#also im not saying u cant be sad and angry im just saying you need to care about shit that matters
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ive kinda not said shit about the maui fires because everyone's already said everything, but I'm kinda tired of like a million million negative posts just absolutely shitting on idk celebrities donating and stuff. Like i don't give a shit lol. Who the hell cares wtf oprah is doing, being pissed about it won't bring peoples houses and loved ones back.
The government failed us, the world failed us. Everything sacred that native Hawaiians ever held dear has been ruined and trampled on. This is just another tragedy that could've been avoided if hawaiian land was in hawaiian hands. I understand the anger, but its sorta strange and disconcerting to see non hawaiians ranting and raving about celebrity drama and their opinions on donating or how to even view the tragedy. The fire made hawaii's struggle more visible to people, but it's upsetting that people are speaking about how fragile hawaii is only nOW after 200+ years of hardship and bullshit.
It all just makes me feel empty. Thanks so much for talking about rich people donating and whether or not they gave an appropriate amount, thanks for being angry about issues you should've already been mad about. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers but our islands are dying and this isn't anything new. this was a tragedy waiting to happen and it was set in motion years and years ago. It's tragic and horrible but it's bEEN tragic and horrible.
The anger and sympathy comes across as crocodile tears. Why did a bunch of people need to literally die before people started talking about hawaii's struggle. Thanks so much for your sympathies but we have been fucked for a long, long time. maui has been fucked for a long long time and so has every other island. Your anger just doesn't matter because we have been angry since we were illegally forced into becoming a part of America. We have been angry ever since the first goddamned boat that landed on our shores. We live on a ticking time bomb and all number of disaster is eventually going to happen. Please don't wait for people to DIE before you start caring.
#also im not saying u cant be sad and angry im just saying you need to care about shit that matters#On a lesser note i'm seeing haole as hell people suddenly embracing their microscopic hawaiian blood and proudly declaring how much they#love being native#how come you didnt love that part of you before huh?#how come only now?#anyways#long post#maui fires#im just so bored of it already like god shut the fuck up and care#you dont need to like scream to the heavens about how good of a person you are because you've reblogged a post#my fam on maui is fine thankfully they just had to evacuate the water in kula is contaminated so they're not having fun with jug water bath
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Okay so im gonna just throw randomly my thoughts on sm6 while rewatching it cuz why not, I was doing the same thing for hazbin hotel so why not spooky month too?
So yeah, SPOOKY MONTH 6 SPOILERS WARNING‼️
Ok im just gonna say: that starting scene with thieves was kinda funny. Also rewatching it, im starting to suspect that this giant spider thing in Lilas attic have her husbands soul, IDK WHY, I JUST FEEL LIKE IT, it just looks so important, it even appeared twice in the ep: in the begining n in the end.
Also ARE WE JUST GONNA IGNORE HOW JAUNE CALLED LILA "HOT-STUFF"??? WHILE HAVING A HUSBAND?????? A HUSBAND THAT SITTING NEARBY HER WHEN SHE SAYING THAT???????? ARE THEY IN A POLY RELATIONSHIPS HOLY FUCKING SHIT????????????? IM EVEN MORE INTRIGED NOW
Okay so Skid does know and remember his dad, I just was thinking that his father left/died when Skid still wasnt born or when he was very little so Skid doesnt even know that he had a father, but no he does remember his dad, so that means he presented for quite long time in Skids life.
Also im really suprised how big Pumps house is, well i mean— he said that his parents work alot so ig i shouldnt be suprised-
Poor Ignacio just wants some peace– *watched the ep a lil longer* Oh hes kinda fucked up actually---
Also for some reason i find kinda interesting that Ross n Rob were kinda comforting Roy every time they were on the screen like "We're here for you, Roy" etc etc, so im thinking maybe something bad happened to Roy? I mean he looked kinda frustrated n angry, so maybe somethng between him n his parents?
Okay but can we talk about how Moloch look so much more scarier than before?
Okay so--- get ready for my rambleling bout my boy Dexter-- HE LIVED WITH HIS MOM N ALOT OF CATS😭😭😭 N HIS MOMS PURE GRIEF BOUT HER LOSS WAS GENIUNALY SO SAD TO WITNESS 😭😭😭😭
Okay so looking at Skids impression when Father Gregor asked him bout his father-- yeah i think his dad actually died---- but i can be wrong ofc
Okay- im sorry but-- why does Kevin n Radfords interactions make them look like a couple--- I AM SORRY BUT----
Also the way Father Gregor gave Kevin holy water was really funny to me, it was like: "You know these children?? Yeaahhhh i feel bad for u, kid. Here have some holy water, just in case...." ALSO the fact that ppl started coming in the store ONLY after Radford sprinkled holy water in it-- DOES THAT MEAN THAT THERE WERE DEMONS IN IT THAT WERE KEEPING PPL AWAY???
Dont mind me guys, im just a little crying :')
Okay but the way how Skid n Pump were SO exited to see Moloch again was really funny n cute at the same time
Okay... This is the part when i literally teared up. I know it was just Moloch trying to fool Father Gregor to give him kids but idk.... It still made me tear up for some reason, and i even know the reason: i just miss Dexter so much n i didnt expect him to appear so much times in this ep, I just think hes a precious boy who deserved better. I KNOW THAT HE WAS KILLING ANIMALS N I DONT APPROVE THAT AT ALL, but hes still a sweetie idfc.
Also why would Patty need a gun so immediatly?..
Also that part when Moloch were wandering around the town n Father n spooky bois were trying to catch him was so funny and entertaining
Poor Pelo got ooffed again. Press F.
AND OMG THIS PART WHEN MOLOCH POSSESED SKID N PUMPS BODIES AND THE FATHER EXORCISMS THEM WAS SOOOO COOL, I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY, I THINK I JUST HAVE A THING FOR DEMONS N EXORCISM.
And this is the part where i actually cried alot. Poor Skid doesnt know that its not his fault at all.. Also even if Father Gregors words were kinda mean, that Lila is irresponsible mother, I cant disagree with them. Yes, she is an alone mother, but it doesnt give her permission to just leave her child to himself n his friend n go drink n then spent time w her child drunk. Yeah i know, that she leaves him to mr Wonder n Susie, but lets be honest, were here even a single time when the kids didnt just leave the house n cause problem? No. So i think the Fathers words are make perfect sense, n Lila should think bout it. Also a lil thing i just thought bout, why would Lila throw away her husbands stuff? If he actually died why would she do this? Or hes not dead n he just left for some reason? Idk
Also OMFG THAT OOGA BOOGA JUMPSCARE GOT ME SO FUCKING GOOD, I WASNT READY FOR AT ALL
and so ummm i think thats it. It took me 1 hour to write this lol.
#spooky month#spooky month hollow sorrows#spooky month spoilers#sm hollow sorrows#spooky month dexter#spooky month skid#spooky month pump#sm skid#sm pump#sm patty#spooky month kevin#sm kevin#spooky month roy#spooky month robert#spooky month radford#sm hatzgang#sm radford#sm robert#sm roy#spooky month lila#spooky month jaune#sm lila#thats alot of tags holy shit#my post
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Good morning, Pickle. My second request for the day.
Please kindly consider this angsty Gorou request:
Gorou can only watch as you exchange nuptial cups with Heizou. He know he has no right to stop the wedding, not when he was the one who broke up with you to woo Kokomi, only to find out later that she was only using him to get her parents off her back about her being single.
Please also kindly take as long as you need with this request; I have no qualms in waiting. Furthermore, by no means feel obligated to prioritize this request over your other requests.
regret ☆ gorou
CHARACTERS: gorou x reader
SYNOPSIS: gorou dumps you for kokomi (っ- ‸ - ς)
GENRE: angst 🦢
W/C: 0.8k
T/W: cussing, breaking up, cheating (if there’s any i missed let me know!)
A/N: bro i hate exams (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) my next one will also probably take eons to complete….
“WHAT THE FUCK GOROU.”
SMACK
you touch the now red mark on your face. it stings, but the ache in your heart is worse. “never talk about kokomi like that again,” gorou says with a stern tone. “tch, YOUR kokomi? i have never seen her look at you for more than 2 seconds outside of a meeting.” youre now pissed off due to gorou’s stupidity, but you cant help but feel a bit jealous, well, kokomi did just steal your lover’s heart with just a snap of her fingers.
gorou’s tail looks stiff, you notice that he does that when hes uncomfortable or angry, you take note of this. you might regret what youre going to say, but a river cannot stop flowing just because of a small inconvenience. you shall see where the future takes you. “if i upset you that much then i’ll leave. goodbye gorou,” you want to cry but your dignity tells you not to; you grab your wallet and head out the door.
before you completely close the door, you can hear a whimper, and it’s not yours.
it’s sunny outside, youre not sure if you should be grateful that theres no rain to make you feel worse, or if you should feel bad that the rest of inazuma is having a great time without you. although, no matter how clear the day was, you still manage to bump into someone.
“y/n? oh my archons, it is you! how have you been?” says the mysterious voice. “heizou?” tears are finally dripping down.
…
you slightly grip the cups in your hands, youre so excited that youre scared that the sake might spill. the moment slips by like a flash and youre already taking your last sip. you look up to see your husband, hes grinning ear to ear and so are you.
heizou looks so lovely when hes happy, but now you can see all of his emotions, whether if hes happy, sad, jealous, angry, disgusted, confused, you can see all of it and only you.
you look into the crowd, all of your friends and family are there, heizou’s side as well. theyre happy for you.
thats when you see gorou.
beside him was Sangonomiya Kokomi, Divine Priestess of Watatsumi Island, what a mouthful, not to mention how bitter the title tasted in your mouth. gorou’s tail was stiff, you wonder why; his eyes were also glistening, such pretty eyes shouldnt cry….
WAITWAITWAIT
nononono, youre literally having your wedding ceremony right now, what are you thinking?…
your wedding ceremony has ended, you and heizou are now officially married.
gorou’s perspective:
“gorou? are you okay?” kokomi asks, “u-uhm yea, im fine,” gorou stutters a bit. what if he was the one up there with you. what if he was up there exchanging nuptial cups with you.
“hey kokomi?” gorou asks, “yes gorou?” kokomi responds, “im gonna get some fresh air, i’ll be right back,” kokomi nods her head, gorou presses a kiss on her forehead then exits.
he feels guilty. he kissed kokomi while thinking about you, no, he thought about you every waking second and you even appeared in his dreams. a few tears roll down his eyes. is he happy for you or jealous of heizou? all of these emotions swirling around him, and he cant tell which one hes feeling.
he feels a hand in his shoulder. he jumps, hes a bit startled, it’s you…
you look so lovely, the fabric, the design, the jewels, and just the everything made you look heavenly. he picks up a scent that he always longed for, it was yours, he just never realized it.
“were you crying gorou?…” he feels more tears coming up, did he miss you that much?
“congratulations y/n, uhm… we ended on a bad note, look i just wanna say that ‘m sorry.” a small smile appears on your face, “apology accepted, that was the past, lets focus on the present,” you gently squeeze gorou’s hand. “lets catch up some other time, yea?” you said, “y-yea,” and with that you disappeared. he feels empty.
“there you are!” kokomi’s voice rings through his ears. “m-my love!” gorou says, becoming stiff again, “look gorou, we need to talk,” her words feel stiff, uncomfortable even. “of course! anything! what do you need to talk about?” gorou asks.
“…lets split up gorou.”
….
“eh?” hes dumbfounded. “lets break up,” nonono this cant be happening, “why?… i thought you were happy, were you not?” gorou’s life was already falling apart, this was just the breaking point. “look, gorou, i have strict parents that expect me to produce… offspring, i would like to label this event ‘traumatic’ so they’ll stop bothering me for the time being. my condolences.”
why bother anymore?
NOTE FOR SAILORSTAR9: i literally had no idea what nuptial cups were before this （´∇｀''）
TAGLIST: @sailorstar9
#genshin impact x reader#genshin impact#genshin x reader#pickle#uglypickle#genshin#ugly-pickle#gorou#genshin gorou#gorou x reader#general gorou#kokomi#heizou#shikanoin heizou#heizou x reader#genshin heizou#angst#genshin angst#gorou angst
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A Day at quadrant: LN4 (Part 2)
Author note: I don’t even know how to post anything on this and never wrote a fic but I hope this is good but I think it’s pretty shit and I haven’t finished it yet and if any writers want to use this idea you can for sure just @ me please oh and if you have feedback please let me know thanks xx
Also i tried to change my like writing style thing cause i feel like it was shit last time but yeah idk
Lando x quadrant fem reader
Blurb: reader is a member of quadrant, she games most of the time but also likes f1 along with her best friend Ria bish. She is friends with all members at quadrant and finds it a good laugh with all her mates, but maybe her view of someone in particular is more than a mate..
Warnings: sexualising, swearing, mention of a gun, leaked tape, sad distraught reader, friends to maybe lovers if I make it a series? Smut-ish? If I missed any let me know (I don’t know how to do warnings sorry x)
Well wasn't last week a fucking eventful week. You still cant stop thinking about Lando right next to you comforting you about what happened. You're starting to feel better about the whole issue and get some support from people online and all the other members of quadrant, but fuck that was just shit. You haven't been in any quadrant videos since, but you're in a better place now and probably need to start participating in them more.
Lando and ethan make the idea of quadrant meeting up at landos apartment and trying to train like him for a day. You aren't exactly looking foward to it but oh well, at least Ria is going. You text your gc back and tell them that you will do it too. Then, you get a message.
Lando: are you 100% sure ur okay to come back and film already? you dont have to if you dont want to.
Y/n: yep. I need to get in more videos and im feeling better anyways, thanks for asking.
Lando: all good
Well that was polite and unexpected of Lando to reach out, but whats more unexpected is for your panties to be soaked right now over 2 text messages. well fuck, oopsies.
That night all you can think of is Lando, it's a bit embarrassing to admit, but he was circling around your head like it was an f1 race. You decide to get your head out of it and call Ria to come over and have a chat, since she is your best friend after all. Shortly she pulls up to your apartment in Monaco, funning in bursting of excitement to see you.
"RIAAAAAAA!" you shout when you open the door for her. "Y/NNNN" she replied back. You give her a hug and make her a cup of coffee just how she likes it. You guys sit and chat about the f1 grand prix in Bahrain coming up, and how you hope Lando continues to have a good season with Oscar this year. "Did you see the chat about the new yt vid we doing" You ask Ria. "omg yes and they are bringing angry ginge in I heard" Ria replies back.
"STOP IT" you yell back laughing. You love ginge and his videos, who wouldn't? he's a very very funny bloke. "OMG i''m definitely coming tomorrow then to the recording are you kidding?".
Unfortunately time goes by when you're having fun, and Ria was the most fun, so she had to go a few hours later which felt like minutes. Besides you both need sleep for the youtube vid you're filming tmr at Lando's. You go to bed and try to sleep as much as you can, which didnt happen lol.
rise and shine love. It's already 6am and time to go to Lando's place to film. Normally you don't have to wakeup early as fuck but for the purpose of the video and "being Lando Norris" you had no choice. You get to his apartment after parking at the front and knock on the door, to which he opens. "hi y/n" he says nicely and gives you a hug. "So good to see you Lando, where is everyone?".
"first here mate" he says almost excitedly. "so what are we actually doing today like playing video games or some shit" you say. "haha your funny mate, we are lifting weights, eating what i eat, using the sim, and neck strengthening" he says laughing at you. "fuck r u taking the piss" you say laughing. "oh my days Landoooo do I look like an f1 driver" you also reply with. "well yeah thats the whole point of the video ya dumb fuck" he replied jokingly.
"hahaha get fucked lando nowins" you snap back. he laughs as you proceed to miss the chair you went to lean on making you flinch and stumble looking like an idiot. he is still laughing which makes you laugh too. "Lando norizz" u reply. "haha you think I have no rizz, funny" he replies egotistically. "yeah i do actually" you don't at all, in fact he hasn't even tried yet he has rizzed you up. "wanna bet?" he snaps out.
you don't have time to think before he pins you against the wall and just looks at you with those hot eyes of his. you can already feel your cheeks burning and your thong getting wet. "you say I have no rizz yet your cheeks are burning, and I bet those panties are more soaked than that porridge you tipped over the counter when you stumbled at my gaze, huh?" he grunts out.
what the fuck just happened, first how did he know and secondly did he just pin you against the wall. not the first time you want that to happen. you know what fuck it if we wants to be like that then he may as well be uncomfortable the whole video.
"how did you know about my tight, black lacy thong i'm wearing over my tight pussy hey? not your first time thinking about it aye?" you tease him, but while walking over to him you see him looking uneasy.
why? because ginge was at the fucking door and heard that, and can see Lando's boner from a mile away. "well bonjour" ginge says laughing. "bonjour mate" lando says as he daps up ginge covering his boner and trying to ignore what just happened.
You already know this video is gonna be the longest set of your life..
sorry its a short one x
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Hi there!! May i request SMG4 and SMG3 (separate) with a very VERY cuddly and clingy reader? (gn!reader pls)
୨୧ GLUED ୨୧
SMG4 & 3 X CLINGY READER
A/N: this took so long cuz Tumblr fucked up the post and didnt save it till the end... sincerest apologies
type: Headcanons, romantic, fluff
triggers: none
song(s) recommendation(s}: glued / hug me
୨୧ I hc him to also be a bit clingy, so everytime he gets sad or at least a bit upset, he would use it as an excuse to jump into your arms and feel your warm embrace, your touch simply sooths him<3
・❥・SMG4
୨୧ Smg4 would eat up all the affection you give him, he was already happy that he finally pulled someone, and they are affectionate and clingy? he is loving it and is living for it!! everytime you just hug him suddenly, he would hug back 10 times tighter, sometimes it takes all of your breath, but he does that to show how much he loves your hugs!
୨୧ Imagine him babbling to others how he haves such an loving and affectionate partner, my man would be all "hey look at my partner, they are such a sweet person with me, i love them so much, they are so-" and continue to ramble about you and your cute features (which is everything about you) and behavior.
୨୧ If he cant give you attention he will simply warn you and tell you he will try to make some time for you later and when he finally gets that time, he is IMMEDIATELY jumping on you.
୨୧ Smg4 loves your affection indoors and outdoors too, he isnt afraid to show it, he loves it so much that Smg3 once said for you two to get a room, only to get an "Your just jealous" back.
୨୧ If you (somehow) is shorter than him, he would just pick you up and carries you to his room silently, he just cuddles u on the bed once he gets there.
୨୧ He doesnt feel overwhelmed by your cuddly and clingy behavior, not at all! he is easily able to keep up with him as surprising as it seens.
୨୧ Whenever you two are in a adventure, he is always holding you, holding on your arm, waist, hand doesnt matter, he just needs to hold you whenever he gets the chance to.
୨୧ "Hug me! bring it in!"
✮⋆˙ SMG3 ✮⋆˙
୨୧ *Insert embarrassed angry face*
୨୧ Do i really need to explain it? this man is simply flustered, but aint complaining... much, he just never had someone as affectionate as you to give him so much love and affection, its kind of new to him.
୨୧ It just breaks him "tough" character facade, it gets him all flustered and silly and ahshshshebsjwj did you cast an spell on him? are you a witch? cuz you making him feel alot of things he never experienced much before.
୨୧ In public he may show himself to hate it but in private he will just eat it up as much as Smg4 does and maybe soon he will eventually warm up to also getting it in public, he just doesnt really wanna show it outdoors in the beginning because he wanted to keep his "bad guy" reputation, but dw, he eventually gets used to it.
୨୧ He goes up to you everytime he is mad or mildly upset too, he looks like Smg4 in that aspect, but he sometimes does it unconsciously, as in "i did it on auto pilot" unconscious, he got too used to seek for your touch.
୨୧ He 100% is a secretly touch starved person, i dont make the rules (i do), so he will hold onto any part of you he can, and i really mean any part, if he need to he will hold onto your ankle.
୨୧ He will brag about you, saying things like: "Look at my partner, they are so cool and sweet, bet you cant have that" "i have the most sweet partner and YOU dont" and etc, hes a little bitch sometimes but still fine as hell
୨୧ You are his soft spot ‼️ like he will soften his behavior around you SO MUCH that anyone who knows him like Smg4 would be so impressed, would usually get mocked because of it but he didnt really care since he HAS YOU‼️‼️‼️
୨୧ "Why are you blushing? thought you were tough" "I-IM NOT BLUSHING! BAKA." <3
#smg3 x reader#reader x smg4#smg4 x reader#reader x smg3#smg4#smg3#smg4 smg3#Smg3 fic#Headcanons smg3#smg4 headcanon#fluff#clingy reader#reader#x reader#୨୧ cherry works
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if you're comfortable, i would love to know more about the akechi npd headcanon. i think it's a rlly interesting take on his character and i wanna learn more abt npd bc i have bpd and ig im interested in what people experience with the other cluster b personality disorders? i just kinda wanna know why you think he has it and also maybe some of the mental stuff he has to experience with it. doesn't have to be detailed or personal i dont wanna make u uncomfy! i just cant stop thinking abt this hc haha :)
im actually on a mental health break right now, but this ask intrigued me so im answering it anyway. first off thank you for staying kind throughout the whole thing :)
its kind of hard for me to really describe why i think a character has/is something, because things like personality disorders are still a wide spectrum and every person experiences things differently, and i dont wanna make it seem like theres a one-way to have npd, but im gonna try anyway!
there is a site which helped me immensely throughout my self-diagnosis, so if you want to read more about the topic than what im gonna say here, here u go:
lets start simple and the thing that makes it most obvious to me: the engine room dialogue.
people with npd can heavily rely on other people for their self-esteem, because narcissists usually have a very low one. thats why they take on many tasks ("i was extremely particular about my life, my grades, my public image—so someone would want me around!") and might overwork themselves for more praise and acknowledgement ("you wanted to be acknowledged, didn't you? to be loved?") because its what they need to not constantly crash. a crash is something that happens when you dont get enough supply—which can be words of affection, praise, acknowledgement, etc—and you internalize it, doubt yourself, feel disgusting and generally you get to a really low point. this is just speculation, but i can see goro having a ton of those, especially during the time the phantom thieves get popular and he becomes public enemy nr 1. thats also why i drew him thinking "i really need supply rn but i'd rather die than ask for attention" because vulnerability is also a big thing people with npd can struggle with. we dont want to be seen as weak—our narcissism is essentially a shield, so we're seen as tough, when in reality, our egos can be very fragile.
one thing that the engine room makes very clear and also other interactions goro has with akira, is that hes very envious of others who have had it better than him. especially someone like akira, who was thrown away by society just like he was, was able to move past it, found friends and is acknowledged by many people. goro is jealous of it all, and thats the thing; people with npd can feel like they're supposed to be special ( and to me, with goro explaining how he got his personas, and how he often calls others stupid, its clear that he does feel that way about himself to a certain degree ) and anyone who threatens that status, anyone who seems much more special than we are is seen as a legitimate threat. its an ugly feeling and it can make us hate even those we love for some time.
this attributes to dysregulation of our emotions too. people with npd often feel their emotions, especially negative ones, way more intense than they actually should be and have difficulty calming down due to that. negative emotions often linger for a long period of time and its hard to move on so we hold grudges. now this might come to no surprise to anyone that goro is a very angry and sad person. especially in the engine room its clear that even after the others extend their hands out to him, its difficult for him to comprehend and he still acts rather mean and calls them idiots for trying to "save" him. when someone with npd is experiencing a multitude of negative emotions, it may cause them to avoid other people or act aggressive towards them because they feel trapped. theres many explanations as to why goro is the way he is in the 3rd semester, and i dont think only one of them has to be correct, but i do think that with the knowledge of whats happening ( like: being under the control of someone else again, or having to work with people who are unpredictable and who have seen you at your lowest point ) makes him act out to keep all of them, especially akira, at bay.
in the duel against akira—im sorry i cant really quote it, i just have a general idea of it in my head rn—i read what he says in a way that makes it clear that he struggles with a superiority AND inferiority complex, which sounds stupid at first i know, but its fairly easy to explain. like i already said, a narcissist's self-esteem is usually pretty low and we rely on others to know how to feel about ourselves. theres two traits of npd that are necessary traits to have: being self-centered and feeling entitled to good treatment, and seeking admiration from others/liking to be the center of attention. so there is some kind of superiority complex going on, at least thats what i would call it in goro's ( and my ) case. we can feel on top of the world in one moment, but once we have a crash or experience intense negative emotions, its back to being the worst human being on earth. i dont think its ooc to say that goro hates himself, as some like to claim he only ever thinks hes better than everyone else. i think that just attributes to harmful stigma. with everything goro experiences in life, coping with narcissism to hide a fragile sense of being just makes sense to me.
theres more i could probably add here but this thing is long enough as is. please do keep in mind that many of my headcanons for goro are me projecting—but that doesnt mean theres no basis for it in canon as well, as i've tried to explain here. at first i actually thought he could have bpd, but i dont know enough about it to really judge that—so it could still very well be that, or both, i dont really know how it works! im rather new to this as well, and at first i was scared of doing any research because npd is so heavily stigmatized. i wish there were more people like you, anon.
if you have any more questions feel free to ask them :)
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Abbott Elementary S03E08 thoughts
Melissa schemmenti angry slut
THIS COLD OPEN I WAS CRYINGGGG
Barb’s protective goggles
“We gonna be down about $700
The squeeze my cheeks kid
Every one getting hit in the damn face
Ava pushing gregory
Greg vs tariq 🥵
Barb shooting in the wrong basket then saying “i’m carrying this team”
Gregory flipping the table
Just PERFECTION
“Why dont u look better” ava really says what i wanna say to people
What IS up with melissa to be snappy, always on her phone, hookups, staying out late
Heyyy manny 🤭 he’s foine I’m SORRY
But if Janine’s meant to be in once a week whys she not seen her abbott friends - not her and jacob not seeing each other 😓
“Girl was there a fire?” See this delivery is why slr has an emmy
Ok I KNEW melissa would hookup with burt hummel. I cant deny the chemistry and at least he’s a better actor than g*ry, but lets keep it casual yeah?
RICHARD TYLER WILLIAMS 💀
The delivery on “interesting 😀”
Tariq hosting the panel?!? I love that for us
Badass janine get it girl! She is ON IT
Not ava and crystal speaking over each other 😭
“I don’t think this is on 🎤 “ “IT IS” ijbol 💀😭
Barb is stroppy and sad ☹️ but why wouldn’t melissa trust her! I get it! But also it’s casual so maybe I get not saying anything too! But barb is so sad (jealous) that melissa didn’t tell her (jealous)
CASUAL GHOST
No bc whys that ur face after ur friend tells u its just sex BARB? I get being upset at not being told but why are u upset its just sex … unless… jealousy
Why arent they clapping abbott 🙁
Why is tariq scoring 😭😭
“Give it some razzle For the love of god gregory give it some dazzle”
Janine just caring about the gossip she’s me
Friend of over 15 years!!! I appreciate the work wives lore but that is literally inaccurate I’m sorry
“Since your lips already touched” GASP (also br*no could never deliver a line like that I’m just saying)
The workwives having a marital spat while ppl are just trying to get their certifications
Is it different? Mmm lowkey bc melissa should know what’s going on in her house but also she can acknowledge that actually barb was validly upset but we know Melissa is stubborn sooo
On her roof? Ew! I dont need to know honestly
Janine not reading Jacob’s text 😖
MANNY CALLING JANINE BIG TEAGUES TEEHEEE 🤭 KICKING FEET TWIRLING HAIR
Gregory sit down 😭 honestly that speech alone could give tyler an emmy nom
MR BOHNSON FROM BABBOTT BELEMENTARY HELP
“You talked to me about gary” aww 🥺☹️
“Because that was a real relationship that YOU approved of” ok poignant emphasis on you - Barbara’s opinion is so important to her 🥺 that’s her number 1
“Awwwmygod congrats” “thank you baby”
Melissa’s true apology 🥺
MELISSA DRAGGING BARB CLOSER TO HER EVEN THO BARB WAS STILL MAD i feel like that was lisa and sheryl
“Look how coy this boy is” jacob always gets great ppl as love interests bc first zach and now i love this guy too “i even showed captain robinson” aw 🙁
Janine aced it! Quintas physical comedy is soo good
Wait is mr j wearing a jacket over his uniform 😭
Cancelling on the fireman for barb 🥺
I fear burt hummel doesn’t want it as casual as mel
“Ok did he just make me fall in love with him” 😭
BI AVA BI AVA!! Wbk but BI AVA (but yk im a hardcore barlissa truther so shipping them w ava makes me gag)
MR JOHNSON PANEL beep beep beep that to my face!!!
Wish they ended on barlissa at the bar tho :(
Ok overall I honestly didnt love that ep at first
And the big reason is i didnt think the panel needed so much and i wanted barlissa to have more
Their conflict didn’t feel as real and earnest as other examples
It got wrapped up surprisingly quickly - they fell out more over safety scissors and ‘yous’
And I’d’ve liked them to share a vulnerable moment away fro everyone else.
It just felt eh
Also being away from school felt weird too
Based on teaser clips i thought it could be a lisa emmy consideration ep but no - could be for tyler though
Barbara’s jealousy is v v interesting tho 👀
After a few days I like it more
I still feel a bit confused tho
OH MY GOD I FORGOT TO MENTION KEEGAN MICHAEL KEY HELLO??!?? What a guest actor to get oh my god
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im back on my ‘contributing to the wednesday/wyler fandom as a whole’ here are some incorrect quotes for y'all :)
Enid: I am SPEECHLESS!!
Wednesday: *narrating*: despite being speechless she managed to lecture me for the next ten minutes
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Wednesday: If you had to separate your bees from 49 other identical bees that were all equally excited to see you, how would you determine which bee was yours?
Eugene: I would take my 50 bees home and live like a king
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Xavier: who would win a fight, Enid or Tyler?
Wednesday: I cant answer that - Tyler is my boyfriend.
Xavier: so Enid?
Wednesday: definitely
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Yoko: I hate going into the kitchen only to realise im the only snack in the house.
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Tyler: *drops keys*
Tyler: you’ve got to be key-ding me
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Enid: MURDER IS NEVER THE ANSWER!!
Tyler: Of course not! Murder is the question
Wednesday: And the answer is always.
Bianca: All of you are wrong. The answer was 12. This is why you all failed.
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Wednesday: I would be the worst PR manager ever. My client would be like ‘there are rumours going around that I’m gay and a satanist’ and I would just be like ‘haha awesome!’
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Eugene: drug dealer? No, hug dealer! Come here
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Ajax: anyone would be lucky to date me, I was called ‘a pleasure to have in class’ when I was in primary school
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Wednesday: in my defence I was left unsupervised
Enid: weren’t you with Thing??
Thing: In my defence I was also left unsupervised
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Wednesday: idiotsaywhat
Enid: pardon?
Tyler: sorry?
Bianca: excuse me?
Xavier: what?!?!?
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Enid: Yoko! Did u know that there is a rumour that you are gay!
Yoko: rumour!?!?! a RUMOUR!?!? U mean people are doubting it!?
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Enid: can you turn the lights on?
Ajax: I don’t need to, you’re the only light I need in my life.
Enid: Ajax please I cant see.
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Eugene: I’m a genius, I finished this lego set in 3 days!
Wednesday: so?
Eugene: The box says from 4-7 years
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Wednesday: we’re so in sync, it’s like we finish each others-
Enid: homework
Wednesday: huh?
Enid, sliding her maths work over in tears: please
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Enid: you were so drunk at the party last night
Tyler: no I wasn’t
Enid: actually you were
Enid: you called a taxi to take you home
Tyler: so? Thats responsible, I didn’t want to put anyone in danger by drinking and driving
Enid: the party was at your house, Tyler...
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Enid: if a plant is sad, do other plants photo-sympathise with it?
Yoko: I chlorofeel you man
Bianca, tired as hell at 3am: are you guys fucking serious?
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Enid: I have a boyfriend now
Wednesday trying to be encouraging: a boyfriend?
Enid: *reflexively does a panicked peace sign*
Wednesday: TWO boyfriends!?!?
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Bianca: do you have any chicken or pork?
Waitress: no, but we have beef
Bianca: oh, WE have beef, huh? You really wanna fight? Alright, let’s do this. Kent, hold my breadsticks.
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Enid: I changed all of my passwords to ‘incorrect’ so whenever I forget it, it will tell me, ‘your password is incorrect.’
Yoko: genius
Wednesday, already hacking into all her info: dumbass
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Tyler: I just hid Wednesdays typewriter so she would hang out with us… how long do you think I have left to live?
Enid: 10
Tyler: 10 what?
Enid: 9
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Enid at 3am at a sleepover: how do tall people sleep? Wouldn’t their feet go right past the blanket?
Tyler: Enid it’s 3 in the morning
Enid: you can’t sleep?
Tyler: …
Enid: is it the blanket?
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Tyler: Awe look at you Wednesday, getting romantic with all these candles
Wednesday: first of all, I’m summoning a demon
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Enid: *stabbing air between Wednesday and Bianca with a butter knife*
Wednesday: what are you doing?
Enid: trying to cut the angry tension between you two
Enid: it isn’t working
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Tyler: I haven’t been this happy since-
Tyler:
Tyler: oh, wow. I’ve never been this happy!
Tyler: huh!
Tyler: that’s bad!
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Tyler: I really wish you would just own up to it when you make a mistake
Wednesday, calmly stirring her coffee: I prEFER it with salt
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Xavier: *hugs Wednesday*
Wednesday: what are you doing?
Xavier: appreciating the little things in life
Wednesday: bitch
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*playing scrabble*
Enid: I will put down my ‘A’ to spell ‘A’
Tyler: I will put down my ’T’ to make ‘AT’
Wednesday: and I will add onto your ‘AT’ to make ‘BIOSTRATIGRAPHIC’
Enid: *flips board*
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Wednesday: What if I pour coffee into my cereal instead of milk?
Tyler, taking the coffee pot as he walks by: what if you don’t.
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Yoko: Wednesday, someone dropped your manuscript
Wednesday: are you joking? That manuscript is my best friend and I will straight up ASSASSINATE-
Yoko: it was Enid
Wednesday: of course she did never mind then.
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Enid: truth or dare?
Wednesday: truth
Enid: how many hours have you slept this week?
Wednesday: uhh, dare
Enid: I dare you to go to sleep
Wednesday: I don’t like this game
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Tyler: Wednesday Addams could slap me in the face and I’d say thank you
Xavier: i’d say thank you too
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Bianca: theres a monster underneath my bed and its really ugly
Kent, on the bottom bunk: honestly, fuck you
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Enid: a Z is just a sideways N
Wednesday, trying to concentrate: can you shut up?
Enid: zo
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Enid: what are you guys doing?
Kent, Yoko and Ajax: *taking a quiz to see what kind of dog breed they are*
Yoko: important stuff
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[after the gates mansion gets cleared]
Wednesday: Nothing good will ever happen to me again!
[twelve seconds later]
Wednesday: so far my theory has been confirmed.
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Wednesday: Tyler annoyed me today so I told him that I can’t wait to see what he has planned for my birthday tomorrow.
Enid: but it isn’t your birthday tomorrow.
Wednesday: But there is something special about watching the colour leave his face as the panic takes over
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Enid: you were supposed to do something about the rat in your locket
Ajax: I did
Ajax: I named him fluffy. He likes coco pops.
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Wednesday: my boyfriend is too tall for me to kiss. What should I do?
Bianca: Punch him in the stomach so he doubles over then kiss him.
Enid: tackle him
Yoko: kick him in the shins
Tyler: just ask me to lean down?!?!?
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Tyler: why would you give a knife to a child?
Wednesday: Enid felt unsafe
Tyler: now I feel unsafe
Wednesday: I’m sorry...
Wednesday: Would u like a knife?
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Ajax: you’re up early
Literally everyone: ......
Ajax: you never went to sleep did u?
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Tyler: my criminal record? The only illegal thing I’ve done is absolutely killing it on the dance floor
Tyler: hahaha just kidding, I’ve killed a man
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Enid: why are you smiling?
Wednesday: what? Can’t I just be happy?
Bianca: Xavier tripped down the stairs
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Enid and Tyler: You will have a hard time believing this because it never happens but it was a mistake we swear—
Wednesday: A MISTAKE?!? *gestures to the table that is on fire*
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Bianca: Have you ever been scolded by Enid?
Wednesday: Im not scared of her
Bianca: So thats a no
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Wednesday *doing something risky* : I am going to do this and not you or god himself can stop me
Tyler: *Starts typing on his phone*
Wednesday:
Wednesday: ..Tyler
Tyler:
Wednesday:
Wednesday: *panicking* Tyler what are you doing?!? What have you done?!?!
Tyler:
Enid: *bursting through the door* wedNESDAY ADDAMS DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL--
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this ended up being way to long congrats to anyone that made it in the end
#subtly pushes my enid and Tyler being besties agenda#and my wyler agenda#I promise I will do a more Xavier friendly one at some point I am just on my 'wow wednesday treated him hella bad the whole show' brainwave#like my dude didn't deserve this#ALSO#pushing my ajax agenda#cause I love him#and lowkey my enid/ajax agenda#and my Tyler apologist agenda#yeah this post is biased as hell#however I tried to put some subtle wenclair in there as well for yall#bc I am really a rarepair/unpopular opinion fan in this fanbase lol#but most of them are kinda neutral besties vibes#anyways here are the actual tags#wednesday#wednesday addams#tyler galpin#enid sinclair#Eugene (I dont know his last name)#eugene#bianca belair#xavier thorpe#ajax petropolus#yokokawa naotaka#I think thats her#wyler#bc I love them#I won't tag wenclair but I promise if u squint its in there#wednesday netflix#okay I think thats it
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SO WTF IS SE ABT FOR REAL??
like whats the STORY u may ask. well, im about to give you the run down right here right now (below the cut...cuz its alot..)
tagging @cosmiccoincidence @constellies and @vacantgodling cuz u guyz liked that post so u have to suffer for it
AIGHT HERE WE GO
SE Arc 1 is (as of now) split up into 4 parts, and contains 4 primary plotlines that are each introduced as the story progresses. If anything its typical of a jprg- we start out with dez and frank doing CrimesTM for money only for things to escalate EXASPERATEDLY by the climax/end of the Arc. Arc 1 is effectively the build-up, and I’m gonna give a run down on each part before going into the plotlines
PART 1 - aka the part im struggling most with rn. EXTREMELY episodic in tone, i want the major plot to sort of sneak in as things move along. The best i can sum this part up is “FUCK BITCHES GET MONEY”; Dez believes he needs a job to help his dad pay the bills, and thats how he ends up doing odd jobs for Carmine (along with various other criminals) with Frank along for the ride (against her will). This part is mostly their adventures while also acting as a basic establishment/exploration of the world of sorts, and plenty of foreshadowing is here. Another plotline that is teased is the one involving the Promethean Society.
PART 2 - aka ‘what the fuck was that’, in which the plotline regarding the Martian Kingdom gets full attention, and more Promethean Society characters are introduced. Dez and Frank have to deal with the aftermath of part 1, each in their own ways; Francis is newly homeless and confronted with the full scope of her Mental Illness~ and what she is by way of Thursday and her ‘long lost’ twin Ozymandias; Desmond begins to question whether or not its really worth it to continue to be used in the way he has, and he begins to…well, lets just say, he begins to let himself be properly angry. As stated before, Thursday and Friday are introduced and its through them that we get more into the Martian side of things!! yaaaay!!!
PART 3 - aka ‘FUCK it turns out our actions have consequences!!!’, in which the plotline goes full Promethean for a bit, alongside a NEC corporate warfare subplot that actually involves the Martians way more than you think. The ghosts Frankie and Dark are introduced, shit goes down, and Dez builds that nuclear bomb i like to make memes abt. Theres honestly way too much spoilery stuff in this part that i cant divulge, but basically everything kinda falls apart and our unlucky protagonist duo is forced to strike out on their own with only each other to count on.
PART 4 - aka ‘THE INTERMISSION’, which really cant be called a 'part' in and of itself tbh but wtv im rolling with it. Basically a run down of the blistering aftermath of part 3, as well as a HUGE 1000+ PAGES LONG RABBIT HOLE OF FLASHBACKS WITHIN FLASHBACKS. Not to say that the other parts dont have flashbacks as well, but these are gonna be mainly concerned with Lupe, Hammond, Maya, Carson, Azelfafage, Thursday and Friday- basically, the entire 20th century is gonna be covered and boy howdy its gonna be a brick in the face in terms of information and lore im gonna throw out.
NOW THAT THATS OUT OF THE WAY, LEMME SUM UP THE MAJOR PLOTLINES
Desmond and Francis: the two cherubs. The BABIES, who’re thrown into all this BULLSHIT just becuz their families cant be normal. SAD!! Francis has to deal with her extended family, which happens to be, oh, the fucking CURRENT RULER OF THE ENTIRE WORLD, Azel who wants to EAT ALL HUMANS, and her shitty loser ass twin brother; she has to deal with Thursday and Friday as well who in turn, want to KILL ALL MARTIANS?? (or at least most of em); Francis doesnt want to deal with this shit at ALL. Meanwhile, Desmond? Aaaahahaha oh my god. Lupe Altena is a pretty close relative of his (an AUNT) and she’s actually had her eye(singular) on him for QUITE a while now, and as it turns out, Dez is actually a pretty important fucking dude!!! And everyone who knows wants to get their hands on him…
Carson (and by extension Maya): aka the Prometheus plotline. Carson is the granddaughter of Carmine, Dez and Francis’s boss - and she’s a major Promethean Society scientist who’s kinda sorta maybe definitely a fuck up. She’s the one with the plan to sort of take the reins of the human race and end the cold war between Earth and Mars by way of SOMEHOW managing to acquire the finger of now-dead Martian King ALDEBARAN (Francis’s grandfather and arguably the most powerful Martian to exist ever) and to use it to…do that apparently. hm!!! Oh and Maya is very much Not For this lol
Friday (and by extension Thursday, Azel, and Kraz): WOOOOOOOO yeah Martians!! Kill em all!!!!! But yeah, we’re gonna see a shit ton of the alien side of things through their eyes cuz its kinda their job to deal with em, both fatally and diplomatically, to see that…it turns out that ALL Martians don’t wanna eat everything on Earth?? HMMMM!!!
Hammond: his plotline doesnt get introduced till much later (end of part 2) but basically hey, through this guy we’re gonna see history. The guy is almost 100 years old and has been involved in every single major event in the timeline of SE, and where a lot of Mysteries arise- what exactly happened to Lupe? Why DO they want to kill all Martians? Whats the real purpose behind the Promethean Society, and why exactly is Desmond Arkady so important?? We will just have to see!
but thaaaats basically it! Arc 2 is still in the brainstorming phase but i have plenty of ideas. theres soooo much shit that actually goes on between all of this but yeyeyeyeye this is SE, just a plain old story abt two unlucky kids gettin into shit thats way beyond them :) hope u enjoyed!!
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its kinda crazy he smothered me like loll. feels so stupid and lame recounting the same story over and over nothing changes. but i still dk how to process that. some days i feel ive made more peace w everythin and dont feel as strongly and some days like today its more difficult and i think being tired and today not being the best kind of set me up for being more emotionally low abt multiple things in my life. as well as maybe need to stop reading peoples real life stories on reddit abt their abusive male partners bc its more triggering for me than i thought but its hard not to read them :/ idk its just crazy how someone can do something that vile towards u even when you are crying and begging them to stop and saying you cant breathe. literal psycho shit. and i was gaslit for however long into minimizing it even tho deep down i knew it was fucking wrong and i resented him for it but i was treated so dismissively and not taken serious my pain wasnt ever considered so after it happened i was just trained into suppressing it not telling a single person about it not even journaling privately about it just carrying that awful thing w me for idk how long. and i dont even remember when it was bc i didnt document anything mentally or literally and my mind worked so hard to suppress it i justndont have any recollection of when it happened. im guessing either 2023 or late 2022. it makes me angry and sad, and angry bc it is so unjust that he was able to control the narrative once again and determine that that was acceptable behavior and wasnt violent and extremely fucking dangerous too. Would sneer at me and tell me that wasnt smothering or make excuses and act like that isnt inherently Violent and terrible. and even tho i knew it was fucked i was just forced to go along w it even though i resented him for however many months for doing that to me and would bring it up and hed continue to deny it. like i wonder if he fucking remembers that now bc ofc there's been no apology for that specifically but i also have to tell myself i do not seek his validation or acknowledgment bc it is way too late for that and i had to unlearn the gaslighting and manipulation and dismissal and downplaying that he ingrained in me and insisted upon me on my own without him so theres no way i would need him to validate that act or that it happened or was messed up. but part of me still wants that bc even though hes given me surface level apologies and goes on abt his self reflection and discovery that could only occure after he got hit by a bus (enrages me that he now has empathy and some self recognition ig After a traumatic brain injury and months after the breakup) i still did not feel fulfilled by anything he said really. but he is not a person who i seek validation from or value his opinion or perspective at all anymore i never wish to see him or have him in my life again. you dont treat any person like that and yet he countlessly showed me he was okay with treating me violently and terribly and disrespectfully. it makes me sick tbh bc idk how someone does that so easily ur fucked in the head
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I'm going to gush about Pocket mirror and u cant stop me lmao also SPOILERS, you have been warned.
I just took a look in the gallery section of the game and Lissette's moment with Goldia made me so fucking happy. without going into detail cuz if I did we would be here all day, Pocket mirror is about a girl with DID formerly known as multiple personality disorder, And her trying to find herself in her own mind after waking up in a rose bed with no memories, just herself and a golden pocket mirror.
its throughout the game that you meet Goldia's Alters: Fleta ( the little), Harpae ( the protector ) Lissette (the trauma holder/ persecutor) and Enjel ( I cant tell what she is really since I'm only now starting to learn more about DID, so her temporary title will be trauma holder since i have no other title for her and that one is close enough for now. If you know more about DID or if there is a system that knows how to tittle her purpose please let me know! also let me know if im saying anything problematic! obviously Systems will be prioritized bc duh.
Goldia is the current host, I have an inkling she might fuse with ether Enjel or Harpae in the future but that's not the point.
Basically Lissette is the scape goat for all the other Alters ( Goldia included), Lissette is blamed for every wrong doing, mainly because she is the most aggressive and self destructive of the bunch. being a Trauma holder and all. So everyone else uses her as a get out of jail free card whenever they do something bad ( mainly Fleta). and during the events of the game Lissette is trying to kill Goldia because she just cant take this abuse anymore. if you get her good ending, Goldia will apologize to Lissette and tell her
"I will atone for my sins, all of them"
and in the gallery segment where you get to have a final conversation with all the Alters, Lissette tells Goldia : "I still resent you, But... you're keeping your word... on wanting to.... know me.." . To which Goldia apologizes again and thanks her, and while its not explicitly said you can infure she means : " thank you for the second chance". I wont go into detail bc personal thingssss, but i can understand how Lissette feels here. throughout this conversation the resentment she feels is weighing down on her and she 's allowed to feel this, not once does the game tell her that she should just let go. It's not as easy as that. And Goldia fully understands and just elects to be as good of a friend as she can be. I LOVE THE FACT THAT SHE IS ALLOWED TO BE ANGRY GOOD LORD
I'm so sick of people talking about Anger and negativity like it's some sort of disease. Anger is just as valid of an emotion as fear or joy, and the fact that she's allowed to feel this without being vilified is great and kind of sad since not allot of other characters get the same level of maturity in their writing.
you can just feel how empty she feels after being denied catharsis for so long, and now that she has it, she can finally just take a breath and be in peace. Lissette isn't the best character known to mankind but she doesn't need to be, She means allot to me personally and I can only assume she means allot to persecutors who feel unheard. I don't know that for sure and please correct me if I'm wrong, I don't have DID thus I cant speak with absolute certainty
Any who thank ya fa listening to my ramblings :3
#writing#art#creative writing#pocket mirror#pocket mirror Lissette#Lissette#Fanart#pocket mirror fanart#artwork#did system#did positivity
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Ok so Can I Just Ask rhetorically into the air (unless someone has an answer lol I would not say no if anyone offers insight here, im just not specifically asking for it cause i dont know for sure an answer even exists i guess) but when everyone tells u to "feel your feelings" likeee....then what?
Like I keep getting the advice esp in recovery that I gotta "feel my feelings" and "recognize your feelings" but then when I'm like ok. Im doing it. I'm having a panic attack and throwing up from guilt and shame. What do I do about that. And they're like "oh no just feel them!!!"
(Also "shame is bad but guilt is constructive" OKAY. SO JUST feel DIFFERENT feelings? Than the ones I have. Hrrrghhh)
Like I feel like I missed some regular human memo here like there's supposed to be something I Know what to do but I don't know what it is.
Tbh it's the same feeling I get when people keep telling me to like believe in spirituality things or else I won't be able to stay sober. I keep being like so...how do I do that? Like how does it matter to me if there's a god, if also there's literally no guarantee that god won't do something terrible for some "greater purpose" and i cant change that? Like you want me to feel safety from that? All this bad stuff was planned by someone? How does that make it feel less bad? (What sort of sicko- )(sorry lmao I didn't realize I had anger issues w god til I was told I have to actually believe in one)
I keep asking people to describe to me what exactly it means to believe in something spiritual, to them, as if I am a human being who was born blind and never seen color, and they need to describe why some colors are "happy". Or like i'm an alien who has never eaten food and you gotta explain how something can taste "salty". I know that's not the best metaphor and is kinda appropriative of other disabilities that I don't have, but I just mean like can someone try to get SORT OF creative with trying to put this in context for me??? Cause just saying "just do it!!" absolutely does nothing for me! It doesn't make sense. Teaching a human being how to fly by saying "just move your body through the air to where you want to go". Honey. I do not know how. And I cannot learn how via this method. It is not going to work no matter how many times you say it. You are going to have to try something else.
Anyways some shit happened that's ultimately fine and I know WHY I'm having bad feelings and it's not a resolvable situation really, the thing has happened and it can't un-happen, and like I know I'm getting angry cause I'm embarrassed and upset w myself, and that they're not at fault and ultimately it is really truly for the best and actually makes my life better in the long run and I was nice about it and so were they. But like...I'm still angry and sad and embarrassed. Knowing why I feel bad doesn't make me not feel bad, it just makes me angrier with myself for not being able to control it.
And I don't want to feel it cause it hurts and there's nothing I know how to do about that besides drink. Which I am not gonna do, to be clear, but I think is understandable in a recovery space, that we are all alcoholics cause we never learned to deal w feelings any other way. All the advice from my counselor and sponsor and everyone these past 9 months of recovery has mostly just been "try to identify your feelings and feel them". Like I do literally nothing but hyperfixate and ruminate on feelings if im not numbing them and trauma splitting...if I'm not supposed to numb them out I'm Just Going To Need A Bit More Information. Yknow?
#emetophobia -/#personal -/#idk yoooo what are feelings. we just dont know#vent post -/#hrgh ask me to tag i think i missed stuff#ed -/#kinda
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WHAT DID YOU THINK OF THE NEW EPISODE...... <- I cried several times and had to take an hour long break to eat food because I was so stressed I was shaking like a small dog JSBDJDNDM
it made me theow up and die . anyway my specific thoughts:
hermies sad little love ballad in his goofy nerd voice made me giggle . hed be so mad if he knew he didnt even drop the best season 2 npc post-death song 🙏 sorry hermster im literally listening to the cut my life into pizzas intro rn
i REALLY loved normals reaction . ADORED IT . its exactly what i wanted him to do . i LOVE that he was angry in particular!!!!!!! i Adore when normal gets to be properly mad him shouting ar scam and at sparrow was GREAT!!!!!!! the denial was perfectly in character the anger was perfectly in character the sadness was too i Loved it
DRAWING THE LOVERS REVERAED????? insane . my jaw dropped in the middle of the post office
the scam stuff was interesting to me .... the ract that hermie was never supposed to be sentient and was just a goof meant to be funny forever will HAUNT ME.
IM REALLY GLAD HES DEAD PERMANENTLY HONESTLY!!!!! i was a little irritated we saw terry jr again despite also being excited bc i love him .... but im glad hes a death with consequences even tho i wish we'd gotten some more depth
NOTMAL CANNOT GO FIVE SECONDS WITHOUT SOME NONSENSE 😭😭 ANTHONY BURCH LEAVE HIM BE . DID HE NEED THAT REVELATION PILED ON????? extremely interesting tho im excited to see what happens
henry and normals interaction abt mercedes made me wail . so did sparrow reassuring normal a bit while lark told him to get down from the bullets
scary struck me as the only other one to be particularly sad which surprised me and struck me as really interesting?? not that i think she was Deeply Upset but shes the only one who to me read to me as having a particular emotional response (saying they cant just leave him, having the only particularly personal eulogy besides normal) which i think is an interesting choice i didnt expect
i miss you herm u were my fav freak 👍 i might make him a char playlist soon
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hello hi luce can u please tell me all about the bsd main characters
HELLO JERI WHY OF COURSE I CAN
1- atsushi nakajima! actual mc but everyone forgets about that part 💀 his gift is beast beneath the moonlight and hes a lil tiger boy. a weretiger if you will. he has the worst haircut of all time and about all he's good for in the first season is moping about how he got kicked out of his abusive orphanage. (which is valid but he literally cannot go for more than five minutes without talking about it its soo </3) fun fact before i watched the show i'd seen a few pictures of him around and i legitimately thought that he was a side character who got introduced in like season 2 and then immediately died as cannon fodder. thats how pathetic he is as a mc.
no but fr i do really love him, his character growth is great and the current arc is really showcasing him as a character. he just happens to have Sad Boy Syndrome 😔 like im actually trying to come up with Plot and Important Stuff to say about all these guys but i have nothing to say about atushi hes just so overshadowed
2- dazai osamu, the Actual mc. hes so fucked up i love him so much. his main character trait is that he wants to kill himself. he is introduced by a failed drowning attempt and goes on about different ways to die for at least two minutes an episode. he used to work in the mafia and was only recruited because of (youre never gonna guess this) a failed suicide attempt in which the eventual boss, who was working as a doctor at the time, met him. its never explicitly said, but he was abused for years as the boss's subordinate (the boss, whose name i will not say for spoiler reasons and also because i cant remember it rn, is canonically a pedophile and sadist. i dont think i need to spell it out). he eventually left because one of his dead friends was like "go make people's lives better dipshit" and he was like "shit ok" and went and joined the detective agency. hes truly a disaster of a human being i can't express enough how skrucnkly he is.
3- chuuya nakahara. hes not a main character but he is in my heart <3 angry short guy i love him so fucking much. anyway hes dazai's ex husband (/j) and they fucking hate each other and have so much intertwined hurt and trauma together its insane. their ship name, soukoku, is actually a name that is canonically used for their special ops team (it translates to double black iirc?) and just aaaaaaaa soukoku <3333 my actual beloveds my first published fanfic EVER was about them
4- ok im running out of influential characters. uhhhhh how about akutagawa. hes dazai's understudy from the mafia and is so horribly fucked up by this that all he wants in life is for dazai to acknowledge his existence (dazai refuses. this is actually a very fucked up plot point). hes a mass murderer and is terminally ill and i would die for him. also he and atsushi are a very popular ship! in their first meeting aku cuts off atsu's leg <33 talk about a meet-cute
5- kunikida is a very major character i just realized 😭 ummmm so hes this guy. and he has a notebook. and he likes to yell at dazai.
no but actually hes a very interesting character with a very solid set of morals that is challenged throughout the course of the show. he's really the only character that like. Follows The Law and Doesn't Want To Hurt People and this is challenged a lot because as you can imagine being partners (as in coworkers. they are not dating) with an ex-mafioso is not a great way to stay morally correct. hes really great actually. he was a math teacher and then became a detective for some reason. hes 22. he was also my favorite character during my first watchthrough though he was quickly replaced by chuuya and akutagawa <3
6- RANPO!!!!! RANPO RANPO RANPO!
think sherlock holmes with the mindset of a child and the confidence of reigen arataka. and also an obsession with candy. that's ranpo. now that i think about it that also kinda sounds like L but we're not talking about death note here. hes basically so smart that he can deduce the truth of a case within like a second, but he has to be wearing glasses. he thinks that he has a gifted ability but he actually doesn't lmao.
he starts off as a side character but becomes a lot more important in like s3 onwards. im not a Super huge fan of his but he is fun! he has a lot of angsty moments throughout as he realizes he's like. Not God. Not Special. which are sad but also ghnghh emotional whump <3 anyway
uhhhhhh i cant think of any more characters rn who are important enough to mention and also youve been waiting liek a day for this response so im gonna cut it here. ty for the ask <33
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TGCF SPOILERS
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THEY TURNED INTO A FREAKING SWORD?!?? THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME I CANT TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY OH MY GOD THIS IS SO FUNNY
THIS IS BASICALLY THEM LMAO I CANT STOP LAUGHING
I never thought I would EVER use a transformers gif for TGCF of all things 😂
Stop Qi Ying is a literal puppy it's so adorable
Yin Yu had already snuck behind someone’s back to hide, but he was instantly picked out by Quan Yizhen. He jumped up and shouted, “SHIXIONG!”
Of all the reactions...this guy's reaction to hualian kissing is smt else lmao
Pei Ming: “Ho ho.”
Ok Santa Claus
AND THEN THIS MESS OF A CONVO OH MY GOD AND Qi Ying like ohhh that's how u borrow powers and everyone's like ok, who's gonna tell him?
Xie Lian accidentally choked a bit and only then did he break away. He didn't dare to look down, and shouted towards the sky, “B BORROWING SPIRITUAL POWERS! I’M ONLY BORROWING SPIRITUAL POWERS! VERY PROPER!”
Mu Qing was shaken too. “YOU DIDN’T NEED TO DO THIS TO BORROW SPIRITUAL POWERS THOUGH??? JUST A SLAP OR A SMACK OR SOMETHING WOULD’VE BEEN FINE???”
Xie Lian didn’t know what he was saying anymore, either, and cried randomly, “HAHAHAHA! I’VE BEEN SEEN THROUGH! IT’S NOT ACTUALLY BORROWING ANY SPIRITUAL POWERS! HAHAHAHA…”
FINALLY! JUN WU TOOK SO LONG TO COME DJJDJDJF but hey he's here to save the day!!
This was so poetic and like metaphorical but I'll explain that metaphor some other day lol
After Xie Lian stopped controlling it, that giant stone divine statue was still obediently lying on the ground, a gigantic, exquisitely-sculpted thing. Now that it’d fallen down, it also looked like a small mountain.
Imagine being Qi Ying and waking up and finding yourself in this random demonic place, and then u knock out, and you're a doll and you knock put and suddenly u r being forced into being a sword lmaoo
However, Quan Yizhen was confused. “Why am I going to the west? Just what exactly are we doing right now?”
No one could blame him for not knowing what was going on. Perhaps, he was confused the entire way: Why was he beaten? Why was he buried inside a wall? Why was he turned into a daruma doll? And why did he have to turn into a sword, too? There was not a single point where he’d figured out what was happening.
I CALLED IT AGAIN!!! (I think! I'm pretty sure I did...somewhere) but Goushi was so suspicious I KNEW IT
If Guoshi truly lived in this world for longer than Jun Wu, then the possibility he was one of the Four Guardians of the Crown Prince of Wuyong was even greater!
AYYYY HEAVEN'S EYE IS BACK! Love those funky losers lol
Wait, oh my God wait no oh my God no this has got be a joke, like my heart acc cracked PLEASE TELL ME THIS IS JUST A JOKE that poor beggar with his limbs cut off....was wind Master? Our beloved wind Master???? I literally feel like crying my heart is breaking so much
DID HE XUAN REALLY HAVE TO DO ALL THAT??? WAS THIS REALLY WHAT BROUGHT HIM SATISFACTION AHDUDJDJD UGHHHH IM SO PISSED AND SAD AND UPSET AND ANGRY AND EVERYTHING
My poor beloved wind master....
I am so sad 😔
#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#heaven’s official blessings#heaven's official blessings spoilers#tgcf spoilers#tgcf journey#ch 202-204#xie lian#jun wu#hualian
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Hello you mrs. dramatic butt older head sneezy lefty eyebag 😅
Sheeeeeeesh I feel attacked now too! Is this because I said you a meany head for not spoiling things 🤣
I woke up with a runny nose. I think I'm getting another cold but I hope not. So today I'm just taking it easy and gonna watch some shows I need to catch up on.
How about you? How is your day so far?
Does that mean that next year, you guys will get a plastic tree instead??
Hahahaha when you said you look shiny, I imagined the Mr. Clean commercial where his bald head sparkles. 🤣🤣
You're corny 🙄🤣 just kidding. Speaking of pasta, maybe that's what happened to Yelena.. she was so upsetti for not finding Natasha, so she had spaghetti. Then.. it grew into an addiction and she pasta way...🤔
Okay okay, songs that remind me of summer.. like I said, thinking of summer, it brings me back to working or bbqing.. oh even camping. So let's see..and since I can't add them as a link, I'll just list them:
1. We Can't Stop by Miley Cyrus
2. 23 by Miley Cyrus
3. Wrecking Ball by Miley Cyrus
That's a lame list ahahaha but it's because when I used to work at Wendy's, I had this coworker who would always come in and sing Miley Cyrus songs. So when were just cleaning in the back, we would play the songs and sing along to it 😅
I don't think we really talked about genre of music before. But I'm the same way.. although I can tolerate those screaming rock metal genres.
Hahaha oh boy, so you don't know how to flirt and are oblivious to people flirting with you? So that applies to online too? Or just in person?
But I shouldn't make fun, apparently I am the same way. Well, I don't know when people are flirting with me until it's too late. I'm usually shy at first, so I don't flirt much. But once I am comfortable around someone I like, I flirt with them.
Okay, so let's say 3 songs from when you were a teenager.
Then next question is 3 songs that you would play on repeat when you are sad/angry.
-CuriousGeorge
Hello hello righty eyebag!
Wait, u call me older head? Am i older than u? I remember u r in ur 30s too but who is older? U or me? I'm 35. U dont have to say the number ,u can just says who is older.🤭😆
Haha well, i can be meany head or sweet n nice head. U choose 😅🤣
U wanna know some spoilers of The Monsters Within? Okay.
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JUST KIDDING!got u!! No spoilers policy..😅🤣🤣
Oh no! I hope u r not catching a cold. It will be suck if u got sick on christmas while u r working.
No, i dont think we will have plastic tree. This is actually thr first time i hv allergies on the pine tree. I googled it may takes sometimes for allergies to christmas tree to develop. So we'll see next year how it is. Also i forgot to answer ur question. Yes, my husband n i lived together first for like 2 years. 😊
My day is okay. Busy. Been cleaning the house so we will come home to a clean house.
Omg, im not bald. How dare u! 🤣🤣 i meant my hair is thin but im not bald.lol.
Oh dear lord, u n ur puns. 🤣🤣 pasta-way, thats corny pun.🤣 i literally had to put down my phone n hold my forehead n shake my head after i read that pharagraph about yelena.😅
Oh okay.no wonder ur 3 songs of summer are all miley cyrus. 😅 i was like dang girl r u a fan of her or something? 😅
Yeahi dont know how to flirt. Im an awkward shy person. N i didnt know if i flirt. Few days ago, H kinda comment that i kinda flirt on the asks after she read my asks conversation. I was like "really? Did i? I didnt know" 😅 so i guess my obliviousness applies on online too. Lol.
Ah i see, yeah im like u too. I may not talk much but if i got comfortable or the other person talk enough n fun, i can talk a lot more or even wont shut up. N flirt with out realizing it, obviously.🤣
Hmm songs that reminds my teenager era probably all songs from backstreet boys, nsync, britney spears. 😅
Songs that i wil repeat when im angry is this whole album:
Songs that i repeat whn im sad, i cant pick it. I will just randomly search sad playlist on spotify. 😅 or sometimes listen to classical opera songs.
What about u?
Also have u ever think that some songs r sexy / hv a sexy vibe?
Next questions?
Cheerio!
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