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Up To Heaven and Down To Hell

Chapter 4: Slow Ride

(The only warnings for this chapter is smut and mentions of Nate Jacobs near the end of this chapter. I also included some authors notes at the very end. I hope you enjoy!)

Lexi and Fezco were looking forward to their honeymoon, though they certainly weren't looking forward to such a long flight. The flight from Kentucky to The Poconos was approximately 6 hours. It wasn't too bad, but Lexi wasn't too pleased... especially since she had never even been on a plane before.

"You alright, ma?" Fezco asked as he rubbed his wife's back as she utilized the barf bag the stewardess had given her.

"No... it's such a wonderful time for me to find out I get motion sickness in the air..." Lexi said shakily.

"I'm sorry Lex, is there anything I can do?"

"No. There's nothing you can do. It's official... I've found Hell and it turns out it's in the sky." Lexi said weakly before her stomach churned again as they hit turbulence.

"Aw baby. I guess we in Hell together then." Fez said, still trying his best to cheer her up.

"I don't know, have you been throwing your guts up for the past five hours? If not, you don't understand my pain." She whined before more bile spewed out of her mouth and into the bag.

"It's alright Lexi." He comforted as he patted her back.

"I think this is it. I'm gonna die on a plane from puking so much." Lexi said.

"You ain't gonna die, ma. We only got less than an hour left, after we get off the plane I'll get you whatever you need for your stomach and then we'll take a cab to Penn Hills, check in and then relax for the rest of the night."

"Really?"

"Yeah Lex. Of course. Have I ever lied to you?" Fezco asked.

"Yes."

"Huh? When?"

"Before our flight. You said that flights are fun and relaxing, but it's been the complete opposite for me."

"Well baby... everybody's different." Fez said with a shrug before chuckling.

"Ugh." Lexi groaned again before her head was once again in the barf bag a second later.

Less than an hour left? Ha! She felt like she was on the world's longest flight that just wouldn't end.

Eventually, they arrived that night to the snow covered Poconos. They got their luggage, Lexi took an Alka Seltzer at the airport, the couple hailed a cab and were soon headed to Penn Hills.

Lexi was feeling a bit better, though she was exhausted. She took a nap for a while in the cab before waking up and looking out of the window of the cab and admired the snowy scenery.

"It's really beautiful here." She said with a smile.

"Yeah it is. Glad I dressed warm, shit... or else my ass would be frozen with all this snow falling." Fez said, his black fur coat thickly wrapped around him.

"Yeah it is pretty cold here. I hope the room is nice and warm." Lexi said as she shivered a little bit in her yellow hip length trench coat.

"C'mere baby." Fez said as he wrapped his arms around her after seeing her shiver.

"Mmm Fez... you're so warm... like a... like a bear." She said before chuckling.

"I just want my wife to be warm. Tell you what, when we get to Boston after our honeymoon, imma buy you a fur coat, ma."

Lexi's eyes widened in shock. She had never had a fur before, only rich people wore them... but she was married to a rich man now, so she supposed it would be fine.

"A-Are you sure?" Lexi asked.

"Hell yeah. I want my baby to have some nice shit. You get whatever you want Lexi. Besides, winters in Boston get fucking cold... colder than how cold it is here. You lucky I ain't a New Yorker, cause their winters are even worse." Fez said.

"Oh, I didn't know that..."

"Yeah."

The Cab driver's radio started playing Born To Be Wild by Steppenwolf.

"So, Fez?"

"Yeah baby?"

"After I clean myself up a bit... I was wondering if you wanted to help warm me up?" She asked as she drew circles with her index finger onto his fur coat covered chest.

Fez grinned at her.

"Of course I do Lex, you gonna be begging me for some ice to cool you down afterwards, ma." He said before kissing her.

Lexi couldn't help but giggle into the kiss after she heard him speak.

Eventually the cab arrived at Penn Hills and after checking in at the front desk, Fezco and Lexi were walking with their suitcases to their cozy cabin suite.

"I wish it wasn't such a long way to walk, I'm freezing." Lexi said.

"I know ma, we're almost there." Fez replied.

Sure enough they were a few feet away from their cabin, and they quickly rushed over to it.

Fezco got out the key and unlocked the door, carrying the suitcases in and he also turned the lights on as Lexi stepped inside, closing the door behind her and locking it.

"Oh thank God! Look! There's a fireplace!" Lexi pointed out as she gazed at it.

"Yeah. Lemme get that going." Fezco grabbed a few matches from his pants pocket that he had mostly used to light his cigarettes, and he lit a match and threw it onto the logs that were already in the fireplace. He then stoked the burgeoning flames with a nearby fire poker before setting it down.

The room was already starting to warm up, just what Lexi had wanted. It felt really nice. It looked really nice too.

The couple explored the room a bit.

The closet was spacious, the bathroom was huge and even had a heart-shaped bathtub complete with a mirror above it and halfway surrounding it. The bed was circular and had pedestals that held up a mirror above it. The room's ambience was very romantic and it made Lexi grin.

"Oh Fez, this place is absolutely perfect." She said happily as she hugged him.

"I'm glad you like it baby. Now, what do you say we play some music, get undressed, take a relaxing bath and see where all that takes us?" He suggested.

"You're a mind reader Fezco O'Neill." Lexi said with a chuckle as she kissed his cheek.

Fez went over to the radio in the room and started turning the dial to get some music playing in the room while Lexi took her clothes off and went over to the tub that she was busy filling up with water and Avon Bubble Bath.

Fez took off his clothes as well and finally found a good radio station that was starting to play Ready For Love by Bad Company.

Fez helped Lexi into the bathtub and he himself got in as well. They held each other in their warm bubbly bathtub and Lexi sighed contentedly.

"I'm so happy." Lexi said as she gazed up at Fez.

"I'm glad, baby. There's so much more we're gonna do together on this trip." He replied as he started to scrub her back.

She sighed a contented sigh and after he was done cleaning her, she did the same for him.

"How about we get out now? We don't wanna get all pruned up." Lexi suggested as she looked at Fez.

"Of course, ma. Though you'd still be sexy even if you were all pruned up." Fez said.

Lexi giggled before Fez picked her up out of the tub suddenly, causing her laughter to increase as he chuckled.

They dried each other off and made their way to the circular bed, and laid down on it while talking to each other.

"That fight you got into at the luncheon..." Lexi started.

"I know Lex. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get so wild and embarrass you, ma. But that motherfucker said some real unsavory shit about you and I had to kick his ass."

"I understand Fez. Thank you for defending me. And for the record you didn't embarrass me. You managed to show me how you defend someone that you... that you..." Lexi trailed off.

"Care about? Yeah. It's alright ma, you can say it. Cause it's true. I care about you Lexi."

Lexi was almost speechless before she spoke up as if on impulse.

"I care about you too Fez."

Fez smiled before kissing his wife.

Lexi kissed him back, but within her head she couldn't stop thinking about how hot Fez looked as he beat the crap out of Nate and Aaron. She then got an idea.

"Oh!" She cried out suddenly as she sat up.

"What? What is it ma? Did I hurt you?" Fez asked frantically as he also sat up.

"No Fez. I'm fine. But... I think my bracelet fell off in the lobby. I just noticed."

"Oh, want me to go and get it for you?" He asked.

"Can you?"

"Yeah sure, anything for you Lex. Lemme put my clothes back on and I'll go look for it in the lobby, it ain't far."

"Thank you Fez."

"You're welcome, and when I get back... we gon' finish what we were about to start baby. Imma need you to warm me up after I get out of the cold." He said with a smirk after he got up and started putting his boxers on, his pants, his shirt and sweater back on before stepping into his shoes and putting his fur coat back on.

"Oh I certainly will... hurry back baby." Lexi replied as she leaned in for a kiss, that Fez lovingly laid on her lips.

"Stay right there sexy, don't move an inch while I'm gone." Fez said with a smile before he left the room.

Lexi went over to the window, peeking through the pink curtains and watching her husband walk to the lobby, the snow crunching under his shoes as he walked away from their cabin.

Lexi knew she didn't lose a bracelet, she hadn't worn any bracelets that day. As her husband disappeared out of sight, she knew she had to work fast.

She went over to her suitcase and pulled out the blue gift bag that Rue had given her at the luncheon. She took the contents out of it and looked at herself in the nearby mirror that surrounded the heart-shaped tub.

"Alright... now, how do I put this on?" She wondered aloud as she held up the bra that would show her nipples and the crotchless panties.

After a bit of trial and error, she figured it out. Her nipples on display, out of the bra's cups. She had gently played with her own nipples curiously, which only made them perkier. Her pussy and bare lower lips were on display in between to scant pieces of white lacy fabric. It looked as if her pussy was playing peekaboo, and upon looking at herself in the mirror it made her blush and giggle. She turned around and looked at herself a bit more, even her asshole was on display, and that made her blush even more.

Lexi admired herself in the mirror and grinned before she spanked her own ass teasingly and hiding the gift bag back in her suitcase.

"Great job Rue and Maddy." She muttered to herself with a grin.

Her mind wandered to Fez, she knew he'd be back at any minute... but... the image in her mind of him using all of his strength to beat up the Jacobs Brothers at the luncheon... it flooded her mind.

Lexi sat on the circular bed and laid down before she started to touch herself. She groped her tits before licking her fingers and rubbing her clit and inserting her fingers into her pussy. She felt her own wetness as she threw her head back and moaned.

She couldn't help but pick up the pace a bit before moaning again.

"Fezco! Yes!" She cried out, full on fucking herself with her fingers, before tapping her own clit with her wet fingers, making herself shiver with arousal.

"Fuck..." She said, her whole being was taken over by arousal, lust and need for her big strong husband.

She then decided that she wanted him to bring her to orgasm... not that playing with herself wasn't fun... but it wasn't the same.

Lexi sat up and sucked her own fingers before getting up and turning the radio off and getting out a vinyl record that she wanted to play.

She put it on and cranked up the volume before looking out of the window from behind the curtains... Fez was a few feet away from the cabin door.

Lexi smiled and closed the curtains back before kneeling on the bed sensually as Crazy On You by Heart blasted throughout the room.

Fez unlocked the door and came in. He saw his wife on the bed and he almost stopped in his tracks.

"Welcome back Fez." Lexi greeted with a smile.

"Oh, so you a fuckin' minx now, is that it? I had a feeling that bracelet thing was bullshit... and turns out I was right, but you just needed me to get the fuck out because you wanted to dress up for me... shit... you look fuckin' amazing Lexi O'Neill." Fez said as he closed the door and locked it.

He immediately started to strip off his clothes.

"You know who really looked fucking amazing... no, really fucking sexy... you did... when you were kicking ass at the luncheon. I was so turned on seeing that... that I... I did something naughty while you were out."

Fez was now naked as he approached the bed.

"Oh? And what'd you do baby?"

"I touched myself. I thought of you and how strong and sexy you are and I touched myself."

Fez was almost breathless.

"Ooh baby... you more naughty than I thought you were." He said as he started to stroke his cock as he got closer to her.

"Yeah, and Fez?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm in charge tonight. So... I want you on your back... open your mouth. I saw how strong your arms and hands are... but I wanna see how strong your tongue is." Lexi said in a low and sensual voice.

Fezco only felt his cock twitch and get harder as he gazed at his wife, the music definitely matching her current wanton behavior... and he loved it.

"Your wish is my command, baby." He said obediently with a smile as he laid down on the bed on his back, his mouth open as Lexi crawled up to his face and took a seat, moaning as she felt his tongue lapping at her wet folds.

"Oh honey!" Lexi cried out as she slid herself against his tongue.

Fez ate as if he were a man eating his last meal and as if he were a man on a mission.

Lexi brought herself on and off of her husband's tongue as she threw her head back, moaning loudly.

Fezco kept at it until Lexi started to shiver with arousal before she finally came, her toes curling as she met her release.

"Fez!"

He took a few more licks before sliding out from underneath her pussy.

"Oh baby, that was so fuckin' hot. You real fearless Lex."

"Thank you Fez." She said breathlessly before he kissed her.

"No need to thank me baby... now, let's see how many times you can orgasm like that in one night." He said with a smirk as he got on top of her.

Before the night was over, Lexi's sexy underwear had been thrown somewhere across the room, the mirrors surrounding and above the bed had fogged up and Fez was sure that his wife could definitely be pregnant at this point... if not now then definitely after he made his last few thrusts of the night.

"Fuck! I'm gonna cum!"

"Yes! Oh Fez yes! Fill me up!" Lexi begged as she felt her billionth orgasm of that night happen to her.

Fez groaned loudly as he thrust himself deeply into Lexi, feeling his seed shoot out from his cock once again that night.

Lexi had her fingers between her legs, rubbing her clit as he took his last few thrusts and she had her last orgasm of the night and came hard as soon as she felt the tip of his cock hit her cervix.

"Ah! Shit! Lexi! Fuck!" Fez cried out as he felt himself finally go limp inside of her after he came. He stayed inside of her however as he caught his breath.

"Oh my god! Fez..." Lexi trailed off breathlessly as she laid there, her legs still spread but her knees up to her shoulders.

Fez turned them both over onto their side facing one another because he didn't want to pull out.

"That was absolutely-"

"Fucking amazing." Fez finished her sentence, and she didn't even mind at that point.

"Yeah. Uh why are you not pulling out of me yet?" She asked as she gazed at him in the dark. Their only light source at that particular part of the night was the still raging fireplace.

"I just came inside of you so damn much if I pull out now our whole cabin is gonna be flooded with cum. Besides, you still want a baby... don't you?" He asked as he brushed a sweaty strand of hair from her forehead.

Lexi giggled before crinkling her nose in disgust at the image of the entire cabin being flooded with her husband's cum. Upon hearing his question, she smiled and nodded.

"Yes, I do still want a baby. And honestly... you came inside of me so much I'm sure at least one of those times has gotten me pregnant already." Lexi said as she gently and lovingly placed her palm onto Fez's cheek.

He smiled at her lovingly and planted a kiss on her palm.

"If not, we still have oh... seven more days to make sure I'll be going home with you to Boston carrying your baby in me, Fezco."

"And if not, well... I ain't ever made no babies in Boston before, but if I don't knock you up here in the Poconos... well shit... there's a first time for everything, ma."

"We'll see baby, we'll see..." Lexi said before drifting off to sleep, sweaty and naked but content in her husband's arms.

Fez followed her to sleep immediately afterwards, the warm feeling of her against him and him still being buried inside of her along with the calming crackle of the fireplace, put him to sleep.

The next few days of their honeymoon... they hardly left their cabin... it was just too cold outside for either of them. They would leave their cabin on the fifth day of their honeymoon to do a few activities that Penn Hills had to offer during the day, like indoor roller skating...

"Oh come on Fez! It's easy, it's like walking but on skates!"

"I swear to God, if I fall and bust my ass with these things on my feet..."

"It's okay! Come on baby!" Lexi encouraged Fez as he clumsily skated towards her.

"That's it! You're doing great!"

"Lexi, I think imma fall!" Fez said with a freaked out look.

"No you're not gonna fall, you're doing great."

"Nah, I feel fucking lopsided. This don't feel right. I'm gonna go roll my ass back to those benches."

"Oh come on Fez! At least try to rollerskate? For me?" Lexi begged with a smile.

"Fine... I can never say no to my girl." He replied as he skated towards her.

"See you've got it! Now just pick up speed." She instructed.

"Shit... okay." He started picking up a bit of speed with his rollerblades before he slipped and fell back on his own ass.

"Fuck!"

Lexi couldn't help but laugh a bit before skating over to him and trying to help him up.

"Shit! My ass hurts and you're laughing!? Oh Hell nah, c'mere Lex." He said jokingly, taking faux offense to her laughter before he pulled her down with him.

"No! Fez no! Oh we were both doing so well but you just had to take me down with you!" She said between hard laughs as she now sat in his lap.

Fez couldn't help himself but laugh too. The situation was hilarious because now they'd have to crawl their way back to the benches... and that's exactly what they did.

"I can't believe I had to crawl back to the benches with you, Fez!"

"Yeah well, believe it because you made me try skating out in the first place." He teased.

"Alright alright, I guess I deserved that." Lexi replied as they both finally reached the benches and sat down, taking their skates off.

You Make Loving Fun by Fleetwood Mac played over the speakers of the rollerskating venue, the music was echoing quite a bit but it still managed to set a romantic mood.

Lexi leaned against him, staring out at the somewhat busy rollerskating venue.

"I don't think I've ever been this happy." She admitted to him.

Fez smiled at her before kissing her forehead.

"I'm so fucking glad to make you happy, ma. Shit, after seeing how your sister treats you and how your mom ain't really payin' you no attention, you really deserve someone in your life to make you happy... and I'm glad that I'm that person Lexi."

Lexi grinned at him, her eyes had a sad look in them.

"I... I don't know how to thank you Fez... I've always been that person in the background letting life go on as everyone focuses on Cassie, even I focused on her a lot. She's... difficult. And I was just... so tired, but you... you're giving me life again, you're... revitalizing me. And I love that and... I wanna do the exact same for you, I wanna be your solace because Fezco I-"

"I love you too Lexi."

Lexi was speechless yet again.

He loves her, and she loves him... she was absolutely floating right now.

"Fez, oh my god. I love you so much." Lexi replied as she smiled tearfully as she sniffled.

"Aw, ma... why're you cryin' huh?"

"These are happy tears." Lexi answered with a chuckle as Fez pulled her in for a hug before kissing her.

They stayed like that for a while, before coming up for air.

"Hey... you wanna get some lunch?" He asked.

"Yeah. Let's go." She replied with a nod as they picked up their shoes from the roller rink clerk, put them back on and went over to the dining room of the resort where the smell of burgers, hot dogs, sandwiches, deli meats, fish, shrimp, cheeses, soups, fries, and fresh ice cream sundaes wafted into the air and into their nostrils.

"So, are you still worried about your sister?" Fez asked as he got a tray for himself and Lexi and started to get a burger and fries.

"Of course I am. She's just the type that you worry about because she's just so-"

"Fragile?"

"No... stupid." Lexi answered as she got a fruit cup, a sandwich, a shrimp cocktail and a bowl of minestrone soup.

Fez couldn't help himself but laugh.

"Woah Lex. You callin' your big sister stupid?"

"Yeah, I am. Because it's true. She's not the brightest bulb in the pack, Fez. Not only that but she's very dramatic, as you yourself saw."

"Yeah. Are you... glad you're away from all of that or...?"

"Of course I'm glad I'm away from all of that. I've had to put up with her forever, and as the years passed she just got... worse. Honestly if I hadn't married you, I'd have probably runaway from home."

"Well baby, you're my wife now. Ain't no running away from home for you." He said reassuringly with a smile before she grinned at him.

"I know, and if you're home I'm not running away." She replied as they both sat down and dug into their lunch happily.

They had a quickie in their heart-shaped bathtub a few hours after arriving back into their room, and Fez had a surprise for Lexi.

He told her to wear something fancy, and she put on her best dress, it was a black dress with slightly puffy sleeves.

Before she left the bathroom she could hear music. She left the bathroom and found the room to be dark but lit by candlelight and the fireplace, rose petals on the floor, a table for two near the window, a bottle of champagne in the small ice bucket, two champagne glasses, two seats across from each other and menus sitting on the table.

Lexi gasped. It was so beautiful and so romantic.

Fez stood up, wearing a fresh suit with a grin on his face as Stand By Me by Ben E. King played on the record player in their cabin.

"We got only two more days, so I thought why not surprise my baby with a romantic dinner." He said with a grin and a shrug.

"Oh Fez. It's beautiful, I love it. Oh I love you." She said as she approached him and hugged him before kissing him.

After the kiss was broken, he pulled her chair out for her and she sat down, he sat across from her. He reached over and held her hand, looking into her eyes.

"You know, if we weren't already married I'd have proposed to you already... probably with a fancy dinner like this." He said.

"That's so sweet, and I definitely would have said yes."

"And I'd have passed out if you said yes." He joked.

It took a few moments but the champagne cork finally popped and they drank a bit before ordering their food over the rotary phone in their cabin after looking at the menu.

"Wanna dance?" Lexi asked.

"Aw Lex, you know I'm not a good dancer."

"Baby, it's just us here. No one else... literally."

"Alright." Fez stood up and took Lexi's hand. She stood up and they both danced together, he held her in his arms and they simply let the romantic sound of Stand By Me overtake them as they swayed along to the sound of the orchestra in the song.

For Lexi, this was like a dream... a dream she didn't know she had needed to live out until now.

A few minutes later, there was a knock at the door. It was the resort waiter with their food.

"Good evening Mr. and Mrs. O'Neill. I'm Sam and I'll be your waiter for this evening. I have your dinner orders on this here tray. I have the lobster thermidor with a cobb salad... and I have the garlic butter lamb chops with glazed carrots. And for dessert, courtesy of Penn Hills, our bakers made this decadent German Black Forest cake for you." The waiter said as he entered the room.

"Oh wow that sounds delicious. Thank you." Fez said before handing him a generous tip.

"Yes, thank you." Lexi said with a smile as the plates of food were laid out onto the table.

Sam chuckled before grinning nervously.

"Oh no, thank you." He said as he looked at the two hundred dollar bills he had been given as he left the room, closing the door behind him.

"He must not get tipped well, huh?" Lexi said.

"Yeah probably cause he's a weird dude. I ain't ever seen a weird grin like that before."

Lexi giggled before digging into her lobster thermidor as Fez dug into his lamb chops.

After dinner and dessert, Lexi and Fez couldn't keep their hands off of each other and ended up making love that night on into the morning until sleep overcame them for a brief moment before the rotary phone in their room rang.

"I got it ma, go back to sleep." Fez said before he picked up the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hi, is this Mr. O'Neill?"

"Yeah, who's calling?"

"It's BB from the front desk here in Penn Hills, we're connecting a long distance call from Hawaii from a Ms. Maddy Perez. Would you like to take the call? It'll cost $3.00."

"Yeah I'll take the call."

"Perfect, I'm patching you over now."

The phone rang on the other line and Fez gently shook Lexi awake.

"Lex, wake up."

"Huh? What is it Fez? And please don't wake me up for sex, I'm exhausted." Lexi whined.

"No baby, Maddy is calling from Hawaii. It's a long distance call."

Upon hearing that, Lexi sat up in bed with a surprised look on her face.

"What?"

Then the line connected.

"Hello? Are you guys there? I fucking hate long distance calls, this shit is gonna cost me three bucks." Maddy complained.

"Maddy, hey! Yeah we're here, we can hear you." Fez replied.

"Great, is Lexi there?"

"Yeah she right here. You wanna talk to her?"

"Hey Maddy!" Lexi said.

"Hey! Uh I wanted to talk to both of you guys if that's okay."

"Yeah Mad, go ahead." Lexi replied.

"Great! So, you know how we're all here in Hawaii to convince Cassie to get the fuck away from Nate? Well... he convinced her to end their honeymoon early so they can go to Cincinnati so he can get her settled into his huge swanky fucking mansion." Maddy said angrily.

"What!? W-Wait! Are you telling us that you, Ethan and Kat are there in Hawaii but Cassie and Nate left their own honeymoon early?" Lexi asked.

"That's exactly what I'm fucking saying. I tried to get through to her the second day she was here and she straight up ignored me! I don't know what kind of weird shit he pulled on her but she's completely shut everyone out! I tried my damn hardest with her, so did Ethan and so did Kat! Hell, even Rue and Jules called all the way from Kentucky to try to get your sister away from him and she still wouldn't listen! Then come to find out, I didn't see them at all the next few days, so y'know I thought okay they must be fucking in their hotel room, but I go to the hotel front desk to ask about the Jacobs reservation just last night... and you won't fucking believe what the front desk lady told me!"

"What'd she tell you?" Fez asked.

"That Cassie and Nate left the second night they were here!"

"What the fuck!?" Lexi yelled.

"They fucking left that night you were trying to help Cassie!? Why the fuck would they only have a two day honeymoon? What kinda sense does that make?" Fez asked in a bewildered tone.

"Control. He's fucking controlling her. They fucked off back to Cincinnati and he's probably got her dressed up like his very own sex doll in his mansion."

Lexi shook her head and got out of bed. This was all too much.

"I swear to God imma beat his smarmy ass to a pulp." Fez said.

"Fez... no. That's not needed in a situation like this... it'll only make her want to be with him further... actually, it might have caused her to end her own honeymoon with him early." Maddy said.

"Shit... you're right. He's such a goddamn weirdo!"

"Right? Well listen, I gotta go before this place charges me an arm and a leg for being on the phone long distance. Kat, Ethan and I are flying back today, check out time is in... shit! A few minutes! I gotta go, but I hope you both have a great rest of your honeymoon, and I'll see you both soon!" Maddy exclaimed.

"Alright, see you soon! Lex is in the bathroom but she'll see you all soon too!"

"Sounds good! Bye!" Maddy said before hanging up.

Fez hung up the phone and got out of bed, knocking on the bathroom door.

"Baby? You good in there?"

He then heard a retching noise and a few minutes later the door opened after the toilet flushed.

"You okay?"

"Yeah... I'm fine. That was all just... too much. That and... I think I might have a touch of food poisoning."

"Aw baby, want me to get you some Pepto-Bismol? Some Tums? Some ginger-ale? You got the bubble guts?" He asked concerned.

"No, I'll be fine... I think... Fezco... I think in order to calm my nerves... we might need to-"

"Go home? Visit your sister maybe? See how she's doing?"

"Yeah. But... I wanna go to Boston first. And get settled in with you. I'm sure that'll take my mind off of things." Lexi suggested.

Fezco nodded, he understood.

"Alright. I'll call the front desk and tell them that we're checking out a day early. Imma definitely recommend this place to people though, but for the summer... cause winters here are cold as shit." He said as he started calling the front desk as Lexi popped an Alka Seltzer with water to settle her stomach.

"You doing okay baby?" Fez asked.

"I'll do better once we're on land and not airborne." Lexi said weakly.

"Yeah I know, next time we'll drive. I promise." Fez said as he rubbed his wife's arm.

"We'd better." Lexi replied to her husband before throwing up in the barf bag again.

The pilot then spoke up on the intercom.

"Hello, this is your pilot speaking. We are currently ten minutes away from Boston folks, and we hope everyone has had a great flight so far... and we hope that the woman tossing her cookies in seat 23A will feel better once we land. Anyways, thank you for flying Pan-Am!"

Lexi groaned into the bag, wanting to hide as Fez rubbed her back comfortingly. She couldn't wait to get to Boston...

(A/N: Also a few interesting things about this chapter: - Penn Hills Resort in the Poconos was a real honeymoon resort that unfortunately got abandoned in the 2010s and has been subjected to vandalism, a murderer squatting there and a huge fire that unfortunately burned quite a few of the buildings belonging to the once popular resort. You can view pictures of the abandoned Penn Hills resort online, along with the history of Penn Hills and it's sad demise into the annals of history and you can see their old 70s and 80s commercials on YouTube as well. I highly recommend googling Penn Hills and reading up on it's history.

- Pan-Am the airlines that Fez and Lexi use in this chapter was extremely popular in the 70s but unfortunately went on the decline by the time the 80s came around and ended up shutting down a bit later on. Go Google Pan-Am Airways, they’re pretty iconic in retro America so I also highly recommend googling Pan-Am Airways and their history since this may not be the last time we see Pan-Am Airways showing up in this fic.

- To all my younger readers (I myself am a young writer in my 20s), no one not even myself will remember a time where you had to pay per hour on a long distance call on a rotary phone or a payphone, but it was the norm back in the 70s. In some places I read that it would cost at least $2.00 an hour or it could even cost 75 cents per hour. I saw an article where someone in the 70s complained about the price to call long distance and said they also "Needed money for gas." (Which I totally don't blame them!) Another fun fact, there was a gas shortage in the 70s, so go figure!

- And last but not least, this chapter was difficult to write simply because of the fact that there's not a lot of stuff about the fun things that went on during the heyday of Penn Hills when it was still in operation. Instead nowadays, you'll find a bunch of pictures of a sad and empty vandalized resort that hasn't seen customers for nearly a decade or more.)

#fexi fic #fexi #my fic #euphoria #fexi euphoria #fexi fanfic #uthdth #fexi hive #read the warnings

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thedefinitionofendgame · 2 years

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18.19 grey’s anatomy *spoilers* reactions/opinions:

Winston, don't you DARE make that comment- spoke too late

why Grey's did you have to make Todd "weird"! he and Jo would've been good together...ugh

OKAY Link bugging Jo is such a FRIENDS thing. THIS IS WHY THEY ARE BETTER AS BEST FRIENDS

I knew that someone was gonna threaten Owen eventually. he's trying to do good but like-

I'm sorry, why can sexually active gay men not donate blood?

Simon! NO!

These patients are breaking my heart yet I'm watching Grey's Anatomy so idk why I expected something different

John is gonna go fuck some shit up y'all (sorry, mind my language)

Meredith and Nick are gonna be murdered by Richard

Link never saw Scout screaming his lungs out for the first time but ok-

Levi, honey, you are amazing

JOHN DO NOT RAT OUT OWEN AND TEDDY

still mad they decided to ruin Todd

"maybe we got married too quickly" DAMN MAGGIE WAY TO PUNCH WINSTON IN THE GUT

Teddy has never been a favourite of mine but her words to Owen in the attendings lounge were powerful and istg Owen you better listen

Ellis leave please thank you! you got washed down the OR sink for a reason

NOT THE BLOOD UH OH

JACKSON'S BACK AND APRIL AND HARRIET OMG

Travis yelling about gay men rallying and having dance parties for blood donation was beautiful. HOMOPHOBIA NEEDS TO DIE

IZZY? CRISTINA? WHAT IS THIS EPISODE?

rest under the cut cause it's a 2 hour episode!

I hope April wore comfy shoes lol

I totally understand why Bailey is upset. I get it. But I also understand why Owen (and Teddy) are trying to fight for their cause. So this whole conversation is hurting me

Amelia and April rarely have scenes together so I am so thankful they get a chance to bond in this episode!

Richard stop it right now. Ellis would NOT be proud of you ever so shut the hell up

PLEASE DO NOT MAKE THE DOCTORS CHOOSE BETWEEN SIMON OR KRISTEN I'M GONNA CRY

Nick did you really just undermine Mer and offend her all at once? Go away

Thank you Bailey for doing the right thing from your position. Teddy, Owen, Leo and Allison will be together because of your kindness

Please let the baby make it to Simon before he dies unlike how Sophia was unable to reach Mark before he died...oh thank god. aside, the baby is a little scary (yes I know it's fake)

Amelia just lost Owen again but I hope to god that they will be back, and Teddy too

"I will fight this hateful, stupid rule with you Schmidt" (Bailey) - "yes queen" (Perez)

Link and Amelia got their closure. Even though Link drove me nuts this season, at least he and Amelia can co-parent peacefully and love their child together

Can't believe we're losing Levi, Perez, Helm and the other residents. My heart

Oh god thank goodness Winston and Maggie are making up

LINK DON'T YOU- Jo you saved me from screaming I appreciate it. Encanto and the friendzone, I can deal with!

Okay hold up, Bailey QUITS but now she and Jackson expect Mer to just come back and "save the program"? That's so much pressure on poor Meredith! Pru is so cute though

JAPRIL KISS IN THE ELEVATOR YES YES YES

KAIMELIA KISS IN THE PARKING LOT? OMG BACK TO BACK HAPPY ENDINGS

Nvm, happy endings for everyone except Meredith, who has given up so much. Honestly I feel really bad for her and I hope that s19 brings her a little comfort.

this montage! ALEX! LEXIE! CALLIE AND ARIZONA! CRISTINA! MARK! DEREK! 007...the list goes on. 400 episodes guys, wow.

proud to say i've now see all 400 episodes. some once, some twenty times. no matter how long this damn show goes on for, i will always be grateful for the memories and the laughter and the tears.

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drdelphinecormigay · 2 years

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I’ve seen this floating around but surprised no one’s asked you it:

rank these — callica, calpen, callie/george, carizona, mallie, az/leah, az/eliza

Ooh yeah I’ve seen people discussing this but I never stopped to think about it before! Here goes:

Carizona are definitely my favourite of that lot. I don’t really like any of the others but I love carina with all of my heart she’s so cute and they were actually such a vibe together. If I didn’t love calzona so much I’d really have rooted for them. Good chemistry and just all round good vibes.

Az/Eliza probably come second, and this is weird for me bc I really hated Eliza. She was so annoying and pointless and badly acted and the actress looked like Arizona in a brunette wig which was creepy. BUT, Arizona was so hot in this relationship. Like, that elevator scene, goddamn, I had to take a minute pause and regroup. Even my Arizona-anti gf (we don’t talk about it) was like damn, that was hot. So they come second exclusively and solely for Arizona. But I didn’t like the relationship and was so glad it ended lol.

Callica are my third. And I know this is probably controversial but I didn’t hate Erica, like she was annoying as a character and a bitch in the end, but I thought she and Callie were kinda cute! Sure, most of the appeal was definitely getting to see Callie explore her sexuality, but there were elements of it being Erica that I did really enjoy. Like, I loved that scene where Erica is looking at Callie in the elevator and smiling to herself and Bailey is watching on like ‘what the fuck’, it’s just 10/10.

Now we’re into ‘least worst’ territory once again but Mallie are next. I love them as friends (even though they’re definitely a bit too close in a way that makes me really feel for Arizona and Lexie). I didn’t love them as a couple but like, they weren’t really ever a couple so idk. Their dynamic is pretty fun and I didn’t hate the friends with benefits thing they had going on. I’d definitely rather Mark was less involved in calzona’s relationship though, like there should have been less flirting with Callie and definitely zero fetishising the pair of them bc GROSS.

The final three are pretty much tied bottom but if I had to rank them, Callie/George made me feel the least bad so they can go here. I big time hated it bc George was such a cow and treated Callie so badly when she just wanted someone to love her. Also she was done so dirty and made out to be such a weirdo my poor baby. 0/10 terrible couple. But not as devastating bc Arizona didn’t exist yet.

Calpen were just so ugh. Nasty. I wouldn’t even have hated it that much if Penny weren’t such a bland character and they actually had some chemistry. But the chemistry was completely absent so it was just so uncomfy to watch. Plus it was tragic to see Callie banging on about being happy and Arizona being so upset about it and the custody battle and everything was so gross, I don’t think I really need to elaborate more!

Az/Leah are my bottom one. I know this is a bit stupid bc calpen were worse for calzona’s relationship, but I just hated literally everything about Arizona and Leah. It was so weird and unnecessary and Leah was so fucking annoying and they absolutely did not match at all (outside of the fact that they’re both blonde). I know that was probably kind of the point - Arizona is insecure and self destructive and just going for someone that is the opposite of Callie but like even so. Was it really necessary? Idk. I just hated it. Bad bad vibes.

Thoughts?

#calzona chats

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iwritebadsmutt · 2 years

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"Are you okay?" ~ Ashtray x fem reader Imagine

Summary: Something bad happened to y/n and Ashtray comforts her

Words: 1420 ( including a/n and this

Warnings: sexual assault (I don't know what else)

A/N: ASH AND Y/N ARE A BIT OLDER

"I need to start getting ready," I say to Lexi on FaceTime. I know she is older than me, but after we got close because she's always staying over with fez, and sometimes I make her sleep with me. I'm only staying at Fez's because I'm staying in East Highland for a little while and Fez is an old friend of my sister and I'm pretty close to Ashtray.

"Why are you getting ready?" Lexi asked. "Chris asked me if I wanted to hang out with him today I'm so happy" I let out a scream as I placed my phone on my dresser. "Wait Chris your boyfriend or Chris your friend?" Lexi said as she ate her chips. "Chris my boyfriend dummy" I rolled my eyes at her as I tried to find something to wear.

"OMG, HE TEXTED THAT HIS 5 MINUTES AWAY!" I was practically jumping. "Calm down grasshopper" she laughed at me. "Shut up" I rolled my eyes at her. "So are these pants cute should I wear them with this top?" I asked Lexi. " Yeah it's really cute" she smiled. "okay thanks" I screamed in excitement.

" I have to go, Chris, is here oh my god do I look cute," I said, fixing myself on the camera on FaceTime. "Relax you look fine Y/N/N" she rolled her eyes at me as I left my room to head out "Okay bye," I said as I went down the stairs. "K love you," Lexi said that I hung up on her. "Fez Chris is here love you" I didn't even let him before I left the house.

I walk into Chris's car. "Hey, bae" I smiled as he said that to me. "Hey baby" I kissed him on the lips as he started to drive off. "So what are we going to do today?" I questioned Chris as we approached a red light. "Go to my house and chill" What the fuck. I did not just freak out to fucking lie in bed with him, ugh. "Oh okay," I turned my head to the window as he drove off.

Chris parked his car in his driveway and hopped out of the car and ran into he quickly opened the door for himself. I sighed as I opened the door before the self-lock went off. I slowly walked towards the house as I admire the trees and flowers on the ground. I entered the house and walked straight into his room. As I entered the room he was sitting in his gaming chair playing video games. I rolled my eyes as I sat on the bed and watched TikTok.

——————- 1 hour later ———————

"Do you wanna watch a movie I'm bored" I said as Chris's eyes were glued to his PC. "Sure in a sec". Why the fuck did he call me here if he was just going to play games, if he wanted to play games, I could have just stayed home or something. I sighed as I fixed myself on his bed.

After he finishes playing his game, he comes and lies next to me and opens Netflix. He asks me, "What do you want to watch bae?" He gave me a light kiss on my forehead. "You pick I'm not sure" I looked up at him and looked at his hazel eyes. "Alright I'm putting on a horror movie," he said with a smirk as he started to cuddle with me.

15 minutes into the movie, I feel Chris's hand slowly side up to my belly. I turn my head to look at him, and he is looking down at me, but I just look back at the TV screen. A few moments later he kisses me on my mouth, but this kiss was different. He was passionate about it. He was taking control. I tried to pull away, but he just pulled me closer. It felt like my lips were going to pop.

"Stop" I barely mumbled out because of Chris kissing me. I start to feel Chris's hands start to pull off my top. I push Chris off of me " What the fuck Chris what are you doing? " I said as I got up from bed. "Get back on the bed baby" my mouth dropped at his words. "Get back in bed with you after you did whatever the fuck you just did" I rolled my eyes at him as I fixed my top. "I'm trying to have sex with you duh are you fucking dum now get back on the bed so I can finish what I started".

"WHAT THE FUCK I am not having sex with you I'm not ready we just started dating Chris!" I said yelling so loud I think I could break a glass. "Oh my god y/n we have been together for 6 months I think that's enough time bae" he came closer to me as I backed up from him until I hit the wall. he put my arms up against the wall, so I could not move.

"Your mine" so that means I can do whatever I want to you," he said as his hand was sliding up my stomach higher by the second. "Stop it!" I tried to wiggle out but he was too strong, but I knew one spot that wasn't his dick. Oh my god, I took a big deep breath and I did the hardest kick I ever did. "WHAT THE FUCK BAE" Chris screamed as he fell to the ground "Don't call me bae because we're over" I hovered over him and spat at his face as he was in much pain.

I walked home crying, seeing cars pass by, but good thing Fez's house was only about a 1 walk. how did I not see that Chris was an asshole this whole time, well, I mean, he invited me to his house to hang out, but he was just playing video games. He was barely paying any attention to me. How did I not see this at the moment?

I sighed as I opened the door. Ashtray and Fez were in the living room watching a movie. I didn't want to let them see me cry, so I sped off to my room. but that didn't work. They heard my sobs as I walked by." Y/N are you okay" Ashtray and Fez said, but I just went into my room. I flopped myself onto the bed and screamed into my pillow. I went on to my side and started to ball my eyes out.

A couple of mins later, I heard a knock on the door "Leave me alone" I lightly yelled. But Ashtray opened the door anyways, are you okay "Ashtray I said to leave" I felt him lay next to me.

Ashtray POV

I laid next to y/n she was crying but she was still so pretty doing it I've had a crush on y/n for a long time but she with Chris is such an asshole and she doesn't see that. I put my hand around her and brought her closer to me.

"Are you okay?" She took a second to answer my question. "I mean I'm okay I guess" I don't want her to be okay to be amazing, but there's nothing I can do about that. "What happened?" I thought she wasn't going to answer, but she did. "Chris he uh" my grip tightened, hearing Chris's name come out of her mouth made me mad he better not have done something to her.

"Chris he uh he was mad at me for not letting him have sex with him and so he touched me" My grip was so tight I was going to pop her "Ash let go a little" I lightened my grip oh I'm so going to beat his ass who the fuck does He think he is he really put his hands a on her I need to clam down. ——- 30 mins later————-

"Y/N are you awake?" No response she looked so beautiful sleeping in peace I wanted to kiss her, wait, what if I do she won't know, no one will know. I took in a deep breath and lightly gave Y/N a kiss on her head.

THE END

#ashtray #ashtray x reader #actors #celebrities #ashtray x y/n #ashtray x fez #screenwriting #movies #food #television #ashtray imagine #ashtray fic #ashtray and fezco #euphoria series #ashtray euphoria #euphoria season two #fezco euphoria

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what the hell pt. 3

pairing: euphoria characters x black!fem!reader

warnings: swearing and slight violence.

a/n: final episode to what the hell will be posted after this weeks finale :/ i also tried to fix stuff up at 5 am so something’s gotta be wrong.

words: 1.1k + not proofread

part one | part two | part four | how she came to be

you're on your knees begging, "please, stay with me", but, honestly i just need to be a little crazy.

Fez and Ash weren’t able to get ahold of Custer. he was still out there and Fez had been on edge. Ash had been looking around the house to see if anyone was scoping out the area. Faye was shook up though, she knew she was being looked at a certain way for obvious reasons.

shit was hard.

Monday morning slapped you right in the fucking face.

Cassie tried to do the same thing much to your surprise.

“you fucking bitch!” you yelled in the blondes direction. the entire hallway was looking at you two. Lexi and Jules both pulling you back while Nate was checking on the collapsed girl on the dirty ass floor.

you had been in your locker talking to Jules when a hand flew past your face and out of instinct you swung back. you didn’t know what you connected with, but when you looked down and Cassie laid on the floor stunned you saw red.

“Cassie let’s fucking go!” Nate’s voice boomed through the silencing hallway. Cassie shakily looked up at him him, breathing quickly as she turned her head back to your pissed off form.

“nasty ass fucking bitch!” you yelled before lunging at the screaming girl who looked like a mix between Maddy and Jules. you felt her claw like nails scratch into your hair before landing a punch onto her cheek. as soon as she let out a sickening yell Lexi, who had actually followed her sister over to stop her, and Jules grabbed you.

“just wait till Maddy beats the breaks off your bitch ass! i gave you the benefit of the doubt of just needing to feel something, but ugh!” you groaned in the halls. you looked down at your now ruined fresh set of nails, you were missing a few gems. looking over at the girl you saw her crying eyes.

“you’re a fucking loser right now. literally fuck him, Maddy was your best friend. look at you now…you don’t even look like yourself.” you let out a dry laugh.

“who even are you?” you said with an outstretched palm before allowing it to slap your thigh on the way down.

“you dressing her up like this?” you asked the tall boy before you who was sputtering. you focused your gaze back onto Cassie who was crying in a heap.

“y/n...” the Cassie’s voice cracked.

“you literally could’ve had anyone else.” you sighed before turning around and running straight into Elliot.

“y/n please-“ he started staring down at you. you were so beautiful in this moment to him. wild hair from the tussle, makeup still in tact, wild eyes, red palms, and clearly on a mission.

“baby i know it’s a bad time, but i really am sorry. please just-“ he tried to explain with his hands reaching out towards you.

“fuck outta my way. i’m not accepting another weak ass apology.” you said scooting around him as a group of students “oou”‘ed and “aw”’ed at him getting rejected.

he stood there wide eyed at your retreating form.

Lexi and Jules ran to catch up with you, Rue pulled away from her own locker, where she was watching, and followed you all. Kat and Maddy rounded the hall and followed the group of you.

none of you had all been alone since the exposure.

“you beat her ass!” Rue laughed before covering her mouth when Jules gave her a raised brow and Lexi was struggling to stifle her own laugh.

“wait what?” Maddy asked you all. Jules quickly reexplained what happened to her for you.

“me and y/n were just by her locker talking and Cassie came out of nowhere to slap her, y/n dodged, and then beat her ass.” Jules explained now trying to stifle her own laughter.

Kat let out a loud cackle before everyone else slowly joined in.

quieting down Lexi took notice of you not going off on Rue and decided to question you.

“if…i told you she also beat my ass like a day after exposing us in front of Fez’s house while Faye was a makeshift referee would you believe me?” Rue deadpanned before running a hand through her hair.

“y/n?!” Lexi said quickly turning to you. you laughed before you quickly quieted down. you remembered her script and felt some kind of way. she saw your mood switch and before she could question it Principal Hayes walked out.

“girls.” all eyes turned to him as he stared each one of you down, looking at you longer. “i want all those closely involved to stay and all those who weren’t to leave.”

everyone stepped back leaving you, Lexi, and Jules by his door.

“Vaughn.” he called Jules into his office as the other girls walked back to class.

you and Lexi were left to sit on the bench while Jules as interrogated. this was the perfect time to text Fez that you needed a place to chill at.

y/n: can i come over soon? i just got in a fight and i think i’m going home early.

fez: oh word? was it Rue again?

y/n: cassie got her ass rocked by yours truly

fez: WORLDSTARRRRR

giggling at his message you looked up to see Lexi staring intently at your phone.

shit.

“he’s been ignoring me.” she bluntly said. you nodded before getting to the point.

“you turned my break down into your hero moment, of course he’s ignoring you.” you said watching her face fall before she quickly shook her head.

“no…no, no, no! i- well i did.” she said moving her hands around quickly. she calmed herself down before trying to form a sentence.

“i’m trying so hard, but please don’t make me beat your ass too. i’m knocking this “friend group” off like flies.” you said before she could get a word out.

“i- um…i did and i promise you i changed it. i’m just explaining our lives from my point of view. i did have your words become mine because i thought it was powerful how you told us about ourselves, but i took it out. it wasn’t me.”

“…is Fez in the play?” you asked her. you were relieved your part was gone, but let Fez be in there and she’d be leaking on the pavement too.

“as a bad person? no. as my love interest? …kinda yeah.” she sheepishly shrugged. you sighed in relief. you had to tell him that later. did it change the fact everyone was gonna know everyone’s business though? no. you did feel bad, but you knew the main people who did things up to now didn’t involve you. you were pretty clean compared to Nate or Cassie.

so if it ain’t about me? let’s keke.

“Howard!“ Hayes called from outside of his office as Jules quickly rushed out of the room.

Lexi took a deep breath before marching in.

you sighed and looked up at the lighting in the ceiling til your sight blurred.

if only New Years didn’t welcome you with bullshit.

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pinkpastels113 · 2 years

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Not an emoji question lol but I need to know who are some of your favorite characters from Grey’s?

omg yes. lemme see lemme see...

i am on season 9 so all of these are based on the knowledge/character development up to that point lol- which is just after the plane crash

lexie grey

she is just SO baby ugh and so cute and pretty? i feel like she has a bit of a naive sense about her, a person too quick to look for the best in others and trust, but like- omg. i love her photographic memory and the way she allows others to "use" it, as well as her sense of humor whenever she comes across someone who would need it. "what? i can't do that, i am helping these people" sjdkksjh please, i just want to give her a big hug

and her total denial in being in love with mark sloan? ugh, suffocate me now please

i am SO sad over what happened to her omg i think i cried for half an hour

addison montgomery

at first i did not like her AT ALL but as the seasons went by i would squeal whenever she would appear, seeing as how she is so cool and independent and has the willpower to go on despite being left by two "desirable" men. she just wants a child but is not given the opportunity to have one and she just- took it in stride and moved on, going to the other side of the country to make a career and living on her own. i just- that is just so admirable i wish i can be someone like her

arizona robbins

she is the show's version of chloe beale. enough said :,))

jackson avery

i feel like he is a controversial person to like, but he- at least in my opinion- is just someone who is grown up in a very... secluded household that values and expects greatness, and he has to live up to that in admist his mom's weird affections that consisted of never ending "tailing." i feel like someone who lives/surrounded by that kind of environment is bound to have a mixture of a personality that is both arrogant, confident, charming, but insecure, and i feel like the show really portrayed him well in that sense. also i'm bi and he isn't bad to look at so SASDJHJKS don't come after me omg

okay this is it for now, it will get super long if i don't end it here haha. thanks for stopping by dude and i'm glad i met a fellow grey's watcher <33

#let me know who are some of your favs #lastchildofkrypton #user message #grey's anatomy

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khaleesiofalicante · 2 years

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Verament ma kontx naf liema lingwa nagħżel għalih, għalhekk nagħżel waħda b'"M" fuqha

Good news, I have a week of vacations!! Yay!! Bad news: I need to clean my whole room bc I need to pain it smh. Anyway, how are you btw? Have you finished all the documents you needed?

I'm kinda scared, but lets go!! Also I will try to keep it short bc it was just a fucking great chapter and I loved every single thing, but we would be here all day if I told you how much I ADORE it 💙

"He wasn’t historically great at talking about things anyway." SAME BRO

FEEL YOU. Honestly why is he so relatable?? The dreams, the ocean, the difficult talks.... I relate to him a lot!!!

YES TO CLEANING THE OCEAN AND GETTING GREAT ARMS😎

ELYASS YAS!!

“If it’s there when I check, I am locking you inside the closet.” “That’s homophobic,” Max pointed out. (my parents ALWAYS say that to me, but I cant tell that joke yet😂)

CLARY IS SUCH A LOVE🥺💙

We'd love to see David in basketball short👀

Simon, Lexi, Jace and David playing>>>

Jace be like: You can take whatever you want, BUT I DRAW THE LINE AT CUDDLING PRIVILEGES

HE. FUCKING. KISSED. HIS. WRIST🥺

Max be like: Mark me down as horny and sad😎

Shopping!! Hell yeah!!! (Also who gave David the right to look so good?? I'm looking respectfully...)

Ok, that boy was weird ngl....

My bby scared of his power🥺

THEY GOT HIM A FUCKING JAGUAR.

“So, they got you a car?” Max grumbled. “Mine are trying to get me to go to therapy.” (Is it the worst idea tho....?)

No one can blame Max.. He must look HOT

Not the child fault, I know but WHAT ARE YOU DOING? Look at him!! He's got anxiety and self-seem issues already!!!

NO HONEY YOU ARE NOT A DEMON YOU ARE PRECIOUS AND WITH A GOOD HEART!!!!!

I love how David gets him💙 Also he is sweet and gentleman and basically owns my heart

BLOOD DOESN'T DEFINE YOU BABY?!!!

"When shit happened, the insecurities and anxieties came rushing up again. And he was back where he started." Ugh, thats the worst. Its so tiring sometimes...

Ok, but ✨ANJALI✨ My smart, funny beautiful love😍😍

They are both in love idiots💙💙

Omg him crying 😭😭and Rafe comforting him in a sec😭😭😭 and Rafe holding him as he cries😭😭

COMUNICATION IS THE SEXIEST BITCH

“People have scary dreams when they are going through a lot. Dreams are manifestations of our deepest fears or desires" I know he is not talking to me, but I feel called out...

“Ours is the history of Lightwood-Banes. We don’t kill. We create. We don’t hurt. We love. Do you hear me?” FUCK YEAH!!! THEM >>>>>>

“Or talk to dad,” Rafael said. “They are our parents. It’s literally what they are there for.” (he is so wise and sexy ngl)

Why do I love that Rafe apologised for calling him demon even tho he is used to it and instead uses other words??? I'm emo🥺🥺

"But the fact that he could if he wanted…It scared him. The potential. The possibility. It terrified him." I mean, it makes sense... But I want to hold him and protect him and jsjdjdhdlakjsj

Love the "only my brother is allowed to try to kill me" 🥺 and Selena

THE CURSE AND THE CRIMINAL. WOW. I'M JUST JDJDJSBDJDB LITERALLY ✨THEM✨

Anjali is su fucking beautiful!!!! Also Rafe is definetly the one that cries the most😂

“You should,” Anjali said then. “There is nothing wrong with it.” “I know,” Max said. “I just…I guess I am not good at it.” (my common sense says Anjali but insecurities says Max🙂)

She is the most efficient person and badass woman😎😎

OMG the are all wasted af😂😂😂

“Which one are you talking about?” “Both,” (Valid)

My inmortal gang 😍😍

Mina is such a badass also😎😎 I LOVE HER YOUR HONOR💙💙

“You saw bapak?” “Yeah. He was the one who got everyone drunk,” (Why am I not surprised?)

Also them>>>>>

"Where you thou dumbeth, there I will dumb.” ok but when can they add this to the parabatai oath?

“Would you like to go on an adventure?” Bapak grinned. “Yes please.” “Do you trust me?” Bapak smiled. “Always.” 💙💙💙💙💙

PERÚ!!!!!

✨Comunication my beloved✨

See?? He is not mad at you!!!

"It hurt me, yes. But it didn’t make me hate you,” bapak said softly. "I don't hate you." “Even now?” Max asked. “Always,” (BRO🥺🥺🥺 I'M SERIOUSLY CRYING)

"Everyone…Everyone looks at you like you are some sort of God. But you are just a person. People fuck up. I know that better than anyone. So, I won’t hold it against you. I promise.” He is so wise and they are beautiful and wholesome<3

The fact that Max DID sell his clothes once and Rafael bought them back is gold😂😂

“When you say you mastered it, do you mean you drove people – and some llamas – insane?” Yeah, pretty much...

Dude seriously I'm crying with this conversation😭 is so damm great

If I was to quote the things I LOVED, I would say EVERYTHING bc SERIOUSLY THOSE TWO!!

"Because you gave me something I never thought I could have. You gave me a family. You scared the shit out of me, Max. I was so scared of you. Never of who you are, but of who you turned me into. A father.”

“But then I got to know you. I fell in love with you slowly, day after day, every day a little bit more, but never any less. But you are right. You don’t make it easy. You don't make it easy to love you, Max. You’ve always been a challenge. But I like a good challenge. I like loving you.”

“So, don’t ever think I will hate you,” the man said seriously. “Because I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know how to look at you with anything but love.”

“That’s the boy I raised. Whoever is in your dream, that’s not you. That’s not my blueberry” I'M FUCKING DONE WITH THIS CUTENESS🥺😭

"Magic" FUCK YEAH NDJSKSJS

YES THEY WILL ALWAYS HAVE EACH OTHER AND MAGNUS WILL ALWAYS BE RIGHT THERE

All the things he remember of David.... I'm love them so much💙💙💙

"But whatever happens, remember that I love you. I will always love you.” IS IT THEIR GOAL TO MAKE ME DIE OF EMOTIONS??? 😭😭🥺💙

The hug!!! holy fuck I'm gonna die!!!

✨Malec✨

"Dad was so...dad sometimes." I love this man so fucking much its not ok!!!

“Don't do that,” dad said. “Talk to me.” (I was gonna say "The only one with braincells in this family" but then I remember that he hide the fact he was dying😂)

“Why does that asshole keep haunting me even after death?” Because he is a bitch (derogatory)

"No one gets to hurt bapak. If the nephilim ever fucking dare to try, I won’t hesitate to set the Clave on fire. I will burn it all down.” as you should babe

My man really say: I'm Magnus Bane stan first, in love dork second and Consul at some point of the list and thats iconic behaviour😌

This man. Alec Lightwood-Bane is taking no one shit if they hurt Magnus

I can only imagine someone in the future telling Max: "This is not what your father would have wanted" if he burns down the Clave for hurting Magnus and him just saying shit like "He was actually the one who gave me green light. And actually left a list of stepts to follow. Did you even knew him???"

“Burn it down, my baby. Burn it all down,” his father smiled. “You have my blessing.” (He really is unhinged and crazy and I love him so fucking much hdjdjsjsj💙💙 we can really see where Max and Rafe got it from )

"I was thinking, you could, like, buy me a car?” He has no chill istg😂😂

Wait, is it THE seashell???? Omg omg omg

"The hard thing about talking was not the talking itself. It was the fact that someone else was listening." THIS

HE IS FUCKING WRITING ALL THE THINGS HE WANTS TO REMEMBER OF DAVID!! HOW FUCKING BEAUTIFUL IS THAT SHIT??? 🥺💙

"He would keep David inside a book. In between the pages." Thats the most romantic shit ever don't @ me

No but honestly THANK Ragnor for Max’s look👀

Ok, David definetly has a suit thing lmao😂

David walked over to the office door and locked it. “Technically, that’s not necessary.” Oh shit. Oh fuck. (HOLY SHIT I CANT JDHDYDID MY BABY IS WILD AF)

Jsidjdi I cant with them😂😂

No honey David didn't believe Asmodeus for a sec!!! 🥺🥺

Both of them feeling blessed to be loved by the other hdjdkdjsksnsk

“I keep you there, Max. I keep you inside my heart. You earned the right to be there.” MAVID SUPREMACY FIRST, HUMAN SECOND

✨DAVID BEING SO IN LOVE✨

Yeah, its easier said than done to not listen what people say....

All of the "you are the boy who" is making me cry, no shit 😭💙💙💙💙

“It doesn’t matter how much demon blood you have. Your heart is the purest thing I know.” THIS FUCKING LINE ISTG!!!!!

“Then we will wake up in the morning. And I will tell you all of it all over again.” what can I say beside the fact they own my heart bc they are the purest beings here!???! 💙💙

This was the most relatable and emotional chapter for me tbh. Max is such a complex character and I relate to him on a personal level. love him, I love them. I love you

Goodbye!! Narawkom il-kapitlu li jmiss! Qed nibgħat l-aħjar vibes tiegħi għax-xogħol tiegħek💙

Maltese? Interesting decision. Also, Malta is an island, which really suits Max too!!

ALSO.

I love cleaning rooms/houses! Drop the location!!!! Something that makes it super fun for me is a really good playlist. Let me know an aesthetic (or vibe/ship/character/genre) and I will make one for you bebe.

LET ME DO THIS FOR YOU!!!! 💙

Also I had just moved on from Max's chapter (it was a lot) and now I am right back again in the feels (but in a good way no worries)

I'm so glad you find Max relatable because me fucking too 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Enjoy your vacation days or else ;)

#lbaf

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'Till Death Do Us Part

Part 8 out of 13

When Alex has to bring Philip to work, he and Thomas discover that they both have something in common: they lost their love. They form an unexpected bond and connection about this that grows into something more.

A medium burn with parental feelings about Philip and flowers.

On AO3.

Ships: Jamilton

Warnings: brief mention of loss

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Chapter 8: Red Tulip Means ‘Declaration of Love’

“Alex,” Thomas smiled broadly.

“Yup, that’s me,” Alex grinned, “I hope you don’t mind that I brought food. And that I am barging in on you. I know that birthdays aren’t really your thing, but I did want to do something, so I thought I’d keep it small, but if it’s not okay then-”

Thomas crushed him into a hug, cutting him off: “You’re such a doll, thank you.”

Muffled Alex replied: “No problem,” he wanted to add ‘did it with love,’ but he didn’t want to make it weird, even if it was true.

“I’m glad you didn’t throw a big party or anything,” Thomas said, stepping back and squeezing his the base of his neck before letting go completely and inviting him, “Here, come in.”

He lead Alex over to the couch and got them both something to drink, while Alex set the food out on the table and started up the TV.

When Thomas sat down, Alex said: “You get to pick the movie, but first unwrap this,” as he handed him the small flat, neatly wrapped package.

“Did you wrap this?” Thomas asked, slightly surprised with disbelief tainting his voice.

“Are you saying I couldn't?” Alex sounded offended, but not that seriously.

“I don’t know, you don’t seem the wrapping type,” Thomas shrugged.

“I’ll have you know that I am the king in gift wrapping. The only one better than me in wrapping is Eliza and she can happily have my crown,” Alex said, slightly too proud of the minor achievement, which was adorable.

Thomas chuckled: “Okay, okay, I believe you.”

“Years of practice, baby,” Alex flexed his little noodle arms.

That elicited a snort out of Thomas, who just shook his head with a smile as he carefully started unwrapping the gift.

Alex watched it for a moment, before he couldn't take it. He had promised himself to wait until Thomas’s birthday was over, but this was just too far: “Oh my God, why are you unwrapping it like that? How old are you again? Sixty?”

“Not you too,” Thomas practically wailed.

“I wasn’t going to say it… today,” Alex protested, “But- I mean, come on, with the tape and the saving the wrapping paper.”

“Ugh, excuse me for not tearing it apart like a monster,” Thomas guffawed.

“It’s kinda funny…” Alex bit his lip, “Old man.”

“I hate you.”

“No, you don’t.”

“No, I don’t, but I thought you were on my side, not with James, Laf and Angelica,” Thomas pouted.

“Why wouldn’t I want to be on team cool, when you’re on the other team,” Alex teased, poking Thomas in the side.

The pout deepened: “You’re so mean to me.”

“Yet, I still got you a gift, so forgive and forget,” Alex offered.

“Yeah, yeah, whatever,” Thomas said, going back to carefully unwrapping the gift, not changing his ways and taking his sweet time just because he could.

In the the wrapping paper was a pink book with lungs with flowers growing in them on the cover. On the top it said in cursive ‘a poetry collection’ and the title was: i saw you as a flower, written by Ellen Everet.

“I still have the receipt if you don’t like it, but I know you like to try new authors and I saw it and I thought of you,” Alex rambled.

He once again got cut off by a hug, this time paired with a kiss.

Thomas couldn't express how touched he was by the gift. It was both cute and thoughtful, with a reference to a little thing they did and tied to something he liked to do. Only James had given him such a personal gift in the past seven years.

“You’re so good to me,” Thomas whispered, “I want to keep you forever, you precious little thing.”

“Forever?” Alex whispered back, a little hopeful yet cautious.

It only then clicked for Thomas what he had actually said. He flushed and started to backtrack: “I mean- I don’t- no-” then remembered his conversation with James, “Well, I would be up for it, but just a boyfriend would be nice for now.”

Immediately Alex’s frame relaxed and he beamed. He leaned into Thomas’s side and said: “That does sound nice.”

“So, does that- do you- do you want that?” Thomas had to double check, a voice in his mind telling him to not believe it.

“Yeah, yeah, I would,” Alex smiled, “I’m actually glad you spoke up first, isn’t that sad? Me, always opinions everywhere, never quiet.”

“Hey, we all have our moment and I won’t have you bad mouth my boyfriend,” there were flutters in his stomach just saying that and he saw them reflected in Alex’s eyes.

“Sap,” Alex pushed him over.

He stuck out his tongue and retorted: “It’s your sap now.”

“Yeah, my sap,” Alex repeated giddily.

Thomas sat up again, quickly leafing through the book: “But really, thanks for this, I’m definitely reading it,” before putting it to the side and pulling Alex close to him, “I say we watch The Breakfast Club.”

“I love that movie,” Alex smiled, putting it on, before settling againstThomas’s heart.

Thomas noticed Alex did this thing where he wiggled under his arm and made himself small against his side. He wasn’t sure if Alex knew he did it, but he always looked so content tucked into Thomas’s side, so Thomas couldn't bring himself to say anything about it with the risk that Alex stopped.

The opening of the movie rolled and Thomas just held Alex against his side, warmth that he could say he was cuddling with his boyfriend.

When Thomas awoke the next morning it was with a still asleep Alex tucked against his side in the bed. He smiled softly and tucked Alex’s hair behind his ear and placing a kiss on the forehead of his boyfriend.

He smiled at that and tightened his grip on Alex, the man starting to stir with that. Blearily he blinked and asked: “Wha’s going on?”

“Hey there, sleepy head,” Thomas replied, “We have work today, you need to get up.”

Alex groaned and burrowed his face in Thomas’s chest: “But you’re so comfy.”

Thomas chuckled lightly, but Alex looked to adorable to argue with him. His hair was a mess and his eyes half closed as he curled into himself and tugged the pillow over his head slightly. So he said: “I’m making coffee, you can come down in a few minutes and I’ll pour you a cup.”

A small smile made its way onto Alex’s face and he mumbled: “So good to me,” before rolling over once more.

At that Thomas rolled his eyes then he got out of the bed and got dressed, before padding his way downstairs. There was a lightness in his step after yesterday and he felt better than he had in a while, like he could do anything.

He stopped at Martha’s photo in the kitchen. He didn’t have many pictures, but he had a few Martha’s around the house. He smiled at her and said: “God, if you could see me now, you’d be so proud of me for being happy.”

Behind him Alex watched him, still in his pajamas. He smiled softly, before retreating, not wanting to intrude on the moment. He hadn’t noticed the pictures the first time he was there, but he was glad that Thomas had at least something.

A few minutes later he came back, fully dressed this time, and pecked Thomas on the cheek as he greeted him: “Good morning.”

“Ah, awake now, are we?” Thomas teased, planting a quick kiss on Alex’s lips and handing him a mug that Alex took gratefully.

“Yeah,” Alex said, “Slept well again, didn’t want to let it go just yet.”

“Hm, you usually seem to sleep well, that not true?” Thomas frowned, the answer prickling something in his mind.

Alex looked up from his mug, confused, before smiling softly and explaining: “I usually wake up early, with Pip and just general bad sleepinghabits, but having someone next to me makes it easier to sleep.”

Thomas nodded thoughtfully, glad that he could help Alex to sleep like a normal person. The man had enough bad habits as it was.

They moved throughthe morning, gathering their stuff and getting in Alex’s car, Thomas deciding he could get back on his own after work, since Alex was goingto pick up Philip from Eliza after work.

It was the first time they came together since they started flirting. Normally when one stayed the night it was in the weekend, but despite some of the looks they got, it didn’t feel weird. It was just the next step and both were excited to take it.

One of the people that noticed was Angelica, who pulled Alex into her office, eyebrows wiggling: “So, Alex, how was the birthday boy?”

“Shut up, it was nothing like that. We stayed the night together before, you know,” Alex rolled his eyes at her, hoping he wasn’t blushing.

“But Pip was in the house then,” Angelica protested.

“And there have been times he was not,” Alex countered.

“Come on, give me something,” Angelica shook his arm, “I see in your eyes that something big has happened. Tell me.”

Alex contemplated letting her splutter a bit more, but it wasn’t necessary, because she threatened: “I am willing to break my promise to never mention Hammy the Cat to Thomas.”

“Okay, okay, calm down, I was going to tell you anyway,” he said, then grinned, “I just got a boyfriend, so tha-”

“What?” Angelica shook him even harder, “You made it official?”

He nodded excitedly, before saying: “I’m gonna tell Eliza when I see her, but I don’t know who Thomas is telling and I don’t wanna be weird about it, so try to keep it on the down low, okay? It’s not a secret or anything, just don’t go yelling it off the roof.”

“Of course,” Angelica promised, “God, ‘Lexi, I’m so excited for you.”

“Me too, Angie, me too.”

They chatted a bit more, before Alex couldn't justify wasting work time to himself anymore and they split ways to get to work.

Meanwhile Thomas had barely made himself comfortable behind his desk when his phone went off, he had put the sound on because it was his birthday the day before and forgotten to turn it off again. He saw the caller ID and sighed, it was his mom, he couldn't ignore her again.

He picked up with a: “Hi, Ma, how are you?”

“I would be better if I had a son that could pick up on his birthday so that I could congratulate him properly, but we can’t have everything, I suppose,” she said in lieu of a greeting.

“Sorry, Ma, I got caught up and missed you,” he explained.

“Well, congratulations anyway,” she said.

“Thank you.”

“Did you have a fun day, with the getting caught up in things, I hope it were good things,” she went on, “Because if they made you work overtime on your birthday I’m having words with Washington, I don’t care how good of a boss he is.”

“No, it was good, don’t worry, Ma,” Thomas assured her.

“Yeah, what were you doing? I barely talk to you these days, tell me what’s going on in your life.”

Thomas cringed at that, he had run off to France after Martha’s death and with her buried in Virginia, he had been avoiding his home and family for a while now. He made an excuse: “I’m at work right now.”

“And I am your mother, you can spare me a few minutes,” she said, “Are you still coming to Monticello this summer?”

“Yeah, I’m still coming to Monticello,” Thomas confirmed, he felt bad about ignoring her and he wanted to go home again.

“Good, I miss having you around.”

“I know, Ma,” Thomas felt guilty about not telling her about Alex. She had done a lot for him as a single mother of nine after his dad had died, he could see with Alex how much work it could be. He could spare a few moments to talk to her about everything.

He cleared his throat and said: “Actually, I missed you, because- uhm, my- my boyfriend had gotten me flowers and in the evening he came by to watch a movie together, so I wasn’t on my phone much yesterday.”

“A boyfriend?” she repeated, a bit of delight in her voice.

“Yeah,” he was blushing, “it’s kinda recent thing, well, maybe not, but it wasn’t really official until yesterday, so you’re still the first to hear about it. Sort of.”

“Tommy, I’m so happy for you,” she sounded really glad for him, which was a weight off his shoulders, “After Martha, I never thought I’d hear you sound like that.”

“Me neither,” Thomas confessed.

“Want to tell me about this mystery boy?”

“His name is Alex,” Thomas started softly, suddenly shy, “I know him from work. He’s also friends with Laf and Angelica.”

“Well, I trust Laf and Angie to have good taste,” he could hear the smile in her voice and suddenly he missed her so much.

He chuckled and blinked away tears suddenly welling up. God, he hadn’t been home in ages, having skipped last Christmas.

“What makes this Alex boyfriend material?” his Maasked.

Thomas knew the answer to that: “He can keep up with me in conversation, always keeping me on my toes, yet it’s so easy to talk with him. He’s just filled with passion and it’s amazing to see, but he’s totally different and gentle in other moments. Like with Philip, his son, it’s whack to see.”

“He has a child?”

“Yeah,” Thomas hesitated, “Is there something wrong with that?”

“No, no,” his Maassured him, “Just make sure you don’t get caught up in a divorce mess.”

“Oh, no, Ma, he’s a widower.”

It was quiet for a moment, then his Mareplied: “I’m sorry for his loss, how terrible. Did it happen recently?”

“Almost five years now,” Thomas answered, he knew why she asked. She wanted to know if he wasn’t being used to get through grief. He was touched by her concerned, but knew that wasn’t the case.

“So, I’m getting an grandchild,” she swiftly moved on, satisfied with his answer.

“You already have grandchildren,” Thomas laughed.

“But now I also have a grandson,” she told him.

“If everything goes alright, yeah.”

“You’re gonna be- I’m happy for you,” she said, “I would love to meet them sometime, ask if they want to come to Monticello this summer.”

“I-” Thomas didn’t know what to respond to that, sure, it was a few months away, but that was a big ask and maybe way to fast, “I- I’ll ask him,” he finally decided on.

“Good,” he could practically see his mother nodding, “I’ll let you get back to work now. Don’t forget to call me from time to time.”

“I’ll try,” and he promised to himself to actually try.

“Goodbye, Tommy.”

“Bye, Ma.”

After he hung up, he sat in his office for a moment, mulling over the conversation. It felt good to tell his Maand the conversation had made him more convicted in how much he wanted this relationship to stay.

He worked ‘till lunch then went over to Alex’s office, opening the door and greeting: “Hi, you hungry yet?”

Alex looked up from his furious typing and smiled. He stopped typing completely and replied: “Ah, my wonderful boyfriend, with food offerings.”

It was clear he said that just because he wanted to say boyfriend and Thomas couldn't help the grin that painted on his face, though he still teased: “Oh, am I really nothing more than food to you? I see how it is.”

“You got other qualities too,” Alex assured him, before teasing, “Like- like- oh, this is harder than I thought.”

“Dick.”

Alex just blew him a kiss and Thomas decided to drop it. He watched Alex put his work to the side and felt pride in his chest. When they’d first started eating lunch together, Alex would keep getting distracted by his work, but now he packed it away without needing a reminder.

They ate lunch and argued about which came first: the chicken or the egg. Thomas decided chicken, while Alex was in camp egg, all sparked by the egg on Thomas’s sandwich.

At the end, he did tell Alex about telling his mother after she called, which Alex was luckily cool about it. He just told Thomas that it was cool he had a mom and he should cherish the contact he had with her. However, he hadn’t yet asked him to go to Monticello with him, that felt a bit too soon.

After Thomas’s birthday they gradually fell into a new rhythm, wherein Thomas was over at Alex’s house from Thursday afternoon to Monday morning.

When Alex had to pick up Philip on Fridays. He was home earlier, so he would cook, while Thomas would cook on Thursday, since Alex would have to swing by whoever had picked up Philip that day. Though Thomas would pick up Philip from his Aunties and Uncles often enough.

They hadn’t even fully noticed how embedded they were into each others lives until Alex had a late last minute meeting on a Tuesday, right as he was about to leave to pick up Philip.

“No one is there to pick up Pip,” he said to Thomas the moment he’d heard about the meeting, “Oh fuck, Washington will kick my ass if I miss this meeting. Fuck, fuck, fuck-”

“I’ll pick him up,” Thomas had offered it before thinking about it.

“You?” Alex took a moment to let the offer sink in, “That’s- that’s perfect, oh fuck, thanks. Thank you so so much.”

“Hey, no problem, might as well at this point,” Thomas assured him, only now realizing he’d never picked up Philip from schoolbefore.

“And you’re sure you don’t have anything important that’ll get between you and picking up Pip?” with anyone else it would sound like distrust, but Thomas knew how much Alex worried and cared about Philip’s well being.

“Nah, everyone who could need me is in your meeting, I’m just lucky I have nothing to do with your little project,” Thomas replied, “I just need a note from you with a signature stating it’s okay for me to take Pip with me, might be a bit awkward otherwise.”

Alex snorted at that, before quickly penning it down and repeating the school and address along with the time school was out.

Before Thomas was out the office, Alex stopped him with a quick kiss: “You’re the best, thank you so much.”

“No problem, go kick ass in your meeting, darlin’,” Thomas smiled.

He got a thumbs up in return as Alex spun on his heel and sped off, leaving Thomas to make his way to his car and drive to Philip’s school after emailing Washington about the situation.

Thomas parked in front of the building and walked to the front desk, note in hand where he interrupted the sectary in her typing: “Hi, I’m- I’m Thomas, I’m here to pick up Philip, Philip Hamilton. First time, where do I go?”

“Ah, Ms. Dolley’s kindergarten class? It’s down that hall, do you have parent’s permission?” she replied pleasantly.

“Ah, yeah, right here,” he handed her the note and she checked it over meticulously, before nodding and giving it back: “Seems alright, have a good day.”

“You too,” Thomas nodded back awkwardly, before going down the indicated hall.

When he got to the classroom only Philip was left. He felt pretty bad that the whole thing had made him that late, but better late than never, he reasoned, hoping Philip would agree. He knocked on the door frame: “Hello, here Philip.”

Philip’s head shot up from his coloring book and he cheered: “Uncle Thomas!”

“Hey there, kiddo, sorry for the lateness,” Thomas greeted back, catching the running child in his arms and sweeping him around, before putting him down again, “Go grab your stuff, okay.”

The kid nodded and went about gathering his last stuff, while Thomas shook the hand of the teacher: “Hi, I’m Thomas, I have a note from Alex if you need it.”

“Ah, so you’re the famous Thomas, good to finally put a face to the name,” the teacher replied, “I’m Dolley, it’s nice to meet you.”

Thomas smiled: “Yeah, I somehow never got around to it, mostly picking him up from one of his Aunts or Uncles instead of school.”

“No need to explain yourself to me, I get it with a long job, you’re not the only parent,” she said pleasantly, “Can I see the note, just in case.”

“Of course,” Thomas handed her the note, deciding not to comment on the parent-part.

While she inspected it too, Philip finished packing and asked Thomas: “Why isn’t Papa picking me up? I thought he was going to?”

“Your Papa had a meeting, it was unplanned and last minute. He really wanted to come, Pip, but your Grandpa George needed him,” Thomas explained.

“Was he being way smarter than everyone else and did they need him to kick butt?” Philip asked.

Thomas laughed at the kid’s wording that was obviously Alex’s and agreed: “Yeah, they did, kiddo, they did.”

“Whoo, epic Papa, kicking everyone’s butt,” Philip cheered making ninja poses.

He ruffled the kid’s hair and nodded with a smile. Dolley gave him back the note and said: “Well, looks like everything’s in order, so you’re free to go,” she turned to Pip, “Have a good afternoon, Philip, I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“‘Till tomorrow, Ms. Dolley,” Philip smiled a big toothy grin that was so much like Alex’s.

“Pleasure to meet you,” Thomas bid her farewell, before leading Philip outside, listening to his stories about coloring and their epic game of hide and seek during recess.

His own car had been outfitted with a booster seat as well after too many times of almost forgetting to transfer it. He buckled Philip in, then remembered Alex had his key of the house after leaving it at his office yesterday.

“Shit,” he cursed under his breath, before turning to Philip, “Hey, kiddo, how do you feel about seeing my house for a change?”

“That’ll be the coolest,” Philip clapped his hands.

“Good, good,” Thomas nodded, before texting Alex about the change of plans then he put his phone away to focus on driving.

As they drove Philip talked more about his day at school, before moving on to trees and finally windows. Thomas wasn’t entirely sure how he ended up at the topic, but it was kind of wonderful how much the kid could ramble on about anything if it caught his interest. Again Thomas saw Alex in him.

They rolled up into his driveway and Philip gaped: “You live there?”

It wasn’t that much bigger than Alex’s house, since it was near each other, but the woodwork was definitely more elaborate and Thomas had put a lot of thought in the front of his house. He confirmed: “Yeah, I live there, Pip. Wanna see the inside?”

Philip nodded quickly and Thomas unbuckled him and let him run to the front door, while he grabbed their stuff.

Thomas unlocked the door and told Philip: “Shoes off, please. You’re free to explore to your hearts desire, just come eat a snack and drink something in the kitchen first. It’s on the left there.”

Toeing his shoes off and handing Thomas his jacket, Philip was gone, peaking through every door he encountered on his way to the kitchen, while Thomas hung up their coats. He stopped and stared for a moment at the little coat hanging on his coat rack, shaking his head with adoring disbelief that this was his life now.

He got to the kitchen, mentally thinking of what he had to give to Philip, when he stopped in the doorway. Philip was looking at the picture of Martha he had in the kitchen. He didn’t say anything as he poured him a glass of orange juice.

When he handed it to him, Philipasked: “Who is that?”

Looking at the picture, words from the email from now seemingly so long ago came to him and he said: “That’s your Auntie Martha, she’s with the angels like your Daddy, but she preferred saying she was dancing among the stars. She’s looking over you from there, she’ll guide you home when you’re lost.”

Philip hummed and looked back to the picture studying it closely, before saying: “She’s pretty, like Auntie Maria and Auntie Peggy.”

“Yeah, she is,” Thomas agreed softly.

“Was she your Daddy?”

It took a moment for Thomas to decipher the question, but then he agreed: “She was, yeah. Me and her were married just like your Papa and Daddy were.”

There was a moment of silence, in which Philip drank his orange juice while Thomas sliced an apple. When the juice was gone, Philip decided: “I like her.”

“I’m glad to hear,” Thomas said, giving him the apple slices, “Eat these and then you’re all set.”

Philip happily munched on the slices, before thanking Thomas and rushing off to explore the house, leaving Thomas to think about today.

Ms. Dolley had assumed he was the other parent. It was probably because Philip had told them he was his Papa’s boyfriend, but he hadn’t even protested. He had a booster seat in his car and he was getting sentimental about a coat.

Somehow, Philip had wormed his way into Thomas’s heart and he couldn't imagine a life without the little kid and Alex.

Fuck.

He had accidentally adopted a kid – sort of – while he hadn’t even told the kid’s parent and his boyfriendthat he loved him. He did, God, of course he did, but he hadn’t said it yet.

At all.

And neither had Alex.

“Uncle Thomas!” Philip yelled and he immediately dropped any other thought as he rushed to the sound.

“What’s up kiddo?”

“You framed my picture,” Philip pointed out happily.

“I said I would, didn’t I. I made a pinky promise, I don’t make those lightly,” Thomas told him with a smile, looking at the portrait at end of the hallway. He had hung it up as promised right when he came back from that second date. With all his younger siblings and his two nieces he knew how important it was to make a big deal out of their art and he hadn’t even thought about it.

He looked at the portrait again and made up his mind, he was going to tell Alex he loved him. But he was doing it subtly, because fuck, that shit was too scary for him.

By the time Philip had seen all the rooms and asked a thousand questions about the books on the shelves and the souvenirs decorating the rooms, he was exhausted and had collapsed on the couch while Thomas made dinner.

The door opened and Alex’s voice rang through the hall: “I swear, the next time I see Lee and Adams, they won’t like me. Not that they do now, but oh my God.”

“Hello to you too, darling,” Thomas called back.

“Papa!” two tiny feet pattered down the hall.

Thomas could hear Alex laugh and Philip squeal, before he appeared in the doorway with his son on his hip. He kissed Thomas’s cheek and said: “Hi, Thomas, have a good afternoon with this little scoundrel here?”

“Of course, he was a proper gentlemen, right Pip?” he replied, stirring the food.

Philip nodded: “I explored the house, Uncle Thomas has my picture on the wall and I have another Auntie, did you know I have another Auntie?”

“Really?” Alex raised a brow at Thomas, but before he could say anything, Philip was already responding: “Yeah, she’s Auntie Martha and she’s very pretty. She has all the pretty dresses in the pictures and she smiles nice. Uncle Thomas said she’s dancing among the stars, isn’t that super cool?”

Realization dawned on Alex and his face softened as he send Thomas a small smile: “Yeah, Pip, that is super cool. Your Auntie Martha is watching out for you, just like Daddy.”

During dinner Philip recounted his day, while Thomas assured Alex that everything had gone well during the pick up, before Alex complained about his meeting, apologizing to Philip that he couldn't pick him up.

When dinner was done, Philip asked: “Are we going to have a sleepover here?”

Alex looked to Thomas, who shrugged and indicated that it was up to Alex and he didn’t mind either way. Alex asked in turn: “I don’t know, buddy. Would you like to?”

Philip’s eyes lit up and he said: “Oh, can I, Papa? Can I?”

“Sure, buddy,” Alex chuckled.

“Come on, kiddo,” Thomas got up, “If you help me carry these dishes you get to pick a guest room to sleep in, I’m sure you already found all ofthem.”

Thomas and Philip walked out of the room, leaving Alex to watch them with a content smile as he stayed seated for a while. Taking care of Philip had never been a burden and his friends helped him out so much, but it was nice to have Thomas around.

They allowed Philip to play a little more after dinner, before dressing him in one of Thomas’s sleep shirts and Alex made up a story about a knight, who befriended a dragon and rode between the clouds, before they fell tiredly on the couch.

After a moment of just them sitting there, Alex said: “Thank you for picking up Pip.”

“It really wasn’t a problem, ‘Lex,” Thomas assured him, “I like doing stuff for Pip, he’s a good kid and it wasn’t a problem, so don’t go worrying about it. I see your little eyes.”

“Hey, don’t insult my eyes,” Alex huffed, but Thomas saw relief in there.

“Not insulting, darlin’, I like your eyes too much for that,” he grinned.

“Sap,” Alex rolled his eyes, but didn’t protest when Thomas pulled him into a kiss, before draping himself over Thomas and staying there as they watched Designated Survivor, which they had multiple discussions about.

Alex thought it was good to be as honest as Tom Kirkman was being, while Thomas thought that it was stupid seeing the circumstances. And when Alex said it worked in his favor, Thomaswas quick to point out that it was a script and not real life, which ended up in a discussion of how it could have played out otherwise.

Over the course of the following days, Thomas made a plan to confess to Alex that he loved him. It involved bothering James, who didn’t appreciate it, and bothering Laf, who had to be sworn to secrecy using his Ma’s chocolate chip cookie recipe as a bribe.

He set it in motion the Friday a week later. Alex had left work early to pick up Philip from school, so when Thomas left he went past a flower shop and got red tulips.

First he had wanted to go with roses, but his whole plan hinged on subtlety, since he was going over to James’s house in the weekend, because they hadn’t hung out in forever, while Alex was taking Philip and visiting Herc after the man had gotten the weekend off after a huge fashion deal.

So, he would give the flowers and before Alex could decipher the meaning, he would be gone. Not having to see the reaction or deal with any of that in the moment, giving Alex space to not reject him immediately in his face.

It was perfect if he did say so himself.

With the tulips in hand he opened the door and called out a greeting. From the kitchen he heard Alex’s reply, but his first focus was on Philip, who wanted to show him a drawing he made at school that day.

He stopped however, when he saw the flowers in Thomas’s hand. Cocking his head to the side, he asked: “What are those?”

“They’re tulips, I saw them and got them for your Papa,” Thomas explained. Philip inspected them closely and Thomas couldn't help himself, when he asked: “Up to your standard, Mr. Inspector?”

Philip didn’t mind, with the family he had it was impossible not to be slightly sarcastic, so he just grinned: “On thin ice, but I give you a green light.”

“Why thank you.”

At that point Alex stuck his head through the door into the hallway and asked: “What’s holding you two up? The hallway that interesti-” he stopped when he saw the flowers and asked, “What are those for?”

“Just saw them and thought it would be nice,” Thomas shrugged, like he hadn’t planned this out in detail.

“How sweet,” Alex smiled when Thomas handed him the flowers.

Thomas took a moment to appreciate Alex in all his domestic beauty. He had an apron on and there were a few pans simmering on the stove while he cut the flowers and set them in a vase, nodding in approval to himself when he gave them a spot.

It was so crazy, yet so good to see the man he loved so relaxed and at home. The sight stirred something proud in Thomas’s chest, the small part he played in making Alex look like that as a badge of honor on his chest.

The feeling moved him to hug Alex from behind, lifting him slightly of the ground and making him gasp before he giggled.

He blew a raspberry on his cheek then set him down, taking full responsibility for the tickles he got in retaliation.

This was good, he felt good and he only hoped he hadn’t entirely fucked it up by telling Alex how he felt.

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A/N:

I have not read the poetry itself, but the title was just too fitting not to include it in this fic. I did order it, so maybe by the time I’m posting it I have, but at the time of writing: no.

Also I am not writing smut, just not doing that. If you wanna think they have sex you can, but honestly I’m not touching that with a ten feet pole. No shame to people who do, just not for me <3

(hi im a greyaroace nonbinary lesbian if you think I know how to write that, then you would be incorrect)

#RR Writing #tw: loss mention #Hamilton #Hamilton AU #Alexander Hamilton #Thomas Jefferson #Philip Hamilton #Angelica Schuyler #Jamilton #'Till Death Do Us Part #'Till Death Do Us Part Part 8 #'Till Death Do Us Part AU

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anastasiabeaverhousen87 · 4 years

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Praying to the porcelain God

words: 3205

You been told before never to eat from suspicious food stands, especially if you never tried them before or if Kara or Alex haven’t already approved the food. But today you forgot your lunch at home and the food from the cafeteria was not very appealing for you. One of your co-workers saw you make faces at the food options and invited you to eat lunch with them. They were going to get burgers from a new street vendor a couple of blocks away. It was too tempting; you love cheeseburgers and they made it sound like they were really good. So, you said yes. Everyone was going and you were starving.

The following day you woke up feeling a little odd, a bit nauseous but you didn’t think anything about it. You got a chamomile tea instead of coffee and went about your day as usual. Kara was already gone so you just decided to grab a yogurt and granola bar at work.

You finished getting your things ready and were about to leave the apartment when you felt a sharp pain in your stomach followed by cramping. You went to the bathroom and removed your sweater, you felt a swelling of your abdomen and yes, you lower abdomen was inflamed and felt tender to the touch. Another painful cramp made you run to the toilet and you knew you were screwed the moment you sit down.

y/n: “Fuck!!!, ughh it hurts…damn it, Alex is going to kill me” – you didn’t leave the bathroom for a while, you lamented your poor choices while you were sitting in the toilet seat.

You decided you needed to let someone know you felt like shit and wouldn’t be able to get to work with further incidents, so you called Kara. Kara was softer and if you play your card right maybe she could be the buffer between Alex’s lecturing and you. You dialed her number and put it on speaker while washing your hands, you were standing Infront of the sink mirror and put the phone down.

Kara: “Hi sweet girl, what’s up?”

You were about to respond when you felt nausea hit hard, you saw your reflection become green and you ran to toilet once again. Just in time for you to continue emptying your stomach contents, tears sprung into your eyes as the pain in your stomach grew stronger and effort of being violently ill into the porcelain bowl.

On the other side of the line, Kara was listening to you suffering. “Y/N baby? What’s wrong, where are you?” but at not getting a response she ditched everything to fly straight home following your heartbeat.

You stopped vomiting and felt exhausted, you spit into the toilet and flush it. You use toilet paper to clean you mouth and drop to the bathroom floor exhausted. Kara enter the apartment looking for you.

Kara: “y/n?, oh my God what’s wrong baby?”- Kara panics at looking at your body sprawled in the bathroom floor all pale and clammy.

y/n: “Ughh best guess? stomach bug. I just puked my guts out, and before that I emptied my bowels in a different way” - you grimace at the explosive diarrhea you went through less than half an hour ago.

Kara: “Oh sweetie, I’m sorry you feel so poorly. Come on, let me pick you up from the floor”- the blonde woman tries to pick you up, but you feel like you’re not quite over.

Y/n: “Kara, I don’t think I can move quite yet and the floor is cold, it feels nice” –you move a little on the floor to get more of the chilly sensation on your hot skin- “I feel like crap sissy” a tear runs down your cheek and you look up to your sister. Kara brushes the tear away and cradles the side of your face. You are about to move again into a sitting position when you feel your stomach painfully cramp again and you roll into a fetal position trying to make the pain lessen somehow.

Kara: “Oh baby, looks like a horrible stomach bug. But I’m so bad at human illnesses let me call Alex really quick, she is the best when it comes to this kind of things.” Kara looks desperate and seeing you so sick on the floor. Kara is now sitting next to you holding your head in her lap and running her fingers through your hair.

Y/N: “You can’t, busy. Summit in New York” – you mumble trough clenching teeth.

Kara: “I know she is busy with work, but she can take a phone call if it’s an emergency. Its her or the ER. Your call.”

y/n: “Alex…” – you much prefer hearing your helicopter sister ask a thousand question that being prod and wait in the Emergency Room.

Kara takes her phone out of her pocket and dials the number; it rings a few times and then it connects.

Alex: “Hey what’s up, everything okay?”- the red head asks immediately, knowing her sisters wouldn’t be calling her if it was not an emergency.

Kara: “No, y/n is sick. I just found her on the bathroom floor all clammy and she told me she vomited a lot. Also, she thinks it’s a stomach bug.” You can´t hear what Alex says on the phone, then Kara turns the phone on speaker “Ok hold on, yes. Ok ok now you’re on speaker now”

Alex: “Hi little one. I’m so sorry you got sick baby and I bet you feel awful but I need to ask you a few things ok?”

You nod, even though Alex cant see you, but you think if you can let her think it’s a stomach bug going around the office you’ll be off the hook and avoid the speech on getting food from street vendors.

Y/n: “Yeah ok…”- you feel to tire so yes, you can answer whatever she wants as longs she doesn’t ask you to move.

Alex: “Ok sweetie, Kara mentioned vomiting, what else are you feeling? Do you also have diarrhea? is she warm or cold Kara?

Y/N: “painful cramps, diarrhea definitely that was first and the puked my guts out. Honestly, I don’t think there’s anything left inside my intestines by this point. It was super gross Alex. I feel a little cold now. There’s a bug going on around the office and some of the guys got sick”- you say the last part a bit fast and avoid looking at Kara, then you groan in pain at another cramp.

Kara: “She is all clammy, her cheeks are flush, and she is shivering a little. Also, she is now avoiding direct eye contact…” – Kara raises an eyebrow at you, knowing there’s something you are avoiding.

Alex: – “y/n baby, was your stool a little bloody and watery? Or soft and muddy? , also Kara can you check her abdomen does it look a little swollen and prod very gently please “

y/n: “first one”- You can hear Alex give a long sigh

Kara: “definitely swollen and a bit tender”

Alex: “What did you eat yesterday either at lunch or dinner? And don’t even think about lying to me y/n. I will know if you are lying. That’s not just a stomach bug”

Kara is looking down at you worry on her face, “We ate steak and mashed potatoes with some veggies last night. Lena cooked. and I know I can’t get sick, but Lena was okay. So, what did you eat for lunch baby?”

Y/n: “a cheeseburger” –you mumble

Alex: “Where?”

y/n: “A new place near the building, a few of the guys I work with we got burgers yesterday”

Alex: “when you say ´new place, you mean a well stablished franchise or restaurant? Not a street vendor with doubtful hygiene and suspicious meat or produce, right? - ughh busted, you thought.

y/n: “Street vendor” – you lamented

Kara: “ohh sweetie. You know better than that”- Kara kept her gentle touch but looking a bit disappointed in you.

Alex: “Well baby, I hope the burger was so amazing and worth it, because what you have is food poisoning and most likely due to contaminated ground beef with E. coli. There is nothing to stop it or make it better faster. Your body will get rid of the bacteria during the following days. Simply needs to run its course.”

Y/N: “No cheeseburger in world is worth this pain or disgusting vomiting or explosive diarrhea. I feel like crap Lexie”- you play your Lexi card, so your big sister takes pity on you. You feel bad enough as it is, you don’t need to hear more disappointment from her.

Alex: “I know baby girl. Its quite uncomfortable and painful. You need rest and avoid over exerting, that will only make your stomach feel worse. Kara, I need you to make sure she drinks lots of fluids, she will keep vomiting and having constant bowel movements in the next couple of days and she can get dehydrated very quickly. Lots of water and Pedialyte . Let her stomach to settle first . Avoid giving her any solid foods until she is no longer nauseous or vomiting as much. Avoid juices or other beverages with a lot of sugar or sweeteners that can make diarrhea worse. Let’s wait for 24 hours like this without any food and after that we can see if you can ease her back into eating soft and bland food. Call me if she gets worse or if the fever is too high.”

Y/N: “not even hungry anyways…”

Kara: “will do Alex, I’m taking off work for the week I’ll let Lena know. She is out of town as well, but I can handle goober just fine. right kiddo?”

You just try to crawl into Kara’s lap you starting to feel cold and so very tired. “Yeah, I’m cold. You warm”

Alex: “She will sleep a lot, wake her up and make her drink water or fluids Kara, its very important. Make sure her temperature doesn’t go above 102 F. if she get above that range just make her take a bath in lukewarm water or use a cold compress. Let her eat ice chips, NO dairy, no caffeine, no sugar, or fatty food. If she does eat those, she will end up throwing up everything. If temperature goes above 103 take her immediately to the ER. It shouldn’t but keep an eye on that. Seriously Kara call me anytime ok?”

Kara: “Will do Alex. Thanks, and I’ll call you later once y/n is more comfortable and asleep”

Alex: “Ok, feel better sweetie, I’ll be back as soon as I can. Be good for Kara and try to relax and let your body get rid of everything at its own pace. Don’t rush anything. I love you sweetheart. Love you Kara, bye”

Y/N “Bye, love you Lexie”

Kara: “Bye Alex, love you too” – the phone calls gets disconnected. Kara looks down at you. “You think you are ready to move from the bathroom floor to the living room?”

y/n: “can you help me up to rinse my mouth? It tastes like crap ugh”

Kara: “of course. Up we go”- Kara gently stands up with you in her arms and helps you to your feet.

But you get dizzy and grab ahold of Kara’s arms for support

Kara: “hey hey I got you, easy there baby girl”

y/n: “everything its spinning and I don’t feel so g…” but before you can finish the sentence your eyes go wide and Kara see what’s about to happen and helps you to your knees in front of the toilet once again. Kara holds your hair away from your face with her other hand rubbing soothing circles down your spine while providing word of comfort.

You keep vomiting for a few minutes more “ughh I thought I had ridden of everything by now. This Is so disgusting” a few tears leak down your cheeks and Kara just helps you to your feet again and flushes the toilet.

Kara: “I know sweet girl, but Alex did say you will be experiencing vomiting and other stuff for a few days. So, let’s get you rinse your mouth and settle down in the couch so you can sleep this off, okay?”

You just nod and work on getting your teeth brushed and get rid of the nasty taste. Kara helps you to your room to change into your pajamas.

Kara: “Bed or couch?” -you just point down to your bed giving her your answer. “Okay okay” Kara lowers you on your bed and goes to close the curtains so you can rest more comfortably.

y/n: “Hold me?”- you pout pitifully

Kara: “of course baby girl. Let me just get your water and text Lena to let her know I won’t be into work for a few days and also text your boss you’re sick” – I’ll be right back.

y/n:” don’t want water please just hold me, I’m cold sissy”- more tears run down your cheeks, you just want your sister to hold you now.

Kara: “aww chucks, baby you feel real awful don’t ya? Ok here I’ll call later, and you need to drink water in an hour or two. I will wake you up. come here sweet bean”- Kara moves you so you are now lying basically on top of her, you hide your face into her neck and wrap your arms around her. You are leaching on her warmth shamelessly. Kara doesn’t mind at all begins to pat down your back softly like when you were little she needed to calm you down and put to to sleep.

Kara: “Aww my little koala is here. You’re so cuddly baby. I’m sorry you are feeling so poorly but I’ll be here with you all the time. You just close your eyes and go to sleep. You’ll feel better in no time, you’ll see”

y/n: “I’m never eating cheeseburgers again”- you give a yawn and began to drift off. Kara juts chuckles and starts to hum softly a lullaby song she uses since you were a little girl and where having trouble falling asleep or felt sick. You are out in less than 5 minutes.

Kara wait for you to be completely asleep to grab her cellphone she still has on her pocket. Texts Lena you are sick and will call her later, but you are okay just miserable for eating street food. And then sends a quick text to y/n boss, thank Rao she is close friends with y/n otherwise would be a pain to explain why she is texting instead of her employee.

Kara puts the cellphone down on the nightstand and holds y/n more to her chest and begins to run her hand up and down y/n spine and watches her sleep for a little while until herself starts to feel sleepy and decides to take a nap too.

Kara is awaken by your moving around and painful moaning. You curl into yourself as much as you can, trying to wave through the painful cramp in your tummy.

y/n: “It really hurts Kara, it hurts so bad”- you say through clenching teeth and tears sprung into your eyes once again. You feel miserable and in so much pain.

Kara feels you are getting a bit hotter now and you are sweating too. “Okay little one, I think a bath can help you now, and you need to drink a little bit of water. Come here”

y/n: “No. pelease, no Kara. I just want the pain to stop and sleep again. I don’t want a bath” -you cry softly into her neck

Kara: “I’m sorry baby, but you feel too warm and you will feel better after the bath. I’ll stay with you the whole time.”

Kara picks you up from the bed and takes into the bathroom, she sits you down at the toilet seat while she runs a lukewarm bath for you.

Y/n: “Kara I don’t feel so good…” again you turn green and Kara helps you to sit infront the porcelain bowl once more.

You throw up again, but its mostly bile. Kara holds your hair out of your face while making comforting rubs on your lower back while you continue to be sick. your stomach its already empty from all the previous vomiting and you didn’t really eat anything for breakfast. You feel so weak after the effort it took to vomit once again. You are sweaty and pale and slump into Kara. Kara gently runs a hand down your spine and grabs a small towel to clean off the bile in your lips.

Kara: “sshh …baby come one. Its over now. Here use this mouth wash to rinse and spit it in the toilet” -Kara then flushes the toilet and strips you off your clothes. She also strips down to her underwear and gets into the tub with you. She helps you lean into her so she can wash your skin with a soft washcloth and pour the lukewarm water down your body to cool you down. After a while she notices your feel cooler to the touch. Washes your hair gently and lets you lean back onto her. You have always loved the skin to skin contact when feeling sick or unwell. Your sisters have done this many times over the years as well as you mom Eliza. You like feeling their warm skin and listen to their heartbeat. But Kara posses a special feature, she is warmer than any human. You feel her skin on you help you with the chills and you feel yourself drifting off to sleep again.

Kara notices you are almost asleep, and decides you are cool enough now and gently nudges you awake.

Kara: “sweet girl please don’t fall asleep quite yet. Let me dry you off a bit and you need to drink a little bit of water. Then you can sleep again promise”

You grunt in disapproval “Nuh uh … don’t wanna, I just want sleep”

Kara: “ I know sweetie but its not an option, come one”- Kara immediately stands and grabs ahold of you and takes one of the bath robes and uses one on her and then she uses a big fluffy towel to pat you down enough to remove the water excess but leaving your skin a bit damp to help keeping you cool.

She takes you back to your room and sets you on top of the bed and quickly grabs a set of lose shorts and tank top to avoid overheating you. She then sits you with you back on a pillow resting against the headboard while she speeds to the kitchen to get you ice water.

Kara: “Okay sweetie small sips, just a few smalls sips and that’s it.”- she makes you drink a bit of water and leaves the glass on the nightstand again. You notice she is now wearing a pajamas too and in the nightstand there’s also a bowl with water and a few small towels and an empty plastic bow- “Just in case you feel sick and need to vomit again and avoid a trip to the bathroom”

Y/N:” thank you sissy”- you tear up and your chin trembles.

Kara: “No no don’t cry baby girl. Come here”- she gently lifts you up sits down and then lays you on her side you head resting on her collarbone. She left her soft button- up pajama top mostly open so you can lean into her and feel her skin near the collarbone and upper chest. You settle down and keep listening to her heartbeat.

Kara: “sshh sshh…sweetie just close your eyes and sleep. You’ll feel better soon just sleep now” – once again you feel her gentle touch on your back, down your arms and temple. And that soft voice humming the melody you associate with comfort. you move a little trying to find the perfect spot and just like that in less than 10 minutes you’re asleep.

#supergirl #alex x baby danvers #baby danvers #baby!danvers #alex danvers #baby danvers x kara #baby danvers imagine #b!d #sickfic #i feel sick #vomit warning #food poisoning #caretaker #skin to skin

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cherryhanji · 4 years

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Winter Shenanigans

oneshot. bangchan x reader

genre: romance, fluff, roommate!au, college!au, friends to lovers!au nonIdol!bangchan

words: 8.3k

warning(s): some swearing, I guess

(Anyways~~~ it's my first longest oneshot using a first-person pov. I feel like I want to write this using it. I hope you enjoy it! Luvlots!)

Winter is the worst season for me. Reason? It's cold and melancholic. That's it. I never knew why people loved the winter the most. Ever since I was a kid, I never liked the idea of playing with friends on snowy roads, throwing snowballs here and there. I don't like the coldness of winter that brings me. And what made it worse? My ex-boyfriend dumped me on a cold, winter night. Fuck him and his shitty reasons.

Anyways, I've already moved on. I'm now happily living with my roommate slash best friend, Alexa. Same college sophomores and majors. We're both majoring in Psychology. My parents decided to let me become independent. I'm thankful that I have loving and supportive parents. We both live in a cozy apartment near our school. And that all makes it easy. I just need to think about my college life and our monthly rental pay. Simple, but full of pressure but I still enjoy it because I have my best friend with me. But still, I hate winter.

"Uhm y/n, can I talk to you?" Coming out from her room, Alexa called me softly as if she was hesitating to tell me what she wants to say.

"Hmm, what is it, Lexie?" I tapped the space between the sofa.

"You know about my mother right?" She carefully asked

"Uhm, of course. Why? Is she doing well?" I asked with a bright face. Her mother is ill. She's now bedridden but I hope that she's doing well.

"Unfortunately, no." She said and lowered her head.

"O-oh. Sorry about that. What are you gonna do?" I slowly caress her back.

"Uhm, I am planning to skip the next semester as I need to go back to Gyeonggi-do. It's hard for me. But it's my mother. I can do anything if it's her." She said. I froze, shocked at her confession. But my face softens as I understand her situation.

"Uhm. Are you going to stay there for good?"

"Maybe yes, maybe no. I'm not sure. But sorry to tell you, y/n. I think you need to find a new roommate. I'm really sorry. You can't pay the rent alone so I suggest if you look for another roommate. I'm sorry if I have to leave you. My bad, winter's coming, and here I am, leaving you alone." She said and half-smiled at me. She knows that I really hate winters, especially alone.

I smiled at her to let her know that it's okay.

"No Lexie, don't be sorry. Don't worry about me. How can I be mad at you if it's important to you? Don't mind me. I'm okay. I can find a roommate. But I'll miss you. I'll miss your rants, your screams, our drunk nights after exams. I'll miss hanging out with you. Just be good, and I'll pray for your mother's recovery." Alexa can't help but cry at me. I just hugged her tightly and shush her.

"Thank you, really, y/n. I don't know what will I do without you. I'll miss you too, idiot. Don't worry, there's facetime, and DMs yah know. We can update each other." She said while sniffing her cries. I'll miss my only college best friend. But still sad because I have to endure the incoming winter season. I need to find a roommate soon.

After cleaning the whole day. I decided to contact my new roommate.

Two weeks since Alexa left and within that period, I can't still find a roommate. I even asked the good landlord to help me find one. She gladly accepts it and now she's in front of me, delivering me the good news.

"So here it goes, y/n. I found you a new roommate." She gladly told me.

"Really? Thank you very much! Don't worry, I'll pay you tomorrow for the rent next month." I said.

"Oh no, darling. Don't mind it. He already paid your rent for the next month." She said. Wait, what?? HE??! As in a male? A boy? A man??

"Wait a minute, he, you mean-" she laughed at my shocked reaction.

"Yes, darling, it's a guy. Isn't he so sweet? By the way, he also goes to your school. And he's so handsome. Bet you'll have your eyes out when you see his gorgeous face." She said describing the guy as if he was some lost God who fell on Earth.

"Uh, really? I'm glad to know that we attend the same school. Anyway, when will he move? So I can clean at least the apartment." I asked as I take a look at the apartment. It isn't that dirty because I am a tidy person and so as Alexa, but I feel like it's kinda embarrassing if I didn't clean at least a little bit. Seems like I want to leave a good impression on my new roommate.

"He said he can move anytime if the apartment is ready. Here. Here's his contact. You can message him if the apartments ready." She handed me a card that has a contact number in it.

"Thank you for this," I said and accept the card she handed.

"I need to go. You can call me if you have any concerns. Have fun y/n, with your new roommate." She said and gave a playful wink at me. I just chuckled at her playfulness. Maybe I need to get ready.

I smiled as I send the message. Winter is now starting so I made myself a cup of hot tea. Winter sucks really. Fuck this cold weather. But I wonder why it doesn't feel like melancholic as I said it was? Maybe because of my new roommate? Is it because the landlord told me that he's handsome? Or maybe I'm excited because I got to have a new friend and luckily also attending my school? Who knows?

to: new roommate [22:47]

hello! This is y/n. your new roommate at Yellow Wood Apartment. I am glad to tell you that the apartment's ready. You can move tomorrow. Excited to meet you!

Winter season means there's a possibility of having no classes because of the weather. And that's what I'm facing today. I'm sitting on the couch with my lonely ass and cold feet. As I scroll on my phone, I can't see anything different but people posting their lives every winter, playing outside, enjoying the coldness of the weather. Ugh. Winter shit. I just played some music on my phone as I cook some ramen for myself. This is the only thing that makes me sane every winter. Calm music and ramen.

As I gave myself a hearty meal, the doorbell rang making me shift from where I sit. Maybe it's my new roommate. I fixed myself first in the mirror to make myself at least presentable even if I look like shit.

"Coming!" I shouted as I stumble on my way to the door. I gladly open it and froze in front of a god. Oh no, is he really my new roommate? Is this man sent from above my new roommate?

"Uhm, hi! Y/n right?" The man in front of me snapped me back in reality. I shook my head as he spoke.

"Oh yeah, h-hi .." I said shyly. Oh shit calm your ass down bitch. I look like I'm whipped for this man even though we only met for the first time.

"It's Bang Chan, but you can call me Chan, Chris, Christopher, or baby if you like?" He gave me a suggestive wink. Just what the actual fuck? Is he okay? How can he be this confident in front of me??! He just laughed at my shocked reaction.

"Just kidding. I'm a good person. You can trust me. But, Can I first go inside? It's kinda cold here." He said as he shifted from where he stands.

"Oh! Yes yes! Sorry. Here, let me get these." I said as I reached for his small backpack that was on the floor.

"No, it's okay. I'll look like an asshole if I let a gorgeous girl handle my things." He smiled sweetly to me as he grabbed all his things and went inside the apartment. Gorgeous? Me? Gorgeous? Oh god, what will I do now if I have this gorgeous guy as a roommate?

I showed him his new room and smiled brightly as he saw the cleanliness of it.

"Did you fix this yourself? Woah, It's an eye candy. I'm a minimalistic person. And this makes me so happy. Thank you for fixing this!" He said as he sat on the new fixed bed. I smiled as I saw how he enjoyed his new room.

"Uhm, thanks for appreciating it, Chan. I'm glad that you liked it. Would you like to have a look at the apartment?" I asked him as he still taking a look at his room.

He stands up from the bed and smiled at me. "I would love to!" I went first and he followed me everywhere I go.

"Well, I wish we have good memories as new roommates. I said and gave him a glass of orange juice.

"Yeah. I hope too. By the way, you're a college sophomore, right? Where do you study? Bet it's near the apartment." He said as he drinks his juice.

"Yes. I study at Levanter University. A psychology major. I heard from the landlord that you also attend there. What are you majoring in?" I said as I sit down on the chair.

"Really? It's good to know that we attend the same school. I'm also a sophomore, majoring in Music. I really love music. Ever since I was a child, I've dreamt of being a professional music artist and composer. That's why I chose it as my major." He said. I can see that he really loves music as his eyes twinkle when he talked.

"Really? I hope I can hear you sing someday." I clasped my hands in excitement.

"Oh yeah sure Uh, by the way, who used to live here with you? Is it also a guy?" He curiously asked as he put his elbow on the table with hands on his chin.

"My best friend used to live here. But sadly she needs to go in her hometown to look after her sick mother." I told him. His face saddens a little bit.

Time passed by and we grew close to each other. I found out that he has these gorgeous eight friends since middle school. But some of them are not studying in our school. Jeongin, his youngest friend, looks like my younger brother, so I grew close to him the most. He's so caring, sweet, and lovely. Meanwhile, Changbin and Minho are the ones who also study in our school, like Chan, Changbin is also majoring in music. Minho is majoring in Business Administration. While the others, Hyunjin, Felix, Jisung, Seungmin, and Jeongin are freshmen from other universities. They usually hang out at our apartment and I'm no against in it. I really love hanging out with them. They're so approachable and funny.

"Oh sorry to hear that. I hope your friend and her mother are doing fine." He said and smiled at me. I nod at him in response.

"Isn't it nice today? Winter is already here! It's good to have a cup of hot coffee and a heartful talk." He said as he looked at the window outside.

"I don't think so. I'd never like winter." I shrugged as I drink my juice. He looked back at me as if I was some crazy woman.

"You don't like winter? But why? People love it. It's nice and cozy, I live winter actually." He said and looked at me.

"I just don't like it. I like warm summer, autumn, and spring. Winter never excites me. Even when I was a kid. And my boyfriend dumped me on a cold winter night. That made worse. " I explained to him carefully. He just nods at me. Accepting my hate for winter.

"Oh I see, so how do you endure winter? I mean what do you do when the season comes?"

"I just hang out with my friend. Drinking, eat ramen, or anything that makes us warm. But when I'm alone, I usually sleep or binge-watched some dramas." I said and he nods in response.

"Hmm, it's not that boring tho. Me, I usually write songs and make some mixtapes when winter comes. I just love the feeling and emotions that winter gives me. In that way, I can make my music."

"Really? Wow, you're talented. I wish I have that kind of talent too. But I suck at those." You shrugged and chuckled. He just smiled and talk further.

Alexa decided to study next semester but in her hometown. I'm sad knowing that she'll not continue to study here but we promised each other that we'll contact and update each other.

"Noona!" Jeongin surprised me with a hug as I opened the door of the apartment.

"Oh my Jeongin! How are you, my little boy? Come inside. Hey guys!" I let them inside the apartment. Another noise from the freshmen including Changbin. It's always like this. Every time they go here. It's always this noisy. But I love it. It makes me happy and not alone.

"Hey Channie," I said as I welcomed Chan who looks tired.

"Oh hi, y/n. how's school? Sorry, I let you go home by yourself. I was just busy and these stupid boys asked me to meet them."

"Oh, it's okay. I prepared you some food." I said and cling my arms to his. We always do this. It's very comfortable and I feel like I'm in my home.

"Thank you, dear," he said and ruffled my hair. Oh. That nickname. Fuck. It makes my heart do somersaults. Is it normal to feel this for a friend like him?

"Hey lovebirds, we brought some colas and pizzas!" Minho shouted from the living room as they prepare the food they brought.

"Shut up Minho! Mind your goddamn business there!" Chan shouted

"Okay then!" Minho replied and burst a laugh.

We just sat and decided to watch the newest drama we happened to saw on Netflix.

"I'm freaking tired. Chan-hyung! I think I need to go by now. We still have exams for tomorrow, right Hyunjin?" Seungmin said as he stands up and yawned.

"Oh shit! Right! Hyung! We need to go now! I need to review some past lessons." Hyunjin said as he ready himself to go. The others also get ready. I decided to stand up and try to clean up.

"Let's do that, later. Let's say goodbye first to the boys." Chan said and I just nod in response.

"Goodbye Chan hyung! Goodbye noona! Good night!" Changbin and others bid their goodbyes.

"Yeah, yeah goodnight! " chan said as he pushed the boys out. I chuckled and waved my hand at them.

"Maybe it's time to clean up," I said and Chan nodded and went to the living room to clean.

The annoying alarm woke me up. I still have my classes on Saturdays. But Chan doesn't. When he first wakes up than me, he usually asked me to walk me in school. But sometimes he wakes up late, I just prepare some breakfast for him and leave a note telling him that I left.

As I walk out of my room, I heard some shufflings and noise from the kitchen.

"Morning sunshine! Eat and get ready for your classes." Chan greeted me and smiled.

"Morning Channie. You wake up again early?" I said as I sit down on my chair.

"Yep. I woke up early and can't go back to sleep so here, I prepared us breakfast." He said as he finished cooking and sit beside me.

"Thank you then," I said and started eating.

"I'm going to the mall near the university. Mind if I walk you to school?" He asked

"Hmm. Is it okay?"

"Of course. Hah! " he said and chuckled

"Thanks though. What are you going to do in the mall?" I asked him

"Uh, it's Changbin's birthday on the 11th. I planned to buy him some gifts."

"Really? We should celebrate it here!" I clasped my hand as excitement fills me. It's my first time to celebrate a new friend's birthday.

"Sure thing. I'll wait for you later after classes. Just text me if you're done." I nod at him and he smiled. So excited to celebrate Changbin's birthday. It's two days from now.

We just walked from the apartment to school as I still have a lot of time before my first class starts.

"So see you later y/n. do well, okay?" He pinched my cheeks and scrunched his nose.

"Yes, I will. Now go to the mall and buy Changbin a nice gift." I waved my hand at him as I went inside.

I met Minho at the cafeteria. Luckily we have the same schedule of break time.

"Y/N!" Minho went near me with food in his hands.

"Oh hello, Minho! Uh, can I ask you something?" I asked him and let him sit down on the chair beside me.

"Uhm, what is it?" Minho said as munched on his food.

"It's about Changbin. Do you know anything he loves? Like favorite clothing? Perfumes? Or what? It's his birthday the day after tomorrow, right?" I said and sip on my drink

"Oh yeah, Changbin isn't a picky person. As long as it's from a good friend, he'll love it." He tilted his head and chuckled.

"Oh, it's kinda hard. But anyway, thank you for that. I'm going to buy him a gift later. And I asked Chan to celebrate it the apartment." I said

"Really? That's a good idea! By the way, it's already time. Need to go back! See you around!" Minho stands up and bid his goodbyes. I waved at him and decided to attend my last class.

"Y/n!" Chan waved at me as I saw him outside the campus.

"Hey Channie!" I smile while happily ran to him.

"You look cute doing that," Chan said and ruffled my hair. I lowered my head to hide the lingering blush on my cheeks.

"Channie, do you mind if we go to the mall again? I just want to buy Changbin a gift."

"Hmm.. Sure! I'll help you. " he said and took my hand. God, why is he doing this? He so freaking sweet. I feel like I'm having a date with my boyfriend. Wait-- fuck boyfriend?? Erase erase. We're just friends, okay?

After I got the best gift for Changbin, I decided to take a look at the shelf and found this cute little thing that caught my eye. I took it and stare at it like it holds my future in it.

"You like that one? It's cute." Chan said as he also takes a look at the music box.

"Uh, yeah. But nevermind. I didn't bring enough money for it." I put it back to the shelf as I have no plans on buying it. But I turned to Chan as he grab again the music box and grabbed my hand.

"Let's take it. I'll pay for it for you." Chan smiled and went to the cashier.

"Hey, Chan! You don't have to." I pulled back his arms.

"No. Think of it as my gift for you. A gift to my friend. Don't worry." He said and went to face the cashier and hand his payment to her.

"Thank you for this! I really appreciate it!" I said as I stare at it again and listen to the calming music playing.

"See? You love it. What will happen to you if I didn't buy it?" he chuckled and turn his head to me. Oh no, I know he's staring at me, and stop these loud heartbeats! He might hear it! Why are you like this?? It's a simple gift. Do I like him? Yes, I appreciate all the efforts he did and the small things that he did for me. Do I already like him? I mean, it's not a bad thing if it is. But I'm scared that he might not feel the same. But it doesn't matter to me for now. I just need to forget these lingering feelings.

Changbin's day dropped on a fine Saturday. All of the boys went here including the birthday boy to help in preparing for the party later.

"Need help in cooking?" Chan asked peeking from the kitchen entrance.

"Uhm, yes, please. Changbin's foods are quite a lot!" I said as I cut the ingredients for my own version of kimchi fried rice.

"Poor little y/n. here you go." Chan started to help me, asking what should he do, or what ingredients to put next.

"They're so noisy, aren't they?" Chan chuckled as he groaned to the noise from the living room.

"Don't act like you're not one of them Channie," I teased and smacked his arm.

"Why? I'm a good boy!" I glared at him and he just laughed at me.

"Hey sweethearts! Where are the foods?" Changbin went to us while wearing his birthday hat. It's his idea. 22 years old my ass.

"Just you wait little prince, the food is nearly ready," I said

"Go away Changbin! You're so excited as hell, it's still early! Mind your business outside!" Chan said and shoo Changbin away. He just huffed and pouted at us.

"Happy Birthday hyuuung!" The juniors greeted him cheerfully after we sang him a happy birthday.

After lots of drinking and eating, the other boys were now drunk. Leaving me, Jeongin, Seungmin, and Felix sober. I chose not to drink a lot as I thought of having atleast one here have a sober mind.

I woke up peacefully without the sound of an alarm. Sunday morning. No classes, a good day to rest. But I need to clean first the mess outside.

*ring ring

"Hello? Y/N?" It's Alexa! I missed her voice.

That night, Chan brought some pizzas and colas for us. Watching some movies before going to sleep.

After our classes, Chan and I went first to a fast-food chain to buy some food.

"Lexie~" I screamed at the top of my lungs running to Alexa

"So, how's living together?" Alexa said as she grabbed a slice of pizza and bite on it.

"What do you think you're doing Alexa?" I whisper shouted at her while Chan left and went to the bathroom.

Alexa slept early because of the long travel she took. Me, on the other hand, still resting on the couch, scrolling through my phone, when I felt someone sit beside me.

"Take care of my friend, Chan. I can count on you, right?" Alexa said turned to us before she goes outside.

Winter is near again. And Chan's one year here is near too.

I just need a simple outfit since it's fucking cold outside. But shit, we're going to his parent's house. Maybe it's not bad if I wear something nice beneath my thick parka. Ugh. Why do I feel so nervous? As if I'm getting judged by his parents later. Calm your ass down, y/n. it's just dinner. No more, no less.

Winter is now starting and here I am again, sulking at one corner. We're out of fucking tea! My one and only partner in this season! Fuck!

"Y/n! You ready?" Chan knocked on my door while I'm still getting my bag.

"We're here. I'm glad to show you around my childhood home. This is where I grow up together with my siblings. It's nice isn't it?" Chan said and faced me.

"So y/n, is Chan a good roommate to you?" Chan's dad asked me. Like him, Chan's dad is a good looking man. Like Chan in his 40's. something like that.

"Where are we going?" I asked Chan as he wears his shoes going outside.

I guess winter is not that bad. Especially when Chan is always here beside me, he can make my winter warm and comfortable.

"It's quite calm and quiet isn't it?" Chan said as he stares from nowhere. I just shrugged at him and swayed my feet.

#stray kids #straykids #stray kids bang chan #straykids bang chan #bangchan #bang chan #skz bang chan #stray kids oneshot #stray kids scenarios #stray kids imagines #straykids scenarios #straykids imagines

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beecherdrysdale · 3 years

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Hiii pt3 enjoy !

Slow dancing =🥺😍

Oo yesss the suits would be beautiful. Ooo I’m liking the red dress w a slit. And the black dress😍.

Oo I’m seeing kesh in a long royal red dress w a slit and Kirby w a matching suit or tie with his hair slicked back. 😉

And Brigid would be in a glittery and strappy long black dress w a slit as well. Jamie and Dylan as her dates hehe. All of you would look gorgeous!!

And me possibly in a dark green long dress or maybe a mix of red and black dress? I’m thinking Christmas colours lol.

Also can you walk in heels?

The vibe is open and friendly :))

Awww Brigid you teaching Jamie to braid your hair would be so cute!! Eekkk “my smart boy” love that!

I feel like cooking would be a disaster lol.

Awww making the kids happy that’s cute. Awww I wonder how are kids would be like 🥺🥺 I’like I’m ok w babies but w kids above the age of 2 don’t really like me hehe. Maybe it’s different. Also kesh Kirby calling you all panicked would be kinda funny because he doesn’t know what to do with the baby or kid, but then you come in and everything is calm and he’s just staring at you in awe 🥺.

Yayy everybody knows to skate!! Yes kesh you and Kirby would be so cute skating together! But he’s just being extra protective because he doesn’t want you to fall. You would just be constantly hugging hehe. Also yes he can teach you to hockey stop and tie your skates 😌.

Hahaha brigid + dyl+ Jamie skating would be a bit chaotic, but cute all at the same time. Like they wanna do everything for you. Tying your skates, giving you mitts, beanies, an extra jacket. It’s all covered. They would be constantly around you. Holding your hand, like I can just see them glaring at the guys not to interrupt their moments w you. Even if you want space, they say nahhhhh. Hehe “we have Lexi. Lexi, lexi, Lexi, Lexi” that made me crack up . Ryan and I are everywhere hehe I can finally race him while skating backwards hehe. We would be skating past brigid and co and chirping them and then racing and pushing the boys hehe. I would take photos of kesh and Kirby cuz they are adorable.

Awww poor Quinner, gotta let him have some bruh time lol. But then he sees me w Ryan and gets sad so I go skate with him and yes we would be competitive as well with him teaching me hockey(I do have some tricks up my sleeves ;)

Ooo a hockey game at the end would be so fun. We would slay and win. They guys would be so confused- why weren’t you on the wj team hehe.

Also taking insta photos to flex, and getting hot chocolate 😍

Fin. Onto the next!.

part three is here people. another long post lmao

ok yesss slow dancing is so cute, i love it. and yesss we would all look amazing at the gala. i loveee dresses with slits, like if i’m gonna wear a long dress it has to have one. hehe yes all of us wearing christmas colors and matching our dresses to our dates’ ties. i can usually walk in heels, but at the same time i’m clumsy so not really? idk it depends on how coordinated i am on any given day lmao

yessss omg now i just want to teach jamie how to braid my hair so bad. like that’s the softest shit right there. and then cooking with any of them would just be a disaster lmao. like they would try... but let’s just say it doesn’t go too well

omg hockeys with babies is literally my favorite. like that shit just melts my heart🥺 ugh any of us with our guys and babies would honestly be adorable. and honestly any of them would be doing the same, calling us all panicked bc they need help, and then they’re just in awe when we know exactly what to do. omg i can just imagine kesh with kirby 🥰

yesss kesh and kirby being adorable together skating. and kirby just constantly wants to be touching you bc he’s a bit overprotective (but like in a cute way) and wants to make sure you don’t fall

hehe yes me with jamie and dyl would be so chaotic lmao. like they’re just both trying to do everything for me, like tying my skates and giving me clothes and stuff. and i’m like guyssss ik what i’m doing but they won’t stop lmao. and then on the ice they’re right in my space, trying not to let me fall. so then i physically threaten them just to get an inch of breathing room lmao

hehe yes lexi is off being chaotic with ryan again, racing ofc and chirping everyone. and then she takes cutsie pics of kesh and kirby bc they’re honestly couple goals. but then you realize quinner is sad bc you’re with ryan instead of him so then you go skate with him, and then you’re competitive with him too lmao

hehe yessss all three of us on the same team and somehow our team wins. and they’re just like how? and they’re like you guys should have been on our wjc team, but jokes on them bc me and kesh are american lmao. and then taking cute insta photos ofc and getting hot chocolate

#ask answered #anon answered #skating anon

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watchwithbee · 3 years

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the fosters, s1e11

tw: brief mentions of (fictional) past r*pe and s*xual a*sault, foster siblings having romantic/sexual relationships, poor mental health, father figure fighting an alcohol problem, somewhat shitty commentary but that’s everything I post lmao

1k words

(started about 10 minutes in)

HELL YEAH JUDE

PREACH

STAND UP FOR YOURSELF BBY BOY

ALSO HEY BRANDON YOU PIECE OF SHIT

WHAT THE FUCK DUDE

I’M STILL PISSED AT HIM

Ju: you’re no better than liam >:(

Me: FUCK HIM UP BABY BOY

B: I love callie

[egregious puking noises]

Look ship whatever you want

Just acknowledge when things are problematic

Ship brallie to your heart’s content as long as you don’t condone in*est IRL

I’m not here to police ppl, I’m just giving opinions no one asked for cause that’s the entire purpose of this blog

Oh no jude

Poor boy

I literally hate brandon sm he needs to get his shit together

[aggressive vibing to the theme song]

[weeping] you’re surrounded by love and you’re wanted

I used to think the theme was cheesy

Now i literally love it sm

The RUBBER DUCKY

THE HAND HOLDING

Ugh ads

I really think people are overlooking jude’s feelings rn

Omfg stef’s mom (her name is sharon, bee)

I love her

I love jude and sharon’s dynamic it’s

Chef’s kiss

Immaculate

Sh: I’m not gonna break up with him cause I love his bed

“Subtext, by calvin klein ;)”

Oh right this is the bed that fucks up their marriage

Ju: I’m a taco :D

Me: [I can’t find it but the clip from b99 where boyle says I’m gonna need a minute

It cuts to a black screen that says one minute later than cuts back to charles tear and snot stained face after clearly crying a lot

Boyle: sorry for the sobbing and the wailing and the weird snorting noise I made at the end

But yeah that’s me rn]

Oh god not more jesus lexi drama

I wish mariana and jesus got along better

Also jake t austin jesus walked so noah centineo jesus could run

I love that typed out it looks like I mean jesus the religious figure

Oh shit

Lexi needs to stop gatekeeping and mariana needs to stop taking the division of time as a personal offense

I mean she and jesus are both taurus so I’m not surprised they’re clashing

Oh god callie why did you run away w wyatt

I hate wyatt

I hate the aliens dialogue

W: the government is making it seem fake oOoOoH

Literally hate it

Callie “he’s better off without me” addams foster is getting on my last fuckin nerve

Like the insensitivity?????

The not actually caring about the people around you under the guise of caring about them??????

The only difference between martyrdom and soupyslide is press coverage

The whole Wyatt And Callie On The Run thing is getting old and it’s been happening for like 10 minutes

Self sacrifice isn’t cute sis

WYATT WHAT THE FUCK

He claims to care about her and yet

Deletes the fucking voicemail from her mom??????????

What???????

Christ stef is fucking crying

Sh: my love…

STEF AND HER MOM BOTH CALL PPL MY LOVE

SO FUCKING CUTE

Now wyatt is playing the good guy???F???

Okay hold up

Look

Callie and brandon are both at fault for kissing each other at stef and lena’s wedding

which was SO cute btw

the wedding not the gross kiss

I will say that callie, who was literally r*ped by L*am, was incredibly emotionally volatile then bc everything with him had been stirred up and she just found out he wouldn’t go to jail

No one would be surprised if she did something impulsive and self destructive bc of the trauma, especially something related to having an inappropriate relationship with a foster brother

Brandon knew about all of this and he wasn’t having flashbacks or a bunch of trauma about anything

He should have stopped her or at least pushed her away

And he didn’t

I’m not saying Callie isn’t at fault too, what I am saying is that brandon had more responsibility in that situation and didn’t do what a decent person would do

WYATT AND BRANDON ARE BOTH BAD FOR CALLIE

SHE DOESN’T NEED A RELATIONSHIP RN SHE NEEDS A LOVING SUPPORTIVE FAMILY

Callie is so clearly sprialing rn

At least Wyatt is actually trying to help her

No one can handle a stressful situation in this show

I can’t describe how much I hate the pseudo end of the fucking world energy they’re going for

At least wyatt had the decency to not immediately try to share a bed w her

I like how flustered he gets cuddling her

That’s cute at least

I don’t like that callie didn’t consider that sharing a bed would make him nervous or uncomfy

OH SHIT THERE THEY ARE

MOMS HAVE ENTERED THE CHAT

And now callie, feeling trapped again, is going to run away yet again

And do something impulsive

Yet again

Jfc

Look I have trauma and a strong fight or flight response too, but I dont hurt the people I love

Hitching a ride with a trucker??????????? She’s going to put herself in a very avoidable irreversibly bad situation

I love mike getting to be a good dad figure

It’s rare with the whole alcoholic plot

I really hate that too btw

He has a comforting presence

Let him be a good dad

Mariana you can want to be vegan but pls don’t be a toxic vegan

Let people make their own choices

I love frazzled mike trying to be a good dad

I wish mariana would be a little bit more of a problem solver

If she doesn’t want any animal products or peanut butter offer to make your own lunch maybe??????

I hate how fast Jesus and Mariana forgave brandon after the whole “We ToOk YoU iN wHeN NoOnE eLsE wAnTeD yOu!!! sTeF iS mY mOm!!!!” bullshit

“Mom’s car won’t start” lmao

What the actual fuck callie

If she’s this at risk for such self destructive behavior she needs way more help

HOT GIRL WITH PINK MULLET

MARRY ME

Oh god not the begging for a job scene

I hate this part

I’m a little over half way done with the episode so I’ll cut it here, part 2 will be up shortly

#the fosters #anti brallie #netflix #show review #idk what else to tag this #s1e11 #the fosters s1e11 #watch with bee

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suffering-and-happy-about-it · 5 years

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Mount Everest Ain't Got Shit On Us (Fezco x fem!reader, part 10.)

Description: You were always told that your life will be as you wish it to be if you’ll study enough. That it will pay off if you work hard. And some people were given you like a scary example of what will happen when you don’t obey. But sometimes it feels good to disobey.

A/N: x

Warnings: Fight Club! Wohoo, here we fucking gooo.

Word Count: 2.1 K

Read the rest here, babe: PART 1 PART 2 PART 3 PART 4 PART 5 PART 6 PART 7 PART 8 PART 9

Masterlist and declaration: H E R E

Tagging: @charmed-asylum, @jeyramarie, @pantherxrogers

Sometimes all you need in your life is some silence and calm time to think everything through. It’s not like you try to reach some nirvana or shit, but you need to think. Sometimes a thing happens that totally fucks up your perception of reality and you just cut yourself off from the outside world.

You want to just ride to the school on a bike, listening to some music or the birds singing, to feel the wind in your hair and to escape the reality for a slight moment. And when it’s all said and done, you reach the solution you were searching for and your life just continues. Sometimes when your friends try to help you, they just make everything much, much worse than it was before.

You couldn't just stand Rue's rambling about Fezco feeling terrible. She didn't shut up the whole time, so in the middle of the third paragraph and fourth sentence, you got up, pushed your tray to hers violently, rolling your eyes and taking the earbuds out of your bag, walking off the scene. You loved Rue and Jules like your sisters, but that shit was too much for you to handle at that moment.

Naturally, you did not expect to find a friend in Kat Fernandez at that given moment. It did not matter she is a plus size girl - she had so much confidence that even the most popular girls were friends with her.

She silently approached you when she took a notice that you're not talking with Rue for a week and when Ash told you that you’re not talking to Fezco either. You knew each other, but no as much to be called friends.

“Hey, bitch.” - She said loudly in front of your empty table at the cafeteria. You could hear her through the music playing in your earbuds - the entire cafeteria could hear her.

“Hi, Kat?” - You asked her/greeted her. You took the earbuds out of your ears as she and her boyfriend, a slim boy who looked even more tired than Fezco, sat down next to you. - “Do you need my notes from biology or what?”

“Oh, shut up. You're just looking down, bitch, I'm not going to let you sit alone. I’m not a bitch.” - Kat sighed dramatically and all of a sudden, Lexi sat beside you, then Cassie sat at your table as well and the last one to the freak show was Maddy, the mad queen herself.

Excuse you, since when were you friends with those popular girls? You didn't have a single fucking idea. But you were just scared at that moment to make a move against their invasion.

“We heard that shit went down between Fez and you, girl. I’m so sorry. You were as cute as me and Nate.” - Maddy took your hand to her palm, looking you in the eyes, swinging those fake lashes. One more swing and you were sure that they would fall fucking off. That day was too much for you. WHAT. THE. FUCK. - “How are you feeling, babe?” - She asked with too much affection in her voice. They were all fake as fuck.

“I think I’m... Fine. How do you know that? And I didn’t break up with him, I just wanted some alone time.” - You carefully took the hand off Maddy’s palm, ready to run off with all of your food back to Rue and Jules. They were both watching you - Rue’s expression was similar to vomiting and Jules had a brain freeze.

“Oh, you know, the people tell and everybody just adds something to the story. I heard that you’re preggy.” - Kat answered while she was peeling her orange.

“I heard that some of Fezco’s friends tried to cut your throat.” - Cassie added to the flame with a serious tone.

“And I heard that he cheated on you with that ginger from senior year. Is it real?” - Maddy asked with her eyes popped the fuck out, you had a strong tendency to tell her that she should calm those fucking eyeballs down.

“None of these is fucking true. Not a shitty bit. Jesus.” - You sighed with a sour voice and for everything just getting better, Nate fucking Jacobs was heading to your table. You felt sick at that moment and your day was ruined. You could handle bullshit of those primadonnas, but you knew before he came to your table that Nate is too much of an asshole for you to handle.

But you didn't know how much bullshit his manners will cause.

“And we meet again.” - Nate smiled at you while he leaned to kiss his girlfriend’s temple. Oh boy, you never got violent tendencies, but you would swear to fucking God that you are ready to punch him at any moment.

“How pleasurable.” - You gritted, watching him down with a disgusted look.

“So you finally realized what’s good for you?” - Nate sighed and leaned to you. Oh, you were aware of what he is doing. That fucker was trying to make you feel small, to intimidate you because he was that big, strong boy and you were just a small girl. Too bad for him it didn't work.

Also, was that fucker giving you proposals just in front of Maddy or not? You realized in the next minute - Maddy didn't know that you and Nate have already met. At Fezco’s shop. But Kat did. Aaand... She was talking to Ethan, so she did not hear anything that that piece of shit had said.

How could two people be so lonely in a full cafeteria, sitting surrounded by many people? Was it even possible?

“I told you that Fezco is a zero who makes himself look better than he is. There are particularly... Better boys.” - He licked his lips slowly and you felt ready to vomit all over the table. And thank God for Rue at that moment.

"Hey Y/N." - Rue appeared behind Nate's back. - "Can I talk to ya? We... Ugh... Need to talk about dat... Thingy..." - She stuttered. You nodded with grace, grasping the food off the table, immediately running back to your beloved table. - "Okay, ya glad that I saved ya? And holy fuck man, what was he tryin' to do?"

"He's suggesting things. This was for the second time this happened. Fezco would have killed him on the spot." - You looked behind your back, still seeing Nate with his grinning face. At least he was looking into Maddy's face and his eyes were a small inch before being craved out of the eyeballs.

"Well fuck me, fuck ya and fuck Nate then. He heard it. Got him on da phone, so he heard all of da shit." - Rue gave you her hand over your shoulder. You opened your mouth with a scared face. Nathan was dead. - "Now I know why was so pissed."

"You were standing behind Nate the whole time? Jesus fucking Christ, Rue, use your brain sometimes." - You put your tray on the table and sat next to Jules. Jules smiled at you with love and smoothed your shoulder.

"Man, I can't choose when ma bros call me. And he was just checkin' dat ya safe." - Rue muttered when she made the pills into small pieces, mixing it into her yogurt again.

"I should really speak to him, shouldn't I?" - You asked silently, looking Rue to her eyes. She raised her eyebrows and watched you as if you were a dumb fuck.

You didn't even have to go for Fezco to his shop - he was just casually standing outside the school, watching the entrance, smoking a cigarette. He looked even more tired than he did ever before, he was out of his mind completely.

But his face softened when he saw you in your hoodie, just standing there and watching him. Your eyes started to water as you walked to him to hug him. You missed him so much - you missed his smile, his tired baby blue eyes, his scent, and his raspy voice. By the moment he hummed into your ear, you were already crying into the crook of his neck. How could you miss someone so fucking much?

"Are ya alright, baby girl?" - Fezco whispered after a few seconds. You nodded between the sobs.

He was holding you like there was no tomorrow. He would never say that one person can make him feel as much as you did. Any drug has ever made him feel so alive as your presence did, the warmth in his heart basically every time you have touched him and the bliss when you kissed him. ANy drug was as addictive as you.

You haven’t seen each other in two weeks. If you weren't in front of the other people, even he would most probably cry. And Fezco knew that he will cry, he had so many things to be sorry for.

But then you felt him tense up. Nate has left the school, his hand hazily over Maddy’s shoulder. You could see Nathan’s face go a bit paler when he saw you with Fezco.

“No, no, no, baby boy, no.” - You begged quietly, but it was for nothing. Fezco already made his decision. And if Nate wasn't able to accept it the nice way, he needed to understand in the worse way. That was just Nate's decision.

"We are havin' this conversation for the last fuckin' time, amigo. I tell ya. One more gross word on ma girl, one more look at her and you're fuckin' dead. I had enough of ya bullshit, dawg." - Fezco almost run into Nate and caught the hem of Nate's shirt, tearing him away from Maddy who screamed and jumped few feet to the side with her hands over her mouth and watched both of them with tears in her eyes.

"Do you even realize that all of those people can just tell that you were threating me? Or you're too dumb for this, you ugly fuck?" - And that was that. Nate fell on the ground when Fezco gave him a good hit to the jaw. Everyone was watching their fight. Nate was obviously winning over Fezco with his tall American football body.

But Fezco wasn't willing to give up that easily. He was fighting for your dignity and honor at the moment. Fezco couldn't just lose. In the end, they both stood three feet away from each other. Fez's white polo shirt was bloody as hell, his knuckles were violet and he couldn't open one of his eyes. And Nate didn't look any better. But you and Maddy were quick to stand between them.

"I told you that you shouldn't do that. He's going to the police and you'll end up in jail." - You whispered and took his face to your palm gently.

"What the fuck was that? Are you kidding me, Fezco? What the hell?!" - Maddy yelled at you and you wanted to tell her that you're sorry, but Fez was faster.

"Try to tell yo boy that he shouldn't try to get another girl's panties when he has a girl. Go on. This happened twice." - Fezco answered and spit our blood on the pavement. Maddy stood straight for a second before she turned to Nate, she started to scream in Spanish at him - she was talking about some sex tape and releasing it. You and Rue took Fezco to the car before the teachers could see anything before any trouble could start.

"How could ya be angry at that angel?" - Rue laughed our loud and shove a few strands of her hair behind her ear while she drove the car. Jules sat next to her and you were in the backseat with Fezco's head on your lap. He was watching you and his left eye was crying. You couldn't tell about the other one clearly. - "He just fought with Nate fucking Jacobs. For ya. You're hella lucky."

"And he almost got himself knocked out. But he's my brave warrior." - You ran yours over the short hair on his head. Yeah. You loved him. No matter if he was a dealer or not, you loved him. And he had no problem with fighting other guys just because of you.

So you didn't have any talk. You just... Accepted the fact of what source of his money was. Because that's what people who are completely blind with love do.

#fezco #fezco x reader #fezco euphoria #fezco hbo #fez imagine #rue bennett #rue euphoria #kat euphoria #maddy euphoria #cassie euphoria #lexi euphoria #jules vaughn #jules euphoria #euphoria hbo #euphoria fanfic series #mount everest ain't got shit on us

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Track 2: Afterglow

Summary: Gail just went to the BTS fanmeet with her bestfriend, Eunice, to see Namjoon. She did not expect that her boyfriend from Omegle will see her there -- and that Omegle boyfriend is Min Yoongi.

Pairing: Min Yoongi x named girl reader

Genre: Angst, fluff, smut and a little crack

Rating: 18+

Warning:a little too cheesy :>

Word Count: 10.5K +

Author’s Note: Again, I would like to thank the Gail to my Yoongi, @minyoongail for proofreading and for creating this amazing moodboard! Love you, this one’s for you! <3

PS. Happy happy birthday, Yoongi!

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Flashback: Omegle Circa 2015

Interests: digital art, korea

You are now talking to a stranger.

Stranger is typing..

Stranger: Hi!

You: Hello!

Stranger: How interested are you in digital art?

You: So interested that I know how to do one? Hehe

Why are you in omegle?

Stranger: Really? You know how? I need someone to design an album cover for me.

You: Album cover? Aren't you supposed to have someone do that if you're under a record label?

Stranger: That's the thing.. I don't want this to be under my record label. I just want this album to myself.

You: If you're going to keep it to yourself, then why do you need a good cover?

Stranger: Ya! Can't I at least have something good for myself? Will you please design for me..:)

You: Hmmm, only if you pay me! :)

Stranger: I will pay you, of course!

You: Well then, okay! What do you want in your album cover?

End of Flashback: Omegle circa 2015

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Present: 2019

Yoongi sat on the living room couch, waiting for Gail to arrive. Jimin, on the other hand, is sitting right across Yoongi, still shocked on what he witnessed and heard at their fanmeeting earlier.

"Yoongi-hyung, are you sure? Is Gail really that girl?" Jimin asked for the nth time.

All seven of them are in the living room. Yoongi always tells them about this girl that he met online, but no one really believed him because he never showed pictures or even met up with someone -- except Jimin. Jimin was the only one who defended Yoongi from all the teasing and bantering regarding his imaginary girlfriend.. or girl friend.

This is why after the encounter, and after Gail walked out of the venue, Jimin was the one who made arrangements with the girls to meet them at Bangtan's dorm.

"Are the two of you together right now?" Namjoon asked. Even though they did not believe Yoongi at first, they still pay attention whenever he mumbles "We broke up, again." or whenever he happily whispers "Guess we really can't survive without each other."

"No, we aren't together right now." Yoongi shifted from his seat, perfectly hiding how nervous he is right now. "Is her name really Gail?" He asked Jimin.

Jimin nodded, "That's what Eunice calls her, so I guess?"

Taehyung sat upright and asked Yoongi with wide eyes, "You don't even know her real name? Ugh, hyung, this is too much.."

"I know her name is Abby! I didn't know it is Abbygail." Yoongi mumbled. "Who told you it's Abbygail?" Jin asked.

"No one. I just feel like it's Abbygail." Jungkook facepalmed on Yoongi's answer, "I just don't know how you managed to love, is that what it is? Love?"

Yoongi nodded.

Jungkook continued, "--Love each other all these years without actually meeting up, or knowing each other on a personal level, or actually making these things easier for the two of you."

Before Yoongi could even answer, three girls entered the dorm. Eunice and Lexi are both holding Gail's arms just so she couldn't run away. Taehyung asked Lexi to wait for the two outside because aside from the boys, she's the only one who knows the dorm's password.

“Bubb!” Jimin beamed and went to Eunice to hug her. Everyone’s eyes were fixated on them, “What? She said yes when I asked her to be my girlfriend.” He proudly announced. “Jimin, we’re happy for you, but..” Jin interrupted.

“Oh, right, sorry! Gail, you should talk to Yoongi-hyung.” Jimin directed them to Yoongi’s Genius Lab since they feel like it’s going to be awkward if they talk outside. Since she’s already here, Gail knows that there really is no turning back. Yoongi, walking alongside her, keeps his straight face even though he wanted to hold her hand so badly.

Both of them just don’t know how to act around each other. There’s just so much history. All those years of on and off, push and pull, up and down in their relationship, they forgot to be ready on how to handle the day that they'll finally see each other. Jimin opened the door to Yoongi’s Genius Lab. Yoongi, taking that leap of faith, entered first.

“Come in.” He softly said. Jimin tried his best to suppress his smile because that is the softest Yoongi he’s ever seen or heard. Gail walked towards Yoongi while still looking at Jimin, “Why are you doing this to me, Jimin?” She pouted while Jimin just laughed. “Come on, Gail, Yoongi-hyung’s not so bad.. and Eunice is just in the living room with us.” With that, he pushed Gail inside the room and closed the door.

"Abby.." Yoongi started while leading her to the couch on the right side of the room. They both sat awkwardly on the couch, but Yoongi won't waste his chances today.

Not today.

He held Gail's right hand with his left hand and faced her, "Abby.. baby," he looked down on their intertwined hands and felt his lips form into a smile. "You don't know how long I've waited for this.."

"Yoongi, I'm sorry." Gail whispered while pulling her hand away from Yoongi. The shock on his face became evident for a while, but he cleared his throat and all emotions were gone again. "We broke up, right? Two weeks ago?" She clarified.

"Yes. Yes, we did." Yoongi nodded and felt that familiar weight in his chest. "I'm not ready for this, Yoongi, at least not now. You understand why we broke up, didn't you?"

"I've waited so long for this moment to finally see you, love.." He whispered, sounding a bit disappointed.

"That's why we broke up, remember? I became tired of being the only one pushing for us to finally meet up. That's one of the problems, you only waited. Through the years, the lack of photos and video calls was alright with me, but I have limits too, especially when I finally had the hunch on who you really are." Gail explained, "..and come that fan meet, I tried my best to finally show myself to my so-called long time boyfriend even though we just broke up. I imagined that he would notice me no matter the circumstances.."

Yoongi cut her off, "..But I did notice you, right? I know it was you the moment I laid my eyes on you, even if it's the first time."

"That's also one of the things why I am not ready to talk about this, Yoongi."

Yoongi's expression turned into a wondering one, "Why? I thought you already know it was me. I never failed to lay a lot of hints. I never told you about BigHit, or the exact songs that I write, but I unconsciously write lyrics that is related to how we are at the time.. ever since 2016." Frustration already evident in his voice.

"That's it. That's one of my problems." She whispered, "I was wrong. I didn't know you are you.."

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"I thought you are Namjoon. Ever since 2017, I thought you are Namjoon."

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Dinner time came and everyone is still present in the living room. Yoongi, still in shock with the information, opted to end their conversation after the Namjoon part.

The two of them are sitting in the couch, side by side, but with the feeling that they are farther apart. The others are noisy, playing games and bantering, but to them, this is a comfortable noise, since both are not ready to continue the conversation.

When did it become like this?, Yoongi thought to himself. As much as he was pissed that Gail thought he was Namjoon, he knows he has his own fault.

"Gail.." He whispered. Gail trained her eyes on Yoongi, "Mm?"

"Do you like Namjoon?" Yoongi bravely asked. Gail sighed, "Yoongi, I thought we're not going to talk about this now.."

"Just answer, please. Would you rather have him as the one you've been with all this time? Rather than me?" Pain and jealousy was evident in Yoongi's voice, but regret is also there.

If only he tried more. If only he did better to get to know his girl better.

Gail shifted her eyes to Namjoon. She looked at him with softness that Yoongi did not get from her on their first meeting.

Yoongi wanted that. He wanted the softness from her, heck, he wanted the hard days with her, too. That's why they lasted for more than 3 years.. they are both trying.

"I don't know, Yoongi. He's been my bias for so long, I daydreamed about him a lot. I really thought he was you. Sorry, I like you too as a BTS member, even before we met. My thoughts are just plain messed up right now. I'm sorry, Yoongi. Don't doubt the love that I have for the relationship we had, but please also understand how difficult this is for me. I'm still in shock."

That was the longest that she's ever spoken with Yoongi. He just nodded, "So, you're hesitating, just because he is your bias..and I'm.. the real thing?"

If hurt was evident a while ago, now, it's just shouting in your face. "No, Yoongi. I did not mean it that way.." Yoongi did not let her finish. He just stood up and went to his room, slamming the door as loud as possible.

When he was gone, Gail turned around and saw everyone staring at her. "What did you do?" Eunice asked and stood up from Jimin's side to sit next to Gail.

"We were just talking. I think I just blew things out of proportion. I can't understand myself, Eunice." Gail bit the insides of her mouth to stop herself from shedding a tear, "It's not his fault that my thoughts are messed up."

"Do you want to go home?" Eunice asked. "We'll grab dinner and head home, if that will make you comfortable."

Gail nodded with a heavy sigh. She did not want to hurt Yoongi, but here they are now. She was the one who broke up with him, but why is she patching things up now?

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Flashback: Bangtan's dorm circa 2015

"It's annoying how you're all boys! I don't have anyone to talk girl problems with!" Lexi ranted while she's busy playing with Taehyung's hair.

They are currently in Yoongi's Genius Lab. Yoongi wanted Lexi to be there and blabber about anything because he's at a loss for words to write at the moment. He said he needed a new perspective.

"Lexi, keep talking." Yoongi instructed. "Be thankful that I have a problem today, or else you won't be hearing anything from me." She answered, making Jungkook nod.

"Just give us girl names and talk to us like we're your girl friends." Jungkook suggested. "How will she do that? She doesn't even have girl friends because I'm the only friend she'll ever need." Taehyung boasted.

"You're so full of yourself, huh, Taehyungie.” Lexi remarked, making Jungkook laugh. “Shut up, Kookie, your nickname sounds like a girl already.” Taehyung answered.

Yoongi just listened to their bantering while he’s busy with Omegle. After finding someone that actually talks with knowledge about digital art, he felt contented.

“Yoongi-oppa, can I call you Yoonji-unnie?” Lexi playfully asked while Taehyung and Jungkook are rolling on the floor, laughing their asses out.

“Try that again, Lexi, and I swear you won’t set foot on this dorm again.” Yoongi’s reply made the boys crack up even more.

He returned his attention on his phone screen, waiting for the stranger to reply.

Stranger: Hey, do you have other messaging apps where we can talk more about this project? I need to disconnect because my brother needs my laptop for a short while.

Yoongi thought long and hard on what reply he should give. He can’t give away his identity as Min Yoongi, so he opted to create another account on KakaoTalk with a new number and a new name.

You: We can talk on KakaoTalk. Let me just get your phone number and I’ll add you in a while.

The stranger gave her number to Yoongi and disconnected immediately. He didn’t even get to say a proper goodbye. The number given to him is not from Korea, so he took his time to search which country has this number format.

She’s from the Philippines, at least she’s far away from here. He thought to himself. He created another KakaoTalk account with a different number (good thing he’s ready with an extra number) and stopped for a while to think about a name.

“Yoonji-unnie is not even participating, but okay Lexi, please do tell us about this guy who sucks.” Jungkook teased Yoongi, who did not even gave much attention. The name Yoonji just stuck on his mind.

He remembered playing with the words shooting guard to have his stage name Suga. He had an idea that made him finish the creation of his account and messaged the stranger instantly.

You: Hi, Abby. This is the stranger you talked to in Omegle.

Abby: Hi! Oh my gosh, you’re a real person. Haha. Hello… what’s your name?

You: You can just call me Joony, for the time. So, from the Philippines, huh?

Abby: Hahahaha, wow, someone did their research. Yes. Where are you from?

You: Korea. Why is Korea in your interest? Are you into K-pop or something?

Abby: Kinda? I like EXO a lot though. Do you know them? Did you see them already?

Yoongi smiled on his phone screen. Even if it’s a different group from them, he just think it’s funny that she has no idea that they always run into them especially in entertainment shows and awards shows.

You: Yeah, I know them. They’re famous here. Why do you like them?

Abby: I actually don’t know? But I like Baekhyun a lot.

The conversation just flowed smoothly since it’s about K-Pop. They also talked about the album cover project in details. Yoongi being glad that she understands what he wants.

The talking turned into a week. According to Abby, she just needed a week to finish what Yoongi has requested. It was the morning of the first week when Yoongi saw Abby’s name pop on his phone notifications.

Abby: Hey, Joony, is this okay with you?

Yoongi opened the file first before answering her. The album cover that she created looks like what he just wanted. Another message popped up.

Abby: You said you wanted darkness, and process, and redemption.. so is this okay?

Yoongi felt himself smile while looking at the album cover.

You: Thank you, Abby. I love it. You’re so talented! I didn’t know you understood me so well.

Abby: Well, I didn’t know I understood it that well either, sir! Thank you! :)

End of Flashback: Bangtan's dorm circa 2015

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Present: 2019

Gail sat on her living room couch while Eunice is busy preparing dinner. She stared at her BTS wall and can’t help but glance on both Yoongi and Namjoon.

“Come on, the guy did not even talk to you.” Eunice blurted out, handing Gail her plate complete with rice and beef dish she decided to cook for them tonight. Gail looked a little lost, “Who?”

“Namjoon, silly.” She started eating from her own plate across Gail who’s still thinking about the situation she’s in. “Gail, I only got 2 days left here in Korea. You have to get your shit together.”

“You make it sound so easy,” Gail fed herself a spoonful of what Eunice gave her, “..this is good, thanks. But you know it is not easy.”

“I know it’s not easy for you because you thought your boyfriend is Namjoon, but think! It would be unfair for Yoongi if you’re not going to give this a chance just because you weren’t that good in patching up clues on who your boyfriend is.. also, you’re welcome. When I leave Korea, please eat real food and not only ramen.” Eunice stood up to get them drinks from the fridge. “But we broke up, remember?” Gail reminded her bestfriend.

“Yeah, I know. Get back together. You two obviously need time to be with each other so you can get the pieces back together.” She opened a bottle of soju and placed it on the living room’s center table. “Just give him a chance, Gail, you two owe it to yourselves after all those years.”

As if on cue, Gail received a notification on KakaoTalk. Funny how even if they broke up two weeks ago, she didn’t even bother changing his nickname on her phone.

Baaaby:

Baby, one more.. please?

“Baby” is not even a typo. Please, one more chance.. it might work this time. I want to prove myself now that I can be around you.

Eunice might want to spend the night here.. Jimin and I will fetch you girls if you want to. You can stay at Lexi’s room...

Please, one more? I love you.

“Baby..” Gail whispered after reading her message notifications. Her said boyfriend rarely says I love you directly to her. She always gets it after he says, “You’re crazy, you know that right?” then he would say, “I love that crazy.” She can’t help but smile at the thought. Her boyfriend also called her a maze he’ll never stop figuring out, thus resulting to him saying “You’re my favorite path, the only path even. I love this path.”

“You obviously wanna try, just give it a chance.” Eunice spoke again after finishing her dinner. “I got you. I’ll always be here for you.”

“Of course, you’ll always be here, now that you have Jimin.” Gail joked and teased her a little. “I’m serious, dumbass. Get your shit together and talk to Yoongi!”

“Fine. I will. Do you want to spend the night with Jimin?” She asked, making sure before she answers Yoongi that they can come over. “What? Did I hear you right? You’re kicking me out of the apartment after I cooked your best meal for a long time?” Eunice acted hurt, complete with her hands on her chest.

Gail sneaked a reply to Yoongi saying, “Okay….. baby. Jimin knows my address, we’ll just wait.”

“Shut up, dumbass. I know you wanted to. Yoongi’s asking me if we wanted to come over. They can fetch us.” Gail informed Eunice. Her bestfriend did not even answer, she just went to pack clothes that will last for 2 days. “We’re moving there, bestfriend.” Eunice declared.

“No! We’re not! We’re just spending 2 days there so that you get to enjoy being with Jimin and me!” Gail said, packing her things also. “This is gonna be awkward for me.” A sudden realization hitting her.

“Go hard or go home. No pain, no gain.” Eunice mumbled while they unplug appliances on Gail’s unit.

In less than an hour, someone is already knocking on Gail’s unit door. She’s never been this nervous her whole life, but she did promise her boyfriend that when the time comes, they’ll conquer all odds together. Cheesy for the two of them who are always bickering, but they also had soft moments that Gail held close to her heart.

“I’ll get it, scaredy cat.” Her bestfriend still teasing her, but she knows she’ll always have her back. Gail watched Eunice walk to the door and open it. “Jimin, hi.” She heard her say, “Where’s Yoongi?” Eunice asked.

Gail stood up and picked her things up, “He’s downstairs, scared as fuck.” Jimin said in a judging and teasing tone. “Wow, these cats are scared of each other when they’re also madly in love with each other.” Eunice made Gail hear that, she was sure. Gail walked to the door and she saw Jimin holding Eunice’s hand, pulling her a hug then kissed her forehead afterwards. “Stop teasing them. I’ve been an avid listener of Yoongi-hyung’s rants for years already. Let’s go?”

Gail smiled at Jimin, “Hey. Having fun, aren't we?” Jimin just winked at Gail and rested his hands on his girlfriend’s waist. “Let’s go, your cat prince is waiting downstairs.”

The walk to the car should’ve been easy, except this is the real thing already, not the chat box boyfriend, not even Joony. Gail stopped calling her boyfriend Joony when they got together, his name would always be Baby or other forms of endearment.

They already reached the car and just as she was about to open the door at the back, Jimin and Eunice pushed her in front of the passenger side while the two opened the door at the back and ran inside. Gail just shook her head. “Hey,” she heard Yoongi’s voice beside her. “Thank you.” He said in a soft tone before opening the passenger seat’s door. “Anything for you, baby.” She said, trying out conversing the way they do in their chat box.

“I knew you’d say that. You’re always the one who gave more, I’m sorry.” Yoongi stared at his feet, his voice soft and ashamed. Gail lifted his chin up, “Hey, aren’t we trying here? Why are you sad?” She cupped Yoongi’s cheeks and he just pouted.

“I still can’t believe you’re real, and I’m not sad. I’m happy. Can I hug you?” Yoongi asked. “Here in public? Where there’s a big chance you’ll have a dating scandal tomorrow?” Gail teased. “Who cares? We have a contract with Dispatch. They can’t.” Yoongi pulled her into a tight hug, “My baby..” He whispered, which lead to Gail smiling on his chest.

“Let’s go. I can cook dinner for you.” Yoongi opened the door, “I already had dinner.” Gail answered. “Well, you’re gonna eat again, stubborn. Come on.”

When Gail entered the car, both Jimin and Eunice are bickering on a thing that they should not even be fighting about. Yoongi sat on the driver’s seat and gave her a small smile before driving.

“Come closer! Why are you near the window?” Jimin whined. “I want to be near the window! Come closer!” Eunice answered. “But I want to be near the window, too!” Jimin answered back. “Then you should’ve asked the window to be your girlfriend.” Jimin laughed at his girlfriend’s answer, “That’s a good one.” He acknowledged, then held Eunice’s hand.

“Stop staring. Do you want to hold hands too?” Yoongi asked Gail. “Nevermind, don’t answer.” Yoongi went to holding her hand while using his other hand to drive. It’s good that it’s night time and the car is heavily tinted. In that way, Yoongi will not see her cheeks blushing.

Yoongi started talking, telling her stories on the past 2 weeks that they weren’t talking. It was always like this, Gail remembered. Whenever they break up and get back together, Yoongi never fails to update her on what happened on the time that they weren’t talking. It didn’t matter a lot back then, but now, she finds it endearing.

Being an ARMY for years, she always saw Yoongi only talkative when drunk or when he’s lying or when he’s trying to outsmart the other six boys. Only now did she realize how much Yoongi bared his soul to her, constantly messaging her even if his story is long, no matter how lazy he is.

She noticed that the car is only filled with Yoongi’s noise as he tells Gail that he’s planning to get Holly from Daegu so that they can bond in Bangtan’s dorm. “That would be nice. I’d finally get to meet him. You never told me the name of your dog, smartass.” Gail answered. She looked at the backseat because both Eunice and Jimin are being unusually quiet, which they never were.

She checked the two at the backseat and saw her bestfriend sleeping while still holding Jimin’s hand. Jimin, on the other side, is getting his instax camera, trying his best to not wake Eunice up. He brought his index finger to his mouth, signing “Shhh..” to Gail and struggled to set up his instax. He faced Eunice with the instax and called her softly, just enough for Eunice to hear, “Bubbaa..” Eunice then opened her eyes and faced him the exact time Jimin clicked the camera shutter. Jimin laughed out loud and waited for the photo to come out, Eunice, on the other hand, bit Jimin’s hand. “Stop doing that!” Apparently, this isn’t the first time Jimin took stolen pictures of her.

Gail shook her head and trained her eyes on Yoongi’s hand intertwined with hers. If Jimin and Eunice can hit it off when they only met recently, why can’t she and Yoongi? They’ve been together for years, she thought.

When they arrived at Bangtan’s dorm, Yoongi brought Gail’s things at Lexi’s room which is just beside the kitchen. “This is just our spare room which we let Lexi have. She’s done so much for us through the years.”

“I thought she is your little sister. That’s what you told me when you first told me a story about her.” Closing the door to the spare room, they made their way to the kitchen counter because Yoongi insisted on cooking dinner for her. “She is my little sister. Just don’t tell her I said that.” Yoongi began gathering ingredients from cabinets and from the fridge.

“I’ll just cook pasta if you ate rice already.” He said while Gail just sat on the bar stool behind the kitchen counter, “You know what I want?” She asked. “What? You think I don’t pay attention when we talk?”

Just when Gail is about to answer, Jungkook and Namjoon entered the kitchen, looking for snacks. “Hyung! What are you cooking?” Jungkook immediately stood beside Yoongi, “Something that’s not for you.” He answered the motioned his head towards Gail’s direction. “Ooh, noona! I didn’t see you there.” Jungkook understood the situation that Yoongi wants his alone time with his girl.

Namjoon opened the fridge and got a box of milk from it. “Kook, where are the cookies?” He asked. Jungkook climbed the marble kitchen counter and retrieved the cookies from the top shelf. “What are those doing there?!” Namjoon asked in awe. “I hid it from Taehyung.” Jungkook then threw the pack of cookies to Namjoon which he opened.

Namjoon went to Gail’s side, “Do you want some cookies?” Gail stared at Namjoon, wide-eyed. Even if she’s just here earlier, she didn’t get the chance to talk to Namjoon except on the fanmeet. “Hyung! You’re scaring her. Let’s go!” Jungkook pulled Namjoon away who’s not aware that Yoongi wanted an alone time with Gail.

The two of them went out of the kitchen, leaving Yoongi and Gail alone. “I saw that.” Yoongi is the first to talk. “What?” She asked. “The way you looked at him.” Even if he’s busy slicing ingredients for the dish he’s making, he can’t hide the disappointment in his voice. “Yoongi..”

“No, I don’t want to hear it. Not tonight.” Gail did not speak again while Yoongi continued cooking without saying a word also. When Yoongi starts a fight between them, it’s never because of dreams or time and such, it’s always about boys. Yoongi never held her back with whatever she wanted to do, but when she tells a story about a guy, that’s when Yoongi fumes.

Throughout dinner, Gail tried her best to bring back the talkative and sweet Yoongi that fetched her from her unit, but he’s just so down and not lively at all. Maybe this Namjoon thing is really hitting a nerve while she remembered Yoongi slamming the door earlier.

“Baby, are you jealous?” Gail asked while chewing the meat balls that Yoongi put on top of the bolognese pasta. “No.” He sternly said. She tried feeding Yoongi with a slice of meat ball which he rejected, “Well, okay. Then why are you being so cold?”

“I’m always like this. You’re an ARMY, you would know.” He said in a tone like you don’t know him that well. “When you’re my baby, you get all jealous and shit when it comes to boys.”

“I’m not your baby right now.” Yoongi replied stubbornly. “Act up all you want. I’m trying here.” Gail said while slurping the pasta that Yoongi prepared deliciously. “If you’re going to get jealous like that over and over again, how will this work?”

“If you’re going to look at Namjoon like he gives the world to you over and over again, how will we make this work?” Yoongi stood up and left Gail on the kitchen counter. She sighed, finished her second dinner and washed the dishes. She went straight to Lexi’s room and flopped on the bed.

Stop messing up, Gail, she thought to herself. She texted Eunice because she doesn’t want to roam around the dorm, frightened that she might ran into Namjoon and Yoongi might get jealous more.

“Where are you? Can you go here in Lexi’s room?” was the text message she sent to Eunice, but she didn’t get a reply. After a while, Gail did not notice herself drifting to sleep.

Yoongi sat on his bed, staring at his phone. He’s still thinking about his last conversation with Gail. She’s not even lying, his subconscious stated. Gail was the one who stayed with him through his dark days which is why any threat that can take her away makes him so damn jealous all the time.

But is he really just jealous or Gail really has a thing for Namjoon?

“You’re creepy. Why are you staring into blank space?” Seokjin asked while playing on his phone. “Why are you here on our room even? I thought Gail is here?”

“She is here. She’s at Lexi’s room.” Yoongi arranged his pillows so he can lean on them while he fiddled his phone. “Lexi’s not staying over tonight?” Seokjin asked, surprised. “The girl has her own apartment, you know.” Yoongi said in an ‘as a matter of fact’ tone, “Also, Taehyung had to meet someone tonight. That’s what I heard from them.”

“I know she has her own apartment, but she always stays here even if Taehyung’s not home. Did they fight?” Still not dropping the topic, Seokjin got up from bed and stretched. “I don’t know, ask them.” Yoongi answered coldly.

“Did you and Gail had a fight?” Seokjin asked again, teasing Yoongi. “No.”

“Then why are you here or why isn’t she here with you?”

Yoongi sighed and called Seokjin to sit next to him. That’s when Seokjin knew that it is serious. Yoongi never asked someone to sit next to him, he always moves around and sit with anyone he wants to, but he never asks someone to come over.

He started telling him about the Namjoon issue, how Gail thought he was Namjoon, and how jealous he is because of their encounters and the way she looks at him.

“You’re being a kid.” Seokjin reacts. “Ya! Why me? She’s the one who likes somebody else.”

“That’s just because she thought that somebody else was you! You should understand that she’s in shock too, the same as you. And you left her eating alone downstairs? Bro, she does not even feel at home yet in this house but you left her alone. Let’s say she did look at Namjoon that way, but you left her in an unfamiliar territory when you’re the one who should be making her comfortable.” He clicked his tongue and flicked a finger on Yoongi’s cheek.

It’s already 1 AM and Yoongi decided to go down to get water from the kitchen. He stared at Lexi’s door, contemplating if he should knock, knowing that Gail is already asleep. He just went straight to kitchen without opening the lights, using his phone to light his way to the fridge. When he looked, someone was already in front of the fridge. The fridge door blocking his view on who got there first.

Yoongi decided to just open the lights, just to scare the person there. When he flicked the lights open, the person closed the fridge door immediately and stared at Yoongi in shock.

“Eunice! Sorry, I thought you were one of the boys.” Yoongi apologized without actually meaning it. That’s only when he took in what he was seeing. Eunice is only wearing one of Jimin’s shirt while holding a glass of water. She facepalmed herself and apologized to Yoongi also then she ran to Jimin and Hoseok’s room. “You told me no one was up!” He heard Eunice scolding Jimin. “What? Who’s up?” Jimin asked.

Yoongi shook his head and smiled to himself. Those two are just chaotic, like when Lexi and Taehyung are playing games. He went to the fridge and got his own water. Jimin peeked and saw Yoongi drinking, “Sorry, hyung!” He said. Yoongi just waved him off. “Where’s Hoseok?” He asked, “Don’t tell me he’s there in the room too.”

“What?” Jimin panicked. “He’s not here, of course! He said he needed to do some errands and he’ll come home tomorrow.” Yoongi nodded and waved Jimin for the second time that night. “Go away. I can’t hold back my laugh anymore.”

“I hate you. Don’t tell the boys.” Jimin said goodbye and returned to his room. That’s when Yoongi smiled to himself, laughing at how much they’ve all grown together. He walked to where Gail was sleeping and decided to knock. He thought of what Seokjin said and realized that he’s right, Gail needs him now more than ever.

He knocked again, but still no one answered. Just when he was about to knock again, the door opened. “What?” Gail asked in a sleepy voice. “I just saw your bestfriend wearing only Jimin’s shirt.” Yoongi blabbered, not knowing what to say.

“Is that your way of saying sorry to me? Snitching on my bestfriend?” She rubbed her eyes and rolled them because she knows Yoongi is staring. Yoongi advanced, hugging her again the way he hugged her a while ago before they got into the car, “Maybe.. is it working?” He asked.

Gail chuckled, wrapping her arms around Yoongi’s waist. “Gods, do I hate you.” She sighed. Yoongi smiled, “I always get away with this.”

It’s true. Yoongi can’t also say sorry directly. Whenever he got jealous, Gail just wait for him to cool off. He won’t say sorry for his attitude, he will just send a message telling Gail an interesting story no matter what time it is. That’s when they know they made up, unless Gail doesn’t like the story he’s telling.

Yoongi is back to being in his talkative state which lead him drifting to sleep beside Gail that night. It’s one of their firsts so when he woke in the middle of the night, he opted to pull her closer to him, scared that this might be a dream.

The next morning, he woke up without Gail on his side. He checked his phone which had a message from her.

Baby:

I just went out to go to the CR, just in case you wake up, because I know you wake up at around 6:15 AM. I’ll be back, jellybean. :p

Yoongi does not want to admit that he misses her already, so instead of replying to her message, he got out of bed to seek for her outside. He went to the restroom, but found that it’s already open. Where is she? He thought.

All of the boys’ room doors are closed so he opted to go the kitchen. He found Taehyung there talking to Gail while Namjoon was busy getting cereals and toast. “You’re up early,” Yoongi commented on the two.

“I just got home.” Taehyung answered, “I haven’t slept yet,” Namjoon followed, sitting next to Gail on one of the kitchen’s bar stools. “Do you want cereals? Or toast?” He asked Gail again.

Yoongi just stared, waiting on how will Gail act, but his mouth is quicker than his own mind. “She wants bacon and scrambled eggs for breakfast which I will cook for her later,” Yoongi answered Namjoon. Gail stood up from the bar stool and went to Yoongi, “Actually, I might sleep a little more.” She answered Namjoon. “Come, baby.” She pulled Yoongi away because if she doesn’t, he will get jealous all over again.

It pissed her. It pissed her that none of her explanations work for Yoongi, and it pissed her that Yoongi does not want to talk about it either. When they got back to the spare room, Yoongi went back to bed, frustration written all over his face.

“Are we gonna talk about it now?” He asked.

“No. Not today.” Gail replied, lying down beside him.

Yoongi sighed, accepting defeat. “Until when are we going to hold this in?”

“Until your mind is already open to what I’m going to say.”

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“You’ll be late! Just hug in the car!” Yoongi scolded Eunice, Lexi and Gail as they can’t stop hugging each other before they go to the airport. It’s Eunice’s last day in Korea and who knows when will she be back. “But Yoongi-oppa, I won’t see her for a long time!” Lexi answered and pulled Eunice again for a hug.

“Ya! What are you saying? She’ll be back again here in no time!” Jimin reacted. “Just talk on video calls with Gail as soon as she’s back home!” Taehyung added, “When did you become close anyway?” He asked.

After the goodbyes in Bangtan’s dorm, Jimin, Eunice, Yoongi and Gail went to the car. Yoongi decided to drive for them, while Gail is in the passenger seat. Gail noticed the silence in the backseat so she checked the two.. and saw them just holding hands, while Jimin is just kissing the back of Eunice’s hand.

“I’m gonna miss you all over again.” Eunice told Gail when she saw her looking at them. “Eww, are we like that?” Gail joked, but then started talking to Eunice in their native language. The two talked for quite a while, but it’s mainly Eunice telling Gail that she should stop eating manufactured foods now that she’ll be alone again in her unit, that she should still visit the Bangtan dorm because Yoongi and even Jimin will welcome her there, that she should check on Jimin from time to time now that she’ll be far away. Jimin and Yoongi did not understand a thing that they’re talking about, they just heard their names.

When the airport was already in sight, Jimin pulled Eunice to a tight hug, making her face buried in his chest. “Bubba, are you sure you wanna go?” Jimin asked in pout, showering kisses on top of Eunice’s head. “I don’t want to, but I have to. We talked about this.” Jimin sighed. “Okay, I won’t argue again. I love you.”

“I love you too, my Jiminie. Be good here or else.” Eunice joked. Yoongi stopped in the airport’s drop off area. “Thanks for driving for me, Yoongi-oppa!” Eunice gathered her things and stepped out of the car. Jimin and Yoongi can’t go out so they decided to just let Gail send her bestfriend off.

“Come on. Jimin is hogging you all to himself.” Gail whispered and rolled her eyes to Jimin which Jimin mocked in return. Eunice laughed and gave Jimin one last kiss on his lips before closing the door.

Now the two are left alone.

“Gail, did you and Yoongi talk already?” Eunice asked while they’re pulling her luggages. “Not yet.” Gail honestly answered, looking apologetic because she knows her bestfriend has been pushing her ever since they day they met Yoongi.

“Why? Are there any problems?” Checking in her luggages, Eunice held Gail’s arm to comfort her if there really is something bothering her. “Same old.. Yoongi’s jealous of the adoration I had for Namjoon over the years. I don’t know if he understands that I just need time to let this all sink in, that my heart still knows that it’s him who I love.”

“Then go tell him. I’m not the one who should hear that, but I guess I needed to hear that too. I’m starting to be worried that you haven’t sort out your feelings yet.” The two of them sat on the chair as they wait for Eunice’s flight to be called. “I just don’t know how to act around him, that’s all. Believe me! I’m trying!”

“Ohh, you don’t have to try. It will come naturally, if the two of you are really for each other.” Eunice tapped Gail’s head, reassuring her that it will all work out.

“But what if we aren’t?” Gail asked in pure confusion. “I’m scared that it won’t work.” She confessed.

“What if it does work?” Eunice asked, but it’s really just a rhetorical question. She just wants Gail to realize what does she really want.

“I’ll make it work.” She answered, finally realizing how does she really feel about Yoongi. “That’s it.” Eunice gave Gail one last hug before she goes back to the boys in the car. “See you next time.”

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Yoongi and Jimin were just talking when Gail opened the car door. “Did you cry?” Yoongi checked, just in case his girl needs comfort right now. “No.” was all she said then stared out of the window. “Don’t hold it in if you really want to.” Yoongi ruffled her hair and pulled one of her hands to hold while driving.

On the way home, Yoongi doesn’t know whether Gail will still go to their dorm or if she wanted to go back to her unit. He doesn’t want to ask either because what if she says no? What if she really just endured her time in their dorm because she wants Eunice to still see Jimin while being with her?

“Are you going home or are you going to our dorm?” Yoongi asked, tightening his grip on Gail’s hand. Gail thought a lot about her conversation with Eunice. She thinks that the talk must come soon. “Where are you going?” She asked Yoongi back. “Back to the dorm. Why?” Yoongi hopes she’ll still come, even if it’s just them.

“You’re my home, right? Then I’m coming with you.” She answered nonchalantly making Yoongi sport his famous gummy smile. Even Jimin in the backseat let out a tiny cough. “Unless you don’t want me there..”

Yoongi was quick to reject, “No! Of course, I want you there. I’ll make dinner for us.” He said. Gail just smiled at him, remembering all those conversations they had wherein Yoongi just randomly blurts out dinner menus that they would like to try in the future.

This is the future. It’s time.

When they got back to the dorm, Jimin wordlessly went straight to his room, leaving the two behind. They saw the others lounging on the living room while playing Uno cards. “Do you want to join them?” Yoongi asked with a little bit of hope that maybe Gail wants some alone time with him. “Sure. We don’t have anything to do anyways.” Disappointed, Yoongi just walked with her to the living room.

They both sat beside Lexi who’s currently leaning on Jungkook’s shoulder. “Tomorrow’s your last day of vacation, boys, what will we do?” Lexi asked the bunch. They usually celebrate the last day of their vacations by eating outside or doing fun filled activities. “I say, we go skydiving!” Jungkook suggested.

“Ya! What is this? Run BTS?!” Seokjin is quick to reject. Unlike Jungkook, there are hyungs that doesn’t like extreme adventures. “Can we stay home?” Yoongi interrupted. “..if that’s okay with you, guys. I swear, I’ll cook our meals.” He backed up his request. Everyone just looked at each other, oblivious to the fact that Yoongi just wants more time with Gail, unlike before wherein they can just pull him anywhere.

“Alright, hyung. I still need to finish songs, anyway.” Namjoon was the first to agree. “Besides, Jimin might not be in the mood.” Hoseok added. “He told me that they got into a fight the other night because he doesn’t want Eunice to leave.” Taehyung blabbered. Lexi was quick to flick her bestfriend in the forehead, “Why are you so talkative?” She asked.

“The other night?” Gail clarified. If she’s not mistaken, that was also the night wherein Yoongi saw Eunice in the kitchen. “Yes? Why?” Taehyung asked. Yoongi is just about to answer when Jimin emerged in the living room. “That was that night, hyung, and whatever you’re going to say, don’t say it.” Yoongi just gave Jimin a sheepish smile then went back to talking with the others.

“Are you done with your song, hyung?” Namjoon asked Yoongi. Gail just listened attentively since she doesn’t know how will Yoongi react if she talked to Namjoon. “Almost. It’s both easy and hard to write about myself, though.” He answered. Namjoon looked at Gail and gave her a smile, “Yoongi-hyung is used to write about you, instead of himself.”

“Really?” After focusing on Namjoon for so long, only now did Gail wonder which of Yoongi’s lyrics are about her. Heck, she doesn’t even know that he writes about her. How could she not figure it out from before?

Yoongi did not speak after that. He just took Gail’s hand and pulled her into his work room. Ever since the day they met personally, Yoongi wanted to tell her everything. How she made him feel, how he always subtly put lyrics into BTS songs that maybe will make her figure out who he really is, how he’s so excited for them to finally meet.

Here they are.

After closing the door to his work room, Yoongi took the courage he has to start speaking to her. No pretentions, no lies. Just him baring his soul to the love of his life. Gail, on the other hand, thought that this is the best time to have that talk. That talk that will decide whether they should continue with their relationship or not. Now that she knows that her boyfriend is not just a small time celebrity, she’s sure that Yoongi has a lot of reservations. She just needs to know what are those.

“Look, Yoongi, I’m really sorry that I thought you were Namjoon.. it’s just that his lines, I really thought it was you.” She blurted out. “But baby, those are also lines that I wrote, and we write together at times..” Yoongi clarified.

“Do you remember our first argument?” He pulled Gail to sit with him on the couch placed on the right side of his work room. “The one where you told me out of your stubbornness that who cares if we break up, you didn’t really know me anyway.”

Gail bit her lower lip, “You know how I get when I’m mad..” Yoongi nodded and just held her hand, “Yes. I know. Well, that fight of ours made it to love is not over. So if you paid close attention, I said ‘It feels like this night is the end of you and me. I don’t know you, you didn’t know me.’”

“Oh. You really do write about us.” Gail acknowledged. “So, will you tell me everything you wrote about us? And in my defense, those were the days wherein we don’t really know much a lot about each other, we just have these feelings for each other.”

“Accepted, baby. That fight was like late 2015 or early 2016, I don’t remember, so I guess it’s bad if I still hold a grudge, right?” Yoongi put one of his arms over Gail’s shoulder, gently rubbing his thumb on her arm. “Okay, I have another one. Remember when you told me that you have a job interview? And you told me that you’re so damn scared because that will define where you will go.”

“That was my interview that will decide if I will go to Korea or not.” She whispered. “Yes, I figured just recently. You did not even tell me that you’re going to Korea. I thought it was for your career back in the Philippines.” He chuckled, “Do you like EXO that much that you even went here?”

“Shut up. I know you live here, that’s one of the reasons. Okay, maybe EXO is also one of the reasons..” Yoongi acted hurt and held his chest, “First, Namjoon and now, EXO? My baby, don’t you have a place for Yoongi in that pretty heart of yours?” Gail laughed, “Shut up! You have my whole heart, dumbass. What about that interview anyway?”

Yoongi can’t help but show her his gummy smile. If boys can feel butterflies in their stomach, this was it for him. “Well, I was thinking about you while we were writing Wishing On A Star that’s why I have a line there saying ‘So my baby, don’t be scared, just be yourself.’”

“Baby..” Gail pouted, earning a small laugh from Yoongi. “Hey, I know we fight a lot back then, but I always believed in you, even on the days you don’t believe in yourself.”

In these moments are where Gail feels how right their relationship is. This is where she started to feel how familiar Yoongi is for her, how he is her home for so many years and how much he sacrificed also for them.

“When you told me that you got accepted in your interview and you’re going overseas for work. I really thought it was somewhere in the US. I thought you’re going farther.”

“Why is that?” She reached for one of his hands and held it with her two hands, enveloping it and caressing it from time to time. “Well, I got used to Asians wanting to go to US for work, so I thought you were one of them.”

“Nah. So did that make it to one of your songs too?” Gail was only joking, but Yoongi still said yes. “I wrote this part on For you wherein the lyrics said ‘When I realize we were only be able to meet inside this smartphone, you appeared before my eyes. Even if I feel insecure, I believe my heart will not leave you with distance, my heart opens more.’ It only made me wish that I hope we make it big. I hope BTS makes it big. In that way, maybe we’ll tour in the US, and maybe I can squeeze some time to meet you there.”

Hearing those words from Yoongi tugged on Gail’s heart a little harder than she thought. For the longest time, she thought she was the only one making an effort for them to meet.. then here’s Yoongi striving for worldwide domination just so he could see her.

“But didn’t we have another argument after that? I think that was one of the worst because you thought I was cheating on you.” Gail asked. “But thank you for trying to meet me. It’s nice that I went to Korea anyway, we get to breathe the same air everyday.” She joked.

“I think I wrote I Need U a little too close to my heart way back. I know that I was wrong that I thought you cheated, but I already said foul words to you, but that was only because I was so mad and hurt at the time that I don’t even think of the words that come out of my mouth… or the words I type.” Yoongi confessed. Both of them remember the memory all too well, they were really fighting and it came to a point wherein Yoongi told Gail that he wished he never met her, in that way, he won’t have anything to stress about in his life.

“You were the first one to assume that I was cheating! My friend really just sent her message to her boyfriend to you instead of her boyfriend’s number. Her boyfriend is kinda close to me though.” She explained. “Yeah, I figured that out late already. I already wrote ‘I wanna stop, I don’t want you anymore. I can’t do it, this suck. Please don’t give me excuses.’ because we were fighting for 5 days already.” Yoongi replied with an annoyed face, “Oh yeah? And is that my fault?” Gail answered a little too proud.

“No! That’s why I’m sorry!” Yoongi pouted and kissed Gail’s hand. She laughed a little, “Honestly, I Need U is one of the songs that made me think you were Namjoon.” Yoongi did not say anything after hearing those words, “Yoongi.. baby, please say something. It’s not like I still believe that Namjoon is my boyfriend!” Gail nudged him on the shoulders to keep him talking, “Why? Why that song?”

“Well, he said ‘It goes round and round. Why do I keep coming back?’ Of course, by the time I heard the song, we already made up.”

“But I wrote that too!” Yoongi answered again in pout. “But I didn’t know that.. I’m sorry, please.” Gail answered seriously even if she wanted to laugh at Yoongi’s cuteness. “Then there’s also Spring Day,” Gail continued, “wherein Namjoon said ‘wanna get to the other side of the Earth holding your hand’.”

“Oh, that one. Namjoon really wrote that one, but it’s for somebody else. Stop claiming that it’s yours!” Yoongi accusingly said. The mood is starting to light up since Yoongi is starting to be cool when it comes to talking about Namjoon. “Okay, I’ll stop claiming that it’s mine.” Gail accepted defeat, but Yoongi suddenly repeated his verse on Spring Day.

“’Is it you who changed, or is it me? We are changed, you know, just like everyone you know.’ because you were being cold that time and I just had to accept that maybe we are changing and maybe we are not for each other.”

“So, that’s why you were not being all mad about me being cold? To be honest, I was questioning your love for me that time. It’s been so long and you did not even give me a slight hint that you wanted to meet me, so I thought everything were just empty promises.” She cleared out her feelings that time, making Yoongi sing a part of Spring Day again, “’Honestly, I miss you, but I’ll erase you, cause it hurts less than to blame you.’”

“You really considered erasing me?” Rolling her eyes, she questioned Yoongi as she did not even have the slightest clue that the verse is for her. “I’m glad, I didn’t.” Yoongi hugged Gail again in the same way he’s been hugging her since the night he fetched her, making her face buried on his chest. “We fight a lot, baby, maybe we should have these talks more often.” He whispered to her ear.

“We really should talk a whole lot more now that we can see each other always.” Gail said in as a matter of fact tone. “You also have a verse in Love Maze, do you know that?”

“Which one? Aigoo, you write too much about us, do I even deserve that?” Gail teased, “Of course,” Yoongi started his verse in Love Maze, “’I know we’re going towards paradise. Know this, sometimes lies will try to tear us apart.’ because I had to accidentally know that you’re in Korea rather than the US when you could’ve just told me.. ‘Hardships will try to deceive us but just focus on me then. In the darkness, just the two of us is enough, in all these lies, if we’re together, even an endless maze is paradise.’”

“Wait.” Gail looked up to him, still not letting go of the hug. “Is this when my company here just told me that I won’t be working for them anymore just because I stood up to my boss?” Yoongi nodded, “Yeah, and you slipped, saying that you hate Korea already, and I asked you, ‘Are you in Korea?!’ I was half-mad that time, but I was also ready to meet you. So I asked you if you wanted to work for our company, but again, you’re so stubborn to accept my offer, not even thinking that you’ll finally get to meet me!” He blurted out of frustration.

“As this talk progresses, why does this not meeting up with each other suddenly became all my fault?” Gail asked, half joking and half realizing that she had her own faults too. Yoongi chuckled, “Sorry that I never told you any of these, baby..”

“I should’ve just accepted your offer back then, maybe I wouldn’t have my dark days here in Korea wherein everything is just plain annoying. I wanted to go back to the Philippines that time, and I guess I broke up with you, right?”

“Yeah, you told me that you don’t deserve anything in this world, that the world is an ugly place, and you don’t deserve me. I didn’t let go, though, I know that it’s your anxiety talking. I will never leave you for that, the same way you never left me when we started talking and I was on my dark days too.” Yoongi placed his hand on Gail’s cheek and slowly caressed it. “Gail, the world is an ugly place, but you’re so beautiful to me. You made my life different from the darkness I was so used to being engulfed in.”

“Are you trying to make me cry?” She asked, looking at the ceiling to prevent the tears from falling, “because it’s working. And I just realized that if you wrote Seesaw for us, then you’re dumb, because you still went back to me.”

Yoongi smiled, realizing that he did wrote Seesaw for them. “What if I did? I really broke up with you that time anyway. I feel like you don’t deserve me because I can’t be the one that you want.”

“What do I want that time, Yoongi?”

“For one, you wanted someone you can hold. Someone who would face the responsibilities of being an adult with you, and I can’t just be there physically, it felt like we were weighing each other down because of the lost opportunities that we’re both afraid to take.” It was Yoongi’s turn to look at the ceiling this time, but he still did not let go of his hold on Gail.

“But you are what I need. Thank the gods that I wanted to get back together with you that time. I realized that I was just acting up because I’m sulky here in Korea, and I can’t even meet my love.” Gail held Yoongi’s chin and slightly tugged on it so he would face her instead of the ceiling. “I even wear this bracelet all the time even after we broke up… lately.”

Yoongi smiled at her, “About that, I also did what you said.”

“What did I say?” Gail asked. “You told me that you don’t wear bracelets that’s why I gave you one, and you joked that I should go get a tattoo because I don’t want to.”

Gail suddenly sat upright, “You got a tattoo?! Like a real one?!”

“Did I say I got a henna? I said I got a tattoo, so yes, it’s real. Do you want to see it?” He asked, as if Gail is passing this opportunity like it’s nothing. “Do I want to see it? Of course, I want to see it!” She beamed.

“Okay, this is awkward. It’s in the middle of my back.. just, lift my shirt up.” Yoongi faced the other side so his back will be in front of Gail. She just did what he said and lifted his shirt up, then she saw the tattoo in the middle of his back.

It’s just in plain black ink, but it is a maze with a seesaw in the middle. A cat is sitting in the middle of the seesaw. “Baby, is this connected to the songs?” Gail asked while running a finger on the tattoo on Yoongi’s back. “We misunderstood each other a lot and it seems like we’re always on a maze, trying to find a way out of our shitty situations, but you can see that there’s a seesaw in the middle. Those are our ups and downs in the middle of the shitty situations.”

“And the cat?” She asked again. Yoongi pulled his shirt down and faced Gail, “Well, the cat is me. No matter what situation we’re in, and no matter if we’re in the up or in the down, the cat is there to stay. I’m here to stay.”

Then there it is. Their lips just crashed on each other like this isn’t a new thing. The kiss is slow, passionate, but it’s full of the bottled up emotions for years. Yoongi pulled Gail to straddle on his lap, not breaking the kiss. “Yoongi, how can you say that to me before we get in the car? How can you say that you’re always on the receiving end?” She planted another kiss on Yoongi’s nose, and another one on his cheek. “How can you say that, baby? You’ve tried a lot too, you also sacrificed a lot.. I even hurt you a lot, baby, how can you say that?”

Gail hugged him and buried her face on his neck, “How can you say that?” Yoongi felt that his neck is getting wet with Gail’s tears. He smiled softly and rubbed her back, “Why are you crying?”

“You just.. endured so much for me, baby. Being an idol is hard, and you got me as the hard headed girlfriend, and I don’t know why I am crying. Maybe because I always break your heart unintentionally when you’ve been carrying a lot of heavy baggage too.. I’m sor—.” Yoongi interrupted Gail by kissing her again, “Shh. I love you so much. You’re all I want, even if you break my heart.”

He cupped Gail’s face and wiped the tears that are now streaming down her cheeks. “Aigoo, stop crying, idiot.” Gail laughed at what he said, “We did this talking to judge if we’re going to stay together or not, right?” Yoongi asked, Gail just nodded, still trying her best to stop the tears from falling.

“So, are we staying together? Now that you also saw me cry, are we staying together? Because I vote yes.” Gail said, then she hugged Yoongi.

“I was going to say no, but you’re hugging me so tight, so okay, yes, we’re staying together.” Yoongi joked, but still hugged Gail back.

Since Yoongi's head is buried on Gail's neck, he took the chance to start kissing her there. She felt him smile while kissing her there, "Yoongi, baby.. are we?"

Yoongi did not answer, he just adjusted his body so that Gail is sitting directly on top of his crotch. "Are we what?" He asked, then trailed soft kisses near Gail's left ear.

"Nothing.." She answered. Yoongi held both sides of her waist and started rubbing it softly until his hands reached her ass cheeks. Yoongi's kisses reached her earlobe, softly whispering, "Baby, warm me up.."

Yoongi then moved his hips towards Gail causing her to grind on him. Suddenly, the clothes in between is annoying the shit out of them. "Stop teasing," she said.

"But you love teasing, baby." Yoongi giggled and flipped the both of them over, making Gail sit on the couch. Their lips crashed at the moment, Yoongi's tongue seeking entrance on her mouth. His hands trailed down her body, looking for her clothed clit to rub. This earned him a small whimper from Gail, causing him to remove her shirt and trail kisses down to the valley of her breasts.

"I've waited too long for this, too, baby." He rubbed a harder on her clothed clit when he asked, "May I?" Tapping on her down there, he did not wait for her answer and his mouth just went to suck on her right nipple.

"Gods, Yoongi, do what you want." Her eyes closing with the sensations that Yoongi is giving. On the other hand, Yoongi's right hand went inside Gail's pants, still rubbing, but slowly entering her using his fingers. "Gail, baby, don't close your eyes, look at me." Gail opened her eyes only to see Yoongi smirking.

The boy knows what he's doing to her. He removed Gail's remaining clothes, held her inner thighs and opened her legs. Yoongi proceeding to eating her out without warning, again. "Mmm.." He moaned, letting Gail hear how much he is enjoying this.

He licked a long stripe from where his fingers are until the top of her clit, without stopping his fingers' in and out movement. His mouth stopped on top of her clit, sucking hard on her bud, making her moan a lot more audible than her whimpers before.

Gail did not have time to tell Yoongi that she's cumming, Yoongi just felt her walls clench on his fingers causing him to remove it and replacing it with his tongue. "Shit. Shit. Shit." She whispered, pulling on Yoongi's hair a little too harsh.

When she came down from her high, Yoongi stood up and started removing his clothes. Gail helped him remove his pants, quickly pulling him closer to tease his dick by touching the tip. She held it with her right hand and planted soft kisses on his tip which turned into soft kitten licks, Gail tasting the pre cum that leaked from the stimulation.

"Don't tease," Yoongi said. "Baby, please.. just su-- shit." Gail took him whole in her mouth, now feeling that his cock is twitching to rock hard. Yoongi's cock is average in length, but the girth.. oh god, the girth.

She sucked him off for a decent amount of time, but Yoongi's not having the overstimulation game right now since it has been years of waiting for this. He pulled Gail up to stand and carried her to sit on top of his work desk, slowly pushing the equipments on one side.

"Baby, we might break that." Gail whispered, knowing perfectly how Yoongi loves his music equipments. "Or I might break you, who knows?" Yoongi answered back, kissing her lips feverishly. She felt Yoongi's cock poking on her core, but the guy is such a tease. He kept on brushing his tip on her core, teasing whether he should put it in or not.

"Yoongi. I swear to all the go-- fuck." Yoongi entered her slowly and quickly at the same time, stuffing her full without moving at first. Gail can't help but bite on Yoongi's shoulder. "Too much?" He asked, planting soft kisses on the side of her neck to relax her. "Take me, baby. Take me like a good girl, baby." He whispered.

"Move," her breathing hitched, "Just move, please." Yoongi started moving slow, just enough force to make her feel good.. and also preventing his desk from banging the wall of his work room a little too loud. "Shit, you feel so good." Now moving with ease, he reached for Gail's clit and rubbed circles on it.

This made her moan again, feeling a lot all at once. "Might cum, stop." She whispered on Yoongi's ear while unconciously leaving hickeys on his neck. Yoongi stopped moving, "Why?" Gail asked.

He pulled out and carried Gail from the desk to let her stand. "Bend over, baby." Gail was quick to turn around, but Yoongi was quicker to push her upper body down on his work desk. She is expecting his cock to go in again, but suddenly felt his tongue on her core. "Yoongi.."

"Hmm?" He answered, still not letting his mouth leave her core. "You feel so good.." She confessed, closing her eyes as she pressed her face on Yoongi's work desk. "Which, baby? My tongue or my cock?" He answered again. Gail's mind is going haywire due to the sensation. Yoongi eating her out is one, but him talking while eating her out sends a whole new vibration to her core. "I don't know, Yoongi, cumming.."

Yoongi stopped eating her out causing her another orgasm denial, stood up, and entered her again using his cock. Now that she's so wet, he started ramming into her harder than he was doing earlier. He even held her shoulders causing the skin slapping sounds to go louder, even the work desk is banging loudly on the wall. "I'm close, too, baby. Hold it for me." Yoongi groaned, now holding her waist to pull her as he slams harder into her.

There is a sudden knock on the door, "What?!" Yoongi answered, trying to not sound hoarse. "Hyung, put a fucking pillow between your desk and your wall. Some people are not getting it tonight." Taehyung shouted and they heard him ran far away from the door.

Yoongi felt Gail's walls clench his dick tighter, "I can't hold it anymore, baby.. let me cum." Gail said, half whimpering and half whispering. "Then cum, baby." Yoongi answered.

Gail came for the second time, while Yoongi continued thrusting, letting her come down from her high. When she finished, Yoongi pulled out and came on her back and her ass cheeks. He carried her again, sat on the couch and made her sit on his lap. He kissed her passionately and hugged her while trailing soft kisses on her neck.

“I love you, brat.” He rubbed her back while they’re still hugging. “We’re never breaking up.”

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published 03.09.20 Happy birthday, Yoongi-oppa!

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