Unexpectedly, I’m back and doing more reading and coffee drinking than ever! It’s been a while since I posted on here, the final couple terms of my undergraduate moved away from the traditional studying format. But I have somehow found myself starting a Masters, so the cafe and study session energy has returned in full force.

Dances with Blankets

When you yell at me this is who you’re yelling at btw

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On a rainy evening when your eyes pour as you leave someone’s home, it’s okay to hold yourself together with the warmth of a latte and the silence of your company as you occupy yourself with work. It’s okay because maybe by the time you finish the food you ordered with your coffee you will realize that you were very hungry. And as you get more of your work done, you will realize that you were lowkey stressed about getting it done at the back of your mind that whole time. And as you keep quiet and not force yourself to articulate anymore you will realize that you were just done with socializing and your social battery being below red was what was making you feel off when you were leaving that home earlier. And by the time you are done at the café you will realize that this evening you successfully overcame a bunch of the cognitive distortions that fuck with your mind like emotional reasoning and jumping to conclusions and all-or-nothing thinking. And then you can realize that the last six months of therapy have helped. And you may also realize that you are simply like a child who gets cranky when they get hungry and tired and that instead of some sort of emotional outburst which is unnecessary and confusing you just need to step away, feed yourself and rest and recover. And if even after that you feel off or low, we can investigate and confront. But first, let’s just check in with the first level of your Maslow’s hierarchy needs - your physiological need to eat food and nourish yourself in a timely manner, your need to keep yourself hydrated with water, your need to use the loo (even though you hate using any restroom outside of your home’s), and your need to sleep and let your body and mind rest. And now, we can leave this café on this rainy night with a smile and more confidence in our ability of taking care of ourselves, of understanding ourselves better, and of improving and healing. 

Chilling at Onibus Coffee in Tokyo on a Rainy Day by japan.films

Hi all, do you have any Friday plans? I will work tomorrow so I didn't plan much. Very likely I will go to the gym with my friend after work. I also want to send out some job applications, and then I want to make progress with The Edge of Everything which is one of my current reads.

Gaming on a rainy night~

Rain belongs to dosy @chimeric-art <3

“Đôi khi con tim hò hẹn Ngậm ngùi vì một ngày mưa bắt đầu...”

Rainy days are for coffee shops and reading.