#Soy Borderline
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Suicidio
Lo más triste es no suicidarte para no hacer sufrir a las personas que te dan ganas de hacerlo. Estoy tan jodidamente rota, quiero morirme, quiero que toda esta mierda acabe de una buena vez por todas.
#TLP#soy tlp#frases tlp#tlpborderline#Suicide#Suicidio#depresion#depresión#Borderline#depressing post#living with borderline#actually borderline#Soy Borderline#ansiedad#anxienty#morir
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man i have not succeeded at being as strict w kitniyot as i was last year. just realized that the vanilla yogurt i've been eating has vanilla in it
#ik vanilla is borderline but yk#txt#other examples of this include that im making matzo toffee on wednesday and im gonna just get the tjs chocolate chips bc i dont wanna shlep#to safeway even though the tjs ones have soy or corn syrup or smth#and the chocolates in my omer calendar have some sort of soy in them but ive still been eating them
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Alguien puede darme algún consejo de como lidiar con el dolor de cabeza por no comer???
#anaymia#diario de una gorda#diario de una obesa#diario de un borderline#soy una gorda#hasta los huesos#eating desorder#desordenes alimenticios#problemas alimenticios
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A veces siento que este mundo no es para mí, ¿o que yo no soy para este mundo? No sé si haya diferencia entre ambas oraciones, pero en todo caso ambas son ciertas.
Estoy cansada de vivir. De existir. De despertar. De respirar. Estoy cansada de mi. De la gente. De sentir cada puta cosa con demasiada intensidad.
Soy de cristal.
Cristal tan delgado y delicado que si me tocas me parto. No me grites porque me hago pedazos. No me dejes porque me duele. Cristal que cuando se llena de emociones la imagen que refleja se vuelve difusa.
Quiero gritar. Quiero llorar... Pero no lo hago. Nadie escucharía.
Quiero dejar de existir, aunque no estoy segura si quiero morir. ¿Tiene sentido? Quisiera un interruptor que me deje descansar unos segundos. Que me desconecte de la vida y luego pueda volver, cómo nueva.
Y es que me duele. Me duele todo.
Y a la vez...
Ya no siento nada. Soy un frasco vacío. Soy un envase sin alma.
Y quiero dejar de existir.
- Encontrado en un diario antiguo
#tlp#borderline#diario#texto en español#depresión#depresiva#asi se siente#asi me sentia#me encuentro bien#escrito#escritora#infinito soy yo#me amo#?
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Out of context this sounds so ridiculous 😂
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Fr though, how would Halloween work in a society that regularly deals with litteral ghosts and ghouls. Like, are horror movies scarier than hollows??
Man, soul society LOVES a holiday, especially one that involves costumes, reasoning behind the holiday be damned. For them, it's a bit more like Mardi gras than a scary holiday, but on Halloween there are roughly 4 camps:
People who are way more into the Pumpkin Spice part of October than the Spooky Parts:
Sasakibe, Isane, Aizen (as part of his cover), Love, KOMAMURA, Tousen (also info-dumping every fun fact about bats to anyone who will listen), Hitsugaya (pre-gaming for Snow Season).
People hosting the Spoopy Halloween Block Party because Halloween is for the KIDS:
Omaeda (actually here for the MILFs but that's ok), SHINJI, BYAKUYA, Iba, Kensei, Mashiro, Ikkaku, Kenpachi (but only until 9PM), Mayuri (unfortunately), Urahara, UKITAKE.
People out drinking and pulling Halloween Pranks and wearing slutty costumes because Halloween is for the ADULTS:
Soi Fon, Rose, IZURU, Momo (loves horror movies), Hiyroi (actually a huge chicken about horror but loves seeing Momo in a revealing costume), RENJI, SHUNSUI, Nanao, LISA, SHUUHEI, MATSUMOTO, Yumichika, Nemu (she just likes hanging out and having a night off from Mayuri), RUKIA.
People who are stalking the above group in the creepiest makeup/costume they can manage and charging them with real weapons and borderline-genuine killing intent, because Halloween is for the MONSTERS:
YAMAMOTO, Kenpachi from 9:01 PM when Yachiru is in bed to sunrise, RETSU.
Forgot it was Halloween because he's a creepy fuck all year round and also bad at remembering what day it is:
Gin.
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Who is Luzu?
Luzu was just announced as a QSMP member, and since he's a very important character in Karmaland and a VERY important person to Quackity's character, here's a quick rundown of Luzu and his lore for folks who aren't familiar with him:
Luzu is played by LuzuVlogs, a Spanish Twitch streamer who's good friends with Quackity!
IRL, they're such good friends that Luzu once accidentally called his real life son "Quackity"
Luzu is bilingual and can speak English and Spanish.
Luzu's character used to be a very kind, friendly, and loving man who helped everyone
HOWEVER, during Karmaland 4 (the season before Quackity joined) when he campaigned to be mayor of Karmaland, he was betrayed and mocked by his friends and the person he loved (who then ran off with someone else)
Luzu before the elections vs. after the elections
These two animatics sum up his K4 lore pretty well if you want an even shorter TLDR: Lemon Boy, Karma (an animatic approved by Luzu himself)
As a result, Luzu is a very vengeful, distrustful, and all around tragic character
Luzu canonically has an evil side, and he made a deal with "dark gods" in the past to take revenge on the people who've wronged him.
Despite all his past heartbreak and lingering anger, he immediately took a liking to Quackity when they first met.
Luzu and Quackity's Karmaland characters are parallels to each other
Luzu and Quackity were canonically in love with each other, but they were too emotionally constipated to confess their feelings despite their many, many, many romantic and borderline sexual shenanigans.
Luzu warned Quackity not to trust anyone in Karmaland except for him. But despite Luzu's deep mistrust of other people, he trusted Quackity immediately.
Luzu is a very possessive man, and very protective of Quackity.
He calls Quackity "Quacks" (both in and out of character)
He and Rubius have a long-standing rivalry, and they normally don't get along very well.
Luzu and Quackity had 4 (adopted) kids together.
When campaigning for mayor of Karmaland, Quackity asked everyone what they wanted most, and Luzu's response was, "I want you to be happy, Quackity."
HOWEVER, the day of the election, Luzu joined as an opposing candidate at the last second and stole the election from Quackity, fearing that the position in office might leave Quackity with the same trauma he had in a previous life (a life which he can only half-remember).
Luzu says everything he did, he did to protect Quackity.
TLDR: Luzu trauma-projected onto Quackity, who then started a revolution that nearly destroyed Karmaland in retaliation.
For a good TLDR of the revolution arc, “I Can’t Decide” is a good one to watch.
Even though he was furious with Luzu, Quackity told Rubius not to kill him. He’s referred to Luzu as “My 100%”, and “the best person I knew in Karmaland”, and even expressed his gratitude that Luzu was always so kind to him to Luzu himself, despite the war and despite knowing one of them would probably have to kill the other to end it.
Luzu said the song that best fits his character during the revolution arc is Bloody Mary by Lady Gaga.
Edit: This isn’t about the character, but I just saw what Luzu said in response to people asking him if he knew about the invitation:
Luzu: A mi Quackity me invitó desde hace bastante, me dijo si quería participar, así que llevo tiempo calladito, calladito, para no spoilear nada, aunque yo soy invitado no sé nada jaja, lo lleva todo Quackity, así que veremos con qué nos sorprende nuestro querido Quacks.
Translation: My Quackity invited me a long time ago, he asked me if I wanted to participate, so I've been quiet for a while, so as not to spoil anything, although I'm invited I don't know anything haha, Quackity takes everything, so we'll see what our beloved Quacks surprises us with.
Other info posts:
Who is Spreen? | Who is Sapo Peta? | Who is Vegetta?
#Luzu#Quackity#QSMP#Luckity#Karmaland#karmaland talk#OK LISTEN REALISTICALLY I KNOW LUZU WAS GONNA BE INVITED#BUT IT WAS SO STRESSFUL NOT KNOWING FOR SURE#It seems like my Sapo Peta post helped a lot of people so I hope this helps folks too#Also here's my hot take#I know everyone compares Luzu to Wilbur but they're not alike at all#Luzu and Quackity are the two most similar characters#Wilbur and Quackity are each other's yin and yangs#but Luzu and Quackity are a mirror#qsmp talk#QSMP info
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I saw your Hobie x latina going going to the club para perrear and I loved it😭🤞🏼😩
BUT
Imagine Hobie going to a cantina with a mexican reader and just drink and hear corridos tristes (el video del vato que dice "porque que te quiero" y le meten el micrófono a la boca😭💀) or rather going to a cantina goes to her house and her family is making carne asada and drinking beer and there's literally a band in the party (soy norteña perdoname😭) and he is like "this food is bussing bussing" because he is British and their food is just "no good💖". At first he is nervous like he doesn't know what to do and at the end he is somehow riding a horse or he is playing with the band, he just loves it, the vibe and the food
(Love how you write 😭💖)
Hobie Brown meeting latina!reader's family <3
Masterlist <3
Ay hermana, soy chilanga we don't have horses up in this bitch😭 I tried to make it more general like Bee meeting your tías and primos but def adding the whole carne asada deal. (For my non-mexican readers, we call people from the city "chilangos" and northern people "norteños" and while we're from the same country, our experiences can be very different!). Also, tysm my dear, hope u like<3
-First off
-Giggling and kicking my feet 🤭
-Bro was persistent in meeting your family, and while you weren't exactly reluctant, you did have to warn him
-"Why not!? I want to meet your uncle Luis or- or Saúl!" He exclaims, recalling the stories you've told about your family members. "I'm not saying no, mi amor. I-It's just-" "What?" He grins, knowing you don't really have a solid argument. He kisses your pout and walks over to your room to get ready as you sigh, defeated by your pretty once more.
-Of course you wanted Bee to meet your family! But we all know how it can get at those big family gathering.
-One thing was meeting your parents, (which went by spectacularly, by the way) but him hanging out with your older tíos and younger primos was a whole other deal
-They aren't bad people, you love them dearly. It was the soft (hard and relentless) teasing (borderline bullying) you were worried about.
-It was easy to understand their humor when you grew up with heavy jokes, but Hobie would be new to all this. Plus, he was the first official boyfriend you'd introduce to the family! They were protective and honestly not afraid to show it.
-"Buenas tardes, Hobie Brown. Mucho gusto" you say slowly as you're both on the way to your tío's house, he repeats after you with a horrible accent. "Roll your r's!" You giggle, looking at him intently while softly showing him how to pronounce.
-He's really trying for you bestie </3
-Yeah he went blank after your aunt opened the door and dismissed his polite handshake with a bone-crushing hug.
-"Ay mija! He's so tall, I can barely hug him right. Pásenle, pásenle, Luis is in the garden with the kids. Welcome Hobie!"
-Bee just smiles and it widens when a horde of kids comes running down the hall and bolt towards you, saying hello to their favorite aunt and the strange bato she brought along.
-"Tía Y/N/N who is this?" Luisa (the youngest) asks, eyeing Hobie up and down with the sass of an old lady, making him suppress a laugh "Es tu novio?" now questions one of the boys, looking up at him amazed. "Hello brats" he smirks, high-fiving each and every one of your nieces and nephews excitedly.
-"You didn't tell me you were a tía already..." "Some of them will be by the age of sixteen, so I'm no rare event."
-Hobie is hard to lose on a crowd; all spikes, leather, chunky boots, and piercings
-Your nephews are thrilled.
-Asking all around about what his pins mean, if he finds it hard to walk with those boots, if he's not too hot with his jacket... you know, the type of questions kids ask.
-You laugh at him, trying to answer one question at a time patiently, and walk over to the table outside where your tíos, tías, primos, primas, cuñadas and some sobrinos were.
-"Y el novio mija?" Asks one of your tíos, already in a deffensive tone "He's inside con los niños, tío. Ahorita viene" you smile and promptly, Hobie walks through the door after the kids.
-The smokey scent of the carne asada filled his nostrils as soon as he walked outside, widening his eyes at how good it smelled. You walk over to him, grabbing his arm and smiling widely at your family
-"Les presento a Hobie, mi novio" you beam and your tíos can tell he truly makes you happy. "Yo no te di permiso, Y/N" one of them jokes, making everyone laugh and Bee follows after you translate for him.
-And he didn't like it but he really cared about their opinions
-He didn't give a single fuck of what other people had to say, but this was your family!!! He knew he was close and for the first time, strived for perfection
-The next few minutes were him trying really hard to memorize all the names, having a hard time pronouncing your aunt Rocio and Rosa's names.
-Everyone laughed at his attempts
-You sit between everyone at the large table, one of your tíos approaching you as you're too busy catching up with one of your cousins. Bee squeezes your hand to catch your attention, but you don't turn back to look at him, instead just squeeze back.
-He nervously places his hand out, and contrary to before, your uncle welcomes it. "Buenas tardes, Hobie" (oubi😭con acento mexa) "Buenas tardes, señor". God, did he rehearse that on the way...
-Your uncle seemed to appreciate him at least trying to talk to him in your mother tongue. He gave him kind of a smile and asked "Wanna help me with the asador over there?"
-Oh this was a test
-"Sure thing" he nods confidently even though he's shitting himself at the moment
-When he saw the carne asada let me tell you
-His mouth watered, heart eyes all over and he swore he was about to do that floating thing he's seen spider pig do
-Your tío taught him how to turn the steaks at the right time, after some aceite jumped and burnt him a bit :( your uncle could tell he was trying hard so he took it easy on him
-Personally? You fell in love all over again when he contained his tears the best he could at the smell and spice of the chiles floating so close to his nose <3
-You slapped his ass playfully when serving the food and he just smirked as your uncle side eyed you HARD
-“Bloody hell this shit is fucking amazing babe!” He almost moans when he bites into the taco of asada you made for him
-Your family might or might not know english but they know how bad words sound lmao
-They couldn’t blame him tho, not after he proved to love asada as much as them with the eight tacos he ate ☹️💕
-Him playing with the babies of your family bro :(
-He's so good with kids too
-I'm talking playing with them, having full conversations no matter how silly they got, following their train of thought and even making sure they weren't up to some stupid shit
-Girl, if you don't rail him stupid after that-
-He got along with your older cousins too!!! After all, they shared a similar taste in music and films so there was plenty to talk about
-Your tías chismeando with you about how handsome he is
-Let’s wrap it up, I got carried away and this is too damn long 😭
-He’s talking to one of your tías when the banda arrived at around 9 p.m
-My man is so confused please help him
-His spidey sense went off before the whole fucking commotion started lmao
-When he realized it was a live group playing and singing traditional music he lost his shit
-Asked you all about it!!! “What is that piano thing!?”, “What is he singing about?”, “Can I learn how to play that?”<3
-Eventually (and with no alcohol needed since he refused to risk doing some stupid shit with your family) he ended up dancing with your tía, her patiently teaching him how to move
-He had a hard time with his big ass boots but somehow managed!!
-Hobie was so happy when you went home ☹️ almost asking when you could come back and if you could cook some carne asada the same way your uncle (his best friend, he called him) did
-“Yo te amo mi amor” He smiled big, kissing you softly before falling asleep “Thanks for letting me meet your family… meant a whole lot y’know?” “‘Course corazón, seeing you there with everyone filled my heart with a joy I have rarely experienced”
-And with that you fell asleep, Hobie dreamt of asada and banda<3
#atsv hobie#hobie brown x latina!reader#hobie brown fanfiction#hobie brown x f!reader#hobie brown x hispanic reader#hobie brown angst#hobie brown#hobie brown x y/n#hobie brown x you#hobie x y/n#hobie brown x reader#hobie brown smut#hobie brown fluff#hobie brown one shot#hobie brainrot#he’s my baby boy#spider man: across the spider verse#spider man across the spider verse#spiderman headcanon#hobie brown headcanons#hobie brown fanart
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Uh si puede que me falten un montón porque soy re mala con los nombres pero puedes fijarte en mis reblogs
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Vegan Passover Pecan-Banoffee Pie: my magnum opus
I set out with a dream. An impossible dream. To create a vegan dessert for my synagogue seder that was also kitniyot-free. Did I have to do this? Not really, my shul allows anything vegan, vegetarian or pescatarian that doesn’t have chametz, and we have a section for kitniyot. Am I vegan? No. Do I even keep kosher for Passover myself? Also no. But, you see, I have an almost pathological need to feed as many people as possible, and I am intractably stubborn, so once I realised how difficult this was going to be it only made me dig my heels in further.
It turns out to be borderline impossible to find vegan substitutes for pretty much anything that don’t contain soy, oats, cornflour, chickpeas, or some sort of forbidden legume. Subsequently this recipe is heavily reliant on coconut milk; luckily for me I live in an area with a large Muslim population and it’s currently Ramadan, so tins of coconut are front and centre of every supermarket display.
It’s taken almost a full month of trial, error and meltdowns in the butter aisle of Sainsbury’s, but I finally did it. I had to cobble bits of the recipe together from half a dozen different sources, so I feel relatively justified in calling this my own invention. The pecan crust is borrowed from a Tori Avey cheesecake recipe, I just swapped pistachios for pecans. I really think the crust is what makes it, to be honest. You could probably skip the ganache layer if you can’t be bothered, I just feel like it helps cut through the sweetness.
Recipe under the cut. Please please tag me if anyone decides to make this! I would be so delighted to see it out there in the world.
Crust
84g (⅔ cup) pecans
84g (⅔ cup) pecans
84g (⅔ cup) pecans
60g (½ cup) matzo meal
66g (⅓ cup) granulated sugar
71g (5 tbsp) Kosher for Passover vegan margarine (Rakusen’s Tomor*), melted, + extra for greasing
Pinch of salt (optional)
Ganache
113g KFP vegan dark chocolate (Lindt Excellence 70%, Green & Black’s 70%, Green & Black’s cooking chocolate are all KFP)
113g coconut cream/full-fat coconut milk
A few drops of vanilla extract (optional)
Caramel
200g caster sugar
100g KFP vegan margarine (Tomor)
200g coconut cream/full-fat coconut milk
Whipped cream
200g coconut cream/full fat coconut milk, kept in the fridge overnight
15-45g KFP icing sugar (check it doesn’t contain maize starch. You could probably omit the sugar and leave the cream unsweetened if you can’t find it, or grind your own- there are recipes for Passover powdered sugar online.)
¼ tsp vanilla extract
3-4 bananas
cocoa powder or grated chocolate to serve (optional)
chopped pecans to serve (optional)
Method
Make the caramel. Place the sugar into a medium / large saucepan. Place the pan on the hob over a low heat. Allow the sugar to melt, this will take around 5-8 minutes. Don’t burn the sugar! Make sure to stir constantly to prevent burning. You can use a wooden spoon or heat proof spatula.
When all of the sugar has melted and is a golden / amber colour, add in the margarine. Be careful, as the sugar is very hot. Remove the pan from the heat and stir to combine. Allow the margarine to melt into the sugar. It might bubble but that's fine. Once it’s combined, it might have a thick consistency. It might look like the margarine isn’t mixing with the sugar, but it should combine once you add the cream. Now add in 200g coconut cream. It will steam and bubble again so be careful.
Add the pan on the heat and allow to simmer for 3-5 minutes to help thicken it up.
Remove the pan from the heat. Set aside to cool for 30 minutes, then transfer / pour the caramel into a heat proof jar. Place the jar into the fridge. Allow to chill overnight. The coconut cream for the whipped cream should also be kept in the fridge overnight, to encourage it to separate and firm up.
If the caramel separates overnight, use an electric whisk to combine into a smooth consistency until there are no remaining lumps. It’ll be a more custard-like texture but still delicious. Keep caramel in the fridge until needed.
Make the crust. Preheat oven to 180˚C. Grease a loose-bottomed tin with margarine and line with greaseproof paper.
Blitz the pecans in the food processor until finely processed. Add matzo meal, salt and sugar and pulse until the entire crust is uniform in colour. With the processor on, drizzle the melted butter into the machine.
Once all the butter has been added, turn the processor off and dump the wet crumbs into the bottom of the lined pan. Using the back of a spoon, press the crumbs evenly into the bottom and up the sides of the pan (it doesn’t have to go all the way up, just as much as you can).
Place the crust in the oven for 8-10 minutes, or until the edges of the crust start to brown a bit and smells fragrant. Leave crust to cool for about ten minutes and then transfer to the fridge to finish cooling.
Make the ganache. Finely chop the chocolate and put in a medium-sized bowl. Put 200g coconut cream in a microwave-safe bowl and heat in the microwave for about 1 minute, watching to make sure it doesn’t bubble over.
Pour the warm cream over the chocolate chips and let sit for 2-3 minutes. Don't stir yet.
After 2-3 minutes, whisk the chocolate/melted coconut milk until smooth. Add vanilla if desired. Let cool in the fridge for around 30 minutes.
Make the whipped coconut cream. Chill a mixing bowl in the fridge for ten minutes (you can do this while the ganache is cooling to save time). Put 200g coconut cream (the thick white part, not the clear liquid) in the chilled bowl. Beat for 30 seconds with an electric whisk until creamy. Add vanilla and icing sugar and mix until creamy and smooth – about 1 minute. Avoid overwhipping because it can cause separation. Taste and adjust sweetness as needed.
Carefully run a knife around the edge of the crust tin and remove the crust from the tin.
Spread a layer of the cooled ganache over the bottom of the crust. Top with a layer of sliced banana and return to the fridge to set for ten minutes.
Add a layer of the caramel, another layer of sliced banana, and return to the fridge for ten minutes again.
Top with the whipped cream (I like to leave the edge of the bananas visible around the edge). Dust with cocoa powder or grated chocolate and add chopped pecans if desired.
*Tomor contains sunflower oil, but sunflower oil is not considered kitniyot in England: https://www.kosher.org.uk/article/sunflower-oil-kitniyot
#Passover recipe#pesach 5783#pesach 2023#pesach recipe#passover#Passover 5783#Passover 2023#Passover food#pesach food#פסח 5783#פסח#פסח שמח#jumblr#judaism#jewish#jewish food#kosher#kosher food#kashrut
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Aveces me preguntan como sé que la muerte es la solución. Definitivamente no lo es, pero de si algo estoy segura esque es mejor que esta vida de mierda.
#trastorno límite#trastorno limite de la personalidad#trastornos#frases tlp#soy tlp#tlp#depressing post#soy borderline#trastorno limítrofe#tlpborderline
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¿Cómo se vive con TLP?
Hoy es 7 de mayo del 2023, masomenos las 8 de la noche y no se muy bien como empezar esto, desde que tengo memoria siempre se me ha hecho mucho mas fácil escribir que hablar para sacarme las cosas del pecho y la cabeza, siento que articulo mejor lo que quiero decir en lugar de que las emociones me desborden cosa que siempre sucede, no se que es discutir sin llorar, no se que es hablar temas delicados sin llorar, ni hablar de lo que me molesta sin llorar, por más estupido o pequeño que sea, siempre las lagrimas terminan saliendo y se me nubla la cabeza, dicen que este trastorno (TLP) no es como digamos la depresión, que puedes tomar pastillas que ayuden a regular las diferentes cosas que tu cerebro debería segregar para que estes feliz, lastimosamente no existe pastilla todavía para que te regule la personalidad, el TLP es un conjunto de cosas que te hicieron y tu mecanismo de defensa fue desarrollar, curioso como funciona la mente humana, en mi caso empiezo a entender que el que me “ridiculizaran” por demostrar muchas emociones, hizo que las fuera reprimiendo y a la larga las emociones sin gestionar te terminan enfermando, “ Y por eso lloras?” “No seas exagerada” “No es para tanto” son frases que he escuchado decenas de veces por parte de mi madre, jamas me he podido sentir en la tranquilidad de expresar mis emociones o sentimientos sin ser juzgada, me volví experta en llorar en la noche sin que nadie supiera, solo guardando hielos para luego ponerme en los ojos para bajar la hinchazón y evitar que me hicieran preguntas que no quiero responder, y que por no querer responderlas seguramente se enojarían conmigo por mi “mal carácter” porque aparentemente si no quiero compartir mis pensamientos con la persona que me llevo a reprimirlos en primer lugar, entonces tengo mal carácter, es absurdo si lo vemos desde la lógica pero así es vivir y crecer con una madre narcisista.
Hoy escuche un podcast, que fue lo que me trajo hasta acá a querer escribir cosas sobre esto, se llama ¿Cómo se vive con TLP? Y en una hora y nueve minutos esta chica describió mi vida entera y dijo una frase que se me quedó tatuada en la mente, a veces no sabemos como definir el trastorno limite de la personalidad, una persona que no lo sufre no lo entiende porque no siente de la misma manera que alguien con TLP y para explicarlo dijo lo siguiente: “Una persona borderline es como si no tuviera la primera capa de piel, en general todos tienen su primera capa de piel, una persona borderline no, por lo que si te cortas, te pellizcas, te lastimas, si tienes tu capa de piel, te va a doler claramente pero tienes algo que te protege, lo sientes, pero no con tanta intensidad, mientras que si no tienes la primera capa de la piel, estas en carne viva, cualquier dolor que puedas sufrir se va a multiplicar por 10 por 100 por 1000, un simple corte se puede sentir como una puñalada” así es vivir con TLP, la verdad nadie nunca lo había descrito mejor, creo que es una analogía lo suficientemente clara como para que alguien sin el trastorno lo logre entender y sea mas empático.
Yo no se muy bien el porqué o el para que hago y escribo esto, solo se que el 30 de abril vivi una situación que fue el trigger mas gigante que he sentido en la vida aunque estoy diagnosticada hace años, esto fue y es superior a mi y quiero documentar mi proceso, el como estoy como me siento como este trastorno me afecta mi vida en absolutamente todos los aspectos, quiero poderme expresar sin ser juzgada porque nadie sabe quien soy, quiero poderme sacar este nudo de la garganta que siento 24/7 mezclado con una ansiedad que me esta comiendo viva, que literalmente no duermo porque escucho mis palpitaciones que no se calman, quiero que alguien lea esto y se sienta tan acompañado como yo me sentí escuchando ese podcast, no me sentí sola, no me sentí loca, me sentí entendida. No se dejen engañar, puedo sonar muy calmada como que tengo todo bajo control, como que soy una persona muy centrada, y nada esta mas lejos de la realidad, en este momento siento que la vida se me cae a pedazos, lloro todos los días, no se gestionar el mar de emociones que tengo adentro y que no se calma con nada con pensamientos a mil por hora, solo quiero que si alguien sufre de esto y me esta leyendo, que sepas que no estas solo, de verdad, no estas loco, y si lo estas leyendo y no sufres de esto, por favor se empatizo y trata de entender, que ya es una lucha constante vivir con esto, como para también tener que cargar con un estigma de que solo somos personas dramáticas, y bueno, así empieza esto, vamos a ver como nos va.
#tlp#salud mental#mental health#trastorno limite de la personalidad#borderline life#ansiedad#llorar#soledad#dias tristes#trastorno límite#transtorno borderline
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Would you mind sharing some info about your oc x canon? :3 what's their dynamic like?
Looking up at you like this . You have activated the unskippable cutscene. (OLD!!!!!! ass art incoming.)
I have a few oc x canon ships I absolutely adore from many different fandoms ^_^ the one that has taken up a huge place in my heart since forever is one of my bnha/ my hero academia ships.
|| I don't interact with the fandom or the source material as much anymore publicly (I've talked abt this before) but they just can't leave my mind! ||
You've met my oc Kou before! She is very much my bread and butter oc, I do a lot with her because shes my favorite to draw. She started out as a my hero oc, though, so I find that's where she really flourishes!! I pair her with Tokoyami! 🙈 They don't have an official ship name (my friend group calls them TokoKou on occasion) or anything but I draw them literally all the time even to this day. They're my top oc x canon ship by a long shot LOL to me they go together like tofu + soy sauce, it feels weird to draw one without the other.
(GOD THIS ART COULD QUALIFY AS AN ARCHEOLOGICAL DISCOVERY ,,,)
They gift me so much joy, and their dynamic is so interwoven .. they're extremely strong characters on their own but they are also twin flames to me!
Kou is an owl girl (LITERALLY); she is weird and flighty and yet couldn't be more endearing. She is the definition of a hopeless romantic and loves The Overexaggerated and Dramatic in the world. She has a very loving connection to the moon and cherishes nighttime and the concept of darkness that is borderline religious. She's a big poetry girl, she's confident in her independence and prefers to be on her own for most things. She is pretty open about who she is, but often wishes she handled things with more maturity or coolness.
Tokoyami is an edgelord. He struggles with his self image but only in the way a teenage goth can. He talks in riddles and older prose + tries very hard and yet not at all to cultivate a persona for himself but he genuinely just likes acting like he's batman. He is an extremely sweet individual, even though he looks like he hates everyone 100% of the time with his major rbf. He also definitely is a poetry lover, idk if that's necessarily canon but I feel it in my heart.
How can I even describe what they've gone through that's taken ME 5+ years to go through .. in their lore, they bond tightly as friends and as internship partners under Hawks and the events of the series. They are extremely fond of each other even before they start their romantic relationship, and I always find new ways they pull new facades out of each other when they're together.
I also like to tell everyone in the world that Tokoyamis favorite food is apples while Kous are blood oranges, which obviously is a sign that they are meant to be each other's olive rule 🙈 (They do however always debate which fruit is more superior; jury's still out on the answer.)
^_^ I always enjoy writing and drawing for them. They're a huge comfort for me for sure. I'm ALWAYS rearing to talk about them, it's embarrassing.
I don't have any NEWER art on my phone (I have so much on my computer augh), but here. Have what are from the (shudders) archives........
#tai talks#mywaywardcupcake#mutuals!#aaah... (rolls on the ground)#if you read all that i love you. thank you
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What are your opinions on all of the main couples in SL?
LMAO, it took me so long to answer this ask, but I just have so mant thoughts. I'm not sure if the question is about endgame couples, so I'll just talk about whatever I want.
Putting this under a cut because I'm not a monster.
Lutteo is... fine. I don't hate them, but I also don't like them. Leaving aside my own headcanons for the characters, they just don't work for most of the show. Matteo in seasons 1 and 2 is a complete asshole who doesn't deserve Luna. Just to list some of the shit he does: flirts with her while he's still with Ámbar, kisses her without her consent, sometimes borderline harasses her, is a dick to her best friend, prioritizes his career over their relationship even when he ends up hurting her, never listens to her perspective and assumes all of her criticism is in bad faith. I especially can't get behind the s2 storyline, where Luna is incredibly upset by Matteo's behavior—saying he doesn't have a girlfriend during an interview and staging PR relationships, or insulting Simón live—, but he brushes it all off with the excuse that it's essential to his career and tells her she's envious of his success. And he's somehow surprised that Luna would defend her childhood best friend when her boyfriend publicly humiliates him online?
That being said, when Matteo finally becomes a decent person in s3, I think they mostly work as a couple (still don't ship them). At that point, though, does it really matter? I'm not going to forget the first two seasons. If Luna absolutely needed to end up with somebody, because amatonormativity, she deserved someone better.
Lumón is objectively the best Luna ship. They're childhood best friends and know and take care of each other like nobody else. Still, when I see such an adorable m/f friendship, I grab onto it and would rather it stayed platonic, because there's enough romance in medias.
Simbar gives me life. I'm honestly obsessed and, as I've already said, they're one of my OTPs and the reason why I started watching Soy Luna. Ámbar and Simón are characters I already love on their own and they complement each other so well. They have a great premise (dating-someone-for-a-revenge-plan trope, my beloved <3), a believable enemies to friends to lovers arc (also a favorite trope of mine), fluffy banter, delicious angst and tension, domestic scenes to balance it out, great chemistry, and the actors work their asses off in emotional scenes. They communicate, support and respect each other like a healthy couple would do. Simón is the first person to see the good in Ámbar and push her to be the better version of herself. Ámbar also challenges Simón and his perspective. While a bit dramatized for narrative purpose (don't date people to fix them), that's what a relationship should do (says the aro who's never even had a date in her life).
Gastina may not be endgame, but they are in my heart. They're adorable, have excellent chemistry, and them bonding over shared interests is both realistic and cute. While cliché, I like the FelicityForNow plotline and I think it gave Gastina a solid basis that makes it impossible not to root for them. Forever mad about the route s3 took, especially because it didn't have to? They had Gastón's actor available for a couple scenes, they could've filmed the finale with him or just slapped a clip of him onto a tablet screen, then keep his and Nina's relationship going through texts, it really wasn't that hard. To me Nina goes to college in Oxford and they get back together again, I will accept no other option.
Pelfi is such a sweet ship! It's a bit of a Simbar 1.0, in the sense that Pedro formed a genuine friendship with Delfi and helped her become a better version of herself. Even if Delfi back pedaling in s2 was random and made their relationship arc a bit weird, narratively speaking, I always enjoy these two. They're such cuties and them staring at each other with heart eyes in s3 >>>
Yamiro is considered a main couple, I guess? They can be cute, but I'm not particularly fond of either Yam or Ramiro and I also headcanon them both as gay, not to mention they hurt each other and argue a bit too much for my taste.
Thanks for the ask, I hope I interpreted the question correctly!
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Hello hello again! I hope everything is going well for you! <3
May I please request your headcanons on the prompt "Any 12 kizuki with an s/o that loves the sun and grew up on beaches" from your list? And could the characters be Rokuro (pls he needs love too </3), Wakuraba, Mukago, and Kamanue, all separately? <33
Thank you in advance and have a wonderful day/night!! ♡
Kamanue
Loves nature just as much as you, but also knows the danger of the forest a lot better
Doesn't really like the idea of you going out during the day because he really can't save you if slayers catch you or something bad happens
So you come to a compromise, you'll leave just before sunset so he can get to you in good time should that happen
He's also a bit mean, though, and if you stay out in the dark, he'll come jumping down onto you to give you a good scare
Appreciates that you'll always come back with things to use for decoration in your hidden home
Total heat lover, he's freezing all the time, so he just clings to you after you soak in all the sun
Expect midnight swimming in the nearby river together
Kyogai
Lord, give this demon mercy
You are pretty forcibly totally opposites; even as a human, he was a night owl
But you are up the moment the sun touches the sky and sleeps the moment it dips down
It's a miracle you even get to talk, but because he is indoors and doesn't need to sleep, he still gets to hang out
That is if you aren't already marching out of the house
Kyogai will sometimes hit his drums just to keep you locked in a little longer
But you'll always come back with things to turn into pen ink or new paper for him to write on
You'll also give him vivid images of a sunny day and how it all felt
It helps him write, which he usually does while you are out
The good thing about your sleeping habits is you never have to watch him hunt someone down
But you have woken up a few times to the room fucking flipping over and banging your head
Mukago
She finds it cute, seeing how happy you come home talking about the great weather
Youll always bring her flowers that only bloom during the day, which for a plant lover like herself is her favourite
She hand weaves you a sunhat out of straw that she collects from the gardens at night
" So you don't burn. "
She's always so careful, dragging her fingers along your skin
You are very coloured compared to her pale-grey complexion, so she finds it so pretty to look at
When you get sunburnt, she will make a little mixture of aloe and soy that she carefully massages into the skin
Gets pretty nervous and skittish when you are gone for too long, but can't help but sigh in relief when you come home talking excitedly about the beach
Rokuro
While he is upset you don't acclimate to his own schedule, Rokuro is very interested in what you have to say after being out
He will watch as you quite literally talk yourself to sleep
Letting you sit between his legs, back facing him as he pulls sand from your hair and brushes it out
Your spirit is just as hot as the sun, but you are so small compared to him that it's borderline adorable
Eventually, you'll teeter into him while he finishes cleaning you up and fall asleep against his chest
He just wraps his arms around your waist and pulls you closer, maybe even tossing a blanket over your legs so you can be more comfortable
He is thankful for the sun and adventures tiring you out because it means you'll just slip away into his arms like this for a little while
A lovely peace before he has to go out himself
Wakuraba
Because of all your adventures, you sometimes come back nervously asking him for help because you 'accidentally fell into a bunch of poison ivy' or 'I didn't know parsnip was that pretty!'
Fortunately, Wakuraba knows his way with poisons and can treat you easily
He will always act annoyed and give a slight hiss when its the third time that week, but he loves being able to practically man-handle you
And he adores how you'll kiss all over his face as thanks afterwards
Your praise is fit for a king and gets his cheeks all rosy
He loves being able to help his s/o in ways that aren't just sheer strength; being able to show off his actual abilities makes him feel far more powerful
Wakuraba doesn't know how adorable he looks while focusing on your wounds and horribly trying to act serious, though
Authors Note - Added Kyogai just to fill it out to 5!! Also...you may have a SMIDGE of Rokuro but ONLY as a treat!!!! Thank you for requesting <3
#demon slayer#demon slayer x reader#demon slayer headcanons#headcanons#kny headcanons#kny x reader#kimetsu no yaiba#x reader#reader insert#Kamanue#kamanue x reader#kyogai x reader#kyogai#mukago#mukago x reader#rokuro#rokuro x reader#wakuraba#wakuraba x reader#lower moons
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rating things my boyfriend has said during sex - anthony beavillier.
summary: rating things tito has told you during sex.
word count: 1.4k
warnings: borderline smut, mentions of smut, bad words.
*it is smut so read at your own risk
a/n: part two of the rtmbsds series, hope you guys enjoy.
sidenote: I used google translate cause I wasn't about to ask my french speaking friends for help on this sjsjs.
(*credit to gif owner*)
something in french.
eyes did indeed roll back.
all I got was something about being mine.
dude knows that when he talks french ill drop on my knees right then and there.
fucking broke the rating scale.
110/10
You and Tito had just gotten back from hanging out with Mat. The whole time he couldn't keep his eyes off of you and well you noticed… and Mat noticed too. Saying that he had errands to run after only one hour of hanging out. Probably knowing that his best friend could take you right here in broad daylight if it wasn't for all the surrounding people.
Ok of course that was a bit of an exaggeration but he knew how his best friend was. So throughout the whole hour of hanging out and on the drive back to your guys apartment he couldn't keep his hand off of you. I mean he always did have his hand on your thigh as a sweet gesture but you could sense when it was something more, like right now.
So as soon as you stepped into your small New York apartment Tito rushingly took off his shoes and pulled you towards the bedroom.
Laying you on the bed admiring you he laid soft kisses on the corners of your lips and then trailed them down your neck. Soft moans and groans filling your bedroom. Both of you partaking in a bit of afternoon delight.
Unbuttoning his shirt and him placing his hands on the small of your back. Trying to pull you in as close as he could. The cold of his hands raising goosebumps on your skin.
"je suis si content que tu sois à moi." Tito spoke softly in your ear. God you had no idea what he had just said but you couldn't help but feel the feeling in between your legs at his words.
2. "I am one lucky guy."
made me feel things.
hehe, im soft now.
9/10.
You and Tito had just gotten back from celebrating the guys' win. Except the celebration was cut short due to someone not being able to keep their hands to themselves, no not Tito.
~~~
Here you stood at the bar waiting for your drinks when you felt someone approach you.
"Well hello pretty lady, you here on your own?" A dude around your age said, clearly very intoxicated.
"Sorry, not interested." You said as you grabbed your drinks and tried heading back to the table, where Tito was. Then the dude grabbed your wrist and as Tito kept an eye on you from afar this was where he knew he should intervene.
"Don't touch me." You said as you tried to loosen his grip.
"Aww come on sweetie." He said.
"Look man, she's not interested." Tito said as he grabbed the stranger's hand and pulled it off of you. "Want to get out of here babe?" He asked as he looked up at you, now completely ignoring the stranger. Both of you waving goodbye to your friends and heading home.
~~~
Upon arriving home you asked Tito to help you with the zipper of your dress. Him placing soft kisses on your neck, leaning back to give him more access. Soft moans being heard throughout your New York apartment. Him pulling you into him and pushing you slightly on the bed.
"You know, I am one lucky guy." Tito said as he continued to kiss you all over your body. "I'm so glad you're mine." He said as he ran his cold fingers over your body, causing goosebumps to rise, as he dragged them lower and lower, until he reached all the places you ached for his touch.
3. "I fucking love you."
sweet.
sexy.
made the moment better.
I want to marry this man.
8/10
Tito was trying to make dinner. It was his turn to cook for date night and now he was trying to prep dinner. Except that you sitting on the counter was more distracting than making dinner.
"Well don't you look so pretty sitting here." Tito said as he placed a kiss on your lips. You slightly pulling at his hair. Wrapping your legs around his waist.
"Well maybe we can do something about it." You told him in between a kiss, a smirk appearing on his face, knowing exactly what you meant. Him bringing you over to the couch and pulling off your panties, lifting up your dress to your waist, him pulling down his pants.
~~~
"I fucking love you." He mumbled into your neck as he kept thrusting into you. His hands on your hips. (bruises were definitely going to be evident the next day) You moaning his name into his ear as he picked up the pace, filling you up.
4. "Oh shit did I hurt you."
12/10
checking if I was alright.
unwell.
makes me feel ajdjfjcjcjsk all over.
Tito and the New York Islanders had lost. They could have easily one but didn't. So now here he was being a little bit rough with everything. Throwing his bag down and heading to the bedroom, you giving him a few minutes before you joined him.
"Hey baby. Want to talk about it or want to forget about it." You asked. It was something you always did. If he wanted to talk about it you sat next to him and let him talk about whatever he wanted but if he wanted to forget about it it usually resulted with making out and then him inside of you.
"Forget about it." He said as he placed a kiss on your lips, him taking off his shirt.
~~~
Him entering you and you soon readjusting being used to his size. Him going a bit faster than usual you trying to get used to the pace. Your eyes sort of watering as he filled you up all the way going faster and faster.
Both of you finishing soon after. "Shit did I hurt you?" He asked as he pulled out.
"No no I'm fine, you just went a bit faster than usual." You said.
"I'm sorry baby." He said as he placed a soft kiss on your lips, grabbing a cloth to clean you.
5. "god you're so pretty."
11/10
made me feel all warm and fuzzy.
once again I'd like to marry this man.
no you're so pretty.
You and Tito were at some hockey association gala for the Islanders. And honestly being in stuffy clothes surrounded by a bunch of people you didn't know wasn't your ideal Saturday night. Mat and his girlfriend sitting next to you guys busying themselves with small talk.
"Do you want to get out of here?" He asked you as he placed a hand on your thigh.
"And where would we go?" You said as you let out a laugh. It's not really like you guys could leave and anyone wouldn't notice.
"I have an idea." He said as he grabbed your hand and pulled you through the banquet hall. Him then pulling you into the bathroom.
"Oh so we're about to hook up in the banquet hall bathroom." You said as you looked over at your boyfriend.
"It's not like it's the first time we've done it." He said as he smiled and placed a kiss on your lips.
"Ok, lock the door." You said as you hopped on the counter.
"Where's the fun in that?" Tito looked at you with a smirk on his face, you giving him a look. "Fine, fine I'll lock it."
"god you're so pretty." He said as he placed soft kisses on your neck.
"Come here. We have at least ten minutes before someone realizes we're gone." You said as you unbuckled his belt, and you lifting your dress.
"We don't need these anymore huh." Tito said as he removed your panties and threw them behind him.
Him slowly entering you, making you let out a moan. Someone trying to open the door, as Tito picked up the pace. Kissing you so your moans wouldn't be as loud.
~~~
Both of you coming out of the bathroom fifteen minutes later trying to fix your hair and dress and Tito tried to fix his tie.
"Where were you guys?" Mat asked as you guys approached the table.
"Bathroom." Tito said.
"I was outside getting some fresh air." You replied back. Mat just looking at you guys not really believing you. You and Tito just smiling at each other knowing what you guys were actually did fifteen minutes ago.
.☆☆☆.
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