#and my gf said 'it's about to get real autistic in here'
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i am soo normal about the trailer
#tmnt#mutant mayhem#tmnt mutant mayhem#went to my friends room to show them the trailer#and my gf said 'it's about to get real autistic in here'#they were right#they are sooo tiny and scrunkly#aaaaaaaaaaa#i would go to war for them#the turtles i mean#my friends too but i wouldn’t call them tiny and scrunkly unless directly to their face#my thoughts
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If I may ask, what's going on with Minako and ami?? Do they dislike each other or are they just not really compatible?
I've actually talked about it here and also here!
But yeah, I basically don't really see them as super compatible, Mina doesn't necessarily dislike Ami, she's just bored by her, while Ami does actively dislike Mina, even if it's in a very passive manner most of the time.
They work well together as a team, but as soon as Sailor business is done, they go back to their default dynamic.
Ami recognizes that Mina is a good friend and excellent leader, but Ami's not willing to let invade her boundaries like the other girls let her do. Mina can be brash, rude, disrespectful, offensive and I see her as quite willing to make someone uncomfortable just to get attention and Ami does NOT like that. So they just ignore each other unless they are the only ones in the room or Mina is feeling especially 'generous' LOL.
It also does boil down to a conflict in their communication skills too. Mina is very smart when it comes to interacting with other people and especially reading people, while Ami struggles a lot more with that. I do hc Ami as autistic and for her picking up on things like sarcasm, context, verbal and non verbal hints and intentions is a lil more complex. Not that she's oblivious 100% of the time, quite the opposite (she overthinks everything!), but if it's Mina THEN it gets very complicated. If Mina wants you to be confused by or wants you to misinterpret something she said or did, you will!
While the other girls brush it off as Mina just messing around (which it honestly is), Ami does not see any humor in such behavior and gets very frustrated by it, seeing it as more along the lines of bullying/being annoying for the sake of it.
As well as Mina initiating in unwanted physical contact. Ami does not like being touched (unless your names are Luna, Mako, Usagi, Saeko or Michiru) unless pretty explicit consent is given or she's the one initiating. This is a problem Rei has too (in some ways more than Ami, but Rei has a much scarier face than Ami, so people don't dare touch her most of the time), but Rei has an easier time getting past it cause well, Mina's her gf, so Mina has implied consent most often than not.
Small rant/disclaimer:
I see most often people agreeing with me, up to the point I say Mina doesn't have a problem invading Ami's personal boundaries and I totally understand that.
It is NOT a nice thing to do, especially if you know the person you are doing it to is on the spectrum. It's incredibly disregarding and disrespectful of another person's feelings. That said, I like writing small aspects to characters that might not make them 'morally just' 100% of the time, or even a decent human being!
I see Mina saying offensive shit for the sake of it, including slurs (ex Haruka and Mina are VERY close friends, she does call Haruka dyke jokingly at times), I see Rei getting angry and acting like an absolute unreasonable Karen at service workers sometimes (I work retail, I'd murder her irl), I hc Mako growing up fairly homophobic (only to later live her life with a more open mind, while discovering some things about herself lol), and so forth, stuff like that it could be nowadays considered 'problematic'. I think it's quite important (at least for me) to include more negative human aspects to the girls as well as positive ones, but then again, this is my version of the characters.
If them acting this way at times makes you uncomfortable, it's totally fair! It's my HC!
The only thing I ask is that you respect my boundaries and not attack me for my views on some characters. They're not real, but me and other artists and writers online are.
#ask me stuff#ami mizuno#minako aino#devolved into a small rant srry#but I needed to state this cause I am genuinely afraid to openly add aspects like that to the characters#having seen people get harrassed/attacked for 'ruining' their characters#I never ask people to agree with me#just to be respected
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someone said yes to the tf2 post so fuck it we ball with
general merc relationships hcs!!!
(friendship & dating)
i'm trying to make this as gender neutral as possible. also no romance w pyro bcs i hc him as aroace :) s/o means significant other, but in this case, a petname for a gf, bf, etc!
Scout
() scout is the friend ever
() he has got your back!!!
() adhd icon
() maybe with enough convincing, you teach this man how to READ.
() ...& then he falls for you.
() he just sees you one day & is like "wait why are they cute now"
() he just starts joking about wanting to date like "yo what if we kissed lol" as a joke
() & YOU ACTUALLY KISS HIM.
() he's red now
() like
() redder than a cherry & tomato combined
() he makes it real obv that you both are dating, he means well though </3
() "GUESS WHO'S GOT A (s/o) NOW!!! SUCK IT!!"
() will stop if it makes you uncomfy or embarrassed :)
() huge on pda & petnames but they're corny petnames
() only problem is that he is easily jealous.
() "HEY! that's MY (s/o) pally, find ya own!"
() if some knucklehead even thinks of flirting with you, he will give them a very strongly worded speech about his s/o being his
() not to the point of being a yandere though, he will fight a dude for you but he won't (intentionally) kill someone!
Solly
(bear w me i'm not too good w soldier)
() this man. is autistic. i can confirm because i am autistic with adhd
() no convincing will change my mind
() ANYWAYS you are the most active person on the field other than scout
() & brave at that
() when this guy yelled at you, you kept a straight face
() no reaction or tears
() if you hate loud noises, he will be a lil more quiet to you after that :]
() also you became soldiers favorite person in the base bcs of that
() but the exercises are NOT easier but the only exception is that if you aren't really fit or you have a medical condition. he is NOT a monster.
() "MAGGOT!!!! JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND FOREVER DOES NOT MEAN IT SHALL BE EASIER!!!"
() this man can GRILL
() he has some good grilling skills, but not cooking skills.
() solly slowly falls for you but doesn't even know it.
() & when he DOES realize it's love, he is IMMEDIATE to ask you
() "HEY CUPCAKE! DO YOU WANNA DATE ME?"
() you are VERY flustered
() but you return his feelings ofc & now when someone slightly insults or teases you, he will yell at them.
() "MY (s/o) IS NOT A BASTARD, YOU ARE!!! NOW DROP & GIVE US 20!"
() you are his chill pill. you're the only person who can calm him down
() like scout, he easily gets jealous.
() he thinks you're a blessing to 'murica & he NEVER says that to anyone so he means it <3
() he has a hidden soft side that you activate in him & it is the most adorable thing ever <333333
Pyro
(nonromantic btw)
() you became besties the day you understood him.
() he isn't really a bad guy :)
() he is roommates w engi.
() "ah, ya here to see pyro again? don't stress about it, hun, come on in." :)
() you LOVE drawing together
() he compliments everything you do & hypes you up!! :D
() MANCHILD
() despite being besties, he will NEVER. EVER. show what's under the mask.
() only engineer & medic know, & they will NOT tell you. >:(
() "sorry kid, i can't tell ya what's under the mask."
() "HAH! do you zhink I vould tell YOU?! not in a MILLION YEARS!!"
() you're one of the only people stopping him from "going into pyroland" (committing arson)
Engineer
(tw: amputation mention!! just one but STILL!!!)
() you show a heavy interest in scientific/engineering stuff
() so
() you attract him
() he shows you his gunslinger, short circuit, etc., & you're all impressed
() you then ask if he had no arm at birth so he made the lil hand attachments & he just goes "oh hahah yeah yeah..."
() he had it amputated by the medic turns out. he keeps it a secret between himself & the doctor to this day.
() he has
() the best
() cooking
() ever.
() like fr
() LET. HIM. COOK.
() when he falls for you, he immediately knows
() but he's been heartbroken before
() so, he just stares at you with loving eyes, daydreaming about a future life that may never happen...
() ...until py(b)ro does eventually make him confess because he learned from the doctor that compressing feelings is bad & it is big nono bad >:(
() he couldn't say no to that level of cuteness! so...
() he confesses to you via love song on his guitar
() ain't no way you're saying no to this. if you do, no you didn't you said yes shhhhhh
() every once in a while, he'll let you hold his gunslinger hand :')
() it's cold but also warm?????
() but fyi, he is a busy man
() you have to remind him to sleep or he will accidentally pull an all-nighter
() but his cuddles make up for it ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა
() SOFTEST TUMMY EVER <33333333333333333
() you help each other with burnout ofc
Demoman
() you stole his last scrumpy
() oh boy was he PISSED at you
() you two both yelled at each other & it almost got physical
() ...
() then you two became best friends.
() like WHAT IN THE HELL?
() so now you both share drinks every night together <3
() which is how he fell for you
() you're tough, strong, & also a lil sassy!!
() he took a lil too many drinks one night &-
() "eruhhhhhh i think i love ye man..." & then proceeds to slur his words furthermore
() you're cuddling him when he wakes up & he almost has a heart attack
() but he doesn't leave your arms
() he snuggles closer to you <3
() this man is tied w engineer for the best cuddles imo they are TEDDY BEARS
() protects you at all costs
() oh btw his eyelander hates him being so lovey-dovey
() but you two will have small talk
() do not touch eyelander
() DO NOT TOUCH EYELANDER
() DO N O T TOUCH EYELANDER
() eyelander will be pissed & trying to attack you while demoman will worried
() not fun. 1/10. do not recommend
Heavy
() you were fluent in russian & english
() so you served to him as a translator for a bit
() he seemed intimidating
() one day you were doing your workout in the base & heavy noticed & was like " little person strong??"
() so you & him are gr8 friends now
() will give you a crumb of the sandvich
() that's it though
() you are always complementing sasha/sascha & apparently heavy can speak gun because heavy is saying that sasha/sascha says thanks :)
() idk if it's sasha or sascha i seen both so bear w me
() he eventually, like everyone else on this list, falls for you
() like engineer, he makes some sort of art with words for you
() unlike engineer though, it's a poem <3333333
() it's specifically in russian so no one but you or him can understand it
() became lovey lovey with him FAST
() he is the equivalent of a bear
() a lil intimidating at first
() but depending on who you are, he loves you <3
() will stop guys flirting w you UNINTENTIONALLY
() "hey sweetch- HOLY SHIT-" *running*
() "hm? why..why was little boy running?"
() if he ever forgets a certain word in english, he comes to you :)
() lifts you up A LOT
() he means well by it
() if you tell him to not do that, he ofc will stop for you
Medic
() you didn't take his bullshittery. you were thinking:
() "MAN IF YOU DON'T CUT THAT SHIT OUT-"
() but instead of thinking it, you accidentally said it.
() oops.
() thankfully it was just you & him.
() you knew a thing or two about medical stuff so you two bonded!!!
() you, him & engi helped w experiments that either of you had!
() you also talked about random things
() he is secretly a softie & falls HARD for you
() like with engi, he's afraid to tell you because he's been heartbroken as well,
() but he does want to be alone with you more often than usual,
() so you figure him out & wait
() he does eventually confess, & was very relieved that you felt mutual with him
() yeah you two spend a lot of time together more, but ofc you still hang out w engi!!
() it wld be very rude to just leave him behind like that >:(
() although he will accidentally pull an all-nighter too if you forget to make him come to bed.
() calls you "mein Täubchen" or any other german petname he can think of
() you & his doves are close friends
() OH one time you & him were practically cuddling on his chair while he was working right, & then archimedes flew on down to your head & rested there
() you're sure it was to just get medics attention but medic LOVED it
() you were asleep though :(
Sniper
() loner
() you become friends after making sure he isn't being attacked by a spy
() you give him a warning sign that there lies a spy
() now he lies behind sniper
() "ey, thank ye for earlier"
() "ah no worries, i'm always glad to help!"
() you'll visit his van & chill
() doesn't even realize he's fell
() he just zones out on you a lot more.
() you confess first & he's like "wait that was the feeling?"
() he's never felt this way give him a break </3
() shy, at first
() he does branch out to you more
() takes you out on camping & maybe hunting dates if you're comfy with it :)
() keeps the relationship PRIVATE
() "ey look luv, as much as i love ya, if we share this with anyone, our careers are done for"
() means it in the best way though
Spy
() flirts with each other abound
() started as jokes, ended in actual love
() you eventually ask "hey are we actually dating?"
() he says "maybe, if you want to" to mess w you & flirt
() you SWOONED just by those words
() so you two are ALREADY dating
() you go FAST with him friendship & relationship wise
() by the second date, you two probably 👉👌
() of course, he is taking this relationship TO THE GRAVE.
() if ANY rumor were to get out about "spy has a (s/o)", he will deny it until EVERYONE is convinced.
() he loves you oh so much
() he TRULY means well & will protect you by any means necessary
() after he checks everywhere to be sure nobody is looking, he'll show you what's under the mask & tell you his real name
() the only rule with that is to call him by his name in private
() & ONLY in private
() outside, you two may never be alone
() he'll ramble to you about his life as you sleep on his chest <3
sorry it took a bit, school & life always kick my ass
#tf2#team fortress 2#scout tf2#soldier tf2#pyro tf2#demoman tf2#engineer tf2#engi tf2#heavy weapons guy#heavy tf2#medic tf2#sniper tf2#spy tf2#emoweeb actually has inspiration wow(emo writes)#THE SILLYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (tf2 tag)
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a nd!jj (this could be adhd or autism) hc of mine is that she always has new interests and hobbies and she will be like extremely fixated on them for a while (putting them above anything else) but also has a huge tendency to leave things unfinished which would result in her starting big projects (ex.gardening) and then them just being left lying around never to be touched again in a few days/weeks/months. when she was a kid instead of her parents supporting her and helping her not to loose focus when working on something they would always scoff and roll their eyes when she tried to start a new project relating to one of her special interests. her parents always made her feel guilty about that trait and now she is incredibly insecure about it. so much that now she tries to suppress all of her special interests in fears of annoying or bothering other people and being a burden :(
it would be amazing if u could write a fic where elle/emily is her gf and lives with her and can just feel the insecurity radiating off of jj whenever there is talk about special intrests. eventually they find out why and then try to support jj in every way possible to help finish her projects, they always make sure she isn’t losing focus and if she is too focused they remind her to have something to eat and drink and overall just let her ramble about things that are important to her <3.
woah, this was long
I love this. ADHD JJ and autistic JJ are my loves. She deserves so much love and support. She 10000% has special interests but her parents have made her feel weird for having them so she repressed them. She doesn’t want to seem inconvenient to anyone, especially her significant other. Elle was definitely the first one to notice when JJ would slowly stop talking about something and isolate herself like something was. Elle is just so soft and holds JJ letting her know that she wants to hear about them and it’s not stupid.
Mi Amor ~ JJ x Elle
(CW: Mild meltdown, harmful stimming, autistic Jennifer Jareau, ableism)
Elle walks through the door of the apartment hoping JJ is already ready to go. They’re supposed to be meeting the team in 30 minutes at the restaurant, so she knows they are going to be pushing it and she has to get ready fast. She makes her way into the living room seeing JJ curled up on the couch, but luckily dressed and ready to go.
“Hey, amor.” She smiles as JJ fidgets with her fingers.
“I’m going to go change real quick and then we’ll leave.” She adds kissing the top of the blonde head before heading to their bedroom. She makes quick work of changing before heading back out to the younger woman.
“How was your day?” She asked as she drives them through the city. JJ had a mandatory day off so she wasn’t at the bau.
“Okay,” JJ whispers not fully engaging. Elle looks over concerned but drops it for the moment. They get to the restaurant and meet up with the rest of the team who was already there. JJ curls into Elle as they sit down in the corner. She starts to mess with the brunette’s hair as everyone else begins to talk. She feels the nagging and buzzing feeling of a meltdown coming but she doesn’t want to ruin everyone’s night.
“JJ you like hockey don’t you?” She shoots her head up seeing the whole team looking at her. She shrugs but Morgan pushes.
“You were just talking about the Capitals and Penguins game the other day. You said you grew up a huge penguins fan but since moving here you became a capitals fan.” JJ blinks but doesn’t respond as she tightens her grip on Elle.
“What about the islanders kiddo?” Rossi asks as JJ grunts.
“Jen, you okay?” Elle whispers noticing the anxiety radiating off her girlfriend. JJ tugs on her hair not wanting to show weakness.
“Jen honey you know you can’t do that,” Elle whispers firmly but softly taking the blonde’s hands in hers.
“JJ are you no longer a hockey fan? That’s a big thing to change?” Spencer asks causing JJ to fully go into a meltdown. JJ begins to throw herself back against the booth and bite down on her lip causing Elle to wince.
“No, no love.” She states trying to keep the blonde still but JJ whines fighting against the older woman’s grip.
“I’m gonna take her outside for a minute.” Elle quickly states to the team before easily getting the blonde out to fresh air.
“Amor calm down. You’re okay.” She hushes tracing patterns on the blonde’s hands.
“No talk!” JJ cries.
“Shh we don’t have to talk about hockey anymore. Can you tell me what caused this?” Elle asks. She knew her girlfriend still loved hockey but recently hasn’t been talking about it as much.
“Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!” JJ cries trying to hit herself but Elle quickly takes her hands.
“Baby it’s not stupid. Do you want to go home to calm down?” JJ nods.
~ Few Days Later ~
“Amor you know they weren’t right?” Elle asks. She finally learned how JJ’s parents treated JJ’s autism in her childhood and she’s beyond angry but trying to stay calm for the younger woman.
“Not normal,” JJ states not looking up from the craft she’s doing.
“You’re not but JJ that’s what makes you, you and I wouldn’t change a single thing. You’re perfect the way you are.” Elle states lifting the blonde’s chin to meet her eyes.
“Come on mi amor, let’s go eat as you haven’t today.” She states smiling softly.
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First off, I loved the story. Second, what happened 👀👀👀
(Not particularly heavy stuff, but an emotionally abusive situation is mentioned, so TW for that, I guess? Also if u have anything u want me to tag here, just send me an ask and I'll do it. Also this is a long post, but that's what u get for asking someone with adhd to tell a story ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)
Alright, so like I said, I my first bf and I met in highschool and we stayed together from me being 15 to 26. A decade plus one of emotional abuse, manipulation, gaslighting, my friends being cut off to further my isolation, and me being too inexperienced to see the guy for the asshole he was.
And, like I said, my therapist from that time was a goddamn genius who saw how much I was suffering but also could tell I would not get out of that situation willingly bc I was so used to that being my life and the whole "he can't be abusive - he never hit me!" mentality that I couldn't see that he would cheer me up when I was down - but he was the one to put me down to begin with!
So she said "how about you two take a break? One month away from each other, with no strings attached, not bf and gf anymore, so you can see whether this is a relationship worth fighting for" (it wasn't, lmao)
Me, a week after: so, he's gonna be traveling in two months after this one and-
She, very serious: fascinating! let's make it three months then! You'll meet again when he's back, it'll be great for everyone!
The thing is, when you date someone that swallows up your entire life and cuts your bridges to everyone else, you end up pretty lost and alone (this is literally the tactic cults use to force people to stay in the cult, by making sure they won't have a community to support them once they are out).
But! My bff, bless her heart, never left my side no matter how often I would ghost her while i was still dating. And after I'd spent that first month (november of that year) moping and crying like someone had died, she invited me to go clubbing and I actually got to dance and be silly for the first time since my early teens!
Being undiagnosed autistic/adhd and having my ex as my only social interaction outside of my family AND not doing well socially in school bc bullying made it a bit of a challenge to come on to people, so my bff would be my wingwoman - hey, my friend thinks you're cute, etc.
For some reason, the ladies shot me down a lot, which sucked bc I really wanted to kiss a girl and "find out" whether I was bi (I thought I needed this as proof, lol). But the boys had those looney-tunes eyes at me so I got to kiss some of them and it was fun and stupid and so freeing.
And then there was her. Julia. Even my adhd brain still remembers her name. She was much taller than I, with full, black hair and a raspy voice that made me go heart eyes over her. I asked my bff to chat her up to me, and when instead of politely shaking her head with an apologetic smile as the other girls did, she walked up to me.
Then she asked me whether I wanted to kiss her, and I said yes, and she leaned over me and the world stopped spinning for a moment because I was kissing a girl and it was soft and sweet and good and oh my god, so I do like girls, of course I do, they are so pretty and amazing and oh wow, I am bisexual, that's a lot to unpack and-
And then she was smiling, and saying goodbye bc she wanted to meet up with her friends, and I was left in the middle of that rooftop dance floor, under the stars, my ears ringing and my face burning hot. I had my answer. I had my truth. I had it all along, but now it was real.
So just on account of that, month two (december of that year) was already chalked down as better than the entire time I had ever spent with my not-yet-entirely-ex, but I went out with my bff other times and had just as much fun. Incidentally, the hidden quickie with the handsome guy only happened bc I was intensely fueled by a spiteful thought of "aw hell no, I won't close this year without having boned someone other than [redacted]!". So uh. Yeah. The say love makes you do things, but hooo boy, the things that spite makes u do!
Anyway, moving on! January rolled out and my soon-to-be-ex sent me a text for us to meet, and we did. We caught up at some public place, and at some point he asked me whether I wanted to get back together.
Now, the first sentence that popped into my brain, in all caps, was: "I'D RATHER DOUSE MYSELF IN GASOLINE AND LIGHT A MATCH LMAO" but I unfortunately held back enough to say "I think we're much too different people now" while choking back laughter. So he asked to be just friends and I was like, ah well, I guess?
And we had this whole talk in the cab on the way to drop me off at my place, and this is where the nickname to which I refer to him now, "the deceased", came to be.
See, he was very clearly trying to lay the groundwork to try and build a relationship with me again, talking abt how different people can still get along even if they're exes bc we are both so emotionally mature, etc.
And I jokingly say the most absurd thing I could think: "yeah, and even if we're different, it's not like you're gonna... idk, vote for bolsonaro".
And he did a double take. And. Very shyly, he said he was, in fact, gonna vote for him. Y'know the genocidal, pro-dictatorship, homophobic, corrupt, nightmare of a president with which we were later plagued with for four years in the middle of a pandemic.
That's when I realized this dude wasn't worth keeping around even as a distant acquaintance, and I had a whole mental funeral for this guy bc he would be dead to me from then on. Sad music, flowers, the whole thing. Rip in piss, as y'all say around here.
Once we arrived by my place's door, I asked him to wait in the cab while I went up real quick. When I came back, he was like "oh?? you wanna go somewhere else from here?"
and I simply shoved the very large plastic bag I'd carried down on the seat next to him, explaining: "no, it's just that this is all your crap that was still in my house and I don't want it here anymore. Bye."
What a terrific place to end this story! How dramatic! I mean, that guy was the worst thing I've ever had cling to me in my life, and that includes that one time in the woods when I was a kid and like a hundred ticks bit me.
Well, close the curtains on this show, then! This is a satisfying ending and surely you never heard of him again, right, OP? Right, OP????
[press X for the next stupid anecdote about the deceased]
[press Y to never hear about the deceased again]
[vanilla extract] (sorry I had to)
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If this made you laugh, buy me a ko-fi to help me continue to afford the therapy I so clearly need lmao
#long post/#lu's stories#abusive relationships/#emotional abuse/#what I love about this story is that the only thing that might be wrong there are some dates bc adhd brain#but yeah it was. a ride#i still quote the gasoline quote sometimes#also obsessed with my stupidass logic:#ok u wanna kiss girls. u find them hot. but what if you kiss one??? and don't like it??? then ur het#lu you stupid bisexual bless ur heart
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still crazy to me how this website is functionally 4chan just with an inverse target audience
like same function but opposite values
like yall both use “OP”, the popular posts are made up stories we all react to as if they happened but know its made up, both are used to talk about niche interests, both autistic as fuck, back in the day had people doing fuckin insane shit (well on 4chan they werent actually doing anything they were just being autistic in the way youre allowed to make fun of)
but 4chan is based on complete anonymity, while tumblr is very based on individuality and self expression. but both lead to users being fucking weird and goofy (except half of 4chan gets racist and shitty about it)
but also 4chan kinda fucking sucks lol you cant go anywhere NEAR the ‘popular’ boards without people being completely fucking [redacted] (new 8chan seems nice so far though as long as you stay on the right boards)
whereas on here, half the userbase kinda dipped so everyones cool now
they had more similarities back in the day i guess like dude its the same fucking website just with completely different people like horseshoe theory type shit
like a bunch of transfems grew up on there and i guess the transmascs grew up on here yknow its an interesting dynamic (also theres so few trans guys on 4chan they apparently dont think transmascs are real lolz) (my gf told me about someone who said “why would you voluntarily give up living life on easy mode” and i replied with “why the fuck would you wanna play dark souls on easy mode”)
y’get what im saying?
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For the character thing, britta, shirley, troy!
YOOOOOOOO COMMUNITY one of the few live action shows i like
hold on JUST a moment...
here's my britta bingo! i haven't watched community in awhile but...i love britta. not as much as annie but britta is my baby anarchist gf and she's so...stupid in a good way. i wish she got with jeff instead of annie. i do not like jeff much actually but that's for another post
SHIRLEYYYY she is so underrated and pretty (she wouldn't date me but i would Convert her to bisexuality. it's okay) and her interactions with the cast were GOLDEN she is so UNDERRATED she gets the funniest lines ("Please! It's Christmas!" "It's December 12th!") she got one of the best episodes (the paddle ball anime one) and i hated it when she left in season 6 she is an INTEGRAL part of the community Dynamic and once she and troy left the show went downhill FAST...i feel like she's one of your favorites because i believe and hope you have good taste so she's your blorbo by proxy
TROYYY i have so many feelings about him did you know i also think he's autistic. he is VERY autistic in the way i am (hyperexcitable and very focused on his special interests and very good at his specific Abilities) and he wasn't diagnosed because he was a jehovah's witness and i don't think they believe in medical treatment but ANYWAY!!! troy is one of my favorites and i'd probably date him if he were real and interested in me (my sister said the same thing too, she likes troy and annie together for this reason BUT NOT TO WORRY though she is a trobed shipper like every sane person is) and he's so nice and attractive in a sweet young man way and he's so underrated in the fandom because he's always kind of a side character to abed's adventures in the fandom when he's SO much more....his little journey with figuring out he's good at fixing things...i loved that
and he's probably your blorbo because he's EVERYONE'S blorbo so
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Fic Writer Questions! (you can find me here on AO3 if you're interested!)
tagged by dear @theburialofstrawberries mwah!
1) How many works do you have on AO3?
112 yowza!
2) What’s your total AO3 word count?
750,421 kinda tempted to go delete one word so it can be 750420 which is a far more Pleasing number
3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?
12ish but some of them overlap: BBCS/Sherlock Holmes/ACD (these are all different bc my bbcs fics are not the same as my own modern fem Sherlock Holmes adaptation are not the same as my ACD Holmes fic; Good Omens; Harry Potter/The Werewolf Draco Malfoy Cinematic Universe; Captive Prince; The Hobbit; Fleabag (it was a crossover with BBCS but Fleabag is the perspective character so it still counts as a separate fandom imo); Doctor Who; The Office; Parks and Rec; Broad City (one a piece for those last 5 but I AM going to write a Parks and Rec polycule fic for @gaykagome)
4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
They're all Good Omens fics from the 2019 Summer of Good Omens! Susceptible to Summer, Fragments Shored Against My Ruin, Something So Magic, Enter Serpent, and Anything We Like
All of those have over 2k except the last one, but average engagement for me is like 400 kudos or so
5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?
I try! It depends on what's going on with me. Sometimes I just don't have the energy, and I figure people would rather I spend my brain power on writing new fics than on writing replies to comments. Wish I had a fave button tho so I could let people know I read and reread comments, because I do!
6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?
Oh I wrote this ficlet series called A Chemical Defect about John and Sherlock's relationship in s3 of BBCS, and it's WILDLY unpopular. People don't read my fic to cry sad tears I guess! John and Sherlock are having an affair in the story, and it ends with the implication that their relationship is unsustainable and that Mary knows about it anyway. I intended to come back to it after s4 and write a more optimistic ending but LOL! Didn't have the heart.
7) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?
I know this answer is kinda up my own ass, but like. I think stories that feel true to life sort of feel like they end on a beginning if you know what I mean? You don't really consider a chapter of your life closed until you look back on it from the next? SO that said, I think I'd have to say that it's my big BBCS serial The Only One in the World. I spent 2 years writing it, and it ends with John retiring from medicine to solve crimes and write books full time.
Could also be my WDMCU (werewolf Draco Malfoy cinematic universe) series Moonrise, which starts with Draco isolated in his abusive mother's house, trying to cope with lycanthropy essentially alone and ends with him in love and surrounded by found family in a cozy cottage in Hogsmeade, having gotten some lycanthrope rights legislation passed after working at it for years and talking to Harry about whether they want to have kids. Oh man I feel warm and fuzzy just thinking about it
8) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?
I have written one crossover. It's BBCS/Fleabag, because me and @loudest-subtext-in-tv were laughing about how John seems like one of the horrible guys Fleabag sleeps with basically out of self loathing, so I wrote this fic to make Nattie laugh, and you should read it bc it's so good and so underrated.
9) Have you ever received hate on a fic?
Not really, but people don't seem to know that authors can read bookmark tags unless you private the bookmark, and someone once put in the bookmark tag on one of my fics 'writing was meh but it was okay.' Okay so why bookmark it then??
10) Do you write smut? If so what kind?
Fuck yes! I'm not sure what 'what kind?' means? People fucking? Sloppy, silly, and awkward, with lots of laughing. I also really like writing afterglow scenes which are even sillier and gigglier and often involve one character cooking for another. Food as love language is a very distinct pattern of mine tbh
11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I'm aware of, but occasionally I'll write a post on here where I make some elaborate head canon, and I'll see people in the tags talking about how they want to write fic of it, and it makes me breathe fire out of my nose like a dragon like PLEASE DON'T. The WDMCU came out of a ficlet post I made on here like a year before I actually wrote the 60k series so like!!! Please don't do that!
12) Have you ever had a fic translated?
Yes! To Russian and I believe Chinese. Not my entire oeuvre but a handful of BBCS and Good Omens fics
13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?
No, but I wrote a fic inspired by an RP I did with my gf right around when we met (actually now that I think about it, it's two fics), and I waaaaaaanna do a WDMCU collab with my beloved Sally @clytemenestras at some point if he has time bc he inspired me to even write werewolf draco with his original lesbian werewolf story
14) What’s your all time favorite ship?
favorites are hard for me? I always think I'm currently doing my best writing lol so I'll say drarry
15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?
I don't post fics unless theyre finished, so I don't have any WIP up on AO3, but I did intend to continue with my fem Sherlock Holmes series, Your Many Tendencies. I just haven't been in a Holmes mood for a long time. Maybe I'll come back to it idk. This particular series is honestly very unpopular? People will just straight up say they don't read femslash, and it hurts a lot. This series feels really personal too, bc it's about a Black autistic nonbinary lesbian, so it does hurt my feelings that no one seems to care, yknow? I mean the people who read it are extremely kind and thoughtful in their engagement with it, but it has vastly less engagement than my m/m fic, and that's painful. It gets literally 1/10 the attention my fics usually get.
16) What are your writing strengths?
Almost all of my writing is romance, but I tend to write concurrently about recovery and found family, and I think I'm very good at doing that in a way that connects with my audience. I once had someone ask if they could use my words in their wedding vows, and I've had people tell me they started doing things with their spouse that my characters do with their partners in order to express love. I think about that all the time. My Impact. It makes me feel like I have a real duty to my audience yknow?
17) What are your writing weaknesses?
This question is hard for me like I've been writing so long and so much that I'm literally always happy with my final draft! It's always exactly to my taste, yknow? I suppose I could say that my fics tend not to be terribly plotty but so WHAT? That's beside the fuckn point for me. Plot who? I don't know Her. Also honestly like. Stories feel more True to me when they aren't ruthlessly devoted to plot bc like life isn't like that yknow?
18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
If you're not fluent in that language, get a beta who is!!!!! That said, I have written scraps of very simple dialogue in French using mostly Google Translate (sometimes I check w Sally bc he speaks French but I am usually too impatient), and I am perfectly well aware that I take my life in my hands each time!!! Also don't do that bullshit thing where it's in italics? That shit is weird and exoticizing. Just write it in quotation marks like normal dialogue.
19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?
BBCS babey back in 2012. Ended a 5 year dry spell for me after I got my writing degree.
20) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?
Hmmmm I think it's probably gonna be the fic I'm working on now that I haven't posted yet, but I know it's called Names for a House, and here's a tiny bit of it
Thanks again Shreya for asking me to do this bc I really love talking about myself. I tag @the-moon-loves-the-sea, @clytemenestras, @tomiano, @gaykagome and @totallysilvergirl
No pressure <3
#sherlock stuff#ask games#apliddell#if y'all wanna send me asks about names for a house#or anything else i mentioned here#they would be welcome
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I know only a few of you are on IG so I wanted to give an update here on the past few days. I am doing this knowing the potential risk but I need to also record where I'm at right now in case anything weird happens.
My week has been like this so far.
Sunday: Family Member 1 misplaced their Xbox controller. They kept asking me if I knew where it was, each time growing more and more aggressive. I don't have an Xbox, I reminded them. I have my own controller for my PC. But they kept knocking loudly on my door. They followed me outside where I was vaping and tried to accuse me of I don't even know what. Pawning off their controller? FM1 said, "Is there something going on that you're not telling me? SOMEONE'S messing with me!"
Later that night they and their gf were making dinner. FM1 suddenly knocked harshly on my door and said aggressively, "WHAT DID YOU DO WITH THE OVEN MITTS" in an angry voice. I was already stressed from them harassing me earlier about the controller. I came out of my room, heart racing, and told them I had not used them that day. I helped find the mitts, which had fallen behind the trash can because the hanging hook had broken.
I went to bed on edge, feeling unsafe and targeted, wondering why my family member was suddenly acting so paranoid and accusing me of misplacing their things... Something they actually have done to me my whole life, denying it until the moment my item is found, when they suddenly remember they did move it there (or accidentally throw it out/destroy it).
The controller ended up being some random place in the living room.
Monday: I went to leave for my acupuncture appointment. My booster seat/pillow thing was missing from my car. Not in the trunk or anything. I cannot drive without it. I'm too short to see over the steering wheel. I called FM1 and they have no idea where it could be, despite the fact that they drive my car every day. FM1's gf helped find it, in the garage.
But I still had an epic fucking meltdown, sobbing the whole way to and from my appointment. I just cannot handle people moving my shit and disrupting my schedule like that. And it just hurt so much more knowing that FM1 was so awful to me the day before about their stuff being misplaced. I'm always having my personal belongings, my feelings, my personhood, disrespected. It hurts deeply.
When I got home I stressed to them that this is my car, and my accommodation should not ever be removed from it under any circumstances.
It was after this that I decided it was time to hold a family meeting. I called Family Member 2 and 3 over to the house. I read a long letter to them in which I told them about the talks I have had with my therapist, psychiatrist, and another psychologist. Even though I cannot be formally assessed and diagnosed at this time, I am being treated for autism.
I detailed to my family my entire life of trauma that is traced back directly to my autistic traits, and my needs not only not being met, but being outright denied. I was denied empathy most of my life for my sensory issues, my pain, everything. A big part of this is gaslighting. Even if it's unintentional or not malicious, gaslighting is incredibly traumatic.
Especially when it comes to my sensory issues. I have had even more problems with overstimulation the past year which means I can barely sleep, so my daily naps are even more important. I try to coordinate my naps when there is less activity in my house. But if I'm in a ton of pain and extra sensitive and ask for quiet, that's when I get in trouble and a fight happens. That's when FM1 tells me I "need to be realistic" and "can't expect the whole world to shut up for you"... when I'm literally saying "I have a migraine and need to rest, can you please not play loud music or slam cupboards in the kitchen for a few hours?"
I was emotionally neglected and abused by both parents. A lot of it is just the result of their own trauma that they have not dealt with... But I have also been physically threatened and assaulted by them at different times, though it only happened those specific times. (They won't ever admit to it though.)
The emotional and mental abuse still goes on in my home. I am not allowed to have emotions. I have been told "STOP. WHY ARE YOU CRYING. LIFE'S NOT FAIR. WHEN YOU GET OUT IN THE REAL WORLD YOU'LL HAVE SOMETHING TO CRY ABOUT" over and over--like... in response to me crying about my pet dying, or in response to me crying bc I'm in horrible pain from my chronic illnesses, or crying after my usual yearly ER visit.
I am also not allowed to have boundaries. I have tried to communicate with FM1 that these things hurt me deeply. And their response is basically, "YOU'RE SO UNGRATEFUL. I PUT A ROOF OVER YOUR HEAD!" and threats such as "BETWEEN TAKING CARE OF YOU AND GRANMDA, ONE OF THESE DAYS I'M GOING TO DRIVE OFF AND YOU'LL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN!" or "I'M THE ONE WHO SHOULD KILL MYSELF BECAUSE I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU"-- y'know, in response to having a disabled child. Ouch.
The message is clear: I am nothing but an inconvenience and a burden to my family. I still have nightmares about them abandoning me, or abusing me more. I think in their heads they think that they love me. But this isn't love.
If I try to talk to them about how dangerous it is for them to say things like that to me, they say "I never said/did that." Which brings us back to the gaslighting:
I said that every time they gaslight me and tell me that my emotions/thoughts/experiences aren't real, it triggers me so badly that I self-harm and become suicidal.
I was very clear with them: I said that I can no longer have that in my life because one day it will kill me. I don't wanna die that way. I want to live. I have very bad PTSD and it's something I have worked on for 8 years but it has been worse the past year with so many disruptions and FM1's worsening narcissistic traits.
I gave the choice to them. I said if they gaslighted me again that they were making the decision to not be in my life. Because this is about preserving my life. I'm trying not to die here. I'm literally trying to save my own life, even if that means not having a relationship with my family.
They accept that I am autistic... But they then took turns gaslighting me. When I pointed out, "that's gaslighting. that's exactly what I just said in my letter. What you're doing is gaslighting" they went even harder on it. They said my experience and my trauma is "not in line with reality". They also said I "need to be reasonable" with the boundary that I'm setting (meaning: they don't believe in boundaries at all).
They tried to guilt trip me with, "you can't cut someone out of your life because what if they DIE and then you FEEL GUILTY??" (I mean, what if I killed myself because you keep hurting me? Wouldn't you feel guilty about that?) They also guilt tripped me with "well we TRY to invite you to family stuff, and we try to include you, but you never want to go..." um... I guess they forgot I am chronically ill? Sorry if I don't have the energy or pain tolerance to drive an hour each way to a loud family party after I've worked all week?
I cried and cried, I said this is exactly what I told you that you do to me and how it endangers my life... and you're doing it... while telling me you don't do it to me...
They were all weird and told me "we love you and would do anything for you!" except... I guess, not gaslight me constantly? Idk.
I felt so trapped. I felt so hopeless. I was up all night crying.
I wondered, "Why is the idea of me having distance from them somehow worse than me being dead? Why would they prefer that I die rather than set a boundary that will save me?"
And then I remembered: I had set the terms. They broke them. You do this, you're out of my life, because me being alive is more important than us having a relationship which will eventually kill me.
I'm not trapped. It doesn't matter if they think they can prevent me from setting this boundary because they can't. I'm in charge of my boundary. So I blocked them on social media, as well as their phones. I have to unfortunately keep FM1 unblocked bc I live with them, they drive my car, and they look after my cats while I am at work.
If I didn't have so many great things happening behind the scenes, if I didn't have my cats, if I didn't have amazing friends and followers who are supportive and kind... I can definitely see that I would have ended my life that night in some alternate timeline. That is how much pain I was in from them doing that to me. Them literally trying to gaslight me into not setting a boundary.
I mean it would've been so ridiculous on their part, can you imagine?
Me: Hey family, when you gaslight me, it makes me suicidal. I don't want to die, so either you stop doing that, or we can't have a relationship.
Family: UHH NO *gaslights me anyway*
Me: ok *kills self*
Family: *surprised Pikachu face*
Like???? Would they really have been shocked because it seems like they should have known since I told them directly? And that just shows that they really don't take my pain seriously at all. They think I'm overly sensitive and that my trauma is not real. That would have been a painful wake up call for them.
I told my therapist all of this. And she agrees that this is good, this is going to not only ween them off of me but also allow me to focus on all the good stuff I have going on. I have to get moving. So much stuff has been lagging because I'm constantly recovering from them triggering me.
I'm going to focus, and heal, and gtfo of here. Thank you for your support and for never invalidating my pain.
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.....before I pass out for the night, I think I should probably post a life update here.
Basically this past week my home life has almost completely deteriorated. Mom found out monday evening that I was looking for apartments to try and get out of this abusive hellhole of a house and she reacted extremely badly. It was the first time she had ever yelled at me that loud, and was the first time we had a loud argument, and it was pretty much a screaming match from her yelling and me trying to say anything.
Since then she's grown increasingly cold and hostile to me all week. if I'm not at work or out researching apartment stuff with my girlfriend I try to stay in my room as much as possible in order to avoid her as she's been saying worse and worse things as the week went on. Dad on the other hand has gone from obnoxiously loud asshole to disturbingly quiet and soft spoken. It's honestly kinda terrifying.
Both of my younger sisters (17/19) are in full agreement with my mom that I shouldn't be trying to leave because I don't have any life experience and am a retarded autistic idiot without any common sense and won't make it out in the real world.
I spent friday night at my grandma's (as my girlfriend currently lives on her upstairs floor) , and mom was incredibly pissed off over it as I didn't ask for her explicit permission. I'm 22. I turn 23 this upcoming Sunday.
.... honestly I packed for that as soon as I got home from work and yeeted over there and passed out in a depression nap until the gf got back from her work.
Saturday night mom was drinking and she took my benny card so I wasn't able to order new glasses frames with it saying that if I want to be an adult then I have to pay for everything like an adult. She then also said/threatened that she was strongly wanting to take me off the medical insurance 3 years early. That's at least not her choice as it's through dad and his work. She also told me to go start getting boxes and start packing because she didn't want to see any of my messes or shit anymore.
......at this point I'm strongly considering packing my duffle bag with a shitton of clothes and yeeting over to grandma's to crash while the gf and I apartment hunt. (We technically have until August for that as grandma is moving and thus the gf has to be out before then). Grandma's perfectly fine with it but doesn't have much room for my stuff so I was able to get permission from my aunt today about storing my stuff in her basement during all this as mom is extremely fucking petty and I don't trust her not to break/sell/donate anything I leave behind.
.....due to all of this my anxiety symptoms have been flaring up really nasty all weekend and I'm constantly shaking no matter how much water I try to hydrate with. Depression is also hitting hard at the moment, I had to restrain the urges to completely break down crying or to hurl myself at the wall or through the windows out into traffic at work pretty much the whole length of my weekend shifts. ...I felt a bit better today but it's still something concerning. I have my meds followup tomorrow evening so I'll be able to talk to the doctor about those happenings as I'm not sure if that's just my conditions flaring up or if it was a med side effect or both.
.....in addition to this I still haven't heard back from the place I applied to for a full time position. Friday was stated to be the absolutely earliest I would hear back from them, and they're completely closed on weekends (plus mon was a holiday so also closed) so the next day I could hear back is Tuesday/Wednesday. I did spot them an email and phone message inquiring about the status of my application/process at least, to be safe. I really hope I get this position so I can quit this barely 10-hours a week 10 bucks an hour job for a full time 16 bucks an hour job that actually has insurance and thus another step towards stability in moving out of here.
.......I'm so tired.
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My Mitsuo brainrot is still raging so I am going to share Mitsuo headcanons absolutely nobody cares about or asked for because I want to HERE I go I don’t even know if some of these count as headcanons whatever I have a lot
- I think Mitsuo is probably autistic, has autism, is somewhere on the ASD spectrum, whatever you’d like to refer to it as. This might just be a projection, but I’m also kind of going off of stuff like how he speaks in the anime and game, how he rambles when he’s just sitting in the shopping district, how he acts overall (I’m kind of thinking of that one scene in the anime where he trips over a trash bag and gets REALLY angry about it in a matter of seconds, and like, kicks it and I THINK also shouts at it to take out his anger? But also other stuff too), little hints and small stuff like that. It’s also just a strong feeling I got off of him after I started getting invested into him, so I have no idea how to explain this away properly
- I think Mitsuo might also experience age regression. Age regression is not something I am extremely familiar with personally, but me and my gf have both discussed it before and we both headcanon him as experiencing age regression. Though, this could just be an overlap with the autism headcanon, as from what I know, age regression lasts for only a certain time frame, and Mitsuo seems like the kind of person who’s ALWAYS in a more childish, more immature mindset for his age, which might/would be caused by his autism
- The age regression hc kind of leads into this hc. So Mitsuo’s like STARVING for attention of any kind, right? He literally kills someone just for the attention of the general public, even if they’ll all look at him with disgust, because hey, at least he’s finally being seen. So this leads me to believe that at home, and in his childhood, his parents have been VERY neglectful. When he was a younger child the most they’d do to interact with him was feed him and maybe buy him some stuff to keep him distracted, and then by the time he started to learn how to properly feed for and care for himself (which he will still rarely do in the first place), they practically stopped interacting with him entirely. Thus leading him to spend all of his time cooped up in his room playing video games, and leading to his extreme need for attention. Also his lack of leadership from his parents could point towards his immaturity, if it weren’t already caused by his autism
- And now about that “rarely taking care of himself” bit. Mitsuo PROBABLY knows how to make basic foods for himself, nothing special but it’s not like he’s making it all in the microwave, but he either gets too hyperfocused on something (a game) to remember to feed himself, or he straight up neglects himself. He’s hungry, but he doesn’t want to see his parents or leave his room, so he just doesn’t eat. And that’s basically all a buildup to the hc of him being SUPER skinny
- And since he never leaves his room, he’s also very pale
- I also sort of headcanon that his parents might be abusive in SOME way. They rarely give him attention, but when they do, it’s almost always something negative. Nagging him about how all he does is play games in his room, when he was younger they shout at him about how he’s annoying them, stuff like that probably. But to him, in his later years, he just sees it as finally being given attention. Probably has something to do with driving him to kill Morooka for attention in the end rather than doing something noRMAL
- On Mitsuo’s wiki, they comment on how his eyes are entirely black, and say it’s similar to a real life condition called Aniridia, in which a person’s eye is missing its iris, giving them the appearance of having black eyes. So I saw that and I was like wow that’s an interesting similarity, what if Mitsuo DOES have Aniridia? So there you go
- Compared to how many fair faced characters there are in P4, I feel Mitsuo would have acne or acne scars. That’s it. I just think he’d have acne. yeaj
- But I also get the feeling that he’d have Dermatillomania. Or, at least, he would not be able to stop picking at his acne when it arrives. Dermatillomania looks like it can get pretty extreme, and I don’t know if Mitsuo would pick at his skin to such an extreme degree - unless he were doing it with the sole purpose to harm himself, rather than doing it out of compulsiveness or habit or as a form of stress relief
I swear I had more headcanons than this but yeah there. If anything I said about autism or age regression or even dermatillomania seemed like, incorrect, or offensive or rude, please tell me so I can fix it or change it. Hope this was like, interesting to read or something I dunnoNFNGJHF
#literally SO funny how i am literally autistic (fun fact) but i am worried about messing up on the autism headcanon#idk im so bad at recognizing my own symptoms or recognizing other symptoms#so as i was writing i was like ‘wait but what if thats not a symptom or it doesnt make sense or ur coming across as SHIT whats the word#insensitive by assuming/thinking its a symptom’ yknow#i should be fine probably? just a dumb problem of mine i thought i’d share#also um. side headcanons that are more mitsuo/narukami centric#mitsuos pretty small compared to narukami. and hes also skinny enough that narukami can completely#wrap his hand his fingers around his wrist its small in his hand#mitsuo has really loud screamy angry outbursts often but narukami can ALWAYS calm him down from them and help him#narukami gives mitsuo the loving attention he has been NEEDING for so many years and makes him feel seen#yknow how his shadow says ‘i am nothing’? basically when he’s with narukami he DOESNT feel like nothing#when mitsuos around narukami he can just… let go#let himself relax and feel vulnerable and indulge even more into that age regressed mindset#almost like hes reliving the years he lost to abuse and neglect#narukamis always ready and willing to take care of him when he gets like that and ksbdjchsudhjddhjddjdjdjjxj yeah#seriously just… love the idea of mitsuo getting all soft and vulnerable with narukami#and narukami being all gentle and caring yknow#self indulgence ahheh :’)#persona 4#headcanon#mitsuo kubo#pff shit this’ll probably appear in narukamis tag now#WHATever i am not rewriting those tags ITS TOO LATE NOW I CANT GO BACK
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We Are Who We Are Ep. 3 liveblog
Chips ahoy has shellfish?
These two are adorable, also he didn't answer what book he read?
If the actress playing Caitlin really did cut her hair omg.
This music selection again is amazing.
I mean he isn't wrong they should have cleaned up their mess, young teens not thinking about that though lol. All that mess is gonna attract is bugs.
I love that they just get to be kids sometimes and have fun, also love how he's like stop staring at my moms they aren't zoo animals lmao.
Yea that breakup was coming lol, also what kind of friend is this girl also he really jumped right onto their bestfriend ewwww.
14 year old boys thats where all that nonsense behavior starts
Ohhh Ocean Vuong that's the book/author. Night sky with exit wounds.
LMFAO FRASER REALLY SAID:
No bih they haven't cause y'all are 14 years old.
The crop top that hides the growing yiddies and ball shorts.
Oop Fraser said boo im bouta educate you on the queer community and transgender people because I think you might be a lil non cis and non het.
But, can fraser please elevate this child's wardrobe a little bit more because
Here Fraser goes snapping. WAIT he also likes to cook wow. I hope my child is like him but with manners, because that cussing at me in my home I'd be putting the designer in my closet with restrictions.
Oh fuck, you can hear Fraser and his moms fighting....shittt. and Cait is about to scrub that damn boat in the middle of the night cause their daddy is PISSED.
Which I mean they both deserve the punishment.
Oh we doubling back to their house to see what happenerd. Fraser autistic or not would have gotten hurt pulling someone else's hair like that.
Thank goodness Maggie was there as a buffer.
Wow Sarah that is fucked, oh she meant it like you're his mom too but at least he doesn't hate us.
Complicated ass relationships.
Oop they got themselves a lil Italian gf. Damn puberty is hitting.
He's a homophobe too. Oh Cait I feel so bad for you.
Oh shit he's having a real bad panic attack. See at least my future partner, hopefully, would lean into me and our child as I help them cope, like damn.
Ooo she got the Oakley visors lmao
Wowwww she is the only woman to have been in command.
Oh she's Bi....oop.
Her brother jealous as fuck, fuck him. Like all serious he is a piece of shit stain.
Wowwwwwww.
When you don't wanna fit the stereotypes cause your parents are gay lol
Cait said.....if u say so.
They both finna cheat I'm guessing with this set up.
Cudi's legs are so small lmao lil cute chicken legs 😊
So im supposed to feel bad for him cause he is suicidal...anyways his friend is a good person.
Here Fraser goes being a jealous hoe, your mom doesn't even know you like this grown ass man. Which pump your breaks kiddo you don't have ownership over your friends or lovers or interests, which at that age it can feel like you do.
Cait/Harper's dad really really prides himself on order, protocol, and rules smfh. Cait/Harper is fucked in earning their dads love i think once they come out.
Yaknow what let her get a lil entanglement.
Preview: Oooo a wedding episode/party. They aren't dating ughh they are the homo bestfriends gosh. Sarah is gonna be a better parent to Cait/Harper than she is to Fraser. Fraser who she coddles and loves but they completely butt heads because they are so similar as people.
I am sticking this show out for the eventual drama but Fraser from the aftershow isn't autistic but he is neurodivergent and a little shit to his moms cause he knows he can get away with it. Sigh word of advice, if you're parents are good parents try to be less of a dick because you cannot get the time back.
#we are who we are spoilers#we are who we are#we are who we are hbo#wawwa liveblog#wawwa#wawwa hbo#ocean vuong
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all the gay questions
Thanks friend, here we go.
1. Name one way you break the wlw stereotype. (Fat, trans, poc, autistic, etc)
I don’t know if it’s really breaking a stereotype but I consider myself spiritual. I pray and I feel like when I bring that up to someone that they’re unfortunately “surprised”.
2. Who was the first girl you remember having feelings for?
She was in my fifth grade class and she had heelys. We were really good friends and I thought she was the coolest. (We both grew up and later came out as gay and she’s super happy and I’m super happy for her.)
3. What’s your opinion on the butch/femme labels? Do you think they’re harmful?
I think that labels can be harmful for some people and extremely helpful for others. I’m one of the people that feel helped by labels. Sometimes those particular labels can be annoying, but if they work for you then that’s great.
4. Do you have a girlfriend?
Yes. I have a loving fiancée that I’ve been with for a while now. She is the peanut butter to to my jelly, the sun poking through the clouds on a rainy day, the moon, the stars - all of it. Hi @remuspolaris <3
5. Define love in 5 words or less
Understanding, teamwork, friendship, illuminating, patience
6. What characteristics do you look for in a girl?
I’d always (back when I did look) wanted someone who has a really good sense of humor, understanding, similar interests and most importantly, someone I could have a friendship with. I feel strongly that your partner shouldn’t just be your boyfriend/girlfriend/partner, but your best friend, too.
7. Do you participate in LGBTQ clubs and events?
I used to participate pride. I went to pride three years in a row in my hometown and would go again once it’s safe.
8. Are you out to anyone outside of tumblr?
Pretty much everyone. A few of the co-workers I talked to at my last job didn’t outright know because I worked in a highly conservative environment.
9. Say some things you love about your crush/girlfriend?
I love her extra snuggles in the morning, I love how warm she is, I love that even when I’m feeling crazy or anxious or whatever it is that she still loves me and cares about me. I love that she cares about me as much as I care about her. I love that she doesn’t make me feel so alone in life. I love doing things with her.
10. Do you want to get married?
Yes, it’s on the gay agenda. I don’t know when it’s happening just yet, but I have an engagement ring on my finger.
11. Do you want to have kids?
Yes. I’m not ready for them yet, emotionally or financially but it’s been a dream of mine for a long time to have children. Being with someone that is good with kids/babies and wants them too makes all of that a lot more appealing.
12. How would you describe the difference between sun lesbians and moon lesbians?
Like @welshdragonrawr said, sun lesbians feel like ABBA and moon lesbians are Fleetwood Mac/Stevie.
13. What’s your favorite song about lesbians?
“She Keeps Me Warm” by Mary Lambert. The first wlw song I ever heard.
14. What’s your favorite book about lesbians?
My favorite fictional one is probably “Annie on My Mind” by Nancy Garden. It didn’t have a bad ending and at the time I read it it mirrored the kind of relationship I wanted someday.
15. Who’s your favorite lesbian character?
Since she isn’t canonically wlw or lesbian I can’t say Cordelia Goode and that hurts me, so I’m going to have to go with Alex Vause from Orange Is the New Black.
16. If you live in a country where gay marriage is legal, where were you when it was legalized? Did you do anything to celebrate?!
I was in my living room and I woke up to @mightthxnktwice happily yelling to me about it.
17. If you could meet one famous wlw (dead or alive) who would you pick?
Sarah Paulson, Sarah Paulson, Sarah Paulson.
18. Have you ever kissed a girl?
Yes.
19. Do you have any favorite wlw positivity blogs?
@wholesome-gf-memes-uwu
20. Who was your first real life crush? (as in not Dana Scully or Jessica Rabbit)
See the above answer about first crush.
21. What is one thing you think your school/ place of work could do to create a safe environment for LGBTQ people
I don’t really think they could do anything. My previous job could’ve made sure that others didn’t spread homophobic comments with others.
22. Have you ever been to a gay bar?
Yes.
23. Do you know a lot of LGBTQ people outside of the Internet
I know some, I wouldn’t say a ton - and the ones I do know I met through the internet.
24. Describe your ideal gaycation (a vacation that you, a gay, go on)
Disneyland. Just a long expected stay at Disneyland, maybe during Gay Days.
25. Not a question, I just want you to know that you’re amazing and beautiful and I love you. Keep up the good work.
Thanks friend.
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OFFAL HUNT REMASTERED LIVEBLOG // CHAPTER 18
IN THIS EPISODE OF ROBLOX OOF NOISE:
“Yes.” Glynda couldn’t hang up, not without: “I’m—I’m sorry. About what I—”
“It’s alright. I’ll talk to you soon.”
“Okay—” The feed cut. Softly, Glynda said again, “Okay.”
GLYNDA DISCOVERS WHY BEING CINDER FALL SUCKS
do u know how hard it is to wake up and play animal crossing whilst knowing this chapter looms over yr shoulder,
OKAY HERE WE GO
She was fidgety; even Cinder mentioned her pacing, shooting a critical eye her way. Glynda sat, intent on stillness; moments later, Cinder mentioned her bouncing leg.
i LOVE it when a chapter calls me out just right out of the gate hahaha who gave u the right
"Really?" How long had they been doing that? How long ago had Cinder noticed? "Should I stay?"
cinder: maybe i should tell glynda abt that
/see glynda pacing a dent into the floor
cinder: ooooooor i could. NOT give her an excuse to bully them for something to do,
On her way down the street, Glynda couldn't help but stare at the car, its tinted windows revealing nothing within. As she passed it, she kept glancing over her shoulder, expecting an attack or something. But nothing came of it.
HJGDFSGSDFHKGHJDF GLYNDA,,,,,,,,,,, can u imagine being in the white fang, and sittin in yr fuckin. TINTED WINDOWED like BULLETPROOF CAR and yr sat on yr ass watching out for cinder “dumbass” fall and suddenly glynda goodwitch, The Top Bitch, comes out and starts GLARING YR CAR DOWN,,, like ah. i think she knows we’re here. hrm. hm.
i would just like. drive to mcdonalds and get some nuggies at that point.
She had a clutch of flash-images and a wash of emotions and impressions, the raw materials of memory, stored as-is without refining. She was quite used to that—most of her missions were hazy and rough in her memory, mere sketches of events.
i cant wait for glynda to become a vlogger if only so she can actually have physical proof of whatever the fuck happens whenever she goes out and about. get her a go-pro.
It told her: despite her restlessness, despite the arduous journey here, and despite the way Vale seemed to call for her from somewhere beyond the horizon, she felt quite content to be where she was.
the difference having a gf has huh,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, u got a whole ass home (being cased by the fang) a real nice city to live in (its floating and atlas wants yr number) a bunch of unread msgs (from a [redacted] who [redacted]) and its a nice day!!! its all coming together. but probably not for very long,
(i got very distracted at this point making a line graph for the animal crossing stalk market so here we go, x2 edition,)
That meant the nightlife would soon begin. She had never liked crowds; too many people, too much input at once. It was hard to focus, to be comfortable.
/chefs kiss
autistic glynda did u kno: id die for u,
Since she’d blocked Ozpin’s number, there was no chance of receiving anything directly from him—but there was still a moment of pause each time she checked her Scroll, as if expecting his smiling face to appear somehow.
OH YEAH LMAO SHE DID THAT SHIT HUH,,,,,,,,,, i still cannot BELIEVE that happened. GOD. cant wait for this to bite her entire ass right off her body,
By the time she reached the top landing, Winter had replied: “I wasn’t aware that you had additional support on this mission, Professor. I will need their full name and Hunter’s license number.”
To answer Cinder Fall and she doesn’t have a license, but she does have several warrants for her arrest felt like inviting Winter to question not only her integrity, but her sanity as well.
SDHGJFKSKGHDJFGJHDKF i cant say what makes this funnier because 👈😎👈 but HOHOHOHOOOOO could u imagine the fallout if she did just, say that shit. if we just went and fuckin said it like it was no biggie--
Finally, Glynda let her shoulders relax, exhaling deeply, like she would before rushing a Grimm. She wrote it plainly: “The clearance is for Cinder Fall.”
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
MA’AM WHAT THE F U C K
winter rn:
She’d just have to wriggle her way out of having to talk face-to-face, then return the game to a field she felt slightly more comfortable with: text.
okay this is so funny to me cause i just keep thinking of her sending ‘no reason’ to oz. a MASTER of textual conversion. un fucking PARALLELED in this field, UNRIVALLED,
Glynda tossed a look at the door as well, her mouth pulling into a line; what if Cinder came outside? What if—
Could Winter track her exact position using her Scroll signal? She minimized the projection of Winter’s face and hurried off in a random direction the instant she hit the bottom of the stairs.
i LOVE these two because this is the first time we’ve rly seen glynda like. Actively do smthng to defend cinder in this sort of way? she’s been pretty passivve abt letting cinder take the lead when theyre together but on her own shes thinking of all the contingencies to make sure winter cant find cinder and u know what. thats gay. what will u do for yr not-gf when yr talking to someone who would kick her ass in a hot second,
also im TAKING to grab choice lines here to comment upon but honestly this next section is SO GOOD that im rly struggling to find a line to encapsulate how much i am LOVING this convo. i cant say exactly WHY im loving it because again thats 👈😎👈 BUT KNOW THAT THIS IS VERY GOOD FOOD AND I AM ENJOYING IT. and im also enjoying this line a lot
Winter’s voice was decisive: “Professor, if you hang up on me, I am flying to your location—tonight.”
winter: if y’all dont shut the fuck up back there i am turning this car, city, and continent AROUND,
It was the same thing, over and over: people didn’t understand her and she didn’t understand them. It was an exercise in futility that only gave her grief. In the end, she gave up on trying to explain herself. She resigned to being wrong, to always being wrong, even when she knew she wasn’t.
OOF OKAY WHAT THE HELL IS UP W/ THIS FIC AND CALLOUTS. HUH??? ME BITCH!!! I FEEL THAT!! AND IT SUCKS,
/reads the next bit
oh are we donning our tinfoil hats? we’re donning our tinfoil hats.
It was so easy. Glynda didn’t stumble over her words even once; didn’t waver. She was built for doing harm. Her anger burned hot and clean; it excised all the hurt like a malignant tumor.
Maybe she really had learned something from Cinder—channeling her frustration, her guilt, her pain, all of it into anger like this was something Glynda was new to. But it felt good. She leaned into it, letting it take the reins; the distressing memories vanished like wisps of smoke, vaporized by the heat of her wrath.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS god this is. SO EXCITING. i also love it when ppl rub off one one another its my FAV thing in the WORLD and this anger is. WOO. this anger is. DANDY. its also a very short-term burst of pleasure glynda so enjoy that hollowed-out whoopsie feeling that i sure get when i Blow Up,
“She butchered my friend!” Winter snarled, the camera shaking as she slapped the desk. “She butchered my friend in the streets like he was cattle! And I have done everything in my power to help you! Everything! To keep her from doing the same to you, and you’ve blown me off or lied or—” Winter’s voice snagged. “And now you tell me—you accuse me—”
It was early evening in Umbraroot, but it must already be night in Atlas. The shadows revealed the unclean angles of Winter’s face: the bruises of exhaustion under her eyes, the lines of stress at the corners of her mouth.
im sorry im just copy-pasting wholesale at this point but OH this is GOOD. i cant rly explain. like. the difference-- because you’d think from the og version this is just a bit more flavouring right? its like getting a bit of hot sauce on yr chicken wings and yr like ‘okay it adds smthng but its not like a side meal’ BUT IT IS A SIDE MEAL this is like a whole basket of fuckin. cheese-baked fries. winter DESERVES this screentime she DESERVES to have presence in this fic and OH does she USE IT im LIVINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Glynda wanted anger. She wanted fire and brimstone. She wanted a fight.
What she got was the glisten of tears on pale lashes. A hand covering Winter’s trembling mouth.
The ashy taste of remorse in her throat.
THERES THAT HOLLOWED-OUT WHOOPSIE FEELING!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE IT IS RIGHT ON TIME. its like CLOCKWORK,
She didn’t have anything. Nothing against that. The possibility that Winter might truly care what happened to her had been so insignificantly small and easy to trample. She had forgotten about the losses Winter shouldered the moment Cinder had whispered inheritance.
it’s just like clockwork,
also this chapter feels lengthy but maybe its just cause i got distracted with animal crossing so ill have to do a wordcount check at the end
/checks
no its lengthy this is a thicc one,
“I know,” Glynda said. “I know. I know how this sounds. But she’s the only person who makes me feel like—like I make sense.” In her mind, Glynda lay in the darkness of Cinder’s bedroom, watching the glaze of streetlights along her lips as she said you.
you,,,,,,,,, we,,,,,,,,,,,, our,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, its all that gay shit,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
“If I’ve learned anything, it’s that Cinder Fall is a tremendous liar. She could convince you it is raining in Vacuo, given enough time. Two years ago, I was working on the Argus base, where I met her as a client; she told me she was a merchant seeking entrance into Atlas—she had all her documents in order, her entire persona set up, and she sold it perfectly. She was flawless—and all of it was fake. She gave me no reason to doubt her. She was—”
Winter cut herself off, abruptly. Then: “Once I was comfortable and safe, she burned down my office and murdered my friend.”
YES,,, SLOWLY THE LORE PIECES TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! winter is once bitten twice shy, but mayhaps we mean,,, once burnt,,,, twice shy,,,,,,,,,, hrmmmm,
Glynda told Winter everything.
OH MAN,,,, we’re really getting this messy fucking trio up in this bitch i am SO excited. i am THRILLED. here! we! go!!!!!!!!!! also i said it before but again im so glad winter gets to Be Here for this. sure this has nothing to do w/ her destiny or w/e but shes here now. shes in the uber. she waiting outside.
The dying potted plant Glynda had spotted last time on the back wall’s shelf had been replaced with a new one; this one’s leaves were beginning to shrivel at the ends.
dsfjhhkljsdf side note: is this like that scene in finding nemo where all the new fish see the niece and go ‘oh no we’re gonna die’ but instead its plants getting taken into winters office? they go ‘im sorry, mate, but once you go into her office, you come out TOTALLY dead,’
okay so this whole convo happened and if i try to pick one section ill end up picking it all AAAAAAAAAAAAAA im dying out here. WINTER BLEASE,,, BELIEVE THAT SOMETIMES CINDER CAN TELL A HALF-LIE. A SORTA-TRUTH. A SEMI-HEMI-DEMI HONESTY,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
How different would that mission have gone? How different would her life have been?
She found herself saying, “He had so many chances to tell me. Instead, he let me think I was reckless. That I was a danger to other people. I stopped working in teams. I didn’t have many people in my life to begin with, but afterwards was worse. He saw to it that he was all I had, and he let me think it was my fault.”
ROBLOXOOFNOISEDISTORTEDWITHDELAY.MP4
OOF!!!!!!! O O F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! honestly OOF that shit HURTS BITCH!!!!!!! thats BANANAS. WILD. im also loving (hating???) the increase of painful glynda lore and honestly everyone feels like they have So Much More that builds them up and im THRIVING off it. im also suffering for it.
With the video feed closed, Glynda could see she had new notifications. Missed calls. From Cinder.
Glynda’s stomach lurched. She stowed her Scroll before she could think about them.
At the mouth of the alley, she could see the shape of Cinder’s apartment in the distance. She stood there for a long time, staring, uncertain what to do with her hands, unsure what to do with her heart. Her jaw flexed. She remembered the tears on Winter’s lashes. The friend she’d lost.
Glynda took her first step toward the apartment.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA and so the soft domestic shit ends. but nowhere near as explosively as id thought???????? HUH. H U H. must b because we’re gearing up for smthng honk honk honk
ANYWAY!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. this chap was SO good its astonishing (despite the [several] times i got distracted by animal crossing rip me). WINTER!!!!!!!! BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant believe this disaster trio is coming together. also cant wait for glynda to tell cinder the shit she just pulled. oh no,
(also the wordcount was 5,931. just in case u were curious)
#liveblog#rwby#offal hunt#HERE IT IS#so much went unsaid because the convos were SO juicy so PLEASE read it#dfsghsdfjgh
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there’s something that really bothers me..
I am vastly disturbed by this new wave of goth. & there’s a lot of reasons why. I don’t understand where these people came up with their ideation of what goth is. I have seen a lot of posts of people saying fuck elitist goths, but i’m saying, if they are true goth & trying to explain to you what real goth is then like, no?
So many people think goth is just wearing black or leather & vinyl. That goth is just black hair or nightcore. & so much worse than that.
I grew up with an elitist goth who was like a sibling to me, & they explained to me what is real goth & what is poseur goth. However, myself & a different relative agree that some of their ideas weren’t necessarily right. Like, they had said you couldn’t have blond hair & be goth & I’m saying nah, you can have blond or brown hair & be goth. You can be goth without theatrical make up, hair or ensembles.
Even though I avidly hate the show South Park, a person once had me watch the episode where they explain the difference of goth v emo being goth are upset with the world & emo are upset with themself & I’m saying yeah. If you are emo, you are not goth. Emo is more small minded & borderline personality disorder. Goth is introspective, aware of the horrors of the world, brooding, & macabre. Perhaps a fascination with death or “dark” things that may upset other people who are more normal, or things normal type personality people might not understand. So goth is very artistic. Goth is not a synonym for witch or satanist. I’m sure a christian goth can exist. & you can practice wicca or satanism without being goth.
Liking bats does not make you goth. Loving Halloween does not make you goth. Watching horror movies does not make you goth. Goth is something you are on the inside, because a teenage girl wearing all pink could be more goth than the icon of the big tidded goth meme. Goth is a way of thinking, a way of personality.
Goth as a subculture of fashion tends to be accepted as a collective by most to be dressing in black, sure. However, only a very minuscule fragment of goth is incorporating vinyl or leather. That is more along the territory of being vamp or just flat out some kind of bdsm. Goth is not bdsm & it never was. Yet somewhere along the lines, small minded individuals who are not only men, but women as well, have perpetuated the idea of goth being a sexual thing & that’s highly disturbing to me. This undying want, slowly consuming the internet, the search for big tidded goth gf.. Because a lot of men, & some women, think this idea of goth is interchangeable with bdsm, & that it means a woman who wears black must be a dominatrix or like being beaten. & that’s very frightening & disturbing to me. To think any lady any day may be wearing black or have dark interests, meeting someone & thinking they would have a normal affair only to end up getting beaten or berated due to this ugly & demeaning misconception about what goth is or what dressing in dark colors means. & those weirdo fake goths clad head to toe in vinyl/ leather aren’t really helping.
& in school there was a girl who told me she was goth, but her ideation was borderline personality, emo. Woe was her, because her life was so hard, everyone was against her, but blood on the dance floor saved her life! This same girl who wore victorian dresses to school. Now, my elitist relative explained to me at a young age, goth is not gothic, they are not the same thing. To be goth has never once meant dressing in gothic era attire. “Gothic,” was a time period in the middle ages, “goth” is a fashion subculture or a way of being personally.
In my real life I know someone who would be the poster child for goth fashion, with their multi buckled, heavily riveted ensembles. Sure. Physically, this person is goth, but their personality was that of an autistic teddy bear. Their goth exterior was only a facade for clout. That person was not a true goth. Goths are pretentious & thoughtful, knowledgeable, & they think for themselves before conforming to what the media says they should. That person was also a gatekeeper deciding which vamp decorated women were & were not goth, even though as I stated above, goth & vamp are two different fashion subcultures. I suppose you can have goth ideals & still be soft, but you can wear rivets & black & be punk..? & punks in fashion & spirit have always been soft in their hearts. But what ever happened to just being alternative? Alternative is a lot broader of a term than specifically goth. Alternative can be used as a blanket term for egirl, emo, scene, punk, steampunk, cybergoth, grunge, skater, goth, vamp, & whatever other subcultures I’m unaware of that are similar
Even now I know a girl who says she is so goth, but meshes this pseudo goth vamp totality with egirl laces & mesh body suits (all of which i still feel are more wholly vamp than goth). Posts about being the dominatrix goth that she is.. Yet, goth is not a form of sex. Goth should not be fetishized, & doing so is dangerous for all those knowingly & unknowingly involved.
I guess at the end of the day, if you are goth in spirit & on your inside, I think you are goth no matter what. But if you are saying you’re goth just because you’re wearing black or vinyl, chances are you’re something else entirely & you’re just making a fool out of yourself by making posts online about how #goth you are. & sometimes, there are people who are goth inside & in their spirits & they wear black & that’s it for them, the goth has taken over.
Now I’m not someone who shouts to the world how goth I am, but I really do be out here seeing idiotic whitebread milquetoast individuals saying they’re so goth because blank. I’m saying I grew up in a family of goths who were relevant in the 90s. I think that even though I wear color pops & bright colors frequently, I’m more goth inside than any of these poseur dipshits with dolls kill money.
& because I grew up surrounded by goth, I feel like you cannot be goth if you don’t listen to Sisters Of Mercy, Joy Division & the Cure. Because that’s how it always was. & I know a lot of people might say what about Marilyn Manson or nightcore? Marilyn Manson only counts if you’re talking about Antichrist Superstar, because the rest of his music is for broke down emo kids. & isn’t nightcore too happy to be brooding to? & I know some people need to be told, & it’s ridiculous that someone could even think otherwise, but Rob Zombie is not goth & he never was.
I think what’s important to remember is your own individualism, & what you like & how you want to dress should come first for you rather than following fads. If you like to dress goth, then do it. But if you’re more vamp in your stupid bdsm vinyl, maybe you shouldn’t tag yourself as goth. I think rather than shitting on the elitists, maybe it’s better to hear them out since it seems like thousands of people be out here on the internet having no fucking clue what goth is & honestly I think traditional goth should take back the title rather than having a bunch of stupid borderline weak brains parading around in bdsm wear trying to market it to the world as goth when any real goth is just disgusted by how much of an ignorant joke you are.
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Hi, autist virgin from yesterday. Thank you so much for kindness and advice, I didn't even expect so God bless you. I think I messaged partially because I saw you got a gf here. As I said I've been here super long and I think it warped my perceptions of women. I have bonded with very "Tumblry" type girls before a lot online but it always felt insincere. I'm so sick of seeing politics. I can't deal with a normie but neither... You know the stereotypes I'm sure. How did you find someone like her?
Well, you do know that there is something wrong with your perception of things. Now, don't generalize too much; everyone is different, and including people in some categories may disservice you. You can definitely deal with a normie woman with whom you can get along. Many other people are sick of politics everywhere, so as long as you don't talk about them and don't try to get with someone who's heavily political it should be fine.
You can try talking to people online, but remember that they still do have their boundaries and that it is, for all intents and purposes, just like a real life conversation, in which people need to be comfortable with you before you can be too close together. And sometimes, it just won't work, so don't force things. If conversation is difficult to have, consider letting the other speak. Remember to ask questions about their experience or point of view about things, as it will make a conversation easier.
As for my sweet girlfriend @yuliamarks ... Well, it's more like she did find me, rather than the opposite. I was simply being myself and she got interested in me throughout my interactions with others here. Literally, you just need to be yourself and things will happen on their own. (Also, I'm no Chad or social God or whatever, she's literally my first girlfriend lmao, so it's not like it's something that happens to me a lot ^^) Hence the importance of trying to be a positive, uplifting, good person, and to do things for yourself and the sake of feeling like a good person, than to do it for girls or attention.
Basically, try to look at things in a positive way, and avoid putting yourself down, as it's very unproductive (and unnattractive). It's important that you try to build up confidence (or fake it, people won't know the difference so long as you're good, and that fake confidence will eventually turn into real one)
I hope that answered your ask as you hoped it would, anon! ^^
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