no new years resolutions for this year...... but. i would. mayhaps. like to write again. its been a depressing few years for a number of reasons but i was always writing. and having lost it for two years feels so insanely painful, it even now hurts my soul. i keep getting afraid of moments when i feel like writing again, scared that this is once again another moment that won't stick. it's been really difficult figuring out who i am without writing. you know how you make one thing like the lynchpin of your personality??? me with writing. without it im litcherally so lost......... ive found new and fun ways to be me........ but i want to be that person who wrote 1000 words a day again.

however....... this year i will be gentler with my demands for this. maybe not 1000 words a day. maybe this year i ask myself to write once a week and see how i feel.

i used to believe that suffering was the shortest path to heaven…my own nihilistic envy, fueled by some idea that my pain was somehow valuable. it wasn’t. truly, the only thing this romantic suffering brought me was my own descent into a hole. my own downward spiral

sigh… you know, it’s lowkey depressing

seeing a fandom filled with so much toxicity being the ones validated. it’s like… rewarding bad behavior, which is why they keep doing what they do and the ones with a fandom with actual good people don’t get the nice stuff

but then again, it’s not over. right now it might seem like they’re being rewarded, but in the end, you get nothing. in the end people do get what’s coming for them for doing bad. it’s about patience and that i have infinite amounts of✨

it will all work out💖✨

kill them with kindness? wrong, eldritch blast

girls when there's a boy in their life again

SPIDER-MAN: ACROSS THE SPIDER-VERSE (2023) dir. Joaquim Dos Santos, Justin K. Thompson, & Kemp Powers ↳ Everyone keeps telling me how my story is supposed to go. ↳ INSP.

Hello may 31th anon! Look at that, another year behind us and a new one to come. Have a nice day! ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡

personally im a really big swiftie but i dont give two shits who she's dating

*balance is everything*

gojo and geto both taking turns eating you out until they end up making out with each other with your taste smeared all over their lips

RIP to all of the British people who have to deal with the BBC/national officials shutting the country down the next few weeks that’s gonna be rough.

im on the floor sobbing

good omens as a tragedy (crowley got his slutty little waist grabbed only once when he was too high off laudanum to properly notice and next off he went to superhell)

she's looking especially sacrificial lamb today 🥩

@nosebleedclub prompt: blossoming hope :-)

yeah sorry i can't make it to the thing tonight, it's just that, um, airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

i'm sorry i can't make it to dinner tonight, i could really use a wish right now (wish right now)

- jacob + karina