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#STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT IM FINE#tbb#the bad batch#tbb spoilers#the bad batch spoilers#the bad batch season 3#LULA IN THE BACK SEAT#f'ing perfect#ahhhhhh#the way she adjusts the goggles#like they are a lucky charm#HE TAUGHT HER TO FLY AND NOW SHES A PILOT#tbb omega#tbb tech
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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.
first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.
it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.
and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.
you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.
and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.
your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.
in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.
in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.
so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.
you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.
once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.
and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"
you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?
hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!
you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.
we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?
#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck#good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen#im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3#writeblr#the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this''#and like also#''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist#i was <3 punctured <3 during mine#and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion''#so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3#she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh#ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance#i'd crash on the table#like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it#and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop!#and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just#woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes#she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room#from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing#and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying#and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap#with this terrible memory#i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like#that was too many liters#and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home#i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after#that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty#you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it#while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED#and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.
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What if people started saying "I need to exercise more" or "I need to eat a bit healthier" instead of "I need to lose weight"
You can be healthy and fat
#and also#you dont need to be healthy all the time#some people will never be healthy#stop trying to be overly healthy if its at the cost of your happiness and mental health#you can eat junk food every once in a while and you dont need to feel bad about it#you can eat sweets#you can lie in bed all day if you need to just chill out and get some proper rest#you dont need to constantly be healthy and at the top of your game#stiff talk#delete later#maybe idk#this will probably stay up who knows#man it just hurts me when someone whos healthy and who looks good says “i need to lose weight”#like yea okay if thats what you wanna do go for it#but i think youre fine as you are#idk man im just rambling
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i think my favorite inaccurate (imo obvs) fluffybird... like fanon dynamic is the one where duck is very forward and red just shuts him down consistently. like thats so so funny to me i love that.
inaccurate to me bc despite eeeverything red is the only one in that couple making moves first (WHICH IS INSANE TO ME DONT GET ME WRONG) and hes also strangely shy so nothing is happening ever.
#like. i think duck doesnt say/do anything bc in his head it like. goes without saying. its implied its fine.#like how he was like youre my best friend :] ! we're close :]! and red guy was like NO WE ARE NOT?????#like i think he just assumes that the way he feels about people is reciprocated without saying anything#i think thats also why in friendship when yellow questions their friendship duck is like WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT OF COURSE WE'RE FRIENDS#in my head duck and red dont make moves for a billion years they just stare at each other like two gay girls at a bar#and just dont do anything#then one day reds like HEY. UM. IM GONNA GRAB UR HAND. and ducks like well??? go on then. whos stopping u.#BUT GOD THAT FANON DYNAMIC MAKES ME LAUGH SO HARDDD IT MAKES DUCK LOOK LIKE SUCH A LOSER AND IT CRACKS ME UP#my dhmis postings
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For @sansebastinae and @boisinnot, my fellow saint seb truthers :)
+ the usual
Yayyyy finished a drawing! Haha only took me...2 weeks. I kept going back and forth on whether I could finish it tonight, and I really wasn't going to. But then I looked at the unfinished version on a different screen and was like oh? Not too bad actually?? So I finished it :) First of all, ofc, here is the process. Kinda weird seeing it for smth like this, it makes me feel like I'm the painter in rennaisance au, not Mark dhjfkf
Ah I was gonna draw a silly renaissance au comic to accompany this(read: lighten the mood), but it's 5 am and I've still not really drafted it well, so! I'd like to finish it at some point bcs I wanna draw more chibi comics, but when I finish smth, I can't help but immediately want to post it, so part 2 will have to wait. I'll show you the outline though so you can at least imagine 😭
^ So many renaissance and beyond paintings of Saint Sebastian are always the most horny thing ever. Like pre/early rennaisance, yeah he was naked and all that, but they were pretty chaste, and uhhhhh suffering?? Well the newer paintings are suffering, but in a different way, if you know what I mean.
So I feel like Mark's the type to be overly pedantic about it, and refuses to make borderline porn of a saint, I mean, god forbid, Seb!!! But then he just. Does anyways. Because he can't control his lust for Seb even when drawing him half dead. I just imagine him holding the paintbrush in a death grip like "must not be horny. Must not draw him sexy. Must make him chaste." And then he ends up with the one seen above. Seb is all smug about it. "Wow you'd wanna fuck me even while I'm all bloody and dying? 🥺"
Mark: "oh I'll make you bloody, alright."
But god so funny to imagine Seb doing all these different slutty poses, like arching his back as much as possible, the cloth nearly falling off at all times, etc etc. And Mark finally lands on this pose bcs he hopes the suffering will outweigh the horny. It doesn't. Also Seb is genuinely serious once he actually gets into the pose, focus mode on. And honestly that's even worse for Mark, bcs it's so much more arousing to see Seb in his element, focused. Tbf I think Seb could be drinking water, and Mark would still find some way to sexualize it. Don't look at his sketches!! They're just filled with Seb doing all kinds of random activities.
Also! Here is the painting I referenced this off of, must give credit where credit is due ofc
The Dying St. Sebastian by François Fabre
Also this isn't really relevant in the context of this drawing specifically. But I looked thru a bunch of Saint Sebastian paintings while trying to find one I could reference, and I came across this middle ages one that actually looks so much like boy king seb 😭 I guess it really is meant to be!
St Sebastian between St Roch and St Peter by Pietro Perugino
Lmao but do you see the difference between early rennaisance and later work???
#i cannot control myself anymore i must draw dark things :)#past 3/4 drawings have had blood i think 😭😭 old habits returning#BUT THIS SAINTLY OKAY ITS HOLY ITS FINE#also 005. when i said id draw you a saint seb seb i meant it!!!#<- tho mostly you changed your username when i was already drawing saint seb 😭#but i was gonna dedicate it to you anyways :) so funny coincidence#i wasnt gonna put any lore in the read more cause i didnt think i had any#and then i did. as always.#if is say i have nothing to write just give me a min and i will sjdkfk#i dont draw nakedness im surprised this isnt too bad 😭😭#also im happy cause i stopped myself from stressing over it being too overly detailed#loose fabric my behated 😡😡 but then i realized. i dont have to kms over it so i didnt!#still looks pretty good :) but i mostly like his torso face and hair ahhhh#lol also ik saint seb fits older seb better but. i like twink seb okay 🫣 also its an au thing so#MAN I WISH I FINISHED THE COMIC ACCOMPANIMENT#but it just wasnt clicking and i ended up drawing this first instead#but yes humbly please take my seb offering#f1#formula 1#<- again absurd to tag this at this point but idc#sebastian vettel#sv5#catie.art.#martian#<- not inherently in the drawing itself BUT ITS THERE#tw blood#rennaisance muse au
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i love a/b/o steddie where they get started like so young that if it was someone i knew irl i'd have a panic attack. like,, mated right out of high school, baby pops out a year later, they've got like five kids by the time they're 25
thinking about an au where they were already together pre- start of s4 and steve goes through the whole thing like three months pregnant. like he's stressed about the baby and eddie and eddie's SUPER stressed about the baby and steve, like eddie's trying to get steve to sit this one out for the baby and steve has to yell at him to stop bc yeah, he's worried about losing their first child, but if he sat at home while everyone else dealt with the upside down and someone didn't come back??? he'd never be able to live with himself
and when the bats get eddie and steve tries to use the mating bond to share some of eddie's pain, help him hold on until they get to the hospital, eddie weakly tries to tell him not to, to think of the baby. and steve's just. not having it. and once eddie wakes up from his medically induced coma he's like :(( why'd you do that and steve is just. so mad. he says yeah, if i had lost the baby (he doesn't, she's fine) that would have been the most terrible pain i'd ever felt. but it would have been worse if i lost you. and eddie's like. oh. bc maybe part of him has always been thinking that steve's only stuck with him bc he's the father of their kid. but no, steve loves him.
so eddie's crying, and steve's crying, and then steve shows eddie the ultrasound they did during eddie's coma to check the baby hadn't been hurt by the week of stress and danger and pain-sharing, and it's the first time they've been able to actually see the shape of a baby in all the weird white noise of an ultrasound, and now they're both crying even harder
#also nancy is definitely the friend that's like. oh you're 19 and married and pregnant?? that's so.. good! 🙃 yay im sure this will be fine🙃#robin WAS that friend but she's spent too long in steddies proximity and has realised that if they don't work out theres no hope for anyone#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#stranger things#just. steve finally letting go of the last shreds of his upbringing and becoming 'white trash' and being so SO happy#also me 🤝 eddie: understanding that steve must be kept barefoot and pregnant at all times#everyone's like wow steve your alpha has a problem dude clearly can't keep it in his pants#steve has to be like no actually *I* have the problem#they're that couple you look at and you're like. they know about birth control right. like they know that exists#eddie tried to wear a condom once and steve was like i'd literally rather die#and then he was like im joking obviously we can slow down or stop with the kids if u want this is a partnership#eddie's like oh no i just thought YOU might want to karen chewed me out for not letting you rest. but if ur cool let's gooooo
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#i turn 27 tomorrow and i feel like my life is collapsing in around me#i officially made the decision to take the summer off. which i hate. which means i have to get a summer job#when ive only ever had jobs in academia so my resume looks insane if im applying to work in a bakery or whatever#im just so tired. everything makes me so tired and sad. i still dont kno what im gonna do#im glad my dad is here bc he gets it more than most ppl bc hes also dyslexic and like everyone assumes im fine bc ive got this far#but like at what cost? im doing a job where im set up to suffer. and for what? im doing something so niche and weird#all i can do is more academia. but what if i cant cut it? what if i would b better off getting a epa job or something where i can do my job#and then go home and stop thinking abt it. how do i apply the stupid bullshit i decided to study? i should have done Ecosystem restoration#or something. its just that my dream was to study weird things in weird places and now it feels like that dream is collapsing#which is devastating. im gonna try to come back in the fall and give it a go but like i dunno it feels so hopeless rn#im just so tired. i have no joy. i just want to lay on the floor#unrelated
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anybody remember the stephanie brown essay I was working on under a research grant fully last summer? yeah it’s not done yet it super needs to be done and I’ve been avoiding working on it for weeks. someone tell me to just do it already
#the problem is. actually there are several problems#1) I’ve been out of the Batman/dc comics phase for almost a year so I don’t care that much about the topic#2) I am fifteen pages in and have not touched it in months so I’ve completely lost my train of thought#3) I can’t just reread it because I hate first five pages or so and I know I need to change it but I was trying to finish before editing#so now my only solution is I need to open up a new doc and completely restructure the whole thing by splicing together the existing writing#so that I can figure out where the hell im going with this and make sure things fit together better#unfortunately that sounds fucking exhausting#but I told my mentor I would have an update for him by the end of the week and. well. it’s the end of the week#I have to present it in April. I have to write and submit an abstract in March#the school gave me $1500 for this stupid essay and if I don’t have anything to show for myself.#well. I don’t know they can’t take the money BACK but it’s not a good look#and also I would feel bad#I did the research!!! i interviewed comic writers even!!! I just haven’t finished WRITING IT DOWN#and I KNOOOOWW once I get started it’ll be fine once I’m going I’m going#but STARTING is hard because I feel like I have to finish it in one go which makes it so huge and daunting#I’m like. slamming my head into a wall. just write a couple sentences Jess something is better than nothing#just start it you don’t have to finish just START just MAKE the new DOC#I know!!!!! that is what my therapist would say!!!! Jess you’re trying to oneshot it bc of your dumb adhd brain!!!!#stop looking at it like that and making it scarier!!!#but even tho I know that logically I’m still like oh I should put away the dishes o should make bread#I should work on my six different art pieces I should do laundry i should play with the puppy I should go for a walk I sh
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some of you have lost the plot istg
#just say you don't care that a child is being used as a marketing tool like just admit you're fine with him being exploited#stop making insane scenarios to justify the unjustifiable#it's simple: he's been used his whole life and this is no different. he can't consent. he's not making money out of it because his family#doesn't care. he doesn't get another family because louis and the tomlinsons don't give a shit about this kid lol they never did#this isn't some disney show bffr#you wanna watch the doc fine go that's your money your time but don't try to pretend this is some fairytale when that child looks extremely#uncomfortable and out of place#y'all have seen him with his real family you know damn well how he acts around people he's comfortable with and it's not like that#so don't pretend louis is suddenly his dad because he saw him 5 times since someone threatened to expose his ass#what they're did with this kid is fucked up. period#sorry for the rant im just so fucking done with the excuses when we're talking about a 7 yr old CHILD who didn't ask for any of this#and y'all putting a grow ass man above that lmao couldn't be me
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People who make posts about important topics and do not make any paragraph breaks make me so mad like I WANT to read your fucking post I wanna SEE WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY. IF ONLY YOU DIDNT MAKE IT SO DIFFICULT. I CANNOT FOCUS AND READ THIS NOW. IM NOW NOT READING YOUR POST.
PARAGRAPH BREAKS ARE NOT THAT HARD OH MY GOD.
#like its just gonna give me a headache and its gonna make me frustrated because i just cannot read a big block of text#i struggle with long passages of text as it is so if its just made harder for no reason i stopped even trying#like im sorry but i dont have the energy to reread your post 4 times and constantly look for where tf i am in the text#not to mention its also hard to comprehend for me#english isnt my main language and if i see a big block of text with no breaks my brain will just not. get. it.#so no information is being processed#anyway oh my god people do you know what a paragraph even is.#if its a joke post? fine idc i dont need to read it#but if its a more serious post i WANT to read it#idk man#stiff talk#delete later#probably
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raiden being super handsy & comfortable w/ kung lao when they're high vs. hypersensitive and overly flustered kung lao who is trying soo hard to not be clingy towards raiden's touch
#sorry i csnt. stop thinking about them smoking weed and what kinds of shit theyd get into ....... its clogging my brain#raiden the next morning being like oh sorry if i acted weird when stoned lol#kung lao being like wdym man its chill im fine with it (internally scheming on how to make it happen again)#ANYWAYS. EURM.#boomiy#dont look at me
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You do not deserve ANY of the shit you're getting. You're a legend for putting up with all this
yea ur right i am a legend weaker men would have crumbled but im still here fighting fighting for what say it with me
gj’s boobs
#listen its what happens when u dont act fast and ppl start writing their own fanfic about u#ill be like im just a human why r u doing this to me and theyll be like DONT CARE FUCK U#I dont even know these people#like whatever insecurities yall got going on stop projecting them onto me!!!!!!!!!#ur go to for feeling better about urselves is hating on others and thats actually not a flex its just kinda sad#kinda pathetic even#but yall didnt hear it from me#like there is the crime to punishment ratio where id be like fine#if u hate me i welcome u to knock me around a little maybe get in my dms all annoying like#but a video to ur 180k followers#ridiculous#ur trying to send a brigade my way over fucking what#why r u acting like i personally laid off 500 artists#if u really gave af about artists i would not be ur target#so what is it really#this conversation would look a hell of a lot different if u gave af about artists
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i played that ni/tw games a couple yrs ago and could not relate/didn't really care or retain anything from it at all but lately that one thing about wondering if you're just another failure in a long line of failures. is. an
#talkys#i cant stop from looking around and wondering if it's genetic.#my dad might need money from me again for something outside of his control#and while he was telling us about it he said he feels fine bc he knows we (his kids) wont be like this#struggling to stay afloat at 70 years old.#as if 3 out of 4 of his children dont live with him#2 of them unemployed 1 not making much#1 of the 2 unemployed ones being a severe failure to launch disappointment#like. we are never getting out of here. im never going to make it#like genuinely. i have 0 idea what to do with my life and 0 motivation to do it anyway. i keep getting so scared#lately bc idk what happens next#and thats still not enough to get me off my ass....! i guess i deserve whatever happens to me#i didnt turn out like any of my friends. eager willing and motivated with plans they went for. i do not know why.#OH also adjacent to the genetic failure thing: me and my siblings are all different from our cousins#my mom and her sisters are the same. so are my dad and his siblings#all of my cousins are. normal. + they have jobs and families etc meanwhile me and my siblings are all single or unhappily married LMAO#and not very successful at all.#like i dont want kids but its still like. why are we the only different ones its so weird....!#and then within us im the weirdest most othered one too. it sucks. augh
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my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me
#“no need for follow up”#“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your#ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it#*doctor shrug emoji* “#“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol”#he barely even looked at my incision like#this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask#if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had#fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your#fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your#swagless ass!!!#anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my#abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of#gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up#for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how#hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know#how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy#am i crazy???#this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other#organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it#get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to#get medical treatment.#anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.”#bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you.#like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously.#but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess.#its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬
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Being a gore/horror artist & having a corpse phobia sucks because I have so many anatomy questions that I’ll never be able to sate because they are too specific for 3d models or diagrams to articulate. I’ll never be able to see the real deal, I’m just going to be forever guessing. Because even just the mental image of a funeral nearly induces my gag reflex. Let alone ever being able to actually attend a dissection class
Like for example…theoretically…if you were to take an arm and slice it fully in half…does skin bleed???? Cut cleanly through like that? And if so…how? And where? Like does it do it in specific sections, or in even droplets. Or is it just a seamless flow everywhere all at once. And what color is the inside of FRESH SKIN? I mean I’m assuming it’s not skin colored considering the rest of our insides are largely red- and my training model isn’t answering that because it’s a 3d model of an mri scan of a blood drained body that’s unnaturally colored
Like these are the things that keep me up at night because I will never know the answer to how that looks visually (and thus be able to draw it) due to me having the unfortunate ailment of owning a stomach
#gore warning?? I guess??#gore#gore warning#tw#trigger warning#I can barely look at mri scans#don’t get me started on that anatomy museum I am so mad I’ll ne ear be able to stomach visiting#AND YET FICTIONAL GORE DOES NOTHING TO ME#how tf does that even work#fictional horror is my favorite thing#I’ve gotten better with the mri stuff but I don’t think I’ll ever even be able to do something mild like attend a funeral#I recently found out about that real burnt corpse thing in hl2 and nearly upchuched at the mere idea of me seeing that texture IN THE PAST#and now im nauseous#I can’t stop it from happening#mentally I’m fine#physically my stomach is doing somersaults
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I just don't understand people who feel the need to leave negative comments on fics?? You don't like the characterisation? You don't like the way things are going? You're not a fan??
That's fine! That's absolutely fine!! We all have different tastes, I get that!!
But why post a comment about it though??
Why would you say this?????? What makes you think that's okay???????
#cetbwa#fanfic#obviously theyre not happy with the way the fic went and thats fine#im working hard on accepting that people arent always going to like what i create and thats fine!!#the worst of it is like it's not even a terrible comment????#people are allowed their opinions#BUT!!!! why post that???#and that kind of language too???? like jfc#i think thats what annoyed me the most out of it tbh#idk man ive had worse comments that are far more critical about my actual writing#and the MAJORITY of comments are positive and i love all of them i really do#but i think just the language of this one fucked me off the most#why did you use a slur?? what in the world makes you think thats okay??#made me so angry#anyway sorry I'll stop complaining now#im not looking for sympathy or w/e literally just complaining#the fucking audacity#if you dont like it you dont like it!!! thats fine!!!! but dont disparage my boy danny like that jfc#r slur
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