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I need to talk about wuthering heights hehehe... I can't stop thinking about it!!! I was shocked out of my body when Hindley dropped Hareton from the top of the stairs and then even worse Heathcliff saved him but then regretted it jdgszusjshssjjssjsjsjs and also poor Nelly, Hareton didn't remember her at all after she left :( Also I was initially feeling very sad about Linton cause of how Heathcliff was not really nice to him but then he was too selfish tbh. Do you think Edgar would have had Catherine run away with Nelly if he found that she was kidnapped and forcefully married to Linton? Also Joseph was sooooooo annoying I especially liked it when Catherine scared him in the start that yes I'm a witch. Like she is a legend. Her and Hareton sjdghsisusjsnshshsnsshzhzysh!!!! Throughout the book I was feeling so saaaaaad about Hareton like he didn't deserve any of what he faced!! And what's worse that he was intelligent enough to see how far behind he was others cause of education and for Catherine to be the one to tease him honestly broke my heart jxhdhshshsshsh Edgar was tooooo good!! And Hareton did I mention that I absolutely love him? He was probably so conflicted when everything was happening cause he liked Cathy and also we can see he had a sense of good and right cause he would defend her but also he thought good of Heathcliff so he couldn't really go against him (or am I being delusional here? We don't get his pov 😭) dheuwhshsshwjwjw I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS BOOK AHHH!!!! What adaptation should I watch? I have no idea. Heathcliff and Catherine 1 as characters were soooooooooo interesting. Isabella what a legend she is!! Attacking Heathcliff with a knife, ensuring he cannot use her to inflict pain on Edgar and then she ran away from him!!! I LOVED HER. Ok that's quite big of a rant 🙈🙈🙈
I TOTALLY GET WHAT YOU MEAN ABOUT HARETON, HE IS THE BEST! Poor boy was treated like dirt since the day he was born but I am SO HAPPY he got the ending he deserved. Even though Cathy 1 and Heathcliff are iconic, the second generation was my favorite. I adored both Catherine and Hareton and shipped them super hard ajddkdk. The way she taught him to read!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY HEART <333333333 and he tried to be better for her!!!!!!!! Despite everything and his cruel life, he tried his best to be worthy of her love aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. 🤎🤎🤎 Them breaking generational curse at the end by falling in love and (hopefully) leading a happy life!
(unrelated by why do I always think of Jess from Gilmore Girls when I think of Hareton, help)
Oh god, I get shivers every time I remember how Heathcliff forcefully married Catherin to Linton... He literally locked her up, like BRO. Heathcliff was devil for real, awful and horrible, but somehow I still can't bring myself to fully hate him. I think he's very fascinating as a character which is why he stays in your memory.
And I agree on Edgar, he was very sweet! <3 Isabella too, YEEES GIRL SHOW HIM TEETH <3
Btw, I imagine Joseph as Argus Filch from Harry Potter ajdjdksk.
"I can't stop thinking about this book" girl, same, because every time it rains and it's all gloomy and misty outside I start acting like I am Catherine myself. Oh, and about adaptation I think the most famous one (and the most beloved one) is the movie from 1992. I don't think I have ever seen any WH movie from start to finish now that I think of it which is sad cause I adore the book, so if you ever come across any version you think is cool, please let me know!
P. S. Now that you have read the book, listen to this and be as dramatic as possible while listening to it ;))
#thank you for fangirling with me !!!!#if you remember anything else about the book feel free to message me <3#wuthering heights
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ouurojgklfjdsflds i’m starting to get really negative abt my writingggg this is so saaaaaad
like i understand that one is supposed to NOT edit as they go, but i literally cannotttt stop myself idk what’s wrong with me this is so frustrating
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Okay I’m gonna go there, Solas vs Emet-Selch
Solas:
Ancient sorcerer who is all that remains of his civilization. We’re supposed to be sad about what his people were reduced to, but his civilization was hot garbage that ran on slavery and cults of personality.
Commits atrocities to restore the lost world. Except none of what he does can bring the dead back, and also, he’s not competent enough to keep his super-weapon from immediately falling into the hands of randos.
Has complicated feelings about the player character who he is lying to constantly. This doesn’t stop him from fucking around with a female elf.
Spends like six months living with some mortals, sees that they are good and worthy people, decides they all need to die anyway but gosh it makes him so so sadboy saaaaaad.
Emet-Selch:
Ancient sorcerer who is all that remains of his civilization. We are sad about this because his civilization was full of good-hearted people who tried their best to all live as equals and improve the world, even if they could be superior about other forms of life.
Commits atrocities to restore the lost world. Is successful every time. These atrocities would objectively work to bring back his loved ones, and in particular his fan fave life partner who also forms a bond with the player character.
Has complicated feelings about the player character because they are the reincarnation of possibly-his-ex, but is honest with the player character, and doesn’t pursue anything.
Spends twelve thousand years living mortal lives and trying to guide them to be as good as they can be. Destroys worlds for his goals, but accepts what he’s become and cries no tears. When he finds good and worthy mortals to carry on his people’s legacy, he arranges for them to murder him in an elaborate suicide-by-cop.
I’ve even seen on twitter that the DA head writers plays FFXIV. Like. Where the fuck does Dragon Age go with this.
#MMORPG hell#Solas-critical#Dragon age dreadwolf#Emet-Selch tag does not deserve this shitty rant#FFXIV team out there stealing the DA team’s lunch money
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In the promo pics it looks like Nadia is definitely getting more of an edge - regaining control but harsher appearance (is wedding ring still on?). By contrast, Arman and Thony look so natural together (even if a bit worried) and much more authentic - great bike pic in their matching black jackets! I hope this reflects Arman's journey - everything stripped away but finding his true self with Thony by his side, wherever that goes. Curious to see if ep title Spousal Privilege has anything to do with Nadia & Arman in part. Once Fi and kids leave, I wonder where Thony will stay if in danger?!
Haaaa I love how you interpreted the pics 🤧 100% agree with you!
Putting the rest under the cut, because of speculating/spoilers on 2.07 - 2.08 and 2.09
Warning: I mostly speculate here, but I do address some scenes that will happen in 2.09 - it can be heavily spoilery, so please tread carefully if you don't want any of that.
It definitely looks like it 👀 this might be the episode where we'll get to see Nadia torn between Arman and Robert - she'll still stay loyal to Arman though but it'll be interesting to watch anyways!
Concerning JD taking Fiona and the kids away, that won't last long - Luca is back (and sick..) at Fiona's house in ep9 - which is probably the reason why they come back (despite the possible danger).
Here is a BTS pic from ep8 - I don't think I posted this one before 🤔 it now makes sense and is most likely JD's house/apartment
I see what you're getting at Anon 😅 and I would definitely love it!
Whatever happens, I'm sure Arman will keep a close eye on her to make sure that she's safe, and I'm sure we'll get stunning scenes - but I don't know if she's really in immediate danger.
If Kamdar is sending someone (or whatever may happen in ep7 - I'm just speculating here because of the promo for 2.07) to Fi's house - I guess it's more as a way to "display his power/send a warning/show how easily he could have killed Thony's entire family" if she ever betrays him...
Maya will probably take the fall for the FBI Raid (I could really see Kamdar torturing and then killing her in front of Arman oooorrr forcing Arman to kill her himself to ''prove'' that he's not involved with her/the FBI - imagine Garrett's reaction once he finds out..this probably won't happen but that's how my twisted mind works when I see those promo pics for 2.07 🙈) ⬇️
Robert will still be suspicious but I'm sure they'll come up with a plan that will make them valuable to him - so their lives shouldn't be directly threatened. They're probably just trying to protect anyone that could be used as leverage against them 🤷🏻♀️
But that's all just my tired brain speculating, so just ignore my rambling! 😅
Edited to add: I JUST REMEMBERED THAT SHE HAS NO CAR IN EP 8!! Fiona seems to be taking the van - so she's stuck with Arman (and his motorcycle) 🤧🥺🤧
(Sin Cara could also start to become an issue in ep8 so that adds another problem if they have to slow down with the drugs, unless they wait for ep9 (the attack on Bosco and his gang) to really address that story and having to find another access to ''pharmaceuticals'' ➡️ Thony going to Manila etc etc 👀)
Also...I'll try to post what I have on episode 10 and 11 tomorrow, but it's going to be hell to try and not say too much. Just like I refused to blatantly reveal Marco's death before the premiere aired, I'll once again avoid revealing any major plot point I stumbled upon - it will just ruin the surprise for you all. Trust me, I once again regret having seen some things, I just want to scream and cry everytime I think about it because we are NOT ready. I may guide you to your own speculation and speculate on BTS pics, which is fair game - but I'll stop there 😉
They just started filming episode 12 yesterday - I know we still have 6 episodes but I'm already saaaaaad 🤧
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saw a post “being always available will make you lose your value” and I think that’s the saddest thing I’ve ever read. Like, what about those people who just loves being available bc they know how it feels to be someone who doesn’t have anyone to go to when they’re in a bind???? MY GOD, PEOPLE!!! Why would you even stop being available for people when people need youuuu??? :((( so so so so saaaaaad. If only you guys know how that feels. 🤣🤣 Oh you’ll never understand!!
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can we have some samuyn (manager!yn) heartwarming moments? i don’t think we asked enough for their moments as best friends and it makes me saaaaaad !! i wanna see more of them T_T i quite liked their friendship a lot and was hoping to get more glimpse of their platonic love huhu
Y'know what, I've been reading Loving Yamada at lvl 9999, and the domesticity of it all just gave me so much feels. And also, it kinda fueled me to think of simple things that I find endearing. So...here ya go:
the first time the two did their late night eating? believe it or not, it was bff!reader's idea. she couldn't sleep, was probably induced by her period - as hormonal balance can cause insomnia, and so she texted osamu if he was up, he was. y'know what, they both had the idea to eat out, but bff!reader was a bit conflicted because there was a law about minors being out so late, but osamu knew the routes and the nearest convenience store, which is their frequent stop, is pretty much lenient and okay with letting them in.
as both of them cook, osamu is the one who constantly approaches bff!reader for recipes to cook - because she experiments quiet a lot. osamu is good at japanese dishes (surprise, suprise), whilst reader is good at japanese and her native dishes (again, whichever race, you, the reader, are :D).
post-incident, when osamu would have lunch with reader, she'd always make extras so she can give them to osamu. there are times where she can't finish her food, though. despite being a big eater, osamu would reprimand her to eat more.
at times, these two bffs would go grocery shopping together (especially if it was bff!reader's turn to cook dinner).
osamu is bff!reader's sort of assistant when she needs to carry heavy things around - like the ice box filled with drinks, practice bibs, etc. atsumu quickly filled in right after realizing the 'atonement' chapter.
these two have their dorky moments, especially with some commercial jingles that get easily stuck in bff!reader's head that she'd unconsciously sing it. osamu would make fun of her for it. at first, she'd be annoyed, but would laugh along after.
time to time, osamu would sing the latest jingle that bff!reader got in her head, and the two would break out laughing like idiots.
when the two went their separate ways for univeristy, osamu was extremely anxious and worried for his bff. although knowing that she's taking steps to heal emotionally, he's unsettled by the fact that he can't be physically there for her.
bff!reader would assure him though that she's fine.
bff!reader is the only person osamu trusted with about his first love. she's also the first to know about his plans to court her, first to meet her, and the first to hear that they had unprotected sex for the first time (he got an earful from her, after finding out they didn't use a condom lololol).
over time, osamu became like a protective brother over bff!reader. and rightfully, so!
whenever she comes home for the holidays, their little tradition of eating out late at night comes back. the store owner's still there and laughs at his little regulars all grown up now, jokingly telling them about curfew.
when osamu opened his first branch, best believe that bff!reader took a leave from work and traveled all the way to kobe. with rintarou with her, of course. when talked into expansion, the first place osamu opened was in hiroshima, where his best friend was. then osaka, for his brother.
time to time, osamu would check on bff!reader's family, especially uncle, who had a bad accident that permanently paralyzed his lower half of his body.
that's all i gots ;w; there's some snippets of their friendship in the drabbles and the smaus if that helps.
aside from being my dream man irl, osamu is the kind of best friend i'd love to have irl ;w;
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comic writers having other supers make jabs at bruce for employing child soldiers or whatever the fuck is ofc deeply funny but also deeply sad to me bc ig in a way it implies that no one knows most of bruce’s sidekicks pushed their way into the business despite him generally not being sold on the idea and only relenting bc if they were working with him then he could at least try to watch over them. and somehow he lets all of these people make these jabs at him despite no one knowing the truth of the matter which is that watching over one sidekick somehow turned into a job of watching over several and that’s not something he can handle as a man alone but also no one will listen to him if he tries to protect them from harm’s way bc they’re as intent to pursue justice at their own peril as he is. like he really just takes all of this criticism from everyone and says nothing in return he just lets them all think the worst of him AND when you factor in the fact that jason was the one sidekick whom he willingly brought into the game first only for it to lead to his death then the fact that he takes the jabs just becomes so much more depressing like damn he is rly shouldering a lot. bruce wayne my poor meow meow my sad silly rabbit i’m gonna get you outta there i swear
#bruce wayne#dc#mine:meta#it’s so SAAAAAAD. my heart’s cracking in two#he gets so much shit from people and for what. cries#also note this is Not in reference to comics that paint him as being abusive obv#just like. his general attitude of desperately telling his sidekicks to stop bc he doesn’t know how to save them all and that’s terrifying!
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#I knew actually finishing voya.ger would be sad.#not even there yet but they said goobye to ne.elix and now Im so saaaaaad.#have the urge to stop watching again lol
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Enraged fear
Bakugo x reader
TW: Nightmare, mention of death
Dorms where usually quiet at night like any normal place. It was peaceful and still everywhere. Bakugo’s room was in a far corner of the dorms on the third floor. While his normal bed time was 8:00 he was wide awake in a heavy cold sweat.
His heaving cheat and pounding heart did not help that he was trying to stop himself from using his sweat to blow up his dorm. His mine was racing trying to get back to reality.
‘It was a dream’ ‘just a stupid ass dream’
Right?
The sudden realization made him jump out of bed. He ran through the halls like there was no tomorrow. He was sure he was wrong. But what if he wasn’t, what if you where gone. He had to check.
Your dorm was on the second floor. The trip felt like an eternity when it was really only 5 minutes at his speed. When he got to your dorm he took a deep breath and opened the door slowly. You had given him a key that he lucky picked up on his way out.
He opened the door and whispered your name in a hoarse broken sob, When he walked in your sheets where all tangled as if they had not been made in a long time. Was he right? Where you gone and he had forgotten? Was he to late? He fell to the ground and let out a few soft sobs.
“Katsuki” a soft tired voice said. His head shot up and looked at the door way. There you where in a night shirt and short shorts. Apparently you where thirsty and left your room before he came in.
“Y-your alive” he said hoarsely as he stumbled up and crushed you in a hug. His sobs filled the room as he cried into your hair. You where still processing a little what was happening. Alive? Of course you where ali- he had a nightmare. That hit you slower that you thought.
You rubbed his back and combed his hair in an attempt to calm his uncontrollable sobs. “I-idiot” he chocks out. You look up at him. His red glossy eyes where looking right at you. “Y-you fucking scared me, so much” he breathed out that last part.
You felt so guilty. His broken voice and his terrified eyes could break any soul into pieces. “It’s ok katsuki, I’m ok” you cupped his cheeks and lightly kissed his lips. When you pulled away you said “come, stay hear tonight” you lead him to the bed and let him lay down.
You then laid down and let him snuggle into your neck. “Do you want to talk about it”. He thought for a moment, does he want to burden you. He finally after a minute nods and starts to explain.
“We where in a building and there was a villain, I used my explosions to fight but…. But you where there and the blasts where so loud that they deafened you. When I went to get you the ceiling caved in. And all I could do was watch” he broke down at the end in small soft sobs. You held him close, careful that if you let go or held him to tight he would fall apart in your arms.
After he calmed down a bit you began to speak. “Bakugo katsuki, you are one of the smartest people I know, I know that you would never let something like that ever happen, you are strong, capable, and amazing. And I know you would never hurt me on purpose”
Your words made him wanna cry again. But he swallowed the tears and just muttered a small “thank you dumbass, you praising makes me feel better” he says. You giggle a bit and start to pet him. “Good night, katsuki” you said.
“Good night, my firework”
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
THAT WAS SO SAAAAAAD😩😩😩🥺😭
Thank you all for being patient
I might Wright this again but with different characters
TELL ME THE ONES YOU MIGHT WANNA SEE
BBYYYYYEEE
#bakugou katsuki#mha katsuki#bakugou fluff#mha bakugou#bakugou x y/n#katsuki x y/n#katsuki x you#bakugou x reader
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#5: The One With Astruc's Self-Insert
In my introductory post, I said the main inspiration for this blog was @hypocrisyofandrewdobson. For those who don't know, Andrew Dobson is an infamous webcomic artist known for drawing webcomics that tend to demonize people he's come across in public or people who disagree with him online (either critical of his art or his political views), while portraying himself as the victim or wise man calling them out on their differing beliefs.
If you want to learn more about this guy who I consider to be far worse than Astruc, check out the blog in question. And no, I don't know why he draws himself as a blue bear.
Why am I talking about this? It's one thing for some schmuck on the internet to use his work to respond to criticism, but the creator of a popular animated series dedicating an entire episode to attacking his critics and trying to get others to feel bad for him is another story.
The second episode of Miraculous Ladybug's third season, “Animaestro” served as a wake-up call for fans (myself included) to make them realize how immature Astruc could be. The plot centers around the premiere of a movie about Ladybug and Cat Noir directed by Thomas Astruc, who voices himself in the original French dub.
And this isn't just a brief cameo like what Stan Lee did in the MCU. Astruc is the Akumatized person this episode, so there's naturally a lot of focus on him. Throughout the first half of the episode, Astruc portrays himself as this timid man who nobody recognizes or respects, like this idiot who doesn't know what animation is.
Doorman: This is a private event, sir.
Astruc: Huh? Excuse me? I'm Thomas Astruc, the movie director.
Doorman: You filmed Cat Noir and Ladybug? What are they like in real life?
Astruc: Er, it's an animated movie. It's all cartoon characters. We don't actually film anyone. See, there's this whole team that draw the chara—
Doorman: Whatever. Who would want to see Ladybug and Cat Noir as cartoon characters?
Get it? Wasn't that meta joke hilarious? This is how much I was laughing:
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And Astruc continues to get about as much respect as Rodney Dangerfield when he interacts with other characters like Jagged Stone and Chloe.
Jagged Stone: Ladybug is one of my best buds! I can't wait to see her movie!
Astruc: Well I—I'm the director, so actually it's more my movie, so to speak.
Jagged Stone: Oh, so you're the one who created the story?
Astruc: Well, technically the screen writers wrote the story, inspired by Ladybug's exploits.
Jagged Stone: Oh, okay. So you did all the drawings?
Thomas: No, no. The animators do all the drawings.
Jagged Stone: So what do you do then?
(Later on...)
Chloe: So you're the one responsible for this movie?
Astruc: Yes, yes! Exactly! That's me!
Chloe: Then you were the one who left Queen Bee out of the trailer. You're lame, utterly lame.
I can't believe Astruc had a scene where he interacted with Chloe and didn't insult her at all.
The episode is determined to make the audience feel bad for Astruc. Nobody respects him and what he does. Isn't that saaaaaad? Nobody cares about animated film directors like Walt Disney or Tex Avery anyway. Not even these stupid children understand how hard Astruc works.
Several Children: Ladybug! Where's Ladybug?
Astruc: Hey there, kids!
Teacher: Ladybug isn't here children. We came here to meet the director of the movie.
Children: (frowning in disappointment) Aww.
(Astruc looks visibly disappointed.)
Way to insult your primary demographic, Astruc. I thought you said kids have a better understanding of these stories when people criticized the writing of a certain episode (It's that scene in “Puppeteer 2” if you're curious/don't value your sanity).
It's almost like you're using that as an excuse to half-ass your work while still getting to claim this show is so groundbreaking.
In case you can't tell, “Animaestro” is one of those episodes. The ones where the showrunners decide to dedicate an entire episode to attacking critics of the show in a blunt fashion. Whenever a show addresses criticism, they either create an obvious strawman character to parrot the opinions of fans who don't like their work, or have someone defend the show and insult the critics directly.
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The problem isn't that they're ignoring criticism. It's their show, and they aren't obligated to listen to critics or fans who don't like the direction the show is taking. On the other hand, they aren't obligated to fight back like this and treat their audience like crap. Any show that does something like the three clips I showed you usually comes off as petty and immature because they dedicate so much time to insulting the critics.
Even during the Akuma fight, Astruc has to call out Ladybug for having problems with his movie in-universe, obviously representing critics of the show Astruc claims have no right to criticize the show while it's still airing.
Ladybug: What's with that trailer too? I am not scared of cats, at all.
Astruc/Animaestro: You haven't even seen the movie and you're already slamming it?
Cat Noir: He does have a point, you know.
Ladybug: I wasn't slamming it. It's called constructive criticism!
Yeah, how dare Ladybug be angry that this movie is portraying her as a powerless coward dependent on Cat Noir as opposed to a confident and brave superhero. She just doesn't understand the genius of Thomas Astruc!
And of course the character Astruc claims is “perfect” is the one to take his side.
And that's another problem with this episode, the metatextual references. Before he gets akumatized, Astuc says he spent three years of his life working on his movie. I get that time in this show is weird (we somehow had episodes taking place on the first day of school, Christmas, Valentine's Day, and the first day of Summer), but how did Astruc's self-insert work on a movie based on a superhero who has only been active for a year? Meta-wise, it's an obvious reference to the scorn Astruc has gotten from fans after working so hard on his show, but the only people who would get that reference are the ones who are aware of Astruc's reputation online.
Self-Insert aside, I actually think the titular Animaestro is one of the more visually impressive Akumas featured on the show. Animaestro takes on several forms based off several different forms and eras of animation, like flash, anime, rubber hose, and they all stand out. Granted, some of them are obvious parodies of other characters like Goku or Sailor Moon, but the actual Akuma fight is fun to watch. According to the Mexican Miraculous Ladybug Twitter account, this episode took two and a half years to create, and it shows. It's too bad the story behind it is completely insufferable, almost like the cartoon equidistant to Pixels.
But then comes the part that honestly makes the episode worth it, mainly for how unintentionally hilarious it is. Do you want to know what Animaestro's weakness is? Do you really want to know?
Animaestro is physically incapable of moving unless someone is watching him. I am not making this up.
Ladybug and Cat Noir literally defeat Animaestro by getting everyone to stop paying attention to him.
I could make so many jokes with this, but I can guarantee you're already thinking of something just as good, if not better, than whatever I write.
And there's the end where Astruc gives Marinette his ticket to the movie, which prompts Marinette to kiss up to him for no real reason.
Astruc: Sorry, I guess you don't know who I am either.
Marinette: Of course do. You're Thomas Astruc, the movie director!
Astruc: She recognized me. Somebody actually recognized me!
Nothing happened to make her change her opinion on the Ladybug movie, she didn't really say anything to him earlier in the episode that connects to this exchange, and outside of a few lines Animaestro said, she doesn't even know why he got akumatized (even though ironically she and Chloe accidentally contributed to it because of the awful subplot involving Kagami I talked about last time). If anything, it comes off less like she actually appreciates Astruc's work, and more like she's stroking his ego just to keep him from getting akumatized again.
So yeah, this episode is awful, and the fact that it came out right after the controversial “Chameleon” only proved to show what kind of direction the show was taking this season.
But honestly, even if Astruc still wanted to make about how he doesn't get enough respect the episode could have potentially. All he had to do was make a simple change: Instead of making it about validation for Astruc as a creator, make it about validation for animation in general.
It's a common misconception that animation is only used for shows and movies aimed at children, so the episode could reflect it. Instead of the huge turnout where several celebrities appear at the premiere, instead, the turnout could be a lot smaller, with the media dismissing it as some stupid kiddie flick. Instead of getting akumatized because he gets humiliated in public/getting no respect from anyone else, Astruc gets akumatized because he sees the audience didn't go wild for the movie after the premiere. All he can hear them say is that it's just “kids stuff”.
So when Astruc is Animaestro, he goes on about how important animation is. How it's helped produce propaganda since World War II. How it helped improve special effects in big blockbusters. How the medium is used to create movies that simply can't be filmed on a physical set.
After defeating Animaestro, Ladybug shows up to talk to him. She had seen the movie earlier, and actually enjoyed it. She had a few problems with the story, but they were just minor nitpicks and inaccuracies Astruc wouldn't know about, and she was blown away by the animation. She tells Astruc not to be deterred by his critics, and continue to do what he does. As a designer in her civilian life, Ladybug knows the joy creating brings her, and both she and Astruc want to spread that joy through their work.
Back at the premiere, Astruc thinks about what Ladybug said to him when he sees some kids reenacting a scene from the movie. Astruc walks over to them and asks what they thought of the movie. They said they loved it and how energetic it was. When he tells them he is the director, the kids' faces light up and they say they want to do what he does when they grow up, bringing a smile to Astruc's face.
Isn't that a much more humble approach instead of what we got? It would have helped Astruc come across as more sympathetic, especially with animation fans. But instead, we got an entire episode of Astruc whining about how misunderstood he is.
And you know the footage used for the movie at the beginning? Remember that, because I have a huge rant about it saved for a later post.
For now, here’s an example of a creator appearing in his work done right.
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#immaturity of thomas astruc#thomas astruc#thomas astruc salt#miraculous ladybug#miraculous ladybug salt#animaestro#marinette dupain cheng#ladybug#adrien agreste#cat noir#chat noir#jagged stone#chloe bourgeois#queen bee#queen b#star trek: the next generation#the simpsons#harley quinn#teen titans go#thundercats roar#thundercats#spider-man#stan lee
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Love and Redemption, eps 31-40 (painful thoughts lol)
I love these posters, they’re beautiful.
Well, I officially hate everyone who likes to claim they're such good guys. Because in this drama, chances are, if you have to say it over and over again or you have justify yourself in the name of the greater good, you're actually full of shit. I feel like an overdramatic after watching these last ten eps, because before I clearly didn't know how much more bad things could get and I still haven't seen the worst, but I made such a fuss and now I can't even be angry lol I'm just so worn out, so tired and want my happy ending now. Yep, this is totally a fun drama to watch!
Anyway, no matter how bad things ended after these ten eps, I feel like this has been the most rock solid the relationship between the OTP has been. And with such good moments, and I don’t mean hot and heavy makeouts, I’m talking about trust and loyalty. I just wish Sifeng would’ve told Xuanji the truth about him being a golden bird demon, that way she would’ve never doubted him or be in pain because of it. And it was so heartbreaking to see that moment. All went to hell, people were dying and fighting, their parents (in retrospective it was obvious that the sect leader from Lize was Sifeng’s father but wtf who puts a lover’s curse on their own child? especially if you have been through it?) telling them the other never cared for her/him and they were just there, in the middle of the battle with tears in their eyes. So saaaaaad.
I loved that Dijun heard this bit! Of course that only makes him angrier and super jealous, but I love to see it gets to him, it’s a little win.
It was obvious the drama was going to go the “his father killed her mother therefore they cannot be together” route *facepalm* Of course! Because the world and the 3 realms are against them! His father didn’t really do it, as we found out later but that was enough to shock Xuanji for a good while. She still trusted him, but she was wary because Sifeng lied to her. I get it, but at the same time, Xuajin dear, can’t you see this is exactly what he feared? There was a reason he didn’t tell you.
I feel like I’m a step closer to finding out how Sifeng and Xuanji came to know each other when she was still a God and why he followed her to the mortal realm and had to get through 9 lifetimes together. Didn’t fanfic writer from heaven told Tengshe that, when Dijun married another woman (and btw isn’t he still married? the heck?), God of War went away and her only company were some golden birds? Am I reading too much into it? But, isn’t that weird? That was after the big war with the demon realm, where she defeated the Star of Mosha... so is Sifeng really him? I’m super confused.
HAHAHAHAHAHA The audacity from this man knows no limits. I couldn't believe he dared to say something to Tengshe when he has been sticking his nose into Xuanji's mortal life for years! I HATE HIM more than the bad guys. To me, he’s the number one enemy and I fear my hate for him will only grow more. I want to see him fall, real bad and real hard, from glory. I want him to suffer and to be punished. I don't care by whom or by what (but can I suggest OTP for the job?) I just need for him to end on a really really bad note.
Also, I love Tenshe. That episode where he met OTP, was gold, from beginning to end. I laughed so hard and I’m documenting here that it was ep 32, so that I can always go back and watch it when the story gets too angsty or sad. It was amazing and it had so much smiling/amused Sifeng, what else can you ask for? Also, Tengshe became a powerful ally and moved forward the plot: he helped rescue Linglong (more on that later), he told OTP what he knew abut God of War/Dijun “love” story, which left Sifeng thinking (and I’m sure will come into play later), he had the softest interaction with Linglong when everybody else refused to tell her where was Minyan. And he protected Xuanji so many times, despite saying he wouldn’t do it. He’s the best, he loves food and notices important things when there’s drama.
Demon fox and Merman doctor continue to rank high on my list of favorite characters as well. It’s the mortals from the “good” sects the ones I’m having issues with. And Xuanji’s father. For a moment, when he gave his blessing to OTP I thought I could forgive him for torturing Sifeng, but not anymore.
My sweet badass Linglong finally got rescued, but after 15 eps of being kidnapped, the weird thing would’ve been that she returned as if nothing had happened. I felt bad for the flower demon that helped Minyan and traitor friend from Lize, because she thought creepy bad guy actually had feelings for her and in the end, she got killed. It was terrible that Linglong remembered everything that happened when she was captive, but of course, this drama doesn’t spare anyone. I thought she wouldn’t! My poor girl was so traumatized, felt so guilty and was so depressed that she tried to kill herself but thank God Minyan stopped her. Oh, Minyan, okay, okay, I apologize to you, I misjudged you. You’re not a favorite yet but I like you and I’m so glad my Linglong has someone like you by her side. Just give Sifeng a chance (I’m not asking that of Linglong bc my girl has been through enough, I understand her).
*deep sigh*
Now, the biggest problem. I have raised my eyebrows so high at all the people from the sects they almost reached my hairline bc, from what I've seen, Xuanji is way more unhinged and dangerous when she is in God mode than my dear Sifeng, a demon, has ever been (till now I've never seen him with as much more than an distant and cold attitude let alone really angry), he is always in control of his emotions and a big part of that is thanks to the fact that he keeps his mind clear and is able think with reason and logic something everybody from the sects lacks. So why are all so angry and scared of Sifeng when they should be fearing Xuanji?
I'm not saying "lock her in the dungeons without food" they did it with Sifeng though but maybe like, I don't know, get some magical therapy to see through her head, advise her to meditate or something. As much as I love that girl, she's a ticking bomb and I've seen her about to kill her friends and the people she loves a few times now, because she doesn't recognize them in that state and Dijun loves to delulu himself into thinking he knows what’s best for her ugh. Why does no one find that scarier than a bunch of demons who disguised themselves through centuries just to avoid being killed and have been lying on the low trying to keep peace with the other sects? Oh, I know, because you're all a bunch of prejudiced racists assholes.
Tbh I kinda want Sifeng to go bad. I don’t think he has it him but I’m just so tired of him always being so good... what for? Rise, demon Sifeng! Be angry!
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Please enjoy part 2 my commentary of Outer Banks (you can find part 1 here)! Disclaimer: I started this show because I wanted to see all the hype was; I won't lie, I thought it was dumb and cliche throughout most of it. However, since I've finished I can safely say that I NEED A SECOND SEASON BC HOLY FUCK BRO. Don't come at me for MY OPINIONS, & also, most of what I say is in the spur of the moment. If you wanna come talk to me about the show I will GLADLY DO SO.
Ep. 6
• I don't trust Ward, jot that down
• John B is gonna be blinded
• FUCK OFF WARD YOU'RE NOT SLICK
• I WANNA GO AAAAWWWWF
• But now John B is actually on the property so that might be beneficial?
• Lana said fuck the feds and I did too
• BARRY BETTER BEAT RAFE'S ASS
• It's what he deserves :)
• THE CURTAIN JUST MOVED AND KIE SAW IT
• FUCK YEAH KIE SLAP HIS ASS
• Did he just
• He just slapped her back
• MOSQUITOS MEAN WATER
• YUPPPP THERE WE GO POPE KNOWS
• This is deadass the goonies
• "You love the idea of me" YESSSSS SARAH
• YES WARD CHOKE HIS BITCHASS OUT
• "WHERE'S THE BEACH!?"
• It's actually not okay but okay
• Yes he DID say that
• Desgusten
• RAFE IS GONNA STEAL MONEY FROM HIS DAD AND JOHN B IS GONNA BE BLAMED
• AHAHAHAHAH CAUGHT EM
• I love Pope sm
• Adina is that bitch, man
• Barry's gonna get his ass beat by Ward
• I knew it
• THERE'S WARD'S SHORT FUSE
• RAFE YOUR DADDY IS A PSYCHO
• KARMA, BABY, KARMA
• They're gonna trap Sarah and Kie on the boat?
• That's a got damn STING
• Why are they holding the blunt like a cigarette?
• What a shitty fucking person you are, Sarah. That's fucked up.
• SHE CALLED THE COPS I'M CACKLING
• They're gonna get caught by the scary lady
• "Weed? I could go for some weed" same, JJ
• JJ and Pope being assholes about John B and Sarah is my aesthetic
• NO NO NO WHY HER EYES LOOK LIKE THAT
• She's blind, duh
• Gross gross gross
• He's gonna catch something
• Wait does Corona virus exist in the OBX universe?
• "Any dead bodies?" Does the jaw bone he found count?
• That's shit he's covered in shit THAT'S GOLD THAT'S FUCKING GOLD
• JANIE'S GOT A GUN
• This is so cute but I know it's gonna blow up in their faces
Ep. 7
• I hate Ward he's such a sneaky bastard
• He's gonna take him out to sea and MURDER HIM
• or at least, like, warn him
• HE'S SUCH A GOOD LIAR
• Our boy Barry, he's gonna stir some shit up
• I knew it, pretending to be a cop tho?
• John B is B'ing dumb again
• Maybe not
• JJ NOOO
• CRAIN ESTATE IS FOR SALE
• AND WARD IS GONNA BUY IT
• JJ just wants his dad's approval
• THAT'S FOR HIS RESTITUTION
• How did ik this was gonna happen
• I hate his dad
• ahhhhh I WANNA HUG HIIIIIM
• Sarah do be bailin
• She said FUCK VULNERABILITY and to that I say SAME
• Those candles are gonna cause a fire. Old church? The Outsiders vibes
• Did they not just say they were gonna wait? And then immediately fuck? Okay.
• He spent his restitution money. He did exactly what he fought his dad about.
• He needs a hug so bad
• Thank you for hugging him Kie
• GUESS WHO'S CRYING
• ME IT'S ME
• Mr. Cameron, sir, you are operating a motor vehicle whilst drinking. You're providing a minor with alcohol. You should not be the Grand Knight of Rhododendron!!!
• Ward is an eavesdropping little shitfuck
• Blah blah blah all I'm hearing is a rich man trying to get the gold
• "Equitable split" sir you Didn't Find The Gold therefore You Do Not Get A Cut
• FINALLY JOHN B IS BEING SMART
• WARD JUST SNITCHED ON HIMSELF
• WARD KNOWS ABOUT THE DISAPPEARANCE
• Well, son, the sheriff already kinda knows
• What's he gonna do
• THE GAFFING HOOK
Ep. 8
• Ward is literally psycho so that's fun
• WHAT IS THIS SHOW
• HE STOPPED THE HOOK WITH HIS CAST I'M DEEEAAAD
• This turned into Parasite all of a sudden
• And this right here, folks, is called anxiety
• I love GTA
• Ward is actually psychotic
• "Ward you just got involved" just like his daughter did
• Fuck HE KILLED HIM FUCK YOU WARD
• AND HE DIDN'T CALL ANYONE WHAT A CUUUUNT I'M SO MAD
• BIG JOHN IS A LEGEND
• Ow my heart 🥺
• Ward is a big fat liar!!!!!!
• Oh my god JOHN B GONE CRAZY
• Sarah really switched up like that, huh? Shady bitch
• Where's DCS throughout all of this?
• He's doin a lil memorial I'M SAAAAD
• Pope deserves better!!!
• The gold is gone, just watch
• YUP I KNEW IT
• FUCK YOU WARD
• I feel so bad for Pope's dad bc he's had to work hard too, man
• Going to the Bahamas?????????
• Fuck Rafe
• BLAH BLAH BLAH NO ONE LIKES YOUUUU
• Pope whhhyyyy are you telling these PEOPLE ABOUT THE GOLD
• Oh shiiiit Susan knows about OTHER dirty cops
• I hope the plane crashes :)
• WARD IS A PIECE OF SHIIIIIIT
• SUE YEEEES
• John B's nod should not have been sexy
• RAFE YOU SONOFABITCH
• LIKE FATHER LIKE SON!!!!!!!
Ep. 9
• WARD. IS. A. PSYCHO.
• HOW IRONIC THAT RAFE'S TRUCK HAS A BLUE LIVES MATTER FLAG ON THE BACK WINDOW RHSJDJDBDNDH
• Pope is finally letting it out and I'M SO GLAD FOR HIM
• I shouldn't be laughing about Shoupe complaining about the regulator
• Ward really is a psycho
• FUCK THE POLICE
• All teenagers want is their parents' approval and that makes me saaaaaad
• Why do I wanna hug Rafe rn
• HE'S LIKE, NEVER GOTTEN A HUG IN HIS LIFE BEFORE???????
• OW MY HEART
• When the main character becomes a fugitive with a bounty 🥰
• Sarah isn't gonna do shiiiiit
• "What's gonna happen to Rafe?" Nothing. Because he's a rich white boy who can get away with anything bc of his daddy's money and power.
• They better not do a cliff hanger and make us wait til next season
• Rafe is delusional
• "He's a maniac" Pot, meet kettle
• Whose house is this?
• How are you gonna tell him to get out of your house and then chase him when he's trying to leave
• Pope high is amazing
• AW MY BABY
• He deserves the world and more
• NO PLEASE DON'T CRRRRYYYYY
• Topper is gonna let John B go, isn't he?
• He really locked his daughter in her room like Rapunzel
• "Hey Top, hey man, it's John B, hey" HE'S SUCH A LOSER LMAOOOO
• "My bad" My bad!?!??
• They're arguing over what word to use
• This is kinda gay ngl
• THIS FAKE CRYING EJDBEUSHEH SARAH
• Wheezie better not fuck this up bro or I s2g
• TOPPER DEF LET JOHN B OUT I WILL HOLLER
• I think Rafe is gonna get shot
• I hate this
• THE VEEEEENT
• I love rooting for a criminal
• SNITCHES GETS STITCHES, BITCHES
• Topper is gonna switch up on the Kooks and actually help out I bet
• RAFE NEEDS TO BE INSTITUTIONALIZED EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY
• TOPPER IS WEARING THE HOODIE
• THAT'S HOW HE PROVED HIS LOVE FOR HERRR
Ep. 10
• Aw John B
• Pope said FUCK FEELINGS
• Tf is SBI
• State bureau of investigation, got it
• NO, WARD NEEDS TO BEAR RESPONSIBILITY BC IT IS. HIS. FAULT.
• "Idk how to fix it" kill yourself, easy
• Sell? You mean lie. Rich people logic amirite??
• RAFE HAS VOICES IN HIS HEAD HE'S GONE OFF THE DEEP END
• The officer better know the truth
• WARD IS A PATHOLOGICAL LIAR
• The SBI agent sees right through Ward
• I hate this bastard
• FUCK YEAH
• Rafe is TWEAKIN
• Barry to the rescue?
• "I done worse, I was in the army" LMAOOOO
• Nvm Barry is still trash
• TRASH STICKS WITH TRASH
• They're GONE occifer
• AND THE THUNDER ROOLLLLS
• My heart is hurting so bad rn
• Is he gonna give himself up rn?
• I hate when JJ cries
• AHHHHHHHH HIS EYES OPENED AND I GOT SCARED
• OW MY FUCKIN HEART
• Shoupe is a pussy ass bitch too
• Pause, smoke break
• Lessgo
• He's gonna wait for the keys to be close to the car
• CALLED IT
• That was *chef's kiss*
• This is not good
• YEEEEES POPE
• NOOOOOO POPE
• VENGEANCE
• Holy shit
• Okay I'm gonna say it
• This GOT GOOD
• NO MORE CLICHES
• Holy fuuuuck
• If we get a second season, I wanna see Rafe destroyed
• Woah okay
• JJ is third wheel
• This is crazy
• STOP WASTING TIME
• This is all funny bc these kids are 16 and they think they're in love
• I GASPED OMG
• What did this turn into
• There's a cliche!!!
• Holy fuckitnenehehe
• Fuck you Ward
• He's gonna do it
• Ewwww "I'd rather die than be without you"
• What in the ever living hell
• Fuck fuck fuck
• And JJ is left alone
• OH MY GOD IM CRYING
• Holy. Fucking. Shit.
#emily rambles#emily watches#outer banks#outer banks netflix#netflix outer banks#obx#outer banks spoilers#obx spoilers#netflix original#netflix orignal series#outer banks liveblog#obx liveblog#sorta
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Things to not say:
Are you alive? I'm here to finally talk to you about crushes. Ironically not only are you the only person I'd be down to talk to about it but also you're the one it's about so efficiency af. Kay that's my introductory paragraph. So
Uh as you know you've been my mcm since November but more seriously after winter break when you were there for me every single day. The thing is I dont want to do anything about it, I just want it to stop. How do I make it stop? Like pls answer as my friend and not the person it regards LOOOL like if I had tried to be coy you woulda figured me out so I knew not to speak in the hypothetical when asking you. So yah let's just leave that besides the point.
How does one make it stop? Like I h8 this, I h8 myself, men are trash, and it's pointless and annoying to have this stupid voice in the back of my head. So I thought if I just voice out loud what's bothering me, it might seem dumb out loud and go away LOOOL pls help
Yknow what's saaaaaad as fuuuck? He pretty much told me today that I'm annoying LIKE GEE I WONDER WHY someone would think that. I'm a fucking waste of space
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who wants to guess how many times i’ve listened to the “I Will Never Give Up On You” track from the vld s6 score
(if you said anything over 1,000 times... ur goddamn right)
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Learning to love
Learning to love pt. 6
Part one, part two, part three, part four, part five, part seven, part eight, The Epilogue
We’re coming to the end guys! This chapter I thought we’d make a little shorter, because what comes next is super important and I don’t want to separate it.
AN: A Love Story, Interrupted
Characters: Theseus Scamander, Albus Dumbledore, Newt Scamander, Leta Lestrange
Pairings: Theseus Scamander x reader, Leta Lestrange x Newt Scamander
Prompt: “Can yu pls do a Thesus imagine where him and the reader were friends and dating but then they break up but they get back together?”
Warnings: Mention of Death
Spoilers: Spoilers for Crimes of Grindelwald
Ps. This diverges from canon!
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Leta Lestrange observed herself in the mirror rather clinically. Her skin was smooth and flawless, her hair perfectly curled and pinned and ready for bed and her armor of casual indifference firmly in place. She looked exactly the way she wanted to and yet she still felt…unsettled. She wasn’t a stupid woman, she knew why, but it did confuse her. Ever since you and Theseus had arrived back at the hotel together, soaked from the rain, with his coat wrapped around your shoulders and a fragile peace between you, things had been different. You hadn’t yelled or fought. There had been no outbursts of any kind actually. If anything, you and Theseus had been overly polite, as though you barely knew one another, not that that was fooling anyone.
Something profound had happened between you that night in the rain. Leta knew it. She could see it in the way you spoke, the way you dressed and stood. She could see it in the way Theseus treated you, the care he took when speaking to you and the way his eyes seemed to swallow you whole whenever they landed on you. There was a kind of closeness between you that had nothing to do with physical distance. You kind of orbited each other, like planets in the night’s sky kept together by something massive and unstoppable. Seeing it made something in Leta’s chest ache. She knew what that kind of closeness felt like. She’d had it before.
She swallowed hard and tried to shake it off. Nothing good could come from her dwelling over Newt anymore. She was an engaged woman now, after all. That thought made her chuckle. Oh God, what a fiasco. If she’d known what she knew now five months ago, she honestly would never have suggested it. She thought back to that night.
Leta sighed, taking another sip of her, now lukewarm, coffee. She was sitting in the Atrium of the Ministry of Magic, waiting for her cousin to come out of work. She was exhausted and this was the absolute last thing she wanted to be doing right now. Theseus had kept her up most of the night going over his breakup with you and, as much as she cared about him and loved you, she was at the end of her tether. Newt’s book had been published and now she couldn’t go twenty minutes without seeing his face plastered on the cover of some magazine or newspaper. She was proud of him, of course, but she hadn’t seen or heard from Newt in ages and being ambushed with pictures of his face every single day made moving on a lot harder.
She sipped on her coffee again, wondering idly if she would be able to convince Theseus to get out of bed and eat a full meal today. It had been nearly a year and a half since he’d ended things with you and he’d, mostly, recovered but today, Leta suspected, would be different. She thought about the birthday card she’d sent you earlier that morning and sighed, oh yes, today would most definitely be different. If her suspicions were correct, Theseus would probably be spending this fine Saturday lying in bed with the curtains drawn, flicking through old photos of you and just generally being miserable. Not that Leta could really blame him. After all, when Newt had left to do work in the field, she hadn’t gotten out of bed for two weeks. She thought that that was probably why Theseus had come to her in the first place.
“Leta,” a familiar voice called, making her heart plummet, “is that really you?”
Newt Scamander was there. He was there in front of her, smiling that adorable little smile of his as though she was the only person in the world that he’d ever wanted to see. He was so familiar, so painfully, beautifully familiar that it made her feel as though she were flying and she couldn’t help but smile and jump up, leaving her coffee forgotten.
“Newt, hi,” she smiled, standing and forcing herself not to fling her arms around his neck, “what’re you doing here?”
Newt smiled and shuffled his feet, holding his case in front of his legs, “I’m-uh-I’m trying to get my travel documents back,” he explained, “what about you?”
“Orion asked to see me,” she explained, “he’s late.”
Newt nodded, fiddling with his coat pocket the way he did when he was nervous. It made Leta feel something odd, seeing him be uncomfortable around her. They’d been best friends for years. Why would he not be comfortable?
“Well, it’s lovely to see you Leta, but I’ve got to get to my hearing,” Newt said.
“Of course,” Leta said, realizing that she must’ve been staring, “We should have dinner sometime and catch up though,” she suggested hopefully, “now that you’re back. It’s been so long.”
Newt fiddled again, but nodded, not quite meeting her eye, “Yes, well, goodbye.”
He rushed past her, a piece of paper fluttering out of his pocket and landing on the floor. Leta scooped it up and felt her heart stutter. It was a newspaper clipping of a pretty, dark haired woman smiling at the camera nervously with the headline: Tina Goldstein reinstated as Auror.
“Newt,” Leta called, her voice sounding odd even to her own ears, “Newt, you dropped something.”
He turned back, his bright green eyes flicking from Leta’s face to the scrap of paper.
“Oh, yes, thank you,” Newt said, taking the clipping back gently.
He gave the picture such a soft and tender look that it broke Leta’s heart as he folded it gently and tucked it back into his pocket.
“Who is she?” Leta asked, both desperate to know and desperate to never have to think about the pretty woman ever again.
“She’s-uh-she’s an auror,” New explained, “I met her in New York.”
“Oh.”
As Newt vanished into the distance, Leta felt as though the walls were closing in on her. She recognized that soft look on his face all too well. It was the way he’d used to look at her. Suddenly, she couldn’t stand to be there any longer. It felt as though the walls were closing in around her and, without another thought about waiting for his cousin, she turned and fled, stepping out into the street and apparating to the first place that popped into her mind.
She flung open the door to Theseus’ place and strode in, brushing a stray tear from her cheek as she made her way into his room. As she’d expected, Theseus was lying in bed but at that moment, she couldn’t care less about his broken heart. It had finally hit her that her relationship with Newt was over. He’d moved on and found someone who had been smart enough to realize what she had in Newt while she had him and Leta was completely shattered.
“Theseus,” she called, “let’s get married.”
Looking back, she couldn’t even tell her what had made her say it. All she knew was that she’d been hurting and desperate and she’d wanted to do something about it.
“What?” Theseus asked, leaning up on his elbow, his auburn hair ruffled from sleep.
“You and me, let’s get married,”Leta repeated, “why not? We’ve been letting everyone think we’re seeing one another anyway. Why not just get married?”
Theseus frowned at her, sitting up and ruffling his hair, a photo album falling open on his lap. Leta could only just make out a picture of you smiling up at the camera over a glass of champagne, with Theseus beside you, pressing a firm kiss to your temple as you laughed together.
“Leta-“
“Look, Theseus, you’ve fucked it with Y/N, you know you have.” Leta told him, “I’ve fucked it with Newt. Both of us should’ve been married long ago. Why don’t we just end it and marry each other? That way no one can accuse us of being sad, lonely people who are less successful than our exes.”
It had taken a while but, eventually, Theseus had agreed. The next day he’d gotten a beautiful ring from a muggle jeweler and they’d made the announcement. Theseus was, in every conceivable way, the perfect fiancé. He was smart, funny, handsome and ambitious, with a stable job and a kind, open heart. They were the perfect couple and, up until you’d showed up at the ministry that day, everything had been perfect or as perfect as it could be when you were engaged to the man you love’s older brother. Leta had even managed to convince herself that a marriage between friends was enough for her, that, she didn’t need anything more and, for the most part the relationship had been relatively drama free.
“And his wand snapped in two, which was saaaaaad!” Leta heard as the door to her shared hotel room flew open.
She turned and couldn’t stop herself from laughing. It was you, drunk, stumbling and slurring your words, with your shoes in one hand and an empty bottle of Pinnock’s Gigglewater in the other. Your hair was escaping from its updo and you were being partially supported by one of the hotel bellboys. You saw Leta, your face broke into a blinding smile and, for the first time in ages, Leta saw the happy young girl who’d spent so long looking after her in her childhood.
“Leta,” you cried, trying to rush over to her and tripping over your own feet, which made you laugh uproariously, “Leta, Leta, Leta! I’m drunk.”
“I can tell,” she chuckled, gliding up to the door, “you can leave her with me,” she told the bellboy, pressing some money into his palm, “thank you.”
“Leeeeta,” you crooned, as you draped your arms around her neck, “Leeeeeeeeta!”
“Hi Y/N,” she replied, supporting you into the room and plopping you down on the couch, “let’s get you some water, shall we?”
You mumbled something that sounded like an agreement and Leta handed you a full glass of water, which you sipped gratefully.
“You’re so pretty Leta, do you know that?” You said in a singsong voice, “So, so pretty. Pretty, pretty Leta Lestrange. It’s no wonder that Theseus is in love with you.”
Leta sat down beside you, supporting her head with her hand, “Theseus isn’t in love with me, Y/N.” she admitted, secure in the fact that you would probably not even remember this conversation in the morning.
Your eyes widened, “No, you mustn’t think that I’m angry,” you assured quickly, grabbing Leta’s other arm, “no, I want you both to be happy,” you said, nodding vigorously, “and you know that I’ve always loved you.”
Leta blushed, her heart swelling with warmth. You just looked so earnest and sweet and Leta felt a tiny pinch of guilt in her chest.
“I know Y/N,” she said honestly.
“And that’s why I was so sad when you stopped talking to me,” you said, a sad frown disfiguring your normally pretty face for a moment, “but you’re talking to me again now,” you continued, your face brightening, “so I thought we should talk about boys and stuff, like proper friends do. Only that obviously meant talking about Theseus and I usually can’t do that, so I thought I’d get really, really drunk. And now I am really really drunk so now, now we can talk about him, see? And I’ll be totally normal about it I promise.”
“We don’t have to-“ Leta started.
“No! No, I want to,” you insisted, “so, come on, ask me anything you want to know.”
You looked so hopeful that it made Leta smile gently and she thought hard, wondering if there was anything she wanted to know about Theseus. One thing came to mind, but it was so scandalous that she blushed.
“Uh, I was wondering, about-“ Leta faded out, “but you probably wouldn’t even know anyway.”
For a moment, you looked slightly confused, but then your face lit up and you burst out laughing, your eyes twinkling with something a lot like teasing mischief.
“Sex!” you exclaimed, “You want to know about the sex.” Leta blushed even deeper which, apparently you took as an answer, because you tapped her arm knowingly, “Well, you don’t need to worry about that. In my experience the sex was,” you shook you head, smirking, “the sex was great.”
“You had sex?” Leta asked, sitting up.
“Of course we did,” you laughed, “we were together for nearly nine years!”
“But-you’re-but you’re not even married,” Leta said.
You waved it away, looking more carefree than you’d been in ages.
“You know how I feel about those pointless traditions,” you replied, “anyway, we did think that we would be, you know, one day. So really, what was the point of waiting?”
Your voice had taken on a subtle note of sadness and Leta felt the pinch of guilt again.
To cover it up, she asked, “When did it happen? How did it happen?”
You smiled again, even if it was slightly less bright now than it had been, “You really want to know?” you asked. Leta nodded and you leant back in your seat a hint of mischief back in your Y/E/C eyes as you looked up at the ceiling, “It was the night of my Hogwarts graduation,” you started, with the aura of someone settling into a story they knew well, “I was Head Girl so my parents had actually shown up, which was weird, but Theseus and his family had come too. So, we had the ceremony, I did my speech, we took photos, blah blah blah. After dinner all the parents and family members left, some stayed in Hogsmead (mine didn’t) but most of us students stayed at Hogwarts. We had one more night in the castle and the teachers had given us the Great Hall for our graduation party so, obviously, we didn’t want to miss that. We’d all been so stressed about our exams that we kind of needed a release, you know?” you asked, catching Leta’s eye for a moment, “We were each allowed to bring one guest. I brought Theseus, of course and, I don’t know,” you shrugged, “that whole year I’d been so busy with my N.E.W.Ts, and the year before he’d been preoccupied with his so, in a weird way, it felt like it was the first time we’d really been together in ages.” You explained, your voice gentle and steady, “We were dancing and talking and just being and it felt, I don’t know, it felt organic and really, really good,” you continued, with something like passion, “and I just remember looking at Theseus and thinking; This is it, this is the man I’m going to spend the rest of my life with.” You admitted. There was a long pause in which some of your enthusiasm seemed to leach out and you collapsed in on yourself, which made Leta endlessly sad. You shrugged and continued, but it was obvious that your earlier euphoria was gone, “So I thought, why wait? I took him up to the Head Girl’s room, which was still technically mine and, yeah, the rest is history.” You said with a sad smile, “I remember he was so nervous. He must’ve asked me if I was sure 50 times.”
Leta chuckled gently with you, “Yeah, that sounds like Theseus.” She agreed.
You nodded, “Anyway, after that, things were different. Not bad, not worse, just different. It kind of felt like we’d taken this massive step and now we were really together. We weren’t kids anymore; we were adults, in an adult relationship. The sex,” you explained, “was like the final step, and we were just happy that we’d taken it together.” Your eyes were sad, but Leta could feel that you weren’t on the edge of falling apart anymore. It was as though talking about Theseus openly, for the first time, had sobered you up and given you back some of your stability. You sat up and shrugged again, shooting Leta a rueful smile, “Shows what we knew, doesn’t it. Or at least, what I knew.”
“Y/N, Theseus adores you,” Leta admitted, “I’m sure he feels exactly the same way you do.”
You sighed, suddenly tired, “I don’t know anymore Leta. He’s marrying you so, evidentially he’s not the same person now that he was when we were together. I’m going to get some sleep. Might as well hurry up and get this hangover started.” you joked, standing and wobbling slightly, pulling her into a hug, “You’re going to be fine. He’s a good man and you’re a brilliant woman. It’ll be totally fine, so long as you both follow your hearts.” you smiled and, with a pang of guilt, Leta realized that you were being sincere.
There was no part of you that resented or hated her; you genuinely just wanted her and Theseus to be happy, even if that you yourself had to suffer a little. Leta suddenly wished that she’d just told you about her engagement from the outset and helped you deal with your grief, instead of ghosting you for five months out of fear and leaving you to deal with that pain alone.
“I love you Y/N,” she said, squeezing you tighter as she blinked tears out of her eyes, “I’m sorry. I never told you that enough. You were always the only thing in my life that felt like family.”
“Aw, Lete,” you replied, and she could hear the smile in your voice, “I love you too.” You pulled away and put your hands on Leta’s shoulders, “We are family. After all, us pureblood outcasts have got to stick together, right?” You teased. Leta let out a watery laugh and you smiled gently, “Goodnight, Leta Lestrange.”
“Goodnight, Y/N Y/L/N,” she replied.
You stumbled into your bedroom and Leta collapsed back onto the couch. It was late, but the conversation had left her feeling restless and sleep was evading her. There was a memory itching at the back of her mind and she needed to follow it. So, she stood and went out into the hallway, knocking softly on the door to Theseus’ room. No one answered and Leta breathed a sigh of relief as she pushed the door open. His room was already messy and cluttered, despite the fact that they’d been staying there for less than a week, which made Leta chuckle fondly. She made her way over to his chest of drawers and slowly opened the top one. There it was, the length of delicate blue fabric that she’d been looking for, the center of one of the only points of tension her and Theseus had ever had.
The clutter was finally starting to get to her. After three weeks of living together, Leta Lestrange was officially over the clutter and mess. It was so confusing to her, how Theseus could be so neat and organized at work, but could be such a messy airhead at home. She’d spent the majority of the day cleaning the house, working through each room systematically using a combination of magic and old-fashioned handiwork. It was now only Theseus’ bedroom that she had left and, as she surveyed the absolute chaos she sighed.
“Theseus Scamander,” she tutted, “you absolute slob.”
With a wave of her wand, Leta swept up the clothes on the floor and threw them into the washing basket to sort later before starting on everything else. Downstairs, she could hear the door open and then close, and knew that Theseus was home. She called down to him and he greeted back, taking his time taking off his coat. Leta refocused on her work, clearing Theseus’ bed. As she reached under his pillow, Leta felt her fingers glide over something smooth.
“What the-“ she asked, pulling it out and frowning.
It was a pale, baby blue scarf that she’d never seen before. It definitely wasn’t Theseus’. As she examined it, Leta smelled sweet vanilla and cinnamon and brought it up to her nose, trying to figure out how she knew that particular scent.
“What’re you doing?” Theseus asked, his voice monotone as he appeared in his doorway.
Leta turned, feeling oddly guilty, “Cleaning,” she explained, “trying to figure out what clothes to donate.”
“Not that,” Theseus said quickly, striding forward and almost grabbing the slim strip of fabric away, “that’s-that’s important.” He folded it gently and slid it into the top drawer of his dresser before turning back to her.
“It’s hers, isn’t it?” Leta asked.
Theseus bit down on his jaw, “It doesn’t matter.”
“It does, Theseus. If you’re trying to get over her then surely you should-“
“It’s all I have left of hers,” Theseus interrupted, “I can’t get rid of it okay? I just can’t.”
“Theseus-“
“Drop it, Leta!” He cried.
Nearly five months down the line from that conversation and he still had it. Not only did he still have it, but he’d actually brought it with him to Paris. Something in her chest ached as she looked down at that little scrap of fabric, a forgotten scarf that Theseus has kept with him for more than two years. It was like a physical manifestation of his love for you. No matter what Leta did, no matter how many new coats of paint she put in the house or how many pieces of furniture she bought and rooms she rearranged, you would always be there, in that little blue scarf. It was inevitable. She made up her mind in a flash and sat down on Theseus’ bed, determined to wait there for him. They had to talk now, before it was too late. She thought about you and her resolve hardened. They had to talk, before they both made yet another huge mistake.
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jan 2022 - 1st entry
girl dont do it its not worth it
i did it.
this is not a fun post idk why i started it like that anyway
take your vitamins, exercise, eat well, be present
it’s literally so hard to maintain but makes a world of difference
i knew myself way better as a teen but thats because i’m pretty sure i emotionally locked myself in to get through uni. like idk what i like or don’t like, idk who i am, my fav food, i don’t read anymore, i forget everything, i’m much slower, it’s like my brain has slowed down and i can barely process my own thoughts when they do happen because there’s nothing now, its empty in here 4real and i know this is untreated depression catching up to me but its so hard getting into being a real life person again
my worst fear is.. because i was most myself when i was actively trying to kms and now i’m just numb and have been for a while, the kid i was is telling me this is for the best because at least i can handle it much better now that im older but i’m also like ..i wish i could feel a little more again even if it is sad..and i remember writing entries and entries into journals reminding myself how much better it is being numb depressed vs saaaaaad depressed (i used to crying every single day for such a long time and now i cry once a year)
i’ve had numb moments when i was younger before but not numb years tbh but also i was medicated then and often switching meds and meds gave me that numbness i feel now rather than that sadness and i think thats why i told myself this not-feeling feeling was always for the best, but neither are any way to live and my worst fear is making it super far and just stopping, i sometimes think i should've kms earlier when im super down like i think back on all the things i ‘needed’ to do that gave me purpose like graduating. i had a destination and i did not care for the journey at all, it was literally just me telling myself that the least i could do for my parents is graduate and i did and because i never thought further i’m here and completely at a loss, its embarrassing. i think the last time i felt myself was 2018 which is so sad, i think this disconnect started once i started pushing this whole self narrative that i needed to stop being mentally ill just to get things done tbh and just pretend and it made me so apathetic like girly you were not ok you just pushed away having any emotions at all and now you are here...a place we should not be. not to mention covid unlocked so many core childhood memories i’ve tried to pretend hasn’t affected me but like how could they not
i’ve been sad since 9 and i don’t want to kms so i won’t but i need to get it together because not knowing who you are is not it, i dont have fav books, movies, im a shell of a human whose only self-perception is created through her tumblr blog and even that is unrecognizable at times, but don’t worry just take your vitamins, because like.. you're missing something for sure, theres gotta be a deficiency somewhere. i hate that i’ve shifted the habit of talking to myself into my writing as well but like i type as i ramble in these so here we are, we move on.
but if you sat through this im so sorry i just need somewhere to release this and i want to feel comfortable here again because although the internet is forever, i miss expressing myself worry free and i also want to remember my feelings and the thoughts i do have so i don’t make the same mistakes and can work towards something, hold myself accountable, and stop living stationary. life can be fun, especially when you start to care about how you feel and have the energy and tools to do so, depression is not and thats what ive learned at my big age.
#just venting#i feel like this confusion is what childhood should've felt like#but ive always been so sure of myself#the one thing i had was knowing myself and having this self awareness and now i dont#be we grow and change#and we'll live laugh love too someday#side note: name a corny bish thats sad#you can't they're not#corny ppl live without caring that they're corny and th#at is amazing#rm#sad girls are never corny and are perpetually online and thats why we hate ourselves
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