#also theres like. a line where i dont mind a comment if its about the DYNAMIC between our two characters? yknow?
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ᴀɴᴇᴍᴏ ʙᴏʏꜱ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ꜱʜʏ ꜱ/ᴏ
Characters: Xiao, Venti, heizou, kazuha, and wanderer
Wanderer
He doesn't mind, he wont actually admit this but he thinks its really cute.
He will probably tease you a bit, but i'm sure he wont go to far.
I imagine you would just be walking with him and he'll start to tease you just to see your face go red. He thinks its funny.
At restaurants he'll order for you, he may say stuff like "you're gonna have to order for yourself one day" but he enjoys ordering for you, he knows it makes you more comfortable.
He can get a bit impatient sometimes though..
But over all hes cool with you being shy, he thinks its adorable.
Heizou
Yet another boy who finds your shyness adorable.
He'll tease you a lot.
He wont make you do stuff you're not comfortable with, he's actually super sweet, but he'll still tease you.
Theres been a few times where he made flirtly comments about you in public and you got so embarrassed.
He has no issue ordering for you, infact its something hes used to now.
Hes very paitent with you.
Can read you easily, so he can tell when to draw the line.
Kazuha
Hes very polite and paitent with you.
He's honestly the sweetest boy ever about it.
He may tease you but he'll try not to tease you in public.
There was one time he gave you a headpat and you got embarrassed and he just smiled.
He'll absolutely order for you at restaurants
But he still assures you the waitress doesn't care and that it will be okay incase you wanna order for yourself.
Very gentle and careful not to make you upset.
Venti
OH MY GOSH. Yeah good luck with him dude.
He knows about your shy nature and loves to tease you about it..or literally anything..
If you tell him you're uncomfortable with it, he'll only tease you a little bit.
But when he's drunk, OH BOY.
He wont stop talking about how much he loves you, the whole tavern has to deal with it to the point where they all know who you are.
As for the restaurants, he'd probably make a joke saying you want something that you dont really want, and then explain its a joke right after, pissing both you and the waitress off.
Hes so cute though.
Xiao
Where do i began?
He thinks you're adorable.
He often watches over you to make sure nobody makes you embarrassed.
He often has to yell at Hu tao for her to go away because she teases you a lot.
Hes super gentle and paitent with you.
He wouldn't try to make you embarrassed or tease you.
However there has been some times where he did it on accident.
He quickly apologized to you after.
As for the restaurant thing, I guess he would order for you? But i also feel as if he wouldn't want to.
I feel as if he would rather just order food and have it delivered to him that way none of you have to talk to any waitress.
Super cute boyfriend, who loves his super shy partner!!
#genshin scaramouche#genshin fluff#genshin headcanons#genshin impact#scaramouche#venti x y/n#heizou#genshin xiao#wanderer#kazuha
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Hey, so this is kinda off the wall, but I need to find a roommate but I'm so anxious about it, did you use a certain website? Or like do you have any roommate finding tips?
oh yeah i was super nervous about it too bc of previous bad experiences (with college apartments that were auto-matched), i guess my tips would be from someone whos only done this manually Once:
worth a shot, straight up ask if any of your friends need a roomie. sometimes things line up! didnt for me atm (aside from one friend who said "oh maybe in like 2 years but maybe not")
try and keep in mind that if it doesnt work out its not Forever if that helps you not freak out as much. like, maybe yall stay to the end of the lease and split, or if yall have to split before than eh youre just starting the matching process over again. getting that thru my head helped me lmao
as for websites, yeah there are a ton of specific roommate matching sites you can use, personally I just used facebook and posted in a couple of local groups with a lil thing about myself and I got some matches p quick. I live in a largerish city tho (austin tx) so if you live somewhere smaller there might not be AS big of a pool. facebook as a whole sucks of course but the groups here and there are useful!
I posted both in a more general group and a queer housing group, and i said a lil more about myself in the queer group, but you can also use your post to explicitly or gently filter out ppl you dont wanna live with. personally i did purposefully mention being autistic offhandedly just to hopefully filter out ppl wholl be cunts about that (made a lil comment about "im autistic and a super picky eater, so i wont eat your food lol"), you can explicitly say you dont wanna roomie who has pets/smokes/etc, stuff like that.
(oh, also, if you have a long abandoned facebook acct/need to make a new one, that can sometimes look a lil sus so maybe straight up say "i dont use facebook but i can give you one of my other socials if you want to snoop")
look around the website/group for examples from other people on what to include (max rent, apartment layout prefs, area, whether you already have a place picked out or not and if you'd be willing to apartment hunt w someone, timeframe, etc)
and of course actually say a lil about yourself in the listing. I know thats nerve wracking and all but eh, people wanna have a vague idea of you beforehand. List some of your hobbies/interests, normal boring stuff like that.
talk about how clean you are. and how clean you want your roomie to be. neat freaks and gross ppl may be Incompatible. "i can keep the common area clean but my rooms gonna be a mess" was my thing, and roomie is sameish, which works out!
make a listing, in multiple places if possible, and both see who contacts you and browse other peoples listings. this is defo a time to get over that fear of being the first to say hi! if someone lists a super sweet set up at a good price tho and gets 20 likes dont be surprised if they dont respond lmao, might have a waitlist going
(OH YEAH and if u havent used facebook in 10 years be aware on mobile theres a separate messaging app and you might miss ppl messaging bc of the stupid "pending" tab or whatever. a lotta ppl in the group specifically also commented "messaged!" on posts ig to just say "HEY CHECK THE OTHER STUPID APP IF IT DIDNT GIVE YOU A NOTIF", i found it REALLY easy to miss messages for a bit)
SCAMS EXIST! be cautious, dont just send ppl a "$500 deposit" off the bat, make sure you meet people IN PERSON and preferably talk to whoever you're gonna be renting from (like the leasing office if its an apt complex, or just the landlord) first before signing whatever someone on facebook sends u
as usual meet ppl in person in public places like coffee shops and tell ppl where you're going espec if you're going to look at the rental etc etc, same safety rules for meeting anyone from the internet
if you got any responsible adults in your life (like parents/family/friends who have more experience renting) just talk shit thru w them. maybe they can literally help u look at any contracts if you're not used to reading them, or maybe just chat w them about how shits going so they can just be like "oh yeah that all sounds normal they sound cool" or "YEAH THATS A RED FLAG".
oh yeah, make sure you READ YOUR LEASE. i know we all just Agree To The Terms And Conditions all the time but yeah contracts should be read. even if you dont read every word at least skim it, make sure u read the big things like the money numbers (and stuff like uh. how much notice the apt requires on move out. recently fucked over by that! 🙃). check for extra fees and numbers that are different than discussed. dont just sign whatevers put in front of you!!
think about how much Stuff you have. are you moving out for the first time and have Jack Shit? well, you probs wont have conflicts like "whos couch do we keep?" which is nice. do you currently live on your own and have p much all your own furniture? might be a lil issue if your roomie is also established! just st you gotta work out with your roommate, and if nothing else you could always get a cheap storage locker to set aside shit you dont wanna get rid of til you know its gonna work out long term. if its st important, maybe say it in your listing. personally i noted in my listing "i got a big ass couch i dont wanna get rid of" and my roommate specifically contacted me like "oh yeah the couch is chill" so all twas fine 👍
and like. try to talk shit out w your roomie when issues arise instead of letting shit boil over. gotta get good at this myself!
sorry for being long and disorganized but those are just a few of the things that popped into my head lol, +anyone else w more roomie searching experience has any advice on the matter feel free to chime in! im not really an expert or nothin but also feel free to ask more questions, i can at least try to answer!
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theres this litttle diologue moment in a game i like that just briefly comments on a form of ableism i dont think people talk about enough and if i dont fucking mention it to someone i will implode so you're dealing with it now :3
so in Kindergarten 2 theres this thing where one of the characters (Nugget, who's implied to be neurodivergent in some way) is able to use the physical disability ramp since 'he's disabled' (note: not physically) and that just theres so much to that and note: this is a game that fucking digs into the school system in subtle yet noticable ways so this isnt ableist writing its fucking pointing out school ableism by lack of personal accomodations and how schools just slap every disabled kid into the same general accomodations that probably dont work for any of them and sure the knowledge that Nugget can go to the disability ramp area is rlly only used for missions theres still that jab and a specific bit of it i wanna mention: so the player can ask nugget if he's handicapped and he says 'well they think so' (or smth along those lines) which 1st off another jab at how schools mistreat any kids who are different whether it be due to disability or not but also i feel like its meant to say 'they think i need these accomodations even though i dont' like do you understand i cant explain it well but just just its smth on the mind im not normal about this the game series i used to be obsessed with and am being obsessed with again jabbed at that and im way too impressed over that basic fucking decency in a game that is built on kinda jabbing at the school system im sorry i think its the trauma of schools mistreating me due to disabilities getting me so not normal about this cuz it just hits a spot in a way i guess
sorry for the askbox rant i needed to get this out there somewhere and nobody else would understand
[id: an anonymous ask reading: “hi same anon who sent that little thing about a snippet of diologue from a game you've probably never heard of that you probably already deleted here to say im like 70% sure i forgot to specify the neurodivergency coding, while in both games, was specifically about Kindergarten (the first game in the series) cuz in the 2nd game he does end up physically disabled in some routes (arm getting ripped off via partially nonsensical reasons but my whole fixation on the diologue's meaning still mostly stands- tho it could also just be a line foreshadowing what happens to his arm but yk”. /end id]
yeah schools are not great at all at treating disabled students well. they love to say they’re accessible when in reality they have one type of accommodation they slap on every disabled student no matter what disability they have lol
my school absolutely sucked at accommodating my disabilities, though i wasn’t considered physically disabled back then, that was about non physical disabilities. so i have no direct experience of that specific type of ableism myself, only from what i’ve heard from others.
and feel free to rant whenever, i love to listen 😌
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did you ever need to take sth like antidepressants for anxiety or panick attacks? I recall you speakin about having dealth with them in the past & been wonderin if you ever tried medicating urself for it / would consider it if your nerves were getting too much 4 u at some point down the line or did you develop ur own way around those little&big pits of hell
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heyyyyy <3 (this will b long but this question deserves a thorough answer so hope thats ok)
ive been strongly encouraged to take various medications over the years, particularly for anxiety/mood stabilisation, and twoish weeks ago i ended up in hospital cause literally i lost my mind, and i felt so out of it that thats the first time i ever considered not just wanting, but needing medication in order to function. however, i didnt, cause i dont like making decisions in the moment (desperation leads to desperate decisions) and because before that experience and even during it, ive never felt convinced that medication was the solution to the problems i was facing. 1) due to the physical, mental and emotional side effects. & 2) because im not convinced the people prescribing the meds even know what is 'wrong' with me.— a lot of that has to do with the nhs being a mess, (its quicker to get meds than wait thru the referral time to get diagnosed & into therapy) but also, theres a lot of comorbidity in the diagnosis ive been given, so there are multiple things to treat & in their eye's medication gives a faster result than unpacking all of that individually. the recommendation was to put me on a cocktail of drugs that can fuck up my liver kidneys and endocrine system to 'see if it will work' .. :/.
the only thing that has ever worked for me is sitting with myself and my emotions, acknowledging them, doing things at my pace in my time, and structuring my life in a way that is tailored for me and my success rather than being successful in the world or in a socially accepted way. that means having a morning routine that caters to my mental emotional and physical health, (mindful practices, yoga, gardening, sound work etcetc), and finding ways to continue that throughout the day (working creatively and limiting my exposure to people or situations that are not for me/overstimulate me).
that being said, this routine (which is still being refined and altered) works pretty well for me, but comes with sacrifices and isnt fool proof. symptoms of my mental illness still persist & without being medicated people are less lenient when helping someone they feel isnt 'helping themselves', im also still working on how to be as sociable as id like to be, and often my spirals are triggered by the very system i have in place to help me. i often face feeling like a let down, like im lazy, like im a weirdo/recluse, like im incapable of being a normal person etc etc. for example, a lot of the friends i graduated with have experienced crazy growth in their careers and have a sense of social and financial security that i dont have because they can function year round, whereas i have months at a time where i dont feel myself and have to disappear in order to keep sanity and peace in my being, lol. that, and the fact that it takes me a lot of base maintenance and effort to function as a normal person makes me feel like shit if i let it, so i constantly have to remind myself on top of the work i do daily, that whilst there are things others have/experience, that i dont, the inverse is also true, and theres beauty to me being me in my way. and .. yeah 🤷🏽♀️. that part is hard. but its also worth it to me and has taught me a lot
all that being said, do your own research and decide what feels right and what is best for YOU. speak to your doctors, therapists, and friends who may be medicated, or look on forums online for perspectives from both sides. [*if anyone reading this has a helpful opinion 2 offer pls comment]. the feeling of helplessness when your in the throws of whatever mental illness you suffer from can be debilitating and if taking a pill everyday or when you need it can fix that, no ones opinion should sway you from doing what you need to do to function. some of my friends who are medicated swear by medication!! (particularly when it comes to adhd meds) cause not being able to process thoughts and function is horrible and ruins lives needlessly.
so yh.. i hope this helps. as long as you do whats best for you, i have no doubt you will find your way through this and that it will be worth it. above all, know that the power of your will, your mind, and your person, is what makes you special, and so even if it takes more for you to show up than it does others, that's absolutely fine. take your time with it, and know what nothing is wasted, because you have no idea the good that can come from working out the details. most of the advice i have to offer comes from making it thru an existential crisis or bout of depression. <3
blessings 2 u love
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forgive my ignorance, I know this is a male reader blog but why can't fem-aligned people interact at all?
all is well dear! i'm open to answering anything and everything. you're welcome in my inbox anytime.
i realized this got a bit long so i'm going to put it under read more. if you want any clarification on this, please ask!
personally, from my own experiences on this site, a lot of my male reader fics (and just male reader fics in general) are constantly fetishized by fem-aligned people. the gross asks ive received or even tags in the comments along the lines of: "mlm stories are so hot, its better when its gay, etc". even things that are just so obviously fetishizing (ex: fujos, yaoi, but honestly thats a bit of a grey area: im sure we all have an idea of who im talking about in mind when i say fujos who fetishize actual gay men vs. people who like BL). i've seen instances where people ask for trans m readers, just because they don't see trans men as men, making it (in their eyes) a fem reader fic.
i make content for my fellow masc-aligned people simply because theres barely anything for us out there. i want to write male readers exclusively since theres so little for masc readers to enjoy, NOT for fem-aligned people to fetishize. i write my silly little stories so me and the boys can have a giggle.
also, i constantly get asks asking why i don't do fem readers, and to put it simply, my content isn't for you. especially with y/n fics, its very predominantly fem-reader, and while there isn't anything wrong with that - i would like to somehow try to balance it out with my fair share of masc-readers. silly little self insert fics should be for everyone to enjoy. i would simply prefer if fem-aligned people didn't exactly interact with my posts because of past harassment. from weird fetishizing asks, tags, and requests, it just makes me uncomfortable. i want to reiterate i have nothing against fem-aligned people, authors, or fics.
now, i don't comb through or check every person that interacts with me. i simply don't have the time. i can't stop you if you are fem-aligned and silently read my fics. i'm not out to witch hunt or start calling out authors for writing fem readers. thats ridiculous and not my point at all. i am truly just a silent author who posts every once in a while, and would love not to be jumpscared with the most bizarre fetishizing messages in my askbox.
its a bit of a rare policy, so i understand the confusion and questions. thats okay! asking questions is how we can all learn. i still have so much to learn, too. i am very lenient with lots of these things, so as long as you're respectful you can send asks and what not even if you are fem-aligned. but please: respect my rules, preferences, and the content i make.
tldr: no fem-aligned because of past harassment, but im not strict about it so i dont really care if you interact. just be a decent human being.
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Rising Storm reread!
Overall, 9.5/10, thoughts at the bottom of the post. Half point removed for having an odd pacing, not much technically happened but also a lot happened as well, i always think the events of this one are in forest of secrets.
Prolouge
Huh, they actually foreshadow the second arc and skyclan, neat
Careful Runningnose, i dont like the way you phrased that
Ooo spooky omens, i like it
Chapter 1
Im retracting my statement from last book, i dont like cloudpaw
Tigerclaw was banished a quarter moon ago
Might be harsh, but fireheart's right, cloudpaw's gotta learn respect for the prey
More exposition, but placed better, feels more like his memories than the authors
Willowpelt is expecting
Why have ash and fern not been apprenticed yet, their a moon older than cloud
Thank you whitestorm for helping our boy with patrols
In fireheart's defense, its hard to keep track of where one cat is, nevermind a whole clan
Aww hi brightpaw
So mistlekit is still alive, eh? Kit survived the whitecough bought
Unfortunatrly the elders werent incorrect in their worry
I like this start, the writing is far smoother
Chapter 2
"Your eyes have always betrayed your heart" i really like that line
Fireheart being scared of a kitten is shockingly in character, same tom who overthought a mossball comment
I like the implication that bluestar and leaders generally visit the nursery a lot
Ah, theres the slightly jarring exposition
I love whitestorm so much
I know it wasnt canon at the time of writing the book, but i like that whitestorm's the one to be concerned, thsts his auntie
Honestly i can't blame bluestar for losing trust so fast, being backstabbed like that can really mess with your head, i've seen it happen
But thats also really sad, she was so happy to announce cloudpaw's ceremony last book
Cloudpaw has been an apprentice for a half moon
Fireheart, lets not continue with the pity
Cinderpaw was made yellowfang's apprentice a moon and a half ago
From an author persepctive, not a fan of cinderpaw's worry here, but from a character perspective, i understand her, its a lot to learn, especially at such a young age with people's health at stakr
Ok i understand why he chose darkstripe instead of sandstorm, no need to risk more clan unease at the moment, but god i hope he explains this rationally to sandstorm
Chapter 3
I know bluestar's aggression is a bad thing, but she's got a point, two attacks in one moon means you gotta keep some around
Cloudpaw being annoying, as usual
Ash and Fern, yay!
Chapter 4
Oo, i like the imagery of that nightmare
Ah, here's bluestar's...not mania, i dont think thats the word, but impulsiveness, maybe
Haha runningwind doesn't like cloudpaw, cant blame him
I like bluestar in book 2 was like "runningwind is a good cat but he wouldnt be good with apprentices" and he keeps getting stuck with apprentices
Chapter 5
Exposition part 3
Even with her mind clouded, her instincts are sharp
Yay bluestar's happy
Oh nevermind
Ah, hello mudclaw, not the last time your gonna cause trouble
Bluestar no-
Chapter 6
Goddamn it cloudpaw
Both runningwind and fireheart are increasingly exasperated with him
Fireheart, your the most patient cat on earth for putting up with cloudpaw for so long, lets hope it pays off
Chapter 7
Quarter moon since the moonstone attempt
Graystripe has been in riverclan for nearly a moon
Greenleaf is furball season
Stop looking at him, your making him nervous
Chapter 8
Ok, wildly abrupt time cut
Littlecloud was 3 moons old when he was apprenticed in the first book
Jesus, poor kit
Damn, i feel bad for these two
This whole time and no one was aware of these paths?
Chapter 9
Not sure how i feel about this new sandstorm
Oh look Fireheart, cloudtail took your advice from the first book
Chapter 10
I know hes written as arrogant, and he is very arrogant, but his confused look there gives me "autist who needs a rule to be explained far more bluntly" vibes, as one myself
Willowpelt's kitting
Aw no poor cinderpaw
Oh, cinderpelt. When'd she get her name?
Two she-cats and a tom, eh? Alright, rain, soot, which of you is the trans tom?
Bit of an awkward transition to the next day there, but alright
Two moons since the last rain
Chapter 11
Aw, cinderpelt
Fireheart cant stay mad at his baby sister forever
Sandfire advenetures!
Cloudpaw no!
Chapter 12
Okay, bad wording fireheart, but sandstorm turned way too quickly
Oh, poor ash
Chapter 13
Aw, ashfur, babie boy. Im gonna hate you next arc
Ok good, bluestar still has some wisdom in hef
Fireheart please take cinderpelt's advice, let spottedleaf go
Chapter 14
Brackenfur's not stupid, he can see u like her, fireheart
Aw, whitestorm's so concerned for his aunt
Im just picturing bluestar lying on her side, sadly licking dew from individual leaves
Chapter 15
Willowpelt not being forced into mother or warrior solely, for the win!
Oh no, runningwind!
Ah shit, there goes whitethroat
Tigerclaw u fucker
Chapter 16
GET HIS ASS FIREHEART
Skinny tigerclaw is a cursed image
Whitestorm to the rescue!
And greystripe!!
Chapter 17
I love how considerate fireheart is
Uh oh, bluestar, please stay calm
I think the writers got confused on mourning rituals, isnt it those closest to the dead that sit vigil?
Still, poor runningwind
Thornpaw, buddy! You've been given absolutely no characterization so far, poor guy, the neglected littermate
Yellowfang's reminded of Brokenstar, isnt she
Chapter 18
Aw, brackenfur playing with the kits
What ever happened to the "dont eat on hunting patrols" thing he was critizing cloudpaw about earlier?
Ravenpaw!!! My buddy!!!
Oh lord, exposition
Cloudpaw's been missing for a quarter moon
Chapter 19
Goddamn why is sandstorm so quick to fight with him
I see where shes coming from, dont leave the clan unguarded to go pick up your nephew from a twoleg nest, but have like, a reasonable discussion at least
...au where brightpaw comes across tigerclaw during the journey back to camp and gets kidnapped or killed
He has his own territory!! Good for you, dude!
Chapter 20
Thunderclan tree scaling skills coming in handy again
Why is sandstorm so harsh against ravenpaw???
Im glad ravenpaw has confidence, and a lot of it, given he just willingly alerted dogs to himself
Chapter 21
Cloudpaw better be on a redemption arc now, i really want to like him
Deadfoot nooo
Haha webpaw said fuck that
Aw, ashpaw, cutie
Hell yeah, more elders liking cloudpaw content
Chapter 22
Bluestar's memory is fading isnt it
Ok good cloudpaw's improving
I love these nightmares and omens, shame ive never seen fanart for them
Chapter 23
Ah, the fire, time for heartbreak
Ough, the image of patchpelt trying to drag halftail to saftey
I know yellowfang dies this book but shes gotta be alive! Shes just gotta!
Au where yellowfang survives and teaches leafpool
Chapter 24
Nooo, patchpelt!
Au where bluestar dies instead of yellowfang
Huh, they remembered mistlekit's existence, but not the fact she should definitely be an apprentice by now
Chapter 25
Ah good, leopardfur's softening a bit
Aw, smallear wanting to bury patchpelt
I'd be neat if one of the willowkits got asthma from this, but i know they dont
Chapter 26
Darkstripe you dick
Yess dustpelt becoming likeable
Bluestar's getting worse, isnt she
Storm and Feather! Babies!
Chapter 27
I like crookedstar
God, it really is destroyed, huh
Poor halftail
This is horrific, one of the worse deaths, if shes still conscious when fireheart finds her, she was probably conscious all night
"I wish you had been my son, but i could not have borne a cat like you" god.
Oh god, the image of fireheart desperately talking over her, knowing shes gone, ough
Chapter 28
I cant even blame bluestar here, i'd break from this too
Rip yellowblue shippers (fangfur? Bluefang?)
Three quarter moon
Chapter 29
I think cloudpaw has gotten "my boy!" status
Whitestorm's such a good warrior, man, i love him
Darkstripe's a dick part ???
Chapter 30
Gorsepaw!!!
Tallstar!!!
See, this is why i love firestar, he didnt have to tell runningnose personally, he could've just announced it
Ohoho, hello tigerclaw, you evil fucker
My thoughts
9.5/10, technically a lot happened but it also felt like nothing happened, so half a point off. I liked it though, the writing is holding up so far, everyone's mostly in character- aside from sandstorm's flip-flopping- and the fire scenes were brutal. Not necessarily my favourite so far, but high up
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alice, ever since i’ve held witness to nothingness, i can’t see life the same way anymore.
thinking seems to have split from it’s roots and now only revolves around pattern-seeking and contrast theories. resilience is honestly my only redeemable trait, but that can easily convert to stubbornness, so whos to say? sin tends to line every choice of mine, its fucking disgusting. you’d think i would’ve learnt my lesson by now. gross sickly slimy incapable child
when i was little, my step-dad would often shoot birds. he’d aim for families, try to take them out in one shot. i’d cry but it didn’t deter him. another dwindling bit of irony, i managed to cry for birds but not for his victims. i was a child, its fine, whatever. it’s honestly stupefying the fact he bought an illegally imported weapon just to fucking kill birds, what a cunt
but it’s fine, it’s all fine.
because nothingness is bliss.
in the mildest way my mind could process the ‘experience’, it was the kindest thing to ever happen and simultaneously not happen to me. it was beautiful, the way my mind remembers something that never occurred is so beautiful. it’s calming, it’s grounding, because it’s true, it’s real. i’d be blessed to stay that way, even if my sore rotting mind becomes incapable of remembering.
i can only wish for similar fates for everyone i care about. Alice, you don’t UNDERSTAND how fucking amazing it is. It’s so fucking beautiful I cant put it into words, and I never tried to, not in-person anyway.
people like my step-father are exactly reasons why nothingness is gorgeous. his actions exist as one, the man who happily made us breakfast in the morning, the first man child me dared to trust after EVERYTHING that happened and then simultaneously being a creepy stalker, abusive murderer if not months later. I knew he was bad, but not that bad, violence is just a part of life, can i really ..?????????? i dont know. i will never justify him. i didn’t care when it was just violence because it bred money and money was what we needed the most
my cat came back today! i wasn’t sure if he was hurt after the recent snow. i was going to go out looking for him, i dont even know what to comment about that. OBVIOUSLY i was gonna look for him but also,, not so obviously you know? maybe i was just telling myself i would do it and then never do? i waited 2 days with barely an afterthought so? how can i be sure that makes me a redeemable person? maybe i was just lying? how should i know т_т i need something to make me feel feelings that are more exact, precise, maybe then ill feel like i used to again
i replayed the arcana today! i nearly cried at the nostalgia, fictional worlds are so picturesque, why is real life so dull and bitter +_+ but i have to keep going !! its the gift !! some gift !! that i will never fully understand!!!!!!! but im meant to keep going anyway !!
relationships in media are so bitter. perfect friendships, lost and found and family and trust, things irl always work out but they never *work out*. theres never some adventure, just grisly grappling with your circumstances; you come out of it “okay, i guess” and that’s the best story you’ll have for decades. the fact theres no after to an end, just continuous days and days and days with days and days and days worth of issues is paralysing. it just doesn’t stop
i wish i could stop time. the closest thing i’d have to that nothingness. if i could, i’d just sleep, finally sleep GOOD sleep for the first time. i want to wake up feeling refreshed, i want to sleep feeling safe, knowing everything is still around me. time doesn’t pass, im free of its constraints. no what where when, sun rising night falling, next day 3am 4am 7, just me and me. nothing but me and warmth of my bed. my whole family is safe, they are safe because everything is incapable of being otherwise. even if being actively attacked, that victim is left to linger in never-fleeting moments, peace and solidity for once. time is cruel, but i don’t want to bore you with overused metaphors so i’m sure you can interpret it yourself.
so pessimistic today
your regretful childhood friend,
they miss you
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Okay, Im pretty sure Ive reached the point at which I originally stopped watching so. yay
To celebrate this occasion I thought I should talk a little about some of the complaints Ive seen about the finale in my for you tab because yeah, I just cant resist looking at it so Ive been spoiled pretty severely and also been dealt a good amount of psychic damage. But hey, its about the journey, not the destination and Im already in Advanced Therapy for my mental illnesses anyway
The two most complaints Ive seen are, it wasnt cathartic and it sends a terrible message. Now, I cant comment on the catharsis bc I havent watched it yet and also Im not even sure if that would be a deal breaker for me. Like, anti-climaxes can be very powerful, Schlatts death is one of my favorite moments in the entire dsmp düfor that exact reason. But that all depends on the execution so I'll save my more detailed thoughts for after Ive actually watched it
The complaint that I wanted to talk about in more detail now is the one about it 'sending a terrible message'
I spend a lot of time watching and analyzing kids shows specifically on the basis of "is this a good show for kids?" Like, kids will watch anything you put in front of them bc they dont know any better so I think its important to put something in front of them that encourages creativity, critical thinking and sends messages of compassion good and other things I cant think of off the top of my head. When analyzing kids shows like this its very important to keep that target demographic in mind because what kids like and need is often different from what teens and adults would consider well-written and thats fine. Theres plenty of kids media that can be enjoyed by teens and adults as well, but its perfectly fine for kids media to only cater to kids and even be actively boring for older demographics.
Keeping the fact that kids media should be analyzed differently than more mature media because its written differently, I dont think it controversial of me to say that, unlike kids media, media for teens and adults doesnt need to teach anything. The way I see it, kids media has messages while adult media has themes. Obviously theres a bit more nuance to this, but Im not trying to write an essay here, Im trying to complain about fandom shit
And I know this might be a hard pill to swallow for some people bc this is the internet where 7 year olds and 17 year olds are basically the same because theyre both "minors" with absolutely no nuance, but teenagers arent children and theyre not so impressionable that seeing a character in a minecraft roleplay be sympathetic towards their abuser is gonna suddenly make them forgive their own abusers if they didnt want to do that before or make them blind or to IRL abuser or whatever man, I dont even really know what exactly the concern is. Like, idk how to tell you this but the line between fiction and reality is not that thin and if the media someone consumes affects them that much theyre either very young or there are some underlining issues that storytellers are not obligated to account for.
Not to mention that dsmp is a story told from a bunch of different perspectives by a bunch of unreliable narrators who are all varying levels of shitty. Like, in kids shows the protagonists and the non-anatgonist supporting characters are role models and vehicles to teach messages, that doesnt fucking apply here, theyve literally made jokes about everyone being an unreliable narrator i dont know why anyone would think this is the kind of series where theyre actively trying to impart some kind of lesson, its literally Fucked Up Shit Happens feat, Fucked Up People: The Minecraft Roleplay
To end this weird long rant, Id like to say that I do understand why people would be upset with the ending (from the details I was able to gleam anyway) and as much as I think complaining about the 'bad message' is invalid and frankly kindof weird, being upset is still totally fine and valid.
Also, if you'd like to discuss this with me I'd appreciate it if you didnt spoil me any further. Like yeah, I already know the broad strokes but I'd still like to have a semi-'organic' experience watching this yknow
Anyway, have a nice day
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hi bae its been a v long time 🥹🥹 ive been rly busy catching up w my own life and i sorta stopped my kpop phase in nov but i am back as happy as ever being a sunwoo biased 🤭🤭
i see u have a new series !!!!!! im so excited(this is an understatement tbh im even more hyped than that) its been so boring wlo anyth fun to readd++i rly like ur writing style:)) can i know when is the first chap gna b uploaded hehe ofc no rush🙆♀️🙆♀️ i hope uve been doing great and taking care of urself !!! rly missed reading ur ffs they make me happy idk how many times ive re read blurred lines;(
i saw tbz's stage yesterday for daejeon and i went crazy bro tbz in a racecar concept?!?!?!?!?!? i didnt think that ill live to a day where i see KIM FREAKING SUNWOO in that kind of outfits AND his starting for his cover stage oml kill me alr i love him too much im gg feral fhebdubefins and we cant forget ab him in the bear costume he made my day😤😤 theres so many things i wna talk about him but i dont rly have friends to do that cause their js gna judge me LMAO but if i do it here my msg is gna b fr long af so ill save u a hassle unless ur rly interested 😋😋
thanku for reading this and have a great day/night/afternoon/evening aheaaaad 🙆♀️🙆♀️
photo creds from twt !!(oops the first photo isnt vertical)
OMG HELLO!!! WELCOME BACK, MY FELLOW SUNWOO STAN!! ❤️❤️ I understand the need to take a break and focus on life, but I'm also so happy you've been drawn back into the fold lol 😈😈
Asdfghjkl 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️ thank you so much for missing/liking my writing!! Also, I have good news!! The first chapter is already out 🤭🤭 (I'm responding to this late, I'm so sorry ❤️), and I'm currently working on chapter 2 right now!!
I haven't read Blurred Lines since writing it, but I've been LIVING thanks to the comments on Wattpad lmao. They lose their minds over certain things that happen and it's always so funny 😂😂
*keyboard smash but I won't actually type since I've already done it once*
I AM NOT MENTALLY PREPARED TO TALK ABOUT SUNWOO AND WHAT HES BEEN DOING LATELY!! THE NO DIGGITY VIDEO?? THE 2 ON TIKTOK?? DAEJEON?!?!? NO. THE MAN IS A MENACE 😭😭 I'm done with him.
The bear costume!! Please!! I was crying laughing 💀💀💀 he's so funny. I love him 😭😭😭. Also, I'm ALWAYS WILLING TO TALK/LISTEN ABOUT SUNWOO!! ALWAYS!! COME TO ME!! TELL ME THE THINGS!!
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maize and fog for the ask game <3
Maize: Weirdest encounter you've had with a stranger on the street.
I live out in the middle of no where and im never in public so i dont have a lot of encounters with strangers, BUT,,,,.
A few weeks ago I was walking somewhere from my college and as previously stated, I dont have much experience with being in cities and towns and stuff so like i have no idea what your doing in terms of pedestrian etiquette and how you interact with cars when your walking and stuff like that.
So this place i was going was like a block (??? wtf does a 'block' even mean?) from my college and I have to cross a really busy road to get there but it has one of those like slanted line things across the road and i think cars are supposed to stop when someone is crossing one of those. (atleast i always stop, someone really needs to take my liscence away i dont know who decided to give it to me). And so there was this car that was stopped to let me cross and they like waved me across and so i was like ' oh okay' and went to cross but there was another car like right beside them and they were both parked like a weird distance away from the line thing and so i walked in front of the first car and when i got in front of the second car that I didnt see they like slammed on the freaking gas and i was like two feet from getting hit with a freaking car, and the girl driving looked like the middle aged Karen type and she was just glaring at me the entire time and i dont know what happened, like if i wasnt supposed to cross or if this girl was trying to kill me or what but i swear my life flashed before my eyes.
The other person who waved me over was a dude and he asked me if i was okay and everything and he ended up going to the same place i was going and he paid for my food and was really nice, his name was Josh and yeah.
I don't know if that qualifies as 'weird' but its the first thing that came to mind.
I made a comment or a post or something about me having no idea how to cross a street and almost getting hit by a car while i was on my way to a restaurant thing to write ihiap chapter 10 (i think) and thats what happened. But like i genuinely dont know if that was my fault or not, so yeah.
Fog: How well do you think you'd do in a zombie apocalypse.
So im one of those people who never fully understood why people put so much effort into surviving the apocalypse. Like there's nothing else to live for, you cant tell me dying would be worse than literally having no life and living in fear of literal monsters and all your friends and family dying and the potential that they will all die at any given moment. Like whats the point??? In all reality I would probably not even put an effort into trying to live, its just not worth the effort it would take to survive.
You know those people who talk about going so far to 'protect their freedom' that when you actually think about it, they're not actually free? Like people threatening to live out in the middle of the woods to hide from the government if vaccines become actually required or they take away their guns or something. Like you're willing to take every bit of joy and activity because of this 'freedom' being taken away?? Doesnt make sense.
I would rather die than know that there's no way im ever going to be safe or feel joy or having to fight that hard for my survival. Some might say im weak for it, but im just not a survivor i guess.
But to entertain the quesiton, if I did genuinely try I think I would be able to survive. I live so close to the Appalachian mountains, my plan for any type of disaster like that is to just start hiking. It's so unexplored and theres places that are so isolated that the probability of anyone being close enough to you to be a threat is very slim.
Im also very good at being alone. Like I have like three people that I would trust in that situation, and I dont care about other people enough to take the risk of letting others tag along. I think I would be like a 'secondary leader' and i come from a family of fishers, hunters, trackers, farmers, you know the type. And so i think i would be able to provide for myself well enough.
#asks#eels i can always count on you to give me attention#this is why your my favorite#i got way more into the zombie one than i thought i would.#i swear im not one of those people who sits around contemplating this stuff.#max thinks shes relevant#eels tag
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hi!! lets talk abt boone/arcade fanfic and the issue of depicting gay men as perverted/predatory :)
lets start out by touching on the stereotype of gay men being predatory/inherent perverts
theres an awful trend within media where queer characters; gay men, lesbians, and bisexual, and trans people alike, are depicted as, you guessed it, perverted and predatory. especially towards straight characters. lusting after them, flirting with them despite the other character is showing clear discomfort, even going as far as sexually harrassing, both verbally and physically, them. it stems from the perceived notion that queer people are inhentally oversexual beings. that being oversexual goes hand in hand with lgbt+ identities. its often the reason why some cishet people, upon learning a colleage of theirs is queer, immeditely thinks that that colleague is now dead set on having sex/starting a relationship with them.
you may be asking "okay so what does this have to do with boone/arcade fanfic" the answer is, surprisingly: a lot!!!
ive read just about every single boone/arcade fanfic on ao3, which granted isnt many. something ive noticed is that people LOVE depicting arcade as a horny, perverted, has-no-boundries teen and boone as a straight laced straight boy who uses arcade as, pardon my crass language, a hole to use for stress relief. and dont get me wrong, pure smut fics arent inherently bad, but you have to be very mindful considering that one of the characters is canonically gay. fuck bro, you have to be mindful period when it comes to queer ships. unintentional usage of harmful stereotypes is rampant in fandom. i always get very wary of non gay men authors write about gay male relationships, and especially about gay sex. i hate to gatekeep a whole ass sexuality but some of you just dont get it. not to mention, the trend of boone being a "its just one man"/arcadesexual (honestly same tho) kinda guy. as if the idea of him being queer is unfathomable. i promise you that straight boys dont fuck their gay friends nearly as much as you think.
on a more personal note, thinking of my own experience as a gay man who's been through. A Lot. when it comes to sexual relationships. i have to say that the diluted, watered down plot of "gay man turns straight guy" is uhmmm gross!! the idea of arcade making so many sexual comments to boone and coming on to him in such a casual way is really upsetting and follows the line of inherently over sexual gay men. the idea that gay men dont care if the men they are attracted to are straight or not, theyll harass them till the goddamn cows come home. the trend of gay men pushing and pushing and pushing till their an inch away from being punched. that they dont care about peoples boundries. the tone deafness of it all is palpable. not to mention a huge mischaracterized of arcades character, as well as boones to a certain degree.
actually, lets talk more abt that :) people also love to warp arcades personality and characterization to fit the plot of the story theyre writing. its as if they forget that he's a whole ass 35 year old man. a full grown adult man with three decades worth of life experience as a gay man. as if he doesnt have a very clear personality type and how it affects his sexuality. its insane!! despite having the highest charisma out of all the companions, i promise you that hes not as suave and smooth talking as you all make him out to be. hes just old and has experience. thats off topic tho hold on gimme a hot min.
hes also a full on wasteland genius. he most likely knows the nuance and egg shell walking that comes with being a queer man, around a straight boy, especially in a place so fucked and shit as post apocalyptic america. major knight, who's most likely not a ten intelligence, is full aware and wary of how the west view queer people. so the idea of arcade flirting with a perceived cishet man (from the ncr no less !!!) is the wildest notion ive seen in the fandom. almost middle aged old ass man arcade knows better than to do that and people discard that for the situation of "gay man flirts with 'straight' guy and makes him haha uncomfortable with no concern for the result of his unwarranted actions" the idea that he would disregard someones comfort to that level makes me wonder if yall ever leave ur bedrooms and interact with real people. not to mention the idea of boone just. accepting these come ons. that he just puts up with it and lets it happen, regardless of how he feels. which is even worse when you realize thats exactly how he would respond. he would just let himself be uncomfortable. or, worse, giving in not bc he reciprocates but again bc hes just horny. giant mischaracterization and also straight boys don't do that.
but anyway, its late, and i feel this is more of a directionless ramble than a well thought out critism piece. but i wanted to get out my thoughts and maybe help people realize this kinda uncommon, but still harmful, thing within the fanfic community.
#arcade gannon fnv#arcade gannon#craig boone#craig boone fnv#fnv#fallout new vegas#stupid gay man gatekeeps his sexuality because yall dont know how to act.#long post#very long post
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The flowers was for Kawaki NOT Himawari
Istg the fact that this is even still debated is mind boggling when it couldnt have been made any clearer all because mfs dont know how to read.
Sarada says These will look perfect in Himawari’s vase
I dunno if people are purposefully being dumb or they actually cant understand basic literature but saying something will look nice in something does NOT mean they were bought for the owner of said object. Context plays a key role, you would know that if yall actually bothered to think for more than 2 seconds.
For example, Boruto bought flowers for his mother, and he put them in HIMAWARI’S vase, does that mean the flowers were for Himawari since he put them in her vase? no. Know why? because he said they were for his mother on her birthday and NONE of you questioned that regardless whose vase he put it in. But before I continue ranting I’ll keep it professional for now and address the context yall conveniently overlooked, the irrefutable proof of who the flowers were actually for.
Sarada’s face says it all here, why would she make an awkward face with a sweat drop scratching her cheek awkwardly about buying flowers for Boruto’s little sister who shes known all her life? why would she feel awkward about that? and why wouldnt she just answer Ino? all she says is Yeah, sort of...
We know she never said who it was for because Ino literally GUESSES who their for based on her reaction, if they were for Himawari Sarada wouldnt have been awkward and just said Yes these are for Himawari, she wouldnt look awkward and hesitate to tell Ino who their for UNLESS they were for someone she felt awkward admitting she was buying flowers for, aka Kawaki.
Sarada from her own mouth calls the person she bought them for a HE and says HE will probably think shes just being nosy, and whos the one guy who has called her nosy?
This is not rocket science, its just basic common sense, all this debate just because Sarada says the flowers would look nice in Himawari’s vase, WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT BORUTO THOUGHT ABOUT THE FLOWERS HE BOUGHT FOR HIS MOTHER.
My god where was this energy back then? why only with Sarada are yall going through all these mental gymnastics tryna prove she didnt buy flowers for Kawaki? the only reason you would fight THIS hard against such a simple gesture that you insist is completely platonic is because you KNOW its significance.
And to those of you who claim the flowers are in the trash, stop the cap, we dont know what happened to the flowers after they went to fight Boro, all we know is Sarada dropped them after going into shock seeing Konohamaru badly injured.
Even if they were discarded, it doesnt change the fact that she bought them for him and it doesnt change the fact that she cared enough to think of him while picking up flowers her mother bought for her father, she took upon herself to buy separate ones for Kawaki. I think thats the part that scares yall the most.
Boruto could have put the flowers in Shino’s vase for all yall cared and yall still wouldnt have questioned who it was for because he SAID who it was for, but because its flowers from Sarada for Kawaki suddenly its different.
The biggest part of all this is that the flowers were a gift from BORUTO for HIS mother on HER birthday, why would Sarada, replace a gift from someones son for her birthday, that makes absolutely no danm sense. Imagine Boruto replacing a gift Sarada bought for her mother, its just downright ridiculous. The only reason Kawaki is replacing the vase is because he BROKE it, Sarada has absolutely no relation to any of that so theres no reason for her to get involved in their family matters.
One final point about the context is what she says, that he’ll just think she’s being nosy, and what exactly did Kawaki call her nosy for in the first place?
She was staring at him which Kawaki noticed and asked her what is she looking at? his attitude was caused by 3 things leading up to this comment
1 Naruto kept insisting that Kawaki and Sarada were friends now
2 Mitsuki revealed that Sarada suggested they come there to spy on Kawaki
3 She was staring at him hard and he noticed
After Kawaki calls her nosy he immediately makes a point of telling her that he doesnt intend on becoming friends with any of them, referring back to what Naruto said, he makes clear that he rejects her offer of friendship from before, he is also irritated at her coming there to spy on him.
Notice the common theme in all this? all of this pertains to SARADA sticking her nose into HIS business, everything leading up to him calling her nosy has been HER being nosy about HIM, not anyone else.
So the only reason she would say he would think shes being nosy, is because the flowers are for HIM not Himawari. Why would he even call her nosy for buying flowers for a friend? shes known Himawari long before he has so if anything HE’D be the one whos being nosy for commenting on it.
Bottom line is yall only fighting this hard to make this a Himawari thing instead of a Kawaki one is because you yourselves know its significance, hell like yall were originally saying it could be completely platonic, but the implications of her buying flowers for Kawaki at the same time Sakura buys flowers for her husband is a bit concerning for non KawaSara shippers lol so believe me I get your concern.
But regardless of how you feel about it, the flowers were for Kawaki, deal with it.
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Crim pls do a J/N fic rec post at some point in the future I trust you more than I trust myself looking rouge through AO3
im kinda eh abt the concept of fic recs myself just bc the whole 'Different Strokes For Different Folks' thing (idk how many times someone i liked in a fandom made a fic rec list and i ended up not liking anything they posted). plus i have weirdly specific tastes and i.. .. honestly havent read a ton of joenicky fic! (i have a FAT to-read list) but ive been asked this a couple times now so i will slap together a couple joenicky fics i like (not comprehensive, i only spent like 15 minutes making this. also not in any particular order.)
Kiss Each Other Clean by moodlighting
i like this whole fic, but the last 6 or so paragraphs in particular SEND ME TO SPACE, i love cuddling. also [joe voice] nickel neekee
what you seek is seeking you by bankrobbery
i actually recced this one once before. idk its cute i just Like It. (also nicky pretending not to know english bc a customer is pissing him off is Very Funny and i love it)
with every inch of my heart by smilebackwards
i like this one a lot, i think nickys pov should Always be this tender. i dont like miscommunication trope much, (esp with joenicky) but i do like this fic-- the miscommunication in question is far-fetched but its joenicky so of course it is. just enjoy the Angst™
i love michelangelo seeing nicky all dirty and bloody after a fight and being like 'DAMN this bitch is fine' (same). (AND the fact that nicky only agrees to travel with him in the name of wasting the pope's money lmao). the fact that joe and nicky broke up But They Still Snuggle. nile knowing like 2 things about joe and nicky's breakup & pretty much immediately taking nicky's side. joe looking at the creation of adam and bein like 'EH'.
nicky carrying around his little joe drawing? nicky carrying around a spare toothbrush for booker? nicky telling little children stories about a princess locked in a coffin under the sea? ('perhaps someday, if an iron coffin is caught in a net or washed up onto the shore, they’ll remember the princess, a victim and not a monster' EXCUSE ME)
(also 'I have drawn you a thousand times since we parted. I sculpted your likeness, just so that I could pretend to cup your cheek. You are so much warmer than marble, hayati.' R O M A N C E)
Pas Un Ange by inlovewithnight
there are a lot of fics i love in a way thats like 'this fic is fun but it doesnt feel like something that would happen in the Actual Canon' (which is fine!) but this one Does feel like it could happen in The Actual Canon which is cool
this fic also has probably my favorite depiction of nicky's relationship with god/religion in any fic ive read ('[nicky's] peace had come only after walking away from faith as a competition of intensity in favor of faith as a steady compass that he followed like the beat of his heart in his chest.'). i love the whole Drama played out by the background characters and how they all have their own ideas and motivations & nicky is just kind of resigned to being caught in the middle of it.
(also love how near the beginning joe's like 'the Right thing to do in the situation would be stay at this river and help these people.... ... ....... ... .... ... anyways see ya guys later gotta go find nicky'.)
also joe chatting up a pig and the five minutes later chatting up some goats was so cute. & nicky trying to tell the baby's mother how to save it!!!! </3 AND THEY ARGUE ABOUT CHARITY on the way home (not before joe injects a comment abt nickys ass into regular conversation bc Romance™) its a bit of a sad fic tho, that poor baby 🥺
Intercession by PrincessDesire
can i interest you in some Swamp Man Nicky in this trying time?
someone recced this fic to me and i dont remember who. but note that the major character death tag is not, in fact, for a major character but for a background one. neither joe or nicky perma!die in this. also normally i dont like fics where joe or nicky are bi bc Thats Not Canon Babey but i do like this one, i love joe's relationship with Grace and how nicky's perception of that relationship gets flipped on its head halfway thru the fic. i also love joe's Weariness Of Immortality, like when joe talks about how 'youthful' nicky makes him feel. his pov just kind of Feels like an old man and i like it
theres a smut scene in this fic which im personally not big on smut scenes but theres this bit where joe tries to figure out condoms and its very cute. also 'You have many kinds of magic, Nicky. All your spells have worked.' ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°).
also i just like how WHIPPED joe is from like the first 3 seconds he sees nicky. theres one bit where nicky's like 'ill come visit you!' and joe's like 'when🥺' and nicky's like 'as soon as you like!' and joes like 'now?????🥺🥺🥺 literally come home with me???' incredible.
also the Magic System was cool. i also love how nicky just Accidentally made himself immortal. what a man. also i like this line 'it would never occur to [nicky] to attend any service that wasn’t going to have a direct outcome. Grace takes comfort from it, so maybe that’s the only outcome needed.' idk its so sweet
edit: also i cant believe i forgot the iconic line 'Yusuf is a man of two minds, one large and underutilized, the other small and underutilized.' absolutely iconic & relatable
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What would Hawks be like with a really small (like 4’9”-5’0”) s/o who basically has a heart attack everytime he makes a slightly flirty remark and is very shy and quiet who loves cuddles? I loved your hawks fic to deATH you do such a good hawks 🥺🥺
Omg I love this idea so so much!😍 I know it’s been a bit, but thank you for liking my hawks fics 🥺 I wanna write for him more, so hopefully that’ll happen soon! ☺️☺️
Hawks x reader
Music Genre: Pop | BNHA
Warnings: cussing, slight suggestive themes
*theres a part thats not that GN, so just in case Im gonna seperate it from the fic with these symbols- ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* I hope it doesnt make it hard to read!
Music Collection | Tip Jar | Requests!
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ:
It painssss meee sm but Hawks is canonly short/average height
(Like isn’t he 5’5” correct my ass if I’m wrong 😂💀)
(*Somebody corrected my ass he is 5’8” YAY🤣🤣🤣🤣)
But if he had an s/o who is SHORTER
Ohoohohohooo get ready for the constant teasing and affection
Also him being so overly protective
For some reason you being smaller than him, his hero instincts kick in and he just wants to protect you 24/7
Wanna go grab yourself lunch? Hes coming
Walking by yourself? Has his hands wrapped around your shoulder
The man is clingyyyyyyyyyyy
He just finds you so adorable-calls you “his little dove” all the time
Especially when you get flustered OH MY GOD he livessss to make you flustered
May have crossed a few lines a few times- all in good fun tho!!!
In his eyes it was good fun lmao
Like the one time you tried to buy furniture for your guys’ apartment
One of the sales associates were helping you two find a bed set for your room, showing you this nice one in one of the show rooms
And this cheeky ass guy goes “Nah, that wont do...need something a little sturdier, know what I mean?” and then nudges you with a wink
LIKE WTF KEIGO
You turn beet beet red, and the poor lady coughs and tried to ignore the comment
You never wanted to die more in your life
But get used to it though, cause this guy will do it constantly just to get a reaction out of you
Has this infactuation with grabbing your ass-
You could be minding your own business, and this dude will just grab a handful
And will not just do it at home- in public too
He’s pretty sly about it- he’ll have his arm wrapped around your shoulder like he usually does, but then slowlllyyyyy just dips his hand between your shoulder blades, tracing your spine,
and then next thing you know your squeaking in surprise cause he just groped your rear like it was nothing
His excuse is “You just looked cute- I had to!”
If you wear anything tight forming it just gets increasingly worse
Once you two were invited to this really formal hero’s gala type thing, where you had to wear a really nice dress
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*
You got this beautiful, glittering gown, a little more tight forming that your usual attire
You felt really good in it- and he took notice
Ngl when he saw you walk out in that gown he thought he was gonna go into heat early
THIS MAN GOES THROUGH RUTS FIGHT ME ON THIS
“Damn, I dont think my little bird is so little anymore,” he said gruffly, pulling into a tight hug
*cue the flusterdness
Once he sees you flustered- the dude does not stop-
like at all
“You look beautiful you know that?” “Im so lucky to have you little dove,” “Man, wish we didnt have to leave right now, Id love to get under that dress of yours-”
“HAWKS”
At this point you were stuttering from your flusterdness and you needed some relief ASAP
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*
Even though he loves to make you flustered,
making you flustered when your being clingy takes the cake
Somehting about you snuggling into him to hide your face after he tells you how beautiful you are or makes flirtatious comments is just so CUTE to him
Usually happens when he says something so flirty you literally feel all the heat rush to your head
You two were having a cuddle session one day, your legs wrapped your his waist and head just resting on his chest
And then he has the audacity to go-
“You know I love you wearing my clothes...but what Id really like if they were on the floor-hows that sound?”
That particular comment made you really off guard, and you literally gasped
You didnt want him seeing how affected you were by his words, so you ducked your face into his neck almost immediately
He can feel his heart just melting in his chest when you do that
“Aww did I make ya little too flustered, dove?” hed ask with a chuckle, petting your head
This man can never get caught off guard istg
You just mumble out a “maybe” and UGH its just so cute to him
“C’mon, babe its just me- you dont have to hide,”
Once you finally muster the courage to show him your face, you can barely keep eye contact cause youre afraid you’ll just turn into a stuttering mess on his lap
You cant hide anything from him though
He instantly notices, chuckling as he gently takes your face in his hands, brushing your cheek with his thumb
“Ya know I was only kidding, right? You dont have to do anything you dont want to, babe, ” he smiles at you with the most sweetest, endearing look on his face, his eyes lovingly looking at you
You give him a small smile, feeling a bit less flustered than before
“-but if ya want too, I wouldnt be against it....”
*dives back into his neck wiofhuiweruifhwruifhrwi-
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// TCF CHAPTER 644 - 688 SPOILERS
what if the reason the disguised hilsman suspiciously smiled when saying that he wasnt apart of the thames household / his last name wasnt thames is because thames wasnt always the original name of the household or something??
(that would explain why he smiled even when saying that he isnt involved yet saying so much about cale’s mother.. i do not think he is lying or would lie so pointlessly, no him and ron are too alike in that, but enough to be twisting the question? absolutely.)
if not then we do know he is also somehow related to the thames household, judging from his hatred towards hunters and how closely hes talked about cale’s birth mother
cale also mentioned that he wasn’t white star, but also not someone he has met before, yet still friendly to him and deruth, as well as loyal people serving the henituse family (but not to violan, judging from the way he tried to grab her neck once he was discovered)
actually speaking of their conversation together, he talked about the henituse values from an outsiders perspective but was suprisingly knowledgeable about it, not only that but talked about the duchess position and not violan herself... does he have familiarity with it, or is he just knowledgable?
not only that but being able to take down a vice captain and capture him as well as notice when someone is watching him, he isnt hostile either and seems.. old? from violans perspective... and he was able to notice (or atleast know beforehand) that deruth was replaced with white star before cale and violan were... (either familiar with deruth enough to notice or familiar enough with white star to notice/know) (679)
he was smiling as he looked towards the diary too... does he know what it means? does he recognize it?
he is related to the thames, but he is not a hunter nor have the a power similar to annual rings of life (judging from the way he talked about cale’s mother with cale, he either doesnt know that cale is a transmigiator/regressor or simply does not care enough. however judging from the way he did not ask cale who he was in cale’s body like drew did in her diary, or expose who he was in front of on and hong, or say that his time is warped like some white thing, im going to assume it is the first option)
... or perhaps maybe hes the eldest orabuni that young drew thames mentioned during the trial for the annual rings of life
“– I have this weird feeling that I will like you even though we just met! You oddly look like that half-witted fool Deruth, but you also look similarly handsome as my eldest orabuni!” (664)
(and we all know how important the things that the ancient powers’ trials’s say go) (looking at you fire of destruction and shield)
that would explain why he mentioned that deruth might be able to recognize who he is and point him out, (why ever else might deruth know him if he is not either extended family or friends to his late wife? maybe relying on similarity as sibling?) (also what does he want to say to deruth? something so important that hes faked and disguised himself coincidently when white star was running around? (and more importantly was it related to thames and the research and information the household was doing, especially with white star as a reincarnator?)
not to mention why hes so familiar to cale’s late mother (clumsy like his mother, matching scary smiles mean something bad is about to happen (and mentioning these habits was when his mother was in her youth? clearly he was close to her)) (688)
maybe atleast a family member then perhaps? maybe a relative if not the older brother.. or maybe a bestfriend (unlikely. he judged that cale definitely had thames blood.)?
...but wait..
wasnt it said that drew was the last and only surviving decendent of the thames household, which is said to have perished once she married deruth and decided not to continue the household..?
if thats so.. where exactly did her elder brother go?
(when you say eldest do you think that maybe there could be more then one older brother? or is that a translation taken wrongly..?)
AND WHAT DOES THIS MEAN
EXCUSE ME??? HELLO???
BECAUSE IM KINDA (NOT REALLY) TRYING TO READ THE LINES BETWEEN WHAT SHES SAYING HERE AND I DONT LIKE THIS
so shes saying that a group of people want to hunt the souls of people (and perferably of those that might be young and weak) and somehow couldve ended with something bad going on..?
and apparently the thames household has massacured or “used” all of these people to the point where its been “resolved” and hunters will no longer appear..?
and somehow, the red light (the light from the annual rings of life ancient power flowing into drew’s diary) is the same light of that dorph managed to identify of a person that taught him how to not only use the darkness element, but also hunt darkness elementals (667)
THE HELL DOES THIS IMPLY??
drew has the exact same “light” (the element of present and innate fate? time? or something more?) to the (presumed) hunter (THAT I THINK IS HONESTLY STILL ALIVE, MIND YOU) that hunted down darkness elementals who possessed a red light (but did not absorb it? ancient powers get absorbed right?)
she also commented that the annual rings of life (which allowed people to see the time around all living things (including people whos time is warped), as the annual rings of a tree) “needed to be apart of the Thames household to use this power properly” - (665)
while thankfully it means that white star wouldnt know how to use it either (judging from not being able to tell how time is warped besides that it is for cale and choi han), it also leaves some very interesting context for WHY THE HELL WOULD A HUNTER HAVE THIS POWER THEN??
LIKE?? IT WOULD MAKE SENSE FOR A THAMES TO HAVE IT BUT THE FALSE HILSMAN DIDNT SEEM TO HAVE IT EITHER
...so if the thames were so adament about fighting against hunters who used the souls of non-reincarnating / single lifers, why is the records and the research all full of how to destroy all of those with a “warped” time.. including those single lifers...
and depending on how detailed the information on the annual ring of life is on how to eliminate such beings.. wouldnt that mean that the thames has been studying that too alongside it..?
but when the other hunter got its “red light” while the fake hilsman didnt have make sense... unless.. the hunters were originally to have it and the thames “used” them or “resolved” or took it from them for their resea-
...im sure that that is not the case.. yeah.. that couldnt ever be the case..
this seems like seriously complicated stuff... i feel like there are chills on my back and im having lemon tea for some reason... and whatever happened made the thames going to a baron to a fallen noble... haha oh dear..
...at the very least, we can count on having his highness crown prince alberu to tell us what happens once he asks the king! yeah! im sure its nothing big to worry about and it would all be revealed in due time, theres no need to worry about that kind of stuff!
#trash of the count's family#lout of count’s family#tcf#disclaimer that this is literally all just speculation and i actually have no idea whats going on im just bsing whatever is on my mind rn#is there a spoiler type tag or whatever i could use for this? idk man its my first post here#i lowkey have no idea what im talking about but im going to pretend i do incase it all gets revealed later so i can laugh at myself#nevermind the freaking fact that raon’s present time element is a counter to fate because oh god thats totally foreshadowing to something#also im so sorry if half of the things i say looks like a clusterfrick of tumblr tags half the time#i cant wait for all of this to be revealed tho because clearly somethings going on here and i cant wait until it shows up in the future
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||How I See The Pastas||
© @frozensriracha, for some help with visuals!!
This was originally supposed to be how they looked but I decided to go for mental aspect and explain why as well PLEASE like, reblog and share your thoughts on this in the comments or inbox
Below the desciptions are images i’ve compiled and some art (if you know the creator please tell me so i can credit them) for a visual
dont forget to like reblog and share your thoughts with me, I spent a few days on this so i’d appreciate this
Jeff the Killer
So lets start with the obvious- jeffs pasty white toothpaste lookin skin
But realistically he wouldn’t be completely covered in scars
It would be blotchy, with pink fleshy patches among the burns
He most likely has contracture scars, third degree burns that turn the skin a pale white and tighten the skin
This explains his gaunt features and skin color
Now we have to take into account the vodka that was splashed on him, he’d probably have worse burns there with exposed flesh and damaged nerves
This would result in gnarly exposed skin, a damaged scalp and maybe damage to his teeth and eyes
Realistically, Jeff wouldnt have burned off his eyelids that alone would have resulted in blindness and death
Than his smile, his signatuure mark would probably be more of a gangly bloody scar mess
Pastas heal faster and aren’t really human, he’d have to recut his smile pretty frequently making it pretty jacket up because ltes be honest hes far from clean
ANd than his hait being chard black is very unlikely because as nasty as he is he s h o w e r s
not very frequnetly given his living situation and untreated burns but people can figure out how to wash hait and not much else
also i think its funny he’d shower with a plastic bag on his face to avoid getting soap in his nasty infected scars-
His hair would probably be dry and cut unevenly, more of a dark brown color with blonde undertones
Not to mention his burned scalp, hair probably wouldn’t grow there so he’d have a cool unintentional side shave
Jeff would also be a tall individual, he cant really eat, snacking on things from his victims homes giving him a more skeletal build
His personality and mindest is about as pretty as his face- but he most likely has a very screwed up headspace
Lacking in self care, maturity and sanity its fair to say he’d be a brash and violent person
Fun Fact: While researching this I learned that some versions of the joker had facial scars in the shape of a smile
Ticci Toby
So tobys age, unlike a lot of pastas, is pretty well agreed on, 19
So unlike when he was first a proxy toby most likely has stronger facial features and facial hair
Because shaving and hygiene isn’t first priority for pastas (gross-)
He stands around 5′7 and has grayish skin
Toby i feel is picky about foods, not only is it hard for him to eat its hard for him to keep food down
He’s malnourished explaining his thin figure and grayish skin
His hait is dark brown and a curlish mess, unkempt but short so it doesn’t get in his way
I’ve always seen him with a small gap in his teeth, because I can
And since toby can’t feel shit I wouldn’t be surprised if he tried to eat rocks simply because he fuckin could
So some chipped teeth that are a bit uneven
Along with his CIPA and not eating enough Toby would bruise easily and have lots of scars, from things like cutting his finger on accident or getting mauled by a racoon
I wouldn’t be surpised if some of his joints were a bit screwed up, because whenever theyd beak or fracture he wouldn’t notice, this would probably happen a lot causing them to not heal correctly
One of tobys habits is nailbiting but he cant te;; when too far is too far
His fingers may be abit odd looking, knobby and discolored nails because of how exetreme his habit is
Would most likely have bandages around his fingers frequently to prevent the habit
So theres a lot of debate about tobys cheek was it the CIPA or the car accident, I beileve the accident because his other cheek is completely fine, theres damage from the OUTSIDE to inside and considering his sister died in the accident its unlikely he survived unscathed
Fun Fact: only a small handful of people have ever been diagnosed with CIPA, less than 500 (documented) cases around the world
Bloody Painter
So Helen is often seen as quiet emo painter boy
but uh no <3
Personaly i beileve he suffers from narcisistic personality disorder, exetreme importance and that he is always victorious and gets what he wants
This sporuts from the constant heavy invalidation from classmates, toxic friends and neglect from his parents
He doesn’t hang out with people because he doesn’’t lie them its because they never let him in the past and he beileves he’s better than them
But this also links to deep rooted insecurity and social anxiety/being inept completely
Him being nice is basically so you like him, he wants validation amd admiration not love
Unlike the other pastas he’d be a more clean well kept one a helthy figure and some tattoos bevause he can
I beileve he lives in socity, finding hus victims in girls and men alike who fall for his charm
he uses hhis skill and ordinary appearance to blend in on the streets
From his behavior helen most likely keeps his hair a bit shorter and clean
He always looks his best
Has chapped, and picked at lips because of his anxieties
Aswell as his breakdowns- his identity is completely in his head, he is very unsure of who he is and takes the delusions in his mind as reality
Unrelated but paino fingers-
And finally in order for his art to be as perfect and amazing as him, he has to be apart of it
Thus using his own blood in his pieces and the body parts of those he admires
Covers his scars with clean bandgaes
But his paintings turn brown and dry out, he’s always in need of a new medium
Is most likely anemic from all the blood he looses and has a paler skintone
Clockwork
ahh yes finally someone who knows what self care is-
helen, i love you buddy but you need to stop
But anyway natalie has a stronger, athletic build
She often chases her victims and gets in altercations, relying on strength most of the time
on that same note, this would defintelty cause many scars on natalie
Wether it was a bite mark or scars from a kitchen knife, shes got lots of scars
A few even on her face
Now, for the clock in her eye that thing is like holding her skull together at this point, realistically
She is probably delicate and cares for it becaise 1) it hurts 2) if it gets screwed up that could cause a lot of problems
natalie would be a smart person, I wouldn’t be surprused if she had a few other stray stitches or bandgaes wrapped around a fresh wound
For more visual-ish things uh m u l l e t (credit: @cum-looking-sock-mf in a chat like 4 months ago)
She has one, fight me on it
but also thick and curlish hair so I also riase you
Undershave
just y e s
I can also see her getting tattoos over certain scars on her arm, just to make them look not so ugly
I feel like clockwork wishes things worked out better
Wishes for another chance but knows she’ll never get one
Thus her taking goof care of herself
Natalie throws herseld into her “work”, keeping her body in shape and killing people
Its a way to avoid her life and that it is- a huge, sad mess
Shes an outgoing impulsive individual, confident but questions her actions
She’s also unstable- protective and loyal but explosive and strong
Jane the Killer
Jane is the final one, im sorry I couldn’t do more theres a photo limit and I wanna bash my head into the wall
Now a main different between her and jeff is she had surgery and lie treatment
Janes skin is still greatly scarred but it is greatly healed
She takes care of it and had skin grafts
Her face is disfigured, a scarred smile and burns around
But unlike Jeff she doesn’t recarve the cut so its a cleaner line and a lot healthier
Janes hair took a rather long time to grow back, but it did!
She has a slightly long pixie cut a bit choppy but she doesn’t mind
Her wife definetely cuts it for her and you can fight me over that
I can see Jane having a lot of facial trauma, scars around her nose and cheeks
She was young when she started killing and went for the over the person, pin them down kill which didn’t work out
She switched to a silenced pistol after awhile, you know like a smart person
Janes arms and legs are in alright condition where most of the burn trauma is on her back
She has a leaner but healthy figure but like boobs-
Like clockwork and Helen she takes care of herself
She doesn’t kill as frequently, going after a few of jeffs victims before him and is of course, actively hunting him down
Her eyes are a pale green and she wears makeip to fill in her eyebrows because those bitches take a long time to grow back
fun fact: jeff has no eyebrows, fight me
#jeff the Killer#creepypasta#creepypasta headcanons#slenderverse#slenderverse headcanons#jeff the killer head canons#ticci toby headcanons#ticci toby#bloodypainter#bloodypainter headcanons#clockwork headcanons#clockwork#jane the everlasting head canons#jane the everlasting#jane the killer#jane the killer headcanons
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