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#a person is the result of every interaction and every relationship they've had. that's how you get a fleshed out human.
sciderman · 6 months
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You have the astounding ability to make me consider liking things that I previously did not. Cable and Wade. Shiklah and Wade. Johnny and Peter. I’m a stubborn Spideypool obsessor, I’m sure I’ve mentioned, so pat yourself on the head for being SUCH a stan that you’ve broken through my OTP walls and gotten me to glance at other ways for Wade and Peter to he happy and loved.
i think if you truly love a character then you want them to get some no matter where it comes from
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skipper1331 · 9 months
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Protective Moms // Jessie Fleming
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a/n: based off this request. Hope you like it :)
Matchday.
Canada vs the United States.
Girlfriend vs girlfriend.
Jess and you met in London, both playing for the blues.
The two of you hit off straight away, same interests, same sense of humor, you were similar in many ways but also so different that you completed each other perfectly. It came as no surprise when you revealed your relationship to your Chelsea teammates. They loved you together.
Only the Chelsea girls knew about you though. You both thought it was important to tell them yet you couldn't tell your national teammates. You kept your personal life private which is why you decided to tell them in person and not through the phone.
Considering that Tobin Heath played for Arsenal you could've told her as well as Christen Press but to be honest you were afraid. Tobin was one of the first players to approach you after you had your first call-up. She took you under her wig and became a mentor. So did Christen. You respected them so much and despite the fact that you would do anything for Jess, you were still afraid that Tobin and Christen would be disappointed in you. Or worse, if you introduce Jessie and they wouldn't like her.
As the Call-Up for camp came you were excited. You loved the chelsea girls but you also missed your friends at home. What you didn‘t like though was that you would play a friendly against Canada. There was always a certain rivalry in those games, it was physical, intense and nobody goes down without a fight.
As usual, you wore your headphones on the bus ride to the stadium. Next to you sat Rose, your bus buddy, while Press and Heath sat in the row next to you. They'd be lying if they didn't say that they noticed you checking your phone a lot and smiling at it. However, they didn’t do anything about it. If you wanted to tell them something, they would be there but they wouldn't force you to. They've known you long enough to know how you handle things.
Flem🔥
Can I have your shirt later? x
You
Only If I get yours too xx
Flem🔥
deal
Shortly after the game started, the first slide tackles came from both teams.
The game was balanced, sometimes Canada had their chances and sometimes your team, the goalkeepers definitely had something to do.
Jess and you didn‘t interact much, yes, off pitch you’re a couple but rivals on the field. The only interaction was when Canada had a corner kick and you pressed your body against hers. The canadian would bet that you did it on purpose as your breath hit the back of her neck. It made her go crazy, weak in the knees. Well, after all, it was the first time in 2 weeks that she saw you and could feel your proximity. (Spoiler: whether she had seen you or not, she still would have had weak knees and a racing heart. She always had when she’s near you)
It was 0-0 at half time. A solid result, but not satisfying.
Every single player on the field got more eager to score which resulted in more ruthless tackles.
You were in the opponent's half when Chapman took the ball away from you. Immediately you’re after her to get the ball back. You’re close behind her as she played a pass, her elbow slamming with so much strength in your face, right on your nose. "Fuck" you couldn‘t even scream out of pain because it hurt so much. You fell to the ground as you held your nose, your head hitting the ground. The game continued without anyone noticing that you were lying there. The only one who noticed was the person who caused it, she was standing by your side yelling at the referee. The game was only paused after a number of boo‘s from the stands and as soon as your girlfriend saw you curled up on the floor she ran to you as fast as she could. "Get the fuck away from her!" the brunette shoved Chapman as she kneeled down. She wasn't one to swear, but seeing you on the ground? It turned her into someone else, a protector who must protect you, her girl, at all costs. "Can you take your hands out of your face?" the sweet voice of your girl asked, taking a hold on your wrists. Just as she was about to pull your hands down slowly an angry Tobin Heath pushed her body to the ground, "Don‘t touch her" she hissed. Wrong move. Because when Tobin touched the young Canadian, Sinclair stepped in, "You don���t touch her"
While Heath and Sinclair provoked each other, Christen went completely nuts on the bench. Still no medic team anywhere near you. Jess was by your side again, your hands out of your face as she could see the blood that was spread across your face. Definitely a broken nose and a possible black eye. You hated blood. You'll immediately feel nauseous and dizzy when you see it whether it’s your own or someone else's. "The medics are almost there, love. Keep your eyes open" her voice laced with worry as your eyes kept closing.
Finally, when the medic team arrived, they tried to stop the bleeding. After a minute or two everything seemed to be fine and you were able to stand up again which turned out to be a big mistake because as soon as you got back on your feet you passed out. They didn't know if it was because of the blood you saw or because the knock was so bad. Either way, you got substituted.
"Sub me off! I need to be with her. Please" Jess begged as she saw you getting carried of the field in the stretcher. Sinc had never seen the small Canadian so desperate while talking to their coach.
Unfortunately, Chris, who actually wanted to be by your side, was subbed on for you.
When Jess got subbed off which was 5 played minutes later she ran to the medic room. She had never felt so helpless.
On the pitch, your mentors played sloppy, everyone could see that your injury effected them. Canada as well couldn't play accurately without one of their key players. The game was dominated by bad passes and missed shots.
"How is she?" Jess questioned as she entered the room, "Broken nose and a little concussion."
You were lying on the bed, your nose bandaged with plasters, sleeping. As the last medic team member left the room the canadian sat next to you on a chair. She held your hand while her thumb stroked over your knuckles.
"I would swap shirts but mine is blood stained" you murmured. Your throat was sore but your face hurt less than before, the painkillers slowly working. "Please don‘t joke" the girl whispered, still not able to calm down "I was so worried"
"My girl, i‘m a fighter-"
The door was swung open as a worried Christen Press entered with Tobin Heath behind her, "Are you ok- What are you doing here?" the same woman asked who pushed Jess away from you.
Frightened, the canadian jumped out of her seat, turning to look at your team moms. Chris with a smile on her face, connecting the dots while Tobs had a scowl on hers. "Um.. I.." your girlfriend stuttered as she let go of your hand.
"Jess is my girlfriend"
"What?!"
You groaned as your head ache got worse due the loud noise, your hands massaging your temples. "What did the doc say?" united states number 23 asked, placing her hand on Tobins back, changing the subject. "Broken nose, little concussion. I need to rest" you answered. Tobin was glaring at your lover who was shuffling with her feet. "We‘ll talk about this, madame" the veteran said before she left the room. She was concerned about you but the news that the canadian was your girl was something she had to process first.
Her little boo with a girlfriend.
She‘d witnessed your highlights, watched you grow in the game, supported you, accompanied you at the lowest point in your career. You had been through a lot together, so maybe it was her pride that hurt because you didn't tell her earlier about your love story and that she had to find out about it through an injury, almost going for Chapman's throat because of that, by the way.
"She‘ll come around" Christen said as she saw how your face saddened, "I‘ll talk to her" she went to your side before she pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead to assure you that everything will be fine.
"Maybe we all could get some coffee?" the suggestion coming from Jessie, "If you want to get to know me? Officially, i mean"
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A few days later you‘re sitting at a little coffee shop waiting for your team moms to show up. Jess was next to you, holding your hand. It was unclear who was trying to calm whom. The brunette was nervous because she was meeting people you cared so much about and wanted to show them she was worthy of your love and you were nervous because you wanted them to like Jessie.
"Hi" you both greeted synchronously, slightly giggling at one another. "Hey" the dark haired women pressed a kiss to your forehead as she hugged you, carefully not to touch your injured nose. Jess stretched out her hand for Tobin to shake as she repeated her greeting. "Hello" the forward replied, accepting her hand. You felt relief as you saw their little interaction. Christen had definitely spoken to the forward about her behavior a few days ago.
The four of you talked for a while, there was no tension or anything negative. Everybody was enjoying the 'parents meet kids girlfriend'-meeting, it even seemed like scary Tobin Heath liked Jessie but there was this one question on the tip of her tongue that she wanted answered. "Jessie, I need to ask you this" she started as Jess looked at you nervously, your hand finding her thigh, "What are your intentions with y/n?"
She rested her elbows on the table, leaning forward to show her authority, Jess gulping under Tobins stare "Well," helplessly, she looked at CP who, however, was also waiting for an answer. Just because she, in terms of her protectiveness, acted calm and collected didn‘t mean she didn't want a straight answer to the question. She also had to know if your girlfriend was enough for you. "I love her. Umm, we‘re young but.. umm.. hopefully she‘ll be my wife one day" the canadian didn‘t really know how to answer that question. Her intensions were only good ones.
She wants to make you happy.
She wants to make you proud.
She wants to support you no matter what.
She wants to sit in the stands and she wants to cheer for you.
She wants to show you that you only deserved the best.
She wants to love you for the rest of her life.
She wants to be by your side as long as you‘ll let her.
She wants you.
Christen smiled like a proud parent as Tobin grinned widely. Jess looked cofused around, not understanding why the moms looked at her like that, you looking at her with the biggest heart eyes, "Oh no" she said as she understood those faces "I said that out loud, didn‘t I?"
"Jup"
Christen and Tobin got up, "My job here is done", ready to go.
"You chose a good one, y/n/n."
This time it was Christen who commented like Tobin would. In her mind, Heath agreed yet she would never admit stuff like that in prensence of Jess.
But Jessie was indeed a good one.
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pt. 2
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yanxidarlings · 2 months
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YANDERE LATIN AMERICA
ik ik they aren't canon characters (yet) but i just have some ideas for some fan perceptions of them. i got a lot of inspiration from live journal for their portrayals. honestly this was a lot of fun to write and i might start exploring other non canons characters that have piqued my interest as well.
tw. this toxic as shit, blood, violence, some suggestive themes, my horrid attempts at incorporating spanish into the dialogue if it counts
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MEXICO (José Hernández Valdez Martinez)
• José as a yandere is suffocating, to say the least. He never gives his darling a break from his presence. But all he wants to do is be with his amado, is that too much to ask? According to José, it is not. If they try to get even a moment of peace from him he acts as though they've committed a heinous wrongdoing against him. He goes out binge drinking, neglects his responsibilities, isolates himself from others. It gets to the point his brothers will step in, and deliver his darling to him on a silver platter. If they haven't already turned them self in. Does he feel a bit pathetic? Yes. Would he do it again for the same result? In a heartbeat. • He won't allow his darling to have a life of their own. From their national affairs to everyday life, José will ensure he's apart of it all. He wants to be their closest ally and dearest confidant, so anyone who gets in the way of that better start goddamn running. He'll happily sabotage every relationship his darling has to ensure their exclusivity to him. • There's no way to get privacy with José around, he thinks things like boundries are stupid concepts the USA invented. "Don't fall for Alfato's mudo traps" he jokes, but he means every word he says. • Why does his darling need to lock the door when they take showers or take phone calls with their boss in a different room, José takes sourly to any minute attempt at creating a personal space bubble.
the sounds of water rapidly pouring filled josé's ears, usually we take our shower together at 4, his face contorted into confusion. oh well — dinner can wait, he set down the bowl of rice he had been rinsing. "mijo" josé called out, picking at the locked door "why do you always lock it" he groaned, now he had to go get the spare key.
"josé can i just take one shower" they peered out from behind the shower curtain, eyebrows furrowed "you don't have to cover yourself we've showered together before" he began stripping "just one" pushing past them, he let out a yelp as the ice cold water hit him.
"think about how much we're saving the environment by showering together, mijo!" adjusting the tap, he let out a sigh of relief as the water began to warm up. "you've been spending too much time with manuel" they scoffed under their breath, reaching for the conditioner bottle.
josé's eye darkened "and you have been such a weón, as manuel would say, lately" he snatched the conditioner out their grasp, opening up the cap and squirting out product onto his hands. working the conditioner into their hair, they yelped as his nails scratched against their scalp "don't ever think about anyone but me when we're in the shower" he growled under his breath, ignoring their complaints.
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VENEZUELA (Carlos Gómez Delgado)
• There are few yandere's as openly manipulative as Carlos. Most yandere's categorised as manipulative do their work from behind the scenes, but Carlos has no problem telling his darling what he thinks to their face. If he's jealous, he makes it known, albeit by trashing the person and his darlings involvement with them until his darling feels too self conscious to interact with anyone he doesn't approve of. At first he describes himself as having paternal or brotherly instincts to protect them, and whilst that is true, a part of them just wants to be able to control their every move. • Out of all of Latin America, he is among the most openly affectionate yandere's; he's always got a hand on their shoulder, he always refers to them as corazón and has no shame in pecking them on the lips in front of others no matter their gender. He doesn't really care if his darling is fond of his affections, nothing they can do will ever get him to stop, so they better get used to it. • Rejecting his "advice" or affection is perhaps the stupidest thing his darling could possibly do. It's no secret he is not to be messed with. He has no qualms about roughing his darling up if it means setting their behaviour straight. • Don't like it when he tackles you to the ground? he used to hug you but apparently that didn't satisfy your highness. Carlos's moods are a ticking time bomb, once his anger wears off he returns to normal as if he didn't just batter the person he claims is his corazón.
they sniffled, hand held up against where he had laid his hand on them. Carlos hated the sight of tears in their eyes but how else would they learn to be appreciative? he studied their expression as they attempted to calm themself, avoiding his piercing gaze.
"are you sorry?" he finally spoke, his amber eyes meeting theirs "what" they breathed out, bewildered. "sorry or not, corazón?" he leaned in closer, furrowing his brows as they flinched away "ahh, it was just a slap, nothing to cry over" they remained still as he brought his hand up to their face, fingers brushing over the reddened skin.
they remained quiet, only the sound of heavy breaths could be heard from them "do you need another one?" he joked, breaking the silence. but carlos wasn't just joking. he'd happily do it again if they didn't speak soon.
his face was unreadable as they hastily shook their head "words, amorcito" he had shifted closer to them, prompting them to finally speak "i.. im sorry" they stuttered out, avoiding his gaze. "good" he placed his lips to their temple, before dragging them to lay down.
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ECUADOR (Esteban Fernandez Romero)
• Esteban is subtle, the true extent of his insanity is known to no one but himself. He's a delusional yandere, who see's his relationship with his darling as more than what it is. What might be a cordial friendship to them is a blossoming relationship to Esteban. He craves having someone to himself, he craves the kind of relationship Spain and Romano had back during the empire, he used to think he wanted to have someone to look out for him no matter what he did, but as he becomes more and more entrenched in his obsession, he's found himself wanting to be the macho man for once. • He might despise tedious tasks such as chores, but if it means catching the attention of his darling, he'll grin and bare it. He helps them with whatever task they might need help with, with no qualms, yet they still don't give him the time of day! He hates the fact that he craves their validation and attention as much as he does, but he'd rather be stuck in a room with america for a week than admit it. • Esteban can handle them using him for their own gain but god, please god, don't ignore him. It drives him crazy, which is something you never want to see in a former Spanish colony. He lashes out, drastically changing his behaviour. Esteban isn't afraid to maim or threaten others when he gets like this, even his darling. • There are few situations that would make him do this in public, perhaps in front of his brothers, but behind the privacy of closed doors, so his darling could never convince others about his true nature.
a loud bang was heard from the kitchen, prompting them to come rushing in to see what happened. "este-" "oh now you care" he spat out, blood gashing from his arm, pots and pans that were once cooking on the hot stove on the floor "only when i do something wrong you look away from your paperwork" he glared at them, grabbing another knife and throwing it at the ground, grinning when they flinched.
"maybe i should start doing everything wrong" stumbling past the hot pans and the cutlery littered across the kitchen floor, he made his way closer to them "speak goddammit!" he barked out as they remained silent, staring at him with wide eyes "i- esteban you're bleeding" they slowly pointed towards his arm, which had been completely disgarded in his fit of rage.
he blinked, bringing his afflicted lower arm up to his eyes, before glancing back at them. "do.. do you want me to patch that up.." they quietly asked, stuck making burning eye contact as he came up close to them.
slowly, he snaked his arms around their waist, leaning his head on their shoulder "clean that mess up as well" he spoke into their ear, bringing his injured arm up to their face and dragging it across their visage. as they went to go fetch the first aid, they wiped the blood from their cheeks.
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PERU (Miguel Alejandro Prado)
• It's impossible to see through Miguel and realise his true intentions until it's too late, but under it all he's the most obsessive of the bunch. Unlike others, his darling won't have even the faintest idea of the dark thoughts he harbours towards them. He's Miguel, when he flirts it's nothing but niceties, when he insists on accompanying them wherever they may be going, it's just him being social. It's hard for his darling to tell him to go away when he's such good company, but if they did they would come to find out the true extent he's willing to go for them. • Miguel is honestly just content being in his darling's life, he doesn't feel the need to have a specific label on the relationship, as long as he has a place in their heart, his obsession will go unnoticed. He's apply to be their prince in shining armour and work behind the shadows for them. They don't have to thank him, they just have to love him. • Which is why he simply couldn't handle it if they ever tried to distance themselves. He won't leave them alone, he won't let them get that far. He'll drag them back kicking and screaming if he has to. "oh i just hadn't seen you in a while querido" He chuckles, scratching his neck. He simply invites himself back into their life. • Afterwards, he'll find himself craving to know every detail about them. They can't even go get a glass of water without telling him. He's breathing down their neck at every turn, regardless if they want him there or not.
the door creaked open, miguel tried to avoid making a sound but god was not on his side tonight. testing their reaction, he sighed in relief as they remained asleep. slowly closing the door behind him, it made another unholy crackle, causing his cariño to shift in their sleep. mierda, he cursed internally, gripping on to his pillow.
turning over to face the wall, miguel grimanced "move" he whispered under his breath, trying to coax his darling's sleeping body to face him. what was the point of sleeping next to them if he couldn't admire their beautiful face?
grumbling quietly, miguel slowly approached the bed, placing his pillow next to their head, and gradually sinking down on to the bed. don't wake up don't wake up don't, their eyes opened at the sudden mocement "miguel" they whined, shifting to face him again "i thought we could have a sleep over" he smiled toothily, making himself comfortable.
"we had one last night" they deadpanned, half asleep, definitely displeased to have been awoken "and the night before" miguel only grinned at their words "and now tonight as well!"
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BRAZIL (Luciano da Silva)
• Few would expect Luciano to be as clingy as he is. He himself could he the ideal target for a yandere. But what they forget is that he was raised by Portugal and Spain. Not to mention it's always the unassuming ones. As a pretty major world power, he's rather co-dependent on his darling, in matters of country and personal. That's what started it all; his darling always does so much for him, it would be absolutely horrible if he ever didn't have them! It starts off as wanting to make sure his darling liked him enough to stay by him, and turned into an obsession with making sure he is the only one his darling cares about. • He takes up all their time to acheive this, can't go off with other countries when they're stuck helping him with his paperwork, can they? and by helping they're actually doing all the work, but Luciano made sure to prepare snacks and he'll take them out for drinks once they're done! At first he's content having them during working hours until he can't see them when they return home back to their own lives. He should be their entire life. He'll convince them into fulfilling just about every one of his responsibilities, using the excuse "isn't it so great to have so much influence over a country as big as mine" • Sure they do all the important stuff but he promises to repay them in other ways. It's best to just take the bait, Luciano doesn't respond well to rejection. His temperament become abominably clear when his darling rejects his company. He doesn't lash out physically, not yet, but he says some truly vile things, makes some threats, it's disturbing. And the worst part is no one believes his darling if they try to tell others about his true nature. • He's a submissive yandere if his darling doesn't attempt to pull away. He doesn't mind complying with demands or being bossed around, as long as they want him. He can handle anything but rejection.
"querido! what do you think" luciano marched into the study, not caring the slightest that he was disrupting the others work "looks good" they tapped their pen against the paper, in deep thought as they examined the words "you didn't even look!" he skipped up to the desk and snatched the pen out of their grip
with their attention now, luciano did a spin "tada!" he smiled widely "i've seen you wear your soccer uniform hundreds of times" they quickly stood up, trying to chase him down for the pen, but he only kept moving away "football — how many times do i have to explain! and look closer" he held the pen up high in air as they tried to retake it "you forgot to shower?" covering their mouth and nose with a hand, they stepped back.
he shook his head, a laugh escaping his lips "no, it's a new jersey, the colours are brighter" he pointed out the minute details, ignoring the look of unamusement on his darling's face. "just giv-" they quickly reached for the pen whilst his hands were down, only for him to use the opportunity to drag them closer, up against his chest "you left me a mountain of paperwork to do i'm busy!"
his smile fell; they were being difficult again. "you can't take a moment to admire me?" within seconds, he flashes them a cheeky grin. before they could explode into anger, he leaned in and pecked them on the lips, before running out "you can get your frustration out later after the match, good luck with the paperwork!"
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BOLIVIA (Julio Paz)
• Julio is overwhelmingly possessive of his darling. He doesn't like to sound dramatic, but they're the only person that really matters to him. The only person he gives a damn about. So the least they can do is stop fucking talking to that ingrato spain or even looking at the likes of the USA. He's as bad as Manuel when it comes to isolating his darling from the outside world. They have him, why do they need other allies or friends, if they're that desperate he'll let them invite one of his brothers over but don't you dare think about associating with the likes of europe or asia. It pisses him off to no end when they go frolicking off with other nations, why isn't he enough?! • He isn't particularly open about his jealous and possessive tendencies, at least not at first, all he can really do is pout and give his darling the silent treatment — but he'll never tell them what he's upset about "no, don't worry about me nobody else does" he isn't afraid to use whatever card he has to subtly pull to guilt his darling into compliance. • Overtime, Julio will get more and more comfortable with expressing his discontent towards his darling, oh you went for tea with england? shame his boss decided to go with chile for that trade deal and not his darling's country. huh, apparently spain visited you the other day? and you let him into your house? what a clutz he is forgetting to turn the burner off when he was using his darling's stove to cook tucumenas. • His darling will find themselves not bothering to leave his side anymore, what good does it do them? or running for the hills, either way, there's no shaking him. Once he's become obsessed there's no getting free.
"aye!" julio barked. what a wonderful day it had been, enjoying a sleep in and then going motorcycling in the streets of la paz, only to come home to his darling packing their bags. "what do you think you're doing" storming in, he began throwing their things out the suitcase, ignoring their yells to stop.
"julio, im moving out" in a stern voice, they stood their ground, gripping his hands so he couldn't continue making a mess of their belonging "oh? you think you're too good for me now that gringo wants to be friends with you, huh"
he ripped his arm out of their grip, shoving them onto the bed "i can't live with you twenty four seven, i have a country to help run!" he wasn't listening to their arguments, he was tipping the rest of the contents of the suitcase on to the floor "julio!" they stood up only to get slammed into the bed, unable to move under his weight.
"maybe that ingrato had the right idea, maybe the only way to keep you in line is to lock you up" he stared deeply into their eyes as he spoke, he finally understood what spain had always said, if you wanted something you had to take it.
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ARGENTINA (Martin Hernandez)
• Of all of Latin America, and perhaps the world, Martin is the most unpredictable yandere out there. His darling is constantly left on the edge; one moment he will seem to like them, only for the next to be filled with audacious humour that attacks their character. To his darling, he is a self absorbed man who they prefer to keep at arms length. To Martin, his darling is the menace that lives rent free in his head. He tells himself he thinks they're a boludo, a forro, a chamuyero, a careta, a sorete, every offensive pelotudo under the sun, he'd describe his darling with. • Yet he seems to reserve shitting on his darling as his sole right. Anyone else who tries something similar instantly gets the third degree because who the hell do they think they are. Lovino once went on about Martin's darling being some sort of bastard and got swiftly kicked where the sun doesn't shine. Martin passed it off as drunken rage, but it wasn't an isolated incident. He'd pick fights with the other latin american nations who his darling was having troubles with, of course it always has nothing to do with his darling he was just mad Luciano snubbed him from winning the world cup, that's all, "stop thinking everything's about you". • Martin is highly insecure on how his darling perceives him. When his delusion that they mean jack shit to him starts to fade, he's left with the reality that they see him as a royal jerkwad. Surely they still appreciate how attractive and intelligent and talented he is, right?! • He'll start to look for opportunities to show off — he'll overdress whenever he knows he might run into them, subtly get one of his brothers to drag them to his football games, so they can see how ripped and athletic he is, and.. y'know, he might just trip them over so he can show off his medical skills.
with an oomph, they fell to the ground, descending the stair at a rapid pace, one that would surely not uphold the ligaments in their ankle's, at the very least. "aye, pelotudo!" martin yelled from the top of the stairwell, tattering down the steps hastily, as if he hadn't been the one to put his foot in front of theirs, causing the aforementioned fall.
"are you trying to seduce the ground now" he ragged on, squatting down to their level, gripping on to their arm and dragging them to an upright position. a groan of pain left their lips, which sounded a bit too pleasing to martin. letting out a chuckle "what sort of boludo are you, falling down stairs, are you seven?" he examined their bruised limbs.
with a click of his tongue, he slid his arms under their legs and behind their back, hoisting them up with him. "i can walk-" "sure you can, you overgrown baby" he leg their legs fall to the ground, making contact with a loud crack he winced as they let out a cry of pain. maybe that was a bit harsh he mused to himself as he picked them up once more.
"see? useless bebito" he had this smug look on his face as he peered down at them. they diverted their gaze. "it's okay, i'll take you back to my place and put some ointment on, then tomorrow i'll take you in for an x-ray, bueno?"
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CHILE (José Manuel González Rodríguez)
• Manuel can best be characterised as an isolating yandere. Once in his grasps, his darling can say goodbye to their social life. It's not that he's overwhelming and takes up all their time, his darling has plenty of free time with him, it's just that there's always a reason they can't leave. Whether it be dangerous wind currants preventing his darling from returning to their country, him or his darling suddenly falling ill, his boss wants to discuss a new treaty between he and his darling, and on and on. • He would never be caught openly admitting to his tendencies towards his darling. If they were to ever confront him about the isolation he tries to impose, he'd go straight to gaslighting: "maybe it's you who's isolating me, have you thought about that". He himself is in denial, and genuinely thinks it's his darling's own fault he's so enamoured. If they didn't want to be stuck with him they would just leave. He's not exactly America, he can't stop them. • That's what he tells himself, until they take his advice and distance them self from him. Something in him snaps. His only friend thinks they can just pick up and leave? Well shit, maybe he is the obsessed one. • Manuel is quick to break into their house. He'll say he's just paying them a visit, that's what friends do. But his intentions are clear, and his darling comes out of the night shaken up to say the least.
"uhh, manuel?" they chuckled nervously "it's eight at night — shouldn't you be in chile?" they scrunched their nose, something they always did when they were nervous. manuel would know, he'd observed everything about them.
he took a step closer but they took a step back. was it the blank look on his face? manuel tried smiling, but his cariño only seemed more uncomfortable. "am i not allowed to pay you a visit, weón" he tched, backing them up against the wall. he followed their eyes but they avoided his gaze "aye" he grabbed their chin "mucho mejor" he muttered under his breath, their eyes now meeting his.
his face leaned in closer until his lips dance above theirs, hand still sturdy on their chin "manuel" they managed to squeak out from the pressure of his fingers against their jaw "just — let go please" he surpressed a growl, letting his hand fall from their visage.
that same hand took ahold of their arm, dragging them along with him "manuel!" he ignored them "whatever i did im sorry!" he pushed into the bedroom, locking the door behind him.
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nights-at-crystarium · 9 months
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Fragments - episodes 23-26 author notes
You can find similar breakdown posts on older episodes in my pinned!
Obligatory ShB spoiler warning.
The general status quo hasn't changed since Vivi's arrival to the First: he still doesn't feel any land under his feet, Exarch still doesn't inspire trust, although there's no reason to distrust him either. Vivi isn't in a rush to meet the Scions because usually their perspectives don't help him at all. Hence he fucks around in the Crystarium instead of doing the msq.
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You can hear the sound of Exarch failing the dating sim once again.
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Talking about a mystel. Bumping into a mystel. They could get run over by a stampede of cats at this point and Vivi would still think this guy's probably a hume. He genuinely has No Idea. Had he had an idea, he would be actually more tactful. Maybe.
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Me: no graphic violence Also me: murder onscreen
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I hope the reference to episode 11 is clear, but here's a refresher: that's what ARRRaha is mostly remembered as. For multiple reasons. Mostly for magically killing himself and giving Vivi some mild stress and an even milder blow to his ego.
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Exarch's fate was to choke on his coffee there and then, he kept his composure by a miracle no less. Vivi doesn't know the meaning of what he just blurted out, he simply rolls the letters in his mouth, still struggling to remember "G'raha".
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HE MANAGED! The embodiment of intelligence.
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Vivi reflects on the events of previous episodes and the dangers of the fae folk, and decides to do a massive handwave at that. He's walking a fine line, but he legit doesn't care.
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Canon emoji user 🖤
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Exarch has a hate-hate relationship with sleep, however, when he feels like unwinding or resetting his mind, he turns to memories of moments when he felt safe enough to drift away.
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He must've felt the most warm and human when the young Lyna stayed with him all the time.
I sat on this self-contained story for a year. Officially the most wholesome episode ever. There's a bit of One Piece influence, if you remember Nami's backstory. Gen-san wore a pinwheel on his cap to appear less scary to the little Nami, and cheer her up.
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Someone read this as "crap glue", which brings me infinitely more joy than my original "craft glue" x'D
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There's a super subtle smile. He knows. He probably sensed Lyna approaching him, but remained still to see where this goes.
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Back to the present, where they refer to each other by titles.
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He's g'oogling.
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G'oogle results: 1 fae, 1 slacking idiot.
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Exarch isn't just jealous or yearning, he's also kindaaaaa in the middle of his grand plan, yet his hero isn't keen of jumping into action? And he doesn't know how to confront him about that. Luckily, Urianger also happens to be in Il Mheg.
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Vivi smacks a like on Urianger's outfit. Rated S for peak sluttiness.
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Nobody talks about Feo Ul's snot bubble so I will x'D
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Urianger doesn't wanna leave his comfy place for an adventure, he visually demonstrates that while telling a polite lie, trusting Vivi to interpret that as intended.
They have a special vibe of quiet, maskless understanding, even if they don't interact much. They've got nothing to butt heads over. Vivi's fond of people who don't "fit in" and go against the grain. Being smart and observant as he is, Urianger knows that Vivi's rather hopeless, and doesn't waste his energy on trying to debate, direct, or, gods forbid, fix him.
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Just a closeup because he looks cute here :> To keep your expectations grounded, though: this's one of the veeeeeery few Urianger episodes. He has little overall "screentime". This comic isn't trying to be a fanservice for every character, even if I personally like them. Gotta keep things focused.
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This one's kinda important: Vivi acknowledges how nice and quiet it feels (in the moment? In Il Mheg? On the First?), but the realization doesn't fully bloom in his mind yet.
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"Mmyeah there are definitely better cracks to ponder out there".
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Another closeup because *clutches at heart*
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Two things: his own, genuine excitement to reunite with fren, followed by self-reminder that she's no fren and that he has to maintain distance (Vivi who are you trying to fool you're bad at this).
Also mirroring. He sees Alisaie's face and drops his own.
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You peek inside Alisaie's brain and find a coin loudly rolling around, one side says "omg it's HIM!!!!!", the other "beat this mf up". Why? Because she can. And probably because the word of Vivi's arrival had already reached her. He spent a good week doing nothing in the Crystarium (and even Il Mheg) instead of rushing to meet her.
The new tumblr post editor (that wasn't forced on me until ~2 months ago) won't let me add anymore pics. I was thinking of making meatier but less frequent posts of this type, because they'll massively add up over time. Imagine a new reader looking at 300 episodes and 100 recaps. I'd feel overwhelmed. But I guess I'm left with no choice but to keep these recaps relatively short and frequent.
Anyway! Thanks for reading!!!!! I'm blessed to have people invested enough to interact with my work on this level.
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A) your "the gods fucking suck sometimes" post came across my dash at a really good time in my own practice, which I feel like so many of your posts do, Chicken, and thank you for that.
B) i don't really engage with the witchcraft community except for lurking, so I guess who am I to talk, but i'm really becoming frustrated with the amount of beginner-friendly stuff on this website that tells people that 'everything they've heard about witchcraft is wrong so don't worry.' I wonder whether it comes from a place of fear deep-set within witches from a, well, Christian society of being seen as something they're not - and I don't imagine it's necessarily malicious, rather it comes from a place of comfort within their craft (ah, well I haven't suffered for years, so nobody else possibly could!) and a personal effort to distance themselves from an ingrained stereotype of witchcraft, which results in downplaying a lot of the things that align with that........
Regardless of intention people learn from that, become more experienced themselves, and when that leads to dismissing the experience of your fellow practitioners/assuming your craft and aspects of it are universal that's going well overboard
A) I am glad to hear it was helpful :)
B) At this point in time I'm not even talking about like, tricksters (and when people say that, I think they just mean "liars," the trickster archetype really needs a new PR team), demonolatry, or evil gods. I'm talking about regular, normal witchcraft!
People can have beautiful, fulfilling paths that are never dangerous, and then decide to deepen their connection by entering into intense ritual work with a local spirit for a year. And that work becomes demanding, and exhausting, and they have to make sacrifices to maintain it. And sometimes they ask if it was really the right choice.
It's not just about danger! It just sucks sometimes!
I had a tumultuous few early years of witchcraft, but even now when my path is feeling so much more comfortable and fulfilling and really like my true home, I still have responsibilities. Do I want to go to sabbat every 28 days? No! I'm lazy! I want to play Sims 4!
But I can't stop going, because I need to go. Because I love my spirit family. Because it's a part of me finding my true home in this world. I need those things.
It's just also sometimes a chore. You know?
I have spells I need to upkeep for my life to go how I want it to go. I have to take care of them. It can be tedious. Sims 4 has horses now. You know? It's 110 degrees outside. I don't want to walk around the property giving myself a sinus headache from the dust, checking on wards. But what else am I gunna do?
I'm not saying that the two modes are "safe" and "dangerous." I'm just saying, witchcraft can be burdensome. And not everyone is in a position where they can "just change it."
So yeah. I'm not trying to be on a "witchcraft is hella dangerous for real" rant. My rant is more like...
If this is a genuine faith that can carry people through decades of life, and we believe we are truly interacting with entities that have their own personhood and agendas, then from time to time things are going to get hard for some people.
That from time to time, developing those relationships will be difficult and require sacrifice. If we believe this is a faith that can allow people to work to modify their lives, then at times it will be work and feel like hard work and be something that a practitioner can't wait to be done with, because not only does Sims 4 have horses, it also has llamas that you can pet.
And pretending that can't happen, or always blaming the witch when things go badly ("just change! if you don't like your path, modify it! it's anything you want it to be! such-and-such spirits are always benevolent/will never hurt you/will never mislead you!"), isn't a service to anyone.
Idk. The more I talk about this the more I feel like my entire point is "witchcraft is just kinda like real life, it has its ups and downs." Which I could have just said that one sentence this morning and not have had to type all this lmao.
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oaxleaf · 2 months
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as promised: s4 retrospective now that the finale is out.
season four is easily the most similar to season one. even the finales are similar. that's good, narratively. it's easy to get carried away with a story, especially one with any level of audience control, so it's reassuring to get confirmation that all of this ties back to the beginning. it also opens up a lot of opportunities for seasons five and six. really, season four is just season one, but arthur knows what the fuck is going on and he and john don't have the most scathing arguments you've ever heard every other episode, and although seasons two and three did a lot of visible character development for the two of them, season four shows the actual result and proof of that development. i know that i predicted a major blow-out between them because only a couple of episodes in i felt they were getting along a little too well. but i was proved wrong! it would have been easy to set up an argument between john and arthur after it's revealed he's lied to him, but i'm glad it didn't happen, and i hope it's not going to, because i do think this was the season that properly established that they are beyond that cycle of vicious arguments.
on individual levels they've also developed a lot. john is, for plot reasons of course, kinda vague through-out the season, but i like that with his increasing humanity he's also gained traits of jealousy and petulance. although with the revelation of his being stuck in dark world, there'll be some real interesting character exploration to do next season. john also got to do a bit more interaction towards the end of this season. i think i've always been partial to arthur because he has more relationship anchors in his life (even if most of them are dead) and i like looking at a character through the lense of how they interact with others. and so far, john's mostly only had arthur to play off of. meanwhile, arthur hitting rock bottom, first in part 26 and then in part 31, really did a lot for him too. him making up with daniel and reaching out to help oscar was heartwarming, i guess, but most importantly it showed how he's determined to actually do something to be a better person and not just wallow in guilt and self-blame. still doesn't change that almost everybody he cares about dies or dissapears, but hey. it's good development.
on a personal level? i'm kinda meh on the season. i was on season one too, so that's not a surprise. it's less to do with the actual writing or narrative and more that i dont care much for fetch-quests or detective stories or, to be honest, plot in general. i like malevolent for it's character aspects. it's my personal indulge to be emotionally punched in the gut by this show. and obviously a story needs to have a plot, and i'm not saying i have issues with the show. just that so far nothing has been able to dethrone season two yet, lol.
let's talk about that finale, then. it's really amazing how kayne dominates with his presence whenever he's there, even if this only, what? like the fourth time? that we see him. i always want to get more kayne, but these occasional doses are really perfect for him. he needs to keep that veneer of mystery and insanity, and he needs to mostly be stagnant in his personality, i think, even if his motivations are unravelled. it's what makes him so entrancing whenever he appears on screen (in ear?). so i hope we don't get too much of him next season, even if he's the one setting up whatever happens next. and speaking of what happens next? an advantage to tying up a lot of old threads this season is that i have very little idea of what season five will be about. jesus fuck am i excited though, though!
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If you could fukky control and write about Jason as character what would you do?
oh thank you for indulging me :] i suffer from cant shut up disease so i had to put a cut there
ok so, first of all, i don't really follow what he's up to nowadays, i've read a couple of issues here and there but mostly it bores me so i dont have the fine details of continuity, no idea how to tie my hypothetical changes with what's currently going on
what i'd want to do is give him back the crime boss persona. not like he was in utrh, not entirely, but give him an attitude, set of values and principles that isn't the regular approach vigilantes have of investigating crimes and acting as aftermath. that's what's most interesting to me about red hood, that he takes proactive actions and has this 'control to prevent' attitude, there's a lot to be done with a 'good' guy doing something pretty much all of the heroes look down upon, things to explore and question and measure, and im not just talking about the 'to kill or not to kill' problem, but also 'is it ok to break in and beat people as a vigilante? where do you draw the line of what's admitted or not for a vigilante to do just because they've got good intentions even if legally it is a crime? you can leak drug deals information to the police but cannot do them yourself to manipulate the results as you want? what's moral, what's accepted as good and bad actions?' and all that jazz
first and foremost in the plot of this hypothetical run i'd be given, i'd have him give up the crowbars (fucking stupid choice imo), pick up guns again and stop running around doing patrol like every single other gotham vigilante do, there's spoiler to keep an eye on the narrow if he's worried about his home neighborhood. what i want for him is to do a lot of investigation and research and planning like he does pre-utrh, spending time making up complicated plans and then striking and unfolding it piece by piece with extreme meticulousness, showcasing his many skills (yes, fighting skills but also people skills like manipulation or reading people, making bombs, traps, poisons, using politics and all those things he learned)
i'd have him turn away from the batfam, at this point they've reached a status quo of as good relations as they'll get, by now jason has run dry his fantasy of good family attitudes and settled for what he'll get, stop trying to reach for their attention (admitting he's no longer 19 but in his 20s now). but, and that could be the new conflict, this new indifference could be a point of contention for bruce, who cannot use his desire for recognition as a way to weigh in jason's decisions. basically, emancipation from the daddy issues for my boy <3
for the story itself, im half temped to put black mask against, first because their interactions were amazing in utrh, and second because i think black mask having red hood sicced on himself twice is hilarious, man getting his office blown up by the same rogue vigilante twice, more news at 8. i would want something a lot more grounded, not magic or science fiction, just jason going up against gotham's mafia and slowly mowing them all down, getting his fingers into all the corrupted pies of gotham officials and pulling strings to his satisfaction. there would be lots of political plot points i think, jason growing bored of them to rely on his own methods, the slow gears of how crime actually works in real life
and! on a personal life note, have him bond with other people, not in his personal life because i still want him messed up and refusing genuine human relationships, but on a general human level. actually show why he's doing this, show the drug users getting compassion from the operation he's setting up, show him watching over the kids needing help, dismantling cover-up for abusers, etc. show that despite what he lets on, jason actually cares about other people and that's why he's doing this, to make gotham safe and protect victims and innocent people
the book ends with jason as this new gotham kingpin that even batman can't take down (and batman genuinely tries to, he just can't because jason is competent, he was trained right), thus putting a new status quo for following writers to stick to in the coming years, and maybe then we'd get stories that are deeper than just 'oh is killing good or bad? what does my dad want me to do because i don't have a personal moral anymore'
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Heath has been a character since 2007, and I still have to search his name up to remind myself of who he is lol. If they wanted other characters (and the audience) to genuinely react emotionally to his death, they could've given him more interactions with other characters and more screentime/storylines of his own lol. It's not like he wasn't old enough. Jacob, Liv, and Gabby were all given big storylines of their own (and interactions with other characters) when they were younger than Heath was.
It's been a problem for a while. The teen groups get worse every generation.
The Robert, Andy, Ollie, Marc, Donna, Katie etc crew? I feel like they were always on and had real stories and got to appear to react to their parents stories too. You knew who they were, what they wanted out of life. You understood their relationships with each other. They were actual characters. Sure they appeared less than their adult counterparts but if they had killed one of them off, the show would have felt it. And it would have been believable for people to react to. And I mean they did have a joyriding story that resulted in a fatality, it just wasn't one of them. I still haven't watched it but I'm sure it was better than this was/will be.
Then you had the Victoria, Daz, Aaron, Scarlett, Adam, Holly, Hannah, Amy etc group. Again, actual stories. Aaron obviously had big stories from 17 on so he was a bit older but teen Vic and Daz had stories. Scarlett had all of the King drama and Daz drama and then Adam. Obviously the Barton's had a ton of screen time so we got to see the kids often and they all had their own stories. And they were real stories. And then you had teen Amy with the pregnancy.
Next there was Belle's group which had Sean and Gemma and Tom for a bit. Not as much going on. Belle was obviously a character that had plenty of screen time over the years, especially because she was a kid during better eras of the show when kids were seen. But they had their relationship drama and Belle accidentally killing Gemma. I mean I don't know how many people cared about Gemma but I assume people cared about Belle when that happened. And then you can add Lachlan into the mix later, who obviously got plenty of screen time. And Gerry was lovable until Lachlan murdered him.
And that transitions into Liv, Gabby and Jacob. Liv got a fair amount of screen time due to her proximity to Robron. Her stories were a bit hit or miss but at least she got them even if they didn't always do them justice. And they definitely fell off with her and her friendship with Gabby in later years. But Jacob obviously had the Maya story and Gabby had plenty going on with Ashley dying and the Emma stuff and all of Bernice's drama etc. I feel like the biggest problem with these three was the transition to adulthood. They were decent characters as younger teens but they transition was rough because they didn't get as much screen time and Liv especially had zero ambitions. At least Gabby they put at Home Farm and Jacob decided he wanted to be a doctor. This was also the first group where I feel like they really started leaning into the bratty teen trope where they would pop up just to be annoying and then go away again, especially when Leanna got brought into the mix.
Then you've got Noah and Amelia, and Samson and Chloe and Sarah. Despite all of Sarah's earlier stories, this current version of her is just non existent. She never really gets to be a part of the teen drama. She's sort of like Liv, she shows up once in a while to maybe be the voice of reason or be a brat for a second and then disappears again. Then you had Noah and Samson's personality swap. And they've also been episode count challenged, particularly Samson who had several years where he only had 10. So they had no real foundation and then several inconsistent bratty years and then a weird transition into sort of adulthood but also they continue to disappear for long periods of time and I don't really feel like I have a handle on them.
And now you've got this group with Arthur, April, Angelica, Cathy, Heath (RIP), Elliot etc...and half of them just don't exist. Pretty sure Cathy and Heath had an entire year where they were MIA. Elliot was in 11 episodes last year. I literally have no idea who this kid is. Arthur obviously had a story but only just because he got kicked out halfway through in favor of his mother in his own relationship story, which was...a choice. April is probably the most consistent of the bunch but only just. It's just she has slightly more foundation because she's actually gotten family screen time because Donna died and Marlon had a stroke and Carly was always babysitting her. And then Cathy just yells at people and is the ultimate bratty teen, except they gave her an excuse but they haven't really tried to make her endearing in any way to the audience. I don't know, this group is a mess. And you'd think with the stories that Jimmy and Nicola have gotten over the years that they could have involved the kids more but they just really haven't bothered. And like, fine if they're going to develop them now with a story like this but I doubt they will.
Bottom line is, they need to do better with the kids and the teens and let them exist more. Let them react to the adults in their lives. Let them hang out in smaller stories. Give them ambitions. Give them...personalities. Otherwise it's going to be another super rough transition to adulthood...provided any of them survive that long.
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lillybelle238 · 2 years
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Modern Au
Tags: Angst, Exes to Lovers, Office
Penelope and Callisto use to secretly date in high school. They met at the beginning of their final year of high school but broke up just before graduation. While they were compatible with one another, it was their family problems that drove them apart.
Callisto's relationship with his stepmother was downright hostile and Penelope was still clinging to the possibility that her family might love her. They both tried to not let it affect their romantic life but there was only so much they could have done given that they both were about to graduate and possibly go to different universities.
This all resulted in a massive argument between them that ultimately led them to break up.
They graduated high school got into different colleges, graduated from said colleges and got jobs and try to move on with their lives. The key word being tried. While they didn't want to admit it, they still miss one another and all the good times they had even if it was for a short time.
Years later they've both gotten promoted in their jobs. Their companies just so happen to collab with each other on a big project. Penelope and Callisto who are very hard workers in their jobs are chosen by their respective companies to be a part of this project, they think it will be just like every other assignment they've done before.
So imagine their surprise when they see each other at the beginning of the program. Their minds are like "Oh shit, what is he/she doing here?" while keeping a poker face. They decide right then and there to avoid each other as subtly as possible to avoid drama but low and behold their place in the same group together.
Not a problem they'll just do what they do best, ignore the problem till it goes away or till they have no choice but to confront it. The two of them decided that avoiding each other outside of work is the best option and all seems to go well...…....for a while.
You see, Penelope and Callisto work very well together despite trying to avoid any other interaction with one another. But even then they tend to bicker and throw jabs at one another at every chance they get.
Their other group members have collectively agreed that they are made for one another. Cut to them trying their best to get Penelope and Callisto to spend as much time together as possible without it being too suspicious.
This leads to both parties feeling emotionally drained at the end of every day from all the mental gymnastics they're doing around each other. They catch on to what their colleges are doing but don't have the time to tell them to stop, plus they'd prefer not to go around explaining that the person the group is trying to set them up with is the high school ex.
But soon they settle into their temporary routines and sparks are beginning to fly between to two. They're more comfortable around each other now and are reminded of how things were between them when they started dating years ago.
Everything is going normal until months later when they hit an important milestone in their project. To celebrate, their bosses take their workers out for a few drinks. You can see where this is going.
Long story short, Penelope and Callisto both get drunk, head off to Callisto's apartment and had sex, they went at it the whole night and slept till noon and would have missed work if it wasn't a Saturday.
Suffice it to say they were horrified when they woke up. To make matters worse, Penelope can't leave cause there is a massive storm outside, the streets are flooding and people are advised to remain indoors. So they've stuck indoors...…with each other...….not a problem at all.
They are a little awkward around each other since this is their first time in years interacting with each other outside of work. Things were a little tense on day one but they settled into a temporary routine by day two and were comfortable sharing a space together. But they could only ignore the massive elephant in the room for so long.
One of them finally brought up the topic that they indeed slept together the night before. Their both not embarrassed by this considering they were each other's first in high school. But the conversation inevitably shifts to their nasty breakup literally a week before graduation, and that leads them to bring up some still painful memories about the families they've since cut off from their lives.
To them, there was just too much happening all at once so suddenly. Things got tense in their respective households, they had to prepare for graduation, prepare college and all that jazz. They didn't seem to have time to process their emotions back then which lead to them braking up on such bad terms.
But now they're older and have worked through their issues over the years. However, they genuinely never expected to see one another again after going to separate colleges.
So after a very long talk, they decided to give their relationship another chance. They took things slow at the beginning which escalated to going on trips together and moving in together. After two years Callisto proposed, they got married, bought a house and had kids.
THE END
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solsearchingnights · 1 year
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Hi! You reblogged a post recently about authors not wanting to talk about symbolism and repetition and themes and foils and analysis stuff in their own work, and I was wondering if you had anything like that for your fics (that you’re willing/able to share) because if so I’d love to hear it! (I may have become mildly obsessed with iitv and a lesson of fire and ice recently since they’re the kind of thing I like to read and amazingly well done)
OOOOOOoooooohhhhh boy!! There is so much
But because I'm at work and also terrified of accidental spoiling my own fic by getting too excited talking about it let me just talk about the title. It's something I've wanted to explain for a while!
Ink in the Vase
I needed something to evoke an image, right away. And its a complex one. Even if you're not familiar with "Flower Husbands", 'vase' is almost always connected to a bouquet of flowers. So it's a steady image. Everyone can put their own flowers in it. Maybe the flowers will change over time, with new events in the story or in the reader's own life events.
The same goes for the vase itself. Up until the carafe of flowers in the hospital chapters, there was no indication of a particular style. I describe Jimmy's dishes as having a mish mash of antiques and hand me downs from Ela, so maybe the vase becomes a chipped and repaired antique to some people. Maybe the image of the carafe was impactful enough that it's what stays as the image to people. Or maybe the bleakness of Jimmy's home in the beginning sticks with the reader, and they imagine a plain, dusty, glass vase.
It's interactive, flexible, and starts a process of pulling the reader into the story before they ever read it. And it's a good hook every time an update comes. It brings up the reader's personal experience with the title, and makes it easier to recall past events of the story.
And the Ink.
It took a bit of a leap on my part, but I found two ways to make this work.
The first, is that ink is staining, permanent. Whatever it touches, purposely or not, leaves a mark. Anything that happens in the story or the backstory, I want it to feel like it's clinging, staining, impossible to completely ignore. If that ink, those events, are touching the rest of the mental image, the vase you're picturing isn't allowed to be "perfect", the flowers are going to be poisoned.
And second, is where I took a leap. I loved doing flower staining growing up. That thing, where you make a fresh cut of a stem and feed the plant dyed water to turn the petals different colors. There's ways to do it with living flowers and cut bouquets. It depends on what you feed the flowers. So we can see the flowers, see the results of what they've been fed, what they've been placed in and forced to make a part of themselves. If that food/water is toxic and dark and ugly, signs of that experience will show. But if you clean the food source, put in bright colors and healthy food, fresh water and love and care, the next buds will come out healthier and healthier, until all that's left of the toxic relationship is memories and pictures and maybe a little bit of a shadow of a stain. It can get better, if people are willing to put in the work and care to fix it.
Put it all together and even if no one ever thinks about me as much as I did- even if no one knows what exactly the title is doing, I know that it's special. I know there's gonna be people who it has an effect on, even if they don't know why. I know how important this little four word summary of the story is.
Honestly, I would love to see the images "Ink in the Vase" has brought to people's minds.
Thank you thank you thank you thank you for this ask!! I hope it's what you were looking for. If you had specific things you were wondering about, feel free to ask. This was so so cool to have permission to talk about and I'm very much happy stimming atm lol.
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Hey, I'm @xanvasofxords! Glad to be talking to you for the first time, until now I only ever saw your posts but never interacted much. But holy shit you speak so true--
Anyways, you know, I don't ship Gray with anyone. Because there's simply nobody I find is a suitable love interest for him in the series. I don't ship Graylu, just as that anon, but I passionately hate Gruvia. Why? Because it's result of a serious character assassination of two characters at once. One of them *cough* Gray *cough* used to be my favorite once before Gruvia brainrot took over Mashima. Sadly, now I don't care about him.
That said, I can't completely ignore his butchered character every time he's onscreen. So I just wanted to elaborate my own thoughts on the topic about Lucy and Erza being Gray's type :
Gray has carried the guilt of being the reason of his master and her daughter's despair. It's pretty normal for him to resist people who express their love towards him. It has to be done slowly, eventually breaking the invisible wall he surrounds himself with. With friendship. There's no other way than friendship.
The friends Gray grew up with mean his world. Why wouldn't they, they've been there since he joined the guild. They've been sharing happiness and sorrows together. Especially team Natsu members are a crucial part of his life. They helped him overcome his past with Ur and Deliora. He needs a person who values the relationships just as much as him if not more.
Gray is mature, but he can be pretty childish too. I think he needs someome to match his energy. She has to keep him in check while also being one with his fun-loving nature at times.
Gray is quite hesitant in terms of being affectionate in public it seems. He needs someone to respect that boundary for him and wait until he's ready. Someone who won't embarass him.
Gray needs someone who isn't dependant on him. Someone who can take care of herself even when he's not present.
I don't think Juvia has even one of these unfortunately. She's completely dependant on him emotionally, will literally drown a town with rain if need be. Doesn't respect Gray's boundaries and embarasses him publicly and even in front of thousand people in a arena. Her only gag is love and love rivals and love rival sensor. She doesn't match his energy except stripping alongside him and picking his clothes. She tries to compare herself with his friends all the time. Can't bear to think about him being alone with anybody, let alone Lucy. She wants him to choose her over everybody. She forces herself onto him with no regards of his discomfort.
I had a conversation with a friend of mine about this who follows you. So here is a piece of my mind! I'd message you off-anon but tumblr would reveal my main blog so sorry for the anon!
Hi, @xanvasofxords! Nice to meet you! I've seen some of your awesome posts around in the anti-tags, and I agree with a lot of what you say! You've got a very refreshing take on certain aspects of FT, so I am delighted that you're stopping by!
Onto your thoughts:
I totally understand where you're coming from, how you don't ship Gray with anyone. In all honesty, as an Anon has sent in an ask before, I would be totally fine if Mashima didn't make any ships canon and kept the focus on friendship and familial love. I think the show had its best moments when it stayed on course with the moral of the story. Not every friendship has to boil down to romantic love, and it's very refreshing to see powerful yet platonic love between friends. I personally think Gray staying by himself would be just as healthy as him being with Lucy, but that's just me, so please do keep doing you in regard to your ships haha.
Oh man, I so agree with you here though, that gr///via simultaneously destroys 2 characters' characters (ha) at once. juvia had all the potential to be a really cool, relatable heroine, who overcame feelings of loneliness and low self-worth with the help of her friends. Gray had the potential to finally put himself first for a change and value his own life so he could live for his friends and for himself and not just throw his life away for them.
But nope.
With the introduction of gr///via, juvia loses all individuality and self-agency. she finds no worth in herself, only in following and slobbering over Gray. she loses all relatability when she begins to act selfishly and creepily and obsessively as soon as someone shows her an ounce of human decency. she doesn't even care about friends, no matter what the once-in-a-blue-moon "i love friends" moments will try to have you think, and she would abandon any semblance of friends at the drop of a hat if it meant she could be with Gray.
With the introduction of gr///via, Gray now is shackled to a woman who doesn't actually love him but wants to possess him, and he's now manipulated into only living for her (not himself nor his friends) and only wanting her to be happy (disregarding himself entirely). There's being selfless, and then there's completely losing your sense of self. You can't help others by neglecting yourself completely, you know. juvia doesn't care that Gray's devolved into this; she just wanted him in her clutches, so she's happy Gray's joined her in her sick, manic, twisted version of love.
Yeah, you put it perfectly: it's a "serious character assassination of two characters at once". Neither of them is the best they could be, and they're no longer recognizable to whom they once were.
I don't blame you for not caring about the current 100yq Gray anymore; for me, I still hold true to the old Gray, the real Gray. The current Gray is definitely not the one we knew and loved.
Onto what you say next, wow.
Just wow.
I'm blown away by your thoughtfulness; you've parsed everything so wonderfully!
I agree with you 100% about your analysis of Gray and how romance would go with him. Wow, you make such good points; I'll give a few thoughts, but I really don't need to, because you've hit the nails on the head, my friend.
There's definitely no way to romance with him outside of friendship. That's the only way he's gotten close to people before, so it wouldn't make sense for him to fall in love with someone he was never friends with. He most definitely was never friends with juvia, considering friendship was never on the table with her, only romantic partners. she doesn't care about what he wants; she just wanted to date him, to own him. That's definitely not friendship. And friends were his whole life, so it makes even less sense that a woman who hates his closest, dearest, female friends just because they're women would become the object of his affection.
As for the rest of the characteristics, all of which I agree with, juvia absolutely doesn't fulfill any of those requirements. she in fact demolishes them by being the exact opposite of what Gray needs in a healthy relationship. I'm not going to reiterate it because you made such a perfect conclusion yourself, but I will say that my gosh, I don't understand how people could like juvia and this pairing when juvia doesn't even exist. she's not her own person; she has no personality or goals or motivations outside of Gray. The only things left to her are her jealousy, her selfishness, and her obsessiveness. Otherwise, she gives Gray nothing, and she herself is nothing, which you can see clearly if you take Gray out of the equation. (I talk more about this in this old post of mine).
I'm happy that we got connected through a follower of mine and a friend of yours! The Anti community is still strong! And don't worry about the anonymous thing, it really doesn't matter to me whether someone uses it or not! Anyway, thank you for sharing your wonderful thoughts! This was such a meticulously written ask, I am very impressed!
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omg id love to hear your thoughts about callists and gavins relationship
In my last Grieve analysis post, I went into the flashback about Callista comforting Fergus when he had nightmares as a kid but pretty much slamming the door in Gavin's face. So instead of revisiting that, I'm taking a look at a line from All of Our Demise that perfectly sums up the conflict between these two:
"It still pained him to see how kind she could be to a child she'd never met before, when she'd greeted him like a corpse who hadn't had the decency to stop breathing yet."
First of all, ouch. Second of all, this is exactly what the problem is with Gavin and Callista. It's the same problem with her comforting Fergus after nightmares but not Gavin (minus the "child she'd never met before" bit) and literally every other interaction they've ever had. The problem is that no one except for Fergus ever bothered to get close to Gavin, or even treat him like a person, because they knew that he was going to be killed at seventeen. In their eyes, it wasn't worth it.
I don't think Callista arrived at this conclusion as coldly as their parents, but what do I know? All I have to go by is the scene of her wedding and the scene where Gavin takes Marianne to live with her. I think Callista arrived at this conclusion because, as horrible and isolating it was, it was easier than letting herself get truly attached to a brother she would lose.
Now, obviously, this is fucked up and left Gavin with no older guiding figure in his life and a desperate search for validation. But it also explains a lot about her greeting Gavin at the Payne estate "like a corpse who hadn't had the decency to stop breathing yet." From Callista's perspective, as soon as Gavin crossed the Blood Veil, that was it. He was dead. She could properly mourn the brother she'd never really gotten to know, and then she could move on with her new married life.
Except here he is. He's back, with a kid alongside him, and he's still breathing. Two champions are already dead and he isn't one of them. And suddenly Callista is face-to-face with this corpse again, and she'll need to talk to him and pretend that nothing is amiss as she shows the girl to her room and tells her a bedtime story. Then she'll say goodbye and suggest a way for her brother to survive the tournament, and he won't listen, and then he'll die for real. And all of that mourning from before will be for nothing, because that last goodbye before the tournament began wasn't the real end of it.
I do not endorse the way Callista handled any of this, but the more I think about it, the more I really wish we could've seen more of her. Because what was she supposed to do? Her parents made it clear that they wanted nothing to do with her. Gavin was pretty much destined to die. Fergus is a sweetheart, but he's ten years younger than her, so he's hardly a confidant. It's terrible, it didn't have to be this way, and part of it was by her choosing, but the Paynes are really all she has.
I guess what I'm saying is the same general idea from my other post, which is that Gavin and Callista's relationship was shaped by the messy nature of the Grieves, which did not set them up for easy love and affection. While they're certainly civil with each other and I believe that they wish each other the best, I don't think they'll ever be very close siblings. I can't say that I hold this against Callista, exactly, but I do think it's a result of her choices.
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steveharrington · 1 year
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Sarah! Happy Birthday! I recently reread "things to come" since it's a personal all time favorite, and while it's both amazingly written and structured, there was just this "something" it had that made me go gooey in every way. It took awhile to really pinpoint what it was but I realize that it's how you view and characterize Steve as a whole. I know there's a largely accepted headcanon of Steve having unhealed trauma, unhealthy habits, and PTSD (very reasonable because all of the characters have been through so much), but in a lot of the other fanfiction works I've read, his episodes or possible symptoms are depicted in a very fetishistic way. In a way he is "babygirlified", or put into a submissive role that is more like an uncomfortable caricature of who he really is. This has shown up in general works as well as NSFW work.
Everyone is free to interpret things how they choose, but I have a particular itch I must scratch since I'm a lover of psychology and the affects of mental illness on the brain. I also actually really support the adopted headcanon of the Stranger Things characters developing some form of post traumatic stress as a result of the continuous near death experiences they've faced.
A direct quote explaining Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or C-PTSD: "Survivors with Complex PTSD have a very difficult time with emotions -- experiencing them, controlling them, and for many, just being able to comprehend or label them accurately..." [beautyafterbruises.org] this website actually does a great job of explaining the affects of this illness if you ever want to read about it.
This can be labelled as Emotional Disregulation. The symptoms and reactions aren't something to be romanticized: episodes can cause one to lash out in defense, lie for fear of what "is" or what they suspect is happening (could be a physical or emotional flashback), isolate themselves to feel "safe", dissociation and a low self esteem, guilt delusions that have your entire body feeling "wrong", an inability to see yourself as anything other than bad or shameful or different even when told otherwise, issues with memory. Your brain is working on a completely different level than someone else; all the cogs working ten times harder.
And I think there's just such a human beauty to how you depict Steve [as well as the other characters] because I very much see reflections of the real side of this illness in your characterization. Intentional or not. Yes, he is flawed: he was a bully, he lies, he makes mistakes, he gets defensive, and he pushes and pushes until his body can't bear it anymore. On all accounts, it makes sense why he's so willing to give himself up at any given chance and I wouldn't be surprised if he expects the people he loves to abandon him. Steve may be damaged, but he makes up for it in his loyalty and character. He tries and tries, a protector through and through, he's understanding and soft, kind and blessed with a snarky attitude, he loves deeply and gives it his all even when it's unrequited. Most importantly though, despite Steve being a contender for mental illness in this form, you still stay true to him as a person. He isn't boiled down to be this one dimensional post it note of a character. You've executed this with all of the cast actually - they feel fleshed out and real and so so human. You emphasize the importance of connection, of care, of patience and understanding. Whether that's through his friendship with Robin, his interactions with Jim and Wayne, or his relationship with Eddie. To have true friendships, people that truly care to sit with you through the ugly side of things, it's amazing. You've written a delicious piece of literature that has so many layers; I still find myself studying how you did it. But I'm so glad you did. I cannot wait to read your newest update as I'm sure it will be just as good as the last. This message extends to @lesbianrobin since they seem to be your "partner in crime", blessed thanks to the both of you.
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THANK YOU this is so sweet and means so much to me <3 :’) i spend so much time thinking abt how everything that’s happened would affect steve, and if the show doesn’t want to talk about it then i will!!! i was also a psych major so i am glad i can at least use my degree to write stranger things fanfiction hehe
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clonehub · 1 year
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Listen ever since you revealed Hahkin I have been thinking about her on a loop. Rotating her in my mind if you will. I love how she loves Kiki, and Kiki loves her back, but if I'm interpreting their relationship correctly, Kiki isn't in love with her, the way Hahkin is. And Hahkin is never going to bring it up, because Kiki is happy with Jax. I also love the idea of her constantly moving, constantly reaching out and interacting with the world-- the parts not necessarily good for a monk. (1/2)
I love that to the other Jedi, so many of them are focused on being the 'luminous beings' but Hahkin interacts with the 'crude matter' on a daily, regular basis. She is a real person, with vices and virtues and flaws, and not just a stone statue the way the Order tried to be in later years before its fall. But at the same time, Hahkin is a Jedi. She has passed every test put before her, and she's part of the main corps. She is everything they said she could not be, and she is more besides. (2/2)
omg...omg an analysis about one of my OCs? yo i appreciate this so much, while I'd been aware that she was more grounded in a way, it ever occurred to me that she was so because she's the "Crude matter" side of things. Compaired to Hahkin, Kiki (from Hahkins POV) is the "luminous being"--she's strong in the Force, she can wield it almost however she wants. she's always doing something grand, something magnificent--whether for the war or outside the war or even in personality .
i dont want hahkin to put kiki on a pedestal, but you know how sometimes you have a friend that almost exists beyond your comprehension? they're cool, theyre epic, and so you look up p to them. kind of like "how did i manage to be friends with this person"? thats hahkin @ kiki. she loves her dearly. although hahkin never exploring those feelings or confiding them to kiki is more a result of her Jedi training--Jax doesn't come into the picture years later, when Hahkin is unfortunately already dead. Hahkin respects where their friendship is now. She likes that they can be as close as they are. She's still following the "no attachment'" rule of the Jedi (at least, the TCW interpretation of the rule) but in all honesty, if Hahkin and kiki were to start a relationship, I think neither would struggle with letting the other person go if they had to, at least not for the majority of the war. If they were to break up, they'd still love each other very much. But yes, the slight romantic feelings Hahkin has for Kiki are unrequited.
(if Hahkin were to die, well then that would be a different story altogether)
But Hahkin looks up to Kiki because Kiki always believed in her, right from day one. She didn't care that Hahkin was weak in the Force, she didn't care that Hahkin wasn't as academically smart and for a while was kind of a slow kid. Kiki didn't care about any of that, and she frankly didn't notice the difference in their Force abilities in terms of strength--Hahkin couldn't form a deep connection with it, and Kiki couldn't comfortably connect with it. Hahkin's persistence inspired Kiki. They've always pushed each other.
And for that, Hahkin was ready to go wherever Kiki went, up to and including leaving the Order entirely. But she left too late and ended up getting killed in Order 66.
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I didn’t hate cme and it still made me happy getting to see AJ and JJ again but it annoys me so much that all of JJ’s screen time and stories basically revolved around Will. And it’s not like anything of significance even happened in the end, it was just a rehash of the work life balance struggle and Will’s life potentially being at risk. It feels like we barely even got to see her do proper profiling work or interact with others outside of Luke and Garcia (a couple of times). They really just made her into Will’s wife and I hate that. They had such a good opportunity to explore her further, maybe even show how she would grow after being promoted to Unit Chief or how she deals with her PTSD after the explosion in 16x05, but they wasted it. And now the fandom keeps fawning over Will and Willifer (even people who dislike JJ and have criticised her in the past for not having a personality or story outside of being a wife and mom which wasn’t true until this season imo, but then again some of these people say that JJ doesn’t deserve Will and that he’s the perfect husband so I guess I shouldn’t be surprised that they like what this season has done) and I’m scared that they’re going to shove him in even more next season. I think I even saw Erica Messer mention trying to get him back in an interview after the finale. Nothing against the actor but I really hope he isn’t available so much next season and that we actually get a proper JJ story about her. But knowing the showrunners and writers, without Will, JJ would probably just not be given any stories.
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I LOVE THIS ANON!!!
I'm so mad they had four incredible women for CME and instead of focusing on the female characters who have been side-lined so dudes could have screen time, they just...brought in more dudes.
Literally, it felt like the ONLY time we really got to see JJ was with Will in each and every scene. and for WHAT?!?! Like you said, it was the same old shit they've been arguing about since they first got together. It feel like the writers suddenly didn't have Reid to frame the entire season around so they brought it Will, because HEAVEN FOR FUCKING BID they show JJ as anything OTHER than a mother/wife.
And now the fandom keeps fawning over Will and Willifer (even people who dislike JJ and have criticised her in the past for not having a personality or story outside of being a wife and mom which wasn’t true until this season imo, but then again some of these people say that JJ doesn’t deserve Will and that he’s the perfect husband so I guess I shouldn’t be surprised that they like what this season has done)
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. It's very clear that the cishets are not okay. If women see Billiam GatorTang and think he's the perfect husband after he LIED TO HER ABOUT TEST RESULTS???? KEPT SECRETS ABOUT HIS HEALTH???? Then says 'This is just out marriage, it's always been unfair'.
Hey, HEY if you're a str8 woman and you think this man is a GOOD husband.....you need high standards. I worry for your relationship. If you think lying to your wife and constantly making her feel like her career is the cause of all your marital problems....hey, you need to go to therapy and learn your own worth. That shit is toxic and manipulative and if you look at Shirmplliam Jr and say 'Just like my husband uwu!" SUSAN, I AM BEGGING YOU TO LEAVE YOUR MAN.
I have seen my fair share of FUCKING tomfoolery with this show, remember when AJ and Paget were forced to leave bc CBS refused to pay them what they wanted??? Remember what a shit show it was EACH AND EVERY year for the women of this show??????
Mark my words, if they bring this fucking dude onto the team in some sort of regular capacity, I will be on the next plane to the US so I can burn it all to the fucking ground. Bc JFC I hate where this is going.
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𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐆𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐒   -   𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒 + 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄 𝐎𝐔𝐓𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄  ! ARSENAL :   a silver sword , the blade etched in old language prayers . bow and arrow , silver with gold bits dancing along it and has been bathed in the moonlight and blessed with prayer of all languages . a necklace ; seemingly uninteresting, though the stone is from the first ever spear that a human made and lights up when danger is nearby .
from the moment humanity existed , coraline was right there with them . she remembers only a brief time before it , it was quiet , seemingly alone and walking the earth on her lonesome ; then, humans came around . however, it was strange , from the moment her feet placed on the dirt she knew she had to protect them from forces that they were not built to face ; even before the humans existed . she was able to watch the humans grow , evolve into what they are now ; but she remembers when humans first discovered fire , when they first made a spear of sticks and stones ;  it's hard to believe how far they've come , the ones on the forefront history ; watching them continue to turn into something bigger and better than themselves is something coraline enjoys. at times, she feels like a proud parent - given she's the first human, makes sense.
her job is a hard one , but one she does with pride ; coraline's job is to protect humans , to protect the living , from the forces of evil . since humans grew into themselves there have always been spiritual forces there to take them down , or to take advantage of them and use their ignorance for their own interest ; coraline is there for one thing and one thing only , to protect the living from the dead , from entities and deities that only had evil in mind .
coraline doesn't need people to believe in her, it's not needed ; though , that doesn't mean she doesn't exist in the eyes of humanity . she's still there, though less as a character and more like a concept ; she's the good in the air , the powerful force that keeps the bad away ; the aftermath of relief when the room feels lighter after eyes were closed tightly wishing the bad energy in the air would just go away .  coraline doesn't have a name in the eyes of humans , a protector that was never meant to be known  - though this means her life is lonely , coraline is okay with it  -  she has to be.
coraline has witnessed everything , this includes the creation of the guardians . she remembers pitch , the nightmare reign on humanity to give them the loss of hope , as a result - it was actually why her job was so busy, bad spirits feed on the fear of children and adults alike - they come to the most vulnerable, and while nightmares were simply human,  it was a new height when pitch got involved - it died down when the moon brought about new forces ; something different, something new . sandman, north, the toothfairy , the easter bunny - it brought a shift, a change, and believe it or not ; the belief in these tales is what strengthens the mind and body, it's the hope and brightness, it brings a spiritual ward that is hard to break through. it made coraline's job a less frequent ... at least in comparison to what it was - she's still dragged across the globe every second fighting off things that shouldn't be on this world. her job, her role, is very much 24/7 and in all the centuries she's been around, coraline has never been able to have a real break.
her relationship with the other guardians ? non existent. not finding the time to socialize, but that doesn't mean they haven't talked, interacted a little bit here and there - but for the most part, she keeps to herself, keeps to her work - down to the fact that she's a little awkward.
personality : blunt, awkward, can be dense at times and can fail to understand social cues - her work dominates her life and unlike the others, coraline is very much a solider. though, don't let that fool you ; she's sweet, is plagued by good intentions and has a heart of gold - ultimately, she wants people to be safe and hasn't had the option to separate herself from work, because she IS her work.
can people see her ? yes ! though there is a catch, only people who TRULY believe in humanity have the ability to see her ; those who hate people and have lost faith in them have no chance. people who have true love for others in their heart can see her ; though, as time goes on, it becomes rarer and rarer. though for the sake of threads, we're going to ignore this part .
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