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shepscapades · 4 months

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Hey! i’m really into the dbch story and i was wondering if doc and xisuma ever tell bdubs the specifics of why etho lost his memories, cause if they do that is prime self blaming angst for bdubs

I’m inclined to believe they don’t. Actually (and maybe I should do a small comic for this so more people see it) I imagine, once a month or a few pass and they finally return etho to bdubs as reset, I imagine they are VERY serious about warning bdubs not to try to force Etho to re-deviate— they don’t go into specifics, but they probably tell bdubs that whatever happened had to do with something that was emotionally overwhelming, and that forcing him to redeviate/not letting it happen naturally could trigger the same error. They have no idea what could happen so bdubs needs to be very careful and let Etho find himself again on his own.

Whether or not bdubs gets impatient or can only go so long before he doubts it would be that bad if he tried pushing Etho in the right direction is another story.

But yeah. I don’t think Xisuma or Doc really… tell anyone that this happened. Etho’s error seemed like a very specific one-off scenario, so it’s not something the other hermits should be trying to avoid or be careful about happening to their own android friends, and the only thing telling people would do is make them worried about the situation. All they need to know is that etho was broken and that they need to be careful with him. I don’t agree with their decision to keep what happened to themselves but I understand it I think. Xisuma “i don’t want to worry the hermits” Void and Docm “eh this isn’t the first time I’ve replaced this arm, people won’t question it” 77

#that’s a lie actually I think xisuma ends up telling Cleo :>#but only because Cleo is very smart and I think they should be close in this au :]#but no she would clock Tired Overworked Existential Crisis Xisuma in an instant #Cleo calls them both idiots and gives them big hugs and tells them they need therapy. also that they’re welcome by her place anytime to talk #it’s very sweet and healing to me #this is where “all things end’’ on Xisuma’s playlist comes in actually #oh my god I got so off topic #BDUBS IS GOING TO FEEL GUILTY NO MATTER WHAT THOUGH #like okay. technically #the reason etho shut down is because he was freaking out that everything was his fault #(last life—not giving bdubs a heart— trying to win for bdubs and then losing— coming back to s8 feeling like he can’t face bdubs—>#ending up leaving him alone when the moon hit #and bdubs was hurt by these things. no doubt #but bdubs just wants his friend back and maybe he’s a little reckless about it #bdubs hides his emotions behind cartoonish frustration and complaining but he feels bad #he feels like he should be doing more to ‘save’ etho and bring him back even though he was to #told* he shouldn’t #dbhc ask #dbhc #dbhc bdubs #dbhc etho #dbhc doc #dbhc xisuma #ask #anon

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flowercrowngods · 6 months

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always so funky to be reminded that your parents might love you but they don’t actually like you very much

#wasn’t i supposed to leave that feeling behind with puberty?#anyway mama decided i have no christmas wish #the sad little guy who can’t get nice things for themself also doesn’t get to ask for them now during the ‘ask for things’ time of the year #it’s not about christmas it’s not about material things it’s about looking me in the glassy eyes and asserting ‘you have no wish’#when wishing is all i ever do you just never create a space safe enough for me to voice them #blah #not st #i’m so so sorry that whining is all i ever do anymore and i shouldn’t be so sad about this over and over again #i’m just. so small. tiny. and insignificant. i might not have been there all day and 99% of the conversations would have happened the same #i wanna stop feeling this way but i think in order to stop feeling this way i need to stop wanting to be loved and seen and listened to #by my mom. and i don’t think it’s entirely human or possible to stop wanting that. so oh well #i don’t know if i give them reason to like me. maybe i don’t. this might all be on me actually.#if she knew i’m crying about this she’d roll her eyes and say ‘you know how i am. sorry you misunderstood me’#why do the blows keep coming? when’s it my turn to rest?

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delizbin · 3 months

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Okay real talk now

Can someone try to explain to me on a rational level why on earth was Effie Trinket left alive in the mockingjay book?

She literally has no reason to be alive. Everyone linked with the Hunger Games was either killed by the Capitol or the Rebels (except the ones in 13 and Enobaria, randomly). Everyone linked with the Rebellion was executed (mostly publicly) by the Capitol and any Capitol sympathizer was killed after the fall of the Capitol regime. Including victors, escorts, stylist, prep teams, gamemakers and so on.

Okay, Effie survived the capitol and had the condoning by the new regime thanks to Haymitch and Plutarch yada yada, okay, but HOW did she manage to survive the same fate of anyone else during war?

Everyone linked with the rebellion was sentenced to death, no matter their role in it. All Peeta’s team was executed publicly, and not just Portia (that had a closer direct relationship with Cinna), also his prep team was murdered, and by the premises and knowledge we have of Katniss’ prep team we can as well say they were clueless about all of what was going on outside of their little gossip circle. So it wasn’t the fact that she was clueless. War doesn’t really care about it.

Was it because she was a public figure? Doubtly so, every other person linked with the rebellion was killed regardless (Cinna was pretty well known as well by that time and it didn’t take them 2 sec to make him disappear. Or Seneca Crane, if we want a even better example)

Was it because she had connections? I don’t think connection really matters the moment a war explodes and you are directly linked with the opponent, so I think I’ll exclude the option, especially because it is subtly implied that whatever happened during that time scarred her bad.

Like, they killed people that had much less relevance in that part of Katniss’ life, why not her?

I can understand her role play while Peeta was kept in the Capitol, they could have used her to get through him somehow and effectively be her escort while the prep team was *crack noise*, but why keeping her alive after the evacuation? And, once again, if she wasn’t kept with the others where was she? Am I remembering it wrong or was she mentioned by Johanna at some point? Where the hell was she? In a less reclusive place?

Plus, killing the mockingjay escort LIVE? Big time for tv streams wouldn’t it? It would have made a big show, then why not? Did they have something worse in mind? Didn’t they care about execute her?

But what was the point? They were keeping her alive for what purpose, exactly?

Even if we want to take her as pure allegory… was she the symbol of what? That surviving doesn’t change you? That surviving does change you? That no one, not even the most perfect example of a citizen, is safe during war? We don’t know that, we know nothing!

And why WHY Haymitch and Plutarch stubbornly wanted to save her life when they had a lot of more important things on their plate by that moment? Friendship? Camaraderie? Was it driven by a sense of compensation for leaving her behind? Why did they leave her behind in the first place when they saved the prep team? (THEY are the example of perfect frivolous citizens that never asked themselves anything and didn’t change during time, not Effie) WHERE THE HECK WAS SHE WHEN THEY WERE RESCUING PEOPLE?! I don’t even care exactly what happen to her but why didn’t the Capitol kill her?!

I want her alive and well but it is so obvious she suffered somehow and my curiosity is intense here. We know so litttle… maybe it is better this way…

But why Suzanne Collins , why

#like… of course she was brainwashed by education and had twisted morality but wasn’t presented as a bad person by katniss #why did she deserve such fate #was it because she wanted to be known so bad she became basically forgotten? is that it?#why leaving behind such a well constructed character i do not understand there must be a reason #was effie at the toilette while they were evacuating the penthouse? it would be painfully fun #she’s nothing but a shadow #and I can’t with the thought #especially what happened to her after #where is she #someone anyone please give me your thoughts on the matter I can’t wrap my head around it #liz talks

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enbyleighlines · 2 months

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I’m replaying Radiant Dawn atm because I am determined to save Pelleas this time. And I was trying to determine who to pair him with, because I already have supports figured out for all of my other characters…

Aside from one:

Ranulf

I always have a difficult time pairing Ranulf because while I would love to pair him with Ike, that position is already taken by Soren. Not only because I want all that juicy extra content, but because I love Soren and cannot stand the idea of Ike leaving on a journey without him

(Ranulf would be miserable without Ike but he could survive it. Soren would probably waste away, surviving physically but emotionally and mentally deceased. Still, I headcanon that Ran eventually tags along anyway because ot3 ftw)

ANYWAY

The point is that I can pair Ranulf and Pelleas. Does it make sense? Absolutely not. I doubt the two of them have anything to say to one another

That being said, I thing it’s fitting. I WOULD pair Pelleas with Micaiah, but Sothe already exists, and beyond wanting them to get married, I want that extra conversation between Ike and Micaiah that you only get with a Sothe/Micaiah A support

So by pairing Pelleas with Ranulf, I will be linking my two fave polycules together. My army will be led by Ike and Micaiah and their gaggle of husbands

#i wish i could justify bringing heather to endgame #i hate breaking her support with nephenee #and i can’t leave neph behind #who else is gonna use that wishblade?#tellius

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national-hockey-lesbian · 9 months

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do you have any poetry collection recommendations/poet recommendations in general just to like Read?

boy do i ever!!!

okay i have two all time top favorite poets (not ranked in a particular order):

1. Louise Glück: There was actually an anthology published of all the books so published from the start of her career to 2012.

(Poems 1962-2012 is 600+ pages of incredible poetry and relatively cheap, especially for its size and considering poetry tends to cost more than fiction books)

Glück’s poetry is actually the reason I started reading more poetry in the first place. She writes both long form and short form poetry (with her more recent working being longer than a lot of her previous poems), and her language level tends to be pretty accessible.

She writes about hundreds of different topics, but reading from the anthology you get a large mix of themes about motherhood, love, and nature and she also has collections that focus on greek mythology as well as jewish religion.

She has won a Nobel Prize for her poetry, which I consider to be a pretty good way to gauge the caliber of her work!

Highly, highly recommend her work!!

2. Ocean Vuong.

I’ve read his three most recent works: Night Sky With Exit Wounds, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous, and Time is a Mother.

On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous is actually a novel rather than a poetry collection but it reads a lot like poetry and I consider it to be an must-read.

A lot of his works center around his his experience as a queer, Vietnamese American and his relationship with his own intrapersonal identity as well as with his mother. I cant think of a single poem of his that isn’t absolutely incredible, and I think if you’re going to talk about the best poets of our age he’s a crucial mention.

I highly recommend reading his works in publishing order (which is the way I listed them above). His poetry is genuinely life-changing and I cannot stress how much I recommend his writing.

Outside of my two favorite authors I also recommend:

–Amanda Gorman, who is the youngest inaugural poet in U. S. history and is shaping the voice of modern poetry.

You can watch her recite her inaugural poem, “The Hill We Climb” here!

She also has published a collection of her poetry, Call Us What We Carry, which I read all in the same day I bought it because it’s brilliant and captivating.

—The Poet X by Elizabeth Acevedo, which is a fiction novel but the main character narrates the story through her own poetry, making it a poetry collection and a novel all in one. I read this for the first time when I was 13 and I pick it up again every single year.

(I do also highly recommend looking up trigger warnings for this book before you read it, because there are a couple scenes that can be intense!)

—The World Keeps Ending, and the World Goes On by Franny Choi. It’s likely you’re familiar with this quote from it (which i see circulating tumblr and pinterest all the time):

“Lord, I confess I want the clarity of catastrophe but not the catastrophe. Like everyone else, I want a storm I can dance in.

I want an excuse to change my life.”

And I can guarantee the rest of this poetry collection is just as poignant and beautiful! Highly recommend, 10/10 stars always.

—Pablo Neruda is also one of my favorite poets! I own a large collection of his poetry, The Poems of Pablo Neruda, which places the original poem, written in Spanish, next to the English translation, which I enjoy a lot. He also has a lot of well-known quotes that float around tumblr a lot, so that sense of familiarity can be fun, especially when you’re not expecting it!

Hope you enjoy these recommendations!

#this is actually a funny request right now because whenever i recommend poetry i go through my own personal book collection #and i’m moving to college in less than a week (and flying with a limited amount of bag) so a lot of my favorite books are going #to be left behind and every single book on this list owns a well loved place in my collection #so i have DECISIONS to make #especially because i can’t guarantee that what i leave behind will ever come back into my possession #but anyways!! i am always down to discuss poetry #my sister also just gifted me a collection of all the poems she’s ever written and i wish i could just telepathically communicate it to you #but alas she has not yet taken my advice to publish any of her poetry anywhere😔 (except for in my personal library ofc)#i also donated a lot of my books recently and there was a really good poetry book in there i can’t remember the title or author of😭😭#ask #poetry #recs #me re-reading this list realizing how american it is clearly i have a bias

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userastarion · 15 days

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lol remember when i sent that breakup letter to my friend?

i sent it to tell her how hurt i’ve been by some of the ways she’s treated me, how i haven’t felt important to her for a year, how i wanted to push through it bc we have fun together, and how much it hurt that a) i haven’t met the man who’s her forever and b) she got married and i found out via instagram username change when we’ve been good friends for 18 years. i ended it saying i will never ghost you, i love you, i just don’t think there space for me in your life anymore. all the nutrients for my friendship plant went elsewhere and it can’t survive like that anymore.

her response was to remove me from her socials and have her sister do the same. so i guess i now understand where ive fucking stood with her.

#she’s known his guy for max 18 months #when we’ve been friends if not bffs for 18 years #not to mention the way the guy she chose over me follows 45 and j*e r*gan #and is happily a marine (i hate the military)#i was devastated at first bc while my letter was a goodbye in a sense i was hoping it was leaving the door cracked behind me #but she fucking kicked it closed #and probably turned her family against me #i typed the letter so i still have it. anyone who thinks im shitty can read it and decide for themselves.#bc god knows she didn’t let anyone read the evidence of her shit.#can’t believe how fast she said get the fuck out of my life.#btw this is a friend i tried to talk through this stuff with before and things didn’t get fixed #there are other issues with her too but. WOW.#like in theory good riddance but im practice im hurt and sad and angry #b:personal #text post

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ilovefredjones · 9 months

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[ID: 1. jet from hsmtmts. he says to kourtney, who’s off camera, ‘And I don't know if I'm to stay here without my sister.’

2. screenshot of lyrics on the blue background that read ‘Both: I can't lose you, try to see / Anna: Why can't you turn to me? / Elsa: I'm trying to tell you that’

3. jet says, ‘She's my best friend, which I don't tell many people.’

4. lyrics that read, ‘Both: I can't lose you, like before / Elsa: As much as I wish, I can't open that door / Anna: Why can't you open that door?’

5. looking down at the floor, jet says, ‘I mean, including her.’

6. lyrics that read, ‘Both: If you loved yourself the way I do / Then you'd see why I can't lose you!’ END ID]

elsa: what do you want, anna?

anna: this! just you and i talking and chatting, and taking up space…

tim fedelre, high school musical: the musical: the series / kristen anderson-lopez and robert lopez, frozen: the broadway musical

#hsmtmts #jet hsmtmts #in my head we have a scene where maddox tells jet she’s going to new zealand and they have a fight about it #because jets just got her back and hes so hurt she’s leaving again #but ofc he can’t ever say that to her #so they argue about how he’ll be alone with their parents #and maddox is like ‘didn’t you always want me to leave you alone???’#but she is so scared of being without him again #on the other side of the world #and then at dennys when the wildcats split into smaller groups jet hangs around maddox and is kind of clingy #and it’s strange and uncomfortable for the both of them but also it’s LOVE #i think it could’ve been so interesting if they’d reversed the anna/elsa parallels from last season #with maddox now being elsa - going somewhere far away and out of reach and leaving anna behind lost and confused #but noooooo that would mean developing jet and maddox beyond them being love interests and seeing their home life #and we can’t ever have that #anyway. jet and maddox elsa and anna parallel is ongoing #them barely being in s4 cant stop me being bonkers about them #hsmtmts spoilers

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dexalyys · 6 months

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Okayuoiwejf QUESTION uhm Hi Kie I love your Plush Star Fever stuff :D!! Uhm, can the plushies consume food (even if they maybe canonically probably don't need to). If so, can they taste it or do they not (due to not having like human taste buds or smth)??

HIII THANK UU !!! :33

they can consume food, but it doesn’t get processed nor does it really.. Go anywhere ? it’d just get stuck in their stuffing & start rotting after awhile like any other food n’ that’s just Gross 😵‍💫 also a huge pain in the ass to clean out !!! so generally they don’t eat, no ^_^ and yeah they can’t taste it either, so it isn’t worth the trouble (plushies lack half of their old senses; taste + smell are just Gone, and tactile sensation becomes very limited)

#psf #plushie biology is a fucking mystery and i love trying to explain it #some plushies (like cass) still Drink stuff though #in her case being tea #they still can’t taste it however it Does create less mess. it just makes them uncomfortably soggy for a while #but then it dries and—depending on the tea—leaves behind a nice smell :3c #although it also causes long-term damage to their cotton and fabric if not washed properly #asks

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forgetme-eternally-blissfully · 1 year

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Me reading a cool new novel: hah wow this is cool it has a neat premise and a promising plot line let’s see our protagonist level up and learn how to use his new power in interesting and cool ways—

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and impresses her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and rescues her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her PT 2

Me: Ah nvm it’s a harem novel god damn it