Oh, Patricia, you’ve always been my north star

2nd part of my little gifts for @ornithic on its 20th birthday!!!!!!!!! i love you soooo much youre the best gothic vampire prince on earth actually <333

not tagging this properly cuz its just concept sketches but I have a bad habit of deleting my art and I like these first concept doodles so well up they go

...okay.. I think I'm ready. This is it!!! No more holding back!!! I need to reveal to the world my truth and my heart!! Guys! I'm uh.. coming out......

....as a Persona fan. W-WELL PERSONA FAN-IN-PROGRESS?? I don't know the WHOLE story.. but I know enough to be hyperfixated and VERY attached to the characters..?

Why am I saying this? Well.. I guess I wanna jumpstart the possibility of.... um... Persona art.. on this blog- But I'm WAY too embarrassed to start on my own accord so...

To those aware of the media (there's bound to be some..) um.. I'm opening requests for Persona 4 and 5 art! So uh.. hit me with it!! I guess!

Alr y'all here are tpc thoughts I have

Note that nothing I say here is canon (as of now),,,,,,,,, I just like thinking about silly shapes

Some are headcanons, some are just thoughts abt things, some are just cool ideas I had

I'll sort everything I write here into some sections as well

anyways let's get this bread

headcanons yippeeeee

orientation and identity related hcs:

- Cube, Lythorus, and Circumsphere are all homoromantic

- Iris, Cintagon and marcle are bi

- Purpex is a lesbian

- Pentellow and Pyrare are panromantic

- Cube, Circumsphere, Iris, and Purpex are asexual

- Cube and Iris are both trans

other hcs

- heroes have some cat related traits (zoomies, knocking things over, randomly appearing throughout the house, etc)

- Cube is a tiny bit part flower (ty cintagonisupset for letting me steal that)

- not sure if this counts as a hc but cyan and cyanide are so siblings and they're adorable

- Iris and Cube both like to draw

- Cube has an older sister

- Pyrare is 100% the dad friend of the group,,,,,,, I don't make the rules I just enforce them

Ideas about things and stuff

oh boy where do I start

First off, Circumsphere x Cintagon is an adorable ship and I think it should be appreciated more

And second, I have so many thoughs about Lythorus x Cube that I'm just gonna make it a subsection further ahead.

Until then I would like to share my thoughts about what cube's family could look like,,,,,

in the hc section of this post I said that I hc that he has a sister. I also thought about what his mom could look like and here she is

Wabam,,,,, she is very cool and good at fighting. Don't get too attached though because she uh,,,, yeah she's dead. Anyways moving on

I think Iris and Cube's friendship is kinda underappreciated like,,,,,,, Iris was the first other caretaker that Cube met, and also their dynamic during episodes 4, 6, and 7 are just fun. Anyways the sillies are cool

ok it's time for me to talk about my favorite ship in this show lets go

Lythorus x Cube (and why I think it's cute as hell)

these two are so wholesome together you have no idea. The ship is childhood friends to lovers (which is already a wonderful trope) but also???? Their dynamic as a whole is just fun. Like they're just the buddies of all time, they've known eachother for ages, and they would absolutely spoil eachother in a relationship.

They're so goddamn cute AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

this isn't all my thoughts about the ship (I haven't even gone into the angst potential yet (I did a little bit on my cube analysis post though)) but I may share those thoughts one day.

must be real hard to guess who my favorite character is after this post right /s

Anyways that's everything I've got for now, might make a part 2 to this post if I have a lot more ideas in the future. later nerds /lh

26!!!

Space Zace Mutualson you know this. You were there for this. (<-- suggestive art in the link)

I have simply accepted the fact that I live amongst jesters and frauds and one day you will all collectively tell me the sky is Green, Actually and yet somehow my spirit remains unbroken. I hate you and everything you stand for.

ask game

ok but more serious response under the cut (HE IS GINGER THO YOU CAN PRY MY DEAD CORPSE OFF THIS HILL)

In general I must say I believe every interpretation is somewhat valid when it comes to art.

Let's say you're listening to a break-up song some guy wrote about his very specific ex-girlfriend Aleisha. You might read the backstory to it and learn about Aleisha but you're probably not going to think about This Guy's Girlfriend Aleisha when you think of the song, but your personal experiences with similar themes of heartbreak/separation instead.

Like yes, technically the 'correct' meaning behind the song is about Aleisha but the story in your head, the one that applies specifically to you, is probably more interesting to think about than Aleisha.

What I'm trying to say is although I have very specific storylines and themes in mind when I draw, I like it when people take what I give and spin their own little tale out of it, y'know? I think it's neat. The best FNAF theories were the wrong ones.

Buuuut that's just how I feel about it anyway.

I think the closest thing to a time where I felt the need to shut someone down was the bit of drama that happened in the notes of this piece (<-- again, horny art lol). Just cus I felt like it was kind of not really even related to the artwork and I don't think I actually really even cleared up how I portray scott/pearl but what can I do 😭😭

(just for the record for anyone who's interested, I don't see them as romantic OR platonic. they hate eachother so deeply that it comes back full circle into passion and care for each other, in that "if i lose you i lose what i live for" kind of way that can only exist within fiction. romantic-coded but not romantic if that makes sense? like batman and joker)

also i don't like being policed and im a rabid animal so if the Internet ever did get on my nerves abt the way i draw or don't draw something I would probably just go straight the opposite direction out of spite lol (FYI the above incident is a-okay to me since everyone was reasonably respectful but I've definitely seen some over the top reactions to stuff in the past. ppl on tumblr tend to be polite tho)

so uh yeah 👍

ok i will ramble abt my ocs as promised

so long story short how i thought of them is. i saw the word digital somewhere on a sign and i misread it as digigal so uh. hey can you tell where this is going (no) anyway . so in this world i have created theres like this company called DigiPal that makes robot friends and usually theyre acessible to some extent..? like you can rent one i guess. most use digipals as like temporary friends?? or as caretakers . yeah those exist! they can also be customized for certain tasks / objectives and also visually customized (i literally cannot think of a better way to put that im so sorry) but theyre like REALLY REALLY expensive that way

so ANYWAY this girl. i do not know her name. but on a whim in a depressive spiral she. buys one. and she fully customizes it too. yes this part is important beAR WITH ME ;_; and usually a fully customized digipal takes +3 months to code/manufacture and she wholeheartedly believed shed be in her apartment alone for her indefinite future. i dunno what went thru her brain honestly but i guess she did that. wow im talking about an oc like its not my own character!! so fun! ok yea

so. actually i have no idea how to explain this part. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh BASICALLY the digipal has 2 sets of code- their like example-based programming and an a.i learning type thing. i guess you could think of it like chara.cter ai?? but yeah something with this digipal's a.i got Fucky and basically forced the human manufacturers to give it a more feminine body. ok now do u see where im going with this.

so while this digipal (who calls herself digigal now) is shipped to this girl's apartment, she (the girl) gets a roommate (who i have in my notes as roommate. none of these girls have got names!!!) and by this point which is like 4 months later, the girl is doing better off now that she has her roommate and they help each other its a mutual benefit and also theyre basically dating but neither of them know it !! OK back to digigal who i keep calling digigirl in my head. ive also been calling her digi so. yeah anyway digi arrives in this MASSIVE box and the roommate opens the door to their apartment and is like ??? what the hell is this thing and the girl is liike I CAN EXPLAIN. anyway all 3 of them eventually get into a loving relationship w each other :D!

ok basically my thought process went: digigal -> oh fun! robot girl :) -> what if she was a robot GIRLFRIEND -> wait what if she was trans. wait how do i get to that. -> wait what if she had TWO girlfriends AND HERE WE ARE. ok heres what they look like!! first is digi, second is the roommate, and last one is the girl (i need names for them aaaaaaaaaaaa)

i had a lot of trouble designing the last one but its fine!!! and these are just concept drawings anyway. ok im. how do i end this off. uh. hm. uhhhhh LESBIANS FOREVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

admittedly i used to be one of the people who was really adamant about not making hl/vr porn (slash cause i don't wanna put this in searches or tags or whatever) but it's been two years and. does anybody give a shit about penis drawings. is it really that deep. like yea don't send it to the creators that's weird but you and most other nsfw artists haven't done that so like... is it Really some grand moral crime. also you have a good point abt people being cool w gay shit right up until it's eww icky gay sex ect ect. everyone in ur notes should grow up and maybe touch some tits and feel better

unfortunately there are genuinely a lot of ppl in this fandom who have externalized their own disgust towards sex b/c they feel like they have a moral obligation to do so. its a position that lines up neatly with their own pre-existing discomfort! so they dont have to analyze where any of their own discomfort or biases come from. and ive noticed that a lot of them will go so far as to invent justifications out of whole cloth, b/c they believe so fervently that it is a Bad Thing to make these fictional characters fuck each other that it eclipses anything the wrtvs could have possibly said in reality

(like......do you sincerely believe that scorpy has said he doesnt like nsfw fanworks?? this is the one guy who actively wanted to sexualize benreys interest in gordon. but you can just make up anything you want online, apparently)

anyway it is 2022 and it shouldnt matter to anyone at all. but somehow getting so worked up about grown mens fictional penises that you threaten to kill a queer man over it isnt a sign of "terminal fandom brainrot". no, its, uh......its me, a dude who just draws completely ordinary cock and balls, for fun

can i get dogboy dave x catperson reader. i dunno how to write these asks uh

cracking my kunckels . finally putting my dogthing knowledge 2 work ,, slightly shorter set bc i am very tired and im tryna get back in2 the swing of things

[ obligatory ONE mention of alcohol. ]

-so hypothetically for the sake of the argument lets say you're a cat. a kitty cat if you will. lets ALSO say that you happen to be a pretty damn good hire of the SQ. having the skills that you do and the added agility + wariness that comes with your more feline-side, it's easy to see why people are so quick to jump to you for your abilties. that being said, you're always in need of a ride to wherever it is you're trying to go. enter dave.

-it's a pretty normal, purely business relationship at first. you tell him where you're headed, he takes off, and you both sit quietly for a gran majority of the way over. maybe he'll give you a quick 'good luck' or something as you go and get a little wave of acknowledgement, but that's not really saying much.

-it's only when he closes the gap a little further with a few nudges that anything really starts. it wasn't much, really, he'd just noticed you seemed tired after a mission and suggested that you sleep on the way back to headquarters. (don't try pushing back, he will find a way to get you to rest for at least half-an-hour. i hate to say it but he WILL do puppy-dog-eyes and they WILL work. cry abt it.)

-this becomes a bit more of a normal, you'll get a little bit of shut-eye here and there and he promises to not get into any bad situations while you're out. so far, he's been pretty good on sticking to that, even if he's definitely woken you up a few times with a little bit of shakiness in his steering. (he just sighs a bit dramatically and gives some drawn out, whiney little 'oh im soooo sorry for interrupting your cat-nap' just to get on your nerves. it's hard to be upset when he's giving you a dumb little grin at your annoyance)

-you two steadily grow closer and closer, it becoming increasingly obvious that, hey, maybe this isn't a normal friends thing. maybe it isn't a normal friends thing for one of you to visibly perk up and wag their tail whenever they see the other. maybe it isn't a normal friends thing for one of you to have to bite back a purr during quiet, late-night moments of comfortable silence.

-anyway. hope you like sudden confessions because that's what you're getting. chances are it'll be late at night. chances are you were probably sleeping. chances are he's not entirely sober. oh well.

-hope you ALSO like company because chances are if neither of you are really do anything he's just gonna follow you around really. whether you're both going out and doing something (which he's a fan of, since he enjoys having some new experiences with you. it gives you both a chance to just kinda experiment and put some faith in one another) or you're just going to go hang-out and relax in one of your guys' rooms (which he's ALSO a fan of because he likes being close to you. even if you both aren't directly interacting he still likes just looking over at what you're doing every now and then- he'll probably ask a few questions too. if you're reading then he wants to know what about, if you're writing he wants to know what the plot is, if you're drawing he wants to know what it's supposed to be, so on so forth.)

-ON THAT NOTE also expect a lot of physical affection if you're cool w/ that. he WILL practically lay on you, partly to annoy you (affectionately) partly just because its comfy to him. ALSO likes you laying on him . if you purr at all there's a 90% chance he'll mimic it back at you because he thinks its cute </3 .

-do expect him to give you his jacket frequently . doesn't matter if its big or small on you, you WILL get it. 9/10 times its a makeshift blanket for you. he likes to think he's romantic whenever he hands it over to you but its really hard to believe that when he's shaking like a fucked up little chihuahua because he's cold. fortunately for him you don't exactly want him to freeze to death and are willing to keep close to him so he can steal your bodyheat <333

-he has given you a kiss by licking your cheek before and it was terrible. you got payback by poking holes in his shirt with your claws.

ok sorry i cant stop drawing im so tired ill try to force myself to sleep after this but uh

presenting to you my old gasa4 (NOT GASA4SC) ocs

pizza boy (mentioned. also sometimes hes pizza guy idfk), stalker and big sister.

who were renamed at some point to john, S, and sister sigure. (john bc of a dream i had, S bc stalker was weird af, and sister sigure to follow the father figure pattern lol)

i wont go into detail abt them (esp sister since i lost her info oopsies) but ill give small resumes

pizza boy literally filled the same role as pizza person excepr hes like. really happy to be here kinda guy. also i shipped him with cashier a lot lol

stalker was cashiers stalker idk weird shit. she was my main oc so she got rewritten to orginally be a stalker but then broke off her code and now she just hangs out lol

and i dont remember what sister did but i know i wrote a full puzzle and ending fkr her and she just bombs the convenience store and murders cashier. also she used to have blonde her and was idk "basic" ig (wich following that note S looks the exact same as she always has lmao)

anyway they were all made around like... before the first QnA (like when cashier was confirmed a minor) i think????? idk

hello hello !! may I request a JJK MATCHUP ? tq <3 I am all caught up w/ the manga

I'd like a MALE match please and I use MIRROR(ED) PRNS ! u can js search it up in google since im tryna keep this as short as possible khdjfg </3

I am an AQUARIUS sun, VIRGO moon, and CAPRICORN rising as well as an ISTP (MBTI) and this is not stated in the rules but I am a type 9 (enneagram)

now onto PERSONALITY, uh lets just say that I dont give off intimidating vibes like,, AT ALL </3 one of my friends literally told me that a leaf gently hitting their face is scarier than me, idk anymore fjjkhd

just by that description alone, u can tell that im considered a v NICE person, I do try my best to come off as FRIENDLY / WELCOMING as much as possible :D

uhh another description is "GOLDEN RETRIEVER VIBES, head empty and kinda stupid but heart vv full" </3 I like to play around with my friends a lot and like,, be a bit of a bully to them FJSJKHD /lh but it's okay, its js tough love 😔🤞💘

u could say that im a PEOPLE PLEASER now that im typing this out LMAO im vv PATIENT & will rarely and I mean RARELY get mad at my loved ones <3

uh this is the more negative stuff since I feel like giving most of my positive traits is unfair, need to balance it out w/ the bad stuff yk ahah🏃🏽‍♀️ I suffer from gifted kid burnout & I overthink </3 I tend to be like,, too hard on myself and I often think that "mistakes = failure" its just the way I was raised, im trying to get over it dhfjkdgf BUT ANYWAYS I kin miwa & yuta (he's the love of my life btw🤞) if it helps :D

LIKES : coffee in the morning, rainy/cold weather, spacing out and daydreaming LMAO, warm hugsrgsgs <3

DISLIKES : arguments, violence, flying insects, eye contact (I cant keep eye contact for the sake of my LIFE, I dont necessarily dislike it but eye contact is js so,, awkward SJKHD)

LOVE LANGUAGE ; physical affection & quality time 100%

in a relationship, id rlly like the fact that fact that somebody considers me SPECIAL and all of the POTENTIAL ROMANTIC MOMENTS idkkjdhfs I think I read too much romance novels, man

uhh since this is jjk, id dislike the constant worrying abt them NOT COMING BACK HOME ifykwim </3 but aside from that, nothing else

how would they react to me staying up 'til like 2am ? im an insomniac and am vv curious FJSHBD

what if they saw my drawings of them ? idk, I tend to draw the ppl I find pretty a lot and if I were to be in a relationship w someone, my sketchbook will most definitely be filled with drawings of them

possible dates that we could go to ? 👀

anddd that's all :D I rlly hope this isn't too long ? I tried my best to keep it short fhskhjsd </3 anyways, I hope u have a great rest of ur day <333

YOUR MATCH IS… MEGUMI FUSHIGURO !

MANGA SPOILERS BELOW

NOTE: i’m going to be honest and say that i usually skip the whole sun, moon, and rising thing ✋🏻 so if you’ve sent me a match-up, i may or may have not actually searched stuff about that specifically. anyways, i think your match-up is a good length! it’s not an essay so i appreciate it bestie 😩🙌🏻‼️ a fun little thing is that you remind me of an oc of mine in some ways ☝🏻

we all know at this point about megumi’s sort of preference in a partner— someone unshakable and kind (pretty much). he sorta needs a partner that would balance out his “darker” (idk how to word it 💀) attitude

being with megumi is special itself. megumi isn’t the type to open up easily, and people usually have to worm their way into his heart. but megumi let you in willingly, and he doesn’t regret it

a trope i would put you and megumi with would be classmates to lovers or former classmates to lovers, given that being a jujutsu sorcerer isn’t something you’d seem to do

megumi tries to spend as much time as he can with you but considering his job as a sorcerer, it can get hard at times. in the end, you two make it out alright

if it’s after a rough mission that he’s coming to visit, he’d just want to lay down with you in bed in your arms (my bb needs comfort)

a situation of this would be when yuji “died”. megumi would silently show up at your doorstep with a downcast expression and you know immediately that he needed you

in a sort of affectionate way, megumi would call you an idiot for always daydreaming and zoning out. he’d lightly knock on your head, “cal? you there?”

coffee in the morning is always a must whenever he comes over. something he’ll appreciate so much is if you make him some black coffee, just as he likes it

he is so hesitant to let you come over to the technical school and meet everyone, though. you met gojo in middle school and the man literally embarrassed megumi in front of you 💀 megs doesn’t want a repeat

he’s never found himself to be disappointed in you. megumi knows that mistakes are made, especially because he’s made multiple himself

sometimes megumi can be caught off-guard when he finds you awake at 2 am. he knows that it’s something you can’t really help, but he has a heart attack whenever he sees you standing in the dark in the kitchen at 1 in the morning (mans just wanted a cup of water before going back to bed ✋🏻)

since you worry a lot about if megumi will come back alive from a mission or not, he sometimes tends to hide the fact that he has a mission. especially when it’s something like shibuya, he hid it at first but the truth was bound to come out when news spread all over the country

dates i can think of are; cafe dates, art museum dates, or just simple indoor dates where you two eat and waste the hours away talking or watching something on television

megumi smiles when he finds out that you’ve drawn him (you know how hard it can be to make this boy do so???). the day he finds out, he’s simply by your side more than usual. “you know i love you more than i say right, cal?”

NAVIGATION

so uh. Funny stuff kinda been happenin. apparently a couple friends admitted that i was basically rizzing everyone around me simply by existing ever since the first day of school ?????

and then a close friend told me (as well as the opinions of several others since the first day of school AND LIKE. SMTH I PERSONALLY NOTICED AS WELL) is that he naturally just excudes a lot of charm and charisma

BUT WHEN. WE'RE IN THE SAME PLACE FACING EACH OTHER ALL THAT RIZZ GOES OUT THE WINDOW. LIKE WE'RE FINE WHEN ONE IS TURNED AWAY. BUT THE MOMENT EYE CONTACT IS ESTABLISHED BOOM.

RIZZLESS. SUDDENLY FORGETS HOW TO SAY ANYTHING EVER AND CANT EVEN BE NORMAL FOR A SIMPLE SECOND

both sides have thought that the other was a player since we've both been confessed to by other ppl and we p much had the same responses to those, ignoring and/or dodging, because we dont rlly wanna address those stuff, AND WHENEVER ONE OF US GETS CLOSE TO THE OTHER, THE OTHER PERSON ENDS UP DRAWING AWAY AND ITS JUST DHAJDHJJSH LOWKEY TERRIBLE

both of us have felt incredibly ecstatic and broken hearted and depressed and jealous and erratic and ridiculous based on how we interact with others, and how we've both thought that the other was interested in someone else, or that the other person was just leading them on, or that we were just playing with each other's feelings. No we're just confusing as hell LOL

cause our classroom and i think ppl from other sections have known and/or are starting to know that He has a crush on someone in class, and that *I* very obviously had one as well but have gotten more lowkey about it, however they dont know who exactly we were crushing on, which meant we were unintentionally giving mixed signals to everyone we accidentally glanced at while lookin for each other HHSAHS

SO ANYWAY I KINDA ADMITTED SMTH TODAY AFTER I SMACKED HIM WITH A CLEAR FOLDER OVER HIS HEAD (but i made sure he wasnt actually hurt) AND THEN IMMEDIATELY APOLOGIZED FOR IT

and i said. "it's not that i don't like you" LIKE WHAT KINDA TSUNDERE ASS VBDIQNHEKW FIRST I PUNCHED HIM OUT OF EXCITEMENT AFTER OUR INTRAMS DANCE WHILE HE WAS WAITING FOR ME WHEN WE EXITED, AND THEN YESTERDAY WHEN WE WERE ALMOST ALONE TOGETHER (there were two other ppl unfortunately which made me feel INCREDIBLY AWKWARD) I JUST. SMACKED HIM. WITH MY FOLDER OF NOTES. WHY

AND THEN APOLOGIZED WITH *THAT* LINE IN THE MIDDLE OF ALL YHINGS LJKE AJEKQOQHRQODHOWWJQODJKE

what kind of damn tropey ass. romance series is this like. Several people have described all this painful pining and longing as like some kinda kdrama or rlly cheesy ass fanfic BC LIKE. THERES ALSO THE INTERPERSONAL DRAMA BETWEEN THE FACT THAT SEVERAL PPL HAVE CRUSHES ON BOTH OF US SEPARATELY. AND THERES SEVERAL OF EM THAT ARE IN OUR OWN CLASS SO ITS LIKE

THAT WAS LITERALLY THE REASON WHY NEITHER HIM OR I PROPERLY MADE A MOVE BC WE KNEW OUR FRIENDS OR ACQUAINTANCES LIKED THE OTHER PERSON AND WE DIDNT WANNA IMPOSE BUT NOW I THINK WE'VE BOTH DISREGARDED THAT ENTIRELY LIKE

we both dont care abt what others have to say anymore we just wanna be togetehfbwjbrje2nr

BUT WE HAVE HORRIBLE TIMING TOO BC JUST TODAY THERE WAS A SCHOOL ANNOUNCEMENT ABT BEING STRICTLY AGAINST PDA WHICH MEANT. NO HOLDING HANDS AND NO KISSING AND LIKE. DAMN. DAMNIT. IM LITERALLY LIKE VERY AFFECTIONATE WITH MY FRIENDS

its to the point where ppl often mistake me for a lesbian or bi or Something bc im very close and hug my friends often and hold their hands n all and been told SEVERAL TIMES THAT I LOOKED LIKE MY FRIENDS' BOYFRIEND LOL

SO ANYWAYS. THE ANNOUCEMENT SAID THAT, "TRUE LOVE WAITS" AND I LITERALLY WJWKABSU when that was announced in class i had Such an obvious WHAT reaction and kept joking abt it for the rest of the day whenever i hung out with my friends and when i first read it in amusement and Lowkey like. Disappointment? He was there watching my expression and his friends teased him abt it too

ajgsjqhajsj i would talk abt all the similarities we have with each other and how he planned somethin that we've both been rlly lookin forward to but i havwnt eaten dinner yet bc when i went home i just fell asleep IMMEDIATELY and im hungry LOL

anyway i hope he asks me out tomorrow otherwise ill just be the one who'll do it directly on friday even if its while everyone else is in class bc i absolutely REFUSE to end this week without any weekend plans or confirmed date i absolute refuse and both of us have been anxiously lookin forward to one, and both of us have been incredibly restless about it for like several weeks so it HAS to happen, like both of our respective friend groups and the ones we share have literally been tryin SO hard to give us several opportunities to show off the other person and like get the other to confess OR LIKE FOR US TO PROPERLY TALK SO AHDMAHRPQHEPQHROQBRKQK

i was scrolling thru some random tag earlier today and happened upon some art that you had posted on your sideblog a while ago and it was a very pleasant surprise to stumble upon; id looked at your art blog a few times out of curiousity (as we are mutuals) but never followed it because it seemed like you hadnt been drawing recently. im unawares of your current situation but i hope youre still able to express yourself creatively in some way. its something i think everyone should be able to do in some capacity. regardless i hope youre doing well. youre someone i think about and worry for a lot, even though we dont talk. much love 💜🖤

oh as far as my art blog goes it's just a mixture of artblock, forgetting to actually post wht finished art i have, and the classic beloved adhd time blindness lol (i'll prob be updating it sometime this week/next week?)

on a more personal note...there's been a lot so i'm not even sure where to start off lol. but basically for the past 2 years i've been unemployed and battling a massive depressive episode. and uh, i've been unmedicated for abt as long, so some unhealthy coping mechanisms are also along for the ride.

shoutout to alcoholism! 100% sure anyone who reads my tags or my tweets can tell when i'm shitfaced (near daily) 😭

anyway it's been a domino effect of shitty circumstances for the past few years...but otherwise i'm fine! which sounds super fake but it's true lol

public promo to reveal chaos lol

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“We can live like Jack and Sally if we want” - Blink 182

Ladies and gentlemen, nonbinaries and other genders in the SELF SHIP COMMUNITY- My name is Cosvin I had been a selfshipper on this hellsite since 2016 but Ive been on this hellsite beginning from 2015... BEFORE some of yall anti h3talians splash anon hate on me; GO WALK IN THE PARK PLS <3 it s HEALTHY- its GOOD FOR YOU IDC IF you’re gonna anon shit on me, ok boomer fine, but I will NEVER HIDE over my pasts. just know I already know my mistakes, and yet I moved on...even if i felt bad abt it- also haha hey give yourself the ENERGY to block me because... its not hard!! just 2 clicks/taps on your phone okay?

im just gonna give familiarity over my art excuse me

As half of maybe you all know, me for some specific art that i made, and as well my selfships... if you want to know through my art... well. half of f yall are familiar with these old drawings

I am 23 years old who works on a catering... studies culinary arts.. but i love to draw, and write sometimes- but yeah... this time on this acc itll be filled with half of funny suggestive- I’ll tag it as #tw funny suggestive a s a warning for yall okay?

Theres more if you look into my tag of #cosvin’s art

but yeah

ive been maybe halfly known through art, and if from qoutev, thats also me there too... if I can explain further, (ill edit this anyway so yeah)

but yea this acc will be mostly SFW- i only have a private nsfw tumblr acc thats only for adult mutuals... 

Interests

Hetalia

Stranger Things

Star Wars

MHA

Anything in gen- Theres more of my past interests in here if you wanna see

My main f/os

(and f/os i consider the same soul itself excuse me i have the multiverse theory hahahha yeah

Gilbert Bielschmidt 

Eddie Munson

Atsuhiro Sako

Tordsen Lark

here’s my list of f/os for more though... in here for Familiaral f/os mostly its my adopted fam : D 

an d yea thats all i have heres my dni... ig this is now a public acc for yall but i may not be too in there? but ill try to check every now and then- you dont have to follow the DNI i know there’s the important notes on the DNI but yeah. 

thats all ig what i have here... unless i update idk- 

again now im not afraid to show my love for my f.os- if anyone has a problem with it, i m so sorry with my impulse but thats your diddley darn problem just get yourself a walk in the park for fuckles sake and find whats comfortable for you- if you’re not comfortable with me just dni- thats all there is to it! as I said-

also hi fanbase? <3 fuck you (maybe) 

hi anti h3talians to give hate? <3 fuck you 

if you read this far and accepted this uh hi have a cookie! idk 🍪🍪🍪 I want to say thank you for reading an d i hope you have a good day-

im NOT AFRAID to show my love for Gilbert and Eddie anymore... and will fight my love for them idk (im not the TYPE to bash other ships i stg i wont send hate I just block too, no hard feelings hun 💖✌) and yeah if yall are lucky enough to be my mutual i can show you my most active b l o g i just gonna say yeah... im selective. still- 

as for final part... heres my selfship art with eddie or gil- hahah these are so far im prou d of 

[ID: 7 drawings of monster!mechanisms designs. they are as follows: 1. a colored drawing of ivy alexandria that has been partially passed through the deep dream generator neural network, giving parts of the image a swirling, surreal appearance, often resembling eyes. 2. a digtal sketch of nastya as a ghost. her eyes are obscured by her glasses shine and she is covered in blue wisps, and dripping blue from her mouth and hands.  3. a digital sketch of drumbot brian as a centaur sitting down. his horse half is also mechanical and resembles a clydesdale. he also has horse-ish ears. 4. a sketchy bust of vampire marius. he looks smug, and looks to the side with a fanged smile. 5. digital sketch of partially-transformed werewolf gunpowder tim with doglike ears, claws, and a tail. he says "ok why did getting turned into that somehow give you a pitchfork." with a quizzical expression. 6. digital sketch of jonny d'ville as a devil or demon, with horns, pointy ears, cartoony wings, and a thin tail with a heart-shaped tip. he's holding a hellish pitchfork, looking confused and says "what? i already owned this.” 7. a traditional sketch of harpy/siren raphaella. she holds here feathery winged arms out, while her mechanical bat wings are unfurled behind her. her lower half is that of a bird. end ID]

ok ill post a couuuple. self indulgence machine go brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

ok so u know like back in the gravity falls fandom there was that really popular au called monster falls where everybody got turned into some sort of monster/mythological creature? i fucking love that scenario and have been making my own little “everybody gets cursed by a witch or something so now i get to draw these fun designs” aus for like everything i like (never did it w tma oddly enough? good inspo just never struck.) so here.......is..........this. not everybodys pictured here but go under the cut for a list of what everybody is plus some extra notes and stuff

lets just goooooo alphabetical order

ashes - OKAY HONESTLY STILL NOT 100% ON ASHES im THINKING half-dragon. yes i know i already went dragon for them in the furry au its just a good fit and also looks Cool, but also waiting out to see if i can think of anything better

brian - CENTAURRRR also again. yes. i know i went 4 horse for him in the furry au. its just good and has fun brian vibes. wanting to draw centaur brian was the thing that led to this au happening

ivy - ELDRITCH SOMETHIN OR OTHER...idk what youd call that exactly. but you get the gist. cosmic horror, eyes, unfathomable patterns and things. doing the deep dream stuff for her in that picture was very fun and im very happy w how it came out...definitely something to revisit in the future. not sure how i wanna draw her when...not doing a whole colored digital thing, but well cross that bridge when i can draw again

jonny - he’s. he’s a devil? a little demon guy? like. yeah. of course. this guy was fucking meant to have little wings horns and a cute little demon heart tail. he has somehow become MORE bastardly

marius - VAMPIRE MARIUS ONCE AGAIN HES JUST FUN. hes just fun and the aesthetic suits him. i cant wait to draw him in a fun little cape with one of those big dramatic collars you know the ones. vampire marius is of course @ alientoastt’s idea!!

nastya - BANSHEE...or ghost in general but there some banshee stuff i feel could be fun to integrate. apparently in some tellings banshees can turn into crows? i love that very much. but anyways hmm..some notes abt the design in thsi post shes not quite where i want her to be. this was done on that collab canvas the other day and like...was mostly noodling things out having fun, those flamey looking bits are a very nice motion very fun to do but NOT wwhat i want for ghostya. i want her to be more. drippy. very drowned person vibes. fire and upward-floating motif not what i want. but it was fun to draw. also i think theres some potential comedy in there with “person who predicts deaths” among crew who habitually murder each other

raphaella - SOMEWHERE BTWN HARPY & SIREN (the bird kind not the mermaid kind) very excited abt her. lots of fun potential poses here. doing her design was a bit tricky- sirens tend to be just like- big birds with human heads? but i didt wanna do just that that takes away too much of her design recognizbility yknow to Just have her head. so she has a people torso, bird from the waist down, plus her arms are wings. which means she has Two pairs of wings. which i for one think is incredibly fun like you remember in httyd2 valka’s dragon w the four wings? yeah. also avent figured what bird in particular shell be based on- for the ufrry au i went w african grey parrot but dont feel like that here. ill think on it

tim - WEREWOLF TIM DUH. DUH. also i think werewolves are especially funny in scenarios like thse cus like- okay everybody suddenly ahhh cursed ahh monster whatever. but then tims just there like. i mean i feel fine lol and u get to have the fun surprise of Oh Suddenly Werewolf. also the question of how exactly werewolves who change based on the moon function in a. spaceship. i like to think its entirely fucking random i think thats funny

TS - ANIMATED SUIT OF ARMOR!! I DONT HAVE MUCH MORE TO SAY ON THSI BUT I LOVE . THIS IDEA. and i will never draw it. because fuck drawing and designing armor oh my god

anyways i think thats??? all i have to say on this??? agdvjdkb. if you wanna talk about this at all (or if u wanna see more doodles...) im totally open to that. ill be real i get weirdly embarrassed about specifically this kind of au (like. monster stuff in general especially werewolf/vampire stuff i could not fucking tell you why. gotten better abt it over time though hey im actually postin this shit!) so im just happy i posted it afhcgvjdkvdg .

as for story type things like how. this happens. frankly i dont know thats not my forte. but the little bit of whatever ive got going on my head has the Terrific Trio of ivy marius & raphaella doing Research Science Whatever down on a planet somewhere get into contact with a Cursed Artifact or whatever the fuck and eventually get back to the aurora like. oh. uh. it happened to you guys too, huh. but thats like whatever honestly im not in it for the writing im here to draw fun centaur man etc.

if you made it to the bottom of this winding fucking ramble know that i love you. mwah. that was fun to write out i like thought barfing about stuff like maybe 3 people will care about

so ive had this idea for an amphibia fangame for a lil while now-

(LONG post)

its based around the idea that sometime after anne got sent back to earth, she decides to sneak out one night to visit sasha and marcys bedrooms and poke through their stuff. this causes a bunch of memories to come back to anne through flashbacks while she tries to process everything thats happened and her feelings abt their friendship.

i was thinking itd be mostly a visual novel type thing. maybe with a few small choices, but the story would be mostly linear. thered be around 3 main story beats: a prologue bit w/ anne sneaking out of her house, marcys bedroom, and sashas bedroom. also one of the main mechanics would be looking at one of their bedrooms and clicking on random objects of importance and triggering a flashback sequence.

it came from the idea that anne will probably try to just shove all her emotions down and try to ignore her feelings abt true colors and everything that went down then. especially with what we saw in the sneak peek, anne will probably try to hide her emotions and bottle them up, which is obviously not healthy. so eventually shes gonna have to work through her emptional baggage and try to process everything.

i havent thought through EVERYTHING just yet, just some more major plot points and maybe one or two ideas for flashbacks. nothing too solid yet. but heres a bit more detailed runthrough of the plot

summary - prologue

so it would start off with anne at home. she and her mom are talking outside annes room. her moms concerned abt how annes been handling everything that happened in amphibia but anne keeps brushing everything off. her mom tries to get her to open up, but she keeps dismissing her and eventually shuts herself in her room. after taking a bit to cool off and think anne decides that shes gonna take the night to just ride off her emotions and stop repressing them for once. she also makes an impulsive decision to sneak out and check out marcy and sashas rooms.

anne goes to gather her stuff in her room, and just as shes about to climb out the window, sprig walks in to check on her. hes still rly concerned abt his big sis but he knows he cant stop her. he tries to go with anne, but she tells him she needs to do this on her own. so, sprig lets her go and tries to cover for her while shes gone.

so at this point i’ll probably give the player the choice of whose house to visit first. it doesnt rly impact the story or whatever, but i guess it might have a small emotional impact depending on whose house u choose to go to first??

(quick note: after this bit, there arent too many specific details for the plot and stuff like that. its largely just an overall idea of how the plot is gonna go. and even then, there isnt much to it. i didnt think that far ahead yet, which is why there isnt as much refinement yet. so far i just have general ideas for how annes gonna get to the bedrooms, with a couple of vague flashback ideas. just keep that in mind; this whole thing is still being thought over and planned as im typing this out)

summary - sasha

with sasha, annes still rly conflicted abt how she feels abt her. of course shes still rly hurt by being backstabbed by her twice and swordfighting her as many times. but as much as she hates sasha she cant bring herself to fully give up on sash. she hates her guts but deep down shes still willing to give sash another chance.

there may or may not be a small sequence where anne has to sneak into sashas house, but eventually she works her way into sashas room. im not entirely sure abt the details of sashas house n her family yet. im probably gonna wait for info from s3 until i solidify anything, but for now i do know that sashas family has a big house n theyre probably rich.

so anne goes into sashas room and its been left pretty much untouched ever since annes birthday, save for the few times someone came in to dust things off. again, dont rly have all the details for sashas room, but it kind of has a vibe of controlled chaos, with organized clutter and a bit of a touch of a rebellious teen girl. one detail i do want to have is a calendar opened up to the month the trio disappeared, with annes birthday circled and highlighted so much that its impossible to miss.

the calendar itself might include a flashback. im thinking of also having a varsity jacket and some old stuffed animal be different “artifacts” that trigger their own memories. there’ll be a bunch more, but those are the only ideas i have so far fjsbndnd

summary - marcy

ok so i want to be rly mean about marcys segment: this is going off the theory that marcys parents moved away while the trio was in amphibia.

anne doesnt know this yet tho, so shes in for quite a surprise when she turns onto marcys street to find a realtor sign on the front lawn. the clues are all there: an empty driveway, sign on the lawn, an overall empty vibe coming from the house. but it doesnt completely register at first. its not til anne actually comes up close does she notice the sign.

anne tries to deny it, and decides to prove to herself that “no marcys parents wouldnt do this. theyre not that cruel. im just gonna check marcys room myself.” the front doors locked, so she just goes over to marcys window and climbs in.

but its completely empty.

ok not totally empty, but a lot of marcys furniture and stuff is gone, except for a few stray toys and other “junk.” the home guys (idk what theyre called????) are still kind of in the process of cleaning everything out, so theres still some stuff left here and there around the house. but its still way too empty. and its yet another gut punch for anne.

anne searches the rest of the house a bit more, hoping that shes just hallucinating. but no, marcys parents are really gone. she tried to deny it before, but now she has more of an idea of how shitty the wu parents are. so anne decides to just mope around in marcys old room, checking out the stuff their parents left behind.

maybe she finds an old blanket marcy liked when he was rly young. or an old rubiks cube from marcys vast collection. a cnc figurine, some cards, a pride flag, and old diary? a couple of other old toys, an old report card or two, or maybe even some stray clothes. whatever anne finds, its all thats left of marcy, at least in LA.

it really doesnt leave anne in that much of a better emotional position. she already felt conflicted enough about what happened in true colors and what she found out abt marcy. but seeing even a small glimpse of what marcy was dealing with, it just makes her more confused. marcy was such a sweet kid! theres no way they couldve done anything wrong. yet here anne was, betrayed by both of her childhood friends.

only now is anne really taking the time to process the fact that marcy essentially kidnapped her and sasha with the calamity box. he didnt mean to do it, and theres no way they couldve known the box would actually work, but it doesnt completely excuse marcy. his actions still hurt anne and sash, and while they meant the best of intentions, it didnt rly come through that way.

and now marcy was dead. stabbed in the back by the newt king.

and now annes curled up in an empty bedroom, wrapped up in one of marcys old blankets, trying to wrap her head around her feelings about marcy while reminiscing in the past.

summary - extras/epilogue??

i kind of like the idea that anne ends up drifting off in which ever bedroom ended up being the second one she visited. she slowly comes back to consciousness, with her surroundings feeling somewhat familiar, only to wake up in horror bc “OH SHIT I FORGOT TO GO BACK HOME” im not completely sold on the idea tho bc it feels a bit abrupt and like too much of a tone shift?? idk it doesnt feel exactly right

but anyways, im also playing around with the idea of a small epilogue scene with the calamity trio hanging out in annes room, a good amount of time after amphibia ended. dont know what theyre doing in there, but theyre just chilling and feeling a bit nostalgic i guess.

but uh yeah thats pretty much what ive got for the overall idea. it doesnt feel too out of reach, but somethjng like this would definitely be ambitious. i could mayyyybe handle writing out the vn and drawing the character sprites, but i have no idea how to code a vn or draw detailed backgrounds, both of which would be pretty important to this fangame fjsndj. so i might consider having help with this.

THIS ISNT ANY SORT OF PROMISE OR WHATEVER. id rly love to follow through and make this fangame a thing, but im not making any guarantees. i have no idea if i’ll actually follow through, but i would definitely love to.

who knows. maybe in like a couple years this might actually become a thing. but for now i have no idea

you ever make some  Bastards? anfisa and valentine!  also the context of the little labels on valentine’s sheet is to like, number the parts of the story for me and my friend who’s working on this so we know when the hell in the story we’re talking abtsgddfg anyways more info abt them under the cut .. i love these bastards...

these two are in the same world as some of my other ocs - you can find them in my neontok tag under rum’s post for more information about the world nd stuff! if you do not want to look at it tldr its just me putting my more uh. “darker” concepts?? like these two! let’s continue into more info tho: so like, context! in this world, there’s this group of seven assassins who’s existence is.. very speculated. like, they’re a common myth. maybe not among all of society all around the world, but most people have heard folk stories of their existence at some point in their life. this group of assassins has existed for literal hundreds of years, and nobody knows how or why, so they just.. assume it’s a story. a myth. but it’s Not. the “seven” is actually countless people who have been trained throughout their family’s bloodlines as a tradition with every other generation’s first child - or in the case of assassins One and Two, the first two siblings. they’re all basically trained to do the exact same stuff as the original seven did, too. other than One and Two, the children don’t necessarily know each other, especially because usually they’re in completely different countries. anyways so, anfisa here used to be part of this. he was assassin Three, born and raised in russia, pretty much the only assassin of the seven to not be trained to be sneaky and quiet bc most of what he does is loud on purpose. he does know how to blend in among people normally and how to scramble away from people without getting hurt, but man. he is NOT graceful like the other six. he ends up defecting from the assassins (which is just him going. huh. fuck this <3) and leaving to not-america and goes. i will live a normal life now.          he ends up going. oh wait actually i hate how society is and how much of this city is controlled via bribes and crimes - what if i just. actively tried to cement myself in that world. what if i did crimes? i already did them before. he ends up gaining a mild following of people for this and they help him to do this.. the dude who runs the Local Crime Syndicate™ (at least, the largest one), jack, gets. very pissed off about this once anfisa’s group grows large enough scale. he employs this highly revered journalist bc in jack’s mind this goes. “oh, this guy is SO very good at picking people apart and getting into their business, and my stupid police force isn’t doing their fucking job right (lol), i’ll hire this dude. if he dies its barely any loss on my part. the journalist is valentine <3 idk his first name but he’s valentine and he is SO full of anxiety and has so much in common with anfisa about Hating Authority nd shit. this is a mistake on jack’s part who is blind as hell and cannot read valentine’s old articles + thinks he can bribe him with money to do whatever. valentine goes. <:( okay i will try i hate this but also money and also you are pointing guns at me and threatening to kill me if i Dont take the money and do this. valentine ends up joining anfisa and goes from anxious timid british (lol) bastard to mildly terrifying and willing to organize and command a group of people with anfisa who are actively trying to like, overthrow a straight up  crime syndicate organization thing that Also has quite a large hold on a lot of businesses and government related stuff in the city. and SUCCEEDS for the most part. he is very good at this and it scares the group so much esp with the fact that it grows from like 6 or 7 people to like, over 50 or more in like.. a year. shoutout to anfisa he intentionally picks on valentine bc he thinks this guy is cute. when valentine is lowkey stalking getting research on anfisa/the group, anfisa notices and goes. :) im going to make your life so very difficult but in an only slightly annoying way. you got knocked out one day so i stole your tie and then the next time you saw me on the news you saw me wearing it around my arm like a trophy. valentine is so very annoyed and takes all of anfisa’s mild friendly torment as This Little Man Hates Me So Fucking Much. Why Does He Want Me DEAD also shoutout x2 to anfisa for being great at working with machines and learning how to put foot pedals on his motorcycle so he can switch the seat around to like, a pedal control board and ride it like a skateboard. this is dangerous and very, very impractical. he does not care. he’s having fun ps. if you think valentine is similar to a certain someone you’re right. its on purpose. i “steal” canon characters all the time (see: idk, not often actually) with friends bc its very fun to see how you can reinterpret a character without it being basically an au of the original character. TLDr if you can make a connection with the other character; good! just know he’s still his own thing and its on purpose and i love him. ps. x2/bonus i named anfisa after cat no banana <3 also anfisa (анфиса) means flowering/blossoming. i have made anfisa allergic to bananas and have given him plant themed clothingLKJGFDLKJG

ps. x3 im planning on drawing the rest of this team and talking about them but i want to post them all at once. i honestly wanted to do that here but i havent posted in 9 days so i. went ahead and just posted these two and gave their info since its more than, yknow, nothing? ps. x4 (help i have so many notes) literally i never put any of my stories on earth but then dont make any effort to make the contries non-earth countries bc like. *gestures vaguely* man idk how to do that and dont have the energy to make new cultures nd stuff on my free time??? im not doing this for a professional story??? so like. yeah. anyways so anfisa is Not from russia. he’s russian. valentine is british. britain doesn’t exist. make of that what you will. anyways. that is all. thank you. i kiss you for reading this. if you have questions please ask me them i have so much information all the time and it shows me theres interest in this