest words

AND hes the type of guy who will ask you if you need comfort or solutions when you rant to him T﹏T

and that is actually proof that he is the best support system

he'd be your hype man when you need a push

thinking of auditioning for a club? go ahead, he'll teach you what he knows

want to try a new hobby and start journaling? he'll help you find cute stickers (and he'll buy them too)

he will always help in whatever way he can, and he will constantly assure you that he’s there for you as you have been for him

he is reserved, quiet, and keep things on the down low, yet with you, he’s entirely different

jeno loves you just as you love him, and he’ll do everything to prove it to the world- you.

Haechan

the enthusiastic, soft boyfriend

he is!! literally!! the sun!!

he often calls you often in the morning to wake you up, greeting you with the loveliest voice saying, “good morning darling, how was your sleep?” SADKJASD

if he’s free, he’ll actually drop by yours to bring breakfast and eat with you

and if ever you still live with your family, you bet that once you slip into the kitchen he’s chatting up with your parents like he’s their son

actually... he technically is

he loves going out with you and your family as much as he loves going out with his

hyuck is very family-oriented, you really dont have to plead to him if you want him to come to a gathering

as long as you say yes to him inviting you to their family activities too 😌

he once asked you to go with him to this intimate family dinner his relatives organized

and you ask him, “are you sure im allowed to go? the invitation in the email complete says Lee Family and clearly.. im not-”

this man didnt even let you finish and says, “BUT YOU WILL BE!! SOON!! I WILL MARRY YOU!! baby come on just please come with me!!!”

he means it though

you dont know it, but the thought of spending the rest of his life with you often comes into his mind

and so dates with him can be both ends of the spectrum

you guys could go for fancy restaurants, amusement parks, and even late night computer games (if you dont play, he’ll teach you dont worry <3)

but there are also domestic dates such as grocery shopping, helping each other babysit nephews/nieces, and the such

its obvious to every one that haechan is so soft for you

and he doesnt care what other people say

one time, mark heard him talk to you in the cutest, softest voice and laughed... and regretted it bc haechan turned to him in the most serious face and the deepest tone saying, “and so?”

as much as possible, he wants you to feel loved bc thats what you make him feel

despite this, arguments are still there, but it doesnt go on for long

fights dont escalate as you both work together against the problem

so at the end of the day, no feelings are hurt or turned a blind eye to

disagreements are often rooted from the nature of work though, thats why every time things arent so fine, he’ll do his best to fix it

because he treasures his time with you and the love you both invest in

he didnt value time that much before, bc he’s so used to putting up with whatever that comes his way

but when you came into his life, he realized it is indeed precious

haechan spends every second loving you beyond infinity

Chenle

the parental, sincere, affectionate boyfriend

you’ve seen him rant, right?

he’ll do that often, but only when its about you not getting what you need

others may not see it, but he’s really concerned when its about you so he’ll do anything to make sure youre well taken care of

if you havent eaten yet bc youre too busy going over your notes for your exams, he’ll buy you your favorite food and feed it to you

all the while talking about how you shouldnt put aside eating bc its important to eat meals at the right time

this guy solves old math problems when he has time to spare, so he’ll be okay with you coming to for help whenever you struggle with your lessons

as cliché as it may be, he will also get you the stuff you need- whether it may be for school or for your personal shenanigans

you complained about your laptop once, saying it keeps on lagging

he deadass goes, “do you wanna go and buy a new one now?” 💀

he just wants you to do well in the stuff you do, okay ??

chenle is blunt about pretty much everything in your relationship too

he tells you all the stuff he knows he should tell you

including embarrassing moments of his members

the dreamies cant joke around with you too much,, bc they know you know everything (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)

but jokes aside, sometimes his honesty can be cause of some arguments

bc he gets too straight-forward at times and ends up unintentionally hurting you :((

and when you explain why it made you feel that way, he’s lost bc he thinks he was just saying the truth

but as time passes, he will learn how to be upfront with you without having to sadden you

please be patient with him as he is with you 👉🏼👈🏼

anyhow, dates with him would always be one for the books

if you ever think that he probably doesnt remember the dates you wanna go on to, youre wrong

bc its all listed in his mind and he’s determined to tick every single one from the list

when he’s busy or away on tour, facetimes would be a regular thing

he’s prepared with the timezones and he will remind you to sleep when you should, no buts y/n

if you tell him you cant just drift off, he’ll always offer to sing you to sleep

and when you do, he’ll take lots of pictures to treasure the little moments he has with you

some people tell him he looks too deeply in love

but he doesnt really see anything wrong with it because it was with you

chenle completely knows that he loves you so much, and he’s willing to love you until forever

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that-one-weeb-but-starwars · 3 years

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A Marriage Arrangement with death pt 4

All I can say is well. Well my bad-

Read Part 1 / 2 / 3 / 3.5

Y/n's eyes slowly opened, turning her head she was face to face with Savage.

Smiling softly her hand reaching out for his face, rubbing Savage's cheek with her thumb lightly.

He slowly woke up, his irises bright in color and lowly shining in the dark room. Y/n said nothing- thank the gods for black out curtains. She thought his eyes were so pretty with there soft glow

He kissed the palm of her hand softly as she smiled, leaning forwards they shared a soft kiss.

"Well good moring." She smiled.

He only sighed, pulling her into his chest as she chuckled.

"Go back to sleep."

"Come on we can't stay in bed forever." Y/n responded kissing his chin, he was rubbing her bare back with one hand she smiled at him, relaxing in his grip she sighed happily.

"We're getting married today."

"Again."

Y/n chuckled, "You don't want to get married again?" She teased.

"Why unify again and tell the galaxy when my galaxy is infront of me."

Y/n flushed deep red, as she moved her gaze away, her chest tightening and butterflies filling her stomach.

"Oh...I..." she spoke trying to come with a counter. His hand carassed her cheek as he sat himself up.

Y/n kept her gaze away the headboard seemingly more interesting, but soon then she realized she was laid down on her back, Savage over her frame as she looked at him to catch his gaze- and hold it.

"Hello there..." y/n spoke trying to cover her akwardness.

He leaned down kissing her softly without another word, her arms wrapping around his large frame, hands rest at the top of his back.

Pulling away softly Y/n whined playfully, chuckling he held her, she pulled him back down into a kiss happily as a leg wrapped around his bare waist.

A soft groan of pleasure was drawn out into the kiss and the two pulled away softly with a pant.

"Moring sex sounds fun." Y/n joked as he chuckled, going to kiss her again there was a knock on the door.

Y/n groaned in displeasure, its always someone. Pulling herself from under him she covered herself with a robe. Walking towards the door it opened with a push of a button.

"Oh- Misses Gladlys-" y/n responded, "I uh...why are you here?"

"I was requested to get you on account of your mother Princess."

Y/n nodded, "uhuh for?"

"Well to get ready of course. It is your big day."

"The ceremony isnt till later in the day?" Y/n questioned.

"Well yes but-"

"Misses Gladys I love you. And you know that. But I have another matter- Very Very big matter."

"But Princess."

"Just this once. Give me..." She spoke looking back at Savage, his hips and below covered by the blankets as his top half was put on full display for her, "Give me 45 mintues-"

"Fourty-Five Mintues!? Princess you're mother-"

"Sorry Misses Gladlys! I promise just once! Bye!-"

"But Princess-"

Y/n shut the door, locking sealing it shut from the inside.

"Now." Y/n spoke turning back to him walking towards the bed as she dropped her robe.

"Where were we?"

"Sleep."

"Right."

She climbed into bed as she curled up to him, his arm drapped over her hip in protection.

"The sweet glory of sleeping in." Y/n smiled nuzzling into his chest as he chucked, both going back to sleep for another hour.

Yet she would be woken up by a loud knocking, causing her to groan. Savage was also woken up as Y/n pulled away from him recovering herself she opened the door.

"Do you have any idea what time it is!"

"Yeah Yeah Im going." Y/n spoke walking back into the room and going back to Savage.

"Wish me luck with her- and someone will be here with a set of chlothes. My brother's will want to talk to you before hand," Y/n spoke kissing him softly, "Love you."

"I love you too."

She smiled as she left, being yelled at as soon as she opened the door.

"Yeah yeah lets go."

Savage sat up rubbing the back of his neck, meanwhile getting dressed his chlothes from the other night, pulling the boots on and bottoms, leaving his armour off he pulled on the turtle neck. That's when he received a transmission.

Picking up the hologram fromed as Ventress stood there.

"Savage."

"Mistress."

She crossed her armors, "has she trusted you?"

"Yes." Savage spoke, "I believe this may be a strong allyship between the two worlds-"

"You fool! This is an infiltration! Do not get attached!" Ventress argued.

"I thought this was ment to be Unification. Not a hoax." Savage tried to defend, but it was useless.

"Count Dooku will be present today both at the ceremony and to sign documents. Its when we will attack, killing Count Dooku and the royal family. And Dathomir will finally regain what was lost to them."

What was he suppose to say- No? He couldn't do that, he did belong to Ventress after all. The spell did what it was ment to.

"You will kill the royal family! And that Pathetic thing you call your wife." Ventress demanded.

"Yes. Mistress."

"Good."

The transmission was cut as his head felt like it split open, holding it in pain he growled.

The doors opened.

"Hey! Savage! We wanted-" it was one of Y/n's brothers, "You okay?"

"I-I am fine." Savage lied.

"Oh. come on then."

He followed the group leading him into a lounge area, all her brothers sat there. They cheered for him as he ended.

"Big day huh! Must be exciting!"

"You idiot he was married at Dathomir as well."

"Your an idiot!"

"Sorry for them." Fresco spoke apologizing for the twins, handing Savage a cup, "for your headache."

Savage nodded almost immediately downing the water, leading him to come sit down

"You heard fathers coming back?"

"Good maybe mother will finally stop being so mean."

"Please you know she bullies him too."

"You havent met all of us have you?" Fresco spoke.

"No I don't believe I have."

Fresco smiled, "there is a lot of us. You know the twins and Attiucs."

The twins were busy arguing but Atticus waved looking up from his book.

"Ezio here is the oldest." The older teen raised a cup taking a drink.

"Im after him, and Jacob's next, after are the twins but you met both of us" Fresco added, "Juniper is next."

The teen with his hair half buzzed the other side long and braided lifted up a lazy hand, sitting upside down on the couch as he listened to his brother.

"After Juniper its Atticus, and then the triplets."

They were busy dualing around the room with sticks, "Cornelius, Hamilton, and Magnus."

Hamilton stopped to wave Politely but was ran into by his two siblings as they fell onto the floor.

"What about you? And your brothers? Sisters?" Juniper questioned but Atticus kicked him.

"You little shit!-"

"I don't have any brothers. Not no more." Savage responded his glass being refilled by butler standing by.

"Hey! We got you. We're all brothers now." Fresco spoke a fist to Savage's shoulder playfully, "we're an off bunch but mean well."

The group contuied to talk to Savage, it was odd how accepting they really were. Somewhere in the back of his mind made him regret all of this.

He'd have to kill all these people.

So what was the point of getting close?

Soon enough all of there suits came, Savage the only one in white.

"Who do you think Y/n will recieve?" Juniper asked the group.

"I believe a moder. Perhaps Sutur." Ezio explained fixing the flower pin in his hair.

"What is receiving?" Savage asked.

"Hmm?" Fresco asked, "Oh it-"

Mid word Juniper cut in, "It's part of the religion. The 12 gods are believed to comibned to become the earth beneath us. Sutur is just one of the gods, mostly know for being a core due to its controling of everything hot. When you marry one born on this planet goes through a 'receiving' its rare but only twelve can get a god, but you can also get an enity or a passed loved one though that's super rare. They give you there strength within battle."

"But Y/n's much more powerful than a core- which is why she should be getting Hela." Jacob cut in.

"Hela hasnt been someones beck and call since Father." Ezio argued, "and we all know how he ended up. You wish that upon your sister?"

The group went quiet.

"I was given the impression your father was alive." Savage responded.

Fresco sighed, "when he was assigned Hela he descended into madness with each kid born. They think he's in Helheim and will return- He'll be Y/n's receiver."

"I think he's dead dead." Jacob responded, "like he deserves and mother better follow him"

"You can't say that!" Atticus argued.

"Please Attiucs grow up." Juniper spoke.

Savage listened intently, as Fresco looked back at the Zabarack, "We may have a large family, but the heads of the family aren't...the best"

"It sounds like my family." Savage told him as they all started filing out of the room, leaving just him and Fresco in the room alone, "I. Unfortunately grew up without one of my brothers, he was taken away due to his special ablities."

Fresco listened as he poured them both a glass of whiskey, "And my younger brother. I don't remember what happened, or if he's even alive."

Handing Savage the glass they stood by the window.

"Makes you not want to have kids." Fresco questioned, "I know it scares me. Becoming the one thing I hate."

"On Dathomir men are only used for mating and then usually killed off." Savage spoke.

Fresco frowned looking out the window- how was he ment to respond to such information.

"I know my sister will treat you with Kindness." Fresco spoke, "it seems you're already growing on her. I seen you two at the dinner."

Savage felt his chest tighten, he was falling in love with her, and he liked it. He loved the idea of her.

"Guys hurry up or it will be the groom walking down the Isle." Ezio told as he had quickly come back.

The two left with each other side by side. Both enjoying the silence as they walked down the steps. Thats right, He had only been down and up these steps a few times, but those few times were some of the best times of his life.

Stopping outside the castle he looked back, seeing it all shiney as the sun hit it perfectly, looking like something out of a book. The whole walk was like that- there was no reason to take out a whole planet for the sake of Dathomir, Dathomir didn't need another planet- he would of liked them to fix theres first atleast.

"Savage?"

He turned his head seeing Y/n standing there, when was she here? Looking around a bit shaken she stood in her wedding dress- it looked perfect on her, with a full bottom and a lacey top that had the same matching sleeves. When were they at the alter already?

"Are you okay?" She whispered softly, the priest reading off religious text.

"I-" he spoke looking at her what was he suppose to tell her?

Her white dress would be bloodstained within a matter of mintues due to what Mother Talzin was planning?

"I have a headache is all." He responded.

Y/n frowned, "maybe some food afterwords will make you feel better. Caf was even skipped this moring."

"Right." He responded, and left it at that.

"Do you take this man to be your husband? To take of him in sickness and health? To love him without doubt?"

Y/n smiled, "I do."

Her hand gripped onto his in excitement, that small squeeze made him happy, feeling her hand in his.

He had no idea what the woman infront of them said but only said the words as quick as he comprehend.

"I do." He cut the lady off.

Y/n flushed as she looked down flustered.

"Then I do pronounce you man and wife. You may kiss your bride."

Y/n was pulled in quickly, shocking her, but it wasn't unwelcomed, kissing back the large church full of people cheered as they pulled away and as he did He seen Count Dooku sitting next to Mother Miranda. The group of people settling down, calming themselves once more as the woman cleared her throat Savage being gestured over by her brothers who were off to the side as he went over.

"With the coming of age you Y/n will be the caller of one of our twelve gods. You may be choosen for something greater, or passed by as a common folk." She spoke, "are you ready to give yourself to the twelve gods and let them judge you as one!"

"Yes head preist." Y/n spoke as her wrist was grabbed and palmed opened where it was sliced open Y/n gritting her teeth slightly as she was dragged to the floor, only following as her hand was put face down on the alters floor.

The woman moved to the side as the doors behind the alter creaked. Atticus holding onto Savages leg as Savage put a hand on his shoulder telling him he'd be okay.

"By the twelve gods..." Fresco spoke as the door opened a large hand crawling onto the carved in wood.

"I-its Hela..." Ezio asperated as the door swung open heavily crashing into the wall. Which it was hinged to.

The room silent and still as the other swung open.

The figure large, made up of what seemed to be Ash, body exposed and what looked like to be burnt half way just to show her dark innards, she was on all fours as Y/n looked up at her, slowly standing up as it went quiet for a moment.

Y/n reached out her cut hand, Hela reaching out her hand as well as Y/n looked forward keeping her eyes on Hela.

Somewhere some how Helas hand had shrunken along with part of her arm as they were bound by the cut on Y/n's hand.

'They're here-'

A warrior bursted into the doors as Y/n turned her head, "We're being attacked! The ships! They've all been destroyed!-"

The man stopped stabbed through the back, and fell to the floor.

"So sorry to ruin this happy momment."

Y/n growled as her hand was let go, and in place of Hela's hand held a sword, as Ventress walked down the isle.

"Damn are sister really is a bad ass-" Ezio spoke under his breath.

Dooku stood up as well, saber in hand.

"You were foolish to come alone." Y/n argued Hela still behind her looming in all her darkness.

"Who says I'm alone?"

Just as she spoke, a Battalion of night sisters filed into the room from both sides of her.

"Savage." Ventress spoke.

"Yes Mistress."

Almost immediately Fresco who stood besides Savage was lifted up into the air, force choking him as Fresco grabbed at his neck.

"Savage! Stop! Now!" Y/n demanded, "Stop now!"

"Kill him. Now." Ventress demanded.

There was a large crack as the filled church was still in shock, the young man thrown to the floor as his brother immediately surronded him.

"He's dead! He killed Fresco!"

Thats when the chaos started, when one had been pronounced dead.

Y/n could remember, it was all a blur. All the fighting- the blood shed. All she remember was ripping through people with her new found sword, swinging at heads and abdomens, she was luck that her skirt hadn't had a train.

Atticus had ran to her as she fought on the stairs stabbing a nightsister in the face and kicking her back, her white dress covered in dirt and blood, "Y/n!"

"Attiucs! Run away now!" Y/n argued, blocking another weapon, kicking the women in the female Kenobi's

"I'm not gonna leave you!" He shouted.

"Damn it Atticus!" Y/n shouted slicing the woman's flesh and grabbing his hand, "Come on! Lets go!"

Atticus ran hand in hand with her, somehow and some way some of her brothers caught up, they running and escaping to the castle.

"We have to be quiet take off your shoes." Y/n whispered the group hiding behind a wall as they all pulled there shoes off, "You have your run away bags all ready?"

"What?" Magnus asked, his other brother Cornelius, holding his hand, he had lost one of three to Ventress.

"Shit thats right, they never made there's. I'll go with them." Ezio spoke quietly,

Y/n nodded taking a quick head count, they had lost so many already, Fresco, Juniper, and Hamilton.

"I'll take Cornelius and Magnus." Jacob offered.

"I'll take Atticus. Ezio- weapons and maps?"

Ezio nodded, "becareful."

They all nodded, spliting up, Y/n had lucky gotten Attiucs up the stairs and to his room, as he was grabbing his things.

"Y/n." Atticus spoke as she was making sure he had everything for a final time as they carefully walked to her room, once inside she answered him.

"Yes Atticus." She responded going for her own bag.

"Savage...he isnt that mean. I know he isn't." Atticus spoke, "I know we didn't know him long but- he didn't wanna kill Fresco did he?"

Y/n tossed her dress the the floor dressed in trousers now fixing her top.

"Atticus." Y/n spoke kneeling down to him, "I know you liked him. I did too, but I don't even know anymore."

Attiucs frowned, as she held his shoulder's, "Are you going to kill him? Savage?"

Y/n frowned, "I don't know."

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