[cries in introvert]

hihihihi i have a lot of thoughts of dad bod bc he is my wife and i love thinking about him so sorry for the spam but u asked for it girl

this one is just a general one lol BUT while i do see him drinking sum corona or modelo i definitely know that man is a big wine mom, expensive wine stored where gabi can’t reach (saying this bc i accidentally smashed an expensive wine bottle when i was little and it’s now miguel’s deepest fear). so expect wine nights with miguel, his robe untied with your head on his chest, his feet on the coffee table and cuddled up while you guys talk about whatever — he gets very talkative when wine drunk and will shit talk all the people in your life because i said so

another thought is after reassuring miguel that his body is still sexy in your eyes meow he starts to take advantage of that. normally he’d look like the guy who doesn’t care how people perceive him, positive or not, but knowing how much you love his new body he’d constantly wanted to be reminded of it. so any shirt he’d wear to cover his stomach and arms were now non existent at home just so he can hear a whistle from behind and smaller arms wrapping around him to hold onto his stomach, feeling up his body as you shamelessly mumble suggestive praises while leaning your body into his back .. he likes the validation and attention ok?!?!?! he is me i am him?!?!?!?!

he also likes getting woken up by you sitting on his face or sucking him awf i mean ok byeee !! 🙋🏽‍♀️🙋🏽‍♀️🙋🏽‍♀️🙋🏽‍♀️🙋🏽‍♀️

GIVE HIM TO MEEEEE this is all so gud bae omg

First off, the wine ?? (Also, I feel like Gabi would have her own stash of “wine” but rlly it’s just sparkling grape juice Miguel gave her so she can feel included n not tempted to snoop around the real stuff lmao) Yea, he likes em dry, will only drink ‘em if they’re the finest n oldest bc my man is boujee like that. n the untied robe?? Chest hair n stomach out??? Fresh out the shower n smellin like teakwood n sex??? Yeaaaaa ima need a min………

Secondly, I’ve made self conscious dad bod… but cocky dad bod Miguel ??

SOMEBODY HELPPPPP MY PUSSYS GONE CRAZYYYY

Alicia!!!! Girl!!! The ideas r ideaing rnnnn. That’s it, next Drabble is cocky dad bob Miguel. Yea ima make him an attention whore bc EYE said so.

Girl duh, thicc man likes to eat, ofc he a munch n I would gladly wake him up both of those ways every single day uGH GOD, THIS IS ALL I WANT, PLS IM NOT ASKING FOR A LOT.

Bro I'm stupid and I press send without fucking finish the sentence

ANYHOW, YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT HAVE YOU DONE BY TELLING MR YOU WRITE FOR KÖNIG

I look at your pinned post and you said you write angst

CAN I GET A ONE SHOT, HC OR WHATEVER YOU WANT REALLY WITH LIKE KÖNIG ARGUING WITH HIS S/O? BUT LIKE they're arguing and he ends up saying something really mean. Good old hurt/comfort or hurt/no comfort, do what you deem fit 👀

CAUSE IM TIRED OF SEEING SHY UWU BOI KÖNIG AROUND, I WANT THIS MAN TO DESTROY MY FEELINGS

This one was kinda self indulgent because I’d do the same thing König would do to really close friends and people I knew. 😕 This one is a sadder on so be aware.

Reader is Non-Binary!!!

Cw! Angst with no comfort, Arguing, abuse mentions

You and König had a great relationship, very open and loving. You guys always respected each other no matter what. But König had outbursts due to his anxiety. He constantly would belittle himself and look for comfort from you and usually you had no issue helping him out but It got tiring. He just got more and insecure about your relationship and himself that you just started to leave him to his feelings. 

He’d get anxious, yell at you, start crying in your arms and say it’s all his fault. And it was this almost every single day. You tired to reassure him but it was like he was just using you for comfort not even like a real relationship anymore. You believed that he thought you were just his therapist. He’d barely ever kiss you hug you it just turned into yelling and sobbing and you turning into the ‘asshole’. 

You were so fucking tired of it. And what do you know it happened again like usual. König was beating himself up about stuff yelling at you about it while you just sat there with a blank expression. When he finally calmed down he spoke shakily. “C-can I have a hug?” He asked sadly and you continued to give him that exhausted expression. 

He was confused beyond belief, why weren’t you rushing to comfort him? 

“No.” You stated turning the TV off. “W-wha- why?” You stood up. “Because I’m sick and tired of you just using me, we used to have such a great loving relationship now all you ever do is take your emotions out on me and expect me to comfort you!” 

You rubbed your temples and you could tell he started to get mad. “I’m not u-using you! I didn’t say you couldn’t talk to me about  anything-“ you cut him off “every-time I’d ever try to talk about  anything you were always busy and didn’t have enough time for me. But when I’m doing something you can say whatever you want, I’m so done with it!” You shout angrily.

“B-but you can’t just-“ you cut him off again “No just shut the fuck up for five seconds! I understand you have problems and struggles and I have no issue with helping you but it’s become to the point where all you ever do is yell at me to make yourself feel better than leave me with a headache and heartache.”

He begins to cry while you can do nothing but glare at him. “We need to take a break, if you can’t see what you’re doing is wrong than the last thing I need is to be in a relationship with you.” You grab your phone. “Get your shit and get out, I’ll call you a taxi. When you’ve finally decided to not be an asshole you can talk to me, now go!” He drops to the ground sobbing uncontrollably on the ground holding onto your leg as he begs for forgiveness. 

You kick him off making him stumble back. “If you don’t hurry up I’ll also add a restraining order to the list, now go. Get. Your. Stuff. Or I will set it on fire.” He slugs himself up sadly still crying as he goes to get his stuff. You turn the TV back on scrolling through whatever is on. He comes back down a few minutes later with his eyes all red sad. You look at your phone. “Taxi’s right around the corner go wait outside.” You speak emotionlessly. 

He sniffles as the bright glaring lights of a car show up. You stand up putting your hand out. “Keys.” He whimpers not wanting to give them up. You yank his keys out his hand taking the one to your house. “Go.” He cries weakly walking towards the taxi. As soon as he sits down in the car you slam the door shut. 

You sighed tiredly. You looked around the house, at the pictures of you and him. You both were so happy, but not anymore.

Is it just me or i feel very bad for uenoyama

Ppl will go "stop bringing uenoyama in yuki posts" but will constantly bring yuki in uenoyama posts "ppl who said uenoyama deserves better are so stupid" and ppl will continue to trash on uenoyama whenever yuki or mafuyuki is involved im just really tired that uenoyama constantly getting sidelined for a dead character DESPITE being the mc

And MAFUYU omg throughout the manga his ASS did not DO EFFORT despite that UENOYAMA helped him through his grief, open up his feelings, finishes his dead ex's song, comforted his feelings and WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR HIM WHEN HE IS AT HIS LOWEST, and HE DID NOT GIVE ANY RETURN FOR HIM, the fact that its ALWAYS UENOYAMA THAT WILL ALWAYS DO THE EFFORT FOR MAFUYU and HE DID BOTHING TO CONTRIBUTE TO UENOYAMA,

Also OMG THE FANDOM IS INSUFFERABLE due to the CONSTANT UPBRINGING OF YUKI WHILE SHITTING ON UENOYAMA MAKES ME SO ARRRGH bc of that he and the fandom made me stop shipping mafuyama in general atp just give mafuyu a therapist atp,

personally when people say that in another universe that mafuyu and yuki will always be together but to me in another universe uenoyama will find SOMEONE who TRULY LOVES HIM AND TO DO THE SAME EFFORT TO HIM

sorry for the long ramble i just want to let this out

Anon I feel the same, the fandom loves to indulge in hypocrecy 😃 the fact that there are people who are trying to blame uenoyama for not able to communicate to mafuyu his problems and constantly blaming him for everything while mafuyu is this innocent boy who can't do no wrong bc he is sad his abusive boyfriend died is so annoying and they are acting as if mafuyama is perfect and truly love each other when it's always one person doing the effort and trying for the relationship so for me it's not surprising that ue thinks their relationship it's doomed because mafuyu doesn't seem to bother about ue, we still don't have any panel of mafuyu comforting ue or reassuring him about his feelings it's always just vague words but never truths also the fact that kizu couldn't even bother to draw new scenes for mafuyu and uenoyama or it's always drawing mafuyuki when that man has been a hindrance for the manga and mafuyu's character is so shameless, I'm just gonna say that even if yuki was alive his relationship with mafuyu is doomed bc that man was toxic and manipulative who loved to isolate mafuyu from the world, a relationship like that had no future even if he was alive but at least ue's character would have had a different future at least I know he would've taken more of the spotlight and be his own character than just being the "what if" kizu is writing, I really kind of hate his new design too bc people were saying he has the same hairstyle as that dead man when in reality supposedly his new design is for akihiko but anyways I want him with long hair now because the fandom ruins everything and I'm so happy people are starting to realize that mafuyu doesn't care about ue and had never bothered about his health or anything related to him even when ue was trying to talk to him, we just need more people to start to notice even if the wrong ones are loud, the majority of the given fandom are weirdos and love traumaporn that's they are so fixated on mafuyuki and refuse to acknowledge ue's character and his role in the story also I really hope mafuyuma breaks up so mafuyu can go to a therapist and heal but watch kizu make uenoyama apologize for having insecurities and doubts about himself to mafuyu, watch kizu make ue swear his undying love to him and carry again their relationship because mafuyu is so sensitive and has trauma and loves his dead ex, watch her insert yuki again to make him the spotlight and mafuyu a victim and the fandom start calling ue names again bc he is not a therapist.

I just want kizu to prove me wrong and make mafuyu chase after him instead of ue always doing the chasing for someone who doesn't prioritize him or value him in his life.

random ted kord hc's because im going insane and need to spread propaganda SOMEWHERE.

love language (giving)

ive done alot if thinking about this one and have come to the conclusion that his love languages are acts of service and gift giving. i kinda based this decision off of how he acts with babs and booster in countdown to infinite crisis. dude is about to go bankrupt AGAIN but he's still offering to pay for tickets and lets booster borrow his card, even if it negatively affects him. hes a superhero for one but also his entire reasoning behind becoming the second blue beetle was because he feels like he OWES it to dan, he wants to make up for his blind faith to his uncle which lead to dans death. i think he loves doing favours for people because it makes him feel good about himself, and he loves the feeling of being appreciated.

love language (receiving)

words of affirmation and physical touch. he has boundaries when it comes to the physical touch of course, but booster is the main exception, with ted being quite touchy himself at times. i like to base this off of the first appearance of dan's death in blue beetle 1967 where as dan says his last words hes caressing teds face UGHH that shit fucks me up man -- but i can definitely imagine him melting in someones hands if they held his face or something (booster, of course).

then theres the words of affirmation. ted gets compliments alot, obviously, usually due to his status in hub city and his intelligence. but there are times where he feels unappreciated or isnt taken seriously, usually by higher ranked heroes (cough cough BATMAN cough) . in countdown to infinite crisis (yes im referencing this comic AGAIN im SORRY) he is pushed aside constantly by multiple people. the few people who did listen to him, namely superman and wonderwoman, its stated in booster gold 2007 he "felt bad for wasting their time.". ted needs reassurance, he needs to be reassured that he isnt a bother. though at times a wise-cracking jerk, he still does care about how others view him. and spending like most or his childhood being put down by his father and then years later by heroes he works with he deserves someone telling him he's doing good once in awhile 😭.

elumax hcs elumax hcs

yesyesyes babe ily thank you for asking this you are amazing <3

theres a shift in lucas and maxs dynamic after max wakes up from her coma

el is near constantly around, and lucas likes to joke that max is dating both of them (max tells him to shut up a lot, blushing)

its lucas who figures it out first, and he loves max, so he decides hes going to talk to max, ask her what she wants

after a lot of denial and a lot of tears and apologies because it's wrong and gross and shes a terrible person, max listens to what lucas is saying

"its okay. ill take whatever you want to give me. and if that means you love both of us, then thats okay. okay?"

god. max loves him so much.

its really soon after that she gets her shit together and asks el out and the three of them go on a cute little picnic date because theyre fucking adorable like that

this one time el tells lucas and max she hears screams from joyce and hoppers room sometimes and asks them if theyre happy screams

lucas chokes on air while max can't stop laughing beside him

el and lucas qpr because theyre super goddamn close and love each other so fucking much <3

el is the little spoon max is the middle lucas is the big spoon mostly. they switch around sometimes when they feel like it.

piggyback rides. lucas carries max who carries el. and then they fall over

wheelchair tricks!! so!!! many!!!!!! wheelchair tricks

forehead kisses <3

lucas and max bicker about the most random things while el chants "dump his ass! dump his ass!" beside them

cuddle piles

they have a secret handshake

double dates w byler (idk if they'd still be called double dates but yk what I mean)

they watch horror movies and lucas will grab maxs hand to "reassure her" but they both know it's because horror and shit gives him the creeps

lucas reads to el and max and gives then both a little kiss on the forehead when they fall asleep

lucas teaching el how to play basketball while max listens and tries to picture them being adorable <3 "this is for you max!" *blows kiss* *actually makes the shot* "AND HE SCORES!!!!"

"im glad i share a girlfriend with you." i love you. "me too." i love you too.

they love confusing the party about whos dating who. erica finds out first.

max and lucas are the sunshine (el) protectors and they take their duties very seriously

arcade dates (fight then kiss then fight some more)

elumax they are so,,,,, ot3 material. this post has inspired me to finish an elumax wip i have in my drafts so thank you very much for this anon!!

(also people who are reading this youre welcome to send hc requests of your own .... please do i want to ramble about my favs)

heya boss lady, im fuckin sick how would the bois take care of/neglect me

~mommy milkers annon~

How would they treat a sick s/o?

Breg is going to get so many blankets. Too many. You're cold, aren't you? You're so cold! What do you mean a fever? Huh?? That doesn't make sense. Oh God, he's not prepared for this- You're gonna die! Holy shit- Calm him down. Immediately. He's going to stress out, which will stress you out, and that's the last thing you need. You're better off calling someone else or giving Breg very simple instructions while he reads up online. What he can anyway.

Fasma, while he may not look like it, is old enough to know how to take care of a sick human. He'll actually go through the effort of staying mostly sober while you're like this. But not because he cares, he just doesn't feel like hiding the body if you kick the bucket (lies).He can have dumb conversations with your fever-fried self and help you fall asleep by retelling some stories from his past.

I hope you like soups, because Morell has so many ready... Open up, piglet. You're staying in bed and you better not whine about having no appetite- Tsk! You know, none of this would have happened if you listened to him. You're not like him, you're fragile and tiny and when Morell tells you not to run around outside like an idiot, you better listen. Or else you'll be sipping soup for the rest of your life!

Gallon is so out of his depth. Help bestie. He's not sure what to do to make you heal faster, so he just does everything for you. Chores, errands, cooking, everything and anything. You're constantly being poked so he can gouge your temperature or if anything hurts. It's going to get annoying real fast. No Gallon, this is not worth going to the hospital for- No, you're not chronically ill...

Santi knows he can't do much to help you, the incubus can't shag some strength into you, that's not how humans work. But he does know about common sickness medication, and that's what he's going to rely on first. What do you mean you won't just get better after one pill? Some doctors you humans have... Well, if nothing else, you'll get a lot of cuddling and comfort foods.

Grimbly's putting you to bed immediately. Stay. Do NOT get up. He's calling your doctor immediately. No, SHUT- If you get up, he's going to tape your wrists to the mattress. He's not having you go outside in this state. He's not the best cook either, so I hope you like salads... At least it's not junk food, right? You also need to tell the bat what you need, because he's not above getting distracted and offering you "top notch blood", or forgetting the sun won't make you get sicker.

Patches is totally convinced he can snap your sickness away with magic. And to be fair, he does have plenty of tricks up his sleeve. Problem is, he gets cocky. And he's stubborn. So if the first try doesn't work, you're better off not letting him continue, or he might try to give you something with significant side-effects. Jackass gets so focused he starts thinking of you as a test subject rather than his lover.

Vinnel is a sickness. His whole life is being sick. He's chronic illness incarnate. And therefore, probably the one that is most worried about you deep down. You're getting to a hospital immediately, no matter how mundane the symptoms. You're going, end of discussion. He doesn't show it, but he gets very emotional. He will not separate from you while you're sick, mostly out of past trauma. The jester was abandoned and left to die due to his illness, so you're going to get a lot of reassurance and not understand why.

Sybastian doesn't know what to do. At all. When he gets sick, he usually sleeps through it, so he's adamant that you get a lot of rest. Even if he has to hold you in his arms and keep you still so you don't try to wander off. Rest. After that, he's going to bother people who actually know what to do with a sick human. Probably scares the ever living shit out of some poor pharmacist... He's trying. Says one or two words and expects them to understand what he means.

Nebul, who has trained many a human before, is np stranger to the common sicknesses, and he's definitely one rigorous monster that can get you back on your feet in no time. Thing is, you're gonna follow his orders down to a T. Otherwise, you'll get punishment immediately after you're healed. You're constantly being surveillanced, even while he works. Purpur will be there to act as a splendid nurse and get you all the stuff you need. If Purpur is busy, another weirdass pet will be there to keep an eye, or several, on you.

If your partner happens to be Fank-e, please for the love of God, call a doctor and make them have a long talk with the robot. Otherwise, he's going to give you Monster drinks and put stickers on the boo-boos, generally make you sicker than you already are. He's already a hazard towards a normal person's health, stay away from the robot when you're sick please.

Ludwig mostly just helps you stay calm and content. He knows humans don't experience sickness the same way demons do, but some part of him still expects you to start fucking breaking shit and screaming bloody murder in frustration like your average wrathful folk. So he'll treat it as if you're in need of a really relaxing vacation, which is funny but still largely appreciated. Due to this irrational assumption that you'll get livid out of nowhere, Lud doesn't let other people near you too much.

Being Krulu's vessel implies that you are unaffected by most illnesses. If you ever do manage to fall sick, it's a very bad sign for you and an indicator that Krulu has weakened significantly. Be worried, mostly about them. Krulu's health is imperative to your own survival. Speak to him and gain information on how you can heal yourselves. Do not let anyone see you while you are vulnerable. There are vultures everywhere, the scent of a wounded god is like blood among sharks.

a better update

it is December 28, 2022 n my year has been a big learning lesson. a lot of it, most of it, really hurt.  I chose myself a lot this year and completed my year’s resolution which is to set boundaries. I honestly dont understand why I took this long to act upon the things I want 4 myself but im not surprised. im a very stubborn person and all I do is deflect by creating a different scenario in my brain. das why ive been in this continuous cycle of getting played by the game and I jus..let it happen. I craved things that were not ready 4 me and it made me realize how I keep repeating it LMAOOO but this year I broke some serious habits and reenforced the comfortability of my space. therapy helped a lot (shout out Tina Merced, you are a very kind woman. u are one of the only people who has figured me out..) and having a positive feedback ab my decisions and how I think helps me understand myself. it felt (past tense/explain later) really good to just focus on what I plan 2 do next year. last year I just really wanted to show up 4 everyone more so I ended up acting upon emotion rather than balancing it out w/ what’s realistic. *I forgot what word 2 use in the last sentence so I went on my phone to change the song and then I remembered. I'm listening 2 defibrillator by smino* 

anyways, yeah this year I showed up for myself even if it hurt a lot to let go and I feel a lil lighter. im guilty of a lot, especially how present I am in my rlsps, and I am still for a bit more, but im doing better and those close 2 me see it. I said this all in past tense because Im a lil hurt right now, but it's just an owie. I allowed myself 2 give someone a benefit of the doubt and I feel as if they abused it a little. I know when I reread this in the future 2 reflect, I'll know exactly what im talking about. rather than feeling sad, im SO disappointed. i was feeling a lil better and I thought that would be okay, but I shouldn't disregard my accomplishments cus they're worthy of celebrating. allowing myself to forgive but just being proven right is horrible. it was a real wake up call to continue my self love journey cus I was getting some where and it was somewhere good. my best friend told me that “I know youre a good person and you do too so u dont have to give people multiple chances to prove that” and it struck hard (but 4 the better). I appreciate the transparency that I have w/ my friendships cus w/o it, I probably wouldn't b able to keep myself accountable, but I have been recently and thats why 2023 is going to be a good year. I wonder what karmic situations im going 2 be in. im not anticipating bad, but I can handle some lessons. im allowing myself 2 learn and thats my true end goal. at the end of the day, im just figuring it out. I dont think im doing that bad, but some reassurance would b amazing. I know I am worthy of everything I desire. to have, to feel, to experience. Im going 2 move forward so I can live better 4 myself. by doing that, taking this time, I can show up better. I want 2 do better, b better, all the things ive imagined myself to b. I cant believe I spent so much time settling 4 what I have cus Im constantly validated. the issues r real. I need 2 tell Tina ab this bcuz it makes so much sense. people pleasing cus nothing I ever did pleased my dad. that shit hurtsss, not gonna lie. but thats what I mean, im learning more and applying what I have 2 in my life and its working. by realizing that the pattern exists bcuz I dont rly speak or ever knew that was an issue. it hurts a bit 2 realize that someone who was a part of my life is now booted out of the next year. in pain bcuz I sat through conversations of him telling me how much he loves me, and how I cld b his polly pocket so he could take me everywhere, and how his family loves me, and all these other things and he STILL ran w/ what he wanted. honesty is the best policy and this lil set up pushed me to let go and let live. I wish I cld cry more, im purging the fuck outta this because I cannot let it repeat anymore. I also learned that some people only last so long in your life bcuz of how you coexist together. cutting ties w/ ppl you used to b family with takes a piece of you that dissipates like the rlsps thats gone. sounds dramatic, but that breakup was horrible. also, my dating life was quite the shit show. had my hinge phase, coworkers phase, toxic situation ship (two of those..at the same time but in my defense I was nvr asked 2 b a gf.), & my celibate phase. I nvr intended 2 dissect but it was rough 4 everyone I know and myself. im blessed enough 2 be surrounded by people who want whats best 4 me cus the goal is something we all agree on. 2022 you helped me show up 4 myself better. 2023 were going 2 show up better for ourselves and those around us. ive realized so much (1:11am , im sry in advance) & Ima share w/ some privacy of course. high school situationships r finally cut and I jus cant believe it but im happy 4 everyone whos living in love. realizing im the problem , speaks for itself. im officially tired. thats an update 4 ya

my fit 2day

goodnight

happy new year

i read your tags on that one post and it's insane how close our experiences were. im certain it was a different trans woman but i had the EXACT same experience with a man-hating transphobic autistic sex pest trans woman who was afraid of being treated like a predator but was fine treating other people the same way. you're not the only one who's suffered this way and im glad you were able to get out of there too

While I do appreciate the support from this ask (and this is not meant with any aggressive/mean/etc tone toward you at all!) I do want to be very, very, clear; I would not describe my ex friend as a sex pest at all. Not even necessarily "man-hating," either, though she definitely had a gender essentialism issue she needed to deal with. I'm not comfortable going into detail but not only did I not have a single sexual experience with her, there are only two incidences I was made to feel sexually uncomfortable around/by her specifically, it was at worst a miscommunication issue. But really it was just sometimes you do or say something that accidentally makes someone uncomfortable but doesn't necessarily cause harm. That's how I feel about those instances, though in the context of all their other behavior, was still by virtue uncomfortable and something I would've liked to hold them accountable for (though AGAIN, not because I feel they were being sexually predatory, this is just a very nuanced situation)

The situation and relationship I had with both of them was very, very nuanced. I'm still struggling over how to identify certain things and processing the sheer amount of shit I was put through; but at the end of the day, most of the harm was perpetuated by her partner, my ex best friend. She was absolutely not innocent, and did blatantly cross and ignore my boundaries and made me uncomfortable frequently, but I can confidently say it wasn't sexual. Neither she or her partner are sex pests or sexual predators or anything like that.

Now that that's out of the way! Genuinely thank you for this ask. I'm deeply sorry you had a similar experience and it's very reassuring to hear I'm not alone lol. It's not something I always feel comfortable talking about, as I don't want to invite terf rhetoric painting trans women as inherent predators, but also there's been this idea in certain queer circles recently to "combat" that rhetoric (which only ends up spewing the same man-bad, woman-good gender essentialism but in a trans "INCLUSIVE" way) by saying that somehow trans women are incapable of doing wrong which is just as damaging (and isolating to any kind of victim of harmful behavior). In reality, your identity, your background, etc etc does not exempt you from nor does it make you more susceptible to harming others. You can cause harm no matter who you are, and that's why I constantly stress the fact that the issue I have with my ex friends is not just their treatment of me; but the fact that neither of them truly held themselves accountable or WORKED on their behavior at any point and in fact enabled each other's behavior toward me. I have never pretended to be a perfect friend but I know I tried my damndest every single day to communicate clearly and effectively what I would do better (not JUST when an issue arose, but ACTIVELY worked on myself even while things were "good") and what I needed and expected of them. I was instead met with blatant disregard for my comfort, my time, and again my boundaries. They did not give a shit about me, just what I could do for them. And it's isolating as hell when the people who hurt you are also trans themselves. Especially when they fear judgement and persecution just for being trans (or their disorders!), while in the same breath doing exactly that to you. I'm glad you were able to get out of your situation as well, thank you again for this ask.

Despite people not liking Y/N's action, her action is not shocking.

No matter how much healing a person gets, someone who is already shattered will forever be shattered. Trauma's run deep and are easily opened. Gojo showing up was already enough to break Y/N again. He is her biggest pain, so it is not shocking why Y/N is still soft for him. Why she let herself be lost again. It sucks and it is extremely maddening to read. But I feel for her. Even if Suguru is there, Shoko is there. The comfort she is trying to find is with Gojo and when Gojo finally reveals how much he still yearns for her. It softens her poor heart. Also her already not having a proper closure with Gojo, makes it way harder for her to move on.

There is no excuse with what they did, but honestly...Rie shouldve known it was coming. I don't think she is stupid, she knows she is easily replaceable and highly knows Y/N will forwver be the one for Gojo. Thw whple time, Rie has been nothing but insecure. Constant need for reassurance that they are fine and constantly worrying she will lose him. Ive seen people cheat and people who cheat but last are 100% usually not doubting if they are faithful to one another. Rie and Gojo was simply a tragic honeymoon phase that lasted for seconds.

As much people hate Gojo, I honestly think he will be the end game. Im sorry but...Suguru deserves so much better. Not even Y/N. He deservws someone who will only look at him, he deservea someone whose heart is purely his and his purely theirs. If he gets with Y/N, he will for sure be a rebound. A tragic one sided love. I feel like this has been going on for a while, knowing that Suguru has loved her since high school. Nonetheless, he deserves more than what Y/N can give because she is barely giving half while he is giving his whole self.

For the next chaps!!

Im excited to see what you will do with Rie and Y/N. I feel like people are thinking of bad things. But I do not see why a friendship will florish in some way. I mean both woman being hurt by a stupid guy is justt an interesting storyline. I think it'll be nice if the two will finally understand each other and undeestand that the real enemy is Gojo. That Gojo is the very reason why both of them are miserable instead of them fighring over Gojo.

Throughout this story, Gojo has been the main antagonist. Even if people shit on Rie, Gojo was the man in the relationship. If someome is truly faithful, not even a "first love" will sway them. Gojo made a mess on Rie's and Y/N's life, his actions caused bofh women to go through something horrible while he still thinks he has choices.

yeah, even if yn's determined to move on from satoru, that time, her longing for him took over every resolve that she has bc he was giving her what she looking for. she had her moment of weakness :(( and yeah, rie. all this time we've only been seeing her as a part of her rs with gojo but now that they had broken up, we're gonna see her as her own self !!

Greetings and Salutations ♡ meant to do this awhile back, but if you're still doing matchups I'd like to request a hazbin hotel matchup, if not that's okay feel free to ignore

My pronouns are She/Him and I’m Pansexual. I'm an INFP, sign being Scorpio. Im a 5'4 Hispanic female with a pear shaped figure and am a bit chubby. I have shoulder length dyed red hair thats messy constantly and gets in my face all the time which others tend fix for me for some reason. I’m an extroverted introvert, though it's really hard to speak to people or make friends as I suffer from paranoia and have scopophobia (I also have depression, and PTSD. I tend to dissociate/ feel as I'm not real) so it's rather intimidating to be around those who are new and I'm not comfortable with, I can be considered a non people person due to the fact I'm hard to approach thanks to my resting bitch face and keep my distance. It leads to many making assumptions about me / not liking me. My style consists of Goth/Grunge, and my interests align with my style as I love true crime, horror movies, gore, analog horror, induldge in the splatterpunk genre of books and love junji ito and have a few of his manga. I love finding and collecting little things for my friends and give it to them as a gift no matter what it is to the point my friends call me crow as a joke. When I finally become comfortable with someone I become very talkative and speak in a rather fast paced manner and tend to speak in both English and Spanish. I love to joke around with them and banter. Most of my humor comes off as rude or just fucked up, though I'll never joke in a manner that actually hurts the person and will apologize if I've overstepped. I’m not good with my temper however and can be pretty mean, or just go very quiet. If pushed far enough I’ll snap at anything and everything to the point I'm nothing but numb and the goal is to hurt the person. My favorite things to do for comfort / hobbies are drawing, reading, writing, playing video games (overwatch, dead by daylight, hollow knight) and or blasting music ( MCR, Get Scared, Deftones, Pierce the Veil, Souixie and the banshees, Mother Mother ). I’m a little clingy and possessive with those I love / am romantically involved with due to a lot of issues I need reassurance in any form of way it doesn't matter how big or small. I enjoy doing things for others and speak rather romantically and call them pet names. Dealing with insomnia I'm definitely awake most hours and am happy if someone is a night owl and spends that time up with me as night is likely my favorite time always having adored the moon and stars . I’m definitely a masochist and a switch though am guilty of leaning more towards submissive,,, ♡ - Cherri

you omg I remember you. thank you for the matchup on my end, I really appreciated it. :)

Your Hazbin Hotel matchup is.. Alastor !!

• This might be biased because you’re his wife, however, I just feel like the two of you would click. Husk would find you way too soft emotionally, Niffty wants someone more dominant, Angel is well..not attracted to any sort of femininity.. and Charlie and Vaggie find your gruesome interests frightening. Another person I thought about was Pentious,, but I think any parter would grow tired of his naivety and arrogant nature. And I just genuinely can’t picture you keeping up with Cherri-Bomb, light heartedly.

• So, that left me with this fucker. He has softer spots for certain people (as seen with Niffty and maybe Charlie) and when it comes to you he treats you somewhat like a..cherished pet? Trust me, you most likely would want to be put at that level than be on his shit-list.

• You’re so small and fragile..how could a tiny thing like you fall for him so easily- and not be intimidated? He teases you about it often, using you as an arm rest, or just by grabbing something atop the shelf just to show how bigger he is to you.

• Deep down, he loves you for you. He wouldn’t change a thing about you even if things about you he wishes you to get stronger from or at. Everyone has flaws, and he knows that. Learning from those flaws is something he wants to teach you. Perhaps you could do the same.

• For example, he finds some of your fears pathetic. As a high and mighty figure there isn’t much for him to fear, so its understandable. Though he might tell you to suck it up if he’s running low on patience. Other times he’s more forgiving.

• His style is more of a gothic Victorian thing. Or as Angel says; a pimp. With his New Orleans background I’d like to think he would dress similar to Dr Facilier from The Princess and The Frog.

• Point is, he enjoys a good dark toned style. Dress in something more of his style, and his jaw will DROP.

• He’s kind of tough,, he won’t watch movies with you, or watch anything really TV related. Though if theirs a live projection screening, or talk show on horror movies or true crime, he’ll watch or listen that way. I think he makes his rivalry with Vox really clear that way imo.

• Alastor doesn’t get this manga you read. The visuals are impressive-sure-but why do you read it backwards? And why is it all mostly pictures? Ironically, I see him reading them anyway just to understand them. He loves to learn if it partains to him.

• He takes the nickname "crow" to seriously, symbolism wise. Crow’s are related to death, bad luck, revenge, and most importantly..pride. Really anytime he sees one it compels him to think about you, and in return maybe even get you a thoughtful gift. In his prideful way he changed it into a nickname you should be proud of. He tends to just call you “my crow.”

• Fast or slow talking, Alastor is very quick witted and usually understands every word you’re saying. He has very fucked up humor and would gladly join you in bickering about morbid things.

• As a overlord, he doesn’t really have time for insults. All "water off a ducks back" n stuff. He makes an effort to teach that to you as well. Though that effort quickly becomes slightly hypocritical when someone says something to you while he’s right next to you. I mean, the audacity, right?

• Again, being an overlord he can’t show any sense of vulnerability. That being said the only way you can see him even close to being cuddly is in your shared bed, shortly before the two of you fall asleep. He might settle for slight hand holding, but even then only with a limited amount of people.

• Alastor is a healthy man, physically, and makes and effort to get a proper sleep schedule. He’s going to help you do the same, even if he has to use one of his spells or sing you to sleep. Those times are the times you’d see him cuddle you the most.

• Most of the pet names he uses are “dear”, “love”, “darling”, and “sweetheart”. Simple, yet with his charming and smooth voice, very effective.

• Imagine the two of you dancing to Arm Tonite by Mother Mother. He admits it’s not his type of music, but something about the lyrics pulls at his heart strings.

• Or even imagine a cute date night with the two of you..first he takes you out to dinner at a VERY expensive restaurant, and then takes you out stargazing. It’s all different from what it used to be with the red sky and all..but he hopes it’s just as enjoyable.

• I know it’s canonical he’s asexual, but I think he’s still romantic? Especially in the additional comic where he somewhat flirts with some ladies. Though the fandom, per usual, throws that out the window.

• Still, he gives more dominant vibes for any relationship. He’s used to being at the top for most things, so why should it just stop at power?

• The two of you are peas in a pod. Your own little twisted fairy tail. Whatever I could use to describe to cheesy romance- you get it. A match made for in hell. <3

oh, our discord is raihansofficialboywife if thats .. reassuring (?) for you. .. dont say anything about the username, i know its silly but its personal for us so just dont question it lmao . again i dont really have any interest in moving this over there but im.. sure youre well aware of that by now hm?

we have the inner voice thing, kind of. im not really sure if thats actually even what it really is, but we can talk to each other without saying anything outloud, headspace or otherwise. ("i think thats just telepathy" - luca .. true, but still lol..) admittedly sometimes i miss my old bodies, but i think the one i have now is pretty nice. i dont really have a solid form, i kind of change tiny things about my appearance constantly even when i dont mean to, but mostly i latch onto whatever im presenting as at the moment with my own things added, some of them are surprisingly consistent between forms, like my fucked up eye whcih is why i have the x as that eye in the little emoticon thingies (x_o <- those) .. i like having my own little typing related things that are specific to me because theyre tied to my personal appearance in headspace, its a nice special comfort. andrew does it too, he puts little bunny ears on the sides of all his kaomojis.

i could talk a lot about my headspace appearance, because i personally find it very interesting .. but i also am very much a narcissist (npd holder, along with.. just being incredibly self absorbed and otherwise narcissistic by definition even outside of the pd, hahah) so i personally find every little tidbit about myself to be utterly fascinating.

man thats fuckin awful, im sorry that shit happened to yall. like.. i cannot express enough how genuinely insane that is..? and excuse my language in referring to it.. just. lord. it still disturbs me to this day how malicious people can be for no real reason greater than for the sake of it. how i wish it was just humans but i suppose every being is unfortunately prone to that ill natured behaviour ..

thats a really crazy coincidence in all honesty лол. i forgot how exactly i started using it for myself, i think it started as an aesthetic thing to go along with an old layout of a blog i dont use anymore, and then i started using it as signoffs in asks and just.. got attached, and started using it for myself in general. we even use it for ourselves as a collective now, its been in our discord status and bio for like.. a month or two i think? maybe three. were really bad with time perception so i couldnt give a very good estimation if i tried.

🪷

No no it's okay, we don't need your discord but I am thankful you were at least open. While we are on discord far more frequently we should be talking where you're comfortable. Where both of us are comfortable.

And yes, I believe telepathy is very common in the headspace so I'm not too surprised it's not just us. It's funny too, because while we don't have a fucked up eye, we often feel like we do. It's so strange and I think almost like phantom feeling, like having a phantom limb except it's more of a phantom scar we can't explain. Of course we're not going to be dumb like those "trans-abled" people and fuck up our eye just because we think it would feel right, that's just stupid. (it's our left eye)

And yeah we know what you mean, having little things helps a lot. We have a hood with ears on it but it's got paws attached too. The ears are fixed upright but it's a black hood. Still, we love it and we're glad we have it.

We love our self absorbed alters /hj

No okay for some odd reason our brain tends to latch onto alters that tend to have more self-absorbed personalities. Does this go for all of our alters? of course not. But Edgar Valden, Bob Aken (Obake), Me and the multiple doubles we have of each. But then we also have our Andrew and Aesop doubles and they aren't self absorbed so much as they just prefer their space. It's so strange how our system works. Systems are fascinating tbh.

And yeah, it was just beyond fucked up. It was ridiculous and even when we tried to move someplace else they followed us over. It's just.. such drama. The idv fandom is really fucked up in general. Already a few servers we've come forward on have either been hostile towards us or have actually infantalized me. And I mean waving images of baby keys in my face level and "feeding me meat and rice."

Frankly our status will not hold that emoji forever. We actually.. have no clue why it's even still there lmao. We just put it there one day and never changed it. Time perception is hard fr.

chest feels really heavy. hard to breathe. not sure where the line is between heightened anxiety and panic attack sometimes, think ive kinda been floating between em. it's funny to think about. does it "count" if you only hyperventilate for a few seconds before everything dries up just long enough to get back to the state just shy of being full-on triggered? doesnt matter ig.

it's so fucked to know exactly why it's happening. i hate not being able to tell people why the most innocuous shit is so hard for me and having to eat it over and over. i hate that just THINKING about letting anyone see me like this gives me panic attacks. i hate that when i push through and do it anyways i cant admit the desperation it takes to ask for reassurance or to be sat with. i hate that writing about it makes me feel like i cant fucking breathe again when im trying so hard to find something, fucking anything to just give me some relief.

so whyyyy the fuck cant i just feel ok? why cant i shake this feeling? tried expressive art and I even liked how it came out, tried eating food I like, tried diving straight into the hurt and examining the trigger and working on my shit. all of it makes things feel just a little better, im not spiraling and thinking of suicide anymore, but it still feels really bad. I still feel like no amount of anything I ever do is going to fix these stupid fucking reactions wired into my stupid fucking body.

im scared that im getting worse. im scared that dealing with everything alone all the time is fucking up the way i think more and more, like a depression echo chamber constantly confirming that we cant talk to anyone about anything anymore or they'll either smother me with worry until I have to be the one reassuring them, or they'll confirm for me that if they care, they can't stand to do it for long. it always feels like too much. i feel like it must suck to know me, let alone to care. at least if im not hiding all the time.

i dont want to. i feel like a liar and general piece of shit. but when i do hide, im easier to tolerate, even if not all of me/us is/are worth the effort. i know no one knows me. not me as a whole, and especially not me in particular. everyone feels like strangers, if they haven't done awful things to me. it's so disorienting to have the memories anyways. it's even more disorienting when the rest of us forget and have to put together what happened later. i wish i could tell them more clearly what's going on and ig this is a part of that. seems like we dont touch our journals unless we're writing in them, but we do come back here a lot.

maybe come back and answer this later. i dont have one myself for now. im tired and you can do what you want whenever im gone but i dont want to talk to you or anyone else tonight. but what i want to understand is, why are we still alive? i ask that question all the time and i can never think of a reason that feels right. i know there's got to be something. im pretty sure it was wesley that stopped us way back when. so. why? and have you been listening this whole time?

im dissociating a lot now. finally calmed down. i think this has been going on for like 4 hours. exhausting. it was def panic attacks. gonna lay down

talking abt my bf bc i love him so much and i dont want him to see this on my twitter

im so obsessed with him. its so nice that i have someone like him, and ik its lowkey fucked up but i love it when he sends me diets we can do together. we send pictures back and forth of our meals for the day and he's been one of my biggest motivators, if i stick to it i should hit my ugw in october when i visit him and we're doing cute matching costumes for halloween. he gives me space when i need it without question and does cute shit like plant heart shaped flowerbeds when we play stardew together to surprise me with, he's one of my favourite people and im so glad that he puts up with me constantly needing reassurance and loves me still

opposites attract | eli “hawk” moskowitz x reader

summary: everyone is confused about yours and hawk’s relationship; you two couldn’t be more different. you reminisce about the night you met him.

warnings: cussing, fluff, hawk being a big softie for you, there’s not really a plot just cute moments :)

a/n: sorry y’all ik im a harry account but ive been obsessed with cobra kai (particularly hawk) anyways enjoy

word count: 711

Heads were turned towards you as you walked down the hall, with Hawk’s arm hung around your shoulders.

Usually so many eyes following you would’ve made you really nervous, but you were reassured by Hawk constantly looking down at you and pulling you closer. You actually felt kind of confident; being around Hawk always made you feel that way.

It wasn’t surprising that everyone was staring at you two. You and Hawk were an unlikely pair. You were a soft-spoken artist, who only had a few friends and kept to yourself. Hawk on the other hand, was loud and attention grabbing. If his mohawk didn’t already get eyes on him, then his reputation for starting fights does.

You two met at a party that your friends dragged you to. It was an hour in when you needed air; the smell of smoke was too much.

You sat by the pool in the backyard and dipped your feet in. There were still people around, but it wasn’t as stuffy as being inside. You felt yourself get lost in your thoughts as you stared into the glimmering water that reflected the night sky.

Suddenly, you heard yelling and two figures were right beside you, looking like they were wrestling. Then one of them fell in the pool, and you were soaked by the splash.

You quickly got up, looking down at your wet clothes. In front of you was the person who pushed the other guy and the first thing you noticed was his obnoxious hair.

“Oh shit. I’m so sorry,” the boy apologized but he was holding back his laughs.

You looked at the other boy, now swimming in the pool; he had dark hair and braces. His hands were covering his mouth as he giggled. “Sorry.”

“All good,” you shivered. It was a cold night out. You weren’t angry, there’s no use getting mad at someone who is probably drunk. You turned away to head back inside; to you this looked like a sign to just leave the party.

“Hey, hey, wait,” the boy with the mohawk jogged up to you, lightly grabbing your arm. “You’re cold. Here,” he slipped off his jacket and held it out to you.

“I’m actually leaving now, but thanks,” you replied, and continued your walk to the house, dripping and shivering.

“You came with Avery and Cassie right? I’m pretty sure they left,” the boy called from behind you.

Just my luck, you thought.

You internally cursed at your friends for leaving you at this stupid party that they made you come to. You were starting to get pissed. Being wet, cold, and betrayed made you wish you just stayed home. Now you had no idea what to do.

“I can give you a ride? To make up for... you know. That,” the red-haired boy gestured to your wet clothes.

“Aren’t you, like drunk?” You questioned. The way he was acting with his friend made you believe he was, but maybe he was just crazy.

“I’m not, I promise. I couldn’t anyways, I have a tournament tomorrow,” he explained, and you wondered what sport he played.

“I can’t go with you, I don’t even know your name,” you laughed. He wasn’t a complete stranger though. He knew your friends and you’ve seen him around school sometimes. I mean how could you not when his hair could be spotted from a mile away.

“Hawk. I’m Hawk.”

Now as you walked with him to your next class, you smile at the memory of meeting him. It’s been almost a year since then, and you know him through and through. You know him enough to see that you two actually aren’t all that different.

“I’ll see you after class,” Hawk took his arm from your shoulders and put his hands on your waist to pull you to his chest. You hooked your arms around his neck and played with his hair at the nape of his neck.

You got butterflies as he leaned in to give you a kiss. You felt so good being his, with his arms embracing you.

“I love you,” you kissed his nose softly and he scrunched his face. He laughed, genuinely, and in that moment you saw right through his bad boy facade.

Hello it is I again

So I've been getting a lot of nightmares recently and been scared to go back to sleep :(

Do you think you could write HC's for George comforting the reader after they had a nightmare?

(George is my comfort streamer after all)

hello again! and of course i can!

i hope that you've been able to get some more rest :')

TW; nightmares, curse words

my full masterlist

have a request? let me know <3

george nightmare comfort hcs

- the first night it happens george is sitting up beside you instantly

- not only because he’s a light sleeper but you jerking up forward with a small gasp made something in him wake tf up

- he looks just as scared as you do as he watches you try to level your breathing and take in your surroundings

- but i have a feeling that he has struggled with nightmares every now and then, so he is quick to pull you into his chest so you don't have to focus on anything but him

- back rubs all night

- he would never pressure you into talking about them until you were ready

- he tries to hide how worried he is when he gently brings it up the next morning though

- he's fiddling with his thumbs and bouncing one knee because the last thing he wants to do is trigger whatever caused your previous nightmare

- but if they start happening more often, he knows how to comfort you better and what will calm you down

- but even then, he just wants you to be able to sleep again

- will defiantly confide into dream or sapnap on what helps them fall asleep

- if they ask why, he just ignores them and starts googling things

- he read somewhere that soft light, candles, and lavender can help, so he buys all of those things that day

- acts super excited all day, waiting for you to start yawning or talking about how you're feeling sleepy before grabbing your hand and leading you to your shared room!!!!

- he has a candle on his side of the bed that is illuminating a soft glow in the room

- along with a book he wanted to read to you as he tucks you in bed and lets you lay on his chest

- probably bought lavender essential oils and had to watch youtube videos on how to use them

"baby, what are you doing?"

"be still bun, i have to apply this to your temples."

- will sit down and talk to you about doing yoga together because dream taught him exercises that he does to relax

- tried to give you a massage one night but you had to ask him to stop through fits of laughter because baby you're a gamer for a reason

- can you imagine when he streams people always tease him about his sleep schedule and how he is always out of the loop with things

- DREAM SMP COUGH COUGH

- and everyone assumes it's because he has adapted to dream's sleep schedule

- when in reality, the moment he sees your eyes get droopy or hears a soft yawn escape your lips, he is taking a nap with you

- so now his sleep schedule is just a mess because he tries to sleep with you whenever your body lets you

- he may not push with nightmares, but i feel like he wouldn't leave room for arguing when you tried to argue or fight him about sleeping

- i have this theory that because he went through phases where he had nightmares, he doesn't want you to go through what he did and never sleep

- he might feel a little off when it comes to comforting people or really anything with feelings

- but with you, he is constantly reassuring that he doesn't mind staying up with you, as long as it takes

- if you really can't go back to sleep, he will run a bath with you and fill it with lavender soap because he bought so much lavender shit im

- will cup your cheeks and wipe away your tears with his thumb gently, eyes looking down at you with such adoration and yet concern because gosh he loves you so much and wishes he could do more than just hold you closer

- OKAY THIS MIGHT BE TOO SOFT BUT

- george will never sing in front of anyone but you, so when he starts softly humming or gently singing a song to calm you down it makes you melt because AGH WHAT

- he will be so blushy and you will have to pretend to not notice because you know he just wants to make you feel so so safe

"i like that song."

"yeah? i can sing it again if you want?"

- i just really feel like he would be so patient with you when it comes to these types of things and wouldn't care about anything but taking care of you :')

- sleepy george with eyes all puffy and red from rubbing them tiredly while giggling at every little thing you say before splashing bubbles at you

- he is still a simp