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No one wants me!!! This town only contains old straight people!!! Aahhhh I hate it here!!!!
#put a finger down if#you live in a small town surrounded#by old retired people with to much privilege#and everyone of them has weird old person social rules that you don’t understand#and your breaking at least 20 of them by being queer#so no matter how much you try they look at you differently than they do each other#and everyone is fake polite and the whole place has the uncanny valley effect#because it’s like some creepy suburban hell#and they all see you as a freak#and you can’t be yourself because you already feel constantly judged#and it’s slowly driving you insane#but you can’t afford to move out because rent in your state is unaffordable#🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#tw rant#rant tw#I swear these people are apart of some kind of suburban cult and they’re going to sacrifice me to the hoa in exchange for more red wine#my post
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Only Friends Ep 9 Stray Thoughts
Last week, Mew is going through it and is exploring who he might be if he wasn't trying to stay on the straight and narrow. Mew and Ray aren't exactly working, but they decide to host a costume party for Halloween. At the party Ray has Mew try coke, and also breaks up Sand's attempt to kiss another man (which I am salty about). Mew only kisses Ray in front of Top. Boston is still in the outs, but Cheum's brother Atom goes home with Boston. The cops show up and almost arrest Ray, but Top pays them off. Top then takes Mew home and oversteps so many lines it's not even funny.
"The Return" oh whom???
I noticed Top didn't tell Mew they slept together or about the cops. Also noting that Mew rejected his touch.
Ray is still doing this possessive thing with Sand, and Sand just can't sever ties.
Okay, fuck Top. I was trying to be a bit more sympathetic to this man, but unironically recording Ray in a compromising position after everything they've been through is shitty.
Boston doesn't look to be feeling that great about the encounter with Atom.
GLAMPING!! WHERE DID SAND AND NICK RENT THIS TRAILER AND HOW DID THEY GET IT HERE?
"Team Second Option" oh my God. Love this loser camping trip.
"Good can't buy love." Yo is so right.
Top telling Mew to love himself more? Nah, fuck that.
I'm loving the music the last few episodes.
Ray is so consistent. Why can't he have it? He also knows this is still somehow about Top.
See, this why I don't like being location tagged on socials. Ray is about to drive out and ruin the Loser Camping Trip.
These losers are definitely 20. Their favorite Pixar film is Inside Out and not A Bug's Life or Wall-E?
YES! SAND AND NICK SHOULD TRY IT OUT! I loved this. Every queer is not compatible. Two bottoms don't make an outfit, but three is a sisterhood. (This is a joke and not an assessment of Sand and Nick's roles in sex)
This is now the third time Ray has asked for a threesome with Sand.
I'm actually so annoyed with Ray for ruining the Loser Camping Trip and their cuddle.
We were so close to a Mama Sandwich. I haven't seen one since The Fosters.
Of course Top shows up and gets to play boyfriend for the moms.
Nick, you are not helping!! You should have stayed to cockblock.
"He doesn't know we're still sleeping together." And "So we're secret lovers." Everyone in my notes who tried to tell me I was wrong, I would like an apology.
At least Sand finally stood up for himself.
I'm not feeling Top this week at all. Lesbians, please read your son's reactions.
Here we go with the Daddy stuff.
Okay, I'm having fun with Mark and Papang.
Boston just gets no peace this episode.
Aww, Boston was actually touched by Nick's goodbye.
Well well well. Thrusting.
I'm so glad Mew stated for the audience that he was only using Ray to hurt Top.
I like that Mew and Ray found a way back to friendship.
Oooh, Mew asserted that he wasn't possessed. He was just hurt.
Oh, are we not reconciling with Boston?
MOND!!! MIX WASN'T BOEING? I LOVE THIS.
There is so much next week. Mew meeting Boeing. Ray going to rehab. Sand having a regular absent father. Boston spiraling.
I feel so vindicated this week. Sand and Ray were fucking the whole time. Mew was knowingly using Ray. Mew didn't want Top touching him. Nick and Sand tried it out. I won.
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You Were Finished Long Before We Had Even Seen The Start
You Were Finished Long Before We Had Even Seen The Start
Word Count: 7904
Indie Rocker!Eddie Munson x POC!Indie Rocker!Reader “Sug” x Fuckboy!Steve Harrington
Early 2000s Indie Rockstar AU
Summary: You both knew how he was and yet you somehow still put your faith in him to not to treat you like all the others. Lesson learned. At least you got a song out of it, right?
Warnings: 18+ Minors DNI. Angst and Fluff and Smut, Shameless Smut, Angst and Feels, Angst with a Happy Ending, Feels, Bisexual Eddie Munson, Bisexual Steve Harrington, Threesome - F/M/M, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Light Dom/sub, Aftercare, Humor
Divider by @firefly-graphics
Banner by @cafekitsune
It all started a couple of weeks ago during movie night at Steve’s.
After everyone had gone to sleep in various areas of the house, the three of us were still a bit wired. So we retreated to Steve’s room and decided to play a game of 20 questions. Truth or dare really, without the ridiculous dares.
A question about sexual orientation came up. As it always seems too during these things.
Everyone knows you don’t have a preference for who you share your bed with. Gender truly means nothing to you in that regard. Seeing as there is no term for such an orientation these days you tend to go by Queer or Bi if someone really pushes it.
Your beloved Eddie is the same way. He just choses to remain label-less.
Although you’re a couple, you do tend to allow others into your bed from time to time if the mood strikes you. Your each other’s end game though for sure. Play partners are just that, for play.
Your only somewhat surprised to find out that Steve isn’t completely straight and has fooled around with men before. Always as a top of course. The man really loves to be serviced as much as he loves servicing. Or so he says.
“Have you ever kissed a guy before? Hooking up can mean a variety of things that don’t always include kissing.” You ask.
“Um,” He scratches the back of his neck. “Actually, I haven’t.”
“Wait, you mean to tell me you’ve had a dick in your mouth but never kissed a man?” Eddie chuckles out.
“Well, yeah.”
You and Eddie share a look with each other. Devilish smiles spreading across your faces. You’ve had many a conversation and dirty talk that involved your shared attraction and crush one Steve Harrington.
“Do you want to?” You ask.
“Want to what?”
“See what it’s like to kiss guy?” You and Eddie blurt out at the same time.
“I mean I wouldn’t say no. But funny enough, it’s never really come up.”
“What do you think sweetheart? Should I volunteer myself for a little experimentation?” Eddie wiggles his brows.
“I don’t mind. But it’s not up to me now is it puppy?”
“Harrington?”
Steve’s eyes are locked on Eddies lips as he bites his own.
“How bout we give him a little taste of them in action?” You propose as you dance your fingers along the smooth collum of skin along Eddie’s Adam’s apple.
“I think that is a fabulous idea.” He grips your chin between his thumb and forefinger. Bringing your mouth to his where they connect in an all too familiar embrace. It’s slow, sensual, and so damn sweet it’s almost teeth rottingly beautiful.
Steve is entranced. Hypnotized by the natural way you submit to Eddie’s control. He wants a taste of that. Even if just this once. Because that is all he can ever be good for. Just one night.
Or so he believes. He has never stayed longer than that. The only time he ever allowed himself that kind of indulgence was with Nancy. That ended up with him being left anyway, so what was the point of trying to stay if everyone always leaves.
That’s a problem for later though. Right now, he really wants to know what Eddie’s lips feel like and how you taste on his tongue. It’s a two for one deal he’s dying to try if the uncomfortable bulge in his sweats is anything to go by.
Eddie breaks the kiss. Hand still clasped around your chin. Your eyes are lust blown and you have the sexiest little smile on your face.
“Think you wanna give it a try Big Boy?” Eddie’s is riddled with its own lust.
He visibly swallows and nods his head. “Yeah.”
Eddie releases your face. A whimper escapes you in protest and he gives your forehead a quick peck. “I’ll be right back baby. I know you want to know what the King tastes like. Be a good girl for me and I’ll let your first taste of him be mixed with my tongue. Hmm.”
You nod your head.
“Words, little bunny.”
“Yes, Sir.”
“Good girl.” Crawling over on his hands and knees, Eddie moves toward an anxious looking Steve. “You sure you’re ready for this?”
Steve nods his head. “Yeah.”
“Good.” He reaches forward, running a hand up Steve’s neck before tangling his fingers through the hair along his nape and pulling him forward. Similarly to the way he pulled you in just minutes before. He stops with his mouth just millimeters separating them. Giving Steve the chance to back out if that was what he wanted to do.
Instead Steve closes the gap and allows himself to be taking under Eddie’s spell. His lips are soft but that’s the only thing soft about this kiss. It is intense and all consuming. Making all his blood continue to run south to his already aching dick. Turning it to stone.
He can hear a faint whine in the distance. Most likely coming from you. He wants to see what this kiss is doing to make you whine like that. He’s dying to know what you think.
He doesn’t have to wait long to figure it out as Eddie pulls back. Releasing his hold on Steve’s hair. A small string of saliva connecting them to each other until they both turn to look at you.
You’re squirming in your spot on the floor. Thighs squeezed tight together. Looking for something to ease the ache you’re experiencing between your neglected pussy.
“Come here bunny girl.” Eddie husks out with a quirk of his fingers.
You quickly scramble over to him. As you’re deciding where to sit, he grips your waist and places you on his lap. Making sure your sweet little pussy is nestled in close to his rock-hard length. You whimper a bit at the feeling of him right up against where you need him most.
“What are you waiting for Bunny? You’ve earned your taste.” He sticks his tongue out and you latch on to it with a hunger Steve was not prepared for.
You moan as the flavor of him mixes with your boyfriends. Deepening the kiss your hips begin to grind against Eddie’s hardness nestled between your thighs.
Steve can’t help but to palm his own hardness trapped within his sweats. Is our combined taste really turning you on that much?
Eddie’s hands are gripped tight on your ass. Helping guide you over his shaft.
Steve may have had a wet dream or five about a scenario involving the three of you, just like this.
His eyes are fixated on the swell of your ass adorned with Eddie’s silver ringed fingers. He barely registers that Eddie has asked him a question.
“Huh?”
“I asked if you needed any help with that?” He points to Steve’s crotch. Where his hand has slipped under his sweats and has taken a full grip on his dick. Precum has begun to leak from his tip, creating a small wet patch against the grey fabric. He didn’t even realize that he had been slowly jacking off.
“Uh, Shit. Sorry. No. No. It’s ok. You guys stay here. I’m going to go take care of this.”
You whine when he gets up to walk out of the room. It stops him midway to the door.
Eddie begins to reassure you. “Oh Bunny. It’s okay. Stevie didn’t mean anything by it. I’m sure he wanted a kiss from you too. Who wouldn’t want to drown in your sugary sweetness?”
“What?” Steve turns with a look of confusion on his face.
“Oh your still here.” Eddie nonchalantly states. “She thinks she ruined your experience by being too eager over getting a taste of you when you never asked to kiss or involve her.”
Shock registers on his face. “Excuse me?”
“Tell him Bunny.” Eddie pinches your ass.
You fidget in Eddies lap. Unable to make eye contact with Steve. “Um. Well. I just got so turned-on watching you guys’ kiss. It was really fucking hot. I wanted to see more. Where it would lead to. Maybe even get my own private little live action porno. I was going to stay out of it. Promise I was. But then Eddie told me to come over for a taste and I just lost my mind. I’m sorry Steve. I should be the one to leave to let you guys enjoy yourself. We usually play together but I can stay on the sidelines or leave the room if that’s what you need me to do.”
“Why would you leave the room?”
“So you can continue your little switching experiment without any distractions.”
“You’re not a distraction in the way you’re thinking, Sug. Trust me.” Steve states with a crooked little smile.
“Then what way is it?”
“The, I can’t tell if I want you sandwiched between us or I want to be sandwiched between you two, kind of way.”
Your lips round on an exhale. “Oh.”
“Yeah.” He bites his lip. “And you kissed Eddie first remember. So I already got a taste of you and that really wasn’t enough.”
“What are you saying Steve? Do want to kiss me?”
“I’ve always had a sweet tooth. Why wouldn’t I want a taste of all that Sugar?”
A shiver runs down your spine at his words.
“Damn. King Steve strikes again. She’s like putty in your hands. Took me like a month to get her like this.”
“I can’t take all the credit. I didn’t even know she was submissive until you grabbed her chin and she melted into your kiss. I may have pulled her a bit deeper but that’s all you Eddie.”
“Thanks Stevie.” The man beams with pride. “So which one do you want more?”
“More what?”
“Do you want to have her sandwiched between us? Or do you want to be the filling in the middle?” Eddie asks.
Steve groans and grabs his cock once more. “Honestly.” He gives himself a squeeze as he imagines just what he wants. “I want to know what it feels like to be in the middle. I’ve only bottomed once or twice. I enjoyed it but I felt like something was missing. To fill someone up while I’m also nice and full. Fuck, that sounds heavenly.”
“Oh, Big Boy. Your wish is definitely my command. What do you say Bunny? Wanna have ourselves a Stevie sandwich. Finally see what all the fuss is about?”
“Yes, please.” You quickly agree. Uncaring of how this might go terribly wrong. Steve is the King of fuckboys after all.
“You heard her. Lose the clothes Harrington.” Eddie demands.
As Steve strips himself, Eddie takes his time undressing you. Almost as if he was putting on a show for Steve. Once you’re bare, he tells you to go lie on the bed as he quickly devests himself of his own tight clothing.
You're playing with yourself by the time they both reach the bed. Sinking two fingers into your dripping cunt. Coating them in your sweet arousal. Slowly pulling them out, you spread your fingers wide to show off the sticky mess now coating your hand.
Sitting up, you offer up your slick soaked fingers to Steve.
He crawls up into his bed, settling himself between your thighs. Widening them further with his hips as he weaves his tongue between your digits before sucking them into his mouth. Hollowing his cheeks and moaning at the sweet tartness dancing along his tastebuds.
A hand between his shoulder blades has Steve blinking his eyes open. Pupils blown out. Leaving only a sliver of their hypnotic brown to be seen.
“I know for a fact that my Bunny is more than wet enough to help aid in your bottoming adventure. But it never hurts to add some extra lubrication. Got any lube in here Stevie? If not, I’ll have to make a trip to the van.” Eddie inquires.
Eyes never straying from your glistening folds Steve responds to Eddie almost on autopilot. “N-nightstand. Top drawer. It’s a pretty new bottle too.”
“Good boy.” Eddie gives his ass a light slap and retrieves the lube. On his way back onto the bed he leans down to check in with you. Placing a sweet kiss on your lips. “You still ok with this Bunny?”
“I’m very green, Sir. Check for yourself if you don’t believe me.” You tease.
He slides his hand down your torso. The metal of this rings cool against your over heated skin. When he meets the tender flesh of your pussy, he strokes along your weeping slit. Gathering your wetness to then tease your clit with tiny little circles.
You can’t help the moan that escapes. He knows how to use those dexterous guitarist fingers, all too well.
“Mmm. Thanks for the assist baby. This’ll definitely help ease my fingers inside him.”
With his hand on Steve’s hip, he slides it down to grip his cheek. Spreading the supple skin to allow him access to Steve’s own little sweet hole.
“Now, Stevie. While I'm back here doing the hard work of prepping this nice ass of yours. I’m going to need you to be as relaxed as possible. My advice is to slide inside Bunnies warm and inviting cunt. I promise the grip of her walls hugging your cock will turn your brain to mush.”
“You good with that Sugar? Gonna let me sink right in?” Steve whispers in your ear.
“Please. I’m so empty Stevie.” You beg.
“We can’t have that now can we?” Giving himself a slow stroke. He gives his base a squeeze as he glides his tip along your folds. Tapping it against your aching button, making you gasp and squirm.
Your eyes remain focused on his face as he notches himself at your entrance and slowly pushes his way inside.
Your mouth opens on a silent moan. Eyes rolling to the back of your head with the intrusion as you whisper a soft, “Oh fuck.”
“What is it Bunny?” Eddie, who has been watching with his own hand wrapped around his dick, asks.
“Big.” You moan out. “He’s so big. Sooo full.”
Eddie gives a little sadistic chuckle. “Oh this is going to be even more fun than I originally thought.”
Steve turns his head. Having caught his breath from the initial shock of your tight pussy gripping him tight. Ready with a sassy reply on his tongue. A reply that never makes it past his throat, as Eddie takes his fingers coated in your slick and teases them against his hole.
With a little pressure, Eddie’s fingertip sinks in. He pushes it further past the ring of muscle until he is two knuckles deep. Pulling out he adds a second finger and begins scissoring them.
Steve groans at the intrusion. Hips grinding involuntarily from the sensations. His trimmed patch of hair along his pelvis rubbing against your sensitive pearl. Pulling quiet moans from your throat.
Eddie continues with his prep until he feels that Steve is ready to take his cock. Snapping the bottle of lube open, he applies a generous amount to his rigid length.
Pulling his fingers out, he grips Steve’s cheeks. Spreading him wide and spitting on his hole for good measure. With his dick firmly in hand he kisses the tip to Steve’s puckered hole and gently inches his way in.
Both men groan as Eddie bottoms out. Steve, overloaded with pleasurable sensations, is a panting mess.
“You gonna get those hips moving and satisfy my girl or am I going to have to fuck the both of you myself?” Eddie taunts.
“How the hell would you do that?” Steve ponders out loud.
“Like this.” Eddie pulls out almost to the tip and slams back forward. Thrusting so hard that he moves Steve’s hips. Pushing him deeper inside of you.
When he pulls back once more, Steve’s hips back out from you just a bit with them.
Than Eddies does it again. Choosing to stay still once he’s slammed home. “So again. Are you gonna fuck us yourself or am I going to be the one doing all the fucking?”
“Fuck. You. Eddie.” Steve grits out through pants.
“Maybe next time.” Eddie teases. “At least rub Bunny’s clit. Want to watch her come all over your dick before you lose it. With how taut your muscles are I expect this to go rather quickly.”
Steve turns to glare over his shoulder at Eddie. The subtle movement causes his hips to tilt in just a way that has his thickness grazing against your sweet spongy spot making you moan. Grabbing the attention of both men.
Your eyes are glazed over, and your bottom lip is being held hostage by your top teeth.
“Look at you little one. Laying here all patient like a good girl while we bicker like fools.” Steve coos. Mesmerized by how gorgeous you look underneath him.
“She’s the best girl.” Eddie says. Leaning over Steve’s shoulder to gaze down at you. “She deserves a reward for such good behavior don’t you think? How about a cream pie? Hmm. Stevie fills you up with a fat load while I do the same to him. Sound good to you Bunny?”
“Please.” You whine. You just want someone to move already. You’re so turned on it won’t take much for you to come undone.
Steve groans at your plea. Eddie swivels his hips and grinds deeper into Steve once more. Causing the overstimulated man to arch back into him and then plunge himself forward. Finally giving in and taking all the pleasure he can get.
It doesn’t take long before the room is filled with the cacophony of moans and whimpers as you lose yourselves in each other. The unmistakable sound of flesh hitting flesh rattling off the walls.
Steve’s thumb is rubbing circles against your swollen clit and you can no longer take the torture. You are the first one to succumb to the pleasure and lose your in the tidal wave of an orgasm.
Your pussy clenching down around Steve causes a domino effect. Without warning Steve’s length thickens even further as his cock begins to unload rope after rope of his creamy seed into your waiting womb.
The orgasm so powerful that his own hole, stretched wide by Eddie’s girth, starts to pulsate with each spurt. Taking Eddie over the edge, as he buries himself deep and let’s Steve milk him for all he’s worth.
You all collapse to the bed in a puddle of tangled limbs. Your pussy is a drenched mess covered in slick and Steve’s cum leaking from your still quivering hole. Eddie can’t help but lean over and clean the mess up with his tongue. Even going so far as to clean your essence off of Steve’s dick as well. Giving the stunned man a deep kiss once he’s finished.
He then proceeds to scoop you up into his arms and bring you to the bathroom so you can pee. There will be no UTI’s on his watch. When you’ve finished, he places you on the counter and using a warm wash cloth, delicately cleans your swollen petals of any remaining mess. A common practice in his aftercare.
Upon exiting the bathroom, with you wrapped tightly around his torso, Eddie notices the room is now vacant. Steve is nowhere to be found. He places you back on the bed and tucks himself in behind you.
“Where’s Steve?”
“Probably just went to use another bathroom. Get some sleep Bunny.” He kisses the back of your neck and you lose yourself to the pull of slumber.
You wake the next morning. Still wrapped in Eddies arms. The spot next to you in bed looks the same as before you crashed. You try and carefully remove yourself from your boyfriends’ arms but he begins to stir, pulling you in closer.
“Baby, I have to pee and we need to get going. I’m sure everyone is already awake.”
“Okay. Okay.” Eddie mumbles.
You pull yourselves out of bed, get dressed and make your way out to the kitchen where you hear numerous voices chattering.
“Morning.” You greet your friends. Noting that a particular person is missing. “Where’s Steve?”
“Oh, he left already. Said he had something he needed to do at work this morning.” Dustin relays.
“It’s Sunday. We don’t even open until 11. What could he possibly have to do?” Robin argues.
“I don’t know. That’s just what he told me.”
You and Eddie share a look. You can’t hide the mild hurt in your eyes. You really hope this isn’t what your gut is screaming it is.
Turns out, it was exactly what you thought it was.
You haven’t heard from or seen Steve since that night you all spent tangled up together. Eddie’s calls to hang out received “I’m sorry man. I’m busy,” or “Let me think about it”. If they didn’t go straight to voicemail.
You don’t even know what happened. You weren’t expecting him to crawl back into your guy’s bed or want to be a part of the relationship. But you also weren't expecting him to ghost the both of you like he has all the others. You were friends. The best of friends you thought. But it looks like you were sorely mistaken.
And goddamn does it sting.
“Bunny, I’m loving that the creative juices are flowing, but we really need to rehearse for this week’s show baby. Kind of hard to do without our lead singer.” Eddie teases you.
He’s also been effected by Steve’s coldness. He’s just better at hiding it. “What are you working on anyway?”
“I’m just working through some shit. Trying to purge it from my system. It’s that or turn to violence and vandalism.” You say with a sweet smile.
“I love how quickly you can go from sweet to vicious. All while maintaining a look of innocence.” He chuckles. “Let me see what ya got.”
You hand over your tattered notebook, where you’ve scribbled down your feelings toward the situation with Steve. He scans the words with a critical eye, brows furrowing like when he’s working on a new campaign for Hellfire Club.
“Do you have a melody for this already?”
“Kind of.”
“Good. So we can workshop it. I have some ideas.”
“Why would we need to workshop it?”
“Because babe. We’re going to preform it Saturday night in front of all our friends. Including Steve.”
“How on earth are we going to do that when he’s avoiding us like the plague?” You question.
He stretches his hand out to help you off the floor. Pulling you close as soon as you rise. “Just leave that to me, Bunny.” He kisses you on the nose and smacks your ass. “Now let’s make go make some music!”
“Come on Steve. Everyone’s waiting inside.” Robin whines.
“I told you I’m not feeling it tonight. I promised I would drive you and I have. Call me if you need a ride home.” Steve says with a sigh. He just wants to go home and sulk. Hiding from the recent feelings that he has been trying to avoid.
“Steeeeve. At least come inside and have one drink. Then you can go be grumpy at home.” She pleads.
“I’m not grumpy.” He huffs.
“Uh huh. And I don’t have a major crush on Vicki. You’ve been in a foul mood for weeks. You never know, their might be a little cutie inside to help bring you out of your funk.”
“Ugh. Fine.” He relents. Finding a parking spot and turning the car off. Robin beams with victory as they leave the car and head inside The Hideout.
They find their group of misfits rather quickly. You and Eddie don’t seem to be in attendance, much to his dismay. Sure he’s been avoiding the both of you but that doesn’t mean he wouldn’t enjoy being in your presence.
Everyone greets him with their normal enthusiasm and jabs. Making him feel a little better for listening to Robin and coming inside.
“Ooh, It’s almost showtime.” Dustin says with excitement.
“Showtime?” Steve asks.
“Yeah showtime. Sug and Eddie’s band are debuting a new song tonight. They won’t tell any of us what it’s about so I’m excited to finally hear it.” He nonchalantly says.
“I heard this one is really personal.” Max chimes in.
“Ohhh. Even better.” Robin quips.
Steve just swallows. So that is where the two of you are. Getting ready to hit the stage. Maybe if he gets up and leaves now, you’ll never know he was even here.
Before he gets the chance to make an escape, the stage lights up with you dead center. Eddie is standing to your right. His favorite electric guitar strapped to his chest.
Even in the dim light of the bar you find your friends with ease. Eyes zoning in on Steve’s unmistakable frame. Your eyes lock for a moment as your drummer counts in and Eddie starts playing. It’s a beat he’s never heard before. Must be the new song. With a wink you turn to face the growing crowd and start singing.
The energy in the room is electric. You and Eddie are playing off of each other in perfect harmony. He can’t quite put his finger on why this new song is making him feel some type of way until there’s a lull and you enter a break down. Staring him down as you sing each note.
You were finished long before
We had even seen the start
Why don't you stand up? Be a man about it
Fight with your bare hands about it now
I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay, well did you?
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You and Eddie sing the last chorus together on your mic. Foreheads pressed to each other’s. As Eddie strums his last chord and lets it ring out, he pulls you in by the back of your neck and lays a possessive kiss to your lips. You melt into the embrace, running your hands through his hair as the crowd goes wild.
As if you didn’t just call Steve out for treating the two of you like just another notch in his bedpost, you begin the next song. Throughout your whole set you continue to make eye contact with him. Never giving him a chance to escape. To run away like the coward he’s become.
You have a blast with your man onstage. Eddie playing up the sexy rocker as he teases and plays with you to the audience’s enjoyment.
The set is finally over and the bar has turned back to pumping music through the speakers. Steve is more than ready to leave. He just needs to finish his drink first.
Robin gets his attention. “That was such a great show. I love the new song. I can’t wait to tell Sug how much of a genius she is. If I could only find where she and Eddie slipped off too.”
“Oh they got held up by some couple. They’re right over there.” Dustin supplies.
Steve turns in the direction Dustin is pointing to find you very much engaged in a conversation. A pretty red head and her beefy mysterious looking blue-eyed boyfriend are very openly flirting with you. You’re smiling from ear to ear and Eddie is cracking jokes.
Steve does not like it. He watches as you exchange numbers. The red head giving you a kiss on the check before the couple heads back over to the bar.
Eddie leans over, whispering something in your ear as he tucks the phone number into your back pocket. Whatever it is has you biting your lip and taking a deep breath. Almost as if you need to center yourself.
You make your way over to the group. Hoots and hollers greet you from your friends.
“That was awesome. I could never dream of being that hot while running around on stage under all those lights.” Max confesses.
“Meh, you get used to it.” You shrug.
“What she means to say, is she is too busy trying to seduce me on stage that she doesn’t notice.” Eddie teases.
“I could fart in your general direction and your dick would rise to the occasion.” You retort.
“Thine bottom knows only how to speak in sensual tones. Far be it from me not to salute its sinful ways.” Eddie declares in his DM voice.
“You’re insufferable.”
“True. But at least I’m yours.”
“Yes. You most certainly are.” You lean in to place a sweet kiss to his Adams apple before snuggling in close to his chest.
Steve watches you closely. Yearning to be a part of your sweet moment.
Just look at them. They’re perfect. I fucked up. I fucked up so bad. How could I have been so stupid? Why on earth am I hiding away from them?
As Steve loses himself to his self-flagellating thoughts, Eddie speaks up. “Thanks for coming tonight, guys. Means a lot to us. I think milady and I are going to call it a night though and head on home. Let’s have a movie night at our place this week. Let me know if you can’t make it.”
With that you make your rounds hugging your friends and saying good night. When you get to Steve, you just give him a nod of the head and a quiet ‘night’ as you make your way out the door.
The way you said goodbye, like it was nothing. Essentially giving him the same energy he was putting out these last few weeks is driving Steve crazy. He doesn’t understand why it’s bothering him so much, but he needs to find out.
The only way he is going to get answers is by asking you directly. No one in the group even knows that you all slept together. So they will be of no help.
How long should he wait before hopping in his car and hightailing it to your apartment? If he leaves straight away it’ll be too obvious. He’ll just have another drink and then head out.
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You’re fooling around on the couch. Your pants and panties tossed on the floor somewhere. Shirt tangled up in your bra hitched high over your tits.
Eddie’s shirt is hanging off the arm of the couch. Handcuff belt undone and hanging loosely from his belt loops. Jeans unzipped to allow his thickness to breathe as you grind against him. Hair a mess from you running your fingers through them as you suffocate yourselves in kisses.
You needed a release for all the pent tension tonight brought. Your still riding the high from performing mixed in with the satisfaction of giving the figurative middle finger to Steve and his fuckboy ways.
You miss your friend, but you have more respect for yourself and your man, than to be thrown to the side like that. Friends fuck. It happens. When it’s as good as the night the three of you spent together you should want an encore; not running for the hills like a little bitch.
There is only so much grace you can give him. If he ever chooses to come to his senses, his penance will not be swift. He will need to grovel and beg. Atone for the sins committed against us before any true forgiveness can be given. Hurting you is one thing. But to hurt your precious Eddie in the process is a criminal offence in your book.
There’s a knock on the door. Choosing to ignore it, you continue your heavy petting.
That is until you hear a muffled voice. “It’s me guys. Open up.” Knock. Knock. “Please.”
Eddie breaks the kiss. Throwing his head back against the couch cushion. He lets out a huff before moving you off his lap onto the couch so he can answer the door.
He doesn’t bother making himself presentable. Why should he? He throws open the door shirtless with his hair a mess, bulge protruding through his open jeans and a wet patch on his crotch.
“If it isn’t Harrington. What do ya need buddy? I’m kind of in the middle of something.” He can’t hide the smugness in his tone.
Steve looks behind Eddie to the couch where you’re comfortably laying, uncaring about your half naked state. He licks his lips, remembering how you taste. “We need to talk. Please just let me in.”
Eddie looks back at you. You give him a subtle nod and he moves aside. Swinging his arm to beckon Steve inside. “Sure. Have a seat. We’ll have our little convo. But only after I finish taking care of my little Bunny. You’ve waited this long already. You can wait a little longer.”
He strolls over to where you’re lying on the couch. He ghosts his calloused fingertips along your legs. “Lose the shirt and bra. Then I need you to spread these luscious thighs for me Bunny. Your keeping me from my favorite meal and you know how famished I get after a show.”
You happily do what is requested of you. Opening your legs wide. He admires the way the light glimmers off of your dripping folds as he devests himself of his jeans and boxers.
“Now Harrington, you’re to stay seated while I take care of my little bunny. Hands will remain on the arms where I can see them at all times. At no point are you allowed to touch yourself unless instructed by me. Understand?”
Steve nods his head.
“Words, Big boy. I need to hear it.”
“Yes. I understand.”
“Good.” He crawls between your legs. Placing your right leg on the floor, he hikes your left over his shoulder. Putting you fully on display.
With a wink to Steve he buries his face in your aching cunt. Groaning like a man starved as your essence assaults his tastebuds. His grip on your thighs tighten as his tongue licks a wide trail from your entrance to your sensitive clit.
“God, you taste even sweeter tonight.” He growls out.
Getting back to the task at hand, he hums against your swollen pearl. Turning you into a moaning, whimpering mess. Your hands find purchase in Eddie’s unruly curls. Grounding yourself as his mouth takes you on a journey of decadent pleasure.
Seriously, this man’s tongue is dangerous.
Before you know it, you’re coming undone. The orgasm catching you by surprise with how quickly it came about. Eddie holds you down in place as you ride each wave on his tongue.
He’s not done with you yet. “Mmm. That was good bunny. But now I’m going to need you to do it again while your choking on my cock.”
With a strength Steve was unaware he had, Eddie lifts you up and switches your places. Once he is flat on his back, he maneuvers you like his own personal little rag doll. Lining your mouth up with his cock as your breasts lay against his abs and your pretty little pussy is perched perfectly on his chest.
“Mmm. Just look at you dripping for me Bunny. I was going to make you come again on my fingers only but you’re just so juicy I can’t help but feast some more.” Eddie confesses. “Now be a good little girl and show Stevie how well you suck cock.”
You run tongue from his base to tip. Gently you suck on his leaking head before hollowing your cheeks and taking him down your throat the best you can in this position. Thankfully you have no pesky gag reflex to contend with.
You completely forget about your captive audience as you treat your man’s dick like your own personal lollipop. Your moans muffled by the thickness restricting your air ways.
Eddie’s hips instinctually buck from the vibrations. Making him pump his fingers and work your g spot harder to bring you to climax.
He will not be coming in your mouth tonight. So he needs for you to cum once more so he can lose himself deep inside you where his seed belongs.
He doubles his efforts. Capturing your clit in his mouth and humming the melody to your favorite Metallica song. Turning his mouth into a personalized vibrator of the flesh.
The combination of his mouth and fingers is your kryptonite. Within moments you're screaming around his cock as the power of you orgasm has you gushing.
Eddie’s chin and throat are visibly wet. A devilish grin lights up his face while he licks his lips clean and proceeds to smack you on the ass. His thick cock lands with a soft thud against his abs as you gasp from the pleasurable pain.
He proceeds to raise himself into a seated position. Once again manipulating your body so that you are both facing Steve.
“Reach forward and hold on to the coffee table.” When your hands rest on the table Eddie grips your hips and lowers you down onto his cock. “Fuck that always such a tight fit. Now bounce this beautiful ass and ride me, Bunny.”
Without hesitation you lift your hips and slam yourself back down on his length. “Fuck.”
“That’s right. Sirs cock is the answer to all your problems isn’t is Bunny?”
Your eyes connect with Steve’s as you moan out. “Mmm. Yes. Yes, it is.”
Tangling his fingers in your hair, Eddie pulls you back against his chest. Resting his hand around your throat to keep you in place. Your legs framing his own. Allowing Steve a full access view of your pussy stretched out around Eddie’s girth.
“Do that thing with your hips that I love so much Bunny. The one that practically makes me feral.” Eddie requests.
You grin ear to ear as you begin to grind down on him. Moving your hips in a figure eight pattern. Making his dick hit all your sweet spots. The ones that cause you to clench down on him like a vice.
“Just look at him drooling over you Bunny.” He teases. “Bet he wishes he was deep inside of you again. To think he denied himself all of this for as long as he did. And I won’t even let him touch his aching dick right now.”
You let out a whimper.
“Fuck, you liked that. Little pussy just clamped down on me. You like that he can look but not touch.” He growls. You nod your head.
Something takes over him. A possessive energy he’s never felt before. His hand tightens around your throat as he thrusts hard and fast up into you. Turning you to putty in his hands.
Keeping eye contact with Steve he whispers dirty things in your ear that have you moaning and grinding harder. Lost in the hazy fog of pleasure.
“Oh fuck, Bunny. Just like that. I can’t hold it anymore. Your pussy is just too good. Gonna fill you up. Make a real mess of you.” He grits out.
“Please. Want your cum so bad. Need it.” You sob.
“Then you better hurry up and cum for me.” He demands with a hard thrust.
Steve, who through some miracle has been able to not touch himself, begins to squirm in his chair.
It’s too much. Between the glazed over eyes of Steve and the absolute control Eddie has over your body, you let go. Coming hard with a whine.
You lay there, riding the waves of pleasure as Eddie fucks you through your orgasm. Just as the last pulses ring through your body, he gives a deep thrust. His tip notched at your cervix. With a groaning growl he unloads inside of your quivering cunt. Hips twitching until his balls are empty.
He slowly lifts you off of his softening cock. Reaching under your knees and hiking your legs up further. Allowing Steve to witness his seed leaking from your abused hole as he trails kisses across your shoulders. Running his nose along your neck. Showering you with sweetness.
Steve’s heated gaze fixates on the creamy mixture making a mess of your thighs. Letting out a whimper as he bites his bottom lip.
Eddie reaches down and runs his fingers along your folds. Coating them in your combined spend. “Steven. Come here.”
“You sure?” He quietly asks.
“Don’t make me tell you twice.”
He rises to his feet. Your eyes can’t help but stare at the noticeably large wet patch staining the front of his jeans as he walks over to you.
“Kneel.”
Steve lowers himself to his knees between Eddies open legs.
“Now open you mouth nice and wide for me.”
Steve complies and is rewarded with Eddie’s cum covered fingers resting on his tongue. “Suck.”
Steve quickly closes his mouth and moans as the taste of the both of you combined hits his tongue. With hollowed cheeks he happily does as he’s told.
Pulling free of his mouth, Eddie grips Steve’s chin with his saliva-soaked fingers. “Now be a good boy and lick my little bunny clean. I don’t want a drop left behind.”
As soon as Eddie lets go of his chin, Steve buries himself between your thighs. Laving at your slit with such reverence it has you coming once more before me sits back on his heels.
“Stay put. We will be right back.” Eddie lifts you into his arms and heads down the hall to your bathroom where he leaves you to do your business. He cleans himself and prepares a warm washcloth. You exit the restroom, and you exchange a sweet kiss.
You take a quick detour into your bedroom to throw on some clothes. A tank and boy shorts for you. A pair of sweats for Eddie. He makes sure to grab an extra pair before you head back out into the living room.
Steve is exactly where you left him.
You sit back on the couch and run your fingers through his hair. Eddie comes to stand behind you. Torso leaning over the couch.
“Stand up and let bunny clean you up.” Eddie orders.
Steve’s brows furrow as he stands. Confused at the care that is taking place at this moment. Before he has too much time to think about it you undo his jeans. Pulling them down and off of his legs. Equipped with the warm washcloth, you rid his soft cock and trimmed pubes of cum. Taking care to even gently clean each ball.
With the mess cleared away, Eddie hands over the other pair of his sweats. “Put these on and then we can sit down and talk.”
Eddie, having gone in the kitchen while Steve changed, hands a glass of water. “Drink the whole thing Bunny. Then you I’m going to need you to at least have snack. Do you want salty or sweet tonight?”
“Can I have both?”
“Of course.” He retreats to the kitchen once more. Returning with your snacks. Happily removing the empty glass from your hand. He wraps you up in your favorite blanket and proceeds to get comfortable. Placing your feet in his lap so that he can rub them.
He addresses Steve as he takes a seat on the couch. “Normally we wouldn’t have a conversation like this during aftercare, but I think for tonight we can make an exception.”
“Thank you.”
“Don’t get it twisted though. You make her upset, and I’ll bruise up that pretty face.” Eddie threatens. Any trace of his lightheartedness gone.
“I don’t intend to. Well, any more than I may already have at least.” Steve placates.
“What do you need to get off your chest Steve?” You ask.
He sighs. “First I want to say that I’m an idiot and I’m sorry.”
“Sorry for what exactly?” Eddie asks.
“For running scared. That night we shared brought up some things I wasn’t ready to face.”
“Your going to need to be just a tad more specific there Harrington.”
“Puppy, don’t rush him.” You tap his shoulder. “Go on, Steve.”
“No he’s right.” He rubs the back of his neck. “As soon as we were finished all I could think about was spending every night just like that. Wrapped up in the both of you.”
“And that scared you?” You ask.
“Of course it scared me! Everybody always leaves. If you guys left me too, I don’t know what I would do.”
“So you chose to leave us behind instead?” Eddie snaps.
You place your hand on Eddie’s bicep. Rubbing your thumb in soothing circles to help calm him.
“No. Yes. I don’t know. I just needed some time to think and then before I knew it weeks had gone by.”
Eddie lets out an annoyed huff. Rolling his eyes.
“I said I was an idiot okay. I know I fucked up. I’m trying to fix it. I can’t lose you as best friends too.”
“Just because your fuckboy ways have rotted your brain, doesn’t mean we’d just abandon you.” You spoke up.
“Well that’s good at least.”
“You have a lot of groveling to do of course.” Eddie grins. “Can’t have you getting away with hurting my Bunny.”
“So does this mean I have a chance?” Steve puts on the sad boy eyes. All big and soft and brown.
Eddie looks to you. “Bunny?”
“Don’t put it on me.” You protest.
“You’re the one who wrote an entire song about how he made you feel.”
“And you did the arrangement. What does that have to do with this?” You argue back.
“Wait, that song tonight was about me?” Steve interjects.
“There is no way you are that dense Steve. You had to have at least some inkling it was about you.” You quirk a brow at the man.
“Maybe a little. But I didn’t want to seem like self-absorbed prick.”
“Too late” Eddie quips.
You him the side eye. “Can we just finish this up so I can get back to my cuddles and aftercare. I really want to watch Grindhouse.”
“You watch horror movies during your aftercare?”
“What can I say. The screams help keep me relaxed.” You smile wickedly.
“Why am I not surprised.” Steve shakes his head.
“Okay. It’s getting late. So for now let’s just work on getting back to where we were as friends and go from there. That sound good to you Stevie?” Eddie suggests.
“It’s better than what I thought I’d get.”
“Than it’s agreed. Can we watch my movie now?” You pout.
“I just have one more question.”
“Shoot.” Eddie replies.
“What was with that couple that approached you after the show?”
“Bucky and Nat? Oh, they’re a couple I used to fuck. They just moved back to the area and wanted me to have their new number in case I wanted to play again.” You nonchalantly state.
“Even told her to bring me along if she’d like.” Eddie beams.
“Does everyone want to fuck you two?”
“We do get asked a lot.” Eddie shrugs. “We’re a hot commodity.”
“No more talkie. Put my movie on please. Steve your free to stay.”
Eddie stares him down. “But you’re sleeping on the couch. Bad boys don’t get sleepy snuggles.”
“Yes, Sir.” Steve teases with a shit eating grin on his face.
#poc reader#eddie munson#eddie stranger things#eddie munson smut#eddie munson x reader#steve harrington#steve harrington smut#steve harrington x reader#steddie#steddie x reader#steddie smut#rockstar au#modern au
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OH MY GOD okay so a beloved follower of mine sent me an ask about my tristan mclean headcanons like in december but i accidentally deleted !!!!!!! the fuckcing ask !!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i'm making it a post. hope you don't mind. also sorry for the wait
most of my thoughts are things i can not share on this blog (this is the Normal blog for Normal things and not the fucked up torture i subject this man to on a regular basis. tbf i hardly post about it on the Bad Posts blog either but like still. can share it on ao3 though check out sleep by imjustheretoreadonefic (don't do that it's not good)) but you can ask about that (if you want, which you probably won't because it is not most people's thing lmao) on my sideblog, yourfourthparent!! BUTBUTBUT i do have some thoughts and headcanons and such that are at the very least decently presentable!!!!
starting off first: i think he's bi! i think he figured out he was bi when he was pretty young (probably somewhere in his teenage years, probably like 15 max) and when he was in his 20s he was very involved in the queer community (his 20s being. in the 80s. sorry.) and was like a big activist. that is until the curse.
the curse being him hitting his big break. stars in some film that wasn't supposed to really blow up but it like Fucking Smashed and suddenly he was like all those guys who do one role and then are suddenly in Everything. cuz he sure is in literally everything. once he starts blowing up ofc he's got folks to help manage his image and at some point they're like haha [lip bite] you gotta stop with that gay shit or straight audiences won't find you marketable. you're already native and folks can hardly handle that let alone you being an active queer activist. you gotta cut that shit out so you can be the next batman or whatever. and tristan's like Well at least i'll make money to support myself and my dying father!
newsflash his father dies of cancer before he gets a chance. tristan's doing his best to avoid thinking about his father's death so he moves out of oklahoma blah blah yk how it goes.
he has piper when he's 33 ! everything's set and he's settled and then piper comes along and like. he's alright. he can handle this. he can be a good father (he's white knuckling the bathroom sink while he says this)
yeah he's terrified of being a shitty father. he does his best to keep her away from the press and keep her Okay for the most part but in order to do that he doesn't get to see her much etc etc. you know. you've read hoo. bleh
when piper starts dating jason he's like Oh cool ! i am about to break down ! cuz like. hey man. he is so not prepared for the reality of The Passage of Time. wdym his daughter is 16. fym tristan's almost fifty. that's so fucked up how is this allowed.
anyways he and jason are like Besties (*shoving my Bad posts to the side*) like they're such good friends they hang out so often even after jason and piper break up they're just Hiding it then. like they have weekly chess meetings and they talk about books and their lives and jason concerns tristan So Much oh my god tristan is so scared for this poor boy What are those tattoos young man Who are these "wolves" that raised you What is this "legion" Are you in a gang Little private school boy are you in a gang. What do you mean your first language is latin.
ngl my obsession with tristan came from my obsession with jason. i made a post like ages ago about how silly it'd be if tristan was jason's gay awakening and i just kept. thinking about them hanging out. and it spiralled and now i'm insane about him sorry. jason will always be my number one but Oohhhhh tristan consumes me.
anyways live tristan reaction when he finds out jason's mom is beryl grace in the middle of showing jason and piper a million old movies (beryl is in one and jason sees her and immediately freezes and tristan's just talking through the movie (hes silly sorry he talks through the whole thing. piper actually likes it because she has a hard time following movies so tristan explaining everything is good but jason is vaguely annoyed by it. he loves tristan to death don't get him wrong it's just that he can't concentrate on the kovie with tristan spitting fun facts a million words a second) when he looks over to see if theyre still watching and he just sees piper fretting over jason who's looking at the screen with a thousand gard stare.
let's go misc things that i want to mention somewhere but don't really fit uhhhh
i have this idea where tristan used to be a drag queen. i don't have any of the details down not a single one but i think about him talking to piper and her friends about the old days when he was a queen. mentions something offhandedly about how he wants to wear more feminine clothing and someone's like "oh are you like. yk. a gamer" and he's like "oh nonono i'm not trans trust me i explored my gender plenty, wore makeup, padded my bra, did drag for a few years, changed my name—" and they're like "you did DRAG ???" and he's like "OH yeah LOLZ i was terrible lol. my team keeps trying to bury it from public view for a reason. those looks were NOT serving !!!!" (he doesn't talk like that but i'm being silly rn)
(you just knoooooow jason was jaw on the floor immediately looking up TRISTAN MCLEAN DRAG TRISTAN MCLEAN DRAG QUEEN PERSONA NAME TRISTAN MCLEAN DRAG QUEEN TRISTAN MCLEAN— the SECONDDDD he got a chance. like staring so hard at old ass pictures of tristan doing drag and realising like Oh maybe i am bi. piper dumped him because she found his search history /j)
i think when his father died he cut his hair but then when it started growing long again it reminded him too much of the past that he Didn’t Want To Think About so he just. kept it short. and it's been short ever since. BUTBUTBUT when piper decides she wants to reconnect with her culture (which she's been mostly separate from because of tristan's own avoidance of it due to memories of his childhood and his father and blahblahblah) it sort of motivates him to do it too. like if piper's gonna do it after tristan entirely cut her from their culture then like. he can too. and it was a big part of his life when he was younger so like. he knows shit. i'm not good at this btw sorry i just have ideas UGSFHADGSF but anyways when piper starts reconnecting he decides to do it too and his first step with like Getting Comfortable again is growing his hair out. it's a smaller step yk he just doesn't cut his hair it's nothing active. (ofc when it starts getting properly long he has a few moments. he has to really confront his grief over his father's death and just the fear of that alone is enough to make him want to cut it again. piper stops him before he does but he has a few moments where he questions if it's worth it)
ik i just said earlier that he's not trans but like sometimes. with characters. i have headcanons that complety contradict each other. that is to say Transfem tristan mclean headcanon. she changes her name to t. just T. t wynn mclean. she goes by t cuz it's something she's already used to (jason called her that all the time before she came out).
these are all the ones i have off the top of my head agh pleaseplease feel free to ask more about any of these !!! (or critique them lmao half of them are. things i suck at explaining because they exist only for hyperspecific scenarios wherein nothing happens but tristan talking to jason or piper LMAO) you can also send in your own headcanons about him or jason or piper because EYE WANT TO READ MORE ABOUT THEM RAAAAGHHH seriously there's so little stuff that features him especially and if you have literally anything at all i would lovelovelove to read it all !!!!!!! sorry for deleting the ask btw i really didn't mean to LMAO sorry to my honourary mutual (i'd tag you but i'm afraid of misremembering who it was LMAO sorry mate 💔💔)
#allfatherly guidance#answered prayers#tristan mclean#tysm to the person who sent the ask btw !!! i love talking lol#sorry it took so long to get this post out lol#btw. take a shot every time i say an expression of laughter#pjo#hoo
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I'm in a fandom with a lot of virulent antis (surprise surprise, it's heavily dark source material and I don't know why they're here at all) and a lot of the pairings that aren't the main badwrong ship on ao3 now have DNI tags on them for shippers of the badwrong ship. I guess not enough to break the TOS (no direct threats?), but still full of stuff like "x shippers DNI", "get help you freaks", "You're disgusting" etc etc.
Its just... so frustrating. Like that's a pretty red flag for me that a fic probably is going to be in an immature writing style so I probably won't read it anyway, but every time I see it I just.... heave a big sigh. Why these people are in this fandom or on Ao3 at all I'll never know. Its not even helpful - the tags are there to help describe the fic, if I didn't want to see that kind of content I could just... avoid content that's tagged that way. Why even add that to a fic that's not even about those characters at all?
Honestly, my real question is.... Olderthannetfic, how do you do it?
I feel like I do it "right", in fandom, or at least I try. I always just block and move on. I don't follow the discourse where I can help it and block a lot of the relevant tags. I keep to a small circle of folks that have the same fun brainrot I do and have fun, generally. But this kind of stuff still slips through the cracks in a way that's unavoidable if you're ever online at all. To be honest, it still hurts a lot to see each time, and be reminded that some people seem to literally want me dead over reading a story. And I can't help the doubt and the self-flagellation that creeps in. Despite my best efforts, and all my research, and living to the ripe rip van winkle tumblr fandom spinster age of 27... I sometimes have a moment where I think, maybe I really am a freak or a degenerate, or an evil predator waiting to bloom.
Do you ever experience this? Does this feeling ever go away, or at least dull to a more bearable exasperated eye roll? Do you ever see these anti idiots grow up or grow out of this mindset? Is it just a matter of time, age or experience? Is there a point at which you felt like it affected you less, or perhaps it didn't affect you like that at all? Is there a secret to navigating it calmly and with confidence? Do you have any advice to give in the, er, art of not giving a fuck?
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Why would I quail at a stupid child on the internet after coming out as queer when I was 14 in the 90s?
I grew up with very open-minded, supportive family aside from my mother's conviction that BDSM was something people were into because they'd been abused. Even then, I remember privately snickering because I was super kinky, and wouldn't that upset her given this silly world view?
I had it easy compared to most in the 90s, but I still saw a lot of nonsense, like good old Mom on the topic of kink or murders in the media. But I also spent a lot of time reading educational sexuality books that debunked myths about fantasies and kinkiness.
Maybe a firmer grounding in sexuality stuff would help you? Nancy Friday's work on women's fantasies is a common starting point. I'm partial to The Topping Book, which is full of "it's great to be a top, actually" and not "you only do it for the sub".
Getting older does usually help though. Most 20-somethings are insecure in their sense of self. Middle age is when people's fucks generally run out, and that only continues to grow. Watch a stupid child go after some 60-something zine writer lady. She's going to laugh in their faces. Some people remain insecure forever, I suppose, but not anybody who had to woman up to be in fandom in the first place.
It's not just that these little idiots are wrong about us being predators: it's that they are the morally degenerate ones for spreading the psychological equivalent of "vaccines cause autism" or "Jews want to steal your Christian babies".
This idea that The Bad People are infiltrating our minds with their propaganda overlaps heavily with anti-semitic conspiracy theory right wing fundie nutjob ideas, and yet these young fools claim to be pro-queer and pro-civil rights. They're an embarrassment to any progressive movement and it disgusts me.
When someone goes "You're not a Christian, so you're going to hell", do you have a moment when you wonder?
Because that's the level of absurdity here.
Even if they don't bully, even if they don't include threats in their DNIs, the fact that they're spreading myths about sexuality that have been thoroughly debunked many times means they're doing something unethical, anti-intellectual, and anti-science.
I'm not afraid or guilty. I'm embarrassed for them.
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Do antis grow out of it? Yes, frequently.
They are—either literally or functionally—victims of right wing Christian cults. They have the same trajectory of realizing they've been had and slowly trying to work through the raging guilt and religious trauma.
I have limited patience but some sympathy. Like other victims who were indoctrinated to hurt people, escaping the cult is hard. It means not only giving up your false sense of safety and all of your friends but facing what you've done.
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Hellooo! I come with the most basic ask haha
What's your favorite thing about Morgan's character? And about Reid's character? What season made you ship them?
My favourite part about Morgan is his deep, profound empathy, even when it costs him.
Prentiss pegs him early on, when she says "you make the people around you feel good", and that is, I maintain, absolutely central to his character.
An example that stands out to me is his interactions with the unsub Stephen in In Heat (closested gay man who is killing bc of sexuality struggles). And whether you read with with queer!Morgan lenses or not, Morgan being the one to stand there, victimised the way he was, and tell this unsub there is nothing wrong with him for being gay is just... it breaks me.
The way he bears his own trauma, something he buried for 20 years, relives that and hurts himself when he knows it will help someone else, is absolutely heart wrenching.
And I know the other characters share their trauma, but to me personally (your mileage may vary etc), the disclosure of being a survivor of sexual violence (especially in childhood) is such a significant and raw trauma to relive over and over. It's a hard one to speak openly about. And Morgan does it, even when it costs him, because he knows it will help someone.
My favourite part about Reid's character is just how strong he is. I could go on about empathy for him too, but the strength of Reid to keep coming back, fight on, to push himself, that's what gets me.
I believe there is strength in softness, but Reid's the character who I think suffers from the woobification the worst with Criminal Minds, and sometimes that means people's interpretations of him strip him of agency, which I think I identify with from a very autistic point of view.
I don't mean the tendency for Reid to be the focal of "whump" (reid's targetted/kidnapped/hurt) bc I love that shit as much as the next gay, but sometimes the woobification extends to making Reid meek, submissive, helplessness, when it's just not true.
He's smart, quick witted, snarky, can absolutely be a mean git, adaptable to situations, both socially awkward and socially intelligent at once. He knows his worth and knows when people understimate and undermine him. Sometimes it feels like this gets forgotten within fandom. Which isn't a big deal in the end, these are not real people but paper dolls we make kiss, but Reid's strength is so central to why I love him.
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The exact moment it went from "oh that's kinda cute" to "they are in love and i will die for them" was season 2x12, profiler, profiled, when Morgan's sisters and mother absolutely clock Reid.
"Derek talks about you."
I was a goner then, that was it. Forever OTP, canon and increasingly inconsistant writing and a fundamentaly homophobic network (fuck u CBS) be damned. They're it. They're endgame for me.
Related, the closest "canon" moment where I think they could have been made real honest to god canon would have been season 4's Amplification. Should have had them kiss in that hospital room and broken ground for queer rep on network TV.
But at least we have fanfiction!
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“one of the top three sexiest robin williams roles” you can’t just leave that in the tag without saying what the others are (but if I’ve missed it OTL)
Okay, okay I admit, I was being mildly flippant because I think robin williams is highly capable of being sexy and armand is a great example, however now that we're here, let us consider the tenets of the sexy robin williams character
EDIT: also at this point, apologies, I was out travelling for a few days, I was not ignoring you. ahem. continuing:
did I come across him as a kid/teenager in a story that made me cry my eyes out
moustache/general hairiness
how queer is he
how well-dressed is he
how anti-authoritarian is he
does he make me laugh
Let's go wild and say every one of these gets rated from 0-10 (with 0 being for example "not at all hairy" and 10 being "sexy motherfucker")
now, here's some of his most well-known ventures
good morning vietnam: he's not got a moustache, because it's the army, but because it's the army his natural anti-authoritarianism is dialled up. he queers the space and goes hard on the camp comedy. loses points for being about americans in vietnam, and he's kind of a pest towards a vietnamese woman to begin with (although he does improve). best out of context line: "we can't say dyke these days, we can't even say lesbian, we have to say woman in comfortable shoes." Also the movie ends on a dorothy/wizard of oz quote. it's definitely not queer, but it's also... a choice.
0 on me crying for him, 3 on his chest peeking out once or twice, 7 on queerness (although I cannot overstate that it's not queer, but it IS him doing great camp as robin williams), 4 on the well-dressed I guess, at least he's not always in khaki, like... 6 on anti-authoritarian, because he's still an american in vietnam, 6 on the laughter because when I laugh I laugh a lot, but some of it ages pooorly = 26 points
dead poets society: the og "teacher you had a crush on, because he affirmed your queer identity and taught you poetry." I have since worked with tutors who taught me poetry and yeah, you do get heart eyes at them, poetry and being heard just does that to you. it's anti-authoritarian of course, it's professor-chic. it's low on the hairiness scale though. of course, it is also very very sad. he's dressed like me 20 years from now.
9 on sobbing scale, 2 on hairiness from memory, 8 on queerness in that whole fucking movie, 7 on well-dressed (this is about my gender okay), 5 on the laughter he's still robin williams even when he's only joking around a little, 8 on anti-authoritarian = 39 points
to wong foo: only in it briefly, canonically bisexual, leaves an impression, however the birdcage gives him more to work with, also... he has a soul patch, it is there, one must see it RIP. however I like that he just appeared in this movie, which was very bold in the way it cast its roles for the time
0 on sobbing scale (for him), 0 on the hair-scale my goodness, 10 for queerness that is a bisexual man (his truest self), 6 on well-dressed yes he's technically well-dressed but I don't like it much, and 5 on anti-authoritarian -- he's a queer so duh but it's not really in the plot for him, 7 on the laughter he's just charming = 28 points
bicentennial man: he's a robot who argues for his right to be considered alive. he's not my personally sexiest robot of all time, but every robot is a sexy robot. this one also made me cry (we're seeing a trend huh).
IIII cannot rate his sexiness in this movie, it's been too long -- will have to rewatch and get back to it
good will hunting: we love a dramatic turn, I wanted to say, but he did a lot of dramatic turns actually. this one might be the most straightforward dramatic that I've watched though. he's got a beard! he's helping out a kid without a lot of opportunities. he's challenging toxic masculinity. we love a sexy bearded man who's making the world a better place, breaking the cycle
yeah I cried at this as a kid 8 points, iiihihihi he has A BEARD 10 points! queer ethos related to breaking the cycle of toxic masculintitty and being someone who's looking at methods of healing and non-nuclear family support networks but not overall super queer on his character's front necessarily 5, 4 on the well-dressed it's worse than dead poets, 7 on anti-authoritarian, hmmm and 4 on laughter... it's still robin williams = 38 points
jumanji: a mess of a person who never shaved before, that's trans man aesthetics forya. he's a bit too busy for me to consider him sexy necessarily, he arrives and immediately man-eating plants, man-hunters (no innuendo intended), floods, and what-have-yous follow. he doesn't have time to be sexy, but that being said...
yes I cried to this movie as a kid 7 on the sad williams, okay he is hairy but is he kempt at all??? still 6, idk if it's queer to be trapped inside a game for most of your life but it'll certainly make you neurodivergent which is queer enough 5, badly dressed (sorry) 3, anti-authoritarian... tricky... he doesn't get on with his strict dad as a kid, he evades a man-hunter (again, no innuendo), he gets arrested by a cop and he continues to roll the dice on a game that wreaks havoc (although he continues to abide by the rules of the game sooo there's a whole essay here, let's just say 5), 4 on the laughter = 30
hon mentions: hook -- makes me cry too hard to even consider sexiness + when I was a kid it was all about dante basco. mrs doubtfire -- the particular kind of drag he does doesn't do it for me, but we love a genderfluid icon. mork&mindy -- I haven't actually seen it, but he seems too baby overall at that point. flubber -- he's got that mad professor type Look, but I've never actually seen it (I saw a trailer over and over on one of my vhs' as a kid), life according garp is a weird fucking movie which is surprisingly trans-positive but also just like... not well-made, I wanna watch what dreams may come
AND FINALLY BIRDCAGE - one of my queerbaby movies I elegantly let the tears fall 7, HIS CHEST HIS FACIAL HAIR HIS ARMS 10/10, 10 ON QUEERNESS, 10 ON DRESS, loses points on the authoritarian because he gives in to his petulant son's demands for heterosexuality BUT gains some back for his speech about being a middleaged fag + standing by his lover at the end 7, YES HE MAKES ME LAUGH 8 = 52
DING DING DING actually Birdcage is robin williams' sexiest role woops are we surprised?
generally: robin williams is underrated as a hairy man tbh, my guy's arms and chest are 👀👀👀👀👀
#i need to sleep#robin williams#yeah yeah unedited fuckit have at it!#imgonna watch bicentennial man tomorrow#probably cry fucking hell im outing myself here#the birdcage#good morning vietnam#jumanji#dead poets society#good will hunting#bicentennial man#to wong foo#etcetc#goodnight
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Okay, I went back to episode one to try and figure out more about this disorder and what it means and when it develops. I did not get much help, honestly. But I am still trying to figure this out.
Because the biggest question I have is when does this disorder typically start? Is this something that just happens randomly and at any time? Is it something you're born with? Maybe it's Maybelline? Because we need that info for what's going on with Lomfon.
Although honestly rewatching this at this point in the show... this is screaming 'metaphor for being visibly queer and homophobia' and it's only become more obvious in retrospect. Because so much of this is about the idea that the disorder can be good or bad depending on your point of view and how people seeing others with this disorder will make assumptions about them and who they love and honestly it's really interesting in that regard, especially with Patts being pan and/or bi while Tai feels much like a gay man (Patts sought a relationship outside of the disorder while Tai never did, waiting despite his own loss of faith in the idea and isn't that just fascinating when you consider the ideas of love and loss and fear of coming out but also fear of losing love to society and just the layers are all there.)
Also, this is fascinating when you consider how private the rainverse seems but whether or not it is... well, that's a big question the show is asking now, isn't it?
The isolation of it all, the idea that this silence even when people are around you puts you completely in a different place than everyone else despite seeing around him how many people are deeply connected despite their rain deafness. Honestly, the main isolation we see during these times are either because the people around them forget they're deaf or because they choose that isolation (Patts staring at Tai out of the car window, Tai locking himself in his room after his parents break up) but we also see the very loving date of the non-soulmates who aren't isolated or struggling at all even as the rest of the world judges them and again the queer vibes of it all.
TAI. TAI. Don't just say that I need more answers, damnit. GIVE ME ALL THE DETAILS PLEASE. When does it develop? How? Is it something you're born with, is it contagious, is it just something that randomly happens? What is it?!
Again. The queer vibes. The metaphor. The very real face of queerness in the face of a homophobic society no matter how queer people represent themselves.
(The straight couple that aren't soulmates in the restaurant, the assumptions of the workers that he had to have a soulmate even though we later find out that only a fraction of people with hearing loss have one... the assumptions that because he has one visible difference that lends itself to a conclusion that their conclusion is correct. Dying.)
I feel like this implies that the disorder typically starts before twenty and the beginning of hearing their soulmate happens at 20 but Lomfon was obviously able to hear Tien in the rain right before he started hearing their voices. What does it all mean, damnit? He's had a crush on Tai this whole time so it isn't about queer realization and it's not the first time he's been with Tai and Patts in the rain (remember when he told Tai he didn't believe in soulmates? The was in the rain and he definitely didn't hear them both in that moment... or at least I assume he didn't from how they showed the scene in the last episode) so what is going on!!!
It's so fascinating because it really is a great metaphor for queerness, particularly the visible type, and honestly the break up between Patts and Nara when faced through the lens of how so many people approach bi/pansexuality as a whole but Lomfon is just the wrench in everything. Is he polyamory? Is he about falling in love with the wrong person or at the wrong time? Is he about how realizations and choices can be contagious? I don't know!
Anyway.
... I dunno, I love this show and I am fascinated by trying to figure this out but I am most heartbroken thinking about how Tien is now the only one in this group without a soulmate based in the idea of destiny when he's the one who believes in the idea the most and has never doubted the Tai's soulmate would be the love of his life despite watching his parents divorce despite being soulmates and I just... I just want him to be happy, okay?
#la pluie#la pluie the series#la pluie series#bl series#thai bl#thai drama#thai series#thaibl#asian lgbtq dramas#thai bl series#asianlgbtqdramas#bl drama#thai bl drama#thai bl meta#in which i think deeply but maybe not deeply enough
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Writeblr Intro
hi, welcome to my writeblr! my name is cam, i’m a 20-year-old english lit and publishing student, and i’m creating this new blog because posting about my wips motivates me to work on them!
i’ll be posting info about my wips including character aesthetics, playlists, excerpts and memes, plus updates on what i’m currently reading
pronouns: she/her
hobbies (besides writing): cooking & baking, reading, painting, video games (pokémon, sims, minecraft)
favourite books: the book thief (marcuz zusak), roots of chaos series (samantha shannon), practical magic series (alice hoffman), when women were dragons (kelly barnhill), the lunar chronicles (marissa meyer), the scholomance series (naomi novik), the school for good and evil series (soman chainani) and the miseducation of cameron post (emily danforth)
audience: ya / new adult
genres: high fantasy + urban fantasy, sci-fi, romance
common tropes in my writing: grumpy sunshine pairings, protective siblings overcoming conflict (50% chance the sister is a scientist, 100% chance both of them are queer), faeries, unapolagetically affectionate couples, very tall hot people, defrosting ice queens
my wips include:
WE ARE THE BURNED 🔥⚔️🌊
main wip, high fantasy, new adult,multiple pov, mediterranean-inspired setting
in a world where words are magic, and breaking a promise could take your life, nations battle for territory and glory. avary and ronan must fight to stay together while escaping the country they love, tariq struggles to live between the cruelty of his city’s cartel and the gentle wisdom of his teacher, and abilenne weaves through her responsibilities as a crown princess, eldest sister and future bride
themes include overcoming other people's expectations and found family
UNNAMED HARPY WIP 🕊🗡☀️
high fantasy, ya, fairytale retelling, sapphic romance
thayde’s favourite story as a child was the one about an ancient princess who could see the future, locked in a tower prison by a warlock. but it was also her least favourite, because it didn’t have a hero. now a fully grown harpy, thayde wants to win the queen’s tournament and prove herself worthy of finding the kingdom’s best kept secret.
themes include discovering self-worth and enemies to lovers
MAGES 🌃✨💀
urban fantasy, ya, alternate earth
kad’s mother was a murderer, a terrorist, a villain. the whole world is hell-bent on reminding her, despite being taken in by the Dupuis foster home for gifted mages and doing her best to be a normal pyromancer. but her magic refuses to grow and the dangers that ended her old family are threatening her new one. can kad uncover what’s happening and make up for her mother’s atrocities?
themes include found family, magical coffee shop and science-fantasy mashup
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OC-Tober Day 5: Relationships
A day late and I wanted to do my other collab children with Vafalls, but this was already crowding too many characters into one pic and there are so many AUs there, as tends to happen with characters you've had for over a decade. So here are my collab children with @carolmaclaine.
Transcript and details under cut!
Isidore:
to Cassis: You make me feel alive again. (He's super gushy about Cassis. He will wax poetic for days. He hates everything about himself but Cassis loving him is a constant surprise and a reason to keep on...living? He doesn't know if he should call it that)
to Viorica: She's nice, but her taste in men... yuck. (He likes Viorica fine enough, but the fact that she's attracted to Johann, one of his least favorite people, makes him respect her a little less)
to Eloise: Younger sister, my ride-or-die. (Due to the lack of parental affection in their childhood, they're very close. Around the time he was banned from the lavish balls his father would throw, she'd take breaks and sneak him petit fours and wine so she could commiserate with him. Also distract her father and guards while he would go shag some knights.)
to Marcel: Younger brother. We aren't that close. (Sadly... they're not. There's nearly a 20 year age gap between them, but he harbors no ill feelings towards the guy.)
to Johann: I'm gonna get your brother pregnant. (He likes to mess with Johann. Given that Johann was sort of his boss when he was resurrected and tried to arrest Cassis and have him stolen back and constantly referred to Isidore as a monster/freak/thing, Isidore does not have much warm feelings towards him.)
Cassis:
to Isidore: Aww! I love you too! (He's not entirely sure how to deal with Isidore's self-depreciation, but he really loves the guy and he feels lucky to have him in his life. He wants to help him out as best as he can.)
to Viorica: Former student! So proud of her! (Viorica wasn't particularly interested in the subjects he was teaching, but took one of his classes on a whim. The two developed a friendship, and she was there to patch up his hand when he blew it off.)
to Tisane: Little guy! (He's a little guy)
to Eloise: Sister-in-law? She's so nice. :) (Nothing particularly interesting here! They're both sweeties haha)
to Marcel: Nerdy little nephew, aww... (Even though Marcel is technically his brother-in-law, the large age difference makes him seem more like a nephew. Marcel is interested in academia, and he likes talking to Cassis about magical studies.)
to Johann: Older Brother! So cool! (Despite everything his brother has done, he still loves him. They were close in their childhoods, and he has always respected and looked up to him.
Viorica:
to Isidore: I'm glad Cassis found somebody. (Cassis had... quite a reputation of getting dumped a lot when he was a professor. She thinks Isidore's a good fit for him, even if he can be a bit of pain in the ass.)
to Cassis: Former Professor, I owe him a lot. (Cassis being openly queer helped her to realize she was trans, which is what helped them become friends.)
to Tisane: My son! (Tisane cannot be released back in to the wild due to the fact that he is practically toothless. Viorica loves him and he loves her u v u)
to Eloise: Great friend! (On account of being the Only Women Here, she likes to hang out with Eloise to get away from the dudes. Sometimes she feels a little embarrassed with how much Elle spoils her, but that's how she shows her love...)
to Johann: Be kinder to yourself. (A big reason for their relationship is that Johann has neglected his well-being after an injury that ruined his knight career, which she helped him take care of and recover. He still beats himself up for not being as strong as he used to be, but this is the only Johann he's ever met, and she loves him regardless!)
Eloise:
to Isidore: I know your murder was an inside job and I will avenge you. (She was... really shaken up by his murder. Finding out that he wasn't as dead as previously discovered was great, but his his memory being a little shoddy her revenge had to wait. Still, he's incredibly important to her, and she's glad he's back in her life.)
to Cassis: My brother is lucky to have you! (She loves this guy! And she's glad that Isidore finally has the opportunity to be openly in love with a man.)
to Viorica: Bestie! (As said earlier, they like to hang out! She spoils Viorica, who is used to roughing it up in the wilderness, with nice clothes and nights on the town and spa days. Vi gets a little overwhelmed with this, but she never had much of an opportunity to wear fancy dresses before...)
to Tisane: Cute!!! (Viorica will bring him over for girls nights and after a few glasses of wine they usually end up dressing him in cute outfits. He does not like this, but he allows them...)
to Marcel: Protective. (After Isidore's murder, she's been pretty protective over him. Understandably so!)
to Johann: He's nicer than he looks. (Johann was a frequent hire for her father's parties. She spoke to him while his facial scars were pretty new, and they struck a friendship. She thinks it's a funny coincidence that their brothers are dating.)
Johann:
to Isidore: YOU WILL NOT [impregnate my brother]. (VIORICA TOLD HIM THAT THIS WAS NOT MEDICALLY POSSIBLE!!! STOP SAYING THAT!!! Their relationship is strained thanks to all of their former church baggage, and also the fact that Johann is a Good Fantasy Catholic Boy and Isidore is so relentlessly horny for his brother that it makes him really uncomfortable.)
to Cassis: You forgive me too easily. (He really does. Johann doesn't like how quickly Cassis has forgiven him for being a shitty brother, to the point where he's happy that Isidore is at least a bit abrasive. Also, he doesn't think Cassis should emphasize how much older he is;;; there's only a six month difference between them!)
to Viorica: I don't deserve you. (He's never been in a serious relationship before, so Viorica's presence in his life has been life-changing. He loves her, and he feels so lucky to have someone as smart and patient as her helping him out.)
to Tisane: Quit biting holes into my socks. (He will not. Tisane is a menace.)
to Eloise: A good friend with a terrible brother (not Marcel). (As stated earlier, Eloise would talk with him during parties, something he was not used to but thankful for. He didn't know Isidore at the time, thanks to his usual banning from the party floor, but he was horrified to learn that such a kind lady has such a menace for a brother.
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Beast Anon here! 8D
Oh-ho! Wings of Fire is ICONIC! So glad to hear its merch has taken off at last! ;D
In answer to your questions, hmm...golly-gee, when it comes to your AUs there's a lot to choose from xP
Although, if I had to pick on the spot...I can't help but notice your Dark AU has been getting a lot of attention lately, and I have been warming to it for the interesting twists and turns it has been taking :)
I think X-Men 97 has really been going great, I'm loving it! Something I really like that I noticed recently was just how efficiently each episode manages its 20-30-minute runtime, it's another sign the show-creators put a ton of effort into the whole thing ^^
Now, my favorite platonic yandere of the week...is gonna be Beast. Always. I don't have that nifty little nickname you gave me for nothing :>
Right, I'm going to be completely honest with you...I have no idea who/what Marvelade is, but, sure, if you're interested in how they'd handle the very introspective and fascinating 'What If' series, I'm all for it ^^
I've been doing very well, thank you for asking! :D
And how about yourself? How've you been in the span it took me to respond? Anything new going on? ^^
In terms of topics I'd like to talk about, hmm...what do YOU think of the X-Men 97 show? =p
I am alright 😊 I planted a rose bush (I hope I did it right), and I've made a new AU...😅 That's a specialty of mine, isn't it? I have been catching up on some much-needed sleep, though, so it's good. As a kid, sleep wasn't as exciting; when you get a bit older, it is very much a necessity. I sometimes wondered as a kid, if adults at work and jobs had a mandatory nap time, if that would help with their stress? I was a weird kid, to be fair, but i think younger-me made a point to older-me.
I think X-Men 97 is doing pretty swell! It's using their time very well, as you said! Thirty minute episodes, yes! And there are a few curse/cuss words/adult words... So that's fun, in a way. The characters... I think they're sticking to their core personalities, which is good. They're acting the way they did in the Animated Series, and the show fits that theme, just a few years from then. I like Morph. I like Roberto. Older Magneto is looking well for an older guy, and now im sure he and Xavier at least had a QPR (queer platonic relationship) in that universe. Wolverine is grouchy and working on being a dad, so that's great. Jubilee is awesome, that never changes. The Jean Grey/Madeline Pryor thing was handled better than the comics did! (Yes, I actually know about that, yay!; I know a bit from the comics, just not, well, a lot😅). And I like that they can part on nice terms; let these people be friendly and have friends, darn it! Beast is still the same sweet, Shakespeare-loving furry scientist we all love (he was humming/singing classical music, that's a plus, and I didn't know I wanted that until it happened!) Storm lost her powers... I think she might get them back? But I'm not 100% certain. Maybe... 75% certain? Scott needs a vacation, a therapist, and possibly a few cups of relaxing/night-time tea, if not the whole package (he needs sleep and therapy, and I hope he gets it, poor guy needs a break-) So... Yeah, I think they're doing right by the series, they're using their time wisely, they kept the characters on point/in-character, and I can't wait to see more!!!😊💛💙
(I hope you are okay, Beast Anon! Thank you for checking up on me, and I wish you the best this week! Have a treat:🫐🥧🍓🥞🧃)
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Hi, i know some people get annoyed at these questions so i want to say this is genuine because i want to learn and understand more! but still am sorry if it is rude or annoying, but what does it mean to be a bisexual lesbian? either to you personally or in general? again sorry again if this is an annoying question, i just though they were separate and i want to understand how they might be coexisting
Nah it’s chill idm getting question abt it. I have some posts I’ll link that go in depth n shit since idr have the energy to explain rn hope that’s chill ^^ :
My personal feelings towards the label n history with it
How it works for me + just more rambling abt exclusionism and labels place in queer culture
On invading spaces
After reading those posts though I do have more to say after unwillingly seeing the opinions of , idefk what to call them I’ll just call them exclusionists.
But a sentiment I have seen a LOT especially among exclusionists in their 20s-30s who try and police the word lesbian, is that bisexual lesbians were something invented recently and they’ve “never seen it before the past few years.” And to that I say YES WE HAVE
I don’t have the internet or energy to find legible sources rn so look it up in your own time but bisexual lesbianism and boydykes gender fuckery is something that Allison Bechdel made comics about AT LEAST 20 YEARS AGO. Which means we were AT LEAST in the general lesbian community’s consciousness at that point.
The queer community is fucking VAST. There are millions of us so in the same way that not everyone has the same experience of being queer, not everyone has the same definitions of labels. This is something we’ve always known. However just because two peoples experiences and definitions are different, it does not mean that one of those experiences are invalid.
This is the main thing that pisses me off, because even if you don’t understand an identity you can at least accept it. My experiences with the queer community growing up was one in which bisexual lesbians or bi-fags or boydykes is just a thing people were. If you loved women you were a lesbian. That my experience of my identity, and the issue isn’t people not understanding my identity, it’s that they’re not accepting it. It’s ARGUING with me about it’s validity.
Queerness was never meant to be fit into a box, it was meant to break outside of it. Thats why people hated us and still hate us. So what’s the point on making more boxes for people in our own community? What’s the fucking point? What’s the point of then enforcing those boxes? A queer identity doesn’t have to make sense it’s QUEER
ok my internet is literally going a mile an hour rn so I can’t type fast enough to read over this or polish it up or keep a coherent train of thought. If it’s incoherent oh well, hope this helps lol
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Hadrian’s Perfect Fit
Hadrian is ready to look for love again after having his heart broken on Ada's Bachelorette. The 33 year old stylist admits that the Bachelorette was not his finest moment, and has come to accept that he wasn’t being true to himself. Our newest bachelor is bringing a twist to the traditional challenge - Hadrian is bi with a preference for masc partners. So there may be fewer glamorous dresses this season, but Hadrian assures us there will be plenty of romance. The Bachelor and contestants will spend quite a bit of time traveling to exotic locales as Hadrian is looking for someone to go on adventures with.
The show is currently searching for contestants, and will be accepting applications until June 22nd.
More information below the cut & link to Hadrian’s full biography
Hadrian Cerestes
Age 33
Bi (leans pan but generally prefers masc or nonbinary partners)
Hometown: Henford on Bagley
Current Residence: Hadrian splits his time between Del Sol Valley and San Myshuno
Career: Celebrity Stylist
Interests: Fashion, travel, spending time with his niece and nephew, good food, and spa days
Fun Facts: He’s retained his posh Britsim accent. Spends the first weekend of every winter break at Mouseland with his niblings for Winterfest, and has a secret collection of Mouse wear explicitly for those trips.
Hadrian’s Full Biography can be found here
If you want to see what happened in Ada’s BC go here
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Submission Guidelines
YA preferred (for the purpose of this BC that means under 40), Adult submissions will be considered and entered at Hadrian’s discretion
Gay/Bi/Pan/Queer men, nonbinary individuals, and trans masc sims accepted.
Please fill free to give them careers and skills (and cheat them a reasonable amount - don’t max everything). No romantic or unfairly traits please.
Your sim will need an entry introduction and a backstory/profile that gives me more information to go off of. Please feel free to dm me more information if you want there to be surprises or if you just think of something. Sims eliminated from other bcs will be allowed as long as their bio addresses what happened.
This BC is a bit of storytelling and gameplay so decisions will not be made purely from results. Eliminated sims may be used as side characters in potential post bc story (but if you want them back feel free to let me know). Also please let me know on the form if your sim is okay with getting pregnant or getting others pregnant (or neither or both) since mpreg is an option in my saves. I will do my best to properly interpret your sim’s personality, but this is going to be my best guess based on what you give me.
Please provide at least 1 outfit for each category preferably 2-3 for everyday and formal
Maxis Match CC allowed within limits (hair below 7mbs, skin details, tattoos welcome) CC can if be used for the first everyday outfit, but not the rest unless it is repeated (ex. Cc glasses or jewelry from the first outfit can be added to the other outfits since it’s not adding additional files). I have default replacement eyes and about a half dozen Sorbet Remix, Academia, and Jewl eyes so I will be using ones I already have, but I will try to get close if you specify a color. No Alpha cc, sliders, or custom traits (they will show up blank and I will fill them in based on their story).
No occults, vanilla sims preferred.
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oh god one more thing. this is like my stupid little 21 year old brain talking but it means Everything to me that these are dudes in their 40s we're talking about. and i can see how immediately that could sound dumb and weird bc theres all kinds of cool people doing cool shit super visibly literally into their 90s and whatever. but its different specifically bc its This Band. i feel like for so many of us, for most of the world, mcr is crystallized in our brains as the 20s-mid 30s versions of these people. and theres something really fucking special about seeing this band where at least half of which didnt count on surviving their 20s, transcending that and not just being in that position of Theyve Still Got It! but being at their PEAK, being the best we have ever seen them. in no small part BECAUSE rather in spite of the fact that they're older. theyre all dads theyre all matured and stabilized and TRAINED. especially when youve been socialized as a woman, especially if you've never really known adults in your personal life to break free of traditional structures of family and labor and identity, it is so fucking exciting to see some rock stars youve loved for half your life be at their best in their 40s. there is life after 40, there is life after children - there is EXCELLENCE, there is beauty, there is ever expanding talent, there is VITALITY and YES even QUEERNESS even NONCONFORMITY. do you understand . you are going to make it out of your teens, out of your 20s. youre going to become the person you most want to be and you can take all the decades you need getting there. Dont You See There Is Hope Everywhere.
#can i be the only hope for you because youre the only hope for me#hope this makes literally any sense! and if it doesnt well i was actively dozing off while writing this bc it is two am#mcr
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About Blush Blush
Alright, so I’m planning on writing maybe a few things for the game Blush Blush, but it doesn’t look like there’s much fan content for it, at least not on here. So, I decided to make a short, little run down of the basic plot of the game and the personalities of the guys, at least from how I see them.
Plot
The plot is pretty simple. You, a person in their 20’s(based on the age of the guys) who typically goes by Marshmallow, accidentally hand out cursed water bottles from your snack stand the at the zoo you work at. These turn all of the people that drank them into animals, and you decide that you are going to help them break the curse through the power of friendship…and possibly love.
Overall it’s a very tongue-in-cheek dating sim that knows when to make jokes about itself and its clicker and dating sim style game play, and has no problem being the silliest thing you’ve played in a long time.
The Guys
Nimh- He’s the first guy that you meet, and he was been turned into a rabbit. Like a rabbit, he is a very timid person, that prefers doing things a bit on that calm side, but doesn’t mind people helping him get out of his shell(within reason.) He also flusters very easily.
Volks- A lone wolf that gets turned into his namesake. He’s a bit stand-off-ish at first, but warms up to you the longer you know each other. He can be a bit moody, but feels happier when he’s around friends, especially you.
Kelby- A very kind, very outgoing athlete, who unfortunately got turned into a rooster. He’s one of the ones that really realizes you really didn’t have much to do with cursing him and the others, and it more than willing to go along with you to help break the curse on himself; partially from trust, and partially because he’s desperate to not be a chicken anymore.
Eli- So flamboyant that it boarders on offensive stereotype, but stops just at coolest queer guy you know. He’s so flamboyant in fact that the animal that he gets turned into is a friggin’ Pegasus. He’s very inclined to talk in text speech and meme lingo, and his job is actually just listed as hedonist. Likes that character pretty quickly due to his go with the flow nature.
Anon- A Scottish hacker that got turned into a lemur. He’s not happy about the situation, but seems to be more frustrated at things in general rather than you specifically. Very dry with his humor and sort of meh about displaying emotions. Always more than happy to brag about his tech skills though. (On a weird side note. He’s technically Scottish still according to the wiki, and when I first started playing he had a Scottish accent. I took a break from the game for a long time, and when I started playing again he no longer had the accent. I would have thought that I was imagining him having one in the first place other than the fact that all of his lines are still written like they’re supposed to be in a Scottish accent and there are still more UK oriented phrases, but now the actor is using a general North American accent. I don’t know why.)
Garret- He’s a very friendly man turned bull that doesn’t blame you in the slightest for what has happened and wants to befriend you almost right away because he saw you trying to save a cat from a tree. He has some trouble with English as it’s his second language, and this shows most by him referring to himself in the third person.
Dmitri- A barista turned into a boar. He has a taste for the finer things in life and is a huge romantic at heart. Is a little leery of you when you first meet, but really enjoys your company after you prove you do actually want to help him. Might have a bit of a wine problem, but knows it and is working on it.
Ichiban- Literally, just markiplier as a tiger; he even made a video about it. Like, idk what else to say about that. If one were to try to make it more of an original character and not just a copy of a real person you could focus on how he is a game streamer, who is a very friendly person, and slightly bubbly and very excitable.
William- He’s a veterinarian that was turned into a ram. He’s a vegan, but just out of conviction and doesn’t look down on other people who aren’t. His main reason for wanting to turn back into a human is because he wants to get back to helping animals. He even offers to help any of the other guys still stuck as animals for free.
Myx- Literally Dan Avidan just as a chinchilla. This one isn’t quite so copy and paste from the real guy as Ichiban, but it’s still pretty close. Defining personality other than the obvious is that he’s very easy going, loves music, knits, and is very polite.
Sterling- He’s a vampire who loves figure skating. He was turned into a snake. He is very upset with the turn of events because as a snake he not only not able to skate but he has also lost all of his vampire powers. He has not problem trying to intimidate you if he thinks it will get him results on a cure quicker(none of the threats have any real bite to them though.)
Scale- An assassin that was turned into a dragon. He actually meets you when he has a failed attempt to get you back for turning him into a dragon. After that he agrees to let you help him instead. He’ll warm up to you eventually, but until then you might want to be sure to give him space when needed.
DLC guys (because I love them all too)
Sven- He’s a guy with a hanna-barbara danish accent who is nothing but a ball of energy. He wasn’t turned into a hedgehog by you, but heard that you were helping other people turned into animals, so he traveled to ask you for help. He is so hyper and all over the place that sometimes some of the other guys will even comment on it.
Cole- He is found at the murder scene of a goldfish(who was thankfully not once a human), and claims to be a detective. He tells you he’ll be able to find the killer more easily without the police as he is currently a panther and they might question that. And, the longer you know him, the more you might start to question his alibi as well. He’s very jealous of you hanging out with the other guys and already knows a whole a lot about you for some reason…
Poe- A goth kid through and through, who gets turned into a magpie after drinking some mysterious potion in a desolate forest on a foggy day, just for the sake of aesthetics. He knew you from accidentally texting you and becoming friends through that. There’s nothing more that he likes other than writing and sharing poetry with you( except for maybe looking on the glass half empty side of things.)
Cashew- He’s a shy bookworm that does actually have a bit of a daring side to him. That daring side being that he talked to you at a friend’s suggestion and bought a magic journal. His problem started when he wrote in the journal that he wanted to have a magical adventure like you and the others were having, which turned him into a squirrel. He then lost the journal before he could write to change back. With no other options, he had to tell you what he did and ask for your help.
Seth- A daemon that tried to get you to sell your soul, but ended up turning into a hellhound instead. Does he really need help, or is this just another ploy to try to get your soul?
There are also side characters that pop up in a mini-game type deal where you have conversations and get pictures from them on your phone(this is actually where you meet Cashew, Poe, and Seth), but there are so many characters in that that this list would go on for even longer than it has, haha.
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Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up With Me is a bittersweet, beautiful graphic novel about being a teenager in love with someone who can’t seem to stop breaking your heart. The novel follows Freddy Riley, a young lesbian on the cusp of adulthood, navigating her relationship with her friends, her family, and her on-and-off-again girlfriend Laura Dean, who’s broken up with her three times (even though it never, ever lasts). Though Laura Dean is certainly a queer book, its focus is on recognizing toxic relationships, making tough decisions, and the relatable experience of struggling in one’s first love.
Genre: Graphic Novel, Fiction, LGBTQIA+ (Michael L. Printz 2020 Honor Book)
Target Age Group:
14-18
Justification:
This novel has been on my to-read list for a long time, and I was delighted to find it on the Printz Honor list. The cover is marvelously eye-catching, and I confess I have a weakness for the color pink – it’s the only color used in the illustrations in the book. Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up With Me was a must-read as soon as I found out about it.
Evaluation:
For this review, I will be evaluating the illustrations, characters, and theme. As a graphic novel, obviously, the illustrations are arguably the most important part, and Rosemary Valero-O’Connell’s fluid and precise art truly elevates the book to a new level. Characters’ expressions are subtle but expressive, with subtle details like freckles or changing earrings that give each character a lovely understated piece of personality. Pale pink is used throughout as an accent color, standing out starkly against black, white, or gray. Though most lettering throughout the novel is typewritten, Valero-O’Connell uses handwritten cursive script to emphasize dramatic dialogue, making the text stand out and yet integrating it overall into the soft, flowing style of the art.
Mariko Tamaki, meanwhile, writes characters that shine. The protagonist, Freddy, is flawed and stubborn and insecure, and creative and hopeful and loving—all details provided by Tamaki’s carefully written dialogue, which combines with Valero-O’Connell’s illustrations to reveal character insights that prose alone might not have conveyed. Each character feels unique and realistic, with tiny details given that strengthen our impressions of each character: Laura Dean’s mother is never shown, Freddy’s mother never took her father’s last name, Doodle’s father only refers to his child as Deirdre. These are the characters we see the least of in the story, but these small pieces of information give them a brilliant shape, enhancing our understanding of them as Freddy interacts (or doesn’t) with the adults in her life.
The theme is perhaps the most important part, at least to me. Unlike other YA novels with queer themes, the theme of Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up With Me is not inherently queer. Many novels in the same genre are focused on expressing the queer experience, either attempting to echo the experiences of queer teens or make their experiences more relatable and understandable to a non-queer audience, but Laura Dean’s theme is young, toxic love, and freeing oneself of those relationships. That is a theme that endures throughout sexualities and ages, and while homophobia and other queer issues do arise throughout the course of the novel, the focus is on a teenager’s experience with teenage life. It expands the queer experience beyond this is what we experience as queer people and into this is what we all experience, it just happens to be a queer story on top of it all.
In short, everyone should read this book. Teens going through heartbreak, teens who feel like no one’s had the same experience, adults who have dealt or are dealing with toxic relationships, anyone who loves beautiful art. Laura Dean is a book I’m going to be thinking about for a long time.
References:
Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up With Me. Macmillan Publishers. (2021, July 20). https://us.macmillan.com/books/9781626722590/lauradeankeepsbreakingupwithme
Tamaki, M., & Valero-O’Connell, R. (2020). Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up With Me. Groundwood Books.
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