"Here's my redesign for this Hazbin Hotel character, a show that I hate and find stupid and edgy and ridiculous and offensive and that I, God's favourite, could do so much better with stellar writing and designs and everything else. I was forced at gunpoint to watch the show by its creator, who is the worst woman that ever walked the Earth, but this character I drew is so special and good and close to me, they don't deserve being in this horrible show
#Hazbin Hotel #Hazbin Hotel Critical #Anti Hazbin Hotel #I am obsessed with this show even though I hate it so much"
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Non-Bullshit Self-Affirmation Exercise
I'm nobody's therapist and I shouldn't be. But the world we're in is mentally damaging. Any world would be to some extent, and I understand different people have different experiences of the world. But whoever you are I think we can agree most environments we're in don't promote a good relationship with 'the self.'
I can't say 'you should like who you are' or 'you should think you have all these great virtues.' That isn't up to me. But whether you already 'like yourself' or 'are building yourself' or 'want to like a future self more' you can't do that easily if 'who you currently are' is passively eroded without relief.
And this can happen a lot of ways I think. Our responsibilities (school, job, etc.) don't value our authentic experiences but instead our 'performance' within a system. Our bodily needs and logistical realities can frame the practical steps to our care like a burden for ourselves or for others. We are constantly assaulted with external appeals to desire that disrespect our own effort to navigate those desires ourselves. And so much stuff can feel 'more important than ourselves' like, why is it relevant you're a person when immense choices jeopardize the future and the lives of collective humanity???
A lot of talk about 'self-care' is bastardized into like... 'giving yourself special treats' which often can tie in to a highly consumerist culture or self-destructive habits. And 'special treats' may feel irresponsible or like a waste of time in the face of our practical human problems. But the important part is not actually the 'treat', but that the context of the treat is yours. This is YOUR unique treat, that represents you, showing up for you.
And looking at yourself can feel embarrassing. But it's not a coincidence that the 'least cringe' position, least vulnerable position, is to erase yourself. But you're not superficial. And stating 'yourself' is not egotistical. It's the foundation for everything else that matters, and could matter about you to another person.
So like. Some self-affirmations. Not the type that's like, "I'm brave, I'm smart, I'm good, I'm worthy, I'm flexible," etc. I mean:
My favorite color is...
My favorite food is...
I remember a time when I felt, 'wow'...
When I speak, I am [loud, soft, wordy, brief, etc.]...
I am interested in...
People who are [X] inspire me...
I wish I was more...
I wish I was less...
When people meet me, I want them to feel...
My favorite animal is...
I like to spend a free afternoon doing...
I like my spaces to be...
The smell of [x] reminds me of...
When I daydream, the story is usually this type...
I think about these on-purpose maybe once a week.
Affirmations like these may seem childish, basic, frivolous compared to building 'successful habits' and routines. And those are useful, but they can only keep you moving forward through a harsh environment; relying fully on 'discipline' to carry on will put you on paths where an external default is affirmed and your authenticity will be overwritten.
Whether you are trying to become more confident, or trying to work on your self awareness, trying to 'hang in there,' trying to reconcile who you have to be at different parts of your life, trying to unblock your creativity, or if you're entering a new part of your life... even if you think you have yourself all figured out, I believe purposefully sitting down to think about these things will help you.
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