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dzpenumbra · 1 year

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11/18/22

Ugh, searching for some good vibes tonight, but watching Twitch left a bad taste in my mouth. I might as well get that out. But first... I really just need to stop watching Twitch. I just... I fucking hate YouTube ads. And I really really don't want to spend like 25 bucks a month on YouTube Premium. It's just a bit excessive. I really like long-form media - something I know I'm going to stick with for a few hours while I'm doing a project or something. Livestreams can scratch that itch. But the vibes today were just... really upsetting, honestly.

I had been watching an RPer who plays a hippie chick, and most of it is exaggerated and parody, but a lot of it is relatable. I don't know, I guess my empathy is just cranked wide open lately. By that I mean... when difficult topics come up, I just immediately go into "what if" mode, or flash back to when I went through stuff like it. And that's really emotionally difficult on a regular basis, to be honest. It's not enjoyable. I really need to work on it. I think my anxiety problems are very internal and not like "oh I'm nervous to stream because some asshole might show up and be rude".

I guess I feel compelled to do this work urgently because of how often it affects me, how profoundly it affects me, and how difficult it is to manage and recover from it. It's very counterintuitive for me to see such a big issue causing ripples and inhibitions in my life and just... not put all my resources towards fixing it. Instead, to like... write music, or make jewelry, or draw shit. It feels like I'm literally not working on my problems, the things that hold me back. But, and I really do need to be reminded of this regularly, I have plenty of time to do that work. And I can't do that work when I'm overstressed, or else I burn out. So... the self-care, the therapeutic work, that needs to happen first.

I've written about this recently, it's just a hard one to hold on to. Baby steps, I guess.

So... I should really find some good documentaries or something. I used to watch these long documentaries on ancient civilizations, and ancient mythology, and videos of archeological digs and shit. I should get back into that. The skate vids are great, but I end up just watching the whole time. They're not great background noise. And I kinda want something a bit more intellect-occupying than music. I feel bad saying that but it's kinda true. I want a full-on story. A narrative. I want to learn and go on an adventure while I'm working. It's a substitute for social interaction. Music had been a thing I saved for social art gatherings, sharing that during group art stuff. But... it's been quite some time since anyone wanted to do that...

I really don't want to go depress-o mode before bed, so... I'm just gonna try to stick to the highlights of the day. It snowed early in the day, it was cool to watch that! And then I sanded down a few mineral pieces, adding bevels to them. Oh shit, and I finished two more wood beads too! So, that was good!

I did some more Tarot study. The Wheel of Fortune and The Hanged One came up today. Both pretty big cards, more so the Wheel honestly. But yeah. That was a bit intense, but cool to get to know the cards, and good to get even more familiar with how to read them. It's a really weird thing to learn, honestly. It's like learning dream interpretation. Like... these are kinda universal symbols that show up in myths all over the world, all throughout history. Stuff that just shows up in our stories. Archetypes, I guess. I never really studied enough academia to be able to get all the lingo and all this, I prefer exploring and playing. Sorry. Academia can often be so fucking bland and boring, just in like... the energy of how information is conveyed. Very monotone and precise and emotionless. So... interpreting these symbols based on the life experiences of people who you don't know has got to be like... I don't know, like how do you relate these things to people? Like I get that The Hanged One is about a moment in life where you kinda need to submit yourself to a change in perspective in order to make profound growth, and make great sacrifices to do so. But the benefit is well worth the sacrifice. And I can relate a moment where I had to make that kind of choice. But I'm not really confident in whether I could help someone really find that moment in themselves? I don't know, maybe I'm just doing that whole anxiety thing. How would I even know, I've literally never read anyone else's Tarot. Like... ever. What the fuck, wow, that's a fun realization. XD

Okay... so I had two friends reconnect with me over the summer. I'm kinda using the term loosely now because they're both off working on themselves, and not on the best terms. Both of them were very into Tarot. Both of them helped introduced me to Tarot. I showed them my deck and all. But they never wanted me to read for them. And one of them read for me. So...

See, I think I kinda got a little too used to that. I kinda got a little too used to people just expecting me to do free tattoo designs for them, and give them free gallery-level, professional-grade art that I found sitting on the floor in a closet space when I visited. I got a little too used to the whole "well you should have just asked me to pay you, this is really on you". Maybe I didn't know better treatment was an option? Ugh.

No, I don't want to go down this path tonight. I have therapy tomorrow, I can explore that there or some shit. I'm just... aware that my deprivation from appreciation and support and... I guess participation (?) in my life has resulted in a sort of programming in my head. Pavlovian training, is a pretty good term I use a lot. So after years and years and years of putting a painting in front of my community and having them go "wow, that's cool, you're talented"... and that's it. That's the crescendo. I guess I just don't really believe that I'm ever going to actually sell art. Or jewelry. Or music. Or custom artified clothing. Like... I believe in it. I believe it's possible. I have faith. But I don't have reference material in my head to compare it to for the concept to really concretize.

This is the method I'm using to learn the Tarot. Using personal experiences, memories, Past, as a reference point to associate with cards - concepts. And I guess a lot of the issues I have with my anxieties is that I have a mountain of memories of that shit going wrong, or at most just being like "oh, that's cool... next... Like. Scroll." And because that's pretty much the totality of my feedback from my work, it's really hard to conjure up a mental image of someone coming up and being like "Do you have more?" "Can I commission a piece from you?" "How much does that one cost?" "Is that for sale? I have to have it!" Like... I really struggle to actually picture in my head someone saying that to me. And I'm trying to not beat myself up over that, it's just the thing I struggle with, and it's really not my fault. I just had bad teachers.

With the lack of support, interest and enthusiasm I have gotten around my work. All of my work, all genres, all mediums. I am legitimately shocked I haven't given up yet. It would be so. fucking. goddamn. easy. to. give. up. I mean, I would be soulless and start getting physically ill all the time... not even exaggerating, that's what happened last time I quit art. But I have many opportunities and tons of available encouragement every day to stop pursuing art as a primary career. I've even been in meetings with people whose roles were to advise the shaping of my immediate future who were trying to coerce me into getting into other related lines of work. Not kidding. I remember one woman, bless her heart she meant so well, saying "well my daughter really wanted to be an artistic photographer, but you know... she had to be a wedding photographer." Kinda like "Look, I know you want to be an entertainer, but like... sell GFuel (totally not a drug /s) to your teenage audience. Sell plastic-wrapped meal substitution bars. Push this shitty mobile game." Like... why the fuck would we discourage people who have spent years and years cultivating a unique creative vision of something very catered to their individual skills? I mean, how the fuck can you discourage someone from following their passions, and call yourself a support system?!

See? See how quick I just go right back to stress mode. Okay... I think I've made my point, so I'm gonna just vent one last thing real quick. I'm just grumpy because I made a point to get to bed early tonight. I was prepped to start journaling at 2. That's a big jump from 5. And I stupidly watched Twitch to catch this interaction between two characters I've been watching a lot. And after like half an hour, it just left the worst taste in my mouth. And I was just like... I wish I just hadn't. I wish I had just played with my cat, journaled and gone to bed. So I think I'm going to work on that.

Positive note to end on. I finished a second bracelet. This one has my first hand-carved wooden bead in it. It's actually pretty cool and I'm proud of it. I put in a bead to use as a... I don't know the term... a stopper? Like it goes in a loop and the bead catches and holds it on as like a clasp or whatever. I don't know terms. But yeah, I tried that and it works really well. I'd like to explore making adjustable bracelets/necklaces, but I'm not quite there yet. So that was cool, because it was like a week in the making and I kinda abandoned it around when the fights happened. But today I committed to finishing it and it's very clean. I'm happy with it. Its big enough to wear, but a bit too tight for me. So it's inspiring me to make another one, a bigger one, for myself. And then... I'll have my first jewelry piece that isn't for me. That is available for others. :D That's a cool feeling!

No music today, I'll see if it calls me tomorrow, not gonna kick my ass any harder than I need to. I'd also like to see if I can find cool ways to wire-wrap these beveled quartz pieces. That could open some cool doors.

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cuquitalocita · 3 years

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a little q&a |rowaelin month- day 9|

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an: i wrote this at three in the morning- do with that as you will

word count: 3,310

Aelin liked to think that the life she had with her friend group led to no shortage of entertaining days. She had woken up to enough buckets of water on her head and had her own hand in messing with Lorcan every once in a while to know her friends were far from ordinary, and it was about time one of them acknowledge their dynamic was entertaining enough to draw the attention of a few people.

Most of them had laughed when Fenrys had proposed the idea of starting a joint youtube account to document the group’s shenanigans. For starters, who the hell would want to watch them in the first place? And next, they were some of the most disorganized people to ever walk the face of the earth. Nothing would ever get done the way it should.

And yet here they were; the Cadre had just hit four million subscribers and was still going strong. She liked to think that her own pranks were the ones with the most views.

“Galathynius!” Lorcan’s voice rang out through the speaker on Aelin’s phone that was lying face-up on her bed. “Get your ass over here, we’re filming in an hour.”

Aelin groaned, falling backward onto her comfortable bed with a huff. She knew Lorcan had heard from the laugh he let out. She was so not in the mood for filming today. But the guys lived together, so they would be filming whether she was there or not.

“You’ve got to be kidding me. We don’t even have a script lined out.”

“Just a Livestream,” Lorcan amended. “We might as well say thanks for four million in person. Maybe do a Q&A? People have been begging for a round two between you and Whitethorn.”

“Ugh,” Aelin grimaced. “Don’t say it like that. I’d sooner light myself on fire than ever sleep with that Buzzard.”

It had been three years of the account, of the pranks, and of the growing friendship between the group of five, and Aelin had yet to warm up to the enigma that was Rowan Whitethorn. They had been in a few classes together during their freshman year at the University but had never paid the other any mind. She had always thought he looked too unapproachable and Rowan probably thought Aelin was too much for him to handle.

Aelin smirked. She most definitely was.

Three years later and the two still hadn’t come to peace. The guy infuriated her with his broodiness and his glares, and his inability to admit when she had an idea that was better than his own. The two but heads more than they should for co-workers, and their audience ate it right up, assuming it was nothing more than a plot for the account.

“So you’ve said time and time again, Ae. You do realize that the two of you are going to have to come to an agreement eventually, right? Cause if one of you kills the other before we reach five million Gavriel will kill us.”

At the mention of their manager, Aelin smiled and pushed herself off of the bed. She would do it for Gavriel if only to make sure the man didn’t have a heart attack if the Cadre were to post a video without everyone’s favorite blonde.

As she drove over to the guys’ apartment, Aelin remembered a time when she had been intimidated to be the only girl in a friend group of massive guys. She had been uncertain, if not a little terrified the first time she had seen the tall figures she now called her family.

Now they just annoyed her more than they should and she pushed the door open without knocking, unsurprised to see Lorcan, Fenrys, Connall, Vaughan, and Rowan set up on the couch, the large camera they used to film videos in front of them.

“What are you boys up to?” She tossed her bag onto the couch where Fenrys’ feet lay and he bat it away with a frown. His blonde hair was braided today, and Aelin remained jealous that he had yet to teach her how to braid her own hair as well.

“Just waiting for you, dear princess,” Fenrys cooned, and Aelin slapped him on the back of the head ever as a small smile coated her lips. She watched as Rowan took the camera set up apart and replaced it with a cell phone, no doubt signed into their joint Instagram account to set up the live stream.

Aelin tried not to focus on how his muscles flexed by his t-shirt or how the black fabric only accentuated the tan of his skin and the tattoo that stretched across his face. The first time Aelin had met him, she had admitted to herself that maybe tattoos hadn’t been her type before. But they most definitely were then. And then Whitethorn had opened his mouth and damned it all to hell.

“So… a Q&A?” Aelin asked.

Lorcan nodded as he helped Rowan set up the phone. The man was clearly struggling as his silver brow furrowed and he bit his lip in concentration. Rolling her eyes with a huff, Aelin removed herself from the couch and walked over to the two brutes.

“Oh, out of my way, both of you!” She slapped their large hands away from the equipment and ignored their matching scowls in favor of setting up the camera correctly. Quickly enough, it was done and she turned back to the men that now littered the couch.

Fenrys, sat sandwiched in the middle by Vaughan and Lorcan and Connall sat on the arm of their large couch with his arms crossed in front of him, an easy smile on his face. On the ground sat Rowan with his knees up to his chest in a casual demeanor.

Aelin sighed. “Well, let’s begin, shall we?”

She clicked the button to begin the live and returned to the couch, opting to sit on the ground beside Rowan now that Lorcan had taken her spot. She ignored the urge to lean into Rown as he sat beside her, no matter how good he always smelled.

Aelin watched as their viewers came pouring in, beginning in the low thousands and eventually making it up to about two million in a matter of seconds. She smiled at the idea of how far they had come.

When the group had deemed it worthy, Fenrys opened his mouth to speak.

“Sup, bitches!”

Aelin laughed at the sound of hands hitting Fenry’s head and felt more than heard Rowan’s laugh from his place at her side. She elected to roll her eyes, remembering that there was no script this time, and she just had to be herself. It was sometimes hard to remember that.

“Fen, this is why we don’t let you talk,” Aelin grinned.

“No, we don’t let him talk cause it would mean five more hours of editing,” Connall chirped from the arm of the couch behind her and he met Aelin’s hand in the middle for a high-five.

“Anway,” Lorcan cut in. “We wanted to come on here to say thanks so much for four million, you guys. We couldn’t have made it this far without you.”

Aelin knew everyone was nodding. “I mean, I for one believe I don’t need these brutes, but I guess it’s too late now. I’m kinda stuck with them now, huh?” She grinned wider as comments flooded up the screen complete with assurances that they would support her if she went off on her own just fine.

But Aelin was already pushing the thought away. She would never abandon these guys.

“It’s a good thing too, cause you’d starve to death without us.”

Surprisingly enough, the voice came from Rowan, and Aelin schooled her face into one of indifference as she met his self-satisfied gaze.

“You’re not nearly as funny as you think you are,” she beamed, and she heard the rest of the guys snort from behind them.

This was their dynamic, at least to their followers. The two would bicker as if they were old friends, and the guys would laugh, brushing it off as their usual petty fights. Soon enough one of them would perform a prank, usually at the expense of the other, and it would lead to a revenge video for next week’s post. It worked well enough, even if everything the green-eyed man did make her blood boil.

“Maybe not, Princess,” Rowan replied with a sneer. “But I’m not wrong.”

Before Aelin could reach over and strangle the guy, Vaughan jumped into the conversation.

“Anyway, as a thank-you for everything you guys have done for us, we’re gonna be doing a Q&A today.” Aelin nodded along as he spoke. “...with a bit of a twist.”

At her frown, Aelin turned to Rowan, only to see a matching one on his own face.

She could hear the grin on Fenrys’ face as he spoke next. “We’re gonna be pairing up with one another and allowing you guys to send in questions about one of the pairs. We’ve all been friends for, what, three years now? Let’s see how well we know one another.”

Aelin’s head was in her hands before the blonde was finished speaking and she felt Rowan tense beside her, knowing damn well where this was going.

“Because you two seem to be in such good mood’s this morning, you’re up first.”

Before either one of them could protest, the men were off of the couch, leaving it open for Aelin and Rowan as they sprinted behind the camera to read the questions out loud. The two found themselves on opposite sides of the couch and Aelin almost laughed.

“Alright, you two ready?” Connall grinned, and Aelin flipped him off, earning another round of laughs from the men.

“Question one:” Vaughan read out loud. “Rowan, what is Aelin’s favorite color?”

Rowan snorted and rolled his eyes as if he was too good to answer such a stupid question. “Come on, that’s too easy.” Aelin raised a brow at him as he met her gaze. Well, what is it then? “It’s gold. Obviously.”

She tried not to huff at the correct answer and instead gave a small nod. She supposed she did tend to wear gold quite a bit when they all dressed up.

“Aelin, what sport did Rowan play in high school?”

“Oh. Lacrosse,” she shrugged easily. At the confused look from Rowan, Aelin merely sent him a sheepish smile. “Unless that wasn’t your hoodie I found last week?”

“It was you who took it! Should have fucking known it was you that kept it disappearing.” Rowan glared at her, even though Aelin could feel the substantial loss of any sort of true anger at her.

“I get fucking cold, okay?” she defended.

She would never tell him the truth- that she knew damn well it was his hoodie and she had

stolen it on more than one occasion because she liked it more than any of her own. She liked the softness of it and how big it was on her and how it made her feel like she was getting an amazing hug from someone much larger than her. And yes, the smell was too intoxicating for Aelin to resist.

“Aelin, which of Rowan’s public relationships was the shortest?” She didn’t know why the question had a blush springing to her cheeks, but even the thought of some of the girls who used to hang around the tight-knit group sent a roiling in Aelin’s stomach.

They had always been annoying- or so they had seemed to Aelin, who had never quite gotten used to someone fawning over the scowling man next to her.

“Um, probably Remelle,” Aelin shrugged, even though the answer was far from false. Aelin couldn’t stand the other blonde, and she had never been more grateful than the day she had stopped showing up around the apartment. It always seemed like the girl thought there was something more between Rowan and Aelin, and the jealousy had been too much in the end.

She also wasn’t stupid- there was no way Rowan actually liked that girl.

“I don’t think she was around for that long. Thank the gods,” she muttered under her breath, and she felt Rowan stiffen beside her. He had been silent during her entire answer.

Now he scoffed.

“Give me a break. As if your past relationships are anything to be proud of.”

“Excuse me?” Aelin gaped at him. She turned so she could face him more fully and see the annoyance on his handsome face.

“Cortland was such a little bitch. He couldn’t take a joke.”

“You are so outta line Whitethorn, it isn’t even remotely funny.”

Aelin was seething- she hated talking about her past relationships, especially ones they had all seen crash and burn and especially ones that had been public.

“Please,” he snorted- Aelin ignored how cute it was. “I wanted to deck him every time he came over.” The room was silent for a moment and Aelin swore she could hear her heart pounding in her throat.

Heat crept through her at the out-of-character words and she found herself unable to look away from his eyes. She watched as his own flicked over her face as if memorizing every inch of it.

Lorcan cleared his throat, sending their attention back to him.

“Rowan, what is Aelin’s favorite food?”

“Chocolate Hazelnut Cake,” he replied without hesitation, and Aelin couldn’t hold back her grin. “She makes me buy it for her all the time- I’m about to go broke, thank you very much.”

Thinking back on it, Rowan was telling the truth. It had always been him that bought her the cake when she asked, even if he had grumbled about it. She even remembered once when she had woken up to a fresh slice on her kitchen counter that one of the guys had left when they had stopped by. She now realized it had probably been Rowan. Aelin ignored the bit of warmth the thought sent through her.

“And that’s why I keep him around,” Aelin grinned at the camera and patted Rowan’s cheek. She ignored the stupid butterflies in her stomach when he grabbed her hand in his larger one and dropped them onto his lap. Her face burned as he didn’t let it go.

“Does Aelin go by any nicknames?” Connal asked.

Aelin’s parents lived in Terrassen, farther away than she would have liked, and she hadn’t seen them in months. It wasn’t often she had the time to fly over and they had only flown over themselves a few times. They hadn’t even met the guys. It seemed that the groups always kept missing each other. Either way, she hadn’t been referred to as her childhood nickname in years, let alone in front of the guys.

“Her parents call her Fireheart.”

Aelin sat up straight in her seat as her head snapped to Rowan’s in disbelief. How the hell had he known that? Her face must have said it for her and Aelin watched as Rowan shrugged and ducked his head down- it was kind of adorable.

“You, um, you talk pretty loud when you Facetime them.”

She was still gaping at him. Never in a million years would Aelin believe that Rowan Whitethorn had paid much attention to her. Not even Lysandra knew about Fireheart.

It was only then that Aelin registered what was going on beside her. Rowan was speaking silently with Lorcan from behind the camera, both of their gazes intense as they flicked between each other and Aelin’s. Lorcan looked pissed- well, more pissed than usual- and Rowan looked damn near frustrated.

“Um,” Aelin cleared her throat. “Guys?”

“Alright,” Lorcan snapped definitively. “Change of plans. Speed round. One at a time we’re going to ask you sets of questions about each other. Answer as quickly as you can without thinking about it. The person who gets the most answers right in a minute wins.”

“Wins what?” Aelin arched a brow. She didn’t know if she was going to like this game.

“It doesn’t matter,” the brute scowled, and Aelin’s mouth snapped shut. Someone was in a mood today, it seemed.

“Aelin, you go first.” Fenrys seemed to be practically buzzing in his seat.

“Bring it on, Wolfie,” she grinned at the camera. Vaughan started the timer a moment later.

“Where was he born?”

“Doranelle.”

“Favorite movie?”

“Star Wars.”

“Favorite book?”

“Call of the Wild.”

“Favorite animal?”

“Hawk?”

“Hogwarts house?”

“Slytherin.”

“Cousins name?”

“Selene.”

“College major?”

“Chemical Engineering.”

“Time!” Vaughan called.

Aelin refused to look at Rowan as she sat back in her place on the couch. It seemed Rowan wasn’t the only one who had paid more attention than they had realized. Aelin wanted to hide in her room. Mala fry her, what was happening?

“Alright Whitethorn, you’re up.” Rowan’s eyes narrowed as he looked at the man behind the camera but he nodded nonetheless and Vaughan began the second timer.

“Dog’s name?”

“Fleetfoot.”

“Major?”

“Arts and Humanities?”

“Where was she born?”

“Terassen.”

“Favorite movie?”

“Legally Blonde.”

“How long have you known her for?”

“Three years.”

“And you’ve been in love with her for?”

“Two.”

“What instrument does she play?”

“Piano f...uck.”

Aelin had stopped hearing the questions and answers by the time Rowan had realized what he said. She didn’t think she was breathing. Not as Rowan turned to her, a look of utter disbelief in his face that most certainly matched her own.

Rowan… was in love with her?

Three years they had known each other and never once had Aelin thought of the possibility of him having feelings for her. He was Rowan. He was a prick and an ass and stuck up and-

And kind and perceptive and brings you cake without you asking for it and remembers your childhood nickname.

Shit.

“Aelin I-” Rowan was scrambling, his green eyes flaring with panic and Aelin could only shake her head as words refused to come out. From behind the camera, the rest of the men were snickering. Aelin turned her fiery gaze on Lorcan who didn’t balk. He only stared back before asking her another question.

“And what are the chances she’d let you kiss her?”

“Lorcan-” Rowan growled, moving to rise from the couch with a clenched fist.

“Higher than you’d think.”

The voice came from Aelin herself, who hadn’t even realized she had spoken, let alone said such a thing as that. But she found herself unwanting to take it back. It was about time she felt what it was like to kiss Rowan Whitethorn.

“I- what?” Rowan was baffled.

Aelin only arched a brow. “What? Scared, Whitethorn?”

Rowan watched her for a moment as if deciding she was serious before a determined look crossed over his face. He was silent as he made his way over to her before stopping close enough to her that she could feel his body heat. She could smell the pine scent coming off of him as he gazed into her eyes before taking in a sharp breath.

“Are you sure? You don’t have to do anything just cause there’s a camera-”

She fisted his shirt and brought his lips down on hers.

Aelin was right- she decided as he kissed her back so thoroughly that her leg hitched onto his hip- kissing Rowan Whitethorn was worth the hype. And with the way he held her as if he was afraid she’d break- she realized that yes, maybe she had been paying more attention to Rowan Whitethorn than she had realized.

Aelin grinned against his lips. Thank the gods for nosy friend groups.

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kit-herondale-carstairs · 4 years

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TDA Characters on TikTok

Julian: doesn’t post very often because he is a father but when he does it is always him painting or drawing something with lofi music or him sharing a tidbit about one of the children or other family members (Kieran, Cristina, Diana, Emma and Aline included and always with their explicit permission).

- He’s very popular without even trying and most assume he is a young single father (which isn’t wrong).

- Mostly finds himself on cottagecore or parent side of tiktok.

- doesn’t understand all the thirsty comments he gets because “I don’t even show my face, Emma, why would they think I’m attractive?” but always shares them with Emma because they make her laugh.

Emma: Does it for the girls and the gays, that’s it. Posts nearly every day and page is generally a mixture of self defense videos, vintage makeup/dress tutorials, and videos slamming the patriarchy but also always does the latest dancing videos and other trends.

- always tries to get others to join in on her trend videos, mostly joined by Mark and Cristina when she can rope her in.

- Nearly broke tiktok when she got Julian to do the “You could have been nicer to me” trend because NO ONE KNEW THEY WERE DATING AND EVEN THOUGH THEY COULDN’T SEE HIS FACE EVERYONE RECOGNIZED HIS VOICE AND HE WAS SO SWEET WHEN HE OFFERED TO TAKE HER TO HER FAVORITE THRIFT STORE AND BUY HER SOME DRESSES AFTER HE PUT THE “BABY” DOWN FOR HIS NAP.

- - everyone knows the “baby” is actually at least seven but no one ever said his name because he’s too young so everyone collectively knows him as “the baby”

- solidly on gay tiktok even though she’s straight.

Mark: Daily blogs. Everyone thinks he’s shit posting because it’s all wild things like standing in a middle of a circle of flowers and talking about “this pixie named Aelia lives here and she’s a BITCH”. Often shows videos of him cooking or baking wild concoctions that range from “Okay, I’d try that” to “this is why God has abandoned us”.

- Does dancing videos with Emma all the time and often acts as the “creeper” in her self defense videos.

- Caused a meltdown on tiktok when he casually mentioned his “partners” and started creating videos to raise awareness for polyamory.

- Revealed Julian was his brother when he posted a video of Julian yelling at him for a solid minute because “the baby is covered in honey, why is the baby covered in honey, Mark? We don’t let the baby bathe in honey even if he really wants to Mark -”

- solidly on cooking and gay tiktok, often takes a sharp left into “crackhead” tiktok

Kieran: Posts videos of cats he finds and rates them. The lowest ever was a 9.5/10 because “she bit me fairly hard but I scared her and I deserved it for trying to pet her without permission”.

- does not do any trends or reveal much personal information.

- Was always considered wholesome until he (on a dare from Dru) posted a video joking about choking a bossy sub that rounded up on kinktok.

-- everyone went through a brief freak out trying to figure out if he had a partner but it was never solved.

--- No one noticed that Mark posted a video joking about how “one of his partners was absolutely in the doghouse” accompanied by someone sitting in a cardboard ‘doghouse’ around the exact same time.

- solidly on animal tiktok but occasionally veers into kinktok with more (less explicit) dom/sub humor.

Cristina: Does not have her own tiktok but often appears in videos with Emma and occasionally shows up in Mark’s.

- Absolute sweetheart always, even when she is demonstrating a self defense move with Emma, and is always commended for trying Mark’s foods.

-- especially commended when trying the foods while, offscreen, their other partner yells about “Hell food”

- is flattered with all the comments begging her to start her own tiktok but doesn’t feel like she has the time to fully commit to one properly.

Livvy: (She’s alive, don’t @ me) Does absolutely all the new trends and also does various acting POVs

- her soulmate POVs are most popular but she also is known for dueting act-along POVS with other popular creators

- also occasionally posts videos rating the best male actors/superheroes and once got into a long drawn out back to back war with someone on whether or not Captain America really had “America’s ass”

- had a very popular multiple-part series about being a girl in the MCU dating the various Avengers but ended it abruptly after Endgame because “Natasha Romanoff deserved better and it hurts too much”

-she used to post occasional videos where she laments on being the “only single person in the family” but she started getting some very creepy duets and comments from actual adults so she told Julian and they both agreed it would be better for her to stop them

-- Julian did take the time to duet the people being inappropriate and explained very clearly that their actions were wrong and directed towards a LITERAL CHILD and shamed multiple accounts into flat out deleting

Ty: Posts literally whatever interests him. Has two animal series - one where he shares facts about his favorite kinds of animals and one where he showcases various animals he’s found in the tidepools or around the house.

- has done several video series of rescuing animals and has at least one where Julian could be heard lecturing him on trying to raise wild animals in his bedroom again

-- tiktok freaked out because this happened right around the same time as Julian calling out all the creeps on Livvy’s tiktok and no one knew that the twins he talked about were them

- also does videos about his favorite literary works - notably Sherlock Holmes - and true crime/mystery videos

-- he always makes sure to carefully put in warnings for anything remotely violent or triggering and has never had a single video taken down for violating the rules even when he did a multiple part series on the Black Dahlia and how her crime was ‘absolutely solved but because the man who did it was rich and white, he got away with it and probably also killed at least two other women, one of whom was killed in the Philippines”

- sometimes does twin videos with Livvy because she likes them and it makes her happy.

Dru: Queen of witch/horror/true crime tiktok.

- got in trouble with Julian for showing actual runes in videos but everyone just thought they were for the aesthetic so it was fine

- most popular videos is a series where she rates horror movies on how they do on the bechdel test

- sometimes duets Ty’s or Livvy’s videos just to drag them (with love)

- Has a very popular series on “women who snapped” and is known for almost rarely during part 2s (and therefore having to speak very very fast)

- also complains constantly because her videos will get taken down even if they aren’t that violent and includes clips from far worse videos from male creators to point out the double standard

- occasionally dives into tiktok drama just to dabble and then sits on the sidelines and watches it happen

-- 100% built a balloon arch to flex on That Balloon Girl

- solidly on witchtok and horrortok

Kit: King of petty/messy tiktok who also posts random videos about crime and occasional blogs

- switches from either sharing no information to borderline oversharing childhood trauma

- shares videos on borderline illegal ways to get back at exfriends/expartners/exfamily members/general enemies

-- putting fish in people’s vents, subscribing them to magazines under various similar names, sending them glitter in the mail, opening their oreos and taking out the middle of all of them, putting baby locks on their cabinets and in the outlets they can’t see (like under the bed so they can’t get plug in their cellphone charger at night), etc.

- is always eating some sort of snack, no matter what he is doing

- also posts videos about personal safety like what locks will actually keep people out and what ones are easy to break into

--caused several minor freakouts when he casually mentioned his father taught him how to do it

- occasionally posts videos with an adorable toddler and a young couple who he refers to as “mom and dad” even though they look at MOST five years older than him and he often makes parental abandonment jokes/comments

- no idea where he lives because he speaks in an American accent and talks constantly about American/California life but everything around him looks very British

- absolutely dives head first into every tiktok drama and will go for the throat for anyone who makes ableist/sexist/racist/homophobic comments without hesitation

-- his drags are legendarily savage and he has caused numerous problematic accounts to just straight up disappear

- duets videos from Livvy, Dru, Mark, Emma and Julian ( with lots of savage drags) but no one knows how he knows them because he is absolutely somewhere in the UK and all of them are based in California/US

-- he also notably NEVER duets Ty

--- the mystery is finally solved when Kit does a livestream and reveals that he met all of them because he was briefly living with them before getting placed with his family, the young couple who actually are his mom and dad

---- he is very vague about the living situation but everyone assumes he was a foster child

- he once caused a mass freakout on Tiktok (that actually spilled over to twitter and buzzfeed) when he announced he was going back to the US to visit friends and then posted a video with the caption “when you see your boyfriend in person for the first time in MONTHS but he’s too distracted by some wet 🐱”

-- the video panned out from Kit’s unamused face to Ty gently rubbing a tiny wet kitten with a soft cotton towel

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marveloussupernerd · 3 years

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Hey! I SWEAR I’LL STOP SENDING IN REQUESTS lmao but I really really enjoyed your jumin Halloween charity fic and recommended making a part two for Christmas time and you said to remind you in December and here we are! Obviously you don’t have to do it but I wish you a happy holidays nonetheless take care!

Aw literally don’t worry about it you are the absolutely sweetest and I love writing things for you !! Thank you SO MUCH for reminding me I’m all excited to write this now

Holiday Charity Stream (pt1) - Jumin

Summary: after the insane success of your Halloween live stream for charity, you’ve been asked to hold a Christmas one. This time there are fun games and some RFA guests too

This time you were ready for the event. Last stream was a little slow going because you weren’t used to such a large, diverse audience, but this time you felt a bit more confident. It was helpful too that the RFA members were going to be guests on the livestream, taking some of the slack off you.

Baby-wise things were going pretty well. You had just started your second trimester, thank goodness. Your morning sickness was gone and you even had a little bump to show for it. This was something people were always so excited about! But you chose to dress up in an oversized sweater. You didn’t want to feel self-conscious; even if you were pregnant, people always talked.

Shaking that thought from your mind, you made your way onto the couch next to your husband to get ready to start your stream. You were now streaming on five international channels and YouTube. It was exciting to see how much everyone enjoyed the last one!

“Are you feeling alright?” Jumin asked, placing a kiss to your forehead, resting a hand on gently on your stomach. “If you don’t feel well at any time, we can take over. It’s okay, really. Everyone will understand.”

“I know.” You smiled at him. “But I’m feeling really good actually. Super energized. Excited to raise some money and have fun.”

He chuckled, smiling fondly down at you. He was dressed in a cute Christmas sweater as well; you had convinced him that sweater Jumin > suit Jumin, at least for these livestreams. Made him far less intimidating. He said he was starting to look and dress like a dad. It made your heart flutter.

Jaehee came over and set a glass of water next to you. She had been shoving water down your throat all day. You half-glared at her. Any more water and you’d probably drown. You knew she was just looking out for you as a friend though.

“Don’t pout like that,” she fake-scoffed. Jumin straightened up upon hearing her tone. He must not have fully understood you and your friend’s dynamic. “Mr. Han, please make sure she keeps drinking. The lights are hot and I don’t want her to get sick.”

“I’m fine,” you rolled your eyes. You grabbed her hand though, shooting her a smile to let her know you were teasing her. “Thanks for watching out for me Jaehee.”

“We’re starting in 2. I’ll make sure everything is in order.” She excused herself, leaving you and your husband sitting in front of the bright lights and the camera.

“No big surprises this time, huh?” Jumin asked. The tech people came over and started hooking microphones on the two of you.

You leaned over to look him in the eyes. “I don’t think I could pull another one on you. What would it be? Twins?”

“I don’t know if we could handle twins,” he teased.

“I wish we would have gotten the baby’s sex by now. That could’ve been a fun thing to share too.” Oh well. Gender reveal parties were usually toxic anyways.

“Have you ever thought about keeping it a secret? Not finding out until they’re born?” He asked. The people moved away, finished with their job. There was a gleam in Jumin’s eye.

“Hmmm... if you want to then we can do that. Gonna be a pain to theme the room though.”

“Worth it.”

The cameraman started counting down the start of the stream, grabbing your attention. This time you’d open up the video.

“Hi everyone! Happy Holidays from the Hans! We are just so excited to be spending the holiday season with you and your family, and raising money for such a great cause.” You went on to explain a little bit about today’s charity, an organization that made gift packages for the Low income children in the city to make sure they got presents on their special holiday.

“Remember, please give what you can,” Jumin chimes in. “Also, I’ve heard word that those who donate a certain amount will be able to send us a message.” He looked over at you. “That’s kinda cute.”

You giggled. It was cute. “Today we’re going to have a few very special guests from our organization, the RFA, with us, and lots of fun challenges and games. It seems my poor husband has been living under a rock and missing out on a lot of fun holiday things.”

He chuckled again, rolling his eyes playfully at you. A top donation came in already! It was a news site. They thanked you for supporting such a good cause and then asked how far along you were.

“Oh! I’ve just entered my second trimester.” Your hand instinctively rested on your stomach. “I have the tiniest bump, but it’s one of those things where you swear you can see the difference but aren’t sure if it’s just you going crazy.”

Jumin’s hand joined your own, linking his fingers with yours. “It’s been very exciting. We’re anxious to meet the little one, but we’ve got a long way to go.”

“Now, for our first guest of the night, we have the musical actor Zen! Let’s all give him a warm welcome through the screen,” you segued.

Zen walked out onto the set. He was wearing a high necked black sweater. He looked very posh. The color contrasted well with his pale skin and hair. He looked all ready to go, but walked in with caution.

“Hi Zen!” You got up to go over and give him a hug. Jumin and him awkwardly shook hands. “We had to have you here first while the set was absolutely clear of any cat allergens.”

Jumin looked over at the camera, rolling his eyes, somewhat playfully. “He’s allergic,” he explained.

“Well I appreciate that.” Zen focused his attention on you, taking a seat next to you on the couch, you squished between the two men. “I’m so happy to be here today. What fun thing have you got planned?”

“Well, I thought we could do a finish that lyric, Christmas Carol edition! Jaehee picked the songs, so I don’t even know what’s going to play, that way I could take part in it too.” You had thought long and hard about different challenges that would highlight everything so wonderful about each of the members, and you’d be an idiot not to have Zen do something related to performing. Jumin didn’t have too bad of a voice either. It was a nice warm baritone. You liked it when he thought you were asleep and sang to the baby, soft enough that you could just barely hear. He really was the sweetest man and oh no you were definitely flushing.

Zen nudged you gently with his shoulder. “What a great idea! I’m excited to crush this one.”

Jumin quirked an eyebrow, chiming in: “Oh no, I’m going to crush this one.”

You decided to let them have their little rivalry. You were certain Jumin wouldn’t win, he never listened to the radio. Zen was a maybe, but you were semi confident in your own skills. You listened to holiday music all the time, especially in your childhood.

Jumin got the more traditional Christian ones. Oh Holy Night was all his. There were way too many verses for you to remember. Away in a Manger? Nailed it. Zen focused on the classic Christmas songs: Jingle Bells, Frosty, Rudolph. When things got a little newer and sometimes a bit more vague, that’s where you really stepped it up. Rocking Around the Christmas Tree, Christmas Wrapping. Dammit! Zen stole All I Want For Christmas Is You. That’s okay. Last Christmas, The Chipmunk Song. Thank goodness you were forced to watch the glee Christmas specials by one of your friends; they really covered all of these.

“It looks like it’s a tie.” Zen commented, looking down at the scoresheet. You and him had an even number of wins, Jumin trailing behind.

“No, you must’ve forgotten.” Jumin took the pen and paper and glanced at it. Zen was right. “Uh- my wife and I obviously count as a team. So we win.” He scratched his neck awkwardly. You and Zen just laughed, brushing him off. You’d have to force him to endure the Glee Christmas special eventually as well; it was the best way to learn all the songs.

You gave Zen a present to thank him for coming (a bountiful bouquet of roses), and sent him off. Time to answer some viewer questions while you waited for the next guest. Another glass of water was set next to you.

“What does Elizabeth the III want for Christmas?” You read off the question list. “Oh! I guess we can bring her out now that Zen is gone, huh?”

One of the workers let Elizabeth out of your bedroom and she strolled over to you, stretching then jumping on the top of the couch.

“If only I could talk to her to find out,” Jumin sighed wistfully. Oh no. You had to change the topic before he got another business idea.

“I’m sure what she really wants is a nap! She sure does love napping.” Your draw for attention was not subtle, but to Jumin it was. Jaehee wiped a bead of sweat off her forehead from behind the camera.

“And!” You added, cutting Jumin off before he could even think to say something, “speaking of animals, our next guest is currently studying to be a veterinarian. This is Yoosung Kim!”

Yoosung came onto the set, tripping over a cord that luckily was not connected to anything important. Jumin stood up quickly to make sure the poor boy didn’t fall, and Yoosung’s ears turned bright red out of embarrassment. “Sorry, it’s really bright up here.”

“I’m feeling the exact same way, trust me. Yoosung, do you wanna know what game I’ve planned for us this time?” You asked, trying to smooth over the embarrassment Yoosung must have felt.

“Sure!”

“We’re all going to be making gingerbread houses! Yoosung, I know you’re a good cook, so I’m going to leave one house to you, and I’m going to team up with Jumin to see if we can even attempt to build something that stands up,” you explained. The chef came in and placed the cookie pieces on a tray in front of you, white frosting already in piping bags and bowls of candy laid out.

“All the gingerbread is fresh-made. I’ve never built one of these but I’m quite excited to try,” Jumin grinned. He was being so sweet and enthusiastic about the stream; it was nice to see him so open to broadening his horizons.

You had ten minutes on the clock. When they started, you immediately got to work, explaining to Jumin how to do it. At first, he tried to stand up the pieces without any frosting to connect. Then you told the poor sweet boy that that is not how they work. You got to work piping a thick layer of frosting on the edges of the pieces to stick together, and left Jumin to hold them in place while the frosting hardened.

You glanced over at Yoosung. How did he glue everything together by now!? He was just one person. You tightened the top of your frosting bag, piping snow onto the roof. “You wanna line the top in candy? I think it’ll look cute,” you suggested to Jumin. “I’ll do the windows while you do that.”

Jumin nodded, grabbing gumdrops and nestling them into the pile of frosting on the roof. As you were piping a window into place, part of the roof fell on your frosting bag, squirting frosting all over the side of the house. “Jumin!” You squealed.

“Sorry. I think I pressed too hard.” He sounded stressed. He grabbed the roof and tried to stick it back on. “How much time do we have?” He asked Jaehee.

“Thirty seconds.”

“Thirty seconds!?” You exclaimed. “Hurry Jumin stick it back on!!!” You desperately tried to scrape the excess frosting off the wall of the house. Looks like you were losing this one.

“And time!”

You set the frosting bag down. You couldn’t stop giggling. You glanced over at Yoosung’s. It looked so good it could have been on the front of the ‘build your own’ kits. “Look at ours!” You told him, trying to contain your laughter.

The second you all turned to look the roof caved in and fell again. “It... has a skylight.” Jumin explained, trying to make up an excuse for why you would be missing HALF the roof.

“Why is there all that snow on the one side?” Yoosung asked. He seemed genuinely confused.

“Uh... blizzard came in from the North,” you explained.

Jumin chuckled at that one.

“Well that’s an awful place to have a skylight then. Wouldn’t it snow all over the house?” Why did Yoosung think this design was intentional? Did he hear all your frantic squealing?

“Uh... creativity.” Jumin shrugged. “We don’t need a judge. You can send the judge away. We can just give this one to Yoosung.” His cheeks were bright red; he obviously did not want to show off the current house, fully in shambles because of the two of you. It was honestly hysterical.

“And for your prize Yoosung we got you a LOLOL gift card!” You cheered, handing the card to Yoosung. He thanked the two of you for letting him join and gave you both a quick little hug. He was the absolute sweetest.

“We’ve got another comment this time around,” Jumin informed you, grabbing onto your hand and shifting closer to you to get more comfortable.

“Okay, you wanna read it?”

Jumin scooted closer to the screen so he could read it better. “They say ‘Hi! I love you two so much. You seem like the sweetest couple. Will you be my mom and dad?’” Jumin turned to look at you. “I don’t quite understand how that works.” Back to the camera. “You want us to adopt you?”

“Oh! Thank you for the message. Uhm, Honey, I think they mean like ‘internet mom and dad’” you explained.

“What’s that?”

“No adoption necessary. Just like... you know what? I don’t know how to explain it. I’d love to be your mom, so long as you don’t expect me to do anything ,” you told the camera, smiling widely.

“Sure okay. Then I can handle the role of dad.” Jumin shrugged. “We’re going to go for a five minute break now and then bring back some more guests for even more fun activities.”

You were super excited to bring in Jaehee and V. You were going to ask them to be the baby’s godparents. It was so exciting and so special, but right now, your main focus was that during this break you had to pee.

Part 2 coming soon :))

#mystic messenger #mysme #Jumin han #// OOOPS FORGOT TO ADD TAGS #// SHOUTOUT TO THE FOLLOWERS WHO ALREADY SAW THIS LOL #itsannaslife

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fnbdkfbdkfljskfkfbf · 3 years

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Memento Mori

First of all, I watched the whole livestream with no breaks. I didn't want to miss any of it.

I'm too nervous to do this on my real tumblr, so I'll be doing this here, but I really want to get my words out. Who knows if Mark or Ethan will ever see this, but right now just getting it out is most important.

When the channel first started it was so exciting for me. The whiplash from the fine suits to cooking with sex toys always makes me smile. I wasn't able to watch every video or keep up with every day. I've caught up on some, but I'm content on what I've seen. What I haven't seen, I just won't see, and I'm actually fine with that.

This year has been ride for everyone probably. I went through so many highs and lows. I had a vacation, my mom got a new boyfriend, I reconnected with an old friend, I lost some pets, I lost some friends, I got a boyfriend and then he broke up with me after my 18th birthday, I got a snake, I'm studying something i'm passionate about. I never thought I'd have a plan for the future until recently, really. I never really had hope for myself. This year has been a ride. Alot of smiles and tears. Maybe more tears than I would have liked, but that can't be helped.

What really stuck with me during the livestream was Ethan talking about 'Memento Mori'. That it doesn't just mean 'remember death' but also to remember life.

As a person with horrible depression and anxiety, I never really think about how much time I spend wasting away in my bed. I still do things like draw, watch videos, and do my school work, but I never leave the house. I haven't showered in a while, I forget to drink sometimes, and overall i'm in bad shape. I never think about how many precious seconds I'm wasting. I am scared of death, but I never realized how much I haven't been living. I want to be able to get through my fears, and be able to create and continue living. I want to get out more, and be able to take care of myself. Most importantly, I want to learn to value my life. Cause my life is so fragile, it could end without me achieving anything. I don't want to die pitiful.

It's 3 am. When I wake up, I plan on showering, brushing my teeth, doing my chores and eating breakfast. It's a small step admittedly, but still a step. Depression is so hard to deal with, but I don't want it to stop me anymore.

Hopefully this next year I can grow. Maybe I'll be able to make more videos, create more art, get out more. I want to have a life worth living.

Mark and Ethan have done so much for me. They were here for my highs and lows, even if they don't even know who I am. They always made me laugh. The videos that used to be on Unus Annus, I want to be able to experience as much as them. Maybe not the exact same experiences, there's stuff I'm unwilling to do, but I'd like to try new things, meet new people and just. Live for once.

Unus Annus is over, but I doubt I'll ever forget it. I didn't have enough money to buy a shirt, but I got the poster that's coming soon.

I never used to be hopeful for my future. I'm still a bit skeptical, but I'm starting to see a small little glimmer for me. Maybe things will turn out alright. Maybe I can make it. Only the future knows.

I can't express enough how much all of Unus Annus meant to me, the videos, the laughs and the entertainment and absolute joy. There's so much I want to say, but I just can't form words.

Just, thank you so much for sharing this experience. I'm so glad I could be here for this amazing event. It'll definitely go down in youtube history.

Thank you for everything. The channel may be dead but the rest of us can move forwards and hopefully better ourselves for the coming year. It'll be hard, but that's how life is. I just know I won't be taking this climb alone, and it warms my heart.

I can't really thank you enough for this.

Goodbye Unus Annus

Memento Mori

Sincerely and with love, a random fan

#unus annus #unus annus is over party #memento mori #goodbye unus annus #goodbye #markiplier #crankgameplays #mark fischbach #ethan nestor #im nervous but excited #i love these guys so much

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The Spiral of Narcissistic Abuse: Onision Edition

I originally wrote this post in April 2017, but in the year and a half since it’s been published, there have been literally dozens of new victims targeted by Greg (Onision) and his wife Lainey (Laineybot) that I felt were severe enough to warrant inclusion; and so here I am to re-write this post to include this new information.

1. “Love Bombing”: Display of excessive attention and professions of deep love. “Soul mate.”

Love bombing is the practice of overwhelming a person in a new relationship with signs of adoration and attraction in the form of gifts, compliments, meaningful gestures, discussions revolving around long-term future plans (marriage, children, vacations, etc), and professions of true love. The difference between love bombing and genuine love is that real love is earned over time through intimacy, trust, and consistency, whereas love bombing creates artificial feelings of intimacy that have not yet been earned.

Greg routinely engages in love-bombing when it comes to either a) trying to lure in new victims, or b) making attempts to reel in previous victims (such as exes), or current victims who are becoming disillusioned with him and beginning to pull away. In 2015, after Greg had convinced his wife Lainey to “explore her bisexuality” by getting a girlfriend, she had settled on an 18-year-old YouTube personality and makeup guru named Billie, and flew her down to their house for a visit. What Greg neglected to tell Lainey was that he had ulterior motives for pushing her to get a girlfriend, and this was because he wanted to convince Lainey and whoever her girlfriend was to enter a three-way, polyamorous triad with him. While Billie was there, in an attempt to draw her in, Greg showered her with gifts, compliments, and an excessive amount of attention and admiration; according to him, he paid her $1800 a month to manage his social media accounts, spent thousands of dollars buying her gifts of makeup and clothing, and his videos were full of glowing compliments towards Billie.

He tweeted this at Billie after she managed to “fix” a broken camera lens by throwing it on the ground. He screams at his own children just for losing at Mario Kart, could you imagine Onision having this reaction to anybody else treating his expensive equipment that way?

Every time he and Lainey broke up with Billie (usually because she refused to go along with their bizarrely strict and controlling expectations for her behavioral conduct, such as having to ask their permission before smoking weed - and yes, you read that correctly; the problem was not that she was smoking weed because it was illegal (as Greg and Lainey had originally claimed), the problem was that she didn’t ask their permission before doing it), Greg would begin to reel Lainey back in by trying to love bomb her again. This comment was made just two days after he’d cheated on Lainey with Billie, while she was pregnant with their second child:

…and every time they get back together, he begins love bombing Billie again, and ignoring Lainey. He is careful not to do this overtly on Twitter or Instagram like he does with Lainey, but during this time, he expends much more effort into communicating with Billie over Twitter and in videos than he does with Lainey. He is also very clearly more physically affectionate towards Billie in videos where the three of them appear together than he is with his own wife.

(And maybe this is just my unprofessional opinion, but the manner in which he compliments Lainey rings much more hollow and inauthentic to me than the compliments he used to give to Billie. It comes off as very rote and robotic, not genuine or sincere.)

2. Over-protection and isolation in the name of love. “We only need each other.”

One of the most common tactics that abusers use to control their victims is by isolating them from friends and family. They do this so that it’s harder for them to escape or see the truth of what’s happening to them. This behavior is manifested in ways such as convincing the victim to stay at home and not have a job, by controlling all of the money that flows through the household (including the victim’s money, if they DO have a job), and by slowly convincing the victim to stop talking to their friends and family members, because the narcissist “doesn’t think they’re good for [them]”. Without a sense of perspective or anybody from whom to gain a third-party point of view, it’s extremely difficult for the victim to objectively analyze the severity of the situation.

Throughout the history of his relationships, Greg follows this pattern with all of his partners to the tee. He makes repeated attempts to convince Billie to stop flying home to spend time with her friends and family members, who she is extremely close with.

Unbelievably, he attempts to manipulate her by bragging about how he’d already managed to successfully convince Lainey to not visit her own family more than once a year. In a livestream, Lainey once admitted that earlier this month (October 2018) was the first time she’s attended a family funeral in over five years, because Greg wouldn’t give her permission to go to any of the other ones. He also frequently attacks Lainey’s family on social media, as well as diminishing them in Lainey’s eyes by making his disapproval of them quite clear:

This is what he said about Lainey’s sister:

He especially does this to Lainey’s father, who saw through Greg from the very beginning, and desperately tried to stop his 17-year-old daughter from marrying him:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8sAjnkASwOo

He also did this with Skye while they were still married, restricting her from seeing anybody but members of his own family, and members of her family that he approved of (which was basically just her younger sister, a 15-year-old girl who Greg admitted to fantasizing about having sex with, including (more than once) accidentally moaning her name while being intimate with Skye). A quote from his website at the time:

January 24th, 2007

Alright, so it has been a few days since Skye and I hung out with another couple… judging from the fact that these people were the only ones we knew that had a lifestyle that wasn’t drugged out, beered out (also known as drugged out), smoked out, ethically lacking, rude etc. and we can’t even enjoy ourselves around them as much as we do each other… I just really don’t see myself and Skye spending time with anyone in the future other than family…

It seems that everyone who isn’t blood related has something extremely wrong with them… it may not be apparent at first, like a used car, but when you get on the road with them, and get to know them, the clanks and pings begin to show, maybe not after the first few miles, but definitely after the second or third ride.

(Source)

This isolation of Skye got so bad that eventually, two of their friends actually tried to convince her to leave Greg:

January 27th, 2007

I was going to post something extremely long about how upset I am with two people I know, within my personal life - who are continuously trying to break my wife and I apart psychically and vocally… but I’m not going to as I believe it can only cause a greater level of drama, which is exactly what they feed on.

In fact, they probably know I’m talking about them right now, and are dialing my number just to tell me/others how wrong I am for my wife, and somehow by saying I love her every hour of the day, feeding her full of yummy food, trying to make her happy emotionally/other ways, putting a roof over her head, that in result of that I’m a bad husband.

(Source)

A former classmate of Greg, who had gone to high school with both he and Skye, also gave an interview with someguy827, in which he detailed his observations of Greg slowly but surely isolating Skye from all of her friends and family members:

You can read the interview here. (Source)

And read the comment that he made on lolcow here. (Source)

3. Power gained by social isolation and artificially inflated self-esteem. “I feel like a better person with I am with them.”

Greg has claimed this about every single one of his exes. I can’t track down photographic examples of him claiming this about all of them never mind, I managed to find examples of him saying this to at least three different women. Here’s an example of when he said it to ex-girlfriend Adrienne:

Keep in mind that they had been dating for a grand total of two weeks when he made the claim to her that she had helped him grow into a better person in the short amount of time they’d been together.

He made the same claim about a high school girlfriend, Tanya, whom - again - he had known for only a couple of weeks; and they were not even officially dating when he said this to her:

Here is another example of him saying this about his first wife, Skye - again, only weeks into their relationship. The journal entry this screenshot was lifted from is much longer and I was having trouble pasting it into the body of this text in a way that was readable, so here’s a very short, cropped version of what he said. You can find the source for this quote here. (Source)

At the end of his relationship with Adrienne - while they were in the process of breaking up - he called her repeatedly while she was at work, leaving her over a dozen voicemails in less than a day. During this time, Adrienne managed to get in touch with Shiloh, another of Greg’s exes, to compare notes about the similarities in their relationship. When Shiloh listened to the voicemails that Greg had sent to Adrienne, she posted this comment on Facebook:

He had been telling the two women, only hours apart from each other, about how special and meaningful they were to him. The saddest thing about this is that at the same time, he was also calling Skye; and this exchange between himself, Shiloh, and Adrienne occurred only days before he started talking to Lainey.

4. Creation of a feeling of dependency; induction of fear of the loss of relationship.

One of the ways that Greg likes to induce feelings of psychological dependence on him is through a tactic called “manipulation break-ups”. The phenomenon is explained here by dwayners13:

One of the most common tactics used by manipulative & emotionally abusive individuals is the ‘manipulation breakup’. This is simply when a person repeatedly breaks up with their partner, not because they truly want to end their relationship, but rather to gain power & control over their partner & the relationship in general. There are a variety of issues & events that can cause a manipulation breakup (far too many to list here), but it can range from their partner doing something they don’t like/approve of to the emotionally abusive person being confronted on their abusive/manipulative behavior (by their partner &/or their partner’s family/friends). [...] Instead of taking the time to discuss or even arguing about the issue in an attempt to resolve it, the person will just break up with them, knowing that their partner doesn’t want to break up. They will then refuse to speak with them about the issue (& the relationship in general), essentially shunning or ignoring their attempts. This can include ignoring phone calls, text messages, VMs etc.., If the couple live together, they will simply refuse to speak with their partner (aka the silent treatment). Their intention is to make it seem like the relationship is over, so that the person will practically beg & plead with their partner & be willing to agree to anything in order to get back together.

(Source)

Greg and Lainey both admitted to him doing this multiple times throughout their relationship; and still, to this day, they admit that he attempts to break up with her every single time they argue, even though they’re married and have been for over seven years. It is extremely abnormal for a 34-year-old father of two who has been married for seven years to threaten to “break up” with his wife every time they get into an argument. These attempts at manipulation on Greg’s part terrify Lainey so much that she readily complies with whatever he wants in order to convince him not to leave her. This pattern could not be more apparent than how this manipulation tactic played out in their relationship with Billie.

During the time when Greg and Lainey were in a polyamorous relationship with Billie, Lainey expressed repeated discomfort about Greg and Billie spending so much time together while she was excluded by having to spend so much time cooking, cleaning, looking after their their son (she was pregnant with their daughter at the time), and managing their household (which we now know, thanks to Maya, that Greg does not help out with at all, meaning that Lainey spent the vast majority of her day doing these things while Greg and Billie were in another room playing games, making videos, and hanging out). She felt that Billie was only there for Greg, and was not comfortable with them being sexually intimate together, even when it was all three of them together. After a while of this - despite Lainey’s continued discomfort, disapproval, and lack of consent (which is vital for any healthy, functioning polyamorous triad) - Greg told Lainey that there would be more more boundaries, no more jealousy, and that he and Billie were going to do whatever they wanted, whenever they wanted; and that if Lainey didn’t like it, then he was going to divorce her.

Naturally, terrified of losing her husband, her family, her home, her source of income, and the only lifestyle that she’d ever known - with a three-year-old in tow, and pregnant with their second child - Lainey felt forced to remain in the three-way relationship that she didn’t even want to begin with.

A quote from his video, “Onision’s Break Up Story”:

“I told my wife that there would be no more rules in the relationship. That there would be no more boundaries, no more jealousy, and that I would do what I want.”

(Source)

After this quote, Greg goes on to explain that he reassured his wife that he had no intention of leaving her; however, how could Lainey believe this, when just a few months before he had attempted to leave her for Billie, which only didn’t end up happening because Billie told him that she didn’t feel right about it? When he had threatened to leave her so many times before over much smaller and less significant things? He goes on to say this:

“Regardless, it is important to note that Billie did tell me that she thought Lainey might be upset if she and I slept together, but every time she indicated she was worried, I would remind her of the conversation I had with Lainey where I repeatedly told her there would be no more boundaries, we would all have balanced relationships, and that there would be no jealousy.”

This is an ultimatum. The reason why Lainey went to Billie to ask her not to sleep with Greg is because she already knew that he would shut her down if she tried. Ask yourself this question: for what reason would a woman feel more comfortable asking other women not to sleep with her husband, instead of just going straight to the source and simply asking her husband not to sleep with other women instead? The answer is that it’s because she already knew that he would say no and try to divorce her if she kept bringing it up. It is not unreasonable for Lainey to believe Greg capable of doing this, considering that he has admitted in the past to leaving one woman for another (when he left Skye for Shiloh in 2011):

Greg doesn’t just do this to Lainey, however; he has done this, to my knowledge, with every other woman he’s ever dated. The following is a screenshot of a portion of the letter written by Adrienne - the 26-year-old that Greg dated for three weeks just before he met Lainey - describing how Greg attempted to manipulate her through making her fear the loss of the relationship:

Later on in the same letter:

The entirety of the letter written by Adrienne can be read here. If you’re interested in understanding how Greg’s mind works, I highly recommend reading it - it is extremely insightful, analytical, and well-written.

5. Restrictive control of resources and activities enforced by induction of guilt, or fear of anger.

It’s no secret that Greg attempts to restrict the activities that his girlfriends are allowed to participate in. This ranges from the aforementioned control over how often they’re allowed to visit their families, to whether or not they’re allowed to have a job (a tactic reported by several of his exes and by Greg himself), to how often they’re allowed to go out with their friends, and even to what they are and are not allowed to eat.

In the following screenshot, a blog post by Shiloh months after they’d broken up, she details how he not only manipulated her into cutting off contact with her friends and family back home, but also convinced her to put her music career on hold so that they could be together all the time:

(You can read the full post here.)

He also talked Skye into quitting her job once he began making enough money off YouTube, with the reasoning that couples should be spending at least 50% of their time together. (I’m having trouble finding the screenshot for this, but it’s out there somewhere - I’ve seen it before.) Here is a similar screenshot, however:

He would also become extremely angry with Adrienne when she wanted to go out with her friends…

...and tried to manipulate her into quitting her job, moving in with him, and depending entirely on him as her source of income, all within three weeks of meeting her.

6. Gaslighting causes victim to doubt what they see or hear. Inability to trust own thoughts and reasoning.

When Lainey first broke up with Greg and was considering divorce after he cheated on her with Billie, she admitted that she had never even wanted a girlfriend to begin with, and that it had been Greg who was pressuring her into it…

…but later, when Lainey recounted her side of the story in a response video to the one that Billie released, she adamantly maintained that it was she who had wanted to experiment with her bisexuality - evidence that Greg had been gaslighting her into believing that he was not at fault, yet again, and that it was Lainey who had desired to keep bringing back Billie over and over again. The tweet posted in first part of this screenshot was taken only six months after the tweet in the second part:

In addition - despite having told Lainey that it was his decision to sleep with Billie, and despite having literally admitted in a video that he published on YouTube to Billie having repeatedly brought up her discomfort with going behind Lainey’s back in order to be intimate with Greg - he still managed to convince Lainey to doubt her own perceptions enough to the point where she now, to this day - over two years later - still considers Billie to be the homewrecker, and that it was Billie who cheated on her with Greg, not Greg who cheated on her with Billie. That is how manipulative he is.

During one of the periods in time when Greg and Lainey had broken up with Billie yet again, Lainey began talking to a new girl named Hailey (known online as Luxymoo). At first, Hailey believed that her relationship with Lainey would be exclusive; but after Greg informed her that the relationship would actually be an open polyamorous one, she realized that she was uncomfortable with the arrangement and decided to pull out. Despite the fact that she had every right to choose not to go through with it, Greg then attempted to gaslight her and invalidate her feelings:

After that I started doing research on what it meant to be in a three way relationship, I came to the conclusion that it wasn’t for me. Which killed me, because all I wanted to do was be with Lainey. I wanted to try for them, but at the end of the day, I had to consider my personal feelings on the matter. I knew I couldn’t be what they wanted, because I wanted Lainey.

I told Lainey as soon as I came to that conclusion. I wanted to be honest. I didn’t want to drag it out. Lainey didn’t respond to me.. but Greg did. He said that if he were in my position, he would do whatever it takes to be with Lainey. He said that I didn’t really care about Lainey, that all I was looking for was friendship. He said that he thought my mind was broken. He said he thought I may be sexually dormant. He then would say that he thinks i’m a good person and that i’m the safer alternative. He called me a good distraction.

He wanted me to still come up. But that was a fleeting thought. He said friendship would be hard, and that I was doing everything I could to avoid a relationship with Lainey. Then he pitched the idea of me being with Lainey exclusively, while he’s with Lainey exclusively. Like we wouldn’t be doing sexual things together. I still declined because 1. he had spent so much time invalidating MY feelings on the matter, attacking my personality, pressuring me, etc. and 2. I also knew that that wasn’t what they wanted, and I told him that we would still hit that road block of me wanting exclusiveness. He had said in a previous conversation that it was like him and Lainey were on an island and I had a boat, but I wouldn’t throw them a life line because I wasn’t the right boat.

(The full conversation and screenshot can be seen here.)

He also tried to use this tactic on Maya - a girl who dated Lainey very briefly in late 2017 - in an attempt to preemptively gaslight her and discredit her, should she choose to come forward with her story about what he did to her:

Which he did, in fact, try to do later on, by attempting to accuse Maya of being a “homewrecker” for “wiggling while she was sitting on his lap” (despite not mentioning that he was the one who had placed her there, which she did not consent to, and only went along with because she felt so uncomfortable). The posts detailing her full account can be found here and here.

7. Increased emotional and psychological dependence of victim on abuser.

Greg has already succeeded in doing this with Lainey and many other girlfriends in the past, and has attempted to do this to several more. When married to Skye, Greg insisted that she not have a job outside of the home because he believes that a couple should spend most of their time together (despite later claiming that spouses who do not have a job outside the home, or at least have children, are useless). After meeting Shiloh, despite the fact that she was a celebrity in Canada at the time they met, he forced her to quit her singing career and move in with him to work for and with him full-time; to this day, over seven years later, her singing career still has not recovered. Upon breaking up with Shiloh, he dated a woman named Adrienne, who he attempted to manipulate into moving in with him within three weeks of the start of their relationship - and she almost did. And likewise, when he began dating Lainey, within a month of meeting her, he had proposed to her, rented a house in the state where she lived so that she could finish high school, and then married and impregnated her within the year, so that he could groom her and keep tabs on her until she was old enough to marry.

Lainey does not have a job, and is completely financially and psychologically dependent upon Greg for not just survival, but her very sense of identity and self-worth as a person. In fact, she is so dependent on Greg as a source of ego regulation that I wrote an entire post breaking down and analyzing my impression of Lainey’s personality matrix because I was so baffled by the extent of her psychological dependency on him. You can read it here, if you’re curious (and have a lot of spare time).

8. Punishment through anger, verbal abuse, forced isolation, character assassination, etc.

When angry with ex-girlfriend Shiloh, he pushed her into a door frame, causing her to miscarry (although some people do not believe that she was pregnant, since she and Greg had once faked a pregnancy and stillbirth):

He also forced her to shave her head bald, calling her a “whore”, “his property”, and “a good bitch”:

When Billie lied to him about smoking weed, he attempted to punish her by forcing her to dye her eyebrows green, shave off her hair (the third time he has attempted to, or succeeded in, manipulating a girlfriend to shave her hair off), get an ugly tan, be chained to his basement wall for a week wearing a sign saying “I’m sorry for lying Lainey” around her neck, and tattoo “I’m a liar” in the small of her back:

When he breaks up with exes, he also slanders and demeans their character on social media. He even does this with friends, other YouTubers, and sometimes just with people - usually women - that he doesn’t like. Including myself, by the way:

Proud moment. :’)

He made a video criticizing his ex (Adrienne) for the number of sexual partners she’s had, as well as implying that her vaginal hygiene was poor, and even made a series of videos in which he went and got himself tested for various STDs in order to imply that she was so promiscuous that she could have given him one (a video which later got deleted off YouTube when he realized how many downvotes it was getting); however, you can see her reference the video in her letter here:

When he and Skye divorced, he slandered her by calling her a thief and a liar, and continued to milk sympathy from his fans by implying that he was unfairly being forced to pay alimony, even though he agreed to the amount in the settlement, and she was rightly owed that money for her part in producing his early Onision videos.

When he broke up with Billie, he said and did several things to demean her character, including calling her a drug addict, imply that she’s “less than” for being a high school dropout who lives with her parents still, and also revealed to his entire fan base that she has an eating disorder, accused her family of being drugs addicts, and that she had been sexually assaulted and had an abortion, a secret which she had previously revealed to only a handful of close friends and family:

After Blaire White called him out for his actions, he made a video calling her so many different vile names, with such vitriolic hatred in his voice, that I actually have trouble watching it all the way through. You can really see his narcissistic rage coming out in this video.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lEVHT6No5Xc

He has exhibited this cycle over and over again with YouTuber Cyr, who he has been friends with off and on for years:

Most recently - meaning since I first wrote this post (about a year and a half ago) - he has continued in this pattern of slandering ex-girlfriends and ex-friends a further three or four times at least; and so this is the part of this sub-heading that will provide new information that was not included in my old post.

After Jaclyn Glenn began dating Richie of SocialRepose, Greg flew off the handle, making a series of insulting comments about Jaclyn’s physical appearance on Twitter and YouTube, including remarking that tall women are gross, and that had she been dating him, he never would have allowed her to get breast implants, because they’re disgusting (and she’s disgusting for having them):

Since she has broken up with Richie, Greg has now reverted to his attempts at love-bombing Jaclyn (and her friend Jessie Paege) on Twitter, hoping to reignite their friendship (and the possibility of bringing her into a new trinity with Lainey, or at least hoping that she’ll be able to give a boost to his YouTube career).

A few months ago, a close friend of both Greg and Lainey - model, actress, and member of the BDSM community Madison DeCambra - made a video with Greg about the DDlg (Daddy Dom/little girl) kink, which was received very poorly by the DDlg community. Feeling responsible for having hurt and contributed to the misrepresentation of the community that she loves so much, Madison posted a video on YouTube apologizing for any pain that her involvement in Greg’s video may have caused. Greg reacted to this by terminating their six-year-long friendship, as well as - predictably - going on a tirade of character assassinations against her on Twitter, including bringing her two-year-old daughter into it despite having previously accused anyone willing to bring a person’s children up during an argument of being trash.

These were the texts he sent to Madison, which he then posted publicly on Twitter in order to discard and defame her:

(Source)

Here is a screenshot of Madison arguing with TomatoBisquette (another former friend of Greg’s whom he has discarded, in his case for being friendly towards MrRepzion, a YouTuber who Greg hates for having called him out in the past), who had tried to make light of how upset she was when Greg posted on Twitter telling her that he was disgusted by her and never considered her a friend:

He also used the opportunity to take another pot-shot at Beck - a former fan of Greg and Lainey before she, too, was ousted from their lives - for defending Madi:

However, the worst part of this interaction is that he chose to bring Madison’s two-year-old daughter into the argument, just because he was angry with her mother. Here was Madison’s (understandably angry and hurt) response:

A recent addition to the roster of the Avaroe’s stable of ex-friends, Maya - a 19-year-old bartender who briefly dated Lainey, and who visited them for about a week over the Christmas holidays in 2017 - described Greg’s behavior towards her as being bizarrely, uncomfortably interested in probing her about her past. She felt that he was pressing her for information to use against her in the future, and described the odd, inappropriate expression of pleasure that would come across his face while he was listening to a person describe some misfortune that had befallen them:

It would take me ages to compile a list of all of the exes, friends, YouTubers, and other randoms that he’s demeaned on social media or in his videos, so instead I’m just going to provide a (probably incomplete, and still-growing) list of people whose characters he has assassinated on Twitter or YouTube:

Exes: Skye, Shiloh, Adrienne, Billie

Friends: Cyr, Andy Biersack (and his father), TomatoBisquette, Maya, Madison DeCambra, Beck, Jaclyn Glenn

YouTubers: Social Repose, Blaire White, Eugenia Cooney, Dan Howell, Keemstar, LeafyIsHere

Other: Ayallah (best friend of Billie, ex-girlfriend of Social Repose), Lainey’s family (father and sister), his own father, Luxymoo (Hailey)

9. Scouting new supply.

Before he had even divorced Skye, he moved on to Shiloh. When Shiloh left him and went back to Canada, he met Adrienne. When he broke up with Adrienne and she refused to take him back, he was texting Shiloh and Skye within 24 hours. When Skye, Shiloh, and Adrienne all refused to take him back, he then moved on to Lainey, who he had met and proposed marriage to within just a few short weeks of meeting. When he got bored of the ultimate power that he exerted over Lainey, he used her as queerbait to pull in Billie. When he and Lainey broke up with Billie - still bored with Lainey - he began auditioning new girls for a spot in his harem (Hailey/Luxymoo, Eryn, Maya, Sam, Beck). Here is a timeline of Greg’s known romantic relationships over the past fifteen years:

If Greg’s high school classmate is to be believed, however, then there are many, many women that Greg has been with that did not make this list.

And finally, here’s a funny, tongue-in-cheek chart chronicling the pattern of what happens when Greg and Lainey bring a new girl into the house:

Lainey doesn’t know it yet, but this entire cycle is going to begin repeating itself sooner or later. It’s just a matter of time. I wouldn’t be surprised if they were lowkey auditioning girls as I write this.

10. Acting as though nothing happened.

Need I say more?

#onision #laineybot #narcissism #npd #abuse #anti onision #anti o

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Yumeiro Cast Dream Show 2017 event report!

In my short time in Japan I’ve attended quite a few concerts and seiyuu events, and this concert is honestly one of the best that I’ve experienced. I know this blog is mostly for QUELL, but I don’t have anywhere else to share this from... Feel free to scroll past if this isn’t for you.

I’ll also be rambling a lot about Hatanaka Tasuku and Hayashi Yuu ;w;

I recall regretting applying for tickets at some point, because having to travel from Kyoto to Tokyo (or rather, Chiba, since the venue was Makuhari Messe) just for the concert was a huge pain, and very expensive. Boy, am I glad I did though. To begin with, getting tickets to ANY popular event is a tough process. You have to enter a draw to have a shot at getting a ticket, and if you miss out on that, you’ll have to buy the tickets when they go on sale later, and they usually sell out in under ten seconds. I’m not kidding. I’ve experienced this pain. On multiple occasions. Anyway, the first draw was opened to players only (the URL link was a banner in the game’s home screen), which is a really nice gesture. I managed to get a ticket in this draw :)

I arrived at the venue about 30 minutes before the show and bypassed the merchandise corner, as the queue looked scary and I didn’t have much time. Jumped in the queue to take a photograph of the standees (pictured above; and yes, there was a queue for this too), which took about 15 minutes, and then rushed over to join a queue for one of the bathrooms (all of them had long queues /pukes blood). I started chatting with a lady in a cute dress in line behind me and found out that we both have Kaito as our fav (plus Subaru for me). She was happy to find another Kaito fan and whipped out a couple of beautifully packaged small prints from her bag and handed them to me *_* Turns out she’s an artists and draws a lot of Kaito!! I was so surprised but flattered and felt bad about not having anything on hand to give her in return... I just gave her the kiwi bird badge from my backpack that I picked up while traveling in New Zealand, sweats...

Minutes till starting time and we were still caught in the queue, though getting very close to the bathroom. We debated giving up and leaving to find our seats so we wouldn’t miss the opening act, but decided to stay since having to leave halfway through the show for the bathroom would be worse. A few minutes later we heard screams coming from the arena and thought that the show had started, but the girl behind us assured us that they were just playing some promotional videos on the big screen and that nothing was happening on stage. We passed the message on to the group of girls in front of us as we heard them fretting about the same thing. Community spirit!

I parted ways with my new friend after leaving the bathroom and went to find my seat; inside the arena the lights had already been dimmed and clearly something was about to start. I was still stumbling around in the dark when all seven members of Yumeiro Company burst onto stage to the tune of CALL HEAVEN!! and by the time I found my spot they were probably halfway through the song;;;;

My seat was on the third floor, but quite close to the left side of the stage, so in a way it was a good spot as I could just barely make out the faces of the performers standing on my side of the stage. Their formation, from right to left: Subaru, Kaito, Sousei, Kyouya, Hinata, Iori, and Jin. I was still shaky from scrambling to find my seat and honestly don’t remember much, but I know that they were all dressed sharply in formal suits, and that the chorus had a dance routine that was fun and cheerful, fitting of a musical show. As we all know, the cast of YumeCast has a lot of strong singers, so I could relax and appreciate the vocals. I managed to find my pen light too and was ready to finally join the party :3

After the opening act I thought they would break for an introductory talk, but they launched straight into the next song. Everyone except Kyoya left the stage as the intro for Kyoya’s solo, Kimi ni Chikatta Monogatari started playing, and we all scrambled to change our pen lights to pink. Tbh I think Ohsaka Ryota’s one of the less experienced singers in the group, but I was pleasantly surprised by his solid performance. He definitely leveled up a lot since the start of YumeCast, and each of his graceful, princely gestures was very much Kyoya.

Hinata jumped onto stage next to perform Glass no Shoes ha Niawanai (I should mention that these solos were game-sized length and played back to back like a medley). We all melted at how cute he was, and he even slipped in a few lines directed at “oneesan! ;)” *Audience screams and dies* Uemura Yuuto’s usually a good singer but he went off-pitch a few times, probably due to nerves...

Iori was next with Tsumetai Yozora wo Terasu no ha. This is the third time I’ve seen Hanae Natsuki live, and you can tell he’s a seasoned performer by how comfortable he is on stage, and how his vocals are always clear and steady. His lines as Iori made a lot of people in the audience scream, but honestly whenever I see Hanae his joker character is all I register and I couldn’t really appreciate Iori LOL.

Kaito appeared on stage, rocking along to PASSION LASER BEAM, and this is where I died. Hayashi Yuu is phenomenal to watch live, he’s arguably one of the best singers of the group and is amazing at working the crowd, which isn’t surprising considering he’s the vocalist of Screen Mode. Hayashu brought a living, breathing Kaito onto stage in all his haughty glory T_____T It’s my dream to one day catch Screen Mode live as well...

Jin’s Kokoro no (ry was up next. I have to admit that I’m not a fan of Jin’s singing, I think it forces Ono Yuuki to fake a lower register which stifles his singing and it sounds unnatural, which is a shame when Onoyuu has such a lovely smooth voice. Onoyuu kept his fooling around to a minimum at this point, but he couldn’t stop his sunny trademark grin ww

SUBARU! WITH BACKDANCERS!!! Performing You & Me... de, Wave!!! If I had to pick a fav moment in the show, this would be it. Hatanaka Tasuku is SUCH a skilled singer, there’s so much energy in his voice, and his solo even included an intense dance routine which was amazing to watch. This is my fav solo charasong from YumeCast and Subaru completely smashed it... I’m buying the DVD later so I can watch it again ;____; I was so blown-away by the performance that I didn’t even notice what he was wearing >< I also noticed that one of the security staff near my block, who, up till then, was doing a good job of checking on the audience, couldn’t help but look at the stage once Subaru started singing. He watched up till the 2nd chorus lol before turning back to his job.

[OOT: This is my second time meeting Tasuku and each time I see him I feel like a proud mother watching her son grow by leaps and bounds >< The first time I met him was at the 5th fan meeting for Nariyuki Night, hosted by Tasuku and Yonaga Tsubasa. It was a small, cosy event of maybe 200 people, and it blew my mind that we got to see them at such a close distance. The coolest part was that they implemented a bunch of interactive activities to get the audience involved, one of which was a game where they had to guess an item based on clues shown on screen and borrow it from the audience.... Which meant that they had to run up and down the aisles of the seats, and at one point Yonaga grabbed a girl’s hand and escorted her down to the stage *_* Tasuku came by my seat and stopped to think about clues, so I literally had him standing next to me for like half a minute ahjghadllkjad. Also they were dressed in school uniform as one of the many suggestions for the “summer theme”; Yonaga in a beige vest, short sleeves, and colourful hairclips in his hair (he really looked like Nagisa from Free!), and Tasuku with a loose red tie and long shirt sleeves rolled up to his elbows. Cute af. Prior to that I’d only seen Tasuku on livestreams and heard him on radio, and I’m glad to report that he’s every bit as earnest and clumsy in person as he is on air, like an awkward oversized puppy still learning how to walk but excited for someone to throw him a ball ;w;]

The last solo was Sousei’s Dare mo ga Ashi(ry. I was looking forward to this as I’ve been a fan of Toyonaga Toshiyuki since his Tenimyu days, and I love his singing voice. He wasn’t as smooth as in the recorded version, but still a delight to hear live.

Without giving us time to catch our breath, the show moved on to the next song. Hinata appeared on stage in a dark suit and a cape, accompanied by dancers dressed in ghoulish outfits. It was Mysterious Mission! This was a super fun song with a cute zombie dance, and at one point Hinata was hoisted up onto the shoulders of the backdancers in a sort of ALL HAIL YOUR CUTE MONSTER LORD routine. An oh, all the songs from this point on were performed in full :3

Next, Subaru and Jin appeared in santa outfits for Holy Melody Night. This is probably one of my least favourite songs in YumeCast, imo it’s the wrong key for both singers and doesn’t really showcase their voices. They were both so cute on stage though! Running from one end of the stage to the other and waving at us with huge smiles. The concert hall was enveloped in a warm, sparkly atmosphere ;w;

Next was the moment I had been waiting for - Kaito’s Kamigami no Senen (still not sure about the reading for the last 2 kanji tbh). I was hoping that this song would be included in the set list T_______T Kaito caused a stir when he appeared on the stage at the back of the arena, which I wasn’t even aware of. Dressed in graceful white robes and enveloped in mist, he was so beautiful to watch, I forgot to breathe... This song is a Big Deal for me because it’s an unseen side of both Kaito and Hayashu; before Kamigami neither have ever performed with such delicate vocals afaik. Even Screen Mode’s ballads have a completely different feel. When the song ended, the audience quietly broke into applause, instead of the cheering or screaming that happened with other songs...

Kyoya appeared back on the main stage with Sand Mirage, dressed in an Arabian Nights-esque costume and matching dancers. I’m very fond of this song, it’s so catchy and seems to fit Kyoya’s vocal range the most! And it definitely showed off his singing skills. Beautiful vibrato on the notes at the end of the chorus ;3;

Sousei and Iori gracefully descended upon the second stage in butler outfits. The yandere Tapestry song! They started off with a short skit, probably lines from the musical, and when Hanae fumbled one of his lines Tosshi teased him about it ww This is one of my favourite duets but sadly the vocals were rather shaky, with both singing off-key at many instances. A+ for the skit, the bedroom lines directed at “ojousama”, and Sousei’s psychotic laugh at the end.

I should love Final Approach since it features my two favs Subaru and Kaito, but unfortunately it’s one of the most boring songs for me... It didn’t stop me from appreciating the singing though. And the beautiful harmonies in the chorus. And the two boys in pilot outfits. And the high-five halfway through the song!! This was also the moment I understood the reason why some people bring two or more pen lights as I couldn’t decide whose colour to use...

Jin and Kyoya rose up from platforms under the stage in shinsengumi robes for Hi ha Noboru(ry. The katanas holstered on their hips were drawn for a fight scene vs the back dancers! The stage was bathed in violet and blue to match the moody atmosphere.

Then Iori and Kaito hopped onto stage and we all bobbed along to Sekai ha Koi to SWEETS! AND! KISS! *waves pen light frantically* This is such a cute song and both Iori and Kaito were super cute, throwing saccharine lines at the audience and getting everyone to join in the fun ;w; Iirc both of them even threw us some flying kisses....

Next, Stronger Than Medicine with Hina and Sousei. In white doctor’s coats and supported by a big group of dancers, Hina played the experienced head doctor while Sousei tagged along like a clueless junior lol. Parts of the dance were very cute and funny for comedic effect, and though for the most part it wasn’t an intense dance routine Tosshi still managed to show off his dancer background >< I kinda wished that we got to see him dance in a more high-tempo song, but Sousei gets all the ballads...

Around this time I noticed that a group of staff were busy setting up some sort of elevated platform-trolley thing at the end of the corridor between the 2nd and 3rd floor; I’d seen something similar happen at the Yuri on Stage event and my heartbeat jumped as I guessed what would happen next...

When the lights turned back on, the rest of the crew had joined Hina and Sousei on stage, and everyone was in their blue and white sailor outifts for Sunshine World Tour! This was the FIRST break in the show, can you believe it? The cast FINALLY introduced themselves (still in-character), and then Sousei announced that the show was about to come to and end, which came as a surprise because it honestly didn’t feel like the show started that long ago, even though we had actually sat through a LOT of songs. The audience began to whine “Ehhhhhhh?” Then the music for Sunshine World Tour started and the cast split into 2 groups, making the audience scream when they headed into the crowd, climbed up the stairs to the 3rd floor, and boarded one of the two trolleys on either end of the corridor. The audience went crazy when they realised what was happening! On the trolley that started from my end of the hall were Kyoya, Jin-san, and Hina, singing and waving enthusiastically at the audience as they traveled around the U-shaped concert hall. I couldn’t believe my eyes when they passed right in front of me... From my seat in the 2nd row they were SO CLOSE, and even at eye level! I honestly could’ve hi-fived them if I stretched out my arm. When the 2nd trolley came by I had my pen light set to orange and hoped Kaito would wave at me, but he was busy engaging the upper floors. Iori met my eyes though and gave me the sweetest smile ;w; They were meant to sing Sunshine World Tour, but very little singing was done as everyone was busy greeting and waving at the audience wwwwwwww It was a real treat for everyone on the 2nd and 3rd floors...

After the trolleys reached the opposite ends of the hall, the cast made their way back to the main stage and we were asked to sing along to the the chorus for a while as lyrics popped up on the screen :D After the song ended, the cast said their thanks and waved goodbye before disappearing backstage. The lights dimmed again and the audience began to chant “Encore~! Encore~!”

We were probably in the dark for about 5 minutes before the cast came back onto stage, dressed in Dream Show 2017 t-shirts. The cast could finally introduce themselves lol. “We can finally speak! As ourselves!!” “It is okay? Can I really start talking? OKAY I’M DOING IT :DDD” Onoyu let loose and chaos descended upon the stage wwwwww There was no outline for this talk segment so they pretty much did whatever they wanted www

What I can recall, in dot points:

Thanked us for all the love and support which allowed YumeCast to reach it’s 2nd anniversary

Ohsaka was super nervous as it’s his first concert, and Tosshi said that he kept muttering “I’m so nervous” up till the moment before their first appearance on stage, yet once he stepped onto stage he slipped right into character and looked so calm and confident

Tosshi and Onoyu admitted that they sing with their faces (their facial expressions are “noisy”)

Tosshi praised Ohsaka for bringing the rowdy team together like a real Kyoya, and Ohsaka lamented the fact that nobody listens to him while the rest of the team surrounded him and danced and hooted like gorillas www

Tosshi thanked the crew and staff for all their hard work behind the scenes, from dance choreography to costumes. Staff were always on standby backstage, ready to help them change into their next outfits, and as he watched the staff work frantically to keep the show running he truly felt like he was part of a real life Yumeiro Company troupe.

Up till the last rehearsal, Hayashu got one of the hand gestures for CALL HEAVEN!! wrong (he made a fox shape instead of a “W” for “welcome”)

Tasuku and Yuuto put in a lot of practice for their dances. Yuuto practiced his zombie shuffle even while out walking in public and got stared at. “My favourite part of the dance is when they lift me up! :D”

Hanae said it was unfair that Hinata could capture everyone’s hearts just with his “Onee~san♥”, so someone suggested everyone do their own version of “oneesan“ and put them to a vote.

Tasuku was up first... and promptly tripped over his first line, in typical Tasuku fashion wwwww I love him, he’s so clumsy and uncoordinated ;3; They gave him a second chance and this time he said something along the lines of “Thank you for your support this past two years!” and ended on a very cute and energetic “oneesan!!!!” Ughhh PUPPYYYYY

Kaito’s embarrassed tsundere “O.. onee...san...”

Sousei’s calm, somewhat sly “Oneesan :)”

The audience cracked up at Kyoya’s “Oneesan, jiken desu.” (Oneesan, there’s been an accident.) I had to look this up but it’s apparently a famous line from an old TV drama called HOTEL, lol

Kyoya’s take 2. A heartfelt message to all the scriptwriters in the audience, followed by the sweetest “...oneesan”.

Hanae did a skit where Iori was surprised but ecstatic about receiving a present from the MC in the form of a limited edition shoebill merch. “Thank you, oneesan!!”

Zun-san..... was Zun-san. “How about we spend the night together? My one and only oneesan♥”

Finally, the last boss. Hinata started to speak in that saccharine-sweet voice, “Boku,” and already half of the audience were screaming from that first word... “I’ll keep on working hard, so keep your eyes on me, okay? Oneesan♥“ *dying whale sounds from audience*

“Why did we even have this competition, we already knew who the winner would be.”

“You had them at “Boku”...”

Tosshi pointed out that they shouldn’t leave out the handful of guys in the audience, so everyone banded together and yelled “Thank you, oniisan!” and the guys responded with “Yeaaaaaaah!!!” haha

Farewell messages, final thoughts, and thank you’s

Ohsaka admitted that in his first year of playing Kyoya he had regrets about accepting the role, but after some time he found ways to connect with Kyoya and he’s very happy to be part of YumeCast. (I had a feeling that he wasn’t enjoying himself when I watched him on YumeCast livestream... turns out my hunch was correct :0 I’m glad that he’s found his place now!)

Next they showed a video announcing upcoming projects (live action musicals, new CD’s, drama CD’s) and the release of the DVD/BD of Dream Show 2017. Everyone else perched on the staircase to watch the video but Tasuku made himself small and sat on the floor with his knees folded primly. Smol puppy....

Lastly, the crew performed NEVER END STORIES as confetti cannons shot glitter over the arena. Then the dancers joined the cast on stage for the final farewell. Everyone took their turn bowing and saying thanks. Kyoya was last to leave the stage, and he lingered for a few moments to thank the audience. Sousei, who was near Kyoya, came up to him and said “Kyoya, let’s go :)” and Kyoya nodded before retreating from the stage. *Audience dies again*

After the show, I remember feeling so happy and satisfied. Of course, every event I’ve attended has been fun, but none of them made me feel as loved and appreciated as YumeCast Dream Show 2017. They knew what we wanted, and they delivered. I rate it 10/10 for being jam-packed with content (honestly, nobody expected them to perform this many songs), and it was very impressive that every song had its own set of costumes and choreography. It really felt like watching a musical show. The concert felt like it ended too soon because everything moved so quickly, but it had actually run for just over 2 hours. I do wish that they had given the cast more talk time, but i guess that was sacrificed to make space for more songs. I can live with that.

I’ve been playing YumeCast for almost a year now and have considered quitting several times since the gameplay gets pretty repetitive after a while (plus new games coming into my life), but after this concert I have fallen in love all over again and will continue to support YumeCast ;3; Honestly, just from watching the monthly livestreams you can tell how hard they try to keep us happy.

#yumeiro cast #hatanaka tasuku #hanae natsuki #ohsaka ryota #ono yuuki #toyonaga toshiyuki #uemura yuuto #hayashi yuu #yumecast #event report

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breeeliss · 7 years

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Cn & lb's weapons have Internet access & untraceable IPs so when they're bored on patrol they livesteam & do random shit on youtube & bc of that everyone sees them as people not just heroes & sometimes alya gets in on it & they stream to the ladyblog

have you guys ever seen that shipping video that thomas sanders and jon cozart did? this is p much based off that xD

Link to Archive of Our Own: [AO3]

Summary: “We’ve noticed something interesting going on. An alarming number of people seem to ship Ladybug and I.”“

Yeah, it’s tricky stuff shipping real life people. People expect us to be romantically compatible. But are we?”

An exclusive Ladyblog Livestream Event with Ladybug and Chat Noir where they decide once and for all whether Ladynoir is a compatible (and acceptable) ship. Remember to like comment and subscribe!

“Okay, guys. Act natural, and remember this is just for fun. You guys cool with doing your own intro and everything?”

Ladybug scoffed. “Are you kidding? You’re giving him control of an entire video, he’s totally fine.”

“You can literally make fun of me until the end of time, I don’t care. Do you know how much I’ve fantasized about doing a YouTube tag?” Chat Noir bounced in his seat a little bit and cracked his knuckles. “I am beyond ready.”

Ladybug jutted a thumb at him and smirked at Alya. “See? I think we’ll be good.”

Alya snorted and finished setting up her phone on the little tripod mount she bought specifically for the occasion. Her hands were shaking a little bit because she was still finding it hard to believe that Ladybug and Chat Noir were actually sitting in her living room, not even a few feet away from her.

It had always been her dream to do a Livestream to the Ladyblog that wasn’t just focusing on the superheroics. Yes it was always exciting to get details on fights, on their powers, on what goes through their heads in the middle of battles, but at the end of the day they were still the same age as Alya. She wanted to have the chance to just do something silly with them. News reporters very rarely treated them like the teenagers they were, and Alya was sure that her followers would get a kick out of them doing something humorous on camera. She’d made a whole blog post about it one night when she was sleep deprived and not thinking before she typed.

But two days later, when she caught them right after another akuma fight, Ladybug pointed her out of the crowd and mentioned that they both saw the post she’d made. “Feel free to ring us up when you have an idea for a video,” she grinned.

It was almost too good to be true, but Alya wasn’t going to let go of an opportunity like this. The amount of views and followers she’d get after this would be astronomical. She was practically vibrating. “Alright, you crazy kids, I’m gonna read off the questions for you once you start. Whenever you’re ready.”

Not even a moment after she clicked record, Chat Noir froze, opened his mouth wide, and let out a huge sneeze. Ladybug jumped and buried her face in her hands, wheezing with laughter. “You freaking dork, we just started.”

Chat Noir chuckled. “I thought about Mr. Pigeon and I couldn’t help myself.” Ladybug leaned back in her chair and cackled while Chat Noir rubbed his nose.

“Hello, Ladyblog viewers!” Chat Noir said through his laughing. “Peace, love, and ladybugs to you all — oh my god, I improv-ed that! Can you use that from now on? Peace, love, and ladybugs? Wait, wait, Ladybug write that down, I wanna trademark that.”

Ladybug rolled her eyes, but pulled out her compact and typed it into the chat function. “I’ll text it to you right now, hold on.”

“Excellent,” he grinned. “Peace, love, and ladybugs! My name’s Chat Noir, and I am here with the lovely, wonderful, beautiful, and incredible Ladybug!”

Ladybug shut her eyes and hummed. “Oooh, I loved that. Thank you.” Chat Noir did a little bow while Ladybug picked up after him. “So, believe it or not, the two of us actually read the Ladyblog a lot, mainly because you all are so active on it, and we just wanted to thank you all for the kind words and support you give us everyday. We may not always be able to respond to it, but we see and we really appreciate it.”

“However, we’ve also noticed something interesting going on in the comments which is that an alarming number of people seem to ship us.” Chat Noir looked at Ladybug. “I dig it.”

“Yeah of course you would,” Ladybug teased back. “What is it called again? Ladynoir I think?”

“Yeah, Ladynoir! I mean, all kidding aside, I totally get it.”

Ladybug snorted. “Do you remember when Alya got all of those pictures of us when we were playing tag along the river? We were hanging off of each other the entire time, so yeah, super not surprised.”

“Just to clear up anything, we’re not dating,” Chat Noir told the camera. He darted his eyes side to side, leaned in close to the camera, and whispered, “ yet.”

“ He wishes ,” Ladybug whispered, winking at the camera. “But yeah, it’s tricky stuff shipping real life people, you know? It’s like…all these people sort of expect us to be romantically compatible and then the two of us are just left here thinking, are we?”

“So to rectify this dilemma for you all, we’re going to figure out today whether the two of us are compatible! So we’ve got these….mini whiteboard things…” Ladybug held hers up to the camera. “….and we have a bunch of these compatibility questions that you guys all sent us for us to answer.”

“Basically we’re going to keep track of how many times we agree and disagree, and if we’re on the same page more than we’re not, we can officially call ourselves compatible and you are all free to ship to your heart’s content.”

Chat Noir snorted. “Do you realize the amount of fanfiction fodder this is going to give people? Like seriously, just imagine it. Watch it pour in the night she posts this.”

“But see, you would know that, because you’re the only person I know who would read fanfiction about himself.”

“Um, you liked that Ladynoir story I sent you a week ago.”

Ladybug shrugged. “Well, yeah it was really well written, I’m not going to deny that.”

He reached over and flicked her on the nose. “So don’t be a hypocrite.” She pouted at him while he drummed his hands against his whiteboard. “Alright. I’m ready. Alya! First one.”

Alya chuckled. “Alright guys, first one: toilet paper over or toilet paper under.”

He blinked. “Wait, what?”

Ladybug nudged him in the side. “Like….when you put the thing in the dispenser, does the paper flip over or under, Chat.”

Chat Noir made a disgusted face and started frantically scribbling on his whiteboard. “Is that not obvious?” Ladybug shrugged as she wrote down her own answer.

“Alright, flip one…two…and.” They both flipped their white boards to the camera and cheered when they both put ‘over.’ “Oh my God, I was terrified you were going to say under,” Ladybug said in relief.

“That is so creepy,” Chat Noir explained, erasing his answer. “Like who even does that?”

“Alright so that’s a point!” They both celebrated once more and high fived as Alya got the next question ready.

“Okay question number two,” Alya read out. “White, milk, or dark chocolate.”

They both scribbled on their boards for a couple of seconds before flipping their boards at the same time. Ladybug stared at the answer on Chat Noir’s board and her jaw dropped. “What in the actual hell, are you serious?”

Chat Noir hugged his board to his chest defensively. “White chocolate is delicious! Are you insane?”

“It’s not even freaking chocolate, you monster!” she argued back. “It’s like….if I mixed together white crap, milk, and sugar, I’d get white chocolate.”

“Dude, who the hell puts dark chocolate? That’s not chocolate, there’s no sugar in it!”

“Chocolate is supposed to be bitter! Everything else is way too sweet, it ruins the taste.”

Chat Noir grumbled as he erased his answer. “I’m breaking up with you.”

“Ditto. I want all of your things out the house by this afternoon.”

“I’m keeping the car.”

“Fine.”

Alya was covering her mouth, trying not to let her laughter show up in the shot. “Okay, okay, this is the third one. Do you take your tea with or without sugar.”

“There’s no point to this, I already know what she’s going to say.” Chat Noir laughed and rubbed a hand down his face when they flipped their signs and he saw ‘without’ scribbled on her board. “You’re an abomination.”

“I….okay,” Ladybug said, facing the camera directly. “I dare all of you to fight me on this. Sugar does not belong in tea. Like I can maybe get behind you putting it in coffee but that’s literally it.”

“You are asking the Internet to fight you, my Lady.”

“I don’t care! I’ll fight all of you!”

Alya piped in. “I mean….I put sugar in my tea, so.”

Chat Noir reached over off camera to give Alya a high five. “Yes! Team Sugar Tea.”

“You’re all gross.”

“Alright, alright! Number four! Early bird or night owl?”

Ladybug hissed and stared up at the ceiling for an answer while Chat Noir poked his tongue out and started scribbling with intense concentration. It took them a while to both finish drawing, but Ladybug had ‘night owl!’ on her board, and Chat Noir had drawn a cartoonish owl in response. “Yes!” Ladybug exclaimed “Oh man, I was getting bummed for a second.”

“Yeah, but I’m not surprised the two of us are, we’re always out late.”

Ladybug nodded. “We schedule patrols for like an hour, and then once we’re done the two of us kinda just hang around for hours because we don’t wanna go home. There was one time we were out until like two in the morning.”

“We were definitely out until three at least once too.”

Alya pulled out the next question. “iPhone or Android?”

“Yikes, this might cause a fight,” Ladybug winced.

“Nah, don’t jinx it, I believe in us,” Chat Noir waved away, writing his answer. “These are good questions, by the way. Like….every married couple should do this.”

“You’re gonna make fights break out,” Ladybug snickered.

“Ah, fighting’s healthy. Alright, flip!” They stared at each other’s boards and cheered loudly when they both wrote ‘android.’

They fist bumped with both hands, and Ladybug bounced excitedly in her chair. “Oh thank god. Aren’t they better phones though?”

“People with iPhones are over here ranting about Siri, meanwhile they just lost their headphone jack, so who’s the real loser?”

Ladybug laughed to herself. “Have you seen the, uh….what are they called? The dongle things? Like that attachment you have to get to use regular headphones.”

Chat Noir snickered into his hand. “It doesn’t even sound sexy, like who wants to be in the street and be like ‘ah, sorry guys, gotta pull out my dongle for a minute’?”

“It sounds dirty, don’t you think?” Ladybug sniggered. Chat Noir cackled and almost fell out of his chair. “No seriously like ‘I have to pull out my dongle’ sounds like I have to pull out my….” She gestured to her lap and was grinning as she watched Chat Noir take one of the couch cushions and press it to his face while he muffled his hysterics. “What?!”

He shook his head and sat back up. “Oh man, I love you. Wait how many more do we have?”

“Three more. The next one’s uhhh….” Alya snorted in laughter. “Oh man, god help you two. Dogs or cats?”

Chat Noir covered his mouth with both hands and slowly turned towards Ladybug. Ladybug let her shoulders drop and stared in disbelief at the camera. “Why would you do that to us?”

“Ladybug — ”

“Chat don’t do this — ”

“Ladybug I’m like dead serious — ”

“You’re so dramatic, oh my god, it’s going to be fine!”

“Just please,” he begged. “Please. Answer carefully and honestly. This is like….do or die.”

“What would you do if I said dog?”

“Don’t make jokes like that!”

Ladybug turned away from him and looked back at him over her shoulder. “I’m writing my answer.”

“I’ve literally never been this stressed out in my life.”

“Do you want me to count you guys down so you show your answers at the same time?” Alya asked.

Chat Noir made a show of sniffing, making his voice sound like he was on the verge of crying. “Yes, please.”

“It’s like you have no faith in me,” Ladybug teased.

“Don’t lie on your answer!”

“I’m not going to lie, Chat, don’t worry.”

They both wrote down their answers and gave Alya the thumbs up when they were done. “Alright guys. You’re gonna flip on my count. One….two….three!”

Chat Noir kept his eyes closed when he flipped his board, holding it a full arm’s length away from him. “Agh, I’m scared.”

Ladybug tapped his leg with hers. “Flip, trust me.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

Chat Noir opened his eyes, stared at her board, and threw it behind the couch as he threw his arms up in glee. “Thank all the adorable kittens in heaven, you’re a cat person!!!!!! ”

Ladybug held her arms out. “You want a hug, I know you do, bring it in.” Chat Noir wrapped his arms around her waist and started to fake sob into her stomach. She patted him on the head and snorted. “You threw your board clear across the room.”

“I don’t care,” Chat said, his voice muffled. “You love cats and that’s all that matters in the world.”

“ Is that all that matters?”

“You’re willing to accept my kind into your home.”

Ladybug turned to the camera again. “See, he thinks he’s actually a cat, so he takes all this very seriously. Excuse him, he’s almost done.”

Chat Noir stayed huddled up to her for a minute more before he sat up properly and smacked his cheeks a little. “Oh man, that was an ordeal. Oh dammit, my whiteboard.”

“You threw it into the plant! Like by the television!”

Chat Noir quickly came running back to sit on the couch. “I got it, I got it.”

“You two are too much. Alright, this one is Fall Wedding or Spring Wedding?”

Ladybug snorted when she wrote down her answer and sighed in relief when they both ended up putting ‘Fall Wedding’ on their boards. “I feel like the two of us would rock a fall color scheme, don’t you?”

“Plus, like, have you ever seen those wedding photos where they like throw fall leaves into the air? Like when they do outdoor weddings? Wouldn’t that be the cutest thing?”

“Oh my God, my parents did that! It’s super cute, oh man, I wish I could show you. If we get married though, we’re screwed on the cake.”

“Why?”

“You like white chocolate. ”

“Oh my God, are we going to start this again.”

“I’m going to remember this for at least the next month, you think I’m joking.”

“So can we get milk chocolate and call it even?”

Ladybug hummed and bit her lip. “I’ll bring it up with the wedding planner, we’ll talk about it.”

Chat Noir shook his head, rubbing his hand across the board to wipe it clean again. “Remember what I said about all that fanfiction fodder?”

“Bet you ten euros there are gonna be like twenty wedding fics by the end of the week.”

“Nah man, more than that. We’ll see.”

Ladybug sighed and smiled at him. “Last question, right?”

“Mmhm,” Chat Noir grinned. “Alright, what’ve you got for us, Alya?”

“This is a fun one,” Alya prefaced. “Ladybug or Chat Noir.”

They both laughed uproariously and were quick with their answers. Alya already figured what they were each going to write before they even flipped over their answers, but she had to admit it was really adorable to see them smile at each other when Ladybug wrote ‘Chat Noir’ and Chat Noir wrote ‘Ladybug.’

“I’m very cool with that disagreement,” Chat Noir beamed at the camera. “If that’s the only thing we fight about, I’m blessed to be honest.”

Ladybug tapped him on the shoulder. “Wait, I think we won.”

“We won?”

“Yeah like we got the most compatibility points.”

“Oh crap, did we?”

Alya looked down at her notebook and nodded. “Yeah, you got more of them matched up.”

They both threw their hands up and cheered. “We’re compatible!” they chanted at the same time, Ladybug falling against his shoulder in a fit of giggles.

“Damn, so I guess….?”

“Yeah,” Ladybug finished. “We….essentially did the work for you. So you are free to ship to your heart’s content. Go forth!”

“You have our permission,” Chat Noir assured. “And if you guys could low-key tag me on Instagram with links to your stories, that would be awesome.”

“You know damn well you have a physics test next week, you are not going to ask for fanfiction.”

“I’m fine , don’t worry about it. I wanna see what they come up with.”

“Listen. Tag me in them. So then I won’t give them to him until he finishes studying.”

Chat Noir shook his head at her in disbelief. “You’re just going to read them before I do!”

“ Offended that you would think that.”

“We will discuss this later.” Chat Noir turned back to the camera and clapped his hands together. “So….that’s it I guess? Um….Ladybug and I have Instagrams!”

“Yeah, apparently, when you do things from our weapons, the IP addresses get totally scrambled? So you can’t trace them and you can’t tell who we are. Which is great because that means this loser can post all the videos he wants to his.”

“Oh did you see what I tagged you in this morning?”

“Yeah the seven cat videos? Of course I did. I always do.”

Chat Noir pumped his fist. “Excellent. Anyway, uh, we fool around on those things a lot, so if you’re in the mood for a laugh, feel free to check us out. Alya’s gonna leave our links below this video.”

“And if you have any suggestions for other videos we can do, let us know. Alya will keep us updated, because these are actually really fun,” Ladybug said. “Oh! And always stay safe! If you ever see an akuma, always stay indoors and put as much distance between it and you as you can!”

“Yeah, really important guys, we wanna keep you safe, but you have to remember to stay alert at all times okay?”

Ladybug pouted her lips. “I guess we have to say goodbye.”

“Wait wait! Our tagline!”

“Right, right.” Ladybug counted them in so that they spoke at the same time. “Peace, love, and ladybugs!” They both fell into more laughter and Ladybug waved at the camera. “Until next time, everyone.”

Alya fiddled with her phone and stopped the recording. “Aaaaaaand, that’s a wrap.”

“Sweet,” Chat Noir replied. “Was that okay? You think they’ll like it?”

Alya shook her head and dismounted her phone from the tripod. “That could not have possibly gone more perfectly.”

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smilekraftnagpur-blog · 6 years

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Social media's effects on patient trends

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This phenomenon has also thrust aesthetic practices into participating on social media platforms, such as Facebook, Instagram and Snapchat, to promote and market their services. To resist social media would be to ignore a foremost modern marketing tool.

For better or worse, social media is actually advancing the aesthetic cause, stated Jason Emer, M.D., F.A.A.D., a cosmetic and dermatologic surgeon in Beverly Hills, Calif.

“It’s not just filling a line anymore, it is full facial shaping,” he said. “When we talk about the stomach, it’s not regular liposuction anymore, it is body contouring and shaping because people see what these devices can do, and they talk about it online.”

Social media has also made people more comfortable and interested in visiting aesthetic clinics.

“Patients are more informed than they used to be and are doing more research before they step foot into a practice,” said Mara Shorr, B.S., CAC, vice president of marketing and business development for Shorr Solutions (Winter Park, Fla.).

“They’re learning not only about the procedures offered and what the different providers are doing, they are also getting a feel for the providers’ personalities,” she said.

There are some downsides associated with social media apps, such as so-called “SnapChat dysmorphia,” in which someone requests an outcome that matches their exquisitely Photoshopped, digitally enhanced smartphone-generated image.

“I have seen people bring in a filtered Snapchat photo and say they want their skin to look like that all the time, without makeup,” said Sheila Nazarian, M.D., a plastic surgeon in Beverly Hills, Calif.

Although using filtered photos can help patients communicate ideas of how they might look, “Some people ask for relatively extreme procedures to achieve unnatural results,” stated Leif Rogers, M.D., F.A.C.S., a plastic surgeon in Beverly Hills.

“The most common look today is the ‘JLo Jaw,’” Dr. Rogers continued. “Many female patients are asking for a highly defined, yet feminine jawline. Many people will use various apps to achieve a look that they will present to me as their desired after result, but what they don’t realize is that it could mean major surgery to achieve this look.”

As Ms. Shorr pointed out, one reason for SnapChat dysmorphia is that people are much more critical of themselves because they spend so much time looking at their selfies.

“Even a generation ago, people did not spend this kind of time looking at photos of themselves,” she said. “Selfies have changed social behavior. This may be good for the medical aesthetic business, but may not be good for society, overall.”

Furthermore, amateur photography often overstates the dysmorphia problem, Dr. Nazarian noted

“Sometimes, in these photos, a person’s nose looks big because the camera is too close to the face, which is a known optical illusion,” she said.

Patients today tend to be hyper aware of their bodies – sometimes to the point of being falsely aware and unrealistically hopeful,” Dr. Nazarian remarked. “This can put both the physician and patient in a weird spot, because the patient has impossible expectations.”

“There are definitely people who have an altered perception of reality,” Dr. Emer concurred. “Many patients don’t realize they have unrealistic expectations. They look at Kylie Jenner and think, I want her lips. What they don’t realize is that she’s received 10 to 15 syringes of a dermal filler that cost $10,000 to $15,000. They think one syringe is going to work.”

Spotting Problem Patients

In Dr. Nazarian’s experience, people suffering from this syndrome are pretty easy to spot.

“I’ve turned some patients over to therapists,” she admitted. “You definitely want to do surgical procedures for people who are joyous and excited about doing it, not someone that is unsure and emotional.”

To help weed out those with dysmorphia issues, Dr. Nazarian includes specific questions on her intake forms, such as, ‘Are you doing this for anyone else? Is anyone pressuring you to do this? Are you depressed?’

“There comes a point when the physician has to take prudent medical care versus the exacerbation of beauty,” Ms. Shorr maintained. “Physicians should not allow the patient’s will and desires to control their surgical and / or artistic ability.”

Both body dysmorphia and social media addiction have become relatively common in the cosmetic surgery patient population, reported Dr. Rogers.

“It works as a contraindication to a surgical procedure, and the risk of a dissatisfied patient is significantly higher,” he said.

“Another important note is that an addiction to social media does not necessarily indicate unreasonable expectations for a cosmetic procedure,” Dr. Rogers added. “And social media addiction is a problem all of its own and affects all age ranges.”

Social Media Influencers

Increasingly, patients go online to discover the latest aesthetic treatments from social media influencers – YouTube stars, Facebook-based pundits, Instagram celebrities and other online personalities that have developed a strong presence across the most popular online platforms and command hundreds of thousands of followers.

Social media influencers and celebrities that get caught up in the world of aesthetics have enthusiastically tried out new procedures on livestreaming TV, and share their experiences online with information-hungry fans.

“It is really funny how patients want to relate,” Dr. Emer added. “They want more than just a before-and-after or an expert. They want someone that is real and reveals all of the treatments they’ve had on social media.”

“Social media influencers are the true celebrities today,” opined Dr. Nazarian. “I would much rather advertise with a social media influencer or reality TV star than a traditional TV celebrity or actress. These influencers talk about the procedures they are getting done, so they bring awareness to plastic surgery. Yes, they crave attention, but they are the ones influencing the digitally inclined, which is a majority of the population right now,” she continued.

A controversial reality TV star is more likely to livestream her labiaplasty than a mainstream personality or actress, Dr. Nazarian pointed out.

“For example, I recently streamed a labiaplasty on Farrah Abraham, from MTV’s reality show, Teen Mom. While she may not be the person I want my kids to watch, I knew her presence was more likely to bring awareness to a practice or physician. I got 44 inquiries about labiaplasty after I did that event with her. She made it okay to talk about, and that is a public service,” she said.

Then there are the rock star practitioners that end up being social media influencers themselves, as a result of creating recognized digital brands and flooding social media sites with treatment images and videos.

For instance, “Dr. Miami,” a.k.a., Michael Salzhauer, M.D., has over 285,000 fans on social media and around 1.2 million SnapChat views daily. In 2017, he outdid himself with a reality TV series and a Billboard charting dance single.

Control the Conversation

With so many social media voices in play, it is important that the practitioner control the messaging to draw in new patients and keep existing ones happy.

“The online conversation is controlled by the patients, regardless of the age group, and there are positives and negatives,” Ms. Shorr stated.

For example, consider the surgeon who brands himself as specializing in the Brazilian butt lift. A potential patient looking around on social media for a surgeon may see this type of promotion and assume the doctor only specializes in butt enhancements, Ms. Shorr elaborated.

“If I’m interested in a rhinoplasty or facelift, then I am going to rule out that physician because I am unaware that they offer more than just butt lifts,” she said. “So sometimes this type of branding could negatively impact part of your practice.”

Taking control over the online dialogue is important, Ms. Shorr reiterated.

“There are times when you’re not able to control the dialogue in social media. This can be a very good thing when people are going on about how amazing your practice is and how much they love your results,” she said. “But, it can be harmful to your reputation if you lose control and someone suddenly becomes negative. The social media crowd can be swayed easily.”

To better understand how the online world perceives physicians, Dr. Emer shared this insight: “People want to go to someone that they see as an artist, but also one that they can identify with. They watch videos on YouTube to find the leading experts, see what procedures differentiate them from other practitioners, and also to see a personal side of the physician.”

Patients not only watch for the newest treatment modality, they also look for the physician using that modality in a novel manner.

“It could be the physician who is doing cutting edge combination treatments,” Dr. Emer remarked. “People get really excited and attracted to that, and it brings them in.”

Getting into the Stream

Practitioners that post or stream procedure videos are educating viewers, as well as doing external marketing in the process.

“You don’t even need advertising and marketing as much in the traditional sense if you’re constantly posting on social media,” Dr. Emer reported. “Social media posts catch people’s attention and are easily accessible.”

Ms. Shorr concurred, “Social media is going to continue to be the wave of the future and will get even bigger. The old, archaic advertising methods do not work as well on the demographics of millennials and generations to come. These people are all digital all the time.”

Cracking Assumptions

It is commonly believed that 20- and 30-somethings are easiest to reach via social media platforms. But according to Dr. Emer, if you look at the statistics you will see it is a mixture.

“The growing populations of patients are the 25- to 35-year-olds and those aged 65 and up. Everyone is using social media. If you focus on the millennial only then you’re short-changing yourself,” he said.

In Dr. Rogers experience, “One does get the younger demographic to some degree, but we have also seen an increase in patients aged 40 and older, as well as a rise in the return rate of established patients.”

The younger patient is not as highly influenced as one might think, simply because cosmetic surgery isn’t on their radar,” he added. “And they are not the typical patient that follows a cosmetic medical practice.”

So, how should one assess the modern, digital and social media savvy aesthetic patient?

“Social media tends to create a very self-conscious patient that is overly preoccupied by what others think,” Dr. Rogers commented.

“That being said, I believe there are good things to come from social media,” he stated. “For those that have learned to use social media to create a business or brand, I solute you for being innovative and thinking out of the box, just don’t let it – and the patient attitudes that it has spawned – rule your life.”

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