ALERT FEH GOES SOMEWHERE NO FODLAN GAME EVER WENT

From the video on the Feh channel on how to use the new heroes, they explain a bit of background about the units :

@renisfan watched the jp subtitles and of course the "heartless" part isn't in the jp subtitles because this is Fodlan content !

WHAT

What the fuck ???

SOTHIS GIVES A FUCK ABOUT HER DEAD CHILDREN AND WANTS TO TERMINATE THE ONES WHO KILLED THEM ??????

Note who is fielded with her (Flayn didn't get the memo grandma needs to be alone to gain more stats !)

PROTECT THOSE ALLIES LIKE HER KIDS AND GRANDKID ????

Of course this Sothis is a fallen hero, she gives fucks about her kin ! /s

Funny how this alt is supposed to be from the Nopes part where Sothis hijacks Billy's body to get revenge for Jerry ; Nopes Sothis never mentions her dead kids (save for AG) and never expresses a desire to avenge them, she wishes to terminate Agarthans (Barney) for what they did to Jerry, but not for slaughtering her own children.

In Feh proper (her quotes + forging bonds) Sothis is pissed and fights against perceived threats to both her and Billy, but we don't know why she is pissed. It could be from the same Nopes's scene when she wants to avenge Jerry, bcs Billy's accessories are Jerry related.

But in this video of Feh ??? They explain why Sothis is pissed, it's not because Jerry died, but because Nabateans, her very own children, were genocided ?

The one reason/motivation both Fe16, Nopes and even Feh work their hardest to ignore (it's just an infodump with no consequences in VW !), now this video gives it some light and thoughts ????

Like, rip to Jerry, but for the people who made this video, the only reason why Sothis could be totally pissed and willing to off the first peon who looks at her wrong is her ire at the loss of her children ?

They completely retconned the non-character she was in the Fodlan games, to make her react in a more logical way, Rhea BaD or not BaD, the second Sothis has her memories she destroys the Agarthans and their allies, to avenge the children, her children, who were massacred.

By making this video, IS first shows that Sothis genuinely cared about her children and maybe Rhea wasn't completely delusional when she called her a loving mother, second, and more importantly, they just shat on 3/7th of the combined games. Tru Piss!Sothis wouldn't marry Billy after siding with Thales to finish the massacre of Zanado, and Supreme Leader would have also been terminated, even if Sothis had to take over Billy at that point. Ditto for Clout in Golden Shower, if Sothis!Billy is from around, he dies the second the plot arrow crits Rhea. Jury's out on Supreme Bullshit, but I doubt Sothis would be A OK to work for Supreme Leader whose aim is, at times, to make Garreg Mach Rhea's tomb.

And third, only for the lols, where plot reasons prevented them to meet and interact in the Fodlan games and when Sothis being a piece of crap prevented an interaction in the halloween event, Retcon!Sothis finally meets her daughter in this video ! It's a nice nod to last year, F!Rhea believing and wishing she would meet her mother again in Askr, and the video delivers - Sothis, through Billy, protects her !

Of course this content only pops up in a video bcs even Feh in its main game cannot drop such a heavy dump on Fodlan's writing and plotholes, but I wonder what prompted IS to release this video, with this explanation as to why Sothis is angry.

what's ur reasoning on voting haruka innocent? i'm not sure what to vote for him bcz I want to do guilty but I'm sure there's a meta reason i don't know yet to vote him either way): so i want to get opinions first

honestly w how the story's looking right now, there's meta reasons to vote for both innocent and guilty, whether related to his relationship with muu or even with the third trial in mind. and at this point, it's not looking like the voting system can Help the prisoners much. somehow the possible outcome and the voting stakes of this trial feel so much more unknown than the first time around lol since now everyone is also trying to take into account the prisoners relationships on top of everything else

his relationship with muu does look like it's going to be important, seeing how she was pretty clearly referenced in the mv. people have been saying that she might push him aside if he's voted guilty, which could make him more aggressive, amongst other things. and there's still the debate that surfaced last round of "hey isn't it fucked up that guilty prisoners get nightmares and hear voices and everything. isn't that kind of torture. none of them really deserve that" because yeah. milgram system doesn't really fix things much. and seeing how fuuta reacted to kotoko being forgiven when he wasn't (if she, who is worse than me, was forgiven, why wasn't i?) is also something that makes one think what could happen if muu is forgiven and haruka isn't. since his mv is all about being compared to someone better than him, he might feel like he's in the same situation again

and the third trial thing (which is also kinda making me reconsider my decision) is that well, if you want him to have a chance to be forgiven in the end, it's best if he gets the guilty vote now. as well as how it's not really good for him to think that This way of getting attention is a good way at all

i don't have a clue as to What could happen if he's voted guilty in the end (haven't looked at any novel stuff at all) but personally, i want him overall forgiven. im biased because i really like him though lol.

i Am still thinking about the video (was a big fan of the suicide theory but it looks pretty unlikely now 😔) but if anything, we have seen that the forgiven verdict did help him get back some of his confidence, which i think is great, and we were able to see his motives and situation much more clearly now. and it was Not Good lol. however, the possibilities we got as to who the victim was (classmate, sister or something, someone who wasn't really at fault for what was happening to him) are a turning point for many guilty voters. but that still doesn't add up to me that much (the girl looks just like she looked in his childhood memories) so im still considering things. after all, the outcome of this voting will be what shapes his Last mv

i don't know what the Best voting outcome is at all, but that's just how milgram is ww things aren't black and white and since everything is even more confusing now, i'd say just vote for what you feel like

Life Update

I think I’m DEFINITELY overdue for a life update, as you’ll soon see. TL;DR graduating, dating, and other things

First and foremost, I’m now graduated!!! I don’t like have the graduation/commencement ceremony until June, but I am technically graduated, and am no longer in school. It’s weird to say, but I’m done with school, potentially forever??

It definitely hasn’t sunk in yet, and I don’t think that it will for at least a month. Like this last term was pretty stressful, and right now the stress is just slowly easing away. It’s going to be a while before I realize that I don’t have school. Like at all. I am definitely looking forward to having oodles of free-time, though.

I moved up here to study Chinese Medicine. I technically could apply this Fall, but my boss has been begging me to stay with her, and I’m actually obliged to do so.

For those who don’t know lol I work at like a holistic healing center and a metaphysical shop, doing all sorts of IT and marketing stuff.

Idk, I’ve just had this feeling that my work there isn’t done... like I NEED to stay there... I feel this on a deep level, and simultaneously when I consider studying TCM in the fall, it doesn’t feel right. So based off of all of this, I’ve decided to stay and work for a year or two at least and then reconsider from there.

So yeah! I’m going to have lots of free-time, I’m going to be less-stressed. I’ll have more free time for spiritual stuff and maybe some camping and outdoorsy stuff, if my allergies will let me lol.

Now here is the second major update that has happened: I have a partner lol

End of January/all of February, I was kind of manic, but mostly because I decided that I was tired of fighting and suppressing parts of myself in the name of “spirituality” - romance, sex, impulsive behaviors like video games or whatever. I’ve always known that my Path is different from that of the traditional Buddhist, and this time I felt that suppressing that stuff was actually doing more harm than good, so I just decided to... let myself go at it, but mindfully.

That turned out to be a really good thing. I’ve done a lot of trauma work in the past year, and part of that was doing some inner work and trauma work from a past relationship. Looking back, I was basically ready to date and do romance and stuff - but I was holding back; I just needed to do the damn thing.

And that’s what happened lol. I went on a dating SPREE. Soo many dates. And then I met my current partner a few weeks ago, and it has been an incredibleee experience.

I think that I’ll end up making a whole separate post about this and my journey of how the hell I figured this out, but besides being Bi, I’m also Poly, and a Relationship Anarchist. My current partner is also all of those things, and it has just been... so wonderful getting to explore that stuff, and it truly resonates so much with me - it just... makes sense.

Also, my heart is SOO open. Like completely free of blockages (okay maybe not completely but pretty much) to the point where like... after the first few dates with my partner I was driving home and I just?? started crying?? like not even sad or overwhelmed or anything, the tears just started flowing and my heart center glowed and I knew that I was on the right Path and that what I was doing was healthy.

Anywho. I’m kinda bad talking about myself as;lkdjsfdaljk; but yeah I’m dating now! and I have a partner!! Truly insane. If you told me that a year ago, I would genuinely not believe you. Hell, if you told me that 3 months ago, I would not have believed you. But here I am, and I am... actually quite happy.

I was thinking about this the other day. When you get into spirituality, you definitely have periods where you go through some spiritual growth. But from my experience, when you do that, there needs to be some time where your physical/mental/emotional aspects catch up to where you are at spiritually.

For example, I underwent some major spiritual growth 2018-2019. But 2020-2021 I didn’t really have major spiritual growth, and my spiritual life was a bit stagnant actually. Instead, 2020-2021 was a period of major inner and trauma work for me - catching up to the spiritual growth that I had.

This definitely feels like what happened the past month or two. I had my second Reiki attunement, and it really opened me up and blew my mind - but I had some catching up to do, namely with romance and some mental/emotional stuff with my family. And I don’t think that that is quite over either, unfortunately. I am going to need to come out to my family soonish now that I’m dating again after 6 years...

So yeah! That’s what I’ve been up to ((: I’m just letting the Universe take me where I need to go. Maybe I’ll be drifted into another patch of spiritual activity - I recently did just start seeing like... aura trails. Kind of like a trail of footprints left by people, but with their auras instead. So who knows.

I think that’s it for now! I hope that everyone has a wonderful day!

Blessings!

💙 Thurs 24 Dec ‘20 🎂

Happy BIRTHDAY, Louis!! You are: golden, the end of June, perfect now, a rainbow paradise, the habit that we can’t break, and, most importantly, TWENTY NINE YEARS OLD! Fans, friends, charities and industry folks alike spent their day sending well wishes to Louis. Allontheboard put up a poem with only 1D titles to celebrate, Free My Meal, Bluebell Wood, Sandy Beales, Paul Arthurs (Oasis), and many more called him brilliant (or a legend, etc.) and wished him well. Helene, Eleanor and Krystle put up new pictures of them with him and sent him love. Eleanor was denied the opportunity for the usual “clubbing and pap pics” by COVID but got around it by posting an old vid of her and Louis from one of those outings... in 2017, for HER birthday, at a gay club. Why not just a cute cozy pic of their stuck-at-home celebrations?? Oh riiiight cause that's not a real thing lol. Charlie Lightening wished him a happy birthday and said that the LIVEstream was a killer way to end the year (it was!). And then the FANS!! Well, we spent the day trending various hashtags and tweets and reminding the world that Louis’ a KING and a BOSS and a KILLER musician, and only we got a special thank you from Louis- he came on twitter to say, “Thank you for all the birthday messages. The money you raised for all your individual projects is unbelievable. Love to you all x”. (Did the Brit Awards or Only The Poets have a Louis charity drive? No they did not, that's a thank you for US!) We also got the uncut/unedited version of an interview from early March 2019 courtesy of a fan, as a treat! Seeing him chatting cheerfully away, unaware that such a horrible tragedy is about to strike feels- to me at least- somewhere between uncomfortable and vaguely indecent, but if you can divorce it from that his physicality in the unguarded moments when the interview pauses is, always, a beautiful glimpse behind the curtain, and revisiting the familiar rote answers about how he hoped to have an album by next year, maybe, is exciting and satisfying, knowing that it finally happened and it's HERE and celebrated and complete!

The discourse about the TPWK video is raging (how dare HSHQ release a video about kindness? When they, themselves, are SO UNKIND to US POOR FANS by making random other people who are not their clients say things that we don't like??), and I’d like to take the moment to remind everyone that Jeff Azoff is not in fact feeding cue cards to people who AREN’T his client (i.e. Liam, Lou Teasdale, Brett and co., etc) and that we should all really reconsider claiming that there are shadowy figures pulling everyone's strings like puppets, rather than that this is an industry focused on financial gain and mostly indifferent to collateral damage. And besides all that, I personally would much rather have a video with Harry ballroom dancing than NOT! It seems that someone isn’t completely on board with us having that video yet, though: accounts posting it were gone after heavily on twitter for copyright violations, and if you don't believe us that lots of things happen that aren't directly managed by HSHQ, what do you call HSD getting caught up in the sweep? Clearly THEY thought their connection to HQ meant they were immune, and left the video up when the other UAs saw what was up and deleted it, but nope! Which works out great for us, an excellent birthday present for their least favorite guy, Louis (and for us fans, SUCK IT JERKS!) Jeff does do some things though, and protecting HSD is one of them, so I suppose they'll be back. And speaking of people who do their jobs, we found out today that Shia LaBoef (who was originally cast as Jack in DWD) did not leave due to scheduling conflicts, but rather, Olivia Wilde fired him because of abuse allegations. Good Riddance! Talk about a glow up for that role, Shia--> Harry is a serious upgrade!

Liam and Roman have another socially distanced and randomly cut advent alarm, which claims Liam being afraid of spoons was one of the truths in their little game though he has repeatedly told us that's no longer the case, SUS, and told all of us to get ready ‘cuz * sings * Santa Claus is comin’ tonight! (I’m singing it, but sadly, they didn’t). Liam DID play the part of Santa and gave LP Show DJ Deewan a lovely bottle of champagne to ring in the new year. And he’s not the only one who mentors and spreads love: Alone, an Irish charity serving the elderly thanked Niall (and his Modest!Golf partner Mark) for recent contributions, Casey Lowery shared the story of going clubbing with Zayn’s PA who then put him in contact with Zayn and got him his record deal (awwww I want more mentor!Zayn stories!!), and we got a behind the scenes shot of an old Z photoshoot! The gifts abound! So it looks like we’ve got lots to celebrate: let’s celebrate all of the lights for Louis, H’s sparkly jacket, Liam waiting for Santa Claus, Niall’s phenomenal Christmas Toy drive donation, and Zayn enjoying a Harry Potter filled Christmas. Happy Holidays to all!

NO WAY HOME SPOILERS

I have many feeling so let's talk about some things in no particular order

NED IS MAGIC!

"Please Scooby-Doo This Shit"

"Tap water or Salt water. You know. Because you're an octopus"

MJ throwing Bread at Andrew

Tobey and Andrew webbing at each other being the closest to the Spiderman meme

Ned's mom/grandmother? (It was unclear to me lol)

The MIT lady

Doc Oc being good again

ANDREW SAVING MJ BECAUSE HE FINALLY GOT TO SAVE THE GIRL

May died trying to protect Peter and I think that's important

AS SOON AS SHE SAID THE QUOTE I KNEW

Stephen adopting Peter not once but twice

THEY FORGOT ABOUT HIM 💔

Also Wong who was there for 2 seconds

ANDREW TOBEY AND TOM ALL BEING SO PETERY EVERY TIME THEY INTERACTED

Them talking about how Tobey can just make his own fluid in his body and the other two being facinated

Andrew's "I love you" and Tom and Tobey "Thanks"

Andrew the entire time he was there <3

Ned asking Tobey is he had a best friend and Tobey going "Yeah. He turned evil and tried to kill me then we made up and he died in my arms" with a completely straight face

Andrew in the back of that scene too

The bittersweet kiss in front of the sun

Tobey stopping Tom <3

The look was too much but totally necessary

Tom just wanting Ned and MJ to get in. He didn't care about himself.

Just the three Peters interacting <3

Strange saying please when MJ asked

The bandaid 💔

The hug <3

Peter staying with May until he was forced to leave

Matt Murdock was there and he told Happy to get a good lawyer

MJ and Peter's kisses being interrupted so often

Happy and May thinking MJ and Peter were having/going to have sex (also that this was just after May and Happy broke up)

Peter trying to hide it and failing

Also this being the first time May and MJ met

Peter and MJ video calling and Happy telling them to hang up

DUM-E

My little trio of spidermen <3

Them having to talk about who's Peter 2

Not Andrew saying he's the lamest out of them and Tobey saying "No you're amazing"

Peter sneaking all the "bad guys" into Happy's apartment

Tham laughing at Dr. Otto Octavius

Peter mathing his way out of the mirror dimension

Matt catching the rock that flies through the window

Ned, MJ, May, and Peter getting interrogated

ANDREW SAVING MJ!!!!!!!

May ready to fight the Goblin with like a wrench

Peter trying to fix the electrical wires

May cleaning Peter's suit bc he couldn't figure it out

Peter not thinking about pleading for MIT to reconsider until *after* Strange suggested it

Ned being down for everything

I actually hated this but the "Mysterio was Right" which is similar to the "Thanos was Right"

So much happened and it's like 2:08 am. Imma queue this so it doesn't post tonight but like that movie was so good. But it also broke me into little pieces. I want to see it again so bad.

okay i'm already procrastinating and i don't plan on sleeping any time soon so here we go.

☆ ✩ my personal ranking for every season 1 Sanders Sides episode. ✩ ☆

i think it's going to be pretty similar to @dukeofonions' but let's see if i find something new to contribute haha. i see you didn't include that one about Patton in the Big Game or whatever, so i'm not including it either xd. also i think i'm going to count Accepting Anxiety as one episode only.

edit: i finished and now i dare you to drink a shot of water every time i say the word spanish or a version of the word comfort and become very well hydrated.

#16 I'm in a Disney Show

(i agree with dukeofonions here) i always forget this episode exists. it was ok in terms of being happy for real life Thomas but as a Sanders Sides episode it didn't do anything. the sides were just giving their opinions but it wasn't very funny or interesting. also i'm bitter because it made me look up the episode he was in and i didn't like it at all. i don't know if i'm too old for those Disney shows now but Thomas was literally the only good part of it, everything else was really dull and boring imo. a waste of time.

however, Logan supporting clickbait is one of the funniest things ever, and i'll never forget it.

#15 Becoming A Cartoon

i didn't hate this episode but it was just .. meh.. you know? several factors contribute to this. one, i couldn't feel much nostalgia for Butch Hartman's shows because i watched them in Spanish, and everything feels really weird when they speak English, i don't like how my old cartoons sound in English. two, it was disappointing to me because we were all desperately waiting for Plot™ and instead they give us this short episode about nothing (oh how the tables have turned now it's the other way around haha). and three, i didn't like the style of the animation :/ their faces and expressions freaked me out, Roman's douchey face still haunts me.

#14 Way Too Adult

here i'm biased because i don't like Patton much, and i didn't back when i watched the series the first time either, so this video was a little disappointingwithout the rest. also it wasn't relatable to me because i am still too young and dependent on my parents haha. but Patton is funny and it's funny to laugh at Thomas' struggling.

#13 The Dark Side of Disney

i've never been a fan of Disney movies. i actually never watched Mulan or the Lion King or Aladdin as a kid, so meh. i liked the ending, though, it was cool to see Virgil have fun and be right for once. it does make me a bit uncomfortable because the way Thomas tries too hard with Virgil's mouth movements and his low voice reminds me of a guy that had made me v uncomfortable not long before watching that video. so an icky feel overall.

#12 A New Year of Lying to Myself

this video was actually kind of fogettable to me. i had a hard time connecting the voices in the song to the characters and idk. i don't love it nor hate it, just .. neutral.

#11 My True Identity

pretty much the same opinion as dukeofonions, again. it's a good introduction and it's good that it was the beginning of it all but on its own it's not very special. i think it's awesome on Thomas to have come up with such a clever idea, like choosing the dad, the teacher and the prince and putting them together and match them with thoughts?? that fit so perfectly?? it really is just very impressive when you think about it, that it was just a random idea he had for a short 5 minute video.

#10 Taking on Anxiety

i liked this video a lot because when i watched it i had recently been a lot on tumblr, and found out through relatable posts that i had anxiety. so watching this video was really fun and it made me happy to feel so seen, specially the intro when Thomas just talks about what it's like to have Anxiety and Virgil is so smug about it.

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okay now that those are out of the way things are going to get hard... all the following i love with all my heart so i'm going to rank them based on the smallest things.

#9 Growing Up

once more, Patton isn't my favorite. so that's why i'm putting this here, plus the echo at the end askjhsahg, but i love love this video. i remember we were waiting and oh so ready for the angst of nobody taking Patton seriously. and we received!! i love that though Roman and Logan are antagonists here, they're both so happy about Thomas wanting to have a healthy life. and i just adore the way Logan admits his mistake at the end and asks Patton directly. my heart... also aw.. the nostalgia. i remember none of us knew how to spell Patton's name and were writing it in very funny ways until Thomas and Joan told us lol.

#8 The Mind vs The Heart

when i watched this video the first times i didn't like it much, because i only had eyes for Virgil, but later i came back to it and loved it. so taking that into account i'm putting it here. logicality was the first ship i ever shipped in the show because i saw a gifset on tumblr of Patton screaming "what do you know about love?!" and Logan "apparently more than YOU" and the caption said "MARRIED", and i thought hey yeah... anyway. i love them. they're both my dads since that day.

this video is so so so relatable and i love it. Logan and Patton are so much fun arguing and i love how they compromise at the end and work together. im reconsidering.. i might move it higher? no, fine i'll leave it here.

#7 Making Some Changes

this video was absolutely hilarious. i personally couldn't see it as the Sides still once they were acted by Thomas' friends, i enjoyed it more as that bunch being silly and trying to be the sides but failing in so many ways, while sometimes nailing stuff suddenly. i really don't take this one too seriously as an episode. except Joan!Logan and Valerie!Logan, my beloved... i love how Joan acted as Logan and their voice and that they kept their ace ring on.. there's a reason i had them as my icon for so long. and Valerie looks a bit (a lot) like me with the glasses and dressed in dark colors, plus she spoke Spanish and there's .. no words to describe the joy i felt when seeing/hearing that. wait i'm getting emotional...

#6 My Personality Q&A

when i watched this Virgil was my favorite side and i didn't care much about the rest lol. when i heard his answers i related to him SO much it was scary, and also his voice is so soft and it was all very comforting. it was also when i first starting looking at Logan with more attention, because when he brought up Big Hero 6 and Fall Out Boy and said he didn't sing and would recite it like a poem? it only took a couple seconds but my brain said "me" and never went back.

now this video is a little underwhelming to watch for me, most of the appeal for me was in finding out the answers, and also watching it when we didn't know a lot about the sides. now we know more and want to know more so it's not as fun to me as it was first.

i wish so bad they'd do another one, although i know it would be more difficult with a much bigger audience, i think they can manage and i just need it. the chaos.. the energy.. they all being so savage with each other, learning little random facts about them you didn't expect.. i need it.

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oh boy top 5 here we go. the next three are practically a tie. i can't choose.

#5 Alone on Valentines Day

i love Valerie, and the idea of this video was perfect and so perfectly excecuted. every side just giving their crazy opinions on how to woo a random stranger, i laughed SO much. first with Logan speaking simlish out of nowhere? at that point i didn't know practically anything about the sims except that it was some video game and the whiplash of Logan going AYO and the rest killed me. then when Roman whipped out that dialogue in Spanish??? my life was completed. i've never felt more happy than i did in that moment gosh. just the hilarity of Roman's drama, the shock of them speaking Spanish suddenly like that, the absolute JOY of seeing a creator i like speak (may i say) perfect Spanish, the other characters' faces after that.. never been happier.

also the conclusion was so cute. Virgil solving the whole problem without wanting to. i loved it.

#4 Am I Original

i think this video speaks for itself. it was fun to watch them all do the ideas Roman had, plus Logan and Virgil nodding at each other, (i love them so much), plus the angst at the end of Roman's perfectionism, plus Roman's just perfect name. this video has it all.

i think Thomas posted it kind of late at night and i watched it at 7am in the classroom as i waited for my classmates to arrive and the class to start. (i usually was like 40 minutes early to school due to mom’s work). i had to contain my laughter and it wasn’t easy.

#3 Losing My Motivation

i started loving this video after a while, when Logan passed Virgil in the position for my favorite side. but once he did this episode was beautiful. it's so funny and i love Logan and Patton's dynamic so much. and the video also so damn relatable in general. i felt so seen with it because they named all the problems i have when procrastinating, down to Patton's vague explanation of his feelings, it's exactly how i feel every time i want to do stuff. and the plot twist! i can hear the dramatic sound effect and see how they all turn to Logan clearly in my head, and it always makes me smile. plus there's so much Logan angst that can be dug up and overanalized. i love to watch it over and over.

#2 Accepting Anxiety

this video was perfect. everything we wanted. we knew it was coming and it delivered perfectly, better than any fanfic done in the waiting time. the week between the parts was agonizing but in a fun way somehow. i remember precisely when i was watching part 2 in my living room. i screamed. and i cried, a lot. i was feeling terrible at that time in my life and Thomas was such a comforting presence and i can't begin to describe how this episode made me feel.

and later it is always fun to rewatch with all their different reactions to being in Virgil's room, the energy of that was on point. Thomas is such a great actor and the characters where just amazingly performed. plus it gave so much to talk adn think about, the idea of the rooms, lots lots of insight into the characters, foreshadowing, so much. it's just perfect i have nothing else to say.

#1 (for purely emotional reasons, ironically) My Negative Thinking

i think Accepting Anxiety is the best episode of the season objectively but my favorite is My Negative Thinking. because i love Virgil and Logan so much and seeing them argue together was and is great. the comfort.. i can't repeat that word enough throughout this post. it's such a soft video while not being overwhelming with Patton and Roman's outbursts. just quiet (mostly) and clear and with perfectly timed humour.

Logan my beloved.. learning spanish... helping me with my own anxiety.. and their debate was so good. and the fact that they were friends i- i can't. Virgil didn't think Logan liked him and Logan told him explicitly that he did and the casual softness of it i cant even. Logan is happy that he tried.. it's just marvelous. Virgil and Logan as best friends will always be my favorite pair, and their dynamic will always be what i strive for in any relationship i might form, with both sides silently comforting each other within their own limits and realistic perspectives. so nice.

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so yeah. that's all. thank you if you read all the way up to here. ♡ ♡ ♡

ok. i watched it, and i have many thoughts, head full.

first of all, spoiler alert !! i will be explicitly talking about the fourth episode of a chance to love, with a lot of spoilers lol. **TW !! i make a mention about blood and rape, so, if you're sensitive, reconsider reading uu

now, let's talk about the side things and then we'll get on tincan; let's start with kengno? techkla? idk. look, when i first saw lbc i was kinda DUMB, so i didn't paid a lot of attention to this """"couple"""". after some rewatches of the series (with most of them just the tincan part) i realized how horrible that situation was, and i didn't liked it, specially kengkla and technic, but it was just that. now, imma tell you that i've had NEVER actually hated characters (or not a lot), but that men right there (remember, the characters, NOT THE ACTORS), saying everything he said, i EXPLODED; and now, i fucking hate kengla —and technic— :).

moving on, i didn't watched the tum scene cause the quality of the video got really low and i didn't knew that i could change the quality lmao

**almost forgot !! that couple ?? of hin and tul: tul's so toxic ?????? poor hin. i don't remember if i reblogged it here, but someone who read the book of this "couple" (i think it's name is "breathe", correct me if i'm wrong) said that in some part of it, tul RAPED hin and used his BLOOD (hin's blood) as LUBRICANT ?????? LIKE ?????? terrible. mame should reconsider her choices :/**

alright, now, TINCAN, TINCAN IN FREAKING CAPITALS: ok, i saw a slight spoiler of them kissing in this chapter, but rAN out of there, so i couldn't see that much, but i knew they were kissing, and that they had to kiss at some point in the chapter. i got mentally prepared for it, cause i knew i would fall off the bed and probably vanish, bUT NO: of course i fell off my bed, why shouldn't i? but, hEAR ME OUT, i don't know the exact reason, but the exact moment tin said he wanted to date can, when he kissed his hand, i swear to god, i DISAPPEARED, I STOPPED EXISTING, EVERY SINGLE TRACK THAT I COULD'VE EVER EXISTED VANISHED, DISSOLVED. beautiful, absolutely beautiful: graceful, wonderful, outstanding, love-full. beautiful.

and i just have to point out that i'm a slut for mean 🏃🏃 so everytime tin pops out i will obligatorily be the simp i am 🗿🗿 so i just had to say, if i was in can's place, with THAT tin, i could react the same way he did, or probably pass out, right there.

that's all, hope y'all had fun reading this 😌

17. CZECH REPUBLIC

Benny Christo - “Kemama”

So first off, thank you for the nice commens. 😇The past few months haven’t been the happiest time for me, so thank you for your patience as I scraped my bearings together for another post! 😁

So I will now extend that same sympathy to Benny Christo, whom I think I damn fucking underrated. Let’s jump in~

ENTRY ANALYSIS

As one may expect i INSTANTLY liked “Kemama” because you know, it’s a fun, laid-back, tropical afro-breeze, completely different from anything else we would see in NFs and the year. EXACTLY the type of song I was hoping the Czech NF would deliver (and deliver they did, see NF Corner). This level of mild like swung into strong unironic like upon realizing that the title is a contraction of “Okay Mother” 😍 and the song deals with the subject of overcoming racially-tinged discrimination and rising above the hate. That just feels very poetic and apt? “Kemama” felt like the entry that had to overcome the highest odds in order to earn the respect it so fully deserves, and still hasn’t fully reached it.

.In our Western European bubble, comprised mostly of gays and left-liberal straights, we have a very grateful and universal acceptance of many different kinds of [lizard] people that make up Eurovision casts. Yet with “Kemama” we may have reached  an unusually grimy undercurrent of coded racism. 

Of course nothing I read was outrageously rancid, than Cod for that. The worst statement I read was a double-whammy of “EWW THIS ISN’T CARIBBEANVISION” and “WHY WOULD SOMEONE FROM *KENYA* WANT TO REP CZECHIA IN EUROVISION?”, and yes they first got the continent wrong and then *also* got the country wrong in the follow-up post and then they were torn limb from limb by a pack of aformentioned left-liberals. I’m sorry but i can’t not have any other response than laughter in the face of yet another fucking MORON faceplanting themselves with words like a... racist JK Rowling if you will?

Still, while I never read something outright vile about Benny doesn’t mean I found his deniers really annoying and they were! Think “Ew Solovey is ‘Too Aggressive’ it will NEVER DO WELL IN ESC”, a statement that isn’t coded nor racist (and yet extremely false and misguided), functioned as a similar idea by the same minds. A statement borne from the same breed of narrow-minded stubbornness which has caused elitist morons to be all “there is **SOMETHING** about “Kemama” i do *NOT* like and I cannot lay my finger on it... but I **DO NOT** like it at ALL. It won’t ever qualify because everyone will think the same way I do” -- Eurovision snobs, tiptoeing around racial coda in January 2020.

 They would also insist that Benny was “arrogant” because he was seemingly impervious to their (de)constructive criticism. Like, if you were a biracial butterfly living in a slavic country who had to deal with statements such as the above on a regular basis, you WOULD block out the noise. And if you heard them often enough you will start to block them out pre-emptively. DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW COPING MECHANISMS WORK?? (oh wait you’re white-privileged. Nevermind 🙄)

 So naturally, when Benny decided that he would revamp “Okay Mother” by adding in MORE African elements it only made me love him even more lol. 😍 Was it a bull-headed, contrarian and possibly really stupid decision? Yes, yes and absolutely yes. Was it worth it? Well he managed to incite even more meltdowns in a group of people I feel nothing but contempt for, so hell yeah? Eurovision was cancelled anyway so who cares how much ‘worse’ “Kemama” actually got. 

Okay, so we’ve arrived at the revamp.

Granted, it wasn’t the best ‘vamp, I’d be a fool to deny it. The new elements threw a wrench in the melodic balance of the song. Out went tropical laid-back fun, IN went that fucking guitar oh my god this is some Hotel FM piano levels of overbearing I swear. (nb: this still didn’t stop me from ironically stanning Hotel FM’s lame asses anyway 😍). However, it made the personal backstory that I loved and savoured take a backseat to the now inferior composition. 😭

Regardless, New Kemama was fundamentally the same song, and I fundamentally liked Old Kemama, so whatevs, it made no different to me. In the eyes of many Eurovision diehards we were experiencing WORST PRESHOW SEASON EVER (after three songs... lol) and nothing clinches this brainworm more than a revamp announcement. “OH MY GOD HE WILL RUIN IT! I CAN GUARANTEE YOU I *WON’T* LIKE IT”. Self-fulfilling prophecies, ya know? It certainly didn’t help when the official channel accidentally uploaded a vid with broken soundmixing (‘OMG HORRIBLE LAST IN THE SEMI!!!!’ calm the ever-loving HELL down) and took another FULL WEEK to upload the correct vid. The damage had already been done. Typing "SEE I TOLD YOU THE REVAMP WOULD BE SHITE HA HA HA” in the Kemama comment box really just is the ESC equivalent of reponding with “Actually, *all* lives matter :smug:” to a BLM support pamphlet, isn’t it?

NF CORNER

While not my favourite NF of the bunch, I found the Czech NF to be lowkey epic. Not epic enough to remember its name but regardless Czechvision or whatever marked the end of an era because it was also the last selection spearheaded by Jan Bors :o

I think I’ve made it clear enough in the past that I’m somewhat mixed on Bors Era Czechia - Lake Malawi were a toetapping good, Ickolas was a pockmarked, skin-crawling evil and the other three inhibit a purgatory somewhere between “moderately nice” and “moderate timewaste.”

Still, I have great respect for the man who orchestrated Czech’s comeback after scoring NINE POINTS TOTAL across three years with the mindset of “So what? Why says we can’t win?” so ofc I was all into the idea of the “EIGHT INDIE ANGELS, HAND-PICKED BY BORS HIMSELF” NF that would serve as his swan song.

Naturally things went down the drain the second Bors left, with one of the eight peacing and his successor cancelling the live broadcast (does anyone remember what exactly happened? I vaguely recall one was the cause of the other but lol it’s July can’t be bothered to factscheck (Factsczeck?) anymore, bitches.

Anyway, ON TO THE GOOD STUFF, and yes, there was plenty.

We All Poop - “ All the Blood (Positive Song Actually)”

Yes, as you can imagine I ofc IMMEDIATELY fell into like when I saw that chyron and invisioned the inevitability of the Czech Rep’s Rep immediately alienating every parent just based on their name alone <3 😍 w/e WAP quickly became that “Good but not great” song you find in every NF that everyone gushes over because it’s the whitest option available. Like, yes, “All the blood” is good, but musically it’s identical to Green Day and Twenty-One Pilots and god name ANY 90s-early00′s American Punk Rock band. For me the enjoyment came from the fact that WAP were openly crazy vegan fundamentalists and the VC clip actively condemns the use ANY animal protein by replacing the cattle and game with LITERAL HUMAN BEINGS. 😍 :fusedmarcintensifies: :kasiamosage:

Pam Rabbit - “Get up”

Ohhhh YES a glorious experimental Synth-Trap song only I could love and ofc I did. God what is there even to say; the provocative darkness of the verses combined with the swirling amorphousness of the chorus gives me LIFE. LUFF THIS SHIT <3333 Ftr, this was also the fave of Slovene Juror duo / synth angels / Boris faves ZALAGASPER, further proving their pathetic naysayers that they own all things music and the haters can suck a series of-

Barbora Mochowa - “White and Black Holes“

Lol, yes even with a “Get up” existing, there was a song I liked even more. Barbora proved a very competent Lana del Gay last year, but I was a YUGE fan of this year’s... Kate Bush-Björk blend of ethereal awesome. It is so soothingly beautiful and the rare example of a song that I find completely free of flaws. Were the competition not such a hard place, I’d be pissed she didnt win (at least she won the jury vote MASSIVE KUDOS to every alum on that) but w/e this selection had opions and I’m rather robbed of a “Kemama” than I am of a BRILLIANT IRREPLICABLE AETHERBALLAD. ~Danse balance sûr les white and black holes~

Elis Mraz & Cis T - “Wanna be like”

I *VERY* strongly felt that if the Czech Republic wanted to win ESC, they should have picked Elis and even now I STILL believe she could have won. That isn’t to say I gushed over “Wanna be like” because I find it kind of annoying lol. Yes, I LOVE an annoying female voice (:Tones&Icackle:) but Elis’s reaches a Camilla Cabello sort of place for me (good lord get Senorita OFF the fucking radio) and the Scat + White Guy Rapping middle-eight. 😬. However, the second I opened up the video clip for this paragraph and was immediately BLASTED by Elis murdering a ukelele and wearing a  “schoolgirl” outfit straight from a Japanese tentacle porn movie and OH MY GOD THE AGGRESSIVE TWERKING made me reconsider that hey, this min-sized Meghan Traynor actually kinda highkey owns, yo!  Yet, I’m not at all bothered we lost her in the Czech NF because we got UNO DOS QUATRO CINCO SEIS :fatmansplit: fill up the megameme slot instead, so...

Eurovision 2020 vs Eurovision 2021

BENNY RUINED HIS SONG AND NEVER WOULD HAVE QUALIFIED. jk I’m not a moron. Sure, “Kemama” wasn’t an easy sell because you know AFROBEAT in a contest where half of the people watching are fash (ie: all of Eastern Europe, who watch out of ~Nationalistic Sentiment~ 😬), but there are Kemama live renditions out there and he owns them SO hard lol. A few soundmixing issues really would not have stopped Benny from qualifying in that RIDICULOUSLY WEAKSAUCE SEMIFINAL are you fucking kidding me. He probably would’ve bombed in the Grand Final, but I mean it’s Czech and it’s not Ickolas so ofc it would have.

And Czech renewed him for 2021 regardless of the sceptics, woohoo! I think part of it was due the Czech not wanting to re-organize an ENTIRE NF from scratch without Jan Bors, but probably also because Benny owns live when he isn’t engaged in psychological trench warfare with actual human detritus <3 and also because the Czech fucking CARE about their artists and don’t drop them like a sack of rotten potatoes wtfshitprus.

Can’t wait for the moment when he qualifies and Efendi does not, etc, etc. 

FREAKY! FRIDAY! FACTOR!

I’d say that the core around which the Ben Drama spun was pretty standard fare: niche fave beats out the concensus fave, meltdowns ensue, people convince themselves it was the WRONG decision because it wasn the result they wanted, try to disown the song and make a fool of themselves because the song slaps, sorry. Even the revamp drama felt more of less generic for me, because yawn fantards melting down over a revamp of a song they don’t even like what else is new.  

However, what I do take away that the revamp was ENTIRELY Benny’s idea which he told no one about (cue to JAN BORS having a social media meltdown like he’s Caesar at the Ides of March 💔) added MORE afrobeat just to troll his haters even more <3  God, I’d say it was bad from a musical perspective but this level of in-your-face defiance is fucking iconic and hilarious, sorry. This entire this year is so batshit bonkers that the concept of a someone potentially shooting themselves in the foot and “torpedo’ing” their qualification chances  (not rly, he would’ve Q’d anyway lol) JUST to take the moral high ground in a racially coded argument only HE took seriously may not even be the craziest concept in the year! (lol it definitely isn’t. Look at the pics I haven’t greyed out yet)

This and more yield Benny some well-earned Senheads! Yay!! 

Score: 3 Senhits out of 5.

The cottagecore emoji asks, the same prompts you gave me: all of 'em or whatever you want to answer.

🌿 Herb: What is a scent you find relaxing? 

The smell of anything freshly baked :). Ex: apples, cinnamon, etc.

🌱 Seedling: What is something you want to begin learning? 

I just want to keep working on learning more about witchcraft :). Specifically get into Hellenism more as well as herbal stuff and kitchen witchcraft :p. Also learning more about gardening and wildlife!

🥛 Milk: What is a food you find comforting when you are sad? 

Got chocolate, strawberries with sugar, and toast with cinnamon sugar are all really nostalgia and comforting for me. Reminds me of all the time I spent at my grandmothers including when I lived there.

🍯 Honey: What is one thing you like about yourself?

Uhhhhh can’t think hrg. How to be nice to self..... Ughhhh I keep picking something and then being like “haha no” uhhhh I sure do have compassion.

🍄 Mushroom: What is a quote you find comfort in?

“someone will remember us

I say

even in another time”

-Sappho

Because I’m gay

☕ Tea: How do you take your tea?

I’ve tried so many times to like tea but I cannot. The only form I like it in is boba, but also caffeine gives me headaches now :/.

🐄 Cow: What is one other tumblr blog you really appreciate? 

Your blog 😉🥴

🌳 Tree: What is one thing in your future you are looking foward towards? 

Getting my wildlife biologist certificate. Working a job I love. Having a place I can call home. That’s more than one oops.

🍑 Peach: What is a color that makes you smile? 

Light blue/ periwinkle

🌻 Sunflower: What is one thing that brightened your day today? 

Working my job at the library :). I love it there and am so grateful for it.

🐓 Chicken: What is a comfort movie/show for you?

Going to have to studio ghibli films as well. Otherwise movies like legally blonde, but I’m a cheerleader. Also the haunting of bly manor 😭 as well as the haunting of hill house.

🧵 Thread: What is a recent creative project that you are proud of? 

I be doin sketches, I be tryin

🐈 Cat: Do you have any pets? Are there some pets you really want? 

I have 3 cats and 2 dogs (the target dog breed lol). I really want chickens, cows, goats, bunnies and sheep.

🍅 Tomato: Have you ever gardened, and if so, what is your favorite thing to grow? 

I am just starting to garden. I love sunflowers- they can get so big. Tomatoes and strawberries are also fun. All flowers as well.

🍃 Leaf: What is a plant you find beautiful? 

Rosemary, sage and lavender. Lots of succulents.

🐝 Bee: What is a video game that you find comforting? 

Animal crossing and sims 4 but they also stress me out as well sometimes lol. Karaoke and just dance is nice too. AND MINECRAFT.

🍞 Bread: Do you know how to bake bread? If so, what is something you’ve baked recently?

I do! I’ve baked cookies recently :). Chocolate crackle ones, I use a family recipe but you should be able to find one online easily.

🐇 Bunny: What’s a song that you really like? 

I have many songs I like. I’ll just say any hozier song haha

🌲  Pine: Do you prefer the cold, or the heat?

Heat, I love the feeling of the sun on my skin. Rather it’s by the window or at the beach.

🧶 Yarn: Knitting or Crocheting?

Knitting because crochet is too hard 😭. I love how crocheting looks and wish I could do it. Maybe someday.

🐑 Sheep: What is a comfort item you own? 

My baby blanket. It was there to cry into when my parents were busy arguing instead of comforting me. Also I have many stuffies :p.

🍓 Strawberry: Do you own any pink clothing?

Yeh :). Wearing a magnets sweater right now haha. I don’t have much pink clothing though, it can feel to feminine and make me feel dysphoric. But when I’m in a femme mood it’s great. I mean fuck my hair was pink for like a year.

🥞 Pancake: What is your favorite breakfast food? 

French toast :0. With powdered sugar and the real maple syrup. Also fruit :).

⛰️ Mountains: Would you rather live in the mountains, city, beach, or the forest? 

Beach. I hate the city that’s near it but boy I love the beach. Maybe a forestry area near the beach?

🧸 Teddy Bear: Do you ever want to raise kids someday? 

I don’t know! It was a no for many years but now I’m reconsidering. I would adopt. I’ll have to have a stable job so it will be a while if I do. I’m just not sure if I want that responsibility.

🕯️ Candle: What is something you can’t go to bed without? 

Warm fuzzy blankey :).

MCC Aqua Axolotls Live Commentary!

Hello, as said, I will attempt to write down my thoughts and reactions during the MCC. 

Stream links!!

False: https://www.twitch.tv/falsesymmetry

Ren: https://www.twitch.tv/rendogtv

Grian (yes, he’s streaming): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YjkgnEi4t9g

Pearl: https://www.twitch.tv/pearlescentmoon

Updates will come as edits, so be sure to check this again every once in a while if you’re interested or just curious! 

To all fans, please be kind to everyone, no matter the team or who you wish would win. You will only embarrass yourself if you harass others or act immaturely and will gain no brownie points with those you follow and watch.

For now, may the games begin and the best team win!

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Edit 1: Peeps are running a bit late, apparently, Ren is the only one on the team with no aqua colour XD Grian recoloured the headband that Smajor had made for him last stream XD

Andddd, we’re kicking off!!

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Edit 2: The gong makes an appearance!! Also, the story of the gong!! Grian had bought it as a gag for whenever he and Mumbo record! The team loves it!

Countdown has finally started!

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Edit 3: The first game is Skyblockle(?)!! Team ain’t feeling too confident about it, but we’ll see! I think they’ll be okay at this. Gri is reading the instructions and getting nervous XD

From now, everything will be under the cut. Warning, it’s really long.

Oof, wood fell in the lava. They still have more :)) They’re sharing tasks pretty nicely, I have to say, but they keep changing plans. Things will heat up quickly, tho, and I’m glad this game is gonna be out of the way soon.

First death in Skyblockle for the Aqua Axolotls: False! Second: Grian!

Doom is on the horizon XD

Rip, Ren has died too, and Pearl has gotten a couple of kills!! 

And the Axolotls are out!

First gong after a game. Rn we’re all watching the other teams. Dream team is holding up well. Techno’s team is out too. Last bid!

Endgame: Pearl has won the most coins, team is a bit disappointing by last place.

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Edit 4: They have the Uno Reserve card as they were the worst team. 

Game: Bingo but Fast!

Gri is reading the instructions again. Someone in Pearl’s stream is watching 25 streams holy dandelions.

The team is again sharing tasks. This is pretty speedy!

Hearing Gri lament how speedy it all is is so funny. Also, they’re all like headless chickens and a lot more disorganized now. Poor team.

Endgame: Ren’s sweating in unspeakable places lol, but they’re not last anymore!

Pearl’s game just crashed, oh goodness.She’s back in, wooo!

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Edit 5: Game: Battle box!

Gri is going for the middle. Pearl got so many kills!

First round won!!

Second round lost!

Third round won!!

Ren’s having a hard time breathing, and I gotta say same! 4th place rn.

Game was paused to stop the animations of the NPCs and we got another gong! we chilling for a few mins lol.

WE’RE ON AGAINST THE DREAM TEAM. Aww, the game needs to be reset or smt. 

Oh wow, draw for every team. Fourth round was skipped.

Fifth round - uh SERVER CRASHED

Wowie, the map looks really strange without the resource pack.

First hiccup in 7 event, dang. 

Starting again. Resource pack might no re-appear again. And now I’m laggy, lol

Round 1: lost!

Round 2: won! Gri with the tnt :D

Round 3: lost! tnt did not work this time

Round 4: unknown due to lag, oof.

Round 5: lost

Round 6: unknown 

Round 7: unknown

Round 8: unknown

Round 9: unknown (prob lost)

Place: Last.

Everyone’s laggy, including me lol.

The viewers are being encouraging, which is really great and wholesome!

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Edit 6: Game: Big Sales at Build Market!

Team is confident about this one, wooo!!

Grian ended up in plants lol. Ughhh, diorate. Communication is key, and it’s very well done!!

They’re building fast and getting resources pretty fast, that’s good.

Grian listing what they need is *chef kiss* False being alert is *hearteyes* and the chats are the real mvps 

Endgame: Place 7. It was pretty intense indeed.

Break time!

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Edit 7: Audience takeover!! Pearl wants Rocket Spleef, so does Techno. Dream wants Hole in the Wall.

Game: Rocket Spleef!!

Grian’s reading instructions :))) 

This will be intense as all heck. Countdown has stopped, huh.

Oof, apparently it was supposed to be Hole in the Wall, but can’t change. Gri’s prob not gonna have as great of a time as I’d hopped :P

Round 1: Rainbow map, False is out! :o The very first time! Team’s out right before tnt time! Place 6, nice.

Round 2: Uhh, Atoms map?? Grian and Pearl are struggling. Pearl’s out! Gri’s out! Ren’s out! False’s still going.

Round 3: Grian’s finally got the rocket jump. Jump and then launch :D Or maybe not XD Tnt time! Pearl is waiting down at the bottom. She fell, oof. Grian’s having cramps in his hand and, in his words, he’s ‘a goner.’

Endgame: False’s the master of Rocket Spleef! And place 6! Team really enjoyed it, I’m so glad :D

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Edit 8: Team’s hoping for Ace Race, and it looks like it might be!

Game: Ace Race!

Grian is narrating for all of us, nice! “This is totally Sonic!” he says!

“’Your first time will probably suck’. Yeah, that’s been happening about the entire time!” lmao

Omg, the map is so cool!! Def a fan favourite!! The entire team is having so much fun yesss

All of them are really doing good, Grian and False are placing good.

“Techno, get outta my way!!” -  Gri, and I have to say, mood.

Grian got place 15! Right behind Techno, nice!!

Pearl is 32!

Ren is 35?

False is somewhere behind Gri, but way before Pearl.

Endgame: Everyone had one heck of a time and now they’re trying to find out how to make it in Vanilla Minecraft XD

Place: 9 

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Edit 9: They dunked the Lime Llamas XDD

Game: Sands of Time

Oof, this one’s gonna be a maker or a breaker.

Oh goodness, they have no one watching the time D:

They’re banking coins, thankfully. 

Oh no, Pearl!! Sand is needed. Grian to the rescue!

Phew, three sand left, thank you Pearl for topping up!!

Intense, gosh, i’m really nervous about the sand!!

Oof, Pearl’s stream froze. It ended, oh no. Actually, it might just be me that has enormous lag (not smt new lol). 

There we go, slow but it’s something.

The sand!! Aww man, right as Pearl got the sand!! They’re out! At least they banked a lot of their coins.

Endgame: We got a nice gong. Place: 5! Overall place: 9!

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Edit 10: My wi-fi is beating me up with a stick, and it’s unrelenting. Lag is my life now.

Last game: Hole in the Wall

Ren’s gonna have a bad time XD

Round 1: Pearl’s fallen, from what my laggy video will show me. Gri as well. They’re out!

Round 2: Pearl’s still alive, woo!! Glitched right through one, so cool XD

Round 3: lag.

Endgame: Ren’s raging, Grian is really amused by that XD Nice game!! 

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Edit 11:

Overall place: 9

Time for the final battle!! Gong! Ren wants the gong as stream sound effect :D

Green Guardians vs Orange Ocelots! 

Grian supports Techno bc Techno said he liked him lmao!! The others are Green. 

Also fun fact: Grian could coach a match of dodge ball!

Round 1: Green wins!

Round 2: Orange wins!! Techno’s taking them out!

Round 3: Orange wins!

Round 4: Orange wins!

Grian: “It’s like one of those anime moments!”

Round 5: Green wins!

(Gri went off holy heck)

Congrats to the Green Guardians!!  

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Last edit of the night!

That was extremely fun to watch!! The lag and my own wi-fi made it a bit irritating at times, esp since I had to split my focus, but it was pretty good nonetheless.

It’s really sad that the Championship itself lagged so much, I have a feeling it left both a lot of viewers and players feeling frustrated as well. 

However, the new mini game was lots of fun and I have a feeling we’ll be seeing it a lot in the future. I really hope we will.

The team was really good, they managed to coordinate very well, but like many groups who’ve just started working together for the first time, there were times where they could’ve slowed down a bit and reconsidered their plans. Still, the important bit was that they all had a great time together.

Overall, I really hope Grian and Pearl will participate again, even if not on the same teams. I also hope that there will be more Hermitcraft members joining in, even if only for one Championship. I had tons of fun writing this as well, but I think I’ll switch back to occasional posts about amusing things that happen during the games, as it really took a lot of my attention from the mcc itself.

Hope whoever kept up with me or reads this later enjoyed/enjoys this. I’m off to bed now, I’m sleepy and I’ll prob wake up, read through this, and find 10 million little mistakes that I’ll die over. Future me, I deeply apologize, but, uhhhh, no regrets!!

Starstress out!

You’re still welcome to shoot me an email in interest as sometimes ideas might make me reconsider (and money lol)

You can always keep up with my to-do list below in regards to what I’m working on:

► To-Do List ◄  

I try to be as efficient as possible and get at least a chapter and or art piece done a week unless something comes up! If you don’t have the money but want to discuss ideas and reserve a spot, you’re free to let me know, and I’ll happily reserve something for you till you get the funds you need. I do not mind waiting as long as you don’t. ♥

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As for my writing references—well, chances are you’re here because of my writing, so you can easily find that anywhere on this blog or on AO3 under Oreana. c:

I will write:

OC/Canon - Gimmie your pretty OC, baby! I love writing to these.

Canon/Canon - Tell me which characters you want to see a story about!

Same sex relationships (if I feel it’s to fetishize same-sex relationships, I WILL decline it...)

Sexual content – please try to keep fetishes to a minimum in these. I don’t mind writing a porn with plot, but I’d advise these not be chapter based as I have so little to work on in those cases.

Reader fanfics. You want me to write yourself in the story with your favorite character? That’s totally fine. You just need to give me your physical description and what you are like, ect so I don’t mess up royally in writing you in.

Anything else regarding my writing, just ask! I don’t have specifics in terms of a ‘don’t list’, but I will warn that it is hard to write to some fandoms I do not know or I am not into well. I am not here to shame you on what you enjoy in terms of anything, so please do not be shy to ask me questions. I want to be certain you get what you asked for!

Ideas (Fandoms) I can and will do:

Legend of Zelda

Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy IX, Final Fantasy XV (I have played FFVIII, FFX, and  FFXII but there aren’t many characters in there that interest me a lot, but I can give it a go if the plot interests me. I am playing FFXIV currently but the world is so massive that there are lore bits I’m still not certain on, but you’re welcome to shoot me ideas if you think I can handle it.)

Phoenix Wright

Spyro the Dragon

Jak and Daxter series

Octopath Traveler

Overlord

The Rising of the Shield Hero

Isekai Quartet

Undertale

World of Warcraft (As a warning, I don’t play anymore, but I do my best to keep up with the lore pouring in. I’ve not played since WoD but I still look at the Wikis and Youtube videos keeping me up to date on what’s going on.)

Skyrim

Exophilia

I will add more franchises as they roll in. A majority of it is video game related because I stopped watching anime for years. I’m very behind in the ‘new stuff’, but the list will expand as time goes on.  For art, with the right references of characters, I can and will draw anything. If it is something I am unable to, I will let you know and possibly ask for you to think of something else or politely decline the commission.

If you have any questions, you’re free to ask~.

You can contact me about these things at my email: [email protected]

Thanks again~

~Oreana Galena

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You struggle to walk in heels. Nah, I love heels. Even if a certain pair is a bitch to wear, I’d try to power through and I’d wanna look like I’m killing it wearing them. You talk on the phone a lot. Yes, but with just Gab. We call each other up most days. You consider yourself to be pretty extroverted. I can be! Getting to college definitely taught me how to like talking to people more and I have no problem with initiating conversations or doing small talk these days. I’d consider myself like 90% extroverted; the remaining 10% is for those times I still prefer to have all to myself, which is a part of me I know I’ll never lose. You know how to sew. Nah, home ec lessons can fuck right off. I’ll leave the sewing and crocheting skills to my girlfriend. You know how to play a woodwind instrument. Does the recorder count? I mean I think almost everyone can play it as it’s a super basic instrument, but still.

You swear a lot. It’s a habit. I do choose the people I swear around though; I wouldn’t do it in front of kids or with people I’m not necessarily close with. You're a smoker. I vape. You're allergic to penicillin. I dunno. I’ve never been exposed to it, I think. Someone in your immediate family is in a wheelchair. No, no one from my extended family either. You play a lot of video games. I watch a lot of playthroughs, but I don’t play them myself because I am just terrible at them. You've never been on a train. I’ve been on a train once, and it was for an assignment and someone was with me the whole time. It was at a dead hour too, so I didn’t really get the full experience of riding a train in the Philippines. You don't like raisins. I HATE RAISINS You're not a very romantic person. I’m very conscious about PDA but I can be affectionate in many other ways. You're homosexual or bisexual. Am neither. There was one point I believed I was bi, but in the end it all boiled down to me being demisexual. Beer is your alcoholic beverage of choice. Fuuuuuuuuuuuck beer, and I’ll never get tired of saying that. Your favourite colour to wear is red. I look good in red but it’s not really my favorite color to wear. You've talked someone out of suicide. No. I wouldn’t want to be put in that situation either; not because I wouldn’t want to help, but because I’m unfit myself and I wouldn’t know if the things I would say would be helpful or just do more harm. You wear a ring on your left ring finger. I don’t. Yet. You've never had detention in school. But this is because we never adopted that concept here. Like I said, I’ve never fully grasped what detention is and what they make you do when you’re in it. Maybe someone can help a clueless Asian out here, haha. You've dated someone with a full beard. I’ve never been with a guy, and Gab doesn’t grow a beard. You have a pair of fluffy dice in your car. No, and wouldn’t want that decoration either. You've been tested for STIs. No, but I definitely should just to be sure. You've written someone a love letter. Once, three years ago. I really should do it more. Your favourite film genre is horror. I appreciate horror A LOT and at one point it was my favorite genre. It’s since been overruled by drama. You currently live in a country you weren't born in. Born, raised, and currently living in the Philippines.  You don't like wearing hats. I know they’d look cute on me but it makes me feel like people can’t see me, so I always unconsciously take them off because they feel weird. Your blood type is O+. (???) Dude, I have no idea what my blood type is. I don’t think my parents are sure either. You prefer fruits over vegetables. Nah nah nah I hate fruits. You work/have worked in a hotel. No. My parents have worked in hotels all their lives though; they met while working in the same one in the 1990s. My dad has worked in a cruise ship since the 2000s but that still technically counts as a hotel-centric workplace. You enter the lottery regularly. I never have. You have a boyfriend or girlfriend. A girlfriend. You have had sex within the last week. I mean...this is one entry I don’t need to delve more into haha. You get sick often. I never get sick and if I do the fever typically just lasts a few hours. You're close with your siblings. I’m close with my sister. I haven’t talked to my brother in months. You're a pretty paranoid kind of person. It’s part anxiety and part slightly inheriting my mother’s very real OCD problems. You prefer vanilla over chocolate. Mmmmm not really. Vanilla takes like nothing to me D: Idk if it’s meant to taste like that or if I’ve just had cheap vanilla all my life. You own a lava lamp. I don’t but I had a hipster phase when I was like 12 where a lava lamp was all I wanted. Obviously my mom never got me one cos it seemed like such a waste of money, and looking back on it nine years later, it most definitely would have been. You can't whistle. I can. You've had your stomach pumped. No. I don’t even know how that works and I hope I never need that procedure, cos it sounds complicated and terrifying. You don't use emojis when you text. I know most people get paranoid from emoji-less messages, so I kinda just do my part in making them feel better by using emojis. You remember seeing the events of 9/11 on television as it happened. I was too young to have memories from 9/11; I was three and didn’t really watch news back then. You always stay hydrated. Yesssssss. I love my water and it’s also a basic form of skincare, so. You have at least one child. No kids. Your hair is shorter than shoulder length. It’s longer than that now, but I really should give it a trim soon. You're at least 21 years old. Yay I can finally answer this with a yes! You're an opinionated person and stick to your guns no matter what. Yes, unless someone can show me a better and more critical argument. I’m open to hearing them out and reconsidering by then; but until then, I like sticking to my beliefs. You share a bed with someone else every night. I sleep alone. You know how to drive. It’s how I get around places. You're currently wearing an article of clothing that doesn't belong to you. The sweater I have on belongs to Gab, but it’s been with me for three years. You are friends with a lot of people you work with. It makes the work more enjoyable when you like the people you hang out with. :) You shower twice or more each day. It’s a no for me. Once would be enough. You're friends with your boss. JM is technically my boss, and we’re good friends. You've made your own clothes before. Never have; I’m not creative enough (or at all) for that. You have/had braces. I did, back in high school. I just had them for a year and a half. You have two or more ex partners. Nope, just the one. You have a biblical middle name. I’m sure Isabelle didn’t come from the Bible. You've cheated on someone. N e v e r. You mop/vacuum the floors in your house once a week. My mom prefers to do all the cleaning stuff around the house. You have dandruff. There’s really nothing I can say about this other than I don’t, lol. Your parents are religious people. My mom is massively religious, enough to drive me insane. I don’t get my dad though; he told me he was atheist when he was in college, he sympathizes with me whenever I grumble about our family going to mass every Sunday, and he doesn’t mind when I use my phone in church, but sometimes I’ll see him singing along to church hymns. I don’t pry though and I’m just glad he’s on my side whenever I bitch about having to sit in church for an hour. You work/have worked in fast food. I have not tried this. You live near a national park. I live very far from Luneta, which is I think the only national park we have. You're a flirty kind of person. As a demisexual, the idea of being flirty is a horrifying prospect to me. You've never dyed your hair. It would terrify my mom, plus I’m about to graduate college so it’s a little too late to experiment with hair dye now. You've been to Arizona. I have not. You listen to a lot of country music. I hate this genre. You listen to a lot of pop music. Yeah I’m a pretty basic bitch lol You exercise several times a week. Just for this semester because I’m taking PE. In fairness, our instructor is a very good coach so I’m pretty open to still continue doing the workouts once the sem ends. You can do at least 10 pull-ups. I couldn’t before, but my PE class taught me how to haha. You travel primarily by bus. I can drive, so I don’t really need to take the bus. You prefer hot weather over cold weather. Ugh noooooo I hate feeling hot. I’d rather feel uncomfortably cold all year round than uncomfortably hot and sweaty. You've never been to IKEA. We don’t have IKEA. You're more creative than you are logical. I have zero creativity in my system. You've been in trouble with the police. Not with the police per se but I’ve had traffic enforcers pull me over for various ‘violations.’ You have something more important to be doing right now. It’s 1:42 AM. That important thing I should be doing right now is sleeping, but I had coffee earlier and don’t really feel like doing that at the moment.

You share a lot of your looks/appearance with your siblings. I’m the feminine version of my brother. I’m not sure if I look anything like my sister though. You've been in an open relationship. No. And I’ll never entertain the thought. You had beef for dinner last night. I’ve skipped dinner for two nights in a row, because my toothaches are really bad :( You live with roommates. I live with my immediate family. I live fairly close to my school (close enough to be able to drive there, anyway), so I’ve never had to move into a dorm or condo. You drink alcohol at least once a week. I drink a lot whenever I get to but I only do it once a month or once every two months. You have to go to work tomorrow. Nope. It’ll be the 3rd day of my 5-day weekend, so I’ve still got a lot of time to rest up :) You have taken acting classes. Acting is so not my forte. Your favourite kind of juice is cranberry. I don’t really like juice. You lost your virginity at the age of 16. 18. You're close with your cousins. I’m close with my cousins on my mom’s side. Not so much on my dad’s, but I did play a lot with them growing up; we just became less close as we got older because they eventually moved to Laguna and I saw them less and less. You have family who live in England. I don’t think I have family living in Europe. You've had a blood test. When I was confined in the hospital when I was 11, they did several blood tests on me to check my platelet count. You know someone who has two parents of the same sex. Nah, there’s a small chance of that happening here. I wish I knew someone, though.

You know how to do karate. I never took lessons. You've never had a pet dog. I have one snoring under my bed right now. Your current partner if you have one is your college/high school sweetheart. It’s a corny term, but yeah you can call her that. You have a cool scar. (?) I’m not sure almost being blinded by a glass jar to the eye is a cool scar story to tell. You've considered joining your country's army. No. You live near a very large body of water such as the ocean or a lake. Mmm not really, I live in a very urbanized area. I’ve never experienced living close to the sea, but I imagine it would be very peaceful. You watch and follow motorsports. Never have. Your mother was under the age of 20 when she was pregnant with you. Nope, she was 26. You're allergic to some kind of vegetable. I don’t have any allergies. You hate wearing socks to bed. Yessss, it feels itchy and it feels like my skin is being suffocated hahaha so I take them off. You play a lot of board games. Nothing against board games, I just don’t play them a lot. You know someone personally who was born in Japan. That’s a good possibility, but I just wouldn’t know who. You always keep spare change handy. In a place like UP where everything is cheaper, it helps tons to keep some change. Your house has three or more bedrooms. We have four bedrooms. You weigh less than you want to weigh. I’m a little less than 100 lbs, but I do wish I was at a healthier weight because I’m underweight.

You prefer tampons over pads (if you're a female who menstruates). I’ve never tried tampons and the idea of wearing it sounds like such a horrifying prospect for me hahaha. For context, pads are the (very very dominant) norm here and I literally know 0 menstruating people who use tampons. You've had sex while menstruating or had sex with someone while they were. I’m obviously not gonna share the story on here lol but it was purely an accident and I’ve made sure it never happened again. Your parents live in a different country than you. My dad has worked in different countries my whole life, but he comes back home every few months. You've been banned from a store or other location/venue. My friends and I were kicked out of a McDonald’s once for making a lot of noise, but we weren’t banned.  You like to cook with a crockpot/slow cooker. I don’t cook. You have a clock radio in your bedroom. The only clocks I have are the ones on my laptop and phone.

all of them >:3c

ooooh boiiiii time for some gay-ish answers :luigidab:

how tall are you? -5′2

what is your body type? -uhhh idk 

what is your favorite part about your body? -my hands,,, perfect for handholding,,,, 

is your current hair color your natural hair color? -yeah

are you more outgoing or more shy? -shy i guess

are you more femme or butch? -neither

are you tol or smol? -smol

wine mom or vodka aunt? -hard cider cousin

weird habit? -i can’t think of one right now :I

favorite meme? -there are so many memes, i can’t choose lol

do you sing in the shower? -nah

ever used a bow and arrow? -once

are/were you a theatre kid? -kinda? i’ve taken theater classes, but i wasn’t a Theater Kid^TM

have you ever seen a broadway musical? -ye

do you think musicals are cheesy? -they can be

have you ever been a part of a protest or a march? -yeah

favorite Cards Against Humanity Card? -Bees?

last movie you watched? -Grave of the Fireflies 

behind the camera or in front of it? -behind

favorite tv show? -i don’t watch enough shows to say a fav

meaning behind your url -i don’t talk much but boy do i think

reason you joined tumblr -i thought “why not?” and here I am, still here 6 years later

who’s your closest tumblr friend? -probs @one-for-all-plus-ultra 

what’s something most people love that you hate? -something i’m sure, can’t think of it rn

have you ever taken narcotics? -nope

have you had sex? -no

have you ever gotten caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? -nothing really bad, just dumb on my part

worst/funniest lie you’ve ever told? -idk

describe your passion without mentioning it. -idk uhhh

describe your best friend. -successful, taller than me, gives great hugs, knows what she’s doing with her life

give us one thing about you that no one knows. -idk if i ever stole something or not cuz I was either really young, or it just happened in a dream, but I’ll never know

how do you feel right now? -im tired

what is your biggest fear? all my friends leaving me

what’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? -i cannot think of a song rn

what is the best decision you’ve made in your life so far? -idk if that’s happened yet haha

have you ever tried your hardest and then been disappointed in the end? -yea

something you fantasize about. -being in a healthy relationship :sadclown:

last time you cried and why -last week when I watched Grave of the Fireflies

what was the last thing that made you laugh? -some video on tumblr idk what it was

do you really, truly miss someone right now? -*yeah britney spears gif*

who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? -myself

the last time you felt broken? -probably earlier this year

are you starting to realize anything? -there’s so much going on and idk what i’m gonna do with my life

are you more dominant or more submissive? -idk

i’ll only date you if _____. (fill in the blank) -fuck dude idk my own dating standards

do you prefer to date people the same age as you, younger, or older? -older

describe the person you’re in love with/have a crush on in great detail. -n/a

do you have any kinks? -let’s not talk about it

first thing you notice in a person? -their humor

how can someone win your heart? -if you can cook good food,,, gotdam

been rejected by a crush? -ye

have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? -oH YEAH ;-;

would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? -no, that’d be real awkward

is trust a big issue for you? -yeah 

did you hang out with the person you like recently? -no

is confidence cute? -i guess 

what would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? -good for them (if i liked someone)

would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? -no, gotta have similar a sense of humor

does the person you have feelings for right now know you do? -no, i don’t have a crush

ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? -probably

do you want to get married -maybe, maybe not

worst thing you’ve ever done? -i don’t wanna say

three things that turn you on. -idk lol

who do you hate? -no one 

favorite term of endearment? -baby or love or my love 

who was your celebrity/fictional gay awakening? -there are so many,,,, one was vanessa hudgens for celebs, Elizabeth Swan in pirate of the Caribbean 

intimidating girls or kind girls? -kind with some intimidation

what do you look for in a possible partner? -good humor, good communication skills, can be silly and serious

do you tend to like more masculine, feminine, or androgynous girls? -androgynous

are you good at flirting? -haha nope

who was the first person you came out to? -daria

do you have any friends who are wlw? -yeah

is your crush wlw? -i dont have a crush

last person to make you reconsider your sexuality? -idk

write a short love poem to your crush/self? -i haven’t

do you fall in love easily? -sometimes

is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? -yeah

are you good at hiding your feelings? -kind of?

are you a forgiving person? -yeah

what is your “type?” -i dont even know anymore

fall asleep in her arms or rub her back until she falls asleep in yours? -rub her back until she falls asleep in my arms

tall girls or short girls? -yeAH

hugs or kisses? -hugs

twirl her around or get twirled? -twirl her around

tummy kisses or thigh kisses? -thigh,,

hairline kisses or neck kisses? -neck

play with her hair or stroke her tummy? -play with her hair

making out or soft kisses? -soft,,, kis,,,

hugs around the neck or hugs around the waist? -i just like hugs okay

how confident are you in your sexuality? -sometimes

when you like someone do you blush or get butterflies in your stomach? -yeah,,,

have you ever liked a friend as more than a friend? did you tell them? -yeah,, but i didn’t tell them 

how old were you when you realized you were into girls? -uhh fully, like 15

most embarrassing thing you’ve done in front of a cute girl? -something i’m sure lol

do you have a favorite lesbian ship? is it canon? -yumikuri back in my snk days.... was canon, but not good enough :sadclown:

what is the most aggravating thing someone has said to you about your sexuality? -no one’s told me anything bad to my face about my sexuality

when was the last time a girl made your heart flutter? -like early 2018

what is love to you? -i think it’s when you can be open with others and be there for them, and just be yourself around them. 

And when I say a lot of t*rf posts end up on my dashboard I mean it and it’s always so hard to try to separate between the people who are ultimately well meaning and didn’t know and those who spread this stuff maliciously. That post is right tho if you know what r*dfem transmisogyny and transphobia looks and sounds like it’s harder to fall for these posts... the shitty thing about t*rf shit is that it trickles down, in a progressive scale from their blogs to seemingly “neutral” (but never actually neutral*) blogs that maybe sound a little iffy but never outright call themselves g/ender critical or name trans people, onto complicit popular discourse blogs and then on people’s dashboards. *Hell one time I saw a blog that seemed like an innocent supergirl femslash blog just to find she reblogged constantly from t*rfs posts that were just on the borderline and never outright mentioned trans people, only buzzwords and this is what I mean by “neutral” blogs that are actually complicit. This blog has a lot of followers. How many of them reblog these posts uncritically? And I wish there were more lists of said buzzwords and how to recognise them but

The reality is that we trans people especially trans women have to be constantly on the watch for shit like this. We know the arguments and we know why they’re bullshit. Meanwhile cis people don’t really know the specifics of their ideology and seem to fall for it over and over. And the worst thing about it is that t*rfs use this as confirmation bias that their ideas are actually good and everyone would agree with them if they just present it without the slurs and mocking. But the slurs demeaning and mocking are a fundamental part of it, and of trans exclusion in general. Fear mongering and dehumanising trans people are the mean to wiping us out of existence.

I won’t explain why those ideas are wrong because I’m starting from the assumption that my followers are not transphobic and don’t find statements like “trans women are women” controversial, but buzzwords include (warning for blunt discussions of transphobia):

- expressing “concern” about men invading women’s spaces or the “purity” of said spaces (they don’t use the word purity but as a concept in general). This concern is never explained, only stated, because once you look into it you find that it’s actually about trans women. As a side note, the whole “invasion” thing is a popular one and it is reminiscent of white s*premacist bullshit ... this idea that since gay trans people are “actually straight” we will eventually outnumber “the real” gay people by calling ourselves gay and invading their spaces. the more you know ... if this doesn’t ring a bell you need to look into actual n*zi theories like “the gre//at re\\placement” and then we can talk again. The jump from t*rf to alt-ri/ght trad mom is shorter and swifter than either of those groups would have you believe

- “males can’t be lesbians” a pretty non controversial statement if it wasn’t that male is code for trans women. “Men who fetishise lesbians” is also a tricky one because while this is indeed a real issue, they’re referring to “auto/g/ynephilia” aka the idea that the reason lesbian and bi trans women transition at all is just because they fetishise the idea of themselves as a woman/lesbian (contrapoints has a good in depth video about this that explains better than I ever could) — on the same note talk about how “male sexuality” is something inherently corrupt, oppressing, and violent, and cannot be healthy ever, without any other context given is also usually code for “trans women are perverts and sexual predators” . The word “p//ornsick” also comes up often so watch out for it.

- the pervasive idea that a group of “straight people fetishising being gay/a lesbian” is out there and threatening REAL gay/lesbian spaces starts from here. I’ve mentioned a/utogy/nephilia but “fujoshi” is usually code for gay trans men, with a similar idea behind it. We’re not really gay men, just straight women who fetishise the idea of ourselves as a gay man... at least that’s the idea behind it.

- which brings us to the point. “straight people invading gay spaces” is usually if not always code for gay trans people.

- kinda related to the above point, honestly you’re all fools if you think the whole ace discourse bullshit wasn’t just eventually a path to trans and bisexual exclusion. Trans and bi people have been saying this for years but no one wants to listen. That’s not to say that exclusionists are t*rfs but those ideas were popularised by them... that’s just to say learn where your ideology comes from before you endorse it and embrace it

- similarly “queer is a slur” started there so you might want to reconsider why you’ve been convinced to tag your posts “q slur” by people who use other homophobic slurs pretty liberally lol . “Queer means straight people invade our spaces!” + any talk about gnc straight men/women and how it doesn’t make them queer or lgbt, Yeah, this was about never about “gnc” it was trans people all along. The implication is that trans people don’t exist, so we can be nothing but gnc “males/females”. Congrats! You’re a fool! Now don’t make me read this bullshit ever again.

- stuff that makes fun of said “gnc people” “queers” , man buns, undercuts, brightly coloured hair, specific names (aiden comes to my mind) careful about posts that mock the concept of “queering heterosexuality” they’re usually about gay couples with one trans and one cis person, or where both people are trans but with different asab. (ie a gay trans man dating a pan cis man, a trans woman and an afab nb person dating will get mocked as “straight people” who are just pretending to be anything but) sometimes it’s also about bi people jsyk but...

- “forcing young lesbians to not identify as lesbians”/“stop telling young lesbians they should be/are men” is also a big thing. implies that trans people are out there recruiting teenagers who would otherwise be cis lesbians (or more rarely cis gay men) and forcing them into identifying as trans. “young lesbians” also doesn’t always mean young lesbians it’s usually meant to misgender trans men who already identify as men (but in this theoretical framework trans as a concept is nonexistent, a perversion, a delusion, so what could we be but porn/sick straight people or delusional, misguided cis gays who fall victim of a conspiracy)

- entire blogs dedicated to d/etransition (or “reidentifi/cation” as they call it now) experiences that don’t bother to acknowledge that their experience is not universal and au contraire seem to want to push detransition as the one way to happiness especially for afab people. Yes I do think that people who detransition should be able to talk about it, but if the conclusions you draw are “this didn’t work for me so it’s toxic and bad for everyone”, and openly advocate against trans people’s existence, you’re full of shit. Only a small percentage of trans people detransition: over 90% of us are satisfied with the results. It’s all just concern trolling.

- posts about how dysphoria is either a “delusion” or a “normal female experience”, posts that sound a lot like body positivity but they’re actually pushing for detransition (ie you should accept your body as is, surgery is mutilation of your already perfect body etc etc) this is also tricky but it’s all in the language. Phrases like “young women who undergo surgery to fix their already good bodies” could refer to a variety of things but it’s all in the context. Words like “reconnect” “reidentification” are usually presented as alternative. Dysphoria is usually not named and referred to as a delusion or social pressure and something that should never be considered real, ie if you see something like “young women undergo surgery to chase a delusion” it probably comes from a t*rf. be wary of any surgery talk in general is my point because it’s usually presenting gcs as on the same level of lip fillers and Botox (ignoring that trans people face infinite struggles to access surgery and social ostracism for pursuing medical transition so it’s not the same AT ALL)

- talk about stuff like “hrt is dangerous actually” and “binding is horrible actually”? Yeah. You can guess where it comes from. It’s important to acknowledge the risks of hrt/binding but sensationalism about how it’s dangerous and could kill you and so on... it’s just overblown concern trolling to convince people that medical transition is mutilation and a conspiracy to kill the above mentioned “young lesbians”

- sentiments akin to “t*rf is a slur used against lesbians” even if not presented this way are also a red flag, sorry. If you don’t want to be called a t*rf, maybe don’t speak and act like one.

- the sad news is in the end there’s no way to discern whether someone is a t*rf or not because a lot of the time these same talking points come from blogs that have little “t*rfs don’t interact tee hee!” Banners on their description. A lot of r/adfem blogs out there are side blogs of people you wouldn’t usually suspect. Maybe they are vocal against trans exclusion, and in support of trans people, and then switch accounts to hurl about how horrible it is that they feel forced to welcome us “sexual pervert straight people” into their spaces. That’s why imo it’s more important to recognise the ideology than it is to look for clues. Again, if it sounds like one, it’s probably one :’)