#THIS feels so fucking... emotional. and for what reason?
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How would aot boys react to reader saying she want a break and goes to sleep on the couch
Ony :
- “Baby girl what’s the matter?” He asked as he wrapped his hands around you, nuzzling into your warm body on his bed, his dark features enhanced by the blue light of your phone. You didn’t respond which earned a poke in the hip from him. “ You dont wanna talk t’me? What i do?” You hummed in response, scrolling through his following and his liked posts, all the girls that you felt looked better than you.. the insecurity started to get to your head. “Hey Ony..I think we should take a..you know..brea-” You heard the bed creak beneath you as he straightened himself up. “Y/n.. don’t play with me. You not deadass. How you finna be upset with me and not tell me what I did so we could fix it?” He said, his tone changing in frustration and confusion, but internally, he was afraid.. “Ony I dont wanna agrue nd I can tell Im just gonna make this worse.. I’ll sleep on the couch for tonight” You mumbled softly. “Like hell you will, the fuck. You gon talk to me whether u like it or not and if i gotta read your notes app to figure out who or what the fuck got in my baby’s head I will.” He grabbed your face peppering it with butterfly kisses.
• “We’ll figure it out together girl”…
Armin :
Armin was very observant, so when he noticed your distance, he panicked and it bothered him for days. “Love?” He asked from the living room, slowly entering making sure not to invade your space. You looked up in response turning your phone off to give your boyfriend your full attention. “ I got your text.. about, you sleeping on the couch tonight and stuff, n I don’t know if this is because mood swings or if its something that I did or if its something that you’re upset with me about not saying that I have to be the center of your life and emotions and everything because I know that you work really hard in school and-” He paused abruptly collecting his thoughts. He averted his eyes from your now concerned gaze. You never knew it would affect him this much. “What I’m trying to say is.. I got you chic-fil-a and a new blanket to make you feel better.. and hopefully we can watch a movie and talk about it?
• “I’ll give you your space but I’m only a call from our bedroom away okay?”…
Connie :
The ping of the basketballs in the gym echoed in your ears. You watched as your boyfriend got a little too friendly with his personal trainer who you weren’t jealous of, but you simply weren’t fond of her. Who would want their man getting touched up on by a girl for lord knows how long.. but Connie assured you that the only reason she’s here is because his usual trainer broke his arm and in three weeks, he’ll be healed enough to get back in action.He wanted to ask if you wanted to join him for the day but your energy was low so he let you be.. All was well until you were facing the window in the car, being less talkative than usual. The sun retired for the day and the sky was dark, “I’m gonna sleep on the couch tonight”… “ No ur not..”… “You cant tell me what to do..”…. “ k .”
11:04 pm
You felt a sudden jerk, which made you open your eyes skightly, and a pair of hazel eyes met yours.“Hope you got all the space you needed girly..you wont see her training me again tomorrow, she was annoying anyways..”
• His plump lips met your temple as you nustled into his neck, “night”…
Jean :
You never knew when to stop playin. You set up your phone in the kitchen to record your boyfriend’s to your little “prank”.
8:15 pm- jean comes home
8:30- jean showers after greeting you
9:25- jean lays on couch
9:28- “Jean baby.. I’m gonna sleep here tonight..I need some space..”
9:30- “Back in my day, when the women needed space, they’d sleep with the oxen and mules..so”
You stared blankly at his unfunny joke, walking into the kitchen keeping deadpan eye contact, revealing your phone. “It was a prank fucking old ass man.”
• “Oh aii…”
HOPE YA LIKED IT- 𝓵𝓮𝓵𝓮 <3
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[Oh look, it’s bird boy ignoring all his responsibilities again. There’s no sex here, I’m just warming up my fingers, feel free to skip. Not that you shouldn’t feel free to skip the others…]
C/W: Rapey, impact, misogyny, patriarchy, domestic abuse
The sign of a good, broken housewife would be her skill in the kitchen. I’d all but confine her there, stepping in occasionally to look at her work. I wouldn’t know anything about the food she’s making but I’d still explain how fucking stupid she is to her.
“No, you fucking moron, you’re supposed to put a pinch more salt here,” I’d yell, “Don’t be an idiot!” I’d make large strides towards her. She’d shrink and recoil, her fists bundled up in fear. I’d slap her sharply for whatever reason I wanted. Women are property after all. She’d sob silently, afraid of drawing my fury any further. It wouldn’t matter.
“Oh—oh, for fuck’s sake, are you crying now?” I’d ask, impatient and annoyed at my inferior fucking slave daring to show her emotions. “I said. Are. You. Crying. Now.” I’d punctuate each word with a harsh slap, sending her sprawling across the cold, tiled floor. She’d break out in heavier, uncontrollable sobs and hear the soft clicks of my shoes against the floor. I’d walk to the drawer, selecting my tool of torture.
She’d beg and plead… if she knew any good would come of it. In reality, she’d simply lay there and curse her own stupidity for not putting enough salt in. What a pathetic housewife she was. My punishment device in hand, I’d pull her up using a fistful of her hair. I’d wave a wooden spatula in front of her face and ask, “So, you dumb cunt, can you tell me what this?”
“A-a sp-sp-spatula?”
I’d let go of her hair and slap her across the face again. Again she’d be sent to the floor. With an impatient sigh, I’d pick her up again. “It’s a spatula. A spatula. Not whatever the gargled mess that left your mouth was. Now tell me what it’s used for.”
“Y-yes, I’m sorry, Sir. It’s used to—.”
I’d slap her before she’d finish her sentence. She’d look up at me from the floor, pain and confusion in her eyes. Not a smidgen of anger. I’d have beaten that out of her months ago. She’d blame and hurt herself for these mistakes. She wouldn’t even be capable of pointing a finger at me. I’d shrug, as if acknowledging her silent question. “It’s not like you’d have gotten the right answer anyway, your brainless bimbo.”
Her humanity would be too broken to break even further by now. She’d simply accept my words as gospel. “A spatula is used to punish stupid, talentless whores like you that can’t cook.”
I’d spread her legs roughly and pull up her skirt to reveal her bare cunt. Perhaps it’d glisten, perhaps it wouldn’t. I wouldn’t notice or care. I’d simply strike her several times without warning. Again and again, beating her cunt with her own spatula while she’d hold onto the kitchen counter. She’d hold in a scream at first before bursting out into a noise of sheer animalistic pain.
“SHUT. UP. WHILE. I. PUNISH. YOU.”
I’d scream, striking her harder and faster. Gone would be the thinly veiled facade of punishment. I’d simply hurt her for the sake of hurting. Inflicting pain on her red cunt until she’d collapse.
She’d lay there panting, too exhausted to sob, to hurt to move. I’d throw the spatula down onto her limp body, watching the head hit her face at a painful angle. She’d flinch.
“Clean yourself up, you pathetic fleshlight. I’ll shove that spatula up your fucking asshole if dinner’s not ready by 7.”
#rapekink#r@pe kink#r@pe k!nk#r@petoy#rapedoll#degradation k1nk#degrading k1nk#impact kink#bd/sm dom#bd/sm slave#patriarchy kink#misogyny kink#abuse k1nk
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This is a tumblr classic but the ros' reaction to mc having a hickey on their neck only to find out it's a mosquito bite later on? In crush stage
Hi, I apologize for taking so long to respond.
I know it's supposed to be an easy question, but there are too many complications for me.
The main issue is, it will take most of the ROs a while to realize they are in love with the MC, even if they've already kissed or gone further.
So, their reactions might change based on:
If the ROs realize they have feelings for the MC.
If there was already something physical between the RO and the MC.
The relationship dynamic between the RO and the MC (like K and a shy MC have very different dynamics than with a bold MC).
Considering all this and for the sake of drama (because to be honest, I think it's pretty easy to tell the difference between a mosquito bite and a hickey), I'll try to answer, but it will be quite general.
Kyle / Keira
Unconscious crush:
K will be quick to judge, and as soon as they notice the 'supposed hickey', they will instantly feel contempt and irritation.
K will sincerely think that what irritates them is the fact that the MC has no shame in openly displaying something like this, though in reality, it's just plain jealousy.
Conscious crush:
K will still be quick to judge, but this time, upon realizing the true reason, it will add anger to all the other negative emotions they're feeling.
Anger isn't something K can hold in for long, so they will snap very quickly, not necessarily even because of that, but they'll let the MC know the 'real' reason right in the process of their snap.
I imagine K will say something like, 'And for the fuck's sake, cover your neck!'
When they find out it's not a hickey, K will need time to cool off, so it's either they'll leave or they ask the MC to leave them alone.
Even after they calm down, the residue will remain: K will hate how weak and vulnerable their feelings make them, so they'll strongly try to deny their feelings, which will lead to them trying to shut themselves off from the MC and avoid them.
K will berate and despise themselves for letting someone closer to them and now suffering because of it.
Lex / Lexie
'Anxious meow meow' mode is activated (I'd like to thank this anon for first mentioning it; I think that will become the official name for L's state from now on when they're feeling too worried).
L will feel sick and devastated, worrying that the MC has found someone or was with someone, even if it wasn't serious.
L fully understands they're just friends and shouldn't feel this way, but here they are.
I find it amusing that when L finally gathers the courage to ask about it, they'll start with something like, 'Hey, so... we're best friends, right? How come you didn't tell me you were seeing someone?'
When they find out it wasn't a hickey, they'll feel so relieved they might even feel weak in the knees.
Given that the MC and L have known each other for around a decade, it'll be easy for the MC to notice L's true emotions behind their wobbly smile.
I think it could actually lead to a heated moment between them if the MC dares to ask, 'Were you worried I was with someone?' (shy MC) or straightforwardly, 'Were you jealous?' (bold MC).
Even if it doesn't happen, it will be another indicative moment for L, showing what might happen if they continue to do nothing about their feelings.
Morgan
To understand Morgan's reaction (or rather its seeming absence), you must know that Morgan struggles with several internal conflicts.
Firstly, Morgan acknowledges their guilt towards the MC: they don't regret withholding information about various matters, but they do regret the distress it caused the MC.
Secondly, Morgan struggles with fully experiencing emotions. Morgan can grasp what they're feeling but can't fully immerse themselves in those emotions.
Considering these facts, Morgan will try to remain level-headed and refrain from saying anything to the MC when they spot the 'supposed hickey'.
Morgan will recognize that something inside them feels 'off' but will try to convince themselves that it's good for the MC to have someone by their side, although it will be insincere.
Despite their claims that 'it's for the best', Morgan will continue to watch the MC closely afterward, trying to figure out from other signs whether the MC has found someone or if it wasn't something serious, secretly hoping they still had a chance with the MC.
I also think when they get a closer look at the MC's neck, they'll realize it's just a mosquito bite, and their body will immediately relax, only then let them realize how much they were tense because of it.
It will still be a fairly indicative moment, showing Morgan that they're more deeply invested in this than they thought, particularly in their feelings towards the MC.
Roderick / Rebecca
Unconscious crush:
R will freeze, inside and out (which I imagine looks very noticeable and hilarious).
Even though they'll quickly recover externally, inside, they'll feel a strong sense of concealed frustration.
But they won't even try to understand why, so they won't ask the MC anything. And probably without realizing it, they'll avoid looking at the MC for a day or two.
Conscious crush:
R will feel angry right away but won't show it.
Reacting so strongly is a weakness for them, but it's not just about displaying it: the mere fact of having such a strong reaction, especially because of someone (the MC) also counts, which makes them even angrier.
And that anger will dictate their actions.
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R takes a few steps closer to you.
"What's wrong?" you ask, tilting your head slightly, trying to understand what's going on.
R doesn't say a word, and although their facial expression and posture look relaxed, you immediately sense a shift: the air between you becomes heavy, and their gaze seems to grow darker and colder.
Their eyes never leave your neck, and you freeze as their hand reaches for the collar of your shirt, pausing for a moment before gently pulling it closer to your neck.
Then, their gaze returns to yours. "It's nothing," R says calmly, turning away from you.
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Even if the MC tries to explain that it's just a mosquito bite, R will say something like, 'I didn't ask.'
They realized it wasn't a hickey the moment they stepped closer, and the instant relief would be replaced by resentment: they will be very angry that what they experienced literally controlled them.
Usually, they let it happen by giving in to their feelings, and it was always a conscious choice.
But the MC changes things, and changes they can't control will always provoke a strong reaction in them.
Theo / Tess
Unconscious crush (if there wasn't something physical between them and the MC):
T treats physical intimacy as something casual, so it would seem obvious to them that someone so criminally hot as the MC already has someone.
But when feelings come into play, everything changes: T had never felt so strongly about anyone but the MC (that goes for physical intimacy as well), so they won't understand why what they see doesn't sit right with them.
However, they usually don't think too much when it comes to their affairs, so they quickly brush off this subtle feeling. Instead, their mind will be filled with... other thoughts, which they'll be sure to share with the MC.
But as soon as they lean in closer to the MC and get a better look at their neck, they immediately realize it's not a hickey.
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T leans closer to you, humming thoughtfully.
You pull back a little in suprise. "What is it?"
T looks up, your gazes lock. "You know, if you need someone to show you what the real hickey is supposed to look like, I humbly volunteer."
You touch your neck, realizing what they are talking about. "It's a mosquito bite."
"Oh, really?" T ask innocently, giving you a disarming smile. "Well, even so, what I said still stands."
Unconscious crush (or if there was already something between them and the MC):
...No. Just no. I won't tell you. I mean, I will. But through the main story.
Isaac / Iris
Isaac / Iris never jumps to conclusions. Well, never until jealousy comes into play.
The moment they see the 'supposed hickey', they feel bitter, disappointed, and frustrated.
They avert their gaze, trying to take a moment to suppress and hold back what they're feeling right now, or rather, what they shouldn't feel.
They realize that under the current circumstances, they don't know what they're dealing with and are unsure about what the MC is. Are they a victim, a threat, or simply a coincidental variable that signifies nothing?
Since it's common practice for them to suppress what they're genuinely feeling and rely on the mind rather than the heart, they're able to calm down pretty quickly.
But once they return their gaze to the MC, all reasonable arguments will die when their eyes flick back to the MC's neck.
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"You have a hickey," I says calmly, but you notice a distinct change in their tone and demeanor. Their voice loses its warmth, and their gaze turns unrecognizably detached, yet it remains fixed on yours.
You frown, caught off guard by such a shift. "I don't—Oh." Realizing what they mean, your hand involuntarily touches your neck. "It's a mosquito bite."
You see them blink, and a moment passes before they look away. "I... That was... I shouldn't..." You notice they avoid meeting your gaze, but before you can ask what's wrong, they add, "I apologize, I need a moment."
Without waiting for your response, they turn and walk away.
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They'll feel foolish for jumping to conclusions, but they'll feel even worse for displaying their personal interest in the MC so openly.
They understand that the MC's presonal life is not their concern, and any interest they harbor can never evolve into something more, and that's probably for the best.
But if the MC begins to reciprocate their interest... They're scared that they'll have to refuse, but what scares them even more is the possibility that they won't be able to refuse.
Sebastian / Selena
Unconscious crush:
I think S won't understand their feelings when they see the 'supposed hickey'.
They'll want to know more about whether the MC has someone because it's information, and any information can be useful later (at least that's what they'll tell themselves).
Even without realizing it, they'll secretly study the MC closely and quickly conclude it's not a hickey. And if it is, they'll consider it a 'pitiful imitation' at best.
Conscious crush:
They won't be able to just let it go for later and will behave more boldly, trying to get answers to their questions right away.
A 'straightforward approach' is both uncharacteristic for them and very indicative of how much what they feel deeply concerns them.
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Approaching you closer, their gaze momentarily drops to your neck, and the hints of amusement fade from their expression.
Even though their lopsided smirk remains, you notice a subtle shift in their demeanor.
Their hands gently touches your chin, tilting your head slightly as their gaze shifts to your neck, then back to your eyes.
"You look good today," S says, withdrawing their hand before you can pull away, looking almost smug as they take a step back. "Although your 'neck adornment' leaves a lot to be desired. But that's a question for the manufacturer."
You touch your neck, realizing what they're talking about. "It's a mosquito bite."
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This will be a good chance for the MC to ask if S felt jealous. S might sidestep the question, but what's important is that they'll ask themselves this, which will give them something to think about.
If the MC is strict, S will also say something like, 'Poor creature. It probably died after drinking your blood'.
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Thank you for the question! (🥲).
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SPOILERS FOR TMAGP 14
LIVE REACTION
godsdamn this is awkward
Alice genuinely baking like “.. oh.. alright (*.*)” ad started engaging in the conversation.
Alice are you joking or fr. This is insanity. Why are you flirtying
Office polycule looking more likely by the week, honestly.
I don’t know if the typing is always in the background when the reports start? But this time it was really punchy, and the way it stopped as if Sam was doing the Jon thing about being drawn into it
Oooo are we finally getting an insect infestation one? I cant remember if we had one yet.
HOLY SHIT THAT TRANSITION WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT
Every time I’m like… why don’t they notice the emotion in the voices?
Someone going to a place regularly for work, only to find something horrifying below. Jon’s just reliving his own pain at this point. The way that most of it was very strict, then when the report started getting personal when stuff started happening. THEMES
“I wasn’t being nosy, I promise. It was just there. I couldn’t help but NOTICE.”
This is less flowery than some others, gives more of a personal feel.
It really is more of an infestation one.
Now Jon’s voice goes more stoic??
Gwen “You wouldn’t understand.” Sam “Of course not.” DAYM Gwen “I don’t have time for this” Sam “No one ever does”. That’s the same sort of reason the Archive team messed up so much in the beginning, because they were never let ‘in’ in time to have a chance.
I feel like this one is either going to be an episode where it’s mostly tone/filler, or snakes are going to pop up again. Sort of like how the worms were treated throughout a good chunk of Archives
#jonathan sims#tmagp#the magnus protocol#the magnus pod#samama khalid#alice dyer#gwen bouchard#celia ripley#tmagp spoilers
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𝚅𝚊𝚖𝚙𝚒𝚛𝚎 (𝙰𝚌𝚝𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜! 𝙱𝚊𝚍𝚊 𝙻𝚎𝚎 𝚡 𝙰𝚌𝚝𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜! 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛)
Synopsis: You have to work with Bada, your ex who cheated on you
T.W.: manipulation, deceit, angst, cursing, mentions of cheating
A/N: I'm back bitches with another angsty shit 🥹
You thought you'd be okay working with Bada 6 months after your breakup but coming to work and having to interact with her every single day makes you want to walk out and scream from the pain you're still feeling. It doesn't help that you're doing a drama and it involves cheating on her part. You couldn't help but laugh bitterly at how the universe is really fucking you over. The thing you're acting out is how things happened between you and Bada. So you're basically reenacting all the pain you've gone through for the paycheck and for everyone's enjoyment.
"Y/N? Can we talk? The next scene we're doing.. I-" Bada approached you and you just looked at her, trying your best to not look too affected.
"Oh don't worry, I can handle the scene just fine. I'm pretty sure you'll give a stellar performance as well." you cut her off and she was about to say something when the director announced for everyone to be on their mark as the filming would start.
"1..2..3.. Action!" that was your cue and you approached Bada, you couldn't hold back any longer as all the painful memories came crashing back like it was just yesterday when your world crumbled as you found out Bada has been cheating on you with multiple women on the course of your 3 year relationship.
"You said it was true love.. But wouldn't that be hard?" you approached her, you're aware that your eyes are welling up with tears already. You weren't acting anymore at this point and you didn't care.
"You can't love anyone, 'cause that would mean you had a heart.." you laughed bitterly and you could see Bada's expression becoming grim as she held back from saying something while the cameras were still rolling. She took a deep breath and placed her hands firmly on your shoulders, staring you down.
"Listen, let me explain to you-" she says and you shrug her hands off and look up at her, some tears fell down your cheeks but you still had that defiant look in your eyes.
"I tried to help you out, but now I know that I can't!" The staff and the director looked at you both, it was definitely not in the script but the raw emotions and the lines being thrown is definitely much better than what was originally written.
"'Cause how you think's the kind of thing I'll never understand.." you wiped your tears away and slapped her hand when she tried to reach for you. Bada could feel her heart sink and shatter as she sees your tears. She knew she fucked up so bad but she still loves you.
"What? You've got nothing to say now?! Blame it on some shit just to take the blame away from you?!" your heart is racing, you could feel your hands become sweaty as you looked at Bada. She looked hurt and broken, something you've been craving ever since she fucked you over.
"Jagiya.. I made some real big mistakes, I know. I hid those things from you because I know they would hurt you!" Bada says and her reasoning just made you angrier.
"I should've known it was strange that you only call me at night because you're so damn busy fucking other girls during daytime!" you could hear murmuring from the other cast members and staff, one even suggesting to cut the scene but you didn't care anymore.
"I'm sorry.. Please.. Forgive me.. I thought what I did was smart because I didn't wanna hurt you, jagiya.. Please forgive me." her voice sounded so broken and full of regret. You didn't dare glance at her, scared that you might fall right back into her trap and get hurt once more. You removed your hands from her hold and stepped back from her.
"You made me look so naive! And don't you fucking dare call me jagiya! After all those things you did?! And you didn't wanna hurt me? Oh please.. You and I both know you're just saving your cheating ass for being exposed." your tears continued to fall as well as hers but you weren't backing down.
"Aren't you ashamed? Don't you feel the slightest twinge of guilt whenever you tell me you love me but still have the audacity to cheat on me, multiple times?!" you yelled and Bada got up, her hands were back on your shoulders, forcing you to look at her and to listen.
"I didn't mean for those things to happen! I really didn't mean to hurt you like this.." Bada says and before anyone could react, you had slapped her already.
"You didn't mean to? Don't bullshit me! You're a fucking liar!" you were about to storm off when she pulled you back by the wrist and held you in her arms, making you sob uncontrollably.
"I still love you.. I still do.. It never went away.." you could hear her faint voice as she just held you in her arms, both of you crying.
Everything felt like a blur, you can't remember what happened after that but here you are, face to face with the director along with Bada.
"I don't know what went on between both of you though I hope it won't affect our production too much. As much as I love what happened earlier, the improvisation was perfect! I'm pretty sure people will see it and think it's the most realistic scenes but I think it's something personal between you and Y/N. It's up to you both if you want to give us rights to use that or we can reshoot if you're not comfortable." The director says and Bada looks at you like she was waiting for your decision.
"It's okay if you use that. As you have said, you think it's perfect." you spoke and didn't look at Bada since you know you'd start crying again if you do.
"If it's okay with Y/N then I'm okay with it." Bada finally says and with both your consent, that confrontation was included in the drama.
As predicted, it was easily the most memorable scene in the drama, it even earned awards due to how realistic and raw the emotions were. You couldn't help but think if people knew the story behind that, would they see it differently other than just acting?
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On My Mama Pt. 7 (Things I Hate About You)
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“Not gonna lie… I can’t fault you for fucking the OG. She fine af.” Riri whispered to Shuri as they watched You and your mother stare each other down. You’d walked up to the door, pushing Riri out of the way and had been staring your mother down for what felt like hours but was mere minutes.
“Riri, shut the fuck up.” Shuri hissed, irritated that all her effort was going to be demolished by this one moment.
“Ion know why you mad for, you got to fuck on the OG and you fucking on Y/n now. You greedy bitch.” Riri rolled her eyes. Not that she wanted to mess with your mother. She was aware the woman was attractive but she had nothing on you. You were gorgeous, smart, opinionated as hell and kind even though you tried to pretend you weren’t and that you didn’t care about anything or anyone.
“Are you not going to invite me in?” Your mother asked, her tone was sickly sweet. A tone you knew all too well. It was her nice nasty tone.
“No.” You finally spoke.
“No?” She repeated as if shocked.
“No!” You hissed, and slammed the door in her face.
“Oh shit.” Riri laughed in disbelief. She didn’t know what to expect but that surely wasn’t it.
“Y/n…” Shuri called but you ignored her as you opened the door to see your mother still standing there with a shocked look on her face.
“The nerve you have to come here is astounding!” You snap. Months of ignoring her and trying to pretend she didn’t exist hadn’t prepared you for the rage you felt at seeing her again. “You’re nothing but a selfish bitch! Never in your life have you ever been a decent person! You come here and for what? To make amends so that you feel better about yourself?! Fuck you! I told you I never wanted to see you again and you seem to think what? That I misspoke ? My DAD is DEAD, and I wish it were YOU! You are not a mother! You don’t know the first thing about being a mother! And if you think I’m being emotional or that I don’t mean what I’m saying hear me when I say… I FUCKING HATE YOU! I ALWAYS HAVE! DAD IS THE ONLY REASON I EVER RESPECTED YOU EVEN WHEN YOU TREATED ME AS IF I WERE MERELY THE SHIT ON THE BOTTOM OF YOUR SHOES YOU HOMOPHOBIC HYPOCRITE WHORE !”
Shuri and Riri shared a look of astonishment as they watched you crash out. You were visibly shaking, your eyes narrowed and your words emphasized with great contempt. Neither knew what to say or do as they’d never seen you this angry.
Your mother said nothing as she took in your words. Her jaw clenched and her eyes tightened as she stared at you in utter disbelief.
“Get the fuck away from my apartment and slither back to whatever fucking gutter you crawled out from!” You spoke again, wanting her to get just how much you wanted her to leave.
* WHAP *
You stare at your mother in shock as she slapped you so hard, you bit your tongue.
“You clearly have lost your mind! You do NOT talk to me like that!” She shouted.
“Fuc—“
* WHAP *
You grinded your teeth to keep from hitting her back, as she glared at you. She’d never put her hands on you before, she’d never dare with the way your father was about you.
“I’ve given you more than enough time to get your act together. I am your mother and you will respect me! I brought your ungrateful, spoiled and entitled ass into this world.” She eyes you, her mouth setting in a line.
“Entitled? Me? Clearly being a whore and a hypocrite isn’t enough. You had to add delusional to the list as well.” You spat, furious at her words.
“Y/n, I’m trying not to put my hands on you. I did not come here for this. Your father would be so disappointed with —“
* BOOP *
“Don’t talk about my fucking dad!” You punched her straight in the nose, hearing the crack.
Shuri quickly moved to grab you as Riri grabbed your mother as the two of you moved to hit each other. You had no love lost for the woman. That died when your dad died. You tried to be cordial and respectful and perfect for her and all she ever did was shit on it. Your dad pushed you to respect her, to love her even when she made it hard for you to.
“YOU. ARE. NOT. MY. MOTHER. YOU. DON’T. KNOW. HOW. TO. BE. ONE!!!!!” You screamed, fighting against Shuri’s hold.
“You excel at playing a victim, Y/n.” Your mother shakes her head. “Everything isn’t always about you. You’re angry because your little childhood crush fucked me? Baby girl, I am everyone’s childhood crush. Grow up and stop with this nonsense.”
Riri’s eyes widened as she stared at Shuri. She was shocked at the audacity your mother had. The whole argument between the two of you was absolutely absurd and it was getting more ridiculous with every rebuttal.
Shuri simply raised a brow. She had known absolutely nothing of your mother until she threw herself at her the night at the club. While she could admit your mother was gorgeous, she was no different from the many women that tried to get her attention. You were the only one besides Riri that showed her that you were more than just your looks.
She actually respected you and Riri. Something she couldn’t say for the plethora of women she’d fucked or whom had tried to throw themselves at her unsuccessfully.
Shuri was unsure where your mother got the idea that she was such hot shit. She literally fucked her in that club and walked away like it was nothing. In fact she took a completely different woman home the same night.
While she could admit your mother was good, and very attractive. Shuri remembered how much she hated how the woman ran her mouth. She literally fucked her from the back and choked her to get her to shut the fuck up. She’d fucked her several times in an hour after she’d finally shut her mouth.
The woman was a functioning drunk that talked a little too much about shit no stranger should have been privy to. Many things she felt you should have been aware of but it wasn’t her place to speak on anything. Let alone try to mend fences especially considering you were just getting on good terms with her.
“You’re bragging about being fucked like a two dollar whore in a club bathroom?!” You laughed, not even able to be angry at her words.
Weird flex but ok….
“Did you not fuck that girl in a car in middle school?” Your mother reminded you, a smirk on her lips. “You were always to fast for your age and yet here you are trying to shame me? I am grown.”
“Well it takes a whore to know one. As you said, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.” You returned her smirk. You were far from a whore but if she thought that would hurt you, she was sadly mistaken.
“You fucked up a good thing with a good man and yet here you stand with no remorse. Talking about being fucked by the same person you cheated with. You’re literal garbage. Not even worth my time. Get out and don’t come back.” You relaxed in Shuri’s hold, not even willing to continue with whatever this was.
“Y—“
You cut her off by holding up a hand. “Leave!”
Riri forces her towards the door and slams the door, locking it. She didn’t like the fact you both were disrespecting each other but even less that she as the mother was egging the situation on rather than trying to stop it.
Her mother would never act like that. She would never talk to her mother like that either but she also knew everybody was different and circumstances were different for everyone. The whole situation made her feel the ick. She felt like your mother was weird for fucking with anyone her daughter’s age, just off how she’d feel if that were her mother.
Then add to it how she was acting and what she was saying. The mere thought of her and her mother in a similar situation made her feel sick. She didn’t know who to side with as far as she saw it in her mind you both were wrong. Your mother for talking to you crazy and even more so for hitting you in the face. There was never any need for a parent to hit a child in the face. She’d never get behind that.
You were wrong in her eyes for disrespecting your mother. It didn’t matter what your mother did in her relationship with your father, it was between them not you. She could understand your loyalty to your father but it had nothing to do with you beyond how he died. You had every right to be upset but disrespecting her was wrong.
You both clearly needed A LOT of therapy in her opinion but she wouldn’t hold her breath on that happening anytime soon, if at all. For it to get physical like it did made it clear that reconciliation was far out of reach.
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A few hours later You, Shuri and Riri are lounging on Shuri’s California King Bed. Shuri thought it was a good idea to smoke the bad day away. So you all were getting high and drinking. A bad combo, but one you needed.
“Why do you hate yo ma dukes so much? It’s gotta be more than just the cheating and the death of your pops.” Riri says, blowing smoke out as she stared at you.
“She’s not what she portrays herself to be. She’s homophobic, emotionally and verbally abusive. She belittles me any chance she got. My father was the buffer between us, she was always on her best behavior around him.” You roll your eyes as you take the blunt from Riri and take a long hit.
“You know today’s the first time she ever put her hands on me?” You laugh hysterically. “The scary bitch would have never if my dad was still here.”
“I’m sorry.” Shuri says, as she rubs your back. She took the blunt from you and took a hit, fighting the urge to ask the many questions she had on her mind. She hated when people tried to get deep with her so she’d be a hypocrite to do it to you.
“I don’t know what I did to make her hate me so much.” You teared up. You’d always thought it might have been the gay thing but when she fucked Shuri you knew it wasn’t that. “But I’m past the point of caring. I hate her just as much as she hates me so we’re even.”
“She could die tomorrow and I’d be like ‘She died? Hope that bitch is dead as hell!” You continued ranting, taking a huge swig of the Wakandan alcohol Shuri had.
Riri frowned but said nothing. She didn’t like that but if that was how you felt then that’s how you felt. She could see now that you had a lot of rage and resentment build inside of you towards your mother. If you couldn’t forgive your mother, how could you ever forgive her?
“Shuri, I wanna fuck.” You whined, climbing on her lap and straddling her legs.
Riri looked at the two of you in jealousy. She hated how things had taken a turn for the worse. She really liked you and she felt sick at how she fucked up. She still couldn’t get the look on your face out of her head.
You leaned up to whisper in her ear. “I wanna fuck Riri too.” You giggled at the look on her face.
“Y/n, you sure ?” She asked.
“I don’t have to like the bitch to fuck her.” You shrugged, you didn’t like Riri. You were sticking to that, even if you didn’t entirely believe that.
You climbed off of Shuri’s lap and started to strip, watching the way Riri’s hooded eyes followed your movements.
“Everyone’s doing reckless and trifling shit and I believe in that saying ‘if you can’t beat em, join em’ so, why not fuck you both.” You said, nonchalantly.
You were attracted to them both, and you were in the mood for some reckless behavior.
“Of course you don’t have to.” You give them both the option but you knew they wouldn’t deny you. They fucked each other many times before, and you were sure while they both wanted to fuck you; this was more exhilarating.
“You need therapy.” Riri shook her head, looking away from you.
She wanted you badly but not this way. If it was purely about sex she would have taken you up on the offer. She honestly could have pressed you harder and had your legs opened back when you didn’t hate her. She actually liked you, and she knew deep down you were still angry and hurt at her actions.
Fucking you wouldn’t change anything and she refused to be involved in toxicity. While her previous actions were toxic, she knew she was wrong immediately after and sought out her old therapist to gain some help and to take accountability for her wrongdoing.
She could see that you were in a downward spiral of self destruction and despite how much Shuri may like you. She was enabling the bad behavior. You used sex as a way to gain affection and hide your pain, it was easy to see and she was not willing to contribute to it.
When she’d initially made the bet with Shuri on who would be the first to have you, she had no real intention of going through with it. She’d merely wanted Shuri to stop the drunken whoring she was prone to.
And like she figured. Shuri stopped fucking random women and focused solely on getting your attention. She may have flirted with other women to get under your skin but she hadn’t touched another woman since the day you’d met.
Going back to therapy unleashed a bunch of things she hadn’t fully thought about. Like what led to her immature and petty actions. Or why she tried her best to look out for Shuri and be her stress relief when things got too much and she got sick of other people. Or why she was willing to sacrifice any relationship with you if it meant Shuri being happy.
She was still dealing with unresolved guilt from when she had unwillingly unleashed that psycho fish man on Wakanda. The Queen’s death still weighed on her, despite her trying to bury the feelings and thoughts that sometimes plagued her.
Therapy showed that she purposely sabotaged her relationship with you because she didn’t feel she deserved you. She felt she owed it to Shuri to help you open up and heal so the two of you could be together, even if it killed her inside.
It also unearthed her loyalty to Shuri in a way that her therapist said worried her. Riri spent every waking minute of the day focused on how she could better your day or Shuri’s. Her projects and vigilante work suffered, though her therapist knew nothing of her secret identity.
She felt slightly burnt out but it still didn’t compare to the guilt she felt at what Shuri had lost due to her. Nothing would ever make them even but Riri had vowed to always try to make things better for Shuri no matter what.
“I didn’t ask for Dr Phil.” You level her with a glare. There was no way she was denying you after all the ass kissing she’d done.
“Look, you can accept that fact or not but the truth remains the same. You need help, and I just want to be your friend. I care about you Y/n. Whether you believe that or not.” Riri sighs, before heading out of Shuri’s room and closing the door.
“Do you think I need help?” You ask, climbing back on top of Shuri.
“Absolutely.” Shuri nods, placing a kiss on your neck. “And I’m just the person to give it to you.”
You squeal as she flips you over so she is hovering over you.
#SoundCloud#shuri black panther#princess shuri#shuri x fem!reader#shuri smut#shuri udaku#riri x you#shuri x black!reader#riri wiliams x reader#riri williams#riri x reader
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A vat7k related question.
What do you think is Hugo's gender identity? Cus I want to hear what you think Hugo's gender is and the story behind it.
EHEHEHE personally i think she’s genderfluid and uses he/she/they pronouns…….I think he was kind of an uncracked egg up until the trials though. like, he’s been in survival mode for so long that he’s never had the time or luxury to really think about himself or his identity….i think he’s had a lot of different disguises over his career though, and those personas are either male or female depending on what the situation calls for so he’s not a stranger to dressing femininely either. SOMETHING LIKE THIS ART which i think about SOOO often btw. I love ops hugos so much they’re very dear to me.
but yeah…i think for a long time hugo just identified as male by default cuz like…what else would he be LOL. if he had any doubts at all they weren’t significantly hindering him or anything so he just buried them with all the other of the emotions he doesn’t want to feel. but like the closet is made of GLASS and this becomes especially obvious when she teams up with 3 other teenagers who are also transgender so sometimes she’ll just Say Shit and they all turn around and look at her like “…….🤨”
i have this very vivid scene in my head where varian comes out to the gang as trans and hes clearly really uneasy abt it. and hugo doesn’t know what to say so he just tries to relate by saying the first thing that comes to mind and goes “oh yeah i get it i mean. sometimes i wish i was a girl but like not all the time yk” and nuru and varian both just stop and stare at him
hugo, getting nervous: …Sorry that’s probably not the same thing forget i said anything
nuru: No i think we should talk about this?
anyways yeah….other than her traveling party giving her some weird looks nothing actually really came of these conversations bc hugo would refuse to think about herself even if you put a gun to her head
fast forward to post-trials though, and hugo’s been living in the castle with varian for about six months…it was REALLY messy for both of them while she was adjusting, but at this point shes finally started to let her guard down a little, and all of a sudden she has SO much free time and she has no idea what to do with any of it. she’s stealing collecting things, tinkering with all kinds of useless little gadgets, rapunzel is teaching her tons of little arts and crafts projects. overall shes pretty content despite everything. So anyways then the gender crisis hits them like a fucking freight train
honestly i’m like half joking when i say i think it started bc they just kept forgetting to cut their hair. like one day they looked in the mirror and they’re like “wow my hairs getting so long i kinda look like a girl lol. Wait”
AND AS FUNNY AS IT IS ITS SO. WILDLY UNFAMILIAR TO THEM. like all of a sudden theyre SO insecure for as far as they can tell, NO reason and it drives them CRAZY. i dont even think that hugo dislikes their masculine features after coming out, i think they embrace them if anything but its just like…going from 0 to 100 so fast and suddenly being so hyper aware of themselves in a way that they NEVER were before…having to realize that they’re definitely Not cis. it’s fucking TERRIFYING!!!
not to mention it hits him all at once during a time when he’s still frankly really paranoid about him and varian’s relationship, and he’s kinda walking on eggshells bc deep down he’s convinced that var’s just gonna get tired of him eventually and kick him out. its like he’s just waiting for the final nail in the coffin despite the fact that there is literally no coffin.
All that being said i think it takes him a while to work up the courage to talk to varian about it. and he knows he won’t like. hate him for being trans or anything (I sure hope he wouldn’t, at least, seeing as he is literally also trans) but varian’s already done SO much for him and helped him through literally everything already….he doesn’t want to burden him any more than he already has. he also cant comprehend that someone can just Like him, like, as a person, so he’s convinced himself that varian must see something specific in him right now and he’s afraid that if he changes himself drastically in any way then whatever varian saw in him just. won’t be there anymore. If that makes sense
as for who he actually goes to first- honestly i think it’d have to be lance. at least in my head lance was the first person hugo really started to bond with aside from varian….he didn’t start letting his guard down with rapunzel until quite a while after that. also i think he’s worried that if he tells rapunzel she’d end up accidentally spilling something to varian (which is like. Valid bc she’s a horrible liar) he’d definitely write a letter to nuru, too, but nuru is also in another kingdom, and that message takes a while to get to her, so it’s more something they talk about after the fact
when he finally does get a letter back after dumping this revelation on her it’s just like
“dearest hugo. upon reading your letter i desperately wanted to tell you that i told you so, but i realize that would be in poor taste, seeing as you are clearly struggling right now. Moreover,-“ /j
regardless of who she tells first, they obviously all support her and encourage her to talk to varian as well…And ofc varian hypes her up to no end when she finally does. i wanna say it’s a sweet emotional scene but i feel like varian was also under the assumption that she figured out the gender thing like a year ago /j
hugo: ,,,,so like. i don’t think i’m a guy
varian: . yeah?
hugo:
hugo: TFYM “YEAH”?????!!!!???
varian: D. DID WE NOT ALREADY KNOW THIS?
hugo: ,???? NO???!!???!
jokes aside though as soon as hugo does decide he wants to explore his presentation more varian immediately consults rapunzel who gets WAY too excited about it and it kind of scares hugo a little bit. /j like Do you want to cut your hair? Dye it? Do you want new piercings? TATTOOS????
they eventually just settle on getting her a few new pieces to add to her wardrobe and that works out fine. varian sees his girlfriend in a dress and loses his mind etc etc. All is right in the world
#vat7k#varian and the 7 kingdoms#tangled ask#varian and the seven kingdoms#vat7k hugo#varigo#varian#tts headcanons#pansy rambling again#pansy-art#i first answered this like two weeks ago but i lost the entire post and i got so mad that i just didnt bother writing it out again#until now i guess
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I think the thing for me is, if I put myself in Paul's shoes of being in love with John and believing he's straight, I would probably just assume that John did all that crazy shit to hurt me for no real reason. Which did seem to be Paul's perspective to be fair, and I can only imagine how much more insanity-inducing it would be for him to be told by Yoko or whoever that John had feelings for him, probably thinking for a long time "well it sure didn't fucking feel like it!!"
HSGSHSH THATS THE THING UNFORTUNATELY..... LIKE....... I do truly think this is what happened. To Me. and add to it his doubts after johns death that john ever loved/liked him Which He's Voiced...... man. although I do think they understood each other better than that so I feel like. hm. In My Mind. I have no proof of this just going on vibes alone & a like 3 hour conversation with @o-boogies abt literally this exact thing last night. it's like. To Me? he was so assured of John's love (in whatever manner) for so long so then when it's not there & john has not only moved on but is trashing him publicly and saying they were never close it's like the rug was ripped out from under him & he wasn't sure if he ever understood or knew john as well as he thought he did. like I DO think he knew john loved him and just had repression a mile long (like. he did nearly beat a man to death this is such a vital detail about johns Gay Internal Drama). but only After things fell apart did he come to doubt that & I think it took a lot of people going "yeah no he did Love You (in whatever form)" to like. soothe that? but when you listen to his solo stuff it's....... god it's SO raw how much he is just SCREAMING for John to look at him and love him and see him. like even before his solo career we have songs like oh! darling and I will (.....& the "can you take me back" jam which I will consistently and always overanalyze)
I don't however....... hm. I don't think they ever had A Clear Moment is part of the whole issue. like idk that either of them necessarily "rejected" the other more than they were both just incredibly bad at communicating and wanted to rely on telepathy which is not a real thing that exists. so for Both Of Them the whole thing was like a punch to the face. for john because he just desperately wanted paul to React and for paul bc this relationship he had been very assured in was suddenly twisted into something very ugly and depressing
who was straight who was bi who was gay I Have No Clue I just know those two loved each other so deeply and hurt each other so badly and WANTED to be more (whether u subscribe to the idea that they were strictly in an unspoken emotional thing or the idea that they Have Fucked Nasty).
#thinking and screaming and agonizing about the whole thing as I'm sure sir paul does like weekly#also sorry for the case differences w proper nouns I'm on my phone and autocorrect is inconsistent and I do not care enough to fix it#when I'm rambling lmao
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I wonder what Cedric would do if he had to fostered to show him how this new world is or meets a fostered marine
Author’s Note: Thanks for the question!
Tagged: @egrets-not-regrets @the-pure-angel @bleedingichorhearts @kit-williams
Warnings: feelings of abandonment, ask me to tag
Being Fostered: I feel that Cedric would feel a mixture of Very Confused about why he’s being sent off go live with a random human for a little while, as well a mixture of deep inadequacy and being Very Upset at being sent away. He’d feel like he failed at being a Space Marine badly enough that he was being sent away from his older brothers and cousins to go live with a human for reasons that would make little to no sense to him.
Not that he would say any of this. Primaris marines were created to be more obedient in addition to being physically stronger, larger and resilient than first born marines. Cedric would endlessly stress internally about what sort of test he had failed to be sent away, which would manifest outwardly as a curious mix of absolutely obeying any order - perceived or otherwise - that the mortal he was put under the care of by his older brothers and hiding from said mortal when he gets overwhelmed or his emotions get the better of him.
Unless it was made very clear to him that the fostering was not a punishment, not a demotion of some kind for a failure on his part, or something along those lines, that is exactly what Cedric would see it as. Also, any trust that the older brothers/cousins had built up with him is pretty much gone completely. He’s being sent off because they feel that he isn’t worthy of being a marine…
As for what his reaction to seeing another marine being fostered, it depends on whether or not they’re a Loyalist, Renegade or Chaos marine.
For any foster, he’d mostly be very confused as to why the Ultramarines had decided that this sort of thing is necessary. What is it for? Why do these fosterings make these “Feral” marines seem less dangerous? What is the difference between them and a “Feral” marine? I’m not sure if he would ask any of these questions, as again, the primaris Obedience thing was probably at least partially beaten into them by the Mechanicus and I could definitely see asking questions as being seen as one thing to be punished because how dare you question my orders. Which is something I could also see being a thing among Black Templars too.
But his outward reaction to a feral loyalist marine being fostered and bossed around by a baseline human (not even a Commissar or of the Astra Militarum. What??) is mild confusion and curiosity.
For a renegade marine, he’d be wary about interacting with this traitor - but since this traitor isn’t Chaos, he won’t do much more then glower in their direction and wait for signs of duplicity or them trying to start shit. Then he will steal the human away to safety before attacc-ing to get the squishy human out of harm’s way.
For a chaos marine? Whoooo boy. Given that he’s been scolded for being rude to Chaos Marines in the past, Cedric won’t start anything… But he is deeply suspicious of Chaotic Traitors and will be suspicious of the adult mortals who willingly spend time around them for prolonged periods of time, because Chaos Corruption is something that can be spread to other people (Like a disease) and why the fuck are they doing this? What could they possibly be getting out of this? CSMs are so dangerous! >:( this world makes no Emperor-damned sense.
#oc: cedric#my writing#warhammer 40k#space marine husbandry sentience#space marine husbandry#Older Brother: You're being fostered to help understand this world#Cedric internally: I Have Failed At Being A Space Marine And Have Brought Shame Upon Myself And My Chapter#Cedric out loud: Yes sir#cw: feelings of abandonment
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Felix Kranken relationship headcanons
These headcanons are not just romantic. This includes platonic ones too. Some of these are related to my Felix Goes to Rehab AU, but this is vague enough to work with the canon series too. I might update and fix this from time to time. Let me know what y'all think, but please don't be too mean about it. This is super fucking long btw. LMAO
Linda and Felix's relationship was toxic, mostly coming from Felix's end due to his alcoholism and pride. It makes him say things to her he doesn't mean, but it doesn't excuse anything at all. Linda would also argue out of frustration, calling out his behavior, but he wouldn't listen to her. He would apologize to her a lot, but the more these arguments happened, the less she'd believe him. These arguments also made her afraid to protest against him later, which is why she left while he was away.
Felix cared about Linda very deeply. Despite this, he is emotionally distant, and she would long for him to reciprocate. When they were first dating, he struggled to admit that he loved her, but he would only get over it in fear of losing her. Felix is conflicted about how he felt about her during and after their marriage. He knows he cares about her, but did he love her romantically if he struggled to be vulnerable with her? He too craves emotional intimacy, but he failed to do anything while he was with her. Linda would get tired of this, not feeling fulfilled in their relationship, especially combined with Felix's addiction and harsh words towards her.
Regardless if he loved Linda romantically or not, she was his favorite person. Felix has BPD and NPD, and he was heavily fixated on her. He trusted her more than anyone. She was the only person he allowed to touch, hug or kiss him without any sort of resistance from him. While he was still emotionally closed off from her, she would comfort him and tell him things were going to be okay when he was overwhelmed. He found comfort in her presence like no one else before, which was why he was so afraid of losing her. He would split a lot when it came to her. He'd either overly glorify her and treat her like she'd save him, or hate her because she told him to stop drinking. This instability would put a lot of pressure on Linda and drained her emotionally. This is another reason why she left.
Felix does not like physical contact beyond hand shaking and pats on the back, especially from strangers. He's not a fan of hugs, but will hesitantly hug someone if they need comfort from him. He does make exceptions to people that he is close to, such as Jack and Linda. He's also nicer to children about it, but he'd try to avoid it when he could. Of course, Jack's children are allowed to hug him whenever they want. When he's drunk he loosens up and tolerates it more since he isn't really thinking in general. He's also clingy and emotional in this state. He just holds onto someone he knows.
In a romantic relationship, Felix isn't really the one to initiate physical affection unless he is cued to. He kind of waits for his partner to make the first move. When he does initiate, he's more subtle about what he wants, so that he doesn't do anything without consent. Most of the time though, he forgets to show his affection to his partners, and he doesn't understand how important it could be to them. He isn't good at being romantic, but he would often buy his partners gifts to make up for it. He doesn't like when things get too intimate or emotionally vulnerable, so he would avoid them as often as he could. This makes him appear cold and distant in a relationship. He may brag about being in a relationship because he genuinely loves his partners and the attention, but he would be hesitant to display physical acts of affection in public. Not that he's ashamed of them, but more ashamed of himself.
Felix is bisexual, but he has a leaning towards men and other masculine presenting people. Despite this, he would pursue women more often. He's afraid the men in his life won't reciprocate the feelings he has towards them. This doesn't mean he loves his feminine partners less. When he's in a relationship, he is very much committed to whoever he's with and loves them regardless of their gender identity.
Felix is also demisexual, meaning he doesn't experience sexual attraction until after he forms a close, emotional bond with his partner. He has a low libido, not understanding the hype of having an active sex life. He also has other priorities, so he hardly thinks of it. He would never pursue anyone that way, unless they also want a long term, romantic relationship with him first, preferably if it involves marriage. He doesn't like being touched too much. If he were to ever have a more intimate relationship with anyone, it would be pretty rare, and he'd have to really trust his partner. Even when drunk, he's very conservative about his sexuality. He'd never do anything, or let anyone touch him without consent first.
He has a hard time being truthful or communicative when it comes to his feelings. He usually lies and drinks to suppress them. His mood swings can be drastic, and it doesn't help that he tries to bottle them up. He doesn't want to burden people because he knows that his alcoholism already does enough. When people try to get him to open up, he gets overwhelmed and pushes them away. When he's drunk, his emotions blow up and he has a melt down. He doesn't know how to control himself. This makes his relationships with others very unstable.
Felix has BPD and it heavily affects the way he expresses his love for others. He has a fear of being abandoned, and he will cling onto his friends or partners if he feels like they don't love him anymore. When they want attention or affection from him though, he struggles to reciprocate. Sometimes he isolates himself from the people he cares about the most and distracts himself, usually by indulging in his self destructive habits, whether it be overworking or drinking. Felix has two favorite people that he switches between, Jack and Linda. Whenever he senses there is tension between him and one of them, he would turn to the other and smother them with his attention. When he splits, he says things he doesn't mean, but he doesn't understand how that hurts the person he's talking to until later. He constantly seeks validation from his favorite people. If he doesn't receive praise from people he deeply cares about, he would get paranoid. He would split and think that they hate him, so he starts acting aggressively egotistical as a defense mechanism. He would do whatever it takes to receive any attention, thinking that he doesn't need anyone when he's just trying to fill the void where they used to be.
He also has NPD, and it also strains the relationships he has with others. He has empathy, and he does care about people he loves, but whenever he feels threatened by them, he refuses to see through their perspective. He takes any sort of criticism, constructive or not, very personally. He tends to belittle whoever opposes him to make himself feel better. Sometimes, if they really get under his skin, he becomes hostile and starts berating whoever he's with. He regrets doing this afterward, not only because it makes him look bad, but he also never means to hurt the people he cares about. Felix has high expectations for himself. He needs to be perfect. If he isn't the best at everything, and if he can't achieve it on his own, he gets insecure about it. He would brag, fish for compliments, take credit for achievements from others, etc. He does whatever it takes to keep others from seeing that he's secretly an "insecure loser" that can't amount to anything. He often avoids trying new things due to his extreme fear of failure. This is why he is so controlling and absolutely despises change. His friends notice this, and get really annoyed by it. Jack and Linda are usually the ones that try to get him to chill out, but Felix gets irritated by it. He's more likely to listen to Jack though.
He does not like being vulnerable, whether it's emotionally or physically. He prefers to be the one in charge of any relationship to avoid it, which is why he resorts to being controlling. Being the breadwinner in a relationship also helps him feel like he has control. He's afraid of feeling completely dependent on someone, even though he knows that's how he truly feels deep down. He secretly craves to be open about his emotions, but he just can't muster the courage to do so. Even if he wasn't afraid to, he's too stubborn to let others help him. He'd rather deal with everything on his own because it would hurt his pride if he didn't. When it comes to physical vulnerability, he doesn't like being controlled or put in a defenseless position. If he doesn't push them away, it would take a long time for him to adjust to this change, and he doesn't like change. When he's drunk, he's very emotional and seeks comfort, but his thoughts and feelings are so overwhelming that he can't express himself clearly, so he ends up sobbing or lashing out instead of communicating in a healthy manner. He is extremely vulnerable in this state, and he knows it. It's absolutely humiliating for him.
#the walten files#twf#twf fandom#felix kranken#idk what to put here#headcanons#headcanon#Felix is my hyperfixation for some fucking reason please save me#brain rot#felix goes to rehab#au#alternate universe
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Another OJV friendship that is my fav is Kenny and Kyle, I was wondering if you wanted to talk about them because I live for your Headcannons and tumblr extras 🤓
I ALSO live for the headcanons and tumblr extras and OK ORANGEJUICEVERSE KENNY AND KYLE LETS GOOOOOO!!!
So like, Kenny is EASILY styles closest friend other than each other. And OJV Ken is pretty much everyone’s go-to, like Stan running to him when he feels like he fucked up, Marj and Cartman knowing Kenny’s down with a scheme, but it’s a little different with Kyle.
Kyle is 100% the mom friend of the group. And the WHOLE REASON he’s like that with everybody is because growing up, he was the one to jump in as the voice of reason (especially when the Disaster Duo gets goin) and always took care of his people. And who needs taken care of the most? Kenny.
Kyle is CONSTANTLY scolding him for not taking care of himself, doing crazy shit, yes he’s amused by a lot of the antics, but when the logic takes the forefront, he’s all Sheila mode “DR PEPPER DOESNT COUNT AS WATER ESPECIALLY IF YOURE GOING TO A BLOOD DRIVE” “aw it’s fine Ky I got it covered” “no,” *throws a water bottle at him* “I’ve got YOU covered”
Kyle’s super supportive of Kenny’s career, too. That’s not only his bestie but also his metaphorical son. He is SO hyping up every new painting and sculpture, the first person Ken shows new work to bc not only is it gonna be a confidence boost, but Kyle will also have suggestions when he’s stuck.
Kenny, our darling chaotic comic relief friend who hides his own issues behind a grin and a joke and a guardian angel complex, is VERY protective of Kyle. Nearly as much as Stan is. OJV Kenny is a LITTLE GUY, even shorter than Kyle is, but he’s POWERFUL and has every creative solution to get the gang out of a bind, and he’s really friendly with everyone he meets, and people automatically open up to him. On top of that, he is REALLY good at reading people. Kenny’s super perceptive. He sees when someone in his found family has something going on, even before they say something. Ken was the first to be suspicious of what was going on with Ky in high school, brought it up to Stan, who said “I know dude. He’s stressed as shit but I don’t want to piss him off by telling him to relax”, like Kenny does people EXPERTLY; at 14 he knew it wasn’t his place to stage an ed intervention and knew he had to wait for Kyle to hit the point where he either hit rock bottom or came forward on his own.
On the note of Kenny’s emotional intelligence, I mean, come on. Artists in particular see creative solutions to problems, read the energy around us. And Kenny… oh my GOD that boy is a force to be reckoned with in strategy. Which is WHY he and Kyle are BANNED from teaming up in any game. They’re too powerful together. Poker? Fuckin forget about it those two are DESTROYING EVERYONE they are way too smart and between Kyle’s own abundant perceptiveness and Kenny’s people skills they’re not fucking around lmfao. I also find it extremely iconic that while both Ken and Stan are super smart, you put them together and they are sharing a singular brain cell, doing the dumbest shit, and Kyle is RIGHT THERE telling them off for it.
Kenny is so so incredibly thoughtful though too. He is absolutely the person you want to go to if you need a shoulder to cry on, and Kyle, who is the other person in the gang who gets relied on emotionally a lot, does go to him.
Thank u for the ask man live laugh love orange juice
#asks#south park#OrangeJuiceVerse#kenny mccormick#KENNETH#kyle broflovski#look at this I learned something today ass bitch#headcanon#this might be unhinged but ya know shit be incoherent sometimes
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#this is so fucking important to me#im... so happy about how the manga tackled THIS scene#kingdom hearts#this part of kh3 always felt odd to me tbh#it felt like the writers wanted to do something and just. didnt go all the way#there were ideas and they just didnt fully write them down and put the same amount of effort into them as they did in other places#THIS feels so fucking... emotional. and for what reason?#it's just. sora cares about roxas.#it's just true. he cares about roxas and feels bad about the situation that him and roxas both were put in.#he never found it fair that he got to exist while roxas was told to unalive.#and while the sora writing in khDDD and kh3 definitely told us that#definitely told us that sora DOES NOT like this situation and he would be willing to do anything to bring roxas back#it wasn't this.#this feels like a friend you barely got to know. realising that you had it so rough.#and desperately trying to break down any barriers between you two and grab your wrist#to hold onto you tight and refuse to give up on searching for you and trying to help you out of your darkest places.#sora is so fucking insistent on proving that roxas is not just his nobody.#roxas is roxas.#donald being sorta confused makes complete sense#because he didnt see how roxas fought with every fibre of his being against sora to just try and beat him and prove his right to live#he didnt see sora bearing the weight of roxas' life and feel the betrayals and lies and deception that he barely understood as it was.#to anyone else. roxas probably is just sora's nobody.#sora may very well be the one person who knows that isn't true.
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this was made especially for those of us who cut ties with our shitty families, huh
i cried so much this whole episode. i know that i can't be in that house and be who i am at the same time, but the guilt and shame never really go away. i love that this episode said, wholeheartedly: fuck what society says, you should be wherever allows you to be happiest
anyway! you always hear that family estrangement is rare in asian communities, but i did it! and you can do it, too! dump your shitty family! i believe in you~
#tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna#it's incredible like i don't think i fully realized how ashamed i feel until this episode had me ugly crying into my blankie#especially because the abuse was invisible and people say: oh everyone's family says harsh things! it's because they care! they love you!#and no matter how hard you try to explain the magnitude of what was done to you people still shrug and say but they're *family*#not that there was ZERO physical abuse but like. that's just How It Is in the community i grew up in so it's not a Reason reason#and that's all aside from all that's expected of me as the child of an asian family (that i am simply doing none of)#FUCK i guess i just compartmentalized all of this so securely i didn't think it could bleed out anymore#thanks tsukutabe. i guess?#this show is RELENTLESSLY coming for me this season too like explicitly stated asexual rep? a treat for me personally!#idk i never expected an asian drama to be so clear about this especially because kasuga's abuse was invisible too#and the idea of not sacrificing yourself for your parents is COUNTER to what you're supposed to do#i am just VERY EMOTIONAL right now#i love kasuga so much and it was rough to see her going through it but i am SO HAPPY that she's accepted and loved
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Do I find Damian incredible annoying? Yes Will I fight every single motherfucker who resumes his entire character to violent and 'bad'? Also Yes.
#I don't know how many times I'm going to repeat myself but this is a goddamn child soldier getting repeatedly traumatize#in a family that has so many chaos that he always feels the need to prove himself in the terms he was taught#i didn't give a fuck what Damian does thats the responsibility of his father until he actually becomes responsible to his actions#and dc comics literally bought him out of nowhere just to shit on him and then repeatedly try to get rid of him for no fucking reason#Damian goin off as a way of getting Batman emotional damage it's actually very stupid dc you tried the same shit with jason in this last#ten years and not even then anybody liked#few things makes me more unreasonable piss off than batman letting his kids get away from him and then act like they don't need him#he did te same shit with dick but at least dick had the titans#this whole shit with Damian is making me read with my eyes while my hands are dialing the cps#Batman come get your fucking children your useless middle age man#bruce hate hours#damian wayne#damian al ghul#damian al ghul wayne
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Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.
#my stuff#i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks#like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy#hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month?#can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control#can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me?#and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone#so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks#im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better#i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up#cause i can see that happening#i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something#and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends.#and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you#i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once.#and that's not me. that's not who I want to be.#i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.
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One of the things that’s incredibly funny to me about Murderbot and ART’s meeting is that Murderbot is being so ridiculous about it.
ART: *bumps up the life support to make its construct passenger more comfortable, watches shows with its new friend, offers free surgery and advice to pass as a human, watches over Murderbot as it goes to do dangerous things, watches out for Murderbot’s new humans*
Murderbot: This asshole boat is trying to kill me and I hate it so, so much. Yes I’m being a brat about it, no I don’t intend to stop-
#19th#November#2022#November 19th 2022#secunit#murderbot#asshole research transport#the murderbot diaries#tmd#elk text#its unreliable narration is so fucking funny if you take two seconds to look at it from an outside perspective#murderbot even knows it's being petulant at times it just can't stop#truly the most relatable of all murder-based constructs tbh#like to be clear it has totally justifiable reasons for not wanting to do certain things#but it also can't communicate these reasons bc it's not in touch with its emotions#and can't verbalize what it's feeling#so it's stuck throwing a tantrum basically#which is so relatable that it is physically painful to me a little bit#this is the same character that took nearly 4 books to admit that its friend is its friend#....and also about 4 books to admit that ART was its friend#that tracks
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