Just to be clear, celebrating being aroallo isn’t celebrating being allosexual. It’s celebrating being aromantic and not asexual, something so commonly paired together. I tell people that I’m aroallo instead of just aromantic because people assume I’m aroace. Celebrating being aroallo is recognizing the difference between romantic & sexual attraction.

Episode 85- May 16th, 2023- Jaiden Animations Episode- Requested

Author’s note- Sorry for dipping in the middle of chuckle lore week, I got sick. I’m not 100% there yet but I still want to finish what I’ve started even if it’s later than expected. More details on my previous post if you’re interested.

Lore- Jaiden gets significantly cooler compared to her first appearance thanks to her tattoo sleeves and her newfound drug addiction (coke and crack)

Thoughts- I’m not going to lie, I’m a huge Jaiden fan and I was really happy to see it be one of the two episodes chosen for the fan request. I have easily watched this one episode at least five times, it’s the episode that made my mom a fan, the episode I attempted to introduce to my dad (more on that later), and it’s the episode I watched as a pallet cleanser to the Karl Jacobs episode. This is just a long winded way to say I really like this episode.

I was nervous at first that I was overhyping this episode in my head but it still holds up since the last time I watched it in November. Jaiden had really good chemistry with the guys and she seemed a lot more confident compared to her last appearance back in episode 26. The humor and overall banter just hits hard and it’s one of those episodes where no one was trying too hard to be funny. It’s just such a vibe and I hope Jaiden returns as a guest in a future episode. 10/10, don’t question my bias.

Things I noted:

Jaiden was included in the intro which is such a nice touch

Is Schlatt drinking Kool Aid?

Schlatt is the only person who could get away with saying that Jaiden (an aroace person) gets pussy

12:50 I’m living for the Tucker Live Reaction

21:04 Ted yells at a fly to fuck off

Hasan is so right about Ted being the whitest white man

“I can’t believe that I’ve had a positive impact on your life” “You’ve had and that’s the only one” 💀

The way Schlatt makes sound effects of bits vaguely reminds of Fluffy

42:03 MEG MENTIONED ‼️‼️

Jaiden chooses unlimited games and is a pickle with a toothpick

(Originally notes, favorite comment, + a little story under the cut)

Okay story time:

This is the only time I will ever mention my father btw

(For context I had been trying to get my dad to listen to CS for a while but my little siblings aren’t allowed to watch/listen to Schlatt)

There was this one time my stepmom took my brothers out grocery shopping while me and my father were cleaning the house. Usually, my dad would put on the radio as we cleaned but he didn’t for whatever reason that time so I used it as an opportunity to put on this episode of CS without my headphones on.

My father wasn’t fully paying attention, he might’ve gave a comment here or there but it wasn’t until either the Amelia Earhart or the psychic section where he had something to say. It started off with a few fun facts that I don’t really remember but he just made a left turn out of nowhere and starts talking about 9/11 conspiracy theories. I was just so flabbergasted, he kept talking about how it was an inside job by Bush and how somehow McDonald’s was involved?? It was something about the Monopoly sweepstakes scandal and how McDonald’s was going to address everything around the time the towers fell I think???

I have never been so confused in my life but he seemed really excited about it like it was his special interest or something so pop off I guess??? I just kinda paused the episode to let him yap until he was done twenty minutes later and processed what I just heard.

I don’t really talk to him anymore but I think about this interaction at least once a week.

Okay so- if you saw my aroace chr headcannon list, you probably saw Adam from Hazbin Hotel on there! It's been a while since I have written an essay, but honestly I really wanted to expand on my asexual Adam thought and @kiichu asked me to so here we go ;)

[ Just. Don't expect any actual thoughtful analysis. I am mostly just grasping at straws and projecting because I kin the dude ]

[ Oh yeah and I will reference the Trans Genesis AU a lot. Nope, Stanley and I did not abandon it. Sorry not sorry ]

First things first, let's look at his first appearance in episode 1.

Needless to say, he was a bit of an asshole. But something really stuck out to me.

In one of the scenes, he was recounting a date/one-night-stand he had to Charlie (because of course he was).

He clearly seemed to be describing the dinner date itself in detail, but he literally just caps it off with "and then we fucked, and it was awesome".

This line can be read in a few different ways, depending on your view.

1. They didn't actually fuck, the woman ditched him or didn't exist to begin with and he's lying to seem cooler.

2. It wasn't awesome (*at least for him, but yk could go both ways) and he wasn't about to go into detail about his less-than-stellar sexual encounter (I feel. Really uncomfortable writing this, I am too ace for this shit).

3. The logical explanation of the writers not wanting to include it for rating reasons and because of the episode's already short run time and also because we as the audience don't really need to know that. Though I think that if that were just that, a better alternative would've been that Adam either continues describing the date or starts describing the sex and either Lute or Charlie (or both) stop him.

For my interpretation of the ace Adam, we'll go with the second interpretation.

Allos love pointing out how "asexuals can still date/have sex" but they always neglect one thing: that's not exactly how sex-favourable and sex-neutral aces work.

I can't speak for everybody on the spectrum (especially since I am mostly repulsed), but wanting to have sex doesn't mean you feel sexual attraction.

So yeah this doesn't disprove him being asexual, though I am aiming for a very different interpretation.

Sex-repulsed Adam.

NOW, PLEASE HEAR ME OUT I KNOW I SOUND CRAZY!!

Ace men rarely get any representation, and a lot of men (especially cis men, but trans men too) don't realize they're ace or are actively in denial about it because of this thing called ✨toxic masculinity✨

I don't think it's too much of a hot take to say that Adam clearly falls into a lot of toxic masculinity stuff.

Being literally the first man, the original dick (or the original pussy if we're talking about the tgau), he is probably expected to uphold these harmful beliefs of masculinity or at least thinks he has to to be taken seriously (or be percieved as cis at least-).

Therefore, he's probably is in deep, deep denial of his asexuality and tries to cover it up by, well, sleeping around I guess (*hopefully not with human souls because i don't need any of the implications that come with that).

But that doesn't necessarily mean he enjoyed it, you know.

Now I don't wanna go too deep into this honestly quite depressing line of thought, so to keep it brief that's probably why he wouldn't go into detail about that one night stand- even though he totally seems like the type of guy who would talk about this stuff in excessive and unnecessary detail (can you tell I love torturing this guy. I mean if yk the TGAU you probably already know but shush).

That or because a lot of aces literally cannot talk about sex seriously. It has to be a joke or about an ao3 smut fic.

*ahem* Moving on-

The infamous "Now, I'm going to FUCK you" scene that every Adamsapple shippers love (no hate to Adamsapple shippers btw, except @roryheart fuck you Rory /lh silly (I love you buddy don't take this seriously)).

Just. Just look at his face when Lucifer says it.

It could just be pure confusion, which is quite understandable tbh.

Or we could go with the funny interpretation of Adam being so autistic and ace, he thought for a second that Lucifer was actually hitting on him this whole time and he just didn't notice. Purely because this has actually happened to me before and I wanna project-

Moreover, he looks lowkey disgusted by it and just attacks Lucifer immediately.

Whatever, now we get to the ✨angst potential✨ of ace Adam.

Elaborating on the bit of toxic masculinity from earlier, maybe he thinks that his aversion to stuff like is why both Lilith (and presumably Eve) cheated on him with Lucifer, because he wasn't a real man.

And if we wanna get really depressing, all we have to do is just remember that his only purpose was to have as many children with Eve (and previously Lilith) as possible to populate the Earth.

Yeah, sounds like a total nightmare scenario.

I have a few other ideas, but they're really half baked and not really well put together and stuff- idk I just think ace Adam is a cool idea.

Sorry if this wasn't exactly the essay any of you were looking for but I genuinely just think it'd be fun and kinda interesting to explore really.

Btw gonna make "sobek rants" exclusively for angry rants and gonna repurpose "brainingsewer" for essays and analysis and stuff. Not that anybody really cares about my tagging system.

A whole new level to being the supposedly "closeted" gay cousin at Thanksgiving. I know this may not get notes/views, but I was reminded of this today. So I wanted to share a wild "Me the Gay Cousin at Thanksgiving" story from two years ago that felt right out of a 90s sit com special episode.

Since I'm spending this Thanksgiving chilling with a friend instead, I realized yall might like to hear this story.

In my family my sister and I are the only two of our age. The rest of the cousins are MUCH young than us. Us being young adults and our cousins being lil gremlin preteen boys. We're talking like 10 boys overall and our two lil bros, and two newly not toddler girls at the time.

So bc of this my sister and I always sit at the kids table bc our uncles and aunts didn't want us excluded and feeling we couldn't be kids. (I am now 25 turning 26 for context, so I was about 23).

So, I know my family is highly religious and horribly homophobic/transphobic. So lil pagan nonbinary lesbian cupio aroace me has been squeaking by bc I've been holding my tongue and refusing to date in Utah around family for years in the past. Unless it was a group date with friends and the guy asked me out.

So imagine my shock when me and my lil bros and dude cousins are chilling on the floor playing a board game (my sister was at a friend's house that year) bc I don't want to hear the adults say anything that will rile me up bc I really don't want to be outed this year.

And right after I finish my turn, my kid cousin slides over a whiteboard and I look down and freeze in shock. It says "R U Gay?" And I'm knowing his parents are especially homophobic. And what I was afraid of AKA I'm out of the closet and tired, I wrote "Yes" and turned back to the game. He froze and squeaked out a "What!?" And he whispers back to me asking if it's true, as if I just admitted I was insane. And I shrug, trying to play it cool as I realize suddenly the ramifications of it and freaking out now bc he's a blabbermouth. I see both my brothers make eye contact to make sure I'm okay, which I nod to them. I then whisper back to my cousin and go "Yeah" and he tells me that's wrong bc nobody's gay and if they are they're evil, it's a joke you ask ppl in school. And I realize I have to walk this back immediately before my aunt and uncle are told and I'm outed on Thanksgiving and I haven't even come out to my dad yet.

So I shrug tell him I know a lot of people at school who are gay and they're really sweet people. And lie and tell him I'm not gay that I was just playing into the joke. He seems shocked that gay people exist and I know them. But finally after a bit he nods thinking nothing of it, but at least he's cooler about the gay topic I guess and I just survived.

I go downstairs where the adults are hanging bc the boys are running around in the snow and I'm wanting to try being with the adults, since I am one, for a minute. And to nobody's shock after a bit of joking around and stuff, my dad, aunts, uncles, and grandma are raving about "These people nowadays pushing their politics and gay agenda." I don't know how to react, so after a few minutes, I turn around and go back upstairs realizing what could have happened that night.

Luckily I came out later on to my dad and my siblings have already known for years so I felt less bad. But overall it really felt odd when I was put on the spot like that and then hearing my family talk like that. Like-... It felt like something you hear about on TV shows and go "That's such a contrived scene that doesn't happen in real life." And in that moment I was processing the whole scenario and less if I wanted to come out or not.

So anyways probs going to avoid Thanksgiving moving forward for multiple reasons, but mainly for the fact that I can't stay in the closet anymore bc I've been out for too long and I WILL get into arguments over gay/trans rights without thinking bc I'm tired and bad at staying in the closet. And the few ppl in my family who know other than my sibs have reacted oddly to horribly. And I really would prefer not being ostracized from the family whose already pretty sure I'm somehow gay bc I didn't pray enough or something rn bc I'm tired and in an unstable place that if I need to stay with a relative I'd like not for it to be being hate crimed 24/7. But I live in a different state than my family now and much better for it.

I have a good group of friends that are family to me now and I know I'll be okay. And I'm happy and living my best life rn and enjoy every day I'm being myself around ppl who accept and love me. But it still hurts to think about some days y'know.

TLDR: My preteen cousin asked on a whiteboard "R U GAY?" two years ago and I nearly outed myself on Thanksgiving to my religious homophobic family, bc I didn't realize he was doing a middle school prank.

GOOD GOOD YOU'VE BEEN OSMOSIS'D. thats all u need to know about mlb. superhero identities. evil guy who makes people villains. its like that but without the animal fairies. perhaps. havent figured out how katherine becomes a catgirl im working on it now basically its s1 shrub and s2 kath.

Shrub

shrubs that small town girl in the big city for college (forestry major)

the wolf spirit is something that's been passed down in her family

got that wolf-like abilities and can summon her wolf pack in a if she calls they choose to answer type thing

her family has like a reserve or sanctuary for the pack of some sort. the wolves, they're a little immortal u see.

originally a spirit of vengeance born from the death of lord mars & lady taurus

through the generations has become more of a spirit of protection for the forest but the vengeful spirits still there

and for more recent holders of the wolf spirit, channeling that vengeful spirit can be very taxing on their body & they lose a bit of themselves

shrub especially is scared to use it since that is how her dad passed but she still chooses to be the next holder

also because uh. whoops! bloodline kinda ends with her! fern passed down a family heirloom to a sapphic asexual

she has celebrity-type sort of surface level crush on night hunter as he's seen her on the news

develops into a regular crush once they become teammates

Katherine

a model. wants to open up a studio

also wants to escape her parents who aren't like supervillain evil just. regular evil.

so she moves to college (fashion major. obviously)

guess who's her roommate

when she's night hunter, she experiments a lot with her costumes as n uses it to express herself

yes ive trans'ed her gender and made her genderqueer

also she has a staff like her inspo chat noir but like. it also turns into an axe and that makes her cooler

it has also made the public question her gender identity multiple times

so theres an ongoing theory is that there are 2 (3?) cat looking heroes running around.

the public altering between diff pronouns when they refer to her definitely gave her that Realisation. not fully. but she's getting there

as night hunter she's a little flirty but like. as a joke kind of flirty. like what do you mean you took that seriously flirty. cause shes a little acearo.

(ive acearo'd her too)

has slowly been developing a crush on shrub since she never heard of katherine before

shes never really had a (proper) relationship like that especially one where they eagerly listen and engage in her ramblings

like to her shrubs the whole package n she's uncharacteristically flustered around shrub as night hunter

to kind of tldr the rest-

xornoth (conan) fills in for that evil guy that makes other people evil.

joeys also here, still has a crush on kath.

they're mainly childhood best friends here bc chloe n adrien were and joey n kath really fit their dynamic

also has a superhero identity thats his pirate guy, goes by a lot of names for the theatrics night hunter calls him "Captain" for convenience

he and night hunter switch from being mlm/wlw teamwork to mlm/wlw hostility constantly

scott n conan had a summer house in shrubs town so they're childhood friends

shrub has a little "i can fix him" complex for xornoth even before she finds out he's conan which develops the complex more

also xornoths kind of a demonic entity conan accidentally woke up now hes possessed and slowly losing himself dang

HES POSSESSED HIMSELF???? yeaahhhh!!!!! i love self possession

this is all sosososososo real shes ace and shes aroace and shes just like me [flirty for funzies sometimes] and i love tbat she just has different costumes n the different pronouns and and and. yeag❤️❤️❤️

Can I ask the aromantic questions 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 and 19 please? :)

Thanks!!! I love talking about aro stuff and myself xD

3. Do you consider yourself lgbtq+?

YES, and I will fight anyone who says otherwise

4. Are you out as aro?

Yes, very much, but most people don't get it. I kinda told my parents but without naming the label. I guess they think it's a phase, but at least they aren't asking me shit like when I get a boyfriend etc

5. How did you figure out you are aro?

Oh gods. That was a long journey.

Ahem. So in my teenage years (omg I feel so old, I'm gonna cry) I very much wanted to have a boyfriend. Or a gf (that came later). Then at some point I just realized I don't want that anymore, I really felt like I don't want to ever fall in love again. Yes, I was "falling in love", but it was more like experiencing all these sensations like butterflies in the stomach etc. I could literally go "ok, imagine I was in love with that boy" and I would feel all these things that weren't related to that boy at all. Let's say, I liked the feeling itself, but there was no attraction to someone real, I just needed a reason to feel these sensations, so I invented one. That was pretty funny. So yeah, and eventually I realized all that and thought that maybe this label could fit me, but I was very unsure. But look where we are now xD

6. What is your favourite part about being aromantic?

Oh, there are so many. I would say this power to fall in love without needing an object for it is quite nice. But also general understanding of romance. I believe we get so much more than allos cause we can look at things objectively. Basically we are cooler than them

7. What is your least favourite part about being aromantic?

The fact that my autocorrect still doesn't understand that word after years. Also the amount of amatonormativity literally everywhere and the fact that almost none of allos take it seriously or even think about it for more than a second

19. Is there a song that is very aromantic to you?

Yesssssss a couple of them. I Am The Fire by Halestorm is my personal aro anthem. I mean they literally say And I am the one I've been waiting for. Hard to go more aro than that.

Also there is an amazing Italian song by Nadàr Solo that's called Le case senza le porte. It's so so so so so aro. Very direct. I doubt they know it, but I know for sure.

Can't name anything particular by Rancore, but he's my aroace icon and I will stand by that.

There is probably something else that I forgot, maybe I'll add it later

Valen: Hey, this is nice

Harley: Yeah this is nice

Harley laid in the grass outside the manor. The group of adults was loud, having fun and most likely having a roaring time. Johnathan and Peter was being flirty. Shuri, Aya, and Christine are enjoying the system.

It was just them. Staring at the sky. It has been a while since he last seen Valen. Harley looked over at the new clothing he sported for the cooler spring months. He was sure it was from Loki or Strange, a long robe like cloak he, that shifted with the seasons.

It had been a while and Harley sighed content with how the day was going; as he listened to Valen's voice coming out amused, "You know, I was thinking about Peter and Johnathan."

"Yeah?"

"Well," There was hesitation before the young Sorcerer in training tilted his head towards Harley, "I don't think I am like Johnathan in that regard. More like Rhodey and Tony."

"Yeah?" Harley looked at him drumming on his stomach, "Romance not your thing?"

"I mean," Valen shrugged, "I guess not. I thought about it a lot. I tried to place myself in the shoes of like Tony who is with Bucky, but I mean... eh."

"Eh? The eloquent word smith of Mecili Daw's teachings says EH?"

"You know what I mean!" Valen grinned sitting up to look at him, "I like what Rhodey has, with Steve and Sam. Maybe less kissing?"

"It is the fluids."

"YES. I don't mind this."

Harley blinked, sitting till he looked down at the other, "Yeah, watching the sky change colors? Talking about what game I am going to beat you at next?"

Harley yelped at the flick to his head, Valen sitting with a hover between his body and the grass, "One, you are on a losing streak Harley. And two, definitely. It is more my speed."

"Yeah," He rubbed at his head leaning back enough letting the wind ruffle at his blond hair, "Same. Ironic, your name is Valentin."

"Well, Love isn't just for romance."

(This was in my head. I headcanon Harley as Ace and Valen is leaning towards AroAce. I am not sure, I might have Harley be demiromantic like Rhodey, but I don't focus to much because they float how they float. Things change and flow. ^^)

looking through the fable 2 tag while having the reaver tag filtered is really just seeing only half the posts isn't it

Headcanons

HI I have no idea how to start this tumblr thing or what exactly to do

So i'm just gonna share MHA headcanons + ships so far for the AU i've got!

Note that I don't genuinely ship some of what's listed, it's mostly just for next-gen purposes. But I will fully lean into whatever I list, I'm very fixated on this right now.

Ships:

Bakugo x OC (possibly x Kirishima as well. Poly)

Deku x Ochaco

Yaomomo x Todoroki

Kaminari x OC

Others shipped w OCs not yet made, probably only making the kids

Also rq, Bakugo's kid is the MC of the NextGen AU I have in mind, and One for All is passed to him. Ignoring the fact that it sounds like MHA is taking OFA in a different direction. I am embracing quirk overkill and all of its issues

Now do I know what exactly is considered a headcanon? Haha. No i do not

Headcanons:

Aroace lesibain Mina !? wowiw. Mina gets a gf with a cat quirk, might plug in another unrelated OC here as like a funky easter egg type thing

Bakugo and Kirishima are fruity. Somewhat for each other, but I mostly mean in general. The Gays

Bakugo has a toothgap! Perfection is fake bakugo w tooth gap is real

Scarred up, ponytail deku. I like what I've seen.

For everyone's benefit I'll be either remaking Mineta better or pretending he does not exist, I hate that guy

Bakugo gets some hearing loss when he's older, i like that one. I'm not making him entirely deaf just v hard of hearing? Here he's mostly made peace w Deku, but still gets mad at him bc he's always muttering. Lots of yelling in the Bakugo household. Bakugo pretends not to hear people a lot. I'll do research on this when I start thinking about these aspects more.

Mirko prob wouldn't have kids so I'm giving her a niece instead. Which I guess means I'm giving her siblings? Idk if she has any family canonly so I'm just makin stuff up

Endeavor is probably either very dead or will have died at some point in this story. Dunno if he really does die, I'm only barely into S5, but I sure will act like he did.

Bakugo gets a quirkless kid cause I'm so nice. He is of course torn up about this but he ends up being a great dad, for the most part. Very annoyed about Izuku's involvement as the cool uncle. Moreso annoyed about Denki's involvement as the cooler uncle.

Ochaco and Deku still live modestly despite Deku's placement in the hero rankings. The most expensive thing they own is Hatsume's terrifying security system, and the insane hot-tub Ochaco decided she needed.

Deku and Ochaco get to be a funky Bi couple

LOV get reformed... mostly? I mean, whichever ones I spare will. Shigaraki excluded, NextGen AU appoints him the new All for One. Dabi survives until like... around when Bakugo's kid is 16. And then gets wiped out by a very souped up Nomu.

Deku, Bakugo and Todoroki constantly fighting for #1, so the rankings change for them frequently. It's an unspoken competition between them all.

Bakugo has a hero agency alongside Kirishima. It's called GroundRiot, which doesn't make sense anymore because the nerd named himself Dynamight. I'll give Ground Zero to his kid I guess. Blonde boy exists to give me trouble I think.

Rivers of London, Greed and Ling (romo or not), and uh Jean Valjean!!

For some reason it’s taking me a while to get used to your new icon, plus you sent in two fandom’s you’re not a part of, so I did spend like a full 2 seconds not realizing this was you. Thanks for the ask!! (sorry for taking so long to answer)

I did Rivers of London before the last time I did this ask meme

Greed and Ling

When I started shipping them: Possibly when they first met? Like in that ‘oh, huh, these two characters should be in conflict, but they aren’t, there’s some potential there’ kind of way

My thoughts: They’re the kind of pair I mostly ship platonically, but honestly I like almost anything that centers on the two of them. They fit into a lot of tropes and themes that I love, and honestly I didn’t realize I how much I liked many of those tropes until these two

What makes me happy about them: On one hand, because of their circumstances, there is a lot of reasons why they shouldn’t like each other (Ling especially, because Greed having control of his body keeps him from completing a hugely important goal of his). But at the same time, they have the kind of personalities that make it so they would get along really well (possibly to the detriment/annoyance of others), and they have some similar goals and experiences that gives them a closeness. I love that they’re both a very unlikely duo and make perfect sense

What makes me sad about them: Greed not living long enough to see what a life with people who care about him is like :(

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: I can’t think of anything in particular. Like most things I’m either fine with, or it’s more of a genre/trope thing, in which case I just wouldn’t read that fic. Or if I do read it anyway, I feel I can’t say it annoys me because that’s more personal preference

Things I look for in fanfic: Basically angst and warmth. But also I really like the two of them existing with more than just the two of them, and seeing them interact with other characters as either individuals or both of them together (in separate bodies or one) is a lot of fun

My wishlist: I mean I could always read more stuff that’s just retelling or filling in the blanks of their time together in canon because there are huge chunks of time we don’t get to see. I also really like seeing them meet under different circumstances either in like a canon divergent type story or just a completely different au. Also just more cuddling and being softly happy with all the friends that they have

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: It’s weird because theoretically, I’m a lot more open to Greed having romantic relationships with people in general, but I can’t actually picture him with anyone from canon. Maybe part of that is because in his second life, his identity is so tied up with Ling that even if he was in a relationship (of any kind), Ling would sort of have to be a part that too. I guess the original Greed could work with anyone from his Devil’s Nest gang . Ling and Ed is a popular ship, which I am down with but do not have particularly strong feelings for

My happily ever after for them: Basically my fic Friends of the Soul. They’re both alive, Ling rules Xing, they both are pretty satisfied with their lives and happy because of the friends they have

Valjean

How I feel about this character: Despite being the main character, I tend to forget about him or ignore him because he doesn’t stick out as interesting as much as some of the other characters, but then I see some great meta about him and want to give him a million hugs. He’s really underrated because he’s a complex and interesting character

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: Pretty much no one, though I can get behind Valjean/Javert sometimes. I was thinking about any other possibilities, and I could ship Valjean/Mabeuf in a more crack-y kind of way. But generally, I view Valjean as aroace

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: Cosette. She just means so much to him

My unpopular opinion about this character: I guess I think he’s cooler than most people in the fandom give him credit for

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: That he got to be happy and realize his worth :(

Favorite friendship for this character: Does he have any friendships with anyone? I do like what little we see of him and Fauchelevent, and I like the idea of him becoming a father figure to Eponine as well as Cosette

My crossover ship: I really can’t think of one

❤💚

❤ Any OTPs in your fandom you’d like to RP? 

I’ll be honest… I kinda got to rp them all? For Trunks at least. Even if it was Brief (pun), I got to explore what her relationship would be like with a Future Gohan, with a Future Goten, with a Broly… I’ve even gleaned some new OTPs from crackships (Tooler for life).

If I could explore these relationships again, or continue to, hell yeah I’d like to, but I’ve also done it. And I’m glad that I could.

💚 Any unpopular ships you’d like to RP?

Crackships are amazing and I will take them all.

I’ve had Trunks and Cooler, which ended up being amazing. I have a crack Trunks/Salza child. Cold/Trunks is terrible and it makes me laugh everytime I think about it.

OCs are great too! Trunks has built a long, intense relationship with Obi, and her weird crush on Kallion is starting to come to light in new ways.

I even ship Trunks with some of my other muses, like Fenn (to the surprise of no one) and Caulifla (to the surprise of some, maybe). Those are little verses that I keep to myself, in my head.

So I’m just… open to ships, I guess! All kinds! I love platonic ships, too, because they’re so important to me! I’m aroace, and friendships are my jam, sometimes moreso than non-platonic ships.

Day 4 - Comfort

Friday, 11 May 2029 – Age 30 It had been loud inside that restaurant and Simon needed a break from the noise. Discreetly he had snuck away from their table and now stood outside on the street. People were walking by, some cars moved away but he felt lighter away from the ruckus his colleagues made.

His friends. He wasn’t sure how that had happened yet but he was to tired to complain about it back then. And happy, if he was honest with himself.

Softly he smiled while watching his feet and pushed a pebble aside. Steps from behind him. He looked up. The small figure of Trucy Wright came into his view and he watched her approach him calmly.

For a moment the girl said nothing and just stood next to him. Then she looked up to him and brightly grinned.

“It’s a lot cooler out here, isn’t it?” she started the conversation and vaguely pointed around them.

Simon quirked up an eyebrow but nodded. She wasn’t wrong, it was just a clumsy conversation starter for a great performer like her.

“I wanted to thank you.”

Now Simon was even more on the edge than before. Why would she need to thank him? He hadn’t done anything to deserve such a treat.

“What for?”

Trucy watched him, the cheerful mask taken off and a gentle contentment showed itself beyond it.

“When you helped us in March. You were so quick to act and so kind. I never really got around to say thank you for that”, she told him and tilted her head.

Simon shook his head and waved her praise away.

“It’s fine”, he mumbled and looked down on his shoes, “I’m glad I was of use.”

He quickly glanced over to her and saw her cheeky grin and fought a smile rushing on his lips.

“Also”, she continued to his surprise and turned back to her, “it is really nice to know someone, who is aroace like me and has never dated. It’s refreshing to see that you can actually grow up happy like that.”

Slowly he watched the rest of her showmanship’s mask fall as she went on and elaborated: “I rarely hear somebody talking about aro people and even though Daddy told me about it and supports me, he can’t really answer anything about the topic and I really know nobody who’s openly aro and over twenty. And – smiling at him with a cheerful hum – you were just so open about it! It is so awesome seeing somebody being happy and proud to be like us! It gives me hope and it comforts me to know that there are people like you. It means I can be like that too. I’m allowed to be happy even if I am not dating anybody or living with anybody. That’s really cool.”

Simon let out a huff. Softly he laid his hand on her shoulder and nodded.

“It’s always nice to find somebody aroace. And if it helps you, I gladly answer the questions you cannot ask your father”, he offered and leaned at the wall beside him, so he was in a bit lower position than before.

The girl tapped her lips and then asked curiously: “Did you sometimes think you had a crush on somebody? And were you sometimes so fed up with all the others talking about their lovey-dovey relationship stuff? As if it was the most important thing in the world, when it really wasn’t?”

“Oh, I know this just too well”, Simon laughed and looked up in the sky. “There were a few girls I liked a lot as I kid. They were usually incredibly nice and creative and I with those I was comfortable to hug. It confused me that I liked them so much and I doubted more than once that I might be demi or maybe not even aro at all, but usually when they started to tell me how they wanted their “perfect relationship” to look like I knew that I never dreamt of such a thing, nor did I want to have something like that. But if you struggle with it or feel like you want to try it out with somebody you trust, please do. As long as you communicate well enough nothing bad should come out of it and you’ll learn more about yourself. And I know exactly what you mean with people being obsessed with their romantic relationships. Sometimes I thought it was the only thing people ever wanted to talk about and I was so tired to play along. Except when it was about Aura. Her stuff didn’t annoy me nearly as much as the stuff of my school mates. I was kinda invested in that to be honest.”

“I know that with Daddy and Polly!” Trucy cried and laid her hands over her heart. “Their stuff is not annoying at all. I’m really glad for both of them and love to listen to them. Maybe also because I know uncle Miles and Klavier. And they’re both really great!”

Simon nodded at the excited commentary of Trucy and lightly laughed at her glowing eyes.

“Yes, they’re both really good people”, he agreed and got her to calm down with that.

“Yeah. They are. You and Klavier are good friends, right?”

Simon nodded and she continued: “Did you ever consider having a qpr with someone? With him as an example?”

“I didn’t really. When I was younger it never interested me and in – prison – I wasn’t looking for friends.”

“Understandable”, Trucy told him and folded her hands in front of her, “but as it is now? Could you imagine it today? With somebody?”

Simon paused for a long moment. He heard the cars drive by. The night air was thick with heat and dryness. He knew it shouldn’t calm him down, but it did.

“I’m open to it. If something actually was to happen, I wouldn’t say no, I suppose but otherwise… Prosecuting makes me happy and I like the way my life is right now. I don’t really need it.”

Trucy had perceived him subtly. He wasn’t lying. She hadn’t expected that but it was rather interesting how his eyes had wandered around. He had someone in mind.

She grinned. If it wasn’t the prince who had brighten up the second, he had seen Simon, she didn’t know who else it could be.

As they stood there in mutual silence, Trucy felt light and relieved. She felt comfort in Simon’s honesty and experience. It was nice to know you weren’t lonely.

Happily, she hugged him from the side and dragged him in direction of the restaurant. Confused he looked down to her.

Smirking she winked at him and said: “Well, if someone actually comes along, like Yuta to whom you have talked the whole evening and immediately noticed when you sneaked out, you really should try it out, I guess. You’re allowed to try out just as much as I am, right?”

Simon shook his head. Damned shall be the Gramaryes perception. He rolled his eyes and opened the door for her with the words: “Absolutely Miss Trucy, absolutely. I couldn’t have said it better.”

https://archiveofourown.org/works/19003753/chapters/45336103

blur, manic street preachers, and elastica

Blur: 

Do you like sunny weather? 

No? Yes? I don’t care for the weather one way or another I’ve never been even close to resembling an outdoorsy person for even a day in my entire life.

Do a lot of people know about your sexuality? 

Also kinda no and yes. I’ve known I was ace *for certain* since I was maybe 16 or so… and it took me a long, long time to realize and come to terms with being bi and aro-spec (even though I felt like I might be bi since I was about 12 or so… but not getting that I was also aroace yet it still didn’t feel like I was like other bi people, you know? If I had had more queer role models in my youth it woulda helped me but I’m going off on a tangent). As long as I didn’t know what I was, I would just kinda tell people I was close to that I “didn’t like labels.” Really I had no fuckin clue but I didn’t feel straight anymore and I didn’t want people who knew me well to like… assume I was, because in high school I made a lot of lgbtq+ friends. As for my family… well except for my sister who’s my closest friend they know nothing but I don’t particularly feel like coming out to them.

Are you a city or country person?

I’ve always lived in the suburbs but oohohoh definitely a city person. I need to live close to civilization because I’m already prone to being a recluse.

Favorite brand of athletic wear?

Ha.

Do you like your smile?

I don’t really know. I try not to think about my appearance too much because I have a reeeeeally long personal history of self image issues but as far as my face goes… Eh. It’s okay. I have an okay smile. Nothing stunning.

Manic Street Preachers: 

Do you believe that humans are good? 

Not inherently, but I also don’t think things like empathy are 100% forced on us by societal pressures. Humility, affection, those are all as intrinsic to the human condition as jealousy, greed, pick your favorite deadly sin. I used to have a lot of Catholic Guilt™ that steered me away from this belief in my upbringing, but as in the last couple of years I’ve overcome a lot, and I’ve gained perspective. I don’t think humans are inherently neutral, either, though. I think it’s entirely the individual’s personality and about their ratio of self-importance to selflessness.

What’s your signature makeup or fashion statement? 

No make-up and wearing one pair of converse for years at a time until they’re falling apart. I also wear a lot of skinny jeans I guess.

Are you a books or a movie person, and what are some of your favorites? 

I don’t watch as many movies as I used to but definitely movies. I have ADHD so it can be hard at times to endure either but I think the medium of film is more subtle than literature because you have to be shown visually rather than read outright. But of course certain books and film adaptations can be weighed against each other. Oh, and if we’re talking books of poetry, I’m definitely a book of poetry kind of bitch.

Do you see yourself as an outcast? 

Oh definitely. I’ve always kinda had a loner aura even in circles where I’m with people I might like and trust. I didn’t really have a friend growing up who was ever just like me, especially from like, middle school and onward when everyone starts becoming their own person with their own serious hobbies and interests that aren’t forced onto them like when you’re a kid.

Are you nostalgic?

No. I had a pretty shit childhood actually. And a shit adolescence but you know, kind of less shit because I’ve *somewhat* developed a sense of self-worth. I write poetry now. What I’m saying is I know how to write poetry now.

Elastica: 

What’s your dream car? 

One that I don’t have to drive.

Favorite card game? 

Uno I guess? I never played many card games growing up. I was kinda into Pokemon actually if that counts.

Do you consider yourself cool? 

…Eh? Sort of? I’d like to think I’m unique, at the very least. My hobbies and special interests are actually a lot cooler than I am. Diana… Diana, she. Is not very smooth. But I mean, I know a lot about James Dean, Anglo-Irish poetry of the nineteenth and twentieth centuries, and the 50+ years of publication history of the Amazing Spider-Man, and that’s pretty swanky.

Vinyl, cassettes, CDs, or digital? 

I don’t have a preference between these audially, but I’ve collected CDs for a pretty long time. A lot of which I’ve been meaning to sell because I haven’t really liked Selena Gomez & The Scene since 2010, or All Time Low since I left middle school, but, you know. I like having CDs. Also awhile ago I gave my little neighbor who’s 10 years younger than me my copy of What Are You So Scared Of? (2012) by Tonight Alive very eagerly hoping she would get as much enjoyment out of it as I did in seventh grade when I was a little repressed bi in love with Jenna McDougall.

What’s a haircut/style you’ve always wanted to get?

I’ve always kinda wanted to try out being blonde? But my sister & I are the only redheads in my generation of my very large Irish family and if I dyed it I’d be breaking my grandmother’s heart. But I’m kinda fine with the head of hair I’ve got. I’ve always been complimented for it and I really just feel kinda neutral towards it but I mean the fact that I’ve not been made to be insecure about it is definitely a plus in my book.

send me 90s band asks

tag meme thingy

I must have been tagged at like five tag memes lately but i didnt have the energy sorry lmao I’m cool with doing one today tho

Tagged by @luna-myth​, thanks ^^

A - Age: 19  B - Birthplace: São Paulo, Brazil C - Current time: 23:22 PM when I started, 00:08 now. I hate that it takes me so long to type out something this simple but yikes here we are. D - Drink you last had: soda/pop/whatever the hell you say on english i guess every region has a different word lmao why are you like this E- Easiest person to talk to: probably my friend @neecha​ though to be honest I still suck at talking like, always. F - Favorite song: I can’t pick just one but Heir of Grief from Homestuck and Dialga’s Fight to the Finish! from PMD: Explorers of Sky have been the mood recently. Gotta love final boss songs. G - Grossest memory: idk if it’s the grossest but it’s the one on my mind right now: last year, one of my cats had the brilliant idea of eating over 50cm of string, and the stuff... doesn’t come out nicely. I thankfully wasn’t there to see the worst part but still came home to a panicked family, a bunch of dirty bed sheets (because of course he vomited in the bed. where else would it be) and a cat with string dangling from his butt. If that’s the kind of stuff emergency vets deal with all the time then I really don’t envy them. (he ended up fine tho. Despite the panic and the mess he did poop most of the thing at home and the last centimeters came out two days later. I never thought that a piece of string mixed with poop in a litter box would ever be a relieving sight, but apparently that’s what the pet owner life teaches you)  H - Horror yes or Horror no: usual horror? no. weird glitchy game creepypasta stuff? hell yes I’ll always watch and always love it and always mock how utterly silly and cliche it is and always be unable to sleep for a week anyway. That stuff is ridiculous and only babies would get scared of it. And I’m the baby, oh what a baby I am.

I - In love?: nah this is an aroace zone J - Jealous of people?: Hardly. Anytime I get jealous of people’s achievements I remember that to achieve the same they did I would have to live life the way they do, dedicating myself to the same things they like, and I don’t want that. Overall I like the way I’ve been living and my own interests, so I wouldn’t trade them. L - Love at first sight or should I walk by again?: again, aroace zone.  M - Middle name: don’t have that. Actually I’m pretty sure these aren’t a thing here in Brazil, but I could be wrong I guess. N - Number of siblings: one (1) older sister  O - One wish: uh the world peace thing would be a cliche and sounds fake but damn if it wouldn’t be nice, if you want a personal thing tho it would be being able to meet and talk to my pokemon, and if you actually want a realistic thing, it would be really nice if one day people loved my works as much as I love my favorite series. Like, at this point it’s basically my life goal I think. P - Person you called last: My dad Q - Question you are always asked: “So, how is it going at college?” is basically a greeting at this point. The good part is that it immediately gives me a subject to start the conversation, the bad one is that I’m never sure what and how much about college people actually want to hear. R - Reason to smile: Pokemon S - Song you last sang: King Dice’s theme from Cuphead but I don’t actually know much of the lyrics yet so I just sing the first verse a billion times.  T - Time you woke up: 10am U - Underwear colour: I don’t care much, but anything darker tends to be cooler. gosh I can’t believe I just sounded this edgy about panties and boxers. I can only hope the ‘gosh’ up there balance things out. You gotta have your edgy and dork levels properly evened out that’s how it works. V - Vacation destination: no clue, just being able to take a vacation sounds good enough already. W - Worst habit: This biting nails things went a bit too far i would like it to stop  X - X-rays: Only dentist stuff. I’m actually kinda lucky at this stuff and never broke or hurt bones or anything. It’s half cool for obvious reasons but half scary because I have no idea how I’ll react if I ever get that kind of injury. F - Favourite food: see this is a terrible question because the answer is technically ‘mayo salad’ but I think there’s a billion different mayo salads out there and I don’t know if any of them is the one my mom makes. Either way, it’s got potatoes and carrots and apples and eggs and string beans and etceteras and it’s awesome. (btw I love how this ‘alphabet questions’ thing was doing so well until here and then it all goes to hell here with this second F. I wonder how many other alphabetically themed things get wrecked by the solid fact that there’s nothing to do with a goddamn ‘Y’, even if it sorta sounds like a question all by itself. y this)

Z - Zodiac Sign: Virgo 

It’s good to see you again

Its been years since Michael and Jeremy have seen each other. Their last being that fateful Halloween party. A cannon divergence where the play never happens. Inspired by George Salazar singing "I Don't Think Of You (It's All Good)"

Word count: 1293

Warnings: Drinking, reference to dysphoria, depression, might be a little ooc

The bitter sharp taste of the shot burned its way down Michael’s throat. Grimacing, he ordered five more despite already feeling the familiar grip of impulsion, this time to stick out his tongue just to discover its length. In front of him, the small glasses were placed and quickly downed. The bar was awash with orange light, which started to blur with every unit of alcohol he consumed. The tight pressure started to fade from his arching chest. It was almost as if his binder was not digging into his sides.  He groaned with the realisation of that tomorrow morning would be heinous, knocking back another regardless.  Impulsiveness slowly morphed into something else, something a lot more ugly and emotional.

Through the drunken haze, he could hear a weirdly familiar voice. The mix of emotions this voice evoked hit like a punch to the gut. At first, a pleasant warmth bloomed throughout his body starting within his intestines. Every so often a, somewhat, awkward stutter was spoken which caused the heat intensify with nostalgia and affection. However, it sounded wrong. It was too deep, too charismatic, and more smooth than uncomfortable. The way voice almost drawled deeply both chilled him and fuelled the fire, for rather different reasons. He squirmed ignoring the blush raising to his cheeks as he drained the glass and attempted to remain calm as he rose from this seat. Rushing would only draw attention to him. Not that Jeremy would notice him anyway. He stumbled away from the bar unfortunately more intoxicated than he thought. His legs tangled together and his face had a rather sudden and painful introduction to the cold hard floor.

“Michael!” Jeremy yelled in concern. He run over to the slump on the floor, leaving his order forgotten. “Are you okay?” he asked his best friend, well, ex- best friend; offering him a hand up, which Michael purposely did not take.

“You can see me?” he replied bitterly, glaring as he stood up.

“I- uhh- yeah I can” Jeremy said. Timid eyes shying away from Michael’s. “It’s been a long time, hasn’t it?”

“I guess so” Michael responded noncommittedly, looking Jeremy up and down. It was five years they last spoke and Michael was reluctant to admit it but those years had been kind to Jeremy. He had lost the reminding traces of baby fat from his cheeks giving him sharper and more chiselled features, and he had clearly been working out, as the once gangly stick-like limbs were now pure toned muscle. Of course, that was not surprising to Michael. He would be lying if he denied to following the actor’s career and social media. He wouldn’t say that stalked Jeremy online, but others could easily accuse him of it. Despite the differences, little else had changed; his hair still looked soft and perfect for teasing in between the tips of fingers, and warm grey eyes that were reminiscent of a summer storm. A storm that had swept Michael up into sea and unknowingly had drowned him so completely, he never recovered. He never minded this; his crush never bothered him until- until- “still squiped?” he asked.

“Um- sort of. It- it’s complicated … besides I didn’t come here because of that” he changed the subject.

“Why are you here then?” Michael’s curiosity spiked.

“Your music sounded good. Urhh- from earlier, I mean” Jeremy said, not really answering the question.

“Thanks, I was thinking of giving it up awhile back but I guess I’m glad I didn’t” Michael gave a half forced (half not) smile, after all Jeremy was the reason he considered quitting. “h- How’s it hanging?” he asked, trying not to be surprised by the genuine concern in his own voice.

“Alright, I got casted as King Lear recently, I mean, I’m an actor now. I don’t know if you knew that.” Michael nodded along, as Jeremy started rambling. “Even if me an- ow- sorry, Christine and I didn’t work out” Shock filled Michael at this new knowledge which almost made miss the way Jeremy jolted in pain at his small grammatical error. “She realised she’s aroace. She helped me figure a lot of stuff including the acting thing… Michael how are you?”

“Fine” Michael knew this answer was cruel, especially in curt tone he used. However, what other answer could he give? He doubted that he would be able to lie to Jeremy.

“Michael please, be honest. I know what I did was shitty and awful-“

“Jeremy, what do you want? All of that was a long time ago. I’m still recovering and I don’t need you reopening old wounds, okay?” his voice was starting to rising alongside his temper.

“Sor-“

“No, you don’t get to say that and walk away thinking I forgive you and any of this was okay.  We were best friends, you were my player two, you said that I was your favourite person and you abandoned me for what?” he was practically screaming. No, this wasn’t what he wanted. Every time he imagined this reunion, it was never like this but his anger demanded so much.  The alcohol did not help. “That night was the worse of my life, you have no clue. Did you even notice when I never returned school? Because the only person I saw in hospital was Rich. Fucking Rich! He showed more kindness after that than you did. And he’s Rich, the asshole who tormented and bullied us”

“Michae-“Jeremy’s voice was barely audible over the noisy atmosphere but the heartbroken tone still caused a stab of agony within Michael’s chest.

“No, sorry. I know it wasn’t all you.” It was true, he should have tried harder to make Jeremy see him; or he should stopped his friend from wasting money on the stupid, life-ruining pill; or never become friends in the first place. Then he would have never held Jeremy back from his dreams of popularity; or it would be better if he had never been born. His Moms would have been fine they would just adopted another child, a happy one who didn’t have to deal panic attacks, or dysphoria, or any shit he made them deal with. A child, which didn’t force them to relocate their lives over school drama. Jeremy could have someone cooler and more supportive favourite person; or he-.

“Michael?” Oh fuck, Michael didn’t realise he was spiralling until Jeremy called out to him.

“Yeah, sorry, Jere. I’m little drunk right now” Michael told him earnestly. “Umm you didn’t answer my question.”

“Oh uhh I- I was just creeping around the internet a few weeks ago and I found your Facebook and saw you had a show tonight and I guess I just wanted to see you, see how you’re doing?” Jeremy hurriedly spoke. “I missed you. A lot.” He continued yet sounded unsure as if with every word he touch something broken which could shatter if he was not ridiculously careful.

Michael fidgeted with top button on his shirt. He missed his red hoodie, it was comforting, warm and felt like a 24/7 hug but Jeremy gave it to him so he burned that years ago. He had destroyed most of his stuff that day before leaving life and reminds of his and Jeremy’s relationship behind. He transferred to a different school and tried to move on but he had never succeeded, the scars were too permanent. “I miss you too”.  He smiled in a small way at Jeremy who returned similar one, with little more hope.

“I can understand if you’re not ready and you can refuse and you don’t have ever forgive me but I would love be at least be able spend time with you again? But it’s up to you.”

“Okay”