Having undiagnosed ADHD until you’re an adult is so hard because it has shaped so much of your life and personality it’s hard to tell where it ends and you begin, but it’s also the answer to every time you have screamed, crying, frustrated with yourself “WHY AM I LIKE THIS?!?!”

Kind of a given, but, the pictures found in Zelda's house are all nods to the Princess Sightings quests!

Here you have the Princess and the Beast (those are dondons)

This one's Zelda's Golden Horse! (that's the piss horse right there alright)

This is from the Missing Farm Tools quest (Magda and her iconic flowers)

White Goats Gone Missing

and finally Gourmets Gone Missing!

Upon my first visit I just thought those were pictures Zelda took of things and moments she loved while she was out and about (and, I mean, that is still what they are), but gradually realising that they were all linked to the actual quests was so touching. One more thing that cements her presence (and absence AHAHA) in the world, Zelda really was there, aaaaahhh. (and if Zelda's diary is to be believed, Link was never too far when those pictures were taken, probably.) It fills me with indescribable joy, aaaaaa

“APOLOGIES FOR THE DECEPTION” IM LAUGJING SO HARD BUT ALSO UPSET AND I HAVE A STOMACH ACHE

I have no idea how this would work on the timeline but omegaverse AU where alpha Bucky helped omega Howard through heat exactly once and neither of them realized that it got Howard pregnant.

So when Steve meets Tony in the twenty first century, he's prepared for him to smell like Howard. But Tony still takes him by surprise, because sure, he smells like Howard's kid, but he also smells like Bucky's.

not my friend meeting Blackbeard for the first time and me trying to contain my screaming rage

I had a dream last night about Bill Skarsgard and I thought I'd share it with you.

I dreamt I was doing some kind of table read or audition with Bill Skarsgard and some movie execs. For some odd reason the script was in those blue Hilroy notebooks we used to use in elementary school? Lol anyway...

We were at this big conference table and Bill is seated very close on my right side. So close in fact that he is reading MY script over my shoulder instead of his own. He is acting very cool and aloof and not saying a whole lot. I'm sitting there just trying not to freak out at how close he is to me. I'm looking out the side of my eye at his massive hands and sharp jawline trying to keep my breathing steady.

At one point he leans closer to me so he can see my script which has a monologue for his character. He begins reciting the monologue IN SWEDISH and one of the producers tries to stop him and I practically shush him and say "let him finish" as my hand starts shaking. Bill then reaches out and steadies my hand with his own as we hold the script together and I let out a small whimper and have to close my eyes and purse my lips to contain a scream. I shift awkwardly in my chair and let out a heavy exhale, pull in a ragged inhale. Bill finishes the speech and I see a smile creep across his face. I let out a small moan and cover my mouth and drop the script on the table. I get up from the table and shakily say "I'm sorry excuse me a moment" and practically run out of the room to the hallway.

I make my way to the bathroom to let out my excitement properly and try to regain composure. I think for a moment about using the hand which is still warm from his touch to touch myself, but don't want to keep everyone waiting. I take a few deep breaths and shake off the horniness to the best of my ability before returning to the room.

I avoid Bill's gaze like the plague but can feel it burning holes into me. My face is cherry red. He knows exactly what he's done. The producer asks "you alright?" And I say "I'm telling you right now, you let him do THAT and you will make an extra million dollars on this movie EASILY. Trust me." Some of them look confused, others chuckle, I finally look at Bill and he is smiling ear to ear, almost embarrassed. "Do you know how many people watched Clark just for this guy? Yeah he's naked in it a lot and does crimes and both those things will bring the female audience to you, but speaking his native tongue too?" I shake my head and roll my eyes "That shit was something else."

Theres an awkward silence as I head back to my seat and look at Bill. He looks at me and nods thankfully. I nod back and bite my lip to try and hide the huge smile growing on my face, and fail to conceal it. "Are you going to be ok to continue Ms ___?" I chuckle and clear my throat "Yeah. Oh yeah." And grab the script again.

I see in my peripherals Bill literally eyeing me up and down with a smirk on his face. I've made a grave mistake. He knows the power he holds now and its SO SO EASY to get me riled. I can tell he is just waiting until we're alone to use it on me, see how far he can go to push me over the edge with the bare minimum. He takes a deep breath and we both return to the work at hand. He finally picks up his own copy of the script.

YO HOW DID I JUST FIND OUT THAT EARTH, WIND, & FIRE HAVE A CHRISTMAS ALBUM?!

Also one of the songs is called December and it’s just September but instead they say “Do you remember the 25th night of December?” at the chorus.

Anyways I didn’t realize how much I needed a jazz/funk/disco Christmas album.

(211/?) Clouds of ashen paint the sky

It's still raining. And it's going to keep on raining for the rest of the week, from the looks of it. And I'm so fucking happy. Apparently, one of the dams that supplies a good chunk of the metropolitan area with water is slowly but surely recovering (currently at 1/3 capacity, from the looks of it!), and that just... has me feeling so hopeful for the future of this city. ---- I know I probably sound like a broken record at this point in time, but we fucking needed the rain. I know that for some folks, it's gonna suck for a while due to some areas of the city getting flooded, but we've been dealing with really bad droughts for a while. Climate change is real, motherfuckers, and we need to get involved if we're gonna keep living in this pale blue dot altogether and junk. ---- Try to take care of one another, please. And I'll see you later, aligator!

Imagine spending all your energy being cool and mysterious 24/7.

What an idiot have I mentioned I love him?

Idea came from a cool post @nouverx made about Alastor’s possible sleeping habits. 💕

please help me- i used to be pretty smart but i’m having so much trouble grasping the concept of diegetic vs non-diegetic bdsm!

gfkjldghfd okay first of all I'm sorry for the confusion, if you're not finding anything on the phrase it's because I made it up and absolutely nobody but me ever uses it, but I haven't found a better way to express what I'm trying to say so I keep using it. but now you've given me an excuse to ramble on about some shit that is only relevant to me and my deeply inefficient way of talking and by god I'm going to take it.

SO. the way diegetic and non-diegetic are normally used is to talk about music and sound design in movies/tv shows. in case you aren't familiar with that concept, here's a rundown:

diegetic sound is sound that happens within the world of the movie/show and can be acknowledged by the characters, like a song playing on the stereo during a driving scene, or sung on stage in Phantom of the Opera. it's also most other sounds that happen in a movie, like the sounds of traffic in a city scene, or a thunderclap, or a marching band passing by. or one of the three stock horse sounds they use in every movie with a horse in it even though horses don't really vocalize much in real life, but that's beside the point, the horse is supposed to be actually making that noise within the movie's world and the characters can hear it whinnying.

non-diegetic sound is any sound that doesn't exist in the world of the movie/show and can't be perceived by the characters. this includes things like laugh tracks and most soundtrack music. when Duel of Fates plays in Star Wars during the lightsaber fight for dramatic effect, that's non-diegetic. it exists to the audience, but the characters don't know their fight is being backed by sick ass music and, sadly, can't hear it.

the lines can get blurry between the two, you've probably seen the film trope where the clearly non-diegetic music in the title sequence fades out to the same music, now diegetic and playing from the character's car stereo. and then there are things like Phantom of the Opera as mentioned above, where the soundtrack is also part of the plot, but Phantom of the Opera does also have segments of non-diegetic music: the Phantom probably does not have an entire orchestra and some guy with an electric guitar hiding down in his sewer just waiting for someone to break into song, but both of those show up in the songs they sing down there.

now, on to how I apply this to bdsm in fiction.

if I'm referring to diegetic bdsm what I mean is that the bdsm is acknowledged for what it is in-world. the characters themselves are roleplaying whatever scenarios their scenes involve and are operating with knowledge of real life rules/safety practices. if there's cnc depicted, it will be apparent at some point, usually right away, that both characters actually are fully consenting and it's all just a planned scene, and you'll often see on-screen negotiation and aftercare, and elements of the story may involve the kink community wherever the characters are. Love and Leashes is a great example of this, 50 Shades and Bonding are terrible examples of this, but they all feature characters that know they're doing bdsm and are intentional about it.

if I'm talking about non-diegetic bdsm, I'm referring to a story that portrays certain kinks without the direct acknowledgement that the characters are doing bdsm. this would be something like Captive Prince, or Phantom of the Opera again, or the vast majority of bodice ripper type stories where an innocent woman is kidnapped by a pirate king or something and totally doesn't want to be ravished but then it turns out he's so cool and sexy and good at ravishing that she decides she's into it and becomes his pirate consort or whatever it is that happens at the end of those books. the characters don't know they're playing out a cnc or D/s fantasy, and in-universe it's often straight up noncon or dubcon rather than cnc at all. the thing about entirely non-diegetic bdsm is that it's almost always Problematic™ in some way if you're not willing to meet the story where it's at, but as long as you're not judging it by the standards of diegetic bdsm, it's just providing the reader the same thing that a partner in a scene would: the illusion of whatever risk or taboo floats your boat, sometimes to extremes that can't be replicated in real life due to safety, practicality, physics, the law, vampires not being real, etc. it's consensual by default because it's already pretend; the characters are vehicles for the story and not actually people who can be hurt, and the reader chose to pick up the book and is aware that nothing in it is real, so it's all good.

this difference is where people tend to get hung up in the discourse, from what I've observed. which is why I started using this phrasing, because I think it's very crucial to be able to differentiate which one you're talking about if you try to have a conversation with someone about the portrayal of bdsm in media. it would also, frankly, be useful for tagging, because sometimes when you're in the mood for non-diegetic bodice ripper shit you'd call the police over in real life, it can get really annoying to read paragraphs of negotiation and check-ins that break the illusion of the scene and so on, and the opposite can be jarring too.

it's very possible to blur these together the same way Phantom of the Opera blurs its diegetic and non-diegetic music as well. this leaves you even more open to being misunderstood by people reading in bad faith, but it can also be really fun to play with. @not-poignant writes fantastic fanfic, novels, and original serials on ao3 that pull this off really well, if you're okay with some dark shit in your fiction I would highly recommend their work. some of it does get really fucking dark in places though, just like. be advised. read the tags and all that.

but yeah, spontaneous writer plug aside, that's what I mean.

Obsessed with characters who portray themselves as worse than they are. Who are lying to everyone including themselves about it. People generally assume if someone's lying about themselves they're trying to look better but sometimes they're trying to look worse. They attribute agency to where they had none, add intend to accidents, try to convince everyone that this is something they did instead of something that happened to them.

the fact that shakespeare was a playwright is sometimes so funny to me. just the concept of the "greatest writer of the English language" being a random 450-year-old entertainer, a 16th cent pop cultural sensation (thanks in large part to puns & dirty jokes & verbiage & a long-running appeal to commoners). and his work was made to be watched not read, but in the classroom teachers just hand us his scripts and say "that's literature"

just...imagine it's 2450 A.D. and English Lit students are regularly going into 100k debt writing postdoc theses on The Simpsons screenplays. the original animation hasn't even been preserved, it's literally just scripts and the occasional SDH subtitles.txt. they've been republished more times than the Bible

That time in ancient Greece when Aziraphale needed a speedy horse and accidentally invented the pegasus

VS.

Whatever Crowley had going on in medieval times

senshi fans: learning how to make nutritious meals for themselves

laios fans: down bad

marcille fans: lesbianism

chilchuck fans: putting that man in situations

I don't mind that Walker Scobell doesn't look like book!Percy because 1) he's absolutely got the spirit. Walker basically is Percy, you can see and feel that in every one of his scenes, and

2) If book!Percabeth had a baby, he would look exactly like Walker Scobell, and I think that's hilariously perfect

I can't keep being fundamentally changed as a person by animated movies, it's just not sustainable.