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haileyywrites · 2 years

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-> The Mighty Beelzebul; God of Eternity, is faced with the greatest losses in her entire life - yet she must push forward

-> Gn!reader - no pronouns mentioned! Character death - not detailed! (Reader, Kitsune Saiguu and Makoto!) Spoilers for Ei's backstory! Tad bit ooc?

EI had once promised you an eternity of love and happiness, but what could a mortal know of eternity? Most mortals barely made it to a hundred years old - when she lives through countless of them, alone and unchanging.

Life loved taking those she cared about from her, each person taking a piece of her shattered heart along with them until only crumbs remained at the bottom of her hollow chest.

Kitsune Saiguu, Makoto and you. Those she loved the most and those she failed to protect. She never imagined life without them, not able to imagine a future without them or one where death was their destiny.

All except for you. However heartbreaking, you were just a motral. It was to be expected that you would die long before her. It was something she accepted for the sake of being with you, no matter how it broke her to one day lose you - she would endure it to have you by her side night and day.

But to lose you all in one go? She never expected or imagined it to happen. She had left you in Inazuma when she hurried to chase after Makoto to Khaenri'ah, where she was too late to save her. Soon she would lose Kitsune Saiguu to the tragedy of battle. She still believed you to be safe in Tenshukaku with the protection of her soldiers. Inside her home.

It would have been true had the Abyss not covered Inazuma in a thick fog whilst attacking its people so fiercly and relentlessly it cost countless lives to be lost, tragically yours amongst them.

The day she finally returned to Inazuma she expected to see you happy and ready to greet her at the door - yet you weren't. A true look of horror crossed her expression as she was told of your passing, her soldiers eyes were full of pity for her.

She refused to cry in front of her men, instead sending them away. But the whole of Inazuma would feel her rage and sorrow for the coming moths, as the skies remained dark with the thunder roaring while lightning struk the earth mercilessly.

After your burial she managed to collect herself and the sun shone again. It almost felt like you were sending its rays of warmth to kiss her features as your last goodbye. You were laid to rest upon a sunny hill were wildflowers bloomed all around you, a small shrine was built near it with dedicated people tending and maintaining it daily.

But she would not let these losses bring her down. Thus, she would harden what remained of her heart and seal herself away in the Plane of Euthymia to seek eternity, never to be distracted by mortals or ties to others ever again. Including her only remaining friend - Yae Miko.

She would not lose any more of her people to outside forces and such was the Sakoku Decree issued, it was to seal off Inazuma from the rest of Teyvat. Inazuma would stand eternal and unchanging, just the way it was when you yet lived. With a present god as its ruler it rivalled any other land and no one dared to challenge its might.

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heygutlcss · 1 year

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JEALOUS, FIERCLY PROTECTIVE & TERRITORIAL PROMPTS

@warriours ASKED: ❝ yeah it’s time to walk the fuck away. ❞ (MERCY)

So this was Mercy. Velma was unimpressed. Her perfectly polished red nails rested on her hips. She’d heard the stories, she’d seen Michael almost actually express some kind of feeling with the use of what she had considered nonexistent facial muscles just at the mention of her name.

Riff’s reaction was different. But then Riff was different. Most of his spark had left him since Tony got carted off. He had seemingly shut down without Tony. Like any direction he had been given, fighting, stealing, and screaming his head off at whatever threat he perceived to be in his vicinity had simply simmered out. Riff always needed some kind of direction. Even Velma found him terrifying without it.

However Michael had scooped him up she wasn’t sure, but even she could admit that the big bird was good for him. How many times had she snapped that Tony was in prison, not dead? She just couldn’t wrap her head around why he changed so much.

Riff said the same thing about Velma. Something about her not having many friends, or her parents fighting at home, or the store failing. The store did fine till the mall opened up, toting its big box stores with it. It became substantially worse after Tobias died. Not that Velma would admit anything was wrong ever. She was in control. always. whether that was over her things or her people-- it didn’t matter. She knew what was hers and she would do anything to keep it.

Maybe her dislike of Mercy didn’t stem from what the boys thought or how they acted, but the fact that Mercy was a solitary entity outside of what was controllable. Mercy could ruin a good routine day. Mercy could change plans-- could bring in new people. Mercy, Mercy, Mercy.

Riff had said it once, Mercy was like what California must be like. Not the suntan ads or the bleach blond hair, more so like sunsets where sunrises should be. She was wild and beautiful like heroin without the puncture holes.

“He said he was comin’.” she said coolly. “ So he’ll be comin’. Gave me the key to wait. So i’ll wait.” her hand was already unlocking the trailer door. it wasn’t hard to slam the door behind her and lock that ugly bitch out.

#warriours #c; velma #V: ST #ˢᵉᶰᵈ ᵃ ʳᵃᵛᵉᶰ ║ ASKS #t;w: drugs

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whoresofolympus · 3 years

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HoO as DC/Marvel Characters (Personality-based)

*i had this in my drafts for like eight months lmao i might add on to it but no promises😔

Hazel as Storm (Marvel):

now this is a PERFECT match. here are some characteristics they both have:

- strong

- both RLLY RLLLLLYYYY powerful

- intelligent

- caring

- loyal

- brave

to those of you who don’t know who storm is, she is a member of the x-men team. she had lead the team for a majority of its time and is shown to be a strong and compassionate leader, often setting aside her own problems to deal with others. much like hazel, she is sensitive and empathetic towards other’s emotions and will try anything in her power to help them feel better. storm is extremely powerful, her powers include controlling the weather, flying, and immunity to harsh heat and cold, another similarity she has to hazel is her powers are stronger when she is under an intense emotion such as sadness or anger. storm will do anything and everything to protect her friends. if this doesn’t scream hazel levesque to y’all, idk to what will! (fanart @viria)

Jason as Captain America (Marvel):

although this may be obvious to some of y’all, i’m still going discuss. starting with the characteristics they both share:

- fairness

- seriousness

- honorable

- humble

- compassionate

- selfless

- loyal

now, we all know that jason is shown to be a natural leader having to be in the spotlight his entire life because of the fact that he is a child of Jupiter, but because of this experience, jason has learned the hard trials of having to lead a team, this shaped him into a strong young man. he is constantly fighting for justice and fairness for all demigods and EVEN minor Gods (as shown in his actions after the Second Giant War). and much like captain america, he cares a lot about his family and friends, and is willing to risk anything, including his own life in order to keep them safe (which he had in the b*rning maze). jason is also shown to be on the cautious side due to his fear of letting people down which is similar to captain america’s weakness which is being easily morally wounded. also they’re both hot. (fanart @aapplebluee)

Piper as Starfire (DC):

starfire and piper are so alike im genuinely surprised the connection hasn’t been made sooner. similar characteristics:

- rebellious

- calm

- protective

- expressive

- aggressive

- humble

- sweet

starfire is a member of the teen titans, she is a caring friend and a ferocious fighter. and although piper and starfire’s powers are very different, their personalities are EXTREMELY similar. starfire has never been one to follow rules, having been from a different planet, the customs of earth are still new to her. piper shares this same rebellious take on life by the way she shuns Aphrodite-esque things (denying makeup/fashionable clothes, ‘girly’ things, refusing to partake in the shallowness of the Aphrodite cabin, not gossiping). another similarity these two share is the action of doing whatever it takes to protect their friends, they are both fearless fighters. starfire especially is known to fight fiercly for what she believes in and much like piper, starfire has always followed her gut and always does the right thing. another big thing piper and starfire share is an insecurity in their identities, starfire being from another planet and piper feeling useless w/o her friends and a ‘strong’ power as exhibited throughout HoO (fanart @cindersart)

#percy jackson #annabeth chase #jason grace #frank zhang #hazel levesque #heroes of olympus #leo valdez #piper mclean #percy jackon and the olympians #nico di angelo

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mugunghwc · 2 years

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JEALOUS, FIERCLY PROTECTIVE & TERRITORIAL PROMPTS / accepting

@strawberryxdreams said: ❝ lucky for you, i don’t want to ruin their night. but if I see you sniffing around here again you might not be so fortunate. ❞ Junichiro to Han outside the Cafe

ah, the audacity of speaking to him like that—something only the fool or ignorant would dare, if not for the power that his name carried. it went beyond the wealth of a businessman, or the influence that came with the influx of businesses all across the red district & consuming everything in its way like locusts. a man with such authority to him, that it was palpable. his appearance being a reflection of the time & dedication that he put to preserve it; adorned with outfits that sold the image of someone important—someone who stood out even in a crowd of people, with his eyes glancing away from his wristwatch to the man addressing him.

at first, he’s taken aback. brows raising in response to the underlying aggression that those words held. one that, in his opinion, was poorly conceived by this act of being the ‘better man’ despite being the one to start it. it brought to his attention just how insecure this man must be & with it, no introductions were needed. not when his demeanour spoke for himself & brought back the usual relaxed expression that the mafioso wore. that devilish smirk that made it seem as if he was having fun at the other’s expense.

“—you must be the guy that was dumped.” he expresses with a dramatic lilt of his voice—mocking, yet remaining calm as he had done so far. both hands coming to rest inside the pockets of his pants as he looks off to the window of the café before returning to the now identified ex-boyfriend. “unlike you, i don’t sniff around like some mutt. i bite & consume. besides, i already have a meal in mind.”

#strawberryxdreams #.ic / locked & loaded finding your target #.ask / never have any regrets after the game #han: i will eat ass & you won't whatcha gonna do

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iammultifandomaf · 3 years

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Once a Leader, Always a Leader

FanFiction: Sweet Home

Chapter 2 - ESCAPE

https://m.fanfiction.net/s/13825734/2/

She was fed up by the military. The only thing they did was boss her around. Just like he used to do.

Lee Eun-Yu immediately saddened at the thought of her brother.

I need to escape. I don't feel safe at all. I have no idea where Cha Hyun-Su is... where Eun-Hyeok is.

She knew that her chances to survive out there are low. She didn't know how to fight, let alone properly run because of her ankle. But she didn't want to survive alone. She wants to at least try.

Eun-Yu always encouraged others in a very mean way, especially Eun-Hyeok, to be active and not just sit around. However, she didn't feel that brave and despite her desire to leave, she didn't think that she'd be capable of leaving a military base. The bunch that was rescued from Green Home was kept together for some time now because they were cut off by monsters. So, they were basically stuck, hoping that the army would be able to fight them off or to get help from somewhere else.

One late evening, Eun-Yu was sitting on her bunkbed, watching Son Hye-In who was petting her dog nervously.

"What's with you?" Eun-Yu couldn't hold it for her anymore. Hye-In sent her an awful look and said angrily: "Don't you see him? He's all worked up. Something is wrong!"

"Nonsen-"

Eun-Yu was interrupted by a deafening sound of the alarm going off. It took only seconds before everything turned into chaos. Lee Joon-Woo suddenly appeared at their door with a horrified expresion on his face.

"The monsters got in! They are killing everyone, fuck. I saw one in the corridor! We gotta hide!" he hollared but the moment he finished his sentence, something grabbed him by his back and threw him on the other side of the hallway.

Hye-In's dog began to bark loudly at the threat.

"Shut him up! Jesus!" Eun-Yu snapped, "I am outta here!"

Eun-Yu rose to her feet and tried to sneak out of the room. "Wait for me!" Hye-In whispered loudly and followed the girl quickly, not wanting to be left behind.

Gun shots were echoing through the building as the two women crept throught the hallway, trying to be as silent as possible. They had to pass the now dead corpse of Lee Joon-Woo which made Hye-In give out a weak whimper.

Eun-Yu tried to look around the corner to see what's ahead but that was a grave mistake since a monster just looked that away and started charging into her direction.

Cold sweat was dripping down her forehead as she started backing away.

"What?! What's there?" Hye-In cried out as she saw Eun-Yu's frozen expression while she was walking backwards slowly.

I have no weapon. My leg won't work. I am dead.

Hye-In wanted to follow Eun-Yu in her retreat but was stopped by a sudden appearance of a large figure. It didn't look like a monster nor a human, though. Hye-In wanted to shriek out but the moment, Eun-Yu bumped into it with her back, she stayed silent.

Eun-Yu's heartbeat rose, not only because she noticed the thing's claws on her shoulder, but also because the monster from before had caught up and was now standing in front of them.

Now did Hye-In give a proper scream out of her lungs, trying to run away pass the new creature that appeared but before she was able to escape, a firm grasp on her arm pulled her next to Eun-Yu. They both were let go, though, as the newcomer walked around them and fiercly attacked the monster that had multiple arms and very capable, strong legs. Overall, the monster seemed more likely to win. The other creature didn't seem fazed by the monster's dangerous looks, though, and the only thing he did was to give out a horrendously monstrous roar that made Eun-Yu and Hye-Im cover their ears while Bom, the dog, hid behind Hye-In.

Then it just stopped and with it, everything else went quiet. Even the shooting. And the multiarmed monster was lying on the ground, almost as if it was kneeling while shaking heavily.

With that, the tall human looking creature bend over to grab the monsters neck and smashed it against the wall, creating a huge crack in it.

Eun-Yu wasn't sure what the creature had done to it, but the monster seem to shrink slowly and then just fell apart. Hye-In found Eun-Yu's hand and tightly squeezed it.

The creature in front of them didn't turn back, as if it was hesitating.

"Who the hell are you?!" Eun-Yu's attitude made its way onto the surface yet again which made Hye-In squeeze her hand even tigher and gave her a panicked look. Eun-Yu shook her off, though, and walked closer to the tall 'creature'.

"What? Why did you save us? What's your deal?!" she cried out again angrily but was taken aback by a familiar chuckle.

"I am sorry I lied," he said sadly, still not turning around. Eun-Yu's eyes burned from the tears cummulating at once. No way.

"You bastard!" she cried out and started pounding into his back which made Hye-In yell out in surprise and also fear and run to tear Eun-Yu away.

Now, he turned around, looking down at Eun-Yu with compassion, trying to touch her shoulder again but Eun-Yu shook him and Hye-In off.

"Don't you touch me! Neither or you. Fuck," she screamed at them and wiped away her tears from the cheeks.

Hye-In finally looked up and after watching his face for a bit, she understood, too: "Lee Eun-Hyeok?"

He only nodded, keeping his well-known calm face which was now decorated by silver cold irises.

"How are you like this? You don't look like-" Hye-In began but her dog's unstoppable barking interrupted her, so she picked him up and continued: "You don't look like them..."

"Yeah, I know. What about we talk some more after we're somewhere else?"

"Leave the army?" Hye-In wondered.

"You can stay, if you want. But I can protect you better as it seems. And I also want to find Cha Hyun-Su in the meantime."

Eun-Yu raised her head at Cha Hyun-Su's mention and swallowed her tears. "You want to find him?"

His eyes landed on his sister as he nodded: "Of course, he always helped us out. He has to feel lonely now. I don't want that for him."

"Uhuh. The children are here somewhere...," Eun-Yu said, "Yoon Ji-Su probably, too..."

"What about Seo Yi-Kyung?" Eun-Hyeok asked as he was looking around.

"She stayed outside. She didn't come with us here," Hye-In informed him, receiving a small nod from him.

"Alright, let's go when the monsters are still tamed," he said and started walking away from them. The two women hurried to catch up.

"How did you do it? Tame them?" Hye-In wondered.

"Hm, it's just a thing I can do. Don't ask me why."

They walked along the hallway when suddenly Eun-Hyeok stopped.

"What?" Eun-Yu asked angrily as she almost bumped into him again.

"I think they are here somewhere," Eun-Hyeok said quietly and looked right to the damaged cabinet standing on the floor.

"Su-Yeong? Yeong-Su? Are you in there?" he bend himself down and almost wanted to open the cabinet, however the sight of his own fingers stopped him and turned back to his sister.

"Could you? I don't want to frighten them," he said quietly and stepped back.

Eun-Yu gave him a long look, finally taking in everything that was different. Somehow not wearing his glasses made him seem even more emotionally distanced than before. And I thought it's the glasses. His features in the face didn't change that much, not at least in comparison to his body which was just generally bigger and then of course, the clawed hands were something of an eyecatcher.

And when talking about an eye, his silvery eyes kept staring at her patiently which made her nervous a bit.

The cabinet door opened itself, though, and a small head popped out.

"Eun-Yu?" Su-Yeong said in a weak voice, holding onto her younger brother whose eyes were swollen up.

Eun-Yu sat down on her haunches and smiled at the children. "We're here to take you somewhere safe, okay? You remember my brother, right?" she gestured to her left.

"What happened to Oppa?" Su-Yeong asked carefully.

"Nothing much, just a change of style, come on out."

The children slowly got out of the cabinet and looked around.

"Where is Ji-Su? She told us to hide and then run away," Yeong-Su asked.

"We should look for her," Eun-Hyeok said and looked down at the kids.

"Hey," he said and lowered himself to be at the same height level as them, "I know I look a bit weird now but you'll forgive me that, right?"

The siblings looked at each other and the older sister nodded.

"Great, thank you. And just for moving faster, would you mind if I carried you so we can find Ji-Su as soon as possible?"

Yeong-Su replied with stretching out his arms towards Eun-Hyeok which made him smile.

"I am sorry, I got myself these ugly fingers, I hope it's alright," he said, his voice cracking a bit as he lifted the children, one locked in each arm.

Eun-Yun watched her brother how he carefully held the children so he wouldn't harm them with his claws and quickly looked to the side, trying to hide her glassy eyes. He went through such a change alone.

They walked around for a while, encountering a few monsters that have crouched away when Eun-Hyeok walked passed them. Both and Eun-Yun and Hye-In watched the monsters' reactions in awe.

"If he only turned earlier," Hye-In commented, remembering the lives they have lost. Eun-Hyeok stopped and turned around and looked straight at Hye-In, visibly sighing. He understood, him losing his humanity could've saved many lives. But it's too late to fix it.

Hye-In interpreted his reaction negatively and rose her hand in defense: "I didn't mean to off-"

"No, you are right, it's fine," he interrupted her and nodded to the metalic door in front of them, "I think she's in there."

"How do you know?" his sister asked suspiciously.

"Well, with those pretty eyes came also upgraded ears and my nose picks up specific smells, too. And I smell puss."

"Ew," Eun-Yu furrowed her brows at Eun-Hyeok who gave her an innocent smile in return.

"Kids, you stay here," he said and lowered himself so he could put them down.

"What are you going to do?" Su-Yeong asked anxiously.

"I'll go get her," he answered and smiled at them. His sister was faster, though, and was already trying to open the door.

"It's locked," she said angrily.

"Eun-Yu," her brother said calmly, "you shouldn't be this rash. She's not alone in there, the soldiers are with her. If you opened the door, they could've had killed you."

"Why would they shoot me, I am not a monster!" she said but immediately regreted her words. He is a monster now, too.

"Yeah, I know. But they are afriad. They won't probably act reasonably," he said and laid his hand on the door.

"We are here in peace, we just want to take Ji-Su. Are you there, Ji-Su? It's me, Eun-Hyeok," he said loudly and turned his ear to the door, waiting for a response.

"Why aren't they answering?" Hye-In asked nervously. Eun-Hyeok turned to her and shrugged. "They all seem to be tense."

"Alright, I'm going in, so please, save yourself the bullets," Eun-Hyeok informed them and looked at his sister, "you all go away from the door. They'll definitely be shooting."

"No, don't go! They'll kill you!" Yeong-Su ran to his calf and hugged it.

"Don't worry, I'll make it. And I'll bring Ji-Su, too."

Eun-Yu started at her brother who gently pushed the boy away from him and then continued to the metalic door. He slid his hand on it up and down, as if trying out the material and in a swift movement of his hand, he made its way through it. The shooting, of course, began as soon as he dug his sharp claws through it and the bullet shower continued as he ripped the door out of the frame, using it now as a shield against the bullets.

Eun-Hyeok didn't bother to say anything. He knew what the fear could do and he also knew how he had to look like to them. He focused only on the smell now - the heavy smell of puss.

How could've they leave it like that? She has to have it infected for days.

He located her promptly and looked to his right. They were holding her, covering her mouth so she couldn't have yelled out when he first tried to talk to her. With a few unnaturally fast and strong jumps, he was standing in front of the two soldiers who have been holding her down, not minding the wound they were opening with it.

"I'll be taking her off of your hands now," Eun-Hyeok said as politely as he could but still was hit by multiple bullets in his back. He couldn't help himself but to let out an animalistic grunt that made everyone feel more uneasy.

"Ji-Su," he said softly as she watched him with teary eyes, "God, look guys, I really-" a headshot stopped him from talking. He fell forward onto his door-shield, swearing: "Fuck," as he spit out the bullet that came into his head from behind.

Ji-Su started jerking around with her body, making it harder for the soliders to hold her down.

"Okay, okay," Eun-Hyeok rose to his feet again and grabbed each soilder by their arm, throwing them aside as if they were teddy-bears. Quickly, he pushed his hands beneath Ji-Su and lifted her up as she watched him in silence but her eyes were asking all the questions for her.

"Yeah, I know," he said and pulled her closer to his chest as he prepared to jump his way out of this storage room. A few bullets hit his back but otherwise nothing serious.

He met his sister's eyes who couldn't hide her worrisome look.

"We should probably head out," he said and balanced Ji-Su on his right arm as he dug his claws into a tall metalic cabinet, throwing it in front of the door frame.

"Could you carry the boy?" he turned to his sister who was still staring at the cabinet that he threw with ease at the door frame. She only nodded and automatically picked Yeong-Su.

They all headed to the garages where they found a big black van into which they all climbed in after Hye-In found the keys in a cupboard in a CCTV room.

Eun-Hyeok laid Ji-Su in the back and uncovered her wound. "Don't they have here some medicine? Or alcohol at least?" he asked.

"They told us that they have almost nothing left," Ji-Su said weakly.

"Yeah, we were supposed to be here only temporary. But the monsters were all around, we couldn't get out safely," Hye-Inn explained.

"Hm, I will have to get something for this later, then. Could you drive?" he asked the woman who was still holding tightly onto the dog.

"Me?" she said in shock, "why me?"

"Well, my sister is probably worse at driving than me, Ji-Su isn't feeling the best... and as you said before, there's a lot of monsters out there. I should be on the outside, taking care of them."

"Can't you just do the creepy scream?" Eun-Yu asked.

"That's what I am planning. But it won't reach that far. I'd have to scream all the way."

"Why don't you?"

"Try screaming for 5 minutes yourself, Eun-Yu," he said and stepped out of the car, about to close the door.

Eun-Yu quickly grabbed his wrist, looking up into his eyes. "Are you sure you can fight them alone?"

He smiled at her and put his other hand on hers. "I have to try, you guys can't fight them."

She looked away but didn't let go of his wrist.

"Please, don't leave like last time. Be creepy as you want. Just don't leave," she said quietly, surprising Eun-Hyeok with her honesty and nodded.

"I'll do everything to survive. As I did until now," he said, slipping out of her grip and closing the door. He opened the garage door. It was suspiciously quiet. He looked back at the car and sent them a smile, heading out first.

#sweet home #fanfiction #lee eun hyeok #lee eun yu #yeong su #su yeong #hye-in #monsters

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ainarosewood · 4 years

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30 Day WoL Writing Challenge-Day 17-Comfort

@seaswolchallenge @ffxiv-writers

I ended up going out of the sync I’ve been doing but I felt inspired to write this. Shb Spoilers beneath the cut (mostly story references and location)

As they strode across the muddy ground the Scions couldn't help but admire the perfect bubble of air that Bismark left for them.

Ahead of them appeared to be some sort of structure embedded into the stone of the sea bed its light grey stone and golden accents standing out amidst the darker rock.

The others began discussing whether or not they should approach said ruins as Aylis sat down on a nearby damp rock pain wracking her body.

The Light was clawing at her very being, straining to be unleashed to overwhelm her. It was held in check by Ryne's restraints and the Midlander’s own idea of turning the Shield of Light inward to contain it.

"Are you alright," the young Hume's voice rang in Alyis ears.

She looked at the young girl her blue eyes full of worry and concern and opened her mouth to speak, only to jump up pulling the girl behind her as the rock next to where Ryne had stood sprouted spiny tentacles and began charging forth.

Without hesitation Aylis immediately unslung her cane and cast Glare into what appeared to be the creatures maw. It shrilled in anger and pain alerting the others of its presence. Suddenly it appeared to curl in on itself and Aylis watched in horror as the beast transformed into a Sin Eater before their eyes.

Swiftly Alisaie charged in with Thancred beside her and the two of them dispatched the newborn Eater before it had a chance to strike. Aylis stood shaking her cane nearly falling from her grasp as she realized that she had turned the beast.

"How in Seven Hells?" Thancred began

"I....I did it. I was trying to save Ryne, it was a single cast...." the Midlander stammered tears threatening to fall.

"Mayhap t’would be best if you do not attempt to cast again," Y'shtola murmered gently

Putting the cane away Aylis mutely nodded fighting against the tears whispering, "I...I'm sorry."

"Don't be," Alisaie snapped raw emotion in her tone, "All this time we have always relied on you to protect us. Now its our turn and don't you dare say otherwise."

Aylis simply nodded not trusting her voice at the moment hating the pain she was causing the young Elezen.

The other Scions nodded in agreeance with the young woman's words and then they began making their way to the ruins Aylis silently following ignoring the pain wracking her body.

Some time and several 'chores' later they found themselves staring at a shining city in the depths that the Ondu of the settlement nestled amidst the ruins they had seen, said belonged to the Ancients.

There was no doubt that this was where Emet-Selch had spirited the Exarch to. Together they began to travel toward the city felling any fiends that got in their way.

Hours past and the constant battles were overtly taking their toll on the Scions. Aylis felt useless for she couldn't even dare heal them when injured for fear of the Light within her corrupting them.

Finally she stopped stating, "Everyone please....rest."

Alisaie clearly wanted to protest along with Y'shtola. Thancred looked down right rebellious and Urianger and Ryne had twin worried expressions.

Alphinaud equally as worried cleared his throat tentatively asking, "Aylis are you sure? We really don't know how much time....."

"Please," the White Mage pleaded tears threatening to fall, "I..I'm so worried about all of you please...stop surely there's enough time."

Thancred's eyes softened and he replied, "If your sure I do not see why we can't take a small rest."

Aylis merely nodded still fighting back the tears as the others swiftly made a makeshift camp. Within moments of sitting down most of them fell into an exhausted slumber.

Aylis meanwhile found herself unable to sleep from the pain and her worry for all of them. She hated this, she felt so useless, so helpless.

Silently the Midlander let her tears fall choking back her sobs so as not to wake the others. She sat there for a long time before she felt arms gently wrap around her. Looking down though tear filled eyes she saw they were spectral and wore an all to familiar armor.

Aylis lead back into his embrace as Ardbert stated softly, "You look like you needed a hug..."

She nodded silently wrapping her arms about his spectral ones and closed her eyes. They sat in silence, no words needed to be spoken.

Aylis knew he understood, the despair, the helplessness, the seeming hopelessness of all of this.

"You'll beat this," he whispered in her ear, "You save them all, both worlds."

Aylis leaned her head into his resting on her shoulder correcting, "We, will beat this. We will save them all Ardbert."

Out of the corner of her eye she saw him give her his roguish grin, "Aye, we will.... together,"

She nodded at his words sleep at last claiming her despite her pain. He sat there holding her praying he did not just make her an empty promise.

No matter what happens, I will see that she succeeds, that we win. the shade told himself fiercly.

#FFXIV #OC Aylis Tyme #seaswolchallenge #ffxiv-writers #crystal data center #balmung #WoL/Ardbert #Hyur #Midlander

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Bairn

Anon asked for a story about a young Elleth not considered an adult yet being fiercly protected by the Dwarves. Got the basics of it, and added a bit of a joking twist on it to lighten it up a bit from what I first imagined for it. Sorry it took so long to gt it out, hope you like it! :D

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A sharp gasp rang through the Company behind Thorin and the Elf Prince, both cinched in a tight battle of words before their heads turned to the stunned Dwarves knowing full well what word was coming next in Thorin’s sentence. In a hushed whisper Balin motioned his hand at you, the web coated Elleth fuming as your hand folded over your eyes rubbing her temple to ease the migraine growing within, “Bairn.”

Thorin nodded his head and turned to you as the Elves all spotted your muscles twitching while you lowered and straightened your arms through an attempt at a calming exhale between hushed muttered curses in Quenya triggering a hint of a smirk on the Prince’s face when he recognized the scowling Elleth he’d long since missed the annual visits from her. A firm glare fired from the other blonde Prince when he noticed the hint of a rival for his hopefully soon to be intended he inched closer to through Thorin replying, “I am no thief!”

Legolas’ eyes met yours as he asked, in clear fluid Quenya, “Is what he says the truth?”

You nodded, replying, “Ya, nearly had to tie it to him for him to even touch it, but the wargs after eased his concerns about its craftsmanship.”

A smile eased onto his face as he nodded his head at you saying, “Ada will wish to speak with you. Ecthellion has been quite unsettled in your silence since leaving.”

Sighing again you replied as he passed back the sword to the slightly confused Dwarf King triggering the return of all the other weapons from the group right after and led the way, “If he cares to remember it was his Son’s shouting curses at me that urged me to leave in the first place.”

Fili stepped firmly between you once again forming a barrier between you both gliding his fingers once again over the small chord with tassles at the end of your quiver strapped to your back over your twin blades in his usual habit from his inability to yet claim your hand. Each Dwarf filed behind you both with Thorin in the lead, clinging protectively to his burglar, who seemed to be in a mood close to yours at his insistence that holding hands would in fact be just as adequate an action and far easier for him to walk. Only stirring the King to turn and grip his thighs as Dwalin raised him onto his back deepening his scowl soon buried in the fur collar of the King to muffle his muttered one sided argument the Elves struggled to hold back their chuckles from.

The castle grew before you as your arms crossed at the hushed whisper from Balin urging your eyes to roll at his belief that you should be in the middle of the group to be better protected. A sideways glance came from the Prince until he chuckled at your low utterance of “Not a word.”

The crossed leg of the King lowered to the ground leading to his shifting straighter as he called out your name in a more than pleased tone stirring a firmer grip from Fili on the tassle drawing your eye to dart between the pair quickly then bowed your head to the King greeting him in return motioning your hand from your chest to your side as he did the same and smiled.

His expression stirring a curious wave through the Dwarves at the rare sight of him anything past stoic before Thorin stepped forward silently ushering you back again after leaving the still scowling Hobbit beside Dwalin who was struggling to draw him closer to his side only gaining a firm swat on his bare forearm as he stormed over to your side sliding between you and Fili breaking his contact with the small tassle. After a curious glance over the motions of the small creature he glanced back to the scowling King instead.

Once again the quickly building tension between the leaders quickly fizzled at the throat clearing coming from Balin earning another mumble from you, “ I swear if you say-.”

Balin, “Thorin.”

Thorin glanced at you noticing your sharp exhale and expression growing into a scowl matching Bilbo’s then turned back to Thranduil stating, “King Thranduil, perhaps we could gain a bit of food for our youngest member.”

Under your breath you muttered, “Two more hours…”

Thranduil glanced at you with a smirk at Thorin’s stating your name triggering a twitch in your brow before the Elf King to state, “You have escorted my dear friend safely to my borders just in time for her birthday celebration. I would never allow her to suffer the pain of hunger so close to her confirmed adulthood.”

His eyes scanned over you as Balin chuckled saying, “Of course she’ll always be our little Pebble!”

Your brows dropped as you inhaled and repeated for what you felt was the thousandth time, “I am older than you, all of you.”

Bofur swatted his hand at the air before him through a large grin, “Oh it’s just a number, we’ve lived farther into our lives than you have.”

Exhaling again you started walking towards a door along the wall as Bilbo joined you with Fili right after trailed by Legolas in his losing battle to control his bubbling laughter, muttering in Elvish, “I’ll be in the dungeons.”

The guard before you opened the door with a respectful bow of his head as Bofur called out, “Be sure to remember your veggies, and milk, you need them for your growth.”

“Two more hours…”

Thorin glanced at the closing door gaining another glare from Bilbo when he said, “Eat your fill! At least three courses!” Losing the rest of his order before hearing Bilbo’s clear shout muffling against the door leaving Thorin clueless to his actual response but took Thranduil’s smirk and trembling shoulders as a sign for no lessening of his fowl mood just yet.

Thranduil between his chuckles stated in Elvish clearly to you in your mind, “Your room is prepared, dinner is nearly finished, bathe and change. I will not bar your group from the celebration.” His eyes scanning over Tauriel trailing after Kili who’d tried and failed to sneak to the door to join his Brother, watching his pitiful slinking path she son corrected under Thranduil’s order to guide him to meet you three. As the door was open once more Balin shouted out, “Kili, ensure our Pebble is properly fed!”

As the brunette’s lips parted your clear shout sounded once again, “I am 399 years old!! I am well aware of the task of caring for myself!”

Bofur, “Bit cranky with our sudden waking. Needs the full eight hours.”

Only gaining another chuckle from the group as Dwalin said, “They grow up so fast!”

His response being a slammed door after a sharp “Ugh!!” in a shrill shout just barely slipping through before the guard shut the door behind Kili and Tauriel.

Glancing down at the ground as he softly chuckled, remembering well the tantrums and comments he himself gained on his pathway to the fourth century marker, clearly naming an Elf as an adult and the troubles that came from the time before and small window of a decade after settling as an adult in the minds of those around the young Elf.

Looking up again he said, “As I said, the Feast of Starlight is tonight, where we combine our annual celebration of the stars as well as the birth of the Elleth born within these walls at its occurrence. You will be led to bathe and change before the meal. The rest we shall discuss tomorrow afternoon once I’ve called our guest of honor down enough to reclaim her place among you.”

Without a word he rose and made his way down the stairs to exit through that same door, only stopping before he passed through it completely to glance back at Thorin saying, “Another thing, I’ve never seen such a cross Hobbit. I would be vary wary at where I sleep tonight had I made that mistake.” Gaining a timid nod in return before they followed after the King at the wave of his hand towards their rooms.

#Fili x Reader OC #Hobbit #lotr

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futurewriter2000 · 6 years

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Secrets and lies ~ Part 4

A/N: OMG YAS I love this part and I love next part even though I still haven’t written it yet but I just love it. You guys will hate me so much but I love you.

TAGS: @huflerin , @shadyladyperfection , @geeksareunique , @nadinissavage , @paigeyisme , @mrsdaamneron

Other parts ---> MASTERLIST

¥￦¥ ~ means the reader is dreaming

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“I would choose you in a heartbeat.” he blurted out and walked around the desk to you. “You are my baby sister. My everything. The one who knows all my secrets and shares all my memories with. ”

“Remus…”

“I can’t… You need to break it off with him.”

You stood from your desk in a light second, throwing his hands away and pushing the chair so fiercly it almost flew on the other side of the library. “WHAT!?!” you boiled in anger as you saw his face.

His eyes avoided your gaze as he clasped his hands together. “I’m trying to protect you.” he spoke quietly and calming.

“Well stop it! I’ve done nothing than be a good sister to you. I haven’t done anything to embaress you, I took care of you John when you couldn’t! I loved you when you didn’t even love yourself and I still do!” you shouted through the whole library.

“Damn it Lu! Stop it! Stop rebelling and stop calling me John! it’s Remus! REMUS!”

“Well my name is not Lu! It’s (y/n)! (Y/N)!” you mocked him and leaned on the table.

He was standing up by now. His eyes glaring at yours as his frown growing angrier than ever. “Break.it.off.” he growled and leaned even closer. “If not, I’m telling him about Regulus.”

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It kept repeating. The whole scene kept repeating. You had no clue why but one of your worst memories was repeating itself.

Your brother betraying you. Over and over again.

That memory.

But somehow, even though the dreams kept repeating, you still felt his touch on your hand, hearing the same words leaving his soft yet broken voice. "Please wake up, Lu. Wake up for me."

'I want to Johnny. I want to wake up for you. So bad! I need to wake up! I need to wake up!' you tried to speak but it was only the voice in your head trying to reach out.

You couldn't move nor speak, only listen.

"Remus. Why don't you go get a shower and some rest. I'll stay up with her." Lilly's voice came from afar. Her just as soft and broken as his.

"No." he spoke determined, squeezing your hand even tighter. "She didn't tell me. She should have told me. She- she... Why didn't she tell me?" he sobbed, not knowing if he was sad or mad or just desperate. Maybe all three of those things but there was a chance he felt just as betrayed as you.

"She wanted to. She just saw that you were finally happy." Lilly simpered and squeezed Remus' shoulder.

'Yes, Lilly tell him it's not his fault. Tell him I wanted to tell him so bad it was just never the right time. Tell him I didn't want to burden him.' your voice spoke once again.

"It's not your fault, Remus." she spoke quetly, like she was hearing what you wanted to say. "It's mine."

'Oh for God's sake!'

"No. Something was wrong. Something was wrong with my little sister and I was so busy with my friends and with her not being with Sirius, I completly ignored her. She's sick and she couldn't even tell me. It's my fault. Mine. I wasn't too good of a brother." said Remus, still holding your hand and watching you as you laid on the bed, so peacefully. "Look at her. It's like the first day when she came home to me. So peacful. Quiet." he simpered. "Really miss her like that. I know it's only been three days but what I would do to hear that annoying and obnoxios voice of hers."

'Um, excuse me! I am not obnoxios or annoying!'

"You know what she would say right now. 'Excuse me! I am not obnoxious or annoying!'" said Lilly, trying to impersonate you as best as she could.

' If you must know. You forgot the 'um' '

"Yeah but you forgot the 'um'. She would say. 'um, excuse me!'" mocked Remus and chuckled with Lilly as both of them started impersonating you.

'You better wish I don't wake up. Best friends my arse...'

"She would probably kick our arses if she heard us." chuckled Lilly and touched your shoulder.

'Oh...don't you dare touch me you traitor. '

"You know I told her many times to tell you. She just never listened. " she said and let go of you.

"Stubborn. Just like our mom." replied Remus.

"You know, the day we met was the weirdest day in my life. " chuckled Lilly and pulled herself a chair to sit next to your brother. "It was on Hogwarts Express and I was just storming back to my compartment with Severus when I entered the wrong one, seeing her curled up in a corner, watching me with those terrified big (y/e/c) eyes. I asked her what was wrong and she said she is mad at her brother so she's hiding from him because he's too overprotective of her."

'I remember that day. And she..'

"...plopped down next to her, sighing I totally understand her because I was hiding from a boy also. So the whole ride there we were just sitting there. For the first hour there was only silence but the next few hours we talked and laughed and it ended up being one of the best days ever. That was until you stormed in and started chasing her."

'And then he..'

"...turned her hair bright blue so I don't lose her again. Yes, I remember that day too." he continued the story, glancing at Lilly and back at you. " Yeah, I know. I was an awful brother."

'Well, that's completly not true. You are still an awful brother.'

"But she loves me for being like that." grinned Remus and turned to Lilly.

'Yeah right!'

"Yeah right! Remus she despises you for that!" scoffed Lilly.

"No she doesn't. She just acts like she does but she secretly loves it." grinned Remus and nudged Lilly in the shoulder.

'Sometimes that's true. Most times it's not.'

"Perhaps." said Lilly and took Remus' hands, her expression completly serious. "Remus, you know you can't protect her forever. She is going to be 17 soon. She is old enough to make her own decisions, mistakes even. Let her experiance it."

'Oh Lills...'

"I know. I just can't seem to let her go, because when I do...." he paused for a moment and looked up at Lilly with a few tears in his eyes. "....because when I do this happens. When I was sick she always took care of me. She brought me creams and some herbal stuff for my scars. I really don't know what she gave me but after she took care of my scars, she brought me a whole package of chocolate and candy." he laughed and tears seemed to fall even harder. "She was 6 at the time. Six years old." he cried and let his head fall on Lilly's chest. "She took care of me when she was six years old and I can't even figure out when she is sick! I am such a horrible brother. Such a horrible horrible brother!"

'No Remus you are not! Remus you are not a horrible brother!' you tried to yell but the voice only echoed in your head. Merlin, you felt rage fill your body and tears burst on the surface . ' Damn this bloody coma! Wake up! WAKE UP!' you tried to scream, trying to overhear yourself over Remus' cries.

'It's not your fault Remus. Please... Please, stop crying.'

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"Lu! Oh my baby Lu! My darling baby Lu! My gorgeous darling baby LuLu!" teased Regulus and started laughing, holding on to his stomach and pointing his finger at you.

"You are the worst!" you tried to hold back your laugh, but were unfortunately unsuccessful. "I hate you!" you contined to laugh.

"Than why are you laughing!" he continued, holding his stomach and trying to climb on his bed.

"Come on Reg. He's my older brother. It's what they do."

"I know (y/n). It just sounds so funny and how come you never argue about it. I mean whenever anybody else calls you Lu, you freak out."

"Because Remus is the only one who can call me that. Maybe after years of him calling me that, it wouldn't be normal if he called me by my real name." you explained and sat down next to him.

"Perhaps you're right. I mean me and Sirius... I couldn't imagine my life without him. Without my older brother watching over me like an angel on my shoulder." he giggled and layed down on the bed.

"Angel?" you scoffed and layed right next to him. "More like the devil on your shoulder."

"Maybe now. He's only 14. He'll mature. I believe its just a phaze."

"Then how come you already matured?"

"Because I am an old soul in a young man's body. " he joked, earning a light punch in the shoudler from you.

"Yes, and if your brother will mature than my brother will stop acting like a total prick. Everything is possible if you only dream." you sighed and rolled over to Regulus. Placing your head on his chest, you wrapped your arm around his torso meanwhile his hand made its way to your hair and his fingers slowly ran through it.

"Hey (y/n)?" he spoke softly, his eyes set on the ceiling.

"Yes, Regulus." you giggled, nuzzling even closer.

"I love you."

As soon as you heard those words come from his mouth you shot your head up, his smile still not fading away as yours did. "You what?" you asked shockingly, eyes wide and jaw dropped.

"I love you." he smiled and took a hold of your hand. "I love you, (y/n) and .... "

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"... And I should have said that before. I have always loved you. " spoke the voice, waking you up from your dream as his lips softly touched your hand.

'Regulus?' you puzzled for a moment thinking was it his voice you were hearing or Sirius'?

"Please wake up. I can't bare another day without you. Without your smile and your annoying laugh. Without your charming eyes and snarky comments. Please, come back."

'Sirius.' you thoughts wandered as the voice became clearer.

"It's me. Sirius. And I'm only telling you this because I hope you will wake up. I want you to wake up." he persisted.

'No shit Sherlock and I sure want to be stuck on this bed.'

"I miss you. I hope you know that." he said and squeezed your hand even tighter.

'I miss you too, Sirius.'

His hand slowly let go of yours, only fingertips touching. "I love you. I hope you know that too." he said before you heard the door close behind him.

'He loves me?'

Laying in bed for 4 days straight now was uncomfortable as hell. Your legs were completly sore as your whole body was. Everything hurt, everything was so uncomfortable.

The loneliness was worse. You hated being alone in the hospital room. The only people who visited were your friends and Remus. But as your family did visit all they did was cry so you’d rather wish they didn't come. It's not like you're dead. You're just in a coma. No biggie. Right?

You heard a long crack come from the door. It cracked like this everytime somebody slowly entered the room. You noticed this by now because the nurses kept bursting in and the crack wasn't heard, but when somebody slowly opened the door the crack was heard quite clearly through the silence.

So did the steps. Gentle steps, wood cracking as it bent. And you knew who it was. Just by his steps, you knew who it was.

What did you feel? Why were you so damn excited he was here. So remusexcited you could basicly fly and jump in his arms.

"Hey there Queenie." he chuckled and pulled out a chair.

'Regulus.'

See that’s what you do when you ask for part 2 in the first place. You get this. Hope you liked this part, the next one will be shown from Lilly’s, Remus' , Sirius' and Regulus' perspective so can't wait.

#sirius black #sirius black x reader #sirius black imagine #sirius x reader #remus lupin #remus lupin imagine #james potter imagine #james potter #lilly evans #lilly evans imagine #peter pettigrew #peter pettigrew imagine #marauders imagine #marauders #marauders era #the marauders

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foonyroo · 4 years

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if i'm honest with myself, it's taken me thirty years to understand that i've had no idea what the word or concept of partnership meant.

these sorts of realisations rarely ever simply materialise. getting to this point has involved a fairly heavy amount of falling, getting back up, and falling just as hard again. for 10 years the cycle seems to have repeated in various guises, and after a decade of pattern i woke up to the fact that perhaps this was coming from me, not the people surrounding. and so i looked within, and what i found shocked me.

i learnt i have been asleep, deeply and regretfully, my eyes ears and heart closed. and the pivot that this revolved around: i always believed the opposite to be true.

knowing that you cannot change the past, at this point the only option (should you choose) is to seek the lessons in your failings. i had 10 years of teachings to study. i discovered that at my core, i was never truly honest with myself or with others.

so, what form did this dishonesty take? when life started to break down, i would accept blame for my part in matters, and i would indeed know that this was fair. 9 levels out of 10 i was honest. but at my deepest core being, i've become aware that i did not believe it. i was either misunderstood, or a victim, or in pain. i would feel suffering but never be the person to change the path that lead to the pain in the first place. things would erode and later be reconciled, but the energy did not really ever come from me. i would fail to communicate on a soul or verbal-level but then expect people to know how i felt without giving them the tools to do so, and hold resentment when the inevitable confusion came. i would not allow true healing to take place. i would expose superficial level issues, but never allow myself to go deeper and acknowledge that the root hadn't been looked at.

often i could get close. normally this would be through proximity to darkness - low moments, hurt and distance giving energy to the opportunity of positive change - and i always held real intentions to eviscerate the source of the issue. you see, i've always believed in personal growth. i've had firsthand experience escaping from the clutches of long-term depression, and the journey it sparked was one of so much magic, colour and depth that to this day it still astonishes me. i consistently feel the most centered when i'm consciously focused on the work of the soul and mind - although i was never honest enough with myself to see that this growth relied up darkness to fuel it. the work would leave the centre of my attention when things were well on the surface (and i would tell myself in the levels below that too). where was this work when things were good? how much did i honestly want to learn, to change? to spritually grow?

growth should be absolute. but if we only allow ourselves to progress in the areas we feel comfortable with, we are inwardly dishonest as to the scope of the growth needed. if you only choose to examine 90 percent of yourself, the remaining 10 will make like weeds and force themselves up to the surface in a way that is just a matter of time. the thing is, if you don't hold the light of truth up to every part of you, and if you're not honest enough to understand that this is what you're doing, you'll never be able to transcend the things you keep hidden away, and you can never be free.

my journey now is discovery. it is the acknowledging of darkness, and moving towards it rather than away. it is the feeling of discomfort, and welcoming its lessons and growth potential rather than taking the comfortable, avoidant alternative. it is the fundamental refusal to allow the patterns of the past to dictate my future but use them as signposts signalling the way forwards. it is straight-shooting, look-me-in-the-eye awareness.

it has lead to some big realisations. i've discovered how i allowed myself to be cornered by my own ego narrative, one that was fiercly protective of the person that i told myself i was. i was active, healthy, wanting to be centered, seeker of new horizons both physical and spiritual; single-minded; empathetic. if things happened that threatened this portrayal, i would apportion blame externally and never truly allow myself to see that perhaps things were coming from within. take activeness for example. if i was in a period of extended reduced physical activity, i would feel threatened by what it might mean and blame the people around me and their lifestyles. i would do this with friends, but also partners. i would not expose my insecurity to the truth and instead simply withdraw, shut down, or not take responsibility. i would blame rather than support or help. it was a dishonesty loop and it suited my ego to have it that way because it was all about me and nothing to do with my fault. i wouldn't allow myself to see or accept that i was deluding myself, and so the pattern would continue.

so, how has my understanding of partnership been rocked by these realisations? the first has been to use the discomfort and move towards it to escape my narrative and hear my partner's needs. i've learnt about blocked energy in the body and in the heart - samskaras - which is my trapped protective negative insecure energy inside that does not want to be disturbed (sometimes samskaras can be blocked positive energy too - the point is the blockage). i've learned how releasing that energy is a form of practicing the truth of 'anicca' (Pali) - impermanence - and allowing only the now to exist, thereby releasing the energy / emotions and allowing love in through total self-honesty. how can you release what you refuse to see and feel?

i've discovered how although we all seek the same end-goal of love, we do so from different directions and by speaking different soul languages. and that's not only more than okay, but an amazing opportunity to find deeper connection and understanding. i've seen how my expressing of love was often and unconciously totally different from the language of my partner, and thereby not meeting their needs of happiness, appreciation or love. things would sink south, and i'd apportion blame or withdrawal. i wouldn't do the complete work to understand why. i wouldn't look inside, not fully.

i'm learning how having your needs for connection, love and happiness met is by giving. by having your primary goal be supporting over taking. seeing the benefit you can give rather than the benefit you can derive. we all think we know and practice these ideals - it seems obvious! - but do you truly know and espouse that from the deepest part of yourself? is there that last ten percent inside of you still not reflecting these values? when i'm deeply, truly honest with myself, i know that i haven't been.

but that's okay. only now the light can start to pour in.

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cosimas-dreads · 7 years

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hi there! since everyone is sharing their stories about what orphan black means to them, i’ll do it too (english is not even my second language so excuse my mistakes)

when i started watching ob i was sort of alone - i had a bunch of friends but no one who i could trust (not because of them they’re great and i love them, but because it’s hard for me to open up and trust, etc.) - but the show brought me closer with one of those friends when we started roleplaying ob characters. that person today is my best friend and girlfriend; so, thanks to ob today i have the most supportive, loving and caring girlfriend.

this show has made me feel everything; i’ve fallen in love with its characters, i’ve hate some of them too, i’ve cried and laughed, i’ve suffered and i’ve felt immensely happy. i’ve seen this show help so many people that i could not be prouder to be a part of the clone club -- i wish i’d had a couple like cophine when i was struggling with accepting myself as bisexual, but i feel so much joy for those of you who did have them to help you go through that now or back when it started.

if you know me or follow me you’ll know my favourite character is delphine. i’ve felt identified with her for some many reasons that i do not think a character has ever touched me this much and this deep. i will never forget delphine cormier and the way she taught me how to love fiercly, how to sacrifice everything for the person you love (and for saying bisexual on a tv show! i nearly cried), how to make myself stronger when i have to and how to protect your people (this also applies to mrs s, whom i also adore).

i could go on for hours talking about everything i’ve learnt from every character but i’ll spare you, instead i’ll just talk about beth. beth my dear beth childs so much suffering for you. she caught my eye from the begging, the episodes would go and she was always there, i was always wondering beth’s story and i cannot express enough how thankful i am that they explained it on the show. it was painful for me, not just because i love the character, but because it was a story that i, somehow, could identify with. it was painful and with her story i got to explore some difficult parts about myself that i’d buried years ago. but it helped me to know that my pain was not only mine and even tho she did not make it, i could (this also applies to /that/ delphine story we all know was about her and not a friend).

i’m grateful that john and graeme gave us this brilliant show and i’m especially grateful for this amazing cast we’ve had - the main cast as well as the recurrent cast. i’m glad we discovered tatiana, whom is such a talented actress and such a good person, and got to watch her do this incredibly difficult and beautiful job as the leda clones but also i’m glad we got to discover her as a person and as this beautiful and kind human being we all know she is.

anyway, i love this show and even tho tonight it ends it will always be in ourselves wherever we go and whatever we are going through. i love all of you, clone club, the show ends but we are a family.

#clone club #orphan black #ob #farewell orphan black

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